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kenlvry · 1 year

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LISTEN TO ME RN HEAT ME TF OUT STANS GANG + CRAIG DOIGN THE LIPSTICK TREND FROM TICTOK WITH READER

the lipstick trend with stan and craigs team

an, I AM LISTENLING ANON DONT WORRY. no idea what you mean by heat out though 🤨 , 17-18 and gn reader but use of her in tolkiens

kenny

he was the one who suggested it, it came across his fyp one day and he sent it to you "lets do this come over rn." "you asked, why dont you come to my house? 🤨" "why don't i cum in your mom" "HUH 😧" "im here."

you both definitely argue on what lipstick you should wear "okay but i don't even use pink lipstick" "well you should" "its light colour its not gonna appear" "well fuck 😒"

the process of kissing his face is wild, he would suggest to do his lips as the first place "KENNY HOW ARE WE GONNA DO THIS TREND IF YOU KEEP TRYING TO MAKE OUT WITH ME" "ITS NOT MY FAULT"

after like2 hours you finally get the lipstick on his face. now the tiktok was even harder he wouldn't stop laughing. you'd give up and he apologises while laughing

thank god you guys were able to finish it under 1 hour it turned out really good, at the end of the video he kissed you and you wanted to cut that part but he said keep it for like and its true the comments were all about the kiss on the last clip

kyle

okay he too wanted to ask you first but he was kinda shy and waited for you to ask and you did!! woohoo for kyle

"kyle wanna do this" "OKAY" he insists on picking your lipstick and picks the ugliest colour like what 😐

to him there was no such thing as an ugly colour buy it didn't suit your face so no way.

the process of it was calm, he at first wanted to put on the lipstick for you but you looked like a clown has mans never put on lipstick??

he watches you as you kiss him and reapply lipstick and then kiss him again, he feels like a princess fr 🤭🤭

he hasn't seen his face yet so when you record and he saw his face he laughs out loud, "LMAO WHY DO I LIKE THAT??" "WDYM"

you would tell him to take off his hat which he refuses but you looked too cute, when it posted cartman was first to comment and you can already tell what he commented "ew gay" your followers defended you two though 🤭

stan

stan blushes internally when you ask him. "sure im down" DEEP DOWN HE WANTS KIDNAP YOY AND KEEP YOU TO HIMSELF

"what lipstick do you think matches me best, pink or red?" "id say my tip colour" "WHAT 😧"

he has to hold in the very urge to puke every time you kiss him because like you look so cute omg.

he looks in the mirror and is js like "damn, i did it". HE LOVES IT SOOOO MUCH YOU CAN TELL HE'S BLUSHING ONGG ‼️

he even directs you like "do here next, okay now here" its so cute 🤭🤭

when you record and the camera pans to him, he smiles and covers his face blushing bc he can't contain it. it was such a cute video and got iver 2 mil likes. cartman definitely commented "i bet you had to change your clothes 10 times"

cartman

"cartman lets do this" "what." "wdym? cmon its cute" "y/n no offense but that is the most gayest shit i've ever seen" " NO ITS NOT UTS CUTE" "my reputation is at stake if i do that be so for real" "okay I'm asking kyle then" "lets do it."

he actually been wanting to ask you for weeks now but doesn't know how so winwin. you take your absolute time picking your lipstick and he couldn't be more done with "hurry up this doesn't even effect anything" "shut up cartman if i use the right one people will ask what lipstick it is and i get views"

picking a lipstick was already a big deal just imagine the process "ew gay not on my lips" "cartman 😐" tbh he wish he could just make out with you rn but yk how mans is

now recording is even more a hassle "JUST SMILE IS IT SO HARD TO CRACK A SMILE" "NOT WHILE IM LOOKING LIKE THIS" the most he does is wipes your lipstick off and then he just gives a 🙄 look until the end of the video

the comments are just him getting teased at clydes commenting "NAHHH CAN'T BELIEVE HE AGREED TO THIS" kyles is "i can tell that this took a long time" and then wendys is "is that cartman or a clone of him". cartman is pissed af at the comment, he told you his reputation is at stake 😒.

he actually has it saved downloaded and also is his live wallpaper sooo.

butters

butters is the one who asked you this " um y/n can we do this? 😣" while twiddling his fingers, "OKAY"

he's all giddy and smily during the process, after every kiss his blushes intensifies and by the end of it he is just.. 🔴

even though it is the most simplest video ever he has to have a tutorial, he is asking questions for everything man, how do i wipe the lipstick, what do i do, do i smile when its on me , do i laugh??

you tell him what he thinks he should he and he starts kissing you bc rn the sexual tension between you two is intense (to him atleast, he thinks thinks hand holding is already intense)

everyone comments on how cute he is and yk how tiktok is so people comment "does he whimper" "submissive who?" and hes likw WHATTTTT 🧍

clyde

when you suggested this he nodded so hard his head probably was about to fall off. "clyde you wanna do this" "DO I???" ..... "well.. do you?" "i mean yeah it's like a way of- yes i wanna do it"

he loves any lipstick you wear so he lets you pick. after every kiss he looks in the mirror and kicks his feet giggling and you just stand there 🤨

he also tries to make it a makeout session like kenny, when you kissed on his lips he holds your neck and literally makes out with like cnon we have 9 more

when you first hit record and yk how the guy has to wipe your lipstick off, nah he grabbed you by the chin and slams his lips with yours "WHY DIS YOU DO THAT??" "its called content,you wouldn't know with your 9 likes and 70 views"

well you kept the clip and everyone in the comments were talking about it "need a boyfriend like you y/n" "why can't my boyfriend be like this" clyde is obviously gloating bc he had the idea.

tolkien

most romantic man you know, is the first to ask you. "y/n can we do this?" "OKAY BOO 😝"

"hmm which lipstick do you think babe?" "i think every lipstick makes you pretty, it doesn't matter if it doesn't suit you because in my eyes you look beautiful in anything ☺️" "what if i wore kim kardashians 2013 met gala dress" "might have to rethink what i said"

he smiles while you kiss him here and there, every once a while he kisses you back, it was such a cute moment for you two😝🤞🤞

when recording he looks at you while smiling during the whole video and it blew up fast because of that

"the way he looks at her" "wishing he was like this" "you got the bag that man is inlove", it blew in seconds fr

craig

"craig lets do-" "okay" "i didnt even ask you yet" "I'll do anything if its with you" "what if i asked you to have a threesome" ".....if its makes you happy idk.."

idk about you but i think he acts like he doesn't care but inside he is so happy you asked he's been wanting to ask you this but doesn't know how to start up the convo

he doesn't care what lipstick or where you kiss him, its just the way you press your lips on him and look at it then quickly reapply to do it again because it wasn't pigmented enough.

when recorded, he doesn't just wipe he makes you turn to face him by grabbing your chin, and he doesn't let go and just looks at you with those yk siren eyes.

people are simping over him ong "damn girlie share for us" "you mean OUR boyfriend" "tryna find someone as hot as him" and you are pissed fr he laughs at you cursing out the people, like bae dw my eyes only fo you 😝🤞

tweek

"tweek, wanna do this?" "but what if I can't remove the lipstick stain" "tweek what dw i have makeup remover" "WHAT IF THAT DOESN'T WORK 🤯🤯" "TWEEK"

okay so the lipstick may turn out ugly bc of how shaky he is but ITS OKAY BC ITS TWEEK DUH, "a-are you sure you dont want to redo this?" "tweek its fine"

he insists on redoing it the 2nd try turns our worse because he's even more twitchy because of how close you are☺️☺️☺️

his face is just red because he keeps wiping it off with his hands so you can redo it and its obvious too

recording it was so funny because you can't stop laughing at the smudge lipsticks

when posted the comments were so cute but... uh questionable some were "the way the smudges are so obvious 😭😭❤️" or "wishing my future relationship will be like this 🤭" and some were just "tip colour when?? 😜"

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nomizombie · 4 months

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boyfriend!König headcanons that have been on my mind…

[SFW/Wholesome/Fluff] ; random stuff ive been thinking about, SO MUCH FLUFF YOUR HEART WILL HURT, established relationship, gender neutral, no usage of y/n, not proofread

[A/N] ; love love LOVE the idea of all these things happening!! Also off topic but i feel like this boy needs more wholesome fanfics. Theres just too much smut for this sweet anxious guy :((

He doesnt move a muscle when you fall asleep on him. He just cant bare to wake you and your cute sleepy face! Hell sit there staring at you for hours until either he falls asleep or you wake up. You falling asleep on him just tells him that you feel so safe around him, especially when hes struggled with being so intimidating (the social anxiety and hood certainly dont help). Whether its at home on the couch, at a movie theatre, or just on the train back home, he just loves you so much he wish you would do it more often <3

You have a phobia and he comforts you. He immediately shields you or removes whatever thing youre scared of. He just cant handle seeing his liebling so terrified and vulnerable :(( he wants you to always feel safe around him, you would never have to worry about safety when hes around. Hes very loyal and is just as great a friend as he is a boyfriend :)

He would either have shoulder length hair or a super short fluffy buzzcut. No inbetween. If you ask him to grow/cut it, he wouldnt hesitate to find the nearest pair of scissors and whack it all off! (or vice versa…) he loves it when you play with his hair, and if its long, he doesnt mind you braiding or tying his hair in silly ways!!

Youre cold? Dont worry! König produces a lot of heat, let him share some of it with you! Hed give you his jacket, a thick padded one fit for surviving the Austrian winters and snug for you! Obviously his size means its huge on you but, he loves seeing you wearing his clothes. Its just another reminder of how small you are compared to him and he is absolutely obsessed with it.

You and him are having fun at a bar. He notices how drunk youre getting and pulls you away to go home before you hurt yourself or regret it in the morning. Unfortunately… the hangover hits hard and you are stuck on the bathroom floor, his hand gently rubbing circles on your back and holding your hair back as you vomit your insides into tje toilet bowl. He hates seeing yoi like this… sick and hungover. next time hes making you leave as soon as your words start slurring >:(

The movie is too scary!! Let him hold and cuddle you, jumpscare after jumpscare. You can shrink into his chest if youre scared. And dont worry about sleeping, nothing can hurt you if hes around. Of course hes just as scared as yuou, the movie was very well made afterall. But, he doesnt want you to be terrified, so hes here for you :) dont forget to give him cuddles too, he cant stop trembling as well!!!

Anniversary, valentines day, your birthday? Dont worry one bit! Hes already got it marked on his calendar, gift planned weeks in advance and the restaurant is already reserved. How could he ever disappoint an angel like you? This is the least he could do for all the love he receives for you!

Youre on your period? Dont even THINK about it. Hell be cuddling and snuggling you to warm you and calm your cramps. Cravings? Hes already on the way to the store :) you dont even have to tell him, hes already got your favourite snacks ready in a basket for you. Youre in pain all week! He hates seeing you like this… :(( who cares aboit the mood swings as long as youre nuzzled in his size, using his warm arms to stifle the chills running down your spine.

Its raining and you only have one umbrella. He would hold it for you, making sure that its his shoulder thats getting wet, not yours. Lest you fall sick and he has to stay home and take care of you for days :(( (not that hes complaining, he’ll take any opportunity to pamper and spoil you!)

Hes just gotten home from work after a bad day. As soon as he sees you, he feels just a little better, especially while resting his head on your chest and listening to your soft breaths on repeat. It could be on the couch, in bed or just while standing in the hallway, some physical touch from you always recharges his batteries :))

dividers by @mmadeinheavenn !! :)

Tysm for reading!! :) my requests are always open, feel free to ask me anything or request a drabble/fic!

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crocobuggy · 8 months

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✹ private tutoring ; marco

content warnings: student/professor relationship, facials, creampie, reader being extremely horny ✹ read on ao3 ✹ (will add later since as of now, ao3 is down) author’s note: writing abt marco as a way to cope with the fact that i have the most ridiculous crush one one of my professors and it makes me want to explode

Marco knew.

It would, in fact, be very hard for him not to know, with the way he noticed the glances you occasionally gave him during classes.

He couldn’t say he didn’t enjoy it, though.

The blond would give you an occasional smile, sometimes a wink, if he felt particularly in the mood that day. He’d sometimes give lectures wearing almost half-unbuttoned shirts, and you’d steal glimpses of his toned, tattooed chest, thinking of how your hands would feel wandering around his body.

But what you didn’t know was that it was almost painful for him to resist you. You were just so sweet, and the way you’d instantly start fidgeting and look away whenever he’d tell you how great you were doing at his class or how you got the best grades out of everyone in your classroom tugged at his heartstrings. He wished he could get on his knees and spend the day worshiping you, telling you how beautiful you looked and how glad he was to have you as his student.

Except he couldn’t.

And the man’s professional ethics were currently being put to test yet again as you sat by his side and he gave you another explanation of the current subject, your shoulders almost touching and the scent of your perfume reaching his nostrils. “I… I’m sorry, Marco. I just can’t seem to focus today.” You stare at the classroom’s closed door absentmindedly, listening to the occasional muffled noises of students passing by and talking. “It’s just… I’m kinda tired. I’m sorry I made you stay after class for this, I just needed to refresh my mind a little bit.” Marco leans against his chair and frowns as you say this, putting one of his legs over the other and staring at you with furrowed eyebrows. “Is something going on? You seem very tired, yoi.” Although he was undeniably very attracted to you, he was also extremely concerned for your wellbeing, and regarding you, that would come before anything for him. You nod, leaning on the table and looking at him. “I just had a really intense week. I could use some rest and all.” He looks at you and hums, closing the textbook and giving it back to you. “You shouldn’t force yourself into studying and staying after class hours if you’re not well-rested, yoi. You should go home and rest.” He ponders for a few seconds as he puts away his things. “Do you want a ride, yoi? The subway gets really crowded at this hour.”

You freeze as he says this, an embarrassed smile making its way into your features. “I… I could use a ride, yeah.” You start putting away your materials and stand up from the table, leaning against the wall near the door as you wait for him. “Come with me.” He mutters, before turning off the lights, closing the door to the classroom and grabbing his car keys. “Seriously, Reader. You can’t take care of others if you don’t take care of yourself. And as a doctor, you’ll need to keep that in mind, yoi.” You nod as you follow him to the parking lot and he opens the car’s passenger door for you. Damn, he’s a gentleman too. “Thanks.” He gets in the driver’s seat and hands you his phone with the Waze app opened so that you can put your address in it. “Tell this Uber driver where we’re headed, yoi.” You chuckle before typing it in and handing him back his phone. He checks it and gives you a smile. “That’s actually pretty close to where I live, yoi. Kinda surprises me that we never ran into each other while grocery shopping or something.”

Your heart skips a beat as he says this, biting your lip as you notice maybe Marco is much more accessible to you than you thought he could ever be. “You’re right. Or maybe we just never thought we’d be that close to each other is all.” He gives a small smile at this before turning on the radio, the low music filling the small space of the car as you zone out staring through the window. You didn’t lie to him, you really could use some rest. But now that you got some alone time with him, the last thing you could think of was rest. “You okay there? You look like your mind is on another planet, yoi.” You smile softly at him and nod. “Yeah, professor. I’m just really tired because we had a lot of assignments to hand in this week. All I want to do is to go home and pet my cat.” The blond sends an amused glance your way as you mention your cat. “You have a cat? What’s it called, yoi?” Your heart flutters in your chest as you think of your cat. “His name’s Gnar. He’s a big, fat, stupid orange boy.”

Marco barks out a laugh as he listens to your description of the poor animal. “Poor thing.” You grin as you look out the window, trying to ignore the fact that you’re just a few blocks away from your apartment complex and just enjoy this moment with him in silence.

The few following minutes you spend in silence are excruciating, feeling like an eternity but also passing much faster than you’d like them to. When you come back to planet Earth, you’re in front of your apartment complex and Marco has parked his car to drop you off, giving you a gentle smile. “Here you are, yoi. Now go and get some rest.” You look out the front window and start fidgeting with your fingers. “Thanks for the ride, professor.” You pause, trying to think of anything else to say. “Uh… do you want to come in and have some coffee? You’ll also have the chance of petting a fat and stupid orange boy.”

Marco’s eyes widen slightly at your request and he feels his heart thump in his chest. You’re his student, damn it. If his superiors knew about this, he’ll be done for.

But it’s just this once, he tells himself.

No one needs to know, he thinks, before smiling at you and nodding. “I’ll take you up on that offer, yoi. I could use coffee and some time with a fat cat.” Your heart skips a beat as he accepts your offer. Fuck, this is really happening. Your hot college professor is seriously going to your house over some coffee and your fat cat. You get out of the vehicle and Marco follows after you, pressing a button on a remote control to lock the car’s doors. As the two of you go into the building and then glance awkwardly at each other inside the elevator, you can feel your chest flutter and a familiar warmth finding its way between your legs. “I’m sorry if my apartment’s messy. I haven’t got any visits in… a while.” He shakes his head, looking at you through half-lidded, tired eyes. “Don’t worry about it, yoi. I’ve been your age before.”

You open the elevator’s door when you get to your floor and start fumbling with the keys to your apartment, and as soon as you take the keys out of your purse, you can hear loud meowing coming from inside your apartment and Marco’s giggling. “Someone sure does seem really happy to have you back home, yoi.” You snort and make a gesture for him to come in just before Gnar runs out the door and rubs himself against your legs. “Come on, fat boy. Let’s get inside, we’ve got a visitor.”

Marco looks around your apartment. It’s small, but it feels homey. In your living room, there’s a couch, facing a small television perched upon a low table, a bookshelf filled with books of all sorts and a few fine art prints hanging on the walls. “It’s pretty, yoi. Matches your personality.” You feel heat rise to your cheeks as you hold Gnar on one arm and use your other arm to close the door. “Make yourself at home. I’ll go make us some coffee. Gnar, be nice to him.” You put the fat creature on the floor and go to the kitchen as it makes its way to Marco, who’s now sitting on the couch.

You actually have to pause a minute to recover yourself as you get in the kitchen and grab two small ceramic coffee cups, setting them on the sink as you fumble with the coffee machine.

Your professor is currently sitting on your couch, being smelled by your cat, as you make the two of you some coffee. And not just any professor, it’s your extremely hot professor that you’ve had a crush on for God knows how long.

Damn it, Reader. You thirsty bitch. You know damn well you don’t want to treat this man to coffee.

Well, at least not just coffee.

You keep thinking about how you’re actually a complete pervert as you put the two cups under the coffee machine and wait for it to come out, grabbing a jar of starch biscuits and taking it to the living room to place it on the table. When you get to the living room, however, you’re greeted by the sight of Gnar kneading on Marco’s lap, rubbing his cheeks against the red frame of his glasses.

Oh my God.

Your professor is being kneaded on by your fat cat as if he were one of your long-term friends or something.

“I think your cat likes me, yoi.” Says Marco, clearly amused at the whole situation. You feel utterly mortified at what’s happening, but you figure you can’t really stop any of it. You muffle your laughter as you scurry back to the kitchen and bring Marco a cup of steaming hot coffee. “Thanks, yoi. Now I just have to figure out how to drink coffee with this sweet, big dude on my lap.” Take me on your lap instead, you think to yourself, looking at the man’s blue eyes. “Good luck.” You say as you lean against the couch, crossing your legs. The blond decides on letting Gnar stay on his lap, leaning against the couch and looking at you as he takes a sip of his coffee. “I really needed this, yoi. It’s not just you students who have a hard time at college, you know.” You nod and look at him with genuine interest. “Remember when some students got some corpse parts from the anatomy lab and took them home to study, yoi? Because I sure do.” You laugh loudly at the memory, leaning your head against the couch’s back and looking at Marco with adoration.

He feels a pang on his chest as you look at him like that, leaning his head on the couch and looking at you as he sips on his coffee. Sure, he’s never had a particularly personal conversation with you, but he knew some of you. How much you loved cats, hated how dry your hands would become after wearing gloves for too long, how you liked wearing crocs around campus even when you weren’t going to the hospital just because they were extremely ugly. Mundane, impersonal things.

But part of him always wished he knew more.

And it seemed like that part of him was taking over as he started leaning his head towards yours, your foreheads slowly touching. He felt Gnar slide slowly down his lap before the cat decided to jump down and the blond managed to spare a quick glance before redirecting his attention to you. You could smell each other’s perfume and the scent of coffee on each other’s breath, and after what seemed like an eternity, your lips brushed lightly against each other.

It was electric, in all senses of the word.

You felt a pang inside your chest before pulling away. It felt like an electric shock and you jumped back, drinking another gulp of your coffee before putting the cup on the table as if trying to convince yourself that you weren’t dreaming. Meanwhile, Marco didn’t know what to do with himself, looking at you with wide eyes as he ran a hand through his blond locks. “Professor, I—“

“Don’t.” He says as he sets his cup on the table and pulls you in for what you’d call an actual kiss, licking your lower lip and putting one of his arms around your shoulder. “I’ve wanted this for so long, yoi—“ He pauses and lets out a groan as you bite his lower lip and tangle your hands on his hair. “Professor… I never… I never thought—'' He chuckles. “You’re so clueless, Reader. I’ve wanted this for so long, yoi. I just never thought we’d ever have an opportunity to-–” You cut off his words with a kiss while slowly climbing onto his lap, unbuttoning his shirt and running your hands up and down his chest, tattooed skin feeling satin smooth under your fingers along with thick blonde hair. Marco shivers under your touch, and you figure maybe it’s been a while since he’s done this. “Reader– oh–” You smirk as you fondle his nipples slowly but firmly, watching him throw his head back. “Are you sure, yoi? I’m your professor and I’m much older than you.”

“I know,” you mutter, your lips gently.grazing his own. “And that’s why I want you, professor.” Marco groans at your words, rolling his hips to try and somehow stimulate himself, earning a moan from you. You take this as a chance to grind against the blond before standing up and looking down at him, and you can see the confusion in his gaze. “Why did you stop? Changed your mind, yoi?” Before you say anything, you drop to your knees and start unzipping his pants only to pull them down to his knees along with his underwear, and you salivate as his dick springs free. The length is average, but he’s thicker than any other of the guys you’ve been with. You wink at him before giving a slow lick from his balls all the way up to his blushed tip, looking him in the eyes. “Shit…” He puts his hand on the back of your head, encouraging you to keep going, and at this, you take as much of his length as you can, jaw aching slightly due to his girth.

“Feels so good, Reader. You really are my best student, yoi.” You can feel your hole clench at his words as you keep on stimulating him with your mouth and tongue, giving his tip a few rough licks and occasionally pressing open-mouthed kisses to his length. His moans start to get more and more high-pitched as his sensibility heightens and he starts slowly thrusting into your mouth, gently enough not to make you gag, but roughly enough for your spit to drip down your chin. You feel him throb as he gives your mouth a few more thrusts before pulling out. However, before he can say anything, he comes, the thick, white liquid spraying over your face. You open your mouth as soon as you feel the first few spurts hit your face and smile as you see Marco’s eyes go wide, licking a bit of his release from your plump lips. “I’m sorry, I haven’t done this in… a while, yoi.” He looks extremely embarrassed, and you can’t blame him. You thought he would probably get more action than you believed he did, but maybe he didn’t have much time for it.

“Can you take some more, professor?” Marco nods before letting out a sigh and leaning against the back of the sofa. “Just… give me a few minutes to recover, okay?” The man pets your hair as you lay your cheek against his thigh, smiling at him as if you were in a trance. You’ve thought of having him all to yourself many times, but you never thought it would actually happen, especially not right after finding out he lives so close to you. You stand up to sit on his lap, slowly rubbing your wetness against his length, only to feel it start to harden again as he lays his head back. “You’re a real menace, Reader. I would’ve never guessed my best student was also the best at such filthy things.” His hands slide down to your ass and knead on it slowly, then slide up to your love handles and lower belly. “God…” You feel the blond start grinding his dick against your drenched pussy, teasing your folds slowly with his tip, and let out a low groan. “Fuck, professor—“ At this, you feel one of his large hands sneak between your legs and circle your clit as he looks at you teasingly. “Professor, please, please, please—“

And then, he can’t hold back anymore.

He pushes two thick fingers inside you and curls them towards himself, looking for your G-spot. “You’re so wet. Do you get this wet whenever you’re at my lectures too, you minx?” You nod, biting your lip and looking down at him through half-lidded eyes. Two of his fingers thrust against your G-spot slowly as his thumb gently circles your clit, earning sighs effortlessly. He massages your sensitive spot a while more before pulling his fingers out and groaning as he licks them clean. “You taste just as amazing as I thought you would, yoi–” He then pauses and his hand directs itself to his hardening length, lining it up with your entrance. You don’t give him the time to thrust himself into you as you sink yourself on his dick. biting your lip and looking at his widened eyes. “It’s okay, professor-” you let out a moan as you move your hips against his. “I’m on birth control– fuck–” Marco nods and gives your asscheeks a firm slap, digging his fingers on the soft skin. “Say my name, yoi—“ The blond’s nails will probably leave crescents on your skin later as he sinks them on your buttocks, moving you up and down his thick length. You bite your lip and look at him, teary-eyed from the stimulation. “Oh, Marco!”

Soft, full lips press against your skin as he smirks, never ceasing his movements as he has his way with you, whispering praises and hands occasionally stroking your thighs. “Reader, I– I’m close again, yoi–” He murmurs against your skin, slowing down to try and keep himself from reaching his limit and you think for a few seconds before giving a devilish smirk. “Come inside me, Marco.” You’d fantasized about this so many times, his skilled hands exploring every inch of your body, plump lips against yours, blue eyes staring at you as if you were the only person on Earth. His moans snap you out of your trance, as he’s clearly unable to hold back anymore. “Oh, shit, I’m gonna come again–” And you feel him throb inside you as he empties himself for the second time, now inside you. “Sorry, yoi. You didn’t even get to finish yet.” He looks to the side, seemingly embarrassed, but you give his cheek a kiss and flash him a smirk.

“Don’t worry, professor. You’re not leaving this private tutoring session too soon.”

#one piece smut #one piece x reader #op smut #nana writes #marco x reader #marco the phoenix #fushichou marco #op x reader #one piece reader insert #op reader insert

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cyborg-franky · 2 years

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Kinktober Day 9 - Getting Caught

I finally got back on the wagon!

Prompt: Getting caught masturbating/ sniffing underwear Ace, Marco, Sanji and Zoro.

Ace

It wasn't exactly if you would catch him jerking off but when. He had a high sex drive and he also needed to get one out when he’d had a bad day, something good to focus on.

You just never expected him to need one halfway through the day.

So when you’d finished your duties and wanted to go back to your shared room for a nap you didn't think Ace would be back in the room already, he was a commander, after all, his duties always seemed endless.

But you opened the door and saw him with his shorts down by his ankles and his cock in his hand.

And your underwear balled up in his hand and pressed to his nose.

You blinked and felt heat rise to your cheeks and decided what the fuck should I do? It wasn’t like it was gross or strange you were in a relationship after all, you’d just hadn’t ever walked in on him during his private time before.

You closed the door hoping the clatter would at least alert him to your presence.

He gripped his cock harder and his movements got faster as he iynhaled your scent.

The door did alert him and his attention was soon focused on you, his eyes widened and he threw your underwear across the room.

But he couldn’t stop himself, he was too deep, he at least gave you a mumbled apology that was mixed with a moan as he came.

Cum spurted out and dribbled down his closed fist as he took a breath.

“I, ah, had a rough day?” Ace managed to get out as he chuckled awkwardly.

You smiled and walked over, sitting on the bed and reaching for his softened cock, starting to play with it. “Well then, let me make your day better..”

The grin that appeared on his freckled face at the offer.

Marco

Marco was someone who could take or leave a little self-session.

He was good at managing stress in other ways, laid back and often on top of things but sometimes as he worked alone in his office little dirty thoughts would pop up, and scenarios would play out as he followed the rabbit down the hole getting more and more lost in his sinful little fantasies, involving you.

He hummed and looked down at his crotch, seeing his cock hard and pressed against the fabric.

Seemed his thoughts had taken him on a real adventure this time.

It was late evening, he didn’t expect anyone to visit him.

He undid the sash at his waist, letting his belt clink to the floor as he discarded it.

His long member throbbed in his hand as he gave it a few lazy strokes, picturing it was your hand not his.

Closing his eyes and leaning back in his seat, soft mumbled moans escaping Marco as he thought of you once more, his grip tightened as he started to thrust into his palm.

You pushed open the office door with your ass, cups of drink in both hands, and a smile on your face.

“Marco I brought yo- Oh.” You let the door close behind you, bumping your behind and pushing you forward, eyes widened at what you could see.

Your brain shorted out at the sight of his cock, just as nice as you’d always pictured it and your hands decided they’d rather be holding something else and dropped the cups.

Marco couldn’t help but chuckle when that happened, the mugs not breaking, rolling across the floor, making a mess instead.

“Oh little bird, I know you like what you see, why don’t you lock the door and give your commander a hand yoi.” He looked at you with a smirk, half-lidded expression, and the confidence in his tone was sending you spinning.

You locked the door and headed over to where he was sitting, getting on your knees between his thighs and licking your lips.

You both wished you'd caught him at this sooner.

Sanji

This little shit.

You’d gone for a shower and dropped your underwear on the way back to your room.

He knew those were yours when he saw them laying on the ground, looking all innocent and all too tempting.

He felt his fingers itch as he licked his lips, he knew it wasn’t very gentlemanly of him but he just couldn’t pass up an opportunity like this.

Sanji glanced left and right seeing no sign of you so he plucked them off the ground and snuck into the bathroom.

He ignored the steam that still lingered and clung in the air, not thinking that someone had just been in there.

He sat down, your underwear pressed to his face as he took in the deepest breath, taking in your scent as sordid thoughts flew through his mind.

It didn’t take long for him to get an erection, delighted in the prize he’d found.

He pulled out his erect cock and started to jerk himself off, stuck between wanting to hurry up, knowing time was borrowed but also wanting to savor it.

You’d noticed when you got back to your room your underwear was missing and you rushed back to the showers, you didn’t want someone to accidentally find them.

That would have been hugely embarrassing and you weren't sure you could handle that.

You burst back into the room, desperately looking for the offending underwear.

Well, you found them, clutched in Sanji’s hand as he jerked off, moaning your name into the dewy air.

“Y-yeah?” You didn’t know why you replied to his moaned outcry of your name.

Oh, you'd never seen Sanji go so red… He blushed, he stammered, he dropped your underwear and his hand left his cock.

“Please, don’t stop on my account.” You said with a chuckle seeing his cock throb.

“Oh?” Sanji said a smile on his face at your reply, you locked the door and leaned back on it, nodding for him to carry on.

Which he gladly did.

Zoro

It’s rare he decides he could do with some personal time.

Sometimes the naps are all the better and deeper after he’s gotten to cum.

So looking around the empty deck, he just gets it out there and then, knowing everyone else is in bed and he has another fifteen minutes before you showed up for your watch duty.

Accept he gets abit carried away, he sits there with his dick in his hand, not the most creative person as he just thinks about what turns him on, flashes of you fill his mind.

Just you, your legs, ass, chest, how your mouth would feel on his dick.

Not to say he didn’t like what was inside but right now his mind was full of flashes of you and all the psychical things he adores and wants to touch and to see.

His eyes snap open when he hears footsteps and something hit the floor.

Your book is on the floor, open wide, as wide as your mouth as you gawk at Zoro and what he is currently doing.

“I..”

He can’t help smirk, a shadow of one on his lips as he watches you stand there and stare at his cock.

Impressed by its sheer size and hot it fits in his large hand.

“You can either give me another ten minutes or help.” He said, humor in his tone as he doesn't slow.

You debate for a moment if you wanted to also be caught jerking him off.

And throwing out all reasonable thinking you step over your forgotten book and take over…

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kissmetwicekissmedeadly · 4 months

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HELLO AGAIN EVERYONE my tummy aches but im being brave about it and im going to fight the pain with the power of love and friendship (aka im going to thank you for the christmas tree messages)

okay let me be emotional for a moment...

because of the current circumstances at home, this Christmas was very different and much lonelier for me. i did my best not to get the blues and i think it was okay for the most part! now looking back at it, without a doubt, the highlight of my Christmas this year was reading the tree messages. it was very late in the night, i had just finished reading Napo's story event route and i saved the best part for desert, barely containing my excitement to finally read the messages. and i expected just a row of "merry christmas"-es 😭 you know, because, i did that? i kept mine all short and i was just shouting some wishes at you.... BUT NO, YOU OUTDID YOURSELVES IN TURN! WHAT WAS THAT! i was right there sobbing in my bed being all "?????" .... i seriously didn't expect 1) to have so many because i did the tree very last minute 2) to receive such sweet messages...

and then i realized, was my Christmas really all that lonely? because, just 3-4 years ago, i didn't know any of you here. before that i never was more than a lurker in online spaces so... i think that's when i had truly lonely christmases, not now. thank you for being here. i don't deserve you... no im sorry if you hate it when i say that, pretend that i didnt say it ( i lowkey think that) (im sorry im in my low self esteem era these past months)

OKAY SO

thank you person called Bread, thank you Lorei for being the first sob of my sob session, it's all YOUR fault that i got so emotional oh my god im totally dm-ing you after this, thank you irl bestie who not only left me a sweet personal message but also roleplayed my faves for me because i screamed (you heard it), thank you kat for your three messages that made me feel all kind of emotions (im touched that youre willing to write this even if i feel like im going to hate it), THANK YOU NINNI HUGS BACK!, thank you Ally i know it was you. using roy to threaten me with a good time.... smh... MERRY CRIMMY SCUM!!!!, YAY TO YOU TOO, SOLACE!! Thank you aqua, you're right, he's good to me 🥺 just as chev is to you, i believe! THANK YOU DREW im still thinking about it. Thank you Fang, I could say the same and you know it 🥺, THANK YOU DEVON!! Thank you so much Ana, I too hope the same, I'm glad I became your mutual! 🥹 Same goes to you too, Oliver! I'm just always so happy to see new faces around, truth is im a little bit shy with interactions at first because i feel annoying... so thank you for becoming my moot! 🙇🏻‍♀️💗 Thank you, sweet Julie 🥹 THANK YOY MYARA, I CRIED A LITTLE! right back at ya, i think that you're an irreplaceable part of our little space and im just so glad to be here and see everything you do and share with us! hope your 2024 is full of joy both on here and irl ❤ Thank you mimi, i feel the same and you better not forget that! Thank you Michelle, love you too!!! THANK YOU, NAMI! Thank you, Impromptu!!!!! Thank you Nori!!!!!!!!! And thank you sui you're so right as ever. nods.

i think thats all im so sorry if i forgot anyone ALSO im so sorry for doing this. i tried to keep my responses vague in case you wanted these to be extra private... i initially was going to dm all of you but. that was because i thought there were going to be like 10 of you!!! again im sorry. love you all so much im an emotional wreck

i hope you had a good time these past few days and i hope we can all look forward to a great 2024 together 🥺 i'd be nowhere without you

@lorei-writes @yanderepuck @claviscollections @yarnnerdally @scummy-writes @aquagirl1978 @ikemendrew @fang-and-feather @devonares @bicayaya @olivermorningstar @queengiuliettafirstlady @keithsandwich @mimi-but-main @xbalayage @namine-somebodies-nobody @the12thnightproject @mcwentfandomtraveling @leonscape

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monstersinthecosmos · 15 days

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20 Qs for fic writers

Tagged by @jacqulinetan

1. How many works do you have on A03? 46 public, 3 private, 2 anon.

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count? 692, 623!

3. What fandoms do you write for? VC and Sheith with a few YOI fics thrown in. 😊

4. What are your top five fics by kudos? Star Eater, THE FRONT, Tonight the Stars Revolt!, Wayfinder, and Zero Hour!

5. Do you respond to comments? YES! I only share fics because I want comments lmfao. I want to talk to you!!! Sometimes I do like a quarterly roundup so I let them pile up and then answer them all every 3 months lol but I do try to reply to everybody!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? I think for Sheith it’s C O A G V L A and for VC it’s The Lotus Eater or Gallows Bird? (The Lotus Eater and Gallows Bird have the Armand & Marius versions of the same ending bc Gallows Bird was a TLE remix LOL) Sfaíra Ti̱s Fo̱tiás also has a really bleak ending but it’s a PWP so it doesn’t hurt me as bad LOL.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? For Sheith it’s THE FRONT I think? For VC idk maybe Right Where it Belongs or In the Trials of the Heart?

8. Do you get hate on fics? I’ve gotten a lot of hate in fandom at large but never really got flagrant hate in an AO3 comment. I do occasionally get a rude unsolicited critique and I like to use that as an opportunity to write meta about why my decision was correct LOL

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? I only write smut, thanks! WHAT KIND? idk I lean into BDSM but there's a few that aren't BDSM. I also write canon-compliant VC smut so it's either a vampire servicing a human or me trying to make blood drinking sound as horny as possible.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written? I used to when I was a teenager on my old accounts but it doesn’t really interest me anymore outside of like maybe a cute lil homage Easter Egg or something.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? I don’t think so!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? No!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? I haven’t co-written in a long time but I used to! One of my fav fics from high school was written with my best friend where we alternated chapters and it was so much fun!

14. What’s your all time favorite ship? Sheith and Marius/Armand and Armand/Daniel and Marius/Pandora !!!!!!!!!!!!!! Those are my fav ships to WRITE, I don’t really read a lot of VC though. I have lots of other fav ships to read.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? I don’t start stuff that I won’t finish adsgjl when I was in high school my FFnet page was a DISASTER just like 60 fics, none of them finished, and so when I returned to fic writing using AO3 I promise myself not to post stuff that I wasn’t confident I’d finish. Ideally I don’t even begin sharing something until it’s finished but TTSR was an exception bc it started as a PWP and got out of hand.

16. What are your writing strengths? I get complimented the most on tension and pacing! Also on emotional meta like characters' behavior around trauma.

17. What are your writing weaknesses? I really wish I was better at writing long fics. It’s been a goal of mine forever and I’ve gotten a little better but I’m not where I want to be.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? Gjkaldsg I don’t think it’s necessary and often comes off as cheesy unless it serves a real purpose. I've seen it done really well before! (Clap When You Land by Elizabeth Acevedo came to mind!) And I think we’ve all seen this done badly enough in fanfic to kind of learn what not to do. I think there are times when the beauty and cadence of another language can add texture or say something that you simply can’t say in the default language, I also think it can be used to create a distance between the characters, even between the reader and the character. I used a lot of Latin in So Falls the World for example, because Marius and Pandora are reciting an ancient poem to each other, and it was important to me to leave it in Latin because I wanted to communicate their age, that they’re clinging to something archaic because it’s familiar to them, when it’s incongruous to the world around them and also the text around them. Same with the misinterpretation of silence and its disastrous consequences, where Louis is reciting a French poem. I mean do we assume that Louis and Lestat speak French to each other at home anyway? But putting the poem in the original language AT LEAST FOR ME created a sense that Louis is playing a role, that it’s something outside of himself. Basically I think media does this all the time and we are smart enough to know that the language we’re consuming might not be the language the characters are actually speaking, we all know that! So the question is, when people sprinkle random words into their stories or dialogue, I ask: What purpose did this serve? Is this how bilingual people actually talk? Is it written for bilingual readers as a shared experience or is it meant to confuse monolingual readers for effect? Is it used sparingly to add texture, is it just a fun word that you want to use? Do whatever you want but I think we need to ask ourselves these questions before writing something that’s a sloppy mess at best, and a racist caricature at worst!

19. First fandom you wrote for? Pro wrestling =P

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? Tonight the Stars Revolt! is my fav Sheith fic, it’s like my magnus opus that I do all my meta work for, everything I’ve thought deeply about was ultimately for this fic, I HAVENT UPDATED IT IN ALMOST 2 YEARS IM REALLY SORRY LIFE KINDA GOT AWAY FROM ME IT’S BEEN HECTIC but I think about it constantly, more than you know, I have 3 playlists for it that I listen to all the time, it’s just always on my mind. For VC it used to be So Falls the World but now that I wrote Gallows Bird I think it’s that, too. I can’t tell if it’s because Gallows Bird is just newer and less sloppy LOL but jkdlhakjgsd I THINK I AVOIDED WRITING MARIUS FIC FOR A LONG TIME BC I WAS INTIMIDATED BUT THE TIMES I DO WRITE HIM I HAVE SUCH A BLAST and I just love him so much!

TAGGING: @hekateinhell @apoptoses @mothmage @nothing-but-paisley @covenofthearticulate @lovevamp @bubblegum-blackwood & EVERYONE ELSE

#stuff i wrote

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thegirlwhorideslikeasamurai · 2 years

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Can You Hear My Heartbeat (story excerpt)

“Speaking of your coach: How do you two get along?”

Yuuri shrugged. “Okay, I think. He’s less intimidating than Celestino, but he’s not an easy person to converse with.” That was a vast understatement. He had never met a person with such straightforwardness. Viktor was a force of nature. And like that he had turned Yuuri’s life upside down. But if he voiced his concerns to Minako, she would have some things to say to that.

“Hm.” Minako raised an eyebrow. “I didn’t get this impression the few times we talked.” Her eyes glazed over as they did so often when she was raving about her favourite figure skaters. “From what I could see, he is a very handsome and good-mannered young man.” As if to emphasise her words, she spun and stopped in an arabesque.

You don’t need to tell me, Yuuri thought.

“It’s …,” he trailed off, struggling for words while the heat on his cheeks flared up with the power of the sun, “it’s as if a god has graced us with his presence and turned our old banquet room into his shrine.”

A knowing glint lit up in her eyes. “And you’re too busy worshipping him to get to know him.”

The heat increased if that was even possible, devouring Yuuri from the inside. Viktor’s unexpected arrival had thwarted his attempt to draw a line under this chapter of his life and sparked Yuuri’s hopes for a comeback.

“I … it’s awkward. I mean, how could I, a being of no significance, be ever worthy of him?”

“Nonsense! He came here because he was drawn to you by you skating his routine, Yuuri.”

“This video was filmed and put online without my permission,” Yuuri pointed out.

She snorted quietly. “The message was yours―intended or not. Because you didn’t practise his programme over and over for no reason.”

Yuuri winced. After the Grand Prix Final, he had hated himself for rejecting Viktor’s offer to take that commemorative photo together because the humiliation of making last place had been unbearable. Coming to terms with the fact that he, the loser of Sochi, would never be worthy of his idol and that he had wasted his last chance to talk to him, he had skated Viktor’s free programme to bid his greatest dream farewell—a cry into the void for that which would never be. He had never intended for it to be viewed by anyone else than his closest friend, much less than by the one because of whom he had gone through all the effort in the first place.

“I just never thought he would get to see it,” he said.

“If you had known that he would see it and come for you, would you still have skated it?”

Yuuri considered the question. He probably would have been terrified throughout the whole process, would have been afraid that people would think he was showing off out of an urge to compensate for Sochi―but if he had seen even an infinitesimal chance of having his dream fulfilled?

He met Minako’s gaze and nodded.

Somehow that made the fact that Viktor was here even more precious.

―From Can You Hear My Heartbeat, Chapter 6 – The house god

I’m just one of the dime-a-dozen people writing YOI fanfic and I’m sure that many people are doing a better job at this or had a similar idea years ago, but I’m currently posting a fanfic on AO3 which fills the gaps in the anime. The story is called “Can You Hear My Heartbeat” and the first seven chapters are available on AO3 with weekly updates. I don’t know if canon fic is a thing in the YOI fandom at all; I’m just putting my work out there because it means the world to me. If you wish the show had more viktuuri, if you are deprived of your favourite anime couple or if you just want to read a tale of true love and fantastic figure skating, please give this story a try.

Here's the link: https://archiveofourown.org/works/39455376/chapters/98748546

#yuri on ice #yurionice #yoi #viktuuri #victuuri #katsuki yuuri #viktor nikirofov #yoi fanfic #fanfic #canon fic #ao3 fanfic #figure skating #all you ever wished for but never got in yoi #a tale of true love and fantastic figure skating #yuuri x victor #CYHMH #ADTLTBAverse

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toothfa-1-ry · 1 year

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"If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy" feat. Felix

You always find yourself pining over your bestfriend. If only you guys were a movie, maybe things would work out.

PAIRING: Non idol bestfriend Felix x gn reader, Yeonjun x gn reader

FEAT: Yuna (itzy), Yeonjun (txt)

GENRE: one sided love, based on the lyrics of "if we were a movie", angst + fluff at the end

WARNING: reader has self depricating thoughts.

Tumblr is based on the number of reblogs and not likes so please do reblog if you enjoyed reading! Don't be shy to mention something's as well!! Have a nice day

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"Uh, oh, there you go again, talkin' cinematic"

You couldn't help but roll your eyes as Felix let out a sigh, yet again complaining about how he wishes that life were like the movies

"just imagine y/n!" His eyes widen as he stretches out his hand "love letters, secret hide outs, ballets and just love" he exclaimed as he flopped on your bed

Felix was what you would call a hopeless romantic. He held ideals and sentiments about love, he absolutely loved the idea of love. From Jack to Rose and Mr. Darcy and Elizabeth.

"you better clean up my bed you hear me" you say completely ignoring him

I suppose you were the opposite of a hopeless romantic. Did you believe in love? Yes but did you think that love could be like how it was potrayed in the movies? Probably not but did you ever wish it was? Maybe

"love" Felix sighed "if we were in a movie. I wonder how it would be like" he muttered

"don't you ever wonder how it would be like?" Felix brought his face near yours and asked you "hm?"

You could feel your face getting warm as you stare into his eyes "w-what?" You stammer hoping he wouldn't notice anything

"do you ever wish we were in a movie?" He asked you grinning

Thankgod he didn't notice anything different

"pft no that would be silly" you remark watching Felix frown "I don't think ive never wished that"

I've always wished for that, every night before sleeping, everyday after waking up

"really? You never wanted to be the star in your movie?" Felix asked you

"No.. not really"

Yea... All the time, if it means things could be different between us

"well" Felix huffed as he crossed his arms "I have. Just wait y/nnie. I'm gonna find the kind of love they talk about in the movies, I might not have found them yet but I'll find them!" he exclaimed

You felt a pang of pain in your heart, what about you? Could you be the kind of love Felix was searching for?

"yea yea alright mr. Romantic that enough. Now help me clean up my bed" you stand up clearing your throat

Felix smiled at you and yoy felt your heart melt

"I'll clean up don't worry-"

"we can do it together it's fine"

"no hey wait-"

"yea you, your charming. Got everybody starstruck"

It was a understatement to say that Felix was attractive.

With a smile as pretty as that and a personality as bright as the sun, you weren't surprised that you fell for him

The thing was, so did everyone else.

"uh ...hi uhm I just wanted to say-" a blushing girl approached you and Felix in the cafe

You look behind her to see another group of girls who were hyping her up. Oh boy, this was the third time this is happening today. You look over to Felix who was seated facing you, he didn't seem to mind nor notice

"hi.. can I help you?" He asked in his deep voice and you could almost swear that the girl would have fainted any second. You can't blame her though, you always felt yourself swooning over his voice as much as you tried not you.

You raise you eyebrows as the girl struggles to form sentences getting annoyed

You clear your throat and Felix throws you a dirty look

Be nice

you throw him another look

whatever

"do you need something?" You ask the girl who only seemed to notice you now, staring between you and Felix dumbfounded

"oh uh- I didn't know you had a lover" she said as she looked at you.

"they're not my lover" Felix quickly corrected her with a smile

It pained you to see how fast he was to correct her, was it that bad for him when others thought that they were dating? Was it that bad for him to imagine you as his lover?

"oh! I'm glad to hear that!" The girl exclaims, completely shifting her attention to Felix now

You decided at this moment that you didn't like her. Not one bit

"My name is Yuna. I was hoping to get your number? If that is you want to give it to me ofcourse!"

Hah no way Felix would give his number to her..right?

"I know how you always seem to go. For the obvious instead of me"

"I can't believe it...a girl like that liked me y/n!" Felix said to you a little to excited for your liking on the bus ride back to your apartment

"I can't believe you gave your number to her..what was so special about her.." you mumble to yourself looking out of the window.

"wow..she was so cute. Don't you think so? Could she be the one?" Felix continued to ramble on as he talked animatically

You felt the tears prick your eyes, Felix always went for the obvious choice. Pretty girls with long hair and big eyes.

What about you, couldn't you have been a choice for him? Did the thought ever occur to him that you were there too?

"hey y/n you okay?" Felix asked you in concern when you didn't reply back to anything he said

"oh yea..I'm fine. I'm just a little tired" you mumble while refusing to look at his face.

"here you can sleep on me. I don't mind" Felix said smiling "my shoulder is reserved specially for my bestfriend!"

You weakly smile back as you rest your head in his shoulder as you felt small butterfly's erupt in your stomach just by the contact between your head and Felix's shoulder

Bestfriend... really? Is that what you'll ever be to Felix?

"hey Felix?"

"hm? Yea?"

"are you gonna contact that Yena girl?" You say the wrong name intentionally wondering if Felix would correct you.

"it's Yuna" Felix quickly said

Oh..he did correct you

"and yes I will" Felix paused for a while "...she had the prettiest face. She's the one..I feel it" he pressed his heart and his cheeks tinted red

"oh okay Lix.." you try your best to blink your tears away. You pressed your heart and you could almost swear that you heard it cracking.

"But get a ticket and you'll see"

You watch as Felix showed you numerous different outfits

"do you think this looks good?" He asked you everytime he tried something on

You've never seen him act like this before, he never behaved like this on all his other dates except for Yuna.

You grew to hate that name, the name that made Felix smile all widely, the name that Felix loved.

The name that made Felix's heart skip a beat while yours cracks even more

You try to pick the worst outfits for him to wear but everything looks so good on him its impossible for you to sabotoge his date.

But how could you sabotoge his date? How could you when Felix was so excited? When he told you that she was the one, when he sang her name everytime the both of you hanged out

How could you possibly sabotage Felix and Yuna's relationship when it brought joy to Felix, you weren't that cruel.

You didn't mind breaking your heart for Felix.

"wear this outfit" you point out to him "it will make her heart skip a beat. I swear"

"really? What makes you so sure?"

Because it made my heart skip a beat

"just trust me okay?"

Felix grinned at you "thankyou y/n..I don't know what I would do without you!"

"I don't know what I would do without you too" you whisper to yourself as you watch Felix carefully pick up the outfit you chose for him

"you know y/n? Why don't you get a lover? I mean...I can always find someone for you. Like a blind date" Felix said his eyes sparkling "we could go on blind dates"

"oh I don't... I'm not really into that sorta things" you say uncomfortable

"your really not interested in anyone?" Felix asked you

"nah.." you shake your head.

I'm interested in you- no I'm inlove with you

"Now go get ready or you'll be late for your date" you laugh out even though there was nothing funny "c'mon you don't want to keep Yena waiting?"

"it's Yuna y/n..geez"

"whatever" you roll your eyes as you push him to get ready

Whatever ...yea right

"if we were a movie, you'd be the right guy"

You stare at the freckles which were splattered all over Felix's cheeks looking like constellations.

You watch his grin grow wider as his fingers began typing even faster

"who are you texting?" You ask him even though you already know the answer

"Yuna" he quickly said without breaking contact from his screen

"oh" you just said

There seemed to be a question plaguing your mind ever since Yuna and Felix started dating.

You always asked yourself what did Yuna do that you didn't for Felix to fall head over heals over her?

What did she have that you didn't?

You continue staring at Felix's smile, the pure genuine smile that was reserved only for Yuna and never you

Those eyes which showed nothing but pure admiration for Yuna once used to bring comfort to you but now it brought nothing but pain. You knew he looked at her in a way he'll never look at you

You knew that Felix was perfect. He knew you better than anyone.

He knew that your favourite colour was blue but not the sort of blue that painted the sky, the sort of blue that the ocean had.

He knew that you hated thunderstorms but loved the rain

He knew just how you liked your coffee and how much sugar to add

Felix was perfect for you

But you weren't perfect for him

You were clumsy and forgetful but not in a cute way, rather in a annoying way

You couldn't ever smile as bright as Felix did even if you tried, you couldn't bring warmth to others like Felix did

Felix was the right guy

But deep down you knew, you weren't the right person.

Not for him

He deserved someone like Yuna as much as it pained for you to admit

Will he ever see you inna different light? Even if he did will you ever be enough?

Were you ever enough?

"And I'd be the bestfriend, you'd fall inlove with"

You've been bestfriend's with Felix ever since middle school.

The both of you had automatically clicked. It was strange for everyone including you. How did a person like Felix get so close with a person like you? Someone like Felix who was so bubbly and bright with someone like you? So lonely and depressing

It shocked everyone but you didn't mind one bit. As long as you had Felix it was fine. As long as you had your friendship with Felix it was fine.

They say it's hard for middle school friendships to last but that wasn't the case for you and Felix. Until you fell inlove with him during highschool.

And you've been inlove with Felix ever since.

But could you be blamed? Of course you were going to fall for him. Did you try to stop yourself? Yes but did it work? No quite the contrary instead you found yourself falling for him even deeper as the days went by

All those small hugs, small presents, words of affirmations and constant smiles had made you fall for him even harder.

There were times when you wondered if Felix could ever fall for you.

We're all those small lingering hugs there for nothing? Those showers of compliments from him whenever you felt insecure

Was it not love?

The thing is, it was love. But it wasn't the kind of love you wanted from Felix

You wanted him to kiss you softly like he does to Yuna, you wanted him to hum into your ear like he does to Yuna

In movies, the bestfriends always fall inlove with eachother. They realise that they've been inlove this whole time and end up together happy.

But this wasn't the movies and this wasn't a sappy romcom.

This was real life

And your bestfriend was inlove with someone else.

Not you, never you

"We'd be laughing, watching the sunset, Fade to black show our names. Play the happy song"

Maybe he did love you the way you loved him. Or maybe you just told that to yourself everytime you though about him

Maybe if you guys were in a movie he would finally love you back. And you'd get a happy ending

But the movies were just movies

And you were just a person, not the main lead of the movie or a star.

You were just his bestfriend and you'll always be only his bestfriend

You look at Yuna and Felix who were holding each other's hands in the movie theater while you were third wheeling their date.

The movie was about two bestfriend's who fall inlove with eachother. How ironic

Watching Yuna and Felix hold each other's hand was one thing, them leaning on eachother was another but being their third wheel was the last straw.

"hey uh- I'm gonna go. I already saw this movie so-" you grab your bag as you stand up

"oh you did?" Felix asked so nonchalantly "okay see you"

He was probably glad you were going after all he wanted to spend time with his girlfriend. Alone

"okay..let's meet up in the cafe nearby y/n" Yuna whispers to you giving your hand a slight squeeze as if she was signalling you a thankyou for giving them their alone tims

You wince slightly as you walk out of the theater quickly, you didn't want to be around them another minute

You rush out of the theater hall not looking infront of you causing you to bumb into someone, dropping your bag

"oh my god I'm so sorry" you apolagise as you scramble down to pick up your bag and all the items that was spilled on the floor

"hey it's chill. No problem" a male voice says as he helps you pick up your things

You look up to meet a pair of fox eyes and plump lips which quickly turned up to smile at you

"I'm Yeonjun. You alright? You looked like you wanted to get out of there" he pointed to the theater hall from which you rushed out from

"hah..yea I guess you could say that" you sling you bag onto your shoulder "thankyou for helping me"

"no problem" Yeonjun smiles at you lifting his eyes expectantly

"oh- sorry I'm y/n...uh I already saw the movie so..." You quickly ramble

"y/n... pretty name" the boy said "too bad you already saw that movie. I heard it sucks tho?"

You let out a laugh "it kinda does"

"hm...do you want to watch another movie?" He points to another movie poster "i heard that pretty good"

Your eyes widen at his sudden proposal unsure of what to say. Your eyes drift to the poster he pointed to and to the theater hall you just escaped from

Yeonjun smiles at you "what do you say?"

What could go wrong? Isn't this what always happens in the movies?

"sure...I'd like to watch that movie"

Yeonjun grins at you "I'll get the tickets. Just wait here"

You watch Yeonjuns figure approach the counter. He turns around to give you a thumbs up.

"the movies gonna start. let's go" Yeonjun grabs your hand as he leads you to the theater hall.

You watch the pitch black screen slowly turn bright, you looked over to the boy sitting next to you. It reminded you of a scene in a movie or a book you read.

Maybe you didn't mind that it was just like the movies. Maybe you always wanted it to be.

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ravenonice · 11 days

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Well. The ice ado news suck. I knew it wasn't gonna happen for a few years now I guess...but at least there was this glimmer of hope. And I suppose in the grand scheme of things this is such a silly thing to be genuinely upset about...(over sharing ahead) but yoi was released in literally the hardest time of my life, literally a week after I lost my dad. And it brought me joy and probably helped me to not completely lose my mind. It has been my comfort show ever since.

I rarely get this attached to media. I couldn't tell you my favorite book or favorite movie because those things are so fleeting and I love something else very quickly...but even though my engagement with it differed throughout the years, it always remained a part of me and I always came back to it when I needed it.

I'm not even that into anime anymore as I was as a teenager but I do pay my crunchyroll subscription even if it's just so I can watch yoi whenever i need it...I should get the blue ray honestly it's weird that I never did xD

I think my fondest memory of the yoi fandom was when I went to Frankfurt book fair in 2017 and cosplayed Yuuri. I had ordered his Japan jacket but it took too long to arrive, I was devestated, I was outright panicing. But what could I do? I had to improvise. I got some blue boxers, a white shirt and the ugliest blue tie I could find at tk maxx and went as drunk banquet Yuuri! And I had a BLAST! I think that was by far my most successful cosplay ever and I wish I could share it with you but my sd card broke and I don't have the photos anymore :'( I had so many Viktor cosplayers come up to me, roleplay a little, tell me that they wanted to burn my tie xD It was fun! I even made katsudon piroschki to share with everyone! I also had a hard time leaving bc I got stopped for photos so many times! So if anyone who was at that fair all that time ago remembers me and still has photos, please send them my way <3

So I guess what that teaches me is that I can make the best out of a bad situation :') Well. We just gotta write even more fanfiction now I guess <3

#yuri on ice #yuri!!! on ice #ice adolescence

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mykatsudon · 10 months

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Ooof I am also in my feelings about YOI. I can't believe I actually watched it as it was airing. I was still a teen and related to Yurio the most, now I come back to watch it and I'm older than Yuri!! And he's so relatable, it's like I was missing a whole part of YOI then suddenly I rewatch as an adult feeling weirdly sentimental despite that year being pretty bad for me and just oooofffffff.

I was tearing up constantly. Like when I watched as it came out I thought Victor seemed kinda cold and far away and I liked Yuri well-enough but thought he got over his anxiety quickly, my main focus was Yurio. Now going back it's just holy shit, I lived Yuri's life, minus the sporting achievements lol but I felt everything he felt, and Victor too was so much more interesting, clearly so much going on under the surface and profound loneliness covered up with a cheerful facade. I can't believe how different it was to rewatch years later at a different age. I still love Yurio too but now it feels like oh god please someone help this child rather than relating to him.

I remember even thinking at the time later that maybe it was overrated but going back to it now is just like god, no it wasn't at all, it really *was* that great, it really *did* deserve the hype. And I don't really know where I'm going with this but I just wanted to share it with someone bc I was never really that involved in the fandom and it's kinda died off now and I have no one to say it too in irl so it's just my farewell ig to YOI. Like I love that I can rewatch it but the whole hype around it at the time was so cool, it reminded me of watching shows on tv then talking about it at school the next day. Like it somehow re-created that experiance but even better bc it was sooo many people all at once. It was just so optimistic and sweet, and I feel weirdly sad now whenever I see anything about it. I almost wish it had done multiple seasons and movies and milked it for all its worth so I could just move on from it like anything else but now everytime I see it I'm suddenly thrown back to being a teen and comparing my life from then to now and suddenly remember every emotion I was feeling, it's so brutal.

This is overlong and kinda clumsy but basically I want to send the show off somehow like kiss it on it's cheeks and wave goodbye but I don't know how so I'm writing this all to you. Please don't feel pressured to reply, I know I've sent paragraphs. But if you do want to anyway, I'd love to hear all and any thoughts you have about YOI and what it was for you. I feel strangely lonely about it now bc I never had irl friends who watched it and I never paticipated in fandom. Now I'm like, idk mourning it, on my own. YOI coincided with a little bubble of time where I was relatively happy and hopeful, It's hard to let just that go now.

I understand you. I was 16 when yoi aired and I was actually waiting for it's release months before because the trailer seriously caught my attention, so I've been here since before the first ep was even out. To this day I count being able to watch Yuri on ice as it aired as one of the most positive experiences of my life. When yoi came out, I was in a particularly dark spot in my life, and this anime was my anchor through and through. It taught me the power a piece of media can have on a person as I do believe I couldn't have pulled through that year if yoi hadn't come in to save me at the last minute.

I remember it being so fun, I actually don't think I've ever had more fun with any other piece of media, it was magical.

It was many combining factors too; the fact that yoi is an original anime so every single Wednesday we had no idea what we were getting, the fact that yoi was so original in it's story and heavily deviates from your average sports anime, the huge community that formed around the series, making theories, trending #1 on Tumblr every single Wednesday and of course, the fact that there was actually a love story playing out between Victor and Yuri and that we as the audience got to experience it. l wonder if people truly understand how unique that is. This anime really went above and beyond all my expectations. It fed me too well and spoiled me too much.

I miss Yuri on ice in the way one misses a high they know they'll never obtain again, and I chased that high the remainder of my teenage years.

Having this blog, making friends, talking about the series, eagerly waiting for every Wednesday and having something to look forward to like that, I don't know If I'll ever experience it again. I don't think so. It really feels like the planets aligned for me to enjoy yoi to it's full potential. No one in this world can understand how much this series means to me, how close it is to my heart.

People who didn't watch it while it aired or who weren't in fandom have no idea how it felt. To this day, it was unlike anything I've ever encountered in fandom. It really is a "you just had to be there" kind of experience.

To say I miss it dearly would be a huge understatement. But I've been grieving yoi for the past 4 years. I'm currently in the acceptance phase. Whatever happens, happens. I agree with you that I wish they would've milked the series for all it's worth and we were on season 2 with a movie coming out soon. But that's just a selfish desire. What I wished the most is they hadn't played with my heart like that and gave me hope. I wish they came out and said "this project is over, sorry". I do believe something went deeply wrong in production, as you may have seen in my essays I've written on this subject.

I controversially believe Mappa is not entirely at fault and that this is something to do with the creators. It just makes no logical sense for Mappa to can yoi when it not only saved their studio, it's one of their best selling anime, pulling in crazy numbers. It even outsold Chainsawman. I think that if it were up to them we would be on Yuri on ice S3.

but enough especulating, what I mean to say is:

Allow yourself to mourn and say goodbye to a piece of media that greatly impacted your life. I think the best thing to do is to redirect those feelings you have towards gratitude.

I'm grateful for the memories we made together and the incredible chance they gave me to run a blog that had 25k+ Yuri on ice fans in it's prime, for the friends I made. I feel like I had a lot of fun and enjoyed every bit.

I will forever look forward to anything yuri on ice related, but if this is the end then so be it.

you gave me a long ask, I gave you a long answer.

Thank you for your heartfelt message.

#yuri on ice #yoi #ask #iceado #long post

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blue-ravens · 8 months

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Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 🤍 -ypq

hi! unfortunately (or perhaps fortunately) i'm no fic writer but i have had the great honour of beta reading fics for some very talented writers who also happen to be great big awesome friends of mine. so i'm going to rec five (ok more than five) fics of theirs that i've had a small little teeny tiny part in creating.

decrescendo / roll over beethoven by @movietonight (salvabon on AO3) - so this came from an insane idea mack had a while back, what if charles and mulcahy had swapped fates in gf&a? well, this is the work-in-progress behemoth that it inspired. i'm having great fun swapping ideas and such with mack, and i'm so excited for what happens next.

i never used to look at highway lines as treasure maps by stregatrek on AO3 - one of my top tier favourite fics, written by my good best friend gene, and watching this unfold in real time over chat was just magical. go read this, it's utterly exquisite (also? also? please read from lowest place when virtuous things proceed, also by my bestie because it actually never fails to make me cry. one of the very first 'charles goes to maine' fics, i might add. also also!! wish that you were here is one theeeee superior donna/charles fic series i've ever had the great fortune of being involved with so read that as well, you'll thank me later)

the home series by @onekisstotakewithme - i had a somewhat small role in this epic fic series but i think you should just read this anyway because this is a true master at work here. i just provided a few commas : )

a winter night by @vanillatumbleweedscoffee/@patsdrabbles (summertimepoet on AO3) - this originally came from a prompt for a fic i gave to the very lovely and talented pat on here a while back, and ohhh this melted me into a puddle of goo. also. because pat is just that that good, there's also art!! love you pat <3

shizukana yoi ni, hikario tomoshi (in the quiet of the night, let our candle always burn) - my baby my bestie my beloved, the modern au fic that started it ALL. it's got all you could want. fake dating. mutual pining. angst. whump. a killer queen soundtrack. i cannot tell you how much fun i had with this one, and honestly we had so much fun with this little project, and it shows. ally has the great honour of christening the charles/donna ship tag on AO3 and when she can filling it with such quality, it's safe to say it's pretty much her tag now. we are not worthy.

so you heard it here first, if you want the best and the most impeccable charles/hawkeye, charles/donna, or heck, charles/hawkeye/donna vibes going, these are the authors whose archives you should be rummaging around in like a feral raccoon in a supermarket dumpster. GO NOW and read them all and leave comments and kudos, and then come back and yell with me about them. you're welcome.

#thanks for the ask i hope this suffices <3 #mash #otp: and their sons #otp: blueberry pancakes #fic #ally #mack #pat #ask #blue's post

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insidereagan · 2 years

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reagan ridley x reader (angst)

idk im feeling soft tonight

sfw

tw for trauma flashbacks and panic attacks!

you came home to see reagan crashed onto the couch, crying. although you knew she had to go home early because of how exhausted she was after not sleeping for 5 days (even then it took a lot of convincing from you to get her to go home) you immediately got concerned, as you sat on the couch with her.

“hey,. what’s wrong, my love?” you asked.

“n-nothing,” she whispered, and smiled weakly.

“mm, I don’t think that’s the case. you really don’t have to talk about it though, hun. it’s really okay if you don’t want to tell me. just know i’m right here if you need anyone,” you told her, gently as you brushed your fingers through her hair softly.

“i-it’s just,, I was scrolling social media and s-saw something that reminded me of-y’know,” she said.

“I’m so sorry, my dear. I wish I could make it all go away. you didn’t deserve anything that happened to you. nows your time to just rest, okay? you’ve gone through so much, my love. I’m right here, and ill make sure no one ever hurts you again,” you whispered.

“y-you don’t have to stay, you can leave. it’s okay, really,” she cried.

“I’ll never leave you, baby. I love you so much, and you mean so much to me,” you said, and the two of you stayed silent for a few minutes, before you spoke.

“can I snuggle you, hun? it’s totally okay if not,” you said, and she nodded slowly, letting herself slip into your arms.

“I’m proud of you, alright? if you need me to let go, let me know,” you whispered, while again, brushing her hair carefully.

“t-thank you,” she said, before the two of yoy fell asleep in each others arms.

#reagan has bpd #reagan ridley #reader x reagan ridley #inside job #brett hand #brett hand x reader #gigi thompson #andre lee #magic myc #bpd #self ship #angst #jr scheimpough #gay #gravity falls #rick and morty

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cyborg-franky · 2 years

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Kinktober Day 5 - Hate Fucking

I was going to do more then one char but I ended up getting really invested in this for some reason and.. well.. here.

Marco x GN Reader N/SFW Word Count: 800

Marco

He’s not above a hate fuck here and there.

To be honest, he’s surprised you dislike him as much as you do, everyone else seems to get on with him.

Such an easygoing person how could anyone find anything to be mad about?

That’s what pisses you off, how laid back he is.

How it takes ages to get a reaction out of him, you could scream and shout in his face and he just blinks at you, the lazy smirk never leaving his face as he watches you wear yourself out from the little screaming session for your own benefit.

You hate that he thinks he’s untouchable, smug because he has the power of the phoenix at his fingertips.

He was so fucking up himself.

You’ve had enough of the condescending tone in his voice when he tells you what you’ve done wrong for what he makes out to be the hundredth time.

“Do you ever shut the fuck up?” You ask him through gritted teeth as you narrow your eyes.

He quirks his brows and tilts his head to one side, regarding you for a moment.

“And what if I don’t? Are you going to shut me up, little bird?” He said with mirth in his voice, a chuckle as he leans in closer.

You're so confused and angry at his arrogant words that aren’t sure what you're doing at first, grabbing the collar of his shirt and pulling Marco the rest of the way down, lips crashing against his.

You feel him chuckle into the kiss and it just pisses you off more.

You try to take control of the situation, grabbing your commander and swapping places with him, throwing him onto the seat, and pinning him.

It doesn’t take long for the clothes to come off, insults hissed out between breathy moans as you ride his cock, digging your nails as hard as you can into his shoulders as you try and give him a filthy look as he gazes up at you with a half-lidded eyes, smirk still in place even as you ride him,

“It’s like you want to hurt me yoi.” He said as blue flames tickle your hands, healing the marks you try and create.

“S-shut up.” You huff as he grips your hips, taking control of your movements and as much as you hate Marco having the upper hand, to be in control once again, you had to admit this feels amazing.

“Who knew that I just had to fuck the attitude out of you?” Marco said with a hum as he thrust up into you, pulling blissful moans from you.

He was going to get you to cum and you wanted to scream at yourself, you wanted to hiss insults at him. At those beautiful blue eyes and full lips, the blond tuft of hair. Gazing down at his chest seeing the tattoo inked there, you hated to admit he was a handsome man and knew how to please you.

“Come on darling, cum for me yoi” Marco’s tone was like honey, he didn’t let up, moving you up and down on his cock, enjoying how the glare on your face didn't match the sounds spilling from your lips.

He adjusted and had you seeing stars, his hand moving to where your bodies met, touching you and coaxing you to your climax.

Gritting your teeth, desperate not to scream the place down as you got closer to your finish.

“I wish you’d let me hear those pretty sounds…” He said with a sigh as his hand sped up and he thrust into you deeper, hitting just right.

The glare wiped off your face when you wrapped arms around his neck, falling forward and crying out for all you were worth, body shaking and voice a trembling mess as you came hard.

“That’s a good little bird, so good for me yoi.” Marco whispered in your ear as he rutted up a few more times.

You sighed, a slight grimace of defeat, your anger washed away as he came deep inside you, and part of you adored the feeling of being stuffed with his cum, and the other part of you wanted to knock his head off his shoulders.

“This doesn’t change anything, I still can’t stand you.” You muttered and let your body slump against his, enjoying how he ran hands down your back, tickling touches to match the butterfly kisses he placed across your shoulders.

“As long as you hate me like this more often, I don’t think I mind.” He chuckled but you had no energy to snap back, closing your eyes and taking a breath.

He was still an insufferable bastard but he was a great fuck.

Maybe this could be a regular thing..

#kinktober 2022 #one piece x reader #one piece reader insert #marco the phoenix #one piece x you #gender neutral reader #fushichou marco #one piece #marco op x reader #marco x you #op marco x reader #marco x y/n #marco x reader #marco the phoenix x reader #marco one piece x reader #n/sfw

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snickerdoodlles · 8 months

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✨What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

(prev) hmm, maybe Hair-Trigger? like, it got a good response, i'm very grateful to everyone who's read it ❤❤❤ i don't mean in a 'im looking for more hits' sort of way, i just really love Porsche & Kim as a duo and spin them around in my head like a shiny rock all the time. this mostly manifests in me spamming tortoise with Kim & Porsche snippets and thoughts that never seem to flesh out into proper fics, so Hair-Trigger has a special spot in my heart because it's my one finished Porsche & Kim fic and I want everyone to look at Porsche being extremely fond of Kim and Kim feeling all sorts of things about how fond Porsche seems to be of him (surely???? this is a trick????? he is so nice and smiley????????? a mystery)

💫what is your favorite kind of comment/feedback?

i like them all!! i genuinely enjoy all "types" of comments for different reasons, it feels weird to rank them against each other. so long as the comment is excited to engage with me/gush over idiot nerds together, i'm excited to answer and chat with them (although, i am. very behind on my inbox rn. hjghjg im sorry friends, i promise i will respond even tho it might be v late 😂💦)

💘Is there any posted fic you want to rework/re-edit/re-write?

I've actually been rewriting a *checks date* 5.5 yr old yoi WIP (*winces*) for a while now. very slow as my attention gets drawn away, but i love epistolary fic and there's a funny satisfaction without pressure to re-writing it.

but the story rewrite that actually has been sitting on my head for...forever really, is my ft story Jinxed. i was very new to fandom/writing fic when i first posted it, and at the time i'd just posted what i wrote and then went "...wait, how the fuck do you write a multi-chapter story???" and i really psyched myself out of posting more for it.

however, it's always like...sat in the back of my head, even after the fandom bullshit and when ft went to shit. because i just...don't like soulmate/soulmark AUs. 😅 the reasons behind my dislike for the trope are uh...kinda long and extensive actually, so i'll save that for a different post if anyone cares enough to ask, but the premise in this story of two girls with mismatched timers who fall in love and choose each other anyways is one i'm extremely drawn to. and i'm still like, figuring out how to write long stories, and i'm never going to write again for ft, so whenever i look over the old story drafts and notes, i'm actually thinking about it as an original story. not one i've started and maybe i'll stumble into a fandom that i want to apply this premise to, but...after i figure out long-form stories, i really want to swing by this one again, if simply to have it stop haunting my brain every few months.

(rest under the cut because i am rambly lol)

🌈is there a fic that you worked *really fucking hard on* that no one would ever know? maybe a scene/theme you struggled with?

hmm Silver for Truth is the obvious one since i whined about it taking a yr+ to write, but i think everyone understands when i say Tawan is an annoying ass bitch to write.

i'm actually going to cheat and say the freezer!Kim WIP i'm writing with @majestictortoise. there's a few different POVs in this story and one of them is Porsche's POV, and there is something about Porsche's POV specifically that i find very hard to capture. even when i know what i want from his arc and character struggles, post-canon Porsche carries around some conflicting beliefs and mindsets that i find really tricky to write, plus he's also a guy of action who's been forced to a standstill and i want to capture that trapped feeling without making it obnoxious. he's just tricky to me in a way that other characters aren't. (i actually ran into this issue with Hair-Trigger too, except it wasn't so hard because that's a fic about him Doing A Thing He Wants To Do, which is why i was able to write it within the timeframe i did. oh Porsche, ilu, why do u stick in my head so. orz)

🦋what are you most insecure about when you post a fic?

everything? idk, my reaction after i post a fic is to either Stare At My Inbox or desperately try to distract myself from the fact that i Posted A Fic, which really go to show how secure i feel about my writing 😂 i try very hard not to let a fic's reception get to me when i post because i've been down that road and it's really bad for me. all fic i post is fic for me, but i haven't hit the carefree attitude of "idc what you think, its for me first and foremost" yet.

🌻what makes you want to give up on writing? what makes you keep going?

there's nothing that makes me want to give up on writing specifically. i wail and cry when stuff isn't flowing right, but like. so i had an irl thing run me over like a truck april/may of this year and it's bullshit kept spilling out through june and july too, so i had like no time or energy to write or even spend much time on fandom stuff for four months, and i went absolutely bananas. i need to do something creative to feel good, and writing is my favorite of those.

posting...posting is a different story 😂 weirdly if im chasing the high of posting a fic/the high of comments on fic, i dont like to post as much. the hill in my head is too much to get around, so that ig.

🌿how does creating make you feel?

*points up*

also prev

🍉in what ways has writing helped you process trauma and/or navigate through your own life?

...this is such a weird question lmao (not u, the person who made the question list should have deleted this). i've always found writing as a good way of examining my internal biases and preconceptions i might not have otherwise had opportunity to find and reflect upon so clearly, and i'm going to leave it at that.

🎈describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?

fuck if i know what my writing style is 😂

🎀give yourself a compliment about your own writing

*curls up in more shy* hmm, i really like reading my own stories. like, i always have cyclic periods of "oh god this is garbage what the fuck was i thinking" feelings for each of my fics, but i know now that feeling is brief and it'll be gone soon enough and it will stay gone longer than it comes. the person who reads my stories the most is me, and the fact that i want to go back to read them again is really important to me.

🎉how often do you celebrate completing & posting a work? how often do you give yourself the credit/validation that you seek from others when you post? (if you don't, you should!)

i don't think i linger so much on the actual posting of the fic, but i return to my fics a lot and i've also started paying more attention to how much i post. i'm trying to find a balance between acknowledging that i posted stories vs "oh god, im not posting ENOUGH," but back at the turn of this year, i was really bummed that i didn't get as much posted during december as i had set out to do, specifically because i felt like 2021 had been a really strong year and i'd let myself down not finishing as many fics in 2022. then i actually checked my AO3 stats for 2021 to 2022, and realized i'd posted 4x as much in 2022 than i had in 2021. over 100k words altogether even!

i think i'm getting off topic, but between rereading my own stuff pretty frequently and trying to get a better grasp on how much i've actually posted vs what's in my head, i think i celebrate pretty often? idk 😂

💞what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language

characters!!! everything's built around the characters. i love worldbuilding, making up worlds is a lot of fun, but i worldbuild through the lens of "what am i interested in?" (which starts with characters) and "how does this affect x?" (because if it doesn't matter to/affect the character, it shouldn't be a priority to me). similarly, plots exist for me to put Specific Guys Into Situations. a plot can be objectively interesting, but i'm not going to stick to it if i don't care about the people going thru it, my brain just doesn't focus like that.

the actual writing of the story is lowest priority on my list. there's a lot of writing types i don't like, but i can muscle thru a lot in the name of a good cast or plot. similarly, i don't give a flying fuck how pretty or polished a writer thinks their sentences are, if the actual story is boring or OOC, i am not reading it. or i am reading it and bitching extensively in friends DMs, which is worse. 😂

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

honestly, hard for me to answer because i'm actively trying not to think about what sort of response i do get. i guess one that still amuses me quite a bit is the response to my fic Shining Dishonesty (howls moving castle AU for haikyuu!!). i love this story to bits and i really love the comments i have on it, but it's weird/funny to me because it's my most recommended and mentioned fic on twitter, but it's one of my lowest in terms of kudos & comments. idk what's up with that 😂

🤍what's one fic of yours you think people didn't "get"?

*big shrug emoji* nothing that comes to mind???

maybe Silver for Truth, just a little bit???? everyone got the message of "get fucked Tawan" but there was also a little more pity for Tawan than i'd expected. like, not really, because Tawan's annoying, but i don't know that everyone quite caught Khun's trap for Tawan in it. Tawan could've completely turned things around for Vegas and ruined Kinn's lie by confessing his own failures/betrayals and accepting the consequences, except Tawan puts himself before all others, even someone he claims to love.

🕯️was there a fic that was really hard on you to write, or took you to a place you didn't think it would take you?

honestly? i don't remember the specific writing issues once something is done. even for something that takes me a while to write. usually my writing hang-ups are related to irl stressors. Pitch It was an extremely hard fic for me to write, but that was because it had a deadline attached to it while i was also trying to come up with money for a new car after my previous one was totaled 😂 and while i approach all stories with a vague plot in mind, it's purposefully vague so i can adapt to where's best for the story to go. that's the part i look forward to the most when writing lol.

💥find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.

lol i don't even have to sort my stories to know which one is my least number of hits/kudos. it's by dawn's early light, which i wrote for the bnha myths zine, and it is literally one of my favorite fics i've ever written. there's some stuff i would've done differently now, but i liked it when i finished it, i liked even thru that fucking project's mess, and i liked it enough to post it after the project was finished, and that is probably the highest praises i can give that particular fic.

(this response probably doesn't make much sense to anyone who hasn't participated in a zine before and i'm not going to burden you with context if you haven't, but like. trust me. that's saying a lot 😂)

🍭why did you start writing?

to make a dick joke. i haven't changed.

💎why is writing important to you?

it's just fun. i really like doing it and i really like connecting with people over it/through it.

🪄what is your post-writing/sharing aftercare? How do you take care of yourself or celebrate yourself when you've finished a fic?

i re-read the story about a bajillion times in that first week. you'd think i'd be sick of it by the time it's posted, but the satisfaction of having finished something changes the way i read it and i just bask in that.

📡why is writing and sharing your writing important for fandom?

another terrible question in this otherwise nice questions list.

i like it, so i do it, and i'm lucky enough to have made friends through it.

🎙️which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?

i'm excited if anyone wants to make a podfic of my work and i give general permission for it, but it's not something i seek out specifically. i have very bad ears, it just doesn't really cross my mind.

🤲what do YOU get out of writing?

*points up however many questions ago* it's very fulfilling for me and i like it a lot. i'm lucky enough to have also made connections to others by way of writing, but first and foremost is i enjoy the actual act of it.

💋when you leave comments on a fic, do you want to hear back from the writer?

maybe? idk, i leave comments because i like to leave comments. i like hearing back, but its not like im leaving a comment looking for that. wrong mindset for this question, u know?

☯️how do you think engaging with each other through tumblr, twitter, comments, kudos, creates healthy fandom experiences? How do you deal with that if you're not a social person/experience social anxiety?

*sighs* this fucking questionnaire maker lmao.

responding to fics is fun for everyone. it's a great way to make new friends if that's the fandom experience you're hoping for (same goes for responding to edits, art, etc). if you're anxious to start talking to people or leaving comments or whatever, take the babysteps you need to try to push and expand your comfort zone. and be gentle on yourself -- there's no "right" way to interact with fandom, and you don't have to be perfect at what you want to do right away either.

but if that's not the way you want to interact with fandom, you don't have to. there's nothing wrong with "lurking" and frankly i care about my stuff being enjoyed (even if i never hear about it!), not the ~proper~ way to be in fandom or whatever. furthermore, my healthy fandom experience is regulating and maintaining my own reactions to the reception (or lack of) i get when i post so that it stays fulfilling for me, and that's how i create my healthy fandom experience.

🧿what steps do you take to not take things personally if a fic doesn't do well, or if your writing/posting/sharing experience isn't going how you'd like it to?

mostly i look inwards to see what exactly im dissatisfied with and examine why. there's plenty of stuff that i wish had a bigger reception, but i focus on things that i can control (what im happy with in a story, what i enjoyed about the process, talking about it more in my own blog space so people can choose to engage or ignore, etc) and push myself to that framework of mind. the worst thing you can do is focus on things you can't control, especially something as random and fickle as other people's reactions or a post/story hitting the trend wave just right.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

timeloop AU!! (prev)

timeloop AU will be 3 chapters + an epilogue. first chapter is Kim POV, the second one is Big POV, and third is Chay POV. Kim is the first one trapped in the timeloop. Big joins him later. Chay never does.

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

in my fic Single Star Review, Khun goes to university and then starts seeking extra therapy help. i am Extremely excited for this one, but one of my favorite-favorite parts of it is Khun dismissively says "it's not like i can call Kim and gossip about boys" and Flop (the therapist, no that's not actually his name) asks Khun "why not" and Khun stares through a wall for a solid three minutes realizing hey, he CAN call Kim to talk about boys actually.

-later that night-

Khun: Kim! Kimmy-Kim my littlest kin! forget your other plans, tonight we are painting our nails and gossiping about BOYS

Kim: what the fuck

Khun: my therapist thinks i should try talking to you about stuff

Kim: THERAPIST?!

Khun: THAT'S NOT THE IMPORTANT PART HOW DO I HANDLE HAVING A CRUSH

(Kim is, ofc, over the moon and extremely excited when his brain catches up with his ears, even though he's a total little brother about it.)

💌share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!

Red Line fic is the first installment of a 4-fic series (tortoise is laughing at me for thinking it'd stop with 1). mostly because it immediately dived into one of my favorite variations for how Chay kills Korn.

Korn's death is not a fix-it.

#idk if u meant for me to answer ALL but i had to >:)#<333333

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