#Day 1: Tea or A Loving Feeling by Mitski

[xielianslver]

Katecinda week 2024 Day 1

@katecinda-week

Lucinda liked tea. She liked to sit down at her table. By the warm fire, the only light in the room. Well usually it was the only light, tonight there was another light. Although a cool blue, she made Luinda warm. 

They held hands under the table, met up in her room. Kissing like their lips are candy. Tea so sweet it’s bitter. 

Luinda likes tea. She likes the bittersweet taste, the warmth of the fire, and the blue hair that sits beside her. The feeling of her hands in Lucinda’s hair, her chest moving up and down as she breathes under the other woman. Blue and orange, at the table by the fire, drinking tea as the night deepens. Sneaking up into her room and kisses that taste like old tea.

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[katecinda-week]

Katecinda week has started!

Today’s prompts are ->

Tea or A Loving Feeling by Mitski

And reminder that you can create multiple pieces for today and you can combine the prompts!

#Aphblr #Aphmau Katelyn #Aphverse #Aphmau #Aphmau Lucinda #Katecinda #Mystreet #Minecraft Diaries #Katecinda Week 2024 #Day 1: Tea or A Loving Feeling by Mitski

[covesdadappreciation]

Tamarack HCs

Girlfie HCs? Yes please.

Step 2 Tamarack is so angsty, and she listens to Mitski to cope.

You cannot tell me she doesn't listen to Me and My Husband when walking through the forest or to school

also mommy and daddy issues girl? Please

she probably didn't understand the weight of how much pain she'd be in because of her parents rarely being there for some of the most important years for her (meeting her best friends and neighbors (and crush)! Being in a new school! Adventuring! Being a kid)

On father's day, both you and Tamarack are extra supportive to each other, especially if you feel very impacted by the lack of father figure

There's something so nice about how no matter what stage of life Tamarack is in, Tamarack will always be your #1 supporter and protector. That's something no person can ever change between you two.

I feel like Step 3 Tamarack's love language is quality time.

No phones please! Just have your attention on each other.

And little walk dates in the woods! Picnics, board games, making huts with sticks and logs, doing bon fires, picking up trash together, trying to identify the mushrooms and flowers, and maybe some light reading would work.

She probably loves candles. Give her some silly ones with weird names or random smells

Tamarack would collect all notes you give her. They're all very special.

She probably has a destined drawer just for you.

Step 3 Tamarack listens to Lana Del Rey.

She loves holding hands by the pinky

PDA probably isn't her favorite thing in the world, so when she's with you and the gang, she'll give you a certain look and offer her hand out subtly, or give you a quick little kiss on the cheek when the group isn't looking

Qiu and Renee are pretty oblivious, but Baxter would notice in a second and give you both a sly smirk.

Spoon her in cuddle sessions

You probably remember her hot tea order by heart <3

When she's sick, you get her a hot cup of tea to help...

Comfort movie? Repunzel

I think an indoor date would have to include arts and crafts or puzzles..

#tamarack baumann #our life #our life now and forever #mc #our life oc #oc #headcannons #x male reader #male reader #m reader #ftm reader #x ftm reader #olnf #olnf mc #olnf tamarack #tamarack

[suchagallabitch]

🫵weekly wednesday tag 🫵

omg I (simple old me?) have been bestowed upon the honour of coming up with these questions??? i would like to thank the academy for this most sacred honour 😋

1. if you could switch bodies with anybody for only one hour who would it be and what would you do? I think I gotta say taylor swift OBVI. first off im gonna dropping ME! acoustic version. Then I’m gonna hope lover deluxe is already recorded, drop that. If not i will make sure to text Jack and tell him that we need to record it so that i get it either way 😼. Then I would find out the definite truth of what happened between her and Karlie Kloss. I’d wire myself (as in me- me) a few million dollars, pet the cats and then post something really random on her instagram story. Literally want to make the public go absolutely bananas trying to figure out why taylor posted a random twitter meme. I have a lot of faith to believe this could all happen in an hour but I would try. SO hard.

2. whats your most trivial / dumbest hot take?I don’t think we should still be discovering animals. like what do you mean in the year of our lord 2023 we are STILL finding animals?? no they should all be discovered and if they havent been then i think they should stay undiscovered.

3. if you had to teach a college course what would it be in? I feel like we’re all expecting me to say something Taylor related but honestly I could teach a masterclass on the psychology of Ryan Murphy. I hate that man and i have so much to say about him and his productions

4. season 12 of shameless is suddenly happen and youve been put in charge! what plot point(s) are you gonna make happen? I cant think of anything substantial to actually contribute but i want Carl Gallagher to have a fruity little vape. I also want to see him quit the force and flourish in a new job!

5. who would be your godly parent? (can be any mythology). I’m gonna go with greeks as a Percy Jackson stan. I asked my bsf who is an expert in greek mythology. She said: “you’re a Aphrodite child cuz you’re a hopeless romantic and you appreciate beauty. You’re very particular in how you’re viewed and how everything you produce is viewed (what you write, how your feed looks like, etc.)” - I’m gonna have to agree with her on Aphrodite

6. what’s something you love about yourself? I think i’m so very very funny

7. describe your day in 5 emojis: 😴👁️👩‍💻✈️☕️

8. what shameless character do you think you could beat in a fight? Realistically i think the ONLY person i could beat in a fight is Liam and honest to god im not even sure i could.

9. tell us 2 truths and a lie, we’ll try to guess the lie!

- I’m double jointed

- I sleep on the left side of the bed

- I’ve never had pumpkin pie

10. do you have a pet(s). if so how did they get their name? I do! my son (cat) is named Chidi after the good place!

11. show us a meme (or picture) that captures your essence

self explanatory.

12. whats your typical coffee / tea / beverage order? see i gotta have a special lil drinky drink everyday and i mean my little drinky drinks are free so i am likw 80% gingerbread chai at any given time. Alternatively, an iced chestnut praline latte w/ praline cold foam.

13. use a song to describe the last 5 years of your life?

2019- its nice to have a friend- taylor swift

2020- ribs - lorde

2021- nothing new - taylor swift

2022- first love / late spring- mitski OR orlando- leith ross

2023- true blue - boygenuis OR now that we don’t talk - taylor swift.

Thank you friends thats all i got :)

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#im on a plane rn #zoom zoom in the sky #elle does tags

[ikeasupremacy]

Hiii I love your blog! What music do you think Lockwood and Co listens to at Portland Row?

oh my days hello! thank you so much, this is such a good ask! i feel like, if spotify is around during the problem, they have a group spotify account for sure! but i definitely have a lot of thoughts about their personal music tastes :)

(everything mentioned has the spotify link attached!)

lucy is probably a fan of artists like lizzy mcalpine, phoebe bridgers, taylor swift, olivia rodrigo. sweet hibiscus tea (post by my mutual that i adore) is such a lucy song, as well as iris by the goo goo dolls! her favourite taylor swift album is speak now all the way, and maybe midnights too! when she first met holly she made an angry girl feminine rage playlist about her with all sorts of feral taylor/olivia rodrigo music. she's the kind to listen to pop rock music on full volume in her room screaming every word of it and i am so here for it :D

george would listen to conan gray for sure! he also listens to lizzy mcalpine but he's more of a mitski, arctic monkeys, rex orange county type of listener. kid krow is one of his most loved albums, and his favourite taylor swift album is red! i also feel like he would listen to classical music sometimes, especially george cubbins! piano hits the sweet spot, and he plays it in his earphones while he's at the archives on a case / reading comics while curled up with tea. (RAAHHHH i can imagine it so well somebody write a fic)

lockwood definitely bullies george for listening to classical music, but theres a hc floating around tumblr that he plays piano -> he probably plays a few of george's favourite pieces for him! but as for music taste? he listens to taylor swift (for sure). he claims his fav album is reputation but it's actually 1989. he listens to lana del rey and his favourite album is norman f*cking rockwell or ultraviolence, and he probably dabbles around with the weeknd and older drake music! i feel like he also listens to coldplay!! he probably has a subtly named playlist with songs that remind him of lucy (first song on there is lucy lucy by betcha)! during the famous grocery store incident lore, a shitpost involving a lot of locklyle, one of the many hcs is that he played his lucy playlist instead of the group one time and was just like 😳

the skull probably asks lucy to play peaches by jack black just to see lockwood dramatically leap to the piano and sing along "soulfully" to it, saying lucy instead of peach every time LOL (he is belting awfully and hitting all the wrong notes and it is pissing EVERYONE off)

but as for a group playlist, just a blend of all their music tastes really. a lot of taylor swift, and they would listen to the radio often! (english people will know) they listen to radio 1's morning podcast with greg james while doing up breakfast!

idk that image is so nice to me, quiet mornings at 35 portland row with the radio on, humming to a random song. music is literally integral to so many things imo, and i love the idea that l&co play a lot of it! thank you so much for the ask <3

#renew lockwood and co #lockwood and co #anthony lockwood #george karim #george cubbins #lucy carlyle #locklyle #locklyle brainrot is real #gsi #the grocery store incident #live laugh gsi #peaches by jack black #mayra lore :)

[woven-birds]

{ last updated may 10th 2024 }

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hi there! welcome to my little cozy corner of the internet. i’m so glad you stopped by. <3

˚✿˖° i’m kristen. :) moonchild. avid daydreamer. vegetarian. mother. native american (mohawk) and irish. bookworm. goofball.⋆˚✿˖°

i am a twenty-something lady who lives in upstate new york. i read too many books and drink copious amounts of tea/coffee. i’m obsessed with anything antique or from a bygone era. i have two adorable sons named liam and riggsin (riggs for short). i love being a mother. i have two cats (lilith & mau), a bunny (papa, he’s a netherland dwarf rabbit), & a dog (ziggy). my hair is always messy no matter how hard i try to make it look decent. i’m forever sleepy and in love with nature. i still love playing on playgrounds. i often feel homesick for places that i’ve never been. my head is always in the clouds. i feel most at peace in nature. i love love love floral print, rainy days, the moon, sunsets, wildflowers, & daydreams. i am a makeup and true crime/horror junkie. i also love to draw/paint and take photos. <3

❤︎ i’d rather be thrifting. ❤︎

my head is always in the clouds; i’m perpetually daydreaming. ⋆｡°•☁︎

my favorite sounds: trains in the distance, birds singing, rain hitting the window, the keys of a typewriter, book pages turning, cats purring, clocks ticking, the sound of leaves crunching when you step on them in autumn, the crackling sound a record makes when the needle first touches it.

these are a few of my favorite things: flower crowns, old hollywood films, gardens, fairies, teacups & teapots, fairy tales, bunnies, squishmallows, sharks, outer-space, macarons, graveyards, dresses, handwritten letters, studio ghibli films, pressing flowers, strawberries, flowering tea, bookstores & libraries, cuddling, butterflies, sweaters, candles, when smells act as time machines, penny presses, everything about autumn.

music that i like: fleetwood mac, turnover, nirvana, mom jeans., neck deep, the front bottoms, say anything, dashboard confessional, hot mulligan, weezer, andrew mcmahon, bon iver, sonic youth, david bowie, modern baseball, death cab for cutie, yeah yeah yeahs, mitski, melanie martinez, alex g, the 1975, noah kahan, hozier, beach bunny, girl in red, system of a down, led zeppelin, ghost, the smiths, microwave, heart attack man, joyce manor, wallows, type o negative, chiodos, car seat headrest, pixies, the beatles, fleet foxes, rilo kiley, arctic monkeys, nicole dollanganger, lana del rey, ajj, ozzy, circa survive, fiona apple, a day to remember, $uicideboy$, sleep token, slipknot, brand new, mac demarco, deftones, title fight, soundgarden, the story so far, pup, taylor swift, pink floyd, bjork, black sabbath, tool, green day, balance and composure, movements, oso oso, slayer, bright eyes, real friends, florence + the machine, blink-182, & more! i listen to a lot of different genres; i really am that person that says they listen to “everything” haha.

p.s. if you’ve made it to the end of this i owe you a hug.

my side blogs: @teacuploveletter//@fairieslivehere//@arainyautumnnight//@snowandtinsel//@clumsyhoneybee// @grungyfairy// @porcelainmoons // @shesdaydreamingagain

other places you can find me:

instagram: magicwildflowers

snapchat: rainygirl53

tiktok: magicwildflowers

pinterest: magicwildflowers

{posts are mostly from my queue! feel free to ask me any questions!<3}

currently watching: rewatching gossip girl (on season 1) & sex and the city (season 1)

currently reading: icebreaker by hannah grace

songs/artists i’m currently obsessed with: espresso by sabrina carpenter is on repeat. as well as all chappell roan & taylor swift ttpd. <3

#about me #side blogs #about

[astrobei]

hi suni astrobei my wife my love my bug <3 top 5 movies of all time?

YVIE NNILKYWAY my light my life my pumpkin pie omg ok so i am the Most indecisive person on the face of this entire planet and my top 5 movies Of All Time will literally change day to day and i watch movies a lot less than i do tv shows but. today my top 5 movies Of All Time include (in no particular order):

1. everything everywhere all at once bc i am the eldest gay daughter to asian immigrant parents and let me tell u . i walked out of that theater with all of my makeup transferred to the inside of my mask and None of it left on my face from the sheer force of my tears. idk it is just so special to me it Gets Me i have never felt so seen and i have never ever cried so hard at a movie before and it’s just one of those movies that permanently changed the chemistry of my brain (+mitski in the soundtrack ! hello !) i need to rewatch it so bad actually

2. ratatouille! idk what to say about this one it’s just so nostalgic and such a comfort movie and i could watch it a billion times for the rest of my life and never get bored! the vibes the ambiance the bittersweet ending idk it just is so 🫂🫂🫂🫂 to me just the embodiment of a hug

3. the empire strikes back is also one of the most comfort movies of all time for me !! and IDK i don’t rewatch star wars as much as i should probably because there are so many movies and i get overwhelmed so i’ve seen the others like once or twice each, maybe a few more for a new hope but esb i’ve watched like. a million times EASY. just everything about it!! the iconic ice planet hoth opening and the hanleia moments and everything about luke in this movie is so top tier. such a classic feel and watching it feels like the equivalent of a warm mug of tea for my brain. just also feeling very star wars today so that might be playing into a bit but this movie is just mwah chefs kiss for Me

4. ok this is definitely on here because i just watched it and have been thinking about it nonstop since but i FINALLY !! watched it (2017) (and also the sequel but whatever .) and i can like Feel the neurons in my brain rearranging themselves i get it i get the hype i understand why my mutuals are going crazy all the time i get why people have not shut up about it since it came out I GET IT OK ! IM ON BOARD I AM A SHELL OF THE PERSON I USED TO BE I AM CHANGED FOREVER i am so. yeah

5. probably the perks of being a wallflower not to sound Annoying but every time i watch it i can Feel my soul getting ripped out of my body and shredded to pieces bit by tiny bit. i literally have watched it so many times i know it by heart i KNOW WHAT HAPPENS AND YET. i cry every damn time. infp charlie kinnies rise up 😔✊ i think this and eeaao are two movies that are on my Actual For Real Favorite Movies Of All Time list and yes i sob like a baby while watching both of them let’s not think about why all my favorite movies are so sad Ok. idk something about the ending of course but also the scene w sam and charlie in the kitchen of the party and the scene with his brother coming home and the fight in the cafeteria OHH idk. it is just so special to me i could watch it every single day forever and i’d melt from the sheer force of my tears eroding away at my body but it will have been worth it!

anyways. when u sent this i immediately forgot any movie id ever seen in my entire life Oops! i’m usually more of a tv show girlie bc i do not usually have the attention span for movies (especially long ones) but this was very fun and now i want to go watch All Of Them again LOVE U SO MUCH YVIE THANK U FOR THE ASK 🫂

#(gets asked for my fav anything): starts visibly sweating #um #suddenly i remmeber No Movies Ever #and they change every day but these are Up There for sure #/ask

[inhumanliquid]

"Fearful Midwest Emo Friday Evening" (aka Spotify Bullying Me Part 1):

1. Better Than Me by The Brobecks

2. Feel Better by Penelope Scott

3. Wrecking Ball by Mother Mother

4. Butch 4 Butch by Rio Romeo

5. I/Me/Myself by Will Wood

6. Misery Meat by Sodikken

7. I Deserve to Bleed by Sushi Soucy

8. Meteor Shower by Cavetown

9. Body by Mother Mother

10. My Alcoholic Friends by The Dresden Dolls

11. Coffee by Jack Stauber

12. Animal by Sir Chloe

13. Lotta True Crime by Penelope Scott

14. Sex with a Ghost by Teddy Hyde

15. Be Nice To Me by The Front Bottoms

16. Arms Tonite by Mother Mother

17. Just Take My Wallet by Jack Stauber

18. Look Who's Inside Again by Bo Burnham

19. Bottom by McCafferty

20. Perfume by Lovejoy

21. Blow My Brains Out by Tikkle Me

22. Problems by Mother Mother

23. Cupid by Jack Stauber

24. Rät by Penelope Scott

25. Lone Star by The Front Bottoms

26. Sweet Tooth by Cavetown

27. I Love You Like An Alcoholic by The Taxpayers

28. One Day by Lovejoy

29. Oh Ana by Mother Mother

30. Sweet Hibiscus Tea by Penelope Scott

31. Bruno is Orange by Hop Along

32. Beachboy by McCafferty

33. Inarticulation by Rio Romeo

34. Saint Bernard by Lincoln

35. Eighth Wonder by Lemon Demon

36. Ghosting by Mother Mother

37. The Red Means I Love You by Madds Buckley

38. Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart by Mitski

39. Trees by McCafferty

40. Romance is Boring by Los Campesinos!

41. Burning Pile by Mother Mother

42. Boys Will Be Bugs by Cavetown

43. Body Terror Song by AJJ

44. Art Is Dead by Bo Burnham

45. Stalker's Tango by Autoheart

46. Cigarette Ahegao by Penelope Scott

47. I Wanna Be Your Boyfriend by Hot Freaks

48. Too Close by Sir Chloe

49. Devil Town by Cavetown

50. Caninet Man by Lemon Demon

Conclusion: "Lol, you're queer and depressed. Loser."

#belphie gets bullied (by the spotify algorithm) #(yes i do listen to a lot of mother mother how'd you know)

[pennylanewrites]

chapter 1 // i can’t breathe

pairing: levi ackerman x reader

genre: angst, smut

word count: a lot (4.3k)

cw + tags: aot s1 spoilers , canonverse, blood and injuries, mentions of death, canon character deaths, unprotected sex, fingering, handjob, lotus position, fluffy aftercare and pillowtalk, casual nudity, reader is described to have female anatomy and they/them pronouns are used, reader is in their early 20s and levi is in his early 30s

a/n: new series? yes. inspired by a song? yes. will said song make you cry? yes. stream first love/late spring by mitski.

chapter two(tba) // masterlist // aot masterlist

"oi, get up." shielding your eyes from the blinding sun, you looked up to find a green cape blocking your vision. "you're in trouble."

"are you dead too?" you gasped, getting up and standing infront of the man. he mumbled something under his breath before fixing his gear.

"did a titan suck all the brain out of your head, cadet? everyone else has left."

"huh. petra didn't wait for me, did she?" you looked around at the ruined forest, patches of green capes indicating the bodies that dropped dead that day.

"petra's dead."

"yeah." you nodded in agreement, starting to walk next to your captain as you searched for something in your pants. "this was hers." you handed him the survey corps patch that you had ripped from your friend's cape as you were struggling to keep your consciousness.

"did you-"

"there are the horses! come on, let's go." you limped all the way to the carriages, trying to find your horse among few others, but the only one you could recognise was levi's black horse.

"my horse..." you figured she had died too, brutally crashed by a titan's mouth, otherwise she would have come to find you already. that was, truly, your last straw.

your knees failed and you hid your face in your hands as you weeped for the many you lost that day. a hand on the top of your head scared you, making you look up with blurry sight.

"you'll ride with me. get up." levi demanded, snapping his fingers so his horse would come closer to him. "that's an order, cadet."

the mud and blood had cleaned off your face with your tears and levi could now see clearly the deep cuts on your cheeks. you didn't say a word as he helped you up his horse, this time you didn't even have a snarky remark when his gaze remained on you for a little longer than usual.

upon your return to Wall Rose, everyone headed for the showers and then to the dining hall. you were in the stables instead, odm gear thrown somewhere close, ready to take a horse and go into the forest to clear your head, shower and dinner be damned. yet for some reason, you were being dragged to levi ackerman's office, by levi ackerman himself.

"do you know how badly injured you are?" he shut the door behind you. levi's hair was still wet, his uniform new, clean and smelling fresh. you almost felt bad that he was touching your dirty clothes with his hands.

you looked at your arms and legs, shrugging. you had assumed all the blood on your uniform was from the people you watched die right in front of you. you didn't feel any pain at all, so what was your captain so mad for?

"i'm not injured."

"really? take your shirt off." you scoffed, ready to turn the knob and run from levi, but the stern look he gave you made your feet stick to the floor.

"i will not take-"

"take your shirt off, cadet." he hit his palm flat against the desk, a delicate porcelain cup clattering and drops of tea splattering under it.

as levi cleaned the mess with a rag, your trembling hands dropped your jacket to the floor, your once-white shirt next.

"see? i'm not..." you trailed off as you looked down at a bright pink wound running from one side of your stomach to the other, the accuracy of the cut almost surgical.

"your face isn't in better condition either." he commented, directing you to a mirror on his wall. you barely looked at the deep cuts on both your cheeks, before bursting in tears again. "are you in pain?"

"yeah." you mumbled, avoiding his eyes once again. what was up with him and just staring at you lately?

"you have to go to the infirmary. this wound-"

"not the infirmary. please." you whispered, hoping he would get the hint.

and he did. levi knew why you didn't want to go to the infirmary. it was more often than not that you and petra kept company to the nurses at nights, especially after missions that only returned dozens of injured soldiers. he remembered seeing you and her pick flowers to leave at every side table, how so many people came to thank you after they had recovered. he was almost annoyed at how nice you were, without even trying hard.

"you have to.”

“i’ll do it myself!”

“you will not stitch yourself up.” he excused himself and left to another room, you presumed his bedroom. you turned back to the mirror, only now noticing the small note taped on the top part of the glass.

happy birthday captain, petra, eld, oluo, gunther, __.

"you're getting soft, old man."

"on the floor." he ignored you and kneeled down where you lain, his supplies next to him as he dropped a cloth in a bucket of warm water. he cleaned up the dried blood around you as gently as he could, careful not to put pressure on the forming bruises.

you gasped at the sight of the needle before it even came in contact with your skin, making levi give you a strict stare.

"you're taking two weeks off."

"but commander smith gave us-"

"commander smith has been informed of your injuries. you are on medical leave."

"i can't. i have too many responsibilities. i was given tasks-"

"that the rest of your squad will take care of." levi spoke without thinking. you both stared at each other, wide-eyed, mouths agape as he stopped stitching your wound momentarily. clearing his throat, he averted his eyes from you and continued.

"the rest of my squad?" you chuckled dryly, swallowing the lump forming in your throat, "that's just you."

"that's correct," he muttered, giving one last stitch and tugging the thread to secure it. his action made you wince and grab on his wrist, shutting your eyes tight at the pain. "it's done. can you stand?" levi seemed to ignore your burning touch, helping you on your feet instead.

"sorry -i mean- thanks. i'll go now."

"come to the dining hall after you shower."

"yeah, yeah." you nodded, throwing your shirt back on and turning the knob to leave.

"that's an order."

"wouldn't kill you to actually ask nicely once, would it, old man?" you forced yourself to smile at him before running off to the showers.

levi wished you hadn't smiled at all. a half-assed smile from you hurt even more than seeing you frowning.

you had sprinted in and out of the room you used to share with petra, only taking what you needed, your eyes glued to the floor. you'd have to return her belongings back to her parents. eventually. but for now, you would take a quick shower, wrap a bandage around your waist to cover your stitches and wear your casual clothes. you were on medical leave, so you figured a sweater and cotton shorts wouldn't do any harm.

leaving the communal showers, you looked between the two staircases in front of you; one led down, to the kitchens and dining hall, while the other led to the commanders' and squad leaders' offices. it just so happened that the only safe way out was from the second window to the right, situated behind the desk in a long-unoccupied office. the sign on the door read 'hange zoe', but everyone knew the squad leader never left the research room.

after making sure the hallway was empty, you stepped into the office, freezing in your spot as the person across from you did the same.

“a-ha! __, captain levi was looking all over for you!” hange said loudly, making you put a finger over your lips to shush them.

“i need to use your window, hange-san.”

“ah, the infamous escape window. should i tell levi i saw you?”

“please don’t!”

“oh? i thought he was your boyfriend.” they muttered, sitting back down behind their desk as they motioned for you to use the window freely.

“my what?” you exclaimed, one foot dangling out of the window, the other still inside.

knock knock.

“hange, it’s me.” levi’s voice made your stomach tighten. you and hange shared a look, and with a wave you jumped down, landing on the roof of the kitchen, then climbed down the drain until your feet touched the green grass.

you could still hear levi’s voice faintly as you ran off in the empty field, you didn’t know however that he was standing in front of the window, his eyes never leaving your ridiculous limping jog.

reaching the edge of the small cliff where the headquarters were, you fell on your back and took in the silent landscape in front of you. it was almost creepy, how absolutely nothing could be heard or spotted moving nearby, except for the soft steps that came closer and closer and closer, until the voice you dreaded spoke.

“why aren’t you in uniform?”

“i’m on medical leave. i don’t have to wear the uniform.”

“i gave you an order before you left.”

“i’m on medical leave. i don’t have to take orders.” a small smile danced on your face as you tilted your head up to look at levi. he was looking down at you almost angrily, but it seemed his gray eyes had softened when they met yours. but no, it couldn’t be.

“that’s not true.” he muttered. your eyes grew wide as they followed his figure until he sat down next to you. “eat.” he shoved a bread roll in your mouth, making you sit up to not choke on it.

“stealing food could result in being relieved of your duties.” you reminded him, but he just gave you a scowl.

“this came out of my plate. be grateful."

"what would the cadets say if they knew you're picking favorites?" you chuckled, picking small bites from the still warm bread.

"you're not even close to being my favourite." he scoffed.

"yeah, i know." you smiled bitterly. you knew you weren't the best scout, probably not even in the top 20.

maybe it was just how you were. not talented enough. but it probably was the other thing. yeah. the whole dedicating your heart to the scouts. you found it absolutely stupid, you thought of erwin smith's speeches as hypocritical, and you just couldn't commit yourself to a dying cause.

and who would blame you for that? for being a little bit selfish? levi sure couldn't blame you, not when he found himself silently agreeing to your protests, or speeches about rebellion.

"hey, shorty, don't leave me just yet." you mumbled, staring up at the blue night sky, at four stars that created a small, imperfect circle. you traced them with your finger, levi looking up to see what you were doing. "petra, eld, oluo, gunther." you whispered. you could feel levi shifting next to you, until he was laying on his back, right by your side. "do you think we go up there when we die?"

"i don't think so."

"why not?"

"it seems too good to be true." he shrugged, turning to look at you. his eyes grew wide and he wished he could avert his gaze. your shoulders were shaking silently, tears spilling on your cheeks, wetting the grass beneath you.

he thought you looked painfully beautiful.

"i can't breathe." you coughed out, holding your weight on your elbows. levi pushed on your back for you to sit straight, his other hand pushing stray hairs behind your ear.

"hey, focus on me." he snapped his fingers, making you look at him as you sobbed uncontrolably.

"it hurts." you whispered and threw your arms around him. you were desperate for comfort after losing your squad and friends, and you'd most likely regret breaking your captain's boundaries later.

but for now, you let him pat your back at first, before his muscles loosened and his arms wrapped tighter around your waist, his raven hair tickling your neck.

"guess you're stuck with me now, old man." you chuckled as you pulled apart, hitting his shoulder playfully.

"i almost forgot. you're cleaning the hall tomorrow."

"but i'm on medical leave!"

"you're healthy enough to jump from the second floor, aren't you?"

heat rushed to your cheeks, both at his scolding, and the fact you were closer to him than a scout should be with their captain. you cleared your throat and leaned back, to maintain a less hectic atmosphere, but it was no use.

you had never seen levi look at you -or anyone- like that. his eyes were hopeful, eyebrows furrowed, mouth half-open and ready to speak.

he looked amazing.

"would you ever leave if you had the chance?"

"leave?"

"you know, the scouts. your duties. you're at the age when people get married and have children."

"i left my personal wills behind me when i joined the scouts."

"but would you leave?"

"i have no one to go to." he admitted. you wondered if he had parents waiting somewhere, siblings, cousins. but it obviously seemed like a sensitive topic, so you remained quiet. "would you leave?"

"i can't."

"i thought you hated this place."

"maybe. but i don't hate you." levi was speechless in front of you once again. in the end, he just gave you a scoff and looked away, making you smile.

"levi."

"it's captain to you."

"i've never called you captain."

"you've never called me by my name either." you rolled your eyes and ran a finger over his bruised knuckles, expecting him to swat your hand away, or get up and leave even.

"do you ever need someone to comfort you?"

"i'm not a baby." he scoffed.

"not that kind of comfort." you laughed awkwardly, avoiding his piercing gray eyes. "forget it- i don't know what got into me."

"wait." levi followed as you got up to leave, his hand on your shoulder making you stop.

"no, i was very inappropriate. please let's just..." you swallowed a lump in your throat, eyes burning with embarrassed tears before levi showed in front of you.

"are you staying in the scouts for me?"

you smiled. you didn't expect levi to be so upfront about matters of the heart, but then again, he was levi ackerman. he was a beautiful mystery in itself.

"i appreciate this, but please don't try to let me down slowly. i can take a rejection."

"you think i'm rejecting you?"

"yeah, aren't you a bit too old for me?" a smile danced across his face, but he made sure you wouldn't see him in the dark of the night. his hand touched yours hesitantly, thumb brushing over your knuckles like you did to him just seconds ago.

"funny."

"i try." you mumbled. you almost felt guilty. guilty that you were laughing, making jokes, guilty about the butterflies in your stomach every time levi's gray eyes came to your mind. no matter how much you had cried that day, it seemed that the tears wouldn't stop coming, and coming, and flowing down your face again, and it felt like you and levi both would drown in them.

"don't cry." levi whispered as he cupped your cheeks in his hand, tilting your head to look at him.

"can you make it better, captain?"

i can try, he thought as he extended his hand and you hesitantly took it,

for you, as you sneaked to his office without any of the soldiers spotting you,

i'll give it my best shot, as he locked the door behind him and turned to look at you, his cheeks now visibly pink as the moonlight gave his face a white glow.

for you.

you met him halfway in the office, hands on each other's cheeks in a hurry, your gaze darting from his eyes to his lips, watching him do the same to you. you initiated the kiss. you parted your chapped lips and brought his face closer to you.

his hands were trembling as he finally got a taste of what he dreamt of for years, of what he always stayed away from in fear of losing it. you rested your hands over his, smiling as he seemed to be calming down. you never thought a man so cold to everyone that approached him, a man serious and contained, insufferably so, would be losing himself in your touch.

you fidgeted with the buttons of his shirt, undoing them one by one as he slowly led you backwards to his bedroom. his white shirt got left behind, and he didn't even think of picking it up. you tugged at his bottom lip with your teeth, urging him to open his mouth, taste your tongue against his. he tasted like the dinner he just had, and spearmint and something bitter. alcohol. levi never drinks, you thought, but decided to ask him later.

his hands snaked under your sweater and every bit of his touch on your skin burned, having you needing more. you only pulled apart from him to take your sweater off, throwing it on a chair by the window as he looked at you like he was worshipping you.

"this hurts, doesn't it? maybe you shouldn't-" his hands grazed over the bandage wrapped around you, but you stopped him, grabbing his hands and leading him to the bed.

"if it ever hurts i'll tell you. i promise." you said between lazy kisses, letting him unclasp your bra as his hands explored your body, much differently than how he did earlier that day when he was stitching you up. he was hesitant to initiate more, and you could tell.

you could read levi like the back of your palm, and he was glad you did. so he let you take his hands and bring them to your tits, all the while you left sloppy kisses on his neck, his pretty colarbones, his scarred and bruised chest.

levi pulled you down on his lap after taking your shorts off, his pale hands spreading your legs apart. you wrapped them around his back, leaning down to kiss him again, softer, sweeter.

he hated that he liked how delicate you were with him.

neither of you wanted to feel.

maybe in another life, another setting, outside of walls and titans and death around every corner.

so he pulled your underwear to the side, heart fluttering at the way you gasped next to his ear. his index and middle finger spread your folds apart, collecting your slick and rubbing circles around your clit.

you unbuckled the belt on his pants eagerly, pulling the zipper down and palming his erection through his boxers, eyes searching his face for a reaction, which you got when you sneaked your fingers in his underwear, barely grazing them on the slit of his tip. his eyebrows furrowed, and he suddenly relaxed in your embrace, letting out a soft, quiet moan that you barely caught.

you grinned, sarcasm ready to slip from your tongue when levi pulled you closer, sneaking two of his fingers inside your hole. a whine of his name escaped past your lips, and levi thought he couldn't get enough of hearing his name in that tone, that manner, that situation, just from your lips.

"faster," you mumbled, now pumping his cock lazily, feeling him get bigger in your palm. he picked up the pace with which he fucked his fingers into you, curling them to hit that sweet spot he magically guessed. you arched your back, chest colliding with his.

levi's lips searched for yours in the dim-lit bedroom, soft kisses burning on your neck, your jaw, then the corners of your mouth until you slipped your tongue between his pink lips. you tasted him with so much fervor, your hand now pumping his leaking cock faster, until he stopped you.

"what's wrong old man? scared it won't get up again if you cum?" you giggled, despite how much pain, physical and mental, you felt that day.

you made it extremely difficult for levi ackerman not to fall for you.

"shut up." he mumbled against your lips, hands holding your hips tight as he lifted you up and pulled you against his chest. you reached down and aligned his cock with your cunt, tapping on his shoulder to let him know it was okay to move.

the slight burn of his tip stretching you subsided shortly after, and you relaxed in levi’s arms with every one of his pecks on your shoulder. you sunk down his cock until you felt his balls against your ass, gasping at the sensation of being filled to the brim.

“levi,” you whimpered, and he knew just by that what you needed. he wrapped his hand around your waist tighter for leverage and begun rolling his hips upwards, thrusting in and out of you slowly.

your gummy walls sucked him in every time he thrusted out, making his eyes roll to the back of his head. he rocked his hips against yours while sunken deep inside you, his tip hitting against your sweet spot repeatedly until you saw stars.

“i’m -fuck- i’m gonna cum!” you arched your back, making him sink further in your cunt, and your tits to rub against his sensitive nipples, eliciting a groan from him.

“already? what happened to your stamina, cadet? are you getting old?” he teased with rough, slower thrusts.

“shu-ut up!” you whined, rutting against him quickly, your clit rubbing against his pelvis to give you the right amount of stimulation.

cumming, cumming, cumming! you panted in his ear, walls clamping down around his cock, making it impossible for him to move as you rode out your high.

levi was close, pre-cum already painting your walls and his cock a translucent white. what tipped him off the edge, however, was your dopey smile as you bounced on his cock, your pants and moans against his neck, the way you rubbed your fingers on the back of his undercut, messing with his raven locks of hair.

“inside me, please, please, please!” you babbled, bringing him in for a kiss, living for the small grunts he let out against your lips the moment he shot a load of cum inside you.

“thank you, tha-fuck...” he smiled against your shoulder at your inconsistent muttering. you felt your body falling, your eyes opening wide only to realize he was laying you down on your side.

“i’ll run a bath. you’re filthy.” he said, almost lovingly.

“and who’s fault is that?” you managed a grin, your hand holding onto his until he pulled his boxers up and went to the bathroom. you turned to the wall, staring outside the window at the trees swaying, illuminated by the pale glow of the crescent moon. levi stood by the doorway to the bathroom, staring at you with his hands folded across his chest.

he wasn’t regretting what happened, but the guilt of succumbing to his emotions made his chest ache. he needed you, always had, and always will. but now that he finally had you, was he risking too much?

he made his way to you, and you only took notice of him when the bed sunk down from his weight. he rolled to your side, wrapping an arm around you, the other pulling your hair to the side to kiss the spot under your ear.

“i didn’t know you could act human.”

“ha.” he huffed, but still caved and became putty at the sound of your tired laugh.

“tell me something.” you said suddenly.

“something?”

“something i don’t know.”

“okay...” he trailed off, snuggling closer to you when he had an idea, “i have a house nearby.”

“what?” your eyes grew wide and you rolled around, now facing him. “i thought you lived here!”

“i haven’t been there in a while.”

“hmm, i bet it’s all filthy and dusty.”

“exactly. you’re coming with me for a few days to clean.”

you offered him your teasing smile, despite your heart jumping in and out of your chest still.

“are you trying to get me all alone, captain?”

“maybe.”

“and you’re abusing your place in the ranks for personal goals?”

“of course not. all you’re gonna do is clean, cadet.” he mumbled, rubbing his nose against yours affectionally. you melted in his touch once again, surprised by his delicate ways.

“among other things?”

“don’t get your hopes up.” he teased you.

“don’t worry, captain. i’ll get something else up.” you laughed and caressed his cheek when he turned red at your insinuation, dragging him to the bathroom with you before he could refuse.

you stepped into the warm bubble bath, opening your arms for him to lay between. you wrapped them around his torso, pulling him until his back was resting against your chest, though he was trying not to put any pressure against your bandages.

“was i good?” you whispered in his ear.

“what kind of question is that?” he rolled his eyes, bringing one of his hands back to rest in your hair and massage your scalp.

“a question that needs an answer.”

“you were perfect.”

heat rose to your cheeks at his sudden spurt of affection, and you rested the side of your face against his back in an attempt to calm down.

“you’re burning up.” he mumbled, running his hands up your hands, then your legs, realizing that you were extremely warm. you nodded against his back and let him wash your hair, clean you up and put you back in your clothes.

it was true that you were feeling a bit sick, normal for an injured person. but as you sat by the window and watched him change the sheets and put casual clothes on, you thought you couldn’t possibly be better.

“are you staying?” he asked bluntly, offering you his arm and no room to answer. he knew you would say yes anyway.

“i kick in my sleep.” you informed as you got comfortable under the covers.

“i’ll kick you back.”

“give me a kiss.” you looked up at him hopefully. he rolled his eyes and leaned in, pecking your forehead softly.

“what are you, my grandma? give me a kiss!” you giggled, leaning up and taking his cheeks between your palms, squeezing them until his lips formed an adorable pout.

“stop.” he mumbled, eyebrows furrowing together as he tried to swat your hands away. before he could, you brought your lips against his and kissed him softly. “goodnight, captain.” you wrapped an arm around his waist and brought him flush against your chest, cradling him like a baby.

levi didn’t remember the last time he got more than an hour of sleep. but your arms around him felt so protective, and your legs tangled with his made him feel a sense of intimacy and love that he only vividly remembered from his childhood.

his eyes soon started fluttering close, a small yawn hidden in the warmth of your chest, his arms relaxing around you.

“goodnight, cadet.”

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[spookykestrel]

Love Kestrel pt 1

It’s Valentine’s Day so I figured now was as good a time as any to post my thoughts on love.

As someone who has started identifying as aromantic, it’s almost ironic to say, but I am so full of love. And I love Valentine’s Day.

When I was young I was such a hopeless romantic; in fact, I still am. When I first started figuring out that I was aro I was a little upset to be honest. I’m not going to have a whirlwind of a romance as any one in my favorite novels. I’ll never get to experience that witty banter of an enamored couple. But it’s actually allowed me to embrace all other kinds of love.

I love my pets with my whole soul. I Love their unique and distinct personalities and falling asleep with purring ball of orange fur at the foot of my bed. I love going for walks in the evening when the weather starts to get cool and how you can take a deep breath and feel so alive. I love how quiet the world feels when I’m watching the sunrise, almost like it’s just me awake. I love my family and trusting them to stand by me through anything, how they’ve known me my whole life and still put up with me through every struggle. I love embroidery and drawing and writing, taking something from the firing neurons in my brain and crafting it into something others can see and understand. I love my friends, how we can spend time together and feel so valued and appreciated. Spending time with them is always the highlight of my day. I want them to feel like they’re important and amazing because they are and I’d do anything for them.

As Hozier said, “I fall in love just a little oh a little bit everyday with someone new” and it’s true I do. I love the people who stop their car to let the mother duck and her ducklings pass safely. I love when someone’s so passionate about their interests and won’t stop talking about them. I love watching people smile about an inside joke with their friends, I love people just being themselves without a care.

And as mitski said, “I’ll love the littler things” because that’s what I’ve been trying to teach myself. To absolutely cherish and live for the little things in life. A warm cup of some amazing tea, singing along at the top of your lungs to your favorite song, wearing your faveoite socks, having someone give you random gift or rock they found because they thought it reminded them of you, or being the one to give that gift!

So while it may not be the romantic love everyone is so obsessed with, it’s still love. It still makes my heart ache and fills my whole soul with passion. I love to love and there’s so much I do love. Just because it’s not romantic doesn’t mean I’m missing anything at all. I’m whole and complete and beautiful and doing just fine without romance.

I love today because it gives me a chance to share this love. Who says Valentine’s Day has to be about romance? No one can stop me from baking heart cookies for my friends and showering them with affection because I’m glad they exist and it’s the perfect occasion to remind them, especially the ones without partners and can’t go on dates tonight and are feeling sad about the pressure from society.

I never cared about valentines, but ever since I started applying it to all types of love I’ve really enjoyed it and looked forward to it :)

Tl;dr being aro is lovely. It’s like your ability to love is heightened because you don’t worry about romance. Love the little things!

#long post #text post #I’m sorry this is so long and I’m rambling #Valentine’s Day #valentines #aromantic #love #aro #greyromantic #arospec #aroace #kestrel calls #I’m literally just rambling #who knows if there is a single coherent thought in there

[mikey-is-punk]

emo-richie-trashmouth-tozier > mikey-is-punk

hi, i'm michael!! i also go by sydney or toby. my pronouns are it/they (they constantly change so feel free to ask). i love horror and cartoons.

here is a list of movies/tv shows/video games i love:

♥it (the miniseries and both movies)

•stranger things

•i am not okay with this

♥adventure time (2010-2018, distant lands, fionna and cake)

•beetlejuice (1988)

•heathers (1989)

•paranorman

•coraline

•the goldfinch

•moonrise kingdom

♥sally face

•fran bow

•little misfortune

•what we do in the shadows

♥buzzfeed unsolved (supernatural, true crime)

♥watcher (puppet history, are you scared?, ghost files, mystery files, too many spirits, survival mode)

♥smiling friends

•but i’m a cheerleader

•the addams family (1964, 1991, addams family values, wednesday)

•over the garden wall

•the last of us

•bee and puppycat

•animal crossing

•buffy the vampire slayer (movie, show, comics, angel)

⭑daria (tv show)

•the amazing digital circus

⭑saw (2004, 0.5, II)

⭑scott pilgrim franchise (books, movie, anime)

♥garfield (books)

⭑moral orel

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⭑ = movies/tv shows/video games i love that i am currently watching/playing

♥ = movies/tv shows/video games i'm hyperfixated on

• = movies/tv shows/video games i love but don't post about as much

ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ ᘛ⁐̤ᕐᐷ

likes: animals (specifically cats, crows, rats, koi fish, toads, frogs, bats), pizza, art, horror, cartoons, flowers, thrifting, raspberries, clowns, furbies, plushies, shopping (favourite stores are hot topic and small thrift stores), weezer, crystals, hello kitty (and other sanrio characters but hello kitty is my favourite), mushrooms, comic books, drawing, my headphones, bubble tea, my chemical romance, mangos, collecting pins, mother mother, mitski, tv girl, alex g, kate bush, garfield, mangos, bugs, teeth, ethical taxidermy, perler beads, snoopy, my pets (3 cats, 2 rats)

hates: bigots, people talking to me when i have headphones on, spiders, certain sounds (chewing, scratching)

DO NOT INTERACT if you are on this list (if you are racist, homophobic, transphobic, sexist, xenophobic, ableist, fatphobic or anti-semitic. you are the scum of the earth if you are any of those things and you need to get the fuck off my blog). dni if you’re pro-life (go fuck youself). also nsfw blogs dni.

discord: mikey_likes_bugs

instagram: mikey_is_punk

here’s my pronouns.page

here's a picrew in case you're wondering what i look like:

current favourite song(s): You're Standing On My Neck by Splendora, Runaway by Penelope Scott, We Are Sex Bob-Omb by Sex Bob-Omb, Sitting Waiting Wishing by Jack Johnson, Sockhead by Destructo Disk

two of my favourite poems:

“You’re in love with him, and he’s in love with you, and it’s like a goddamn tragedy, because you look at him and see the stars, and he looks at you and sees the sun. And you both think the other is looking at the ground. But god, just notice you’re both looking at the sky.” -lostcap, tumblr

“How poetic, the power of the heart, to continue it’s beating on the nights that we wish it would stop.” -Faraway, Sad Birds Still Sing

tags: “my art” is art that i made, “fav” is my favourite posts, "art" is art that isn't fanart, fanart is tagged by what fandom it's in

here’s two masterlists if you’re having a bad day (1 & 2)

here’s two masterlists if you’re feeling suicidal (hotlines & 146 things to do beside self-harm)

neurodivergent and mentally ill (please be kind)

(dividers by @animatedglittergraphics-n-more, @grungenglam, @violetbudd, @magicalboything)

oof ok i'm done sorry that was so long

anyway i hope you're having a good day!! :o)

#tw flashing

[daisybeewrites]

Would you write Philinda with I Want You by Mitski 👀

Congrats by the way!

1. thank youuuuuu!

2. i made this kinda angsty bc,, uh,, the song felt very sad idk i listened to it on repeat. i hope you enjoy! fic below the cut>>

I want you

I hold one card

That i can’t use

“May?” Daisy said, knocking gently. Melinda didn’t speak, staying curled on her side in her bed. She just needed a few days. She had watched him die, right next to her on that beach, and then she was alone. She just needed a few days. Didn’t they get that?

She couldn’t yell because they lost him, too. Daisy lost a father, Fitzsimmons lost a mentor, Mack lost a friend. He was the team’s heart, just like Fitzsimmons was the brain and Mack was their moral compass; Daisy and Elena were the fire and May was the muscle. The team worked as a family, a single unit of limbs and eyes and bones and blood.

But May?

May lost her love.

She just needed some time.

And it’s the end of the world

We’re starting over

May clapped her hands, signaling the end of training for that day. Piper circled the cadets up, leading them while May went to shower off. Today was four months. It felt impossible.

The team had decided to visit his grave in Wisconsin. They had decided it was time to move on.

Daisy and Simmons were about to leave for space. Mack was creating STRIKE teams for future missions, trying to recruit new scientists, and focusing on studying the anomalies popping up all over the globe. Elena was throwing herself into training, trying to ignore that Mack hadn’t come out of his office for weeks. May was helping Piper, Davis, and Daisy get mission-ready while Simmons spent time with Fitz’ mother in Scotland.

It had been four months since the world ended. It was time to move on.

I love you darling

And I am done, dear

Daisy leaned her head on May’s shoulder, wrapping an arm around her waist. May would never admit it, but she was okay with it. A hug sounded nice. It pained her that a hug from Daisy or Elena wouldn’t be enough, they didn’t deserve that. But there was really only one person who could make it better, and he was gone.

When Daisy and the rest had gone back to wait in the QJ, May stayed for a while. She didn’t speak, she didn’t really think, either. She just stayed. She was trying to let go.

Loving Phil was painful. The loss hurt, dug deep. It dug just as deep as all their laughs, their cups of tea, and their late nights doing paperwork in his office.

She missed his cologne, and his habit of collecting cool little trinkets, and the quilt he left at the Playground that was now most likely ash.

But she was letting go. Letting go of all of it. And it felt like losing the left side of her body.

You’re in the house

And I am here in the car

“I get nothing from him.”

It can't be him. It can’t be him. It can’t be him. He died.

May walked back up into the Zephyr, still confused. Where the hell were they? Why did she feel so… blank? Who was that imposter back there?

Daisy briefed her later that night. She caught her up with her own death and how Simmons brought her back. It was terrifying. It was eery and sent chills through her veins. All she remembered was being in Izel’s realm, coming back and saving the day, then Daisy bent over her. It was all fuzzy.

She knew he was somewhere on the Zephyr, probably getting briefed as well. But it wasn’t him.

I just need a quiet place

Where I can scream

How I love you

It was too much. There were screams. The room was spinning. Elena was calling her name from another room. When did everyone leave?

Elena grabbed May’s arm, spinning her around to face her.

“May!”

May snapped out of it, the riding bile in her throat replaced by a familiar constriction of her chest. Just nerves.

This was something she could breathe through. Her immediate want was a dark room, quiet. She wanted to walk into Coulson’s office, sit in his spin-chair and pull one of his jackets over her arms. May just wanted some peace.

She wanted Coulson.

I found you

I found the door

But when I stepped through there was no floor

He was right next to her, and she couldn’t feel him. He was joking, talking and laughing. Daisy called him ‘Dad’. He was spitting out niche history facts. He seemed normal.

All May needed was a hint of emotion. Not from some angry guy on the streets of New York, not from the drunks in the bar, not from a flirty General she’d seen projected on a wall before.

She let him go. She got him back. But this wasn’t right.

We’re starting over.

“How’s world-traveling going?” Daisy asked.

May watched Coulson respond, a small smile on his face. She laughed with Fitzsimmons, making a mental note to visit and give Alya those ice skates she had bought her. Mack and Elena left, May rolled her eyes at their obvious flirting. She knew Elena was with Piper and Davis right now. She was glad Mack had asked her to teach at the Academy. Honestly, her joints were starting to scream at her the more she sparred.

Then it was just Coulson and May and Daisy left. She didn’t know what to say. I miss you? I love you? See you when you’re back from space? Ask him to visit?

The last one sounded okay.

“If you’re ever in the area, stop by and give a lecture. The kids would love that.”

So would I.

May twisted the tech on her temple, taking her back to the Academy. She sighed. She missed everything they had been through, from picking up Skye to Puerto Rico to Ghost Rider (maybe she didn’t miss the framework so much…) to Tahiti. It all came back to Phil.

The world had ended, and they were all starting over.

#philinda #fic #philindaisy #melinda may #blurb #angst #i want you mitski #agents of s.h.i.e.l.d. #ashby’s 200

[dirtycccat]

making mixtapes for the demon bros + undateables

true love is making playlists for people you care about so what if you did this,,, for the demon bros (and the undateables)

lucifer

classical music first, soft jazz second

lots of angry violin playing followed by soft dreamy piano

shostakovich, ravel, chopin

probably some opera too? anything that screams old boomer of culture

...and then chet baker and nina simone 

 (i’m sorry lucifer is a chet baker lover forever in my heart i mean have you heard my funny valentine or i’ve never been in love before or it ‘s always you? please that’s lucifer in love 101)

bonus: based on his character song i feel like he’d also enjoy lap dance music like two feet  (like mammon and asmo) 

anything slow and sensual but with a beat

mammon

basically either party music but horny or romantic / feel good rap

two feet, chet faker, tyler the creator

maybe pop punk???

he gives me angry pop punk dude that mellowed out and now sings abt his gf vibes idk why

also songs you can serenade him with (or the ones he used to serenade you)

lastly, hear me out: disney karaoke (no, i do not accept criticism)

levi

anime openings / endings and movie soundtracks

especially if you watched them together

(because everyone has a playlist with 2000s animes ops and old vocaloid music for nostalgia)

low fi for studying/ no thought head empty just gaming music 9 hours 

but instead of studying he’ll listen to it while gaming because listening to a game’s soundtrack while playing another is a power move

satan

jazz lover on a good day metal on a bad day

...or both on a good day because some people listen to metal to calm down so why not 

you do you king listen to metallica while sipping tea

also ofc he’d love punk for sure since he’s the forever angry teen boyo

but i feel like he’d prefer punk bands that aren’t made up of only angry white dudes

like against me for example

but he’d also like the classics like green day like how can you not

did he have a secret emo phase he told you about and you put some mcr too? maybe

asmo

lana del rey ugly crying karaoke when drunk

also mitski

and fiona apple

i feel like he’d do a lot of crying while listening to romantic songs and ain’t that a mood so put a lot of that

would probably like a mixtape with side a: sad romantic music only and side b:songs to strip to 

bonus: another mixtape with broadway showtunes because we need a theatre kid in this family

he would probably like heathers, legally blonde, mean girls ya know the feel good musicals you can jam to 

(can you imagine asmo singing welcome to my candy store? now you can you’re welcome)

beel

workout music

gorillaz and feel good music like abba

is he the type of person that works out to rap or techno music? we don’t know 

he probably likes whatever is high energy and keeps up with his workout

but would also jam out to abba

likes soft i wanna sleep piano asmr? ya know music you listen to when you’re feeling soft and calm

which he can listen to w his twin

belphie

whale noises

rain against your window while you’re trying to sleep by the fireplace 9 hours asmr

dancing queen but you’re drunk in a bathroom at a party in the 80s

folk rock and goth country  (for our cowboy hhehehehe)

just goth rock  (but with him bela lugosi isn’t dead he’s just asleep)

experimental  loud rap like death grips

2005 sad emo music to cry your mascara off to like mcr and fob

he doesn’t have any specific taste in music  and could listen to anything and he means anything

simeon

canon theatre kid

you can’t stop him he likes all the musicals

probably into the more romantic ones though

rent, falsettos, hedwig and the angry inch

i really want simeon to play hedwig idk can you imagine it  i cant but would like to

also hear me out: romantic french music 

edith piaf, charles azvnavour, pomme

aka artists you can jam out to but also slow dance with your lover while listening to them

barbatos

classical music on the outside, loud metal on the inside

he’s that mom that drinks vodka and listens to loud metal for his alone time (you know the vine)

hidden theatre kid

but prefers the more dramatic and challenging musicals

les mis, the phantom of the opera, the great comet of 1812

hums the confrontation from les mis while cleaning the castle (both parts)

diavolo

disney enthusiast nr 1 dethrones mammon by a lot

you watched all movies with him and now he loves them and demands more disney karaoke sessions with you

probably used to classical music

but hear me out show him 80s rock and he’ll turn into an american whiskey dad

all the dad bands you could think of? he loves them

led zeppelin, queen, kiss, you name it

solomon

if you thought belphie had diverse tastes

hoo boy

say hello to the king of randomness

you could put angry classical music followed by metal followed by dad rock followed by  fleetwood mac followed by david bowie followed by idk random spanish summer songs on the radio followed by edith piaf

and that’d be like his normal playlist

listens to anything which means you can go crazy since nothing makes him happier than being properly surprised by something new

#this was so fun to make #i giggled #im tempted to actually make mixtapes for them now #but that'd take a lot of time #also im sorry theres so much theatre im a theatre kid i couldnt help it #mine #obey me #obey me headcanons #obey me shall we date #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me diavolo #obey me barbatos #obey me simeon #obey me solomon #my post

[bloodinthesnow]

an alphabetical list of songs that make everything feel better and worse simultaneously (it is a very long list hence the keep reading under the cut):

A Mannequin Adrift - The Scary Jokes

A Night At The Movies - The Scary Jokes

Advice - Alex G

Agoraphobia - Elita

Alex - Teen Suicide

Alligator Skin Boots - McCafferty

Always Forever - Cults

And Also I’m Really Scared - Fox Academy

Angel Eyes and Basketball - Foot Ox

Angels of Porn II - Nicole Dollanganger

Apathy - tea

Apple Pie - The Scary Jokes (2021 mix specifically)

ARE WE STILL FRIENDS - Tyler, The Creator

As the World Caves In - Matt Maltese

Baby Teeth (Acoustic Version) - Baby Bugs

Backstabber - The Dresden Dolls

Bad Advice - Penelope Scott

Bad News - Teen Suicide

Bad Things - Cults

Bag of Bombs - Diet Tea Other Cola

Bang Bang Bang Bang - Sohodolls

Baxter 3rd Is Under Fucking Siege - Penelope Scott (specifically the soft version on her bandcamp)

Become the Warm Jets - Current Joys

Before the World Was Big - Girlpool

Bets Against the Void - The Scary Jokes

Blondie - Current Joys

Blood from the Concrete - The Scary Jokes

Blow My Brains Out - Tikkle Me

Blue Eyes Like the Devil’s Water - McCafferty

Blue Hair - TV Girl

Body Terror Song - AJJ

Boring - The Brobecks

Bound 2 - Kanye West

Brave As a Noun - AJJ

Break This the Breaking Point 2 - Vertigoaway

Breezeblocks - alt-J

Brian is the Most Beautiful - Memo Boy

Bright Blue Pickup Truck - Teen Suicide

Brooklyn Baby - Lana Del Rey

Bruno is Orange - Hop Along, Queen Ansleis

Bubble Gum - Clairo

Busted and Blue - Gorillaz

Camisado - Panic! At the Disco

Can I Leave Me Too? - The Greeting Committee

Cane Shuga - Glass Animals

Care - TEMPOREX

Carry Me Out - Mitski

Catabolic Seed - The Scary Jokes

Chalk Tablet Towers - Gorillaz

Chamber Of Reflection - Mac DeMarco

Choking on Flowers - Fox Academy

Christmas Drag - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

Cigarette Ahegao - Penelope Scott

Cigarette Duet - Princess Chelsea

Colored Pinwheel - Foot Ox

Concrete - Poppy

Coolest Place in the World - Suki Waterhouse

Cop Graveyard - Teen Suicide

Cornflake Eyes - Foot Ox

Cupid - Jack Stauber (extended ver.)

DAI DAI DAI KIRAI - Dennoko-P

Dark Beach - Pastel Ghost

Dead Girls - Penelope Scott

Dealer - Lana Del Rey

Death of the Phone Call - Whatever, Dad

Dirty Night Clowns - Chris Garneau

Doves - Cake Bake Betty

Dream Sweet in Sea Major - Miracle Musical

Dresser - Fox Academy

Drunk Text Romance - Cyberbully Mom Club

Dust Collector - YG Hypnos

E.S.R.T. (2001) - Whatever, Dad

Egg - Whatever, Dad

El Manana - Gorillaz

Eleanor Rigby - The Beatles

Empty Room - Teen Suicide

Eric - Mitski

Every Day - bo en

EVERYTHING - The Black Skirts

Everything Means Nothing to Me (Instrumental) - Joe Hawley

Facebook.Com - Memo Boy

Father - The Front Bottoms

Fear of Dying - Poppy

Feel Better - Penelope Scott

Feeling so Matryoshka (2021 mix specifically) - The Scary Jokes

Fireflies - Chris Garneau

Fireworks - Mitski

First Love / Late Spring - Mitski

Flagpole Sitta - Harvey Danger

Fourth of July - Sufjan Stevens

Friends with You - The Scary Jokes

From the Gallows - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

Getting Better - nelward

Getting Better (otherwise) - The Aubreys

Ghost Town - Kanye West

Girl Anachronism - The Dresden Dolls

Gomennne Gomennne - Kikuo

Good Looking - Suki Waterhouse

Goodbye, My Danish Sweetheart - Mitski

Gross - Bulldog Eyes

Growing Pains, Pt. 1 & 2 - dandelion hands

Habits (feat. Haley Reinhart) - Scott Bradlee’s Postmodern Jukebox

Hammerhead - Penelope Scott

Hand Me My Shovel, I’m Going In! - Will Wood and the Tapeworms

Hansel - Sodikken

Happy News For Sadness - Car Seat Headrest

Haunt Me (x 3) - Teen Suicide

Haunted - Laura Les

Hazy Miss Daisy - Kid Bloom

Healing Ritual - Whatever, Dad

Hell, Missouri - UnderBite

Hello - Weathers

Hello World - The Scary Jokes

Her - Poppy

Hey Bunny (acoustic & remix are both good) - Baby Bugs

Hole Dwelling - Kikuo

Home II - Bulldog Eyes

Hospital - Gurldoll

How To Never Stop Being Sad - dandelion hands

Hurting Myself - Blood Girl

Hybrid Moments - Helvetia

I Am My Own Hell - Teen Suicide

I Can’t Afford To Make Music Anymore - Owie Zowie

I Cut Myself - Talkshow Boy

I Deserve to Bleed - Sushi Soucy

I Forgot to Take My Meds Today - Prince Daddy & the Hyena

I Fuck Everything Up - Mom

I Hate Everyone but You - Elita

I Love My Boyfriend - Princess Chelsea

I Love You So - The Walters

I Saw an Angel - Puzzle

I Want You - Mitski

I Was All Over Her - salvia palth

I’d Rather Sleep - Kero Kero Bonito

I’ve Wasted So Much Time - Enjoy

Icicles - The Scary Jokes

If I Don’t Go To Hell (Instrumental) - Mr. Green

In a Bitter Syrup (original ver.) - The Scary Jokes

Insomniac - Memo Boy & Chakra Efendi

Internet Quiz - Whatever, Dad

Introduction to the Snow - Miracle Musical

Introverted - Elita

It’s Only Sex - Car Seat Headrest

Jealous - Eyedress

Jeanine - The Scary Jokes

Jeff - McCafferty

Joyfulthought - Mom

Junkyard - Fox Academy

Just - Radiohead

Just Take My Wallet - Jack Stauber

Kimi Wa Dekinai Ko - Kikuo

Kitchenbastards - Whatever, Dad

Last Words of a Shooting Star - Mitski

Lavender - Penelope Scott

Lemonade - Nicole Dollanganger

Like a Match - Jack Conte

Limerence - Yves Tumor

Liquid Smooth - Mitski

Lo Que Siento - Cuco (yass corny song time)

Locket - Crumb

Long - Porridge Radio

Look Who’s Inside Again - Bo Burnham

Love Me, Love Me, Love Me (aka Aishite) - Kikuo

Lukewarm - Penelope Scott

Lying To Myself - Blood Girl

Magical Doctor - Maretu

Make Me Cry - Fox Academy

Make the Grade - Jack Conte

Marsha, Thankk You for the Dialectics, but I Need You to Leave - Will Wood

Martin - Car Seat Headrest

Masochism - Ky Vöss

Mean - Nicole Dollanganger

Memoir (Live at RAK) - Villagers

Misery Meat - Sodikken

Mistakes Like This - Prelow

moment - Vierre Cloud

Mommy Fwiend - Penelope Scott

Money - The Drums

Montreal - Penelope Scott

Moon Song - Phoebe Bridgers

Moonsickness - Penelope Scott

Motion Sickness - Phoebe Bridgers

Mrs Magic - Strawberry Guy

My Alcoholic Friends - The Dresden Dolls

My Body’s Made of Crushed Little Stars - Mitski

My Girlfriend - TV Girl

Necromancer - Joy Again

Nessa’s Theme - Whatever, Dad

New Year’s Eve - American Pleasure Club/Teen Suicide

Nice Boys - TEMPOREX

Nights Like These - Pigeon Pit

Nimbasa CORE - plasterbrain

No Fun - Teen Suicide

No Leverage / No Pleasure - The Scary Jokes

No Obligation - Mom

Nosebleed Forever - Fox Academy

Not Allowed - TV Girl

Nothing - Teen Suicide

Nowhere to Run - Stegosaurus Rex

O.K. - Whatever, Dad

Oh Noel - I DONT KNOW HOW BUT THEY FOUND ME

On Melancholy Hill - Gorillaz

Once More To See You - Mitski

Panic - Caravan Palace

Papa Ed’s Oobe - Whatever, Dad

Paul - Big Thief

People Eater - Sodikken

Perverted - Elita

Pink in the Night - Mitski

Pink Smoke - The Scary Jokes

Please Don’t Jump (It’s Christmas) - Dallon Weekes

Please, Please, Please Let Me Get What I Want - Deftones

Pleasure Cruise - The Scary Jokes

Poison Tree - Grouper

Post Break-Up Sex - The Vaccines

Pretty - Coco & Clair Clair

Pretty Cvnt - Sewerslvt

Pumpkin - The Regrettes

Rampage - Nicole Dollanganger

Rät - Penelope Scott (please dont come for me oh god i swear this song hits when youre getting over an ex fp)

Redmageddon - Sodikken

Rehab - Weathers

Remember You from adventure time

Rescue Us - Story One

Rest Stop - Whatever, Dad

<Restart> - Oscar Lang

Restless - Teen Suicide

Revenge - XXXTENTACION

Rock Bottom - Blood Girl

Rockit - Gorillaz

Rosary - Fox Academy

Ruru’s Suicide Show on a Livestream - Shinsei Kamattechan

Saint - Fox Academy

Saint Bernard 2 - Lincoln

Salvia Plath - Teen Suicide (an all time favorite of mine!!)

Sarah - Alex G

Savior Complex - Phoebe Bridgers

School Rooftop (Slowed Down Version) - Hisohkah

Scout Finch Bitch - Kitty

Scroll Patrol - Rinse & Repeat (another all time favorite of mine)

Self Care - Penelope Scott

Seventeen - Ladytron

She Likes Another Boy - Oscar Lang

Silence - Pop Club

Silver Soul - Beach House

Sippy Cup - Mazie

Skeleton Appreciation Day in Vestal, NY (Bones) - Will Wood and the Tapeworms

Slacker - Chloe Moriondo

Sleep - Mom

Sleeping - Bulldog Eyes

Sleeping Powder - Gorillaz

Sleepwalk - Santo & Johnny

Sleepyhead - The Scary Jokes

Slipping Through My Fingers from Mamma Mia!

Smile Like You Mean It - The Killers (also the Tally Hall cover)

So Mean - Poppy

So Much - Cavetown

So Wet - Elita (ITS A MONSTERFUCKER SONG APPARENTLY)

Soap - Penelope Scott

Soon I’ll Be Leaving - Bulldog Eyes

Souk Eye - Gorillaz

Sound Check (Gravity) - Gorillaz

Sour Switchblade - Elita

Space Song - Beach House

Special - Joe Hawley

Spooky Ghost - Teen Suicide

Spud - Whatever, Dad

Stalemate_Spud - Whatever, Dad

Starstruck - The Scary Jokes

Still Life - Sitcom

Stranded Lullaby - Miracle Musical (also the ghost demo)

Strange Dayz - Weathers

Sucking Souls - Elita

Sweet Hibiscus Tea - Penelope Scott

Swimming - Teen Suicide

Tadpoles Lullaby - Galen Tipton

Tear You Apart - She Wants Revenge

Teeth - Limbo

Telephones - Vacations

Tell Me It’s Okay (Self-Titled Demo) - Paramore

Thank You, Sorry - Ky Vöss

Thanku - Blood Girl

That Funny Feeling - Bo Burnham

The Beer - Kimya Dawson

The Big Joyous Celebration - Teen Suicide

The Family Jewels - Marina

The Leanover - Life Without Buildings

The Shopping Cart Song - UnderBite

The Spine Song - Cake Bake Betty

This Could Build Us a Home - The Garden

Three AM - Gurldoll

Tippy and Zelda - Whatever, Dad

Tire Swing - Kimya Dawson

Tired of Waiting - Ulle Kamelle

Too Late Now - Wet Leg

Touch-Tone Telephone

Townie - Mitski

Toynbee Tiles - The Scary Jokes

Training Wheels - Melanie Martinez

Trash - Alex G

Trees and Flowers - Strawberry Switchblade

Two Slow Dancers - Mitski

Two Weeks - Grizzly Bear

Variations on a Cloud - Miracle Musical

Vas - Jagger Finn

Violent - carolesdaughter

Virgin Veins - Coma Cinema

Walking the Cow - Daniel Johnston

Wallflower - Moses Campbell

Want You Gone - Aperture Science Psychoacoustic Laboratories

Warm Regards - Penelope Scott

Warsh - Whatever, Dad

Warsh_Tippy and Zelda - Whatever, Dad

Welcome and Goodbye - dream, ivory

Wet - Dazey and the Scouts

Whispering Glades - Nicole Dollanganger

Winter Snakes - Joy Again

Worthless - Teen Suicide

You Should Know - Penelope Scott

You’re So Cool - Nicole Dollanganger

You’re the Reason I Believe in Ghosts - Starry Cat

Young - Vacations

64 Little White Things - Cake Bake Betty

and lastly songs that arent officially released on apple music so i listen to them on soundcloud

Agony - Yung Lean instrumental

All of My Friends - Tally Hall

Anathema - Twenty One Pilots

Drizzle - Penelope Scott

ENA remix

From Russia With Love - Penelope Scott

How Did I Ever - Clairo

I’m Not Angry Anymore - Paramore but a slowed version specifically

Memoir #2 - May Roosevelt

My Kind of Woman - Poppy cover

Nuts - Lil Peep

Papayawhip (God or whatever) - Penelope Scott

Possibly in Michigan soundtrack

rain on me - joji

Rolling Girl - Wowaka

Runaway Runaway - Mars Argo

Shinitai-Chan idk who made it :(

Sucka Stand Up (Intro) - theyoungcrooksband

thought paths - monomau

Treehouse - Alex G

Useless - I Know Leopard

Using You - Mars Argo

waitin 4ur ## call - <<##33

Warm Nights - Xori

yoshi island ending theme

4 Morant - Doja Cat

& It’s Beautiful - The Scary Jokes

#mine #music #playlist #weirdcore #dreamcore #made of styrofoam #reblogs are very much appreciated

[katierosefun]

little habits i’ve taken up over the course of the last month that have made me feel a little more grounded: 

listening to at least one (1) happy/cheerful song a day. it’s so easy to spiral even more when you’re listening to a depressing playlist. trust me,  i love mitski + phoebe bridgers + kdrama osts as much as the next gal, but you have to listen to at least one somewhat upbeat song. i have a private playlist called “comedic beats” now which are just feel-good pop-y songs now. 

trying to walk new routes. i’ve lived on the same campus for maybe 3.5 years now, but i’m only just learning new hiding places + walking routes now because i just don’t want to go back inside. it’s peaceful, drinking water or coffee and listening to music and discovering the rooftop of the theater building or the huge patch of wildflowers on the hill by the health center. 

count / look for wildflowers / new plants. idk. maybe harder if you’re living in a city, but even if it’s just some potted plants on your neighbors’ window sill or dumb little dandelion weeds in your park, take note of them. take a picture. it feels kinda stupid at first, but for some reason, it makes me feel happy. i saw some flowers growing out of a tree stump and i cried over it. 

if able, try a new food / drink. i’m a broke college student so i try not to spend too much on things like takeout, but i went to a bubble tea place with my friends the other weekend and went out and ordered a new drink (red bean slush). literally made my whole fucking week because not only was it good, but like. stepping out of comfort zones to find something even better than you’d imagined always feels weirdly refreshing. try to carry that energy with the rest of your day/week. 

shower as soon as you get home. i used to sometimes just sit in my room hours after coming back in from the day (even though i didn’t have anywhere else to be). this would quickly lead to me just sitting in the same spot, feeling weirdly grimy from the day and then suddenly it would be midnight, and i still hadn’t taken a shower and i feel icky but also tired and even though i wind up taking a shower, it feels weird. so. i find that as soon as i take a shower when i know i’m done for the day, my body and brain relaxes a little bit, even if i’m still staying up late to do homework or something. it’s one less thing for your brain to worry about when you get into bed, so! do it now! 

#caroline talks #no one asked for this #but i felt it was important to note #idk if anyone else feels like they're hanging on by a thread these days #i know i certainly am #but we're looking for brightness where we can

[t4tbruharvey]

i was tagged by @cndybracelet to share 9 songs i'm obsessed with tysm bestie i LOVE talking about things i like it's my favourite hobby actually

1. get into it (yuh) by doja cat. the lyrics are so addictive and the whole thing is so fun to do moving tasks to (walking, making tea in an empty kitchen where i can dance, showering, washing my face, participating in an imaginary fight scene yes that's a task i do it every day)

2. love me more by mitski i need you to love me more! love me more! love me more! love enough to fill me up fill me up fill me UP! just the way she sings the chorus has such a pleasing throat feel and the video is stellar

3&4. crane your neck & hair to the ferris wheel by lady lamb. songs of all time

5. PYNK BY JANELLE MONÁE it's soooo good the whole thing feels like a sunset

6. bag of bones by mitski it's so relentless even while in like the depths of despair and apathy. over and over again my nail colours are wearing off.

7&8. pierre and natasha & the great comet of 1812 it's like THE best way to end a musical in the sense that it makes me cry like a little baby. all of it is exactly what a young adult who feels hopeless needs to hear and like yeah they get married in the book but the fact that pierre has his come to go moment because he opens up and listens to someone he previously disliked because he felt he was supposed to – the fact that he finally feels love by showing kindness – is THE most moving thing ever

9. fetch the bolt cutters by fiona apple because you see 'you maim when you're on offence but you kill when you're on defence' is sooooo good and so correct and life changing

tagging @professionalowl, @funky-sea-cryptid, @shortforesmerelda, @unicornswilleatyourboobies, @no-name-road, @igbygoesdown and like whoever else wants to do it. if you see this post you're tagged now.