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(re)starting over again | kth; 12

plot | Your four-year relationship with Taehyung was going well and strong. Until he was involved in a car accident, resulting to him losing some memories. By some, it means everything that happened five years ago. Things he remember? His friends, his bakeshop, and his ex girlfriend from the past. With that, you tried to keep up, restarting over again.

words | 5.3k

genres | fluff, angst, amnesia au

pairing | taehyung x reader

warning/s | mentions of death, drinking, disease (cancer)

note | surpisingly, i am still alive lol i'm kidding. i apologize for the delay! the bad headaches are now gone and the fever has cooled down. and now, the update's here! to everyone who sent their messages, tysm I appreciate it 🥺 I didn't mean to ghost y'all, I'm so sorry! anw hope u enjoy reading this one :)

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Ever since you were young, you liked things to go the way you planned it. When you were younger, you carried a small notebook with you. Your father gave you your first one during the holidays when you were seven. In there, you make your own little bullet journal, listing off the things you would want to do for the upcoming days. With your messy handwriting, you even wrote your far future plans.

As a child, you used to see things with your rose-colored glasses. Everything seemed real and attainable for your small hands. You thought you just had to follow the usual path of your plans and you would be fine. But things do not always go according to plan. You learned it the hard way.

You always dreamt of being a nurse. At age eight, you were a frequent visitor to the hospital. Not because you were sick yourself, but because you and your mom had to go back there from time to time with your dad who was receiving treatment for his disease. You wanted to take care of him. So you did what a little girl could do, listen to your dad’s heartbeat through your plastic toy stethoscope and kiss his pain away. He would always call you his favorite nurse and you would give him your toothy grin. After a year, when you were nine, he lost his battle with cancer.

Confused and in sorrow, you almost crossed out that dream from your list. You had a hard time understanding why you had to lose your dad at such an early age. Your friends had dads, how come you lost yours before you could even reach middle school? Then, you became angry. Your father was always in treatment in the hospital. Hospitals are meant to cure people, right? Your little kid brain thought. It felt unfair to you.

But then, you and your mom later left the small neighborhood you were living in and moved in with your aunt– her older sister. Aunty Belle is a nurse herself, a surprise for you as you didn’t know you have a relative who works in the same place you loathed at that time. But you couldn’t bring yourself to hate her, she was warm and welcoming when you arrived in her humble abode in Incheon. She doesn’t have a family of her own so she took good care of you and your mom. She became your third parent while your mom deals with the grief of losing her husband.

“It’s fun. You get to meet wonderful people every day and help them to feel better.” your aunt replied once when you asked her about her job.

Aunty Belle never got tired of your questions and curiosity about nursing. Slowly, you began rebuilding your plans. The dream of being a nurse is back, added with your other dreams: making your mom happy, and living independently (like your aunt). You studied hard, aiming for higher grades and going to the best college for your dreams.

But at age fifteen, Aunty Belle became your legal guardian when your mom passed. Through your aunt, you learned that your mother has been struggling heavier than you expected. Your aunt was extremely worried for your mom that’s why she begged her to come and live with her. You always thought your mom was getting better with how she cried less day by day and even took a job as a receptionist in a dental clinic.

Since then, you have become more understanding and emotionally sensitive to everyone. The feelings you had years ago when you lost your dad were creeping around you. This time, instead of being angry at something else, you felt like this one was on you. You blamed yourself for not seeing the signs from your mother’s eyes. How she became more reserved or how her eyes were often blank whenever she tried to smile for you. Maybe you were too focused on reaching your plans that you didn’t give any attention to her. You were angry, hurt, and in guilt. It’s too overwhelming and is heavy in your heart. It reached the point where you broke down during breakfast, in front of the toast and bacon Aunty Belle prepared for you, weeks after your mom’s funeral.

“I should’ve seen it. I should have seen that she was not okay.” you sniffed as you looked down your plate. “I was supposed to make her feel better and happy.”

Crying, you pushed your plate in front of you and just covered your face with your palms. You repeated the words over and over again like you were reminding yourself how you failed as your mom’s only child.

“Oh, sweetie…” your aunt whispered before sitting beside you and enveloping you in a hug. Her hand moved up and down your arms, making you feel warm. “It’s not your fault. You are the best daughter she could ask for. She loves you more than anything else.”

After that morning, Aunty Belle made sure to get you the best help. She guided you in everything she could and supported you with your choices. She made sure that you will still pursue your plans, never stopping you from doing what you want. Years later, you graduated from high school and were about to embark on a new journey.

“You know that you can just have this place,” she mumbled when you were packing your things. “I’m selling it anyway.”

“But Aunty, this isn’t in my plan. You know how bad I want to live in Seoul.” you smiled at her.

Because of your efforts and hard work, you got accepted into one of the best universities in another city. You later moved from Incheon to Seoul to finish your studies and become a nurse there. While Aunty Belle sold her home and followed her own plans of living with her longtime best friends under one roof.

But none of what happened in the last few years was part of your plans when you were younger. You didn’t really see yourself coming back to Incheon after living in Seoul for the longest time. You never thought you would leave your job in the hospital you dreamed of and work in a slightly different environment.

Two years ago, you left home. The house you had plans in with someone else. You were the one who broke off those plans and moved away without really telling anyone. You remembered that night like it was yesterday.

Every step you took away from him felt like a piece of you fell on the ground. Your vision was all blurry and you had to cover your lips as you sobbed. You clutched onto your gown while you remind yourself that you need to do this. For the sake of your own being. But still, there is this voice telling you to stay– to turn around and come back to him.

“YN, honey,”

Looking up, you see Julia looking at you with sympathy. She walked towards you with open arms and you immediately just broke down on her dress. Listening to your sobs, Julia eyes her date, whom you didn’t notice was there waiting too, to get in the car.

Your whispered voice muffled in the hug, “I hate this so much,”

The whole drive home, Julia and Chanyeol respected your silence in the backseat. They put on some radio music and chatted about the wedding while your teary eyes just looked outside the window. They were like your parents that night. When you guys passed by McDonald’s, it took one nudge from Julia to make Chanyeol turn the car back around for the drive-thru. She ordered your food for you in a separate bag so you could have something to eat when you reached home. When you arrived in front of your house, they helped you with your small bag.

“Thank you so much, guys. I’m sorry this is our first meeting, Chanyeol.” you tried to lighten the mood as you three stood on the porch.

He smiled, “It’s fine. Everyone has their bad day.”

You chuckled before Julia nudged her again with her elbow. Then, she turns to you.

“What time are you leaving tomorrow?”

“Probably early morning. I already have the keys to keep my apartment so I can go there now too if I want to.” your words rambled as your head felt like a mess.

“Okay, call me. I’ll pick you up–” Before you can say anything, she lifts her finger. “And no, I won’t take no for an answer. I wanna see your new place.”

They left after Julia made sure you were fine. Walking into your house for the last time, you tried to go straight to your room to change from your gown to your pajamas. Then, you cried again. And again. And again.

The last time you woke up in that house was the morning after that. You woke up before dawn. The sky was barely lit and the moon was still present above you. You promised yourself that you would leave like a ghost. Like what you have been doing the last few days. Cleaning up, your hand ran on your bedsheets to smoothen out the wrinkles. Fortunately, almost ninety percent of your clothes fit in two pieces of luggage. You just have to leave a few things that you’ll probably get when you get back.

From Julia

Will be there in five

Five minutes left, you find yourself sitting in front of your vanity mirror. Making one last check, you pulled the small drawers in the table. That’s when you saw that old pearl ring Taehyung bought you in the flea market. A heavy sigh from your chest makes its way out of your lips. Holding it between your thumb and index finger, you stare at it.

We tried, didn’t we?

Before any tears can fall, you simply close your eyes. Your chest heaves. You clutched that ring in your palm for some minute, like you were giving your one last goodbye. Then, you carefully place it next to your keys. You decided to leave your keys as you don’t want to come and go here in secret as you always have the tendency to do that especially if you want to avoid a person. Like you were doing now. You want to come back here better and hopefully, talk to Taehyung in the future.

Feel at home, this house is yours too. Paint the walls with the colors you like, buy new furniture, and fill the frames with new memories. Just please don’t sell it. I’ll try to reach out as soon as I can. For now, live the last years you missed.

You wrote on a piece of paper that you left on the same table. In the weeks you two lived together after the accident, you knew how he struggled to adjust to this house. Now that you’re going, you wish for him to feel comfortable in this house you two shared and called home. The pieces of furniture and shade of blue that took over every wall in the house were picked by both you and Taehyung when you bought it. The frame kept every memory you and Taehyung love to look back on in the span of your four-year relationship. But if it means for him to feel at home, you won’t mind if he wants to change things around the house. Even though it will probably break your heart harder than it is now.

“You…”

It was only your first morning, the second day in your new apartment in Incheon when someone came knocking on your door. You were still organizing your place and unpacking when you heard continuous heavy knocks. Almost instantly, your eyes widened when you saw who it was through your door’s peephole. The person spoke again as soon as you opened your door.

“You moved?!” Jisoo immediately pushed through your door and welcomed herself in. “You moved here?!”

Based on the tone of her voice, she was more angry than surprised. Her eyebrows were scrunched together while her nose flared. Her hands were on her hips like she was waiting for an explanation. Your lips opened for a second before it closed again. You softly scratched your cheek before opening your lips again,

“I-I thought you were on your honeymoon vacation.”

She tilts her head, “Well, I’m not. Am I?”

“Why are you here?” you mumbled, sounding scared at her.

The thing is, Jisoo rarely gets angry or annoyed. You had known her ever since you began working as a nurse and you learned she have the longest patience for everyone else. But when she runs out of it, you don’t know how she will react.

“Why are you here?” she returned your question with raised eyebrows. “You did not tell me you were moving here or resigning in the hospital! What happened?”

You closed the door and quietly walked back to your messy living room since you knew she would follow. She did and continued,

“I saw the shift schedule like two hours ago and you’re not there. I had to ask Gail and she said you resigned. You were not answering my calls or messages! I had to call Julia. Then, she told me you moved here– What the fuck happened? I was only busy for like two weeks and next thing I know, my best friend’s in another city and hospital.”

You sat on your grey couch while Jisoo still stood in front of you. You looked away as your replied,

“Well, actually I’ll be working in a school–”

Jisoo’s tone went higher, “What?!”

“I applied as a school nurse–”

“No, no, no.” she shushed you. “Tell me everything that happened. Everything.”

So you did. But first, you asked her to sit down next to you. You ordered food by app as you don’t really have any stock of food at the moment. While you were waiting for the food, you began telling her about what happened. From how you met Lily to how you happened to be where you are right now. Jisoo listened intently. As you went on, you noticed her shoulders and facial expression softened up. From her jaw being clenched tight, her lips were formed into a slight frown. You tried not to cry throughout the whole story-telling impromptu but your voice did shake and you just felt your best friend’s warm hands somewhere in the middle of your story. At the end, you find yourself leaning your head on her shoulder while she leans hers on top.

“I and Joon just decided to go on honeymoon next month. Plus, I have a toaster and an air fryer in my car.” Jisoo broke the comfortable silence you two shared with a random sentence.

You lifted your head, looking at her, “What? Why?”

“We received like a ton of it from the wedding. We had to give some stuff away rather than selling it and I just knew your place is probably still empty. So I just bought some. I have plates too.” she smiled.

“But what if I was the one who gave you that toaster?” you asked, squinting your eyes.

“You did not.” she chuckled but your expression didn’t change. She blinked and asked with a feeble voice, “You did not, right?”

Your lips broke into a smile, “Yeah, we didn’t.”

She pouted before you two laughed and hugged. Just like that, you and Jisoo are okay.

Unlike any of your past decisions, nothing was truly planned when you decided to move away. Aunty Belle, whom you visit every now and then, comforted you about it and said that life just happens like that sometimes. And that’s how your two years went. Unplanned. You just applied for the first good job you saw, which happened to be being a school nurse in a preschool. You moved to another apartment after just a few months since your initial place is farther on the subway you always take to get to the school every morning.

Working with kids, you always miss your patients back in Seoul. Particularly, Naeun, whom you are still in contact with. You visit her a couple of times when you go to Seoul.

And there were times when you thought you saw Taehyung. Not just in Seoul, but also in Incheon. The first one was just months after you left, you were on your way to preschool when you saw him in the subway. But you thought it was just a look-alike and impossible since he would not have any reason to come here. Plus, you were feeling a little down that week as it was supposedly your fifth anniversary. The next time is when you come to Seoul to visit Naeun. It was a busy Sunday and you stopped by a toy store in the mall to get a gift for your favorite patient. It was a bit crowded since it was on sale. So you lost him in the blink of an eye.

The most recent one is when you came to Seoul for Julia’s birthday. You had a few drinks with your friends and everything was already slightly blurry. But you swore you saw him when you were waiting for your Uber late at night. You were with Julia, who was waiting with you just to make sure you’d be safe. She was talking about something but your eyes caught a man walking on the other side of the road with his head down on his phone. The small light coming from his screen made you recognize him. It’s him, you’re sure.

Although you have visited the city a couple of times already, you never drop by the bakeshop or the house. You never even contacted Taehyung. There were times it crossed your mind. But you never did. You miss him. God knows, how much. But you don’t know what to say about the house, him, you, or the relationship you two had.

You and Jimin talked seldomly. The first one was a week after you and Taehyung officially went separate ways. He would ask how are you and you would do the same thing. You were surprised but happy at the same time when you learned he had a kid, who happens to be Jisoo’s nephew. You two had this unspoken rule to not talk about Taehyung because Jimin doesn’t bring him up and you are too shy to ask. But you know they are doing well, you heard they expanded the shop.

In the whole two years, Taehyung never really left your mind. It’s hard. Especially when you would still get random reminders of your relationship in unexpected ways. In what was supposed to be your fifth anniversary, you got a scheduled e-mail from his account. Every year, your phone calendar still updates you to buy him a gift a month before his birthday. And just like last month, you found an old picture in one of your bags. Something you probably slipped there long ago. It’s a picture taken years ago during your first snow in your house with a handwritten caption, TOO MORE SNOWY DAYS TOGETHER. It was in his handwriting.

“Goodbye, Nurse YN!”

A little kid waved his little hand to you while his mom politely smiled at you. You waved back and continued walking back from your small clinic. This is how your day ends in school: tiny voices saying goodbye and sometimes giving you warm hugs. You were never really busy since you worked with two other school nurses who you became friends with.

“Oh, hey, YN.”

You just sat in front of your computer screen, recording some student’s health records, when your co-nurse popped into your shared office. Martha just found her recent hobby a couple of months ago after you told her that you haven’t been dating for the last couple of years.

You exaggeratedly sighed and did not even look at her, “What do you want?”

“YN sounds so tired of you already.” Aileen, your other co-nurse, laughed while organizing her files.

“I know, she is.” Martha chuckled. She turns to you, “I know a guy…”

You paused from what you were doing, “Martha–”

It’s not like you’re not interested in dating. It took you more than a year to be open again to the idea and so far, you’ve gone into two dates from Martha’s recommendations. But both were not a match. The first one is a great guy but he seems like he cannot get over an ex since he talked about her half of the time. While the second guy is just rude. That’s all you can say about him. The date was all about him not liking how the steak was cooked and how one of the waiters was too kind to you. It was horrible.

“No, no, honey. Listen to me first.” Matha cuts you off. “I personally know this guy. He’s my cousin and… he also works in the medical field! He’s a doctor.”

An eyebrow raised. A doctor? Well, you never dated one before. But you knew doctors were better than that last guy you mentioned.

Aileen joined, “Is he the one you showed me earlier?

“Yup,” Martha replied, popping the ‘p’ sound.

“Oh, you’ve got to see him, YN. The guy is gorgeous!” she exclaimed. “If you won’t date him, I will!”

The three of you laughed. Of course, Aileen can’t. She is currently seven months pregnant with her second child and married to one of the teachers in this same preschool.

“Just don’t tell Seb,” she added, mentioning her husband.

You still haven’t said anything even though you are admittedly interested. Martha pulled her phone out.

“Wait, I’ll show you his account.”

“Oh, that dress suits you perfectly!”

Jisoo’s voice filled your room as you fixed the dress on your body. Even though you two are in different cities, she is still your go-to every time you need to dress up for something. Usually, through Facetiming. The date is fine-dining. So, you tried on different dresses for Jisoo to pick on and eventually, you two agreed on the same one.

“Don’t forget your coat! It might get cold,” she advised. “Now, turn around again!”

You giggled before doing what she said. You heard her cheer and compliments, making you smile.

“You are stunning!”

“Thank you so much for helping me, Jiji,” you said with a small smile.

“You’re welcome. Just have fun, okay? Let me know how it goes later.” she told you and you nodded. She spoke again, “Now, go! Book that Uber already.”

“Okay, okay. Bye! Call you later. Love you!” you waved.

She waved back, “Love you, take care!”

You ended the call and moved to another app to look for a ride. Your date initially asked if you wanted him to pick you up. But you just agreed to meet him at the restaurant he invited you to. He seems nice. Martha said her cousin has been single for a while now. After his last relationship, he just gave most of his time to work.

To +82 65 78** ****

Hi! I’m on my way. See you there.

You sent your date the message when you finally got in the car you booked twenty minutes ago. It did not even take a few minutes before he replied,

From +82 65 78** ****

Okay, see you there! Take care.

Pursing your lips, you look outside the window of the moving car. You hope for the best for tonight. You hope Martha’s recommendation is at least okay this time. Maybe the universe could prove to you that Taehyung is not the only guy in the world who could make the butterflies play around in your stomach. Or the only guy who would be patient enough with your tendencies. You just have to know that he is not the only guy in the world. Period.

As much as you won’t say it, dating Taehyung for four years made him your standard for everything. You already met two versions of him; one before the accident and one after the accident. They are almost the same person but the latter just brought you a lot of pain because of various circumstances. But you know and feel he shows his emotions in other ways.

“We’re here.” the female driver, whom you saw is Val, said as she stopped the car in front of the brightly lit restaurant.

You smiled before getting out of the vehicle, “Thank you.”

Starry Night lives up to its name. As you noticed before, the whole place is lit up with many lights. Carefully, you walked inside with your strappy heels. The staff smiled and greeted you, and you greeted them back.

“Good evening, madam. Welcome to Starry Night. How may I help you?”

“I have a reservation under Jung Hoseok’s name.” you politely replied.

“Oh, okay. Let me check our list. Excuse me.” the host scrolled down his iPad for a minute. “The name’s here! Please, follow me to your table. This way please.”

You followed him while looking around the place. It’s not too crowded and it has a romantic feeling because of the lights and jazz music. You know someone who would have loved to go here. Before you sit down, the host assisted you with the chair and offered to take your coat. You agreed. Pulling out your phone from your purse, you update Hoseok that you just arrived. You put your phone down and studied the whole place again with your eyes.

A woman caught your eye. She was talking and chatting with the chef in the side station. They looked like they were waiting for someone to enter the door. Your gaze were broke off when someone spoke from your side.

“Good evening, ma’am. My name is Soojin and I’ll be your waiter for tonight. Would you like to order something?” the young waiter smiled.

“Oh, I’m still waiting for my date…” you murmured. “But can I have some water please?”

“Certainly, ma’am. Excuse me.”

Soojin left as you said thank you. As she was gone from your sight, your eyes landed on the man who was entering the restaurant. Dressed in a nice black coat over a light blue shirt, you quickly recognize him. Your mouth runs dry while your heart beats like a horse’s footsteps in a race. You were frozen.

What is he doing he– Fuck.

Your eyes meet. You can see his eyes widening as his lips gaped slightly. His Adam’s apple bobbed up and down while you practically lost your hearing. All you can hear is the drum inside your chest.

Fuck, you cursed again.

What are the chances for this to happen? Is the universe playing or simply fucking with you? You asked for a great date and it gave you this. The man you’ve been holding as your standard ever since.

It burns.

His eyes. You can feel them as you take a sip from the ice-cold glass of water. After the host led him to one of the empty tables in your line, your eyes traveled everywhere except on his spot. You two were literally just an empty table apart.

Is he here for a date? Why here? In Incheon, really? Can’t he just date people from Seoul?

It has been nine minutes, you’ve been counting. Your hand rests on your knee, to stop your knees from jerking up and down, while the other rests on the table with your phone. You’ve been texting but erasing messages to Hoseok. You don’t think you can do this. With Taehyung being just a few feet away from you, it felt wrong to be with someone else. You should have been sitting right in front of him.

Slowly, you try to move your eyes in his direction. You paused when you saw that he was staring at you too, unmovable. Are you supposed to smile? Wave? Nod. just nod. You were about to do that when the same woman from the side station walked up to him, covering your view of him.

“Hi, good evening!” you heard her honey-like voice greet him. “I’m Ashley.”

You noticed Taehyung stood up. They shake hands and you don’t really hear the rest of their conversation. You began texting your date,

To +82 65 78** ****

Hi. Where are you?

You’ve been alone for a while now.

Taehyung noticed. The glass of water on your table is almost empty. The waiter already come back to you a couple of times now. He can see you chewing on your lower lip as you check your phone every minute that passes by.

Did your date just stand you up?

His hands clutched as he thought of that idea. He knew you didn’t deserve that.

“I think this is good! Not too sweet, not too spiced. It’s soft too. Just perfect.” Ashley snapped him from his thoughts.

Taehyung tried to concentrate on what he originally meant to do here, “Yeah… uhm… Jimin, my friend, really tries to balance the texture and taste. It’s his own carrot cake recipe that he worked on before we even had the shop.”

Ashley already had a taste of every cake he brought. Five open Tupperware are on their table, including the cheesecake you love. She began talking about the other cakes and dessert while Taehyung stole some glances at you again. This time, you are on call. You pursed your lips before replying to whoever it was. He can read the disappointment through your eyes as your lips form into a small frown. You sighed before saying, it’s fine, I understand. No problem.

“Okay, these are really good. I think your products will be a great addition to our menu.” Ashley spoke again.

Taehyung looked at her with surprise, “Oh, wow. That’s… great.”

Did he just get this deal?

“Yeah, I trusted my chef when he said he had the best Tiramisu in your shop and I’m glad I did. These desserts are perfect and really satisfy my sweet tooth.” She compliments.

Taehyung bowed his head, “Thank you.”

“You’re welcome. Your desserts deserve to be everywhere. Haven’t you guys thought of opening a branch here?” she asked.

“Oh, we’re still figuring things out. We just expanded our main shop in Seoul.” he chuckled.

“Well, I might go there when I visit Seoul.”

“Please do and let us know.” he smiled.

“I will. By the way, the contract is not ready now. But we are definitely having this deal! Can you and Jimin visit here again next week or maybe me and my head chef can visit your shop in Seoul?” Ashley offers.

“I still have to discuss that with my friend.”

“Oh, sure. Sure. Here, we are okay with any decision. Just let us know. You guys have our e-mail and numbers, right?” Taehyung nods. “Okay, I guess… that’s a done deal.”

Ashley stood up and offered her hand. Taehyung stood up too and shook her hand.

“Thank you so much.” Taehyung smiled.

While Ashley replied, he stole another glance behind her. That’s when he sees you standing up and walking back to the host at the entrance of the restaurant. The host had an apologetic look on his face as you talked to him. He helped you with your coat. It seems like you’re leaving with your date being a no-show.

“I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to be rude. But I would have to go for now..” Taehyung carefully said.

Ashley smiled, “Oh, of course. Yes. You can go. But one more thing… can you leave these cakes?”

Taehyung chuckled with that, “Of course!”

“Thank you! See you in the contract signing!”

“See you.”

Taehyung took his coat from his seat and left in a hurry. You were already gone, possibly out of the restaurant. He said thank you to the staff who opened the door for him and he immediately searched around. That’s when he sees you standing, looking down at your phone.

“This one’s just a few minutes away–”

He took a deep breath before saying, “YN?”

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gottagobackintime · 1 year

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I find it fascinating to witness the straight audience of any media not being able to pick up what the makers of the movie/show puts down.

It’s like when people reacted to the “You wear fine things well” scene in Our Flag Means Death with “aw, they’re such good friends” whereas the queer audience went “omg, this is happening”. We all had access to the same scene, we’d all watched the build up to that scene but the straight audience wrongly read it as friends/straight whereas the queer audience had suspected they were building up to a romance but this was the confirmation. Even the creator of the show was baffled that people were surprised that Ed and Stede fell in love. Because he thought they had made it obvious.

And as I said, we, the queer audience picked up on it. And I feel like the same thing is happening with Ted Lasso. Do I know that Ted and Trent will get together? No, I am unfortunately not a writer on Ted Lasso. But you can’t deny that there are clues pointing to it. But the straight audience barely pick up the fact that Ted and Trent like each other, be that in a platonic way or romantic way. I’ve seen several reactions to the last episode of season 2 and ONE of them included the scene where Ted reacts to Trent not being in the press room. All of them severely cut down the scene in the parking lot. One of the scenes most of us Ted/Trent truthers point to as a huge piece of evidence for it going canon. The parallel of them meeting in an empty parking lot, just like Ted and his ex-wife and Roy and Keeley. But because Ted and Trent are both men it couldn’t possibly mean anything. And Ted has an ex-wife and a kid so he can’t possibly be into men, as if there is no such thing as being bisexual. “But I’m pretty sure Trent has a family, he has a kid right?” So? He could be divorced, we also have no idea if his daughter has another dad or a mum. And the same thing applies to him, it doesn’t mean he can’t be into men (take also into account all of James Lance’s interviews, and his choice of shirt in one of them, friend of Dorothy anyone? He's the captain of this ship, we're just along for the ride tbh.)

Then we have the wonderful “I’m so not homophobic, in fact, you are homophobic because you think Ted is gay just because he likes musicals and has ‘feminine’ traits” um no… it’s the fact that he kind of acts in a way that an ally wouldn't. Yeah, he called himself an ally in that one episode. But every single person who is now out as queer who at one point considered themselves an ally because "I’m not one of them but I sure think they're neat" raise a hand 🖐️ (been there, done that. Was very into queer things before I realised I myself am one of them). What it always comes down to is "it's pandering", "it's tokenism" (having the main character on the show be queer wouldn't be fucking tokenism), "not everything has to be gay", "why can't men just be friends, there is a severe lack of male friendships on tv". And like the last one makes me go??? There are a MILLION friendships between men on TV. There are even multiple friendships between men in Ted Lasso. Beard and Ted, Ted and Higgins, Ted and Roy, the himbos and so on. Having Ted and Trent become a couple wouldn't really change anything because there are still friendships between men. They also claim that Ted is needed as the "straight without toxic masculinity" representation. As if Beard isn't right there. The man who has no problem going to an immersive show about the menstrual cycle. Has no problem with shrieking when he's surprised and so on.

I also like that if we'd get Ted and Trent together, we'd get two middle aged queer dads. Which isn't that common. It's not even super common to see people realising they're queer late in life on TV, and yet it happens every day. Because let's face it, most queer men on TV kind of look like Colin, and I don't mean that as a bad thing. And I'm looking forward to his storyline. But it's also nice seeing middle aged or old people finding themselves and being allowed to be who they are (see Ed and Stede from OFMD). Also would enjoy seeing people lose their minds when they realise they've been fooled this entire time. It'll be like Black Sails all over again.

I do not have any doubts about the fact that, had Trent or Ted been a woman and they saw Trent give up his career because of Ted's influence, they sure as hell wouldn't protest people thinking they'd become a couple. But because it's two men it's just delusional for some reason (homophobia).

What I'm saying is, it's clear that the straight audience has a hard time picking up subtext and clues that the makers are planting. Because they've never had to do that. Because they are always clearly represented. They don't have to look for minor side characters and hope that they might be queer. Because the main character is straight and most of the supporting cast too. When you've grown up with a lack of representation or with representation that is meant to be subtext, you'll learn to pick up on it. And you do look at media differently. I just wish that the straight audience could listen to us for once, without getting defensive and dancing around the fact that they are uncomfortable relating to a character that turned out to be queer.

#tedependent #ted lasso #trent crimm #there are so many times where I'm watching something and I go... hold on that is... is that a queer character... yes it must be #and then they do something small that confirms it and I'm like I fucking knew it!#I have 0 gaydar in real life but when it comes to media I tend to pick up on it #I wish that all straight people would learn about the way queer people have been represented throughout history #so that they might be able to understand why we have to look for subtext even today #hell we got ''representation'' in star wars and beauty and the beast and it was blink and you'll miss it #and they wonder why we have to make everything gay??#because we want to be represented in a show that isn't strictly about being queer #yes it's nice with a ''everyone is queer'' kind of show #but it's also nice to be seen in a mainstream show that is loved by not just a queer audience but also a straight audience #nicole watches stuff

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OPERATION: TOGETHER, roman reigns and cody rhodes (ii).

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warnings: cigarettes, curse words, tantrums, trash-talking, fighting

tags: cody being confused in every situation, comical situation, dad triple h again, GIRLLLLBOSS (Y/N)!!!! i'm trying to make (y/n) unlikeable as fuck for the plot

YOU flipped the papers, examining information on it. “next!” paul shouted. you and paul were holding auditions for talents. “god, can this day get any boring?” you muffled a groan, trying your best to stay awake. “come on, where’s the cheery attitude?” paul nudged your arm. you put on a fake corporate smile, not holding it very long when the next college athlete entered the room.

he was eyeing you up and down, clearly not knowing your position in the company. “elliot roberts?” you asked him, studying his profile. “that’s me, pretty lady.” he winked at you. you stared soullessly into his eyes. “call me ‘pretty lady’ once again and you can kiss your career goodbye.” he lowered his head, intimidation creeping in. “you’ll be paired with… you know what, (y/n), you should go in the ring with mr. roberts.” the college athlete gain confidence when he was assigned to you.

“paul, be fucking for real.” “i am being fucking for real.” he mocked your tone. what the college athlete didn’t know was you had a run in the wrestling world back when you were younger. you realized that it wasn’t for you, that was why you were the right person for the creative department. not to mention your dad was also a wrestling coach, god bless his resting soul, you thought. you took off your blazer, leaving you with your black shirt. you rolled up your sleeves, sliding inside the ring.

although the entire industry was scripted, the tryouts weren't. it was a real fight that you had to put up. "hit me with your best shot, pretty lady." that got on your nerves. you quickly dropkicked his jaw, still avoiding non-lethal spots to not damage him. "damn." paul whispered. the college athlete was riled up, excited for the fight. he lunged at you, dropping you on your back. you got back on your feet, locking his body with your legs. he gasped for air and called tapped out. 5 minutes and 30 seconds, you thought.

"are you like," the athlete breathed out. "a wrestler?" he continued. "no, i'm (y/n) (l/n). co-creative director of the company you want to join and you just lost a fight with me. but i see you got spirit." his eyes lit up from your sentence. "so does that mean i'm in?" "you're in for the next tryouts, kid." you went back to the table, fixing your hair. "you sure you don't want to be in the roster?" paul joked. "i'd rather go back to my 9-5 job than be a wrestler. next!"

your professionalism has brought you to places you never thought you'd be in. although you were nervous by the fact that you were going to meet with your ex boyfriend for work purposes, you knew you had to keep it professional. you looked at your watch, it was already 6 pm, meaning you had to prepare for the meeting. you hesitated to enter the room with your papers, but you were ready to face whatever was waiting for you.

"(y/n)!" to your surprise, a certain blond was already sitting down with his earphones. you were startled to see him. "yeah, hello." you greeted him with a simple nod. "hope you don't mind, i brought coffee for everyone." you noticed the cups of coffee on the table. "thanks." you muttered as you drank it. "so about that thing..." you raised an eyebrow.

"what thing?" you asked him. "the roman incident." oh, the incident last monday, you thought. "i never got to thank you, if that's what you want me to say then thank you." cody shook his head. "naaah, i meant..." he was pulling back his words. "i know we're not close and all but if you ever need a wingman, i'm here." his words got into you. "thanks," cody smiled at your response. "but like you said, we're not close and i can deal with things on my own." you continued, being as cold as possible to him.

you didn't understand him at all. he was just some guy from work, why was he being nice to you? does he want a push? you didn't want to take the risk and open up to people. you were scared that you might get betrayed or heartbroken once again. cody sighed, he too, couldn't understand you. he knew that this wasn't the usual you. he heard stories from his fellow wrestlers that you used to be this friendly person who was a party animal and you were all about making people smile. a single heartbreak could really change someone, he thought. "i know, i'm just letting you know." he smiled, a glimpse of pity in his eyes.

"i hope i'm not interrupting something." a shiver ran down your spine as you looked away from cody. "reigns, take a seat." your expression was stern like usual. "hey roman." "hey cody." the two exchanged greetings. you prepared the papers, laying it all in front of them. "we'll just wait for paul. he'll be here in a couple of minutes." you were practically hoping that your boss was here. tension was building up inside the room as roman couldn't stop looking at you. cody pretended to play with his phone, scrolling mindlessly.

a wave of nostalgia washed over you as you remembered a couple years ago, roman was in this office with you, discussing about his future push into this tribal chief-like image. it was all your idea and he loved it. come to think about it, you contributed a lot to his career. you were trying your best not to make eye-contact as he was already burning holes on your skull.

you heard your notifications coming from your phone.

big boss: running l8, elevator is stuck. start without me, i'm taking the stairs.

(y/n): u gotta be kidding me

big boss: no son, i really am taking the stairs.

can things get any worse than this? you asked yourself. "apparently, paul is late. he's taking the stairs, so let's start now." the two wrestlers nodded in unison. "we know that you two are the top wrestlers for each brand. we wanna push you into rivalry." the two stared at each other, not knowing what to say. "it all leads up to wrestlemania next year. your entire rivalry will be based on reigns' greed for the titles and cody's legacy." roman took a notice of you calling him by his last name and cody by his first name.

"the winners for the wrestlemania next year is to be discussed by the board, that's all i can say for today. if you have any questions, shoot now." roman and cody were still reading the contract. "yeah, i have a question." cody raised his hand. "you don't need to raise your hand, cody." you almost let out a smile. "oh right, i just want to ask about this number 12..." he pointed at the paper. "you're fully in charge of this storyline?" you furrowed your eyebrows as you flipped the pages.

fuck, you thought. paul really did make you in charge of the storyline. a sheer of panic washed over you, but like usual, you had to be professional. "yes, i am." you answered shortly. speak of the devil, your boss arrived, breathing heavily due to his current physique. "okay, i'm here now! what did i miss?" by the look of your face, you figured out his plan. "oh." he stifled a laugh.

"it's final then, thank you gentleman for signing the papers. my son will be monitoring the progress." paul took the papers and put them inside his folders. cody raised an eyebrow, "your son?" he asked. "(y/n). now, who wants deli sandwhiches? i'm buying."

so there you were, sitting next to paul and in front of roman, painfully eating your feelings away as you didn't want to engage in the conversation. you didn't know what was going on in paul's mind, but you would rather be hit by his iconic sledgehammer rather than being here. "why aren't you in charge of this storyline? i thought you were still the head-creative director." roman asked, curiosity in his head.

"i think this needs a fresh perspective from a younger person, all those highest-ratings? the idea comes from (y/n). i think she's a great choice for this long-running story." deep down, you felt happy. he trusted you with this big story, meaning that you were doing a great job in your field. "yeah, she did a great job for my bloodline story. thank you, (y/n)." roman chuckled.

you couldn't help but to roll your eyes at his comment. "you should thank yourself for taking all the time you have to polish your career." you sarcastically smiled, anger building up inside you. cody choked on his food, brushing it off by drinking his water. paul patted your back, trying to calm you down. thankfully, the deli was empty, only leaving workers who didn't give a single shit if a fight happened. "and well, i might as well give you some credits. let's say, 'thank you roman for 4 years of nothing but pure shit and lies!' what a fun line!" you continued, not holding back.

the table was silent as roman didn't know how to respond to that jab. "i'm sorry." was all that came out of his mouth. you had enough, you stood up from your seat, not wanting to continue dinner. "gentlemen, thank you for the dinner. i'll see you at work." paul flashed you a pity smile, he understood your situation.

as soon as you exited the deli, you pulled out a cigarette. "(y/n)." you heard his voice again. "stop, don't move any closer." you said. "i'm trying to apologize." roman added. "i don't need your fucking apology, roman." you gritted your teeth in annoyance. "then what do i need to do for you to forgive me?" "honestly? go fuck yourself, roman. don't talk to me unless it's for work purposes."

the two of you were arguing while cody and paul were still enjoying the sandwich they ordered earlier. "order another one, this is going to be a long fight." paul nudged him. "were they always like this?" cody chewed on his food. "nope, nothing like this, the breakup really affected (y/n)." paul sighed. "thought it was true love too, but i guess time for them to go on their separate ways." he continued. “in my opinion? she doesn’t need him, he needs her.” cody looked at the two of you still going off. he could tell that you were holding back your tears. even if he didn’t know you that well, he knew that you were still in love with his opponent.

truth be told, it broke everyone's heart seeing you all cold and distant. but then again, you had to protect yourself from another heartbreak.

“keep an eye out for her, will you?” the sudden question caught him off guard. “huh?” cody muttered. “i mean, i see her as my own daughter. i know she can be tough at times, but i can guarantee that she’ll warm up to you. she’s a good person. you're a good person too. (y/n) is just going through things. keep an eye out, if that’s not too much to ask.” without hesitating, cody nodded. “don’t worry, she’s in safe hands.” this was going to the start of a rollercoaster ride for the 3 of you. maybe it was in his nature to help people, but cody rhodes just signed the best contract in his life and he wasn't thinking about the rivalry between him and roman, he was thinking about making you happy.

a/n: WHO IS READY FOR NIGHT OF CHAMPIONS? me fr! anywaaays like usual, requests are still open pls do send me some requests ^___^

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Enough for you (part 1) - Mason Mount

I missed you guysssss..... finally logged back into my account after 2 months and began typing & I'm so happy!!!! I am sorry for the absent, uni and my personal life has been a living hell but I am back for now to speak and write to all you lovely lot... which I've just now discovered I now have 2,000 followers! Thank you soooooooo much I really can't believe it

This one isn't the best as I'm a little rusty but I think it's a good opener for a new series I am going to write! Currently it's called 'enough for you' however this might change the more I write of it! The next part will be uploaded tomorrow but for now feel free to fill my inbox with 'hello's' and questions as I missed you all sooooooooo much! Enjoy 💕

Summary- After your dad, frank lampard, gets assigned to manage his old team again and wants you to join him as the head counsellor, your mind fills with dread and flashbacks of a possible reunion with your ex...

“Theres no way…” You whispered, staring at your father in disbelief as he spoke the words that you thought you’d never hear again “Your managing Chelsea… again”.

“Only for the rest of the season, it’s nothing permanent yet” You could hear his own surprise in his voice, as if he too couldn’t believe what he was saying. “But it went awful last time” You gasped “Why would they want you back?”

“Cheers kiddo, I needed that confidence boost…” rolling his eyes he came closer to you, ruffling your hair slightly before walking pass you towards the kitchen.

“I didn’t mean it like that dad” You sighed, following him “They just treated you so badly last time… is it worth it?” It’s not that you didn’t want your dad to go back into managing his old team, of course you wanted him too! Goosebumps rose on your own arms just thinking about Frank Lampard’s, your dads, big return to Stamford bridge. But the excitement fades away quickly once you the memories of last time flood in your mind.

The headline that he left…

The face he made when he got the call…

The hours and hours he spent preparing to head HR to fight a losing battle…

Seeing the nervousness in your eyes, he wrapped his arms around you “Theres no need to panic, eh? It’s a couple of weeks that’s all… they need me”.

Sighing, you knew that he was right. You didn’t have to live under a rock to know how poor Chelsea was at the minute. “I suppose you couldn’t make them any worst than they are…” You giggled, a smirk on your face as you pulled away from the hug, his laugh echoing across the marble walls of the kitchen “That’s the spirit! Now let’s get a glass of wine to celebrate our return!”

Just as you were about to grab the glasses, you froze “Our return…”

“Yeah, that’s the thing…” Your dad spoke hesitantly “The board had asked if you’d also come back as the head of the wellbeing team. All the players and staff have been going through a rough time and really need a team on site to help… that’s why they need you!”

Working for Chelsea was the first job you had ever gotten when you graduated from university with a counselling degree. It obviously helped that your dad was the manager of the team, however every loved having you around and you loved being there. But when your dad got fired from the team in such a cruel way and the management of the team collapsing, there was no way that you were going to stay… so you left with him… despite everything you were leaving behind… despite leaving him!

“No way dad!” You quickly rejected, placing the glasses back down as you headed back into the living room “I am happy for you, I really am! But I’m not going back!”

“Why not?”

“I have a job!”

“You can leave it” He pushed, causing your eyes to widen “I can’t just leave my job dad! What am I supposed to say, ‘sorry guys I’m going to work with my dad for a few weeks and then I’ll return when they throw us away again’”.

“They never asked you to go” Your dad interjected. It was true, if anything the team wanted you to stay more than Frank!

“They wanted you to leave… so I did too! End of!”

“(y/n) …” Frank spoke hesitantly “This isn’t about Mason, is it?”

You didn’t realise your body could go more into shock than before until he spoke his name. The name that at one point caused your heart to burst into a thousand butterflies, but now makes it shatter into a million shards of glass that was impossible to piece together again…

“No” You spoke just above a whisper, trying to convince not only your dad but yourself. It wasn’t a secret that you were once in love with Chelsea’s number 19… to the public it might have been but to everyone in your life it was clear to see the effect that his presence had on you, and even now almost 2 years later remains on you! You were perfect together, the mix of your existences together had meaning, a love so strong that it could be seen a mile away… that was until he broke your heart.

“Don’t lie to me (y/n)” Frank sighed “Why else wouldn’t you come back?”

“Why do you even care about that?” You exploded, anger tracing in your veins “You hated us together… it was one of the reasons he broke up with me!”

Flashback

“What do you mean you can’t do this anymore?” You breathed out, looking over to him as he placed his hands over his face in anger, sitting on the edge of the sofa. What was supposed to be a night enjoying watching your boyfriend play in one of the toughest tournaments in football, turned into a surprisingly sour one. The second you returned home from the win, Mason turned bitter, his face scrunched together in thought as he refused to acknowledge your presence. “You won Mase… I don’t what is wro-“

“We’re wrong!” he screamed back, standing up from the sofa as he turned to face you “It’s not about the game… It’s about us!”

“Mason I don’t know what you mean?!?” you shouted back, confusion etched in your voice as he huffed “Us, (y/n) … it shouldn’t be happening it can’t happen!”

“We’ve been together for months Mason! Why now?”

“People are going to find out about us and then what? I’m just the player who got in the team cause he’s shagging his managers daughter!”

“Who cares what they say?!” You pushed “Who gives a fuck? I’m happy, your happy… my dad’s okay with it!”

“Oh please!” He laughed sarcastically as you raised your eyebrows in confusion “Your dad hates us together and you know it!” “He did at first but not anymore” You tried to convince him, knowing that it did indeed take your dad awhile to warm to the idea “He accepts us Mason… so what’s this really about because I know what you are saying is full of shit!”

Mason turned back around, not wanting you to see any more of the cracks showing “I’m telling the truth (y/n)!”

“No. Your. Not.” You said, voice getting angrier and angrier “You wouldn’t do this now, you wouldn’t end us over something so simple… so easy to fix! So what is it?”

“I CHEATED OKAY!” he shouted back, causing your heart to stop. “Your lying…” You mumbled, shaking your head as you refused to let the tears go “Your lying… you’d ne-never do th-that to me… with who?”

“Does it matter?” He sighed, pulling his hair as he glanced over to what once was your happy figure, but is now destroyed. “Yes it does…” You whispered, a tear ruining down your cheek against your will “of course it does, so with who?”

“Just a girl at the club” he spoke with no emotion “I got drunk, she was there, it happened”

“Why?”

“Why what?” He tutted “Why did I fuck her? Like I just said, we got drunk she was there, you wasn’t it’s that easy-“

“No… not that” You stopped him, not wanting to hear anymore “Why wasn’t I good enough for you?”

Your words caused him to freeze as he stopped his pacing, and for a moment you could of sworn you seen the cracks to yet another lie but of course it was hidden quicker than it was seen “You know what they say… the game is the game, and sometimes your just not good enough to play!”

His words caused your body to tense up like you just got a million paper cuts, you wanted to push him… to fight him… to prove that the crack you seen was a lie, a doubt… but why would you, when the man you loved, the man you thought was your haven, just told you that you weren’t good enough.

Without another word, you nodded, walking past him to collect your belongings. Only once you were past him did you let the tears run…

“Mason?” You whispered, needing to say one more thing to him before you left

“Yes…” You didn’t look at him when he replied but you knew he was crying… but why?

“Thank you for letting me play the game with you…” and with that you left… one of you hoping to see the other one again while the other one prayed.

End of flashback

A shiver ran down your back as you remembered the horrid memory, but it was brushed off as your dad began to speak again “I didn’t hate you together!” He protested, sitting beside you on the couch “Did I hate the idea of my oldest child falling in love? Yes. Did I hate the idea that one of my best players was seeing my daughter behind my back? Of course.”

“dad…” You tried to stop him, but he obviously ignored you.

“But did I hate seeing my daughter so happy? No.” tears streamed down your face as he spoke the truthful words “I know it hurt you. The hiding… the breakup… the secrecy. But that’s what love is, and deep down I know he really did love you.”

“Then why did break up with me then?” you sniffled “If he really loved me that much then why?”

“That’s something we’ll never know unless you speak to him.”

Of course you didn’t tell your dad he cheated on you, although after the reveal you couldn’t stand to even look at him, your love overpowered the hatred of ruining his relationship with your dad and his chances of remaining in the first team.

“I’m not seeing him dad… no matter what I’m not facing him again” Your body went into reject mode at the idea of just seeing him, nevermind having a vulnerable conversation with him. “I’m not asking you too honey, he can be booked in with someone else and you’ll have your own office… but please come back with me? I need you”.

‘I need you’

The three words that held so much but little meaning. The three words that you held onto so tightly for so many years. The three words that you can never refuse.

“Fine…” You sighed, as your dads’ arms wrapped around you once more in celebration. “Thank you… thank you… thank you! The teams going to be so happy…”

“You don’t have to thank me, I’d do anything for you and you know that” You chuckled, getting off the couch to collect the glasses you put down a lifetime ago “but dad?”

“Yes?”

“You make sure Mason Mount stays the hell away from me!”

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100ish word unedited snippets of various fic things i'm working on under the cut

And that plan was working out great for him right up until he was rounding the corner of the dairy aisle and spotted Ana Flores contemplating yogurt. Eddie is debating whether he can retreat when she looks up and catches his eye. Neither of them move for a moment, until Eddie bites the bullet and offers a small, and probably awkward wave, and walks closer.

“Ana. Hi.” He hopes his smile doesn't look as forced as it feels. He doesn’t have experience with this. His only other ex is, well…

“Edmundo. What a small world. It’s been a while.”

“Yeah. Wow, it has been. How are you?”

“Can’t complain. And yourself?”

“I’m, uh,” Great, is what he means to say, perfect small talk. What comes out of his mouth instead is: “Gay.”

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“I don’t want a cold compress i want your fucking dick in me.” It comes out as a whine. This is so fucking embarrassing, but Eddie’s frustrated in every way.

And then he hears–

“Are you laughing at me?”

“I’m so–I’m so sorry, baby. That was mean. Won’t happen again.”

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“Hey, when were you born?”

Eddie raises his eyebrow. “Weren't you the one who organized that huge surprise birthday party last year?”

“Obviously I know your birthday,” he says with an eye roll. “I don’t mean the day. Like, what time were you born?”

Eddie frowns. “Why would I know that? Why do you want to know that?”

Buck gives him a big dramatic sigh, as if Eddie’s being the difficult one here, and stands to leave. “Forget it, I’ll ask your sister.”

“My sist-- What?” Eddie calls, but Buck is already heading down the stairs.

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God he was just… he was just starting to get his shit together, there’s so much he wanted to do still. He hasn’t even said it out loud yet. He can feel his heart rate picking up, as he takes a deep steadying breath and says, to the crumbling ceiling, to the universe, “Fuck it. Okay. I’m gay!”

And that must have gotten Athena’s attention because she’s stopped her search around the room and is looking straight at him with a determined and stern face. “No.”

“What do you mean ‘no’? That wasn’t a question, I’m bearing my soul here—“

“No,” she repeats and steps closer to him. “I am not having another man thrust his sexuality crisis upon me. And we are not giving up like this. No offense, but you are the last person on my husband's team that I should be dying with, so you better get back in that closet. I am not hearing this.”

Eddie holds up his hands in defeat. “Jesus. Alright. I’m straight. Until we get out of here.”

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Everyone else at the station has kept their distance as soon as Buck came back from the supply closet with a confident look on his face and clipboard in hand, brandishing it like a prized possession. Buck Eddie kept close, following him around, doing his bidding, like the lovesick puppy he is.

It’s… God, it’s cute. And kind of hot. If he keeps stealing glances that’s not his fault. Eddie’s certain he’s being subtle, but after the seventh time he catches himself admiring his boyfriend he hears—

“Wait, seriously?” Buck’s walking closer, grin spreading on his face.

“What?”

“I know that face!”

“No. You don’t.” Eddie quickly busies himself with the task at hand, heat slowly creeping up his face. “Yes! I do! That’s your horny face. Oh my God!”

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When he picks up his phone the next morning he’s greeted with roughly hundreds of unread messages and a few missed calls. Not all of them are from Buck. He has the A-shift group chat, a few messages from one of the guys he plays pickup basketball with, his cousin asking how long he’s in town for. (And Anthony sent a selfie from last night, but Eddie bypasses that one for now.) A good chunk of them are Buck though and the guilt gnawing at his stomach grows and grows as he scrolls through the messages.

The texts range from apologetic, to curt and angry, to completely off topic, probably Buck trying to lure him out by showing he could pretend it never happened. He sent a screenshot of an article about backyard beekeeping with a string of emojis at 1:33pm. That one was followed by another round of apologies sent an hour later, and a fuck you another hour after that.

finally he reaches the end, three messages that came in at 2:04am.

i won’t say anything

it was my fault

just please don’t cut me out eddie

#this is of intrest to one (1) person and i've alreayd shared every single one of these with her in our chats but idk!#one day i will..... actually focus on one of these... but that day might not be until the season is finished.#yes that last one is proof im working ona follow up to my most non existent fic!!! this is why i posted what i had as is bc now i gotta #plot and its painful

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therenlover · 8 months

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✨TheRenLovers (Updated) Fanfic Glossary✨

Updated 9/7/23

A glossary of my past works and ongoing projects. Also comes with a handy dandy list for request guidelines! I mostly post x Reader fics, but I'm looking to branch out into established ships soon. To join my fresh, new taglist for any character, just shoot me a message. I also crosspost all my works to my Ao3, which you can find Here!.

This post is a beefy boy, so for the sake of your dash the rest is below the cut.

Red = Abandoned Project (I may eventually complete these, but I have no current plans to)

A Note About Requests

As long as my ask box is open, I am taking requests or questions! I can't promise every request will be completed, or that the ones that are requested will be finished in a timely manner. I'm an adult with a full time job, so sometimes writing takes a backseat. That being said, I will do my best to complete any requests that come my way, so feel free to ask if you're hoping to see something! The worst I could do is direct you to someone who might be able to make what you're looking for.

I am pretty open about what I write, but if a request makes me uncomfortable/isn't something I'm interested in writing, I, again, will try my best to reach out and guide you in the right direction to get that type of content. If you're worried your message got buried/forgotten, don't hesitate to message again. My brain is soup and I can be the worst person on earth at responding.

⚔️Baldur's Gate 3⚔️

Put Me Back In It (I Would Do It Again)

Synopsis: When Tav sold her soul to Raphael for Astarion's, she only hoped it would be worth the price. If only she remembered anything from before she entered the House of Hope...

Rating: E (+18)

Word Count: 40,000~ (Ongoing)

❤️Marvel❤️

Helmut Zemo 💜

One Last Night In Madripoor

Synopsis: Baron Helmut Zemo is a lonely, wanted man looking for some fun, you’re a piss-poor bounty hunter in search of a connection before leaving your life of crime behind, and fate has brought you together at a party the likes of which has never been seen before. You only have one night left in Madripoor, so why not take a chance?

Rating: E (+18)

Word Count: 4200~

Still Some Catching Up To Do

Synopsis: As a member of the criminal underworld, people walk out of your life all the time. Some are killed, others kill themselves, most get caught and only a couple get out of the life unscathed, disappearing into the world never to be seen again. Very few walk back in. So when your supposedly incarcerated ex-lover, the Winter Soldier, and the Falcon waltzed through your door and made you murder your boss, needless to say, you were surprised and more than a little bit pissed.

Rating: M (+16)

Word Count: 6800~

Nine Years Starved

Synopsis: It had been a little over nine years since Helmut Zemo lost his family, his country, and his sanity. Nine years since his last kiss. Nine years since he felt like a human man. Finally, he was ready to start over again, but first, he had to pay his penance back where it all began; Novi Grad. That’s when, by the grace of the fates, he met you.

Rating: G

Word Count: 7000~

Daddy Dearest

Synopsis: Not everyone gets lucky enough to go from being a broke college student in New York to being the sugar baby to literal royalty, but not everyone is you. Most people would be worried about messing things up or losing him to someone else, but you knew he would never find another baby just like you. Besides, you knew exactly what to do to keep him wrapped around your little finger. He may have been the daddy, but you pulled the reins.

Rating: E (18+)

Word Count: 8000~

In Fleeting Touches and Airy Sighs

Synopsis: As a wanted man, Helmut Zemo spends most of his time jumping from place to place in the hopes of avoiding a trip back to prison. Unfortunately, that means he can’t always be home in your arms. When he is, though, in the rare moments of calm, you’re reminded of just how worth it it’s been to wait, even if that wait was only shortened by the arrival of your enemies.

Rating: E (18+)

Word Count: 35,700~

Two Bodies In The Rain

Synopsis: It was raining the day you finally had to admit your feelings to Helmut. You hated to tell him the way you did, under the grey skies as your blood pooled below you, but at least you knew, in the end, he had seen the real you, even just once. That was enough.

Rating: T

Word Count: 5600~

Rest

Synopsis: Living life on the lam with your escaped super-villain lover means things rarely slow down enough for a real rest. When the exhaustion starts to take its toll on you, though, he knows exactly what to do to ease the pain. He may not be a good man, but he’s a good husband when it counts.

Rating: T

Word Count: 3200~

The Boy With The Easel

Synopsis: About a month into your first semester at Novi Grad’s top university, you finally meet the strange young man that you’ve taken to calling “easel boy” in the back of a bookshop. From a distance, he always seemed cold and aloof. As you get to know him, though, you realize things aren’t always what they seem.

Rating: T

Word Count: 7000~

Orestes Fasting and Pylades Drunk

Synopsis: Helmut recalls the story of how he came to be the ruthless man he is and, more specifically, how he came into possession of his strange purple mask.

Rating: M (+16)

Word Count: 10,200~

Balm

Synopsis: Your forbidden dalliance with Baron Zemo, the lord of the house, has finally landed you in the dungeons, subject to the whims of the guards and the endless passage of time. As your sanity slips away, you wonder what will come first, your execution or the Baron's return?

Rating: M (+18)

Word Count: 5,800~

Always For A Second (Usually At The Start)

Synopsis: Leaving Helmut for good had been the biggest, most final choice you'd ever had to make. Two years later, he's in your living room again. This time, though, things are different.

Rating: E (+18)

Word Count: 8,600~

🖤American Horror Story🖤

James Patrick March 🔪

Heartsick

Synopsis: When you fall ill, James is given a forceful awakening about how he’s been neglecting your needs and what he must do to prevent harm from befalling you again.

Rating: M (16+)

Word Count: 3700~

In Sickness And In Health

Synopsis: Normally people don’t have their wedding and funeral on the same day, but you and James don’t quite have a normal relationship, do you? Besides, you wouldn’t wanna go any other way.

Rating: E (18+)

Word Count: 5500~

Jimmy Darling 🦞

Red Nights In Jupiter

Synopsis: At the end of another long day, you fall into bed with Jimmy Darling. The men you served throughout the day don’t matter then, nor do the coins in the mason jar by the door, or the women scheduled to attend Jimmy’s next Tupperware party. No, in that quiet darkness it’s just you and the man you love, bone-tired and happy to be home. Who could ask for more?

Rating: M (16+)

Word Count: 3000~

#jac rambles #fanfiction

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bengiyo · 1 year

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The Warp Effect Ep 8 Stray Thoughts

The Week of Jojo Part 2 begins. Last week, Army agreed to be the sperm donor for Nim, Mollie and Nim had a good moment during the training for the film that totally left Bew jealous, See-ew stepped out on Liu and ended up arrested for making porn, Liu broke up with See-ew in a scene that was fantastic between Sing and Clize, and Captain beat the shit out of Kat for not wanting to be his partner.

I'm glad we're staring with Kat. What happened to her was upsetting, and I wanted to check on her first.

It's interesting how Kat displays a wide array of feelings here, but annoyance, irritation, and offense come through most strongly.

All of Kat's girls came to check on her, but she doesn't want to be a victim. She is totally right to be frustrated that she was attacked after making her boundaries clear.

So now she'll flirt with Jean (who is apparently bi!) as a tease? I need this to become more than teasing!

I like Jean. Just because something bad happened to Kat doesn't mean she's gonna let Alex back in.

Army is lovesick, and also frustrated that Joe won't switch. So glad we're having frank conversation about the relationship dynamics in gay relationships about sex. Army is right that bottoming is tiring, and doing it all the time is exhausting. I'm curious how they'll explore Joe's reticence about the act. Just don't turn this into Cucumber, because I'll never forgive Russel T. Davies for that.

Alex is the straight guy determined to get his gay friend laid. We've come such a long way.

Cutting between Kim and Nim about the pregnancy tests was a neat touch. Kim's is unexpected, and I don't think Nim is pregnant yet.

I kinda like this plot with Bew. Lesbians can have poorly planned pregnancies, too. Bew may be jealous about Mollie, but the callous attitude about the baby is concerning.

Joe needs to do things away from this school more often, and everyone else needs to stop trying to make Joe talk about gay shit in the locker room of the school he works at.

Ah, Joe is a side. I appreciate that he doesn't like anal sex; I don't think it's required. I also don't like the bar and club scene. I just worry about the self-fulfilling nature of Joe's sense that he doesn't belong anywhere. You have to find your people.

I want to see Silvy whip ass in this film they're working on.

So Bew really left. TRASH. How do you look like Dichen Lachman and let me down like this??

"I remember all of it." Mollie, please never say that to your ex if you're trying to maintain a platonic relationship.

Jean stressing repeatedly that Kim's health and safety is more important than the set is exactly how more places should be. I will accept less shows less often if it means the people making it aren't suffering.

I just don't think the doctor should have told Jean that Kim is pregnant though? Seems like that's private information.

Oh, this is an interesting way for this plot to develop. Jean, who I suspect has had an abortion, doesn't foist that choice upon him. Kim admits she's not ready to start a family, and doesn't believe Ice is either. Kim doesn't hide the pregnancy from Ice, and he immediately rallies to become a dad and parent with Kim, much to her chagrin.

Kat is tough in front of others, but I am not surprised she's nervous in parking garages now.

Gosh, almost every scene has a blue hue to it this week. It's like watching Eyewitness again.

Mmm, unsure how I feel about Kat opening herself up to more with Alex immediately after beginning recovery.

Tony stay shooting his shots with Jean.

Alright, I do think it's important for us to talk about men's health and making sure they actually get it from professionals. However! Army knows Alex is not actually trained as a doctor right now, so what are the ethics here??

This and Between Us acknowledging bathroom stalls as their position in gay sexual history. I wonder if I'll have to write about this at the end of this year.

I get why Army stayed friends with Alex. He's very affectionate for a straight man.

Jojo really loves to fuck with the audience. Kat snuggles in with Alex, considering what it might be like to be serious with him, only for Alex to call out for Jean in his sleep.

I really like the exploration of the sensual potential of outercourse with Army and Joe. With how much BL misrepresents the physical considerations of penetrative sex, this feels necessary.

Also, in terms of the narrative, I like that Army's problem is solved by reconciliation with the first boy he really hurt and reaching equilibrium with him.

This fictional scene of Rose and Liu enabling Kat to curb stomp Captain is making me think of I May Destroy You (2022). I'm feeling a deep surge of complex feelings. Of course, her girls are here to support her.

Love that Kat's problem wasn't solved by choosing a guy.

Oh good, we're returning to Rose and Jedi next week. Not showing him in the bar felt intentional.

#the warp effect #thai drama #jojo tichakorn #Ben watches

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juzorei · 1 year

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By now, everyone would have watched the special episode of "Love in the Air." Listen to me then. I really want to brag about this scene. Cuz, why not! It's bragging time! 😭❤

This scene is literally a masterpiece. I am so happy that they decided to do this scene and bring this topic up. It was very brave of them. It was a needed scene in many ways.

First of all, they brought this topic up. We all know that even though Thailand has the most amazing BL series production, they still haven't legalised same-sex marriage. There may be so many couples who wish to marry and settle. Even though it's just a tradition or whatever, it gives you the right to take care of your significant other. And that's why this scene had a big impact too. Loved it!!

Secondly, this scene showed us the character development of both Pai and Sky. Mostly Pai. From a playboy with no strings attached life, he is now in love with his one and only and loyal to him, loving him, taking care of him, and whatever he can do he is willing to do. He said he wants to marry Sky because he wants to have the legal right to take care of him. Oh my god. I'm bawling my eyes out. He didn't just say that about him. He said everyone should have the right to take care of their loved ones. SPEAK UP P'PAI!!! STANDING OVATION!!! 😭💥🔥 Looking at it, we know how much Pai loves Sky. Not him being the adorable baby in front of Sky. I AM NOT OKAY! 😭❤ As for Sky, Pai keeps surprising him through action. Like Pai said, he makes Sky the happiest through his actions, not words. Sky being confident here by saying "then please wait for me," my boy trusts his P'Pai so much now.😭❤ My boy deserves it!!! He learned not everyone is like his ex. He has learned to love and trust again. He smiles more now. He is more than ever sassy now!!😭❤ Love him!!

P'Pai be breaking all standards of men!! Literally !!

And that is NOT THE END!!

Sky asking "Are you asking me to marry you?"

Pai said "Not today. Not now. Maybe after graduation. Maybe after you get a job. Maybe after you get to live the life you want. When you are ready, I'm gonna propose to you."

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS?!! I CANT!!😭

Pai is willing to wait. He is willing to wait for his Sky to be ready whenever it is. I mean PLEASE!!!! 😭 He respects and love everything about his Sky. He respects every decision Sky makes. Sky looking Pai like 'I choose the right person. He is my person.' Yes he is Sky! Just yours! You my boys deserves each other! And all my love for you both!!

He said he is willing to take care of Sky for the rest of his life. THATS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!! The confidence in him when he said those words! He will keep his Sky by his side no matter what. Yes! He will. I mean to be loved is a beautiful feeling. And hearing these words from the person you love, there wont be anything happier than that. Sky was so happy that he giggled when he heard Pai saying that. He know his P'Pai is whipped for him.😭🤌❤

Guys P'Pai set the standards so high that we will be singles forever!!🙂🤌

#love in the air #prapai love in the air #prapai x sky #sky love in the air #prapai lita #sky lita #thai boys love #love in the air special episode #fort thitipong #peat wasuthorn #babyfeat

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invisiblegarters · 8 months

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Only Friends Ranking - Ep 3

Just accept that this is going to be a weekly thing, self. Because these mfers keep making me switch it up. I can't even pretend to be annoyed, tbh.

Characters (Most to Least Fave atm)

Boston - not this motherfucker out here doing the most. And not me genuinely not knowing where the truth ends and the lie begins. If it does. Because honestly? Resetting his own virginity sounds exactly like something Mew would do, especially if Ray was too drunk to remember that it ever happened. As far as Mew knows it was just the two of them - it's not like he suspected Boston was being a creep and recording them - and however he felt or feels about Ray it clearly suits him to pretend nothing ever happened. I would fully believe they did have sex, tbh. And I would fully believe it of Boston to hold onto the evidence and play along as if he didn't know for his own ends, until he has a good time to pull it out (like he literally said Mew is a virgin who can't drive to Top in ep 1). I can't even be mad at him for it. I'm too busy cackling with unholy glee. Whatever games everyone is playing, Boston is the one winning at the moment.

Nick - Except this dude right here is now going to be the one in a position to fuck shit up. This dude is set up to go full on insane and a part of me can't wait. Personally, I hope he uses it to blackmail Boston into exclusivity. Why? My own amusement, mostly. I hope he does that and Boston can't do anything but comply (because he does seem absolutely terrified of Mew actually finding out - which is how we all should know that what he's doing probably has very little to do with Mew and much more to do with Boston and Boston's hangups about himself). And then when he finally gets Boston out of his system he should send the file to Mew. As a final goodbye. Yep, he's shady, we knew he was shady, this comes as no surprise to me. Might as well use what he has to get something of what he wants until he can find something or someone new to fixate on.

Sand - I never thought I'd demote him but I'm kind of bored. Whatever I wanted from him, I'm not getting it. I swear to god if he doesn't pick up a baseball bat at some point...but yes, he's just not giving me what I want and that's fine, not every character can be for me. I just feel currently, in ep three, like they gave him the most bland, almost predictable edit: he's gonna fall for Ray's shit despite himself, he probably had an ex that Top fucked and he hates him good for it, he probably had a parent (my guess is dad) who drove drunk or was killed by a drunk driver and now he has trauma surrounding it, he's going to put up with Ray and be jealous of Mew and probably cry from ep 5 on but hey, the good part is that this edit more than likely means that he has the best chance of getting out of this heartbroken but not in prison or dead. Just don't get in a car with Ray again.

There are two things that that kept him in the third spot today and not further down for the severe crime of disappointing me: the first was flipping off Top. That was hilarious. Even though I fully expect the problems between them to be about an ex and not that they are exes (I swear to god my poor bingo card is just gonna have one thing crossed out by the time this show ends; this hurts me why do you have to kill all my TopSand exes dreams, show? Why do you hate fun?), that was a great interaction and I want more. The second is that there are still times when he's looking at Ray that I don't see fondness, reluctant or otherwise. I see a man assessing how likely it is that the animal in front of him is going to bite. But more and more I am beginning to think I'm delusional because the guarded, emotionally unavailable man I sometimes think I see in Sand is not the one I'm getting in scenes like one in the car after the party (actually he was so smiley and easy in that scene I at first thought he was drunk. Have some pride, dude. I know you're twenty two and dumb but yeesh).

So yes. Three because he made me laugh and because I've still got the clown shoes on, if not the facepaint and orange wig.

Mew - I still think he's being manipulative, but not at Top this ep. I don't think it was coincidence that every time Ray's attention strayed from him this ep, he was right there to give him some encouragement. Ray might have been drunk when he confessed to Mew two years ago (and I'm betting he was, it's his whole thing), but you better believe Mew remembers, and I get the impression that for whatever reason - genuine feeling, wanting to be special, boredom, etc - Mew very very much wants to make sure that Ray never really looks away from him. Part of me wonders if he is kinda into him but he also knows what a bad decision he is, so he's waiting for Ray to clean himself up or for someone else to do the work to help Ray clean himself up (hi, Sand!) before he swoops in to claim the well-adjusted person that's left. If so, kudos dude. I mean that. Because the one thing that tends to be true about the fixer uppers is that they rarely stay with the person who puts in the work.

Even with that though, Mew fell flat for me this ep. And frankly I will be a bit annoyed if it turns out that he isn't actually a virgin, not because I think his virginity is Important but because I liked the idea of a virgin being as sexually confident as he is.

But also if he slept with Ray his whole speech in ep one to Top about how he'd get if he slept with him is taking on a whole new light. Just putting that out there.

That said, I do not think that the call to Ray was part of that manipulation, unless it's manipulative to know which person will come help you no matter what. I'd have called Ray too. He's the only one of Mew's friends who will drop any and everything for him, and a tipsy dude needs to sleep. In all fairness he tried Top first (foreshadowing for endgame, maybe?)

Top - He will get a pass from me on the anger if and only if it turned out that Mew and Ray actually fucked and I will tell you why. Because I would be furious too, but not about the virginity thing. Or Ray being the one he slept with. I would be furious because Mew has been harping on honesty this entire time while lying to him about this thing, this thing that he's actually using as both shield and weapon in their little battle of wills. Sure, Top wants to conquer the virgin or whatever and that's weird but I'm not gonna fixate on it because I already know how people get about virgins, especially when they start to get into their twenties (it's always either being almost afraid like virginity is catching or fixating on being the one to take it like it's a raffle prize), but for me personally the lying while demanding honesty is the thing. And Mew does wield his virgin status like a weapon.

But here's the thing. If he isn't. If Boston isn't lying his ass off or manipulating a situation to seem like something it isn't. If he in fact did sleep with Ray two years ago and then just decided to pretend otherwise because as far as he knew no one was the wiser. Now Top knows. He knows that Mew is a liar and that he's not above telling the kind of lies that can break things.

He's been mostly playing by Mew's rules. But if all of that is true...he won't be anymore. And that's where Mew's gonna get way out of his depth. Because as manipulative as Mew can be, I definitely think Top is better when it comes to this kind of game.

The reason he is so low is because he knows better than to just trust Boston's word. He should have asked, or done something else, anything else but just trust that Boston wasn't being a manipulative turd. He knows Boston wants him, he knows that he's got a ruthless streak. And he mostly went to him in the end because he was mad Mew put him off again. It's also because if Boston didn't show him a full on sex tape, then he's not only stupid but he's entitled. A kiss two years ago is nothing. A love confession two years ago is nothing. Hell, sex two years ago is nothing, if it weren't for the lying.

but at least he's not as low as

Ray - I keep seeing that Ray doesn't know what he's doing, following Sand around and begging him for time and attention constantly. Yes he fucking does. He just doesn't care. He's exactly like Boston, only I will give him that he isn't trying to pretend that he's after more than he is to keep Sand around. Sand's big, beautiful, dumb head is doing most of the work there.

Sand is convenient and fun now. Doesn't ask him for anything and lets him basically get away with being a total dick with a smile and a shake of the head. Of course Ray likes him and wants to be around him. But wait until Sand stops being convenient. As all people eventually do.

But no, I don't blame him for picking up Mew's call mid makeout or for leaving Sand to go to him. I wouldn't even if it wasn't that Mew was tipsy and didn't have his key. The dude has said over and over again that he just wants sex. He's given no indication he's going to give anything else - oh, he'll happily demand and take more from Sand for sure, because he's selfish and he doesn't think past his own immediate pleasure when it comes to him - but he's not offering himself. That was never on the table,

He's low because he annoys me. And because I do actually think that he sees that Sand likes him more than he's willing to reciprocate, but he just flat out doesn't care enough about Sand to care if he hurts himself over it. Ray wants what he wants, and if Sand ever even hints that what Ray wants isn't enough for him Ray will throw their FWB status in his face so hard it'll rattle his teeth. We've already seen him do it more than once here, and Sand wasn't even asking for more, just trying to warn Ray how he was coming off!

He'll leave Sand for Mew again, too. Mark my words. It'll happen over and over until Sand (hopefully) finally gets it through his gorgeous skull that he's fighting a battle he can only lose and puts and end to it (and then Ray will probably have a rich kid tantrum about it because his toys aren't allowed to decide he no longer gets to play with them). And then when you throw his alcohol issues into the mix...

I have a feeling Ray saw his only time above the low end of this list last week. It was a good run. I am still delighted that I aggressively dislike this character though. Between this and Kang from Dangerous Romance this is apparently my era to dislike characters played by some of my favorite actors and I am living.

I am not even putting my girl Chueam on the list because she had like four lines this week. But hey, now we know Title is playing her bro! I was wondering when he would show up. And I wonder if he still has some connection to Sand, since he did in that one chart Jojo posted forever and a year ago (I am also wondering if Yo is related to them as well - big sis?)

Relationships

The only relationships I am interested in this week are the ones we don't know much about. Top and Sand, Nick and Sand, Sand and Boston. Kinda sorta Ray and Mew in that I really want to know if they did the do or not (that they will eventually smash is taken as read by me, but I am curious if it happened before too), and whether Mew's apparent disinterest is real or he's just waiting for Ray to get his shit together to be the kind of boyfriend Mew wants.

But if I had to pick an "established" couple (insofar as any of these guys are established, lol), I think I'm most interested in Boston and Nick right now. Least interested in Ray and Sand, but that's par for the course.

Top and Mew I expect to fight Nick and Boston for the number one spot next Sat.

In Conclusion

We're getting some real mess and I for one couldn't be happier. Full speed ahead on the messy train, Nick come on out and go hogwild. Give our boy Boston a run for his money.

I expect we won't see fallout from the car event in the messy olympics for an episode or two. Mew and Top gotta work through the Ray issue (or pretend to), and they both have to settle back into believing that they have the other one right where they want them (or, maybe, actually start to like each other). Nick has to decide what he's gonna do and how much havoc he wants to wreak (my guess is he'll let Boston or Sand talk him into sitting on it for a while, if Boston finds out. But that won't laaaaast). Ray has to maneuver Sand around his own wariness (shouldn't take long) and into the pale imitation of what he really wants with someone else.

They've all gotta get comfortable. But not too comfortable. What would be the fun in that?

#only friends #only friends the series #rankings

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swamp-gremlin · 14 days

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My Old Nick hc's, interpretation, analysis, and other odd bits PT.2

Part 1

I really did not expect to have this much to say about him but I'm also not surprised

Read the previous part because I'll be building off the first one here

Only TW is broken bones and lightish body horror but then again its just kinda bleak

Playing off the hc that Nick its literally just slowly rotting away, thats why i typically draw him with like frost bite wounds, and for a reason why his physical condition fluctuates every time i draw him is that his physical condition and power is directly related to how popular/ feared/ believed in (yes i am aware of the irony of having his power be tied to popularity considering that no-one besides me and like 2 other people give a shit about him, i think its funny)

I'll flesh the whole popularity=power thing later as per usual

Nick is physically very weak and frail and if it weren't for his magic coughing on him could probably kill him tbh

His bones are just disturbingly frail and I imagine as a bit of a twist on like the question of "how would Santa get in if you didn't have a chimney?" And I was like what if Nicks just broke his own bones to get into places, like horribly twisting and and breaking his body to get to you (Kinda played around with this idea in Kidnapping PSA, but would love to go harder with it in the future)

Nick is also severely underweight for his height of 7ft, and not for his own doing he just can't put on much weight. He hates how skinny and physically weak he is without magic.

His clothes work to make him look much larger and imposing than he is, like how prey a animals stance up to make themselves scarier to predators

He has an abnormally low body temperature, he is physically cold to the touch, he's very temperature sensitive and will pass out if it goes above 60°

You just know his skins dry as hell....

Imperceptibly shivers, very minor and you can't really see it if he's moving around but if he's just sitting down reading you can see it; he really hates it because it makes doing anything with very fine detail very hard

Cannot image Nick many- if any friends

and his ex-husband doesn't count, like he might have business partners but those aren't people you see outside of a meeting or a business dinner. Like the only person who really tolerates him like that is Merasmus.

There divorce was honestly pretty amicable, don't mean Nick doesn't regret it, because i don't think he's gonna find another person who tolerates him like that again

He's probably like super lonely but will never ever emit to that, but like with most things you can tell...

Nick does not shut the fuck up- like at all. He will have nothing to say, but he sure will just keep saying words.

Very much overshares like so often, you could just be taking his order at the register and he will be on about how much he misses his ex for like 30 minutes and you just have to awkwardly cut him off and ask if he wants ketchup or not

Oh speaking of ordering food, Nick totally heckles any poor waiter or cashier that have the misfortune of encountering him. He wants to speak to your manger right now.

He is just so inconceivably petty... The slightest disrespect to him and he's doing some ludicrous shit to you. Scuff his shoes? he's signing you up for the military. Spill your drink on him? He's ruining your credit score.

I image the lay out and construction of his mansion is just strange, a majority of it is under ground to avoid the arctic winds and prevent damage. But the internal lay out is this Winchester like maze, halls that lead to nothing, tall narrow stares into darkness, no windows, empty useless rooms that no-one has entered in over century- maybe even forgotten. I think even he gets lost some times, know one really knows why he just keeps building and adding on, but he keeps just doing it.

Someone smarter than me can probably write up some dissertation/ comparison about how Sarah Winchester kept building out of guilt and fear of the spirits of the people who where killed by her family's weapons.

He can play piano quite well but he just hasn't played in a while...

He has the vibe of that horribly toxic theater kid you knew from high-school who makes that time they got lead role in a play there whole personality

Gets super red in the face for like any reason, angry? red. embarrassed? red. Bashful? red. Drunk? red. its so funny and he probably gets so embarrassed about it

Im going to assume you read through this and the first part so thank you for reading my stupid ramblings, here have this as a reward.

-> Playlist

have some old silly doodles i don't think ive posted here

#art #doodle #sketch #tf2 #tf2 headcanons #tf2 fanart #tf2 old nick #old nick tf2

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manygalaxiesinone · 3 months

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Disgaea 7 Fan Made DLC: Base Dialogue (Pt. 2)

Cleo Everlasting:

"Isn't Leki the cutest?! You can pet him if you like. Don't worry, he won't bite or blow you up unless if I tell him to."

"This is the nicest ship I've ever been in so far. I hope we don't crash land on some crazy island."

"When I found out that Kairi was new in sword fighting too, I offered to train together with her. I can't keep waiting on Magnus to help me sharpen my talent."

"I've been waiting to explore the world around me before I met Orphen. I can't imagine how isolated Rozalin felt throughout most of her life."

Magnus Lin:

"Mao said I reminded him of an "Ex-Fake Hero" back at his academy. I don't know what an Ex-Fake Hero is, but I'll become a real master sorcerer one day!"

"Etna, Flonne, Neon, and Shuna have all tried to steal the Sword of Baltanders at least once. It got so bad that Master convinced Rimuru to hide it away for safe keeping for a while."

"Valvatorez was surprised when I told him I don't eat that many sardines. He just walked away with a confused look on his face. Is not eating sardines really that weird?"

"I'm glad we're able to stay on this ship. Now I don't have to worry about my next meal every night."

Orphen:

"I hate to admit it, but my magic doesn't come close to someone like Rimuru. Surprisingly, he wants to help me improve. He even made some book for me to use. Well, I am a drop out, so I guess it wouldn't hurt."

"Just when I thought I didn't have to worry about dealing with any annoying trolls, here comes some brat named Laharl. Sad part is, I can't even tell who's worse."

"Fuji thought Cleo hired me like Pirilika hired him. The sword of Baltarders is technically hers and she did pay my bail, so he's not completely wrong."

"Azalie... why was she so interested in this place? And why did she send me out here? Guess the only way I'll find out is by finding those infernal treasures."

Jun Kurosu:

"I heard that there are some flowers that can only grow in certain worlds such as Celestia and Flowerful. I would love to see them with my own eyes someday."

"I could not bring myself to tell the Phantom Thieves that I was the original Joker. Let's just say those weren't exactly my proudest moments."

"Molly's tea is quite divine. She says she has been studying and practicing her craft for many years. Perhaps I'll be lucky enough to visit her shop later."

"Don't be afraid to interact with Tatsuya. He's a bit rough around the edges, but he means well. It's one of the things I admire so much about him."

Tatsuya Suou:

"This lighter? It's just a gift from Jun. I don't smoke if that's what you're thinking. At least I haven't started yet."

"Laharl and Flonne were cautious around me when they discovered the name of my persona. I'm not that up to speed with Roman deities, so can you let me know if I'm missing something?"

"How come only the leaders of SEES, The Phantom Thieves, and the Investigation Team can enter the Velvet Room? I thought anyone with a persona can get inside. And where's Philemon?"

"Paws off the motorcycle. This is your one and only warning."

Maya Amano:

"So many more famous people like Laharl-chan, Risette, and Pleinair are on this ship. I should interview all of them while I have the chance!"

"When Mitsuru saw my room, she quickly asked Raspberyl to help organize everything, saying it's worse than Junpei's. I know I'm a bit of a packrat, but it's not THAT bad... right?"

"Pirilika really knows how to think positive. It's no wonder why she's such a successful businesswoman at such a young age."

"I really want to go home and publish the interview, but I can't turn away when Hinomoto needs our help. If the boss asks, I'll tell her I've been fighting for my life."

Hsien-Ko:

"The tag on my head is my twin sister. She's making sure I don't lose my mind while I'm a Jiangshi."

"I was surprised when I saw Zed running away from Melodia. Given my experience, I was expecting the opposite to happen."

"I heard Flonne has been planning to spread love and piece across the universe. Has she tried singing? It's working so far for Felicia."

"I didn't expect to see so many chefs on this ship. Maybe I could gather everyone so we can exchange recipes with each other!"

Lilith:

"I really feel bad for Ao. I understand the feeling of wanting to belong somewhere. I hope the two of us can be friends."

"How come Valzy doesn't drink blood? Isn't he a vampire? Demi-Demi drinks lots of blood every day. Are vampires just different in other worlds?"

"Desco and I had a pretty big fight about which of our sisters is better. You and I both know that my "sis" is better... right?!"

"That Anna lady is very scary. She would give B. B. Hood a run for her money, and she loves money more than anything."

Morrigan Aesnland:

"When I first saw Adell, he was rather hesitant to be around me. It took until I saw the scars on his face for me to understand why."

"I can rearrange my clothing to look like anyone I wish. Would you like to see me in your outfit? Keep in mind, I will be completely nude for a few seconds." 🖤

"Fenfen looks rather fun to be around. I wonder which of his buttons would get the most entertaining reaction out of him?" *giggles*

"Belly dancing? Why have I never heard of such a thing before? Perhaps I can convince Shantae to show me a few moves and share a stage together."

Junpei Iori:

"Fuka just challenged me to a game of baseball. We're already getting our prinny teams trained up for the match! You're welcome to watch if you like. Make sure you're betting on the winning team."

"Heard Dante and Axel are planning one hell of a party later. You got your invite, right? I don't want you missing out on something this awesome!"

"I can't believe Mitsuru senpai made it here. What's freaky is that she doesn't remember our leader. Still, I'm praying that Yukari doesn't rat me out to her."

"Keep it between us because I know how he'd react, but I feel pretty bad for Fuji. I know what it's like having to deal with a terrible dad."

Yukari Takeba:

"I've been hanging out with Anis quite a lot lately. I don't know why, but she's really helpful with blowing off steam whenever I get frustrated."

"Call me crazy, but it feels like I met the Phantom Thieves and Investigation Team somewhere before. I can't remember where at all, but there's this strong feeling in my gut."

"I was shocked when I found out how good Sicily's baking is and at such a young age too. I need to step up my game or I'm going to be embarrassed."

"It was already confusing enough seeing a mega idol that looks almost exactly like Minato, but now there's like an actual girl version of him or something? Maybe this really is a dream."

Fuuka Yamagishi (idle):

"It is a little funny how there are two "Fuukas" on this ship, but I understand how it can be frustrating when it comes to calling us. Fortunately, we have different last names, so you can resort to those."

"When Nero mentioned he has robotic arms, I wanted to take a look at them. I was quite let down when he said he left all of them behind. Maybe next time, he'll bring one for me to tinker with."

"I hope Ken is doing alright while we're gone. He's rather mature for his age, but he's still so young. I can't help but worry about him from time to time."

"I may not be capable of fighting like everyone else, but I'll do my best to support you however I can. Please, don't be afraid to let me know if you need anything."

Minato Arisato:

"It's weird how Aigis and Mitsuru can't remember me at all, and now there's this girl who has the same last name as me? Are they from some Xenoverse I heard some of the demons talk about?"

"Mao and Beryl said they come from a school that's constantly growing. Considering we haven't reached the top yet, I can't help but wonder if Tartarus is the same."

"Yukari convinced me and Pleinair to switch clothes for a day. The face Adell made when he asked for my autograph still makes me laugh a little."

"Why am I so good with almost every weapon? Lets just say I like be prepared for anything. Not every foe has the same weakness after all."

Kairi:

"I wonder if there are any princesses of heart in these other worlds. I think Kitana, Rozalin, and Melodia are good candidates, but I can't really say for sure."

"There's a special fruit that grows on Destiny Islands. Legends say that if you share it with someone important to you, your fates will be forever intertwined. I can bring some if you'd like to try it."

"This is the first time Sora, Riku and I are sticking together for an adventure. You better believe I'm making the most of it."

I heard Vergil spent years in the Realm of Darkness. I wonder if he ever ran into Master Aqua while trapped there."

Riku:

"Didn't think I'd ever meet someone that can nap as long as Sora. I'm glad Yoh wasn't with us on the islands, or we'd never get any work done."

"Don't tell Sora or Kairi, but I'm going to train for a little while on my own. After everything that's happened so far, those two could really use some time on their own together."

"Being able to smell darkness is a pretty handy skill to have in the Netherworld. I'd never have to worry about any demon trying to sneak up on me."

"Filia has amnesia? I think I know someone that could help with that. After all, memories don't disappear forever, they just become unlinked."

Sora:

"I actually met Kirby and his friends along with Joker in a fighting tournament before. I was surprised when I found out that I was the last person to make it in."

"Kairi wasn't originally from Destiny Islands. She used to live in Radiant Garden along with Cloud and Leon. If we never met, we probably wouldn't have thought of going to other worlds at all."

"Beryl mentioned there's a student in her school that wants to make as many friends as possible. I'd be more than happy to befriend her if we ever meet one day."

"The infernal weapons only reveal their true powers once they pick their wielders? If you think about it, they're a bit like keyblades."

Mitsuru Kirijo:

"I appreciate Liu Kang's explanation, however I still have difficulty wrapping my head around the possibility of coming from an alternate timeline. Just how significant is the change in our leader's gender?"

"I sympathize with Artina's desire to atone her past mistakes, however it does not take a genius to see how overly stressed she is. Then again, I suppose it's quite hypocritical coming from myself."

"The Nikkes claim I share similar traits to their companion known as Ludmilla. I would be delighted to interact with her should the opportunity arise."

"I'm considering hiring my own prinny for the Kirijo Group. Perhaps a secretary or janitorial role would be appropriate as I do not wish for it to fall in battle against the shadows."

Aigis:

"I was quite intrigued when I discovered that Desco, Suisen, and the Nikkes share similarities to myself, however that intrigue turned to disappointment after discovering all of them are capable of consuming sustenance."

"Protecting Hamuko is my highest priority, however there's a strong feeling inside of me, telling me to protect Minato as well. I shall comply so long as we are together."

"I have been informed of rumors about a God of Death known as Gig that resides in a distant world. Should we ever encounter him, stay away. He is a dangerous man."

"My scanners indicate that you are close to becoming ill. I shall place a pillow in the freezer for you in case you need it. Pirilika has already granted me permission to do so should the situation arise."

Hamuko Arisato:

"Someone told me there's a girl in a place called Prodesto that looks a lot like me. I wonder what would happen if you put us, Minato, and Pleinair side by side with each other."

"Higan saw Ren and I fighting the other day and started training us on how to use our spears better. I heard she just started practicing herself recently, how did she already surpass both of us?!"

"I can't believe Nina and Dolly aren't angels. Given their wings, I bet it's easy to fool anyone into thinking that."

"Even though we're trapped here, I think everyone's having a good time right now. At least we're all get along with each other... for the most part."

Dolly:

"Finally, someone hates mushrooms as much as I do. Kairi had every right to complain when Sora grabbed some for their raft trip."

"Ceefore said Molly and I look like 2 famous ghost hunting angel sisters. I wonder if their parents abandoned them like ours did."

"There's a lot of good lookin' gals on this ship. Dante, Axel, Yeyasu and I are planning on staying up all night so we can get lucky. I guess you can tag along too if you really want to."

"Lots of demons have been coming to me to make sculptures lately. At this rate, we'll have enough cash to renovate all of Cocoon! Peru and DD better start watching out!"

Molly:

"Keep this between us, but Dolly has a soft spot for the Proxy that works with us. After all, she almost never shares the cookies I make for her with anyone she's not particularly fond of, like Leonlev."

"Flonne and Jun have been helping me with an indoor garden I've been working on. Soon we'll be able to enjoy our own fresh fruit without having to leave the ship or haggle with shopkeepers."

"I can't recall the last time I've seen the Captain this relaxed. While she certainly knows how to have a good time, the problem is she rarely allows herself to get the chance to do so."

"Have you seen Rimuru? I can't help but shake this feeling that he's avoiding me for some reason. The glares I get from Shuna and Benimaru makes it more suspicious."

Captain Gaia:

"The Nikke's commander is very gentle and kind. He reminds me a lot of the Proxy that works with us back in Cocoon. I simply couldn't resist the urge to hug him."

"It honestly warms my heart to be able to interact with other humans face to face. I'm already conducting a small group meeting where we can discuss each other's experiences in our worlds."

"While it is true Dolly and Molly are troublemakers, they're my irreplaceable companions and vital members of Cocoon. Please treat them both with care."

"While Killia is a talented chef, I have heard rumors about a master of the legendary Chaos Kitchen Style. It might be just the thing Ms Owen is waiting on to perfect her craft."

Naoto Shirgane:

"I've heard various complaints about the young overlord Laharl, however every time I attempt to interact with him, he's nowhere to be found. What reason would an overlord have to avoid me?"

"Lilith is capable of physically altering her gender anytime she pleases on her own. If you think about it, she'll always remain her ideal self no matter what form she uses."

"As mischievous as the Phantom Thieves of Heart may appear, their group functions similarly to mine down to their goals. I see no reason to interfere with their justice."

"I'm aware that pixie dust is used as a cure all for any ailment in the Netherworld, however you can understand how the name alone is enough for me to raise an eyebrow a little, don't you?"

Yosuke Hanamura:

"I don't know what's more sad, the fact that someone as young as Sicily can cook better than some of my friends or the fact that this is the first trip I'm on where I finally get a decent meal."

"So RosenQueen has a shop in just about every world you can think of? I can't imagine how bad it must be for the children of their managers. I get enough loudmouths working at Junes."

"Hmm... maybe I can get Tatsuya and Mitsuru to make me a motorcycle while I'm here. Then again, I might need to update my license before I can drive it around."

"Just how big are Hsien-Ko's sleeves? She's got all sorts of weapons hidden in there! If we had something like that, hiding our gear in our weapons wouldn't be such a pain."

Yu Narukami:

"The face Pirilika makes every time I scratch her ears is adorable. It's too bad I didn't hear her purr yet, but I guess it would be embarrassing for a CEO to do that."

"I can turn my personas into weapons, giving them strength and abilities, so they're a bit like the infernal weapons. The personas come back if they're registered in a compendium though."

"Dante and Yeyasu invited me to their party later. I'm thinking about grabbing some sticks so we can all play the King's Game together. We should probably start while we're all sober this time."

"Kirby really comes in clutch whenever someone messes up their cooking. Just gotta make sure he doesn't taste anything so no one can catch on."

Rise Kujikawa (idle):

"I'd be lying if I say I wasn't a little jealous of Pleinair. It's insane how she's famous in so many worlds even though she's practically mute. Don't tell anyone I said that. Promise?"

"I'm think about setting Dolly up with Kanji. Just imagine what awesome sculpture those two would make together... as well as all the bullies that try something funny."

"I know it's probably a bad idea for an idol to be in a relationship, but Yu senpai's just the best! I just can't help myself whenever I'm around him."

"Would you like an autograph from the one and only Risette? I'm only in Hinomoto for a while with my friends so now's your best chance to get one."

Ershin:

"Ershin says she's quite interested in the Overlord known as Red Magnus. His muscles would serve as wonderful eye candy."

"Apparently everyone mistook me for a robot instead of a suit of armor. Is it because of my rocket punch? Hmm? Ershin said no such thing."

"Fenrich is foolish to question Ershin, for Ershin is never wrong. If Ershin says Valvatorez will fulfill his promise before the end of the millennia, then that is what will happen, because Ershin says so!"

"Ershin says she's curious about what Filia, Peacock, and Squigly will do when they confront the skullheart. Perhaps another catastrophe is in order. Hahahaha."

Deis (idle):

"There's something about the air in this Netherworld that allows me to leave the armor behind without a medium. Sadly, I can't enjoy freedom too long, otherwise it will perish."

"What is this "Harem Queen" I hear Naoya talk about? No mere mortal could ever be worthy of such a title. Well, not when compared to an endless like myself at least."

"Morrigan's not the only person that has power over people's dreams. What do you say? If you serve me well, I shall grant you any pleasant dream you desire."

"I can certainly tell when someone has been wrapped around a finger. Ryu, Adell, Killia, are a few men for example, but don't think for a moment that ladies are immune to this." *giggle*

Nina:

"Why does everyone think I'm an angel? My wings aren't that similar to theirs, is it? I bet there's a clear difference in our feathers if we drop them."

"There's going to be a sardine fishing contest in Sardine World later. Yu and Valvatorez are fierce competition, but I always believe in Ryu, no matter what!"

"Orphen tries to hide it, but I can tell he's hurting. I know what it's like losing an older sister. I'll do what I can to help him heal from this."

"Bieko and I are making flower crowns together. Would you like one? I make sure not to use any you're allergic to."

Ryu:

"I actually have many different dragon forms. I just stick with Aura since it's the easiest for me to use. You don't want to see my Kaiser form."

"If Kirby absorbed my powers, does that mean he can use my dragon forms too? I wonder what that would look like."

"Sora told me he can look into someone else's memories like I can look into Fou-Lu's. Am I the only one that feels like it's an invasion of privacy?"

"Killia can't turn into a dragon either, huh? I'm starting to feel like I'm the odd one out in this place."

#disgaea #disgaea 2 #disgaea 3 #disgaea 4 #disgaea 5 #disgaea 6 #disgaea 7 #sorcerous stabber orphen #darkstalkers #persona 2 #persona 2 innocent sin #persona 3 #kingdom hearts #persona 3 portable #space leaper #persona 4 #breath of fire 4

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Dan Heng has always been something of an archivist ever since he was little; taking notes and recording his thoughts. Here are some scattered fragments from a journal that got lost when he was exiled; one he used to have as a child.

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I finally finished reading the civics books I was given. But I understand even less now. If those are all the laws the Xianzhou follow then why am I here? I haven't broken any of them but everyone acts like I did something horrible.

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I believe ▉▉▉ got sick, as there was a new guard this morning. I don't like him. He's colder and crueler. My 'book privileges' were threatened by correcting a mistake he made. Is it wrong to tell someone they got your name wrong?

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I've stopped correcting them. They never learn. I looked in my books for the name they keep using and found it in a history book. I don't understand why they keep confusing me for that man. The descriptions of him do sound similar, but he's older, and dead, and it's too dark here to really see what people look like anyway. I don't understand them.

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The guards talk to each other during shift changes. I often hear mention of the weather. It must be nice to see the sky, however false it is. I've read that the food here has the same vitamin as sunlight so they don't need windows and they can keep the lights dim. Are the false skies of each delve as beautiful as their descriptions or are my books outdated? Many of them are old. The guards don't like getting me new things, often saying I'm undeserving of them. I don't see how as I've been compliant and polite, but I am still here so they must be right. I'll try to do better.

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The General came to visit again! Such a rare occurrence but always appreciated. He's so nice, even if he does seem sad every time. I wish I could help. In the past I've offered my books and even a portion of my food. I understand he likely has much better but isn't it the thought that counts?

This time I was gifted a set of brushes to improve my penmanship, a book on the different species of the Xianzhou, and I overheard him speaking with a guard about allowing me 'spear practice'. Am I to be trained? I don't understand why. I don't deserve it.

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Some of the guards are strange. One was saying goodbye to another during shift change and wrapped their arms tightly around the other. I wonder what that means.

No-one has ever touched me like that.

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I finished the book on species. They were all interesting, but the section on vidyadhara made a lot of things clearer. I understand now why I am here. Why I don't deserve things. I don't believe it's really fair but complaining has only made things worse in the past. My only option is to accept things as they are and move forward.

Why did he sin?

Did he know what it would cost me?

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My books say vidyadhara can control water, but that it takes a lot of practice. I'm going to try with my shower. If I work at it enough maybe I can entertain the guards?

If I do will they like me more?

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I formed an orb with the water from my shower! It's a lot easier than my books implied. But the guard startled me by yelling when he saw it and was even madder when I got him wet.

I won't try again for a while.

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The General came back today with another gift. There was a loud argument between him and some guards but I believe he won. I've been given a spear that looks incredibly familiar but I can't pinpoint why. He says it's called Cloud-Piercer and that it's my right to have it. He's strange. Prisoners don't have rights. But he is kinder than the guards and I do want to keep the spear. There's something about it...

He says he'll spar with me next he gets a chance. I told him my cell is too small for that and he explained there are larger areas here we can go. That was a surprise. I've only ever been allowed to leave my cell when they clean it, and I have to stay right outside it anyway.

I'm excited to see another room and learn some combat skills. Perhaps in the future I'll be able to defend myself. If I ever get to leave.

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A guard during shift change was complaining about the heat in the delve, and another recommended a trip to a 'pool'. I had to scour my books and scrolls to find what they were talking about. Someday I hope to try one. Perhaps I will be allowed a small tub to fill with water from the showerhead? Water has always been comforting for some reason. I was once reprimanded for letting the shower run too long, but a tub of water would mean I could enjoy it without making them angry.

But I won't ask. They don't like my questions.

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The General returned today for spear practice! I was also gifted a pauldron for my coat; it's hard to be certain in the gloom here but it seems like it's made of jade. As I thanked him he handed me a hairtie, explaining that until one is skilled enough all obstructions should be removed for training.

He smiled when I tied my hair back. He seems happier when I change my appearance in some fashion. I wonder why.

I also like it better this way. Would the guards allow me a haircut?

Spear practice went well. He called me a 'natural' despite my obviously inferior skills. I'll keep practicing. My cell is too small for a proper spar but I can spin and jab the spear without damaging the walls so I will keep trying to improve by working on my forms.

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My latest group of books included one of poems. I quite like some of them. I wish I could share them with someone but the guards don't care to be read to.

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Another guard brought up the weather outside. I left my showerhead running to try mimicking 'rain' despite the shouting from my cell door.

Perhaps someday I'll figure out how to mimic a 'cloud'.

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There was a mass sentencing today. Some other prisoners were walked down the hall past my cell in the morning.

Only half of them returned.

I reread my civics books to brush up on Xianzhou laws and punishments. Some crimes are worthy of death.

I pity them. I don't know what they've done, perhaps it truly was worth such a result in the eyes of the Judges, but I don't believe anyone deserves death.

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There have been arguments about my status. I think they often forget how well vidyadhara can hear. I wasn't worried, I've been here for many years, but then someone brought up execution.

For what? Haven't they already executed the criminal for his sin? That is why I am here is it not? What have I done while spending my life in this cell to deserve such a fate?

I forget myself sometimes. Prisoners don't deserve anything. We don't have rights. I should just be glad I've lived this long. Perhaps my next incarnation will get to see the sun.

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I found myself staring up at the faint lights in my cell until my vision was filled with spots. It's not good for my eyes but what does it matter when I won't be using them much longer? It was something new to try.

I plan to fill my remaining days with new things.

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I shaped my shower water into globules reminiscent of the cloud descriptions in my books and floated them across the ceiling of my cell. I managed to keep them there for hours despite the loud reprimand.

You won't take my false sky until I allow it.

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The General returned. He says he will try to speak on my behalf and alter my sentence. I trust his heart is in the right place but I have no faith in the system. I thanked him for his efforts and returned to annotating my books.

I'm not certain how much longer I have.

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The word 'exile' was floated about among the guards today. I'm still not sure what to think.

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My sentencing is today. This will be my last entry. The guards say the General will be arriving to escort me. I thought it odd they told me to bring Cloud-Piercer when that happens but perhaps they simply want to reappropriate their equipment.

I'm not certain who I was ever writing this for, perhaps only to get my thoughts out of my head, but if anyone finds it I hope my writings are useful in some capacity.

Farewell.

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An entry has been added after the seemingly final one, but it is so warped by water damage in a pattern almost like tears fallen on the page that it's nearly illegible. The only clear text is something about exile, a few words about the 'grand majesty' of something, and the phrase, "It was more beautiful than I ever imagined."

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it's late one day here, but oh well, that's okay i guess?

Happy birthday, Patricia (21/07)! 🎂

Patricia's Birthday Bash has begun! Don't miss the special login bonus today!

As part of the Birthday Bash, the Birthday Showcase (Patricia) has been added to the Mirror, which features the SSR Patricia (Birthday Bloom) card!

Vignette Bloom Birthday

Part 1

Patricia: I'm quite curious who the magical pendulum set me up with, hope it's someone I can talk easily to.

Patricia: I hope I can answer the questions easily, since I'm not that good at explaining myself, gossips on the other hand-

???: ―Pardon for the intrusion, senpai. I'm coming in!

Deuce: I'm Deuce Spade, will be your presenter today, please take care of me! Happy Birthday Venenum senpai!

Patricia: Ooh, so the ex delinquent is my presenter today. Looking forward to it, Deuce!

Patricia: Please be easy on me then, and please don't be such a nervous wreck, I'm the one who's being interviewed here by you.

Deuce: Ahaha, I will try my very best senpai. I hope I don't mess up…

Deuce: I will ask the first question if that's okay with you, it says on here…

Deuce: “Are you good or bad at flying?”

Patricia: Have you seen me at P.E class? Maybe you haven't but you must have seen Vargas screaming my name at least three times a month.

Patricia: I hate flying, well it's bound to be since I'm afraid of heights. I know people talk like, isn't her dad a major Spelldrive superstar? Guess what, not every kid is a copy of their parents.

Patricia: I mean, my dad did try to teach me back then and I thought I would be fantastic too, because of the genes, my mom is super athletic too. Turns out I don't have an athletic bone anywhere on my body.

Deuce: That must be a real sucker, Venenum senpai. What made you afraid of heights in the first place?

Patricia: It started when my dad first taught me to fly with a broomstick, he took me on his broom and we flew to the sky. Then I looked down. And my mind was wandering, if I fall now from up here I will die.

Patricia: I tried to attempt it but I was so scared of the thought that I almost peed on myself, so unladylike right?

Patricia: This is the reason why I hugged the broom way too tight and made me unable to do any of the tricks or maybe I am just not talented enough to do it.

Deuce: The fact that your dad believed you could do it means you possessed enough magic talents for it back then, I think you are talented Venenum senpai.

Patricia: Or because he was Lyonnell Andres, he wanted to have a kid to teach Spelldrive for. Glad he has one for it now. Heard my step brothers are pretty talented.

Patricia: Anyway I'm not that talented, I'm above the average but not the best. People used to think I'm gifted since I discovered my magic pretty young, not anymore though.

Deuce: For them to be surprised, how young are you when you learn you could use magic?

Patricia: When I was four years old? I think. My grandma used to brag that I could do math by the age of two and learn magic by the age of four to her colleagues.

Deuce: She must be so proud of you, to do math by the age of two… I'm not even great at math by now!

Patricia: It's just basic math, nothing much to brag about.

Patricia: And I'm just lucky to discover my magic early back then, but it's bound to happen, so actually not that impressive.

Patricia: I mean of course everyone knew about my dad, but my mom even though she is a model, she is pretty skilled at magic, especially practical ones.

Deuce: Oh, so both Venenum senpai parents can use magic, your family is full of talented people. I can't imagine living in that kind of family… I don't think I can handle the pressure.

Patricia: Believe me, I can't too. I used to think I should be able to achieve greatness later in life and someone people looked up to.

Patricia: Look at me now, I don't know what I want to do but it should be fine, I guess.

Deuce: I hope you will be able to fine something you want to do in life soon, Venenum senpai!

Patricia: I hope so too, but for the moment I'm okay with things going this way.

Part 2

Deuce: I will move on to the next question, senpai.

Deuce: “What is your favourite class?”

Patricia: I'm great at potionlogy and ancient curses, but I must say the class I like the most is… conjuration.

Patricia: Conjuration is such a fascinating subject to learn, I'm just pretty good at it though, nothing special.

Patricia: Then of course I like something which I'm the best at. I won't say potionlogy or ancient curses since there's Vil and Leona, but mathematics is where I excel almost in all areas.

Deuce: I can't imagine mathematics as people favourites or best subjects, even more to myself!

Deuce: But of course there is you, Venenum senpai.

Patricia: Thank you for the kind words Deuce, mathematics are actually very easy and simple though. If you need a tutor I would be happy to assist!

Deuce: If you don't mind I will take your tutor offer, thank you so much Venenum senpai!

Patricia: No problem at all, glad I could help.

Patricia: Then maybe we could move on to the next question so we could finish it up quickly.

Deuce: There's no need to rush Venenum senpai! I actually had a few questions to ask you.

Deuce: You haven't elaborate yet, why do you find conjuration so fascinating?

Patricia: Mmmh, I will say because it's something new that I never learned before coming to NRC.

Patricia: I mean creating something from nothing with a spell. That blows every other magic.

Patricia: I do want to excel at it but I couldn't be bothered to give extra effort when I could just pass.

Deuce: I couldn't relate to it at all, I have to study hard even to get a passing grade!

Deuce: People would call you a 'natural' is that true? Am I using it right?

Patricia: Not at all, I just lucked out since I have a smart face.

Patricia: The teacher that teaches us alchemy, my worst subject by the way. Always tell me that I slacked off and if I wanted to I will pass.

Patricia: So, she gave me a second chance since she didn't believe I was giving my best efforts.

Deuce: I think maybe because your aura radiates 'smartiness' is it even a right vocabulary to say?

Patricia: Ahahaha I don't know honestly. But it also means people expect you to be smart all the time.

Patricia: And I'm not that good, there are some subjects I feel helpless too, I don't like being depended on all the time.

Deuce: I get it, I'm the opposite though.

Deuce: I will work hard to become a dependable person but Venenum senpai can depend on me anytime if you want to!

Patricia: Thank you Deuce, I will make sure to do that in the future hopefully soon enough.

Patricia: Or maybe now, like using your ex delinquent history to become Vil and mine bodyguard when we are shopping in the city!

Deuce: I'm not that person anymore Venenum senpai!

Patricia: If you say so! But my offer still stand.

Deuce: Please don't tease me senpai, then let us move onto the next question!

Part 3

Deuce: We have arrived at the last question for today.

Deuce: “What would you like to do in the coming year?”

Patricia: I don't know actually… I think you know about that based on my previous answers.

Deuce: Is there maybe an activity or something you wished to do in the upcoming year?

Patricia: There's absolutely nothing… Although there is something I want to prevent.

Deuce: That's an odd thing to say, but what is it you want to prevent from happening?

Patricia: I want Vil to stop thinking I could be the next housewarden of Pomefiore.

Deuce: Schoenheit senpai did? That means he really believed in you. What an honour to have!

Deuce: It must be because you are a spectacular student among your peers then, senpai.

Patricia: This is not an honour nor am I the best for the role.

Patricia: Look at me, Deuce! How can you look me in the eyes and say I will fit into the role of housewarden?

Patricia: I can't and I don't want to lead people, I don't really want to be the one responsible to manage them.

Patricia: However, Vil is so eager to groom me to be his successor and he is confident I will pass the requirements.

Patricia: Maybe I will fumble it, one day I wake up and I don't know how to make a venomous potion.

Deuce: You can't do that Venenum senpai, maybe who knows? You are a great fit in it!

Patricia: If I'm pushed to I can, but if I have the option to not do it then why should I?

Deuce: Schoenheit senpai must be pretty disappointed, but I'm sure he will understand if you feel strongly about it.

Patricia: I have refused it NUMEROUS TIMES, believe me but Vil keeps insisting on this.

Patricia: He says I'm too lazy when I actually have the capabilities but I don't have it! Seriously, I don't!

Deuce: Maybe you just have to try…? I mean who knows if you are actually good at it once you got the role, senpai.

Patricia: No, no and no. I will not become the next housewarden of Pomefiore, I simply can't.

Patricia: I will do my utmost best to refute Vil of this silly joke out of his mind, wish me luck.

Deuce: I wish you all the best whatever the outcome is. Patricia-senpai, thank you very much for answering my questions today!

Deuce: Please accept this broom, senpai!

Patricia: This is so pretty, I love the flowers in this bouquet at the end of it.

Deuce: I don't know much about flowers, but I think it looks good with you standing next to it, Venenum senpai.

Patricia: Thank you, I quite love the colour scheme on this.

Patricia: Aaah, and here comes the thing I dreaded the most. But I have to do it. If you don't see me arriving on the birthday road, I'm probably dead by then.

Deuce: Please don't say such things, senpai! I'm sure you can do it!

Patricia: Fine, I will. But don't you dare laugh at my attempt.

Patricia: Ah, I will try to look with my utmost grace in a desperate hour.

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Copycat: Genesis —(Marvel Fem!Oc)

A/N: We get a break from our usuals to revisit unknown friendships -Danny

Words: 1,800

Phase Six Masterlist

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Listen to: ‘Habits’ -by Genevieve Stokes

xiv: Copycat Gets A Call

"He has a what?"

"A son," Matt ate a chunk of his burger, "quite big..."

"Wait, but is he Bruce's or Hulk's?"

"Is there a difference?"

"Yeah!" The mutant leaned closer. "Is he human or is he a mutant?"

"I'd argue that he's something else," he shrugged.

"Holy shit..." Cat whistled lowly. "I pity the person that gave birth to a Hulk... hey, did you sleep with Jen in Hulk mode?"

"I'm not answering that."

"I'm just curious!" She laughed. "Were you able to walk afterward? What about the bruises—"

"She was human the whole night," Matt was grinning in spite of himself. "It was a regular hook-up."

"Yeah, sure," she teased him. "So are you guys a thing now?"

"Eh, we... we..." he stuttered. "It's nothing serious."

"It never is," she replied knowingly. "That doesn't mean you don't like her."

Matt shook his head. "I won't talk about this with you."

"Why not?"

"'Cause you're my ex!" He laughed in disbelief.

"Like that was ever a problem," she scoffed. "C'mon, I promise I won't get jealous!"

"Okay, you tell me about Spider-man."

"What?"

"Is he a good hook-up?"

"Well, it depends," she smirked. "Which one are we talking about?"

Matthew snorted. "You're unsalvageable."

Cat sighed. "Maybe I am."

The man fixed his posture, pushing his glasses up the bridge of his nose. "That was a bad joke, I'm sorry."

"No, no! I'm just being dumb," she looked away in embarrassment. "It wasn't that awful I just—I'm a little stuck in my ways, it's true. Wanda gave me back some important memories and suddenly I understand why I do the things I do, but I can't stop myself."

Matt nodded, now it was his turn to sigh. "Yeah, I've been there... I still am."

Cat stared at him. "I don't wanna be like this forever."

"I believe you." His hand found hers easily.

Her eyes looked for his out of habit, even though he wasn't going to meet her gaze. "You can hear my heartbeat, right? That's why you're so willing to believe me."

"I don't know what memories Wanda helped you recover, but it was the right call. You needed that part of yourself back."

Cat stared at their hands. "You know I don't regret you even if it ended badly. None of it."

"I know that too," his thumb rubbed the back of her hand, it was a mechanical action, and she doubted he was even aware of it. "To be honest, as far as breakups go, that wasn't so bad."

Cat was too vulnerable around Matthew, he knew things she'd never been brave enough to share with others. She wished he could've at least had the decency to pretend he accepted her apology against his will like Harley always did. She couldn't stand being treated kindly. Cat didn't think she deserved it.

She was a murderous mutant who'd finished most gangs in Hell's Kitchen, the kid that'd escaped a lab in nothing but a hospital robe and hissed at loud noises— but she was also the girl who'd fallen in love with the nerd in her physics class, and liked wearing sundresses in the spring.

She felt like different people sharing a body and she'd seen them grow from behind a window, a silent viewer unable to steer the wheel. Unable to hold onto the things she loved the most. And yet, Kate, Harley, and Kurt would come back in a heartbeat if she asked... and Peter kept his word and stayed in every moment of need. Maybe it was time she allowed herself to be everything instead of just one at a time.

Wanda had said there was always a new path sprouting from every step, and she had the power to decide in which direction to step next. What if she could somehow make a single path out of all the roads?

M.O.U.S.E started flashing, Cat gave a start.

"Who's calling?" She asked out loud.

"Princess Shuri."

"What?" Cat left her chair. "That's convenient..."

"You have the princess of Wakanda in your contacts list?" Matt asked in surprise.

"Yeah, she made my old suit, I told you..." Cat didn't finish her sentence. Matthew didn't remember that conversation because it was linked to a memory of Peter. "We're old friends."

Cat picked her A.I. from the coffee table and answered the call. "Hi! This is so weird, I was actually going to call—"

"I have a job for you," Shuri went straight to business. "And I need you here as soon as possible."

"Oh," Cat smiled. "Sure!"

"I don't think this is a good idea."

"It's a great idea," she said, gathering her stuff hurriedly. "I get a new suit, I help out Shuri so I don't have to pay for it, and then I can go after Kraven."

"What if Kraven finds you before Shuri gives you the suit?"

"I know he's a tough guy but I doubt he can enter Wakanda without being seen, that's just absurd."

"Cat—"

"Trust me on this one, please?" Cat begged him. "This is not a suicidal mission, which is a positive change in my record. I'm helping Shuri find some kid."

Matt's hands were on his hips, just like any time when he was stressed. "What should I tell Spider-man? That you just got up and left like you always do?"

"Tell him I got a way to jumpstart the plan, he'll be ecstatic," she said. "Keep the city safe for me, okay? I'll be back soon."

The man shook his head, unconvinced by the whole situation. "You always have a way to complicate things, I don't feel okay about this."

"Matthew," she turned around and cupped his face. "You're paranoid. I'm a grown woman, I can handle myself just fine— and if I die on accident, well, that's just one less problem you won't have to worry about!" Matt's glare made her stop her teasing. "I'm joking."

"Try to keep me informed, okay?"

"I'll do my best."

"It may not look like much, but it's my life's work in here," said a girl's voice.

"Oh, I believe you," Cat entered the workshop smiling at her surroundings. "It was a place like this that took my best friend right up to Stark Industries..."

Okoye stared at her with a little frown. "Why did you call the heathen?"

"We needed all the help we could get," Shuri said. "Cat counts for at least five people."

The mutant beamed. "Hi again, my lady."

"Hi, Copy," Shuri stepped forward and welcomed her with a hug. "Been a while..."

"I'd ask how you've been, but we both know the answer to that," she gave her a sympathetic smile. "I'm sorry about your brother."

"I'm sorry about what happened to you," the girl replied.

Cat got confused by her response. "How do you know?"

Shuri pointed at her throat. "Whatever that was, I'm sure it wasn't fun."

"Oh, we don't have the time to hear about that," Cat looked at the younger girl. "Let's focus on the mission. What are we doing?"

"You're— You're Copycat!" The girl approached her eagerly.

"Yes, for the most part," Cat hummed. "And you are?"

"A lot of trouble."

"Now, Okoye, that's not nice!" Cat taunted her. "What did she do?"

"Created a machine that can detect vibranium miles under the ocean's surface," Shuri said gravely. "The US government's using it, and someone is not happy about it. They've threatened her safety, so we have to take her to our country to fix this."

"Oh," Cat frowned. "Are you sure it was her, though? What are you, fourteen?"

"I'm nineteen!"

"That's the same thing," the mutant joked. "But don't think I'm underestimating you! Spider-man built a fully functional super suit and a bomb when he was seventeen and on the same day!"

"A what?" Shuri frowned.

"Oh, no one knows about that, only me. I was there," she brushed it aside. "Anyway, why am I here?"

"The Princess believes you are enough backup," Okoye said skeptically.

"Backup for what?"

"I told you, someone's after Riri," Shuri replied. "He's very powerful, and he's threatened our country if we don't take her to him."

"But you don't wanna do that," Cat guessed.

"No! Look at her!" Shuri said in worry. "We need your help, we take her to our country in one piece, and maybe we can negotiate a solution with this man."

"Men rarely consent to peaceful conversations," Cat warned her.

"That's the reason we called you," the princess retorted. "You're one of the best Avengers out there."

"I'm not—"

"Oh, she didn't mean it literally," Okoye raised a brow. "We are aware of your status, Copycat."

The young woman hesitated. "Then... why did you call me?"

"Shuri seems to think there is no issue with your lack of ethics," Okoye approached her menacingly. "I, on the other hand, will keep my eye on you."

"Wise decision," Cat turned to Riri. "I guess I'll be your bodyguard for a while kid."

Riri's smile widened. "Hey, if this thing clears out would you consider recruiting me to the young—"

"Absolutely not," Cat responded.

Okoye pointed at the stuff on the work table. "So... the design for the machine is on that laptop?"

"Yeah."

"And you just leave it on a desk in a car garage..."

"I got 2065-byte encryption on that thing," Riri smirked.

"That's impressive," Shuri replied courteously. "Ever locked yourself out?"

"Took me the whole semester to get back in! Had to build a functional quantum computer just to crack my own encryption," she snorted.

"Woah," Cat stared at the girl's work in awe. "You and Keener would get along..."

"Keener? You mean Stark's new golden boy?" Riri raised a brow. "He looks like a—"

"I should warn you that he's one of my best friends," Cat smiled a little.

"A pretty smart guy," the girl was quick to correct.

Cat snorted, beside her Shuri pointed at a board on her left.

"What is it you're building here? Is it Stark tech?"

"I said don't touch anything," Riri scowled.

"Princess," spoke an A.I. voice, "American law enforcement has arrived at your location."

"Shit."

"Who was that?"

"My A.I."

"Get ready, heathen, you'll have some toys to chew," Okoye walked past her.

"Okay, first of all, you're not saying it right, I can tell you're not using caps at the start and I don't like that. It's Heathen." Cat frowned. "Second, all I have is baby Mouse and a pocket knife, so I'm sorry if I don't work to my usual speed."

"What!" Shuri looked at her in shock. "What did you do to your suit!?"

"I was going to tell you about it later cause I actually want you to make me a new one but I don't think now's the time—"

"Cat, how are you going to survive this fight with a pocket knife?!"

"I never said I'm not wearing a suit," she pointed at her black clothes. "This is my gorgon suit. Not my favorite, but something is something, right? Bulletproof, at least."

"They're surrounding us," Okoye announced, staring at the projection in her bracelet.

"I thought you said a merman was after me, that's the feds!" Riri said.

"A what now?" Cat inquired.

Shuri threw out a window a small drone that look a little like Cat's fleas, then the princess turned to look at her. "Help us, and I'll make you all the suits you want."

"You got it, princess."

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