#I’m on my bullshit again!!!

[spoekelse]

a criticism I see of sao is often along the lines of “what’s the message? that video games are better than real life? that being trapped in the game was Good, Actually? that doesn’t apply to real life at all. that’s a useless thought experiment akin to contemplating the ethics of fucking your clone.”

the way the aincrad arc was about how you have to find love and happiness in the here & now, no matter how bleak things are. because when fighting for a cause, it’s so easy to deny yourself joy until that far-off dream is achieved; you tell yourself you’ll rest after you’ve saved enough money for early retirement. or when capitalism is over and homelessness eradicated. or when you’ve finally reached peak physical form. or when the war is over.

but so many people die before that happens. or they live to see it but shortly succumb to trauma or just the ravages of time. all those years spent fighting for your cause, but now you’ve won you’re an adult and you never had a chance to have any semblance of a childhood. or now you’ve grown so accustomed to misery, you don’t know how to treat happiness- so accustomed to pressure and hatred, you’re cruel and harsh to the people around you.

in sao, life went on, in its strange way. people went fishing. they got married. they cooked and ate for pleasure. they did quests and events for fun. people sarcastically say “they’re trapped in a death game and all they can think about is buying a cottage and fucking?” as if there wasn’t a very direct reasoning for this in the plot. them experiencing a sort of burnout, as well as distrust in the system as it was. them realising their own mortality, that they could be killed any day now; that it’s better to die in love than to die miserable.

#sao #kirisuna #sword art online #whispers of spoekelse #I’m on my bullshit again!!!

[soup-of-the-daisies]

cannot stop thinking about that meta that’s like “voldemort’s ultimate goal was to simply destroy the british wizarding world” because it makes so much sense. tom riddle was a poor, orphaned, assumed muggleborn boy with a (most likely) ‘commoner’ accent and a distaste for humanity who sorted into slytherin, the hogwarts house infamous for being filled with loud rich bigots. tom riddle, with his background, could not have possibly been very popular those first few years of his schooling. tom riddle would’ve loathed the lot of them, all those arrogant, spoiled rich kids boasting about their family line. finding out he was the heir of slytherin would have been both a relief (he has something to fit in) and a jackpot (if they knew, they’d bow before him). and he uses that heritage later, when ‘tom riddle’ has disappeared and a stranger called ‘voldemort’ appears in his place. the fanatics literally kiss his feet.

voldemort is canonically a genius. he would’ve known that non-magical blood doesn’t make you dirty or less talented, because he himself is the prime example of that. espousing the bigoted pureblood agenda was simply the easiest way to gain power over the ones in power—all to send society crumbling to the ground from the inside. he takes over the ministry and ruins it, taking the first steps in tearing down the establishment; he kills regardless of blood, implying he doesn’t give one flying fuck what your heritage is; he tries to destroy the sorting hat, which would render the concept of ‘houses’ void.

personally i think it’s very interesting and appealing to put this interpretation in the context of tomarry/harrymort. i’ve always HC’d that harry will grow tired when he’s older, after he’s saved the wizarding world once (at the expense of his own happiness and well-being) and sees that nothing has changed or will change. that voldemort was a symptom, not the disease. that he and hermione and ron keep struggling, working themselves to the bone to make their world more fair and to suppress and eradicate the rampant underlying bigotry, but that it just won’t take.

and with an older harry, an embittered one, turned caustic and cynical by the very world he once viewed as his sanctuary—i don’t really think their beliefs would differ all that much. they’ve both seen and experienced the injustices. they’re both annoyed and disenchanted. harry will always have a regard for life, and voldemort won’t ever, but if anyone would have a wish to tear society down and build it back up again it’s them both.

#can you tell i’m back on my bullshit again #tomarry #harrymort #voldemort #tom riddle #harry potter #‘you took everything from me and destroying you won’t bring them back but i’ll give me the satisfaction of revenge’ etc #harry is inherently a hopeful and fiercely loving person and that’s what makes him Not Tom #and also morally a way better person LMAO #but i think this would be so fun to explore

[chickengeak]

“He’s told us not to blow it

‘Cause he knows it’s all worthwhile”

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital artists #illustration #procreate #s'chn t'gai spock #spock #vulcan #star trek tos #star trek #I’m back on my bullshit again #my favourite #fanart #chickengeak

[potatocrisp]

hold monster sure was a wild spell huh….

#sometimes i draw things #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 tav #bg3 raphael #sorry I’m on my usual bullshit again

[theearnestonion]

HELP

#good god I was still recovering from muskrat buying twitter & misha coming out as straight #Gonna tag this as Everthign because again it’s 3:30 am #I have no self control & I think I’m Hilarious #Eurovision #Dracula daily #friday the 13th #mcr #lunar eclipse 2022 #absolutely everyone has to deal with my bullshit todat #Something something It’s a beautiful morning I’m a terrible goose etc etc

[death-by-sc0tland]

it destroys me that the master went all ballistic after he learnt about the timeless child partly bc it meant that him and the doctor weren’t truly equals anymore but the doctor would never think of herself as more than the master bc of it and only threw the “it makes me more” in his face bc he was being an asshole about it

#i’m on my spydoc bullshit again #thoschei #dhawan!master #thirteenth doctor #doctor who

[towards-toramunda]

Hey do you ever think about Orym being a self proclaimed romantic who is “super lonely all the time, especially at night” and how guilty he feels about wanting romantic connection because he still loves his husband, and sees Will’s face every night before going to bed, but he’s starting to realize his deeper attraction to Ashton as something real and realize his pining for Dorian as something he shouldn’t ignore, but he was supposed to be with Will and he’s come to terms with Will dying, but sometimes it hurts so much, and yes he wants romantic connection and he’s so lonely, but he still hasn’t gotten revenge for Will’s death, and he may die soon so why pursue anything if he’s gonna be with Will again in the afterlife, BUT he may die soon and why hold off on admitting how he feels when he knows that despite losing Will the time they had was real good and he wouldn’t trade it for anything, and what if he doesn’t die what if it all turns out okay and maybe he now really has a reason to want and hope for not just *the* future, but HIS future because that future could include Dorian or Ashton and is it bad to not want to be with Will sooner or is it better to want to live and be with someone who cares for him because thats what Will would want and he wants romantic connection and he is so lonely all the time, especially at night, and what if I started chewing the drywall huh?

#Hello My Brain Is Only Thinking Orym Thoughts #Liam can’t just drop that Orym is super lonely all the time especially at night and expect any of us to be normal about it #critical role #cr spoilers #orym of the air ashari #this is your chance to get a peak into my craziness #ashrym #dorym #again I’m not much of a dorym girlie pop #BUT #I see the vision #and if Robbie comes back for a long time and can give me the good good slow burn I desire? what then am I to do but agree #but I’m still on my ashrym bull shit #I’m so deep in my ashrym bullshit my passive perception is 48 #a forehead kiss and loneliness admission makes me lose my gd mind #I admit that this is excessive but blame the adhd hyperfixation I am just along for the ride

[communistkenobi]

I’m reflecting on cesaire’s work again and one of the little flourishes he does in discourse on colonialism is that he says the west will have to answer for its crimes against the human community. and I especially love this line because he’s using the same bourgeois universalising language that the imperial core so often does (“human rights” “freedom and justice for all” “spreading democracy across the globe”) but as a cudgel against the west, to reframe the human community as all those who lay outside of it. anyway I think everyone should read discourse on colonialism

#I need to brush up on my post colonial reading I’m not as well read as I’d like to be #once I finish my coursework I’ll have more time for reading shit I actually want to read lol #like I’m reading so much stupid bullshit that does not matter for class #genuinely useless theory that I will never pick up again #I want to finish orientalism in particular. one of the most didactic books I’ve ever read #like said’s writing is like every sentence restates his central argument. It’s an unrelenting book in a really compelling way #Interspersed with him talking fine grain shit about a bunch of European intellectuals I’ve never heard of lol #book club

[dissentersrising]

SOMEWHERE IN NEVADA, THE ICON OF SIN

#flight rising #frfanart #/etc/art time #/dragon/hank j wimbleton #//blood #THOUGHT YOU’D SEEN THE LAST OF MY MADCOM BULLSHIT DIDJA #WRONG! I’M BACK ON IT AGAIN BABEYYYYYYYY

[homodotus]

rhaenyra on the iron throne with alicent on her lap

#i’m on my bullshit again #rhaenicent #rhaenyra x alicent #rhaenyra targaryen #alicent hightower #emma d’arcy #olivia cooke #milly alcock #emily carey #house of the dragon #game of thrones

[vldlance]

uses valentine’s as an excuse to put keith in a suit

#klance #keith kogane #lance mcclain #klance art #voltron #hello i’m back again. lots of klance bullshit running through my mind lately please enjoy #juno.txt #my art #kindating

[newdejavuu]

I will probably write about this in more detail later. but while im on the subject of “pre-hiatus/early fob is better than post-hiatus fob” brain rot:

if you look at photos and gifs and videos of soul punk era patrick and think that was the happiest or healthiest that he has ever been. i want you to look in the mirror really closely and examine why. think about it really hard for me ok.

#im begging some of y’all to open ur eyes and read the things you type and say #maybe I’m just projecting bc. of my age and place in life and a variety of other reasons but #soul punk patrick never looked that happy to me #I saw a young man who had been torn to shreds & forced to put himself back together only to be torn to shreds again but now ON HIS OWN #& forced to smile for everyone while he did so #like. his body language during so many interviews and fan interactions. cmon y’all do you not see it #the thinly veiled bitterness and anger #bandom bullshit #kayce’s corner.txt

[pepperedstars04]

therapy isn’t enough. i need to kiss harvey stardew valley on the mouth.

#stardew valley #sdv #harvey stardew valley #harvey sdv #stardew valley harvey #sdv harvey #harveyposting #i’m back on my sdv bullshit again BABEEEEEY

[seveneyesoup]

ngl i’m still worried. like i Do have complete faith in ncuti gatwa but what i Don’t have is much faith at all in rtd’s writing about race

#which id managed to sort of convince myself was maybe #it’s been like 15 years he’s had time to learn better #but the comment Immediately about ‘different colors’ in todays ep #and w the toymakers past. #i’m hoping for the best i really actively am but i’m hesitant #not even writing about race just writing that has anything to do w it #i will never forgive him for martha jones #and my cynicism is saying bringing dt back for three eps and specifically being pretty good about trans people and disabled people #is a good favor investment so he can keep a progressive image and get away w racism #i don’t actually believe that for the record #i’m just worried ncuti gatwa is gonna have to deal with Some Bullshit that’s gonna get blamed on him instead of rtd yk #which is bad for him bc it means a bad working environment and also like. taking the blame for something he didn’t even do #or that if he pushes back on something bad he’ll get branded as difficult to work with etc #anyway. worry once suffer twice or whatever and i think i said all this when the announcements were made #it’s just on my mind again #i want the best for the show and the people making it yk?

[nothingweirdhere]

ok so i tried to comment on a post on r/adhd talking about some bullshit a psychiatrist told me about how she wouldn’t diagnose me with autism bc i had a fairly large group of friends and autistic people can’t have that many friends (yeah, what the fuck), despite the fact that basically that entire group was neurodivergent (and queer) and at least one person in it would eventually BE OFFICIALLY DIAGNOSED WITH AUTISM.

then i get this message

imo this is wack. firstly, neurodivergent IS just a descriptor. full stop. and i don’t want to say “people with mental health disorders” or any bullshit like that. (especially since adhd & autism are neurodevelopmental disorders, not mental illnesses) it’s clunky and awkward and in my experience NOT HOW PEOPLE TALK. neurodivergent is an incredibly widespread term! there’s nothing wrong with it!

then i checked out the links, and here’s some of their “position on neurodiversity” post

this is all bullshit? like i also disagree with framing neurodiversity as purely neutral differences in cognition—yes certain things would be much less disabling if society was more accommodating, but even in a perfect world things like adhd and autism would still be distressing/disabling for a large number of people. they’re using the beliefs of specific groups that also happen to use terms like neurodivergent (because it’s a descriptor and a lot of people use it!!!) to label everyone who uses those words as part of a specific “neurodiversity movement” and i don’t like that??

anyway i’d like to hear some other people’s opinions on this

#i just woke up so if this is incoherent that’s my bad #but like. i’m kinda mad about this xD #fuckin reddit mods strike again yknow #and yes i could just edit my comment but i don’t want to because #1) i use the word neurodivergent. my friends use that word. if you don’t want to that’s fine but *I* do #and 2) now that i read their bullshit stance i want to change it even less. i don’t agree and i don’t want to go along w this crap #adhd #actually adhd #neurodiversity #neurodivergent #autism #actually autistic #jx.txt

[anxiouspotatorants]

Dinner at the crap shack with post original series! Lorelai, Luke, Sookie, Jackson and Jess who’s visiting (bonus points if Rory happens to be around too), and at some point early in the table conversation Lorelai and Jess make the exact same joke at the exact same time and freeze in horror.

And they try to play it cool, maybe one of them says «jinx you owe me a Coke» but then it happens again, and then again, and it keeps happening why do they have the same banter?? It’s scaring the hell out of them both (and giving the rest of the table some hilarious newfound clarity)

#yes I’m on my Jess and Lorelai are parallels bullshit again #I just think it would be such a funny but also enlightening moment #to have them both realize in terror that they have a lot in common #by making jokes about their dysfunctional mothers #idk it makes sense in my head #jess mariano #lorelai gilmore #gilmore girls #gilmore girls headcanon #my headcanons