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lunar-system · 6 months

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izzy thoughts

i didn't feel at all the death was accidental or without a cause. izzy was the most himself when he told ricky to go fuck himself and defended the pirate way of life without a regard for his own personal safety. he was targeted by ricky's gun because he so vocally and ferociously stood up for what he believed in

izzy dying because he stood up to what he believes in FEELS BAD because it IS BAD in the show's actual universe as well. He died to what is the show's equivalent of homophobia, he got hate-crimed for his pirate life style, ricky targeted him because he stood up for himself and his people – that is horrible! for us and for the characters! in the actual story! it was a sad and unfair way to go! and ricky is a villain who did a horrible thing to a character we love! it hurts! gaahhh!

what hurts in real life is that we were under the assumption that there would not be hate-crime equivalent things in the show. it was a safe show for many. so yeah, of course it's a shock. the assumption is that if someone does something racist or homophobic etc in this show, they get punished right away and laughed at. but this time the bad guy actually killed someone. the violence was real. izzy hands still didn't operate under the muppet rule set. real world violence rules applied to him this one time.

why was this wound deadly when no other was? because this show decides the stakes and accuracies on a case by case basis. right now it wanted it to count. eternal arguments can be had about if that was the right choice or not.

yes, it felt kinda unfair that the show trained us not to fear death. ed practically died earlier this season, and he was fine. it was a weird surprise that for izzy the death was permanent. well. unless season 3 proves us otherwise. a long con. we'll see.

the fact that djenkins happens to be mostly on the same page with fandom, i think that's a happy accident. remember that he was surprised that people didn't dare to believe ed/stede was happening? he didn't know the fandom's long history with queerbaiting. he was just writing his show. it makes sense he would not be up to date with the fandom style politics of that you should not kill a character who is a strong symbol for something in the real world. sounds to me like it was a similar surprise than the queerbaiting one. earlier he happened to play with fandom rules, but he doesn't really know there are that much rules at all. now he happened to go against one rule, just like he happened to go by the rules earlier. he writes the kinda fanfic he likes. and right now he liked the weight that an actual character death has. unfortunately in tv shows there are no tags "major character death" to soften the punch.

could he have predicted how massively popular izzy became with his new added arc? i'm not sure. To some degree you can try to predict the impact your writing has in the real world, but you can't really control how your work is received. with the release of s2 i saw it in real time, the weight that izzy had and the importance of him for many. maybe it was a surprise that the redemption arc was that effective. and tv shows are really, reaaaally slow to make. you have to stick with a decision you have made a long time ago, unless you have ridiculous amounts of money to throw around for reshoots. And once a season is airing, it is absolutely too late to start changing anything. Djenkis wanted an impactful death, and he ended up with a bit TOO impactful one. There's no changing it, I personally don't see a point with fighting it, it happened, it was written, shot, edited, colour graded, composed, produced with care and set in stone a long time ago, and now we work with what we have. Maybe i'm just not confrontational, but I was given this, it's what I have, so I'll find a way to roll with it. Maybe I'll use a bit of fiction to cover the trauma, you know? cause not moving on is worse? Honestly, I think whittling a shark would be a great way to pay homage to izzy. I should get some soft wood to do it.

no end thoughts, just, gosh he was a wonderful character. loved to get to know him. rip izzy <3

#i neeeeed to step away from the discourse cause i just want to enjoy the shoooow #but it's hard cause i got so much into the habit of scrolling the tag when the season was airing #and i still want to see what is beingtalked about but it's a bit of a mine field #oh izzy #i loved you so much #and the crew loved you too!#you were loved #now fly high seabird #izzy hands #ofmd #ofmd s2 #ofmd spoilers

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fattyegg · 1 year

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I did my best, but they left me anyway

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gallopinggallifreyans · 2 years

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there was a spider crawling around in my box of heeled boots so I guess I’m never wearing those again

#they’re also almost ten years old so they need to go anyway #fare thee well dear shoes #i loved you so much #ana says stuff

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forkaround · 1 year

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I’ve been physically sick since I watched the episode of Penthouse where Oh Yoon Hee dies. Like can’t do or think anything sick. Tell me again that fictional characters don’t matter/aren’t real

#penthouse #oh yoon hee #the penthouse #fuck you seo jin #i loved you so much #but fuck you #hope you die #I know I’m like three years too late

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musings-of-a-broken-heart · 2 years

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There is a love that is held in hands that can never be spoken. A touch or a glance speaks more things that words perhaps ever could. There is so much feeling that I hold that I can never speak out loud and I held your hand once in April and I knew I’d stand by you. Some souls are connected and this I believe; once I wrote three lines of a poem and I met a girl who wrote those same words three days before, call it fate, call it chance, call it luck, I think sometimes we meet people at exactly the right times to form connections deeper than ordinary; some people understand each other sometimes without even words; some lives are strangely parallel. On a cold morning one June with a pink sunrise that gave way to the bluest of skies you said to me, 'I'm glad I met you. Even if we don't speak for the rest of our lives after tomorrow, I'll never forget you.' I didn't say it then, didn't know how to and didn't know why I felt the way I did, but I felt so profoundly that ours was a fated meeting; that life will push us in all directions but that your 'what if' would never come to be or last even if it did- you were meant to be in my life in some way or form and that was how it would be.

In the early hours of the morning some days ago I sat on a couch at a close friend's house and I watched days and months and years go by and I realized nothing matters as much as it does in a minute. I watched a friend agonize over half a mandarin and I didn’t understand why or what was going on in her world but I knew it mattered to her for some reason and I thought well why not help her figure it out and look after the thing? I saw the world with the innocence of a child and I remembered something a friend once said to me many years ago when I was young and suicidal. In a list of reasons she sent me a picture of a sunset and she said ‘because the world we live in looks like this.’ And isn’t that true? Why must anything matter? The world is beautiful. People have lives and thoughts and ideas and things that matter to them that are deep and intrinsic that we can never really know or see or understand but isn’t it enough to know it matters to them? Isn’t it enough to be kind? I sat in that room with the stars so close I could hold them and rainbows dancing in my hands and in her hair and I cried and I cried and I cried because the world is so so beautiful and I was choking on feelings I could never say in words; you would never see the world with my eyes and I would never know the world you see-humans are inherently isolated by the limitations of our perception that can be similar but never the same as another's.

I look into your eyes sometimes and I choke up on all these feelings; I hide my face in your shirt and I cry; I sit in the passenger's seat of my mother's car and stare out of the window as I weep behind my mask because in a house of poets and storytellers words have no meaning and yet my heart is so full of them, sometimes I feel as though I'm drowning: I'm sorry/I don't know how to be a daughter that you could want/I love you for all you've done for me/I hate you for all this grief and rage I've inherited/how can you not remember? There is so much I could never say. There is so much lost in translation somewhere in the process of me trying to speak them in words and your understanding of the words I speak; There’s a whole world I see that you can never really know and there’s a whole world of yours that I wont. All I can do is hold your hand. All I can do is hold you. All I can do is hope that you feel these things too- that somehow, without having to be spoken you understand.

#a love note I will never get to send #hearbreak #LSD #acid #love letter #love #writing #spilled ink #him #god we had a soft love #our hands weren't built to hold it #i'm sorry #i loved you so much #i still carry so much tenderness in my heart for you #i think I always will

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whiteshipnightjar · 3 months

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Zoozve, my beloved

#i cannot tell you how much this made me smile just bc it's so full of love #moon #venus #zoozve #long post #sorry about that it's very long but it's very entertaining i hope you enjoy this lil zoozve gem haha #astronomy #astrophysics #space

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dendrochronologies · 3 months

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maya angelou saying the funniest thing anyone has ever said about editing, which i can never let myself forget EVER AGAIN [x]

#OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT? DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN. IF YOU DO I WILL NEVER SPEAK TO YOU AGAIN.#i used to think about this interview all the tiiiiime i can't believe i let myself lose track of it!!!!!!!#maya angelou #FAVE #editing #*r #god i've read this a thousand times and i still laugh every time it's so GOOD #'OK. YOU'RE RIGHT. SO WHAT. DON'T EVER MENTION THIS TO ME AGAIN'#notifications are off for this besties 💗#i will eventually turn reblogs back on but 20k notes overnight was a little too much pls slow down ✋️#also pls do not follow me unless you are desperately in love with me. i can't make silly little personal posts with so many of you here!!!!

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 month

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The math just adds up!

#dungeon meshi #falin touden #marcille donato #farcille #I always loved how chapter 27 ends with them both so bloody and 28 starts with them in the bath.#not just because of how iconic the bathtub moment is but because you know they had to scrap off so much gore first.#I think everyone in the party took a very long and methodical bath but Falin was basically *all* blood*.#Being covered in blood is one of those 'just girly things' that women deserve to stop being shamed about.#I just don't think Chilchuck is progressive enough. He probably made them take a bath first B*/#Okay jestering aside I want to just highlight -#The magnitude of Marcille's joy at seeing her dearest friend again! Of holding her and sharing her presence in the same room!#Something about this reunion feels like a beautiful dream you are afraid of waking up from...

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phantom-of-the-501st · 9 months

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Remember that this is not the proof that they love each other

That was a last-ditch attempt from Crowley to get Aziraphale to stay

This is the proof that they love each other

Their love wasn't just made real because they kissed

It always existed

#i will argue this point til my dying breath #they always loved each other #if you think the kiss was the only proof #then i adviae you to reexamine the relationship #the kiss wasn't romantic anyway #it was desperate and painful #it was a last ditch effort from crowley because he loves aziraphale so much #but it was not the confession #he'd already confessed his feelings #the kiss was never necessary to do that #good omens #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #crowley #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #go2 spoilers

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hansoeii · 9 months

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we go just right.

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martyrbat · 4 months

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i dont know who needs to hear this but you do not need to go on a diet. you do not need to lose weight as a new year revolution. you do not need to feel shame for gaining any weight over the holidays and for enjoying yourself and the food. you do not need to tolerate diet talk after setting a boundary and if someone cant respect that then theyre being the asshole. you already have a summer body. you already are hot. theres no moral failure or shame in being fat

#been around a lot of bullshit today thats so so so exhausting and triggering #but a reminder for me as much as you. love you all & i hope this season is gentle to you

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fattyegg · 1 year

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I lost my partner, I lost my friends, I lost my family all because of me. I dedicate all myself to the person I loved (and I still love), but they left me. I started isolating myself, and my friends left me, and then my family. My partner was all my world, all I've ever needed. Now it's just me, myself, and I.

Sometimes, I wish I could have someone to talk with about my feelings or how I feel, but at this point in my life, I have 0 social skills and social anxiety keeps me from meeting new people.

I have to relearn how to hold off my emotions and thoughts.

The nile is a river in egypt, I pray God to kill me ✌️😗.

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tearlessrain · 1 month

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please help me- i used to be pretty smart but i’m having so much trouble grasping the concept of diegetic vs non-diegetic bdsm!

gfkjldghfd okay first of all I'm sorry for the confusion, if you're not finding anything on the phrase it's because I made it up and absolutely nobody but me ever uses it, but I haven't found a better way to express what I'm trying to say so I keep using it. but now you've given me an excuse to ramble on about some shit that is only relevant to me and my deeply inefficient way of talking and by god I'm going to take it.

SO. the way diegetic and non-diegetic are normally used is to talk about music and sound design in movies/tv shows. in case you aren't familiar with that concept, here's a rundown:

diegetic sound is sound that happens within the world of the movie/show and can be acknowledged by the characters, like a song playing on the stereo during a driving scene, or sung on stage in Phantom of the Opera. it's also most other sounds that happen in a movie, like the sounds of traffic in a city scene, or a thunderclap, or a marching band passing by. or one of the three stock horse sounds they use in every movie with a horse in it even though horses don't really vocalize much in real life, but that's beside the point, the horse is supposed to be actually making that noise within the movie's world and the characters can hear it whinnying.

non-diegetic sound is any sound that doesn't exist in the world of the movie/show and can't be perceived by the characters. this includes things like laugh tracks and most soundtrack music. when Duel of Fates plays in Star Wars during the lightsaber fight for dramatic effect, that's non-diegetic. it exists to the audience, but the characters don't know their fight is being backed by sick ass music and, sadly, can't hear it.

the lines can get blurry between the two, you've probably seen the film trope where the clearly non-diegetic music in the title sequence fades out to the same music, now diegetic and playing from the character's car stereo. and then there are things like Phantom of the Opera as mentioned above, where the soundtrack is also part of the plot, but Phantom of the Opera does also have segments of non-diegetic music: the Phantom probably does not have an entire orchestra and some guy with an electric guitar hiding down in his sewer just waiting for someone to break into song, but both of those show up in the songs they sing down there.

now, on to how I apply this to bdsm in fiction.

if I'm referring to diegetic bdsm what I mean is that the bdsm is acknowledged for what it is in-world. the characters themselves are roleplaying whatever scenarios their scenes involve and are operating with knowledge of real life rules/safety practices. if there's cnc depicted, it will be apparent at some point, usually right away, that both characters actually are fully consenting and it's all just a planned scene, and you'll often see on-screen negotiation and aftercare, and elements of the story may involve the kink community wherever the characters are. Love and Leashes is a great example of this, 50 Shades and Bonding are terrible examples of this, but they all feature characters that know they're doing bdsm and are intentional about it.

if I'm talking about non-diegetic bdsm, I'm referring to a story that portrays certain kinks without the direct acknowledgement that the characters are doing bdsm. this would be something like Captive Prince, or Phantom of the Opera again, or the vast majority of bodice ripper type stories where an innocent woman is kidnapped by a pirate king or something and totally doesn't want to be ravished but then it turns out he's so cool and sexy and good at ravishing that she decides she's into it and becomes his pirate consort or whatever it is that happens at the end of those books. the characters don't know they're playing out a cnc or D/s fantasy, and in-universe it's often straight up noncon or dubcon rather than cnc at all. the thing about entirely non-diegetic bdsm is that it's almost always Problematic™ in some way if you're not willing to meet the story where it's at, but as long as you're not judging it by the standards of diegetic bdsm, it's just providing the reader the same thing that a partner in a scene would: the illusion of whatever risk or taboo floats your boat, sometimes to extremes that can't be replicated in real life due to safety, practicality, physics, the law, vampires not being real, etc. it's consensual by default because it's already pretend; the characters are vehicles for the story and not actually people who can be hurt, and the reader chose to pick up the book and is aware that nothing in it is real, so it's all good.

this difference is where people tend to get hung up in the discourse, from what I've observed. which is why I started using this phrasing, because I think it's very crucial to be able to differentiate which one you're talking about if you try to have a conversation with someone about the portrayal of bdsm in media. it would also, frankly, be useful for tagging, because sometimes when you're in the mood for non-diegetic bodice ripper shit you'd call the police over in real life, it can get really annoying to read paragraphs of negotiation and check-ins that break the illusion of the scene and so on, and the opposite can be jarring too.

it's very possible to blur these together the same way Phantom of the Opera blurs its diegetic and non-diegetic music as well. this leaves you even more open to being misunderstood by people reading in bad faith, but it can also be really fun to play with. @not-poignant writes fantastic fanfic, novels, and original serials on ao3 that pull this off really well, if you're okay with some dark shit in your fiction I would highly recommend their work. some of it does get really fucking dark in places though, just like. be advised. read the tags and all that.

but yeah, spontaneous writer plug aside, that's what I mean.

#I found their original stuff while I was researching various waterhorses and their folklore for no reason #because one of the characters in their original work happens to be an each uisge #and then it turned out it ALSO included a lot of figures from welsh folklore in general #so yknow if you happen to have my incredibly specific hyperfixations you'll love it but even if you don't it's great #I didn't mean to bring up phantom of the opera so much it just happens to be very relevant to a lot of my talking points #I haven't actually seen it in years

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hiding-under-the-willow · 21 days

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Quite possibly the funniest shit I have ever seen in my life

#atlas.art #artists on tumblr #mcyt #hermitcraft #hermitcraft 10 #xisumavoid #xisuma #mumbo jumbo #hermitcraft mumbo #grian #implied at least lol #i forgot how much I love my xisuma design he was so fun to draw here #not pictured here: xisuma's absolutely unhinged scream immediately after this and grian screeching 'YOU SAID HAVE FAITH' over and over agai

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fleshdyke · 6 months

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it is literally the most fucked up thing in the world that fruit goes bad. you shoild be allowed to have a box of blackberries in the cupboard for 2 years and they are still fine to eat

#i love fruit so much but you have to eat it NOW or else it turns into pile of mold.... sad #i have remedied this by eating those fruit cups and also making smoothies with frozen fruit. it's not the same but it's close enough. sigh..#rambles

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saelrum · 1 month

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"Was I sweet once?"

#bg3 fanart #bg3 #baldur's gate iii #baldurs gate 3 #baldurs gate fanart #baldur's gate 3 #bg3 durge #bg3 the dark urge #the dark urge #durge #fanart #digital art #yes #yes he was #he still is if you play redemption #i just... love this white murder baby so much

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