#cant believe the show came out this year btw feels like i watched it a million yrs ago
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sanrio?? hello??
violin* and obsessed with money???? since when??? i mean. alright. i can give the violin to him AND cherry but its like, very barely there violin??
me to the sanrio ceo: "berry is violin" shut up if youve seen the stuff kuromi circa 2006 used to do youd hurl
also i dont think wallet status has ever been mentioned about these guys... in any media/franchise. they live in an abandoned looking mansion for the halloween aesthetic, not because of money. i can believe 'obsessed with money' but not 'poor'
hoping its either just google mistranslations or some recent developments ive been blissfully unaware of
>cinnamon
>her
its mistranslations. also this is personal headcanoning time based on how often the confusion happens but man you cant do this to cinnamon notorious trans man icon cinnamon. if he doesnt mind it then ill mind it for him djkhfdksj 'cherry is competitive and selfish' is correct btw this has always been her description. well maybe not competitive but definitely selfish. iirc it was always around "berry is stubborn cherry is selfish and theyre both tsundere" genuinely dont know where violin came from its gotta be a mistranslation on the nuisanse/stubborn aspect. i also dunno where 'weakness is strong-willed girls' came from, it might be talking about his friendship with cherry and how he might given in easier to what she tells him (at least i choose to think so) so i got no comment on it
all the pronouns being mismatched is so funny man come on shjfhdgfdsjvfdsjv is this profile using some sort of neutral language that left google confused as hell?
i. uh? should i be worried about espresso?
this ones... correct? espresso is more of a culture savant than a celebrity.... anyway berry if you kick him out there will be no one there to make you the food you love
nope! its magic and mirror manipulation. pranking is their hobby and favorite pass time but their magic is not limited to just the -its joke- context (sorry to once again quote the worst season ever of OMM, but they both tried to help out bakus family by making a photo of food they had emit scent, so the family would have an easier time eating plain rice. no jokering no jestering no clowning no malicious behavior whatsoever).
i remember being mentioned in older descriptions that berry had some potion making proficiency but they havent focused in that in years so who cares now amirite. i dont remember if cherry had any sort of distinction like this, theyve always overfocused on her crush on espresso :pensive:
"what about cherry"
"who? oh idk write smth about espresso again"
(hobbies include PRANKS, attempting to make friends (a general trait) making music (2018 rankings), having ballroom parties (cinnamon trip!! by oster project) and watching sentai/magical girl anime (onegai my melody). berrys particular hobby is to mess with cinnamon, cherrys particular hobby is to go after espresso. i guess.) (but again most of these are old one offs, and currently unfocused aspects of theirs so. whatever)
also i really would like to know the plans about the alt designs for them that are technically their true form and always show in their shadows and (sometimes?) in mirror reflections. it hasnt been completely dropped but, its never been hard defined either so idk. i guess i feel a bit bummed that its also been attempted to be forgotten to time because (to me feel at least) it feels very obviously based on the episode kuromi turned herself into a human and it could be something they were trying to establish to devil inspired characters back then.
thanks for coming to the lloromannic autism hour its nice to think about something else other than current personal events sometimes
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#LAKORNLADIES EVENT THEME: WOMEN IN DRAMA
↳ THE DEBUT (2021)
#cant believe the show came out this year btw feels like i watched it a million yrs ago#lakornladies#the debut#the debut the series#ploypailin thangprapaporn#film rachanun#cherreen nachjaree#jomjam suphitcha#meiko chonnikan#nara thepnupha#catagifs#lakornedit
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Hey so this thought has been on my mind for like ages and I think that you'd be able to write a headcanon about it in a wonderful way, so I'm presenting this idea to you hehe ( I love ur blog so so so much btw!)
So let's say that whatever miracles of seven happened, that Yuu overblots. Being constantly pushed around by other students by being magicless, solving the idiot trio's problems, trying to survive overblots and dealing with Crowley's neglectful ass cheeks sure is not easy. With all the piled and bottled up negative emotions, Yuu like the previous boys, overblots. Yuu wasn't that hard to defeat cuz you know, they're magicless, but the twst boys did struggle and Yuu's quite the challenge too. So what if, after Yuu's overblot, they had a full on mental breakdown. Not like crying mental breakdown, they're full on SCREAMING, their voice are cracking too, and very painful to hear. They started to unconsciously harm themselves so they have to be tied down to prevent to hurt themselves further. How would the dormleaders react to that?
(Sorry for my English and if I ever break a rule, it's OK if you decide to not do this too. Btw I got this idea when I watch ATLA aka Aang the last airbender, for reference of the breakdown of Yuu just search "Azula's breakdown" that practically how their breakdown looked like :D)
I cant write headcanons because you basically wrote everything. I will just make comments and additions to this. first I mention the background, secondly Azula’s breakdown so non ATLA watchers can understand a little and lastly, MC having breakdown like Azula. For the record, I could write about ATLA for pages since it is something I love since 2005. LOL This became a bit meta xd
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Firstly, the back ground:
I was 7 years old when ATLA started airing. I’d be excited to get back home to watch ATLA after school. Azula’s breakdown was awful back then when I first watch it as a kid. And of course, when they aired the episodes again and again. I rewatched again because I remembered the show being dope when I was in 12th grade which was stress relief while studying for university exams, and then I rewatched last year and even founded a Zutara server. Now I’m getting back to the point. In the last two rewatching, I saw Azula in a different light and her breakdown at the end of the show was understandable. I can recommend some ATLA meta that you might like.
Secondly, Azula’s breakdown:
Azula lost everything. In the flashbacks, you saw she was getting along with Zuko, laughing and playing tag until Ozai’s influence on her grew while Ursa showed more affection towards Zuko since Ozai basically hated Zuko. These two triggered each other and it grew like snowball effect which came to the point that Ozai-Azula and Ursa-Zuko. She didn’t get love from Ozai, she was just a puppet, someone to empower him more, not his daughter meanwhile to Ursa, she was a monster. Azula was 8 years old Ursa disappeared. Imagine how this would affect the child. After this, she had estranged brother that she was jealous of because of Ursa’s love, a father who manipulated her, and an uncle who was too in pain to do anything and he was more focused on Zuko. She only had Mai and Ty Lee as “friends” but it was toxic and Azula used fear to control them. After Zuko got banished, Mai and Ty Lee went to their own places, leaving Azula alone with Ozai. Just when Zuko got back, she was being like the last times, cruel teasing, Mai and Ty Lee with her. Later, Zuko went away and probably got lectured by Ozai for her lie. Mai and Ty Lee stood against her. In the end, she had no one. Ozai didn’t want her with him either because he only wants power. Being alone drew her to the edge. In the Royal Hair Washing, the girl sje fired had her face. Her self hatred was palpable. She started to reflect this via Ursa, the mother who thought her as monster and didn’t love her like she did Zuko. I believe she would have had breakdown if she actually killed Zuko. At the end, she couldn’t handle it anymore. Being all alone, not being loved, self hatred and finally failing at something which is something she knows Ozai would never tolerate like he did with Zuko. This 14-year-old wouldn’t be able to handle it anymore and had breakdown.
Now last section, MC having breakdown like Azula’s:
Let’s see the things MC went through:
Stripped away from home
Doesn’t have much memory of it
Is thrusted into a world so foreign to them, where everything is foreign to them. There is no familiar thing that can make them recall home or feel at home
Is forced to study things that they have no prior info where the others have prior info and they are expected to ace the tests. This puts on pressure on regular students, can’t imagine the pressure they would feel since they barely understand the magic.
Is treated like trash by everyone at least once. From the first moment they came to Twisted Wonderland, they were like dirtbag. Dire gave them a house where they could get Hepatitis A to C, tetanus, hypothermia and any other disease. They have lived in that state for months and the house barely got fixed by the end of exams. They got belittled or used by almost all characters at least once. Examples: Vil calling them nobody; Azul trying to take the only thing they have from them, the dorm; Riddle calling them uneducated because not having magical parents; Leona acting like they are a toy in E2; Jamil literally manipulating their choice; sometimes NPC characters talked; Cater making them do his work etc.
They are given more than a person should handle. They are not certificated psychologist, they aren’t superhuman, they don’t have super healing... They are just human but has to fight enemies than can easily kill them if it were not the magic users around them. They are given the task of dealing with the emotional breakdown of the other people.
All of these are building up more and more. Maybe they started to get along with people after the belittlement and being used but every new character does this. At one point, it will be too much and they will think “they are only nice to me because I did a favor to them. If not for that, they wouldn’t be nice to me” which would lead to self doubt. When one starts doubting themselves, everything else starts to go down. Also, new characters treating them that way adds salt to the wound.
MC isn’t a professional psychologist. They can’t handle other people’s issues without taking a toll at themselves. They don’t even catch a break between everything.
Dire is deliberately keeping them away from home as they all do the errands he say. To him, what MC wants doesn’t matter much. The game doesn’t show but if MC has family and friends or pets, you can’t tell me that they wouldn’t miss them once or see, hug them or know their state, alive-dead, healthy-sick etc.
Lastly not being invincible. The end of Episode 5 shows this well. They couldn’t stand against Grim who isn’t as powerful as the other overblot characters. They are mortal who can get hurt easily.
Now all these build up meanwhile we don’t see an MC centered chapter, how they are etc. It’s all about the others. Maybe there were a few chapters asking if MC is okay after everything but it feels like it is in the second plan.
Everything that I mentioned can lead to a breakdown like Azula’s. Everything is just too much to handle and they don’t talk with a professional about it. When they finally let out everything, it feels much better, screaming out their lungs, lashing out like all of them did. They are finally letting out all of their emotions, crying and screaming; yet still feels better than bottling everything up. They think maybe that’s how overblot characters felt.
All in all, everyone in NRC needs a counselor.
#twst#twisted wonderland#twst mc#twisted wonderland mc#MC/Yuu#twisted wonderland meta#twst meta#twst yuu#twisted wonderland Yuu
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How about mikasa with a Pregnant s/o? I hope you get better btw!
Ah thank you anon! I hope I do aswell! And I love mother kasa concept! :D
『Mikasa with a pregnant s/o』
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[ MAJOR! AOT SPOILERS UP AHEAD! ]
THIS CONTIANS MAJOR SPOILERS REGARDING TO 139 AND CHAPTER 138
- after you guys left the survey corps,she practically BEGGED you both to be parents. And all thought you wanted to, you wanted to spend some years alone with her.
- Ever since Eren passed away, your girlfriend never smiled the way she used to. But that all changed when you told her you were pregnant with a baby girl. This woman bursted into tears smiling a smile you hadn’t seen in a while. She picked you up and spun you around the room kissing you as you to began to cry tears of joy.
- You told her you were pregnant with a small version of her scarf, hinting at it. And as soon as she got it, she looked at you shocked, making sure you were serious, “d-darling are you serious..?” She said a small smile on her face. She looked at the small scarf and the baby clothes that laid in the box that you gave her as a gift, twirling around the outfit examining it.
-you gave her a soft nodd as you wiped away a tear, “Your going to be a mommy” you said with a smile. She put down the baby clothes and looked at you, still in shock. “Your not joking R-right!?” She said a bit more happier. “No I’m serious!” You said, beaming with a smile.
-she scoffed a bit as tears began falling down her face. Mikasa smiled as she picked you up, twirling you around, while crying tears of pure happily ness and joy. “T-this is all I’ve ever wanted” She said, kissing you while wiping away the both of yours tears.
- Throughout your whole pregnancy, all she would do would show you support in every way possible. She may be a bit over baring at time but this woman just wants to insure that your safe and well token care of. If you try to even pick up something, she’s scolding you, saying its dangerous and what if you fall or trip? All you’ll hear is, “y/n! Be careful dear! Let me take care of that.”
-Oh you best believe she gives you baths. One wrong move and you could get hurt, to her at least. Mommas wants to take care of youuuu ૮₍˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶₎ა! Plus, if you think she’s overprotective then, SHEESH BUDDY YOUR IN FOR A RIDE DURING AND AFTER PREGNANCY.
- This woman goes out her way to make sure you and the baby are safe. She doesn’t like you going out into town since a ton of people would crowd there and god for bid if someone knocks into you.. Let’s just say they are gonna get beat to the ground.
- For names, i think she’d like something unique, mystical even. I think she’d like something like a word that means a unique feeling, like the word Heriath; Homesickness for a home you can’t return to, or that never was. That’s my OC’S kid with her’s name anyways lol. Lacuna, Moira, jouska and others i think she’d like! You suggested if it was a boy that you wouldn’t mind naming the baby after Eren. She turned to you and smiled saying that she loved the idea of that, but, she couldn’t call him that without bursting into tears. You understood completely and was accepting of that aswell : D
— AND BOY OH BOY WHEN YOU WERE IN LABOR- Mikasa tried her best to stay calm. You both decided earlier on to have an at home birth with (just in case) a widwife to make sure you were okay. She held your hand and hugged you as you gasped for air, pushing as hard as you could. Mika would tell you things like “It’s okay baby.. your doing such a good job..” hike holding your hand, reassuring that you would be okay.
- When the baby came out, all you both could do was cry. I’d say if its a girl, she’d look more like mikasa with black hair and her Asian eye shape with your eye color. But if it was a boy, they’d look more like you with mikasa’s eye shape and mouth shape.
- She knows how sentimental of a moment you both as parents were experiencing, so she made sure you as the one who gave birth should hold the baby first. She kissed your head as you held the baby, caressing your hair.
- when mikasa held the baby, the first thing she did was wrap the baby in her red scarf. After Eren died, she turned the meaning of the scarf around. Eren showed her how to live, so she made a promise to show you how to live. And now that she has a baby, another piece of family, she vowed over her life to keep the both of you safe and sound.
- Her first words to your both’s baby was “I will always protect you, I promise you, over my life” She was so happy to be a mother. After all the chaos, she was so happy to finally live peacefully with the person who she loves the most.
- She has SO MANY DAMN RULES FOR WHEN ANNIE AND ARMIN COME OVER LMAO- No holding the baby standing up. All sharp objects aren’t allowed on you when touching the baby. No turning into a titan or she’ll cut off your face (these mainly apply to Annie LMAO) But after a while she chilled down. Annie was allowed to hold the baby ofc ofc.... Under MIKASA’S supervision ÙnÚ.
— the day your baby first walked, mikasa Litteraly cried at how big they had gotten and you had to calm her down like “Mika! Chill they aren’t even 1 yet and your already acting like they are going off to join the military!”
- Oh and speaking of military, your baby’s not going into the military- Hell n o. Momma mika would lose her shit even at the thought of her baby going out into gunfire. So if you wanted a military baby, sorry its not happening with her kid.
- The baby’s first words were “Muma” which was when they were referring to you. Everything this child does makes her so emotional. Litteraly even if the baby just picks up a spoon she’s almost in tears. She a proud momma dont let her down >:3
- I think our both’s baby would call her a unique version of mom. Like they would call Mika “Ummie” or “ummuma” But sometimes they’d just call her “mommy” so your momma and she’s ummie and mommy. (Lmao you call mikasa mommy too dont lie ;)
-OMI- YOUR KID AND ANNIE AND ARMINS KID ARE LIKE BEST FRIENDS. Your baby loves when they come over so they can see armin and Annie’s kid :D! AND OML- YOUR BABY LIKE LOVES ANNIE- She calls her “auntie awnnie” and always likes pulling at her bun while mikasa just stands and watches from the kitchen, eyeing annie down making sure she ant gonna touch her bby 😤
- Your child LOVESSSS Annie’s titan roar and everytime she comes over, they beg for annie to turn into a titan and do the roar. All you’ll hear is, “awuntiie awmmie! Titan! Titan!! 🥺” While annie rolls her eye with a small “fine” As she goes outside and transforms into her titan, roaring while your chid giggles. MIKASA HATES IT SO DAMN MUCH- SHE’LL ALWAYS SAY “You better be careful or I’ll kill you”
- of course, over the years Mikasa lightened up to annie and they are now best friends, but she cant help it... Over protective strong momma. but she wont allow armin to do it since his titans to big and dangerous ad trust me armin completely understands.
- Overall, she’s such a good momma. Always caring for you and her baby, making sure you both are safe and okay. She wouldn’t ever wish for a different life when she’s with you, and the sweet little one you two made <3
BRO THIS WAS SO LONG TO WRITE -
#aot#attackontitan#aot4#mikasa#mikasa x reader#ackerman#mikasa aot#shingeki no kyojin mikasa#attack on titan#mikasa headcanons#mom MIKASA#mother MIKASA#mom reader#mikasa x pregnant reader#mikasa x reader mom#child MIKASA#Ackerman#x reader
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short, brutally honest rant:
when jodie was announced as the doctor, i wasnt that hyped to be honest. i hadnt known her before, but she seemed cool, i loved the teaser i was like yeah this can work.
then i saw the backlash online of people finding the idea that a 900 year old alien, who travels through time and space in a fuckin policebox from the 60s, being portayed by a woman ridiculous and 'wokies doing their thing'. and i thought this is why we cant have nice things.
so i supported jodie as much as i could, i rooted for her from the bottom of my heart and hoped shed just shove it in the haters face. i watched broadchurch and if you've seen that show, you know shes a phenomenal actor.
then the trainwreck of series 11 and 12 came along, and honestly the only one at fault is chibnall. he isnt even a bad writer, i believe he just doesnt have a proper grasp of the genre and what the point of a show like doctor who is. there were some enjoyable episodes, but overall it just wasnt good.
also doctor who was taken off of netflix and amazon prime, making it inaccessable for international fans (unless ur watching illegally or per vpn on iplayer, which works wonderfully btw). and oh wonder ratings dropped.
now jodies run is almost over and i am just overjoyed that she seems to be getting a decent last season. having a cohesive story like this hasnt been done before and theyre doing it really well, keeping a bigger storyline going while also bringing something completely new to each episode without making it feel super out of place (hell last episode we had sontarans and this week the weeping angels but it works!).
i hope that theyre gonna tie it together properly during the last episodes and maybe they can even fix the timeless child disaster.
anyways rant over, give jodie the credit she deserves and dont let chibnall near a scifi shoe again thank you for coming to my ted talk
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Hello I wanna say that I love ur work 🥺 I’m new to the haikyuu fandom and ur work gives me life! Can I request a HC with Tanaka, Daichi, Suga & asahi and how they would react when they see other teams at a tournament flirt with you and how they act when they’re jealous? Thank you !
absolutely omg i love my karasuno babies and them being jEALOUS??? this is my calling goodBYE
btw btw welcome to the hq fandom bby !! enjoy your stay here 🥺💞💘💓
𝐊𝐈𝐍𝐃𝐋𝐘 𝐁𝐀𝐂𝐊 𝐎𝐅𝐅 !
karasuno boys fend off other teams as they try to flirt with you !
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these boys don’t take too kindly to other teams trying to flirt with you . . . and they’re not gonna deal with it for much longer ! >:)
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ryuunosuke tanaka
lmao flirting w you is like asking for a death sentence i do not make the rules
tanaka is not afraid to show you off , nor is he afraid to show off your guys’ relationship at tournaments either
he has full trust in you dw , but that doesn’t mean he trusts the men that get a little too close for comfort
if his death glare alone doesn’t scare them off i feel so sorry for them
ryu will 100% call someone out if they’re obviously flirting with you
“ hey , punk ??? you’re trying to flirt with them , huh ??? gotta tell ya , you’re out of luck , go find someone else . this hot stuff right here is mine , thank you very much . ”
he gets so confused when you get embarrassed because what ??? he’s just telling them the truth
“ ryu ! you can’t just call me ‘ hot stuff ’ in the middle of the gym !! ”
“ why not , baby ? you are hot stuff ! they’re just bummed out you’re not theirs . ”
not to mention , 8 times out of 10 noya will probably be right there with tanaka scaring off the suitors
those two are literally your bodyguards , and once they know that someone else has their sights set on you , do not expect them to leave your side
also , he holds a FULL GRUDGE against ladies men type people
cough cough tooru i’m talking bout u bby
you are to stay a mile away from oikawa and all of aoba johsai at all times , ryu will not accept otherwise
oh , and terushima ??? YEAH HES NOT EVEN GONNA LAY EYES ON YOU ONCE LMAO
at least , not without tanaka’s arm wrapped around your waist
gotta make sure they understand you ain’t on the market
all in all a very protective baby crow , can and will fight anyone who tries flirting with you so pls don’t test him
daichi sawamura
daichi is definitely the silent but deadly type let me assure you
i don’t care where that man is , he’ll always have an eye on you regardless
oh and he’ll probably have the rest of his team have their eyes on you too ; just in case there is a small instance where he can’t keep his eyes on you
yuu , ryu , and shoyo will be paying the most attention to you when the captain is not able to watch over you at the tournaments
lord have mercy to those who somehow actually get past daichi’s security
my best guess is that you’re probably on like , a water bottle run in between games , so that everyone can have fresh cold water during timeouts n whatnot
yeah you’ll probably get hit on by another guy in the halls ( let’s pretend it’s yuuji because i love him so much LMAO pls hit on me teru )
anyway he’ll def be at your neck like how he was tryna get kiyoko’s number
sadly you can’t do much because you have a bunch of water bottles in your hands so you’re just tryna shimmy away but terushima is not having it
out of nowhere his face blanks
literally pales
you’re about to ask him what that’s about until you feel an arm snake around your waist
like i said , the silent but deadly type
you can’t see daichi’s face as he’s staring down yuuji , but you can hear the annoyance in his voice
“ oh there you are , y/n . you need help carrying these water bottles , baby ? ”
you turn to yuuji , who has his hands up — clearly getting the message daichi was giving to him
“ alright alright , my bad ~ ! didn’t know they were yours , man . i’ll take my leave . ”
but he did add a “ see you later cutie ” before leaving the two of you alone
you couldn’t help but laugh as the captain latched onto you protectively as the two of you went back to the gym
“ daichi , it’s okay , he’s gone now ! you’ve done your job in saving me ”
“ nonsense . i can sense their eyes on you from everywhere . you’re not leaving my sight again , y/n . ”
koushi sugawara
koushi is definitely also a silent jealous type
but he’s more mellow when showing it subtly
but don’t get me wrong , the effect it leaves on others is just as menacing
he’s the type to leave that shiver of fear when he shows up
basically he’s a sweetie until people mess with you and that’s just on periodt
suga is not too protective over you , since he does trust you and has full confidence you won’t do anything to hurt him
cough cough he still wants the other nasty boogers keeping their hands off you though
i literally just imagine him going up to people like “ :))))) ??? ” when people try flirting with you LMAO
like ?? no ??? they’re ??? mine ????
not ???????? yours ??????
he’ll have that chilling ring in his voice that’s deadpan but menacing at the same time — sometimes he even scares you with it
you had a run in with tooru at the preliminaries , RIP bless his soul
you went to go watch a match while karasuno was resting ; seijoh was resting at the same time
he got a little too close for comfort in the audience stand
flashed you a famous smile of his , “ what’s a cutie like you doing here alone ? ”
“ she’s not alone , actually . ”
KFKKDKFKFKD both of your heads went a whole 180 at the sound of koushi’s voice
oh no he had that creepy smile again
“ baby , we were just looking for you . is oikawa bothering you ? ”
he turned his :) to tooru , who had already stepped a decent distance away from you
“ heaven forbid you’d be bothering y/n , oikawa , when you have a whole fanbase of girls you could be bothering instead . ”
the great king had never been so scared of a karasuno player in his life
he left in a hurry without saying much — though he was grumbling something you two couldn’t understand
switch from scary suga to soft suga uwu
he wrapped his arms around you and grinned pleasantly this time as he hugged you
“ sweetheart , don’t hesitate to tell me if anyone else is like that to you , okay ? i’ll make them go away . ”
“ koushi , you’re so scary when you’re angry ”
“ i am ? i didn’t think i was ”
“ look at how oikawa backed away when you came up ! hardly anyone can phase him ”
“ oh . maybe i am scary , but only when it comes to you . ”
he laughed and took you by the hand , and you two walked back to the rest of the team
scary suga never fails to keep the nasty boogers away
asahi azumane
he won’t even realize he’s jealous until someone points it out to him
i think nishi would be the one to point it out to him , because woah asahi looks mad
“ yo , asahi ? you good ? your knuckles are turning white ! ”
he’s been looking your direction ever since the date tech players started surrounding you , striking up conversation
he didn’t even realize yuu was talking to him until he literally had to jump up and wave in his face
asahi snapped out of it once noya caught his attention — his fists were still clenched tho
“ oh — noya . i’m fine , why ? ”
the libero didn’t buy it one bit because he didn’t know the ace even had it in him to be angry
he looked to where asahi had his eyes on the whole time before turning back to the third year with a smirk
“ you’re gonna let them just flirt with y/n like that ? what kind of boyfriend are you ? go go go ! ”
oh no yuu what did you do
“ they’re flirting with y/n ? ”
he was f u r i o u s at the thought of it
oh no no no they were not going to be flirting with you , not while asahi was your boyfriend no sir
he stormed over towards you — your back was towards karasuno so the date tech players noticed him first
asahi + scary dark death glare = run
and the date tech players — besides aone — did just that , scampering off in a hurry
you were confused until you turned around , smiling when you saw your giant teddy bear of a boyfriend
you were utterly oblivious to the stare down between him and aone
“ asahi ! shouldn’t you be practicing now ? ”
he placed a gentle but firm arm around your waist , pulling you closer to him without taking his eyes off date tech’s ace
“ yeah , but we were looking for you . i’ve come to bring you back , y/n . ”
oh heck yeah there was tension as he brought you back to your guys’ court
“ those players weren’t flirting with you , were they y/n ? ”
“ huh ? oh no ! i was just catching up with a couple of them , since i went to middle school with some of them . why ? ”
“ oh , nothing ”
you couldn’t even ask him anything else as he walked away without another word , which was very not like him
you had to get the answer from nishinoya later on , who was laughing hysterically at your description of the way your boyfriend was acting
“ OMG Y/N HE REALLY WAS JEALOUS , I TOLD HIM THAT DATE TECH WAS FLIRTING WITH YOU I CANT BELIEVE HE BELIEVED ME ”
after the tournament both of you were blubbering apologies to each other
you apologizing for making asahi jealous
and asahi apologizing for acting like a brat about it
in summary , asahi + jealousy = pls save yourself from that man he is terrifying
he’ll make it up to you with tons n tons of cuddles later so he’s still your big teddy bear <3
#haikyuu!!#haikyuu imagine#haikyuu scenarios#haikyuu x reader#hq#haikyuu headcanons#tanaka x you#tanaka headcanons#tanaka x y/n#tanaka x reader#tanaka ryuunosuke#haikyuu tanaka#hq tanaka#haikyuu daichi#daichi sawamura#daichi x reader#daichi headcanon#daichi x you#hq daichi#koushi x reader#koushi sugawara x reader#sugawara koushi#sugawara x reader#sugawara headcanon#sugawara x you#haikyuu sugawara#asahi headcanons#asahi x reader#azumane asahi#hq asahi
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I agree with Kishimoto never trying to use the girls. The hate they get is not fair. I used to defend Sakura back in the days because I hoped kishi would do her justice. When shippuden started I WAS SO HAPPY because I thought this was the start of something great for Sakura and the girls but NOOOOO. Every time, Sasuke showed kishi turned her brainless. If you compare Naruto's actions and Sakura's actions to sasuke, you'd see they're completely different. What's up with that weird fake love confession scene 😭? It makes her look like she was manipulating Naru. JEEZ.
Also he literally had badass Tenten and Temari with cool useful abilities and he didn't use them ?! TF ?! Thank god for modern authors who treat their characters with respect :)
okay2 you know how i am with these longass rants so click readmore and brace yourselves
The way I see it, Sakura's character development in shippuden was always one step forward, two steps back. She gets this really badass scene (like her fight with Sasori and those cool ass medical skills) but is then regressed back into a pining girl in love every time Sauce is on screen or Kishi just throws her in the background YET AGAIN.
I love Sakura's abilities actually. Her brute strength, intelligence, vast knowledge and skill as a medic nin. But what I dislike about her character is how kishi handled her feelings for Sasuke. Naruto and Sakura's obsession with Sasuke was so???? huh??? it was so damn toxic and i never once understood why both Nardo and Sak were so obsessed with him. They were a team for one year???? I mean its great that they care about him alot but Sauce's feelings were kinda valid. His freakin clan died. Id go batshit crazy against my own village too. BUT BESIDES THAT. Both Nart and Sakura's Sasuke obsession was so annoying. 80% of shippuden was literally Keeping up with the Uchihas or Naruto yelling SASUKEH. BUT what irks me so much is the fandom's double standards with both Naruto and Sakura. "Oh Sakura shouldve gotten over her Sasuke obsession" but then turn around and call Naruto's obsession cute and gush about how he's so in love with him!!
Hot take but the only reason why sasunaru is "the most developed ship with the most chemistry" is because theyre both male characters.
I guarantee you if Naruto was a girl and SHE would be the one to have this unhealthy obsession who was chasing around Sasuke, the fandom would shit on Naruto just as much. And if Sasuke were a girl, Sauce would be sidelined like the rest of the female cast and Naruto would have another male character to have a "brotherly bond" with, because thats the only bond Kishimoto is actually good at developing. Yey for male characters having all the screentime and cool assets <333
And about that confession scene, I get her intentions. I really do. I understand that she did that in order to bring him home and that she cares about him but honey, w-why?? Why lie to him about your feelings?? Supposed he DID believe her, then what? then what kishi???? huh??? Some of her fans point the blame on Sai or whatever but I personally dont see why that scene was at all necessary. Maybe to establish Naruto's feelings for her wasnt all that serious? or his maturity? idk man. That scene was such a clusterfuck.
In the end her development in The Last and in Boruto was immaculate. She had one of the best glow ups in the old gen and ironically enough, her character wasn't butchered in Boruto. She got badass scenes she was cheated from in shippuden. I also love how she's finally getting the spotlight she deserves. Unlike the other konoha 12 :,)))
Okay onto the next female character that Kishi completely wasted. My baby. My light. 🙈 AAAHHH HINATAA.
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BEGIN OKAY2 DEEP BREATHS.
Let me just establish this real quick. Hinata's goal was to get stronger because of Naruto, her goal was never to be with Naruto. She wanted to become someone who is worthy enough to stand beside him, someone whom he can consider as an equal, as a partner. She NEVER once said "marrying Naruto-kun is my all time goal UwU" (if youre one of those weirdos who interpret her character that way, youre immediately invalid, go take a hike)
I personally dont have anything against their crushes but to the point of making their personalities revolve around these guys every time theyre onscreen is so fucking frustrating. And with the way he writes their dialogues is so.damn.cringey. Like that one scene in the war arc with Tsunade and Madara
"I mAy bE a WomAn but I aM nOt WeAAKKKK"
BAAHAHAAHHA WHAT?? Everyone else gets coolass monologues and one liners but thats the best you can come up with Kishi?????? Hilarious.
If im being honest. Hinata's character is actually kinda well written. Not well executed. Dear God no. But with the way he set her story, her personality, her chracterization. She's honestly one of the best written female characters on the show. IMO. By Kishi's standards of writing women ofc. She's hands down one of the most complex characters. Her shy personality wasnt out of the blue, it wasnt a cutesy waifu trait. Her abusive upbringing made her that way. Her trauma turned her that way. So yeah, sue her if she looked up to Naruto as an inspiration when everyone else in her family treated her like dust. Shit on her for having Naruto's love light in her dark when her own damn father wouldnt even look her in the eye and her entire clan shunned her because she was "weak." She doesnt owe her family shit so idgaf what they do with the Hyuga clan. Neji and Hanabi aren't included btw
Im not gonna deny that her role in the show was only as the love interest but tbh for a love interest, Im glad her character wasnt so one dimensional. It just pains me SO MUCHHH how fucking wasted she is. Every time she's with Naruto, they always make her into a damsel in distress. They always feel the need to turn Naruto into the heroic prince. How cute.
LIKE THAT ONE SCENE IN THE LAST WHERE SHE'S THROWN IN THE CAGE?? WHY??? LET NARUTO AND HINA FIGHT THAT FREAKING ALIEN GOD TOGETHER. QUIT WITH THE TOXIC MASCULINITY. WE GET IT. NARUTO'S STRONG. GOOD FOR HIM. NOW LETS SEE HINATA THROW HANDS AND PUT NARUTO IN THE CAGE GODAMMIT
Hnggggg dont get me started with her role in Boruto. She's as relevant as a damn houseplant in the manga. They made her into an invisible trophy wife and "the mc's mother" and we all KNOW what happens to the shounen mc's mother once mc is in need of character development :) Quit putting her in the background. Give us that scene where she won against Hanabi DESPITE being retired for years. Give us that scene where she trains Boruto. GIVE US ANY FIGHT SCENE OF HER WHERE HER POTENTIAL ISNT WASTED WTF?¿
Now if you say that Hinata didnt have development. YOURE INVALID. She came from an abusive household, the shyest girl in her class, her insecurities got in the way of her own confidence, had difficulty of standing up for herself now became a loving mother of two, has the guts to kick her husband out of the house(with whom she couldnt even keep eye contact with when she was a kid) became the strongest hyuga, most supportive wife and mother, and has given her kids the comforting childhood she never had as a kid.
She has one of the most beautiful stories in the show and if you think her personality is only Naruto-kun and big boobs, then im sorry that you cant appreciate such a heartwarming story.
And I agree, killing her would honestly make me feel more at ease than continue to see her suffer because of godawful misogynistic writers. But at least let her die in an epic fight. Please. PLEASEE. She got nerfed so bad, i feel a physical pain every time i think about it
Okay what else. I think Ino got pretty good development. Another wasted potential in shippuden but she's doing good for herself in Boruto. I dont know what Temari is up to. They basically made her into another classic angry mom who beats up her husband for comedy trope. Haha very funny and original! Im not sure with her career, im not that invested in the anime.
Tenten??
oh G O D Tenten. The dirtiest of all. Her jokes about her screentime is so mean and i hate that its true ahsjhs. She was the only female character in OG who's goal wanted to be as strong as Tsunade but what did Kishi do to her?? Sidelined. Forgotten. Irrelevant. Like every damn female on the show :D
Konan shouldnt have died. I blame plot armor. I know in my heart that Konan wouldve kicked Obito's ass if it weren't for Kishi's boomer mindset.
Tsunade had so much hype when she was introduced but died down in the war arc. Madara wiped the floor with the kages. Holy shit. Not only that, but yipee! Naruto is there to save the day AGAIN!!!!
AND UGHHHH If the female characters were given proper treatment then maybe MAYBE all the endgame couples wouldve made fucking sense????¿¿¿
I think that ends my rant. Im not sure how the female characters in Boruto are handled. Except maybe Sarada (she's pretty well executed in the manga imo). But arguably they are sooo much better handled in Boruto than how the old gen girls were. And thats because Kishi isnt anywhere near the new gen female cast. I cant formulate a solid opinion with the other new gen female cast since im not entirely invested in the anime. Not ashamed to admit that I only watch it for the sunshine moments and for Hinata :DD
#and *scene#salty char.txt#char complains about Naruto AGAIN#yey#please end my suffering#i need to leave this fandom what am i still doing here#naruto#day 202 of WTF KISHI#i think i got that out of my system
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Hi! Btw I'm the anon that asked if we could rant on here.. I don't know how to explain it but I just don't feel good.. last year it all started in june-end right when july was coming along and the night of my birthday everything just clicked on why I was acting the way I was and rhoight I was depressed... I took a couple online tests and stuff even thought sometimes advised not to and at first it kept saying I just had minor depression so I just thought I was overthinking it or something but then each month it would just get worse.. Like once I'd finally get used to the pattern set in August.. it got 10 times worse the month after. So then maybe during November I took the online test once again and mow it said I had major depression and i just sorta freaked out.. i told my 2 of my best friends and they sorta just brushed it off and like jokingly told me to just not die and I couldn't tell them anything after.. so later on i talked to my cousin about it and she kept forcing me to tell my mom and I wasn't ready so aftr a lot of hell I finally blurted it all out to my mom and she idk.. seemed weird after that.. like shed be almost sarcastically too careful like she was taunting me about being so fragile and when I told her how I didn't feel like studying shed say im just using this as an excuse... ive been trying to hint at how ive been feeling for as long as i can remember but once i told her it just.. wasnt what i imagined.. i told her all i want is to get chkd up by a doctor so i atleast know wether this is a actual mental issue or if im just being moody.. but nothing happened n she kept using it against me so 2 days later i brushed it off again asking her to forget about it and well she just did.. like no questions asked she just said okay.. December came and that's when we got a dog.. though ever since we got him i hvnt been feeling as upset in a while tho i do get weekly blues and this month its like ive gone back to how it used to be.. I keep pushing myself telling myself how it'll get better like it did last time and that injust have to wait but its already been two weeks of constantly feeling shitty about myself and i dont really know how long i can hold up anymore and i just had to get this off my chest.. like it never really stopped but it used to happen just for a day or two until it was back to normal but now injust dont know.. i stopped crying last yr cuz i thought I didnt deserve to which is something I still believe n i just feel so guilty all the time that no matter what i just cant cry. I can't sleep at night and it just feels like im going back downhill so fast that it seems as tho the past 4-5 months were nothing and now im back to how i used to be.. for the longest of time after i got better it just felt so weird to me as if it was the first time i could feel what "happy" feels like so i took a really long time to actually get used to it.. like not necessarily "happiness" but just feeling anything other than hate and guilt and just wanting to die all the time.. im sorry this turned into a much longer rant than i intended it to be.. and thankyou for listening. And i just wanted to say that.. youre doing great. Thankyou :)
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thoughts while watching the first harry potter:
listen i started this list a little late im ngl but notable thoughts so far are me thinking of dumbledore as a gay idiot and still loving hagrid
do you think hes speaking in parseltongue in the zoo when hes speaking to the snake
forgot boats existed
these idiots do scream a lot dont they
i forgot how light hearted this universe really is in the first couple movies
yer a wizard harry, okay hagrid maybe slide him into it a little better
we get it tuney you have fucking trauma, doesnt mean you should abuse a child
hasnt everyone had their name down since they were born, hagrid? theres a list
i like that his umbrella is pink
are you paying for those damages hargid? stop taking the door off the hinges
though, if the dursleys are, keep breaking shit
speaking about dragons on the the fucking tube, its a miracle harry didnt get in trouble with the ministry sooner
what is hagrid's usual? does anyone know???
fucking Quirrell, cant wait for your epic love story with the dark lord
maybe we should tell the 12 year old how the fuck everyone knows his name, just maybe
they do a great job of getting the wonder down pat
how much money and licensing do you think it took for them to get all these owls on set
ahh yes, antisemitism the bank
how many vaults are in gringotts?? also if harry's vault is the potters vault, a literal like sacred 28 family, one of the original families, and its number 600 something, how many were there before the potters?? did the potters get a vault recently? or is this james and lily's vault?? how rich were james and lily if so??
look at ollivander, crazy tinker uncle, love him
this might be the socialist in me but why do people have to pay for wands if everyone needs one??
why is the dark lords twin wand just sitting around on the shelf, ollie me boy??
do you think thats Harry's true wand or do you think thats because of the horcux thing?? do you harry had to get another wand after he died?? did he? i dont remember the last movie
is ollie me boys actor wearing contacts or are his eyes just like that??
thats a very weird way of showing Halloween 81, very misleading
hagrid said ill predict voldys rise in the first movie so we can have some plot development
hagrid is late to everything isnt he? i can feel it in my bones
i swear ive seen these movies, and ive even read the first book, i just dont remember shit
youd think theyd have someone in the know stationed close to the entrance for the platform, for any muggleborns
ginnys actress really had no fucking lines in this movie did she, just had to stand there
oh wait she said good luck
amazing work ginny
ooh a warm filter
can muggles see the express? like just running from london to scotland
wicked!
you didnt have to show the woman the sad sandwich ron
i think the trolly replenishes magically, i think thats how thats how that works, i want to believe that
god i cant tell if i would love or hate hermione, shes pretentious but so was i at that age
god dont fucking point your wand right in someones face mione
how does mione know who harry is?? why does she care?
look at the tiny first years, might just go and pinch theyre cheeks
MINNIEEEE i love you minnie
looking stunning minnie, the green brings out the sternness in your brow
you go minnie, give your speech, thats my head of house
shut up draco, youre not bond
you pretentious fuckwit, your hair is brassy anyways
if this is a class of kids born in the middle of a war, how big are the usual class sizes wtf
THE FUCKING CLAP
fucking propaganda ron, you slytherin hater
what order are these names going in, did they just randomized the list
oooh we get quiet for the boy who lived, jesus let him keep living
the fact that for the rest of these people its just silent is so fucking funny to me, Harry's just fucking whispering to himself
get their attention minnie
me dads a muggle, mums a witch, bit of a shock for him when he found out
NICK, love to see you buddy
i have no emotional attachment to peeves but i feel i should mention him here
the stairs still piss me off, why the fuck would you make moving stair cases
who sets out gloves for the next day? am i the weird one who doesnt??
Minnie, you are the love of my life
shut up snape you dramatic bloodpurist incel
i know theyre setting him up to be mistaken as the villain but jesus christ hes still an asshole
your robes Neville, you forgot your robes
its weird how they have to learn all these latin charms yet only have to say up to get their brooms to work
why wont you go after him, hes obviously not exactly in control, Hooch
does Hooch only teach first years? she is quite literally the equivalent of a history teacher who coaches football
what the fuck is Quirells classroom
they dont make the house teams because no first years can try out, Ron
MINNIE PLAYED QUIDDITCH?!?!? WHY DIDN'T I KNOW THIS
why didnt you speak up earlier Mione wtf
bc the fire wont give you away, harry, better hide
FLUFFY, WHOS A GOOD BOY
they have much worse things locked up in the school, Ron
Oliver wood is a bloody liar because i still dont fuckign understand quidditch, also theres like 500 rules, wtf
thats a shitty explanation of how the game works, Oliver
BLOW IT UP SEAMUS
SHES TWO FEET BEHIND YOU RON YOU IDIOT
carrot cake? on halloween?
dont shrug as if you didnt literally bully her ron
thought youd oughta know, bit of an understatement Quirell
no duh the trolls left the dungeon ron
lying: the best start to any friendship
we're at a net zero points for gryffindor for the year at the moment
the amount of interaction these kids have with professors is so weird to me, is this what small class size do to kids?? its weird
not comforting Oliver
Okay i understand Oliver simps now, I get it okay
are there no backups or subs for quidditch? feels like there should be, like of all the games
set him on fire mione, i know hes not the villain of the movie but god he sucks
fancy flying from harry fucking potter
okay but also i feel like there are some things we should not trust hagrid with, like hes not that great at keeping secrets
why is harry excited about christmas if he thinks hes not getting presents? i knw there are other aspects but like thats the only reasont o get up early
i always remember this scene at night for some reason??
not just an invisibility cloak, THE invisibility cloak ron
btw who gives it to harry? is it remus? is it dumbledore? is it like an inheritance thing? whats up with that?
there are jumpscares in harry potter
he very much can hide, filch
stop being a narc mrs norris
does harry even know what his parents look like at this point? how does he know who the fuck is in the mirror of erised?? he doesnt have that stupid scrapbook yet does he
oh they nod, sure lets clear up that plot hole
they shouldve put sirius and remus in the mirror in that scene, shown his whole family, wouldve been a nice setup
how does rupert grint already look so tired as a twelve year old
big speech to give to a twelve year old Dumbledore, when you wont even tell him what you see
Emma really does just slam that book on Daniels hand, thats mustve fucking sucked
the fact that ive watched two movies that had Nicholas Flamel in two very different roles this year is very strange to me
well thats probably on account of it being a fucking dragon egg hagrid, now isnt it?
was hagrid a hufflepuff? i think he was, maybe a ravenclaw
yes four, you blonde idiot
that shot is really nice, it sets them apart
what happened to filch to make him such a miserable man?
ooh mention of werewolves, awooo werewolves of london
yeah just dip your whole hand in hagrid, dont be scared of the strange liquid, take a nice little bath
i loev that dog, i want that dog, i want to hug that dog
god just the look of that forest is so bloody cool
wait so is that quirell walking fucking backwards?
maybe ask who the fuck youre talking to before asking other questions??? wtf harry
why are yout talking to the centaur like hes your old friend harry, youve literally never met him before
snape doesnt want the stone at all Harry
god hagrid you sweet stupid man
snape is completely valid for that, if a twelve year old ever looked at me like that i would punch them
Do you think people ever loose invisibility cloaks? like theyre invisible do you think they ever just never get found again
i hate the look of the dog spit, that is so gross
they really left everything in except for the fucking potions didnt they, damn
harry potter walked so queens gambit could run
hermione, posted up
rons stupid in the later movies because he got a concussion as a twelve year old
god harry really posted up to beat up snape in fucking khakis
"I knew you were a danger to me!" Hes twelve, Quirell
let me wait for this weird dude to unravel his head scarf instead of running away
the magic in this movie is real fucking conditional isnt it
just some casual necromancy for the stone? you sure about that voldy, you two faced bitch?
let me choke out this twelve year old real quick
oh yeah why is he able to just avengers endgame Quirell? is there an answer to that? like was that ever found out
do you think voldy passing by him while he hold the stone actually killed him but since he holds the stone hes functionally unkillable and then some magic gets put into him and thats why he can return to life later when he actually goes to the whole afterlife place?
ohhh we're vouching on the blood magic for the endgaming of Quirell
do you think dumbledore came across the vomit flavored bean before or after his sister died?
Mione's got a headband! Looking snazzy!
how did Hufflepuff only get 352 points? Gryffindor literally lost 150 points this year and they only beat them by 50, wtf, is it because they kept getting caught with weed
I wont even speak on the fucking outrage that is this point awarding, its already been spoken on. However, Neville shouldve gotten more points
What if someone just stood up and started challenging Dumbledores math, that would be so funny
some of these extras are really attractive
but james potter is somehow so fucking ugly why did they do that to my mans
hagrid deserves the last shot of this film, i love him, he deserves everything, that stupid sweet man
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ahhhh hi sorry for the LATE response, life's been kinda wild lately
anyway, i'm really glad you liked the poem & i don't mind you sharing it :)
(plus, a new prompt sounds nice)
(&btw, richard siken's new book is gonna be called "blue jupiters" (as far as i know copper canyon press will publish it))
also, happy you liked the recs! i found it cool how you said "the way god chooses to escape from his own reality through someone who does not believe enough in him to question him at first"! couldn't have put it better myself.
(sorry if this ask seems all over the place, i just have to get somewhere and i'm gonna be mad late - but i really want to finally send a response)
i enjoyed your recommendations a lot so let me elaborate real quick-
the problem with travel:
right off the bat, same.
traveling does always make me feel like i'm starting a new chapter and i should act accordingly.
love "kill the kid stuff, start to act my numbers" - the choice of words you use when writing is so important. (thats why i cant judge anyone who spends a long ass time on thesaurus! sometimes writing really does feel like looking through a lost & found or fishing the right word out of a goodwill bin! flipping through a magazine in search for the right word to cut out and stick on your collage!) imagine how substantially different the poem would sound if limon had written "start to act my age" instead of "start to act my numbers"
"[...] - we’re small
and flawed, but I want to be
who I am, going where
I’m going, all over again."
this^ part kills me in a good way
accident report in the tall, tall weeds:
"my ex got hit by a bus"
gets right to the point. kinda like a short story? an immediate jump into action
i might've said this before but i like it when poems tell stories (i mean i guess they all do, in a way, but i specifically mean the ones that have clear characters? if that makes sense)
"No tampering with the great universal brake wires."
ahhh yeah - when you feel like a thought can cause real life consequences
"When the plane went down in San Francisco,
I thought of my friend M. He’s obsessed with plane crashes.
He memorizes the wrecked metal details,
the clear cool skies cut by black scars of smoke.
Once, while driving, he told me about all the crashes:
The one in blue Kentucky, in yellow Iowa.
How people go on, and how people don’t.
It was almost a year before I learned
that his brother was a pilot.
I can’t help it,
I love the way men love."
^ don't you love it when a poem beats your heart to a pulp?
"What I saw in the men who came before,
sometimes I don’t want to say this out loud,
was someone I could hold up to my ear
and hear the ocean, something I could say my name into,
and have it returned in the inky waves."
self recognition through the other! yeah! sometimes people are people and sometimes people are mirrors and i know this wasn't her point but aren't we all just saying "hey! this is how i feel! do you feel like that too?" and sometimes "language is complicated but i think you know exactly what i mean and i know what you mean too!" and "when our experience overlaps the cosmic alone-ness becomes bearable!"
shit i'd love to drop another rec but i REALLY have to go now! hope to hear from you soon
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Well, lmao Cat now, I'm the one who's late in replying, but yeah, I've been really busy. Now, I've got a bit of a time to reply to your ask.
First of all, "Don't You Wonder, Sometimes?" by Tracy Smith is a really interesting poem especially centred around Bowie. I love how the poet makes Bowie into a mythical being, like a sort of a spirit rather than a mortal man.
"Not God, exactly. More like-
Some thin-hipped glittering Bowie-being"
I love how the poem takes in the spirit of Bowie as something that will keep living on -
"Saying nothing is lost, that everything lives on waiting only
To be wanted back badly enough?
Bowie will never die. Nothing will come for him in his sleep
Or charging through his veins. And he’ll never grow old,"
It's just a beautiful way to think of the artist living on despite their death. They live through those they have touched with their art as well as their art themselves.
"In which I’m forever a child looking out my window at the night sky
Thinking one day I’ll touch the world with bare hands
Even if it burns."
And I just simply love these lines ^^^ . I love the poem touches up on reincarnation. It's interesting as it mentions how people are reincarnated a few times and then, they go to the beyond.
"And how many lives
Before take-off, before we find ourselves
Beyond ourselves, all glam-glow, all twinkle and gold?"
And finally, I love how the deification fo Bowie continues making him into a cryptid? That's the best way I can describe it honestly.
"When a man his size can meet
Your eyes for just a blip of time
And send a thought like SHINE
SHINE SHINE SHINE SHINE
Straight to your mind. Bowie,
I want to believe you."
(I followed your style of picking up lines and talking about them - it's a pretty fun thing to do)
{Purple happens to be my fav colour so, yeah I annotated with purple}
And yeah, language is funky like that. Honestly, I love the fact that people swap art with each and it's like every though we're different, you go through the same emotions. No matter whatever niche emotion is, someone has already written about it! If they haven't, you can always write it!
This reminded of a favourite poem of mine (tw : homophobia and sort of death ? though) which reminds me of the awkwardness of telling people I'm queer / coming out to them. It's called Three A.M. by Jill McDonough.
Also, I've been reading some more stuff to rec them and to hear your thoughts on them. It's all food - themed because I really got into food poetry last week. And as I was talking to a lovely mutual about the intimacy of cooking food and feeding someone.
I'd highly rec the movie "Big Eden". It's a wonderful gay rom-com movie with no homophobia at all and a lot of intimate cooking and wanting to make sure that your crush is loved and taken care off.
But anyway -
Having a Coke with You by Frank O'Hara
Perhaps the World Ends Here by Joy Harjo
The Orange by Wendy Cope
For Grace, After A Party by Frank O'Hara
Eating Together by Li-Young Lee
And these two posts are where I got these poems from, so perhaps you could read the other ones in the list.
Food Poems 1
Food Poems 2
And also, you're into Succession! Yay!! Are you into Tomgreg? If you're not, that's chill. But, like more Tomgreg people the better. I'd love to hear your thoughts about the show too! :) And like I said before, I really enjoyed your Kendall edit! Did you get a chance to watch my Tomgreg edit? It's called Don't Blame Me, I put it on my Tumblr. (No pressure if you can't)
And I have to ask, because I forgot, what are your pronouns, Cat? I use she/they. I just wanted to ask what you want me to use while referring to you. And let me know if you wanna do another poetry writing swap again.
Anyway, that's it for now! Let me know what you think! I hope to hear from you soon :)
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How I became obsessed over the Fab 5
Yass Queen I often heard that phrase on social media Particularly on twitter. I thought that this phrase is a new slang for millennial and gen-z that I just haven’t caught on yet (as most of the slang terms of early 2010s).
Jonathan Van Ness this is the guy that may or may not have started the popular phrase “yass queen” but he sure does use it a lot. When I first saw him randomly on a thumbnail of my recommended youtube video I described his appearance as “gay lord” ( I wanna use “Jesus” but in my opinion that’s disrespectful to my religion). He often is featured on hollywood celebrity channels (which I didnt clicked on that time). I thought that he may be a new emerging star or an old celebrity that I didnt know (bluntly I just didnt care). For me, most starlets that enters hollywood are shallow empty-brain fake people that does a lot of stupid stuff to be relevant. I just didnt care about this gay lord that is making the media go gaga over him.
Big Mouth Im a huge fan of this show. I love cartoons!!! Im 25 year old btw and Idga fudge of what you think about that 🙄. The heart of a child in me just never died 🥳. When season 3 came out I was ecstatic! I finished the whole season in one day and I finished it again the next day and the next day after that. I love the humor. I love the educational information sorrounding teens undergoing puberty, sex ,relationships and gays! I mean Im 25 but Im behind all these things that I should have learned in my teenage years. You know why? Because my country put stigma around sex education thinking that it will encourage kids to have sex. well guess what? With or without sex-ed some kids will still have sex. Anyway in season 3 they included the Fab 5 and I immediately recognized gay lord. I then learned that he is part of a reality TV show and has four other gay guys with him. So after watching big mouth I went on youtube and searched “Queer Eye” and sure enough the fab 5 pop out. The first video that I watched was “Fab 5 takes a lie detector test” . I laughed at their animated quirkiness and after that I watched Queer Eye on netflix right away. Aah!
Queer eye I fell inlove with the first episode. I love how they transformed Tom ❤️ ( I didnt really approved with the styling. Sorry Tan). I love their kind approach to Tom and how they make as simple as going mattress shopping hilarious. I love their relationship. Immediately I fell inlove right away with Jonathan Van Ness’ personality! He is full of gay antics and he exudes so much femininity. He is more of a girl than a gay man. Usually I see gays as men who are feminine (or overly feminine) like James Charles and Jeffree Star. Jonathan is more masculine looking than most gays. He sports beards and does not wear makeup. But for me, he is literally a girl in a man’s body.
Gay + Reality Show I never really thought that I will one day be a fan of gay reality show. First, I never had any gay friends in my circle of friends. Gays and I are like oil and water, we dont blend. Im introverted, Im chill and laid back, and a little tomboyish. Gays most of the time are extroverted, flamboyant, rowdy, sassy, and overly dramatic. Im not saying all gays but most of the gays that I encountered. I like them. I like their existence. Dont get me wrong Im not homophobic. It’s just I like them at a distance. Their personality overwhelms me. So it comes as a surprise to me how I came to love the fab 5. And on a reality TV show? Guuurrlll dont even get me started how much I dislike reality shows especially from hollywood. I see such shows as fake, phony, cheesy, and doesn’t really have any substance in it . I don’t waste my time watching these pretentious shows. But Queer Eye changed that.
I love how the casting is diverse. At least, two out of five people are colored people. As an asian Im so proud of Tan, and happy that he is part of this. Im proud how they bravely shared their traumatic stories of how they we’re outed and abandoned by the people they considered family. How they courageously show their vulnerability. You go Queens!
Religion affected Bobby that he cant even go inside a church. Inspite of this, Bobby had learned slowly to let go of the baggages and make peace with his past. I pray that he will be completely free one day because I believe we can all heal. Bobby is an inspiration for the lost and abandoned. I cant imagine my family disowning me and being out their on my own at the age of 15. Look at him now a very successful interior designer. He gave me hope.
I love how Karamo fought despite of racism and homophobia, and went for the things that people denied him of. Imagine being in a room full of people making you feel unwelcomed? Im so proud of you Karamo. Im happy of all the things you have now.
I love how Jonathan fights the issues and rights that I also believed in. He uses his voice to put awareness over racism, sexism, homophobia, HIV, diversity and hatred (which are mostly Trump supporters. just kidding 😜).
I love how Antoni is passionate with food. I can listen to him talk about food all day. He is also sensitive to other people’s feelings. He is respectable towards other people and sympathetic. He is refined and cultured.
Obsession I became obsessed! The proof is that I started taking care of my self more. Im not lazy anymore with my beauty regimen. I updated my products. SERUM AND SUBSCREEN!!! I floss always now. They inspire me to look fabulous everyday even when Im at home.
I started following them on their individual instagram account. Search them on google, pinterest and tumblr. Dont forget twitter for daily updates. My youtube recommendations are all filled of Queer Eye’s casts. Help me! And if that’s not enough I bought their individual books (audiobooks).
I’ll be giving my review on their individual books next time. Im also learning to use podcast since Jonathan and Karamo has their own podcast channel. Can you believe?
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Rant on some stuff by me
I played ep 5 of Life is Strange 2 today and i just. cant believe this is it. I HAVE BEEN ABOUT THIS FOR OVER A YEAR aaaaaa. (and so have some of yall)
*spoiler alert*
First of, it was so sweet they had Daniel do a treasure hunt like Chris! Though Chris’ was much harder, haha.
Second, WHAT THE DJFFJFJ I seriously did NOT expect David to show up. It didn’t even click for me it was him until he said Step-DoucheTM. i was :O and then he was supportive of Sean and Daniel and I was like ):: i wish he’d been so good to Chloe.
O and btw. I was listening to Someone To Stay by Vancouver Sleep Clinic (I recommend if you like sad lis-vibe music? at least some of their songs) and the choir melody thingy reminded me of The Lion King. SO I went for a search and watched the “remember who you are”-scene AND this is when i came full circle. Mufasa is Esteban ya’ll. I chose the surrender-ending and... Karen told them like, don’t loose yourselves right, and I feel like if I hadn’t “given up” (or made Sean stop running) then they would have lost who they were. ... Also, the Mufasa-thing is funny because the only kitten left that haven’t been sold yet is called Mufasa.
2033 got me so sad. Time is weird. Max take us back please save Esteban. i dont care if we get a storm we’ll know its coming please just. i dont want my wolf brothers to have gone through so much...
and why couldn’t they have let Mushroom live? she couldve lived with Chris if they couldnt take her with them... Chris needs another friend.
I just want everyone to live together in a big house like a big happy family and be free and at peace.
Also, that shit about Karen and Away and escaping society got me too... I just hate the world sometimes. I hate money and adds and row after row of candy and fat crisps and sodas and sugar and junk food and the food industry and the whole fkergngf system...
Damn, how I find myself in this game. Even though it’s totally different... It’s still me. People who don’t even know I exist put me in a game. That’s gotta mean I’m not as lonely as I feel. “We are more than we are, we are one”. That’s from the second Lion King I believe.
Now its 21:21 and that always makes me think of Skam and Evak. It’s the time again. Ok, thanks for reading. Feels good to get my thoughts out and release it into this internet void and thinking of the possibility that someone could be reading this later.
Later. /hugs from a sad but hopefull nerd
ps. i hope someone finds this through one of the three last tags because i added them because i mentioned those things but its about lis2 mostly... and i hope that person is now a lis fan. idk, i am very tired. goodnight
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i always joke that its okay that my lif is so shitty bc “I’ll have really cool college essays” but like fuck man its not worth it
let’s review so i can cope:
grew up from 0-14 with a mom and dad (dope
from abot 10-14 my dad was a heavy drinker (about 4 bears every day when he got home from work
yelled at us all the time when drunk that the house was always a mess and called us “fat lazy pigs” (us being me, my older sister, snd my mom not as much my little sister)
from 12-14 my mom didnt have a job which was bad bc we really needed 2 incomes
at 14, freshman year, my parents very abruptly separated (not that it was unplanned but it got fast tracked to be at least a month earlier and me and my sisters were moved out of my dad’s house in less than a week, this was b/c my Oma [Mom’s Mom] came for christmas and hated my dad so she fast tracked the seperation)
14-16 I’ve lived with my mom and my 2 sisters
15 my mom’s mental stability quickly deteriorated
mostly paranoia
she has PTSD and ADHD and Depression officially diagnosed before this
my mom believes that there is a cult of people of any person she has ever met/meets that
wanted to take me and my sisters from her
sex traffic us (????? not as clear on this point tbh)
induct her
???? spy ?????
this lead her to belive rhat she was constantly being spied on and watched
that people were entering our home to leave “color story” messages and move things ever so slighty
yknow another explanation for those?
due to her being high as hell abt 40% of the time and stopping taking her meds she would forget doing stuff all the time
at least thats what we think was the cause of forgetting
oh yah, she was high all the fucking time, 40% is an extremely conservative estimation
she was convinced there were cameras in our house so they could watch us
and that they were in our wifi so they would be in her phone and laptop “leaving messages” and “blocking things on her phone”
any time we showed her how she was literally just misusing technology shed say “well isnt that interesting hownits working now?” is a “see, gotcha” kinda way
regularly shut off our wifi, which was really bad because at the time i had 1gb of mobile data a month and I absolutely had to do school work, so I would just go over on data, I eventually stopped feeling bad for this
started religiously going through especially my little sister’s phone which was SO weird bc ahe has literally never dont anything like that, we had full access to the internet for as long as we could press an on button, ahe had literally never done anything like this our whole lives, my little sister rightfully hated it
oh yah our phones were tapped by The Group too btw
she was already a bad driver but omg it got so much worse
it would take her hours and hourse to do simple out of the house tasks because she would just follow random cars bc she was convinced they meaned something
sometimes she’d be driving me places, because I still had to GO places it was the middle of the school year!, and she would whisper car license plates over and over and i literally wanted to cry it was terrifying
she just, ahe cant function right anymore
but she is very good at pretending like she can for shorter periods of time (like upto 2 days back in july, not sure about now)
right in july we got her hospitalized with help from our dad - note they aren’t legally divorced at the time, still just separated
this was a big win bc we had failed 3 times at this point
she was supposed to be there for a week
oh yah me and my little sister were with an Aunt we are close with the first day of july, but my older sister was on a college visit and then stayed with family who lived right by it — states away, but she came home around July 10?
but anyway
my mom was hospitalized and my older sister was back at home, not with us, and she was 18 so she was like put in charge of my mom’s medical stuff b/c it was an evaluation of her mental stability and stuff
they released her on the second or 3rd day.
they did not twll my older aister they would be doing this.
my mom just showed back up with the aid of my older sister’s VERY old grandma who my mom had called (my older sister has a different dad)
this made my older sister mad for a rainbow of reasons obviously
then we found out that we were being evicted
because my mom hadn’t been paying rent for months
and didnt tell anyone
and apparently they told her this like 2 months ago and she didnt say anything
so we had a week to go back and move everything out.
i hadnt been home in a month
i didnt want to be “home”
i had days
got it hurt
it was so scary
that was my life still
everything I owned
we disnt have a new place
we couldnt take that much to our aunts, not out whole lives
we were able to take some to our dad’s who (i should have meantioned this earlier) had stopped drinking after his older brother, who he was living with, died in March from cancer
our relationship wasnt good, but he was making huge efforts for us
i started seeing my dad cry
my dad isnt the kinda man who just cries
this is a guy who was kicked out of 5 achools 6-11th grade (then he dropped out) for fights
who stands about 6ft 3 and weighs like 250lbs,
who’s dad is exactly the same
learned to drive a Harley before a car
from texas
lived with just his older brother (18 months older) from (about) 16-??? (getting info from him isnt easy)
not the type of dad who grew up knowing you can cry
he was grieving a lot though
but so we got some stuff in his house/his storage
but mostly we just..dont have our stuff
its just gone
my life, posters I’ve had since i was 11, my favorite clothes
my books
my pop figures
my pictures
my theater posters from school productions
anything i couldnt put in 3 back packs and a medium blue storage bin
its just......
gone now
my older sister joined us at my aunt’s
my mom doesnt have a house
she had a car
car broke down at some point
not surprising it was falling apart at the seams
absolutely unsafe
no i dont know where she lives
i dont knoe how she survives
i assume money from her mom/sister
now we live with our dad
he doesnt drink he doesnt yell
i’ve replaced stuff, but i cant replace all of it
i’ve had to just accept it
my had rents an apartment now so we wouldnt have to move schools
i share a room with my little sister but its good
we’re happy
even though its hard
its so fucking hard some days
its my juniotyear of high school now
I’ll be 17 in april
which is kinda crazy
i still managed to have a good summer
I worked, so I was busy and had more spending money
and i do love my aunt, we’ve always had fun with her and she lives 20 minutes at the most from the beach
so we figured despite the hell, it was a good summer
definitely one for the books
it’s just been a lot
so much
my gpa sucks, obviously
but i just got my PSAT score back, 1100, my senior friends assure me that means I’ll do well on the real thing if I can just get a 1300 on the SAT maybe I’ll actuall have a chance at going to a decent school
somehow the SAT seems scarier than all of that
ive absolutely left our stuff bc im bad at time lines but, you get it
info i left out:
mom was bad by november last year
worse by may
lost her job thanks to her illness
got thats a can of worms
it had to do with the paranoia she thought her team leader and another department head were being passive agressivr with her
god i barely touched on the work stufff
she would spend hours and hours at home working on the presentations she had to make for work i cooked about 90% of our meals, my older sister did the rest
i like cooking though
but yes she got fired
she had a severance package for like 2 months
it expired in april
the month of my birthday
2 weeks before my birthday
i did not have the Sweet 16 id planned my whole childhood
i infact did nothing for it
the uncle that died, died that march, we think this also triggered her PTSD from her siblings’ deaths, esp her oldest brother who she was closest with
yah my mom was born the youngest of 6
she is the youngest of 2 now
and he dad died
so she does have issues there...
there was a very real time when my older sister bc she was 18 thought she might have to take in me and my little sister custody wise bc our dad’s living arrangement was shakey after his brother died bc the house was in the brother’s name and his will was messed up bc of his literal crackhead ex wife
uh im sure there is so much more
oh and im very queer
biroantic and asexual, and non-binary
so i also have the stress of that
and sow im living without my big sister for the first time
and just my while life is different
which is really difficult ive never had to be the oldest, but I think im doing well by my little sister
i hope so
shes 13
was 12 the summer its a lot for her too bit she didnt ever have as much exposure to stuff
i love her tho
#b#rant#vent#i cried#aha.#no im not having fun.#i do love my dad so much now#hes really turned his life around#hes even trying to get back in shape
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i'm not trying to start something, i'm just genuinely curious as to why you still support seungri after everything. honestly im one of the vips who wanted to believe the best in him when the issue first came to light but there were just some things he had done that i personally couldnt just let go. i understand if you decide not to entertain this ask btw.
hi, when i received your ask, i wanted to reply with all the factual stuff i knew like he didn’t spread the cams, he told them to stop, the prostitution he mediated was consensual etc but that might ignite another whole discussion and morals differ from person to person. I also thought about how i can draft this whole reply so I can make a stand that i support him just very reasonably so that whoever comes across this can be convinced even if it’s just a little but it was all too mentally tiring; to make my stand and put all my arguments across because no matter what I’d say, there is bound to be someone who disagrees. So ultimately I just decided to type my raw and unfiltered feelings out. I just wna say that these are purely my personal feelings, you don’t have to agree with them. I know that some don’t support ri because of what they’ve personally experienced and I respect their decisions as well. Let me start by saying when i first started to like big bang in 2007, ri was my least fav member, i didn’t really care for him. It was until later that I slowly learned more about him. Then I realized he worked harder than anyone else. Like when he learned more foreign languages just so he could communicate with the fans better, just so he could be good at something; to make himself stand out as well. When being compared to other members, ri has always been lackluster(in the eyes of the general public) which is why he said before he wanted to be good at something so he could stand out as well when being compared to the other members. I see it as his insecurity. Maybe it’s because of this that makes me want to protect and support him even more. I want him to know that he is as loved as all the other members.
I’ve loved and watched big bang for 12 years. I don’t think ri is rotten to the core. Maybe he’ll stray once in a while but I know he is a good kid. Also, 12 years is a long long time to me. I love them all and it’s just not in me to cut someone I love out overnight. I cant. Even if they did something the general public cannot accept. It’s just not in me to do that. These 12 years as a fan holds some really precious memories to my heart and cutting any of it off is like chopping a part of me away. It will hurt. I’ve watched them go through so many rough periods, and this, to me is yet another period of time they will overcome. If ri is really found guilty, then he should be punished and reflect upon his actions. Be it whether he wanted to minimize damage or act on it first, the fact that he quit the entertainment industry before YG kicked him out showed him wanting to at least take some form of responsibility. He could have just hid behind YG and waited for them but he didn’t. I thought it was brave of him. I dont think of myself as the best fan, in fact I think I’m one of the not so good ones, I don’t buy their albums, I don’t follow all their updates to every second, I’ve only been to one of their concerts in 2012, I don’t even follow their ig accounts lol. But as a fan of 12 years, sticking by their side and supporting them is the least I can do when the going gets rough. Afterall, we’ve already been through so much. Also, the rest of big bang isn’t going to cut ties with ri either. As a fan, I don’t see why I should. Big Bang will always be 5 to me :-)
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I am bisexual.
When I was in the 4th grade, at age 11, I met this really cute girl. She was about, what, 4'6 ft tall? She was actually my classmate, but I was always socially awkward. It's a long story, but we eventually became friends. She was REALLY smart and hardworking (in our school, if you're an honor student, you're REAALLY smart.) while i was lazy and average. Of course, back then we were still children. (Btw let's refer to her as "Maki" instead) We both loved anime, and we were total weebs. At that time, I was obsessed with Hetalia. I influenced her to watch it, she was a shugo chara fan. Anddd so she also got addicted.
Anyway, I was pretty fond of drawing, and people saluted me for my skills. Maki worshipped me like a God no im sERIOUS and called me "sensei", because i gave her lots of tips. She overestimated me too much. To the point where she neglected her studies just to talk to me. Although, I myself did not notice that. She always told me that she never had a true friend, and I was her first friend. She always told me that she loved me, and that we will forever be friends until we die.
Her mother started to notice the big drop of our grades, and blamed me for it. She also started talking back to her, although Maki said that she did that back before we were friends.
Fifth and sixth grade came by, (i am from asia, 6th grade is our last year in gradeschool, but we still remain at the same school.) and her mother's anger at me grew, for Maki's behavior became "worse", as Maki explained. She forbid her to see me, and I was hurt. But she still constantly followed me, we were inseparable.
Her mother even asked for a transfer of section in 6th grade, just for her to get away from me. But that didn't work either.
I didn't understand, she still remained an honor student, so what's wrong? I was hurt.
So one day, I confronted her. I wasn't rude, if that's what you're thinking. But she screamed at me and demanded at me to leave her daughter alone right in front of the school's catholic church. She called me a demon. Everyone in the school was looking at her with shame, and looking at me with pity. I shaked the tears off, I didn't want her to see me cry. I left afterwards in tears, it wouldn't stop. The only thing that cheered me up was a friend that went with me in the car (because no driver). She was my childhood friend (first friend too. We've been friends for almost 12 years) let's refer to her as Aka.
I never realized I was bisexual until freshman year came. But that's where the real thing comes.
At that time, the school year was ending, and I told her that maybe we should be apart
I had two reasons for saying that.
One, is because I didn't want her to get hurt anymore. Her mother abuses her. It just hurts me to see her hurt, and yet still smile.
Two, is because I felt odd. I think about her everytime, I go nuts when I don't get to talk to her for a day. I felt so crazy that I didn't know what it was. I had a crush on a boy back then at 4th grade, but the feeling was different somehow. I was so confused.
When I told her to break it for the 3rd time, we did. But afterwards, we came by again. She told me that she was so sad. I didn't know what to feel, so I smiled at it. It was March.
My weeaboo phase ended at that month.
I started to watch different things like the vampire diaries...etc.
Afterwards, I have come to the thought that I had feelings for her, so I told her that we should be acquaintances starting our first year of highschool.
When we found out the people we will be classmates with, I told her to be friends with a certain person (lets call her Eli?)
And so she did.
But, I realized how jealous I was after nearly a month.
She made a bunch of friends, while I...made nothing. But that's not why I was jealous
I was jealous because I wasn't with her everyday like we used to, it's not the same anymore. I felt ignored. So I sent her a message. And she answered with
"Heya~ Recieved ur text but ddnt recive load, im NOT trying to ignore you though, i thought we were aquaintances and yes i knew u helped me a lot and i appreciate u for that but you dnt hav d right to tell me whether to make friends or not, because we have our own lives n i do wat i want when i wanna do it n i wanna make friends so what? I actually did make lots this first few weeks of school already. Plus i dont think we can relate to each other anymore.. I love hetalia & anime still but u've gone out of d fandom n went to TVD n PLL, im not really interested in that though,sorry.I still belive dat anime could be real while u think their jst living in ur comp screen. Im not trying to judge ur opinions because i respect ur opinions owo scouting is actually fun though, its not boring nor tiering at all, its pretty fun >w< i luv it. Believe it or not i still miss you but i dont think we can relate. I hav 2 study everyday n night, my grades matter to me, so please dnt say im trying to ignore u by not going to fb, i jst hav 2 study thats y. I cant be on here all the time n i barely hav time to get on here because im trying to make up for my failing ones.. n my phone dsnt lyk recieving load idk y. btw i sti believe my friends wnt leave me and yeah thats all i gotta say bye see u :)"
I felt offended..somehow
So I confronted her, told her that I wanted us to be friends again. But she didn't want to, for she already got a new set of friends. And of course, I wanted to cry. But I didn't want to show it.
I wanted to shout.
There was another message, it was her apologizing for offending me. Of course, I didn't see that message. But I confronted her the day before, I think she was offended. No...she IS offended. I felt baddd
I don't want to reveal anything else, but I sent her a total of 20+ apology messages through deviantart and facebook from July to March of 2014.
I was seenzoned, and there was so reply.
I cried every night.
I felt so obsessed, stalking her through every site.
I was friends with Eli, and I asked her about what Maki thinks of me. She said that Maki didn't want to talk about it, but she disliked me. Ouch.
Although, Eli DID say that Maki had an older brother and an older sister who was married, but I knew those were big lies. She only had one sister, which was younger than her. I can't believe she lied, she wasnt the type of person to lie.
At January of 2014, I met a guy from the higher batch (can we call him vans). He made me realize that I was bisexual, that I loved Maki.
So, at April of 2014, I sent her my last message. I even confessed to her that I had a crush on her.
But at October (or so) I sent her another message through deviantart, admitting all faults.
I didn't expect her to reply, but when I checked my deviantart page again, she replied.
I'm too lazy to look up what she said, but she said that she forgave me, asked me how I was, and all. But she sent another message that said that we couldnt be together again, but we are good now.
I was so happy that I cried, screamed, and burried myself in the pillow. Literally.
Until now, at sophomore year, I still see her. We're still not classmates, and our classrooms are far from each other, but each time I see her..my heart still tends to ache.
We are from different clubs (she is from the english club, while I am from the art club. If the art club wasn't so full, I think we would've been clubmates.)
Next school year, I have a horrible feeling that we will be classmates, due to the fact that I am pretty sure we took the art course. Our school will sort us by course next year, and I'm not sure what I will do if I were to be her classmate once more. Will I breakdown and cry in front of her? Or smile at her, and fall for her all over again? It's not fair. I still want to see her.
I hope her mother will accept me one day, and I will be able to be close to her once again. I am okay with being "just friends", I just don't want to be apart from her. I hope she understands.
Maki, if you're reading this, thank you. Thank you for letting me experience being loved, feeling loved. I'm sorry for being such a horrible person back then. Thank you so much.
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*insert darth vader no scream* smh but its ok!! At least we got to replying, that is all good with me cx
Ahh ruby is one i keep coming back, like constantly. Its my main song I played so far (right behind tiger inside. I blame minho doing the cover lolol) for the new year and honestly, not complaining. I could do an essay about how much I love the orchestral opening and how it tricks you before it switches 180 on the listener BUT I write way too much as it is so tldr be blessed with musical genius stuff with ruby when listening to it
Oohhh a gfx tutorial would be fun to see (I love seeing how people do their creations, like everyone has their own little dazzle to the steps and it is fun seeing how it becomes the finished product!) But only do it if you wanna and have time! No doubt probably would take time to do one so while I am curious on your process, I can understand if not showing! Lolol tbh your gfx style doesn't seem, like all over the place? (Now mine...we don't talk about them) like they feel like a cohesive style regardless? There is a theme i think, its very artsy yet put together? Idk how to explain it im sorry fjsjdjsj. Me and my friend do praise you for the gfx, like we dubbed you a wizard because how do you make them so pretty but also simple sometimes? (Speaking of your stuff, I don't think I thanked you for your resource pack? Thank you for it :D helped me out a bit with a creation or two)
But agreed!! Groups are bound to have loads of content so you will find one you missed even when active and up to date! Ahh yes, yes!! It feels very special to be like "in on the joke" so to speak. I love watching content where fans edit moments like say a going seventeen episode to make a summary but also include the funny moments. That helped me alot with getting into groups like skz. Also thank you, I can't help but feel annoying at times(?) Especially to you since you have better things to do than to talk to a random potato on anon jdjsjdjjs
But to slightly go off topic, how are you dreamy!? Outside from carrying tumblr with your creations of course, someone give dreamy the back massage they need for that btw
hiiii sorry i keep getting distracted asfgzds i SWEAR my brain just cannot retain that im supposed to DO things, like reply to asks >.<
plus i had my little hiatus right after u sent me these asks :(((
anywayyy
omg i agree about the tiger inside! i didnt even listen to it when the super m version came out but ive watched minho's fancam and the stage so much the song has totally grown on me lmao
I realized that i TECHNICALLY did post a video of me making some gfx but it wasnt really a tutorial it was just me speeding up the screen recording so i highly doubt its helpful its here if u wanna see it tho lmao ahfzbdjns i cant believe you talk about my stuff tho like???? ah thats crazy i feel like im unworthy of ppl discussing my stuff but im absolutely honored you like it enough to do so 🥺🥺 I should totally makanotherer resource pack at some point, maybe when my skz blog hits a milestone since its closer lol but thats really cool its helped you!! i jsut threw a bunch of things i use often into it and was like if one person even likes this a little i'll be happy! so im really glad its helped you 🥰
I think the way I usually get into groups is slide shows that me and a couple of my friends make. The process of making a slideshow about a group really helps focus on learning things and then receiving slideshows is so fun and a great way to learn ^^ we make them on google docs and then facetime to present them lol. we have so many at this point, for like almost every group we like lol. my skz one is MASSIVE
also i definitely do NOT have better things to do than to talk to you i swear, im just REALLY bad at answering asks because my grammar is so bad i have to put more mental power into it, but i totally get excited to see you sending me asks!!!
as for me?? im doing good, better than i was a few days ago (which is why i was up to finally answering you, im sorry it took me forever again) trying to be more active on my svt blog since i havent made a lot of content recently, but i think ive done better this week lmao
I hope youre doing well my dear! are you gonna wtch the skz fanmeet thats next week? i know some ppl cant afford it so im thinking of recording it liek i did with the soop 🤫
#drm.ask#anon#skz anon#also i got your other ask too#just dont want u to think tumblr ate it but i really appreciated it!
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