#but devastating in others

[citrineghost]

I think about this a lot...

I just want you all to know, even if you don't see any people in your area with pronoun pins or bright, queer clothing, or with clockable traits, there's a very good chance you're surrounded by queer people who are blending in with the cishets. You're not alone.

Ever since I've started passing, I've had this repeated thought... I'll be in a public place and I'll see someone who's almost definitely queer, and it makes my day, but then I wonder, do they see me? Do they know I'm here? Do they understand that I'm one of them?

To be passing is what a lot of trans people see as the end goal, but, if you're not trying to be stealth but simply not going out of your way to display that you're queer, it can come with a profound sense of sudden exclusion - like you're too passing to count anymore, or like you'll be unrecognizable to your queer siblings

So, for everyone's benefit, I just want to say, remember that there are those of us who don't stand out. Don't assume every person that you don't clock as trans is cis. Don't assume every person that you don't clock as gay is straight. We speak out against cisheteronormativity, but to protect ourselves and remain in the safe bubble of those we expect to be safe for ourselves, we are often times perpetuating it

#i feel like this comes across as a humble brag but i really genuinely don't mean for it to be #this thought has genuinely come to me multiple times and given me a profound sense of queer loneliness #and as someone now seen as a man there's also this abrupt social shift where #i can't just tell a woman her perfume smells nice anymore without it being creepy #i can't compliment a woman's clothes anymore without it coming across as hitting on her #I've been disconnected from not just the publicly obvious queer community but also the community i grew up comfortable relating to #I'm not seen as one of the girls anymore which is good in most regards #but devastating in others #because as a gay guy i feel like there's community there that's hard to access now #i could try to be more flamboyant and obvious but i don't want to force anything that doesn't come naturally to me #and I'm too scared to re-enter that spotlight of queerness by wearing a pin or something #maybe this whole thing is stupid and whiny when I'm just being a coward #maybe i should wear a pin and rejoin the ranks of publicly noticeable queers #i feel like this whole post is just me ignoring a privilege that a lot of people would kill for #but i guess I'll post it anyway #you can join me on my thought journey #queer #lgbt #lgbtq #lgbtqia #gay #trans #ftm

[kimdokjas]

though the movie might be cancelled, yuri on ice will live forever in our hearts. thank you yoi fandom, it's been real ♡

#yuri on ice #yoiedit #yoi #victuuri #ice adolescence #anime gif #*gifs #animangahive #dailyshounenai #userkarura #usergojoana #userhanyi #useralphonse #usertorichi #usermoonz #usericybtch #userheidi #usergokalp #userartless #homuras #himawaari #this is not goodbye this is still my house!!! #devastated but not surprised tbh but i still wanted to channel my emotions somehow and just. express how much this show means to me so here #this thank you goes out to u guys. the fandom #mappa can eat a brick btw <3 #god i wish i could articulate just how special yoi is to me #it truly resonated with me like very few other pieces of media have (i can count them with one hand in fact) #it was sooooo revolutionary and ahead of its time not just in terms of queerness but also in terms of mental health #it truly changed me as a person and i just. really appreciate how earnest and kind it was above all #thank you yoi. you will be a part of me forever <3

[bizarrelittlemew]

Stede facing the crew after finding out about their (attempted) murder of Ed

#ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd s2 spoilers #our flag means death #ofmdedit #ofmdsource #ofmd gifs #ida.stuff #ofmd 2x3 #stede bonnet #izzy hands #rhys how fucking dare you this devastated me #experiencing shrimp emotions about this #it's like he can see how they felt they had no other choice #but he has nothing to say to them #just that fucking look containing a mix of emotions i can't convey via text

[theoldkyokodied]

If you follow my main you had to know this was coming… anyway. Enjoy these bloodweave doodles :)

#bloodweave #gale x astarion #astarion x gale #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 #baldurs gate more like baldurs gay amirite folks? #yeah sorry the themes of hunger abuse and power got to me. I’m not immune to thematically mirrors #I have so many thoughts about the it’s not even funny anymore #oh you mean to tell me that canonically gale would offer up his blood if asked and that astarion can’t even do that bc of the orb ?? #tasteful irony that the guy who would want to help can’t do that bc of a mistake he made for love. #especially devastating for someone who measures his self worth in usefulness #oh they are so fucked up and they could understand each other in ways hardly reachable to others #once I start an origin run it’s over for you guys I will be so insufferable. even more than usual

[ewwww-what]

Average fig post on crystalbook or whatever they call it

#Adaine looks so pissed off. sorry girl. #that wasn’t intentional she’s just sleepy #it was actually supposed to just be Kristen at first but I like the idea that fig is just a friend kisser in general #so Adaine is here too #fantasy high #d20 #d20 fantasy high #dimension 20 #d20 fanart #adaine abernant #adaine o'shaughnessey #kristen applebees #kristen fantasy high #fig faeth #fig fantasy high #my god do they not have a trio name? #I have been devastated over and over to learn that other people don’t care about them as much as I do #fantasy high fanart #fh #fhjy #d20 fh #dimension 20 fantasy high #not described #my art

[ruporas]

the blank ticket in your hand is just waiting to be filled in.

happy birthday vash! (ID in alt text)

#vash the stampede #trigun #trigun maximum #trigun maximum spoilers #trimax spoilers #vashwood #i actually made it... im crying... was devastated for a bit bc i thought i wouldnt had anything for vash's bday!! #but happy birthday to the twins.. vash and knives... #no matter what i was going to make a vash centric post im sorry knives... i have a comic in progress also but it was taking too long T_T #that one would celebrate both of them slightly more fairly! but anyway. #birthdays to someone like vash must not mean a whole lot. even the first one - him and knives were like oh what... cool.. i don't think the #had the chance to celebrate much after that :pensive: and vash probably spent most of his birthdays like any other day so i kind of just #wanted to celebrate him living and being alive - living for as long as he did and the people that eventually made living worth it #keep counting the years vash!!! even if you dont have birthday parties - it's still very very special #quote is directly from rem’s speech in ch 41 also #ruporas art

[fatestayyuri]

Illyasviel von Einzbern — Pretty Fly (For a White Guy)

#fsn #fateposting #illyasviel von einzbern #Mia's jpeg butchery #honestly i was devastated that the other video with this title was the VO singing it #and not a proper tribute #She's probably the highlight of HF honestly

[vanpalmr]

YELLOWJACKETS | 1.03 | 2.07 |

#shauna shipman #jackie taylor #yellowjackets #yellowjackets spoilers #jackieshauna #shaunajackie #jackie x shauna #shauna x jackie #* #ella purnell #sophie nelisse #parallels #sorry i cant watch an episode of this show without thinking about devastating parallels #they were kids! they needed each other and didn't know how to love each other in a way the other could understand! #the BEGGING to be haunted is really getting me #like fuck dude

[myoonmii]

Does anybody ever think about how the very last thing Arthur ever did was caress Merlin’s head and smile softly at him while his breath slipped away, never once looking away from him

#doesn’t it just haunt you in your sleep #doesn’t it just tickle your bones #this show will never not devastate me even after 11 years #Merlin #bbc Merlin #Merthur #arthur pendragon #the way they cared for each other will hAUNT me #gay people look at what you have done

[chucktaylorupset]

I think there's something to be said for fanfiction that loves canon in a way that’s rude. Like thank you for this wonderful thematic tragedy made out of this character’s entire arc ending in death, it was emotionally and intellectually moving, but also fuck you fuck you fuck you they live, this time and every time they live, they never died, their flaws are not their undoing, actually they have no flaws, actually they save everyone, actually who cares about a story, any story, where this one dies, actually i cared about that story so much i made a new one, actually i cared so much i unmade the old one, you gave me morals and i left them for the mortal, but they’re mine now and i will never let them die, actually thank you, actually fuck you, strongly worded letter to follow

A kiss for canon and spit in its face all at once, it’s great

#my post #i use and plan to use the 'canonical character death tag' WAY too much to post this but still #fanfiction #everybody live nobody dies au #and a five #this is about your blorbo absolutely but before that it was about #robb stark #to crown him is to kill him #on the one hand he must die because there are no good kings #king of the north was the death knell of robb the good brother robb the good son robb the loving friend #on the other hand #he was the nicest sixteen year old in the world #on the other hand fuck you there sits the only king i mean to bend my knee too #what if king was just a name for a brother who loved you #love that story of thematic importance about the inherent devastation of feudalism #but fuck you he's perfect and he lives #fuck you let him be soft and let him be mine #in general im against sandpapering your blorbos but actually my blorbos are soft and round and perfect #boubas if you will #and who cares if theyre a little unrecognizable #the version of them that gets to live #resurrection and comes back wrong but with the multiverse of what if they lived fanfiction

[minnow-doodle-doo]

Middle school, especially Gotham Academy, can be the worst but they got each other.

#dc #SoA AU #robin #batfam #jason todd #tim drake #my art #theyre brothers #ride or die bitches that can't do anything not intensely #They met when Jason was 11 and Tim 9 (my other Sons of Anarchy posts has more about them) #the NPC comment was inspired by a 5th grader who put 'i like NPCs' on a post it note on someones back idk why but I think it was devastating #I literally threatened to quit my job if they moved me to the middle school (it was for a lot of reasons but a big one was that Middle schoo #is the worst)

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN BIRTHDAY COUNTDOWN (2024): hyunjin in every letter... ↘ D-27 | DUMPLING

#hwang hyunjin #hyunjin #stray kids #bystay #createskz #staysource #a9gifs #*gif #*hyunjin #*ccarly #*carly:hyunjin #*series:hjbday24 #also Devastating. he is so cute. guh #sorry this is only eight gifs some of the sets are based on how many moments i could find that looked decent #my other timestamps were not Dumpling enough

[cherrirui-official]

"You know... You didn't have to take that with you."

"But I promised him I'd take him out to see the ocean one day."

#for context uhmm how do i explain this #so around a few weeks after Jd arrives Bruce is like “Hey... where are the others?” #and Jd is like “ooooh 🤪🤪 he doesnt know...” #Since at this time JD believes that the entire tribe is dead. including his brothers and grandma #so Jd has to take Bruce to the now abandoned troll tree and give him the bad news #Bruce doesnt believe it at first. even if the tree is abandoned they cant be dead? right?? they cant be #so he rushes over to their grandma's pod. thinking that theyre just in hiding and waiting for them to return #and all Bruce is able to find in the empty pod is Branch's old stuffed toy Croco #which solidifies to Bruce that everyone is dead. their friends their family. everyone #Bruce is obviously devastated by the news. he doesnt show it a lot but he doesnt take it too well #he ends up bringing Croco with him back to Vacay Island and patches Croco up #since Croco is a bit worn out due to being left in the pod for years #and since then Bruce always keeps Croco hidden in his hair. both as a memoir of his baby brother #and also a reminder of how he failed as an older brother... ouch #ofc the others arent dead. its just that now both Jd AND Bruce believe that the rest of the trolls are dead #also King Trollex is there bc i wanted to put him there. I like Trollex :] #a knee ways more bb au art i promise the next bb au art will be lighthearted #tho now im gonna work on the next violet gijinka batch bc ive been starving my friendlocke audience for too long #sorry friendlocke fans ill feed u next dw #cherris canvas #trolls #trolls band together #trolls john dory #john dory trolls #trolls bruce #bruce trolls #king trollex #beach bros au #sorry for rambling in the tags i hope u dont mind ahaha

[ruporas]

all I wanted was to save them... (ID in alt)

#nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #tw blood #let me know if there's any other tags i need to use!!! not sure if it counts as gore #ruporas art #*vash voice* YOU ARE NOT WRONG/LOST WOLFWOOD!!!!!! #i think very often about ch 49 where wolfwood thought it was fr over for him for that brief moment. he was already bearing with so much #fatigue that it wasn't going to be enough for him to fight back properly.. and ough... augh..... for the first time after bearing that cros #someone saved him. someone saved himmmm AUGHHHH <-- guy who can't be normal about it even though its been 7 months since i read it #but he's suffered alone for so long and continued to do so because it's all he ever knew in those short years #and its devastating. his one and only desire was simple and it was still difficult for him to reach T_T #anyway... i love him... holds him tenderly in my palms

[ahalliance]

crowley perhaps did the bravest thing in his 6000 years of existence and was greeted with his worst nightmare in return. i’m sooo incredibly normal

#good omens #good omens s2 spoilers #go2 spoilers #gos2 spoilers #good omens spoilers #good omens season 2 #i am . devastated #that’s the closest word to it #but fuck . phenomenal season and ending for making me feel so many shrimp emotions #jay rambles #shoutout to ineffable bureaucracy . real winners in all that #nina and maggie won too because now that theyre on the same page they’ll actually be able to develop a healthy relationship #unlike SOME OTHER PEOPLE #1k

[cryptidkey]

SIGMA <3 <3

#Insane about him I know the purple part of his hair is supposed to be on the other side but I like it better this way it looks better #every so often I get the urge to draw him and only him he’s like the only thing that can get me out of art Block #Sigma bsd #bsd sigma #bsd #bungou stray dogs #I woke up today thinking it was Friday and I’m devastated