#it’s keeping me awake

[mx-giraffe]

Wait so, I saw a post somewhere that was a joke about whether Katara or Toph would be able to bend liquid mercury. And like haha that’s funny but also please tell me someone tell me

#i need to know #please #I NEED TO #it’s keeping me awake #i need sleep #also why #and when #and also how #I NEED ANSWERS PEOPLE #I NEED ANSWERS #atla #katara #toph #metalbending #waterbending #sokka

[shitpunsforshitnuns]

me? in pain? no that’s not possible I splinted a single joint and then went to hang out with friends like I was completely able bodied, recheck your tests or whatever

#chronic pain #joint pain #everything aches. #it’s keeping me awake

[rakkikuroba]

What happens if in Act 1 i only find 3 companions, ignore the others and go on to act 3? Who does Orin kidnap if there is no one in my camp?

#it’s keeping me awake #does she kidnap one my party members ? #bg3 spoilers #bg3 #Baldur’s gate iii #baldur’s gate 3

[inkskinned]

so one of the things that's so horrifying about birth control is that you have to, like, navigate this incredibly personal choice about your body and yet also face the epitome of misogyny. like, someone in the comments will say it wasn't that bad for me, and you'll be utterly silenced. like, everyone treats birth control like something that's super dirty. like, you have no fucking information or control over this thing because certain powerful people find it icky.

first it was the oral contraceptives. you went on those young, mostly for reasons unrelated to birth control - even your dermatologist suggested them to control your acne. the list of side effects was longer than your arm, and you just stared at it, horrified.

it made you so mentally ill, but you just heard that this was adulthood. that, yes, there are of course side effects, what did you expect. one day you looked up yasmin makes me depressed because surely this was far too intense, and you discovered that over 12,000 lawsuits had been successfully filed against the brand. it remains commonly prescribed on the open market. you switched brands a few times before oral contraceptives stopped being in any way effective. your doctor just, like, shrugged and said you could try a different brand again.

and the thing is that you're a feminist. you know from your own experience that birth control can be lifesaving, and that even when used for birth control - it is necessary healthcare. you have seen it save so many people from such bad situations, yourself included. it is critical that any person has access to birth control, and you would never suggest that we just get rid of all of it.

you were a little skeeved out by the implant (heard too many bad stories about it) and figured - okay, iud. it was some of the worst pain you've ever fucking experienced, and you did it with a small number of tylenol in your system (3), like you were getting your bikini line waxed instead of something practically sewn into your body.

and what's wild is that because sometimes it isn't a painful insertion process, it is vanishingly rare to find a doctor that will actually numb the area. while your doctor was talking to you about which brand to choose, you were thinking about the other ways you've been injured in your life. you thought about how you had a suspicious mole frozen off - something so small and easy - and how they'd numbed a huge area. you thought about when you broke your wrist and didn't actually notice, because you'd thought it was a sprain.

your understanding of pain is that how the human body responds to injury doesn't always relate to the actual pain tolerance of the person - it's more about how lucky that person is physically. maybe they broke it in a perfect way. maybe they happened to get hurt in a place without a lot of nerve endings. some people can handle a broken femur but crumble under a sore tooth. there's no true way to predict how "much" something actually hurts.

in no other situation would it be appropriate for doctors to ignore pain. just because someone can break their wrist and not feel it doesn't mean no one should receive pain meds for a broken wrist. it just means that particular person was lucky about it. it should not define treatment.

in the comments of videos about IUDs, literally thousands of people report agony. blinding, nauseating, soul-crushing agony. they say things like i had 2 kids and this was the worst thing i ever experienced or i literally have a tattoo on my ribs and it felt like a tickle. this thing almost killed me or would rather run into traffic than ever feel that again.

so it's either true that every single person who reports severe pain is exaggerating. or it's true that it's far more likely you will experience pain, rather than "just a pinch." and yet - there's nothing fucking been done about it. it kind of feels like a shrug is layered on top of everything - since technically it's elective, isn't it kind of your fault for agreeing to select it? stop being fearmongering. stop being defensive.

you fucking needed yours. you are almost weirdly protective of it. yours was so important for your physical and mental health. it helped you off hormonal birth control and even started helping some of your symptoms. it still fucking hurt for no fucking reason.

once while recovering from surgery, they offered you like 15 days of vicodin. you only took 2 of them. you've been offered oxy for tonsillitis. you turned down opioids while recovering from your wisdom tooth extraction. everything else has the option. you fucking drove yourself home after it, shocked and quietly weeping, feeling like something very bad had just happened. the nurse that held your hand during the experience looked down at you, tears in her eyes, and said - i know. this is cruelty in action.

and it's fucked up because the conversation is never just "hey, so the way we are doing this is fucking barbaric and doctors should be required to offer serious pain meds" - it's usually something around the lines of "well, it didn't kill you, did it?"

you just found out that removing that little bitch will hurt just as bad. a little pinch like how oral contraceptives have "some" serious symptoms. like your life and pain are expendable or not really important. like maybe we are all hysterical about it?

hysteria comes from the latin word for uterus, which is great!

you stand here at a crossroads. like - this thing is so important. did they really have to make it so fucking dangerous. and why is it that if you make a complaint, you're told - i didn't even want you to have this in the first place. we're told be careful what you wish for. we're told that it's our fault for wanting something so illict; we could simply choose not to need medication. that maybe if we don't like the scraps, we should get ready to starve.

we have been saying for so long - "i'm not asking you to remove the option, i'm asking you to reconsider the risk." this entire time we hear: well, this is what you wanted, isn't it?

#where's the word woman in this u might wonder if u suck #good news i am nonbinary and have a uterus so that is something that can happen #im also gender fluid tho which means im immune to certain psychic damage bc if u call me a woman i'll be like <3 okay <3 #writeblr #the tightrope of ''ppl need access to this'' #and like also #''what the fuck is going on over there'' is like. so difficult as an activist #i was <3 punctured <3 during mine #and almost bled out on the table :) they didn't have anyone standing by bc it's ''just a little insertion'' #so i started crashing and i vaguely remember apologizing for the fuss as i heard my heart rate monitor start going <3 tachycardic <3 #she wasn't even a bad doctor tbh #ps btw the reason i even HAD a heart monitor is that i have a genuine heart condition and they knew GOING IN that there was a chance #i'd crash on the table #like my heart just likes to do fun little tricks and <3 stop working <3 (i do not want to discuss the specifics ty i am okay im ontop of it #and they were like 'oh u will be fine' and then she did do a puncture thru my uterus . pop! #and im sitting there dizzy and feeling my heartrate start to drop bc it feels almost. beautiful. like. the whole ground just #woosh! out from under you. and shit is like grey's anatomy. i'm looking up at her grey eyes #she's old she wears this nice shawl she's like got Cool Lesbian vibes and people are sprinting into the room #from other parts of the clinic unrelated to me. while the monitor is like a little aria singing #and shes like hey youre okay stay awake stay with me something went wrong we have to keep trying #and i remember thinking - i was trying to think of nice things. i have so many beautiful places that now overlap #with this terrible memory #i became dimly aware that there was too much on her wrists and hands. like #that was too many liters #and then when they had finished all this. i packed up and drove myself home #i have had (bad thing) happen to me. and the same feeling happened after #that numb almost lamblike bleating. you cry without noise. like. ur body is so shocked and ur mind so empty #you just stare at the road and everything everything is happening behind glass and static and you are standing so far away from it #while you hold ur hands at 10 and 2. and something in ur brain is SCREAMING at you - IT WAS BAD AND IT SHOULDNT HAVE HAPPENED #and ur just watching the alarms in your body going off and youre thinking. a little pinch! ha. i think i just lost something important.

[sonchop]

The Odyssey // The Odyssey, if Odysseus' men hadn't opened the bag of winds

#just hear me out #guys have already seen their island #it's freaking treasure #odysseus was awake for 9 days for it #how this man is still alive #odysseus #the odyssey #aeolus #ithaca #epic the musical #keep your friends close #epic the ocean saga #jorge rivera herrans #sonchop screaming #epic: the musical #tagamemnon

[temeyes]

#here comes j o h n n y #he's back from the dead and he's gonna end the mfers who decided he should die in mw3 #actually i drew this to keep myself awake rn because?? there's a cockroach in my room??? #and it disappeared now im afraid for my life????? #like im afraid that i'll lie down and i'll see mr cockroach beside me HAHA #my art #2024 #call of duty #call of duty: modern warfare #call of duty: modern warfare ii #call of duty: modern warfare iii #cod #cod mw #cod mwii #cod mwiii #modern warfare #mw #mw2 #mw3 #soap cod #johnny soap mactavish #soap mactavish #art #fanart #digital art #digital drawing #sketch #doodle #video games

[fried-fishy]

honk shoo mimimimi

it looks so unrecognizable from @applestruda's original help. it was so much fun drawing this!

#bee is so cool #the way she colors is just “jfasjdlksada” kind of pretty #pearlescentmoon #pearlecentmoon fanart #mumbo jumbo #mumbo jumbo fanart #grian #grian fanart #impulsesv #impulsesv fanart #goodtimeswithscar #gtws fanart #hermitcraft #hermitcraft fanart #boatem #BeeBoatemDtiys #i shouldve slept #unlike them i dont have friends to keep me awake

[literallybyronic]

who's gonna explain destielgate to ryan reynolds

#questions that keep me awake at night #ryan reynolds #destielgate #supernatural #spn #twitter exodus

[mayasaura]

Hey, anyone else think it's super duper suspicious that the Reverend Parents kicked off their abominable baby scheme pretty much simultaneously to Gideon Nav, key to the Tomb, landing on the Ninth? Gideon's more than a year but less than two years older than Harrow. So give it nine months gestation, a few months for prep and planning, and Gideon's arrival lands at exactly the place on the timeline you'd look for an inciting event to the creche massacre

And like, the Revs didn't seem shocked when they heard Harrow had opened the Tomb. They listened solemnly to Gideon spill the beans and then quietly shuffled themselves off the mortal coil, intending to take their pint sized single-serving generation with them. As far as we know they never pressured Harrow to continue the Ninth, either. They checked to make sure she was a powerful necromancer, and that was it. It's almost like they'd been waiting for this.

It's just a hell of a lot of coincidences piling up. Makes me wonder what they knew, who they'd been talking to. How much didn't they tell Harrow?

#I've posted about this before but it's still bugging me #there's so much about their actions that'd be explained if they knew the Ninth would reach the end of its purpose within Harrow's lifetime #and like they probably don't know the whole story because why would they treat the daughter of their god Like That #on the other hand.... it would explain a lot if they knew Gideon's birth was the Ninth's death knell #and then she DIDN'T DIE #it really feels like they had to have known something #but it keeps me awake at night wondering how much #the locked tomb #pelleamena novenarius #priamhark noniusvianus #the creche massacre #gideon nav #harrow nonagesimus

[justaz]

thinking about arthur who has crazy quick reflexes and is a relatively light sleeper who woke up to the sound of someone in his room and saw merlin crouched down messing with his keys before softly asking “whatre you doing?…before breakfast?”

#like in that scene in s2 when merlin was calling out arthurs name from under his bed #and he jumped up (thinking merlin was long gone) grabbed his sword and postured for a fight #or that one in idk which season when merlin was sneaking in his room and he woke up and grabbed his sword when merlin bumped a chair #and then merlin brought the canopy/curtains around his bed down on him #vs waking up to see melin splayed over him and staring for a beat #before flinching back #(he was definitely having some thoughts and/or dreams but thats neither here nor there) #idk thinking about arthur who trusts merlin inplicitly and allows himself to lower his guard around him #his guard which he keeps up even in his sleep #GOD imagining them in an established relationship and merlin for once has /so/ much trouble waking arthur up #like before it was sorta bad but arthur was always in that half awake state #but now that theyre together….arthur wont even groan when merlin starts poking his ribs #arthur finally feeling so safe and protected that he allows his guard to drop in his sleep #and its the first time hes ever felt truly refreshed in the morning #so now merlin has infinitely more trouble waking him up but when hes up hes UP and ready to go #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur #arthur bby they could never make me hate you #hes just a girl desperately craving love and protection #merlin isnt even offering it #hes shoving it into arthurs arms with insults flying off the tongue #theyre so disgusting #(affectionate) #<3 #headcanon #head canon #hc

[ofbakerst]

when watson tells him he has to return to the hotel to console a dying englishwoman, & holmes knows this may be the last time they will see each other, his face softens into the slightest of wistful smiles, like he's seeing all the things he loves about watson, his kindness, bravery, loyalty, trust, and then he just turns to go! like he's already said his own secret little goodbye that watson doesn't know about & now it's time to move on to the next thing

#wrote this post in the middle of the night actually bc the thought of it was keeping me awake lol #had to persuade myself not to stay up & make the gif #whether anyone else even sees what i'm seeing idk #the final problem #gifs #said i was going to try not to get too sentimental but yk

[brothermoth]

I don't understand why people call John Marston stupid. He isn't dumb, he's barely functioning day to day and it's not HIS fault that whacky shit keeps happening to him. How would YOU react if your family turned into zombies after just going through like a billion Herculean trials to get them back???? That man is so checked out from reality that shit happens and he has no choice but to go "ok" and move on from that. John Marston has a customer service worker's ability to simply dissociate and complete tasks on auto pilot. He's not Arthur "helpful and kind" Morgan. He's a bitter fuck who does not give two shits about anyone he wants to get his beloved wife back so she can peg him and he wants to get his bitch ass emo son back so they can communicate poorly and take turns doing stupid nonsensical shit to give Abigail more stress in her life. He's just a Guy okay and I love him he's The Dad of All Time and I think he makes stupid fucking decisions but so do I and that's okay he's doing his best.

#red dead redemption 2 #red dead redemption #john marston #abigail marston #jack marston #undead nightmare #No it's not 2 am no I'm not stalling going to bed no I'm totally not having hyperfixation thoughts keeping me awake #My favorite hobby is making my autism other people's problem

[seldompathic]

Somethin about drawing Knuckles with comically large eyebrows and completely fed-up expressions keeps me alive. Funny guy

#sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic art #shadow the hedgehog #amy rose #knuckles the echidna #my art #I don't like Amy's eyes much but I'll find the groove eventually #but the SILLIY GUYS ARE KEEPING ME AWAKE DJENDJE

[samwinchestersfatknockers]

I wish they’d made supernatural even weirder. Like shit they could only have gotten away with on HBO weird. Graphic and obscene violence of a strange and sexual nature. Dean washing Sam’s dead body, holding him on a moldy mattress like he’s a baby again!! Sam and Dean open mouth breathing foreheads pressed together because sam almost died again levels of weird. Show me how Sam knows he can’t die, that Lucifer won’t let him. I want to see Sam eat a bullet, bleed himself out in a tub. I want to see Dean find out. Give me cold and ruthless Cas for longer. No one can ever kill their father in this show! I want to see them try! I want to see Dean agonise over his dads warning! Stand over Sam’s sleeping body with a gun! Lay down next to him, temple to temple and think about shooting!!! Sam has faith in god and then spends 10 years being tortured by him!!! What does that mean!!! Mark of Cain!! They are Cain and Abel, interchangeably!!! Sam already died in a field!!! Dean was already buried in one!! What does that mean!!!! I want violence and pain and enmeshment!!! They cannot live together!!! They cannot survive apart!!! Dean wants to tuck Sam in his chest behind his ribs!!! Sam wants to crawl inside Dean! He wants to run far enough away he can’t ever be found!!! Someone else said it but ! Make! Demon! Dean! Feed! Sam! His! Blood! SAMS BODY HAS NEVER BEEN HIS OWN!! DEAN HAS ALWAYS ONLY HAD CONTROL OVER THE THINGS JOHN LET HIM! They are so fucked up and we barely scratch the surface in that godforsaken show!!!!!

#sam winchester #supernatural #dean winchester #spn #gencest #this show keeps me awake at night #sam and dean winchester

[seraphicalsuccubus]

I need more friends (like okay yes in general but especially for this lmao) either up at the same random times I am or in different time zones to accommodate this

because I am SO tired of always being alone at this time of night, waiting for my sleeping meds to kick in, unsure of what to do with myself and in a chatty mood because I’m usually high or smoking, and have no one to talk to or anything

I just want more people to like FaceTime and video call at this time while I get sleepy enough to actually get some sleep so I have someone to talk to/vibe with/smoke with while I wait for everything to knock me out 😭😭😭

#keep in mind I have asthma and chronic bronchitis so u have to deal with me hacking up a lung whenever I take a hit lmao #but other than that I’m pretty chatty and wide awake and just ugh I want more friends to talk to at this time when I can’t sleep 😭

[celestialowlryx]

We are all of us stardust. Held together by love for an instant.

#the dragon prince #tdpedit #tdp spoilers #animationedit #gifs #my edits #I liiiive #mistakes were made but I'm back again so hi to all of the amazing tdp fandom! :D #was about going to sleep but crying aaravos content at 11 pm is enough to keep me awake xD #ALSO THE SCENERY IS SO PRETTY OMG 🤩