#30 drafts

[chococolte]

How are you doing, Sophie?

u said my name, i cant believe u perceive me?? wtf

anyway xnudinivb thank u for asking!! im fine, i had to go a gynecologist yesterday but thankfully i just talked to her so i was having horrible anxiety for no reason xnudnf and today i had bloodwork done!!

i have to go get a sonogram at 5 today that im not looking forward too, but i know it's necessary 😭 i hope to get it done with quickly

unrelated to health: i've been pulling for layla, and the only thing i've gotten is a constellation of heizou and 2 thomas??? atp im scared i'm gonna get a 5* before her lol but hopefully tomorrow is my time, last 4* i got was off banner which means im guaranteed one; either heizou, thoma, or HER. if i don't get her im gonna scream

HONESTLY NOT HAVING LAYLA YET IS MORE MENTALLY DISTRESSING THAN MY DOCTOR APPOINTMENTS I JUST WANT EVERY 4* PLEASE GAME PLEASE DONT GIVE ME ANOTHER SACRIFICAL FRAGMENTS 😭😭

#[🦇] — sophie's musings #sorry i take forever to write anything btw #im working on like #30 drafts #so its taking me a bit lol #and im a bit of a perfectionist which i really need to iron out of my system #it is NOT helping

[mosaickiwi]

(sorry for any mistakes, English is not my native language) Hello, I hope you are doing well! Can I ask you for a drabble about the wedding day of an emotional MC who burst into tears because she thought that this day would never come and REDACTED, but without the “lavish ceremony” (lots of guests, wedding suits, huge celebration, etc.) (please forgive me, I hope I was able to express myself clearly, thank you very much and have a nice day!) ฅ'ω'ฅ

!!!

By law I must post wedding fic on Valentine's Day!!!

14 Days With You is an 18+ Yandere Visual Novel. MINORS DNI

~Wedding Day~

You nervously toyed with the ring in your palm, heart racing so hard it hurt. It was still difficult to believe what was happening. This was happening.

It was the same golden ring your partner had worn since you first met him. There wasn't a moment you ever saw them without it as he changed from a shy, stuttering mess in a cardigan to the clingy, dark-haired brat of a man you fell in love with more and more each day. Although the amount of rings they wore had grown.

That fateful day on the playground was something you couldn't even remember, and from what your companion told, you didn't want to. The second try was a far better memory for the both of you anyway. You were the one who proposed that time, catching them by complete surprise with the confidence you never usually had to ask anything of him. But you managed to do it.

And now you were the one who would put a ring on their finger.

“We haven't even started the vows,” [REDACTED] quietly said, pulling you from your thoughts. “Y'can’t be cryin’ just yet, Angel.”

“Am I crying?” The words came out hoarse from your already tightening throat. You hadn't realized. Sure enough, hot tears were streaming down your face as he gently wiped at them with his thumb. 

You tried to calm down, gazing up at him to distract yourself. Their voice had the same familiarly teasing tone it always did, but you could tell from the soft quiver to his lower lip that he was holding back his own tears.

“Yeah, it’s—” He let out a sound somewhere between a laugh and a sob, then hurriedly pushed his dark hair out of his reddening eyes. You wanted to tease him back about it, but you knew if you tried to speak again the tears would come flooding even worse. Another few moments passed as you both tried to collect yourselves.

Surprisingly, it took him a little longer. The tears on your cheeks had long fell and dried while he stood in front of you, eyes shrouded behind their bangs.

But after one more unsteady breath, he seemed to find his way again and look at you. “Are you ready?” they asked, a shakiness to their hands as he reached for the dangling chain around your neck—the necklace he’d given to you months ago once he’d found the courage to say yes to your proposal.

With your anxious nod of approval, he continued. Cool fingertips brushed at your collarbone, finding the silver clasp at the back of your neck and releasing it with a faint clicking of metal. The necklace fell loosely in his hands as he pulled it away. The golden ring easily slid from the chain and he rolled it in his fingers for a long moment, staring at it silently.

They were noticeably calmer this time, with a trembling smile that reached their eyes as he took your left hand and repeated himself. 

“Ready?”

#14 days with you #14dwy redacted #momo reqs #mushy mushy mushy #for da softies #no description of ur surroundings so u can get married wherever u want!!! #at the beach? sitting at home in bed? in a court house? a mystery #proofreading is hard i'm so picky #30 extra minutes from the time i pasted it in the draft silly me

[sanchomps]

#doom #doom 2016 #doomguy #doom slayer #fanart #art folder #this has been in my drafts for so long (mar 30 2022) this is still in the old post editor #n i posted this on twit ages ago first so. tossing this out in the wilderness now

[oddishblossom]

I can’t hear a thing. The beating of my heart’s just too loud.

CHERRY MAGIC! (2024) - S1 EP8

#cherrymagicedit #cherry magic #fyanimegifs #dailyshounenai #animangaboys #userartless #animangahive #userinahochi #anisource #cherry magic! thirty years of virginity can make you a wizard?! #30 sai made doutei dato mahoutsukai ni nareru rashii #adachi kiyoshi #kurosawa yuichi #edits #gifs #my gifs! #you’ll never know how long this has been in my drafts (since wednesday) #i’ll just say that recoloring this was a journey #a lot of ‘i give up! idk how to make gifs! (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻’ #and a lot of flustered victorian maiden moments™ where i had to look away from the screen because #i don’t think you realize how long i have to stare at the same two seconds of footage to make a gif #my little heart can only take so much

[totallyawesomeomens]

That moment when you're playing Ace Attorney and you just made a really good point, but then you hear Edgeworth laughing from across the court room and you're not sure if he's about to absolutely destroy your argument or he's having a mental breakdown

#ace attorney #Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney #ace attorney trilogy #miles edgeworth #phoenix wright #I made this post months ago about a specific moment in the first game #but that was so long ago that I absolutely can't remember what it was #I knew the 30 drafts I made and then never posted would catch up to me someday

[lightbulb-warning]

Saiouma not-week not-day five: Phantom Thief

Nothing says platonic rivalry like having a

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conspiracy board with your nemesis so you can track their every move!

#enemies to HATERS #maiora draws #kokichi ouma #shuichi saihara #saiouma #drv3 #saioumaweek2023 #danganronpa fanart #drv3 fanart #drv3 killing harmony #danganronpa art #dr #saiou #dr kokichi #dr shuichi #au #kyoko kirigiri #I restarted this three separate times because I kept adding elements to what was supposed to be a 30 minute shitpost #hence the ‘skill issue’ #it’s the only thing from the first draft that survived lmao #tumblr quality probably nuked them but there are solvable cyphers in the background! #solve my cyphers three I shall make a doodle for thee #there’s a ceaser cypher a rail fence code and a spiral code #spiral grid* #shuichi drew it out already #*grabs your hands in mine* join my ‘cyphers are fun’ agenda #they beat each other up in a dennys parking lot after this #or do they? find out in five years when I make a stupid long fancomic I have no time to write but have started outlining anyway! #my art

[jinbugs]

future raph n donnie

#rottmnt #rise of the tmnt #donnie #raph #(drawn around the age they died. so like.. 22 and 30 respectively) #there's a really painful kind of guilt from growing older than your big brothers #and i wish someone got to explore that side with mikey and leo #not me though i'm not gonna write it. i'm gonna wait til someone writes it exactly the way i want to see it on ao3 #i'm not gonna write it. i'm not i'm not 😀 #edit: since i made this draft i have a 12 page comic in the making. my hubris

[lakesbian]

gripping the fucking sink. superpowers in worm as visceral hyper-literal depictions of trauma & traumatized behavior patterns + taylor’s power as the ability to micromanage, to hyper-vigilantly monitor & control all aspects of a situation better than everyone else, to justify her atlas complex by demonstrating that she really is the only one who can carry the weight + khepri as the natural conclusion of that, as a very literal depiction of her losing herself to carry the world on her back, as devastating apotheosis to a shattered godhood fueled by her terrifyingly selfless & ruthless core + the epilogue as “okay, so you’ve fully given into yourself, you’ve flung yourself head-first into the awful, inevitable, glorious conclusion of all the ways you are hurt, and you realized it wasn’t really worth it, and you have lost yourself and died and been reborn--so What Do You Do Now?”

#worm #taylor hebert #parahumans #this one is from the drafts from right before i actually read speck #i had to make sure i wasn't just saying shit by finishing speck before i was allowed to publish it lmao #scarf don't look #died (metaphor) #reborn (metaphor) #i could phrase this better and more completely later but i have like 30 minutes before i'm gone forever (a week) so

[happyheidi]

(via)

#I’ve had this in my draft since last year so here u go little darling: #into the voirld u go #to be admired and … oh idk haha I just think it’s time for this old gal to take a leap and ‘go for it’ #dirty thirties pathetic after dark style #shout out to the fellow grandparents of tumblr - those over 30 - we deserve love and stupid tags like this too #(lol this must sound so weird for…. pretty much everyone. grandma out) #cottagecore #nature #naturecore #flowers #flowercore #water #watercore #wildflowers #rainbow #what’s at the end of the rainbow tho? #only wrong-but should be right-answers

[sailorblossoms]

Baz's raised eyebrow:

(yet another "Simon identifies as 'Baz-sexual' for very good reasons' post)

few things have annoyed me more with these books than when people do not take Simon's "I don't know anything about anything but maybe I'm just a Baz-sexual" comments seriously (dismissing it with a combination of not paying attention to what he's putting down and good old confirmation bias). He even says it in less "goofy" ways with lines such as "he's the only person I have ever wanted" (in the context of thinking about having sex) (note the emphasis on ever) (yes, it's one of the clues saying he didn't want to have it with Agatha, in case it's not clear)

"Like Baz has only ever wanted Simon, Simon has only ever wanted Baz," is necessary to bring up before I get to my point here. I have seen Simon being read as in love or attracted to Agatha ("he must have been or else how they had sex?"... I mean, Simon tells you why it happened without attraction, but even if he didn't, we could make an alphabetized list of reasons it can happen without it, the desire to fit in is no joke) or the idea of Simon liking all sorts of girls, including the girl he pointedly doesn't notice despite her being obvious to others, for the sake of drama and conflict. I have wondered if they don't believe the characters, or if they find the highlighted sentence here boring. "It's boring if the characters only want each other," "in real life people want multiple people" – indeed, but not everyone is wired the same (and why are we stuck on "real life" so much anyway in stories about half-dragon and vampire boys falling in love). But it's not like this sentence is without conflict. Note Baz's eyebrow...

In CO, when Simon says Trixie is cute, Baz's reaction is a boyish "I'm going to puke" comment, which is likely part of how he dealt with jealousy and thinking Simon was straight for years: masking his feelings with "harsh" or sort of "edgy" jokes (probably not the right words to use, but getting too hung up on precise wording is the reason I never finish these posts). In awtwb, Simon calls Pippa cute, and Baz raises an eyebrow...

By those reactions, we could say the idea of Simon calling someone cute because he finds them attractive crosses Baz's mind – or is something he feels in some way, even if the thought doesn't explicitly cross his mind. It's something the reader might assume as well... however, I don't think the way Simon uses cute – which can be used in many different situations – says anything about attraction for him. I mean, a gay man can see a girl being cute or gorgeous as well – Baz certainly does! (attraction is portrayed in these books as thoughts derailed, repetition, sentences being cut off, fixating in a detail no one else notices like they do – you see it with Baz and Simon, Agatha and Niamh, Shepard and Penny. Shep doesn't just call Penny cute – he loses his entire goddamn mind for a whole page about her cuteness and her knees. It's not just a passing comment).

I don't think those scenes when Simon says "cute" is highlighting something about him, other than the fact that he's able to note cuteness. I think it's saying more about Baz's insecurities (I know I once posted something long about it somewhere...) Baz brings attention to it in a way with his reactions... because he's bothered by it. It's something that's sort of hidden and sort of contained, but it's there.

Baz doesn't find himself desirable, partly because of his vampiric nature. But part of it is also about the complicated and messy fear that perhaps... Simon has a problem with being with a man (I know I have unpacked this in other posts, finding them though...). Perhaps "a girl would be better" (It's messier with boys than with girls, it's a thought that comes out before he catches himself with "I don't actually know anything about being with boys or girls".... "I don't know anything about being in a relationship," he says, while still being able to catch there was something wrong with Agatha and Simon's relationship when Simon talks about – because Simon will process things he would rather avoid when it's about opening up to Baz, he wants Baz to know things that would help Baz understand him better, even if he himself would rather not understand... still Baz can't let go of the programming of all those years believing in the golden couple – he has spent a longer time believing that than dating Simon, after all) (Agatha is alive and beautiful, the sort of beauty that's used to "embody" "desirability".... and Baz is "not alive"...) (as a side note, have you noticed the idea – or the actual action – of sex with Agatha is used both with Simon and Baz to indicate a lack of desire toward women?)...

While Simon thinks of Baz as the only person he has ever wanted – Baz is as desirable as it gets for him – Baz struggles with feeling desirable at all. Baz doubts and wonders and has to catch himself – even if he doesn't notice he's doing that. Even if he doesn't conciously think "a beautiful girl who is alive is more preferable than me, a gay male vampire." That is a far more interesting conflict than Baz having legit reasons to be jealous, I think. The fact that he has truly nothing to feel jealous about, and yet... he just can’t help it. It's hard to go against years of programming, of going against the idea that everything about yourself is undesirable and it's better to hide it – another way he matches with Simon. They also match in their insecurities, with small differences: Baz is so amazing and attractive while Simon doesn't feel like he's good enough for him, he can do better than him, etc... while Baz clearly only has eyes for Simon, Simon feels like Baz is merely stuck with him. And the conflict here is that you think "they need to TALK and voice their thoughts for the love of god, what do you mean Baz doesn't know Simon sees him as the love of all his lives??"... talking is not enough. That Simon and Baz only have eyes for each other is not without conflict. Sometimes we need to keep hearing some things, and even then... the fears and insecurities don't go away. Especially when we have spent a really long time believing ourselves to be unwanted, undesirable, something to be hidden. When we have been exposed to things that confirmed those beliefs for longer than we have been exposed to things that challenge them

#this is an old post (that was in my drafts) #i have been feeling like letting this blog go but I'm hauted by the 30+ posts in my drafts i never finished #snowbaz #long and barely comprehensible as always #i might have lost the point along the way #simon snow #baz pitch #simon snow trilogy #carry on #baz grimm pitch #baz x simon #awtwb #wayward son

[music-traveler]

CAN WE TALK ABOUT THE FACT THAT OVER 160 PLAYERS HAVE DECLARED FOR THE PWHL DRAFT?!?!

#pwhl #pwhl draft #hockey #woho #womens hockey #pwhl lb #that's so many #130+ collegiate and 30+ international #so is the league gonna expand or .... #?????

[spacedlexi]

girlies post incoming!!! 💜🍊

the way these two had no idea what they were doing (clem raising aj. violet leading the school) yet now they support each other and as a team are trying to help each other figure it out together. theyre making it up as they go but they at least know they have each other to rely on for whatever happens next

clem never had all the answers but she was trying her best to not let that show. violet becomes someone clem knows she can rely on no matter what (standing up for her and aj and their place at the school, "when i heard you call for help i didnt even think"), and clem becomes someone violet can rely on in turn (using her experience to help violet lead and protect the school and helping her take care of all these kids). theyre each others ROCKS!!!!!!! THEYRE A TEAM!!!!!!!!!!

honestly one of the reasons letting vi get taken hurts so much is that no matter what she WAS the leader of ericson!! vi (the wallflower that she was) steps up as soon as aj is in trouble to protect him And clem, then continues to fall into that leadership position because its not like anyone else is trying to keep everyone together. and even though she has no idea what shes doing or going to do about the army coming to take them all away, shes still trying her best, and clem helps her figure it out as they begin to lead together as a TEAM!! neither of them would be where they are without the influence of the other (vi stepping up as leader, clem being allowed back in). and you can just..... let her be taken in spite of all that.......... no wonder she was so heartbroken in that cell how could she not be

but if you save her it just solidifies their building relationship. that theyll always have the others back no matter what. and vi solidifies this even further by shooting minnie to save clem. all the little reassuring smiles they give each other.. making sure the other is holding up ok in moments of stress... im gonna go cry now

#THEY ARE EVERYTHING!!!! #vi shooting minnie to save clem just feels like such a great payoff to the culmination of their relationship LIKE MY GOD #and then after that theyre Especially mushy and gross with each other :) much more openly and confidently :) THATS GROWTH #twdg #violentine #it speaks #usually these posts stay in my drafts but i want to yell about my girls these lines make me feel things theyre such a team 😭 #if i dont write my silly little essays about my silly medias i'll explode #2:30 on a wednesday. post it #played ep 3 last night and had lots of feelings about them #they gave clem a real partner bro 😭 i'll never stop being grateful for how wrong i was about clem romance they fuckin nailed it

[grimesgirll]

they shake their heads sayin’, “god, help her” when I tell ’em he’s my man

i can fix him (no really i can) - taylor swift

#the walking dead #taylor swift #the tortured poets department #daryl dixon #moodboard #twd moodboard #daryl dixon moodboard #the walking dead moodboard #twd #twd imagine #daryl dixon imagine #daryl dixon x reader #norman reedus #twd daryl dixon #twd daryl #ttpd #western #girlblogging #girlblogger #song inspired #not me making moodboards with 30 drafts 15 unopened asks and having greenlit 3/5 of the fic ideas I polled y’all about #I’m v excited for the end result though #late night tumblr #grimesgirll boards #grimesgirll

[doodleodds]

Me? Uploading a Halloween comic on November 18th, almost four whole-ass weeks late???? Yeah that’s uh. yup. yeah

Thanks for reading! :) <3

#persona 5 #p5 #akira kurusu #OUGH OH MY GOD ITS FINALLY. DONE. I AM LOSING MY MIND #if you've been following me for long enough: yes! this IS in fact the comic i mentioned that i was making last year. #Fun fact! This is also! The Third Draft of said comic!!! i have redrawn this thing THREE FUCKING TIMES #as a result you may notice that i uh. a) gave up on coloring this thing. no way in HELL am i coloring 30 pages. im not...strong enough #you will settle for simply having monochrome colored panels and you will LIKE IT!!!!! >:OOOOO #and b) gave up on backgrounds! yeah fuck that lmao. i am never drawing people in the monabus again and mementos can kiss my ass!!!!! #i just want to draw my silly little characters & not their environments #and you may also say: sophia. by halloween they are already in Sae's palace. why isn't goro with them and where's haru? #and to that i say shhhh suspend your disbelief. akechi is in mementos carving pumpkins to avoid trick or treaters. #and also haru isn't there because i cannot draw 6+ people in a cramped space yet!!! my art skills are Just Not There Quite Yet :( #so she's staying home and handing out fullsized candy bars to kids. that's where she is while this is all going down #'does akira know it's akechi down there?' :) that's up to you! but i WILL say that I was thinking about Akeshu when i wrote this so. :)))) #ANYWAY if you read this far in the tags im so sorry lmao. thanks for sticking around! Hope you had a happy halloween :) #hopefully i won't disappear for long this time. idk im just gonna start uploading other bullshit art in the interim between comics i guess #probably some fire emblem shit. we'll see. we'll see. anyway bye!! till next time!

[samarecharm]

tiny.

#persona 5 #oh my god. I will tag them all later. #i really regret not making the file bigger. but in my defense #i did not think i was going to color them AT ALL #so i gotta deal #so glad i finally got this done. i wanted some cheebs to use as a point of reference for my relationship chart #(romantic but MOSTLY platonic) #and at some point i was like. hey #i actually DONT have a color palette reference for most of them #so. here they are. lol. #really love how haru and ryuji came out heehee #its like. 8:30 for me as of typing this (and drafting it) #so im not doing the chart today. but i am just glad i got the hard part done <3 #akira #ryuji #ann #shiho #mishima #yusuke #futaba #makoto #haru #goro #i WOULD do the full name to get them in popular tags #but then id have to decide WHO was going in the first 5 tags. and thats too much work #and i dont rlly care to add character tags to something like this. its almost misleading LOL

[pencap]

GREEN

i am green green green down to my breath and blood and bones.

green with envy for all the beautiful things in the world that i cannot hold in my hands or press against my lips or swallow down whole.

green with sick all festering hurts i don't know how to heal and spreading poison i don't know the antidote for and hand-me-down aches i don't know the names of.

green with greed, the yawning void deep in my belly that wants and wants and wants and wants and wants from the day i was born screaming with want.

green with permission: yes please, come here, do as you please. i never did learn how to say no and mean it.

green like plants, like spring growth and summer leaves like basil and mint on kitchen counter tops like haworthia and pothos and monstera.

i am green green green down to my breath and blood and bones—

but maybe someday i will learn to hold the whole rainbow in my body.

- by sylvie (j.p.)

#spilled ink #poets on tumblr #original poem #poems on tumblr #poetry #writeblr #poetics #green #i am having complicated emotions about selfhood #and contradictory emotions and the parts of you that you chose to identify with #can you tell??? #this felt like an outpouring to write #from idea to first draft was less than 30 minutes #honestly probably less than 15 #it's rough around the edges but i think it's meant to be that way #just a little bit