saw a post i disagreed with and was so brave about it (didn't reblog bc the poster had an opinion which was different than mine but equally valid so i made my own post instead)
Me: I still don't understand how people knew I was a butch lesbian this long before I knew
Also me: *Hears Andrea Gibson's piece "I do" for the first time at 15 years old and ugly cries so hard I start hyper ventilating and I can't figure out why*
still not over the “you may experience side effects, like a compulsion to come back”
[ID: A drawing of Troy and Abed from Community. Abed stands on the left, facing downward while his right hand holds Troy’s hand by the pinky finger. Troy stands to the right, facing Abed and looking surprised. Troy wears a sailor hat, a grey hoodie, and blue jeans. Abed wears an orange flannel and blue jeans. The background is a light purple. There is a grey pigeon standing on the ground behind Troy. /End ID]
1. Buck is not ok and still struggling more than he lets on/ than he knows himself
2. The lightning changed something not only for Buck but also for Eddie personally
3. It changed something in their relationship
4. Eddie realizes that his own experience with death and the shooting fundamentally changed something for him
5. It's changed for him what he ACTUALLY wants in life, that the fantasy he had about life is not the reality he wants
(6. He starts to understand that maybe he needs to look a little closer at this relationship abd be honest with himself and needs to decide if he wants to risk anything changing between them)
It also looks like he's a bit surprised how he could let himself believe that Buck was his old self and fine. Cause he KNOWS Buck and recognized that something is off but also because he knows from his own experience how much something like this changes you.
It's also very interesting that he asks Buck then "What changed in you"
Cause has he, himself, ever voiced what changed in him?
We have his fear. But that's not the answer, especially not to what changed in him after the shooting.
The fear is related to what happened during the army and that he won't ever feel normal again. But even then we didn't get to know what exactly this means.
We still haven't heard anything from him what the shooting changed within him and how it affects his outlook on life.
And I'm wondering if, maybe, he hadn't realized himself until now that it DID change him.
All in all we're inching closer and closer to the grand finale and I for one can't wait to see what they cooked up for us cause with the way things have been going, they'll give us something we didn't expect.
I had asked James to write a bit about what 72 Seasons meant to him. But even before we received that, Lars shared that James did say one thing he thought was particularly interesting, which was “prisoner of childhood.” So Lars was the guy who distilled a lot of what James had to say into a phrase that became extremely powerful for us creatively. It was a brilliant synthesis of all the ideas behind 72 Seasons in three words.
-David Turner about the concept art and design of 72 Seasons
jonathan/eddie makes me so sick (POSITIVE!) because in the magical fantastical self indulgent world i have created in my brain in which they were in each others periphery since childhood and only really got close in the background while things were getting tense in jonathan's life is something that can be SO personal. eddie has to move in with wayne after middle school? jonathan finds his way to his new trailer whenever he can, it's muscle memory by the time he comes back to hawkins. lonnie fucks off from the byers? jonathan and eddie spend the night near castle byers writing a list of all the bands they're gonna see when they gain more independence. eddie loiters around the photography club (never participates or engages, just lurks) when jonathan moves to california. that kinda stuff
doing the dark brotherhood questline in eso and it's like the writers had just discovered the word clandestine and were determined to use it at every possibility