#where do I sign this

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[lazylittledragon]

do any other artists feel like. yeah you're a 'good artist' because you draw things that look nice, but like. TECHNICALLY? you're really not great

i really hate that i can recognise that yes, my art is good, but is it VARIED? is it dynamic?? is my anatomy good? is it full of texture and colour theory? do i know how to do This? can i do That? no, not really. and that's quite painful actually

#ramble #yes this is the artist's perspective bs and yes this is anxiety because it's 1am #and yes i'm forever learning and growing but also #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. #drawing my little guys is fun but i am not good enough for the industry right now and that fucking sucks #i really feel like if i walked into a studio with my portfolio right now they would laugh at me #one of those days where i wish i'd done a more useful degree y'know #i'm going back through the phase where i don't know what i'm going to be anymore and it's scary #some days i really want to give it up and never draw again and do something worthwhile because i Know my life would be easier #and i hate that something i love so much makes me feel so hopeless #signs that i should go to bed ^^^^ #i will resume my pity party tomorrow

[the-mistress-of-time]

Want me to know what, Harvey? How cute you look in your workout clothes?

I needed to see how he'd dress at dance aerobic class

#where do i sign up for this class #dad vibes #harvey stardew valley #sdv harvey #harvey stardew fanart #sdv fanart #sdv #harvey sdv #stardew harvey #stardew valley #doctor harvey #workout clothes

[zeramara]

Hello Vashwood enjoyers, today I offer you some fanart of some scenes from @avoidingavoidance 's incredible fic Come and See that have been living in my brain rent free. Tomorrow, who knows?

Seriously though, this fic is so so good, go read it rn!!

#trigun #trigun stampede #tristamp #vash the stampede #nicholas d. wolfwood #vashwood #my art #guys I can't stress enough how obsessed I am with this fic #there will probably be more where this came from #also I do not use ASL so if the signs for 'no promises' are incorrect please forgive me #tw blood #fic rec #come and see

[cuineart]

Babies♥

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"Can you even see me?"

"Fly free, Takami Keigo"

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keigo one is available as a print btw♥ https://www.inprnt.com/gallery/cuine/

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Drawn after their respective episodes ;o;

there is a timelapse for each one!

Touya: https://twitter.com/Cuineart/status/1602004258437877761

Keigo: https://twitter.com/Cuineart/status/1618319602907484161

#where do I sign custody? #they deserved better #takami keigo #hawks #todoroki touya #Dabi #bnha #mha #my hero acadamy #boku no hero academia

[andy-clutterbuck]

Savage Rick | requested by Anonymous

#Rick Grimes #* #rg #The Ones Who Live #cool me next #where do i sign up #who can help Pat solve the puzzle? #D _ D D Y #can i buy a a vowel? An A? #no pun intended but lol #get 'em #daddy's here and he's had enough™ #i'm so happy that the snarls remain #that they're such a part™ of rick in andy's head that they're still there #i say that like it's something that's really deep #and not me just being a trash goblin #rick still kickin' thangs

[shayewrites]

currently going feral over this levi fanart. listen. i need this. i need WWII levi coming back home from the war or soldier y/n meeting captain levi during the war. listen, i don’t care how or what i have to do to get more of this, but this sent me STRAIGHT BACK to my bucky barnes era on sight. like please tell me i’m not the only one losing my mind here. JUST LOOK.

(i couldn’t find the artist because it might be ai).

#shaye loses her goddamn mind over a fanart #levi is a man in uniform and i’m SALIVATING over it #SIGN ME UP FOR THE WAR #WHERE DO I ENLIST FOR THIS SHIT #oh my god imagine fighter pilot levi #i’m dead #please send help i’m in love all over again #attack on titan #levi attack on titan #levi ackerman #THE FACT THAT THIS GIRL LOOKS LIKE ME TOO

[molinaesque]

"You went against your word and defied our contract! In doing so, you brought the chaos of your world into mine! I will not abide it!" - Raphael (Baldur's Gate, 2023)

#raphael #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #raphael bg3 #raphael baldur's gate 3 #games #bg3gifs #okay one of the things i love is how if you do the team raphael route and sign the contract and choose to break it #all of this sounds SO much more personal #like kudos to Andrew Wincott... Raphael just sounds so angry and dissapointed #like he's not being smug or smarmy for the most part #which is pretty damn rare already #when he pops in and says “You?!” it's with such utter disbelief #like he genuinely didn't think you'd ever even consider doing such a thing when he has been actualy pretty truthful #he just operates LIKE THAT because as Korilla mentions “he's the devil! It's his nature!” #i LOVE that #like that third line? when he says “littlle mouse” it just sounds SO dissapointed #i just love how layered and they wrote the characters #anyway don't worry booboo i'll do a save file where tav doesn't break your black heart

[chickenoptyrx]

....I just wanted to draw gators :T at this point these 2 are more 'a representation of my last 2 brain cells' then they are actual characters 😅

#im living vicariously through the cartoon guys #because i want to A. pick up gator (strong man style) #and B. ..pick up gator (hug) #ok but so i recently found out an area where i take stupid little walks for my stupid little mental health #has! GATORS!! (potentially. theres signs.) #and this is great cause seeing gators would def heal me as a person #but ok so when i look for hiking places i always look north cause the terrains more hilly #but now im lookin south more cause turns out i AM in fact far enough south to see gators!! #and yeah looks like theres a handful of nature reserves w hiking trails the same distance away as the little mountain trails i go to #its flatter and the trails are less extensive so ill hafta see if i think its worth it #but then too theres a really big black water swamp that.. further away then i wanna drive.. #but also i drove 5 hrs once just to go to mammoth cave as a day trip so.. we'll see.. #my friend says he wont go w me tho :T he'll just report me missing #this has been a tag ramble about my sudden outset intrest in seeing a gator #my bullshit #lol barely but still #also- i told myself not to over do it drawin the scales or coloring it #and as you can see i dont listen to myself ever #lol they look outta place but idc i got to draw 2 of my favorite characters and also ALLIGATORS :U #living the dream rn

[suchawrathfullamb]

I know the headcanon of Beverly and Will being besties is cute but lol it is insane. That man has no capacity for friendship in the way y'all be writing (which again is fine you do you but it always makes me laugh). I honestly commend you for making Will so human like oh he likes country songs because he grew up in Louisiana, oh he would so (insert cute little human behavior), because to me that man is the devil, he is a fallen angel, an alien, he has no past, he came to be, and he does not have tastes besides idk the particular taste of blood or something

#yall were PLAYED hard by him but also I do believe this is a little hallucination on your part cause he also gave zero signs #it's not like he was actually trying to seem human lol he was so awkward #besides suffering he shows no real aspects of this “just a guy” vibe some of you think he is #I wonder where you got that from #will graham #hugh dancy #nbc hannibal #hannigram #hannibal #murder husbands #hannibal lecter

[b1mbodoll]

Step dad! Jake using your cunt as a pisshole

pairings: jake sim x f! reader

warnings: stepcest + omorashi + degradation + infidelity + creampies

💌: im shaking right now pls 🤲

stepdad! jake who treats u like his personal cum ‘nd pissdump 😣 he fucks you full of cum for hours n when he has to piss he just continues to pound ur cunt 😵‍💫 doesnt stop til he pees inside of you n the continuous stream is so strong it forces cum out of ur hole n he fucking loves it.

“you’re fuckin’ nasty” he spits, thrusting into you harshly, fucking the mixture of cum and piss out of you. “what would your mother think, hm?” he questions. “bet she’d think you’re a disgusting little bitch, don’t you?”

his words make you whimper, hiding your face in shame because although there’s a chance your mother could find you fucking your stepdad, he knows all the right ways to make you feel good n dumb you down 🥺

#where do i get a stepdad jake 🤲🤲🤲🤲 #♡.signed. sealed. delivered. #♡.the honeypot #enhypen #jake sim #sim jaeyun #enhypen x reader #enhypen smut #jake sim x reader #jake sim smut #sim jaeyun x reader #sim jaeyun smut #💌.omorashi #💌.stepcest #💌.creampies #💌.degradation

[widebruh]

#where do i sign up #bottomposting #hornypost #hornyposting #196 #apartmentofawesome #r/196 #rule #:3

[strigital]

just... him... 🥺

#received his letter and lemme just say ayo what #mans basically acknowledged his feelings and im just #also yall notice how he comments on always expecting the worst so that he either turns out right or is pleasantly surprised? #our mans garrus said the same shit to femshep!!! #now i am convinced 1000% that he is in fact an easter egg #which is ironic cause he once was an egg #so anyways #i crave this man carnally and literally NEED to read fanfics where he lets the vestige touch him for the first time as a sign of utter trust #and then it escalates if ya kno what i mean wink wink #alas ao3 is BARREN when it comes to sharp content #woe be upon us sharp stans!! #anyways... off i got to do some dailies to make my lizard babey happy and mayhaps finally receive him as a guest #mans deserves to retire in a nice lil home on a picturesque shore #*sighs dreamily* #elder scrolls online #eso #zenimax #bethesda #sharp as night #argonian #def not garrus vakarian in a disguise #my art #sketch #traditional sketch #ballpoint sketch #oc #bosmer #ilandris the magpie #i am completely normal about the fact #that he used his OWN feather for the lure he gives us (which is basically a proposal as far as I'm concerned!)

[a-witch-in-endor]

New MO chapter is on its way in the next 24 hours or so (I just need to double-check that it makes sense). I've had to split the Ba Sing Se narrative into 3 chapters instead of 2. Why am I unable to predict how much I will write???

#signs you're a bad writer #btw #this chapter is 13.8k words #and didn't get CLOSE to where I thought the chapter would end #while mighty oaks do fall #fire sage zuko #joo dee #mesopotamian (theoretical) temple strucutres are so much fun

[deathbyfiction]

It's them <3

#the sandman #the sandman netflix #yeah i went and rewatched #i want s2 now #wanna focus more of their family and siblings #its everything to me actually #when literal death is actual sunshine #love her #im so gay for her #if shes the last thing i see before like where do i sign up

[rebornrosess]

HOZIER JUST GIVING LESBIANS FLOWERS?/?:?;!

#I’M ELIGIBLE WHERE DO I SIGN UP FOR THIS #i love him so much #hozier