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that-sarcastic-writer · 2 years

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Lost Time (Soldier Boy)

Mind games til we lose control drabble

Pairing: Soldier Boy X FSupe!Reader

Summary: After the disaster at Herogasm, you and Soldier Boy blow off some steam, and make up for the loss time. Takes place during that one scene at the beginning of ep7, but like not that. Just same place. This is just porn without a plot I'm sorry.

Warnings: 18+, minors dni, unprotected sex (pls children wrap it before you tap it), p in v, oral (f receiving), fingering, creampie, dirty talk bc its Soldier Boy, praising kink, bit of degrading, drug use, brief mentions of stormfront, allusion to attempted sexual assault (NOT from sb). Slightly occ ben, I make him slightly less horrible. This is one is kinda heavy so strap in.

WC: 2k

A/N: pls I'm sorry, I know I'm bombarding yall with soldier boy (smut) I promise I was gonna take few days and post something else, but I was just sitting here thinking how I havent seen any fics of sb eating pussy so I wrote it. I promise I'm not turning into a sb blog, i have a dean winchester fic coming, I just so happened to finish this one in one sitting in like 2 hours. Dont unfollow me pls kay enjoy the sin love yall. Ps I know this is too long to be a drabble but idk what else to call it so just accept it.

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"And you remember that chick Liberty?" You asked Ben absentmindedly, an arm behind your head as you held a joint to your lips with the other. You heard him hum, his face pressed to your stomach as he left sloppy kisses on your skin, "So turns out she was like a nazi."

"What the fuck?" He snapped his head up to look at you with a twisted look on his face. You looked down at him and nodded, taking a long drag of the joint before placing it on the ashtray next to you.

"You didn't know?"

"Fuck no. I was a soldier during World War II, you think I would've been in the same room as that bitch had I known she was a nazi?" He scoffed and shook his head, looking like he was questioning his life choices. "Fuck, and to think I founded Herogasm with her."

"Yeah well," You shrugged, watching him with a raised eyebrow as he laid his head on your bare thigh. He was a surprisingly good listener. And since you were pretty much catching him up on all the supe and Vought business he had missed, he was particularly attentive, as well as he could be with you naked and him between your legs of course. "Her and Homelander were fucking, like they were public and everything. And honestly it doesn't surprise me, that motherfucker is a weirdo. And that's saying something."

"You know the fucker? He recognized you at Herogasm." He raised an eyebrow at you, you could hear the slight bit of possessiveness in his tone. Funny how some things didn't change. He would always throw a fit if he found out you talked to other men, he was the only man in your life. Yeah as if.

You snorted at him and shrugged, running your fingers through his long honey strands, "Some. He wanted me to join The Seven years ago. I thought about it, and then the motherfucker tried to get me to fuck him in exchange of joining the team. And you know exactly how well that went when you tried it the first time. Told him fuck off and he didn't like it. And of course Vought didn't give a shit when I told them what he did, so I left and they got Noir instead."

"At least I took no for an answer," He scoffed with both a mixture of disgust and anger. "And for the record, I didn't ask you to fuck me to join the team, I wanted to fuck you, and after that I wanted you to join the team, but those weren't mutually exclusive."

"Oh right, you were such a gentleman." You rolled your eyes at him and chuckled, hoping to humor him, but he still had a hard expression on his face.

"But he didn't—"

"No Ben, he didn't do anything. It was a long time ago, I haven't seen him since. Well, not before Herogasm." You reassured him, fingers threading to his scalp, making him close his eyes and hum lowly.

"I don't know what I would've done if he had laid a fuckin' hand on you when I wasn't there to protect you." He mumbled, his lips pressed against your thigh, you barely heard him, but you did. You sighed softly.

"Yeah well you're here now. So relax, relax before we have to go fuck some more people up. Enjoy this while you can." You emphasized, biting your lip softly. You saw the way his expression changed, and his pink lips twisted into a smirk.

"Yeah I'm gonna fuckin' enjoy this alright." He bit his lip, positioning himself so that your legs were on either side of his broad shoulders and he was laying on his stomach.

You watched with glazed eyes as he drew a line on your stomach and pitched the side or his nose before he dragged it across your stomach, the white substance lingering in his nose. He sat on his elbows, eyes closed as he sniffled and hummed.

"Christ, that's some good shit." He chuckled, wiping his nose with the back of his hand and looked up at you, pupils so dilated that you barely see the green in his eyes. But you didn't know if that was from the drugs or lust, maybe both. "But this is better."

You gasped, body jolting when he dipped his head and dragged his tongue over your clit, suckling on the bud for a second or two before he lifted his head up again, leaving you whimpering.

"Best goddamn pussy I've ever had the pleasure of eating," He rasped, teeth digging into his bottom teeth as he threw your legs over his shoulders, pulling you closer to his face and dived back in, but not before he muttered, "Can't get enough of it."

He had you like this for hours. Alternating between fucking you with mouth and fingers, and actually fucking you. Ever since you got back from Herogasm, your failed attempt at killing Homelander and pretty much hijacked The Legend's place, you had been in this room, with Ben all over you. He had always been insatiable, but even back then he would get tired too, and would take breaks. But now, he wouldn't keep his hands off you, he was relentless. You pretty much had to beg him to stop and give you a break. To which he surprisingly agreed. But that was maybe fifteen minutes ago, and he figured it was time to continue, while he still could. Make up for the lost time, you guessed. You weren't complaining though.

His long fingers eventually joined the rhythm of his expert tongue. The second you felt two fingers slip into you you began to feel an ache in your stomach. You gave up on words a long time ago. You were nothing but a mess of whimpers and moans by then. Something that definitely fueled Ben's ego, he loved watching you fall apart for him. He knew your body perfectly, and the second one of your hands flew to pull at his hair, he knew he found your trigger. And his fingers curved over that spot, over, over and over until he had you crying out and he felt warm sparks on his scalp.

Your juices coated his tongue and fingers as you shuddered, your shaky thighs clamping around his head. You were panting, and you could hear your heartbeat thump against your head so hard it made you dizzy. You closed your eyes, hissing softly when you felt Ben's fingers leave you, but his tongue was still drawing slow figure eights on your clit.

"Such a sweet girl. So fuckin' sweet," He coaxed as he pulled his face away from you. You were still shaking from your high when you felt his lips trail up your stomach until he found your neck, and he was attacking that too. "Now that I got you nice and wet, I'm gonna fuck you real good before those fuckers come in and spoil all the fun. I can hear Butcher outside."

You half nodded, still a bit blazed from both the weed and your orgasm, but you still helped him shrug off his ridiculous robe. He unraveled it and tossed it aside before taking his already hard cock into his hands. He grabbed one of your legs and held it over his shoulder as he sat back on his knees and positioned himself at your entrance. He slipped in with a groan, his face twisted into a pleasured expression as he watched the way he slid inside your walls with ease. You were already so cock drunk and fucked all you could do was moan.

"I don't know what I love more, eating this pussy, or fuckin' it." He was drawing back and slamming back in with enough force to make your body slide on the mattress. God, Soldier Boy fucked like he fought, ruthless and with purpose.

Your head was thrown back, eyes screwed shut and your hands were clutching the sheets so tight you thought you were going to rip them. Though by then the whole room was tossed, somehow some pillows had been ripped in half and you were sure the brick wall had dents in it. It was absolutely messy, filthy and absolutely intoxicating. He was intoxicating. Everything about him.

"You're squeezing the fuck outta my cock, you wanna come my pretty Violet?" He rasped and panted, his forehead and chest glistening with sweat as he watched the way he fucked himself in and out of your tight walls. And fuck did he love it. "You need me to make you come again? Is that what my pretty slut needs?"

"Yes! Fuck Ben, please." How you were speaking, you had no idea, but you screamed it, overstimulation and the aching need for release making your vision blurry with tears.

"Fuck, yeah give me what I want. Come for me, do it now." He ordered, sneaking a hand between your bodies and rubbed quick harsh circles on your clit until he had you crying out and your eyes flashed violet. "Fuck, shit, that's it."

Your leg hung over his shoulder as he leaned down and held himself up on his forearm as he snapped his hips quickly but more shallow like he was trying to get himself over the edge. You were so drunk on your high you barely noticed when be grabbed your hand placed it on your lower belly, his own hand right of top of yours, and you sure noticed when he pushed down on your belly with the slightly bit of pressure on it and spoke in your ear.

"You feel that? That's exactly where only I fuckin' belong. Not Homelander, not fuckin' anyone, me." He rasped, a groan leaving his lips when he gave you one final thrust and spilled inside you.

He kept himself braced on his forearm so as not to crush you with his weight, but his body still laid on top of you, still inside you. Hazily, you threw your arms over his neck and ran one of your hands through his damp hair. His heavy breaths and your own filled the room, but other than that you laid in silence, simply soaking in the feeling of each other. Fuck did it feel right. Too bad it didn't last.

"Oi children!" You heard an unmistakable cockney accent as the doors suddenly opened, followed by a pair of collective groans.

"Fuckin' Christ. Can't even fuck my girl in peace." Ben groaned as peeled himself from you and sat up, naked as the day the boys found him.

"Oh Jesus, please put that away." Hughie muttered to Ben, face red as it could get at the sight of you two naked.

Despite your still hazy state, you were quick to pull the sheets over your naked body as you sat up. You inhaled sharply as you brought your legs to your knees, muscles already screaming at you for your reckless activities. You eyed the three men in front of you. Legend was going on a rant about the room you destroyed, Butcher was berating Ben for his shitty Intel on Mindstorm, and Hughie just stood there mortified.

"It's not like you've never seen a dick before. You do have one right? Or do you just have a pussy down there and that's why you act like one?" Ben chuckled, looking directly at Hughie as he stood up, cock half hard and with no urgency to grab his robe from the ground.

"Ben, stop harassing the kid and put your dick away." You scolded him, being pretty much the only person on this earth that could tell Soldier Boy what to do without being threatened with bodily damage. He glared at you, but complied nonetheless and wrapped the robe around himself. "And you two could learn to fucking knock, save yourself the trauma." You sighed as you looked around the bed for your clothes but they weren't on sight. Until you felt something hit the side of your head and fall on the bed.

"Asshole." You glared at Ben as you grabbed the hoodie sitting beside you and slipped it on, the smirk on his face making you roll your eyes.

"Anytime sweetheart." He winked at you before turning his attention to Butcher and Hughie who were going back and forth about Mindstorm. Guess they could find an address after all.

Well off you were. At least you were able to make up for lost time.

#soldier boy #soldier boy x reader #soldier boy x fem reader #soldier boy x you #soldier boy x y/n #soldier boy smut #the boys

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fiery-is-in-pain · 6 months

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I saw ur reblog on my most recent post please post that essay

oooooooh my god holy shit okokok HEAR ME OUT hear me out ok. this will take a lot from Madou Monogatari Timeline, Shin Madou Monogatari, and Puyo Puyo (AND SOME HCS) and it might be very biased but HEAR ME OUT.

We know Lilith meant a lot to Satan because you know she was his WIFE they were MARRIED for a long time. Now we're not entirely sure (to my knowledge) if Satan knows the true nature of her self sacrifice. I've seen people take it both ways (and I personally hc he didn't entirely know what the what using the Seraphim Orb really entailed) either way Lilith died and left Satan to take care of the world she created for him.

We don't see the direct aftermath of her death (that I know of) so who the hell knows how he took it but considering he LOVED HER SO MUCH HES STILL THINKING OF HER THOUSANDS OF YEARS LATER (very guessed based off of the timeline and Satan's age) really says something.

Then Arle comes along, some little mf that basically looks exactly like his dead wife. Putting aside the weird stuff, we KNOW he doesn't chase Arle because of any real attraction, he does it because she gives him a sense of NOSTALGIA (from Rulue's Spring Break of Fists. I havent played the game or seen a real translation so Puyo Nexus could have made it up idk) WHO LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE ARLE???? LILITH.

a defining trait of Satan during the Madou Monogatari era is is borderline obsessive love for Carbuncle. He was also going to be giving Carbuncle to his fiance. which we know he doesn't have. coincidence? NO. I believe with my entire heart Carbuncle was supposed to go to Lilith before she dies. This also gives me more fuel to the "Satan had no clue the orb would make Lilith 'die'" idea.

ALSO CAN WE TALK ABOUT CHAOTIC FINAL EXAM? THE ONE W LILITH??????? If Rulue didn't kick him through a wall I bet there could have been some way that Satan could see Lilith again. But it probably would have gotten rid of Schezo's character moment that I love so so so much so I guess I can't complain TOO much

ALSO WHEN SATAN REMADE THE WORLD HE COULD HAVE MADE A LILITH COPY TOO. BUT HE DIDN'T. but that is an essay for a different time.

ANYWAY I could keep going with my 298492848 puyo hcs but I will end this one right here because otherwise I won't be able to stop myself.

#questions with fiery

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thepowerisyouth · 2 months

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Eh mental health is annoying. Buying & cooking cheap low-FODMAP diet is annoying. My best top note for now is I'm using this blog to practice writing. I need more practice in it. I only know business, accounting & economics stuff. Its stupid stuff. Theres too much actual fraud everywhere that its annoying

Also I use mobile so formatting sucks cause Nvidia GPUs, or Arch dont like tumblr site. Or tumblr site dont like tumbkr site

Also also I 100,000% support all my fellow ones-and-zeros and their identity. Everyone is welcome here.

Except transphobes/zionist/long list of others but you get it. I'll help harrass any of those types endlessly if someone wants to tag me, and bring me in on an argument like that friend you call for backup with fights

Im unhinged so who's to say exactly what will end up here but this is also a completely public blog to me friends, family, hell, even acquaintances i dont give a fuc.

Blog should be expected to be roughly as child-friendly as simpsons or bobs burgers. But also boring like a civics/economics lesson sometimes. Yay

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I (and my husband) am ex mormon. Its a weird thing. Look into it if you havent recently. Realllllyyyy look into. Takes time to figure it all out in this fuckin fucked up world.

I just moved a year ago. Didnt watch the US stock market as much as I normally do. Had my first snowstorm 10 weeks ago, that was.. fun to handle while ill prepared. About 6 weeks ago I was hopping back on the market and notice its a huge tech bubble about to pop and all the conditions Ive been warned about my whole career imply this is not good. Just took a little more thinking & digging and I'm a little too confident to stop talking about it now.

(Oh I'm also care-free as fuc so I dont really read or desire to change past posts more than lil-nitpicks. More informative for the reader & myself-in-the-future-reading that way)

And I'm not kidding I do love feedback & questions. Its a very public blog tho so I get that part for sure.

If you search "life story" in my tags I had that pinned for a min Im just moving shit around rn

Being poor sucks. Will write more on that later.

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First of all-- the exact timeline of an "economic shock" is literal insanity. Dont worry about the exact timing of any of this-- just know its doomed to happen soon.

Here are some effects I predict of this upcoming economic downturn

If anyone comes across any sources for these events that support my arguments please feel free to add in comments, reblogs, etc.

This concise list is mainly for my own reference, but it would be great to add to it if any one has something to add!

0.5. US Stock market collapse-- I have no desire to try and predict this one exactly. Too many conspiracies are actually correct about this big guy. Lets just say 7 US Tech stocks are worth 25% of the entire worlds market, roughly. "Too big to fail"-- I believe is the phrase

1. Corporate (slightly later will be residential by extension) real estate crisis: currently way too overvalued. Most of the houses, land, & urban corporate property we see could stand to decrease by about 60-90% from its current price.

2. Bankruptcy crisis: similar to the after-effects of the 70s inflation-- we can expect to see a huge wave of bankruptcies affecting a variety of business: from the micro-self employed; to the small business with leased buildings; to the largest corporations who commit massive accounting fraud & hope to escape accountability in time

3. Bank runs-- there is an extremely high overreliance on the Federal Reserve, who does not have good control over this situation. Once it becomes clear that there is a crisis (we call this a catalyst event)-- bank runs for physical cash are a surety. Hard to say how long a crisis like this might last. I should ask my siblings who lived near the SVB bank crisis hotspot (but those were rich fucks they do their "bank runs" over the phone)

3.5. Global currency collapse, which takes effect in every single local, state, & national economy at slightly different times. This means prices lower. Much lower. But takes time

4. Whatever the fuck the geopolitics is gonna do???. Its weird. You got Russia wanting to invade Europe? (Look at global economic forum 2024) Trump wants to let them. Biden wants to be an establishment corporate ass. North Korea has changed its #1 public enemy to South Korea (dont remember my source but it was a couple months ago). USA is stationing more troops in Taiwan, but probably only because of semiconductor technology?

The scope of our global financial woes are larger than can be explained in any of our lifetimes. Its much, much closer to pre-revolution France or the late 1920s. Big change is coming. Itll be soon

5. More to come

#anti capitalism #economics #geopolitics #real estate #bankruptcy #banks #corporate fucks #pinned post #mental health sucks ball sacks #arch linux #nvidia is a scam bubble like enron #simpsons #bobs burgers #intro post #will change it more later

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kaleidosouls · 9 months

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hi. (pulls out uke)

IM JOKING but i havent posted here in forever huh, are ppl still around? i guess ill comment on like, whats been going in in the time i havent posted

so a long time ago now i wanted to like, cut off from twitter, so i deleted the kaleidosouls twitter, and wanted to keep my art stuff just on insta mostly, trying to move since twitter is a sinking ship right. then my instagram got deleted for no reason (and so did my pinterest that was ful of refs and honestly that was more upseting than insta getting deletedand losing all my art following)

ive been mildly caught up in IRL/college stuff in the meantime,having da depression, and the exec dysfunction same as awlays like. not much has actually been happening but ive been going acutally all over the place trying to figure out what im gonna do with my internet social media stuff. im looking into internships (other field) and im like, i havent given up being an artist professionally exactly but i think im like fuck it. fuck this like, building my Internet career or whatever. like, im gona wokr on my art portfolio and try to find art job stuf thats not really about how popular my art is on twitter or smth. none of that shit rly matters anymoer. same w here, i probably wouldve delted this tumblr if it wasnt the main like, blog so all my other blogs dpened on this one right.

im not like, done posting art online but ive been changing how im going about it and i still havent found my like, place yet. i did remake instagram, a main one and one for creature/pokemon stuff. idk im figuring out my life but i guess the main point is that its all a mess, and its not a disaster like things are going bad or anythin just that ive been in this inertia of disorder for a long time. im getting old. really tired lately, barely draw that much

i still rly love and am holding onto my personal ideas/projects that i want to execute oveer time altho they cant be a priority rn becuase of stuff in life. i got a really bad attention span so ill probably like, work on smth a lot for a few ays and then pick it up again in a year or more. the SU stuff is one of those. i actually ammaking this post bc i got really fucking dickhead comments and i was thinking of going off but my social media paranoia PR brain is like weighting on how i cant do that bc itll make my brand look bad and immature, and its like exhausting to live like that yk. altho it Is wise to restrain myself from being mean dsgkj but i also think itd be funny to cuss ppl off so :( life is very hard as an adult!

anyway point is. thigns are a mess rn and they will continue to be for the time being. my accoutns got obliterated so if you wanna keep up with me maybe follow my instagram if you want, i keep forgetting tumblr exists so tahst why i post so little on here. i do like postingt here though, nad i like making little blogs. i like ppls tags on ym art and replies. even the pricky ones like, i get to engage my brain a litlte bit adn its like ppl are out there yk? seieng my stuff, rather than just like, a bunch of numbers of how many likes or reblogs smth has.

most of the stuff left on this blog is for SU reclaimed and i still rly like the idea and its good coping for me and i want to pick it up sometimes but idk what to do with it wrt how i wanna present the content. ive considerd many times making a separate tumblr for it and i am considering that Again but maybe i should just quit it and post it here and forget about that. and find a different way to present the totality of the contents of the AU and use this tumblr as a way to just post it like, a 'devblog' (i am not developing SHIT this is just conceptual design writing stuff)

if theres anyone still following thats like engaged/interested in SU reclaimed feel free to comment with your thoughts or suggestions,i guess i could make an instagram for it? but ehh... idt thats how i wanna like, execute it. welp. i guess if i do make smth ill post about it here,i guess the point is that maybe i can try to post on here moreoften, idk, like i want my instagrams to be more tidy and like, impersonal. i deleted twitter bc i dont want to engage that personalyl at ALL anymore as an artist w viewers. not to mention it sinking. but i guess tumblr Is the perfect place to keep that unprofessional, slightly casual blogging artist experience. maybe if i get to cuss ppl out :D but then i dont wanna get harassed later over it. hm.. sucks to exist online tbh

thank u if youve read this far. if youre a mutual (somehow) or a long time follower and wanna know how to better keep up w me since i know im disappearing a lot feel free to dm

#personal #just how ive been/thougths/rambling

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1252291 · 2 years

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IDK WHATS GOING ON WITH ME BUT I NEVER USED TO FUCK WITH EREN BUT THE PAST COUPLE DAYS??? THINKING ABOUT NOTHING BUT EREN! AND ON TOP OF THAT??? I CAME ACROSS YOUR ONLINE & OFFLINE FIC AND LET ME TELL YOU!!! I READ ONLINE AT WORK AND I HAVENT THOUGHT ABOUT ANYTHING BUT EREN ALL DAY!!! JDOEODHEKW!;!;!;! I JUST WANTED TO COME ON HERE AND TELL YOU THAT YOUR WRITING IS CHEFS KISS AND THOSE TWO PIECES (the only ones I’ve read so far) ARE MASTERPIECES!!! I AM HONORED TO HAVE COME ACROSS THEM!! WHEN I DIE, THOSE TWO FICS WILL BE SLAPPED ACROSS MY TOMBSTONE IDC!!! 😭😭

It says you’re taking requests but more of a suggestion if you’re up for it!!! It would be cool to see Eren’s POV as well!!! Like how did he add y/n? Was it random or did he somewhat know her or what made him wanna just send her filthy videos!!!!!!

HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT REST OF YOUR DAY/NIGHT WHEREVER YOU ARE!!! <3

heeeeello !! i'm gonna put my response under the cut so i don't clog ppls dashes BAHAHAH BUT THE IMPORTANT PART !! for all to see is thank you so much for reading. I'll say thank you properly under the cut in a sec!!

Honestly, I felt that. I mean...I only started watching aot last year when the first part of season 4 came out, so like...I literally wasn't an Eren fucker, then the season switched over to s4 while I was binging the show (I didn't even know they were coming out w/ s4 at the time LMFAOOOO like I had no prior knowledge of aot before I watched it), SO LIKE WHEN it switched over and I saw hobo Eren I was like 👀 wait a minute......then he SHAVED???? I was an eren fucker after doing like two days of not being an eren fucker lmfao. But thank you so, so much!!! I know you responded to my ask where I thanked you already 😭 but I was also watching tv so I didn't want to give you a half assed response after that, cause you took sm of your time to leave this message!! It means so much to me when people take the time out of their day to message me, or even reblog a fic 😭 or read it and like it. LIKE DAAAAMN, u did that !! for me??? and...Eren, ehe.

Your fam is abt to go up to ur grave and be like 🥴 DAAAAMN.

Actually it's so funny you ask that, because I know exactly why he added reader on snapchat, ahahaha. I plotted that out with the original post. I think it'd be like a repeat of the original fic if I wrote it, but thank you for the suggestion anyways!! I'll tell you the answer though >:) It's honestly just because Eren was on snapchat and HONESTLY isn't the type to customize shit, lbr, so ofc he never customized his emoticon thing. Probably sending snaps to Armin or something. either way, he was on there, and y'know how snapchat has like...add friends of friends, add friends from your contacts, add lists. JUST LIKE the random lists. He deadass scrolled through them until he saw reader's emoticon and decided well, that looks cute and added them 😭 and eren is, y'know, eren. he was like well, i'm also kinda horny, so...maybe something can come out of this.

but in all honesty, who knows what goes through eren's mind 99.9% of the time. man is a menace.

I hope you have a good night/day, too!! It's like 12:40am for me ZLKXJREAR SO I'M goin through the night 😭 the weeeee hours

#answered #STOP I LAUGHED WHEN I SAW U SENT AN ASK like seconds after i sent one LKZXJRLIEARE #long post/

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theunconcernedembalmer · 3 years

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Toko! I was thinking of creating an ask the character blog for IDV or Genshin Impact and wanted a few tips on how to start off. Anything you can share?

ey yo my dude!! thank you so much for this question, now im lowkey tempted (again) to make a genshin ask blog sjadhlkshgkahshglsaj anyway my 1.5 cents is under the cut, yall know how much i talk here HAHAHAHAH

uhhhhhh so i guess we start with picking a character u really Vibe with tm? I KNOW THIS SOUNDS LIKE COMMON SENSE BUT LIKE ive been considering making a genshin ask blog for a while now but i never really got to it cos i couldnt really decide on a character (plus the fact that their outfits are. so intricate. is also a hmm since i try to follow details to a t) (at first i wanted to do zhongli, but i feel like to be able to muse him well u need to know the lore super super well, which i dont n im too lazy to research on that aha. n u know how much i respect characterizations, especially for such a complex character like him. i also considered xiangling for a period of time mostly for guoba but also like i have 2+1 blogs here n having one more might not be a very good idea aha) (as for aesop he was my Hyperfixation Character tm also cos i looked at his kit n went Yep i could work with this. probably)

so assuming ur not a dumbass like me n u kinda know who u wanna pick, id actually say to snoop around here for other ask blogs n kinda get a feel of the... scene? is that the word? or like u know, other blogs that u can potentially vibe with. ive run a couple of ask blogs before this current one (both that have died for different reasons) n from my experience interacting with other blogs (if theyre okay with it, i think most should be) is pretty fun. it also kinda helps get ur blog around to other ppl on other blogs so they can go Oh whats this cool shit n check u out, n its also a reason why we kinda reblog promo posts for other blogs (also cos we’re always excited when someone new comes on, its really the more the merrier. we see all :eyes:). interacting with other blogs is also an option when ur inbox is looking real roomy too

another reason why i havent exactly done a genshin blog is that idk i cant actually seem to find genshin ask blogs around (i have seen rp blogs, or those that answer asks with mostly text instead of art, but thats. not my thing since i hate my own writing aha) (i did find one aether blog some time ago, but for some reason i hardly see them around anymore??? idk man i might be wrong). its not like im trying super hard to find them ask blogs, so im sure they exist out there (hopefully?? im not sure but im being optimistic). i mean theres nothing wrong with just starting an ask blog without others around, but for me i do find a difference when i interact with other ask blogs n when i dont, n i prefer when theres others to have fun with (unfortunately i couldnt find any ask blogs to interact with in my previous fandom. i tried, but the blogs i approached seemed to go inactive shortly afterwards...) plus u get to meet friends that way too :D (i made a lot of friends via idv askblogs n its really been a joy vibing with others)

as for the idv scene. gestures around me. unfortunately there are a lot of ask blogs that arent that active anymore, but theres still some of us who are alive n kicking empty inboxes, n im sure everyone would love to see a new face around. winks at u. also there seems to be a lot more blogs popping up lately, which is really heartening to see.

then u kinda just. make ur blog? n a starting introduction post so ppl can reblog it n spread the word XD n yay u have a blog i guess??? XD

i gotta say tho. dont expect ur blog to take off immediately (especially for smaller fandoms like idv, tvbh i didnt think my blog would even get half this far when i started cos of how non existent idv tumblr seemed to be) n ur inbox will probably be looking pretty empty a lot of the time (or at least filled with some that u havent quite thought of how to reply to yet aha) (but also like empty inboxes happen pretty often, im sure most of us here have experienced this problem)

in the case of the first ask blog i ever started, it never really took off at all. ngl it was kind of demoralizing n depressing but to be fair i had picked one of the more obscure characters in the series, so obscure that many ppl in the fandom would have never heard of this character before. if u wanted to know, i took a character that only appeared in the 2nd musical of the series, who also made a very brief cameo in the manga to acknowledge his existence within that universe. thats how obscure my character was, but i went with him purely because he was my favourite character. i will say though i did enjoy it while it lasted n i learnt a lot from the experience, n i think thats whats important really.

i guess this kinda leads on (not really but let me digress) to the whole uhhhh thing where if u choose a more popular character, u get more attention. which is fine i guess? if u really vibe with the character, i mean theyre popular for a reason. n choosing a more popular fandom (like genshin) would objectively also get u more viewers n numbers. but like honestly i believe that ask blogs are meant for u to have fun with, n like trying to get popular gets tiring pretty fast (this shouldnt be like a main goal, but u know sometimes u subconsciously also want that gucci follower count n bomb ass notes or something. i used to be guilty of this until i realized it isnt worth it) especially if ur not enjoying yourself in the process. (case in point: my previous fandom was considerably larger n my blog got about 700 followers within a year or so, but it got very tiring n stressful to maintain after my interest in it died, n no one was really interacting with the blog even though i tried which kinda made it even more depressing despite the so called success n popularity of the blog)

anyway on a less serious note, theres a lot of fun stuff u can do with the ask blog, like some ask blogs have really fancy tags that i really like n try to do but also like not really HAHAHAHA. i kinda just channel what i want to see in an ask blog into my own ask blogs (good art is one, i try very hard for it to be good :,DD another is characterization, n others is just extra miscellaneous arts n stuffs like au ideas or memes. these are also somethings u could work on during ask box downtimes perhaps)

uhhh another side thing is like a posting schedule i guess? like ppl would be more likely to interact (i think) if ur blog is relatively active, n this is usually determined by the last post u made (i think XD). but like generally for blog maintenence id say try to kinda find a frequency that ur comfortable with?? cos i know my once a day posting is kinda insane if i wasnt so hyperfixated on all of this n fight the urge to dump all ur replies when u finish them XD (though ive seen some blogs do that n they do it pretty frequently so its pretty nice to know once u see their post u can spend some time going through the latest batch of posts XD) the queue function is pretty useful here even though i truthfully have never really used it, i kinda just post from my drafts really but it also helps to space out ur content to seem somewhat active especially when u dont have the time to be working on replies sometimes. i hope u know what im trying to say here aha

ANYWAY that was like my 1.5 cents cos i dont even think its worth 2 cents HAHAHAHAH these are just my thoughts from running all my blogs up till now, some that are still running n the others that have just died a natural death. i wouldnt actually delete them (theyre still around actually XD) cos theyre kinda like archives n i can look back at what i did last time. cos ngl i made some high quality stuff back then, n i dont even know how i managed to do that aldhflhdsgk. also ppl do look at archive blogs every now n then for the content thats there yknow

BUT YES anyway if u do decide to join the idv ask blogs hmu, ill be sure to give u a lil shoutout here. winks

#its me the mun #unconcerned ramblings #i know ive said that there are a lot of new blogs popping up #but uhhh i dont really dare to interact with them #considering they kinda did come in just when shit had hit the fan n idk i might have been known as The Problematic Blog tm #so i understand if ppl dont want to interact with me n im fine with it. so for now i wont be initiating anything #like dropping asks into inboxes unless i know the mun n theyre comfortable with me doing this #i will interact with everyone who drops by my inbox tho!!#i also tend to get to replies for other blogs faster than general replies cos i feel bad if i kept the other person waiting for too long #I DO forget about rp replies sometimes tho. sometimes #i try my best to get to every one of them tho. even when im kinda busy this period aha #also starting off is actually easy. its about maintaining thats difficult i feel #which is also why i havent done up a genshin ask blog yet HAHAHAHAHA #i really hate to give up on something ive already started when it comes to art projects so

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spearxwind · 3 years

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Part 1: Hey! I love your art/OCS and your blog has introduced me to your friends who also have awesome OCs. This made me notice that Tumblr and Twitter seem to interact with original characters differently. I'd love to meet people and friends who'd like to interact with my OC doodles, but Twitter feels like a difficult space to get interaction, despite more artists moving over there. Whereas years ago, I had ask blogs for my fan-made and original characters which received plenty of interaction.

hi! yeah, from my experience twitter is a lot more eh... hostile when it comes to looking for interaction. it's a site that runs on people making short slapstick posts, with very limited characters, so people generally cant even talk a lot about their ocs in the first place. twitter also hides long threads, condenses them in your feed so you dont really see them

most artists have moved there bc of the nsfw ban, and generally twitter has a lot more users, so its a lot easier to find an audience IF, and only IF you already have a couple people to spread your posts around, bc twitter doesnt have the same kind of tagging system as tumblr does

ive definitely found more artists to follow through twitter but because of the super fast paced nature of the site (and also my short attention span) i dont really have time to get to know about peoples ocs at all

to answer your questions though:

1. posting on tumblr now gets me a LOT less interaction/notes than it used to. legit. i get maybe, 100-200 notes tops on normal posts when years ago i used to get twice or three times that. i get SOME more on generally popular ocs/designs bc people are like oohhh ahhh aesthetic but yeah. HOWEVER, it DOES occassionally get me curious people asking questions about my ocs which is ultimately what i really want. posting on twitter gets me a lot more attention (i mean, fucking compare my latest art, 340 notes on tumblr versus 4k total on twitter) but all the interaction with that tweet is people going 'oohh ahh thats so cool!!' but on tumblr SOMETIMES MAYBE i get questions going like ‘so based on ur last art, does oc do X’ or i get anons saying funny shit and its rly nice, i dont rly get that on twitter a whole lot

2. dont fucking know how i drew in my crowd. i wish i did though so i could avoid it lmao. ii know back in 2015 i racked up a bunch of people/notoriety bc of httyd2 and i kinda rode that out into dragons and then creatures and then edgy stuff. i also am usually the one going out to people and going ‘wow ur ocs are sick bro can u tell me about them pwease’ especially on here bc again, its so much harder to do that on twitter

last notes:

- ive seen ppl on twitter make side accounts specifically for oc talking. i myself have a personal account where i just go off abt ocs on occassion, but its also my private account that maybe 4 friends have total, i dont allow random people in. i rly wish i could do that on here though o

- on twitter anything you post will be gone from peoples feeds in 24 hours roughly. thats just how it is. you dont see people retweeting things that are super old unless the artist themself rts it and gets it circling for a day or two more. and yet without doing jack shit i have posts of mine circulating here on tumblr for fucking years, inexplicably. people are still reblogging my httyd posts, and following me for some very specific fanart i made in 2017 and i am like.why are you here. how did you find this

- i HAVE seen my shit stolen/ripped off on tumblr a lot more than twitter though, but i think thats just because its easier for ppl on twitter to slip under the radar if they never interact with u. who knows though i havent exactly studied this

idk if any of this is helpful but its my personal experience. im just rly biased towards twitter i hate it. i wish i could leave but 99% of my client base is there so i cant -_-

#ask #advice #legally can i tag that? idk #long post #as an extra sidenote. ive personally stopped sharing so much of my oc stuff on both sites because of the theft #im just so tired lol #but i used to share so much on tumblr. just make big huge posts about my ocs with their info

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bts-bay-bee · 3 years

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Check-In Tag <3

thank you for tagging me, lovely! 💕 @tangledsparkles

1. Why did you choose your url?

it was the first thing that came to mind ig. literally next to no thought went into my url, and now im too lazy to change it.

2. Any side blogs? If you have them name them and why you have them?

no side blogs,,, one trash blog is enough 💜

3. How long have you been on Tumblr?

i first posted on the 1st of May 2021, so just over a year

4. Do you have a queue tag?

I think so but its not exactly working,,,, ill get better at running this blog, i promise

5. Why did you start your blog in the first place?

so,, because of miss rona, i fell down the bts-rabbit hole and became an army. i wanted to try writing and then this shit-post loving blog was created

6. Why did you choose your icon?

tae was my bias at some point, and now i just keep getting biaswrecked. but im too lazy to change it lol. im probably never changing it tbh

7. Why did you choose your header?

ITS A PLAIN BLACK BANNER. it was something that was easy and i didnt exactly have to do anything to make it fit my theme.

8. What’s your post with the most notes?

i think its Quarantine? that just hit 3k lately, its also my only fic that has ever been on fic recs so yeah 😂

9. How many mutuals do you have?

i literally counted so 20,,,, but im too shy to speak to most of them.

10. How many followers do you have?

710. my goal is 1k by the end of the year 🥺 also, i feel like most of my followers are p*rn bots 😂

11. How many people do you follow?

63,,,, i went on a massive unfollow spree the other day and unfollowed any blogs that havent been active for the past 6 months. before that, it was 100+

12. Have you ever made a shitpost?

uhhh look at my entire masterlist

13. How often do you use tumblr each day?

literally all the time. even if im not reblogging things or replying to my dms, im usually just scrolling.

14. Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once? Who won?

?no? if i ever get into a fight/get hate i’ll just delete it. if i wanted to fight i wouldve just spoken to my family, damn

15. How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

bs. i reblog what you wanna reblog, idc idc.

16. Do you like tag games?

i like all games, it makes me feel like i have friends on here 😂

17. Do you like ask games?

refer to my answer above 🥺👉👈

18. Which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

uhh i think @ladyartemesia ? when i saw they reblogged a gif set from me i was like

and also like “miss ma’am what are you doing here, we dont post quality things on this blog 😭” but yeah. shocked. i also wanted to send them a hbd message but ofc im too shy (and we have a birthday in the same week, even bigger shocker ik).

19. Do I have a crush on a mutual?

all my mutuals are angels, why am i limited to having a crush on one?

20. Tags?

ahhhhhhhh i literally havent spoken to many people on here, so you guys dont have to do it if you dont want to!!!.

@rkivemagic @michael-is-bae @joonwater @lunar-jimin @ladyartemesia

#tag games #tangledsparkles #mutuals

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wavesmp3 · 3 years

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directors cut: oasis

[doing this entirely for myself, out of pure self indulgence lol] [this will be very messy/poorly organized and there will be spoilers]

okay so where to even begin omg..... we will start with the origins of oasis:

its actually, techinically a spin off of the world from this drabble with dino from svt. which the world in this drabble is what the world from oasis would look like very far in the future. but i changed a lot between writing that drabble and creating oasis. but there should be a scene in the drabble that is very similar to a part in oasis (hint: the first vision they got from saskila was not just a random vision with no meaning.......hehe)

but that drabble (its titled dreamscapes) was inspired by a mix of this post on tumblr about how nuclear waste warning signs sounded very cool and the book that i was reading called the children of blood and bone by tomi adeyemi

and then after i had made that drabble i saw dee’s (@/atbzkingdom’s) post about the time capsule collab, and i had a couple ideas of what i could do for it but i ultimately decided on what would eventually become oasis !! so i guess we really have dee and that collab to thank for this piece lol

now for the timeline of me writing:

so i started outlining this piece in the first couple days of january, and normally outlines take me a while to come up with just because i struggle in coming up with plot, but i knew that my spring semester of classes would be starting soon and that I didn’t have a lot of time so i just sort of grinded an outline out as well several paragraphs of pure worldbuilding.

and then i started writing

and wow i was Really writing!! at my peak productivity i was easily getting down like 2k a day which for me is insane (for reference, i wrote 1k a day for tsiytt and i struggled my way through that)

but then life happens classes had begun and my writing for oasis slowly become nothing...

i really only found the time to work on the piece every other weekend, so i was really nervous that i wouldn’t finish in time (which technically i didn’t cause it was supposed to come out march 1st) but luckily i did

and at some point in february, i had lost so much of my momentum and motivation for this piece that i almost gave up on it. (at this point i was writing the scenes after they find the seat of wisdom destroyed) but again luckily i did not, but i personally can definitely see a decline in the quality of my writing towards the end (i mean maybe its in my head, but its sort of like i can see the loss of love for the wip in my writing at the end of it)

but don’t misunderstand, i still love oasis!! and in all honesty, i’m already considering starting a second draft to it, which is way sooner than i thought i would lol

also when i started writing this piece, i began writing it in the order that it would be read, but then halfway i switched to writing chronologically

anyways, something i learned while writing this piece, is that writing is a marathon. whereas, even with my longer pieces, i always viewed writing as a sprint. so as i start venturing into original works and more lengthy pieces of writing, i think this was a very valuable lesson for me to have learned.

okay now to the good stuff lol: [the first word of the bullet about the next chapter (?) is bolded for some crumbs of an organized commentary]

so this is jumping to the first past bit... but when i first wrote farah i had a very different plan for her character than who she ended up being. i had imagined that she’d be a lot more cold and a tough love sort of person. so that’s who i was writing when she’s first introduced in the flashback, but she very quickly become a much kinder full of love sort of person. but anyways i mention this because whenever i read that first part and the introduction of her character, i’m always a bit taken aback by how like mean here character is to crown then lol

also zoar !!!! its a terrible place, but i love that underground city

i also wrote the first flashback after i had written the scene where crown and chanhee are talking at his place in andhor, so the whole “fearless” connection was done very purposefully here since i knew how it’d be referenced in the next scene. someone mentioned this small connection in their reblog but i cant remember who

also rashi is my favorite character xD

i personally think how crown and chanhee became friends (the running thing) is so cute

this first bit of conversation between crown and chanhee when it switches back to the present and chanhee is giving them a tour of andhor is actually quite important to me, in the sense that its the first glimpse of how their actual relationship works and how they act together and just like their dynamic despite the fact that they havent seen each other in so long

and yeah i think kyu mentioned this and a few others, but i love how awkward it is when chanhee and crown are in his home in andhor, cause one: they havent seen each other in years! but also: anyone else find going to someone’s place for the first time oddly intimate, like wow you’re opening up your home to me and now suddenly idk how to sit or stand or what to do with my arms... maybe just me LMAO

DUDE i struggled so hard with making it so that chanhee knew how impossible this whole mission was going to be without actually revealing that he knows about the mirror. it was so hard for me, hopefully it came out alright though. if anyone is reading this, did the twist(s) come as a shock to you? did you see it coming? or did it feel like it came out of absolutely no where and not in a good way?

yes i did name the desert after the department store kohls .....

i was so excited to explain all the mage types, i had so much fun writing this whole chapter

fun fact: there was originally another sub group of psyche mages called dream mages who had like powers with dreams and stuff, but it ended up being irrelevant and really underdeveloped so it took it out

if anyone else was raised catholic or is catholic then i’d hope you recognize the names of all the relics.... i stole them from a prayer in the rosary whoops

it took me very long time to figure out exactly how the whole soul for the relic business would work, and idk if im a 100% satisfied with what it is/how it works/how it plays into rashi giving chanhee the locket

the note new gives crown.... the first slice of their friendship blooming, bro i eat that shit up

this part where crown and rashi are talking after the lesson is actually one of my favorites. (like i said i love rashi, but i just really love her interreacting with crown, i think they have such an interesting dynamic and one that i’ve seen irl a lot between students and teachers, where the student adores the teacher... i’ll get more into this later) but moving on, i like it for a number of reasons. one: it’s the first time we as readers get to see rashi talk outside of her role as lesson master. two: i love crown getting this validation from rashi. it’s not really expanded on a lot, but crown’s magic is definitely a bit of an insecurity for them, in the way that they don’t feel like it belongs to them. but here rashi comes, this person that crown looks up to so much, and telling crown that they’re a bit similar when it comes to having magic. and surprising crown by comforting them. and... idk i just really love this moment for crown.

okay this line: “You call your mom Rashi?” is a lowkey reference to game plan,, if anyone knows what i’m talking about then please come clown me for nearly having the entire movie memorized

oh, i also find the capital really cool. in my head the capital was always one huge building that contains an entire city but i realized while editing that i never really explained that, so idk if i successfully described the capital as cool as it is to me

also the five friends part.....CUTE

when chanhee says “i know. i remember.” !!! girl i felt that line with my entire chest. idk why

okay wait this part: “But that knowledge seems to fall flat right now. Because despite everything, curiosity won the war.” i love it so much, its that tiny of sliver of hope that gets me personally

i think this part where crown’s pride is so hurt by no one telling them about chanhee’s healing magic is quite important because its a glimpse of how stubborn and prideful and headstrong of a character they can be

also this : “ ‘and do you believe everything rashi says’ / without hesitation, you answer, ‘yes, of course’ “ this is another example of how highly crown thinks of rashi while growing up, almost to a fault. to the point where crown thought rashi could do no wrong. which i think is so interesting to think about when contrasted with the fight crown and chanhee have in the jungle where crown is the one discussing how rashi was wrong. i just like how much growth crown has had between all these years. and their opinion / perspective on rashi is one of the largest indicators of that growth.

I also just really like that paragraph where shadow vs healing is explained... I think chanhee’s magic is so sick

oh also the names thing.... I can’t remember where I got the idea to do that from but im so glad I did. its one of my favorite aspects to this world, and it looks like a lot of other people enjoyed it as well. but apart from the intimacy of it, i love how the use of names affects one’s magic. and that paragraph where they go through all that a mage could do with a name. it gives me chills. just cause.... the possibilities

so many people have mentioned this line.... but I must too, so this part: “magic always comes with a price. this is new’s” ..... crazy

saskila scares me omg

again the first vision they see is not a random scene.... the easter eggs I planted with that mwahaha

yeah that scene where they’re outside the tent discussing who should give their name to saskila..... I love that scene chanhee’s “I don’t have anyone but you” and crown deflecting all that tension with the pinky promise and the saskila calling them lovers.... mwah

this random scene about the hot summer and laying with Farah and new in the gardens is another one of my favorite, it’s just so sweet

but this next scene makes me so sad

like I know what happens and I know that everything turns out okay but I get so scared for crown

yeah just that entire part after Rashi gets to them and when they’re going to the infirmary and before crown passes out... I love that whole part. i think i did an effective job of writing the gravity of that whole moment. cause it makes me a little stunned every time I read it. and I was pretty nervous about not being able to do that scene and that moment justice so I’m glad it turned out like it did

and again this line: magic always comes with a price, and in your case, it comes with several.

okay this part after they jump out of the ship and crown is talking to Chanhee but that other dude is talking too... I hope it’s not too confusing. I really wanted to show through the writing that this was all happening at the same time, but idk it came out well. like in my mind I have such a clear picture of this scene, but I have no clue if I did effective job of showing you guys what I’m seeing through the writing

oh yeah, crowns thing about dual wielding and engulfing the blades in flames.... I find that so cool. they’re so sick for that

yeah also the part where crowns hurt and they give Chanhee their name and they use it.... great moment, but I feel like my writing is a bit lacking here. i just know it could be better.

I think at this point of writing my classes had started, and again the disparity in writing quality is so obvious to me

but the line where chanhee is describing how it all feels, and it says “chanhee feels golden” was inspired by daylight by taylor swift, theres a line in that song that goes “i used to think love would be burning red, but its golden” and like hello the parallels between that and crown’s fire magic.... something to think about

so this next part where it’s back to the past and crown is getting in trouble (as crown does) but the part where crown is like asking but not directly asking for rashi’s name.... that part is so crazy to me cause it’s feels so out of place. but it was purposeful. i was trying to show that crown’s growing and that they’re at this weird age where they feel invincible. and also i wanted to put more emphasis on how being royal and the heir to the throne kind of effects the relationships crown has

and the last line of this part when rashi says “never abuse it” it gives me chills whew

the next part ... another part that i had high hopes for in the outlining stages of writing, but when it came to actually writing, this scene totally flopped, i’m gonna try not to dwell on this part too much cause i just know most of my comments will be about how much i don’t like it. but just overall, this scene could have been SO MUCH BETTER !

omg this little interaction: ““Look!” Chanhee deadpans, shooting you a glare. “The match is about to begin.” / “Wish me luck.” / “I hope you lose.”” i think its so funny and cute

“ Your eyes immediately got to Rashi “ another example of how highly crown regards rashi

“In Wurltan.” hmmmmmm sus.... *laughs in i love mentioning things that won’t make sense to reader until later*

okay this: “Yes, but not just any mage. I…” your voice trails off, pulling at your fingers and looking anywhere but at him. “I wanted you to know.” i cannot stand these two omg

okay this part: “Chanhee thinks and overthinks the words spoken between you both. His mind drifts off to last night as well, that moment in the tent where you shared your warmth. He doesn’t even realize he’s staring at you until you give him a funny look. He quickly looks away and wonders if you’re overthinking everything as relentlessly as he is.” this part makes me think about what ina said about how chanhee shows his love by keeping you in his thoughts and YEAH chanhee’s love language in this piece is thinking about you and staring LOL

i hate this next part, not cause i don’t like it or anything it just makes me sad

but this line: “Like if someone shoved you from behind right now, you wouldn’t push back; you’d let yourself fall straight to the ground.” i actually love that line

also this next entire bit i see SO clearly in mind, i hope i wrote it well enough so that you all saw it clearly too

when chanhee wipes the dirt.... girl i’m wiping my tears

this line : “We’ll lean on each other.” mini love declaration sighhhhhh

yeah that whole part i love so much

the seat of wisdom :(((( no!!!!!

so about this line: “He stares at his palms, at all the lies buried under each nail and at all the secrets shoved in every crack. He watches as they all blow up in front of his face.” >> i had like ten different versions of it before i settled on this one lol

okay so the first part of the last past flashback with crown realizing their true feelings... so soft

news gone, rashis’s dead, :((( it makes me so sad

gosh okay this paragraph..... “I’ve always wondered why the gods blessed me and you the way that they have. They entrusted you with such great power. The only person to be both a healing and shadow mage in centuries. And then,” a tear falls from her eye, “they entrusted you to me.” Chanhee thinks this might be the first time he’s seen Rashi cry. “But now I have reason to believe that this was no accident. I’m beginning to think that the gods have always known it would come to this. And I’m starting,” she falters there, “I’m starting to spite them for it.” it hurts so bad im sorry

the first confrontation with harlan took me so long to write, and i’m still not sure if i actually like it, so again i will refrain from commenting lol

but the part where crown screams : “YOU LOST THE MIRROR OF JUSTICE!” I think i told kyu this but this line makes me laugh because in my head its said the same way bella says: “you nicknamed my daughter after the lochness monster” whenever i see that line i smile lol

honestly this argument scene..... one of my absolute faves,,, everything lina said about it in that reblog just yes!yes!yes!! i can’t even comment about a particular part because all of it i love so much. its another part that leaves me slightly speechless.

but my favorite part of it might be how it ends hehe

these next couple parts were a bit diffucult to write because obviously the air between crown and chanhee is not very light right now so it was just hard to navigate their dynamic at these moments until they apologize but hopefully it turned out alright

i really like this line: “But this moment—with the scent of Harlan’s wine under his nose and the chill of Harlan’s blade against his neck—this moment feels nothing like those. It feels empty.”

“ Chanhee just stares at you.“ -- staring as a love language exhibit b

this whole part... chills bro

“Chanhee exhales because for the first time since this afternoon he looks at your face and sees you.” -- exhibit c ....

okay wait another one of my favorite parts here: the spilled glass metaphor!! again please reference lina’s rb on this because everything said there... could not have said better myself. inspired by this writing advice by ocean vuong and yeah i just think the metaphor speaks for itself, one of my favorite lines (well paragraph) from the entire piece, actually from ALL of my works

it was so hard to think up all of yumi’s different names, i was struggling

them talking about how farah will be happy to see chanhee...... how do i break it to you crown.....she’s dead...... awkward

red streak q! yesss. also i’m so sorry for killing off farah

also kyunyu bestiessss

tbh this whole paragraph: “I get this overwhelming burst of honesty. As if what you both speak of is more than just a simple truth, as if it’s a commandant you blindly follow. What’s even odder is that I only feel that burst when you speak of each other.” Q stops walking and turns so that he faces Chanhee directly. “You speak of Crown constantly. And last night, when I met Crown, your title never left from the tip of their tongue. Humans are so simple really. We mention what we love.” Q pauses for a moment, bringing a hand under his chin. “Do you love Crown?” --i wrote it for myself no regrets

oh wait this bit too : “Quietly, Chanhee says, “I know.” / “Have you been watching?” / “I’ve been waiting.” / “For what?” / He meets your eyes. “For you.”” -- sometimes i do things that live rent free in my own mind

okay im so sorry for just quoting myself but this too : “ He sits back slightly. Shocked. Not by his love for you, but rather by how easily love walked into his heart and settled between his lungs “

lol the part where they try fooling q... why are crown and chanhee like this

the running !!!

yeah also every part after that... tears okay

yumi’s magic !!! its so cool to me, i love it so much

i surprisingly don’t have much to say about the end... i mean i like it, but i just don’t have any comments. the last line tho... good one shawna

okay im done for you sake i hope no one read this lmao

#oasis #mine #not sure what else to tag this lol #oh #directors commentary #this got so long for no reason

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mollydollyjournals · 3 years

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Well look at me having major revelations about my interpersonal relationships and what's fucking me up.

I was thinking last night that maybe I should look at my other old cbt things. Like I dont entirely hate every single aspect of myself, and maybe if I try to look at the things I do like, or at least tolerate, maybe I wont feel so bad. Maybe if I look at the stuff I'm good at or the parts of my body that I'm glad for or whatever. Maybe if I try to tell myself nice things somehow.

Today that morphed into a realisation that I guess is pretty simple and I've kinda been thinking the whole time, but now more clearly solidified. That I dont get told those nice things by other people anymore. Over the past few years of feeling particularly shit, I've always felt I need validation and affection, and I've never been sure if i need a normal amount or if I'm just needy and unrealistic.

I've known I'm touch starved because that eventually becomes a physical feeling for me. Like I have no shape and I'm just growing bigger and bigger and I cant feel the edges of myself, and I need someone to hold me in place and remind me I'm real. All I feel is my fat and i take up the entire room. I have no context for my own size. It fucks up my comfort levels and it fucks with my self image re body dysmorphia.

I think I didnt realise exactly how much I need to just have nice things said to me. Maybe being on here and seeing people reblog stuff about it made me realise. That and something bf said not long ago. He said he was getting a little insecure and I said he could always ask for reassurance if he felt he needed extra, and he basically said that's nice but not helpful as his love language is very much physical touch.

That made something click about what's probably the main reason I get nervous before I go to see him but then I feel fine once I've been there a while. Because the words are missing. I've kind of even thought this before but not even realised I was thinking it, when I was running late and he basically said it's okay take your time, and I thought actually hearing that makes me feel a little better. But it didnt occur to me that maybe actually I need nice words regularly and if I had that I might not feel like that in the first place???

I think I didnt notice it as much before because hb talks a lot. Usually at least. To the point that it gets too much sometimes. So he uses to be where I got my nice words. It works because he can often talk to people on my behalf, and fill in when I'm not feeling talkative. So him backing off was kind of refreshing at first, but it's been so long now and the only times he talks to me it's more like talking at me. He just dumps everything he's thinking and feeling about his own stuff on me and if I can manage to start to say something myself I get something like 'haha yeah life sucks, good luck with that,' and no actual support.

Hb used to be affectionate and say nice things, bf was nice to cuddle up to quietly. Then the pandemic and various other things. I keep feeling unsupported and resentful and not really knowing what to do about it. I got more upset again the other day when I said on my regular social media that I feel shit and need support and got absolute minimal interaction from bf, but two friends messaged me nice things. Even though I know they're dealing with their own stuff.

So I dont really know what to do. Obviously I need to talk to them about it. But 1) I dont think anything will change, and 2) should it even all be on them? What are the odds of having someone who expresses, communicates and understands love and support in exactly the same ways you do? And also meets every other need? It's why I ended up non monogamous. Not just for me - hb really does (or did) talk a lot and it was nice for him to get to go out and talk to other girls when I wanted time to myself. He got to go peacock around and have fun and I'd have an empty house to play music and do what I want, and we could hang out later. So that's without even going into what I got out of having my own freedom.

But that was a couple of years ago. Everything is different now. Now it's so difficult to get the smallest bit of interaction. I dont work and havent for a few years, so I dont even have those interactions. Pandemic fucked it up even more. Now I have one partner who used to talk a lot but doesnt anymore, and one who only did a little to start with because it's not his thing so how can I expect him to suddenly change? I cant.

Should I be looking for something almost queerplatonic? Is there something in the fact that it's always the same couple of friends that end up reaching out eventually? Should I be asking them if they can be my verbal support? Is that just a regular friendship anyway? All my friends are nice but it's not like they shower me with compliments and affection every day.

I mean it's not even that much that I need, just like...some nice things. I dont know. To be able to say if I feel insecure and hear that at least someone doesnt hate me like I hate myself. Be told someone's glad I exist. Or they like to look at me or hear what I have to say or spend time with me. Or they're proud of me. Or they miss me. I so rarely hear those things I struggle to believe it if I ever do because if I dont have it the rest of the time why should it be true now? And now because I've been without it for so long I've become such a pathetic mess I dont know how to fix it. I've long run out of internal reserves but nobody wants to fix a mess like me and nobody should have to.

#self therapy

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extreme-technicality · 5 years

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Have you been asked about your Bakugou headcanons/theories yet? Can I get a link/list summary? I was page stalki-SURFING and I couldn't find the things.

Oho. Ohohohohoho. No, I HAVENT been asked about them yet. Will I take this opportunity to explain, in great detail, every single one of them tho?

You bet your ass I am 3:)

(It’s all going under the cut tho, cuz I foresee this being hella long and I don’t wanna fuck up anyone’s dash)

Ok, so let’s start by getting the fairly popular ones out of the way:

1) Bakugou likes cooking and uses it as a way to destress. 2) He fucking hates the cold/winter in general3) He’s touch-starved as FUCK4) You can pry demisexual!Bakugou out of my cold, dead hands5) Because of the MASSIVE FUCKING EXPLOSIONS LITERALLY AN ARMS LENGTH FROM HIS EAR, boi is going deaf and as a result is learning JSL6) Boi gets nightmares And now, on to my more personal ones. • He and Camie are friends (well, him and the entire group who took the supplementary lessons are all friends, lbr) and he’d rather die than admit it• He gets up scary early in the morning, just to have some peace and quiet to himself. Baku does things like review his notes, go for a morning jog, and more recently he makes breakfast for the whole class on weekends• His closet in his parents’ house is far more diverse than the closet he has at UA. Part of it is that there’s just not enough room for it all, but he doesn’t see the need for a lot of fancy clothes taking up space when he’s only gonna need the workout gear and his lazy clothes. • In a similar vein, he’s got great fashion sense and Kirishima in particular makes him h u r t with his Crocs and his stupid bright patterned shirts and everything. He doesn’t say anything at first (cuz he has a reputation to maintain) but when he does, he says it LOUDLY. • Bakugou likes to keep his space organized. His room at his house has an All Might merch collection to rival Midoriya’s, but he brought almost none of it to UA. (The exception is his favorite All Might figurine, he’s a little superstitious about it and thinks it brings him luck.) His room is just about as normal-looking as Ojirou’s. For the first semester of dorm life, that is. • The next two years see an increase in little knickknacks and personal shit lying around: stuff from the Bakusquad, a framed photo of him and Kirishima hiking (taken by Masaru), scorch marks from when he wakes himself up from the nightmares, stuff like that. • He hates that Kaminari has a higher grade in English than he does• If he doesn’t understand an emotion or how to describe/quantify it, he completely avoids talking/thinking/wondering about it. Complete denial. Bakubitch has the mindset that “if I ignore the thing that doesn’t fit it’ll either go away or solve itself and I can keep focusing on being number one”. It’s a really, REALLY unhealthy mindset. Someone get him a therapist. • He texts with perfect grammar/punctuation• Thanks to Kaminari and Camie, he becomes fluent in Vine• Bakugou actually really likes kids! He just doesn’t exactly know how to relate to them (cuz he’s an 84-year-old man in a 16-year-old’s body lmaooo), but he legitimately wants to take care of them the best he knows how. • He’s one of those organized nerds with playlists to go with every single subject. (I’m actually working on making a general studying playlist for him to go along with Grumpy Cat, can’t remember if I said it here or not.) Likewise, he’s got certain highlighters for each subject (like yellow for English, pink for math, purple for hero history, etc. etc.) and his notes are #Aesthetic. Even Iida is jealous. • His music taste in general isn’t very varied though; mainly rock variations and the studying stuff (I’m making a general Bakugou playlist as well, I’ll link it eventually)• Yes he listens to MCR. Yes he’s unashamed of it. Yes he’ll blow your face off if you try and laugh at him for it. He also likes Green Day and LADYBABY. • Halfway through second year, he finally fucking apologizes to Midoriya for bullying him mercilessly for like ten goddamn years. That’s not a theory, or a headcanon, that’s a deadline. Horikoshi you have until summer of their second year for you to make Bakubitch apologize for telling Mido to kill himself. Do it, coward. • Speaking of middle school, Baku runs into his henchmen from then once when he’s out with the squad. They get pissy that he’s ““replaced”” them so easily, the squad leaps to his defense without missing a beat, Bakugou gets choked up and makes them all dinner with his characteristic bad grace. It’s adorable (also a oneshot I’ve been meaning to write for a while now lmaooo, might post it as a drabble later). • He interns with Miruko!!! Cuz that’s my whole ass wIFE right there and I want to see her interact with my son, also cuz they have really similar personalities and what with her being the number 5 hero, Bakugou has a lot he can learn from her. I think that’s it for now, if I think of any more I’ll add them in the reblogs. Thanks for giving me free rein to ramble my heart out!!! Damn, I should do this more often…

#ask dadzawa #madammuffins #kingdomheartstrashmouth #bakugou katsuki #bnha theories #bnha headcanons #my bABY BOI BAKUHOE THOTSUKI

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milkhoney531 · 5 years

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Oh gosh, all the Quotev memories are coming back. Gosh, I was such a depressed, edgy little shit with no self esteem or self respect. All the angsty fanfiction. The personality quizzes. The role plays. The cyber bullying. The daily suicidal kid on the feed that needed to be talked out of it. Gosh, me being that kid.

Gosh, I forgot about all of that. I only really go on there now to talk to friends, fluffy role plays, or update my fics. Man, I forgot how toxic the place was, and how much I loved it despite that.

Only other site where all I had to be was an icon on the screen, and it was more centered around writing, reading, rping, and quizzes. Whereas on here it's more about artwork, fandoms, and information.

That place really didnt help me much, but it was the only thread of hope I had back then. It was the only thing keeping me from ending it all, so I treasure it. I didn't know who I was back then. So I just had googled icons and the generic name of Green, until I got bullied too much and made another account sending my stories there where I was Red, and the bullying followed until I made my current account Arrow.

I learned not to mention that I was autistic on there and that masking was important. I learned to blend in and keep under the radar. It was a really bad time in my life.

But I also learned to write stories without a co-author on there, although it is fun to write with another person so I still do it now and then, and I started writing way more. Wasn't much else for a depressed and lonely kid to do, and writing kept me from ending my life because I couldn't bear the thought of disappointing anyone.

I met some friends that helped me get out of all the darkness and made me excited to wake up in the morning. I still talk to them when they're free to do so.

And eventually Wuotev and fanfic writing led me here because I needed information on some aus. And I made an account. I followed blogs. I started actually reblogging and making my own content.

I learned about LGBT+ and autism. I found myself recovering from my depression and suicidal thoughts because I found this place, Tumblr, and all the wonderful people on here who were nothing but kind.

I went from the "unseen-girl" to the "unseen-peep" to the person I am today because while I was discovering who I was, no one was cruel. I learned how to better handle social situations, what exactly autism was because all the "pros" and articles didn't say anything relevant, I learned that I was a guy, and I learned that there are other people like me.

Other people like me, who were happy, alive, and older than me. Even before I knew who I was, an autistic panromantic asexual transgender boy, I never thought I would see myself at high school or growing old. I thought I'd be murdered, arrested, caged like a monster, or that I would have ended myself.

I always thought I was something horrible and WRONG. That I needed to be trapped, locked up, and sent far away from civilization because I was just that bad. I was so VIOLENT, so SAD, and so LONELY that I LASHED OUT at the world.

But, I saw I wasnt alone. I saw that I wasn't a monster. And, I grew past all of that anger, that loneliness, that sadness, and I found myself LIVING. I found myself SMILING, having FUN, being CONFIDENT, and having FRIENDS.

I still have a long way to go to be able to BE who I AM, to transition, to be more confident, and I'm sure I'll discover more about myself along the way. But, now I can see that I HAVE A FUTURE. That I WILL HAVE A FUTURE. I wont be ALONE. I'll be FREE. I can be HAPPY. And I WILL LIVE TO SEE THE WORLD.

Four years ago, if someone were to tell me that I would have a future, I would just humbly nod my head and think that they were wrong.

But here I am. I haven't cut in a year, I havent had to cry myself to sleep, I haven't thought of suicide, I haven't gone to prison, I havent been killed.

But I have seen my younger siblings grow wiser, I've seen the way the sunlight dances on the leaves, I've seen the way a gentle breeze caresses the soft grass, I've seen people just like me, I've seen old people just like me, I've been to Pride, I've seen how confident and outspoken I've become, I've seen how my fears melted away, I've seen myself grow, I've seen the way the stars twinkle and shine at night, I've seen how happy I've become, and I've seen that even though I was so, so broken, that I could still heal.

And I'm sure, that no matter what I go through, there will always be a tomorrow on the horizon.

And I'm sure all of you will see that same tomorrow.

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unproduciblesmackdown · 5 years

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@uberoll-oystercrackers late night (early morning?) posting here but this is super nice ty and also again retroactively thank you additionally for all the long replies & kind tags you give

like really yeah it’s like, on the one hand, it’s fairly sucky having to have this thing where im always jumping the gun on considering someone Maybe An Friend and then having to remind myself / be reminded of the fact that like no probably not, which is true and yet sucks, which is just how some stuff is!! like sometimes stuff just is Not Good and is not ever going to Not Hurt, despite the fact you can kinda get better at living with it. and like this one isnt a huge deal even tho the larger problem of when ur like, lonely &/or isolated is kind of a whole real deal……

like it’s strange having these contradictory problems with it…..like, Being Myself has never really just been something i can Naturally do, so even just trying to be nice is like oh lord am i being ~manipulative~, and im always too prone to treat interactions like ive got to placate the other person, and then also just like….not having amazing social skills anyways in the sense that i know a lot of times i come across ~off~ to people and can’t really do a lot about that, but also, i feel like i’m always overcompensating for like, enthusiasm and just the fact i like to Get Silly and maybe i’ll act too cool~n~collected or come off like im trying to be all Smart and Smarmy and like jeez no……it doesnt help that when i was younger i generally preferred interacting with adults and so probably was trying to come across as clever and when i was wanting someone to like me i’d be real nervous and try to go too hard in seeming the opposite lol……oh the legacy of the time i found out my mom’s childhood friend who was funny and cool to us thought i was bookish (true) but like also snobby or something lmao like ah jeez i probably made too many sarcastic jokes about things….but oh well i was just like 10-ish at the time.

anyways tho i feel like that still kicks in and when i get the sense someone is cool and it’d be cool if they thought i was cool too i’m like Well So Then i gotta PLAY it cool!! and then like oh no am i coming across as a jerk? or an trying-to-be-an-intellectual?? i always have a lot of thoughts and i do go off when its like, also tied in to Opinions of mine, so im like, oh no am i coming across as trying to tell someone i think they should think exactly this?? or if i try to Be Witty and Tell Jokes are they just coming off as snarky b/c i hope not especially since a lot of times my actual Lighthearted Snark gets read as “i hate this and think its dumb af” lol. ahhhh i just do not know!! like, i wanna sort of dial back my Warmth b/c i can get enthused fast and i have a tendency to get too attached to ppl too fast, which really only sucks for me, but still!! yet i dont wanna rein it in too much and try to overcompensate and come off like im Eternally Unimpressed and don’t really care and etc etc and just…..idk its wild it’s hard to tell how i may be socializing awkwardly lmao ahhh….and on top of it all, i manage to be godawful at realizing when other ppl actually like me. like, that sort of sounds like The Opposite but i guess its just more of that problem of thinking that im going to always bother people….a lot of times it takes me like, months or a year (or two or three) to realize that someone who willingly interacts w me during that time probably does genuinely like me and is maybe a friend. wrow

uhhhh anyways lord that was all just. tangentially related. im Tangents

UH more to the point!!!! the good news is that yeah i don’t have to think “oh we’re totally real bffs” about anyone to really enjoy and appreciate Our Interactions…..and like i do have real appreciation and gratitude for basically all nice attention lol like, if a single reblog of smthing has kind comments, if someone cool just Likes a few posts, talking on occasion or like, ever at all. cuz for real The Little Stuff has always been a really good thing for years now, especially since there’s been plenty of times i havent really had anything happening In Person that was like….good interactions or ppl who were able to hear my actual thoughts and feelings about whatever and still be interested in interacting with me. cuz in terms of not being isolated and in what i find it easy to talk about and how, Online Interactions have been genuinely important and impactful in a positive way for like a solid decade now since i was able to be consistently Online and have my own accounts and stuff in the first place

so like yeah totally i really do appreciate stuff like that. i think its pretty incredible whenever anybody just like, thinks of me, and likes me. having None Of That Feeling is supremely trash and i so appreciate that i don’t have to feel like there’s nothing and that nobody out there in the world is aware of me, and yet i don’t need it to be that like, anyone is Constantly aware of me and like, intensely invested, cuz that’s just not how it goes lol and even kinda meaning a little bit to someone and having my tiny presence in their life be a positive one is a great thought and i really do appreciate it. Unfortunately for like….my entire life, The Contempt Of Others has been a consistent #thing i’m dealing with and it’s not great!! like yeah fortunately ive had the “felt so bad about myself that it eventually circled back around and now self loathing isnt too much of an issue for me” thing, but it still sucks experiencing it lol…..having any testimonials that like, whatever shit im talking about @ myself is fun to read, or i seem okay, or its fun to talk, etc etc, like thats fantastic really

and the kinds of leaf thoughts too, yeah, that kind of thing is nice to know too lol. i was hoping you were ok like, ten hours before i saw you posting again lol…..we’re out here……..

like yeah ldmbgglh whatever my weird problems are with being overexcited abt any Potential Friendship, and also being bad at realizing if people do like me, and also just being Weird and not great at talking, and overcompensating for whatever and maybe coming across too Coldly when rly im a fiery dumbass, wanting friends but also wanting not to be burned by getting ahead of things and being reminded that most ppl aren’t like, as starved for even just friendly interactions……..i’m better at navigating and handling it in some ways but c’est a m’ess!!! aaaggbfg

really what im trying to say is i do appreciate that sort of thing a lot yeah. i could very well Not be thought of by anybody and that would suck and the fact that i get to know that i am is a really great thing. maybe i couldve said this all better last night cuz i was kinda in my feelings abt Life a little but then also it was in a sort of déspresso way so, maybe this is okay lol….

also i worry i don’t express affection and appreciation enough!!! it’s not that i’m like Oh i don’t want to Commit to Being Friends ew…..it’s that i don’t wanna be the one pressuring someone else into being like uh oh i have to play up being invested in milo!! but then maybe my playing-it-cool just makes other ppl do the same thing or think i don’t care or something. like oh i appreciate this person a ton and think they’re great and they’ve been kind to me but if we only talk so often and obviously im not There for them and involved in their life in the way a ~real friend~ would be, maybe it would just ring hollow to say i love them, for example. lord lol……. it’s all “oh don’t dial down your kindness and affection” and yet also “but don’t wanna inadvertently push other people or Be Weird or get myself invested in something where i don’t mean as much to the other person not cuz they suck but because like, of course im just a fun internet acquaintance, which is fine!!” ahhhhhh the challenges. anyways!!!!!!!

the point is well i do like ppl yeah and i really appreciate ppl liking me. every now and then they do it online or even in person and thats just a Joy and i wish things were more secure!!! i also have to not even necessarily want ppl to get invested in me in case things go to shit too soon or whatever and it doesnt help that ~being open~ means talking abt depressingass stuff sometimes that like, i don’t mind being open about, but i also don’t want to put on other ppl. which, sidenote on that, im feeling relatively alright all these recent months even if im not technically thriving; it’s okay. it’s a hot mess! but that’s just How It Is sometimes!! it’s what it is. and ive had support from ppl in big and small ways that i know i could have had to go without and all the ways ppl are nice to me count for a whole lot and i have appreciated it, and do appreciate it, and will continue to appreciate it.

tldr 💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖

#7:05am who up!! im nocturnal. im a vampire. a cool vampire. jk not sexy enough #unsexy vampire rights!!!#unsexy nocturnal me getting reckless and saying into the mic: Hey. I Love Y’all. Yeehaw

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awed-frog · 6 years

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in regards to the CA civil war post you reblogged-- i havent seen the movie since it's come out and felt like shit for agreeing with Tony afterwards because everyone was all like CAP IS RIGHT!! -- but anyway, did anyone actually say "necessary imperialism" in the movie wtf even happened in that movie i dont even remember??

To be honest I haven’t rewatched the movie either, but I felt ‘necessary imperialism’ was about how the guy is called ‘Captain America’ and sort of represents the US and US politics? So what he does - and specifically what he does in that movie - how he stomps around the world, complains about UN regulations, only cares about saving or helping his friends, disregards the rubble and misery left in his wake - yeah, at the time that seemed quite a clear, if perhaps unintentional, metaphor of how Washington behaves. And I don’t want to start shit here - I don’t know the first thing about the Avengers, never read the comics, have no idea how much of this is the screenwriters or whatever - I’m simply speaking as a person who sort of enjoyed the movies, and literally my only point is that Steve Rogers has evolved in a direction I don’t like at all. Because, I don’t know, in the beginning this was a guy who sacrificed everything, including his best friend and a potential wife, to take the Nazis down; and yet, as the movies progress, his actions turn more and more selfish in a ‘friends first’ instead of ‘values first’ sense. This culminates in his idiotic decision to put all of Wakanda at risk and basically sacrifice not his own life, but the lives of hundreds of African men and women to try and save one of his buddies - Vision - who’d begged Steve and the others to just kill him before it was too late. Like, maybe I’m old-fashioned, but I believe there are some things it’s worth sacrificing what you want for - your ambitions, your life, and, yeah - the safety and happiness of your loved ones - and the exact definition of a hero is ‘someone who’s strong enough to make that incredibly hard choice no ordinary person would make’.

And the thing is - I’m not even annoyed by that - I’m annoyed by how it was framed as a noble, necessary and thoroughly unproblematic decision? Jesus, I was 100% there for ‘super-soldier tired of war compromises decades-old moral compass to save his friends because that’s what we’d all do’ - I would have loved to see that -

(As a nerdy addition, that’s a time-honoured and heartbreaking trope - the choice, for instance, that Aeneas faces in Troy. Like, there’s this scene in the Aeneid when Troy is finished, okay, it’s done and dying and there’s chaos and blood and howling soldiers everywhere, and Aeneas randomly runs into a courtyard and sees the Greeks about the butcher Priam, his king, the person he was sworn to serve and protect - and Aeneas knows he should step in, risk his life to save Priam’s, but instead - instead, seeing this old man about to be killed is a sharp reminder of his own father, alone and defenceless, and that’s why Aeneas turns back, saves him instead.)

- but nope, the whole thing was told as ‘hey it’s super cool to doom everyone as long as your bae is okay’ which seems to have become the standard narrative of many so-called ‘heroes’ of screens big and small?

And if you start to look at the political implications of that kind of behaviour, then I’m sorry, but it’s exactly what Trump’s been saying for two years: that nothing matters, not human rights, not international peace, not hundreds of thousand of people dying, as long as American jobs and (rich, white) American lives are safe. Hell, he put it very clearly (and openly) after journalist Jamal Khashoggi was slaughtered in Istanbul:“I’d rather keep the million jobs.”

[Fact check: on top of everything else, it’s not ‘million’. Also, he’s not fooling anyone: like countless other politicians, what matters to him is not what Saudi Arabia can do for US jobs, but how much money he can get out of them to line his own pockets.]

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artzom-b · 5 years

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THE RAMBLING HOUR: Tumblr

remember this?? for all my first followers??? got in a lot of trouble for doing some of these because it was like

and it usually got me less followers in the end =w= but since tumblr is buring to the ground might as well take the time out of my night to complain about it.

I joined tumblr in 2014 with my first blog Kantome and i enjoyed almost everysecond of it...till i didnt.

it wasnt tumblr i wasnt enjoying, looking back on it i dont think i ever ran into as any weird people on that blog compared to this one! but then again i wasnt that out in the open in 2014 either.

During those years i had already put my furry days behind me, i was no longer interested in begin a furry and since most people I knew that knew about them at the time looked down on them AND furry art i gave up on the entire fandom until around 2017 when I discovered my favorite artist till this day @yogurtart (go follow if you want! ps he blocks porn blogs) they sorta gave me a different look on furry art. I could go into deeper detail but we’ll go into furries and the pros and cons and how most of the stereotypes hurt a pretty good community on a later post.

ANYWAYS once I discovered them i wanted to give furry art another shot and wanted to change my name anyways and in 2017 made Artzom-b in which i made a shit ton of furry characters that i honestly miss drawing I even adopted a character and due to most of that artist work begin trans made the character trans as well making him my first trans character! Which made me super nervous because i was afraid of offending someone but everyone loved him most were happy that he looked like an actual guy then just a guy with tits yah know?

Now why bring up my life story of tumblr? How am I effected? I dont draw nsfw on my main blog so what does it matter to me?

Welp pals alot of my followers are nsfw blogs, which sounds bad but it actually isnt. A LONNNGGGGG time ago i made a post defending nsfw artist but to sum it up they are still artist and if thats what they like to draw let them, dont bash on them for it which is exactly what tumblr is doing. Once these rules are set in place my follower count will tank and it sucks because most of the nsfw blogs that I have talked to over the years were good people! I havent had any unpleasant encounter with an nsfw blog UNLESS it was a bot! Of course there were the pedophiles who i never got the pleasure of meeting and im glad tumblr is trying to take a step to fix it but...this aint it chief.

I explained this in a previous post but tumblr is like that one guy everyone hates but we’ve all learned to accept them. OF COURSE they did wrong shit that is our job as their reluctant friends have to fix but we wont just abandon them because what are friends for? then one day tumblr just stabs you in the back basically telling us they dont need us anymore and they can fix themselves, so we watch from the side as they make bad decisions to attempt to better themselves alone and all we can do is walk away.

Tumblr doesnt realize the gravity of the situation for artist. Like the platform for tumblr is unique, if utilized properly its good for exposure for us artist but once tumblr is shut down alot of artist who set shop here will be looking at a crisis. I’ve seen several artist confused on where to go next (including myself) and others who dont know how to make ends meet with out an audience who can support them when they need it.Its sad really.

What makes matters worse is that a few lgbt blogs are begin targeted along with furries and a few innocent blogs that literally done nothing wrong! Their bot is already broken! In the end of the day tumblr needs to step back and take back what it was a shitty website everyone shit on mostly because it was ironic and in reality just needed a little more control over the content but not just blocking content all together just because they cant find a way to properly fix it.

Anyways I could go all night but the older I get the less energy I have to be the angry blogger guy so I’ll just call it there.

Good luck to my fellow artist who are getting attacked worse the me.

and good luck to you tumblr hopefully you get the help you so desperately thrive to get.

Reblog this or dont either way it goes it doesnt really matter who argues against me at this point.

#Art Speaks #the rambling hour

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