#i’m gonna use it eventually

[riality-check]

“What was it like? When you and Steve were together?” Eddie asks.

Nancy’s face takes on a grave seriousness that, honestly, scares the shit out of him. She’s Nancy Wheeler, and she’s always serious, but this is the kind of serious she gets when Eddie’s seen her talk about how awful the Hawkins Post is or the best way to aim for the kill.

This is Nancy Wheeler at her most serious. If Eddie were a lesser man, he’d be shaking in his boots. Instead, he’s only slightly aware of the way his feet are going numb in his high tops.

“Loving Steve is the easiest thing you’ll ever do,” she says. “And he’s going to find it so easy to love you back, because that’s what he does.”

Eddie wants to nod or say something to acknowledge that, but he doesn’t. He keeps sitting on the couch next to Nancy and waits for her to continue after she takes a sip of her Coke.

“Being loved by Steve is the hard part. He’s going to see you in a way that doesn’t line up with how you see yourself.”

She takes a deep breath. Unlike Eddie’s, hers doesn’t rattle in her lungs.

Straightedge.

“Because he is only ever going to see the best parts of you, and he is going to love them with everything he has.”

She looks at him for the first time. “Do you understand?”

Eddie nods, and he wants to leave it at that. Instead, he opens his mouth and asks, “Do you think you’d still be together? If it weren’t for the monsters?”

Nancy downs the rest of her Coke like a shot. Maybe she wishes that’s what it was.

“I don’t know. I don’t know what could have been, but I do know we’re different people now.”

“Okay.”

“I think,” Nancy says, because she’s not done and she’s a hell of a lot better with her words than Eddie is, “that people want what they didn’t have growing up. I want to make it big and get noticed and get the hell out. And Steve wants things that are big for him but little for me.”

She levels Eddie another look. Her big eyes are imploring.

Do you understand? they ask. Do you blame me?

Yes, Eddie thinks. No.

“So, as long as you can handle him loving you, and if you want the same things, I think you’ll be fine.”

“Just fine?” Eddie asks, trying to bring some levity back.

Nancy smiles for the first time. “More than fine. You’ll be better to him than I was.”

And with that, she gets off the couch and leaves Eddie alone.

#it’s me again #it’s finals week #i have not studied #i feel like shit #task paralysis be like that #i hope y’all are doing well #anyway have this #i’m gonna use it eventually #but not until i get through a bunch of other stuff #this is from the depths of the notes app btw #ria writes #nancy wheeler #eddie munson #stranger things ficlet #stranger things fic #steddie #idk what else to tag this

[twinstxrs]

there’s something so personal about the scene in fantasy high s1e7 where gorgug calls himself stupid & fabian, who up to that point had basically entirely been acting like the bad kids (especially gorgug) were beneath him & had also been the one calling ragh stupid two lines ago, instantly says “okay, do not put yourself down like that. don’t you dare do that to yourself.” like it was obvious he liked the bad kids at that point but the instinct to protect his friends manifesting as an immediate strong refusal of gorgug’s self-deprecating talk kills me. that boy loves his friends so bad oh my god i feel sick.

#fabian seacaster #fantasy high #gorgug thistlespring #these two specifically are so dear to me #top 5 most underrated fh dynamic the girls that get it get it #acts of service (gorgug) meets words of affirmation (fabian) #spring break i believe in you. i hand you an orange. you never hug me / shut up. #THE TENDERNESSSS #it’s about gorgug fixing the hangman & fabian having no idea how to repay him other than saying ‘i’m gonna buy you an orange.’ #when fabian a year ago had an insecurity about buying other people things bc he thought they’d just use him for that. #it’s about gorgug’s tin flower that’s tattooed on his arm being both symbolic of his roots & deeply tied to his relationship with fabian #it’s about ​fabian being the reason gorgug was in that fateful detention in the first place. #& gorgug being the first person to see fabian again in the nightmare forest. #all the bad kids are tied by destiny but god. fabian & gorgug you are so tied by destiny. #anyways i will not lie this far into my tags i expect nothing but in another universe they would be the slow burn of all time. to me. #it is so subtle & casual but there is so much love there it makes me kinda crazy. #but either way my beloveds who i think have helped bring out the best parts of one another but who r also both soooo lame (affectionate). #also i think it’d be funny if a) gorgug was the final bad kid to join the giant family tree via dating fabian #and b) telemaine was eventually gorgug’s grandather in law. can u imagine. #thistlecaster #fabigug #whichever one it is idk idc #they r just so gentle :( #UPDATE sorry i stopped right when this happened to write this whole post & literally like 5 minutes later gorgug has that idea to look at- #zayne’s pearl & his hunch isn’t right but fabian IMMEDIATELY jumps back in with ‘it’s moments like these that prove you’re smart’ GODSDD #when the fabian & gorgug dynamic hits it truly hits. besties/bfs ever i can’t decide they r simply so great

[void-and-virtue]

Neil as a team captain is positively delightful, because making him captain is both absolutely insane and absolutely brilliant. It capitalizes on the passive effect of having one (1) Neil Josten (god knows the world couldn’t handle if there were more of him) on the team in the most efficient way. Like. I’m 90% sure that after spending some time around him on the same team, most people will look up to him completely awestruck for how much he has impacted their lives, but that’s just not what is actually happening here. I feel like what’s going on is this:

Neil is a terribly amazing choice for team captain entirely because Neil is a meddlesome little asshole who will forcibly fix all of his teammates’ personal problems and improve their entire lives for literally no other reason than that he needs them to be able to focus on fucking ball so he can win at sports. It’s not even that he genuinely cares about people and their well-being (apart from his original foxes). He just gets pissed when things aren’t working properly because it makes Exy annoying when the lineup can’t communicate. Exy isn’t supposed to be annoying. Exy is life. He’d meddle whether he is captain or not, but by making him captain, he has so much more official executive power at his hands. It’s like people are explicitly asking for him to do his worst. So, fueled by his own competitiveness and love for the sport, off he goes.

Neil is just as bad as Kevin when it comes to his Exy obsession. The major difference between them is that Kevin is endlessly tactical and he runs Exy with a focus on a technical and physical level entirely, whereas Neil’s approach is to look beyond a lack of practice and basically psychoanalyzing people on why they are not doing 110% for Exy. Kevin says “let’s run this drill 500 times, then we will inevitably be better”. Meanwhile Neil is scheming how to coerce and bribe people into life-changing decisions and long-needed healing, entirely because he wants to optimize playing a sport. Exy is a team sport, which is why this is the most logical approach his little Exy brain comes up with rather than minding his own fucking business. He looks at the team and is like “is anyone gonna whip this into shape? No?? I’ll fucking do it then cowards” and goes and does exactly that. It’s like he’s fixing the equipment so he can play.

I don’t think anyone except for Andrew is really aware that Neil really isn’t doing this out of the innate goodness of his heart, but because his personal brand of practicality involves the most convoluted and creative kind of scheming. I feel like Neil is a lot more selfish than people give him credit for. Sure, there’s people he cares deeply and unconditionally for, but that’s really not everyone. It’s fascinating to watch, especially because it’s not like he ever hides that he doesn’t particularly care, but people kinda assume he does, because why else would he put in this much effort?

Exy. The answer is Exy.

#Andrew hates him for this #but I also feel like it’s Andrew’s favorite pass time to just watch Neil do as Neil does #you can’t take the meddling out of Neil #first year was Neil meddling on steroids basically bc he thought he was gonna die so he had to optimize Exy to play and had no choice #that’s how he fixed the foxes the first time #but even so #even if he doesn’t care about most of the new foxes or his eventual pro teams as much #I don’t think he will ever stop with this kind of stuff because I’m dead certain he gets so annoyed when exy isn’t exy-ing #that he ends up fixing problems the majority of people would not be able to eben pick up on just by association #Neil ‘he found their humanity interesting’ Josten #he doesn’t need the death threats to motivate him #somewhere in the background Andrew is watching his every move and realizing time and time again how terrifyingly smart Neil is #and how well he can put his observations to use in really ruthless unapologetic ways #and then Andrew is faced with the reality that all of that brainpower is being used for exy and exy alone #thinking about Neil will kill that man one day I stg #aftg #all for the game #neil josten #kevin day #andrew minyard #andreil #aftg headcanon #aftg meta #character analysis #post canon #the foxhole court #tfc

[millenianthemums]

parents of disabled kids will be like “we know our kid is disabled but we just won’t tell them about it. we don’t want them to think they’re less valuable than other kids. we don’t want them to feel limited by their disability, we want them to know they’re capable of anything.”

meanwhile those kids are growing up thinking “why is everything so much harder for me than it is for everyone else? there’s no reason i shouldn’t be able to just do this. i guess i’m just a failed, broken person.”

#text post #ableism #like if you don’t want to get your kid diagnosed with something then that’s one thing #but not KNOWING what’s wrong with them isn’t gonna make the problem just magically disappear #and just personally speaking. SO MANY things i do that i used to feel such deep shame about? #i now realize they were because i’m autistic #the meltdowns the social awkwardness etc #and i feel so much better to know i wasn’t just being whiny or difficult or weird for no reason #i feel like my whole life i’ve been gaslighted into not knowing what i really feel #because everyone always told me i was being ‘dramatic’ or ‘too sensitive’ and eventually i decided they must be right #so now i literally can’t tell what i’m feeling sometimes #because i dismiss my own feelings as stupid and wrong

[aghostnamedcalamity]

Another batch of mutuals’ beautiful OCs fresh out the oven! ♥️

Lacrimosa Ambrose belongs to @samantha-and-her-chaotic-desires

River A. Young belongs to @lackassera

Poppy Ayers belongs to @kisses-for-clyde @dolly--milk

Lola Deluca belongs to @blogplutopools

Åse Olaug Årud belongs to @acesandocs @coffeintheface

Benjamin Heller belongs to me, so technically not a mutual, I’ve just been neglecting him so much lately and wanted to include him and his silly faces c:

Got bored of my usual style so experimented a bit. Wouldnt mind feedback on it!

#lackadaisy #lackadaisy cats #tracy butler #lackadaisy fanart #boozecats #lackadaisy oc #others ocs #OC of the Week #My Art #other mutuals: I’m still going to try to get to your OCs eventually! #just gonna take a break to work on other stuff for a bit #also I started with the canvas flipped so sorry if your OC is using their non-dominant hand! #didn’t notice til I was done

[puppyeared]

I made a lmk oc

#they’re supposed to be some sort of experiment to see if people could recreate Sun Wukongs stone egg. the goal was to make a more controlled #and tame version using carved wood and cultivation. but eventually they got worried about it becoming too powerful and scrapped it #eventually they come to life and live in the abandoned temple they were built in #their bottom half is made of wood because when they came to life their creator/s left them unfinished when they scrapped the project #they had to carve the rest of their body out of hunger and frustration because they couldn’t eat or move much by crawling on their top half #this is also why they spite their creators and hate irresponsible creation. because of abandonment issues and feeling like they have no #purpose or direction in life #their power is also very limited to due being man made since they were originally a wood carving #meo gave me the idea but one reason would be because they’re half finished. the sculpture was still half stump so it was completely untouche #that half can channel power in its raw form but the other half cannot once it’s been carved by man #so technically they could have the same level or potential for power as the stone but that was dampened #the other thing is how they were created to be a duplicate or recreation of a stone monkey and a celestial looked at that and was like #‘we’re not doing that again’ LMAO #i think the case of them carving their own legs doesn’t take away their power though. that balance was made #before they came to life so carving the legs or not can’t affect it anymore. like making a cake and slicing it #their energy levels are also naturally low because of that so their movements are sluggish and they aren’t very active overall #constantly lying in the sun to charge their batteries and get some stuff done. just like me fr #I actually don’t know what I’m gonna do with this character besides Put Them In Situations with other ppls ocs.. so if you have #a lmk oc you have been warned /lh /j #I wanna make some backstory art for them though.. maybe even the animatic treatment if I can get through dear wormwood which is 25 #SECONDS OUT OF 3 MIN BTW #doodles #Lego Monkie kid #lmk #Monkie kid #lmk oc #monkie kid oc #myart #my art #xin ya

[dreamofbecoming]

i love bisexual eddie munson, but specifically in like a shang from mulan kind of way, you know? like he knew he liked boys, that made sense. just another way he’s different from everyone else, just another reason he’s a freak. so why bother examining it? he’s gay, hawkins hates him, might as well lean into it. maybe chrissy was the first time a girl made him feel butterflies (or bats?) in his stomach, and it confused him so bad he didn’t know what the hell to do about it except make a fool of himself flirting with the queen. maybe he took one look at nancy wheeler with a sawed off and went “yeah ok holy shit i get it, i see why steve was willing to burn his life down for her and why robin keeps making moon eyes at her and why jonathan lost his mind and pointed his camera through steve’s window like an insane person.” like he’s still into steve, obviously. the man is swanning about shirtless and bloody in an apocalyptic wasteland like the embodiment of all of eddie’s weirdest fantasies, there’s no way he’s not into steve. but i just love the idea of eddie being the one going through an Upside Down sexuality crisis (TM) rather than steve. what is happening to him?? why does he suddenly want to kiss everyone??? get it together munson you are running from a goddamn mob!!!

#eddie munson #steddie #not gonna tag this with everything bc it’s just me rambling but hellcheer and stancy and all that are here too #listen i’m not saying he would want to date nancy they would absolutely tear each other’s throats out within an hour #but his dick is on board is all i’m saying #because let’s face it whose wouldn’t be #people meet the real nancy wheeler and immediately start drooling that’s literally canon #also like #i’m not…NOT saying that mans has mommy issues that eventually translate to an alarming crush on joyce byers #yk? yk #he’s got a weakness for protective types and also women who could kill him so like #it’s as inevitable as it is embarrassing for him #anyway after everything when he definitely for sure lives and joins the party for real etc #he keeps forgetting he’s bi bc he’s so used to thinking of himself as gay #it makes his coming out speeches a little ridiculous

[skyward-floored]

Is there anyway possible for me to contact Jojo herself and ask very very politely if I could see the exclusive discord stuff

#this is mostly a joke but also #if I see one more post about how cool it all was I’m gonna start biting things #I don’t use discord for several reasons but I want to see the stuff so badly #if I at least knew it was going to be on the blog eventually I’d be content with waiting but #somebody said it’s only discord forever ever and the idea of never seeing it ever is just :( #bleh ignore me I’m being dumb #rambles from the floor #oh what the heck #linkeduniverse #linked universe

[mothpiercings]

i wrote this while on vacation then forgot about it for a week anyway

jaskier travels to future modern day where geralt is like 800 years old

after the dragon hunt geralt and jaskier part ways

geralt didn’t mean anything he said ofc, he was just angry and frustrated and he took it out on the one person he could always count on

but his stupid pride won’t let him apologize

even though he feels sorry as soon as the words leave his mouth

he watches jaskier walk away, and knows that he has to give his the bard some time

three years is a lot of time to give but geralt can’t find him

he has literally looked everywhere

oxenfurt, lettenhove, pasoda, hell even cintra (which he vowed to never go back to, but he needs to find jaskier)

the bard is nowhere

five more years pass

geralt still looks for him everywhere

every time there’s a bard with bushy brown hair or blue eyes or a lute with flowers on it, he’s reminded of jaskier and is filled with hope for one quick second

but it’s never jaskier

he hears it in a pub

it’s a no name pub he’s never been to, one he just stopped in after a hunt

and he hears it

the bard in the corner, talking to some patrons, acting as if it’s just casual conversation

“yes, yes, the great bard Jaskier, meletele bless his soul, wrote many ballads in his day, and had he not fallen to horrid fate, we might have more. but alas, we make do.” and he finished with a laugh.

a laugh

geralt storms out of the pub, probably scaring the few townspeople sober enough to notice

he takes on contracts that he knows are too dangerous for him

he goes to kaer morehn every winter and drinks himself near death

the others are worried for him, but bringing it up leads to geralt locking himself in his room for weeks

they don’t talk about it

he isn’t sober for more than a few hours at time for a decade

eventually geralt finds his child surprise

and he knows that he can’t keep this up AND be a decent father figure

he and yennifer sort things out and she helps him sober up

blah blah blah season two happens mainly as it did in netflix cannon except without jaskier

a few hundred years pass

everyone’s alive (all the witchers, yennifer, ciri, magic is the answer to everything)

it feels like forever

geralt never stops thinking about jaskier

everytime music changes or a new instrument is invented, all geralt can think about is how jaskier would respond

he cries the day he found out ab recording

all he can think about is how he would never get to hear jaskier immortalized like this

jaskier would never be remembered

that thought makes him cry harder

it takes yennifer and ciri a week to pull him out of his drunken depressive episode

geralt has settled in pretty well though

he’s generally good at adapting to change (even though the fact that his dog is named roach says otherwise)

he has a job that he mostly enjoys (he’s a park ranger. it’s the most fun he’s ever had and he loves it so much. if anyone ever found out he would kill them and then himself)

he and his family try to get together at least once a month

they got closer after they stopped having to kill to survive

when they finally got to a point where they could just be

they almost always go over to vesemirs (because despite what they say, he’s their dad)

it’s at one of these dinners, as everyone’s saying their goodbyes, a loud crack and swear is heard from the backyard

it’s a swear they haven’t heard in a long time

centuries maybe

then more swearing

geralt pauses and listens to the voice that he knows is dead

this is a nasty trick

the other witcher’s know that something’s wrong as soon as they see geralt’s expression change

they got rid of their swords a long time ago (it was the 70s after someone lambert tried to take them to a festival and almost killed someone. now they stay in the attic)

but they all carry daggers ofc

they grab their weapons and slowly stalk towards the yard

where the voice is still ranting and cursing

still in a language long dead

they open the door

geralt doesn’t belive it

“where the fuck am i, geralt” the bards voice is just like it was that day on the mountain

chapter/story two

none of them move for a beat

they can hear the man’s (jaskiers?) heart beating so fast it could come out of his chest

he doesn’t seem like a fake (dopplers went extinct a few centuries ago anyway)

if this was an imposter, they were too good at it

“jaskier” has the same scent he always has (wild flowers and a field after rain)

jaskier looks at the witchers, all big and scary and totally pointing their daggers at him

he can assume the other men are geralts brothers

though they don’t have a madellian, they each have a large ring with a wolf engraved

don’t ask jaskier how he noticed this

he doesn’t know

geralt stalks closer to the man (the man who was dead for almost 1000 years, the man who shouldn’t be here right now)

he hears a light growl from behind him and eskel lightly gripping his arm

but he has to do this, so he shakes the hand off and continues forward

with each step that geralt takes, jaskier smells… calmer

this confuses geralt, because even though they had been… friends for a long time, they parted ways on awful terms

in a language he hasn’t heard in such a long time, jaskier begins to speak

“geralt…” he repeats, “where the fuck am i?”

it takes a moment for geralt to process, and not just because he barely remembers the language

but the man’s voice sounds so much like jaskiers

and jaskier looks not a hair out of place

he looks. like he was simply plucked out of thin air in 12xx and deposited in 2022

#geraskier #the witcher #the witcher fanfiction #geralt of rivia #jaskier #yennefer of vengerberg #geraskier fanfiction #kaer morons #kaer morhen #i’m gonna write this eventually #maybe #hopefully #also #if u couldn’t tell #idk how to use tumblr #it’s difficult #so the formatting probably isn’t great #or good #but #we’ll survive

[viciousewe]

I’m not avoiding my 3 spinning and 4 knitting projects!!! I’m not!!!

#I’m just sampling! #honestly! #gotta know how I wanna do my next project. #anyways as much as I enjoy the action of combing fibers #I didn’t like that the Icelandic in particular would separate out tog from them #and I am not spending 100$ on single row combs I would only really want for double fleeces like this #and I do eventually want to experiment with seperated fleeces (just not right now) #I decided I was finally gonna do it #I was finally gonna get reacquainted with my cards #and so far I’m having a decent time! #I think I finally found a technique that works for me #(it’s basically just from Louis Swales’ video ‘how to card like a ghost’) #I’m putting out rolags that umm #ok they don’t look great but they are a decent spinning experience! #and I like how little waste there is #currently in this pic I am spinning some rolags that were rolled off the short end of cards so the fiber is mostly parallel #(been calling them cigar rolags) #and tbh I think I prefer the rolag rolled off the long side #I feel the dual cost fibers mix better #I’m gonna try to spindle spin enough yarn to make a short pair of socks as one of the things I wanted to do was get #a pair of 100% Icelandic wool socks to see how it wears compared to the commercial standard of merino nylon blend #and then I want to spin some Lopi style for a sweater #and if I have any long locks leftover I’ll use that in my current rug project #yarn #handmade #spinning #handspinning #handspun #wool #spindle

[hanjisungs-bigtittyg0thgf]

Kinktober Day 22: Choking with Chan

Trigger warnings: none?

Content warnings: names (baby, baby girl, good girl), slight degradation, choking (duh)

Summary: He can’t believe how worked up you are after watching the Red Lights video.

Word count: 646 (i know, i’m sorry)

Tags: @hyuckilstan @wubbster @critssq @skzgallll

Kinktober master list

Smut below the cut

His labored breathing mingled with the sound of his hips repeatedly slamming into yours and you couldn’t stifle the cry that ripped from your throat. Somehow, despite the steady hammering of his hips, he was managing to deliver teasing thrusts that had you desperate for more. And you were in this position because he caught you.

“How’s it feel to live my dream?” You mumbled, crossing your arms over your chest as you watched your boyfriend choke your best friend. “Lucky bastard…”

“Who’s a lucky bastard?” You nearly jumped out of your skin at the sound of your boyfriend’s voice behind you, scrambling to pause the music video.

“Holy shit- you scared me!” You brought a hand to your chest as if to settle your heart while looking over your shoulder at him. “When did you get home?”

“Just a minute ago. Didn’t you hear me?” Before you could answer, he noticed what was on the television and stifled a laugh. “Or were you too distracted by Hyunjin tied to the bed?”

“Ew, no!” You fake gagged and laid your head on the back of the couch to look up at him. You were about to speak when he ducked down and stole a brief kiss.

“Was it about me then?” He whispered as he pulled back the slightest bit to look at you, his hand cupping your chin to keep you from looking back down, and you nodded. His hand around your throat sent a thrill through you and he picked up on the almost-imperceptible shudder that took over your body. “Was it this?” He asked with a smirk as he moved to grip your throat the way he had done to Hyunjin in the video. You nodded again, this time sheepishly, and he scoffed. “If you wanted me to choke you, all you had to do was ask, baby.”

After that, he couldn’t stop toying with you. It had escalated quickly and you’d found yourself in your shared bed, pinned beneath him. Now, your ass was in the air and you were unbelievably full. The stretch was fucking delicious.

He had one hand wound through your hair, holding your head to the mattress while the other was pressing against your lower back, making sure you arched beautifully for him. You were certain the neighbors would file a noise complaint against you but you couldn’t help that he knew just how to make you scream. It seemed, however, that he figured out what you were thinking as you tried to stifle your cries.

“What have I told you, baby girl?” He paused but answered for you when you didn’t immediately respond. “Neighbors be damned, I want to hear you scream for me.” He quickly shifted, pulling you up by your hair so your back was pressed to his chest, then released your hair and wrapped both hands around your throat. “Understood?”

You moaned out a pathetic affirmation, unable to form a coherent response with him still fucking into you as his grip on your throat tightened. “Good girl...” He praised in a low voice as he leaned down to whisper in your ear. “And baby?” He paused and you whimpered in response. “Hyunjin’s next door getting his shit wrecked too. Passed him on the way in. Why don’t you let him hear how good I make you feel? I think he deserves to know what a slut you are, getting turned on just from seeing me pretend to choke him…” He tutted and squeezed your neck, scoffing as your eyes rolled back.

You couldn’t get a word in as he railed you and you realized from his pace that you wouldn’t be getting a break until Hyunjin and your neighbor were beating on the walls to shut you up. You were going to be an utter mess by the time he was done with you.

#kpop smut #stray kids #stray kids smut #stray kids bang chan #bang chan #bang chan smut #kinktober #kinktober 2022 #i’m gonna get it all published eventually lmao #sorry it’s so short #ngl writing has been difficult lately #anywho #i hope you enjoy it #maybe i’ll use it in an actual fic

[mars-ipan]

GODDD.

#marzivents #to preface. i am SLIGHTLY buzzed. as in i have had a single mimosa almost an hour ago #today there has been a… weird??? energy with the family?? #my mom and dad are on two different frequencies today but like they’re managing so whatever #my brother and i have been normal i suppose #but we’ve been all together for a little bit to celebrate the new uear and such #clock hits 12. we celebrate. everybody has One mimosa. not a lot at all #that buzz hits me and i’m hanging out. i’m feeling good! #my brother says something or other and we start the motions of one of our go-to sibling disagreements you know the type #and my mother cuts me off says like ‘let’s all relax’ or whatever. i didn’t feel that angry but like?? sure? fine whatever #we stop and i move on. once again not a huge deal to me #then my dad does smth or other. my mom’s been razzing him all day so i decide alright i will also razz him. a little lighthearted teasing #it is NOTHING different from what i normally do. just slightly more frequent #and my dad goes ‘i can’t have an opinion on anything huh?’ and i- committed to the bit- go ‘no <3’ with a smile on my face #like i am simply wanting to fuck around!! the way you do with friends! that is all i am doing! #i get in some other thing with my brother for like .2 seconds before my mom tells us to ‘stop fighting’ again. alright cool #this sort of thing continues. and the air in the room becomes super tense for some goddamn reason??? #eventually my dad heads to the garage and my brother follows. while they’re gone my mom tells me i need to cool it and i’m being aggressive #i???? huh???? what??? #i was gonna turn to HER and crack a joke like ‘how do you get them to understand that loud doesn’t mean angry?’ #because that’s an issue SHE has all the damn time! i was gonna turn to her and bond! but she says that before i can even start to #so my attempt to ease the remaining tension in the room is dead on arrival. in fact the room is even TENSER #maybe it was the champagne or smth but it just fucking got to me. i shut up and turn away and start trying to collect myself #i’m realizing two things. 1- my emotions are less in my control right now and i cannot collect myself here. 2- I Need To Fucking Scream #so i silently pack up and head to my room. my mom knows better and asks no questions #as i was typing this post my brother walks in. i shoo him out without words but he tries to ask questions so i just repeat until he gets it #i feel fucking insane. what the fuck did i DO???? i literally was just fucking razzing. i do that all the time #and sure. i was louder. and yeah it was probably slightly more razzing than i normally would. but i DO NOT FUCKING GET how those two things #would cause as MUCH of a reaction as they did!!! like. i . hello??? #the rest is in the replies bc i am out of tags but i am not out of feelings

[chlorinewaterdrinker]

Pizza pizza

#this is my second time trying to post this cuz the quality was crap #if it happens again I’m not gonna try and fix it 😭😭 #fnaf au where it’s more like cec/rae #I based these off the rae/battington designs bc they’re just better than the canon looks for them sorry #Freddy is like a mix of fatz geronimo and teddy ruxpin #chica is obviously the chef/baker of the group and I wanted to make her bob into an apron instead but I didn’t feel like doing full bodies #for like any of these #foxy is iconic so I didn’t change his design much but I incorporated aspects from different designs-like the beard from squimpus #face from battington and added khol under his eyes bc it felt appropriate #and I added fetch from the books to the main gang bc idk it felt like smth needed to be there and the dog is cute #he’s at the prize counter and gives out prizes and Guards against theft and he’s just a little baby #can’t decide if i want to keep the name fetch or use sparky instead bc sparky was iconic AND ALSO IN THE FUCKING MOVIE???? HELLO??? #this is from my sketchbook so it doesn’t look great and I’ll get around to doing full bodies eventually #im kinda scared to tag this as fnaf #rubensdoodads #okay back to the cec/rae grind #Bonnie is a failed magician and does skits like Rolfe/Klunk does my bad #fnaf

[sharkieboi]

okay Aabria’s experience watching LOTR for the first time with a bunch of longtime fans is so relatable cause fucking SAME I still have not watched LOTR and I have had multiple friends who are big big fans tell me they’re gonna make me watch all of them and so far no one has followed through but I know for a fact I will also afterwards be like “I’m allowed to not get that, right?”

#shhh sharkie #bits and mead would also fuck up my understanding of it all #we sort of accidentally showed two of our friends Beetlejuice for the first time #in that we watched it and didn’t realize they both had never seen it before #and i just remember my one friend being like ‘wow he’s kinda a jerk isn’t he?’ #and all of us basically screaming ‘YES THATS THE WHOLE POINT’ #and making references to other Tim Burton movies they both also hadn’t seen #anyway eventually I’ll watch LOTR and understand all the memes and shit i haven’t ever had context for #i’ve seen up to like. when Frodo wakes up in the elves kingdom in the first movie. kept getting interrupted. #and i’m not gonna watch it by myself i know at this point this is an experience i need to be subjected to y’know? #anyway tldr burrows end adventuring party Aabria i feel for you

[iwantyoursexmp3]

feeling silly. the urge to buy a record player has returned

#id have to use my savings but like I’m gonna buy one eventually anyway??? #like my brain thinks I’m saving money rn by NOT buying it yet

[notmygrave]

best friend decided to move abroad next year for uni i cried so much i’m going to kill him and then kill myself

#we were all acting like he just told us he has a terminal illness fucking insane #anyways he’s not gonna go through with it all of his long term plans fail eventually #but if he does i don’t know how i’m going to survive that he’s the only person that knows what to say when i’m falling apart and i know how #to handle his moods and we’re identical we’re the same i love him so much i can’t stand the idea of him not being around #look at me crying over a man…