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nutmeggery · 8 months

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I need Neil Gaiman to know that Good Omens 2 made me feel emotions I haven't felt in nearly a decade.

When I heard there was going to be a Good Omens 2 I was looking forward to it, of course. I just wasn't expecting it do anything super special to my emotions. I was sure I'd enjoy it, though. I really enjoyed s1.

But, for the last few years, I watched shows and afterwards basically thought well, that was fun, and I quickly moved on and didn't think much about them. There was only about 3 shows in the last 5 years that had made me feel truly emotional and stayed on my mind to the point where I felt like I needed to engage in fandom for a while. (Good Omens 1 was one of them.)

I wasn't spoiled by the leak. I never even knew there was a leak. So I had no idea what was coming in s2. And oh boy...

See, I'd watched Our Flag Means Death, a show where you don't expect the lead characters to kiss, because, well, that never happens in these types of shows, right? And this is important because when they did kiss, it felt like a door that had been locked with just about all the high security locks in the world had suddenly, inexplicably, been opened. Something switched inside me. It took me months to understand what it was, but when I thought about Good Omens before s2 came out, I realized what it was.

I would never truly enjoy a bromance they're-only-queer/in love-by-your-own-interpreation story ever again. Stories where nothing is confirmed, just subtext that anyone who doesn't want to see it can easily deny and mock those who wish it was more.

While it was clear that Crowley and Aziraphale cared a lot about each other in s1, and were probably in love, it was still just a fun ship for fans to play with in fanfiction and fanart. Do they love each other? Oh sure. In what way? Well, that's up to interpretation. Ok, cool. But it's not quite Our Flag Means Death, is it?

Then I watched Good Omens 2. And from episode 1 I saw my favourite Angel and Demon duo love each other. And I was having the best time. I hadn't had such a good time watching a show in a long while. It was not only right up my alley, it was an alley I wasn't even aware was my alley until I saw it. I enjoyed seeing the old characters, the new characters. Oh, I was wonderful.

It was clear to me that, of course Crowley and Aziraphale love each other, are IN love with each other, showing it in their own way. And I wasn't expecting it to be THIS obvious.

And then when the kiss happened, I couldn't believe it. I covered my mouth with both hands and gasped and sat up straight in my seat. I had never expected it--the heartbreak it added to the already heartbreaking scene--it rewired something inside me.

It was like my emotions had been locked up in a stall like a horse for so, so long, and now the gate had been opened, the stable door kicked down, and the horse was running out onto the large pasture into the daylight, bucking and kicking up grass. Oh my god, I have to take a few minutes to process that entire 6 hour marathon of emotions.

And by a few minutes I meant a few days.

More than a few, actually.

I didn't need a kiss to understand how much they loved each other, but I did need the kiss to understand how intense and heartbreaking their separation is for them after everything.

But more than that, the kiss broke a barrier. They really did it, I thought. They really dared.

Aziraphale and Crowley aren't human males, no, but they're played by male actors. And that is significant. That makes the kiss significant. In the world we currently live in.

Weeks later, I'm still obsessed with the show, re-watching s1 and 2, reading the book again, listening to the audio drama. And I'm on tumblr, seeing people's posts and art to somehow sate my hunger for a s3 that doesn't exist (yet).

And I'm having a wonderful time.

#good omens #good omens 2 spoilers #go2 #neil gaiman #im queer and emotional #NEIL LIKED IT?!#asdsdksfksnvkjdnvdkjvd

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p4nishers · 9 months

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can we talk about how much queer and trans joy was this season? maggie and nina. they/them muriel, saraquel, beelzebub, even GOD. "you're a good lad" "im not actually, either". that one shopkeeper and his non binary spouse, played by a non binary actor. beelzebub and gabriel. shax, nina and maggie all thinking azi and crowley were together. also yes i'm gonna mention: crowley and aziraphale's kiss. it's just, i get that everyone's hurt and so am i but can we please focus on how beautiful this season was to us? we got so much and i'm so happy, despite the ending.

#i love queer people i love queer joy i love this show i love us sm #also crowley deliberately avoiding using 'mr' in the 1827 flashback cause she was SO CLEARLY presenting fem #this season was literally just queer people doing crazy shit for each other and im actually emotional over how accepted everyone was #in the show and how fucking easy it is to have queer and trans characters on screen and just let them be. im gonna ugly sob #good omens #good omens s2 #azicrow #good omens season 2 #good omens s2 spoilers #go s2 spoilers #go spoilers #go s2 #ineffable bureaucracy #ineffable spouses #i just realized god is actually they/she but that's cool af too #AND ELSBETH AND WEE MORAG TOO WOOOHOO GO SAPPHICS

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thebroadwaybi · 11 months

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J. HARRISON GHEE A N D ALEX NEWELL WON IN THEIR CATEGORIES AT THE TONY'S TONIGHT

I REPEAT

Both BLACK NON BINARY ACTORS NOMINATED IN THEIR CATEGORIES

WON THE TONY AWARDS IN THE SAME NIGHT

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natjennie · 7 months

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i am so fucking glad cap can just be gay now. like it isnt a question, there isnt a moment of hesitation, it isn't covered up. he just is. and the he that he is is gay. like in previous seasons, that "lets not be too hasty" might have still happened, but the ghosts would make a face. and cap would clear his throat and deflect and bloviate like "by which I mean, of course, that I'm very interested. ahem. in the upcoming weather, and- well, eaughghg" but now he just gets to. find a man attractive. and say it. and no one bats an eye. I'm just so proud of him. and so glad he has that.

like, I can imagine the look on his face when button house holds a pride meetup and everyone is sitting around talking about their experiences and just. casually being queer and existing together. and he can just sit in one of the plastic chairs and listen and close his eyes and pretend for a moment that he is part of that community. yknow what i mean.

#i just want him to be able to sit and listen to queer experiences and see queer people #being openly and casually intimate and it being normal #like that would heal him so right #i know it #bbc ghosts #anyway im so glad they gave him that moment.#i know its a dick joke i know but i think its emotional.#ghost5 #ghosts s5 #ghosts spoilers #the captain

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stonebottombaby · 1 year

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wish there was more filthy but loving content... like spanking someone so mean and then stroking their hair soothingly while they tense and shake......slapping someone's pussy disrespectfully and then asking them if it feels good and waiting for them to moan and say yes and ask for another..........calling someone nasty, degrading things with a sweet voice and them kissing their shoulder or neck because it's all just a sexy fantasy and you love them so, so much...

#yknow ?#nsft #wlw nsft #mlm nsft #queer nsft #trans nsft #i didnt think i was rlly into emotional or like. connection/soft type kink sex bc of the shit im into and read and watch #but. turns out i am.

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infiniteorangethethird · 4 months

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being loveless does suck sometimes but less bc of some "ohnooo I'll never be able to loooove what will I ever doooo" bs but because how the hell do you tell the ppl around you that you view all relationships as business transactions where the currency is care and support and the reward is trust? How do you tell someone "hey so I could not care less about you as a person but also I enjoy every second we spend together and I'd fight the universe for you if you asked and if you ever disappeared I probably wouldn't miss you but I'd still cry for all the things we never got to experience together" without being the asshole?

#loveless #loveless apl #loveless aplatonic #aplatonic #aplspec #loveless aro #loveless aromantic #so many times i find myself believing im a shitty person #for not being emotionally invested in others #i find it genuinely hard to truly care for other ppl #but it's like i do wanna help and support you!! i do wanna be there for you #and do stupid shit with you!!#id do anything a good friendship requires from me!!#and yet it never feels enough bc the needed emotions aren't behind the acts #not enough that i do it bc i wanna. not enough if it's not out of love #and like how could i blame them for it? how else would they react to #'hey i literally don't care about you. let's hang out anyway'?#(bestie if ur reading this. im sorry...?)#queer stuff

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yupekosi · 4 months

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anyway. data startrek is trans coded because he's constantly being dehumanised and misgendered (called 'it') and told he can't possibly understand things that are supposedly inherent to the human (cis) condition and asked invasive questions about the way he works by complete strangers and talked about like he isn't standing right there and legally does not qualify as a person and is told even by his friends and coworkers and allies that no offence, data, you're a machine. he's also just transgender in general but that's not my point here

#im watching tng and having Emotions about Him #non human characters as a metaphor for being queer/nd is definitely not always a good thing. but data is just very trans to me #star trek #star trek tng #star trek the next generation #st:tng #st tng #data soong #data star trek #data tng #textposts #arcades cutscenes

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mueritos · 1 month

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started a new job recently as a research assistant for a gay Latinx professor in my grad program, and while I definitely don't have the time to be doing my own research, working with this professor on his book projects has been so affirming and healing. i'm working on a book he hopes to publish soon that is full of interviews of gay and trans Latine men...and it is so fucking awesome. I feel so seen by the words I am reading, and I feel tears spring to my eyes looking at the photographs of these men. They look like family members, distant cousins, and family friends. They look so happy and full of confidence. I see myself in their eyes, recognizing the "fish" shape in our eyes that is so distinctly tied to Latines. One of the men in the book is a pup! And it is so beautiful seeing his smile as he holds his pup mask.

I have met very few queer latines. I don't know what it's like to have the tio or tia that has some secret aura to them, that "no se habla" vibes where everyone knows they're queer but just won't acknowledge it. Hell, this professor I'm working with is the first gay Latine man I've ever spoken to. I wish I had a community of gay Latines. I hope I am able to access that one day :)

#muerto talks #just rambling #reading thru this manuscript has me feeling some intense emotions #ive always been the person other queers look up to #and i always wish i had someone i could look up to #this reminds me that when im back home for the summer i should totally connect my emotional support gay professor from undergrad #i have never felt such acceptance and joy man #life be good when you have an older gay BIPOC man in your life #LIKE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE ADOPT ME PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE #this makes 3 gay male professors i know that i look at with very big round and wet eyes #my research professor is also a gay man and im like so captivated by him in class #i be on cloud 9 when i say something in class and he continously references it #LIKE YES I WON!!!#I WON!!!!

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zer0expektation · 28 days

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never getting over the fact that s4 Cas's arc is literally just a gay metaphor

#wdym he came from an uber religious family #started questioning everything after have like three conversations with one hot man #and being all like “im experiencing... emotions”#turned to a shunned family member to help navigate these questions and emotions #got caught by family and sent to 're-education camp'#and then was forced to choose between his family and the man he was falling for #crazy business #spn #supernatural #supernatural season 4 #castiel #destiel #gay #queer #queer coding #love a show thatll unashamedly queer code queerbait and canonize queerness the same gay angel #deancas

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professorcalculusstanaccount · 2 years

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Hello!!! I just wanted to say I just found your tumblr and it is DELIGHTFUL!!!! I am in love with you Chang/Tintin future!head-canons especially the Area 51 series. I hope you are Inspired to do far more!

Thank you so much! I'm so glad you guys are enjoying my stuff with Chang, I feel he's a super underrated and underused character! He's one of Tintin's first recurring friends and, to me, represents a turning point in the Tintin series in regards to the books' politics.

some of their selfies throughout the years, the second is in Chang’s uncle’s antique shop in London

#asks #Fanart #tintin #Adventures of Tintin #Chang #snowy #milou #tintin in tibet #50s au #im just sentimental #herge wanted to dip this guy in plastic #freezing him in place forever #i want him to have a full life!#i want him to grow!#also queer people in historical settings #always gets me emotional

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eli-zab3th · 1 year

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"I love that you send me random stuff throughout the day, I'm like a crow in that regard, and the stuff you send me are my little trinkets."

#THIS WAS ADORABLE #fk salem #they're so cute and they like me and they're so gorgeous #i send people random messages bc i don't like keeping my thoughts and excitement to myself #crow #neurodivergent #autism #adhd #queer #it's so nice to hear some people appreciate it #they also told me 'looking at your messages is one of the first things i do each day'#without any bad vibes #my partner sometimes emotes like it's a chore #it aint #and he likes it #but there's a difference #im adorable

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sznofthesticks · 19 days

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since it happened to me and a friend today. i feel the need to say something. this probably wont get to the people who need to hear this but im saying it anyways.

you don't have to agree with a non-canon ship. it's perfectly fine to not ship it. i'm not asking you to. but i am asking you to not be an asshole. and coming into someone's inbox to be hateful is just not okay. i've been getting nasty messages randomly since i started writing because apparently some people are bothered by fictional sapphics.

lesbians are not dirty, gross, or disgusting. lone star is quite a queer-friendly show, and a chunk of this fanbase is being extremely lesbophobic. and that's not okay. i fear what would happen if there was an actual canon lesbian character in this show, not just headcanons. this is my place i can be me. and you're making it unsafe. yes i can go offline to avoid it. but i shouldn't have to do that. i should be able to come here to talk to my friends without seeing it. it took me a long time to accept myself, and then when i do, i get messages saying wretched things about me, about people like me, over fictional characters who have identities similar to me. because i write about women together.

what is wrong with you?

#im writing this out of emotion #but its hard seeing repetitive posts and asks #if you're okay with mlm ships why are are you so disgusted by wlw?#please tell me.#i'd like you to give me a reason.#because you don't have one.#queer women deserve a space too.#rachel rants #911 lone star #lesbophobia

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themisteriousentity · 5 months

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"What's your hot fandom take"

If Utahime was a man and literally had no personality changes, then Gojohime would be more popular, and no one would dare call anyone who enjoys it homophobic

#jjk #gojohime #idk im tired of people telling me im homophobic when im literally queer #had crushes on same gender people my entire life but apparently one ship means i hate gay people #gojo satoru #utahime iori #i still like other gojo and utahime ships #shokohime is fucking killer #satosugu was excellent emotional angst #but theres nothing inherently homophobic about enjoying two bickering people in love

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pickled-flowers · 6 months

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Actually crying rn like Aro/Ace people are so amazing we deserve the world, we deserve to feel as confident as anyone else about ourselves, we deserve to take space and share our joy 😭😭

#and allos need to listen more! make space for us!#again im not really eloquent rn lol im so emotional about this #those who have followed me for a while know just how much this matters to me #i want to continue to help my community for years and years #i want so much better for my community #ive had the privilege of becoming an adult while surrounded by other aspec people #and while we rarely discussed about it they were still there #one of the queer mentor i had when i was 17 was ace aro and agender #miss her :(#but yea #my brain is very mushy rn i need to go eat smt jdhdjdb #anyways #a very very nice day to all of you

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marinetteplztakeabreak · 1 year

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“Adrien made Kagami realize she’s a lesbian because she was not attracted to him” is boring and overdone.

Kagami made Adrien realize she’s a lesbian because she called him her “boyfriend” and he flinched and she was like “oh shoot what’s wrong” and he was like “i dont know, boyfriend is a really weird word for some reason” And because she’s Kagami, instead of being like “oh he clearly doesn’t want me” she just sat him down immediately and started googling Other Words and trying All of Them, and then she tried “do you want to be my girlfriend?” on a whim and he was like “holy shit this has awoken something in me.” And then kagami was like “oh huh i may be a lesbian.”

#adrigami #adrimi #im alive sorry for not posting for like a year #time to go back into hibernation love u all #kagami tsurugi #miraculous ladybug #i am still here with my very specific interpretations of adrimi #they are so important to me #i love them so much #love their season 5 dynamic love that theyre still friends #projecting sooo much onto them #its about being allowed to still be friends with someone even after the messy breakup #but also being allowed to be mad #and being allowed to Wish for something Else with them but to still be okay #i am probably not making any sense im jusy #i love them too too much theyre my emotional support undefined mess of a relationship #and also theyre gay #idek in what way but in Some Way #the ‘secret hidden queer romance’ to ‘secret hidden queer friendship because the romance didnt work for them #but they are both now super commited to helping each other with their secret queer little relationship endeavors #this is why kagami is trying to help adrinette happen #because gay rights #hope this helps #and they can be queer so many different ways i just #clutches heart #incare about tthem #theyre sooooooo not normal in some kind of way #both when they are dating and when they are not

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notshellstrop · 9 months

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just bingewatched heartstopper 2 and i feel so.

i feel so much, i'm almost sick.

first of, darcys story? darcys fucking story, i can't even. a teenage girl, a lesbian, being this friendly and cheerful and slightly out of pocket persona, and all this qualities being just a little very loud, because at home she's so very quiet, and me,

being so fucking jealous of her. simply because i didn't ever attempt to run away like that. i just froze. and pretended it was nothing really there. and darcy is so, so brave.

she's saying this "im not who you think i am, you might love that person not who i am really" speech and i just wanna scream because not only i feel just exactly like that, i didn't ever have the courage to say it. to verbalize it. 'cause they don't just might love the person they think i am, they definitely do, you know?

they do.

and darcy runs away. and darcy tells the truth. and i didn't. and i don't.

and now it's too late, cause i'm twenty now, and when i run away, if i run away, it'll be "moving out, 'cause that's what all the grown ups do, 'cause now it's right and acceptable to". but maybe i should do it earlier. i don't know, it was pretty dangerous for me to do so in my country, but i still feel like i should. like i needed that, and i needed the consequences, if they were. i deserved the consequences.

but it doesn't matter. seeing darcy doing brave things, braver things, was almost like finally doing them myself.

♡

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