#can I commit to doing this for the rest of the year?

[rixsjwb]

smokey geto, university au

at around 2 p.m., you wake up to the smell of smoke, specifically from a cigarette.

as you feel the sleepiness in your eyes seemingly never going away. You don't fully register what's going on until you eventually sat up. to find yourself sleeping on sugurus bed, while he sat right next to you while satoru played video games with shoko. sukuna and toji scrolling on their phones occasionally showing each other funny videos.

it was weird seeing them not throwing insults at each other and wanting to commit mass murder on one another, as you laid flat on your side, you used your arms too supporting you upright, you couldn't even full take in where to place your hands and you just put it anywhere you could, while doing so your hand lands on something solid and you hear a groan emit from the object.

it was suguru.

your hand had landed on his lower abdomen when trying to sit yourself up, "m'sorry." You say muffled tiredness still lingering in your voice. Your eyes start to see the hazey looking air, thinking your eyes are playing tricks on you, you waft the air in front of you while rubbing your eyes.

you feel yourself come crashing down when the energy you had left, left your body. your head coming in contact with the soft mattress, but you could see suguru in your view of looking up at the ceiling. you could feel his hand running in between the strands of your hair, almost lulling you back to sleep.

but the smoke in the air that starts to go down your lungs caused a violent cough to erupt out of you, drawing most of your friends to check up on you.

"You okay?" satoru asked, the cigarette limply slaying out of his mouth now, gone, as he held it between his index and middle finger. you mumble something that was intelligible, dragging the warm blanket with you too the living room to get more sleep, as the room was pretty much a widefire once the flames were put out, so much smoke.

you never liked when your friends did smoked. not only for their heath but yours too, obviously you don't want to force them too stop, I mean, shokos have been smoking since freshman year, do you really think they'll stop smoking on your request? probably not. Who knows?

as you snuggled up on the couch, the silent aura carried around the living room. You hear the soft click of a door opening and soft footsteps coming closer to you.

you grab the blanket and throw it over your entire face so not a limb is outside of the blanket, but when you feel a hand rest just above you, the blanket acting like a barrier, you start to tug and shove the person throwing their weight on you. you chuckle at their attempt to rip the blanket off you. but eventually, you remove it from your face to see who exactly it is.

"What are you doing here?" You ask tone muffled and quiet even with nothing covering your mouth, "m'wanted peace n' quiet." his baritone voice rumbles as he spoke, sounding a little more raspy than usual, probably from the smoke.

"hey ghetto, how come you always smoke?" you ask a genuine question, you wonder. you watch as he makes a face at the name you jokingly give him, but you both bath In the solitude of eachother.

silence.

"m'dont know, just do, I guess. don't like the smell of the smoke?" he said, you feel hesitant to nod your head, you don't wanna upset him because you don't like the choices he makes, but again it's his body so he can do whatever he'd like.

"yea, aren't you afraid of the lung diseases coming to get you?" You say it's a serious saying, But you can't help but chuckle a little. "You're too young and handsome to spend your days in a hospital." You say, hand stretching out to play with the ends of his long, straight, healthy looking hair. it had gotten longer than you'd remembered.

suguru stays quiet almost in Ponder about what your saying,"and plus not only are you killing you but your killing me cause I have to breath that shit whenever I'm around you, we'll be leukemia twins." Your chuckle sets a vibration in your chest.

you start to play with his hands in the silences, you start to think your words may have come off alittle aggressive and rude, but before you could say anything he beat you too it.

"Don't worry, yr'pretty mind, I promise I'll stop from now on." it takes you by surprise by how quickly it took for him to consider your words.

"You sur-" "Yes, I am. don't want you breathin' in these harmful chemicals."

you decide to joke around with him abit "can I try?" You point to the cigarette in between his fingers, " no silly, it's bad for you." You laugh at the irony of the situation

you watch as he smothers the ciggar into an ashtray, and you can already see the smoke clearing up. he opens the windows to seemingly air out the house before he makes his way back too you, laying his body weight on top of you.

"Get your sleep." he says Ina low tone, his hands drawing soft repetitive shapes on your skin, and he snuggles into your stomach enough to lul you back to sleep.

#jjk fanfic #jujutsu kaisen fluff #jjk x reader #suguru geto x you #geto suguru x you #suguru x y/n #geto suguru x reader #suguru getou x reader #suguru x you #suguru x reader #getou suguru x reader #jujutsu kaisen x reader #geto x reader #geto x y/n

[mindfulstudyquest]

❥﹒♡﹒☕﹒ 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲-𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗴𝗶𝗲𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗺𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄

𝟭. set SMART goals ( 📒 )

make sure your goals are specific, measurable, actionable, realistic and time-bound. this will help you maintain focus and track your progress over time. how many times has it been you and your unrealistic to-do list against the world? well, it seems that a mile-long to-do list is not a good ally at all. remember that you are a person and not a machine, and that just dedicating four hours to deep work and concentration is A LOT. be kind to yourself and don't overload yourself with more work than you can humanly do.

𝟮. daily planning ( 🧸 )

mea culpa because i'm the first one who doesn't plan their day. to-do lists generally stress me out and make me feel overwhelmed as if i don't manage to complete all the tasks an asteroid will end up hitting the earth. but i recognize that it is a good starting point. sometimes i have too many things to do and i end up doing nothing in total confusion, but having at least a general list to follow gives me more motivation. moreover do we want to talk about the dopamine released when you tick an empty box? marvelous. maybe don't write down tasks that are too onerous and demanding, break them into several smaller tasks, also try to write simple activities such as "drink a glass of water" every now and then. having these low-commitment activities will help you stay motivated while completing more important tasks.

𝟯. reverse-engineering method ( 🪴 )

start with the end goal and work backwards to plan the actions needed to achieve it. this helps you maintain clarity on the steps to take and focus on the most relevant actions. the best thing to do is plan based on the time available and do your best to stick to your daily goal.

𝟰. timer roulette ( ⏳ )

choose a task from your to-do list and set a random timer between 15 and 45 minutes. work on that task with all your concentration until the timer goes off. this helps you fight procastination and keep your mind fresh.

𝟱. mind mapping time ( 📍 )

before starting a study session, take a few minutes to create a mental map of the subject you need to cover. this helps you see connections between concepts and organize information more effectively.

𝟲. task batching ( 🫒 )

group similar tasks together and tackle them in batches. for example, reply to all emails in one session rather than doing so at scattered times throughout the day. this helps you reduce transition time between tasks and maintain focus. contrary to popular belief, human beings are not truly multitasking (only a few possess this great ability) and when we do multiple things together we do nothing but shift our attention from one task to another, greatly reducing the quality of our performance. if possible, try to avoid these switches that are harmful to your focus and concentration.

𝟳. the pomodoro method ( 🍅 )

okay, y'all probably already know this one because it became so popular in the last year but if you don't, the pomodoro method is a time management technique developed by francesco cirillo in the late 80s. it is based on the idea of working for short periods of time, usually 25 minutes, followed by a short 5 minute break. after four rounds of work, a longer break is taken, usually 15-30 minutes. this technique helps improve concentration and productivity, as it breaks down work into manageable tasks and offers regular breaks to rest and regenerate energy. i personally prefer the 50/10 ratio while i'm studying but you decide which time ratio is better for you, i find it really useful and it helps me a lot while i'm studying for my exams.

#college #education #school #academia #note taking #student #study aesthetic #study blog #study inspiration #study motivation #study notes #study space #study tips #student life #study community #studyblr #studyinspo #studyspo #uni student #academic validation #chaotic academia #light academia #dark academia #university life #university #uni life #time management #time management strategies #pomodoro method #productivity

[manonsmanicmind]

This is a compilation of highlights from a panel held at the National Museum of the Mighty Eighth Air Force with Kirk Saduski (executive and producer at Playtone), Donald L. Miller (author of Masters of the Air), and Nate Mann (you know who he is 😌). The whole discussion is very insightful and really fun to watch, especially because Don knew Rosie very well, so I highly recommend that you watch it in its entirety. You can watch it here. There's a summary below if you don't want to watch the compilation 😉

Don on Rosie and Nate: “I’ve never met a more impressive human being in my life… his poise, his coolness, his composure.” He thinks Nate “played [Rosie] to a T.” 

Nate on the cast getting to know each other and the friendships formed: “A mission like [Münster]… took probably three weeks in a replica cockpit… all the while, Josh Bolt, my co-pilot is sitting right next to me… this was going on for a year… I was just texting him today… that kind of friendship is really the foundation of something like this… because they’re really up there for one another.”

Don on the show: “What makes the film for me is what Kirk talked about… the attention to detail is incredible and the dedication on the part of the actors, they jumped into these roles… I never saw a group of actors so emphatically committed to the project as these guys were; it was really incredible.”

Don on Rosie and Nate: “Rosie was [the] kind of guy who walks into a room and commands the room.” To Nate: “I thought you did that brilliantly, in an understated way. It would have been so easy to overstate that.” —> Nate: *nods vigorously and mouths 'thank you'* 😊🙏

Kirk to Nate: “You’re at the beginning of what we know is going to be a brilliant career, Nate.” —> Nate: *embarrassed* 🤭🙈🙉🙊🫣

Nate on how playing Rosie affected his life: “Things stick around… It’s always a good sign when you keep coming up with questions you might ask of your character. I would love to just sit down and talk to [Rosie] about jazz… I still feel this curiosity about him.”

Nate on how the incorporation of Rosie’s love for music was helpful: “When I first encountered Rosie, the thing you’re struck by is the magnitude of what he went through and what he chose to do in spite of what he went through, and that warrior-spirit... juxtaposed with this incredible warmth and this grace, and that’s where the music lives for me... He had this sense of trying to bring a buoyancy into others’ experiences, and I think he did with his crew. That balance there, between that steel-headed courage and his effortless warmth with others, was kind of where I tried to pivot.”

During the pandemic, Nate found a letter from his grandfather on his father’s side: it was from 1941 and mentioned how “unhappy he was.” 

The letter said: “I just feel this frustration… this sense of wanting to do something with my life, this sense of responsibility, this sense of responsibility to you, to my parents, to my country, and to this society that gives me, a jew, a chance to live.” 

Nate thought of that letter when auditioning for MotA because “that personal sense of duty, for Rosie, was so pivotal to his inspiration and helping him fight.” He further said that “getting to explore that connection to [his] grandfather… it’s one of those unexpected great wonders of getting to do the work that [they] get to do.”

Nate on what stands out with this project: “This is unique in that, feeling connected to this history and being able to be part of sharing it with you guys and helping to educate the public on these men, on WW2, on that sacrifice, brings a whole other dimension of meaning to our work.”

The rest of the video is made up of clips of Nate being an adorable, sweet, thoughtful, and supportive human being 🥰

#nate is pookie #i could listen to him all day #his laugh😭 #his smile😭 #his everything😭 #rosie sounds like he was an amazing and otherworldly man #nate mann #rosie rosenthal #donald miller #kirk saduski #masters of the air #mota

[hawnks]

in all ways except physically, i am here

#I FORGOT TIME EXISTS #I’ve been so busy lately that I FORGOT that my first official thesis appointment is coming up #I’ve got four days to write 25 pages and an outline for the rest of the novel AND they have to be good #so that my advisor doesn’t immediately regret taking me on NAJSJSJDJD #I’m just sooooooo unsure of what direction it should be going #becuase like it’s a coming of age novel primarily #but not for highschooler #like the second coming of age when you wake up and realize that your life is not what you expected it to be when you were ten and had #all those dreams and anything was possible and suddenly it just hits you that you will just have to #… go on living anyway #but that’s not the plot #the plot is a bunch of subterfuge and running from the past (literally) and figuring out why parents are the way they are #but idk idk #is it good enough? #am I doing the right thing? #can I commit to doing this for the rest of the year? #:< #I’ve had this line since the inception of these characters years ago and it’s like: #‘the van says hallelujah church of eskard on the side. at night they sleep in the back or at shitty roadside motels with vinyl headboards #and missing shower curtains #HELLO WAIT I FIGURED IT OUT #I UNDERSTAND NOW #A plot-> a bunch of hijinks that Agnes goes through in the hopes of regaining her sixth sense #B plot -> Agnes’ repressed misery about her fathers death has summoned a demon (bennet) who waits for her to decide #if she wants to make a deal with him/what that deal will be. eventually in a moment of weakness she asks him to love her in exchange for #her mortal body. thus begins a contentious friendship. he is inordinately kind to her. kinder than anyone has ever been. but at some #unspoken point in the future. he will consume her body. #C plot -> Bennet’s father (the devil) has begun the process of the apocalypse. he has to figure out where his allegiances lie and what #his feelings are towards his sister (Tilney) and his discarded mother are before it’s too late #DID IT FIGURED IT OUT

[sylphwing]

hm. i do not like chilshi 🤔

#sylph.txt #everyone likes to joke abt how much of an epic divorce man chilchuck is #but i dont think he ever even refers to her as his ex-wife. i could b wrong bc it's been a while since i read it tho #idk a lot of his arc is him learning to b more open w others (which is essentially what ended his relationship) #and u can see how much he's grown in the chapter where senshi goes into his past #to me it would b a lot sweeter for him to take on these lessons and go back to her and make things work #it's been 4 years but he's remained loyal to her depite their issues. idk to me it rlly does feel like he still loves her he's just a fool #it's made p clear that he's a coward and that he's quick to run away so actually committing to her would b a nice way to wrap things up #we don't get to see much of his wife so i get y ppl r quick to put him w the only other man in the party #but like senshi knows abt his wife too like i do not think he's gnna b making any moves here bc he has morals lmao #(*only other older man in the party. laios doesn't qualify for old man yaoi to most chilshi likers) #(even tho chilchuck isn't old either but shh they don't care abt that) #when it comes to senshi the changeling chapter def helped him w understanding how old the rest of the party is #but he clearly still views them as significantly younger than him #i don't think he views chil as a child anymore but for the majority of their time together he did #and so going from that to in a relationship is uhh rlly weird to me! #senshi has always taken a sort of parental role upon himself #w him romance is no where as interesting as the platonic bonds he has w the rest of the party #similar to how romance is entirely unimportant to izutsumi in the succubus chapter #idk i def don't hate the pairing and there r some takes on it that i find funny #but for me i just don't see anything between them i think ppl just want an m/m ship to play with #that ao3 gap is only gnna get bigger lmao

[musubiki]

Sulluvan knows/has probs met the Witch King right? Maybe before he spoiled or sumn? Did the witch king have anything to say when Sulluvan went to collect him finally?

honestly i dont think he had much to say!!! sulluvan....sort of met him long ago? i always think about a mini-episode centered around sulluvan at that time (he was just a child all those thousands of years ago, and his father was the lord of the undertakers, so little sulluvan just kind of shadowed his father in dealings with the witch king and others,,...really the point of the episode is its a flashback on sulluvans part that is actually focused on the merchant, who was ALSO alive at that time, looked and acted exactly the same, and was out and about his usual business of selling things. he sold little sulluvan a little pinwheel toy, and sulluvan reflects on that moment anytime the merchant is brought up. hes afraid of him, to be honest)

but back to the point, sulluvan by nature is supposed to be impartial!!! thats his role as the lord of the undertakers. he cant choose sides (which is why he doesnt participate in the fight against the witch king). he probably offers the witch king the chance to "redeem his wicked nature" by becoming an undertaker and "paying back the debt he owes" by working to deliver souls to the afterlife, to which the king replies "I have committed no wickedness."

#and then sulluvan consumes his soul #as is the procedure #trivia about the undertakers: theres the lord (sulluvan) and the rest of them are wicked souls who chose a second chance at redemption #the way it works is if you commit enough heinous deeds: then when you die you do not get sent to the afterlife #or (sent back to the stars) is the saying is midsphel #instead sulluvan offers you the chance to become an undertaker and your wickedness can be 'worked off" over time by delivering souls #and by (over time) i mean hundreds of years #and once you pay off the debt you can go to the stars #if you dont choose this then he consumes your soul #anyway. the person who knows the witch king isnt sulluvan. its THE MERCHANT #HE KNOWS HIM #(Oh his majesty King Deo? I sold him a rug once. Not a good tipper that one! Got it from his grandfather probably~) (You WHAT?!)

[anormaladn]

a wonky sketch will have to do for now

Aven and Sin'ha are turning 10 years old this year... Picking up their story in 2020 again was a great decision. Aven helped me accept some things about myself, I'd like to thank him.

#oc aven #anormalart #dragon knight #sketch #digital art #dragon #I want to do something better for the occasion but I've been falling off my dragon knights hype #regrettably #I guess I still have the rest of the year in case it comes back #yes Sin'ha is prettier in 2019 yes I live in shame bc I can't commit on a level of anthropomorphization for the dragons in this setting #also yes I always mess up this downwards 3/4 angle of her face but she's supposed to be kinda ugly I can live with that

[palentonga]

im just fucked completely theres no hope at all

#i deserve no clemency i dont deserve to move past my failings #the only times ive been close to happy are when ive been naive and ignorant #and the times ive been miserable are when im much more insightful and incisive of myself #theres nothing to love about myself #maybe if i had the means to move forward with my life but i dont #i have to live here in the middle of nowhere and help take care of my mom #shes told me multiple times shed be dead if i wasnt with her #and shes right #i cant leave #cant explore life #my youth is over #my college years are spent #what would have been my college years anyway #nothing left to do but get gender nullification surgery when i can afford it sometime after my mom passes #and just live life alone #never gonna feel a girl run her fingers through my hair #never gonna hear a woman say that im her girl #no point #no life #none of this means anything #the mao sugiyama to budd dwyer pipeline #and i dont deserve it. i dont understand being a woman #and i never will #misogyny is so cooked into the fiber of my being that to undo it would be to undo myself #ig that means that since i have an obligation to undo misogyny #i also have an obligation to commit suicide down the line #not for a while. not while my moms alive #and maybe i dont deserve to get off that easy #and should just rot in dickless misery for the rest of my life

[tarantula-hawk-wasp]

hands and knees begging myself to be responsible tonight bc i have so much to do but i can feel in my heart irresponsible brain is going to win and im gonna end up drawing and making myself more behind and stressed but like i spent 8 hours researching and writing art history texts at my internship do i fucking want to research for my history class tonight even tho i should so i can let the professor know if my topic is viable? no i want to draw. and like even research aside i need to do dishes and laundry and pack

#which frustratingly the relevant articles are from a journal our school doesn't subscribe to and like i could just ask her to change my topi #but like if i wait until after thanksgiving that is pushing it too close UGH #i hate school #i hate how busy i am right now ugh i was on the phone with my dad and he was like you sound really unhappy and i was like well thing is i #am and like i just have to slog through the rest of this semester but it is a hard slog #call my schedule oatmeal the way its fucking GRUELING #they werent lying that 25hrs a week internship but 1hr walking there and back 5 days a week (so 30 hours time) is a fucking LOT on top of #classes and teaching like im physically sore im tired and burnt out im behind on grading #i love the work im doing at the internship and i love teaching it is just challenging to balance both #and like i knew grad school would be hard and I knew this semester would be hard and i can get through it and i will get through it #i dont even like complaining about it bc like i signed up for this knowingly and i knew what i was committing to and the internship is so s #so helpful for me career wise and i really enjoy it and like my classes are also important career wise #im just constantly treading water but im drowning a little #every like mental health problem i have is being exacerbated #i feel like i have two parts of my brain like rational logical brain that knows what i need to do to get the tasks done and then wild #impulsive fun brain that just wants to goof off and that part of my brain has the steering wheel most of the time and i have to wrestle it #away to get work done anytime im not like in an office #which like yes that is a metaphorical way to describe executive dysfunction but i have not had time to try to get any diagnoses even tho #we've been suspicious for 6 years now

[tastyflowers]

ooooh I've massively overdone it this week. fatigue is here to kick my over-enthusiastic self back into bed

#it has been a v lovely week tho so worth it! #fortunately i have no commitments today so can have a good rest #my health has been on such an upward trend this year so its kinda easy to forget i have a chronic illness and then try to do all the things

[malkaviian]

i am having a great time here on life dot com

#/s #i only ate a scrambled egg today; i couldnt finish it and i feel sick #something else happened today that just showed how this girl is even more manipulative. how did you turned out like this. #or maybe you were ALWAYS like this and youre just showing your true nature now? how i didnt realized this before? we were friends for years #and honestly at this point i would say whatever ruin your life; nobody is going to stay that long around you like we did. #but you have A WHOLE ASS CHILD. A 4 NEARLY 5 MONTHS OLD BABY THAT DEPENDS TOTALLY ON YOU!!!! #STOP BEING SO SELFISH!!!! AT LEAST THINK ABOUT THE SON YOU CLAIM TO LOVE!!!! #maybe im exaggerating but i feel betrayed by someone i saw as a sister + i saw her son as a nephew. #i already lost a 11 years friendship last year why is this happening to me again. and is ending in a horrible way #sorry that the rest of the group dared to still do friend stuff even after you became a mom and thus became unable to do certain things now #i *get* it; you feel envious. but we cant stop our lives just because YOURS changed. we told you multiple times we love you and your son #we love when you bring him with you because we love him; and two of us dont even like kids that much. we were excited the whole pregnancy #we supported you because we can imagine how difficult being a young; single mom is. we did that because youre important #but we committed the horrible sin of doing things without you; because you yourself said you couldnt and/or dont want to go #we committed the horrible sin of still being friends with each other and eventually bring in another friend #whom we tried for you to get along; but it didnt happened and were in the wrong for still hanging out with him. #we tried to talk about you feeling excluded from the group; but you only told us 'i dont know'; because if you directly said #'i dont like that you three have a social life together without me even when im literally unable to follow your steps now because im a mom' #you would sound extremely selfish. and you know what? you are. i get missing the stuff youre not able to do now being a mom; its normal #but its not a fucking excuse to try to destroy the rest of the group. i love how youre pretending to be the victim in this case #by saying 'oh [x] said she felt uncomfortable with me she doesnt want to be friends with us anymore :((' when its not what happened #she said the problem is YOU; not the rest of us. she told you the problems she has with you; we saw the fucking convo #and youre twisting her words to make her look like the attacker. plus trying to make us think she also wants to stop being friends with us? #literally not whats happening. you think were just going to take your word anyway and not ask her about it? #even when breaking a friendship out of nowhere is pretty important? were just going to go 'oh [x] is a bitch' without asking anything. #also we know now she has been your punching bag for so long. we saw convos and your recent attitude towards her confirm it. #anyway youre a fucking selfish manipulator who cares about things going her way only. and were seeing it now #well; i guess at least it means were aware of your true nature; even if we feel betrayed for how long you pretended towards us #things are going downwards and is literally your fault #negative

[kartoshinki]

there's this one thing that's been bugging me for months and i desperately want to talk about it and get others' perspectives but it's to do with racism and i do not want

to be That White Person

to deal with the seemingly inevitable racists bound to show up

or 3. explain to people that different places have different histories and societies but that would be considerably more tolerable

#the oracle hath spoken #ok so. disclaimer i might actually Be That White Person and not seeing something? #so i just wanna say i am 100% open to changing my opinion and listening to experiences and knowledge #this is really more eli5 material but i do not want to deal with reddit clientel on this #because second disclaimer: there is no racism against white people like as a whole. that's bullshit and ridiculous and pathetic #but. why is racism against (specific) white people (e.g. ukrainians poles etc) supposed to be called xenophobia. and not racism. #i get it within the context of the US-american understanding of 'r*ce' which is basically skin colour right #like the populations of entire continents are seen as one #but that's not really how it works in europe or well i guess most of eurasia and africa #we can tell each other apart. and some peoples have up to thousands of years of history with each other #that's not xenophobia bc that's not strangers. that's not even newcomers. #and many times different peoples have lived together peacefully but at other times still massacred each other #i mean fuck slavs were murdered for being slavic during the shoah but that wasn't racism? what was it then? #i get why former colonies would use terms like 'caucasian' for 'anyone european looking' #but that's just ridiculous when you live comparatively close to the caucasus and there are actual people living there #people who i promise you most europeans will recognise as caucasian as in coming from these mountains #and who do actually experience racism or xenophobia or how u wanna call it in russia (and the rest of europe i guess) #and do you see how this just feels cynical to me #as child of a nation which has committed racist genocides against other white people

[todayisafridaynight]

virtually handing over the 3 cents you are indeed right! i started twirling my hair when i first saw dojima hes so….

sorry nanako i literally just met you and you are certifiably baby but your depressed father is having me act unwise

#snap chats #omg my three cents tho ............. i can put so many ants on these ... #p sure ryotaro was Certifiably my first heart throb Period like thats so embarrassing ... i gotta go ... #all im sayin is nanako you bouta have two dads. three. hi adachi #i dont fw adachi like that i promise hes nanako's second dad to me sorry. uncle coded at least... in an ironic sense ... lol ... #big rip to me purging all my persona art you could definitely find it if you look hard enough but my ryotaro posting was bananas #i think i drew him as recently as like. last year i just dont know if i saved that to my flashdrive or not 🧍‍♂️ #i do not have it im gonna commit. i did draw him recently for that rgg x p4 post tho tf am i on bout vjearlKJVERLKG #while i was looking for my dojima doodle i did stumble upon one of my fave mine pics ...... im gonna throw up hes so cute .... #this post is NOT about mine fuck OFF. looking at my framed pic of him next to me im so sorry king i didnt mean it #anyway i love bitches named dojima *NOT YOU @ SOHEI #the rest of you tho ...... god bless .....

[arolesbianism]

Thinking abt how much I love oni's writing again... In particular, "a seed is planted" continues to be one of if not my favorite logs because despite the troubling details and implications that come with it, it's the one thing in the entirety of the decaying corpse of gravitas that genuinely leaves us with a grain of hope (a seed if you will) and makes oni as a whole a lot more bitter sweet as while earth may not have survived, the dupes did, and after their horrible origins and the shit that many of them went through, in due time they'll finally get to just live, they're free now, and even if Olivia's sleep is end of a tragedy, the world will keep moving forward with or without those who've been lost

#rat rambles #oni posting #like I guess I just rly love that oni both manages to commit to being a tragedy while also leaving a world still in motion #like Im glad that olivia didnt get a bittersweet ending and instead got a fucking miserable one #while at the same time the dupes are still left there to keep moving forward #well ok more so I like how the narrative shifts into smth quite beautiful when seen from the dupes perspectives #which is also why I like that the dupes are rarely talked abt directly in the lore logs #idk I just feel like a seed is planted wouldnt hit as hard to me if the dupes were talked abt more #its the same sort of incedental storytelling that I like abt the rest of oni's writing ig #also I just think them being a major part of the lore logs would rly take away from the greater horrors and tragedies of gravitas #like idk I think it would have been a lot more boring if a third of the logs were just jackie going so yeah I tortured dupes some more #it makes the pre end of the world world feel so much bigger while still mostly remaining within gravitas itself #enhances the feeling of glimpsing into a past world #like every now and then I think abt what oni story could have looked like and am filled with joy at what it is now #I fucking love being into fiction thats good god it feels so good to like shit thats just like actually good #it honestly makes me almost wish there wouldnt be new lore but I do think theres room for more #as in theres plenty of room to make shit up and also we need to see more of the scientists pls #as for actual quote unquote plot stuff idk just give me like one jackie and olivia college year video transcript or smth and we're good #theres other stuff that make me lose my mind but for narrative consistency I think itd be best to not touch those two too much #especially olivia I rly think she doesnt need almost any new content the only stuff Id want with her is if it expanded upon jackie #because rly jackie is the only character I think would super heavily benefit from elaboration even if I stand by her not needing much #as Ive said a billion times just smth small to show us her in a more casual setting and we're golden I think #show me that woman being genuinely happy so I can fill in the blanks as she slowly gets crushed by the consequences of her actions #shes a part of this tragedy too and god damnit I want to see the life she ruined along the way of ruining many others #I want to see a woman whos eyes once shined and then when the lights have dulled I want her to say it was worth it with no conviction #metaphorically ofc I dont actually want to see most of it because thatd go against the narrative philosophy already established #rly all this means is I wanna see jackie and olivia doing laundry together or smth #oh also I hope they specifically give otto a whole other log just to clear up my pronoun woes #idc what its abt just have them talk abt their gender offhand or smth #just mi-ma being like how do you do young man and otto is like they and mi-ma is like ah yes young they

[jazzzhd]

Rant in tags with suicide mention

#im struggling a lot today #i just keep thinking about my grandma and how she refused to help me in this hopeless situation #she has a huge house with three open bedrooms and a whole basement and she refused to let us stay with her #because she wants her new fucking boyfriend to move in with her #and now im out over $2000 for staying a month in this shitty fucking hotel room #when that money could have went towards permanent housing if only she had let us stay a month or two and figure it out #i already cut contact with her when she said she wouldnt let us stay with her #but all day today i cant stop thinking about it. i thought she fucking cared about me but apparently she cares more about a guy #that shes known for maybe 2 years? #combined with the suicidal thiughts i have #i just cant stop thinking about committing and what i would say to her before doing so #i cant stop thinking that if i did commit if we become homeless that she could have easily prevented it #i just want to hurt her as much as she has hurt me #and i hate that. but im in the worst situation ive ever been in my life and she cant even help me by giving us money even #when all the rest of my family is doing everything they can #becuase weve wasted all our savings were going to have to stay here at least another month #but possibly even 2-3 more months #when we could have just taken a month or two at max to get things figured out and get permanent housing #i cant rationalize why she would not help us unless she doesnt give a shit about me #so honestly FUCK her. i told her she should never expect to hear from me again and i stand by that.

[lopsidedtreetrunks]

I got a new tablet for xmas so hopefully I'll be drawing more next year! Obviously I'm still getting used to it, but I managed to bang this out in a couple of hours while I'm messing around with it. Presenting: my fursona ig bsgshjfsg

#im so happy rn #a tablet with a pen????!!??!????!!???!? #i am extremely lucky T^T #my art #fursona #deersona #fr i feel like ill be drawing a lot more bc i can do digital stuff while im downstairs #im only upstairs with my computer and drawing tablet on evenings #and im usually too tired to commit to doing art by then 😅 #anyway ive had pencil sketches of this fursona for at least a year now #been meaning to digitize and colour one of them for aaaaages lmao #anyway (x2) have a happy rest of your day everyone wheter or not you celebrate xmas :D <3 #artists on tumblr