#cocsa poem

[flowersbark]

my body

my autonomy

my philosophy

my psychology

will always just be

what you made of me

#vent #vent post #cw vent #tw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa survivor #sa vent #sa victim #sa survivor #sa poem #poetry #cocsa poem #vent poem #vent blog #csa vent #csa victim

[pixiedoll2]

I'm a little lamb

A sacrificial lamb to their happiness

They keep dragging me to the alter

Im destined to get hurt over and over again

So they can wear the "perfect family " title

While the little lamb bleeds out in the background

#tw vent #sad poem #tw family trauma #family issues #actually cptsd #living with cptsd #cocsa survivor #csa vent #emotional abuse #dysfunctional family #toxic family #psychological abuse

[agirldying]

i would love to read any of your work 🖤

Here's what was previously published, I might edit to add some unpublished works!

#text #asks #trauma #tw #ptsd poetry #ptsd poem #cptsd poetry #ptsd #cptsd #grooming #child grooming #tw cocsa #tw csa

[cinpoetry]

Sunday School Lessons

Tw: cocsa, religious trauma 

.

What is rape?

Did we do it right?

Am i still a little girl on her knees

Legs spread for the camera 

Saying im sorry like a ball of cotton stuck in the throat

I am still obedient

I am still crying in the nighttime

Too dirty to be touched

.

Swap spit in the bathroom of the church 

Silently screaming, 

Is this supposed to be gods love

Rape in the form of two pairs of feet under the stall

.

I am still aching from that worship

#original poem #poetry #short poem #poets #sad poetry #poetry corner #spilled poetry #spilled ink #spilled thoughts #my writing #poetic #poets on tumblr #poem #tw cocsa #cocsa victim #cocsa mention #cocsa trauma #religious trauma #depressing poem #tw depressing stuff #trauma

[flowersbark]

you never told me when you did it

my skin could be

anew like they say

but ill never know

when my skin is rid of you

and until i know for sure

my body will always be

a rememberance of you

#vent #vent poem #sa vent #cw vent #vent blog #vent post #cocsa poem #cocsa survivor #cocsa victim #cocsa vent #tw cocsa #sa poem #original poem #poem #poetry #csa victim #csa vent

[rumoredr3birth]

bleh first post

not new to tumblr but new to posting :p 

using this page to post my archive of poems/random unmedicated thoughts so very general TW/ sh,sa,csa,cocsa,ed,suicidal thoughts feelings attempts the whole shabang. 

if ur cool w that welcome to my little corner of the internet enjoy your stay.

#rumoredr3birth #tw csa #tw sui #tw sa #tw cocsa #tw sh #tw self destruction #tw depressing thoughts #goodmorning #goodnight #writeblr #poetry #poems and poetry #literature #lit

[vertigosvent]

i see you on the concrete

on the hills and between sidewalks

resilient, they say.

agressive.

crybaby- he said when i was little

weak. emotional

you were strong, grew through anything

choked me with your pollen

you broke me

celebrated, you broke me

#cocsa. #vent poem #poem

[stopscammingartists]

Floraverse + Glitchedpuppet's Abusive History Masterlist

General Good Sources:

The House That Monsters Built

7 Part documentary series on Glitchedpuppet, PMD-E, and Floraverse's troubled history of child exploitation, animal exploitation, and abuse.

floraverseisacult.com

An overview of on Glitchedpuppet, PMD-E, and Floraverse's troubled history of child exploitation, animal exploitation, and abuse but in a website format. Includes sources to back up every claim made, examples of how Scenes are a toxic practice, and an explanation on Floraverse's cult tendencies.

A Timeline of Events

A general time line of Glip's informed complicity in Marl's sex crimes against animals and children. If you don't want to spend a lot of time reading about this, then this post is the one to click on.

Names / Pronouns

Glitchedpuppet / Glip / Papayakitty / Ash - They/Them

Eevee / LexyEevee / Veekun / Squishfox - She/Her

Pengosolvent / Pengo - He/Her

Opa / opaopa13 / Tem - He/They

Iz / Woz / W0z / TanukiBathhouse - They/Them

Marl Sexually Abused Minors & Animals

[cw: Beastiality, Pedophilia]

➳ Lain's Story

➳ Rootie's Story

➳ Chat logs between Marl and Big Fluff

Glip was Aware that Marl was Sexually Abusing Animals

[cw: Beastiality]

➳ Marl convinced Glip to be filmed engaging in beastiality.

➳ Marl convinced Glip to engage in beastiality a second time.

➳ Exty had informed Glip that Marl showed them pornography of their pet dog Apollo in 2013 after Marl cheated on Glip with Exty.

➳ Eevee was likely aware that Marl was sexually abusing the family dog Apollo and children in her IRC too and choose to protect him. ➳ Apollo was walking around their home with mittens on his front paws, a common practice to prevent a dog from scratching someone when mounting.

Weird Zoophilic / Pedophilic / Sex Pest interest Glip + Eevee has shown

➳ Glip has a grooming fetish for showing children pornographic content by an "experienced person" and "innocence being broken".

➳ Glip's cat Twigs would try to essentially perform oral sex on them and this happened enough times that Marl became jealous of the cat. During PMD-E, there was a marriage arc & Porn between Glips self insert character and a Persian named after Twigs.

➳ Eevee avoids labeling her fetish game as a fetish game and advertises it to the Floraverse server full of minors.

➳ Glip has drawn feral porn and references photos of animal genitalia for their porn art.

➳ Eevee's weird ass decade long tendency of "accidentally" defending child porn, incest, and zoophilia. ➳ Glip believes that people can "let themselves be raped" and is sympathetic to the rapists in these situations. Glip described a character who was bound and gagged without consent, who states outright 'This is not what I came here for' as an example of a character who "let themselves be raped."

Other examples / stories of people being abused or berated by Glip or their inner circle

➳ Opa - at the time 37, convinced a 19 year old Jolly to move across state lines to live with with him. He exposed his genitalia to Jolly within a week of them moving in. Opa ended up evicting Jolly leading to Jolly attempting suicide twice.

➳ Rina's zine on how they where abused by the Floraverse community. Talks about how Iz/W0z ("The Predator") groomed her and created a visual novel depicting her COCSA story and her being raped by a doll.

➳ Pengo, Phoebe, and Japhet berated bring-out-the-dead over the span of several days, almost causing Boo to attempt suicide.

➳ Glips tendency to depict cruel caricatures of people in their webcomic.

➳ Pengo and Glip ganging up on and harassing someone in the server over sharing a personal poem. ➳ Kasran berates Bex for recognizing they where being abused and leaving the community & Glips caricatures of Bex that where put into Floraverse.

➳ Pengo harassed someone and initiated a server dogpile - bullying them for making a joke about banana juice.

➳ A user in the floraverse server talks about going through some personal trauma and leaves. Glip + Pengo ban and psychoanalyze the user in a cruel way after they leave for using the wrong emoji.

➳ Roleplaying a court-hearing to humiliate and ban Nichole. ➳ Pengo and Glip ganging up on and harassing someone for not roleplaying properly in the community.

➳ Eevee refers to 2 of the children Marl sexually abused (Lain and Big Fluff) as just 'kiwifarmers'.

➳ Glip and Pengo berated someone for being uncomfortable that someone who doxed them was allowed in the Floraverse community.

Glip is extremely cruel to victims of abuse when the abuser is someone they like

➳ Glip & Eevee slandered Lain over the span of years and called them a "fucking parasite" because the 13 year old spoke out about Marl sending her photos of dog genitalia - while knowing Marl was a zoo. [cw: Beastiality, Pedophilia]

➳ Glip thinks Opa shouldn't have called 911 because Jolly, the "deadly parasite" attempted suicide and "who cares if the deadly parasite dies". [cw: Suicide]

➳ Glip happily hosts the visual novel Iz made of Rina's COCSA that depicts them as a doll and gets raped on their porn site. They also lie about this visual novel being about Rina's COCSA story and being about Rina despite Iz admitting to both being true. [cw: Rape]

#floraverse #glitchedpuppet #forbidden flora #forbiddenflora #fox flux #foxflux #pengosolvent #glip

[h0ll0wed-b0nes]

hi, my name is jericho!

i love to read and write poetry, so ive decided to post my work

i write about my struggles (cw: sh, eds, suicidal ideation, bpd triggers) as a sort of coping mechanism, and it also really helps putting what i feel into words

i also enjoy web weaving, especially with my favourite lyrics and osamu dazai from bungou stray dogs, who i relate to a lot (unfortunately)

my main blog is cipralex-and-candy-filled-organs which also features some of my poems on here

if you relate to any of my posts, just know that youre not alone :)

- h0ll0wed-b0nes

contents and themes:

"After all I'm just a dog" - canine poetry, dependence, obsession

"I'm Alive" - sh, self-dehumanization

"Skinsuit" - body dysmorphia

"Pseudo-blade" - tactile hallucinations, sh

"Reminiscing" - struggles of a neurodivergent child, sh, suicidal ideation

"The Life of a Performer" - COCSA, perceptions of beauty throughout childhood, eds, hypersexuality

"A Parasite's Guilt" - bpd, obsession, shame, emptiness, desire for human connection

"Like Father, Like Son" - struggles with parents, childhood trauma and the impacts on development, non-reciprocal attempts of rehabilitation in a relationship

"No Remorse for the Dead" - romanticization of mental illness, suicidal ideation, self-destruction

"A Cold Bone" - masking, emptiness, self-dehumanization, people-pleasing

"I'm Your Man, web-weaving" - canine poetry

"To Be Human is to Be Hurt" - masking, sh, self-dehumanization, derealization

"The Cycle" - suicidal ideation, the meaning of life

"Ripe" - hypersexuality, objectification, abandonment, being used

"A Ghost Trapped in Skin" - self-dehumanization, derealization, emptiness

"Crack Baby, web-weaving" - osamu dazai, bungou stray dogs

"Nude, web-weaving" - osamu dazai, bungou stray dogs

"Clowning" - "no longer human", suicidal ideation, self-dehumanization, alienation, human connection, isolation, masking

"You Bite" - trauma, self-defence mechanisms, destruction of yourself and others

"Last Goodnight" - unexpected suicide attempts from others' perspective, losing a loved one, final goodbyes

"Hyacinth" - sh, shame, urges, impulses, coping mechanisms, self-destruction, lashing out

"Ourosboros Does Not Compose" - sh, self-destruction, emotional irregularities, anger issues

"Eggshells of a Lonely Man" - fear of abandonment, borderline personality disorder

"Inherited Poison" - inherited disorders, similar negative traits to parents

"Possession in Disguise" - being used, bpd fps, being set to square one, hypersexuality

"Don't Deny the Devil" - childhood trauma, medical trauma, COCSA, trauma responses, denial because "it could be worse"

"Leeches" - unreciprocated support, people pleasing, ignoring needs

"The Elephant" - unreciprocated empathy/care, being mistreated by people you always put first, having strong empathy when others are selfish

#poetry #poets on tumblr #web weaving #bungou stray dogs #dazai osamu #intro post #the summer hikaru died #hikaru ga shinda natsu

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

tw: cocsa, csa, death mention just a vent. i've been thinking recently about how my family would react if they found out i grew up being SA'd by my cousin. i just can't open up about it to anyone knowing how it would destroy the family and I have no evidence. My grandma is in her mid 70's, and she cherishes my cousin a lot. Or so I think. I sometimes think how it would be for her to die peacefully without knowing such horrible things happened b/w her 2 grandkids. Sometime in my life, I definitely plan on telling this to my mom who also is fond of my cousin. It scares me but at the same time brings me reassurance that one point all the people who care about me will never know what happened in my life for me to grow up with so many issues and live w so much trauma. They'll just die and there will be no one to know of it. I don't know how much sense this makes, but I'm just scared of what happens once it gets out. It hurts while it's there within you, it will hurt even more once it's out in society knowing the culture over SA. I don't know, it's the fear of the fact that I just might tear my family apart in a sense that if my cousin is ever exposed and say really held accountable, it might draw a rift between my parents & my aunt and uncle. At the same time I wonder if they'll take me seriously since a lot of relatives view my cousin as the pride of the family. So that way it can again cause a rift because I'd become a scapegoat and 'reputation ruiner' as i like to call it, when I know what happened was real. I just feel really trapped and there's no way out. Someday the past will catch up and I'm really afraid it will all just crumble. Everything in my life and the life of my loved ones will be destroyed. Sorry if I framed some things in a confusing manner. Thanks for reading.

Hi anon,

I'm so sorry about what you've been through. Also please know that there is no need to apologize, your ask is perfectly understandable.

It's common to worry about how people will react when you share your story. Please know that your feelings are valid. It's a vulnerable thing to share what happened, especially to your family. With the emotional gravity of your story, it's understandable why you may feel that you must keep this story from others so that they can live peacefully.

You are not alone in feeling this way, and this is something that I have personally dealt with. My poems of being assaulted were published to a lit mag, and my parents wanted to come to the publication party where I was to read the poems. I wanted them to come show their support but I also wanted to protect them from their own sadness and guilt. My therapist helped me to realize that other people's emotions are not my responsibility, and so if someone is devastated by my story, that's not necessarily my problem. Suffice to say, other people's emotions are not a valid reason to stop you from sharing your story.

Please know that, while it's completely up to you who to tell your story to, it's also completely up to you who NOT to tell your story to. If there are people that you don't want to know what happened, that should be your right. It's your story, so it's your jurisdiction who knows and who doesn't, although some people may not honor that.

In my situation, I had a discussion with my mom about my COCSA and how I wanted not to tell her because I wanted to protect her from her own guilt, but she told me she'd already been feeling it, and that the transparency actually provided her some relief. So it may be worth considering that the people you think are "peaceful" may be wearing a mask, and that sharing your story may actually strengthen some of your familial bonds.

I also just want to say that we as survivors are often made to feel that speaking up about what happened to us is like a weapon of mass destruction. But we need to remember that it's really our abusers doing all that destruction, we are merely the messengers. Just like our abusers destroy their own reputations when we expose them, any rift that may occur within your family is not your fault. You're simply speaking the truth, or doing whatever else feels right in your healing.

Please know that you are not defined by your past. You are a survivor, and your story has the power to inspire, uplift, and bring about positive change. As you continue on your healing path, may you find solace, strength, and the freedom to live a life filled with joy, love, and fulfillment. Keep holding onto hope, and know that you are never alone in this journey.

I hope I could help. Please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw abuse #tw emotional abuse #tw sa #tw child abuse #tw csa #tw cocsa