#and ik they probably wont accept it lol

[bixiaoshi]

.

#i think my family is struggling w money and ugh i hate not veing avle to do stuff abt it #like yeah im looking for a job rn but it'll only be for like. 3 months max bc i dont want to work while studying #and ik they probably wont accept it lol #being* #and i hate it!!! i hate it sooo much bc i wish i could do stuff #and idk it makes me not want to try and take the translation masters after my final year bc ik it also costs money and idk if its also #covered by what i currently have to study in uni #and i know this is partially bc they have to pay for my mom's dad stuff. i resent that man soooo fucking bad #and he makes me resent my uncle bc he doesnt put one single peso like he just lives his life while my mom has to pay for him #i hope i get a job to have savings at least #jo.txt

[toastsnaffler]

one unfortunate thing abt watching bloody violent up-close-and-personal movies is that it makes me even more crazy touchstarved than usual after.. I need to wrestle someone NOW

#i need to BITE. or lie in someones lap and let them stroke my hair #also now my family have left i probably wont even get a hug for a longass time......... its dire out here #ik my flatmate said a while ago she wouldnt mind if i wanted more physical contact or whatever but ik thats not true #bc she always seems so physically uncomfortable near me or moves so distinctly far out of my space like i get the message man #and its just difficult for me for so many complicated reasons. sigh #im just tired of feeling so lonely always all the time. and so ostracised or alienated in every community and relationship in my life #and i know thats my own fucking fault bc im stupidly incapable of allowing myself to trust and believe other people abt anything #and partly also bc im disabled and autistic as shit etcetc and so will always come across weird and Other and i have no control over that #but mostly its my fault. and i dont even know where to begin trying to fix that man. if its even fixable in this lifetime i dont even know #but it sucks ass im so tired of being sad and close to tears 90% of the time i cry on the fucking daily even on good days #dont get me wrong im doing pretty okay at the moment like i dont even really have any Real problems its all just in my fucking head #but unfortunately thats the head i live in. and will live in the rest of my life so i guess im always gonna feel like this on some level #so i need to just accept it and be grateful for the shit i have bc it could be so so much worse #and yet i cant just do that so here we are!!!!!!!!! oh well. #maybe a part of me likes being miserable. or feels like i deserve it. bc im really fucking good at it lmao #anyway i should go to bed soon before this gets worse. at least i dont have work tmr so i can do smth nice or chill all day #and there have been lots of nice things today too.. ah i just need to sleep #sorry for rambling my ass off with my mentally ill monologues again 🙃 well not that sorry bc youll see me do it again lol #.vent #.diaries

[wosemi-sama]

"i shall checkmate you!" 🎶

hello hello!! you may know me from my main blog, @nostalgic-muffins but i have now started a writing blog! this is only a side blog but i wanted to write on this one, rather then my main so now this is a thing lol

requests: OPEN!!!!! dont be shy and to send me requests! i will be more then happy to take em (also i might take a while to fulfill ur request bc i happen to be the worlds #1 procrastinator so keep that in mind!)

if ya dont know me from my main, then hello and welcome! im lorelai but i also go by other names such as nene, ren, and moose

ill be writing x reader for proseka and niji en. but wait, theres more! i started playing obey me in august and the boys have been rotating in my brain a lot, so i accept obm requests now!

rules for that lol:

no nsfw!!!!!! im uncomfortable w it and id rather leave it to the professionals lol

headcanons, fluff, angst, and oneshots and stuff like that r allowed!!

uhhhhhhh idk how to write comfort btw

would rather invade denmark instead of holding hands? no worries, i gotchu because i also take platonic requests!

i might turn down some reqs if i dont watch the liver often/ havent read that character's story yet (i am very lazy and havent paid attention to mmj, l/n, and i still havent finished n25 story)

im a girl but any pronouns r alright (she/he r what im most comfortable with!)

if theres sum thats writing but isnt x reader, itll be tagged with "a letter from yours truly!💌" anything under that tag will also be lowercase intentionally, as it feel more true to me compared to my x reader works!

if theres sum thats not writing, itll be tagged with "nene's non-mail posts!!💌"

if theres sum that is x reader, it'll be tagged with "youve got mail! wanna open it?💌"

anything thats sent to me in my inbox will be tagged with "nene's inbox 📬"

ill be writing for every prsk chara!!(if i can)

list of livers ill be writing for(if they get requested):

(☆ = theyre my oshi! ill probably be able to write them ok)

Elira Pendora

Pomu Rainpuff

Selen Tatsuki

Rosemi Lovelock

Enna Alouette

Luca Kaneshiro

Ike Eveland

Shu Yamino

Alban Knox [☆]

Fulgur Ovid

Uki Violetta

Sonny Brisko

Kyo Kaneko [☆]

Maria Marionette

Aia Amare

Aster Arcadia

Scarle Yonaguni

Ren Zotto

Doppio Dropscythe [☆]

Kotoka Torahime

Ver Vermillion

if a liver isnt included, its because i dont watch them a lot and wont be able to write them well. in millie's case... why would i-!?

thank you!! ill try my best to please you with my mediocre writing lol

all dividers i use here r made by the lovely @//cafekitsune !! (images of the characters r usually official art i cropped myself c:)

past layouts: rosemi lovelock (made by me!)

current layout: minori hanasato (made by hiddencircus here on tumblr!)

-nene (the rizzard)

"i shall escort you!" 🎶

#project sekai #nijisanji en #project sekai x reader #niji en #nijien #nijisanji #nijisanji x reader #nijisanji en x reader #nene's non-mail posts!!💌 #youve got mail! wanna open it?💌

[literary-mafuyu]

I rate my all(probably) teacher because i have absoloutely nothing to do and i hate my life and i hate studying and i hate school and i am going insane (i really hope now one of my school knows that its me and sees this or ill maybe actually kill myself).

TLE Teacher: first impression of him was intimidating but is actually not that bad lol, but still tho, why the fuck did you make us memorize 10 procedures in exact at the ass nighttime, 7/10, i will never rate anyone above the 8

MAPEH and ENGLISH Teacher: ok, i must admit, you are nice, BUT WHY THE FUCK ARE YOUR EXAMS AND INDENTIFICATIONS AND QUIZZES FUCKING IMMPOSSIBLE AND YOU REALLY EXPECT US TO FUCKING GET IT CORRECTLY AAAAAAAAA-, 2/10, why, its always hard to review the indentifications 😭😭😭😭😭, the source of my endless will to kms

SOCIAL Teacher: why so strict and scary 💀😭, he has the same vibe/feeling/looks or what ever as the TLE teacher but he's more cheerful-like and less akward, oh dear they were complete polar opposites, the other one looks scary, but is actually a bit nice(atleast), he looks approachable(he still tries to at this even time and i always fall for it bc his activities was 'not boring'), but is SCARY AS FU-, bro is scary, i feel like i was about cry when he said that i should speak more louder like "What did i say about my rules in this class" always says it like that in a scary way bro im gonna cry dude why does nobody understanddddd 😭😭😭😭😭, he fr dont understand us shy people, bro actually looks like hes always about to cry ive got a theory that hes always like hes about to cry bc he gets scholed by some person or idk abt him being so strict and is actually holding back on scholding students (bro probably hit a student by his attitude dont judge me its a students responsibility to assume ok) and like actually mentions on getting scholded by some idk, bro i saw that "IM DONE" in ur files bro prol venting (ik im probably misunderstanding like who tf would leave that in the whole ass class but he could be just like me fr to ignore and act like its isnt there and hope they dont notice it like me 💀 i can assume ok bish) probably has anger issues? BUT THATS JUST A THEORY, AAAA- Man, 2/10, wtf

FILIPINO Teacher: Hello advisor, you chill, and nice good humor, good tiktok dancing mov- ...excuse me, nice good easy pc exam, i hate essays tho, also why high expectations for me and give me the unfairty and made me merorize the hardest speech even if i was a tranferee 💀💀💀😭😭😭, and why my hardwork of studying on a lesson then you skip it tho, thank you for that tho, bc the mfing lesson is hard thank for skipping it, thank for the swimming pool, 8/10

SCIENCE Teacher: She feels like just my old school's English teacher, she chill, she cool, thanks for actually hearing out my excuses to get perfect grades lol, 7/10, W teacher

MATH Teacher: 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 Dont even get me STARTED im already tired bro, like, ik you old but, WHY YOU ALWAYS TEACH SO WRONG AAAA, like dude, just look at her answers youll literary understand me, its ok if it just a little mistake but like umh... thats too much for a "Pro,fe,tio,nal teachers" 💀💀💀, she wont accept crap, she either ignores it, or blames the student 💀💀💀💀, i also have that fucking feeling where shes favoriting the son of the principal on the school like wtf dude, also why do you make us just copy the answers 💀💀💀💀💀 i can excuse the lack of activity on checking our answers even if you promised to do it already like 2+ times but pleaseee why are you making us copy the answers except of making us train our brain and say that "Parents will come here and complain about your grades" like broooooooooooo 😭😭😭, everyone of us got probably atleast 15 mistake in math exam for no reason just because of her one single typographical error and didnt even correct it 💀, 2/10 u and my father is literary the same whats worse is me put both in the same room with both of you and math, i feel like dying

Peyn

#pain and suffering #rating my teacher #rating my teachers for no reason #crying sobbing screaming dying #depressed as shit #school #school is ass #teachers #rating

[witheringwidgetwrites]

Brothers reach to an MC that is fiercly protective of their room

Ask: how the obey me boys would handle an MC that locks their room when they sleep and is very protective of their space (like a mental health thing/coping mechanism. )?? Just for example I have anxiety and my room is my designated safe space when I grew up and whenever I visit home , so it is super super important that my privacy is respected or else I get super anxious + paranoid and don’t sleep- so like maybe after the first few weeks the boys notice MC is kinda a live wire and isn’t sleeping and snaps??? Idk how it would go but until they feel safe at HOL they would need privacy or a safe space to decompress unless invited in- ik mammon would prolly take that hard since it seems like everyone and their mom is always in MC room lol

Prompt: How the brothers react to MC who is furiously protective if their space!

Genre; headcanons, bulletpoints

Notes: Hey!! So this relates more to how the react after MC has told them!!

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ : *✧･ﾟ✧･ﾟ

In their instance, I will say that MC has told them. Like has sat down with them and this is their reaction.

Lucifer

• First reaction is understanding.

• Makes it known that if he knocks, you better answer or he'll come in.

• When he notices right away that MC is not sleeping.

• Probably looks it up, or speaks to Barbatos.

• Will be willing to teach MC to ward their door, but not one too strong that he can't break it in case of emergencies. MC will not know that tho.

• Overall, 10/10. Really respectful of MC's space and will make sure his brother stay that way as well.

• Also will offer MC to stay protected on his couch, if they can't sleep in the first few days.

Mammon

• First reaction is offense. Thinks MC doesn't want to be his friend and is like, what???

• Barges into MC's room, so will only stop once MC has had a sit down with him.

• "Oi', so I can't ever come in?"

• "No no, you just have to knock first."

• "Really?"

• "Yeah. But wait for me to answer."

• "Bah fine. Stupid humans."

• He actually listens once he sees how much less-snappy MC is. Asks if they've been getting more sleep lately, and once they confirm, he "has to protect his human." And might just sleep outside their door. For, ya know, protection.

Leviathan

• Is actually quite understanding. However MC only brought it up because he busted into their room, so he feels super guilty, and now thinks MC hates him.

• Probably feels even more guilt once he realizes that MC isn't sleeping.

• Once MC invites him around, he wont even go inside until they tell him directly to.

• Once during a late night anime marathon, MC tells him more of why they don't like people barging in, and he's a lot more understanding. Doesn't feel as guilty.

• Is more likely to text MC to let them know that he is there.

• Probably also texts to ask if he can come over before he even leaves his tub. Also will call when he is super excited, screams into the phone about it until MC tells him to come over and talk to them about it, then he's running.

Asmodeus

• He is oddly considerate. He sees MC isn't sleeping so he'll bust in and make them have a self care night.

• When they snap at him, he actually feels really bad. Will probably distance himself from MC.

• MC comes back later and apologizes, and kind of breaks down, and he feels bad, so he pushes self care, doesn't force it.

• He ends up respecting MC's boundaries super well, almost barges in a couple times over a cute outfit he found them, but catches himself.

• He feels less guilty when he sees how much better MC is doing, and stops distancing himself from them.

Satan

• At first just thinks MC is distance and uninterested.

• Does some research, and then realizes MC isn't sleeping, probably decides to make them some tea.

• Once he sits down and talks to MC, asks why they aren't sleeping, he listenes to them talk for a little bit, offers to help them put a spell on the door.

• Also offerers to sit on the couch with MC, or read them a book, also offers to let MC sit in his room and sleep if they need it.

• He himself is more than willing to respect their space, however he is worried about his brothers.

• Is secretly relieved when he sees that MC is sleeping, makes them nightly tea if they're willing to accept it.

Beelzebub

• Probably doesn't mind, at all.

• But grows attached quickly, so he feels bad when he notices MC is snappy and not sleeping.

• When they sit him down, he basically just nods, maybe asks what some of those things are.

• Will actually try and persuade MC to let him sit outside their door and guard it.

• He legitimately would like to guard MC. Pls let him.

• Either way, he is very respectful of MC's space. Probably TOO respectful. He'll wait until MC invited him in to go in. Even when MC shouts "come in!" He'll do a lil "you told me not to."

Belphegor

• obvi is not the same situation for him,,, however he would probably be like, "ok." And just follow the "rule." Not really sympathetic, but shrugs and knocks n whatnot.

• Will text and say "come nap." If he ever actually wants/needs attention.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #om! x reader #om! headcanons #om! imagines #om! reactions #om! mammon #om! beelzebub #om! beel #om! belphegor #om! belphie #om! lucifer #om! leviathan #om! asmodeus #om! satan x reader #om! satan #obey me satan #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me belphie #obey me beel #obey me asmodeus #leviathan obey me #obey me leviathan #obey me luficer

[sunshine-stars]

I probably won’t end up writing this but I’m having so much fun with the jatp six of crows au so:

SPOILERS FOR SIX OF CROWS AND CROOKED KINGDOM

Reggie is Nina

They’re both bi

Love food so much

Wear red

I wanna see him with heart render powers but hate having to use them cuz his parents always fought and used them against each other ouch

I can’t describe it but it just FITS

Dates Matthias (WHO WONT DIE IN THIS CUZ I LOVE HIM)

Willie is Jesper

Adhd

I would love to see him with Jesper’s cocky attitude

The guns omg

Gay

I can see him having trouble with gambling cuz he always think that this time he’ll get it right

(OMG THERES A MUSIC VIDEO ON YOUTUBE WHERE THAT LINE IS ABOUT JESPER AND ITS AMAZING HERE)

Suppressing his powers - prolly doesn’t realize he’s a powerful ghost in jatp and doesn’t realize he’s a Fabrikator

And it just fits that his mom died when he was young and he has a dad he always feel like he’s disappointing ouch

Hopelessly in love with Wylan

Alex is Wylan

Blonde lol

Gay

Idk if he’ll have dyslexia simply cuz I don’t and I don’t want to represent it wrong so I’ll either not include it or do tons of research about it

Realistically I could write him with a stutter instead cuz I have one but idk

Dad doesn’t accept him because he’s gay and maybe dyslexia and treats him like he’s stupid and worthless ouch

It just kinda seems like Alex would’ve had a rich snobby family

I project onto both of these characters

Dating Jesper

Or wait maybe Alex should be Matthias idk I’m just brainstorming rn

Ofc he’d still have anxiety and he’d just make a lot more sarcastic comments than does in the books

THE BANTER BETWEEN HIM AND WILLIE

Julie is Inej

BADASS SPY JULIE OMG

Also tell me Inej isn’t a lil bit gay cuz her and Nina obviously flirted in the books

And Julie’s bi so it fits

She seems like she’d be the most religious out of all of them

Cuz cross and stuff and just imagine Julie praying to the saints after her mother died and just ouch

After losing her mom she walked away to the next town and got kidnapped and ouch

But in this they find her in Fijerda and are just so amazing

Imagine her saying “I will have you without armour, or I won’t have you at all” to Luke

Dates Luke

Luke is Kaz

Ik this seems weird but hear me out

Ran away with older brother cuz parents didn’t accept his love for music and other reasons

Why am I making everyone run away in this omg oh well

Then older brother dies ouch

So Luke completely turns to music and closes himself to get by and joins the Dregs and ends up at the top

But he’s less closed off and scary as Kaz cuz I just can’t see that but still a bit less Luke like

I feel like Luke would actually be scary smart but the impulsiveness and puppy dog ness just gets in the way so people don’t realize that

Dates Kaz

Bobby is Matthias

Gremlin done with your shit energy

I can see him with backwards ideals in Fijerda and coming to Kerch and just being like what everything I learned is wrong???

DOESNT DIE IN THIS

I don’t have a lot of strong reasons for this but I can feel it

Dates Nina

Carrie

Matthias’ sister

Goes to Kerch with him

Same everything I learned is wrong???? But has a harder time accepting it

Insecurities

Enemies to lovers Flarrie

Flynn

Went on a walk with Julie and got captured with her ouch

But they stayed together the whole time

Just awesome dynamic with Julie

Enemies to lovers Flarrie

Anddddd more plot stuff

It’d be more lighthearted than six of crows but more heavy than jatp

Ya know how the original crew was Kaz Inej and Jesper

Instead it’ll be Kaz/Luke, Wylan/Alex, Nina/Reggie, Matthias/Bobby, and some Carrie

Kaz is the same

Wylan/Alex runs away/gets kicked out a lot sooner and Kaz recruits him sooner

Nina/Reggie is the same but a bit more with them than at the start of six of crows

Matthias/Bobby and Carrie get freed by Kaz a lot sooner

Matthias/Bobby and Nina/Reggie HATE each other and can’t stand to be around each other but eventually fall in love

Matthias/Bobby is constantly annoyed with all of them but needs them to survive but secretly is fond of them

Carrie joins in sometimes

Inej/Julie and Flynn come in a lot later and Kaz/Luke saves them before they go to the brothel

Jesper/Willie goes to Kerch a bit later and Wylan/Alex recruits him instead of the other way around

They obviously do the heist

And they have a lil band

ALEX/WYLAN PLAYS DRUMS AND FLUTE

Wow I got carried away with this

Any feedback is really appreciated!!!! Feel free to make suggestions or whatever!!!

#jatp #julie and the phantoms #six of crows #soc #fanfic idea

[yibo-wang]

awww he's so cute 🥺👉👈 what a good boy 🤧 you shouldn't disturb his napping time, naps are very important! but thank you ❤

aksks it's like. a world quest i think? which yeah they're basically background quests! i think this one is split into multiple parts, chai played the second part, but i haven't gotten around to do the next part. honestly i'm like really scared of that island lmao.

i hope i can get itto! yesterday i got the jade spear (which actually belongs to xiao) so i'll probably roll for hu tao and just pray i get itto early lmao.

i visited the beach today 🥺 it's pretty cold but i like it anyways i'll go home tomorrow tho, so that's good ig. ALSO LAST DONGHUA EPISODE AHHHHH pls i haven't even started this season because i was like "if i don't start s3 then it can't end for me" 🤧🥺❤

i hope you had a great day aamna 🥺 i love u ❤

I really shouldnt actually poor guy let's me do anything 🤧

the island sounds very cool, lmk when you get around to playing it and how the time thingy works. for some reason it reminds of of Luigi's mansion idk why it just gives the vibes lmao

💫 💫manifesting itto for you 💫💫

ahhh the beach, how did it go? it's been a while since I went there. hopefully we'll be able to go in the winters which is not the perfect time ik but there's just something about going to the beach when it's literally freezing lol. I hope you had a good time 💛

I'm on the 'everyone should watch the donghua agenda' so like watch the donghua!!! I still havent accepted that it's finished I think it'll hit me on saturday when i wont have anything to watch during break time :( but I genuinely loved it so much, they gave us the best ending with wangxian 🥺

today was tiring but productive so it was a good day <3 hope you're having a good one too!! Ilyy💛💛💛

#laura!!! #let's chat!

[justasmisunderstoodasloki]

okay im going to be real vage rn (for the second time because tumblr fucked up)

i get major anxiety form certain things i see on social media or when i think about it.

ik certain things cant happen in (my) life and i want and can accept that but my brain still goes back to painful thoughts which make me feel miserable and anxious again. idk how the properly say it, it just hurts me in general.

i also know that taking a social media break could help, but there is also a part of me that gets anxiety because im not active. im already less active, but i will not go on a full sm break because i have no life (most of the times im looking at memes and stuff and im too tired or drained to do smth else). however im not going to be very interactive. i want to but it takes energy to do so and sometimes i dont even have enough energy to be alive or do other things. ik this sounds like im down bad, but trust me i aint, sometimes its just one (or many) of 'those' days yk. i am trying though because i want and need to be more social, if i dont im going to feel more down

well now that im writing this, ill say this too:

this additionally applies to fics too. to everyone who tags me in their stuff (tagging some of those blogs @soft-haz @uglypastels @fanficparker @starlight-loki @in-a-lot-of-fandoms-tbh @its-a-leap-of-faith-kid) thank you for tagging me in your works, i really appreciate it. idk when ill read it (or interact) but i will eventually. ill also try to comment and all. still, i takes me a lot of energy. so i wont interact soon after you post it (unfortunately). i apologise though for not admiring your works like i used to do so.

i know (lol i say this a lot) that my blog is not popular and very known, but i still want this to be clear. maybe this is just for me because yea getting thoughts about whats really going on out of your head if too damn difficult and randomly happens

okay wow that was a lot and i hope that i wrote everything that i wanted to say probably not lol idk why i wanted to say this now and actually post it, anyway this has been on my mind lately

#dear no one #ugh i had so much more written the first time #i hate tumblr sm sometimes #anxienty #im kind of taking a break #this is also a reason why i havent written fics and or posted it #same goed for the fan art #it makes me sad cuz i still want to finish it #uggghhh #april 22 21

[imagineurfavs]

Pentagon Kino - Birth Chart Analysis

“Hi! love ur writing huhu do you think u could do a birth chart analysis thingy on kino from ptg??? ik hes an aquarius but he doesnt really seem like one??? sdfd thank u :)”

aaaaaah thank you so much for requesting this, ive been aching to write sth like this for ages lmao. i didnt know from which angle you wanted it, like relationships, sex or whatever so ima just do an overall kinda one. lmk if you want something more focused aha Also i agree lol, hyunggu doesn’t really seem like a straight up aquarius, i wish i knew what time he was born i could see his ascendant lmao ALSO. I’ve just done the first 6 placements as they seem to be the ones most people care about lmao, lmk if you want me to do the remaining ones

Sun (our true self, the soul) - Aquarius (1st Decan): This is what makes Hyunggu the social butterfly he is lol, what’s probably responsible for him being in so many different social circles. Aquarians have many many varied fields of interest, which usually end up being quite niche or “out there” lol, just like how Hyunggu, the 22 year old man in 2020, LOVES old school jazz music and classic movies. 1st decan Aquarians are (mostly) open books who really do shine more when they have an audience, or at least with a lot of people surrounding them. But with that being said, they're also totally happy to be in their own company bc they know themselves so well, they’re comfortable with themselves. They also have persistence like no other lol; when they set their mind to something, there’s no lengths they wont go to to achieve it. AKA Kino the workaholic who spends his life in the studio lol

Moon (emotions, instincts, our vulnerable side) - Capricorn: Much more emotional than people think, but he prefers to keep it private. He’ll only let his emotions out fully if he totally trusts the people he’s with. (the fact that unis have seen him cry numerous times is a testament to how much he trusts us ig sdgjsg so sweet) He loves taking care of people; he likes to feel needed. With that in mind though he can be a bit of a “fixer” lol which might not always be a good thing, he’s attracted to people who look like they need some help. One of the most devoted placements in terms of relationships, they aren’t ones that really go for one night stands or short fling type relationships. This placement makes him surprisingly traditional in relationships lol, like he loves homely warm kinda vibes in that sense. Likes to show off any relationship he does have though lol, like he wont air out any private details, but he does want the world to see how well yall are doing lol.

Mercury (How we communicate & express ourselves, intellect) - Capricorn: DONT EVER BREAK A PROMISE WITH HYUNGGU OMG. He’ll never forgive you. This boy takes promises so seriously, and takes any secrets with him to his grave. If he ever gives you his word on anything, you best believe he means it with every fibre of his being. Kino isn’t someone to mince his words, he always means what he says. He’ll still try his best to not hurt any feelings, but he won’t lie. This is what helps him follow through with all the ideas that he gets, he’s great at planning and knowing what’s worth seeing through to the end and what just wont work. Which is probably why everything he’s ever put out to the public is god tier shit lol, he wont spend time on anything less than perfection. Another placement that favours tradition, you wont ever catch him slipping up on any honorifics or social formalities lmao.

Venus (how we are in love & romance, creativity, what brings us joy)  - Capricorn: Kang Hyunggu perfect husband material confirmed. Capricorn is the sign that cares most about traditions and stuff in relationships. Not always like old school kinda traditions, but he cares greatly about anniversaries and stuff lol. Very cautious in love, he wont open up or admit his feelings easily and he wont even bother pursuing someone he doesn’t see at least somewhat of a future with. Insanely loyal and steadfast in love. He’s someone you can always count on no matter the time or place, and he wants someone who’ll do the same for him. He wants a fairy tale romance lol. He wants to be remembered for what he does, to leave a legacy that lasts forever. Big on validation, he loves to be complemented and revered; then he’ll feel like all the hours of work and effort he’s put in actually meant something lmao. 

Mars (sex, passion, anger, what drives us) - Pisces I feel like this placement is the reason why Hyunggu can get so mushy and emotional. Pisceans are totally driven by their emotions, sometimes to a fault. So when it comes to something that he’s so so passionate about: ie. Pentagon, his emotions can just totally overwhelm him and before we know it hes sobbing on national TV (im looking at u rtk...). Sex isn't something he takes lightly at all, if there’s no emotion or love involved, it just doesn’t feel right to him. He views sex as something that’s good for the soul lol, its very much an emotional thing for him, as opposed to just a physical need. Very much a hopeless romantic; the type to write poetry for their significant other and cry whilst they read it to you lmao. He’d really give his all to someone he loves, to him self sacrifice is the grandest gesture of love lol. Just remember that it was him who wrote Die For U...yeah...he’s very that. It’s all or nothing with Hyunggu lol, if he chooses to give you his heart, you’ll get his soul too. (Side note this might also be what makes him sensitive and sulky lol)

Jupiter (optimism, luck, philosophy & just good vibes lol) - Aquarius To me, this placement is what makes him so agreeable like, he accepts everyone no matter what. He doesn’t care about gender, race, orientation, religion, anything like that. If someone piques his interest, nothing else matters to him other than getting to know them. He’s always ready to question authority, to break away from the norm and try new things. If he wants to do something, he’s gonna do it the way he wants to, not necessarily the way he’s been told to do it. He’s not afraid to be different, he likes to be a bit of a pioneer lmao. Mostly enjoys being with a lot of people, he loves having many different personalities to bounce off of, ig he got lucky being put in such a large group lol. But he still likes to have his freedom; or more so he wants everyone to have their freedom, so he can for sure be a bit of a philanthropist. Lowkey wants to change the world for the better lmao

#pentagon #ptg #pentagon kino #kang kino #kang hyunggu #pentagon hyunggu #ptg kino #kpop astrology

[murswrites]

Honestly it doesn’t matter if you become Muslim or not, you could do a lot of research about your Arabic background and someday visit. If you grew up a different religion (or no religion) then it might be hard to change your beliefs and convert to Muslim? This is coming from a non Muslim person so I apologize if anything I said is ignorant

(btw it’s not arabic as arabic is a language, arab is the right word as that’s the ethnicity, but don't worry i had to unteach myself as well lol)

i’ve done probably less than minimal research (ive been doing more lately) tbh considering that i want to know more, im just a vry lazy person by nature so it takes me a while to finally do something.

and idk if i ever mentioned it but my biological father took me to yemen when i was a child! i still remember some things (not much tho) so its nice to be able to say i visited yemen before.

the household ive grown up in isn't religious at all, like we stopped going to church because they began asking for a hell of a lot of money and we were WAY too poor to be giving that much.

i do think it would be hard for me to like, fully accept the religion but ik of some muslims who are vry chill about it and just follow haram (haram is things prohibited by islamic law, like eating pork or getting tattoos) and the celebrations w/o praying five times a day because i think what a religion means to each person is a vry personal thing.

(also reminder ive only like read a few things so im not like All-Knowing when it comes to being muslim)

esp because muslims believe that one persons relationship to allah (the Islamic god) is very very specific to that one person. from what ive read, there are no priests interpreting the quran (the Islamic bible), each person takes what they want from the text and applies it how they see fit for themselves.

a lot of my arab family members are muslim and ive learned a bit from them in terms of the traditions and haram but ik my dad wont like allow it since he's vry racist (or ignorant im still deciding) when it comes to middle eastern people and has already belittled me for being more interested in my ethnic background. :’)

you didn't sound ignorant lmao but thank u for giving me a reason to just ramble one

#amirah answers #amirah overshares

[hiro-gari]

So, yesterday I accidentally stumbled into this pose drawing reference post: https://twitter.com/Dorem631/status/1387228603474083846

I think all of the reference pics kinda suits for Batarou! But of course the facial expressions could be changed to fit their own personality better so it wont seems too OOC, lol.

These are basically my first impressions about the images imho, consider : •1st pic is Batarou Childhood Friends AU. •2nd pic is Badd with Monster Garou. •3rd pic is Batarou High School AU. •4th pic is Batarou Webcomic Post-MA arc.

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-- First Picture --

I thought the 1st pic could be when Garou and Badd were kinda like, spending time somewhere outside on summer day, then one of them showing their softer side in front of the other, and it was the exact moment he just realized that he has a big crush for his bestfriend 😳💘💕

I've got 2 versions: •Badd, who usually looks grumpy and tough, was smiling brightly in front of Garou. Garou was lovestrucked and smittened by Badd's cute angelic smile, then trying so hard to deny the fact that he has fallen in love with his childhood hero and he wanted Badd to smiling more often only for him.. •Garou, who still retained his pure softer side thanks to Badd being his childhood hero and BFF, was smiling full of joy towards Badd. Badd immediately melting on the inside by Garou's adorable smile then slowly realizing he was in love with him all along..

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-- Second Picture --

Personally I like the 2nd pic the Most, because it would be so soft if Badd was holding monster Garou's face with such tenderness to calm him down, reassuring Garou that he's alright so no need to go berserk anymore. Bonus point if it was happened after some battle gone wrong in their mission and Badd got injured. But don't worry he's fine, though! That's why Badd tried to stop Garou from rampaging after he transformed out of rage.

Or maybe Badd was saying that he will always loving Garou no matter what he is, monster or not. Whereas Garou seems like he was staring calmly at Badd in silence, yet on the inside he has been very touched by Badd's genuine kindness. He never expected there's someone who is still willing to love him even after he transformed into a monster.. :"")💕

This pic looks bittersweet yet also full of tenderness, very soft and I just want Badd showing how much he cares and how pure his love for Garou for accepting all of him.. 😌💖😈

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-- Third Picture --

I also really like the 3rd pic because Nerdy Garou™ is always so good! Imagine Garou was in the middle of tutoring Badd, his bestfriend and also his secret crush. Then in the middle of explaining some difficult subject, Garou realized that his bestfriend didn't exactly concentrated to the lesson, but instead stealing glances on him when he thought Garou wasn't aware.

It was like Badd couldn't handle the Hotness™ of Nerd Garou in the full glory. It was like witnessing a whole different persona of Garou as he's usually being a totally chaotic dramatic guy.

Not to mention Garou was wearing reading glasses at that time and being all serious! Badd was experiencing Gay Panic™ because of that, lmao. Thus Garou takes advantage of the situation by teasing or flirting with him.. 🐺👓📚

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-- Fourth Picture --

Despite the cutesy pose for this picture, my mind wanted me to think this idea: Since I said it could be for Webcomic Batarou, imagine Badd was the one on the left part and Garou on the right part, both gesturing that pose as a victory for surviving Neo Heroes' absolute nonsense horrible assaults.

The redeemed Garou, as clueless as ever about what was just happened to him (poor him he looks so tired), also not familiar about doing "love sign" gesture, has the expression exactly like in the reference. It would be kinda adorable, though! Whereas Badd, instead of smiling cutely like in the reference pic, he was doing that Handsome Smirk™ that he did in the webcomic chapter just before he released himself from the restraining chains. You know the one.. 😏✨

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How was that, do you have any other suggestions? 😳✨

I'm so sorry for the lack of headcanon writings lately, my mind was currently blank and I ran out of any fresh idea. Must searching for any new inspiration, I guess waaah I'm sorry forgive me 😅🙏💦 Hopefully soon enough I can provide you more decent headcanon writings, wish me luck I can get past my writer's block! 🙇

@hiro-gari @the-goddessfighter @garous-nipple @jusqu-une-etudiante

Thank you so much for listening my daily nonsense, have a nice day, guys! Love you all~ 😉😘❤💜💙💖💝💐

-Little1993lamb-

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~Lilia:

OOO I like these a lot!!

That first one I definitely thought Garou would be the one on the right, but omg if he was friends with Badd from the beginning :’) that would have such a huge effect on his personality, and I think he would definitely smile more 💗

The second one just 👌 perfectly describes them!! Just put some draw some little horns on him and 😈 that’s Awakened Garou

Nerd Garou *wheeze* got me weakkk dude 😩 he’s probably oblivious to his charm for the longest time too cause he’s genuinely engrossed in the subject 📚 It’s probably science or somethin *insert cringey joke about their Chemistry here*

Yaaas webcomic Garou and Badd!! Kicking ass together!! Fr though Garou’s just trying to move on with his life he don’t even know who tf the Neo Heroes are 😖 But Badd’s got it figured out, he knows a rat when he sees one 😒 YEAH YEAH IK THE ONE!! I adore that panel sm 😂💕 That’s The Look right there

Thank you anon for the daily inspiration!! Sorry you’re being hit with the writer’s block 😭 Sending you all the motivation and encouragement ✨💗✨

We love you too!! 😘💖 Have a great day!

#these would look so great with them hhhh #if no one else is gonna i’ll have to draw it eventually 😩 #batarou #garou #metal bat #opm #au #emoji anon #submission

[celica-remaking]

Top 5 FE characters and top 5 ghibli films? xoxo

hi micah! 🌹

top 5 ghibli films imo:

castle in the sky!!

spirited away

grave of the fireflies although this is not a movie for everyone, i have only managed to watch it once

howl’s moving castle…… love romance

my neighbor totoro because of its cultural impact

im gonna answer the other one under a read more bc i want to give a mini explanation as to why i those are my top 5 charas!

actually this wont be long because i think i once talked about why i liked elincia, ike and micaiah with in one of your asks!!

ELINCIA u already know why…. love strong solid characters who keep their kind heart and nature intact

ike, besides the obvious things likeable about him like how kind he is, how true he stays to his ideals, i think its adorable how u imagine he would be this edgy stoic main character but he is so awkward, he just wants the best for his family and friends AND strangers he just wants the world to be at peace and ok

micaiah, i believe shes the main character that has gone through the most difficult situations in question of moral choices, like ive said before its interesting (but also heartbreaking) to watch a good intended and kind character go through something like that while keeping it together for the most part

claude, i was just about to rant about this on twitter thank you for giving me the chance to do it here instead lol i hate when people say all the main characters of this game are stupid because they have the same goal but still find themselves fighting, when claude right off the bat tells you post timeskip that he recognizes that he and edelgard have similar visions about what they want in fodlan (overthrow oppressive political forces, end classism, etc) BUT that he doesnt agrees with the way edelgard does it which includes lots of bloodshed, sacrificing civilians (HELL she even uses them as human shields in other routes) and basically taking the other countries in fodlan by force (imperialism) LIKE he knows the world needs changes but he doesnt get too one track minded about it and knows when things need to be done in another way just so more people dont suffer unnecessary, i didnt include dimitri here bc his route is more about his personal issues and doesnt concentrate much on fodlan as a whole like the other three but he also has like the main idea of we need to work to better the conditions of the less fortunate without unnecessary sacrifice

im gonna be selfish and say marianne, i know there are other characters people would think have more interesting stories or growth but it really hit me the way marianne was handled, i wasnt expecting it at all. we see this very depressed and suicidal psychotic teenager with horrible survivor’s guilt transform into someone more hopeful, who is probably never going to be over her situation but that doesnt mean she can try and be happy

im gonna do special mention to jill fizzart, because i usually dislike how the “this character is racist because they were raised like this but get better” trope is handled because you usually see it in media in the way that the racist character meets an oppressed character and they discover “they are not that bad”, but i like that they didnt do that to jill and instead we see her accept that she was told lies all her life and repeatedly works to unlearn them

#that was longer than i intended q_q you dont have to read it though!! #tysm for the ask <3 #ask #knightofroses

[b00bconnoisseur]

1, 4, 5, 14, 23, 27, & 28!!! (for the pride asks)

1. Is your family accepting?

That issss.....complicated tbh? Im not openly out to my fam yet abt being asexual n stuff so its not like ive straight out asked yknow? But one time i was explaning all the different sexualities n types of ppl i knew in the community annnnnd when i explained the ace spectrum she said "ohhhhh so they jus want friends they dont wanna date" "no no no they DO wanna date, its a normal relationship, they jus dont wanna go that far" "yea, a friendship" ".....no youre thinking of aromantic. They dont feel romantic attraction" etc etc. and she was basically saying u need sex to have a real relationship :') ik she jus heard of the term so she was probably confused but.....yea. So ig thats a no, not accepting at least for now

4. Favorite color?

B l u e, (smokey) g r e y, and b l a c k !! (See how i made all the questions blue? Jxbx)

5. When did you find out your sexuality?

Well i fully started identifying as ace in december last year but was questioning it for abt a month or 2 beforehand or so? My old bf was p sexual and i wasnt feelin it and thought i was jus weird but one day i rb'd a post on types of asexuality in relationships and he saw and was like yo thats us! And long story short he was right! (After i did alot of reading up on what it meant ofc lol)

14. Are you openly out?

Not to family but to the lgbtq+ bookclub at the library i got to almost every month (so p much like....4 or 5 librarians jxbxb) and 1 of my my frens irl! I do wanna come out to more of my frens but idk im a lol iffy on what theyll say or even how I'll bring it up???

23. Describe your partner.

Oh man where do i even begin??

Funny, adorable personality, cute, weird (in a good way), nerdy, is adorable when talking abt smtn they like, shortie bean (they'll tell u different but its true!!), alot more but im bad on the spot jxbdb

27. Do you own any pride flags/merch?

I haveeeee 3 or 4 pride pins i believe??? I wish i had more tho :(( my mom wont let me get any pride bracelets cause "only gay people wear them" and so im guessing that'll be a no on a shirt :(

28. Have you ever been to a pride parade?

I haven't but i want to!!! At one of the book club meetings i asked abt pride parades and stuff and they said they have some near here, like 15 or 20 mins from me so i was like !!!!!! But my fam would never let me go, so I'll have to wait till im older :(

#fuck yeah chicken nuggets #asks #mutual peeps #answein asksssss

[youthmagazinecas-blog]

Who I really am: A Self-Reflection Essay By Xavier Alcantara  (Unedited)

By Xavier Alcantara, Age 12, MS 319. Grade 6 (Enrolled in Grade 7 classes)

     My name is Xavier, i am 12 years, and i am a kid from New York City. Now a lot of people think of me in a negative way. Like i am a bad person or i am someone who hates people and like i am someone who will start problems. Now that is one of the most common problems i have to deal with of people assuming who i am. See i can sometimes have bad days or like not be in the mode or like end up starting problems by accident. See i am a person who likes to help people, a lot of my friends trust me to the point were they feel like they can tell me anything and everything and they do. So because they fell like that i told them that if they have a problem to talk to me and i can help them out if they want. Tbh i like that my friends like coming to me or asking me for help because then ik that i am doing a good job on helping them and that my advice works.

    See i started helping people when i was in 4th grade and when i found out that a lot of people like when i help them it makes me feel good that they trust me and that they want my help and opinion on things. As well like when i help people for me it is easy to put myself in peoples shoes and understand how they feel. Another thing is that i am someone who is sensitive, so like i can easily get mad well sometimes, only on bad days. So another thing is that i am someone who will not stay down. What i mean by that is like i am someone who will stand up for what i believe in and will fight and not give up until i win, because i am like that my principal and my social studies says that i will probably be a lawyer.

    And the fact that i help people a lot of people say i should become a therapist. Both jobs sound good to me so idm. So i am also someone who likes to be lazy sometimes, i do like just watching anime and eating a lot of food (even though i am skinny) and doing nothing else. So basically i am saying that i do like when i have my down time, when i finish my stuff like my homework. See i am a nice person when i choose to be (so basically almost everyday at school), but sometimes though when i do have an off day i may come off as if i want to fight someone or want to start problems, but i actually don't so that's why i just try and be by myself because i don't want to accidentally hurt my friends or start problems with them, and risk losing them as a friend. I am someone who likes to as well have fun and take risk.

     So i will be that one person who you will see trying to do something stupid just to have some fun, but because of that i can get into trouble so i try and be wise on what i do and what i consider fun but it wont get me into trouble. I am also someone who can be dramatic sometimes like if someone worry to say something stupid i would sometimes make it a big deal when it really isn’t. I have gotten better at it now but i still do it sometimes so yeah.

    Now sometimes i am sometimes to ruff, like if i play fight i can sometimes to ruff. So because i am to ruff i try to be careful on what i do and how much strength i use. But to be honest i don't really play ruff anymore, because well one i don't want to hurt people like for real and like i am just not really like that anymore i just feel like it's not necessary and like why do it, i might get into trouble so yeah i try not to be ruff anymore. I mean tbh i am very calm and i am don't really like to be to crazy like my friend nicklos, lol.

    So, i am also someone who does like sports, but mainly like track, soccer, and football. I like them because i am someone who loves speed and being fast. I am actually the fastest kid in my class literally. I am happy as well because i am starting to reach new speed and i am working on my stamina as well. I have always been someone who loves being fast and things that are fast. That's why i love sports that involve a lot of running as well as cars and motorcycles.

    One thing i am as well is that i am a very competitive person. So like i am someone who won't give up until i am either the winner or i am very very good at it, like running or math. So the fact that i am very competitive i am always making a lot of games or even normal things like shopping a competition. I mean sometimes i make things a competition without even knowing. That is why my mom doesn’t like shopping with me, lol. I mean sorry but i like being competitive it's just my nature. On my dad and mom side of the family i come from a very competitive family. So yeah i am someone who loves competition. And to be honest, when i lose sometimes i can sometimes be a sore loser but then i accept it and then i never give up until i win, even if its once i will still be happy, lol.

    See now i can also be someone who can get to attached too things or people. So if i were to hear that if my crush is gonna leave like on vacation or something because i am very attached to her and that fact that we used to date and she still loves me, i would be sad to see her leave but i would end up texting her like almost everyday just to check on her and as well so say hi and to talk. So mainly i am someone who can get attached to things so that's why it is hard to move on, when i was a younger then now i used to be able to move on easily from things but now its like really hard to and yeah. I mean i am definitely someone who is down anytime to try something new, meet new people or anything. I guess it might have to do with the fact that i like so many things and people i don't want them to leave my life. Well for people it will have to be like my best friends and my crush, and for thing it will probably be something i would want for memories.

    Now the last thing about me is that i am someone who can become obsessive like, if i play a game that i like very much, i would end up becoming obsessed with it and i wouldn’t want to stop playing it. I mean as i said i do like trying new things and i am a gamer so i do like playing new games all the time, but i would become so obsessed with it i would just want to play that. Most of the time it takes my all of my friends or family (it depends on what it is) to help me out and try to be a little more better on not becoming too obsessed or even to attached.

    Well that was this is who i am i believe that i may change soon but for now this is who i am, i do like myself and i am slowly starting to accept myself for who i am, but i do believe that there are somethings that i do want to change about myself so that it benefits me and may help others. So as i said this is who i am i do hope i am someone that you accept and wont judge me even though i don't care because i am just someone who doesn't care about what people think of me if it's negative. Hope you enjoy bye :).                                                

#kid reporters #depression #middle school

[felixeslee]

92 q tag

hello this tag is highkey irrelevant now but it’s been in my drafts for ages so !! laskdgjasodigjsaldkgasodigjasdg which is why i wont b tagging anyone bc im so late but !! yeah !! ok !! !!!!!!!!!1111!!! lets !! go !!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

tagged by @hyuunjins @hyunjinh @straykiz and @dae-hwee from my w1 blog (lmaoo hi pindi this is sarah!! AIddgsdfk if youre aware of this blog but hope its ok if i do it here alskdg ) 

rules: once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end choose 25 people to be tagged. 

🌙 LAST

Drink: the water that I drank this morning!! Aka around 12 hrs ago asdgasdgoij pls stay hydrated kids 

Text Message: i texted my brother if he knew where my dad was lol,,,,,,, sldkjgaosidgj 

Phone Call: CALLED MY BROTHER BC HE WASNT RESPONDING MY TEXTS,,,,, he also didn’t pick up ldskgjsoidgjsldkgsjdg

Song you listened to: Goodbye My Love by Aileeeee <3 lovv 

Time you cried: TODAY ,,,, i was getting super anxious bc i didn’t know where my dad was ??? he was supposed to pick me up but he forgot abt me until like an hr later… sldkgjaosidgj 

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER

Dated someone twice: no :00 lmao i’ve never dated… ever alskdjgaoijsdf 

Kissed someone and regretted it: i havent had my first kiss yet HEH 

Lost someone special: unfortunately, yes :( 

Been depressed: sdgksjadoiglskdfosdijgalskdfaosdigjaksdgoaisdjf idk 

Been drunk and thrown up: lmao i’ve never drank ,,, at all,,,, the smell of alchohol scares me,,,,, evn my little brother has had a sip once and he’s 5 yrs younger LMAO ,,, but im a noob and don’t wanna try sldkgjosidjgs 

🌙 IN THE PAST YEAR HAVE YOU

Made a new friend: yay yes yeslgkdgsdf

Fallen out of love: i dont think i’ve ever evn been in love…. Sdlgksjdoigj 

Met someone who changed you: yes,,,,,,,,, 

Found out who your true friends are: uhhhh idk aslkdgjaosidjf i honestly can never tell when someone’s being a fake friend so!!!!!! Idk honestly lmao

Found out someone was talking about you: i did ! but it wasn’t for anything bad or anything……… they just criticized me behind my back?? But i agreed w their criticism so alsdkjgaosidgj  

🌙 GENERAL

How many people on tumblr do you know in real life?: ummm,,,, like 4?? We r mutuals evn though none of them r actually kpop blogs,,,, so i always feel guilty spamminig their aesthetic feed w my screaming tags and annoying shit LMAO but i lov them <3 

Do you have any pets?: NO :”( I WANT A DOGGO THO …. REALLY BAD…..

Do you want to change your name?: uhhh ik so many sarahs its not evn funny and my last name is hella basic too????? Theres 3 ppl that share my first+last name in my school alone….. So maybe i’d change it to my chinese name (yue) ?? also bc it sounds more sophisticated,, and i lov anything that makes me sound smarter than the reality of my dumb self LOL 

What time did you wake up this morning: LOL so my alarm rings at 6:40 but i get out of bed at 7:10 SLDGKJSODIF … and i need to get out of the house by 7:20 lsdkgsdoig 

What were you doing last night: physics and apush :SLDGJOSIDFJ the 2 most dreaded classes UGH

Something you cannot wait for: DINNER .. i love me some gud dinner

Have you ever talked to a person named tom?: thomas jefferson my mAN 

What’s getting on your nerves right now: when it’s so heckin cold i can’t concentrate + i hate taking notes when it’s cold??? Bc then my hands r like half numb and it HURTS WHEN I TAKE NOTES sldkgsoidjf ALSO WHEN I DRAW ,,,,, STIFF FINGERS R THE WORST WHEN DRAWING

Blood type: i think a????????????

Nickname: my most common ones r swisso + salad (i promise these make sense in context LOL ) 

Relationship status: return NullPointerException; //im a cs person,,, dont judge

Zodiac sign: capricorn!

Pronouns: she + her

Favorite show: i dont watch many shows but i love watching a gud studio ghibli movie when im feelin down

College: this QUESTION LSDKGJSODIGJ ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, i wanna go to college but will any accept me ??!?!

Hair colour: its naturally black but it’s currently dyed ombre from black → brown !!!!!!

Do you have a crush on someone: i havent had a legit crush in 3 yrs lmao……. 

What do you like about yourself: the fact that im a deep sleeper. Idk how light sleepers function omg like wouldn’t u wake up to like,,,,, everything??! :((( that makes me sad bc u hav no idea how much i lov a nice long undisturbed slumber

   🌙 FIRSTS

First surgery: okAY so like i've had 2 procedures done on my eyes lmaooo like (1) when i was a smol beb of like 1 yr old i rolled off my bed aaaannnnddd the corner of my eye hit the edge of the sharp corner of the bedside table!!! and then y1ke$ things got ugly loll (((yes, i wuz dum + clumsy since the day i popped from the womb))) its all stitched up now and i hav a tinie tinie scar aslkdgs okay and (2) there was something weird abt my tearducts LOL so u know when u get sad nd stuff ur nose gets runny and u sniff a lot??? well like that wasn't the case for me bc the passage way from my eyes to my nose was completely blocked off,,,,, which resulted in me lookin like i was full blown cryin like every 2 seconds... like if i kept my eyes open for too long my eyes would get watery and tears would flow out LMAO ,,,, i looked like i just never stopped crying,,, but it was just my eyes were just ALWAYS WATERING sdlgjsdif damn u have no idea after the procedure i was like 'do ppl live like this??? not having to wipe tears every 0.2 sec??? oh my god,,, i am livin THE LIFE' 

First piercing: i hav no piercings!!! Bc stabbing holes thru myself scares me sdlkjgsoidg but i love the way earrings look tho so :///// 

First sport you joined: dance or gymnastics???? I dont rly remember

First vacation: CHINA prob???? 

First pair of sneakers: i think sketchers LMAO ,,, the big thing  

🌙 RIGHT NOW

Eating: nothing!!!!!

I’m about to: do som sketches for my AP art class 

Listening to: my dad sing som old chinese folk stuff behind me LOL 

Want kids: i already adopted all 9 members of stray kids tho ??? idk if im ready for more atm 

Get married: LOL This question just reminded me of smol story from my childhood: so like i used to b rly close w these 3 other kids,,,, one other girl and 2 guys,,, and our parents were all rly tight too,, and our four families would just go camping together and it was rly :’’D fun and so we all made a pact that I would marry one of the guys and the other girl would marry the other guy and we’d all go camping together forever but then KINDERGARTEN HIT,,,, we moved schools and yeah im still rly close w the girl but i miss the 4 of us dkgjsodigjsdlkgsdf LOL 

Career: waterbottle 🌙 

WHICH IS BETTER

Lips or eyes: eyes? Eh idk i just never rly considered lips ?? LOL 

Hugs or kisses: hugs? I dont hav experience w kisses so sldkgjsoidgjsd yike syikes yikes 

Shorter or taller: TALLER

Troublemaker or hesitant: uhhhhh neither??? Like i just want someone playful + extroverted bc im quite introverted,,,,,,,,,, so if he was hesitant we’d just b super awkward and quiet,,, and i don’t like getting involved w sketchy troublemaker shit either LOL ,,, 

Older or younger: as long as they r in the same school grade level,,,, and i guess 1-2 yrs older is okaY? But lowkey freaks me out if too old 

Romantic or spontaneous: sldkgjsoidfj both? Like i lov someone who is unpredictable and spontaneous,,,, but on the other hand im lowkey a helpless romantic lasdkgjaoisdjf 

Sensitive or loud: both i guess too??? Its good to have someone understanding and sensitive but also someone who knows how to have fun  :) 

Hookup or relationship: hookups,,,,,,,, just dont make sense to me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, like i get attached to someone p easily so even if i dont plan on being attached,,,, i’d probably get attached :(  

🌙 HAVE YOU EVER

Kissed a stranger: YIKES no 

Drank hard liquor: nO 

 Lost contacts/glasses: UH I HATE THIS BUT YES….. 

Sex on first date: yikes * (6.02 *10^23) adkgaosidjgaslkdf no thaNK you 

Broken someone’s heart: i dont know,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, like i might’ve but maybe im just not aware ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, but on a sidenote i think my old comupter science teacher gets a migrain everytime he sees me LOLLLLLL sdlgjsoidgjsldf 

Been arrested: no,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, :0 

Turned someone down: yeah lmao i kinda feel bad tho bc they were all good ppl,,,,  lskjgosidjf but thankfully im still good friends and pretty tight w all of them ~  

🌙 DO YOU BELIEVE

In yourself: ocassionally i try to :’’D

Miracles: lol yes 

Love at first sight: i used to ? but not anymore,,,, like i believe u can be attracted to someone at first sight ?? but i feel like love cannot be attained thru visual contact only asldgjoasidjalsdg

#sarah: tag #LMAO sry for the random stories here nd there #and i wrote this like 2 weeks ago so yeah .l LMAO #thank u all for tagging me i luh u all <333 #lSDKGJOSDIGJSDG

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oh sangwoo: ignorant bliss - chapter four

i do not own the manhwa nor do i own any of the killing stalking characters except my own. i do not own the plot of the manhwa except this fanfic plot. killing stalking belongs to koogi. thank you for giving us this beautiful work of art!!

I got home that night blaming myself silly over how terrible our meeting turned out to be. After I washed down my makeup and changed into my home clothes, I turned on my laptop and laid on my bed. My apartment hummed after I'd turned on the heater, enveloping me in comfortable warmth.

Unexpectedly, my phone buzzed on my blanket and I picked it up, wary and knowing full well who it was. I turned it on and went to my messages, one sent by none other than Sangwoo himself.

[unknown]

hey

is this eunbi?

I bit my lip and my thumbs hovered over the screen, hesitating to type a reply. But he's already seen that I opened his messages. I cross my legs on my bed and text him back. Then I open my music playlist on Spotify and let it play in my room.

yeah

sangwoo rite?

mhm

are u home safe now

no one came up to u or anything

right

no nothing like that

thanks for worrying

im ok

sorry for making you worry haha

As I waited for him to reply, I hummed to the song playing on my laptop as I clicked on Tumblr in my bookmarks. I waited for the site to load and looked back at my phone, trying to ease my rapid heartbeat. What was wrong with me?

im just glad ur ok

I clutched my shirt collar and suddenly my chest hurt. He was never one to worry. We always left each other to our own devices and knew that we were capable of ourselves. This wasn't like Sangwoo, but could I really know him after only talking to him for a few hours?

thanks

so

can we forget about earlier?

haha no wait

i'm genuinely curious

when did it start

when did what start?

I knew damn well what he was referring to and playing dumb wouldn't delay his response any time later.

your crush on me

it's bothering me rn

i wanna know when u started liking me lol

it's kinda funny

That was all he had to say? That me liking him back then was funny? I suddenly didn't want to talk to him anymore and wanted to leave him on read. But something impulsively made me tap a fast reply back, an underlying aggression inside the message.

oh hahaha

started when u got drafted

not surprised u left so soon after we graduated lol

but u can't help it w/ girls or anyone in particular rlly

can u?

Oh my God. Had I really done that? And Sangwoo hadn't even begun typing own message. Anxiety flooded my brain and I fought to keep myself calm. My legs tangled themselves up under the blanket and my hands attempted to steady themselves while still holding the phone.

"What is wrong with me?" I asked nobody in particular.

( . . . )

He's typing.

( . . . )

The more minutes that passed by, the more my anxiety increased and I tried to contain myself. Calm down, Eunbi. It's just a text. No big deal.

ping!

u always know how to make me laugh babe

"Babe?" I whispered. As if that wasn't enough--

let's go out tmr at 3.

u down?

uh

it's not gonna be awk as it was tonite

right

LOL

not if u make it awkward yourself haha

i also got smt else to ask

yeah? what is it

what u heard abt what happened before i left for the military

what exactly did u hear

ill explain

to make it up for earlier

He's actually going to do it, I thought. He was going to open up, as odd enough as it sounded.

i heard that ur parents got murdered

if it's tru

im so sorry

so sorry that i wasn't there for u

and that i didn't know what was going on to comfort u

im saying this in case it's tru

( . . . )

( . . . )

( . . . )

thanks eunbi

it's tru

they got murdered

i didn't take it well

the military was a way for me to cope i guess

i wish i told u about it

instead of being so closed up back then

ik im closed up now but

i'll try to open up to u now that we can talk

He's not apologizing, I noticed. But I was expecting too much of him much too soon, probably. I rubbed my temples and reached for my laptop to play another one of my music playlists. The instrumental piano always managed to soothe me, especially one of Yiruma's works. I shifted my pillows behind me and grabbed one of my Pusheen cat pillows close to me as I typed up a reply.

u don't know how much this means to me

im sorry for always trying to force u to tell me abt ur business

i was always frustrated haha

just tell me when ur ready

i wont force you anymore

😊💖💖

Breathe, Eunbi, breathe.

so where do u wanna meet tmr?

u remember that old cafe we always went to after school ?

i wanna go there

and i wanna talk more

ill tell u everything that happened while i was gone

and i wanna know more about you

ok

and if it's alright

since it's during the day

can i come over to ur house after? read

lol

so if it weren't night then u would've come

right

haha im not gonna fuck you eunbi

I felt myself blush and screamed into my Pusheen cat pillow.

wtf no i wasn't thinking that

even if it were night i still would've come

it was just late tonite

u pervert

see u tmr at 3?

mhm

u goin to sleep?

yeah haha i have a class in the morning

shit im goin back to college lol

rlly?? which one

im at the local one that's close by.

sungsoo university

basically the only one in this area LOL

damn

im goin there soon

fuckk haha

well night eunbi

night

After I turned off my phone and my laptop, I lied back in bed hugging my Pusheen cat pillow. All I knew for a fact that this wasn't the Sangwoo that I knew back then and that he definitely, definitely changed a lot. His tone was flirtatious, practically oozing through the text. And I didn't like it. But it didn't hurt to do that, would it?

I wasn't conversing with the person that I had so closely confided with and spent almost my entire high school career with. We were grown adults now and it would be natural for men to unconsciously flirt every once in a while. Right?

The night continued to prosper outside my window and I listened to the crickets hum and some toads that croaked every now and then. He'd changed and I would have to accept it. We weren't adolescents anymore. We were thrown in a world that treated us harshly and nothing better than the dirt that we walked on. Maybe the military shaped him into that sort of thinking along with his behavior. Maybe I wasn't Sangwoo's only friend and I was just glooming over him like some obsessive freak.

It was getting late and I was acting like my high school self again, fussing over something so miniscule. Sangwoo no longer wore his glasses, enhancing his handsome appearance. Maybe his looks had thrown me off and my hormones spun out of control as a result.

I'm going crazy, I concluded. And reached over to my nightstand and turned the lamp off.

continuing in... | chapter five | (chapter will be linked as soon as i update!)

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