#beyond reflections

[spiltcandycoatedpunkblood]

if I disappear in a bit, I've finally got a video consultation for an hour or so with the trans & nonbinary support and advocacy organisation Beyond Reflections (formerly Chrysalis)

#YEEEEEEE #transgender #nonbinary #beyond reflections #chrysalis #vent #positivity #personal

[ruporas]

invisible scars (referenced previous talk here)

[ID: A colourless, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood talking about Wolfwood's scars. They're both laying in bed and topless. Vash lays on top of Wolfwood, playing with the rosary around his neck. Then, Vash kisses a spot on Wolfwood's chest. Wolfwood asks, "What are you doing?" Vash smiles sadly, "You got shot here. In the last town we visited. You didn't even bother moving."

Vash props himself up over Wolfwood, who frowns slightly. Wolfwood is quiet for a moment before he says, "You remember that, huh?" Vash grabs Wolfwood's left wrist and brings it to his face. "And here." He kisses another spot there. "When you helped free the hostages from that robber..." Wolfwood dismissively says, looking away, "Was a lucky shot." Vash huffs, “Don’t brag. Jeez.”

Half of Wolfwood's expression is shown, eyes returning to Vash who is now sitting up, continuing to say, "And..." Vash goes on and kiss Wolfwood's right palm. "You got cut here, even though that girl was aiming at me." A moment from the past flashes, of Wolfwood grabbing a knife aimed at Vash, his hand bleeding.

At present, Vash moves down and puts another kiss on Wolfwood's right shoulder. "And here, from watching my back." Another memory flashes of Wolfwood and Vash back to back. Vash looks back as Wolfwood grins while holding Punisher, bleeding from multiple gunshots in his shoulder.

"And," Vash combs up Wolfwood's hair to reveal his forehead, "Here." A final memory shows Wolfwood with a regeneration vial in his mouth while getting shot on his temple. The next panel is framed in blood with Vash at the center, eyes wide and stunned in horror. The next panel is a closed up shot of Wolfwood's eye, locked on Vash's face.

Back to present, Vash’s head is bowed down as Wolfwood raises a hand to his nape and says, “Spikey.”

Wolfwood looks serious and frowns as he says, "We talked about this. Those were my decisions. They're not there anymore. Forget about them." Vash looks very sad before he smiles ruefully and says, "I still see them. All the time." He leans down so they touch foreheads. Wolfwood’s sorrowful expression can be seen as Vash says, "You protect so much. I could never forget what you've done to me. And many others..."

In the last image, they're drawn more cartoonishly. Wolfwood sweats and asks, "You don't actually remember every wound, right?" Vash points at a spot on his chest. "Kuroneko left a scratch here 7 times." Wolfwood, startled, says, "Why the hell are you keeping count—" End ID]

Credits for ID here and here

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #another scars comic for one of the vw week days!!!! frankly i think about their scars WAY too often . most notably wolfwood's because #it really symbolizes a lot for him imo bc for vash it's a history of all the people that's ever harmed him betrayed him and the trust he has #given to humanity despite it all. its a beautiful reflection of his character and then u look at ww and presumably #since we dont really see him half naked Ever (shame) and i mean. i guess technically its a hc -- i assume he wouldn't have any scars bc #of the regen potions (which is why he doesnt have his t scars btw the regen pot took them away :pensive:) #in a way its like washing his hands of blood. giving him the body of someone who might never been involved in a fight never held a gun #but he knows thats not true yet he cant really do anything about it anyway bc he's still just human. if he stops taking the regen pots #he can't press forward. so its just a rinse and repeat and growing accustomed to whats inflicted on him because he knows it'll go away at #the end of the day. he's human but he's also not he's far beyond what could be considered a normal human but he still just is. #mortal but also not immortal. idk. i overthink about it a lot GMSKGMDK frankly i dont think it matters THAT much in the context of trimax #but it means a lot to me somehow. also thinking about how no matter how many times ww kills he's never numb to the sensation of it. maybe #the adrenaline gets to him for the beginning half but ive been rereading like.. vol 3? and that entire fight for ww #u can slowly see him spiral as he keeps on going on. anyway anyway. i love ww #ruporas art

[uriekukistan]

i just think that if wammy's house produced a deranged killer, a bioterrorist, and a serial kidnapper (bare minimum of mello's crimes), plus one who committed suicide that we know of in their attempts to produce a successor for l, maybe they were like, idk, putting too much pressure on kids from a young age and perhaps they should have reconsidered the intense competition they were fostering...just a thought

#i finally finished another note #although ig it lowkey reflects the education system in general #after all i felt enough academic pressure to identify with mello at age 12... #anyway #death note #beyond birthday #mello #mihael keehl

[hotwaterandmilk]

Seeing Wedding Peach referred to as "tradcath propaganda" on Twitter has irrevocably altered something in my psyche.

#personal #mfw #like #wow #twitter is a fucking cesspit on all conceivable levels #but this take is truly one of the wildest i've encountered #it's ok to just not like things!!! #fr #WP is not a brilliant series by any stretch of the imagination and it is totally valid to not enjoy it for all sorts of reasons #but tradcath propaganda has not been intentionally baked into this title #if anything WP is propaganda for toys #it's a cute media mix made up of various mythological nonsense and designed to sell toys #if you think WP in any way reflects anything from catholicism beyond the absolute barest window dressing then you need sunday school

[mmelolabelle]

Maybe it’s the fact that I’m a grown-up now but Hades immediately switching gears and offering to protect Percy once he realised what was going on was refreshing.

Like I love watching kids run around the US in mortal danger as much as the next person, but it was nice to see an adult recognise on screen that those children might possibly need protecting rather than running around on divine errands and things are about to escalate beyond their apparent capabilities and maybe a grown-up should at least try step in?

#hades ‘idk man kronos may be beyond a 12 yr old’s paygrade?’ #(i mean ultimately percy has it covered but i don’t feel that ‘eh the child can handle a titan’ should be a reasonable assumption yk?) #percy had also just demonstrated a sense of ethics and the capacity for reflection and deep thought #so maybe hades was also like ‘oh look a nephew i can actually stand imma keep him alive’ #the big 3 have (1) braincell and hades has primary custody #percy jackson #hades #percy jackon and the olympians #hades pjo #pjo tv show

[tsukina-1-9-9-8]

Something I've noticed lately in the ATSV fandom is that a lot of people repost this Miguel:

🫣 Scary, right?

But don't forget that this faces also exists in him too:

Not only do I see someone making mistakes, but I also see someone sad who has a tremendous fear of himself and the mistakes he has made, which causes him to project his anger and guilt onto Miles.

Also, I read a comment on Pinterest today comparing him to Spot, saying that Spot lost a lot more than Miguel to do the things he does or something (they both lost things that were immensely important to them, it doesn't matter who lost more or less) but the way I see it, Spot chose to be a villain. Miguel just needs therapy and hugs.

I was always attracted to anti-heroic types of characters like Miguel. Because they demonstrate nuances that I feel make them a little more human. Many times these types of characters have strong traumas (for example, the Scarlet Witch) and since they are super people, the consequences can be much bigger than if they were ordinary human beings (I don't justify many actions of some characters, I know) I just feel that these characters can demonstrate the duality of light and darkness and I feel that that complexity is beautiful because at the end of the day, it is the duality of everything.

So, give Miguel a little break and let him understand, say sorry and smile again on BTSV, which I hope will happen!

-Divider from @across-the-art-verse

#last reflection about him for the moment thanks for your time(? #miguel o'hara #atsv #btsv #spiderman #spiderman 2099 #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spider verse fanart #beyond the spiderverse #miles morales #miguel #atsv miguel #miguel atsv #marvel #the spot #spot #spot atsv #spiderverse #gwen stacy #hobie brown #pavitr prabhakar #layla #peter b parker #mayday parker #spider man

[clownprince]

alright i was already intrigued by the premise of knight terrors: the joker but i'm SO fucking hyped now you're telling me rosenberg is elaborating on the divorce arc??? also dark workplace comedy is exactly where i hoped they'd go with this

#scared to get my hopes up bc rosenberg hasn't done much with the batman/joker dynamic so idk his take on it #i think he has a solid understanding of joker as a character #and i'm beyond thrilled at the possibility that they're not just ignoring endgame and joker war and all that shit #joker trying to do his own thing and be his own person without batman is the logical next step #and i'm glad rosenberg managed to salvage something out of the raging dumpster fire that was tynion's take on joker #also mildly concerned about where this might go bc personally i like it when joker has no identity or purpose outside of batman #to me that's what defines joker. his lack of a stable identity and willingness to change to be what he thinks batman needs him to be #and idk if rosenberg is talking about in the nightmare or irl but my assumption is the nightmare will be reflected in the main narrative #rosenberg is also like. genuinely funny. to me at least. so i'm excited. just a bit nervous for what this might mean for the batman/joker #dynamic moving forward. idk #uhhh #batjokes #joker #knight terrors: the joker

[kierancaz]

Gwen really said “will you adopt me?” And then Jess just did lmao

#I literally love them #you can pry the Gwen-Jess-Miguel family dynamic from my cold dead hands #jess drew #gwen stacy #miguel o'hara #spider woman #miguel spiderverse #miguel spiderman #spiderman 2099 #spider gwen #ghost spider #sidenote do you think Gwen’s universe looks different to each person bc it reflects what they’re feeling #but we only see her universe from Gwen and George’s perspective #spiderman atsv #spiderman itsv #spiderman into the spiderverse #spiderman across the spiderverse #across the spiderverse #into the spider verse #beyond the spiderverse #spiderman beyond the spiderverse #spiderman btsv

[nothorses]

How can you separate emotions from reality when you're saying you're a man, which is an emotion and not your biological reality?

oh wow I never thought of it like that! yeah, I guess misogyny is actually fine then since emotions are never relevant to reality, huh? that makes total sense! and that means abuse is fine as long as it's not physical, too, which is so obviously true- I should have realized!

thanks for broadening my perspective! 💙

#imagine interpreting #'we should respect people's emotional realities but that does not mean that they are always reflective of a universal truth' #to mean that emotional realities are just simply Not Reality At All #nice dichotomy idiot #now what lies beyond it

[philosophybits]

He who fights with monsters might take care lest he thereby become a monster. And when you gaze long into an abyss the abyss also gazes into you.

Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil

#philosophy #quotes #Friedrich Nietzsche #Beyond Good and Evil #life #attention #focus #dangers #reflection #awareness

[calypsolemon]

wanted to make an older lloyd design, combining some elements from my favorite outfits of his over the years

#ninjago #lloyd garmadon #i hc lloyd as similarly immortal as wu and his father #his physical body more reflects his mental age than it does his literal age #at this time he's no longer saving ninjago left and right though he does step in from time to time when shit gets bad #but mostly he's just teaching new em's #everyone from the og squad is gone except for him and the nindroids but its well beyond the point where its sad for them #they're literally just chillin into eternity #cal draws stuff #oldman lloyd

[jackdaw-and-hattrick]

What’s with the trend in comics of Jason going on this long, insightful rant on Bruce’s behaviors and shortcomings only for B to respond like “but murder bad” and that’s considered a valid counter argument?

#jason todd #bruce wayne #dc #this happens to some degree with a lot of villains #but it is particularly pronounced with these two dumbasses #like #Bruce clearly has no deeper understanding of Jason or his choices beyond a very basic profile #and it’s to the degree that it almost feels intentional #he doesn’t understand Jason #(he doesn’t understand ANY of his kids really) #and one’s left feeling that Bruce resents Jason for existing at all #like he’d rather be left with just the memory of a kid that loved him #and really I think it comes down to the idea that he feels he failed Jason #and he sees Jason now as just the embodiment of that failure rather than a living person #but is also unwilling or simply doesn’t know how to properly confront or fix his mistakes #so he sets this arbitrary metric for Jason to fail to meet #so he can focus on that rather than any meaningful self improvement or reflection #and all that is without even acknowledging that Jason is more than this failure. he’s a person who’s ended up stuck in a trauma cycle #both of them have

[hoffmanstits-enjoyer]

feeling. Things about this.

(credits to gurokatt on twt for posting these, i still have no idea where these OG scripts come from)

#*silently reflecting spongebob meme* #dramatic ass bitch really tried to kill his crush in the fucking hospital im- #god i need a fanfic about this #'his eyes on fire' HOMOSEXUAL GAY GAY GAY #mark's fucking beyond help ur honor #i love him so fucking badly #the way it reads like he's moving faster than he's THINKING when he sees strahm. wtf couldve done hoffman???? hold his fucking hand #he. aint even aware he's trying to go with him in the ambulance. droping his act the second he sees the commotion. drawn to him. attached. #smth smth the thread of fate that binds us together (im delusional) #saw v #saw franchise #mark hoffman #peter strahm #hoffstrahm #coffinshipping #sawposting

[cargoshortsenjoyer]

The prompt was Reflection and I drew Herbert in his cell.

#obviously a lot of lines are wonky but i didnt use a ruler so thats why that happened #i didnt draw the bars in front of his face to not muddy the drawing up and because in manga that happens a lot #none of the bars are actually missing #basically herbert is avoiding reflection in this #scribbling notes into his notebook to distract himself even though i doubt he has anything note worthy to write about #in regards to his research at least. i doubt hed be journaling #stuff i made #re-animator #reanimator #herbert west #beyond reanimator #like obviously he keeps up his research but we dont see anything suggesting that around his cell #theres no dish with the rat in it. none of the electric things

[tinygameroom]

Have we even talked about the trans implications of being a god of change...

Editing to add my tags and context

When I say 'incidental' at the beginning I'm saying it feels incidental and artificial and then go on to partially deconstruct the idea that it actually is incidental and give examples of why it's not. This is not a full analysis which is why the concept is not explored with the clarity and structure that that would imply, but I'm not actually calling gender irrelevant to the game because it's clearly an ongoing part of the text. I didn't intend this to get reblogged at all much less with responses to my tags, so any issues you have with my rambles are due to lack of clarity and finished thought, due to them being rambles, not a correct understanding of my actual point.

Anyway I think there's tons of interesting analysis to be done about how the game approaches gender, and I don't have the energy or interest to actually analyze about it right now which is why I was more just spitballing about it. What's most interesting to me tho is that contradiction where the Princess being perceived as a woman seemingly has nothing to do with anything, yet is ever present as a commentary on agency and perception, and how people who have experienced misogyny will connect with that. I am also fascinated by the Genderlessness/Genderfulness of the Shifting Mound as an entity of change, how she appears so very feminine but her entire philosophy rejects the idea of simple classification, etc.

As a transmasc nonbinary person the ideas of being perceived as female/feminine (and therefore feeble, innocent, alien, small, stupid, etc etc) and the idea of having a feminine role that doesn't quite or always fit me assumed by others despite that are ideas that resonate a lot. I have lots of thoughts and they're unorganized!

#slay the princess #i feel like gender is so incidental and aesthetically shallow in the game #it has at once no meaning and so much meaning #like the princess is never assumed incapable or deceiptful or weak or simple because she's implicitly a woman #and her being a woman is almost never remarked on #but it's there subtextually in how the narrator and we impose on her agency and she has to continually defend and insist on it #in how she represents an ideal and sometimes even an object #it's not as if there's intentional in universe sexism on the part of the player or the narrator #but they way they perceive and interact with the princess reflects real experiences #with misogyny and being perceived as female #but the princess and especially the shifting mound defies a lot of the perceptions put on her #with the shifting mound describing herself as abstract and fluid concepts and emphasizing change #she is everything #and she is so beyond small human ideas and roles even if she deigned to think of them #so the feminine princess is more than incidental #but ultimately inconsequential

[schrondingers-dumbass]

Very late to the party again, but I think it is insane the comfort and many ways in which the World Beyond Numbers crew is comfortable with breaking the “rules” of actual play.

They have such an ability to forgo the instinct of playing nice and instead stick to nuanced and complex character choices that I would be terrified to take- ame checking out and escaping because she prioritized her duty over conforming to the citadel’s ways, Eursolon being ready to free spirits and fully go rogue to find his answers, Suvi’s decision to stick with orders at all costs- they are all so ready to go “fuck this, let’s make it interesting” and it leads to so much amazing and deep character work.

Dunno, I just think we should talk more about how insanely good they are as players and storytellers

#the wizard the witch and the wild one #world beyond number #Also Mr. Brennan Lee Mulligan #WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN NO CLERICS #Like of course no clerics you have defined the divine as spirits which are personifications and reflections of natures and not metaphysical #arbiters and avatars of a conceptual domain #BUT DOG HOW DOES RELIGION WORK IN UMORA THEN #ARE PEOPLE SIMPLY BEHOLDEN TO BELIEVE IN SPIRITS AS A FORM OF SOCIAL CONTRACT?? #This should be its own post but alas #I love tags too much