#i'm still not healthy and i'm exhausted but i feel well enough to write some things so

[factsilike]

Controversial maybe, but I don't understand why people give so much preference and love to JC and WWX's non existent "brotherly" relationship (their relationship was more akin to a sect leader and his subordinate, or a master and his servant. Jiang Cheng certainly thought of him as so, however different he may have claimed him to be). JC in the novel not once called WWX his brother, and I don't think he ever said a word that wasn't harsh or critical to him either.

Why not show some more love to the actual loving and healthy sibling relationships in mdzs? Where both siblings loved and supported each other? There are plenty and they are so underrated!

Wen Qing and Wen Ning. (I don't think I need to elaborate on how sweet and cute their relationship is. Wen Qing being all stern and strict one moment and then all doting and fussy over her younger brother. Wen Ning being all meek and mild in nature and in awe of his big sister, and he's obedient and looks up to her so much. I'll never forget the impact the first Qiongqi path massacre had on me when Wen Qing, exhausted, starving and terrified for Wen Ning, faints upon learning the sheer tragedy that happened to her brother, and WWX had him seek bloody, brutal revenge on his own behalf.)

Lan Xichen and Lan Wangji. (Probably the most healthy sibling relationship in mdzs, imo. They're supportive of each other and quite close from a young age. Lan Xichen being one of the only few people who could read Lan Wangji and his emotions, awwww. His understandable rage at thinking WWX was playing with his brother's feelings led to an angry outburst that was quite unlike his usually mild, gentle temperament.)

Jiang Yanli and Wei Wuxian. (This one is adorable and sweet and so heartwarming! Jiang Yanli is the only other person besides LWJ WWX lets himself be silly and goofy with, because he knows she'll fondly indulge him and laugh with him! The way she firmly stands up for him and declares him as her brother in front of the Jin sect! The way she has stated all her life, by her everyday acts of service towards WWX, that he's her family!)

Nie Mingjue and Nie Huaisang. (Theirs was a bit of a complicated relationship but they still loved each other, and Nie Huaisang all but abandoned his morals in his quiet quest to avenge his brother's death.)

I'm not hating on people who love JC and WWX's relationship and write reconciliation fic after fic, or saying that they're wrong to do so. I'm just tired of seeing so many people portray their relationship this way as if it's canon, when JC and WWX in the novel have severed ties and don't want to be in each other's lives anymore, when the character development JC goes throughout the novel ends with him finally learning to leave well enough alone and let WWX live his life in peace with the one he loves, when there are actual sibling relationships that this fandom is sleeping on, when Jiang Cheng is canonically homophobic and will certainly never hold a wedding for WWX or anyone in Lotus Pier.

#mdzs #Lan Wangji #wei wuxian #wangxian #canon jiang cheng #jiang yanli #Lan Xichen #nie huaisang #nie mingjue #Wen Qing #Wen Ning #Jiang Cheng #the untamed #cql #jc stans please be more aware of his canon issues please #and don't come at me please

[gavisuntiedboot]

Blue raspberry (Gavi x Reader)

28 day writing prompt challenge - prompts are here

Day 11: Late night McDonald's run

Warning: mentions/ alluding to eating disorders! Mentions of being scared to eat certain foods! If you're not comfortable please don't read!

"Pablo, I'm here, but they won't let me come into the parking lot because they don't recognize my car, so you're going to need to come up to."

"I'm walking up to you right now. Pull over to the side."

You moved your car from in front of the barrier to wait as close as possible on the side of the road. Despite the fact that it was 9:15pm, there were still about a dozen fans waiting to see the players emerge, hoping to get photos and autographs. You saw Gavi's hooded figure emerge, and he looked for your car. You flashed your lights to notify him where you were, but you notified the fans as well. They ran over and swarmed him, making it almost impossible to get to you. He took a few pictures and signed a few shirts before security intervened, separating him from his loyal supporters.

He got into your car and threw his backpack over his shoulder into the back seat, sighing and sinking into the seat. There was a path for you drive between the fans, and so you left Camp Nou and the flashes of iPhones behind you.

"Great. Now my Ford is going to be all over Twitter. People will want to get pictures with Gavi's chauffer. I'll never have a moment of peace."

He let out a tired laugh and pulled his hood down, finally relaxing as you hit the road.

"First of all, you already stick out for driving this obnoxiously American car in the middle of Spain. And second, why didn't you just tell security you were here to pick me up?"

"Gavi, can you imagine if security just let random girls in if they said they were there to see you? You would have been kidnapped a long time ago."

You rarely ever picked up Gavi. Your relationship was still relatively new, and he didn't want you to be hounded by the press and by people on social media making unfounded and nasty comments. Plus, he usually had a ride. He often arrived and left with Pedri, who was all too happy to have some company on his way to work in the mornings. If not Pedri, then another member of the squad (or even a member of staff) was always happy to make sure he got to and from practice safely (and didn't get snatched by a random fan).

But today, he was just in the worst mindset. It was freezing in Barcelona, and he hated to practice in the cold. As usual, he was slipping and sliding around the field, even more than usual due to the rain of the previous night. He was cold and wet, and he was being constantly critiqued by the coaching staff because he was just not in top form today. To make matters worse, he was starving. He had been following Robert's "healthy diet" advice, but sometimes he got so fixated on not eating the wrong thing that he just forgot to eat altogether. He had finished some weight training and was ready to hit the shower and go home when he got the news from Pedri.

"The Adidas reps are coming over to get me fitted for some new boots. I wont be leaving until 10:30."

Gavi almost cried at the news that he was going to be held at the Camp so late. He was exhausted. He was cold. He wanted to see his girlfriend. And so he swallowed his pride and called you, asking you to rev up the gas-guzzler and pick him up, even if it meant being photographed together.

"Mi corazón, are you okay? You're giving off more distressed vibes than usual."

"Honestly, I don't know," he replied, turning to look at you. "I've just been feeling drained and down. Everything is irritating me and I just want to sit in bed and do nothing."

A moment of silence passed. You didn't know what to say. You understood how Pablo felt: it was hard living up to so much pressure and expectations, and even if it wasn't full-blown depression, it was enough to make you worried. You didn't want these feelings to start interfering with his day-to-day, because you knew that would just make him feel worse. You weren't a therapist, but you wanted to do whatever you could to provide him with a little bit of comfort.

"... do you want to go to McDonald's?"

"What?" He said, looking over at you with his eyebrows stitched together in confusion, like you had asked the question in a different language.

"Well I mean when I've had a shit day I usually find myself in the McDonald's drive-thru. Nothing makes me feel as good as a 9-piece nugget meal and an Oreo McFlurry. But if you just want to go home I can just take you home."

"I... don't even remember the last time I went to McDonald's."

"Are you being serious?"

"Yeah. I eat a lot at the club and have my macros tracked by the nutritionists there. And then usually I'm with the boys and Eric or someone else cooks. And I don't have a car, so it prevents me from coming here for a McChicken whenever I want."

You drove for a few more minutes before turning into the drive through.

"Welcome to McDonald's what can I get for you?"

You placed your order, going a little overboard and getting everything that looked somewhat appealing. You turned to Gavi.

"What do you want?"

"All that food was for you?!"

"Quickly."

"Um... maybe I just get a small fries. I don't want to ruin all the work I've done by pigging out."

You looked at Gavi with wide eyes. It was dawning on you how much he was actually worried about his eating habits for fear of being ridiculed by the club.

"For him can I get a large McChicken meal with a blue raspberry slushie and- M&Ms or Oreo?"

"What?"

"Hurry up Pablo or we'll be here all night. M&Ms or Oreo?"

"But I- fine. Oreo."

"And an Oreo McFlurry. That's all"

You left the speaker, waiting in line to pay, and you looked over at Pablo, whos cheeks were bright red. He was looking directly in front of him, avoiding eye contact with you.

"What's wrong Pablito? You just said you liked McChickens."

"I do amor, that's not the problem." He said, looking at you. You took his hand in yours and laced your fingers together.

"It's just been a long time since I let myself eat this kind of stuff. And I mean I know that one time will be fine but I just... I don't know how to not feel guilty for having fried food for the first time in like a year."

You brought his hand up to your lips and kissed it gently, rubbing the back of it with your thumb.

"Pablo, you guys just won the Spanish Supercup less than a month ago - and you were in top form might I add. I know it's hard to let yourself have simple pleasures, but you deserve to have things that make you happy every now and then. And plus, this meal is probably better for you than two beers."

He smiled widely, leaning over to give you a gentle kiss. You reciprocated, enjoying the feeling of his soft lips against yours until the car behind you honked, causing you both to swiftly pull away.

You moved to the window, pulling out your wallet to pay.

"Corazón, you don't have to pay for the food. I can get it."

"Oh my God Pablo Gavi?"

He had forgotten to pull his hood up, and now the man at the window looked ready to faint. Pablo panicked. He did not want to be photographed in this moment.

"Why don't you get something for him to sign for you?" You asked sweetly, and Gavi squeezed your arm, greatful for your quick thinking. The employee ran off to find something for Gavi to sign.

"I think my card fell in my bag. Pablito, can you open up my McDonald's app on my phone so I can get the reward points?"

The employee returned, hands shaking as he handed you a shirt and a Sharpie for Gavi. The app lit up Gavi's face and just before he gave you the phone, his eyes got wide.

"Bebe, why do you have 7,000 McDonald's points."

".... I'm sad often. Hurry up and sign the shirt."

You got your food and drove back to Pablo's house.

"It's your obligation as a passenger to eat fries out of the bag while they are hot, and occasionally feed some to me." You said playfully. He smirked at you, grabbing some fries and taking a bite.

"Fuck."

"What's wrong?"

"Nothing. I just forgot how good fat and salt are."

At Pablo's house, he tried to set the food on the table, but you stopped him, grabbing the bag and skipping over to the couch. You set the food out on the coffee table and dimmed the lights.

"Why do the lights have to be off for us to eat?" Pablo asked, sitting on the couch and putting one arm around you, pulling you close.

"Because it's more freeing. Don't look and hyper-analyze what you're eating, Pablo. Just eat until you're full."

You unwrapped the burger and handed it to Pablo, following quickly with your own food. You put on an episode of your favorite show, and you two just sat and ate and cuddled. After 5 or 6 episodes, the food was cleared, and you and Pablo had situated yourselves on the couch. He was laying in your arms, and you alternated between eating ice cream yourself and feeding him spoonfuls.

"Bebe, I have a question?"

"Yes mi amor?"

"How did you know I was going to like blue raspberry?"

"Because you have the taste buds of a 5 year old, just like me. Why? Did you like it?"

"I loved it. I'm going to go and buy myself one every time I score a goal."

"Can I get in on this deal? I also like slushies."

"Of course mi corazón. How else am I going to get to the McDonald's? You'll be driving."

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A/N: Hey y'all! Hope you enjoyed this one. Inspired by my own late night McDonald's run (which actually tragically ended w me spilling half the food on the floor). If you haven't had a blue raspberry slushie from McDonald's (and it's available where you are) go get one. I have met so many athletes who have this mentality around fast food, and so I wanted to give a little bit of a different perspective. Anyways, I've really been enjoying this prompt challenge. I hope you are too. Please leave any comments or feedback here or in my asks, and see y'all later!

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[lizzaneia-elizalde]

Another yandere set 2 ask, from yours truly! This is another one inspired by the yandere set 1 asks regarding fatherhood…

How would each of the yanderes’ react/behave during their darling’s labor and post-labor?

I wanna know who’s panicking, composed, excited, etc.

Sorry I got baby fever right now…

Yandere men and their darling in labor and post-labor

Assuming the reader this time is AFAB, or is in an A/B/O situation! By the way, i'm so sorry if i'm moving so slow with the requests! I've been busy lately so i'm trying my best to write.

"Why don't you just close the requests?" True, but some people use the ask box to talk and chat to me without compromising their anonymity. So, I hope you can be patient! I don't really like rejecting asks, so I probably will answer all of them. I know, I can reject them or not answer. I'm working on it lol. Especially that there's a lot of asks like these, which includes all the yandere OCs in a set... It's a bit exhausting. I kind of regret it, but hey, we're here already lol.

I added a section of... You'll know if you read HAHA

YAN! DELINQUENT

Liam will definitely panic. He's sweaty, he's smiling, he's about to blow off his top from the way the nurses were so nonchalant with your labor (It's normal). Can't they see you're about to die (You're contracting)?! Oh god, you can't voice out your pain without you talking (The midwives are not dumb enough to not read body language)! He will swear up and down that no more babies. NO MORE! It's already painful enough seeing you get swarmed by other people, let alone touch you.

Post labor Liam will be calm, fussy, and overprotective. Well, more overprotective than usual. He has a 70/30 chance of fainting, and will praise the gods if you delivered safely.

But, if you died... He will let out a gut wrenching cry by the foot of your bed. The baby won't even be noticed by him as he clenches his chest, sobbing and heaving his heart out. It will take more than days to calm him down, and have the heart to take care of your child. He will love the child, since he knows the child is innocent. But a big, gaping you-shaped hole in his heart is carved painfully in place.

YAN! BULLY

Uno will be the quiet panic-type. He sure is calm... On the inside. He's about to scream and rip the heads off of everyone who's touching you even a smidge wrong. NO MALE HANDS! NEVER! He's never been like this, ever. Even in your wedding, pregnancy, he never panicked. So why now? He's biting his cheeks to the point it bled, and you swore every single nurse and midwife in the delivery ward were yelled at by Uno.

Post-delivery Uno will calm down and act like nothing happened. "See? I know you can do it, nerd." Yeah sure. As if you can't see the blood stained teeth from him biting his cheeks. For the first time, he'll cherish a person other than you. He's so soft that it's new to you too.

If you died, Uno will turn the whole hospital up and down. He'll ruin everything, blame the midwives and nurses for not taking care of you enough, the hospital for lacking the resources to make a safe delivery.... And unfortunately, your child for killing you off. I'm gonna be honest, Uno will be the type to blame the child for your death. So, be healthy, darling!

YAN! NSFW ASMRTIST

Rose would be composed. He knew you were gonna be fine. Of course, nervousness will still be there, but he had enough trust in this hospital that he hopes you and your baby will be fine. That, and all of those breeding roleplays was his fault so he had to be composed since he brought it upon himself.

Post-delivery Rose would be relieved. He's right. And the cute little bugger is so small. He fits just by 3/4's of his arm. Wait, why is the baby so small? Are they really this small? But you were eating quite a lot... He's also a big guy, so the genes..? Is it from you? Or just recessive? He will have many questions. All those pregnancy asmr roleplays didn't really help.

If you died, Rose would feel like the whole world collapsed on his feet. What do you mean you died? He swears you would be okay. That you will be alive and well. He suddenly feels an immense guilt eating him up. Should he have panicked more? Should he have ensured the personnel that you're going to be alright? He sinks to his knees, weeping. He will swear on your body to take care of the baby well.

YAN! ISEKAI'ED ADVENTURER

Aeron is definitely skeptical. Sure, this world has magic, but it doesn't have the technological advancement of the modern world. It's also a world where he can't be with you in the delivery room. So all he could do is pace around the hall as he hears your cries of pain. He'll also cry with you if the delivery was too long for both of your likings.

Post-delivery Aeron will burst through the door and will go to you first. "Are you fine? Do you feel lethargic? Do you feel weak?!" The nurses have to pull him off of you so you can have the baby latch on you. He'll pout, but grips his arm as he watches you and the baby with a fond smile.

If you died... Aeron will regret everything. He knew he should have found a way back to the modern world. Maybe you could have delivered safely. He shouldn't have had a baby with you. A demon king's child will be too much on a mage's body, with all of those mana mixing. The whole hospital will be engulfed in demonic power as he suffocated everyone except his kid. He'll disappear with the child, forever retreating to the Demon realm to raise the kid alone.

YAN! PLAYER

Amor would be excited. He never thought he'll finally get a kid of his own after years and his past life. His parents spoiled him a lot, his guardian angels (gods) spoil him too. And this kid? A product of you and him?! Gods above! That's like, such a blessing! He'll be persistent in asking the nurses and midwives if the kid is there, if you're alright... OH god are you okay? All of these other people touching you... He feels the bile rising up to his mouth. But he knew these people are just doing their job, and then--

Post delivery Amor would be all over you. He'll kiss your face, your lips, your forehead, immediately buy you food you cannot have, and spoil you rotten as you recover. And his kid? Oh his kid is so cute! Look at them. So pretty and small... Is that his nose? Oh they got your eyes! His hair color and your hair texture... Oh they're the perfect mix!

This is one of the rare times were you are guaranteed on not dying... In the backstage, Amor shook the gods on putting so many blessings on your body to make sure your delivery will be safe and easy. That the child will be healthy. So, no deaths at all.

YAN! PARASITE

Acheron will be overly cautious one. He will have you deliver in your home, in his lab, where he transformed it to a delivery ward. He trained in birthing too, so he's as good as professional midwives too. He will be there for you, ensuring that the pregnancy will end well. Because honestly, technically speaking, this child is from this body of his and yours. Not your original body. So he's a bit conflicted.

Post-delivery Acheron is smug. He knew he could handle the delivery well. The baby is healthy, and he's planning on how to make the kid a parasite too. Which can earn your ire or approval, depending on what you want. But now, he's content, and actually loved this little kid, despite knowing the biological composition of the kid.

If you "died", Acheron will be filled with regret too. He wasn't skilled enough. He should've listened and admitted you to a hospital. He'll have to extract the parasite from your body and dump the body, and then find another body for you to inhabit. He'll have to nurse your parasite form to healthy levels first before letting you wriggle into a body. He will be a bit cold to the child though, but a bit more time with him will calm him down.

YAN! EMPEROR

Callisto will only have the best midwives. He'll be overbearing, making sure you WILL be alright. He will, for the first time, be religious and pass by the church to pray that your delivery will be safe. He will force himself in the delivery room. No matter what anyone says. He's the nervous type, biting his nail and barking orders if something even went wrong just a bit.

Post-delivery Callisto will be proud. He's not the type to freak out, he'll just feel the calm washing over him as he showers you with kisses, saying "you did so well", "thank you so much", "Take your time recovering", etc. The baby, he's more or less concerned since he knew the baby will be fine.

If you died though, he'll storm out of the palace, then to the church, and blasphemize the whole place. If he's the chosen one, then why did you die? Why did the love of his life slip past him? After hours of desecrating the church, he will be hell bent on revenge, making the church the enemy. His kid will be not loved, unfortunately. He will neglect them, only providing the bare minimum. Don't get him wrong, the kid will be the heir, but they have to prove himself.

YAN! COLLEGE STUDENT

Alpheus would be the type to be suddenly so overwhelmed with worry. Since he's never been one to feel, the sudden feeling of panic, dread, and worry settled in his stomach. He would probably lay down on the hospital floor, clutching his belly as he rocks back and forth. The nurses and midwives would have to fuss over him before you to the point that you're getting annoyed. He will have to be separated from you, or else he'll probably goes to shock when he hears your pained cries.

When you're done, he goes to your side, crawls beside you, and becomes a clingy mess. He'll apologize, kiss and nuzzle you. He can't believe he subjected you to such a painful ordeal. One child. Just one is enough. He can't have you (and himself) be in this situation again. But the baby is worth it.

When you die, Alpheus will for the first time, cry from grief. It's his first time experiencing something like this, that it overwhelms him. He CANNOT father your child. Unless some divine intervention happens and he'll be fine again. The child will go to his parents, and they'll hope that he'll recover, for the baby's sake and yours up in heaven.

YAN! DEEP SEA CREATURE

Viper's not a worrywart. Since you can't exactly go to the civilization to deliver your eggs safely in time, he would have to let you birth on what's akin to a nest. He'll be there with you, his hands all over your body as he whispers encouraging words to your ears. use his tail as a pillow, who cares. As long as you're comfortable and safe, everything will be fine.

Post-delivery will have Viper give one of his rare smiles. He massages you gently, telling you that you did great, feeding you food, and then fixing the clutch of eggs you birthed. He will have you asleep in no time to rest your weary body as he fusses over the eggs and making sure none of them are wrong.

If you actually died during the birthing process, there will be only two outcomes. If you came to him willingly and you weren't forced to love him, he would take care of the eggs diligently, not wanting to waste your life. If you didn't, let's just say a little cannibalism goes a long way with eggs. Viperfish caviar, anyone?

YAN! HUNTER

Orion will panic throughout your pregnancy. He really thought that he's gonna be the laidback type, knowing you'll be fine and whatnot. But noooo. Now he's here, pacing back and forth in the delivery room as he watches your face wince and cry from the pain. Oh, he almost can't take it anymore. He's begging you to get an epidural. He's really doing it. If you refused, he would shut up and look at you like a puppy kicked. But who cares about him rn? You're giving birth!

Post-delivery Orion will have him faint lol. He'll already wake up when you are cleaned up with the baby also cleaned up. He'll zoom past the nurses and midwives then go to you, where you held the baby up to your breasts to feed. He'll feel a much more overwhelming love in his heart, and he cries his heart out. If it's a clutch of eggs, he'll be starry eyed as he watched the eggs float in an egg incubator, eyes filled with adoration and gratefulness to you.

If you died, he'll be more or less in denial. No way, right? No way you just died like that after giving birth to your precious child/children. You just left them like that? You're so heartless. But deep down, he knew it wasn't your fault. And he goes home that day, eyes hollow, but filled with grief and love for your baby/ies.

YAN! KING

Soma would be pissy. Nobody should talk to him, or he'll blow his top off to them. You were giving birth! Can nobody understand that?! This is a crucial time that it needs his 101%, no, infinity percentage of his attention if that makes sense. He'll also break the rules and be inside the delivery room, letting you hold his hand and even break it. May it be from the pain or from you wanting to exact revenge. Who cares? He'll let you break it if it meant your comfort.

post-delivery Soma would be a lot calmer, and he'll immediately order the people to make you more comfortable, and treat you to make your recovery as fast as possible. Your kid will be given the best amenities, and made sure to have the best upbringing. Hell, he'll have the kid enrolled already and they only got birthed lol.

If you died, he'll be in a stormy mix of emotions. First, grief, second, denial, third, anger, and fourth, relief. Soma knew that what he did to you was wrong and not normal. He doesn't regret it at all. But now that you died when he himself did this to you... As he carries your baby in his arms, he somehow felt relief that you're gone from his clutches, and probably off to somewhere safer than by his side. He will take care of the baby, and he will slowly turn to normal.

YAN! GOD

Technically speaking, Liviticus can just spawn a kid. With the right genetic mix, etc. So it's up to you if you want to go with the nuances of pregnancy. He will be calm. Like, calm calm. It's almost unnerving how he smiles and leads you to an almost fantasy like ward (a forest) laid you down on the delivery bed (a comfortable circle mattress by the foot of a gigantic tree trunk) with helpers in tow (fantastical beasts), and guides you to a safe delivery. You weren't in pain, just a dull ache in your system as you push your child.

Post-delivery Liviticus will have him shower you with the most dazzling display of flowers and sprites dancing around you. The whole forest, and somehow the whole world feeling festive as they made this day a celebration, getting a divine message that the God's child is born. Everyone is ecstatic as they gave thanks to you, and worship you, and give blessings to you.

Again, unlikely to die. Considering your mortal body is dead, and now you're a goddess/god, you cannot die no matter what.

YAN! PROSECUTOR

Yuta was a nervous soon to be father, but he's more or less calm. He's following procedures to a tee, almost robot like. But in reality, he's on autopilot. He already panicked enough internally that he's robotic in your delivery day. You're already worried enough, why would he burden you with his whims and wiles too? He can't afford you getting your mind off of the baby at all. So, he's acting all calm and collected as he held your hand, wishing for everything to be over.

Post-birth Yuta will have him finally break down. At first, all of the personnel around him and you will be shocked as he slumps down to his knees. He doesn't even know why too. Until the tears fell, one by one and he's sobbing from relief. He'll thank you a thousand times, prostrate in front of you, and be spoiling you once you're good to eat. He's truly grateful.

If you die, Yuta will also fall to his knees and sob, but this time from grief as he lost his trusty partner, his true love. Why did he kill all of those people for? Just for you to die? He misses you a lot. He wants to hold you, kiss you again... But all for naught. Mysteriously, the people who helped you give birth died in random patterns. He'll also include others to put the suspicion off of him. But who cares right now? As he cradles your baby and watches the whole midwifery section burn and ensure that no mother dies from giving birth, he sighs, and wishes you were there with him.

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[iloveyou-writers]

~~Tips On~~ Making Friends [Online]

Making friends serves to be something so many struggle with. Whether it be social anxiety, shyness, introversion, or just generally not enjoying the act of reaching out to others, there are a lot of obstacles that can hold us back from being able to make the connections possible for making true and lasting friendships.

Below, I will list some things that have worked for me, as someone with social anxiety and issues with keeping in touch with people I've connected with.

**Disclaimer: these will not work for everyone and this is not an exhaustive list of all the ways you can make/maintain new friendships online.

Tip #1: Think about how much you love to be reached out to. I know it can be easy to fall into the mindset of "I don't want to annoy them," but even big bloggers that receive hundreds of asks a day usually still love receiving them. Yes, sometimes answering all those asks can feel like a chore, but it is better than getting no engagement. Receiving correspondence from those that follow you is exciting and it lets you know that your [writing, art, whatever] reached an audience that cares enough to speak up, which can be super encouraging, even if you reaching out is more social than commenting directly on whatever they make.

Tip #2: Remember that the other person is human too. If they don't respond right away, remember they have a life offline as well as the one here. They may be at work or school. They may be sleeping or having a meal. They may be grocery shopping. They have a life outside the internet, so patience is key to maintaining a healthy relationship with someone online (or really anywhere).

Tip #3: Communication is such an important thing, no matter what the relationship. Letting someone know that you're interested in building a friendship can let them know what your intentions are, if you're just casually striking up conversation or if you actually want a lasting friendship where they will hear from you time and again.

Tip #4: Showing interest in their passions is SUCH A HUGE WAY to make friends. They're part of a fandom you've never heard of? Ask them about it! They're starting a new project that you're curious about? Ask them about it! They started talking about a person they're starting to have interest in? Encourage them in it! Showing that you have interest in their passions can be such a great way to connect and bond with another person.

Tip #5: Showing that you care in hard times is a very fast way to bond with someone. When someone talks about a rough time they're having, instead of having a "what does this have to do with me" attitude, and instead reaching out and simply saying "I hope you feel better soon" can make such a difference in some circumstances. You don't even have to say anything more than just showing sympathy and that you care about what they're going through. Not everyone feels sympathy or empathy, and this is by not means a requirement to make lasting and meaningful relationships, so please don't feel like I'm saying that anyone that doesn't do this isn't a good friend, as that certainly is not the case.

Tip #6: Reaching out - even anonymously - and showing an interest in them can be great! Ask them about their day or their favorites. When they post ask games, send in asks for it, even if silly. Give yourself a cute little nickname or emoji sign off so they know it's you when you come into their inbox and you can build a bond, even while you're anonymous. Eventually, you may feel confident enough to come off anon.

Basically, what a friendship boils down to is genuine care and bonding with another person. You can do that in whatever way fits your love language, that you feel you can make that connection, but these are just a few of the ways I have done it.

Thank you to the anonymous asker that sent me an ask on @writeblrsvoid asking about this. I hope this post helps you.

#making friends online #how to make friends online #tips #advice

[unholyverse]

waterparks // alternative press spring 2023

(full article text under the cut:)

TO THE MOON

With their new album INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, WATERPARKS are diving deeper than ever before. The result is an exorcism of deep trauma and the sweet afterglow of catharsis.

STORY: Alessandro DeCaro • PHOTOS: Jawn Rocha • Styling: Josh Madden

Between international flights, jet lag and no days off in between, it is a miracle that Awsten Knight isn’t face down in a pile of pillows. For the past two weeks, Knight and his band Waterparks have been head down in a run of massive shows throughout the U.K. supporting British rockers You Me At Six as well as a series of intimate appearances at record stores with some of the band’s most die-hard fans. It was a landmark run for a group who have hit the road relentlessly the past year-and-a-half, with sold-out North American and European headlining tours, a top slot at the 2022 Sad Summer Festival and even a “bucket list” opening slot for My Chemical Romance. Their latest milestone? They played to 10,000 people — their largest show in the U.K. region — at London’s historic Alexandra Palace. Exhaustion should be Knight's baseline, but instead, he's as chipper as ever when he hops on Zoom back home in Los Angeles. There's only one problem. The bandleader has been on vocal rest for days leading up to this very interview.

“Dude, my voice feels so shot,” Knight confesses from his living room couch. “We did 12 performances back to back, then combined with really short cut-up sleep on the flight, 1 just feel, ugh.” Sleep deprivation aside, Knight is almost at a loss for words (not from the vocal rest) but because the experimental pop trio he formed 12 years ago have unlocked another level of fandom where new listeners are still flocking by the droves. “It turns out there are a lot of people [in this world].” Knight quips, referring to his newfound fans. But in reality, global domination doesn’t really seem too far off.

Knight barely has time to slow down. The band are set to release their fifth studio album, INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY (out April 14 via Fueled By Ramen). But the self-professed workaholic has never known any other way. “It's a really hard mentality to shake,” Knight reveals. “When we were a local band, we didn't have any family connections in the music industry, and no one cared, so you had to take on every role. Even though we are not local anymore and get to play arenas with our favorite bands, if I'm not actively doing stuff to push the music, then I don’t know if anyone else will."

In some ways, Knight fears downtime or stillness because that's when he feels like his brain will start to turn on him. He admittedly functions better when he's working on something creative, whether that’s writing a new song or simply designing streetwear for his clothing brand hii-def. “It's not necessarily the most healthy thing in the long run, but people have worse coping mechanisms,” he laughs nervously.

But Waterparks remain his main focus. The trio, which initially formed in 2011, began to truly put the pieces together the following year when Knight enlisted his now-best friends, guitarist Geoff Wigington and drummer Otto Wood, to round out the lineup. “Otto loved classic rock and bands like La Dispute and Touché Amoré, whereas Geoff was all about EDM," Knight recalls. “We all had different tastes, but at the core of it, it's guitar and drums.” Their individual musical backgrounds helped craft the genre-less sound they have now cultivated.

"THE BIGGEST REASON I didn’t want that pop-punk label is that I know exactly what we are capable of." - AWSTEN KNIGHT

It wasn't until 2016 when Waterparks finally released their debut album, Double Dare — an intentional choice. “I always felt like if no one was looking at us, why put out a large body of work? I wanted to do cool shit as opposed to oversaturating and waiting until enough people [actually] wanted to hear it.” There is a common adage that you have your entire life to write your first record and six months to write your second, to which Knight agrees, and from there, the band began making records like clockwork.

With those albums came carefully curated eras — a moment in time with a clear aesthetic, theme and overall mission statement. While always writing music from a subversive and experimental perspective, it was when the band released both FANDOM (2019) and Greatest Hits (2021) that they began to stray from the confinement of genre and inaccurate labels. Knight himself spoke out vehemently about being boxed in by the term “pop punk. “I learned [during that time that] you can’t control everybody, and you can only frame the narrative so much,” Knight explains. “Obviously, we grew up loving and still loving blink-182, Green Day, Sum 41 and Good Charlotte, so it’s in our DNA to a degree, but I just don't want that label because it’s so synonymous with the past and what cynical dickheads or mega naysayers say is just for preteens and kids. However, the biggest reason I didn’t want that label is that I know [exactly] what we are capable of and what our output is.”

Take, for example, the breakbeat madness of the FANDOM single “Turbulent” or the distorted experimentation of “Numb” from Greatest Hits. Nothing is off the table for Waterparks. The group join a cohort of other trailblazing acts like Bring Me the Horizon and Paramore, who both successfully pivoted away from the late Warped Tour circuit in favor of mainstream appeal without losing any substance. “There's a song for everybody, and I once tweeted that anyone who doesn't like Waterparks just doesn't like Waterparks yet,” Knight says confidently.

If you have yet to be on board with the band's music, you've at the very least been entertained by — or seen — Knight's fiery social media presence.

It's undeniable that Waterparks’ meteoric rise has stemmed from the bandleader’s unofficial side hustle as a social media celebrity. And at times, his online presence can feel truly monolithic in scale, something Knight has attempted to analyze over the years in many songs, including the aptly titled “You'd Be Paranoid Too (If Everyone Was Out To Get You)" When asked if his status as an extremely online figure has influenced the band’s latest album, INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, Knight isn't entirely sure but reveals that he has had to set boundaries nonetheless, as someone who's regularly met with constant praise and vicious internet trolls. “I try not to let it influence things too much [lately], and with therapy, I've learned that you can only control yourself. However, that doesn’t mean I'm not still vulnerable in the music that I write.”

He tackles the subject on INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY with closer "A NIGHT OUT ON EARTH" and parts of the song “RITUAL,” where he recalls when he felt things were “caving in" around him due to the pressures of constant attention. “There are people who listen to Waterparks who aren't on Twitter. and then there are those who view the band in this bubble where it's just them and the people who reply to the tweets,” Knight resigns.

But beyond the topic of social media, Knight gets admittedly “introspective” on the record. When asked to discuss the overall lyrical themes and concepts behind INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, he takes a deep breath and delivers a warning: Things might get a little turbulent.

“There is a love story throughout the record that is expressive to and for other people, but the album itself has to do with overcoming, unlearning and growing past religious guilt,” Knight explains. “It's something that I've struggled with for a long time.” On “FUNERAL GREY," he delivers the punchy line “baptized in my spit,” which is a playful twist on a weighted subject. The theme of religious guilt doesn’t just apply to the overall lyrics of the record but also extends to the album's striking cover art, which at first glance appears to be an image of a blue frog over a red backdrop; in actuality, it possesses a much more poignant meaning.

“Frogs have always been one of my favorite animals,” Knight reflects. “However, when I learned that frogs were seen as dirty and unclean in a biblical context, it was interesting to me that something that I saw as so good, natural and beautiful could also be seen as a bad thing through a biblical lens.” In other words, the concept of shame plagued the charismatic bandleader for as long as he can remember, and INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY was the moment for Knight to finally face his trauma head-on and “come to terms with himself” once and for all. That explains why a majority of the new songs possess “hypersexualized” energy — a conscious rebellion against a conservative past. “Growing up in church, you're taught that everything is so wrong and bad. I always felt like shit, so [this album] is the breakaway from that specifically.”

By overcoming his religious guilt, Knight was able to tap into an evolved sense of self-worth that he’s since applied to his very own love life, which he details on the album's stripped-down ballad “CLOSER.” “My concept of love has changed throughout the years, and that song is about [looking at the past] and realizing that when I was younger, it was maybe more of an obsession. Now I'm taking it apart and learning more about love and the way I present the current version of myself to other people.” Inversely, there is the alt-radio-ready anthem “BRAINWASHED,” where Knight admits that he still wrestles with the idea of true love, constantly making sure that he’s not just wrapped up in the “honeymoon phase.” Knight jokes that this track and “FUCK ABOUT IT” which features a guest vocal spot from blackbear, are “polar opposites,” as the latter couldn't be further from the “hyperfixation” he details in “BRAINWASHED.," once again proving that he feels the most comfortable when inserting juxtaposition wherever he can.

"I've learned that you can ONLY CONTROL YOURSELF. However, that doesn’t mean I'm not still vulnerable in the music that I write." - AWSTEN KNIGHT

Beyond the emotional clarity that Knight gained during the creation of INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY, it's the album's sonic risks and exploration that he is the most fired up about. Though Knight wanted the band to return to their more guitar-driven and organic roots for certain parts of the LP, much of the record ventures into eclectic territory, with hyperpop, trap, synthwave and even subtle elements of hard rock and nu metal. “RITUAL, ‘A NIGHT OUT ON EARTH, ‘REAL SUPER DARK’ and ‘ST*RFUCKER' are the craziest instrumentals we have done ever,” Knight exclaims. “I love the idea of taking something like a guitar or my voice and making it sound entirely like something else” “A NIGHT OUT ON EARTH,” however, is what Knight describes as “the biggest production flex,” and it most definitely shows. “There's fucking elephant sounds in there and weird Batman villain-sounding horns — it's evil and heavy, and not to mention, the outro is just game over,” he says.

Beyond production, Knight pushes his voice and stretches the idea of what constitutes a strong hook on INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY. With “END OF THE WATER (FEEL),” Knight is at his most “bombastic,” in a “cartoon-like” state, weaving falsetto melodies that are meant to shock. “I always make a mental note when I hear a song that makes me go…" He pauses, imitating an explosion. “For me, that's when I hear some high-ass vocals that I'm not expecting.” Even on the first day of demoing “END OF THE WATER (FEEL)” in his home studio, Knight was already so confident in the song that he called longtime producer and collaborator Zakk Cervini and “essentially” forced him to come over to his house right then to help finish it. “I also want the record to show that I had a mustache [during this time], too,” Knight laughs.

With collaboration on the brain, Knight is the first to admit that for many years, he was precious about his art and was hesitant to work with others. However, during the COVID-19 pandemic and quarantine, Knight changed his mind, which was evident on Waterparks’ previous album, Greatest Hits. This time around, Knight, who's an outspoken fan of the U.K. boy band One Direction, finally got a chance to live out one of his dreams by working with esteemed songwriter Julian Bunetta, who co-wrote beloved One Direction classics like “Olivia,” “Infinity” and “Best Song Ever,” among others. “I flew to [Julian's] place in Nashville, and we ended up making five songs together, two of them being ‘FUNERAL GREY" and ‘BRAINWASHED,” Knight recalls. And while he still plans to keep the majority of his music close to his chest long term, he won't rule anything out. Knight would undoubtedly jump at the chance to work with everyone from Post Malone and Damon Albarn to Donald Glover and Toby Keith.

"I'd rather make the coolest f*cking thing, RATHER THAN HOLD BACK and make something that wasn't that good." -AWSTEN KNIGHT

Now, with the band's new LP incoming, there raises the question: Does Knight feel a sense of relief after both exorcising his deepest traumas and inviting listeners on his journey to self- discovery? "I still feel pressure with it," Knight concedes. “It would be a lot easier if only strangers heard this, but everyone in my whole fucking life is going to hear this album, so that's what makes it strange." But he's never let any awkwardness or controversy hinder the artistic output. "I wasn't not in trouble when I put out a song like [2018's] 'TANTRUM' where I listed a bunch of dudes I wanted to kill, calling out by name," Knight acknowledges. Though his lyrical choices have sometimes resulted in strong reactions, even within his close circle of friends, Knight can't help but accept that he is meant to be unapologetic. "At the end of the day, I'd rather make the coolest fucking thing, rather than hold back and make something that wasn't that good."

Pressures of lyrical vulnerability and transparency aside, INTELLECTUAL PROPERTY is Knight's attempt to "normalize” the catharsis he finds within songwriting, which ties into the album title itself. "Intellectual property is the mental space you give to something in your head. The 'property' may be the thing that you are struggling with. By materializing it and giving it its own world, it's actually a great way to express it and then, eventually, expel it,” he explains. "I want this album to go to the fucking moon." ALT

#whoever designed the page layout for this. i don't like you #waterparks #awsten knight #otto wood #geoff wigington #i.zip

[lifesreverie]

Tomoya Mashiro x gn!reader

content: fluff, can be either romantic or platonic relationship, possibly out of character, overworking?

word count: 538

You let your head lay on the table before you, on your notes that you spent hours meticulously taking down and organising. 

A sigh escaped your lips. The exams were starting tomorrow, and though you had been revising since the start of the year, you can’t help but feel a bit nervous and unprepared for it. 

You looked at the clock in the living room of your dorm. It’s already 10PM. You suppose getting some sleep will do you well, but…

Just one more topic wouldn’t hurt, right? 

Picking your pen back up, you started writing on your notes, adding some reminders for yourself later on. 

You were so tired that you didn’t notice the presence of another in the same living room. You jolted up in surprise, hearing footsteps approaching where you were sitting.

“Are you not going to sleep soon…?” A familiar voice gently asked. 

Ah. So that was why you heard your roommate talking on the phone earlier. 

You let loose another sigh. “Yeah, I will, soon. One more chapter.” You didn’t even have to look up at Tomoya to see his worried expression. 

He frowned at your words. “I’m not about to let you work yourself to exhaustion. Come on, you need sleep.” Tomoya crouched down beside you.

“I know…” You looked at him. “You must understand how I feel, though."

"I do, I really do, but there's no use stressing yourself out until you're losing sleep." He attempts to convince you to rest. "You'll do even worse if you don't feel your best tomorrow. Even if I know I can't do well, at least making sure I'm healthy is enough to make up for it." 

"...Yeah. I guess so." You put your pen down, still staring at your notebook. Without realising it, you yawned as you blinked away the sleepiness. "Thanks, Tomoya. You always care for me."

He finally smiled when he saw you put your pen down. "Of course. I know you care for me as much as I do for you. Remember that time when I was sick?” 

You grinned at the memory. “Yeah, I do. You wouldn’t rest then, too." 

“This is only my chance to repay you. So would you listen to me and get some sleep?”

You nodded. “Yeah. I will.” With an attempt to stand up, you realise that your legs were pretty much numb after all the time you’ve been sitting here. “Um, could you give me a hand?” 

He softly laughed at your request, standing up before holding out his hand for you to grab. “Come on. You really look like you need some rest.” Saying this, he points out your dark eye circles and groggy appearance. 

Tomoya helped you to your room, on your bed. You sat on it for a while before sighing again. “Thanks again. I don’t know what I’d do without you. Good night, Tomoya.” After saying that, you lay down beneath your covers, and immediately fell asleep as soon as your head hit the pillow. 

He sat beside you, on the bed, smiling while he pulled over the covers. “Me either. Have a good rest. I’ll be here for you anytime, because I know you will be for me too.” 

a/n: so so self indulgent. exams have just started and I felt like writing this. it's short but I felt like posting it too. writing this was quite soothing, and I hope someone will find reading it just as enjoyable as I found it to be!

#enstars #ensemble stars #enstars x reader #tomoya mashiro #enstars fluff

[throttlegainwell]

For the fanfic ask game, 🌞 and 🌈 (for already wise, already worn, which is my personal favorite).

Thank you so much! That's so sweet. I'm actually really fond of already wise, already worn, so that's so cool to hear!

🌈 What inspired you to write [insert fic here]?

Sorry it got so long! But here we go, under the cut.

[CW for implied/referenced sexual trauma]

So for already wise, already worn, I really wanted to show some of the internal processes that both help and hinder Jonathan. He's got trauma on trauma on trauma, some of them very big and dramatic and some of them more subtle or that he's maybe conflicted about; they intertwine and can't be neatly separated, for the most part. But he's also got a life, and he can't really afford to just not be functional, most of the time. He keeps moving. There is no real before and after for him because what he's got going on is a case of well-aged C-PTSD. It's shaped his thinking and how he handles things. And all of that would have been true even if when there's fire on the ground hadn't happened. But you can't really neatly slot most coping mechanisms into "healthy" and "unhealthy" boxes or say what's good or bad, categorically. It's much more complicated than that.

The other stories show what's happening generally, but I wanted to look at what he's doing. His strategy of "maybe if I have enough sex that I actually enjoy, I can forget what happened" doesn't pan out, but it was still proactive and shows a real thought process, you know? His "I just won't think about sex at all until I'm in a safer place" doesn't end up really working out either. But he's still trying. He's very much active in this; he's not passively accepting it or ignoring it and hoping for the best. He's absorbing, thinking, testing, evaluating, and readjusting all the time. Lots going on in there, lots of moving parts. It's pretty exhausting for him.

But I also wanted to show how the traumas (especially but not exclusively the rape) affect his developing sexuality, particularly as a queer guy who's very intentionally rejecting the toxic gender bullshit his dad has harmed him with but who still lives in this society--and as one whose experience of sexuality may look different from what he's been led to believe is the norm (like how he has a sex drive but not a particularly high one, and he's not getting crushes on people like it feels as though everyone around him is). This particular trauma gets into a lot of areas--his self-esteem and self-image, the way he relates to others, what he wants and the desires he allows himself to acknowledge. It's deeply internal and messy in a way that's very different from the rest of the series. I wanted to really get into his head and show him navigating this incredibly messy, painful reality that he has to reckon with during a really critical developmental point.

And that's a delicate balance, between allowing that space for his pain and maintaining that pragmatic kind of endurance the way he does. He's aware that a lot of what he's experienced isn't okay, and to a large extent, he's also aware that it's affecting him and how, but, like, what's he supposed to do about that? He's just trying to live his life. This is the best he can do with the tools he has. So it's not something that he buried, just something that he never really shares and doesn't know how to talk about. But it's there.

Basically, I wanted to talk about Jonathan's sexuality and I wanted to explore the more subtle or weirder ways in which trauma can leave its marks and insinuate itself into a person's life, and how he feels about it/conceptualizes it--to show his agency in this. I wanted to show his joy in exploring his sexuality, tentative though it sometimes is, and I wanted to temper that with the hurdles he encounters. I wanted to show how all of those things converge and interact.

(Sorry, lol, I can't quite tell which question the sun emoji corresponds to.)

Thanks for the ask! This was a really fun one.

#ask game #please don't wake me series #already wise already worn pdwm

[bad-advice-its-very-bad]

tw general mentions of mental health

so i have this friend. let's call them emily. i've known emily for two years now, and they've grown to be one of my closest friends. mostly because we both really struggle with mental health stuff and at that point in my life no one else knew about those struggles. we helped each other through a lot of really crappy stuff and times. the difference is, in those two years, i've gone to, and am still in therapy, and have learned coping skills, have a support system etc etc etc ive tried convincing emily (on numerous occasions) to do the same, but they consistently refuse to do so, and they still pretty much only have me. there's also a ton of other stuff, but i could write a ten page essay about that. pretty much, our friendship, even though it's great feels kind of one-sided where im reaching out and they take weeks or months to respond (if they do at all) and dont really talk to me when we see each other in person and it's just getting really draining emotionally. so a few days ago, i finally make the decision to, well, not cut them off but pretty much tell them i'd had enough and im going to take a break for a while. they responded and pretty much just went straight to the self-deprecation (pretty much im sorry im so worthless and can't even maintain a friendship). and while im just so relieved that i've cut them off, more or less, to some degree, im just so worried since im all they have and if im gone who knows what will happen. so what should i do?

sorry for the long message

hum, that’s a tricky one.

First things first, I’d shove a WHOLE lotta resources on mental health in their messages. I know it may seem like your annoying them, but if it’s that bad they deserve to know there’s helplines and chats and groups that they can turn to. (I suggest vet them before you send them)

Secondly, sometimes it’s hard for people to realize they are allowed to reach out for help. Even if they only think it’s minor or it will take valuable space for others that “ are worst than them” But they have every right to reach out for help, their allowed to go to people with minor issues or major issues. And if you can somehow get that through their head you’ll probably see some improvement.

thirdly, I don’t think they can access traditional in person therapy as it seems. You can never know why, personally for me it’s a whole BIG awful talk about my mental health that I never want to tell my family. And it might be a similar situation with your friend, so unorthodox ways to get that same therapy experience might benefit them alot.

fourthly, you can’t help everyone. Sometimes it’s on them to figure out how to cope and understand how to get better, and even though you love them and care deeply it’s hard to get them to understand that. If you’re worried your friend might be engaging in risky behaviors (S/H, alcoholism, drugs, suicidal behavior, taking too many risks for no apparent reason.)

I suggest trying to talk to them about harm reduction.

fifthly, you being emotionally drained and exhausted by being their therapist friend is totally valid. your friend saying self deprecating things is just a symptom of a bigger problem they have, it's not your fault or anything you need a break from them. if they were in the same situation they would do the same thing, it's hard to manage both your mental health and your friends. I don't blame you for being exhausted, the reason I do this stuff is because I'm exhausted by my own problems and this is a healthy and constructive way to help both you and me. your helping your friend out of love, but also obligation.

I think a good plan to do is.

give your friend a pep talk and show them tons of alternate ways to access therapy that is not in person.

give them helpline information and tell the "I've known you for so long, I'd never try to hurt you. I just want you to know there's options if life gets hard and I'm not around

tell them about harm reduction, and CURB any and all negative connotations about addiction and self harm. if they are suffering the best thing you can do is be accepting and show them ways to safely and also reduce the harm of the addictions/self harm.

tell them if they are being abused. in anyway period, they can trust you to not victim blame or something without knowing the full story. we don't know what's happening with them, but we have to be kind and caring if that's the reason for her mental health. tell them "it was never your fault, you didn't know." or "you were just a kid, it was never you that was the problem but how you were treated. it's okay to be upset or angry, or grieve the life you should have had. that's normal. trust me I'm here for you."

also if the whole abuse thing is a yes, give them tons of abuse helplines. you and I don't know how to go forward with that knowledge but the helplines know how to.

support them and tell them truely why you feel drained (if you Hadn't already.) and tell them you actually care alot about them and this is not an attack or that your mad at them or anything. your overwhelmed too, and you both should feel not overwhelmed. (VERY IMPORTANT, YOU HAVE TO SAY YOUR NOT ANGRY OR ANYTHING. mentally ill people tend to think the worst if you don't say it. be kind and caring, and they should not feel so bad.)

if that doesn't work, I think you yourself should call a helpline and ask about strategies to help your friend. they should know a lot more than both you and me.

thank you for sending an ask in, this has been interesting!

I hope you can figure out a way to help your friend.

if worst comes to worse, I suggest you give your friend character.ai's psychologist's link to your friend. it's better than nothing, and it's surprisingly helped me too. so it might help your friend open up.

here's the link LINK

I hope I was able to provide a push in the right direction, remember this is the BAD advice blog. not everything will work, sometimes we both have to fail a bit to figure out the best way to help people.

#-belle/pop #the bad advice blog #send me anons #mental ill health #mental illness #mental health #answered asks #answered questions #anon #anon ask #asks #anonymous #anonymous asks

[a-spell-a-rebel-yell]

September

hellooo, on-time this time! hehe i hope everyone is happy and healthy 💙

the end of September marks one month of school and my assignments are finally slowing down (re: there will be more it's just i've finished them for the moment so i can have some relax time). so, i finally got wind of the learning system here, it's student centered learning where we have to write a paper for every subject and do a presentation for every class, the profs are only there to correct us or complete what we left out. sounds exhausting (because it is!) but i think with this method we're 'forced' to gather as much information as possible because in order to do well we need enough knowledge on the topic. not to mention we're also graded from how active/responsive we are during classes. result is most of my 'free time' is spent reading 🙃 not entirely complaining because the major difference from first degree vs post grad school is now everything's more focused on the discipline i'm interested in hehe

most of my class is held online (god bless) and i'm, yet again, the one in charge of our class' Zoom account (which we buy ourselves instead of provided by the campus). i only go to the SaIemba campus once a week for weekly wire bending class. yes, ladies and gentlemen, wire bending is now taking over my bank account and i mean it literally because the pliers i have to buy cost me a loooooooot of money 🙃 i think this month i really exhausted my savings... the only relief provided for me is that for orthodontists we usually only buy these pliers once to be used for years, that's why it's important to buy high quality ones. kinda glad i bought my Coldplay Singapore tickets before this huhu

an update on my medical check-up, i finally got to see the internist and yep he said i have very high metabolism rate (everything i eat gets converted quickly into energy, not fat/body mass and i need to eat more carbs, but sadly i'm more of a beef veggies fruits person sigh) and that for my slightly anemic blood report i need to consume more blood replenishing food/supplements... these days i swear i’ve been eating more than i did years ago but i simply can't gain weight (still ranging around 41-43 kgs and never higher 🤡)

this September the class celebrated two of our members' birthdays! (again, i'm in charge of reminding everyone of someone's bday 😂) for the first one, kak Mandy's, i kinda made a cruel prank i really regret lol with everyone's help i tricked her we have impromptu on the spot zoom with our professor that required us to show our wire bending progress... she believed me and actually stayed up late to finish her work 😭 i swear i got her to stop and go back to sleep at 10 PM 🥺🥺🥺 but the surprise worked and she was actually surprised (& genuinely happy, i checked on her right after haha) to find us singing the hbd song as she entered the meeting room and sent her a lovely cake for her. the second one, kak Putri's, and this one we can no longer use the Zoom tactic again so we pushed back the surprise to our next wire bending class at uni, bought her pizza and coffee (her favs) and i think the best part is: after i checked in on her, she said she's touched by our efforts as she's never really experienced having people do this much for her. that answer stunned me in a way i get reminded again how being remembered is such a privilege, a rare thing, one's life goal? it's one of the best ways to leave no room for doubt that someone truly cares and loves you? seems like a simple gesture but woah. the impact it left? i think i've never felt more happier being able to remember people's bdays/preferences/likings, seeing how happy i can make someone feel? that's what i strive to do even more now 💪🏻

anyway, did i tell you already i'm the youngest in our class? and the oldest is literally 10 (ten) years older than me? so naturally... i'm also in charge of everything technical: starting from running our class' instagram account and teaching everyone efficient ways to use Google Docs and Slides to finish our assignments 😂👍🏻 i love getting treated like everyone’s little sister and calling everyone kakak/abang 🤣 yet somehow i love being the one people are (mostly) depending on? i like having responsibilities and being able to provide help i guess? 😂 and guess what: i actually also become the class' official editor. yep. one of the assignments given from the dean is to write this mini book (yes, book. not a paper) and she appointed me to be the editor! it's a rigorous task i need to be super diligent and attentive while proofreading and correcting the formatting, but yeah i enjoyed it. my editing hobby has leveled up to a semi official thing haha

last week of September my dad's coworkers held farewell parties (yes plural) for my dad as his last day of work in the entirety of 40+ years of career has finally come... it was an emotional night, almost everyone volunteered to give a lil speech for my dad and said how they've lost and will miss my dad dearly, even some of his lab assistants cried. because my dad was stationed on duty at St Regis hotel naturally i was tagging along, and my dad's subordinates arranged me to be the special guest and yeah. i got teary eyed too because i got to witness yet again how loved my dad is. anyways, i highkey will miss the 'side privileges' i'm so used to get for being a child of a Bank lndonesia employee HEHEHE i mean free staycation at five star hotels almost every week? health insurance (which stopped as i turn 25 huhu) and many many many others. oh well. now it's my time taking care of my mum and dad then, my dream to provide the same or even better treatments than what i received 🥺

with my dad entering retirement, now aside from school i’m swamped with packing and boxing. we’re slowly moving things back to the Cibubur house while i prepare some of my stuffs to carry to my cousin’s house. not gonna lie feeling quite sad because the benefits of having a house in the center of South Jakarta scene are endless! 😂 almost everything is within fingertips’ reach and i’m used to living in that part of the city that never sleeps. Cibubur’s pretty quiet and Bendi (my cousin’s house region) though just a few districts away from Blok M isn’t really the life of the party. i will miss Panglima Polim and everything surrounding it 🥹

last note: these days i'm feeling like life is really that unexpected? so many things i didn't even dream ever happening are thrusted onto my hands right now as we speak and they turn out to be all i've ever wanted? i think i've perfected the formula of doing good + be good + trust the timing. a simple example would be me getting back to school (you can tell i’m not done feeling super happy after getting accepted 😂) excited for more to come, major changes or challenges are welcome: bring it on! i'm ready and up for all kinds of surprises hehe

that's it for September! two months and i'll be 26... 9 months fly away just like that huh 😅 a reminder for me and everyone reading this to enjoy time as it goes, make every second count and special. see you next month!

#alhamdulillah #:) #i will graduate soon #just kidding lol #one month of school done two years eleven months to go #helppp i'm drowning in my assignments #but let's live life happily still!!!

[whats-wild-to-you]

Hellooo! I hope you’re doing well and healthy :)

Can I request you write a smut if you’re comfortable and when you have time

So the reader is playing with herself to Reply by Jay and he catches her

Thank you 🫶🏻

Goddamn! 🥵🥵 THAT SONG !!! It’s been a while since I wrote a smut 🫣🤭

Also, why are Jay’s sexy songs always so damn descriptive. They’re like a manual on how to seduce him 🥵

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With Jay being away so much, it gave you an opportunity to declutter your shared home. You had wanted to do it for a while but always procrastinated.

Your phone beeping startled you, and you almost spilled your coffee.

Baby, I’m coming back early! Did you miss me? Tonight, you are going to be all I’ll be concentrating on 😊

Even though he attached an innocent looking emoji at the end, your cheeks almost immediately heated up.

Right. No more delays. You’d clean up and prepare his favorite dish for him.

It was past 10pm and you still waited for Jay, barely able to keep both eyes open. The food was cold and your outfit felt uncomfortable. All you wanted was to take off your clothes and lie in bed.

But just in that moment, another text lit up your screen.

I’ll be home in 30 minutes 😏

You chuckled, staring at the flirty message. Immediately you felt alert and went to the kitchen to get some candles. With the mood set, you looked through your CD collection for some slow music to put on but no song seemed fitting.

Then you remembered how you found some of Jay’s old albums earlier today. Without thinking too much, you decided to put on EYW.

First, lock the door girl

Cus this song is rated R

Focus now

Listen baby to what I am trying to say

Take off your T-shirt first

Take your pants off too

Don't take off your underwear

Leave your bra and underwear on

“Good Lord!” You chuckled, but felt the heat rise to your cheeks.

You leaned back on the sofa and closed your eyes. It had been 9 weeks since Jay left and you missed him terribly. His voice, his laugh, his touch. His body weight on you.

Driven by an all-consuming desire, you slowly unbuttoned your jeans, shimmying out of it and dropping it on the ground. Next it was your cropped top that landed unceremoniously on the floor.

You wore your fanciest, sexiest underwear today, your lace panties caused an arousing friction. Getting rid of them first, then lastly taking off your bra, you laid there completely naked, letting Jay’s voice slowly caress your body

Don't move and close your eyes

Imagine my tattoos touching your body

I'm standing here so keep looking at my body

Tonight, I wanna make your bed into an ocean

Automatically, your hand landed on your pussy, as you started playing with yourself, not surprised at all that Jay’s voice was enough to get you wet.

You moaned loudly, your other hand massaging your breasts rather roughly, imagining that Jay’s fingers caressed your body, touching every inch of you.

[Jay’s POV]

Completely exhausted, I punched the numbers on the keypad and watched the door spring open. Dragging my luggage inside, I was startled when I heard one of my songs playing.

I noticed the lights were turned off. Instead, candles dipped the place in a soft light, creating a sensual atmosphere.

I chuckled. I missed my girl and wanted to nail her to the bed. Judging by the setup, I guessed she was feeling the same way.

I was just about to call her name when I stopped dead in my tracks.

I was marveling at the sight in front of me, my mouth dropped open, my eyes glued on her.

There she was, laying naked on the couch playing with herself, while my song was playing on repeat.

Her eyes were closed and her head thrown back. I knew she didn’t hear me coming in, otherwise she would’ve panicked. Who knew a sexy vixen laid dormant inside her?

Debating whether I should make my presence known or slip past her to the bedroom, the choice was taken away from me when she suddenly opened her eyes, realizing she was no longer alone.

She stared at me in shock, her fingers still on her swollen pussy. I realized what was happening. She was close to climax. Throwing her head back again, she moaned loudly, making my dick twitch.

Covering herself with a blanket, she got up rather clumsily, I assumed because her legs were still wobbly, and walked towards the stereo. Turning the music off, she looked at me with her best poker face on.

“You’re late.”

I wanted to protest, say that I hadn’t given her a specific time window, therefore I couldn’t be late, but my throat was dried up.

“I made dinner. You can wash up while I reheat it.”

Am I being punk’d?

We had dinner in silence, when I finally put the fork down, sighing from all the pent up sexual frustration.

“Are you for real? We’re not going to talk about what happened earlier?”

“I thought we did! I told you you were late.”

A glint in her eyes, she yelped when I picked her up and threw her over my shoulder like a sac of potatoes, taking her to the bedroom.

“You know I’ve made a playlist full of songs like this. Buckle up honey, it’s going to be a long night!”

#jay park #more soju please #park jaybum #park jaebum #park jaebeom #ask request #anon request #ask me anything

[rabbitholle]

mentally ill rambling

i'm not mentally ill, i know that. i feel completely sane and healthy. i feel like the perception of others is incorrect.

however

i kind of started recovery because once again everyone was worried about my health, and i almost passed out and had a panic attack on a train, so my parents don't want me to go anywhere until i get better

the doctor basically told me i was going to die like one of his colleagues if i don't do something asap, but getting hospitalized right now would be detrimental to my education AND my spark of hope for a better summer. i refuse getting hospitalized (fortunately, there are so many patients and so few workers in the hungarian healthcare system, that unless it's an "organs are literally shutting down" situation, basically no one gets hospitalized with an ed. that's why the doctor's colleague died from anorexia as well).

so i started recovery.

i'm not even two weeks into it, and i already feel like i'm losing my mind. i can literally feel insanity crawling up on my back. now my terrible memories of the days before my ed are coming back. i had psychotic episodes and terrible anxiety back then, i cannot function like a normal person without my ed

also, i don't quite feel like i've hit rock bottom, and now i want to finally hit it

but simultaneously, i don't want to. i know that i used to be a borderline alcoholic at the beginning of my ed, when my body was still relatively strong, and i want that time back. i don't want to be afraid of drinking myself to death just because i didn't eat enough previously. i just want to get drunk. i hate sobriety.

i don't want to be afraid of losing this body anymore. but there are only two options: embracing death or saving it.

(but i'm not afraid anymore when i'm drunk)

it's a terrible dilemma ever since my poetry started to "get attention". well, not really, but i got to know some people, and i started going to actual cultural events. you know, it's the situation when you kind of want to die, but you also have too much to lose.

i've also lost most of my friends. i don't talk to people anymore, i've become incredibly isolated. most of the time i just read and write. i'm kind of disappointed in people at the moment.

i realized that my best friend doesn't take me seriously. she doesn't take my condition seriously either and it hurts for some reason? i feel like she's looking at my ed like it's a quirk of mine and she likes it. the worst part is that it's not entirely platonic, she romanticizes it and it makes me feel so fucking invalid. i started to develop a certain type of hatred towards her. she doesn't want to hurt me, but it's so upsetting and repelling. i've noticed recently that i get so frustrated every time i think about her.

that's it for now i guess. fuck this. fuck everything.

i'm so exhausted and i have an exam tomorrow, but i just cannot concentrate on studying rn

(sorry for grammatical errors, i'm too tired to fix them)

#ed recovery #ed relapse #mental illness #disordered eating #eating disorder #anxiety #ramblings

[ruki--mukami]

i hope comfort is okay to ask for— if not always feel free to delete this;

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“ Ruki— or, Master if that works better— may I request a bit of comfort… It doesn’t have to be too much, and may even ridiculous to ask this of you, but i hope that you’ll spare me some time, just this once.

Today has been awful… I haven’t been able to eat very much, and personal affairs in my day to day life have been taking such a toll. I’m exhausted— It’s just so much to deal with, and I have no idea where to go.. And once again, I may not be worthy of your comfort and embrace, but I have come to ask for it. Even if only for a few moments. Even a simple pat, or reassuring phrase is enough; i could never ask too much of you. “

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Again, Jas, feel free to delete this if you need to. I know you get so many asks already. So if this one isn’t in your wheelhouse, or if you don’t wanna answer/are maybe uncomfy with answering these, I get it!!! Do what you need to. :’) I just adore your content, and your Ruki portrayal, and over the past couple days Ruki has grown to be a favourite. Your content truly makes my day better, whenever i need it. I appreciate you for creating this blog, and please. have an amazing day/night. take care of yourself :) ♥️

“Good grief, Livestock. It seems the tribulations of everyday life leave little room for you to care for yourself. Hmph, what a sorry sight. First you forsake your meals and only until you are miserable beyond belief do you seek my company. Took you long enough. Though I must say, it’s a bit naïve of you to think a Vampire of all people can offer you solace. Have you finally gone mad? Well, I’m not saying no.”

When Ruki enveloped his arms around you, one hand supported your back with soothing pats like the ocean’s waning tide while he cascaded his slender fingers through your hair with the other, retreating to the crown to repeat the process as the Vampire engulfed you in an embrace strong enough to revitalize one from the most abject despair.

“As you wish… I shall comfort you this once, just like you asked. If it’s the state of your personal affairs plaguing your heart, then I want you to forget about it as long as I hold you like this. Think only of me, Livestock. How does it feel? A hug from your master, I mean. This is where you are meant to be. You belong only with me; and I, you.”

Chest pressed against chest; one sole heartbeat resounded between you both, shattering silence save for the sounds of fabric shifting in his grip. Despite how much as he lacked a pulse or how frigid his body felt in contact with yours, the comfort of Ruki’s arms inspired a surprisingly deluged balm of shelter, safety, and love. From how his algid hand caressed the small of your back and left in its wake a spreading, springlike warmth, to the laggard waterfall running through your hair.

“It’s not only because you are my prey… or because I am your master,” he whispered into your strands, “but because you are someone dear to me. Don’t say you aren’t worthy of me when you’ve done nothing deserving of punishment. Instead, I believe a reward is in order.”

Releasing from the union, Ruki’s refulgent ceruleans gazed into your eyes. Suddenly, he threaded his fingers through yours and headed for the exit of his bedroom, encouraging you to follow with a forceful tug accompanied by each step.

“Surely you must be starving right now. Fortunately for us, there are still some leftovers from the previous dish I cooked. Now let’s hurry and sate that appetite of yours. The taste of your blood will no longer suffice should you continue to forgo a healthy, balanced diet. I believe it is one of your favorite foods as well—so you lucked out this time, Livestock.”

🧩 Aww, of course comfort asks are okay!! In fact, they are some of my favorite asks ever! I'm so happy people would come to Ruki for things like advice or just for some cheerfulness as opposed to the usual stoicism and violence on this blog, ahaha. I don't get to write a fluffy Ruki very often so this was a very pleasant experience for me as well, Anon. I hope you are doing well and that things will get better for you from now on. Just know that you aren't alone and even if things seem dire that tomorrow will always be a better day and you will come out of it a stronger person. And I'm very flattered that Ruki has grown on you as a character as well and that you adore my portrayal of him, that means the world and so much more to me. T_T Please, take care!! 🧩

#diabolik lovers #ruki mukami #mukami ruki #ask #react #diabolik lovers rp

[tamedgod]

What are the trends when it comes to writing that you adore?

What are trends when it comes to writing that you dislike?

what i like:

idk if i'm just finally on the right side of tumblr or what, but i love love love me a good soft character, especially if they're a lady. soft female ocs were the bane of the writing community when i first started writing; the term mary sue was very popular at the time and was used very liberally when it came to any female character that wasn't overly sexualized, cold, distant, emotionless. while it's cool those characters exist, it made it frustrating to write at the time, so i'm glad that soft ladies are a bit more accepted in the scene :)

i'm a big fan of personal lore??? like yes fam, make more shit up???? whether it's steeped in pre-existing mythos or you make up your own world or species or anything else, i have mad mad respect. PLEASE tell me all about your shit, let me help you DEVELOP your shit, let me WRITE in this universe of your own making. i know from past experience writing haru that getting others into your lore can be challenging, but i promise you can always infodump about it to me.

having been writing on this site for over a decade now, the slow evolution from toxic, fetishized lbgt rep to the now abundantly healthier rep is a BIG plus for me. i love diverse cast and characters, and i love that this place has become a haven for better rep (this is at least my experience over the years).

what i don't like;

ahhh i hesitate to talk about stuff like this, but i am not a big fan of callout posts / culture. as someone who's lived through too much drama in my twenty-eight years, online and offline, the rise of callout culture in the rp community here just served to add extra stress for me. there are definitely shitty people on here whose behavior should not be excused, but to me there's no point in expending all that energy to hate them and shit on them. block, report, blacklist, and just forget about them. take it from someone who spent years of their life expending energy on hating someone to the point of obsession and exhaustion; you'll be and feel a lot healthier if you just cut them loose and leave them behind.

while i feel lgbt rep has improved over the years i've been here, i can't necessarily say the same for diversity in terms of color. on my old occult multimuse (can be found at @magmarisen if you want to explore, but it's inactive), i tried very hard to ensure i had a healthy amount of rep and culture in my characters. there are folks i don't associate with anymore that i can't say the same for, whose characters were always straight white folks. while this isn't necessarily an issue overall, i just personally don't care for that trend. part of writing is expanding your knowledge, understanding, and writing diverse characters to keep things fresh. add some zest to your muse list!!! variety is the spice of life!!!!

gonna end this one with uhhhhhh if you still don't want to write with ocs (fandom or indie) in 2023 then damn dude quit being a coward. like to each their own, but the trend that ocs have to jump through hoops of fire to even potentially qualify to write with you (and trust me i know this feeling all too well) is just absurd. every character ever written is an oc, some of them just happen to have public lore. you taking an established / canon character and giving them your own take and headcanons is, funnily enough, pretty much making that muse your oc. part of writing with someone is talking to them; ask them about their ocs. if you want to know something and you can't readily find it somewhere, just ask. i'm sure you'd make their day. thanks for coming to my ted talk.

#m. answer #m. munday #this one got a little long

[hoennsgeologyboy]

A long, but productive day

I was not able to be quite so terminally online today as I was last night, but perhaps that sets me up for a more healthy relationship with social media.

Inspired by some posts I saw about training your pokémon, I brought my poochyena out and tried to work on his obedience skills. Was any progress was made? Arceus knows, but at least the little fellow got some exercise, and I got some practice in first aid.

There were of course my Team Magma duties. I'm logged in the system as an admin, so what I do is mostly paperwork. Essentially any paper work my dad is too busy to get to, I take care of. I think he came up with the idea mostly as a way to spend more time with me, and I certainly have no complaints. I can't help but wonder if him having me take care of these things is also him trying to train me in a way, to eventually take over his post. The thought makes my stomach turn, but he wants to retire someday, and who can blame him? It's a stressful job.

Today was spring cleaning day, not only for the hideout, but also for Lillycove. We took our fire pokémon and helped melt down any of that remaining snow. The town and surrounding routes all look much better now, if a little over watered.

Lastly, I wanted to spend some time in my garden. Well, I say 'my' garden, but technically is it a community garden. That being said, I am the only one who really tends to it. The berry bushes that were not killed in the freeze were ravaged by wild pokémon who couldn't get any food in those few days. I know it isn't fair to be mad at the poor things, if anything, I aught to be happy the garden was able to provide for them, but it is still rather upsetting to see my garden in such a state. It's like starting over from day 1.

By the end of the day, I was quite exhausted and rather dirty. I only barely had enough time to clean myself up before dinner. My dad insists on doing a family dinner. As much as I like the idea, and love spending time with him, it does feel like another item on the to-do list some days.

We did have a rather uninvited guest tonight, but that's more gossip than I think I aught to write on the internet. Perhaps it's more fun to leave it to the imagination.

I think I'll use this blog as a sort of journal. I enjoy writing these long format posts, and who knows, maybe I'll revisit them someday in the future. That would be interesting, right?

I hope you all enjoy reading these things, and that you have had a very pleasant Monday!

#Hoenn #Team Magma #Gardening #journaling #pokemon irl

[alexandros-deathwood]

I appreciate your answer my dude. You know that's what I dislike about unhealthy couples is that usually writers deny they are and actually write things off as healthy, or worse: romantic.

I thought that was the case here as well when I read that scene where she cries because she feels unworthy. That scene is so unhealthy and full of red flags. Especially when he praises her for putting herself down.

Or the other scene where she is afraid to ask for affection, though in another scene freely gives it when he asks.

But it seems like you know they are unhealthy and this is intentional. You have them working towards being healthy.

If you're open to feedback:

Alexandros has the emotional upperhand. He has the power to keep holding her past actions against her and withhold affection/forgiveness because of it. He saved her life when she tried to kill him. Meaning she has to work and is at constant risk of losing everything.

You could have him realise this and work to minimize this, give her more power/control.

You didn't mention if he is ever going to stand up to his family for her, but if you want them to be healthier he should. Like I said, break up material if he won't.

I like that you are going to give her friends. Does she have friends before their relationship? Because otherwise there is still the point of her only being with him because no one else wants to be around her.

Also I get what you mean with not enough time. It's the same with drawn art. So many ideas, so little time. Yet we keep working don't we 😂 Even though we know we'll never be able to put everything into existence.

Yeah it's pretty bad to not admit your mistakes.

I'm kinda leaning into it because not everything is easy especially love. Love can be hard and complicated, but you do it, you make sacrifices, compromises, and amends because at the end of the day you still care for one another.

But writing unhealthy traits in a relationship and saying that it is romantic that is... unpleasant.

Might tweak those scenes a bit later.

Well guess who is working on a scene just like that where he lets her have control and be in charge. It's...uh.....make out scene.... After some discussions about their relationship with each other and some cuddling. Don't worry

Which kinda a good Segway to discuss some unhealthy accepts of their relationship where he can apologize. Tell her that he is sorry for sometimes being controlling that he's simply afraid, afraid of losing her and those he loves. That it's one of the things that him and his therapist have been talking about.

Actually that entire story bit his mostly her doing stuff letting her have control, coming up with a plan and him leaving it letting her do it, (probably should go back and make sure it doesn't sound manipulative, he did something and is exhausted and is in quite the pickle. She comes up with an idea, he suggest that might do this other thing instead, she points out a flaw and why they should do her's.)

Also a bit of sad but heartwarming scene where she addresses one of failings and makes amends with it. Won't say anything because I don't wanna ruin the surprise.

Also it is him being vulnerable with her. Not the other way around.

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And like how I said a makeout scene I would very much appreciate feedback as I'm working through it as it is not my expertise especially one with two teens. I got two books at my side that have similar scenes and am noting how they do it. because I know I don't know the line between okay and and starting to get worry some. I also don't want to sexual teens i looked it up, I SHOULD be fine as long as I don't mention that is because they are young and have young features. I WOULD VERY MUCH LIKE FEEDBACK. It's mostly going to be soppy not lustful. (I'm trying by best with all the knowledge I have, also with some asexual sex positive representation)

-but yes I'll see what I can do 👍

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Would you be friends with year 3 merula?/lh

It's kinda one of her issues that I'm doing with a redemption arc, she is constantly not using kindness when she could and seeing how her boyfriend does so and gets things makes her start doing so. She start getting friend because she is starting to see how much of an ass she was and how it kept costing her things.

He ...nags...her about it, "please, they are more likely to help you." Trying his best to phrase it in a way that would appeal to her.

Her having a boyfriend didn't fix her issues though, she still working on it.

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But he does stand for her, letting her explain her actions as explaining just how she has changed and how she has taken actions to amend. Standing in front of her and holding her hand while his family talks about her past actions. Asking his brothers to give her a chance, and that she is changing she just needs the opportunity to prove it.

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I think I covered all my bases here, at least I think so.

#hogwarts mystery #hphm #i would very much appreciate some critique of my writing if you would so be open to help #i already have some friends helping with the writing itself but not the perspective of their relationship

[jimimn]

The thing I don't understand about solos who actively hate on the other members is how they do it? Bts has been together for 10 years now (counting from Jimin joining) and these people have seen them grow up together. They have seen them goofing around with each other, love and support each other, comfort each other etc. So how tf do you come to the conclusion after 10 years of content that they obviously hate each other and everything they do is forced by the company and actually they all want to go solo ASAP. Like with other groups (and mostly western groups) I could understand the uneasy feeling that maybe they don't like each other that much or that some members would rather continue as solo artists but bts has repeatedly shown us the love they have for each other on and off (official) camera. They were seen together in their private time many times and they obviously joke around a lot when they film something. So where does this "obvious hate" comes from? Why are they always trying to twist the members' words or put words into their mouths and when someone calls out a type of behaviour or asks us to trust them and believe them, they completely ignore that and blame everything on the company. Isn't it fucking exhausting to continue to hate on someone you don't even personally know? 1/2

your second ask and my reply are under the cut!

2/2 I could understand disliking a member and that's totally fine if you have normal reasons for it. I'm not talking about dragging said member because that's still just plain hate. We can't like everyone and that's okay IF we do it in a healthy?? way I guess? I hope you know what I'm trying to say here 😅 but not only to hate on other members but to try to make it seem like your fav is also hating them?? That's so weird. I know we joke a lot about knowing the tannies and being their friends and all but there is a line. We don't know them personally. We only know a very small portion of their lives and personalities. We only know what they choose to show us. And it really bothers me that some people act like they are so higher than everyone else and can speak for the boys when in reality I bet 90% of these people didn't even see them in person.

I'm sorry for dumping all my thoughts on you, I have been working on getting through this phase of me caring about what random solos on the Internet think about the boys.. I just don't understand how they can watch 10 years of content, see 10 years of growth and support and still come to the conclusion that it's all fake.. Nobody can fake anything for 10 years..especially not love. At some point they will develop real feelings... And I'm not saying that the tannies are faking their love please don't misunderstand!

Anyway I hope you will have a nice day, happy hobi comeback and again I'm sorry for the long rant! Sending you lots of love from far away!

I'm sorry i took so long to answer this! i just didn't get enough time to write a proper answer. I agree with you i have never understood the logic behind hating on the other members if you love just one member. I'm sorry but i don't even get the logic behind loving just one member and not getting pulled towards the other six as well. Having a favourite member is one thing and loving JUST one of them (and not caring about the others) is another. I really don't get the logic behind it. These seven boys are so closely knitted together. How do you love one when the life of the one you love is so deeply attached with the other six? they've grown up together lived together they've seen the all the ups and downs together as seven as a whole so how do you separate just one from them and love just that particular one? how is that even possible? 😭 even as a new army this was such a big question in my head that how is it even possible for someone to not love all seven of them 😭 and THEN to go as far as to hate on the others and call them names or whatever and say that they hate each other? are you kidding me? do you even actually love your fave member? i don't think you do because if you did then you would've believed all the thousand times that your fave said that they loved the other members. EVEN TODAY hobi said that he really wanted all seven of them there as they are the most important to him 😭😭😭😭😭 the solo stan delusion is real i really dont know which world they live in 😭😭😭 even if the members DO want to go solo, that does not mean they hate each other???? this is such a horrible stereotype from western groups lmao they keep fucking applying it on bangtan too. Hobi went solo first and look how the members were there for him every step of the way from the release of more to the full album release 😭 hobi went to namjoon first to make him listen to the album "AS HE ALWAYS DOES" LIKE?????? HOW CAN THEY NOT SEE HOW MUCH THEY LOVE EACH OTHER????? they spend time with each other even off camera. just the other day namjoon said he was gonna see jimin for drinks that night 🥺 now they wouldnt do that if they hated each other right? 

and idk but i don't get the "disliking a member" part either because idk it's just not possible in my head.. okay this might sound .. idk .. weird but i don't think I've seen anything dislikable about them. Sure people make mistakes and no one is perfect but i don't think that a good enough reason to dislike any particular member exists. Because if the dislike is there then that is bound to somehow turn into hate which eventually leads to dragging the member like you said.

And you're right. We don't know them completely we only see what they choose to show us. And like Jimin said in the festa dinner, I'm gonna take their words as is, always. I'm gonna always trust them on what they say and show us without twisting their words about ANYTHING. Solos calling themselves "fans" of a particular member after basically calling them fake and a liar will never not be funny to me. They're not fans they're just people living in delusion who have got nothing better to do with their lives rather than spread hate. And it's okay. Don't be sorry 🥺 If you feel lighter after sharing your thoughts about this with me, then I'm happy you did 🥺 And honestly, please try to ignore any kind of negativity that you see on whatever platform that you regularly use. Curate your dashboard according to yourself, block people who you think are making this fandom experience a negative and stressful one for you. Weed out the negativity please 🥺 And I didn't misunderstand you anywhere please don't worry 💞 I hope you didn’t misunderstand me either. I always try to be careful while answering asks like these because I feel like I’m not good with framing my words properly so people might misunderstand. So I really hope you didn’t.

I hope you have/had a good day too!!!! happy hobi comeback day 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺💞💞💞💞 don't be sorry!!!!! sending you loads of love right back anon take care 💞💞💞

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