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the-soulwhispers · 5 months
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You are not understanding the silence;
and I'm out of words now.
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dumblr · 2 months
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So I had to leave.. In Solitudine et in Tenebris
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emmanuelleghostman · 6 months
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your my everything 💺
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Elysium was nothing
but a rose tinted fishbowl
with pretty rocks
and water that shined
rose gold
when the light hit it
right.
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I was happy
to accept those
scraps of beauty,
even though
at the end of the day,
even if the water was usually clean,
and I never exactly went hungry,
my hope still laid in the hands
of a negligent caretaker
who fed it just enough
to keep it from
withering up
and dying,
and never anything
more.
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It was easy for me
to romanticize
these scraps
when I was used to
foggy glass
caked with algae,
and starving.
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There's much to be said
about this 'Elysium,"
about how there were rules
to my needs,
about how there were punishments
to them, too.
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Though, I don't think it
matters so much
anymore.
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Careless, clumsy hands
have it in pieces
on the floor.
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I think,
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maybe I should be grateful
for this "accident,"
that this final resting place
was taken from me,
and I was forced to
remember it as a pit stop
instead and nurse
this little fish
on my own
again, because I know
I never would've given up
and left on my own.
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Nothing would have stopped me
from waking up every morning
to my malnourished, little fish,
and telling the poor thing:
We don't need anything else, fish.
This is what we've been looking for.
This is enough.
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wishing-for-deathx · 5 days
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There I was again, falling, falling so hard and not even realizing it. And there you were, realizing that you didn’t want me. Oh how it hurts to be back on the floor struggling to breathe. That sinking feeling in my chest, bloodshot eyes, the panic attacks, the self hatred. The never ending reminder of just not being good enough for anyone. How did I let myself believe it would be any different this time ?
I’m not made to be loved.
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privit3 · 2 years
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despondentbeauty · 9 days
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Our hearts beat for each other in all the wrong rhythms, in all the wrong ways.
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evneirophrenia · 2 years
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im not leaving unless you leave me
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mistovyee · 7 months
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I personally hate you, the person in the mirror hate me with the same intensity.
I hate you I say but who am I fooling. Why is it so hard. Have I done something so terrible to deserve this punishment
This war with myself, I hate every second of it yet I can't end it.
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dumblr · 2 years
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Forcing yourself to lose feelings for them for the sake of your mental health.
>>> Hardest Era <<<
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holyshittywritings · 5 months
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Aditi
it's your birthday today a big one and i haven't wished you cause 12 am is not our friendship anymore and 6pm just seems too late to care,
you put a story with your real friends and i don't know a single one of them you look so beautiful there holding the flowers i never gave you,
this girl has the same name as you i like her more i had loved you longer so much love left that i can't express you taught me how to hate myself,
i thought i got over it but my life is a mess like always so i love remembering you from the past feeling feelings and a new jealousy even as i don't want you back now.
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infpfindspeace · 1 year
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when you know that the first wlw relationship will end badly and your heart will be broken but you really think she's the one so you wait until after that first relationship to try to date her because it's not like she liked you back then anyway
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To the bastard
who probably won't even
see this
because they never took
an interest
in the things
that were important to me anyway
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I'll preface this by saying: I love you
Now that I have the hard part out of the way:
I hate you
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Really, I fucking hate you
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I hate you for how you never took an interest
in things that were important to me
I hate you for when you stopped celebrating
even my hugest wins
I hate you for losing interest in me and my life,
and for your lies, and for making me feel crazy
for seeing through them
I hate you for how you made me feel like there
was something wrong with me,
and sat back and watched as I spent
day and night
tearing myself apart to try and
snuff it out
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I hate you for making me feel like a moster
for my needs while pressuring me
to meet yours
I hate you for punishing me when I didn't sacrifice myself to make you comfortable
because you were always
such a fucking coward
I hate you for telling me you never loved me,
or cared about me in any meaningful way
I hate you for backtracking on that and acting like you can't make up your fucking mind
I hate you for making everything about you
I hate you for making it out like your abuse
and detachment was because
you couldn't handle
me needing to tend to things in my life
that weren't you
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I hate you for leaving me when I needed you the most
I hate you for deleting over five years of history
like it was
nothing
I hate you for making me feel like
I was
nothing
I hate you because I was
nothing
but a fun little
toy
you put a ring on
I hate you for making everything my fault.
I hate you
because I can't even recognize you anymore.
I hate you because you gave me something
to live for and took it away
I hate you for all your fucking lies
I hate you for manipulating me
I hate you for leading me on
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I hate you for breaking me down when
I gave you a second chance you didn't
even deserve
I hate you for making the failure of your
second chance
out to be my fault too
I hate you for never taking accountability
I hate you for leaving me crying and throwing up
I hate you for putting me back into a depressive relapse
I hate you for not caring when I was hurt
I hate you for not caring when I was sick
I hate you for not caring when I was struggling or in crisis
I hate you for not caring
when I wasn't ok
I hate you because
when you said "bye forever"
I still wanted to say "bye, I love you"
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I hate you
I just fucking hate you
I hate you for all this pain
I hate you for using me
I hate you for how much you took from me
I hate you because you knew how this
would affect me
I hate you for using your knowledge
of my trauma
to reopen all my wounds
I hate you for breaking me
I hate you because all I still want
is a hug, an apology,
and a promise that
everything's going to be ok,
that you didn't mean it,
that we could fix this...
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...To the asshole
who probably won't even
see this
because they never really
gave a fuck about me
at all anyway: Fuck you.
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Fuck you for everything.
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heavenlyangeliq · 1 year
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“I just needed to take a break Jason”_Artemis
“A break from me?” he said, his voice was lower than it had been. Lke he was thinking out loud and hadn’t meant for her to hear.
She stared at him as if she was being accused of something she didn’t do.
“Jason, you had nothing to do with it.” she assured him.
“It’s ok. I’m not upset or mad or anything” he told her. “I wouldn’t want to be with me either, it gets pretty tiring”
Artemis getting closer “I assure you Jason you are the last person I would ever need space from. I love you”
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lucky-chaos · 1 year
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In another life I bet you and I would've worked
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