#i DONT DESERVE TO LIVE

[thinningoutgypsy]

#help plz #i don’t want to be here #this is a cry for help #i cant stop crying #i dont deserve to live #i dont feel good #i wanna die #su!cidal #su!cide #kill my feelings #kill my brain #kill my mind #i cant breathe #i hate myself #i hate my brain #i hate everything #bpd feels #bpd problems #living with bpd

[delusionalmaniac]

writing this under my covers about to cry

wallowing in total self pity

i don’t even deserve my own sadness

god im such a fucking pick me

#i hate me so much #pick me girl #im cryin #im sad and tired #self pity #god help me #i dont care #i dont deserve to live #whats wrong with me #aesthetic #collage #meme #sad memes

[depression-anxiety-me]

#Nothing can #getting worse #mental illness #its just hard #im so tired #im a mess #im ashamed #hate myself #put me out of my misery #i don't know why #why am i here #i dont deserve to live #depression #anxiety #itsallme

[chomichomas]

I am deeply scared, I don't know how to Tumblr, but I'll say that Itoshi Rin is the typa guy to get pussydrunk

#itoshi rin #blue lock #blue lock smut #i dont deserve to live

[i-think-i-need-help]

maybe everyone hates me.

understandable. im not a very likable person. i don’t deserve him. he’s better off without me. im disgusting. its actually really pathetic that im even talking about this right now. i should just suck it up. im barely human at this point. god i just want to claw my face off. what is wrong with me? i deserve to be hurt.

thanks, void

-🥚☆

#self h@rm #fucked up #i hate it here #i dont deserve to live

[flowers-that-sing]

help girl. i wish i was a computer so i could delete the BPD file

#bobbi babbling #ventpost #sorry. #i am actually fucking broken its insane lmao #imagine being so fucking worthless even your personality is wrong #HA i dont have to imagine #this is why im unlovable lmfao #im the worst person on earth #fucked up personality fucked up face fucked up body #im not smart fun loveable hot or fuckable so im worthless #nobody in the world is as awful as me #and nobody in the world will ever want me to be theirs totally and completely #i cant ever trust anybody and everything is horrible #i dont deserve to live #God probably hates me #everyone hates me

[disassociativesaddiebaddie]

I'm just a waste of space at this point, all I do is fuck up everything I touch, what's the point of being alive when the only people I care about can't even stand my presence? I'm so tired, I don't want to do this anymore

#im gonna go cry now #im crying #i cant do this anymore #so tired #just wanna kms #tw depression #tw self loathing #tw self harm #self harm #i dont deserve to live #actually mentally ill #actually bpd #bpd favorite person #bpd vent #bipolar 2

[whomstwashere]

Its late.

WARING: boring vent

I should be asleep rn. But fuck that

I just wanted to vent a little to the void of people who arent there.

Lately its been hard to really just. Believe people love me ya know.

“Woah Whomst! Youre the dude with the funny pfp and that is overall silly! Why are ya being serious all of a sudden?”

Is what youre probably thinking.

And to that? Idk. I cant talk to my friends without making them worried or being an overall problem.

I hate it. So much.

The people i talk to nowadays are just. Not people i can trust with things.

Im losing my friends i can feel it.

Its a matter of when.

If you are reading this and ya have a connection to me.

Well.

I didnt expect you to read this.

#vent post #i dont know #im sorry #im lonely #hate myself #sorry for being depressing #long post #its been hard #they all deserved better #i dont deserve to live #idk anymore

[posititties]

i did it again because it's literally all i can think about now

#i dont deserve to live #ik snap het godverdomme niet meer #ik heb dit jaren niet meer gedaan #en nu #in zo'n korte tijd #twee fucking keer #it's just five small lines now #easy to cover up #mqqr hoe de fuck als dit meer wordt #als dit noge en keer gebeurt #hoe ga ik dit doen met boksen #i forgot how much this will sting in the shower #i even used the same pair of scissors i used back when i was 12 #ik had m weg moeten gooien #toen al #it's still covered in blood #looking at it just makes me want to do it more and more

[alexahasaguardianangel]

I do not understand why I have friends and partners

#i am a horrible person #i am manipulative #i am narcissistic #i am self centered #i dont deserve them #i dont deserve to live

[thatoneguywhowho]

glad u dont check this place often anymore lmfao

i dont deserve to live lol

#glad you cant automatically see how my rsd practically rapes me #i literally dont deserve to live i want to fivking die #i dont deserve to live #i reslly dont #i reslly font lol

[thinningoutgypsy]

i just want to scream to the top of my lungs, but i don’t wanna be loud.

so i bottle it up, until i drowns me.

#su!cidal #dying alone #ready to die #i wanna die #i cant stop crying #i cant do this #im hurtin #im done #im alone #i hate myself #i hate my brain #self h@rm #i dont deserve to live #this is a cry for help

[urxphelia]

I am the hottest person alive.

My presence blinds people and my flesh burns you at the touch.

I am the sun.

#live laugh love #I dont deserve to live #But none of us do #Rebel against death #Imortality is within arms reach #All you need to do is unbkinkingly look at Gof and tell him you are worth love #You and your sin are one

[adelouieee]

If we can’t bring back history why does history always repeats itself?

#writing #3am thoughts #writerblr #life #existentialism #existential crisis #i dont deserve to live #lol #fiction

[frugthefrog]

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

anyone else ever just

really really want to unalive?

i don't know how to stop

being a "retarded asshole".

i don't know how to stop

being "filthy and useless".

i dont know how to stop

"overly criticising myself",

because it pisses people off.

i don't know how to stop

being selfish,

or lazy,

or ungrateful.

no matter how i try.

i only know how to stop being.

i really want to stop being.

i rant to people too much,

i overshare online.

it's not like i'd ever say this to anyone i know.

the only reason i have,

to not cut myself

is the threat of a therapist

if i ever get caught.

All my scissors and all my blades,

confiscated.

i wish i could unexist

#tw self destructive behavior #tw sh relapse #life #why am i even posting this #shitpost #i dont deserve to live #a disaster #fuck life #i wanna unalive myself

[exxa1812]

Voldication: A Vacation with the Riddles and Malfoys:)

Notes:

I used to play this with my friends when we were younger. Do NOT take this seriously. We had and probably still have mental issues. Have fun reading this. Sorry for the loss of braincells.Btw my first language isn't english. Sorry for any mistakes

Oma: german word for grandma [Om•ma]

Bussle: german word for a van for 7 people. not a bus! [Bus•sle]

Summary: Lord Voldemort needs a break from killing muggles. So he decides to take his family on a vacation to Italy. There is a lot of family fun and fluff and a Pool.

Chapter 1 : Oma ist KEINE Alkoholikerin (Oma is NOT an alcoholic)

I'm Delphi Riddle. My parents are Lord "Voldi" Voldemort and Bellatrix LeSTRANGE. This is the story of my family who went to Italy for summer vacation and things got a little bit out of hand when I was five years old.

Day 1.

The journey from London, England to Bucine, Italy was horrible. The bussle was packed with my dad, my mom, Narcissa, Lucius, Draco and me.

We could've apparated but DAD insisted on the whole experience. So we had to drive 4000 hours to Italy in a really crowded bussle without air conditioning.

When we FINALLY arrived I was sweating like a monkey in a shed. The house was nice and big. I even had my own room. There was this beautiful garden with lots of different flowers and plants. And behind the house there was a pool.

Since it was already late, we decided to eat dinner consisting of grapes and raisins because we didn't buy any food and because my dad is an idiot who forbid magic for the whole vacation.

So we just ate what was left for our trip. The wasn't much so everybody got a grape and 2 raisins except Draco he only got 1 raisin. After dinner I went to bed. It was already past my bedtime while the grown ups stayed up late which was really unfair.

Day 2.

When I woke up the next morning I already had the feeling that this was going to be a horrible day. This feeling turned out to be true when I found Oma sitting on a chair at the house bar with a glass of a weird clear liquid in her hand. Her wand was holding up her hair.

I always loved her hair. It was mid length and gray but in a certain light it looked lilaclightblue. I didn't know what she was doing here. Or how she got here. Suddenly I heard a lout gasp and a even louder and high pitched "MOMMY!!!" I turned around to see my dad standing in his with yellowish night gown in the door frame mouth hanging wide open and eyes comically large.

He was stuttering out a lot of questions like "What are you doing here, Mommy?" or "Really, Vodka?! It's only 9am." But Oma ignored him and yelled:"Have you lost your mind? How could you do this to me. To our family name. You stopped killing muggles for a vacation in Italy. You are a disgrace to this entire family." " I-I-I j-just thought it w-would be a good i-i-dea."

"You just thought! Well clearly you didn't. And for your information. I'm not drinking Vodka. It's water. I'm not an alcoholic."

Yeah, that's right. Oma is NOT an alcoholic. Just like uncle Lucius isn't one either. My dad just stared at her and said again "What are you doing here?"

"I'm part of this family and this is a family vacation. So of course I'm here. Somebody has to make sure you haven't gone completely insane. And I also wanted to see my granddaughter again." Oma answered slightly annoyed but smiled at me. Well, I think she did. You never know with her.

"Where are the others? Is the rest of the lazy folk still asleep?" Oma complained and took a big swing of her water.

"Bella is up. The rest, I don't know." Dad said unsure. "What are the plans for today, daddy?" I asked. Dad seemed to think before he answered: "Today is our first day here, so I thought we chill here a little bit and do some watersports."

"Yay!!! I love watersports. Especially waterball!!!" I said excitedly, while jumping up and down. "Of course that's your great plan for today. To do absolutely nothing. You are so lazy." Oma said with a very disappointed look on her face, while she poured herself another glass of water.

"It's not lazy. We just want to spent some family quality time. And we don't have to do a lot because it is vacation." Dad tried to defend. "Yeah, yeah, what ever" Oma said dismissively.

Then mom came. She was as equally shocked as dad when she saw oma. "Oma, what are you doing here?" Mom said with a forced smile. "And are drinking Vodka? We said no alcohol around Delphi" she added with a disapproving tone.

"Like I already explained to my lovely son. I'm here because this is a family vacation. And I'm family. It's water that I'm drinking, not Vodka. I don't drink."

Mom groaned really loud and dad walked quickly over to the bar to pour himself a glass of a brown yellowish liquid. I assumed it was apple juice. Dad emptied the glass and looked like he wanted to die.

Then Narcissa and Draco came in. Narcissa was pleasantly surprised when she saw Oma. Draco didn't seem to notice her presence. He was busy staring at his phone. "Lovely seeing you here, Oma." Narcissa said. For some reason Narcissa was the only adult who got along with oma. Oma always criticized dad. She didn't like mom because Oma is her mother-in-law. I don't know about Lucius. Oma never talks about him. I don't think I've ever seen them in one room.

But Oma didn't respond to her. She just stared at Draco, who still didn't notice her. "What is that?! Is that one of those muggle phones?! Why do you have this?!" Oma shrieked and started to completely freak out. She screamed things like "Stupid muggles." And "Stupid technology." To my surprise she didn't go for Draco. She went for dad. "And you allow this. That your nephew owns this muggle trash. Unbelievable!"

"Mommy, please. I didn't know he had it." Dad exclaimed quietly. "Boy, why do you own such horrible device, that is contaminated with muggles." Dad asked Draco in a strict voice. For the first time Draco lifted his head and saw Oma. His eyes went wide and his skin even paler as usual. "I uh need this for uh school."

He stuttered out. "I use it to uh submit my school assignments because uh owls don't fly to Italy. You know owl policy and stuff." He then explained a little bit unsure. "Oh, I didn't know Hogwarts uses now muggle trash. But I mean it is for school so I guess it is fine." Oma said understanding.

"I'm hungry." I said because I couldn't stand the fact that the attention wasn't on me. I mean I'm the main character after all. "Well Lucius went shopping for food. He actually should be here by now." Narcissa said.

"I had a long journey and I'm tired. I'm going to bed." Oma said with a yawn and left. But not before she took two bottles of her favourite brand of water. Five minutes after Oma left. Lucius came back from shopping and we all got to the dining area to eat breakfast.

The rest of the day was not that eventful. We stayed at the house and chilled. We all played some watersports. I didn't see Oma for the rest of the day. Mom said it's because she is tired and has a male cat (Hangover). Whatever a male cat has to do with this.

At the end of the day we had a beautiful dinner in the garden. Dad made pizza, which wasn't even that bad. Then I went to my room because I had to go to bed.

#harry/draco #harry potter #dumbass #fuck dumbledore #oma #oma ist keine Alkoholikerin #Lucius malfoy in a wig #grapes #character death #enemies to lovers #italy #i dont deserve to live