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gyuuberryy · 1 year

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jealousy jealousy

xavier thorpe x reader x tyler galpin

>summary: xavier has been blowing you off for the new girl at your school and you’re fed up and jealous of it. somehow things lead to you making out with tyler, the barista at weathervane. oh boy, you really need to sort out your feelings.

>warnings: angst, jealousy, mean!xavier, crying, kissing, slight mentions of food

>word count: 1.4k+

>note: hiii, this is my first fic on this app, i hope you’ll like it. this will have a part 2 as well!

part(2)

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ever since wednesday addams had arrived at nevermore, something eventful always happened. appearances of a bloodthirsty monster, creepy rumours about wednesday, the start of a rivalry between bianca and her. and worst of all, your best friend of six years, xavier thorpe, was obsessed with wednesday.

xavier was too busy following wednesday around like a puppy than to even acknowledge you anymore. recently he had been cancelling your plans at the last moment with sorry excuses, ditching you in lunch, ignoring you for days at a time; to sum it up he was blowing you off like you were nothing but a nuisance to him.

and it hurt, it hurt so much especially since you had recently developed feelings for him and were planning to ask him out to this year’s RaveN. but now it looked like you would never have chance with him. first bianca, now wednesday. ugh, why was your love life so unfortunate.

you were currently on your way to miss thornhill’s botanical science class and were hoping to be able to finally have a talk with xavier as you were his seatmate. thankfully that hadn’t changed as this was the only class you shared with him. but when you reached there, you were disappointed to see none other than wednesday addams sitting in your place, glaring at xavier as if she was forced to sit with him. a pang of hurt went through your chest as you saw the adoring look xavier gave her. so it had finally happened huh? this was the only thing left to do to completely push you out of his life.he had replaced you after all these years of your friendship. he threw it away like it was nothing. he made it clear he didn’t want you around, so you would do the same now.

you stormed past their table and sat at the back. you noticed xavier look back at you but you just ignored him. soon class started and throughout the class bianca and wednesday bickered, which was amusing. wednesday seemed interesting and you know she was not at fault for what xavier was doing to you, so you had no bad blood with her. although, you couldn’t wait to go to weathervane and get yourself a nice cup of coffee.

after class ended, you immediately gathered all your belongings and walked out when a hand latched around your wrist and pulled you to the side. you looked up to be met with a familiar pair of eyes. “xavier?”

he gave you a timid smile, “yeah.”

you freed your arm from his grip and gave him a stony look, “what do you want?”

he looked confused at your reaction, “well you’re in a bad mood today, what happened?” you scoffed, “what happened is that i’ve felt this way the entire week. you’ve been constantly ditching and ignoring me all because of your weird obsession with wednesday!”

his face screwed up into an angry expression and his stance turned defensive. “oh so you’re jealous now huh.”

you couldn't believe him, “i’m more hurt than jealous that you would start ignoring your bestfriend for someone you’ve known for a month. i don't mind her, but it would be nice if you spent some time with me as well or invited me to one of your hangouts.” you threw your hands in the air, “you’re acting as if i don’t even exist anymore.”

xavier just scoffed meanly at your words, “you’re not my only friend y/n. don’t be so clingy and get a life.”

tears stung your eyes but you stopped yourself from crying in front of him,you weren’t going to show him that his words affected you. “oh yeah? so all this time you’ve only seen me as a clingy, pitiful person.” you glared at him, “and for your comment, i have a life. now you just won’t be a part of it anymore.” he looked distraught at your words.

“and to think i ever even liked you”, you muttered and walked away.

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the walk to weathervane was as gloomy as that day’s weather. hopefully it didn’t rain till you got back to your dorm.

the bells of the cafe jingled as you entered and the smell of coffee invaded your senses sighing, you trudged towards the counter and rang the bell kept on it. immediately a head full of brown curls peeked out of the storeroom. “oh hey y/n!”

it was tyler, the sweet and cute barista who worked as a part timer at the cafe. yet, somehow he was always present whenever you came. you gave him a weak smile, “hey tyler, can i get an americano with three shots of espresso.”

his eyes widened, “whoa are you okay? that’s a heavy order, you usually get lattes.” you grimaced, “yeah i’m not exactly feeling too happy today. might as well get something strong.”

he gave you a sweet smile, “then i know exactly what will cheer you up. lemme surprise you with something nice, yeah?” you smiled softly at his concern for you and nodded.

sliding into your favourite booth, you put your head on the table and tried not to recall today’s events, but no matter what you did, they came crashing back at you. how could xavier say all those things to you? all the times that you had been there for him, in his highs and lows, meant nothing to him. he just found you clingy and anno-

“y/n why are you crying?”, tyler’s worried voice broke you out of your thoughts. you looked up and he gasped at the sight of you. tear streaks went down your face and your eyes were red and swollen. you looked miserable. he sat down next to you and pulled you into a hug. you leaned on his chest and closed your eyes, breathing in his sweet scent.

“what happened?”, his voice came out muffled in your hair. you sighed deeply, “i had a big fight with xavier and he said some really mean words.” tyler rubbed your back soothingly at that. “it’s alright, that happens in every friendship.” you moved away from his hug, still in his arms and looked at him, “but he’s been blowing me off and doesn’t even talk to me anymore.” you ranted, “and i even had feeli-” you stopped when you noticed how close you were to his face. your eyes wandered shamelessly over his face, admiring the moles on the right side of his face, his brown eyes that looked like freshly brewed coffee. and his pink lips. you wondered what it would be like to kiss him. no stop! what the hell were you thinking about?

right at that moment the bells at the entrance door jingled, signalling that someone had entered, you both looked to see who it was. surprisingly, it was xavier and he seemed to be looking for something, or rather someone. his eyes brightened when they locked with yours. and as his hand raised to give you a wave, you gripped tyler’s collar and crashed your lips on his. his eyes widened at your gesture initially, but then slowly closed and he tightened his grip around your waist to pull you closer. his lips moved against yours with the same urgency you put in.

the kiss was messy and fast and your head was clouded with fury and all you wanted to do was show xavier that you didn’t need him, to make him jealous. you opened your eyes to make eye contact with him and relished at how his face was scrunched up in anger. he turned around and walked out, slamming the door. you pulled away from tyler, both of your lips swollen and wet. you grinned cheekily as a rosy blush dusted tyler’s cheeks.

“so, what does this mean for us?”

your smile dropped at his words. shit, you hadn’t thought about it. your motive was making xavier jealous, but you hadn’t considered tyler’s feelings. sure, he was really attractive and sweet. recently he had been there for you more than xavier had. and that kiss did make your stomach swarm with butterflies, maybe that was just the adrenaline. but what about xavier, it’s not like you can suddenly push away your feelings for him.

you needed time to think things through and you were sure tyler wouldn’t mind.

you looked at him to see him staring at you expectantly. “i need some time to think things through, i’m not really in a good state of mind right now.” you smiled at him guiltily.

he nodded, “of course, take your time.” you smiled at him.

“meet me at the crackstone crypt tomorrow evening.”

#wednesday #wednesday imagine #tyler galpin #xavier thorpe #xavier thorpe x reader #xavier thorpe imagine #tyler galpin x reader #tyler galpin imagines #wednesday x reader #wednesday 2022 #y/n #hunter doohan #percy hynes white #wednesday addams #xavier thorpe imagines #tyler galpin imagine

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jb5lover · 4 months

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obsessed with jude being your brother’s best friend and you guys secretly hooking up behind his back 🤭 and even though your both scared of how he’ll react when he finds out, the thrill of getting caught just makes the whole thing more exciting

him and your brother would go way back, and throughout their entire friendship he had never felt the need to announce that you were off limits. he assumed jude was aware of this, and he was. he knew messing with his honorary brother’s sister would make violating all sorts of boundaries, and he never planned on doing it. but when you saw each other that night at the party, the two of you looking so impeccable and feeling so madly drunk, it was obvious that all plans had gone on the window. since that night, the two of you had been looking for any free moment to be together.

your brother thought nothing of it when you walked downstairs mid-fifa game to come get a drink from the kitchen. he paid no attention to what you were wearing, which was one of jude’s jerseys over your shorts. what he also didn’t know, was that as you headed back upstairs, you gave jude that look that only hinted one thing to him. with a sweet smile, you headed back up to your room knowing he’d be meeting you in a matter of moments.

“gimme a sec, i have to go to the bathroom,” he announced, as he dropped the controller and walked briskly upstairs, skipping every second step just to get there quicker. almost the moment he arrived into the hallway, you were yanking him into your room and pulling him in by his shirt. “wow, you’re needy,” he muttered into the kiss. “you’re slow, i’ve been waiting for like two minutes,” you whined as you worked to remove his sweatpants hastily, rubbing your hands on him through your underwear.

he wasn’t as delicate in undressing you, choosing to yank your shorts down aggressively, before pushing you down on the bed. “you know this is really, really wrong,” you whined as he pulled down his boxers, letting his dick spring out. “really wrong,” he agreed, removing your underwear and tossing them aside.

“we shouldn’t do this,” you told him before letting out as a gasp as he slipped into you with ease, considering how wet you were. “but i’m glad we are,” he told you nonchalantly, lifting your legs onto his shoulders. he gave no time to allow you to adjust to his size, instead deciding that this quickie has to be exceptionally fast.

“oh, you’re so good at this,” you cried, as he rubbed your clip roughly. “fuck, how are you always so tight?” he grunted, throwing his head back in ecstasy. you knew you were both being a bit loud, increasing the risk of getting caught. but somehow that only turned you on more, and you knew it did the same for jude. no less than five minutes later, you felt your own climax approaching. from the twitching of his cock, you knew he felt the same.

“i’m so close,” you told him, fondling your own breasts as he fucked you harder into the mattress. “me too, i need to pull out,” he warned you. “no, i have to cum,” you argued, refusing to let him deprive you of what you’ve been craving since he prematurely pulled out yesterday when he was taking you from behind on the couch yesterday evening. “y/n, i-”

“jude, either hold in or do what you have to do, either way, you cannot pull out right now,” you whined, feeling him hit deeper and deeper inside of you with every thrust. the sensation of you squeezing around him was beyond unbearable. he tried holding it in for as long as he could but he knew it was no use. “fuck, i’m gonna come inside you,” he grunted out. “oh, please fill me up, i’m gonna cum too!” you sighed, feeling his load spurt every last drop that he had to give.

after catching your breath, and allowing him to throw on his clothes, he prepared to head downstairs. “you’re on the pill, right? i can go to the pharmacy if you need me t-”

“yes, i am the pill. no need for the pharmacy. in fact, if you finish up your fifa game a little early, we can try this again maybe. my brother’s got a shift later tonight. you won’t need to cover my mouth this time,” you told him, sending him a suggestive wink.

#jude bellingham #jude bellingham smut #my mini jude blurbs

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hausofneptune · 4 months

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aspects/placements i love (and hate!) in my chart pt. 1

[astro notes no. 003]

hey y’all! i felt like going through some of my personal aspects/placements and describing the “positive” and “negative” ways they’ve manifested in my life, so here we are. this ended up being longer than i thought it would, so i'll end up doing a part two since i really enjoyed making this!

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venus conj. neptune in aquarius (1°03’) in the 1H

this is one of my favorite placements. i feel like this + my pisces sun can make me appear to others as “ethereal” at times, but if i’m keeping it a buck, it also makes me extremely evasive. i have a good amount of aquarius influence in my chart as well, so all of this combined definitely makes me feel like i have to put in effort to not come off as too impersonal, especially towards my loved ones.

having neptune in my 1H also makes me feel like people perceive me to be someone that i’m not. like even my close friends and family, i don’t feel like anyone actually understands who i am, and i don’t think i’ve ever had a relationship (platonic, romantic, or familial) where i felt like i was seen for who i actually am, or where i was able to connect to somebody on a deeper, spiritual level. i can also over-romanticize people and situations at times, but i’ve grown out of this habit… for the most part.

i’ve always been an extremely creative/artistic person. i’ve been drawing, painting, writing, and singing since i was a kid, and i even sell my artwork now as an adult. i’m extremely imaginative, but i do have to be careful to not get too in my head and forget to participate in reality, if that makes sense. i’ve also had issues with dissociation and memory loss throughout my life. i feel like my lived experience has more to do with that, but i can see how the Neptunian influence in my chart could play a role in it as well.

venus opposite north node in the 7H (1°40’)

there are some placements that convince me that the universe was tryna be funny when it made my birth chart. this is one of them. i have so many things in my chart that can make it challenging at times to form meaningful, trustful relationships with other people, and it’s interesting to me the fact that my spiritual growth is something that’s supposed to be found… through my relationships with other people. i try not to victimize myself too much and look at things from an objective lens, but i would be lying if i said it didn’t feel like people find it convenient to have me in their lives only when i allow them to view me in a way that makes them feel the most comfortable.

like i mentioned, i can be very avoidant, it’s something i’m working on. but i know that it’s possible for me to have fulfilling connections with other people, and obviously with this placement it’s something i need to work through my aversion to, seeing as my self-development and spiritual growth is something that’s extremely important to me and deep down i do want to want to experience having meaningful, healthy relationships.

sun sextile lilith (within 3.0°) in the 11H / chiron in the 11H

let me tell you, most of the people i’ve been friends with over the years, regardless of gender, hypersexualize the fuck out of me. especially the men i’ve been friends with, majority of them had feelings for me that i never reciprocated. i was actually friends with a girl in high school who’s moon fell in my 8H, and in hindsight she had a very unhinged, borderline obsession with me. she would speak to me, and get mad at me, as if we were in a relationship together, and did not understand any type of boundaries that you’re supposed to have with someone you’re friends with. i don’t hold it against her now as an adult, but we definitely don’t speak to each other anymore.

i’ve also encountered issues in regards to the relationships i've with women, mainly when i was younger though, the women i’m acquainted with now i have healthy, normal friendships with (thank god). but i’ve had friendships with girls where they secretly didn’t like me, they were secretly attracted to me, or both. and i don't mean this in a weird, misogynistic, "pick me i'm different!" type of way at all, this is just a pattern i picked up on with some of the women i've met throughout my life.

in regards to having chiron in my 11H, my sore spot is most definitely my friendships. on top of feeling misunderstood and objectified in the friendships i’ve had, i’ve also experienced trauma at the hands of people i thought were my friends. and i always do my best to exercise being mindful and self-aware, and i’m definitely not on some “i’ve always been the perfect friend and people hurt me regardless, boo-hoo, woe-is-me” type shit, because i’ve definitely hurt people in my lifetime. but in terms of how these placements have manifested, i’ve always encountered difficulty in connecting to others, and i’m just now getting to a point where i feel comfortable enough to even attempt to try making new friends again.

and this is what i mean when i say: astrology is a tool that you can use for shit that is more important than your appearance and future partner! it wasn’t until my 12H profection year when i started studying traditional astrology and learned how to read charts, that i actually began to understand myself on a deeper level and gained the confidence to end friendships that no longer served me and made new ones that actually do.

chiron in my 11H also makes me feel inclined to take on a “therapist” role in my friendships, something that can be good or bad depending on whether the boundaries are there or not. i tend to attract people who like to trauma dump on me (that’s my moon in the 8H influence too), and i have to actively put boundaries in place and make sure people around me understand that i have to be in the right mindset to hold space for them. there aren’t a lot of pisces sun stereotypes that i can relate to, but being an emotional sponge is definitely one that i can. unfortunately.

moon and ceres in virgo in the 8H

LMAOOO this one might be a little heavy. i apologize in advance. feel free to skip this one if you don’t want to hear about parental/maternal loss or my mommy issues <3

my relationship with my mom is without a doubt where a lot of my emotional avoidance comes from. that plus my moon being in the 8H makes me very guarded when it comes to emotional vulnerability, even with the people i’m closest to. without telling a bunch of strangers on the internet too much of my business, here are the sparknotes:

my home life growing up (and to this day lowkey) never felt stable

it never felt like i could feel my emotions without them “consuming” me, this was mainly an issue in my youth, i was around 12-years-old when i started going to therapy and taking antidepressants

my mom battled a chronic disease her entire life and passed away when i was a teenager

i’ve always craved to have deep, spiritual connections with people, and ever since i was a kid i’ve been extremely intuitive and had the ability to read a room and everyone in it without anyone having to speak, but i typically attract people who are either emotionally unavailable, or emotionally unstable in some way, probably because i come off as “closed off” on the surface.

in terms of my relationship with my mom, i love her but i could never be vulnerable with her about a damn thing, like i never really felt “heard” by her. she was a taurus sun, scorpio moon, with an aries stellium, as soon as she had her mind made up about something it didn’t really matter how i felt (pluto also falls in my 10H, and i definitely viewed her as an “authority figure” more than a mother at times). y’all remember this scene from lady bird where her mom tells her she wants her to “be the best version of herself she can be” and she asks “what if this is the best version?” - it was very much so that.

and i don’t want to give the impression that my mom didn’t love me because she definitely did. i think it was just a matter of what a lot of us eventually come to understand about our parents; that they’re products of the environments and the people they were raised by. and in my mom’s case, she did her best with the cards she was dealt and showed up the best way she could. it doesn’t make my feelings any less important, but it helps to maintain the balance between recognizing her humanity, and also validating my own frustration and trauma regarding our relationship.

venus conjunct ascendant in aquarius (2°40’)

i didn't wanna end this post on a depressing ass note so i'm adding this last aspect lmfao. honestly i struggle with some of the venusian energy in my chart because i honestly never really felt "pretty" growing up. it might be neptune in my 1H that effects my self image, because it wasn't until my 20s that i actually started to genuinely recognize my beauty. i feel like growing up i only viewed my beauty through the lens of the "male gaze" (it didn't help that i felt objectified from the boys around me), or through the lens of euro-centric/white beauty standards, and in adulthood i'm finally approaching the way that i view myself from my perspective.

i do notice that i attract people very easily, both in a friendly and romantic way. i know this aspect has to do a lot with love and romance, but honestly, i'm not too concerned about being in a relationship at this point in my life (with the way the economy is set up i think we all got bigger fish to fry rn but that's neither here nor there-), but like i mentioned i've always been an artist at heart and the art that i create plays a really big role in my identity. i've always found it easier to express myself through my paintings or my writing rather than my words.

aesthetics and comfortability are pretty big for me too, more so now in my 20s. this aspect has a lot to do with sociability and being inclined to uplift and help others, and i can relate to the latter but when it comes to other aspects in my chart i do struggle with being "outgoing" and coming across friendly, but we'll get to that in part two.

as always, if y'all have any of the aspects/placements mentioned in this post let me know how they manifest in your life and personality, and if you have any insight or questions in general feel free to reach out!

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merakiui · 4 months

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thanks to the other anon I’ve been thinking about the same gang bang plot but you’re the octavinelle trio’s sweet, beloved and oh so trusting childhood friend

What if you were their human childhood friend!!!! You were a forbidden entertainment for them, as their parents constantly warned them of the dangers of the surface. But you were so fascinated by the twins and their unique way of doing things. They'd always bring all sorts of treasures from the sea for you and you'd return with human things for them to ogle at. It wasn't long before the two eel-mers managed to convince drag their octo-mer friend to meet you. He was shy and cowered away from you at first, but you'd regarded him so gently and sweetly. The lot of you became close friends, often meeting at a shallow cove whenever you could.

Throughout the years, as you mature and grow, platonic, friendly feelings evolve into something a little more...obsessive. When you lament about that one persistent person from your class who keeps trying to ask you out on a date, Jade and Floyd feel so monstrously territorial, and Azul thinks of all the ways he can poison that person, drag them to their doom in inky depths, transform them into some grotesque terror so that you'll never feel compelled to look their way again.

But they refrain, if only because they're in the sea and that bothersome human is tucked away safely on the shore, just out of reach. It may seem difficult to keep up a friendship with merfolk when the tides are always moving and life ebbs and flows with constant change. But then the surface is much the same; humans come and go just as mers do, only you and the trio never drift apart. If anything, your bond grows stronger throughout time. You trust them with your life, allowing them to guide you out into sea for an afternoon swim. They keep you safe and have never allowed any harm to befall you. And why would they? They love you.

So it scares you when they're pulling you into the water, forceful and direct despite the sweet lilt in their voices. The lower half of your anatomy is so unfamiliar to them, but they've studied plenty of textbooks on humans and they've seen you enough times to know where certain areas are as they appeared in the textbook diagrams. You fight them, confused and terrified, but they're all so strong. Struggling is futile, even more so when it leaves you trapped between the three of them, restricted by tentacles and constricted by the morays...

You want to fool yourself into thinking they're just confused, that this is a mistake and they don't actually intend on mating with you, but your swimsuit is torn to shreds and any delusion you'd been trying to uphold promptly withers away. And your virginity goes with it, leaving you bloody with bites and stuffed full of tentacles and eel cock, so fucked out that you don't object when they coo at you that they'll be yours and you'll be theirs. Forever and always.

You won't need to return to the surface after that. They're going to bring you to their home. It was just a cruel twist of fate that you were always intended to be out of their grasp. But now they finally have you. <3

#twisted chit chat #tw: noncon #n/sfw #uuwuaaa they're the worst orz i love the slimy scummy fish

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bengiyo · 7 months

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Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks....

10 Favorite Characters

You asked a broad question, so I hope you’re okay with answers outside of my daily posting. I post a lot about BL on here, but this list is a mild reminder that I am Black. As I’m putting this list together, I’m recognizing a common thread of ruthlessness in these characters that I will have to unpack at some point.

Omar Little (The Wire)

Omar is one of my favorite characters of all time because he was the first sympathetic gay character I ever watched on TV with my dad. As I got older, my dad decided I was old enough and wanted me to watch what he considered to be one of the greatest shows ever made (NOTE: He is correct). I was obsessed with Omar because of his strict code and how gentle and loving he was with his boyfriends. It was amazing to me that we had this powerful gay character in the middle of a modern Greek tragedy and he is one of the most compelling characters ever created in American television.

Ender Wiggin (Ender’s Game)

One of the sad thing about growing up queer is the people who wrote a lot of your formative works hate queer people. Orson Scott Card was my first major disappointment in this regard. In the 7th grade, I discovered this book in our school library and ended up reading it and the related books multiple times throughout my adolescence. I was a weird kid who was too smart for my own good. In middle school I struggled with feeling out of place because I was relatively new compared to most of these kids, and my family had me on a specific life track that meant that I had to perform at a high level constantly. I connected with Ender’s isolation and his brilliance. I also connected to his ruthlessness.

Marco (Animorphs)

Animorphs is a pretty dark series for a bunch of elementary school kids to read, but that was K. A. Applegate’s point. War is horrible, and should be avoided. Reading this series is a reading the perspective of child soldiers. There was something about the way Marco always masked with jokes, but was quietly the most ruthless member of their group that means he’s always the one I remember first. There were also the ways he commented on Ax and Jake that just didn’t read straight, and I’ve been relieved that Applegate and the ghost writers have acknowledged the fan read on Marco’s bisexuality. I just love how from appearances at the end of the series Marco is actually okay after all the war, but he absolutely is not.

Benjamin Sisko (Star Trek: Deep Space Nine)

He was our first Black captain in Star Trek and I will love him forever. He’s also from New Orleans and cooks our food. He’s a devoted father, which was something Avery Brooks requested for the role to make sure we had a positive depiction of Black fatherhood on TV in the 90s. He has an understated spirituality to him. He has grit from facing the ugly side of maintaining a utopia and has an incredible temper that he holds most of the time. He’s a nerd about baseball. He cares about his people and holds firm as their commander. This isn’t a committee for him. He can be so brutal. I love him.

Ghost Dog (Ghost Dog)

Ghost Dog (1999) is one of my favorite movies of all time, and I’ve always loved the version of masculinity Forest Whitaker put into this character. He has a sense of style and flair, and also follows a strict code of conduct. His adherence to his way earned him the respect of everyone in his community, and gangsters in his neighborhood show him admiration and respect. I loved his friendship with Raymond, in which neither knows what the other is saying and yet they are actually on the same page constantly.

Raymond Holt (Brooklyn Nine-Nine)

Yes, this show is copaganda, but I love Raymond Holt so much. I love that Andre Braugher played the Straight Man role in a comedy as a politically out gay man who has such a serious exterior. Holt was so gay in so many ways and I am obsessed with him. He is so deep into his niche interests (like me) and yet he was actually such a great mentor figure to everyone under him. I loved that he and his husband were so devoted to each other but were never depicted as the perfect couple. I love that he has a petty beef with another colleague. He’s just an incredible character.

Kiram Kir-zaki (Lord of the White Hell)

Kiram is the first time I ever realized how deep the programming in speculative fiction to read the protagonist as a white man with brown hair and brown eyes. Kiram is a dark-skinned Haldiim youth with curly gold hair and light eyes. It took me three readings of this book to perceive Kiram properly, and it’s something that has shaken me for a long time. Kiram is brilliant, snarky, and too gay for his own good. He’s also not stupid. I love reading a smart gay character who generally cannot hide who he is doing the work to blend in to a homophobic setting. Ginn Hale also writes gay sex better than some gay male authors.

Kakei Shiro (What Did You Eat Yesterday?)

Honestly, when am I ever not thinking about this man? I love how, even if he can’t immediately give Kenji everything he might want, he gives Kenji all that he can. He couldn’t say he loved Kenji for a long time, but you could feel the love in his cooking. I’m so happy to have this man and his partner back on my screen again. It is just so hard to be gay. I am so relieved that many of the folks reading my posts didn’t suffer The Knowing, because I know that Shiro and I will never be able to get away from what it did to us.

Chiron (Moonlight)

The terrible intersection of poverty, race, and sexuality has never been better exemplified for me than in this film that has no white people in it. There are just so many fewer choices for us, especially if you can’t hide who you are. I love Chiron so much because we see so much of what he was forced to be pushed onto him. There’s something heartbreaking and beautiful that as an adult he resembles Juan, and that he never got over Kevin. I find it hard to explain why Chiron means so much to me, but I’m black and gay so I don’t always feel like I have to.

Max (Black Sails)

I love Max because she consistently chose to not be cruel when so many others would have. She is not accumulating power for her own ego or to punish those who wronged her. She holds power as a facilitator. History doesn’t remember the facilitators who keep the lights on and make sure the bread gets made every day, but you notice their absence within two days when they’re gone. Max is also funny to me because she and Flint almost never encounter each other, but have caused the other so much grief.

Thank you for the ask!

#answered #black sails #what did you eat yesterday?#star trek #deep space 9 #moonlight #animorphs #lord of the white hell #ginn hale #ender's game #ghost dog #brooklyn nine nine #the wire

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cdmodule · 1 year

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In defense of Clock TPOT (and why he’s not ooc)

I’ve seen a lot of people insist that Clock’s character “got ruined” since TPOT but to me, the way he acts perfectly lines up with traits of his character seen since his introduction. Let me explain. (For future context, this was written right after TPOT 3)

Clock’s always been kind of… aggravating. • One of the earliest cases being how quick he is to condemn Liy, Icy, Teardrop and Bracelety and switch up on them, as early as BFB 1. You could look at the whole scene really, but mainly...

Already in his first introduction he’s butting his head into conflict and goes by whatever seems right to him (rather than for example, finding a middle ground or being otherwise helpful). Also going from arguing with Liy to forming a truce with her after. I’ll get back to these later.

• On another point, In BFB 2 and a few times in BFB30-TPOT we see more of Clock carelessly talking to hosts and demanding answers. While he’s not unique to this, It adds a lot of boldness to his character. (Using just transcripts here to save space)

• Looking back at BFB 10 Clock is the first one to not only ask for characters being recovered but also informs Four on who’s eliminated.

To him, enforcing rules is important even If his fellow contestants are mad at him for it. Remember how I said he sticks his head into situations and does what he thinks is right? • Now… we're at the part where Clock disappears for almost the rest of BFB, until coming back in BFB 15.

Not particularly sad, however frustrated at his team and doesn’t wanna hear it and leaves. He’s still hurt, which I feel like a lot of people forget when bringing up his change in TPOT. • Besides being forgotten by his whole team, throughout BFB Clock doesn’t exactly have friends to begin with. Think of another BFB character, and It’s likely they’ll at least have/had one other person. Clock is just kind of there.

Despite that, he’s VERY helpful for his team, often using his powerful clock-hands to win challenges, which is very important to him. The one time he made his team lose in BFB 6 he quickly gets embarrassed and defends himself. Speaking of defending himself….

BFB 1 - BFB 6 - TPOT 3 (Last one doesn't have CC) It seems to be his default answer to confrontation. And It’s a shock to him every single time. Which shows that Clock doesn’t do this maliciously, but rather that it comes from a lack of understanding social situations. He’s restricted to his own ideas of what’s right or wrong (shown by. playing by his own rules, doing what he wants & sticking his head into situations he isn’t part of) and on top of that has difficulty reading others, being surprised by negative reactions because of it. Basically he lacks social skills. Of course that isn’t a free card to act unpleasant around others, but It’s a skill you gotta work on nonetheless. Clock has rarely shown interest in building friendships, like him hesitating to join a truce with Liy. The only time he’s been curious was in joining Loser’s or Winner’s team.

With this in mind, It starts to make more sense why Clock is pushy and doesn’t get boundaries in TPOT. It’s nothing new! Just more blatant. (And also he wasn’t even around for a third of BFB) • His personality has been and is still developing in TPOT. The aforementioned traits have been pushed since he’s around Winner, adding a bit of obsessiveness too. But consider a few things: 1. His team forgot about him and he got frustrated and left. A change to his character after that wouldn’t be surprising 2. He never made friends and now actually found someone he’s interested in, even if that interest is One Sided (and honestly? It checks out w/ his lack of proper relationships) 3. Sometimes… people just act differently around other people. I mean he is a huge fan after all, See Point 2 again 4. We are in the middle of an “arc” and we don’t know how It’s gonna end yet And about that character development… • Something I noticed is that Clock never came off Genuinely sad and regretful (maybe in BFB 6 depending how you see his reaction to losing) until being rejected by Winner and not even getting to defend himself. This time he REALLY noticed he messed up.

I assume this will be a turning point in how Clock acts and will try to be a bit more self aware of how he acts around others. That’s for future TPOT episodes though! But all in all, I think Clock becoming devoted to Winner to the point where It seems parasocial to some (though I’d argue that “parasocial” isn’t the right way to describe this, but that’s a different convo) is par for the course, considering his boldness and lack of social skills and relationships in BFB. Thank you for reading <3

#character analysis #clock tpot #clock bfb #tpot #mucho texto but like Im sorry i genuinely love his character so much #so its odd for me to see people act the way they do #but ya know

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what-gs-watching · 2 months

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"If that's a joke, I love it. If not, can't wait to unpack that with you later."

So, here’s a thing - winter makes me sad. I mean, it makes a lot of people sad, but also me. When I was younger I used to just cause a whole bunch of drama to get it out of my system but I’m an adult now and I’m still mostly fruitlessly job searching and I can’t really just go around starting fights anymore so I’m just sitting in my ennui, feeling unmoored.

Which made me realize: I need Ted Lasso. Desperately.

Wherein, a low level American football coach moves to England to coach actual football (aka soccer) and ends up creating something so beautiful it’ll make you laugh and cry until you just can’t anymore.

If you’ve never seen Ted Lasso, first of all - how dare you? And secondly, start it now. Like, literally right now. It’s everything you didn’t know you needed.

I will admit I didn’t get into it until my husband watched it and encouraged me into it because of my love for Jason Sudeikis. I tend to pick up unnatural obsessions for SNL alumni, I just want all of them to succeed, so I gave in and instantly lost my mind over it. I couldn’t get enough.

During the second season run, I literally had a standing weekly fifteen minute meeting with my engineers to talk about the latest episode and our theories on what would happen next, or what our favorite joke had been. There were MANY heated debates.

Before the third season came out, I made my family binge the first two seasons while we were on vacation. I remember my mom calling me after she and my dad had watched the series finale so we could talk about it - she’d never bought into a show like that before.

Ted Lasso just brings people together, and I find it absolutely ridiculous that this poignant, wonderful, life affirming show came out of a bit that Sudeikis wrote in 2013 for an NBC Sports commercial. It’s mind boggling.

You guys know, it’s all about the relationships for me, and that’s the entire show, really. Ted is unrelentingly positive and charming and understanding and the reason he likes coaching is because he wants to help his players be the best versions of themselves and wooooph throughout the show, you get that, for every single character, even Ted himself. It’s about loving each other and loving yourself and also somewhat about football and it’s just so fucking…delightful.

And I’m obsessed with all of the different dynamics. Ted and Beard, and Roy and Ted and Beard, and Roy and Jamie, and Roy and Keeley, and fucking Keeley and Rebecca! If you need to see a perfect incredible WONDERFUL female friendship, it’s Rebecca and Keeley fucking Jones. Someone needs to write a long-winded essay about these two, because dear lord, I want a best friend like that. Everyone wants a best friend like that. Like, I just can’t with all of the messy, hilarious, beautiful relationships. I want to be part of them all.

Also, it’s funny. Like, properly funny. Laugh-out-loud-no-matter-how-many-times-you’ve-seen-it funny. The bits are layered. And you’ll get something different out of them every single time. Nuance, gang. It’s all so nuanced.

The first season is absolutely perfect. You get to know all of the characters and you get a general sense of what’s up. Everyone is kind of charming and you’re immediately annoyed with Rebecca and charmed by Roy even though he tries his best to be threatening, and you think that Nathan is adorable and you’re pulled into Ted’s unwavering enthusiasm and Beard’s silliness indulgence and straight-man stoicism and Keeley’s adorableness. And it’s WONDERFUL! I’ve seen season one at least four or five times, likely more. It’s everything.

There are so many good moments. At one point, Ted says he’s having salads for lunch with Higgins who is communications director or something and as Ted goes to leave Higgins says “Cesar you later!” and Ted BURSTS back in through the door and just yells “YES!” and it’s hilarious every time.

When Ted and Beard realize that Roy is a bristling motherfucker who wants to hate everything, Ted says something like “wait til we win him over”, with Beard announcing “He’s. Going to be. Furious.” (And he was.)

It’s the little things in the first season that really endear you to Ted Lasso. It just wraps you up and makes you feel warm and appreciated, like there are people out there that are pure and good and they can make you feel pure and good too.

And then you get into season two and you start to see behind the curtain. Ted’s really not okay with his divorce (which, I still think is because his wife couldn’t deal with his optimism? Which is so insane to me and I can’t even, I never forgave her like, what the fuck is that) and in general and they tackle a lot of mental health issues and social issues and it’s a bit hard to get through.

But at the same time, season two has some of my favorite bits? Which is confusing??! The scene where Sam asks Isaac for a haircut - everyone gets a single cut from the captain once a season - and the entire team watches and whoops and freaks out and it’s like, an intricate performance and everyone is just so fucking thrilled to be witnessing it? It’s weirdly beautiful.

Ted and Beard teaching the entire team the choreography to NSYNC’s Bye Bye Bye so they can send off the team shrink in a ridiculous way? Incredible. When they finally get the dance right, they lose their fucking minds. It’s so JOYFUL.

The episode where Roy finally realizes he wants to join the coaching staff and he makes a dramatic trek to the stadium while “She’s a Rainbow” blares? The theme of that one was believing in rom-communism - to rouse the team Ted tells them “Fairy tales do not start nor do they end in the dark forest” and yo that’s so TRUE - and when Roy finally showed up on the pitch he said, “You had me at ‘coach’.” I cry every single time I see that one. I literally watched it twice in a week when getting the family into the show and I cried both times. Hard.

I think part of the reason this show is so resonating is because dark shit happens, but a lot of really sweet things happen too. There’s an episode wherein Rebecca’s dad dies and they’re all attending the funeral but it still is somehow achingly funny too, even though you learn some terrible things about Ted and Rebecca both in that one. They really ride the line of darkness and light and it’s messy and that’s life.

And then season three is hard. So much happens. And you know that you’re barreling toward the finale. There’s only 34 episodes in the entire series and it’s not nearly enough but they do try to make the most of their time.

Watching the finale season in real time was really interesting though, I’ll say, because the fandom was so nuts at the time. So many random theories and outrage over some of the story points. And at the time I did kind of agree, but seeing it all back to back now in my first true binge, it all makes sense. Everyone had their own journey and some of them were ridiculous and maybe we just wanted things to stay the same because that’s how we fell in love with the characters but that’s not the point, gang. Shit is forever changing.

I’ll never get over the moment when Roy finally relents to the diamond dogs. Or Jamie teaching him how to ride a fucking bike in Amsterdam. Or when the team comes together to help Sam put his restaurant back together after it’s completely vandalized. Or Beard explaining to Nate his background with Ted, and offering his forgiveness to Nate as a way to honor everything Ted has done. Or Rebecca calling Roy out on his shit, saying that instead of helping himself he’d rather “eat shit soup and then complain about the portions”.

There are so many little beautiful pieces. So many things that will pull at your heart strings and make you realize things that maybe have been niggling around in your brain but refusing to come forward because you were scared of them. Ted Lasso helps you be less scared of them. Ted Lasso helps you be less scared of everything, because it encourages you to accept yourself as you are.

In the final episode, Higgins says “Human beings are never gonna be perfect. The best we can do is to keep asking for help and accepting it when you can. And if you keep on doing that, you'll always be moving towards better.”

And that’s what all of us need to understand. This show will ingrain that thought into you, and it’ll buoy you, and you won’t even realize it.

So maybe now I’m feeling less ennui. Because I’m still laughing at the hijinx and basking in the wholesomeness and the amazingly perfect relationships and the belief. Ted Lasso makes you fucking believe.

#what g's watching #ted lasso #coach beard #rebecca welton #roy kent #keeley jones #comfort show #jamie tartt #be a goldfish

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kdramedies · 2 years

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Oh In-joo, while naive in the context of the story we are being told, is not an idiot. In the first few episodes In-joo is established as someone who is resourceful, competent at her job, and a good sister. She always makes sure there’s a roof over her family’s head, food in their bellies, and tries to make sure that they’re (mainly In-hye) safe and happy. In-joo is really good at being poor. Which is why I don’t understand all of the comments I keep seeing calling In-joo an idiot or complaining that she’s too stupid so the show is “un-feminist” (whatever that means [does that mean women aren’t allowed to be a little dumb sometimes? Seems pretty un-feminist for women to be put into a box like that...]). Like, why the fuck would someone who has been dirt poor all their life suddenly be amazing in the world of money, murder, and politics? The first thing In-joo did with 2 billion won was buy name brand ice cream. That’s how poor she’s been throughout her life, corner store ice cream was her big first splurge (and it was on sale!). Some of her scenes have been played to add a bit of levity to such a dramatic show, the “hands up” scene is one of my favourites, but again, those scenes are of her experiencing situations that she’s never had cause to even wonder about before. I’ve certainly never thought about the bounds of plastic surgery, and if faced with a gun, I fully believe I would wet myself. But In-joo, someone who is earnest and takes things at face value, is somehow managing to survive in this world of lies and backstabbing she’s been thrown into. Some of it is dumb luck, some of it is Do-il saving her neck, but some of it is her. And I don’t just mean her badass moment in Singapore. Her resilience, her earnestness, her optimism and kindness. Every choice she’s made has contributed to the fall of the Jeongran Society. Her additions to their rag-tag team go largely unnoticed since she’s not unearthing the story behind it all like In-kyung, or a former inside man like Do-il, but In-joo is the one who has the mastermind behind all of this shaken. And it’s not just because this all started with Sang-a’s obsession with In-joo. Sang-a thought she knew In-joo, but like a lot of viewers, she didn’t know who In-joo would become. She thought In-joo would do anything for money, but instead In-joo would do anything for her family and her best friend, even after learning that their friendship was a lie. She didn’t know that behind her naivete In-joo was strong; stronger than her. Sang-a may be more confident, conniving, and quick-witted, but she can’t handle things not going her way. In-joo on the other hand, has never had anything go her way and as a result is more adaptable and quicker to bounce back.

This entire show is about classism and the ways that it divides us, schooling and intelligence is one of them. Without Hyo-rin’s family In-hye wouldn’t have had the opportunities they gave her. Without their great aunt, In-kyung wouldn’t have gone to university. But In-joo didn’t have anyone to give her a helping hand. People who are looking down on her character for being an “idiot” are only proving one of the points the drama is trying to make. If you’re poor, you’re considered unintelligent, if you’re considered unintelligent then people can treat you like garbage and get away with it. But Oh In-joo is done letting people get away with it.

#little women #tvn little women #oh in joo #people claim to want flawed female characters and then they actually exist and they call them stupid #it's annoying #like just say you want a girlboss who is a little clumsy and leave #kdramedies

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watermelonsugacry · 2 years

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Okay so I’ve been absolutely obsessed with 1dbandmate!yn and I was just curious as to what she would post on Instagram throughout the years of being in the band and outside the band?

Through The Years

A/N: my first instagram set up! whoop whoop (credit to owner for the 2011 pic) 💚

SINCE 2010 masterlist

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prettypenny so proud of you!

↳yourinstagram ❤❤

ynfan3 oh my gosh they were so little

ynfan2 fetus era is my favorite era

harryfan1 her and harry standing next to each other i can't!

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ynfan1 i love their friendship so much 🥺

ynfan2 they were so funny at the show last night!

niallhoran rematch at foosball babe?

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blazing-dynamo · 24 days

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So, I’ve been looking at my gender for a while now. A few trans friends think I’m an egg, and I relate to basically every lesbian content on the internet.

But I don’t experience dysphoria at all.

In fact, I don’t even think of my gender at all even when pressed, which is why I’m pressing harder to try and root out a truth or two.

Someone somewhere said that Gender is a 3D matrix, with the X axis being identity, the Y axis being expression, and the Z axis being importance.

And so my identity and expression have been like 100% male, 75% masc, and -infinity important. I’ve never cared. I just use he/him because it was given to me and it’s whatever why not.

So me and my partner (they/she) have jokingly referred to me as a “non-practicing agender he/him lesbian.”

I’m also like, weirdly very Asexual for someone who has sex frequently. It took me a long time to figure this out because of the sex, and because of all the porn and jerkin off in my life.

But after my roommate (my ex-wife and coparent) got her new boyfriend and they fuck a lot and loudly constantly, and constantly are wanting to do more sex, I realized that sex has NEVER been an urge to me.

Not like, as anything besides “man I could go for a cheeseburger right now”. Never a carnal need. Just a “that sounds like fun!” Yknow?

And I’ve done a bunch of probing and searching around there and went from Bi, to Demi, to Grayce to just plain Ace.

I’ve ALSO realized that I don’t really have a difference in romance and friendship. I’m a stardew Valley Character, I have 8 levels of friendship, that if we get to level 9, I wanna kiss you on the mouth. And when we are at levels 9 and 10, I am very friendship-first, there’s just extra kissing involved. I still wanna like, show you an obscure anime I’m obsessed with and play Mario kart, not necessarily do capital R romantic gestures.

I’ve also also gone on the journey from “gifted” to “lazy” to “burnt out” to “ADHD” to AuDHD throughout my life. Turns out all my quirks were symptoms! Who knew?

Which then leads me to the point of this post:

You know who else is an AuDHD, Agender (but defaults to he/him most of the time because it was given to them and who cares) Asexual Friends-to-Lovers Grayromantic, panromantic, he/him lesbian who only sorta presents masc?

[ALT: a photo collage of all of the numbered Doctors from Doctor Who]

That’s right, everyone’s favorite renegade time lord, The Doctor.

No wonder I’m so obsessed with them.

The most Masculine Doctor dressed like this:

[ALT: the Third Doctor. He’s dressed like a silly magician man]

And he’s ABSOLUTELY a uhaul lesbian. “Hey I met you 43 minutes ago, do you want to move into my house? It travels through time”

He’s a he/him, and even when he was a She, she was only a she because it fit and made sense, not because of her identity.

And every single one of his Romantic partners, Rose, Yas, Fitz, Charley, all have the exact same trajectory as his best friends, Sarah Jane, Donna, Amy, he just goes a little farther to say he loves them romantically.

So yeah. My gender is Doctor Who.

Thanks for listening.

#doctor who #gender #agender #asexual #gray ace #pronouns

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mudavaye · 4 months

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Had this in the drafts for a minute.

I haven’t known much friendships/relationships where limerence wasn’t involved and learning about it has kinda fucked me up. I feel repulsed about myself. And Id feel weirded out knowing someone “liked” me but was just thinking about a fantasy of me, obsessed with an idealised version of me, and got upset or moody with me when that image gets shattered by simply being myself. I seen people mention limerence has them keeping tabs on who they like. Eg celebrity stalkers. That shit is scary. Putting it into perspective is helping me a little bit… but can’t help but feel like I’ve been such a nuisance or came off as a weirdo for wanting to be close friends with people or date people. All those socially awkward texts just trying to see how they’re doing and getting ghosted and ignored or on a couple occasions blocked… trying to fit in… changing my personality or actions just to get their attention… it’s been this way since I was in primary school with several people throughout my small life and I just want to feel normal and have NORMAL relationships. Im just weird and not sure why my friends still fw me but I appreciate them. Ive seen some videos on it but def need counselling again. And it explains a lot about my story writing too; having that “perfect” friend group or relationship. 🙄 not possible.

#personal vent #what do i hope to achieve venting online?

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jimjamkagaricci · 2 months

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((not a “review,” just some quick thoughts on loveless by alice oseman))

FINALLY!! finally finished reading loveless (it only took a couple years!) and all i can really say is i absolutely loved it. georgia warr, rooney bach, pip quintana, jason farley-shaw, sunil jha…i am holding each and every one of you so gently in my hands 😭

i was obsessed with the complexities of the friendships georgia had and formed throughout this story, as well as the hardships that come with figuring out your sexuality.

i’ve said it in plenty of posts before, but i’ll say it again: this story definitely hit closer to home for me than other osemanverse books have, which is why i’ve put off reading it for so long. but i’m so, SO glad i finally sat down and read it.

i really love georgia as a whole. her fanfic obsession, anxieties, interests, all of it! she’s such an interesting character and i can only hope alice will write more stories or even just drawings involving her and her journey of being aroace. it’s something that, outside of isaac from heartstopper, is so important to me. having a character so clearly talk about their journey being aroace has been so meaningful to me.

i think my only qualm with it thus far is the pacing felt a little odd at times and pip and rooney’s relationship (IN MY OPINION!!) felt a tad bit rushed. BUT this is all from georgia’s pov, so i can’t be too mad at it and obviously understand it from that perspective.

i have the same issue with how rooney’s mental health and struggles weren’t really talked about at length, but again, this is more of georgia’s story, so i’ll let it slide.

overall, i loved this book. i can get why some people don’t like it (i’ve seen a lot of people say that, for a book being about asexuality and aromanticism, there’s a LOT of romance, and i get it!), but i personally found it to be so refeshing to read about a character strugging through coming to terms with asexuality and aromanticism and the complexities and sometimes mourning that comes with it. leaving the ending not wrapped up nicely with a bow was so, so nice to me and i’ve always loved that about alice’s books; they always feel so human at the end of everything.

will definitely re-read it sometime!

#osemanverse #loveless alice oseman #loveless #georgia warr #rooney bach #pip quintana #jason farley shaw #sunil jha #asexual #aromantic #aroace #aroacespec #jimjam reads

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faeriemarie · 4 months

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This ask is your free pass to gush abt your drs :>

YIPPEE MY FAVORITE ASK EVER EVER EVER!!!!!

okay so my main two right now are actually my fame dr (ballerina ofc) and my doctor who dr.

in my ballerina dr, i’ve been getting into it so much recently because i remembered that im gonna be shifting when im 12 and not 22. meaning i’ll be sitting in my bedroom over the summer waiting for the anastasia cast list to come out while listening to belle and sebastian on my discman (probably). spoiler alert: i am cast as anya and i have the perfect summer working on it. im also starting cambridge in the fall and im so excited!! i’ve wanted to study art history forever and this is going to be the best experience of my life. i love twee as well and getting to be there as it develops is my dream life. i can go to bishop allen concerts and be tumblr famous. there will be gifsets of me!! oh god i can’t wait. this is honestly just scratching the surface of this dr. in uni im gonna meet my girls. erin alvarez and leni liu who are also extremely young students like me. i remain friends with them for the rest of my life. god how i miss them. plus, soon i’m also getting cast in my very first acting job as effy stonem in skins and that’s how i become famous (also starting my lifelong friendship with co-star hannah murray). oh AND im gonna get my first boyfriend too. i’m so obsessed with toby regbo and especially him in the movie mr nobody which is how we meet. im cast as teen anna and we are so awkward and stumble around each other. i love him. i know we have to break up because he’s not my main s/o but being with him is gonna be so fun. i hope we stay friends in the future. we’re gonna go to bookshops and cinemas together. we’re gonna kiss in the rain and just be super cliché because why not?!?! oops okay this is getting long

as for my doctor who dr, i’m super excited for that too. i’m on the ninth series rn and i fucking love peter capaldi’s doctor like he might actually be my favorite. i’m so in love with him and bro the sonic sunglasses are actually doing um… things to me. i also just wanna time travel. like i wanna visit so many places throughout history and i wanna be super awesome and cool. i wanna go to warhol’s factory and have him make a film about me and i wanna go to the beatles’ first performance on the ed sullivan show. i wanna meet princess diana and watch a shakespeare performance at the globe. i wanna be in love with the doctor while he pretends not to notice my starry-eyed glances and pushes his feelings down because he’s afraid of falling in love. this is my dr where literally anything can happen. in my cr i’m just a boring girl who just scrolls on tumblr all day but with the doctor i’m a genius who can get us out of any situation. i’m brave and strong and perfect.

okay that’s it and i’m done. was this too much? it was too much 😔

#answered by marie ♡#reality shifting #shiftblr #shifting #subliminals #desired reality #manifesting #manifestation #reality shift #shifting realities #shifting community

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hi!! if you're still accepting blurb requests, could you pls writing something for platonic bucky x reader? everyone thinks they're dating but they're best friends <3 thank you!

i love this idea, thank you so much for requesting it!! there is truly not enough platonic reader fic out there and i loved writing this!

words: 1,123

summary: the whole team thinks that you and bucky are together. finally, you set the record straight.

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You’ve Got It All Wrong

When Sam stepped into the living room, he spotted you and Bucky on one of the couches, you leaning against him as a movie played on the TV. That wasn’t an uncommon sight in the compound, because you and Bucky had been practically inseparable ever since you met.

Not even bothering to say anything, Sam turned around and headed towards the kitchen, where Wanda and Natasha were sitting at the table finishing up their dinner. “Y/N and Bucky are cuddling on the couch again,” he said in lieu of greeting. “I’m still convinced that they’re together.”

Natasha raised her eyebrows. “I don’t know, I could have sworn I heard Bucky talk about going on a date last month, and Y/N hasn’t mentioned a thing.”

“If they are together, they’re keeping it a secret,” Wanda reasoned. “I don’t know why though.”

“Barnes is probably tired of you and Tony teasing him all the time,” Natasha said, her comment directed towards Sam. “Even now, you seem to be obsessed with trying to figure out what kind of relationship they’re in.”

“And you’re not?”

Natasha shook her head. “I could care less if they’re together, it doesn’t make any difference to me. You’re the one who can’t stop bringing it up in every conversation.”

“Because I’m trying to figure it out!” Sam said. “He acts all dark and broody around everyone else, and with her it’s like he becomes a different person. I’m just confused.”

Natasha took a sip of water before speaking again. “Because you’re jealous?”

“What are you talking about?”

“If Y/N and Bucky were simply nothing but friends, would that bother you?” Wanda asked.

“No, why would it bother me?”

“Because you don’t have that kind of friendship with either of them,” Wanda said, as if it should have been obvious.

“I don’t need to be everyone’s best friend,” Sam said. “But the way those two act around each other is completely different than any friendship I’ve ever seen, which is why I’m convinced that there’s more going on there!”

Neither Natasha or Wanda said anything to him, and Sam just left the room, mind racing as he tried to put together all the facts.

***

It wouldn’t be for another three weeks that Sam finally got the answer to his question. He had been observing you and Bucky intently for the past week, and he was convinced that his hypothesis was correct for a multitude of reasons. They are as follows:

1) When he stepped in the kitchen yesterday morning, you and Bucky were in the middle of a very intense food fight, the ingredients to make pancakes spread out on various surfaces (very clearly having been abandoned). Laughter filled the kitchen, and Sam couldn’t help but notice that the way you looked at each was completely different than the way you looked at anyone else.

2) Neither of you made it back to your rooms last night, instead falling asleep on the couch, one blanket stretched over both your bodies. The TV had been on all night, and Sam had only turned it off when he discovered the two of you in the morning on the way to the kitchen for a cup of coffee.

3) You very clearly had some kind of secret with Bucky that you weren’t sharing with the rest of the team. Several times throughout the week he’d walk into a room only to see you and Bucky stop what you were talking about and stare at him. A few of those times he had asked what you were talking about. He never received an actual answer.

Sam soon realized that he hadn’t seen you or Bucky since this morning, and dinnertime was quickly approaching, so he started to wander through the compound. Finally, he heard your voice coming from Bucky’s room.

“No, take that one off!”

Immediately, Sam’s eyes widened. If he walked into the room right now, what state of undress would he find the two of you in?

“Why?” Bucky sounded indignant.

“Because I said so! Do you want my advice or not you idiot?”

Okay, that didn’t sound like it was any kind of foreplay. Interest piqued, Sam decided to knock on the door, and didn’t move until your voice came through telling him to come in.

When he finally walked in, he saw you sitting on Bucky’s bed, an open bag of chips in your hand. Bucky was standing in the middle of the room, his dress pants and nice shirt a stark contrast to the pajamas you were wearing. “Hey Sam,” he said. “What’s up?”

Dumbfounded, Sam wasn’t sure what to say. He was expecting a completely different sight to greet him, but this only left him with more questions. “I was just wondering where you guys had been all day,” he said. “What’s the occasion?”

“Bucky’s got a date later and I’m trying to help him pick out something to wear,” you said. “But he’s being difficult and won’t listen to me.”

“Because I’m right!” Bucky protested. “This color works better with this pair of pants than the shirt you picked out!”

You raised your eyebrows at him before turning to Sam with an expression that said Can you believe him?

Completely and utterly confused, Sam just kept glancing back and forth between you. “So what are you wearing?” he asked, turning in your direction.

Now it was your turn to look confused. “What are you talking about?”

“On the date,” he clarified. “What are you wearing?”

“Why would I be third wheeling Bucky’s date?”

“Wait,” Sam said, mind racing as he tried to register what you had just said. “You’re not together?”

You and Bucky looked at each other before laughter filled the room. “Of course not,” you said. “What gave you that crazy idea?”

“The way you two always act around each other!” Sam said defensively. “The cuddling, the food fights, the way you seem to be attached at the hip, what else?”

“Sorry to disappoint you dude, but we’re not dating,” you said. “Hope you didn't have any money on it.”

Sam just shook his head, his mouth dropping open. (thank god Natasha hadn’t taken his bet all that time ago, he was thinking). “So you’re really not together?”

You shook your head. “We’re not.”

“Really?”

“Nope,” you said. “Are you going to stand there with your mouth open forever or do you want to help me make sure Bucky doesn’t show up to his date looking like a doofus?”

Sam was silent for a moment before he shrugged and looked back at Bucky. “She’s right, you look stupid with that shirt on.”

“Hey!”

You just laughed. “See? I told you.”

“Shut up Y/N.”

- the end -

#bucky barnes #bucky barnes x reader #platonic bucky barnes x reader #bucky barnes & reader #bucky barnes x best friend reader #marvel #marvel fanfiction

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HOLY SHIT (long post!)

Okay so I’ve recently become obsessed with classpect analysis, it’s just so cool seeing how a character’s classpect can permeate their lives cause it makes you think and backtrack and see how it all lines up. So a couple days ago I had this completely random thought: What would Sakura Katana-chan from Sugoi Quest for Kokoro’s classpect be???

And I think I’ve figured it out: she’s a Prince of Space. (yes I know princes are male-exclusive but fuck that shit)

Allow me to explain (thanks to @homestuckexamination for the class explanations! check out their stuff!):

Princes actively either destroy or destroy through their aspect for their own benefit. They have strong personalities and sets of values that they tend to impose upon others. They can be egotistical and destructive, threatening to be harmful to those around them and even themselves. At their best they are diligent, skilled, and hard to break, but at their worst are toxic, rude, and arrogant.

The Space aspect has to do with outer space, creativity, imagination, journeys/distance, and objects (more specifically object properties, such as shape, size, etc). Not to mention Space players tend to have a big part in shaping canon in a story.

Sakura-chan’s status as a Mary Sue already cements her as a major piece of the puzzle. Her over-the-top attitude, toxic influence, and violent actions throughout Sugoi Quest for Kokoro ends up spiraling into a destructive rampage that changes everything forever.

The madness begins in episode two (though she does show Prince-like behavior even in episode one), when Sakura-chan somehow destroys a glass of water in her hospital room in her sleep (destroying objects in the space around her) while having what seems to be a prophetic nightmare of sorts. I see this as her awakening her Space powers somehow, maybe through her recently activated Neko Powers? Doctor-chan did say they were highly dangerous and could end up killing her. She then soon after leaves the room without a trace and heads to school-chan (destroying space (as in distance)/possible teleportation).

As she goes, she spots her friend Terezi-chan walking with Karkat-kun to school-chan, which enrages her and she proclaims that she’ll “get [her] for this”, distancing herself from her friend, which in the long run will end up ruining their friendship entirely (destroying through space). After she arrives and goes to class, she snaps Terezi-chan’s spatula in half in rage, then throws a loud tantrum when the teacher tells her to go to the principal’s office. Then, when Vriska-chan uses Neko Powers to transform and become more powerful, Sakura-chan destroys her fantastical methods of attack with an incredibly simple and anticlimactic solution: she pops one of her humongous hungolomghononoloughongous, and then kills her before once again leaving without a trace, seeing as the police-chan didn’t arrest her on the spot. It is also at this point that she officially cuts herself off from Terezi-chan, clearly stating her intentions to kill her over Trollian later that night.

In episode three, Sakura-chan reunites with an old friend who she doesn’t remember whatsoever (once again destroying a relationship through space/distance), Ookami Kitsune-chan. When Ookami-chan is leading her to the school-chan's secret back entacne, they come across Flayme Rayven. Thinking she’s been set up, Sakura-chan uses her badonkers to grab and throw Ookami-chan into the far distance (destroying through space; increasing the size of an object). Not to mention how she ends up defeating Flayme-chan; once Flayme-chan insinuates that Sakura-chan is a weeaboo, she immediately ends their anime sword fight by shooting lasers out of her eyes and killing her instantly (destroying creativity by ending the sword fight and destroying through creativity (the eye lasers)). Afterwards, she learns of Terezi-chan’s tragic passing and is overcome with grief, though this could be solely because she couldn’t be the one to personally kill her.

All of this comes to a head in episode four, after Sakura-chan is finally placed in prison-chan for her crimes and is given a life sentence. She bemoans and laments her current situation, however when she realizes that she’ll be late for school-chan, she quickly breaks out by literally breaking through the side of the prison-chan. She then realizes that it’s Saturday, so there’s no school-chan for the day. As she walks off, a revived Terezi-chan with Neko Powers (and thus potentially awakened Seer of Mind powers???) stops her. Sakura-chan quickly transforms and attacks, but Terezi-chan sees through her plan and manages to beat her ass, and Sakura-chan is sent to hospital-chan once again. Doctor-chan scolds her for her reckless and constant use of her Neko Powers, telling her that she will die if she does so again. However, Sakura-chan maintains the idea that she needs her Neko Powers in order to become stronger, and in doing so distances herself from Doctor-chan, who is only looking out for her safety. And despite his insistence that she specifically NOT take the magical neko charm in the room, she does so anyway and demolishes her surroundings by transforming into a giant magical rainbow neko as prophesied by her nightmare from episode two.

She then unleashes the epitome of what can be considered a Prince of Space’s abilities when Karkat-kun is accidentally killed by his mother, MILF-sama: she destroys the planet, and it was her own insatiable ego that led to all of this in the first place.

Thank you for coming to my TED Talk, and if death420 actually sees this, I am so fucking sorry.

#long post #sugoi quest for kokoro #sqfk #death420 #sakura katana #sakura katana chan #sakura katana-chan #classpect analysis #classpect #homestuck #why did i put so much time and effort into this #i have no fucking idea man

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