#i will probably delete just sigh

[gaygayaurel]

looking at abbacchio images to feel better abt stuff and hes such a fag i love him i have beef with allstars dialogue of his but his animation and design is on point. i want to kiss him. when i find out how to get his 3d model the devil WILL shiver. (source: jojowiki.com thanks guys for making it easy to find images of hot men i like)

#i lvoe him so much ive had such a shitty day but then i looked him uo #mostly to see if i can get some nice poses for pixel art ref? cause i want new pfp #he makes me so happy bad writing aside #i will probably delete just sigh #i love bruno too hes one of my favourite actually well written and executed jojo charas but #i guess leone has more of. emotioal love

[solargrove]

i wish i could just play the sims in a carefree way and make little legacy posts but alas, i am a chronic perfectionist and if every bit of what i make or post isnt perfect i get upset and rage-delete it lmao

#ren ramblings #its such a bad habit but like. #i cant have something published that im not happy with #and it seems im never happy unless something is perfect which it never is #which is why u probably have noticed ive never really had luck when posting gameplay lol #ive had some technical issues along the way but mainly i just ragequit and delete everything #sigh maybe one day i will be less difficult in that regard #but i dont see that happening ANY time soon

[backjustforberena]

People dragging Rhaenys for her words to Alicent about "toiling to men" but can only do so by bringing up one incident about 20 years ago that she was actually in lockstep and equal with her husband about, not recognising that she's been on her own for the past six years, ruling her husband's seat and would have thrown his wishes into the trash if it had meant preserving her political future.

#i swear some people don't get that YEARS PASS #CIRCUMSTANCES CHANGE #PEOPLE CHANGE #even if this WAS evidence of rhaenys “toiling to men” #which i don't believe it is #she was more impassioned that corlys on the subject #she was just flipping honest that it wasn't ideal #i'll probably delete this i just- #*sigh* she was not being hypcritical #house of the dragon

[chrrywvea]

ice having to listen to yet another admiral yelling about some shit mav did:

30 ways to... discipline your husband (but not really we all know that......👀)

#kazansky speaking #YOUR LITTLE SHIT OF A HUSB- #found this pic on google and immediately had to think about it #top gun #top gun maverick #crack #i don't even know if this is funny but it gets funnier the more i look at it #tom iceman kazansky #pete maverick mitchell #icemav #ft. rooster probably hiding under a table become he knows the kazansky-disappointment-stare is deadly #but not for mav! yet #yes i know couples in the military would prob be conflict of interest thank you shush i am enjoying this more than i should #just imagine #*sighs* #can we ignore that grammatic error there i meant BECAUSE #goddamn #i'm too lazy to delete that whole tag

[clambuoyance]

I’ve never been so obsessed with a character so bad that I literally can’t do anything else I’m like the squidward meme watching SpongeBob frolic outside the window stretching a hand out to all the pretty paintings and animations and comics I see in my head but being unable to feel any motivation for it . If only i could use the energy spent to create 20 kon doodles to sit down and concentrate on a single finished full piece I used to be able to make like 5 page comics what happened to me

#sighs yes before anyone says anything IK it’s probably adhd related 😭 #BUT ITS GOTTEN SO BAD I CAN FEEL THE DIFFERENCE IN MY BRAIN HOW DID IT GET WORSE #it’s probably a mix of burnout too but I don’t get tired of drawing ? #it feels like when u get dizzy or change glasses or so #and it’s either everything is wayyy too in focus and you can see literally everything clearly that it hurts ur brain #which doesn’t help given how saturated w information the world is always #and simultaneously somehow everything is blurry or out of focus and I physically have to strain myself to hone in on one thing #I JUST WANNA READ COMICS AND FINISH A DRAWING AND HANDLE WORK AND SCHOOL AND TALK TO MY FRIENDS #ALL IN OME DAY #BUT MY BRAIN IS LIKE. TODAY IS ONLY FOR COMICS. YOU CANT DO ANYTHING ESLE #😫🫶 I’m deleting this later I’m just ranting LMAO #I’m highschool it’s crazy bc I did okay and then honestly i just think my ability to concentrate has deteriorated as the years have gone by #free me!!! #either way I want to lessen my social media and just pick One bc girl I have an Instagram a tumblr and a twitter this is horrible for me . #honestly I’ll probably pick instagram and just post on tumblr when I have art #I already do that #I mean when I have Good art. #IM RAMBLING IDK

[cinnamon-bunni]

levi/barbatos is currently rotating in my head rn and is tumbling like clothes in a dryer so you know what? headcanon list time lets go I thank you the total of like 5 people who will end up reading this they mean the world to me okay?

LEVIBARB HEADCANONS

Leviathan falling for Barb first, and man does he fall hard

He starts crushing on the butler when he fixes his cosplay; Levi had ordered it and it showed up damaged and ripped. Barbatos got around to fixing it before Levi could, and he hadn't even asked him to do so

It's just the idea of that Barb is so cool. Like cooler than anyone that Levi knows

He can bake, sew, he knows curses and spells, has wisdom on just about anything and everything--he's the cool type in dating sims. A kuudere, if you will, but even cooler

I don't think Levi has ever had a real crush on someone before. like don't get me wrong he has so many characters from his games and anime that he would do just about anything for, but I don't think he's really harbored those feelings for someone that is not in a computer screen

i like to think levi would then be so obvious about his crush on the butler, while the thinks he's being cool about it. everyone in a five mile radius knows about it lol

and ofc barbatos knows about it. like how could he not? levi isn't exactly secretive about it. the demon started to come over a lot more and try to find excuses to hang out with the butler

Barb humored him tho, because he did find him kinda cute. but more like in a way one would feel towards a sopping wet cat they found on the side of the street. he found it funny that levi was at times even willing to help him with things like baking or tending to the gardens, even when he wasn't good at either of those things

At some point it changed, though. Barbatos isn't sure when, but there is a point where it changes from him humoring Levi for the fun of it and into enjoying the other's company

Such an odd pair, tbh. They both know it but they are good for each other me thinks

Like??? As I've discussed Barb starts to genuinely enjoy Lev's company. He starts to laugh and smile more, acting less stoic even when Levi wasn't around

And Levi acting like a high school girl in love??? That's the good shit lol 💞💞 he is so much happier with life and the outside world and even came to terms with Barb being a normie! Because he is willing to learn <33

because!!! because Barb is open to learning about Levi's interests. Levi helps him interact kitchen (even though he isn't the best at baking) and he tends to the garden with him (even though he isn't all that knowledgeable on plants), and seeing as levi indulges in his hobbies, why not enjoy is free time in what levi likes?

Besides, levi just looks so happy when barb offers to play a game or watch an anime with him. and yeah barb fucking sucks ass at the games and has to politely ask levi to stop pausing on each frame of the episode in order to get through it all, but its the quality time together that counts

do you think about how lucifer and the others would feel? because i think about that all the time

like again levi isn't able to keep his crush secret at all so i imagine all his brothers (sans lucifer) try and help him out. like they drop heavy hints towards barb about how levi is interested in him while levi fights off the urge to call lotan out of sheer embarrassment in order to get them to stop

mammon so takes credit for those two getting together; levi was late for his first date because asmo wouldnt let him leave until he approved of his outfit; lucifer is holed away in his office, demonous in hand, trying not to think about his brother going out with diavolo's butler

like. i am sure diavolo would support it and would be extremely happy for barbatos that he found someone that makes him happy. but lucifer? he is speaking through gritted teeth of how happy he is for levi. he is definitely fine about this decision because his brother is a grown demon and can make his own decisions but he will be processing his feelings with a bottle or two (or three) of demonous later that night

and just....Levi being so awkward on the first few dates?? i mean im sure he will always be awkward when he's around Barb but like?? poor thing is a mess lmao

idk man something something barb brings such a huge comforting feeling to levi and levi gives barb a breath of fresh air into his life and something something they give strength to each other to leave comfort zones and live for something that makes them happy

#another argument for this ship: levi is orange/blue aroace colors while barb is green/black aro colors. i rest my case #i love this ship in both a romantic and a platonic way okay they are just sooooo cute together #i made this draft back in march....just shows you how much i procrastinate on things lmao #i could go on and on about these two honestly....and yes i am preparing image propaganda so one day i'll post that probably lol #the problem with barbatos though imo is that canon does very little with his character so i have to do all the work....sigh #you know what if anyone reads this. send me your barbatos hcs pretty please im starting to love this man and need more of him lmao #obey me #omswd #obey me barbatos #barbatos #obey me levi #leviathan #obey me leviathan #levi #levibarb #back when i was in my banners phase....damn #bunni mumbles #possibly delete later #<- depending on hard this post flops lmao #obey me headcanons

[nyupuun]

Started playing a bunch of dragon games and. Omg. I love dragons (said with autism)

#my og special interests #dinoaurs and dragons. and while i still love dinos a lot. im just. dragons (explosion and i do a backflip) #sorry i just want to talk about dragons i love dragons did you know they are the awesomest ever #i also just wanted to talk about how i started playing my favourite game ever battle of giants: dragons for the ds again #loved that game as a baby #and flight rising because everyone always told me i should play it but i also kinda suck at waiting #which is ironic cause i also started playing.. (sigh) dragoncity #but its okay anything to see cool dragons #this is also an open invitation to have people yell at me to finish my 48202 drawings #since all of them are shooting quasar related and im just. not doing them.. . ahhh. #also open invitation to talk about dragons with me if i dont talk about dragons daily i will explode #sorry #probably delete this later i just woke up imjust. wahoo! dragons #random ramble

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

So, Canada has decided to stop sending arms to Israel after an NDP motion. The Liberals made major amendments to it so as to firmly condemn Hamas as well. It's kind of a mixed bag. Honestly, it's naive of me but I didn't expect there would still be so much outrage, even if the motion did call for an acknowledgement of Palestine as a state. All the Conservatives voted against it - to be fair, some of them wanted to wait for the motion to be passed because the amendments were super last minute and the Bloc Quebecois were annoyed that because of this there wasn't a French translation.

I guess it's a step in the right direction. I think it's still weak but you can read more on it here.

Source 1, Source 2, Source 3

#I think the biggest thing that confuses me is that there are still comments about Israel being the only safe place for Jewish people #I don't doubt that - a large (I think unfortunately a majority) percent of the hate crimes this year #have been against Jewish people in my country #But uh... maybe the solution here is to work on making Canada (and the world in general) safer for Jewish people? #I know you can't change people's individual attitudes but really #i think saying 'ah yes jewish people will be safe in this place far away from us #where we don't have to deal with this issue in our own country. not anywhere else though' is... weird #also I think if your argument is genuinely that one group's safety has to come at the expense of an entire other group of people #you need to start thinking outside of such a limited narrow scope #storyrambles #<-i'll probably delete my tags after i'm just... sigh... #i know i'm naive to a degree but i really think these opinions are not... especially radical #also i think canada is reticent to show too much support because that might get conversations going around our occupation #of indigenous land and the landback movements #but that's my own thoughts and a separate (though related) matter

[arrietty-rune]

Sometimes i feel useless and annoying

#//vent #my vent art is... normal sometimes like this one so okay to rb but idk might delete later or removing the tags #i use a lot the wilsons as confort ch actually #idk sometime i feel like i'm not that appreciated in the fandom idk despite my heart know it's wrong #i think it just bc i overthink about some tawog artists that i enjoyed giving support for months but they never interacted with me #and for one of them their art and cute doodles helped me in personal stuff + brought me back to tawog fandom #and i hoped to make them smile with my art but.. yeah they just... don't care after these months #I get sad and disappointed that now they art send just... /neg vibes so i unfollowed them #idk i just feel guit that i made them upset for... unknown reasons #sigh i should just don't care about that and keep to draw dor myself #cringy or not #i'm mostly an optimistic person but overthink a lot when i feel anxious haha #i'll be probably smile and enjoy life again tomorrow #if ppl wanna talk or sending cute ask ye you can #talking with ppl help me to confort so feel free

[yuriyuruandyuraart]

Opinions on Dream? :^

SO many feelings about him omgg rant under cut please forgive me

okay so i don't really talk or draw him much cause honestly,,,most of the times i just think he's a bit....boring? or more accurately plain? not in a mean way either but just in a 'fades into the background' type of way like don't get me wrong!! he's a really nice friend to his peers, his feelings about his powers and aura making his relationships harder to navigate and trust along with his whole conflict with nightmare and morality about what's good and bad IS very cool!! and i love it whenever they write him to be complex and not on this black and white mentality or when he's just straight up following along his friends with no free will or with a dubious purpose without ever addressing his issues or feelings! it's just unsatisfying to me :')

or when they're making him the 'naive' and oblivious, (sometimes childish?) character being marked as the obstacle and villain along with the other star sanses from the fic's pov, always talking about doing good things while fighting his brother and not hearing him out about the balance, (and for weak reasons most of the time. like it's been so long and you STILL haven't sat down with him when he's, generally, basically begged you to just have a talk? guys please :'( ) or when they go for the victim sad dream always missing the old nightmare, where corrupted nightmare is the incarnation of evil, with no sympathy or emotion except anger and sadistic glee, killing and hurting everyone and dream's just trying to protect the multiverse and dream's always been in the right. such extremes!!!

LIKE!! i hope i'm not the only one that thinks a 500+ year old should have had enough time to idk. learn things? about people and manipulation and deceit? after knowing what the villagers did to night? about the bad things in the world and how there's a lot of grey areas in life and that he maybe reflected on his past enough to process and ask himself if there should to be a convo to settle his differences with nightmare (and you can make nightmare the stubborn one too! or have them BOTH be petty and imperfect and have some things wrong and some right at the same time like why do i always see the good guy vs bad guy cliché with these two when they're the perfect example of why positivity doesn't have meaning without the negativity!! as long as there's a satisfying evolution or growth that doesn't leave me empty i'm good yknow?)

plus i believe dream really isn't as dumb as people view him. i do get some of you saying he probably can't read or write since that's actually a pretty interesting idea to explore! but in general please let him have emotions other than pure sunshiny happiness or endless sadness like he's gotta have more depth than that! let him make mistakes, have flaws that don't just make him the bad guy that's always in the wrong by default, and be angry or suspicious or jealous or bitter or battling his mental health problems/depression or malicious or smart or witty or mischievous and silly or sarcastic or ANYTHING dude i just want him to be put into different scenarios where he can be serious or lighthearted like it doesn't even have to be long or perfect but make him feel real.

it could definitely be that i don't read or see much art about dream or really look for it hard enough but also i just. i feel bad for even saying this fr and i wanna be honest about why i don't enjoy most stories about him cause he always gets the worst treatment along with ink!!! especially ink omg the poor guy has it the worst i think like wow do they mess him up :'(

always one dimensional in non shippy fics, or too plain or easily replaceable by other, more entertaining people in the significant other's life in most of his ships like man. i have read fics out there that made me genuinely FEEL and root for him and love his character so much it restored all hope for me!!! but i can only name one on top of my head and the others? it's been so long i don't even remember their names i just legit feel terrible cause i love him still and i can't find many headcanons that fit my interpretation of him yknow?

not to say people who write him very happy, mislead or sad are ruining him like that's silly- if i see something i don't like i just. move on bro i wouldn't force people to feel or think the same way i do about him cause anyone can have whatever headcanons they want!!! just talking about what i personally look for in him and why i can't exactly find it since most of the stuff out there just isn't my cup of tea :')

hopefully i didn't set anyone off with this rambling opinionated essay i just pulled hhh xD i know i know he's a popular character and i know a lot of people like dream so *sobs* please please recommend me artists and fics about him that you think is good it's been so looong since i've read or seen anything new that makes me attached to this little guy aughg<33333

#ask #rambling #delete later? #probably xD i just wanna love him SO much but sometimes he's just *sigh*...forgettable #i tried to explain myself but also it's like 4 am and i skimmed through the proofreading so don't take this too seriously HHH #like really even when i do read good fics about him he's not on the forefront of my mind and it's painful to me :'( #i used to see him as my third fav but now? ever since i've read and seen characters who get heavier more in depth plots? #i can't say it with as much confidence :') and dream lovers out there i am not bashing your choice or even your headcanons #to each their own but i really wanna hear someone be passionate about him in my feed or askbox like TELL me about him #i've seen ink rants out there that are FIRE like so true!!! but where's the dream defense team??? #maybe it's just me tho :') btw i still like cream but not the same way as before if i'm being real #it feels the same...all of it and it makes me wanna bite something ARGHGG #i know i know i ship some stuff that's basic too hhh but dream and cross are always written the same and dream is too innocent #and nightmare is too weird in some of these fics like if MY brother ever tried to literally attack my hypothetical partner???? #i wouldn't give him the :'((( sad face and weakly tell him to 'please stop...you're hurting him'' like NO girl they're TWINS #they're the same age i would tell him to BACK off and not insert himself in my love life after years of ignoring and fighting LIKE #especially since most of the time cross is actually good to dream and all- so he doesn't have a good reason to disrupt his bro's dates #UGH i just have so many opinions but basically i would love him a lot lot more than i do now if they also let him be more flexible #and shake things up like with shattered and stuff! gimme alternate versions of him even if it's too ooc like we do for all the other sanses #jaa i am SO sorry you had to read all that dude thank you so much for passing by :'D

[shufflerock-jam]

got my first negative comment on my timeloop fic…not to be dramatic but I never want to write again rn :] They said everything in the latest chapter was ooc and it’s a huge blow to my confidence as a writer honestly! Why the hell do people feel the need to give ‘constructive’ criticism when I didn’t ask for it…just leave me alone god I’m doing this for free and for fun, not to meet your expectations. If you don’t like how a fic is going then tap the fuck out, don’t stick around and tell me that an essential aspect of the plot sucks. Literally criticizing the main thing I can’t change. If I were to change it to their liking, 1. It would be a different fic entirely 2. It would also be a blank document, because I don’t want to/know how to write that fic. Anyways. Good morning

#probably shouldn’t check ao3 comments as soon as I wake up lmao #just as they have the power to make my day they can also ruin it #sigh #should I just delete the comment and block them? #I did draft up a reply where I explain myself and offer a bunch of excuses but #I don’t need to justify myself to them… #feels pathetic

[br1ghtestlight]

WHY do people keep commenting shit like this on my bisexual bob video. like thats not even TRUE @ the second comment There is no homosexual yaoi art of bob and teddy kissing (but there should be more imo) and that would not drastically change how the writers wrote for this American Animated sitcom even if it did. NONE of his gay scenes in that video being w/ teddy. HE CALLS TEDDY HIS FRIEND IN SO MANY EPISODES??? THE FOCUS OF THE VIDEO WASNT EVEN HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH TEDDY

no fucking clue what the first comment was about but it went on like that for about five more paragraphs. no idea if it was supposed to be homophobic or anti black lives matter or pro black lives matter??

deleted both these (and many many more homophobic or problematic comments) but not before replying this to the second comment bcuz it was truly so incredibly stupid. enraged. THE VIDEO DOESNT EVEN HAVE A SINGLE ROMANTIC SCENE WITH TEDDY AND BOB OF WHICH THERE COULD BE MANY. and the racism of saying its all r34 asian/japanese artists shipping bob and teddy??? thats not even true. did they get lost on the way to a south park fandom video

#have to complain about these comments SOMEWHERE bcuz i cant do it on the actual videos 😭 #i dont blame youtubers who turn off comments on videos AT ALL this shit is giving me brain damage #probably not even the worst ive got but i usually just delete them. sighs #txt #tw homophobia #tw racism #tw south park mention

[driftwood-fireflies]

hey so, I just had to delete an ask for this reason, and I know I try to be as nice as possible on here because I want to keep this account light and fun, but also don't fucking insult my friends in my asks in a weird passive aggressive way 👍 completely ridiculous and uncalled for

#sighs. it was one of those asks where like. i mean sure whatever. you COULD have been being genuine or maybe you just phrased it weird #but like. its also a question thats kind of weirdly insulting just on the premise of it so im not answering it #dont ask me what someones appeal is or why i like someone 😭 like thats weird #whatever will probably delete this later because its reallt hostile but also it pissed me off #txt

[wanderingmind867]

I've got 206 followers, while I only follow 193 people. I have at least 10 more people following me. You would think this would please the part of me that finds attention validating (it's a small part of me, but it is there. I just know it's small because I know I couldn't handle actual constant attention or fame). But no, instead I treat this as an excuse to feel down again. And I'll explain why:

In a sentence: laziness and a fear of being sedentary. Seeing that I have more followers than people I follow myself makes me realize I simply don't look for blogs to follow very often nowadays. I just sit on my dashboard all day, do very little. Barely ever do I search tags out anymore. I'm inclined to blame this on me having an account, and this account making me more sluggish. I'm also tempted to blame it on being unable to use my old tablet. But I can't prove any of this. I wish I could, but I can't.

So now I just sit here, feeling upset but being too tired to actually try and fix this minor problem. I hate it. I even spaced out while making this post, because apparently I got myself to a point where I couldn't figure out how to end this post. So I'll just post it now, before I space out again and forget to post it. At least now people know about all my issues.

#probably gonna keep deleting and reposting this #until someone sees #because I'm just insecure like that #autism #asd #neurodivergent #adhd #autistic #actually autistic #audhd #vent #venting #tired #insecure #neurotic #vent post #I hate it #sigh... #neurodiversity #I wish I knew what caused this #i wish i knew #but alas #I'll probably never know #and I hate that

[hellceo]

i'm lowkey thinking about pulling all my spn muses off my multi and making a small fandom-focused multi as either a sideblog to this one or another blog?? cause ... i have all the spn muse but i suck at dividing my attention

#;; & let's go take a howl at that moon. ( ooc ) #( why does tumblr make sideblogs so inefficient #i wish they'd just function as normal blogs #having multiple logins is my Achilles heel to running multiple blogs #but i don't like that i can't have a separate dash and send asks #SIGH ) #( i'll probably delete this in a minute )

[fratricideknight]

a/b/o is a hot, slash-enabling romance trope TO YOU. to me, it's dystopian body horror.

#truly the worst thing to ever exist. i'm trying so hard to be chill about it but even after all this time it still gets to me. sigh. #i'm not saying it should be banned or ppl who like it are evil or anything! i've tried to enjoy it as romance AND as horror but #it's just too disturbing. it's just pure nightmare fuel. #like it could be bearable to me (not that it matters lol) if it stayed firmly within the fanfic sphere. but it's leaking out so badly #and it's like i can't escape it lol. it's escaping the recesses of fanfic websites and (even more than it always has been) becoming #material for cis people lacking awareness of and sensitivity towards trans ppl and issues to spice up a m/m story #and that's actually maddening lol #i remember considering ranting about it to my therapist for a hot minute back in the day #but ultimately the last thing i want is to spread it further or to be made to talk about it haha #even posting about it now is making my skin crawl. but i figure that anyone on this website is already acquainted with it :} #this will probably be severely regretted and deleted eventually though #about me #mine #cw omegaverse #cw tag essay