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itzgarrehandro · 11 months
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My experience with Duncan Burden (Puppiez0)
(WARNING: What you're about to read contains sensitive subjects such as grooming, CP, and... IDK, "coomer" stuff IG?)
...I think it's time I come out and say this
I was a victim of grooming (and as you could probably tell that's not fun. At all)
You're probably wondering "who did this, and what did they do?"
You ask, I'll tell: The person in question goes by the username "Puppiez0", or his real name "Duncan Burden" (or "McNinja", whatever the hell you wanna call him), who has recently been caught in 4K for drawing NSFW out of a 15 year old (but I'm not gonna bore you to death with that info)
It all started back in 2015 when I was invited to a Skype group chat with him (don't remember alot), but we didn't really get close until I'd eventually join some online community known as the Powerhouse of Entertainment
But by 2017... That's when real shit dropped, he'd go on to start some shit called "POE After Dark" and, lo and behold, he went on to draw, let's see, uhhhh... Lucoa (from Miss Kobayashi's Dragon Maid) with her breasts out and added me "playing with myself" in the background
Which, at first, I kinda didn't mind nor think it'd be bad at first. But eventually when time went on, and he got cancelled... I was not ok with this. And you're wondering "how old was Duncan at the time he drew this?"
He was 17, and I was like 13-going-on-14 when he did this, so... I was a minor (and THAT'S technically grooming)
At first, I thought it wouldn't be THAT bad when he drew it, but as time went on and eventually he'd get cancelled, it just... eugh, disgusts me. To think how this shit just slipped through my fingers all those years, and nobody speaks up about this until now
Not to mention, he'd also ask for money from some of my friends (and some others) for pictures that they didn't even commission for... Just because he lost his job
...Really??? Are you THAT lazy to do a job search on Indeed? Whatever job you get, I'm sure they'd pay much more hourly than everyone else, you could've been spending all that time looking for a job, working and getting paid and all that stuff, as long as your bills are paid and as long as food is in your fridge, but NOOOO, you spend it BEGGING
...I think that's all I have to say, in the meantime, I recommend reading this for further context:
I know this post was rather... long, or however to put it, but I needed to be more open and let this all out of my system. Apologies if this came off as rather half assed, tried to explain this out of memory or sumn like that. Thanks for reading this
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gonerface · 4 years
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She starting to make me melt and I was not prepared for this
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jrueships · 3 years
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Any new thoughts on any of your ships you would like to share 👀
HII ok so i KNOW I got this ask from like. Forever ago and im SORRY but college has been up so ive been busy but DONT LET MY SLOWNESS DISCOURAGE U FROM ASKING ME ASKS AND STUFF !! I LOVE GETTIN THEM ILL JUST ANSWER SLOWLY CUZ I DONT WANNA HALF ASS NOTHIN AND THEN REGRET IT LATER
but anyways ... YES i DO !!!!!
okay so lowry and deebo rumored to both seek being on the lakers then BOOM russ girlbosses his stupid way inside 'somehow' (... bruh) so they go to other places. Is the two package deal still on??? No! And that's okay!
at first i was kinda disappointed they didn't try getting on the same team (the heat) because i wanted to see them play together again BUT!!! i think like... romantically this just goes to show how GOOD they've adjusted to being long-distanced BOYFRIENDS !!!
Like they're FINE with not being on the same team anymore/same state or whatever ! They've learned and communicated how to make long distance relationships WORK ! They trust each other and love each other no matter What !
Though demar DID want to stay in the country so he can make visit trips easier tho!!
But anyways ... the main thing IM thinking of is what the fuck the heat gonna get up to!!!! Their goofy goober filled team!!! I'm not a big carer for Tyler herro and Jimmy but like.. we can't ignore how Jimmy made sure to keep his emotional support cracker on the team OKAY?? but anyways ANYWAYS ... imagine Jimmy friendly teasing demar about deebo being states away from his bf. like JIMMY would send 'saucy' pics of him and kyle in swim suits on a beach somewhere idk and Jimmy has his arm around kyle and he's chad staring into the camera. kyle doesn't really care like he's just having fun and Jimmy ALWAYS takes stupid fuckboy selfies so he doesn't really see it as a big deal. All the more freedom for Jimmy to send demar all these photos of him and kyle having fun together WITHOUT demar, just as a teasing 'haha I got your boyfrieeend!! might kiss him 😳 who knows <3 !!' And those are literally some of the captions on the pics he sends privately to demar. he might post like One public pic of him and kyle hanging out real close just to see how many 12 year old kyle demar shippers he can make mad LMFAO
And when demar gets them, Jimmy expects him to be all like 'haha ok' and then go get high and watch house hunters all sad and shit secretly just to mess with his mind because Jimmy is a little big shit like that .... but he DOESN'T !!! because he trusts kyle COMPLETELY and he KNOWS how Jimmy loves to do dumb shit for attention and temper, so he just replies "hope bam doesn't find out about this." And that's all he needs to say to make Jimmy block him for two weeks
ALSO UMMM this is just me being a SAP but.... demar and kyle probably discussed where they'd go team wise on free agency and after talkin over that they both wanna go to separate teams, it's all cool. They agreed and they're cool with it and they can love each other from so far because their love is just THAT strong! they like skyping each other while they do random chores around their respective houses and sometimes spout out a random funny idea or joke.
But I ALSO think... because im STOOPID and WEEK .. that they also chose to be on different teams because they wanna 'secretly' see who can win each other a ring first. So they can PROPOSE with it. Like yeah kyle already has one but u KNOW his short ass keeps that shit to himself. He probably tries giving it to demar all the time but deebo is a king who don't need no pity ring!! But they're older now and sweeter and softer and they wanna find new ways to tease each other!! So yeah deebo probably went to the bulls thinking 'imma get this ring and give it to KYLE and PROPOSE to his fat ass' and kyle probably entered the heat huddle like 'yall we GOTTA get this ring so i can propose to my stupid boyfriend' IDK i just like to think of it as a fun race to love!!!
So yeah!!!! That's like! Some of em! A few!! When I can coherently think of some more, I might add a few reblogs, who knows !!! Thank u SM for asking and sorry for the late af answer LMFAO
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violetnotez · 4 years
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Class 1-A During Quarantine
This is just pure crack because I’m really hating social distancing rn
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Alrightie so just imagine UA getting shut down and all of Class 1-A has to tolerate each other 24/7 non stop because their stuck together in the dorms
Idk if this would really happen or they would just be sent home but JUST IMAGINE KAY
All hell breaks loose at the news-
Some (Mina, Uraraka, Kirishima) are trying to optimistic about the whole thing (“At least we won’t be getting sick!” “It’ll be fun to hang out more and get to know each other better!”)
Some take it a little harder
Bakugo is flipping is SHIT because there is no way he is going to be around all these extras for who knows how long
There are two types of freak outs at the news that school is going to be having a slight break for a while-
All of Dekusquad is practically sobbing- no school?!? Will we get set back?!? What about hero training!!?
Immediately starts planning study and training sessions
All of Bakusquad is FLIPPING THEIR SHIT-NO SCHOOL HECK YEAH
Kaminari, Kirishima, and Mina are just pumping their fists in their air and screaming “YEAH!”
But they get SOOOOOO depressed when Aizawa says they’d have to do video lessons and that school would still be in session-at some point
Shoto really thinks this is all a hoax and has crazy conspiracy theories concocted about the whole thing
Will tell everyone and anyone who will listen
He will sit in his room surrounded by papers and his laptop on full brightness in the dark as he tracks the stats and pieces his theory together
Tsuyu and Uraraka takes this SOOO seriously
Sweet babies don’t wanna get sick!
Washes their hands, socially distances themselves
If you run out of any type of essentials-soap,tissues, etc-they got you covered tho they are more than happy to share
Iida takes it WAY TOO GODDAMN SERIOSULY
You would think he’s preparing for World War 3
He tries to ration out crap that really doesn’t need to be
What a shocker when you go to the bathroom and see that each individual square of toilet paper is stacked up near the toilet and not on the roll
The adjacent “Take only a few!” Sign makes you roll your eyes big time
Pretty much everyone in Class 1-A ignores Iidas annoying preaching about “social disntancing” and “washing your hands” and look to Momo for help
She is very educated about the whole thing and researches her crap all the time, giving everyone accurate tips and statistics about the disease
Kinda of the mama bear through all of it-also completely open to sharing, or if your feeling kinda anxious about the situation she is happy to sit and talk with you to ease your mind
Kirishima as well-he is a big softie and would do anything for his friends! If your feeling scared, this rock boy has got you!!! He’ll try his best to make you feel better
Kaminari and Sero are the biggest crackheads-they don’t see this as a pandemic but as an excuse to turn into hermits and play videogames all day
Their sleep schedules are JACKED
You once found Kamianri eating “dinner” at 5 o’clock in the morning
Honestly scared for those two-itll be past midnight and their rooms will be completely dark except for the lights of the TV screen coming from cracks under their doors and loud gun noises
Sato makes BOMB food though- all of the Class is eating nice and proper because of him
Also takes extra special measures to make sure he doesn’t spread any germs, so it’s honestly safer than regular food
Jiro is jamming to music the whole time-she is not saying hi to anyone, if you wanna say hi to her that’s chill, but she’s is not coming out of her room
Toru swears on her FUCKING LIFE she is going to die-but honestly nobody can see her and accidentally touch her so she’s okay, but she overrracts BIG TIME
Everyone knows where she is at because there is always a floating can of Lysol
Oh my god keep your doors locked because Mineta is going to use this time to try out every nasty perverted trick in the book
He’s lonely and horny what do u expect
Will sneak into rooms, try and set up cameras-really wierd stuff
Even Kaminari told him to chill out because his plans were getting kinda nasty
Bakugo-ohhh this BOI IS FUMING
Will wanna kick Corona in the face
He is SICK of everyone talking about it
His freak outs are hilarious- “WHAT DO YOU MEAN THERES NO TOILET PAPER?!? WHY THE HELL IS EVERYONE WANTING TOILET PAPER?!? IF U RUN OUT JUST USE GODDAMN PAPER TOWELS!!!!”
Bakugo calm your tits
Izuku is the smartest one about it-uses his time to study, prepare for future exams, and keep his body in tip top shape
Calls his Mom like every other day along with Shoto and Kirishima
The ones getting calls from their families is Bakugo and Kaminari
Everyone knows Bakugo is on the phone with his mother is when he starts screaming “Old hag!” And yelling a lot more
Kaminari gets kinda embarrassed because his family always wants to FaceTime and everytime a girl enters the screen they flip their shit and start asking really loudly if their dating
Pray for Aizawa tho
His nerves are gonna be wrecked because he’s gonna be so worried about the class
He knows exactly which kids are gonna freak out about it so he makes sure to always drop by and tell the class that if they needed to talk he was more than willing to listen
Oh but the moment Skyping lessons becomes a thing-he is going to literally wanna rip his hair out the chaotic mess that is his class is going to destroy his patience
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Hope this made some of you guys feel a little better and pls-STAY SAFE AND HEALTHY!!! ☺️
(RULES | MASTERLIST| REQUESTS CLOSED)
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seawitchkaraoke · 3 years
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My dad is really supportive and accepting of my queerness and sometimes shares posts on facebook along the lines of “I support queer people”/”i may not be lgbtq but I support it”/”I’m a save person to come out to” and it warms my heart every single time, I really love him.
I’m still not out to him as nonbinary. Partly bc I only really fully confirmed that for myself in the past year and I’ve been in New Zealand that entire time and don’t really want to have that conversation over the phone (nevermind that I usually talk to both my parents at once when we skype and I’m not sure I really wanna explain this to mom) but also because despite the fact I know he’d be supportive, it’s still just.... a really complicated thing to explain?
Like I’ll definitely eventually do it, but I need to be in the right headspace for it. Especially considering there isn’t really much I’d ask him to change... sure he can refer to me as they/them in english, but german only has gendered pronouns and I’m probably not going to come out widely enough that he even could use any neopronouns I might choose for me, bc he’d rarely be talking to people I’m out to. And it’s unlikely that I’ll change my name, especially around my family, my given name doesn’t bother me and honestly it’d be kinda weird for them to be calling me anything new after 24 years of this name (plus again, he could only really do it where no one else could hear without inviting questions).
So it’s just..... complicated. Bc whenever he shares a post like that, I think that I Could come out to him as nonbinary - he accepted the ace and lesbian parts well enough after all - and then I feel almost guilty for not telling him? But also it’s not like there’s really been a good occassion for it so.... idk.
I mean I’ll probably tell him by the next english language con we’ll attend when I’ll grab only the they/them pins at the latest.
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Survey #346
“i was in a car crash (or was it the war?)  /  but i’ve never been quite the same”
Do you take lessons for anything? No. Has something really heavy ever fallen on you? Not to my recollection. If you wear makeup, what colors do you usually wear? I don't wear makeup frequently whatsoever, but if I do put some on, it's always black. Does your shower have curtains or a glass door/wall? Curtains. If you have more than one pet, do they ever get jealous of each other? Well, one is a snake and one is a cat, so no, they don't. Is there a room in your house that you don’t like going in? No. Do you remember the last question you were asked? What did you answer? Well, besides in this survey, Mom asked me if I wanted some shrimp she didn't finish. A true stunner, but I didn't want anymore. Besides salt and butter, do you put anything on your popcorn? Nothing other than what was mentioned. Are you lonely? To be totally transparent, I'm extremely lonely on multiple levels. What’s your favorite magazine to read? Don't have one. Do you like pineapple? Yeah. But keep it off my pizza. Have you ever seen fireflies? Yeah, they're common in the summer here. Have you ever trespassed? Not to my knowledge. My sister, neighbor, and I regularly visited this shack as kids, just exploring and checking stuff out, and someone eventually did approach us and tell us to leave, but idk if anyone ACTUALLY owned the property? We never saw any signs. Do you tell your parents where you are going? Yeah; if I live with them, they have the right to know. Do you agree with the notion that all people were created equal? Yeah. Do you raise your hand or participate in class? I did. Do you like visiting the mall? Why or why not? Not really, no. Too many people, too many stores I don't care about, too much walking. Have you ever purposely hurt an animal? I've given pets a pop when they've done something wrong, but seriously hurt, fuck no. Would you ever see a therapist? I've seen a therapist consistently since the 6th grade. Are you afraid of heights? Yes. I used to not be, but it's a fear I've developed over time for no apparent reason. Are you afraid of the dark? No. Are you a jealous person? I was literally just thinking about this yesterday how much I hate how I've developed a jealous and envious side. It's not a feeling I used to experience like at all, so it's very uncomfortable to feel. When is your birthday? February 5th. What are you listening to right now? A John Wolfe playthrough of The Sinking City. It's really interesting and is making me wanna read Lovecraft books, haha. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren’t supposed to be doing? Probably at some point. Are you still friends with someone from kindergarten? No. What is the most important thing to you? My mental health. Do you like whip cream? NO. The taste is fine, but I can't handle the texture of it. Are you close to your mother? Very. Are you close to your father? Yeah, but not as close as I am with my mother. Do you walk around bare foot when you're at home? Or do you wear socks? Yeah, I stay barefoot. Do you like chocolate popsicles? Yessss, I love them. Would you ever be your school’s mascot who wears that costume? Ew, no. Would you rather see the Great Wall of China or Big Ben? Probably the Great Wall. Have you ever written a poem? I've written loads. Would you ever be a tornado chaser? FUCK no. Never, ever, EVER. what is your favorite thing to eat with bbq sauce, if you even like that stuff? I hate barbecue sauce. Your parents tell you that this summer, you get to pick the vacation. Where do you plan to go? As a family? Maybe Alaska. What do you think is a good theme for a prom? Um, maybe princesses and princes? It sounds cute, leave me alone. Have you ever had to do a class in summer school? No. Do you get nervous when you go to the doctor? About what? Not very, but somewhat. I'm always terrified to get on the scale and am also afraid I'll find out I have diabetes with how heavily it runs in my family, and I'm not exactly healthy. Have you ever been to the rainforest? No. As cool as it would be, I would neeeever manage. The humidity would murder me. Have you ever created a website? Yeah, a few. Ever thought about writing a book? Yeah. Have you ever had a dream where you killed someone? I don't think so, but I have nightmares ALL the time where I'm fighting to defend myself. Do you ever make up stories in your head and wish they come true? Daydreams? Oh, yes. Which is worse: stuffy nose or runny nose? STUFFY. Having a runny nose surely isn't fun either, but at least you can have tissues handy. Which is worse: Sick to your stomach or sore throat? 100% sick to your stomach. I do nooot respond well to stomach pain. Do you think your last relationship was a disaster? Not at all. Have you ever solved a Rubik’s Cube? No. Who do you think is the easiest to talk to? Sara or Mom. Would you consider yourself to be emo? I don't care for stereotypes, I'm whatever. Do you have a favourite metal band or do you not like metal? I love metal, and my favorite artist is of course Ozzy Osbourne. What is your current desktop picture? My favorite picture of my late dog Teddy. Thick or thin blanket? I like thick ones. Cozier. Who are your favorite bands? Everyone knows my #1 is Ozzy, so I'll list some of my others that just fall behind him (in no order): Metallica, Otep, Marilyn Manson, Korn, In This Moment, Powerwolf, Motionless In White, Rammstein, A Day to Remember, Cradle of Filth, Mother Mother... There's a lot, really. How do you mark through your word search puzzles? It depends on what I have at my disposal, really. I think typically I would just circle the words with a pencil, but I'd prefer to use a highlighter. Have you ever sewn something? No. What did you eat for dinner last night? Mom made shrimp scampi with a side of white rice. It was delicious. Ever been grounded? If so, for what? Yeah, on multiple occasions. I think the longest was when I ran away from home. Have you seen all of the Jaws movies? No; I've only seen the first one with Tyler. I did, however, have the video game as a kid, and I LOVED it. I could never beat the final stage, though. :( When was the last time you played cards? (not on the computer) Months ago with my niece. She was hooked on playing Uno with me because I always let her win. Have you ever drank cherry Coke? Omg yes, I LOVE it. Have you ever had a black eye? No. Have you ever eaten a bug? No. Do you like pranking people? No. Did you ever take a cooking class in school? No. Do you celebrate St. Patrick’s Day? No. Do you use Skype? Only to talk to Sara. Have you ever participated in local magazine cover girl searches? Definitely not. Have you ever been called a skank/slut because of the way you dress? No. Is your ex sexually attractive to you still? Two are. Describe the most romantic moment you’ve ever had. I'd rather not because it'll really set off my PTSD. Have you ever cheated on a test? Nope. Have you ever been to couple’s counseling? No. How often does your employer ask you to work overtime? N/A Did you often read for fun when you were a kid? I read A LOOOOOT as a kid. I was a total bookworm. When was the last time you were scared? Excluding in nightmares that I don't remember, uhhh probably back when my PHP therapist surprised me by whipping out a poem I'd written and sharing it in front of the whole group. It wasn't the "bad" kind of scared, but I sure did feel fear. What’s your favorite song by Rihanna? "Disturbia" has always been #1. There's this '80s synthwave remix of the song that I adorrrreeee. Can you speak binary? Nope. Would you rather live somewhere that had hurricanes or tornadoes? I've dealt with hurricanes all my life and they don't terrify me NEARLY as much as the mere idea of a tornado, so. Have you ever had a pet that you disliked? None that were mine personally, but coincidentally, I didn't like two dogs my little sister had. The first one was just mildly annoying, and as much as I hate admitting it, I literally hated her last dog. When was the last time you saw hail? Maybe like... a month ago or something like that? Time is kinda blurry for me on this. We had an absolute downpour of hail one morning, then just... nothing. What is on your mind right this second: I have this at-home sleep study tonight and I'm pretty much obsessing over "what if I don't have a nightmare?" when, for ONCE, I want/need myself to. To be real, I don't know exactly what will change in my life if I do have a sleep apnea diagnosis or something that we're not already doing, but. Mom more than anyone just wants professionals to see that something is seriously wrong and needs fixing. Have you ever given a nickname to your pet(s)? Both have them, yeah. I think I call Venus "Miss Venus" more than her real name, then she's also "baby girl," "pretty," "beautiful girl," etc. I call Roman just "butt" a lot, haha, then there's "son," "Mama's boy," "bud"... When was the last time you shaved your legs? Not since last October. Nobody sees my legs, so I just don't care. Do you ever try free samples at the store? Sure, if I'm actually interested in the food. Do you like boys with long hair? That's actually my preference. Do you like rootbeer? It's not insufferable, but I'm not really a fan. What is the best fast food place, in your opinion? Sonic. Do you have faith in yourself? What a question to end it on, 'cuz I don't have a fuckin' clue these days.
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taetaesbaebaepsae · 5 years
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BTS During Sex
Maknae Line
Summary: Title speaks for itself, really, just filth
Warnings: Smut, filth, only sinners welcome, look there’s probably kink warnings but idk if you’re reading this you know what’s up, anyway I’m thirsty
Request:
anonymous asked:
BTS during sex? kind of like how you did the break-up one 👀 if thats too much then just for jeon jungkook
A/N: I am doing a Jungkook one tho theoreticalthot01
Word Count: 2579
Taehyung (V)
The most contradictory of all the boys sexually
Wait I’ll explain in a minute
He’s traditional
Most likely if y’all are fucking you’re in a long term relationship
He’d really be real bad at casual sex and not catching feelings (See my FWB reaction)
So if he’s fucking you, he’s probably in love with you
This means slow strokes, looking into your eyes, PRAISE so much praise Tae is your personal hype man
Loves missionary because he wants to look at your face and kiss you
Tae would make out with you and nothing else for 4 hours if you’d let him
Best kisser
When I say he’s vanilla I don’t mean he’s boring, just stay with me
He’s s o f t
Deadass will not let you give him head unless you just really really want to because he feels so guilty when you gag or if you look uncomfortable he can’t come
Will eat you out all the time and if you look tired he won’t even try to fuck you after just straight make your legs shake and go watch Netflix with you with pussy juice all over his mouth
Actually he loves the taste he’d fucking put it in a cup and drink it if it were possible
Definitely the best at going down on you of all the boys because he loves it so much
Tae’s dick is either totally average or fucking HUGE, idk the world may never know
Sex is sweet and you’ll never doubt how much he loves you
But lowkey after a while you might doubt how much he wants you
Very controlled (I can hear you thirsty hoes complaining just WAIT)
But at some point in a relationship, you will do something that will make him snap
Tae is extremely visually stimulated
So for his birthday you buy some sexy lingerie and as an afterthought, throw in some Gucci logo sheer tights
You set everything up it’s all romantic and shit, rose petals on the bed, candles lit, and you in a crotchless teddy, the tights, and 4 inch stilettos
You’ve curled your hair, full face makeup, the whole works
The icing on the cake is that you wrap a purple ribbon around your waist and tie it as if you are his birthday gift
So you lie on the bed and wait for him but he’s late getting home and you fall asleep
You wake up to his strangled moan and he’s standing over you, shirt unbuttoned, cock out, stroking himself
You’re shook because he’s so hesitant when asking you for sex usually, making sure you’re down
Shook but also, instantly wet, because goddamn, what a sight
When your eyes pop open he’s crawling across the bed toward you like a panther
You expect him to say he’s sorry he woke you but he doesn’t say shit
He just grasps the ribbon where it’s tied around your waist and looks up at you as if asking if he can open his present
“Anything you want, baby,” you whisper, voice kinda hoarse from sleep and now, thirst
“Anything?” He kinda growls and you’re like YES SIR
So like sex with Tae has always been great, he’s a giver like Hobi and he always makes you come but like this? Fucking god tier
He usually takes his time with foreplay, works you up for an hour, but now he’s uncharacteristically impatient, just slides his fingers into you and when they come out wet he huffs and grabs your ankles, yanking your ass to the edge of the bed
He. Is so. LOUD
He fucks you so hard you feel like your hips might break, slamming into you and groaning, cursing, which he doesn’t normally
He’s still praising you, though, “You’re so fucking perfect; I love you so much”
He looks like a fucking god, bronze skin, sheen of sweat, head arched back, baring his teeth as he gets closer to coming
You tell him you want him to come inside as you’ve gotten on birth control just for this particular occasion and he groans so loud your ears hurt
HEREIN YOU DISCOVER TAE’S HIDDEN KINK
He has no idea you’re on birth control but he doesn’t give a single fuck
Highkey has an impregnation kink and you’d think it was weird but really it’s just hot and kinda sweet
He’s talking so dirty you’re blushing even as he fucks you mercilessly
“Oh my God, I’m gonna fill you up until your tight cunt is dripping with my come; gonna get you all nice and round and full of our baby because I love you so much.”
He growls and grunts so loud when he comes you feel like someone is gonna call the police
ANYWAY so Kim Taehyung has an breeding kink and that’s that on that
You can never go off birth control and he’s lowkey disappointed when he realizes you are on it
Sex is still sweet sometimes but you know how to get him going, just have to wear something sexy and beg him to come inside you and it’s ON
When he loses control, it’s a sight to behold
He definitely loves to eat his come out of your pussy it’ll make him hard all over again
Is the sweetest baby with aftercare though like he’ll leave bruises on your hips and ass and kiss them all one by one
Kinda proud when he leaves a big mark somewhere visible, though, he’s lowkey possessive
God help you if you do get pregnant, he’ll want to fuck all day every day the entire pregnancy
He says shit like “I wanna get you pregnant every 9 months for the rest of your life because you look so fucking gorgeous this way” 
If you don’t want children really you’re shit outta luck no way he’d be with anyone who didn’t at least eventually want them
And he’s not good at one night stands because he isn’t comfortable enough to let loose so I mean look if you wanna fuck Taehyung be prepared to marry him and have his babies I don’t know what to tell you he’s just like this
So anyway outside of the breeding kink he’s kind of an exhibitionist
would 100% be down to make a homemade porno with you and would watch it instead of porn while he’s on tour
Has like 200 nudes of you in various positions
Who needs porn when he has you? His attraction is 95% emotional, anyway so the more in love he is the more action you’ll get
Jimin
Ok so hot take but Jimin is lowkey a sub
I mean he’s a switch but he leans sub
Very high sex drive will be down anytime, anywhere
You can make him hard with a wink and a smile 
No one has ever, in life, had as big a praise kink as Park Jimin
You’ll find that out real quick
If during sex, you say something like “you’re fucking me so good,” or “God, you’re so good, Jimin” he will come like a firehose like, immediately
In the top three best of the group at eating you out
He lives to please, honestly, so it’s one of his favorite things
He’s so proud when he makes you come hard
If you’re a squirter he might wife you
Is a little shit, will tease you for hours and loves it when you do the same
He is not too proud to beg he will love it when you tease him
Will praise you just as much as you praise him, telling you how hard you make him and how much he loves your cunt
If you want him to be a sub, he can do that, but he’ll be bratty as fuck and he would definitely never like a degradation kink or anything he’s not built to handle that kind of thing
He could take or leave head but if you go down on him just know he’s stupid loud so you won’t want to do it anywhere someone can hear you
Will always come in your mouth, doesn’t want it too messy unless it’s you coming and then he lives for you being a mess
He wants you shaking and begging him to let you breathe
O v e r s t i m u l a t i o n
Like, every time, and he likes it when you do it to him, too, that’s the only time he really truly loves a blowjob is when you suck the soul out of him
Ok so I know I said he’s sub leaning and he is
But if you make him jealous he will wreck you
And if you stand near a houseplant and not him long enough he’ll get salty so I mean it might happen a lot
He just wants all the attention, he needs all eyes on him, especially if he loves you
So if you laugh too hard at a joke someone makes or have an impromptu lunch date with a friend and he feels left out you are in trouble
He’ll be rough, pulling your hair and leaving all kinds of  marks all over your neck, he’ll bite you 
So like if you want Jimin to fuck you into next week just lowkey flirt with the waiter at dinner and you got it
THE KING OF SKYPE SEX
A whole exhibitionist
It’s so hot watching him jerk off, honestly, it makes you so wet
He could be a camboy star, for real
Gets off on knowing how much he affects you
Loves to send you thotty pictures but not too many dick pics, just like sexy selfies and shit
Asks for nudes every single day he’s on tour
He deadass will make a pic of you spreadeagled his lockscreen
If you agree to make a homemade video with him he will be SO happy and watch it all the damn time
If he wasn’t famous he’d post that shit on Redtube just for the comments
Would never under any circumstances do a threesome with a man or a woman he’d lose his whole mind if you even suggested it
Just tell him he’s a good boy he’ll be yours forever
Jungkook
So he’s not real experienced but eager to learn
He’s like Hobi he’ll try most things at least once
No one has ever loved blowjobs as much as Jungkook don’t @me
Will fall in love if you can deepthroat
Will always reciprocate, though, and will like it when you tell him exactly what you like
He’s r o u g h
I mean he’s sweet in general but rough in bed, if you’re giving him head he’ll grab your head and force you down, if you’re riding him he’ll grab your hips and buck up beneath you, he’ll go hard in doggy style because he likes to watch your ass jiggle
You’ve always got bruises on your hips like he won’t let them go away
H I G H E S T sex drive
You will be so tired
Sleep? Who needs it. Food? Maybe between sessions
Y’all are fighting? Ok, y’all are gonna fuck it out for like a whole day
Angry sex is SO good with him though
When he shoves you against a wall to kiss you and grind into you, you know it’ll be a good day
If he’s not trying to fuck you then he’s not into you, sorry I don’t make the rules
He likes it when you tease him a little but he gets frustrated quick and dicks you down
If you were into something like cockwarming he’d try it but it would not work out
He’d be inside you for maybe 2 minutes before he’d start fucking you into the mattress
Really leaves an unnecessary amount of hickies you own 7 turtlenecks
He’s oddly shy about mutual masturbation if you suggest it and he won’t finish that way, he’ll get so hot watching you that he’ll dick you down instead
Also part of the “Put a towel down” club when you’re on your period
If you’re out of commission sexually in any way he will beg you for blowjobs and handjobs, anything
Or will fuck you in the shower
Particularly loves it when you suck him off while the water’s hitting his back
He’ll get you all worked up, too, be touching you everywhere and you’ll be lowkey mad you can’t fuck
M o r n i n g s e x
You wake up every goddamn morning with his dick poking you in the back and him kissing your neck
If you tell him you’re too tired he’ll back off but he’ll be huffy
If he falls back asleep 2 hours later he’s trying you again
If you wake him up with a blowjob he’ll be so sweet to you all day, like he’ll fall in love all over again when he lifts the covers to see his cock in your mouth
He’s not too vocal during sex but he is loud during blowjobs because he just loves the visual
He doesn’t have a ton of stamina he’s too much of an eager bunny to fuck you for hours but he’s back up in thirty minutes so it’s not a problem
Never not asking you for nudes, won’t send you a single dick pic even if you ask
If you wear his clothes around him, you won’t be wearing them for long
He loves the way you look in his tshirts
One time it was laundry day and you put on a pair of his boxer briefs and he walks in and says no words to you just jumps you, starts kissing your neck and sticks his hand down his boxer briefs and makes you come in three minutes fast
You should only wear them if you want him to be all over you all day
btw he’s very good with his hands, the best other than Yoongi
He will NOT fuck you in public if you tease him in public though be prepared to be fucked into the next century when you get home
He gets hard at a moment’s notice he won’t even kiss you with tongue if you’re not in private
A strong breeze will give him a boner, particularly if it lifts your skirt a little bit
Will do Skype sex but be embarrassed while doing it, all blushy when you ask him to let you see him he’s so shy about it at first
But when he gets closer to coming he’s all winks and smirks and eyefucking the camera and you lose it
He could watch you touch yourself all day, has a collection of videos you’ve sent to use while he’s on tour
He will deadass jerk off to you in favor of porn
He admits to you with a blush that he’d jacked off to your social media pictures before you even started dating
Would never in a million years make a video with you or of himself he would be so embarrassed to see himself fucking on camera or even in front of a mirror
If he hurts you during sex because he’s too eager he’ll be very sorry afterward
He actually might cry
You’ll end up comforting him instead of the other way around but he’ll be so sweet to you for days
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30 Oct 19
Niall and Lewis Capaldi did a topless Instagram live in which they rubbed their chests, gave us nipple close ups, rambled and joked for like twenty minutes, and oh yeah- announced a joint North American arena tour. That was just a warm up, it's gonna be nonstop Newis content from here through summer y'all, GOOD TIMES! Tickets will go on sale Nov 8, and Niall said he'll be doing a full tour, and the rest of the dates will be announced soon. Nice To Meet Ya world tour starts in April in Nashville TN and this leg will feature Niall and Lewis with Fletcher opening. "Ultimate heartbreak tour" says Fletcher, and indeed, it will be a confusing mix of goofy hilarious content and heart-rending miserable songs! Can it get better than this, "no it can't!" says Niall.
Niall and Lewis' announcement was unique and in character- likewise Harry had his very own very Harry way of letting us know he's also touring next year (I mean we knew that but you know, he said it). In a preview of his Capital Breakfast interview, filmed via Skype and featuring Harry swaddled in plushy purple hooded bathrobe, he said he turned down the part of Prince Eric in The Little Mermaid: "you know it's one of those things where, sometimes when there are things, and things happen so yeah there's that you know," he said and then, perhaps carelessly, that it was because filming might have interfered with touring, quickly adding on, "I wanna tour next year and stuff, don’t know, that’s, you know, ah, potentially! maybe! I haven’t announced that yet!" When asked about being all oiled up and sexy in the Lights Up video he says oh well idk actually that's just mayonnaise aloe vera mostly umm I was really sunburned. IIRC Little Mermaid filming was scheduled for spring so along with anticipation of Harry dropping a single and his album within the next couple weeks, add tour dates at any time! No stress though! That's fine! We're made of money honest it's no problem guys! Harry has three morning radio appearances listed for tomorrow (UK time so in like a couple hours.) The Jools Holland appearance will air Nov 21 and 22.
As for Louis tour dates it's been noted that many of the areas conspicuously left off the list are the same places he's playing radio festivals, new ones of which are still being announced: it seems possible that those tour dates will be released after so as not to impact ticket sales for the festival shows. Louis was busy all day yesterday recording spots that haven't aired yet so lot more to come, but we've already gotten lots, including the excellent hour long Zack Sang interview. On the subject of what to expect on tour he says "No bells, no whistles, just kinda let the music do the talking and good light show," he said he expects the fan fave from the album to be DLIBYH or Always You, confirmed Walls as the fourth single (just before the album), says "I’m quite british, you know, so when I say a wall, it's a wall," that he'll be on a plane on Halloween, when talking about KMM says yeah well WMI is the first US single off the album really, and says he "never ever ever" gets tired of talking about the band, that he has footage of backstage at the last 1D show and how emotional that night was, that Diana is a banger, and says that he isn't ready to work things out with Zayn. A Long Island radio station has announced an LT tour meet and greet contest, probably the first of many.
Liam did a surprise presentation of a Pride of Britain Award in a pre recorded segment: the Award show will air on Nov 5.
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A LIST OF MUN INFO.
———  BASICS! ♡
NAME! ♡    Soda
PRONOUNS! ♡   he/him.
ZODIAC SIGN! ♡    taurus
TAKEN OR SINGLE! ♡    i would rather fuss about my cat than relationship drama because nobody fucking communicates these days and I don’t like nor play passive-aggressive games with people.
———  THREE  FACTS! ♡
1! ♡    I have a natural tolerance to anesthesia, which absolutely fucking sucks when I need to get any kind of ‘twilight’ operation done like dental work. I woke up 3 times when they tried to extract my wisdom teeth and they had to stop midway through the process because they were worried about how much juice I was on (spoiler alert: I could barely walk out of the office, so my mom picked me up and I promptly rolled off the car seat and onto the floor). They had to send me to an oral surgeon and put me under just to finish up, which cost way more :/
2! ♡    I was born in a VERY rural farming... area in Korea. The word used to describe it directly translates into ‘smaller than a village’, so it was pretty out in the boonies. Most people from Seoul haven’t even heard of the place when I ask them about it, until I mention the prefecture.
3! ♡    I finally quit smoking and am v. proud of myself.
———  EXPERIENCE! ♡
PLATFORMS USED! ♡   Used to use AIM, Proboards, Livejournal, & Skype- now I just use Tumblr and Discord.
———  MUSE  PREFERENCE! ♡
GENDER! ♡   i rp dudes mostly, I just have never managed to get many people interested in my female muses AT ALL (canon or OC). Some ppl I know it’s their problem, other times I’m really not sure because I put the same amount of care and effort into my portrayals? I don’t wanna seem like a hypocrite, but if nobody’s interested, I can only howl into the void with my headcanons and meta for so long.
LEAST FAVOURITE FACE(S)! ♡    I kinda don’t like when ppl use specific races as a stand in for a purely fantasy race? For awhile in Dragon Age’s RPC I saw a lot of people using real Asian FCs, but ONLY FOR ELVES and I was like “WHA...???”
MULTI OR SINGLE! ♡    I honestly should just make a multi, but... idk, I just have never been good at organizing a multi before. I don’t think Tumblr lends itself well to multis.
———  FLUFF / ANGST / SMUT! ♡
FLUFF:    I like it, but I can get sick of it if it’s the ONLY dynamic going on.
ANGST:    My bread and butter, but I don’t like angst that serves zero purpose.
SMUT:    I approach it like everything else I write, but with more *MASSIVE SHRUG* involved. It’s not something I write a lot just cuz it’s kinda boring??? Idk, I feel like when I do write smut, I kinda just repeat the same phrases or descriptions and I’d honestly rather take a nap if I’m going to be sitting there accomplishing nothing. But I do think ppl need to chill tf out about it, like- If it’s not your thing that’s fine, but don’t attack ppl who are into writing it more. Let ppl have fun, that’s what RP should be- FUN.
PLOT / MEMES! ♡   I do like talking about character dynamics and ideas a lot, but when it comes to what actually happens, it usually doesn’t follow what I initially think will happen. Which makes it fun, tbh- I can see angles or think up responses I wouldn’t imagine under regular circumstances. And when I run out of ideas, memes are always handy to break the ice.
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vampire au post
4 skype convos haphazardly mixed in from very different times
[29/11/2014 4:27:51 AM] Probably Not Assorted Cheeses: Vampire au
Lucas the incompetent vampire who eats mostly animals
Duster was the one who bit him, only bc duster was literally starving n lucas came at a bad time
idk if duster should be born a vampire or not but Wes is one too and together they taught lucas how to survive.
however eventually they had to leave, they offered for lucas to join them but lucas can’t leave his family behind, the kid’s too sentimental :’(
so together they staged his death (which im too lazy to try n think of)
claus knew bout the vampire thing tho, lucas couldn’t live alone like that. He also ended up biting Boney in an accident so hey vampire dog.
claus grew up and eventually had his own family. Lucas could only really watch from afar but then the kids got his age and it was hard to see him and keep the gig up. He visited his parents funeral anonymously and afterwards him and claus stood there just
“sup” “how’re the kids” “twice your age and with kids of their own” “heh, i always thought you would be the one with kids yano?” 
it was very bittersweet, it felt like they’ve never been apart 
“it never stops feeling strange without you” "I know” 
lucas thinks of that conversation a lot
he started off the "younger uncle" then the "weird neighbourhood kid that visits grandpa claus" and inevitably the "weird kid from nowhere who goes to the cemetary every other month to put flowers on graves older than appears to be"
SO without attachments lucas traveled with boney, hoping that they find duster along the way.
eventually lucas comes back to tazmilly but it’s been a couple hundred years now and it’s completely different so he doesn’t recognize it
n lucas one day is caught outside with no shelter, it’s almost morning so he runs into osohe (which is way outta town so he assumed it was abandoned)
vampires can’t enter homes without being invited in because apparently homes are holy land but osohe is fuckn haunted so that doesn’t apply (adding on to the abandoned theory)
that’s how kumatora and him meet, she finds him exploring osohe all “wtf the fuck who are YOU...this me house”
So she gets an awkward lie explanation from lucas 
n she eventually catches on lucas is a vampire n is just DUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUDE I NEVER MET A VAMPIRE BEFORE FUCKN SWEET
lucas is just UM.;;; IS IT OK IF I STAY
"oh dude it's cool!! but u gotta tell me bout yourself bc i never met a vampire before ok?? i live iN THE PERFECT GOTHIC HOME BUT THERE’S NONE!! but here you are and i’m JACKED i gotta go to work tho so brb but afterwards u gotta tell me about yourself ok CYA"
lucas is still processing everything by the time she leaves, but he’s grateful and figures a conversation is the least he can do to repay her
in this au kumatora’s into cryptology bc her house is FULL of books and it’s a common subject (also the fact her castle is filled with ghosts and there are zombies just across the moat, it’s a p convenient hobby)
when she comes back she’s super excited because he’s still there 
lucas is kinda reserved but he still answers questions bc it’s POLITE
she asks bout p much everything?? “HEY do you need that” “y-yes” “is this true?” “not that i know of” “ok experiment time” “uH;;” “wait am i keeping you up?? it’s still daytime” “no it’s okay” 
after exhausting lucas of all his Vampire Facts kuma invites lucas to live at osohe castle, it’s big enough anyways
lucas is wary af bc he doesn't wanna accidentally get close to someone who 1. has a life span and 2. is technically food
but lucas ends up sticking around anyways, boney really likes it and he lowkey enjoys her company
so they keep chillin n lucas tells her how he hunts animals n how he only takes a bit of blood so they don't die and 
IDK I GO BY THE THEORY THAT VAMPIRES HAVE VENOM bc otherwise their entire food source becomes COMPETITION n they can bite but not?? TURN THEM INTO ANYTHIng so controlled blood flow for feeding purposes
also vampires only need to eat once or twice a month? they die around 6+ months without eating from starvation. It all depends on how quickly the blood cells in their body die basically.
ALSO when they bite you it doesn’t hurt bc their saliva numbs it so (sneaky bites) but it still feels weird as shit
bUT YA SO LUCAS N KUMATORA CHAt a whole bunch...you know that “accidentally get close” thing i mentioned? it happened
(it was kinda hard to avoid when the first companion you have that’s not your dog is informed on vampires and vampire goods, that was convenient)
so they keep hangin out and kumatora unlocks his Tragic Backstory
n sometimes kumatora helps him feed? like they go out together finding animals n storing blood
n lucas is fascinated with how technology has advanced bc he doesn't really?? go into towns anymore but he fuckn LOVES it
n they play video games n general COOL FUNTIMES
kumatora let’s lucas borrow her labtop to occupy himself and he looks for other vampires or hints of them
(this is under the assumption that osohe can get electricity in a modern au while still being ignored / abandoned)
n when kumatora goes to work he cleans up the castle n tries to show how much hE REALLY APPRECIATES HEr
n lIKE i also go by the logic that vampires do not do the stereotypical “turn into ashes at sunlight” it is a slow progression that takes up to 12 hours until absolutely turned to a crisp 
so basically if he covers himself and wears a shit ton of sunscreen he can chill in the middle of the day for like...a hour or two
and bc kumatora's WORTH IT he visits her at work n she's all LucAS WHAT ARe yO U DoING??   
lookin like a modern goth kid......has a huge red burn on his cheek..
he blames it on how pale/blonde he is “my brother is ginger you know”
kuma gets super worried n he's all bruh it cool i have like..2 more hours until i need to go to a hospital   
n kumas jsuT I GET OFF IN 4 HOURS GO HOME
kumatora invites him to movie nights with her friends n shit
people start calling lucas kumatora's goth boyfriend “never call him that when he's around or i'll murder you”
theyre all rather cool with lucas and find his speech kinda funny?
"wow look at those teeny boppers" "GET A LOAD OF THIS GUY GOD I LOVE IT" “???????????????" kumas friends ask for lucas more all WHAT SCHOOL DOES HE GO TO WHERE DOES HE LIVE "oh he's......foreign B)"
eventually it comes up how lucas doesn’t really want to be a vampire anymore and kumatoras just “dude i can help you find a cure” bc maybe her hobby is a bit Excessive but live your dreams
but ya lucas is just?? constantly wants to visit kumatora n loves her night shifts!! visits all the time they go on hikes a lot n jusT? GETS SO FUCKIGN ATTACHED IT SCARES HIM CONSTANTLY
they sometimes fall asleep on the couch together n when he's all "wow shes so cute.." he realizes how fucking Deep he’s in this and he’s FUCKED
he tries to distance himself but he Can’t Fucking Do It (just like w/ his fam)
whenever he tries to push her away she looks so upset it kills him 
N HE'S IN SUCH A STRUGGLE BC HE'S JUST
SO HAPPY TO BE AROUND HER??????
N LIKE WHEN THEY CUDDLE N STUFF HE'S JUST SO OVERWHELMED BC oh my god heartbeats!! oh my god she's gonna die before me
n lucas really fucking feels the severity of how FUCKED he is when its her birthday n hes just
yes she's gonna age and he's gonna outlive her n they could never realistically be happy even if by some offhand chance she even RETURNS the feelings
N HE HAS TO HIDE HIS CRYING N STUFF BUT KUMATORA HAS  A 6TH FUCKN SENSE FOR DISTRESSED LUCAS SO SHE'S ALL bruh :( whats up
so he opens up to her about his feelings and anxiety and she hugs him through it, it’s kind of a shitty way to confess 
“idk if i can forgive you for deciding that i’m gonna die before you” “are you threatening murder” “that and no way death’s gonna get me, i’m pretty stubborn”
a lil while passes
“you know... i’m okay with becoming a vampire” lucas refuses bc dude.. you can’t even comprehend the weight of immortality.. what if she regrets it 
“to hell if i make my closest friend suffer because of a life span” “hah i guess that’s the same for me”
they drop the vampire topic for the time being and move on to other ones such as... mutual feelings :^)
they’re both romantically inclined i mean... lucas spent 300+ years being a hermit and kumatora had other things to do
so they take it slow, it’s p much the same as before except.. hey...now when i think “man i wanna hold their hand” i CAN
it'd also be really sad and/or cute if the ghosts in the castle some of them were lucas's family which might be why boney likes it so much but also imagine them kissin on the couch "kuma ghosts r there" "EH THEYRE JUst ghosts" ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) claus looks into the camera "after so long... finally my little brother gets some action :')"
but idk if that’s a thing bc it feels kinda weird i feel like kissin n shit wouldn't b very often bc as much as they both loVE IT 
IT'S NOT THAT GREAT FOR A VAMPIRE
YANO.... HEARTS R BEATING... NECK IS RIGHT THERE (lucas still adores it tho)
so back to the topic of Mortality
kuma gets attacked in an alley on the way home from work
n lucas finds her bc they were gonna meet up but he smelt the blood and when he does find her he just goes FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK n didn't know how to save her 
also thinking rationally is hard when OH LOOK AT ALL THAT BLOOD AHhaHA
SO HE BITES HER
he carries her body home n he spends the whole waiting process between DEAD and VAMPIRE crying just "hoyl shti please work please work" “what did i fucking dooooo” “what if i was earlier” “what if i was too late” so many anxieties
kuma wakes up and lucas transistions from panic to HAPPY PANIC OH THANK GOD
she’s really out of it bc of the process and he’s crying apologies “it’s okay you saved me” but he’s still crying, they cuddle for comfort
"hey atleast we did it NOW when i'm a hot sexy 19 yr old and not a wrinkly old lady” “kuma” “i’m tryna make light of the conversation”
so now that kumatora’s a vampire she only works night shifts until she eventually quits. They moved to a new town / whatever so it was easy to avoid having to meet someone in the daytime. facebook helped keep in touch with her friends while still letting the friendship die out.
it took kumatora a bit to get used to being a vampire. she threw up a lot at first and she didn’t like having to drink blood but she did eventually get used to it
idk if they find a cure bc idk what the cure would BE but they eventually find other vampires :^) they continued lucas’s search for duster and probably found him tbh
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Ep. #1 - “hail santa that is all.” (Chrissa)
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Nothing much really so far. We got into tribes so far everyone seems cool ans all so can't wait to see what happens from here.
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Opening thoughts: I'm very much downplaying my knowledge, making it seem like I care most about challenges, know nothing about how online Survivor works (I played and hosted one) and not a massive amount about the actual show either, asking a lot of questions. Trying to find people with the most similar personalities and let others propose any alliances.
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boy am i overwhelmed
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Day 1; So I'm sitting here, eating dinner, a salad with garlic bread and a mike's hard pineapple strawberry lemonade, and I decide to do a confessional! Lets talk about my tribe, first and foremost. We're the "Second Chances" tribe. Fitting, we're all FLOPS. Imma do this in the order we were REVEALED to the world. Because that's cute, right? We're basically the beauty tribe bc everyone is lowkey real scrumptious lookin. Eric; Before this game, Eric and I bonded in the Ahkmim VL about how we never get cast for tumblr survivor, and how we're waiting for redemption, and I'd feel bad leaving him as the first boot. So hopefully he'd also feel bad, and wanna talk to me. I don't think the two of us have much in common yet, he's into anime, and reading, which is like, two things I'm not really down for, but I'm definitely gonna give Spirited Away a try sometime soon so I can talk to him about it. I kinda wanna ask if the red in his hair is naturally like.. blood red. But maybe that's the lighting in the room, or maybe he died it even MORE ginger, because I often hear to him referred to as GINGER Eric, but also i don't wanna have an awkward "No, this is just like.. normal ginger" conversation. Megan; Ohhhh Megan.. my girl Megan. We've had a rocky road in our friendship, and I wish I was just talking about ice cream. Something about her though just makes me have infinite patience for the things the two of us deal with, I can't help but just want to be with her all the time. I scouted her out from FaceBook to play my Whodunnit, and we've been extremely close ever since, our game relationship has been rocky enough for me to worry slightly about her, but all I can do is trust her, and build good enough relationships with other people that if she tried to fuck me over, I would know, and strike first. Its still unclear to this day whether she had a hand in my elimination in a Big Brother game we played, 1984. What is crystal clear, is that we cried together while she cast her vote to evict me. I love her, won't never stop lovin her. I'm hoping this can be OUR season to dominate, because I feel like we're almost evenly matched when it comes to a jury vote. Will; "Whoop-de-do" iconic king of not getting his haircut. Uhh.. idk what all to say, because before the game, I knew nothing of this man. However, Monty said something about him being alive and on Skype, and my mind immediately goes to "Is he hot?" and I check his profile, and publicly announce that he's hot. Which isn't FALSE, but then we both get revealed for the game, and put on the same tribe. So now we're vibing, and relating on the fact that tumblr players hate us, and we've deemed each other, "Heather". He's currently petitioning to call our tribe "The Heathers" instead of Enlil. We get on really well, and he's pretty damn cute. Also, he goes to bed SO early, I hope we get enough time to talk and get close on this tribe. Julian; Well. This is a lot to unpack, but I found out he was playing about 3 days before the game, and since that point. He's gotten unnecessarily aggressive with me, and a couple others over non-tumblr related matters. Julian and I have a rocky history, between me being recruited, and auto-casted for his ORG, Trinity Survivor, his ex-co-host/current-best friend berating me, and deleting messages to make me look bad. To Julian throwing passive aggressive low-blows about my social ineptitude in my face if I'm angry about something, to us making final 3 together in minis. Overall, I'm constantly at odds about how I perceive our relationship, I want to be able to assume the best of him, and say that I'm good in his book, no matter what happens. I think a lot of the time, our friend group isn't the most mature, and it is really difficult to have an adult conversation with someone from within that friend group, without someone else having an opinion to share on it, so I've heard things that he's said about me, that I'm not necessarily sure if its true or not, but I try my best to hold a strong, level head and smile whenever I see him, but sometimes its difficult wanting to approach a conversation with someone head on, but knowing that you can't do that with him is definitely a struggle of mine. We have very different communication styles, and its difficult to see past it sometimes. For now, I'm going to be working with him, but I'm not sure how long that can last, as he admits it himself, he can only handle my personality for short periods of time. Jack; Well, Jack hasn't said a single word for the last three hours, since the game has begun. I don't WANT to have to stay up till 5-6 in the morning to try to have a conversation with him, but if that's what I gotta do, then that's what I gotta do. Chrissa; Chrissa, Todd. My LOVE. Chrissa is someone that I owe something to, she's amazing, beautiful, talented, show stopping, never before seen, etc. Our game relationship is not great, because I organized her first boot in Ascendance Season 4; Back to the Future. However, it was because she was attached to someone that kept accusing me of having powers behind my back. So, hopefully Chrissa forgives me, and gives me another chance, because I'd love to work with her. I feel like Chrissa is someone who is extremely intelligent, and loyal, and that's someone I want on my side. I love my tribe, lets win every challenge until the merge!!
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Well... I’m back again... not going inactive this time! Let’s just do a quick roundup for now: JJ seems to think we’re in a showmance already which is either great or bad for my game, Megan’s a sweetheart and I could see us aligning, Eric is definitely a gamer and I have a feeling he’ll be a loyal, jack and Julian are both pretty straightforward and seem on the quieter side, and Chrissa straight up vanished already so we’ll see how that goes! Basically somebody thinks I’m their husband but I don’t know if I ever signed the prenup, but if it means JJ is gonna spill on how he feels about everyone then that’s some good insight. Nobody really wants to talk game yet but that’ll change soon!! Kk bye for now
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Night 1/Morning 2: Everyone on my tribe seems extremely cool and I'm loving the way the tribes are divided. The only name I recognized on the cast was Monty's and he's on my tribe! I don't know him personally but I think he first played around when I was hosting a season. I have hit it off with Johnny the best so far I think, and definitely Isabelle as well. I seem to have a lot in common with both of them on a personal level. Strategically, I haven't locked anything down yet. I don't want to come right out and blurt "ALLIANCE?" with anyone; for right now I'm just trying to play it cool, get to know people as well as I can, and be a likeable presence in the tribe so people just wanna have me around.
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I just asked Collin to talk to Adam about forming a four person alliance, which Collin will "bring" me into while Adam suggests someone. This might secure me in a four person alliance which would be ideal, but if it backfires, it will backfire on Collin, not on me. I'm trying to get myself into a majority while insulating myself from being seen as the strategic threat
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First confessional before first IC
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I was thrust on a good tribe we have JJ and Eric and hopefully this group of people won't make us last in competitions atleast lol maybe if we lose though hopefully i can argue why jack needs to go with his timezone but hopefully i don't have too. 
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im ngl idk why i decided to play tumblr survivor again and the instant paranoia of just caring about my PLACEMENT is going to keep me up at night *shivers*
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It's been a day in and so far I really like our tribe! I'm vibing with a few of them and it looks like there's been alliance formed between myself, Julian and JJ. JJ has said that he owes it to Chrissa not to vote her out if we lose, and I think he has something with Megan on the side based off what Julian has told me. That leaves Will and Jack, and I've talked with Will a ton. Tomorrow I'm gonna try and see if he wants to work with me too because I feel like to win this season, you will need to keep all your options open. 
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Day 2: I got to talk to Jack last night, he was talkin about how he did some funky fresh survivor statistics on how tribe swaps affect tribe line loyalties, which I found super interesting. Then I decided to share a statistics thingy I did on how the Final 3 format doesn't produce an even ratio of male / female winners, but the Final 2 format does, and how potentially something about the final 3 format in survivor could be a factor in why we haven't had enough female winners in the last few generations of survivor. But he didn't even believe there was a female bias in survivor.. which kinda threw me off. Oh well, we ended the conversation on a good note before I went to bed. Well, the tribe seems to be getting along well, I tried to get a tribe call going, but it ended up just being me and Megan helping Chrissa with strategies to get higher scores in the challenge. She can't seem to break 100, and I feel really bad for her, I hope the rest of us can carry this competition, because I would feel like the worst human being in the world if I gave someone first boot twice in a row. Not to mention I'd consider Chrissa a friend of mine. Maybe I'm playing this game a bit too emotionally, before we even have our first tribal. What a concept.. Will and I are only getting closer and closer, we continuously refer to each other, affectionately, as "Heather". But he really lied to me today, pretty hard core. He said he was gonna order his weight in mexican food when he got off work... but he ate Thai instead...? How dare he ??? Rude. Anyways, if he's lying about that, what else could he lie to me about? Smh. Fuckboys amirite? I think that if we lose this challenge, Jack would be an easy vote off. He's in a different timezone, and his age unfortunately would make it really difficult to have a decent social game. If we lose more than once, there's one of two things that could happen.. 1.) There's a standoff between Julian, Megan and I, trying to maneuver this tribe to remove each other. Which is exactly why a friendship / showmance / whatever with Will is so important. Will would likely be the swing vote they try to get, I don't see Chrissa voting me out if I prove my loyalty at the first tribal our tribe faces. 2.) The three of us dominate the premerge portion of the game, and it becomes an impossible to maneuver situation for me at the merge, because all the connections I have outside of my own tribe, both Julian or Megan also have a hand in, with the exception of Jay, who I don't find myself falling that closely to. I feel like I might be thinking too much, too fast. I guess I just can't show the rest of my tribe that. I'm hoping my reads on the tribe are at least somewhat correct this time around. :/
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Collin never ended up messaging Adam, and I was worried about falling behind the 8-ball, so I took alliance building measures into my own hands. I messaged Zach about joining up by stating that Collin had told me he also had a good conversation with Zach, and I made sure Zach didn't just feel "brought in" by asking him which person he would want to be 4 in our alliance. He suggested Cameron, which is fine by me. He hasn't officially reached out to Cameron yet, but our plan is to bring Cameron in if we end up losing, and I will probably want to vote Kyle or Grace in that scenario. Hope we don't lose though!
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I don't really (or at least usually) stress about challenges and definitely not this early in the game, but some of these people are so stressed and panicky. Will (who I talked to about aligning earlier today like I had said I would in my last confessional) is stressed about not being able to beat his current high score of 199 and feels like he's on the lower end and might be eliminated. I was telling him though that this isn't necessarily about your score, but your ranking. You can get 209 or 189 and still get the same ranking. Chrissa on the other hand is totally panicking. She has an admittedly low score of 89 which she forgot to screenshot which is really rough. She same flash games aren't her thing (and I believe her) but when I tried to calm her down and say there's lots of time to improve and that we can win this, she continued to panic. There's not much I can do for her. I'm not aligned with her right now and she's just really scared to get first boot, which I don't even think will happen. JJ feels obliged not to make her first boot should the scenario present itself, and I'm aligned with him and Julian. If anyone's going home right now, it's probably Jack unless he has connections I am unaware of. I would really like to win though because I love our beauty tribe xoxo 
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I managed to find the idol clue, and in telling my formed trio of Collin and Zach, Zach accidentally revealed that he had found it too. I don't think he intended to tell me, so now I am not sure if I fully trust him. I'll work with him for now, but he is going to be a big move player and I'll have to watch out for that
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Forgive me father for i have sinned it's been a day since my last confession I've made some progress me and grace knowing each other well pregame means i have an instant ally coming in to help not be first.....or second out and me and Collin seem to be kinda working together I guess?? I hope not fully sure but I feel confident I'm not going if we go to tribal.
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hiiii so glad to be back in the game!!!! So thankful I have the opportunity to redeem myself after my huge flop in 94, but lowkey worried about being on the An tribe? Only because it is filled with people who have done well in the past I’m not sure how to measure where I fall within them, but everyone has been very nice and seems to get along with me so far! Also it seems like there is no suspicion from them about Zach and I being siblings which is STELLAR. From looking at the cast I think the only person who knows for sure is JJ, and perhaps Megan? But thankfully they aren’t on a tribe with either of us so that might work in our favor. I’m a little nervous about this first challenge but I have one of the highest scores on my tribe atm, so I feel like if we go to tribal it might be okay. Fingers crossed hehe ;))
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FUCK entanglement! FUCK IT IT IS THE WORK OF THE DEVIL hail santa that is all.
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Zach is playing super hard out in the open. That is good for me, he can make connections to help our alliance, and if there is ever a moment where our alliance gets exposed, he will probably be out in the forefront as a target. The flip side of that is that I might not be able to go to the end with him if he could be perceived as the leader of my alliance, so I'll need to see how the game develops
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We came in second in the immunity challenge by ONE POINT. Thank the lord because our group seems very cohesive at the moment, and going to tribal would have put everyone into scramble mode. I've been bonding the closest over the first 4 days with Isabelle, and I am hoping it can lead to a strong game relationship. Right now, we seem to be very social with one another and we have gone as far as to say we wouldn't vote for one another, but I'm still sort of waiting for that defining confirmation (as much as you can get that in Survivor). After that, I'd say I've been pretty chatty with Johnny and Monty equally (but I think I have a slightly tighter personal bond so far with Johnny). Abrielle I talked to more so over the first couple of days but I would say between her, Jay and Madison those are the ones I've made the least connection with. They all seem like good people, just haven't had as much traction chatting with them. I don't want us to go to tribal for as long as we can help it, because for me the best case scenario heading into a swap would be if our tribe had the numbers advantage and some sort of tribe-wide unity going into it. I feel like that way I could be in a good spot but also not in the forefront of the tribe alliance (I'd hope that would sort of fall on Monty or Johnny maybe because of their Tumblr Survivor experience). For now though, just continuing to get to know everyone as best I can and try and make sure people want me around, and have me in their plans moving forward.
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https://youtu.be/bwCjV8my_Zc ok my mom walked in so i didn't get to finish my thought, but i guess the full thought is just: what the fuck? like i'm really gonna be watching this vid on repeat while y'all are just trolling us. this will end up in my nightmares. know that. also my paranoia is once again setting in. as i mentioned in previous confessional, i feel like ben and i have bonded the most, and we've both pointed it out to each other, but now i feel like he's pointing it out... almost too much? he's basically comparing our convos to his with the rest of the tribe and that they're much better (which i lowkey agree), but something feels fishy because again IM PARANOID. AM I BEING PLAYED?? like literally the scenario in my mind is that everyone's aligned except me and ben has been chosen as the bug to make me feel comfortable. okay yes im crazy. and it's only day 2 whew! im going to bed goodnight.
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ok now ive found a video about spectograms the channel has liked. this hunt is getting me anxious bc slowly but surely the amount of views on the immunity idol vid is increasing. AHHHH
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ok i found the spectogram and it literally spells out "SINK." (also this shit is scary so again, my nightmare comment holds.) so there are 5 other followers, which makes me know for sure that at least 5 other ppl have found this vid. also i have no idea what to do with the word. i assume that it'll come in handy eventually (maybe a password? send in a chat? comment on the vid? something?) and i really really hope im the only person to find this. i know that's unlikely tho.
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oh my god. oh my fucking god. the clue is at survivor-mesopotamia.tumblr.com/sink . im screaming. proud of myself. BUT of course it says... "clue Though you have found it, No clue has emerged. UNDER CONSTRUCTION, Come back when you’ve merged." i- i have to wait until i've merged. HA. we'll see if bitches get that far. and im bitches. anyways sorry for the spam, now back to your regularly scheduled programming
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Day 3: I almost forgot to do this confessional. But here I am, in bed, watching Avatar, and drinking butterscotch milk with Irish cream, which is surprisingly good? Anyways, here we go! First, you’re telling me that we LOST the challenge.. what the hell :( I thought I did so well having 188, but apparently even 256 wasn’t going to cut it. The fact that if Jack could improve his score by 30 points, means we’d be safe from tribal, it annoys me that it felt like he didn’t try as hard as Chrissa in the flash game? Julian, he says we can beast through this game and make final three. This is something I’d really love to be able to trust that he has in mind, but I just am unsure at this moment. He gave me information towards the idol search that I appreciate, and probably wouldn’t have figured it out myself. That felt good, but I feel like he wasn’t giving me everything he knew, just enough to make me feel comfortable. I’ll have to continue to keep my eye on him.. Next, Heather, or Will, my potential showmance. We’ve finally got the opportunity to call each other, we talked about the idol search, and our potential moves in the future. He told me he likes the idea of not playing with Julian, but right after he told me this, Julian asked if we were good? Which was kinda sketch. But I’ll do my best to trust Will, and call it a weird coincidence. Megan hasn’t talked to me much today, but she was a room moderator for sequester, and was visiting a friend today, so I can’t blame her. Chrissa is hopefully safe, I can’t give her first boot in back to back games together, I refuse to be that heartless. She’s so good I can’t do it. Eric hasn’t talked to me much either. For someone who should probably know that his name is on the block, I’m surprised Jack isn’t talking too much to me? Maybe it’s because I’m on the chopping block and I don’t know it. I’d be really heartbroken if I were the first boot.
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So we lost the challenge by ONE FREAKING POINT, which sucks ass. But not me doing the best in my tribe on the challenge. We stan improvement. Anyway, it looks like the discussion for the vote is between Jack and Chrissa, namely Jack. Though Chrissa performed worse in the challenge, she's done a better job connecting with the rest of us than Jack has. As of now, that's what the general concensus is. I talked to Julian and he agreed, and we are aligned with JJ. Chrissa would vote our way to make sure it isn't her. Another thing that's happening is the idol search. The video made literally no freaking sense, but when the channel liked this video about spectograms, Julian put the video into it and it spelled sink. It turned out that by putting the word sink into the blog link, it says a clue will be there but at the merge. I guess this means for now there will be no idols, so as long as the people im with are truthful, the person who is planned to go home at tribal will go home without a shadow of a doubt.
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Right now everyone on the tribe is at peace and getting along, but we all know that’s gonna change when we go to tribal council.
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I'm sad we lost the first challenge. I came back to do better than i did the first time, so the idea of being the first boot would suck. I'm not that close with Chrissa so 100% she's my vote. She has played more seasons than all of us & the second chancers deserve their time. Also, Chrissa did the worst out of us in the challenge so it makes it easier to convince everyone to vote for her, but i also dont want to be the one who targets her first because that could come back round to me, and i would hate that as i've waited over a year for a 2nd shot at this. At the moment i'm closest with JJ & Will F, they are 100% my final 3 right now. I like Megan & Eric as well. I've only had 1 comversation with Julian and we did get on well but we havent talked about anything since then. I've tried to talk to Chrissa but she's never really tried to talk to me.
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Hi!! Megan for my first confessional!! Yall are gonna have to remind me throughout my time in this game to do these because I'm SO bad at remembering to do confessionals lmaooo. So this first round there's been a lot going on. There are three tribes- newbies, flops, and a tribe of vets who have played well. Clearly I am on the flop tribe, because I was a SAD pre-merge boot in Svalbard. I was feeling really excited about my tribe and definitely thought we could do well and at least not lose the first challenge - we don't want to be flops again!! But alas, after a long day of doing that stupid entanglement flash game, we have proven our labels and FLOPPED yet again, getting last. SO. now we have to go to tribal council tonight. I am out of town this weekend so I haven't been able to talk to many people but I hope I can make it through this first vote. All I've heard so far is that people want to keep the tribe strong so we don't lose another challenge, and based on the first challenge scores, the two bottom challenge players would be Chrissa and Jack. So far I have heard that people want to do Jack instead of Chrissa, which I am fine with. I haven't talked to him that much and I think the time zone difference unfortunately puts him at a disadvantage, so honestly, we should probably vote him out first. I am nervous of course though because people have been fairly quiet and that's never a good thing, but I am hoping and praying that nothing crazy happens and Jack is the first boot and all is good and fine with that. Okay now I'll talk a little about the players on the tribe and how I feel about them- Okay so obviously I know JJ and Julian fairly well from previous games & also being in various group chats together. So far we are planning on working together as a trio and I am GOOD with that so far. Chrissa I have played with once before but she's not very social or talkative, and tbh, I haven't had a DM with her in this game yet, but she seems sweet. Eric I like a lot, he is funny and outgoing and a little chaotic and I love that in him. I think I know him from something previously but quite honestly I don't remember him, but he remembers me LOL. I hope they're good memories. Jack, again, I haven't talked to him much because of the time difference I think. Also isn't he like a minor? Oof that's weird. Anyway onto the final member of my tribe - the king, the legend, the literal love of my life - WILL!!!! I had never met Will before this game but we vibed IMMEDIATELY. We get along so well and we have a lot of things in common and we like the same kinda things. We've had a lot of really good conversations already and I feel the closest to him in this game by far, even though I have known other people on my tribe longer. I adore Will and I will do everything in my power to make sure we both get as far in this game as we can. Okay I think that's enough for a first confessional, bye!!!
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Things have been pleasant and slow so far. Everyone on the tribe seems nice and at this point I’m still just hoping that we’ll all get as far in the game as possible at the expense of the more experienced players. I’m a little concerned because I haven’t really been party to any strategy talk yet; I think that’s just because no one has thought it necessary while we don’t have to go to tribal, but I’m still worried I might just be on the outs and not know it.
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hiiii so glad to be back in the game!!!! So thankful I have the opportunity to redeem myself after my huge flop in 94, but lowkey worried about being on the An tribe? Only because it is filled with people who have done well in the past I’m not sure how to measure where I fall within them, but everyone has been very nice and seems to get along with me so far! Also it seems like there is no suspicion from them about Zach and I being siblings which is STELLAR. From looking at the cast I think the only person who knows for sure is JJ, and perhaps Megan? But thankfully they aren’t on a tribe with either of us so that might work in our favor. I’m a little nervous about this first challenge but I have one of the highest scores on my tribe atm, so I feel like if we go to tribal it might be okay. Fingers crossed hehe ;))
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I’m SCARED I’ve been out of the loop for TOO LONG. 
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from what I've heard i am safe i won't be comfortable until i heard the votes not being all me. 
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My brand is having 4 minute confessionals
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from episode 1 https://youtu.be/VqDkCGLTARU
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Jack voted out 6-1
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anonymous said: ☂ (we all know u wanna go feral)
anonymous / ask the mun / accepting.
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☂:  spread some love: mention someone you’ve met that has influenced you or your writing in a positive way, and explain how.
hell yeah bromther you know gotdamn well i wanna. i’ve been waiTING FOR THIS VERY MOMENT TO GUSH ABOUT @thusspoke​ AKA KITTY AKA MY DARLING SON AKA MY FAVORITE AKA MY BUDDY, COMPATRIOT, BEST FRIEND.
ngl i’m glad kitty has a more solid timeline bc all i recall is that we met in bleach rpc a loooong while back through a mutual friend (that they’ve already mentioned turned out to be trash but i just wanna... reiterate. said friend at the  time was garbage. with a capital g.), but i am like... very very very grateful i, at least, met kitty through them!! and i definitely remember seeing their grimmjow and being like, lowkey, very... impressed bc i was kinda lukewarm on grimmjow as a character beforehand? nothing to do with him, honestly, just more-so due to his fandom at the time! but i basically adored everything about their blog-- their writing, their headcanons, their theme, their overall aesthetic and goals for the blog... just basically? like everything. everything is my final answer, jeff.
i was scared as fuck to add them back on skype simply because... y’know. anxiety, but i’m so glad i took the plunge? i warmed up to them almost immediately, like. i felt so comfortable by their presence, because they were so chill, so down-to-earth, and just... easy to talk to? like i honestly think their vibes are contagious one way or another, bc whenever i talked to them i just immediately relaxed JNSGKMJNGKM idk it’s really hard to put into words but they’re really just so fun to talk to? we could be talking about literally nothing and we’d still find some way to make a joke out of it and whatever else. i also gotta applaud them because they met me when i was going through a very toxic “breakup” with a friend, and i’m more than sure it sometimes reflected in my mood whenever we talked sometimes but they just kind of...? paid it no mind and worked their damnedest to talk to me like normal and treat me like a friend, and that is something i appreciate so damn in a person? they’re just really so sweet and it shows even in the little gestures they do.
honestly yeah i’m ngl i was soooo shocked at how young they were and i probably. did just. get naturally protective over them the instant we grew closer, just because like... there was some bad shit going down in the bleach rpc and i just?? did not want to see them go through any more than what already happened. i just honestly admired their writing (even though there have been times they’re really... humble which, by the way, stop that, kitty. you are good. very good. the goodest of the good.) from the get-go, and i wanna say that that seeing them write might’ve inspired me to keep writing? idk it’s like... their passion was and still is very contagious, you know? i like being around them, even when our conversations just randomly drop off just because... u kno, sometimes conversations die off. i honestly appreciate their patience in regards to that because i know it’s been a point of contempt with me and other ppl but with them it’s just... something they’ve accepted immediately? which is just... you really don’t see that a lot nowadays and tbh? that makes them even more a diamond than they already are, and that’s on god!! point blank. i think overall kitty’s just kind of encouraged me to be a better person and they didn’t even realize-- now that’s the real joke of it all KFJGFKMGKM i just really didn’t wanna become a person that’d like... push them and others away, mainly bc i respected ‘em far too much. just really wanted to keep ‘em as a friend u feel. v_v
BUT LIKE... ONTO KITTY’S WRITING ESPECIALLY?? like just whole ass-- i love kitty’s writing. i loved it back then and i love it even more now. i’m lowkey a little... pushy with them to write and enjoy writing again just because i know they love it as a hobby, and i just want people to experience the same awe and wonder i get when reading their writing. it’s not much to ask for if i’m being honest-- but no i just... LMAO I JUST REALLY LOVE KITTY’S WRITING SO MUCH. i gush about it every time they answer an ask from me, respond to a thread with me, or even when we’re doing one of our many plotting sessions of discord. it is just something that i enjoy seeing and it immediately inspires me to keep writing myself. every time kitty has ever replied to a thread of ours -- on any one of our blogs -- i always have to, like, physically hold myself back from replying immediately. one, because i don’t wanna overwhelm them and two, because i need to express self-control. HOWEVER... however!! i just always get the damn urge to reply immediately bc ape brain loves kitty’s writing and all of the things we plot out just as much as i, the host, does. and, for that, i respect ape brain heavily for.
i love love love writing with kitty like... they’re one of my favorite people to write with, and i just feel like... that i can trust them with anything? like if i have an off-the-wall plot, i go to them first and they’re almost immediately bumping back with even more ideas-- things to bounce off of, as if what i just said wasn’t totally batshit crazy FJDKMF and i whole ass love that. they’re so fun and interesting to talk to (i’ve said this before but it needs repeating.), and i honestly adore each and every one of their muses-- be them canon or oc. they put so much thought into each and every one, and i... admire it sooo much. i respect it because you can tell they put so much love, care, and respect into each thing they make their character express, and it’s such a flawless way of doing it too. they don’t water down their muses’ thoughts, but they don’t dumb them down either-- it’s brutal and beautiful all at the same time, and it is just... mmmwah! chef’s kiss! and y’all can fight me on that, but i guarantee that you’ll lose. because i know that i’m right. (:
all of our threads i am just sooo thankful to have taken apart of? not to mention the ones we’re planning on doing on kira and rohan, for future blogs (diego and gyro, dio and pucci, anasui and weather report, etcetc... god i am so damn excited i’m ngl.), and even for characters we don’t intend on taking to tumblr!! i’m grateful for just the opportunity to think and brainstorm alongside kitty, because their brain? bigger than the entire universe. i don’t know what all i can say because there’s not enough time nor space for me to go on and on about how much i adore kitty as an entire person but just... just know--
i’d probably destroy the entire world for kitty.
they deserve nothing but kindness and love and peace and quiet and respect and everything else that’s good and gentle in this world. and i’m gonna make sure it’s given because... like... (^: they deserve it even if sometimes they think they don’t because y’know what? i know. i and a lot of other people know they deserve better. and i love kitty. nothing’s gonna ever change that, and if i see anyone treating them poorly? i’m going fuckin’ APE on THAT ASS.
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Ali: tl;dr: Somebody draw it for me, and since it was kinda my OC, I decided to use it.
And now the full story - that I told here like 3-4 times so far prompted by asks, so sorry to those who remember it. But this is really full story now. A FULL STORY. ALL THE DETAILS, ALL THE LOGO’S LORE. INCLUDING INFO YOU DON’T NEED AT ALL. BRACE YOURSELF.
Some years ago there was this fan project going on called Overtale, which was supposed to be sequel of Undertale following the plot of monster and humans living together on the surface. Since then the project got cancelled due to various issues and all that’s left of it is amazing music (seriously, listen to it, it’s great), some voice acting sneak peeks with very snarky Asriel and full 3D alpha-demo somewhere.
But when the project was still going on I really fallen in love with it and since I was also deeply in love with Papyrus - and still Am - I started a bit obnoxiously roleplaying him on the game project page in comments. Soon that helped me made friends with other fans of the project and then we gathered in this little group on Skype (oh, those times before Discord existed) with plans to make some kind of a video gift for the developers. And then developers themselves noticed us, and since the game was going to be in open world, we got an opportunity to create a little side town filled with characters made by us and with a short side plot line for a player to complete. 
And that let to creation of Ali, red haired, green eyed cat monster, who was  troubled with extreme case of double personality. She was supposed to be one of the shopkeepers in the town. But the town itself was in the midst of a conflict. Split in half, one side supporting beliefs of Sans-like scientist human and other side supporting beliefs of spirtual and kind dog monster. The problem was that Ali loved everybody and wanted to be friends with everybody. She just could not pick one side, it was too hard for her. She ended up developing a second personality, who she claimed was her sister named Ila. And then Ali supported one side of the conflict and Ila the other one. When you would interact with her in the shop, she would try to trick you, ducking under the counter and slightly changing outfits, trying to convince you that one time you talk with her and the other time with her sister, but it was all quite easy to look through. 
I even did some digging around now and found old files with dialogue ideas, I think they fit the humour of Undertale quite well, why not share some of them (the stuff in brackets are comments in the shop’s window or random notes made when this was wrote):
1. (conversation)
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Ali: “Alright, what would you like to know?”
Ila: “Oh, meme-ingful conversation's your thing, huh?” heavy emphasis on the pun
2. (on sister) 
Ali: “My sister thinks she's hilarious. I think she's nuts.” 
Ila: “My sister thinks I'm nuts. Isn't that hilarious?”
3.  (random) “There's a good reason you never see monsters with guns. A really good reason. Maybe humans use them to kill things, and some humans don't like killing things, and that's why they don't use guns, but our reason is way better, and way more important than that. Gunpowder smells weird.”
4.  (on FKDK versus UFOP - town’s groups conflict) “People have been shouting at each other in the street a lot, lately. I'm pretty sure it's a new sport someone came up with.”
5.  (on Tree of Threes) “Some say that one of the trees just outside town is actually a were-man! It used to be a normal tree, but then one day a human bit it, and now it transforms into a man under the full moon.”
6.  (on Zwelf) “Zwelf once accidentally ingested a plastic donut while absentmindedly working out a problem. I didn't believe it at first. It was a lot to swallow.”
7.  "[talk][new] “Sir Mallow of Marsh... Bit of a mouthful, if you ask me. Why doesn't he just call himself Sir Marshmallow?”
8. (organisations)
 Ali: “I support the FDKD, of course. That's the (I forgot the acronym ). They (I don't know the answer to this question ). I suppose you wanna hear about the UFOP too? My sister knows more, I'll go get her.” exits to back room to change to Ila 
Ila: “Oh, the UFOP! That's the United Federation of Puns! It's so much pun being a member, we hang out and tell jokes all day, it's great! (idk wtf the UFOP goals are, she woud mention this now). Ugh. There's also the FDKD, but they're lame. No sense of humor whatsoever! Like my sister. Hang on, I'll get her for you, she can tell you more.” exits to back room to change to Ali
So yea, I have much more of those, but that’s probably enough and that was the kind of person Ali was supposed to be!
But then the project got sadly canceled due to personal reasons of the developers. I became quite fond of Ali though. There was more to the whole town idea, eventually it was dropped, then we were supposed to just made OC characters wandering the game world, so Ali changed into wandering merchant you could meet on the road. 
And then, since I had a very detailed desctription of how she was supposed to look like:
“Ali/Ila Appearance: Monster. Short-haired bipedal feline, the base colour of the coat being a concrete grey(#95A5A6), with patches of near-white(#ECF0F1), silver(#BDC3C7) and dark grey(#7F8C8D) which have defined edges, mimicking a tabby-blotchy khaki pattern. The face is intersected by a stripe of silver grey(#BDC3C7), running diagonally from just above the right-eye brow ridge, to the edge of the jaw just below the left side of the mouth. She has a narrow face and jaw; a longer muzzle with her pointed eye-teeth showing whenever she smiles; short ears sticking up through her hair; slitted emerald-green eyes(#00FF33) which are an average depth; and a windswept-styled pixie haircut about 5 inches long, dyed pomegranate red (#C0392B). Ali's body is slightly large, with some muscle present but not obvious. Ali wears a close-fitting scarlet(#FB0012) tee-shirt with a high v-neckline and short sleeves about ¼ the length from shoulder to elbow which has a skeleton's skull printed on it to symbolise her admiration for Papyrus, with a sleeveless green-and-brown khaki vest which is unzipped over the top, plain mid-blue jeans, red(#FB0012) canvas tennis shoes with white laces, and a FDKD pin displayed prominently on her vest. When changing to Ila she swaps her khaki vest for a blue hoodie, zipped up to hide the skull-printed shirt, but with a small skull pendant attached to the zipper tag to demonstrate her admiration for Sans. She also wears a UFOP pin prominently on the front of her hoodie. Ali/Ila's tail is tipped with a fluffed tuft of hair, which she dyes the same shade of red as the hair on her head.“
One of my friends took that and comissioned somebody else to draw her for me. This way I ended up with this lovely and amazing thing:
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At first it was all production secret, none of us was allowed to share any of it. But once Overtale got cancelled, the whole project stopped being secret, the main developer even published whole long document with all the plot.
And then I came up with this idea to make a liveblog with Jean and I found myself being extremely lost as to what I should use as the logo. I didn’t want to just grab some picture from the Internet, it just felt wrong to kinda “steal” somebody’s else work. And I wanted it to be something more personal too. 
And then I reminded myself of Ali, the cat monster with personality, hair style and color, and fashion choices modeled after me. It felt like a perfect choice. 
The time of hanging out with other Undertale fans, coming up with creative ideas, chatting about random stuff and chilling together was one of the greatest time of my life. So having Ali here brings me warm and nostalgic emotions. Maybe she never got to be a character in the game, but I could not just let her fade away. So I took her along for this new project.
The End. 
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michaelmilkers · 5 years
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how do you feel about kin - like, people who kin to cope with depersonalization or identity issues, not like "if you're this kin you're fake because that's me" or factkin
i havent mentioned this on here but i am what you would consider a kinnie and have been for like four?? years and like. yall gotta believe me when i say it wasnt always Like This and i genuinely dont know when being kin devolved into what it is now
like back in my day kin tumblr was its own entirely separate sphere and like the rest of tumblr knew about it but nobody outside of kin tumblr ever really talked about kin tumblr except for the plethora of anti-kin blogs who were for some reason really fucking obsessed with it (and i still wonder to this day how you can run an entire blog about that,,, like i get making a post or two but like jesus)
there were always some weirdos and some people who went apeshit over doubles but tbh fictionkin was a minority???? like the main community was otherkin/therians. and it like baffles me that a lot of people nowadays associate the term “kin” exclusively with fictionkin and some people dont even know about the distinction
i really genuinely dont know how it turned into what it is now and its kind of sad. like there used to be an actual community and we minded our own business yknow. but now i dont even interact with people in the community because approximately 50% of the time if i start up a conversation with someone under the assumption that theyre kin bc they said they were and i talk about my experiences they think im a fucking nutjob because they were just doing it for fun or thought it meant Really Really liking a character or something and so all my shit is Too Much. 
and like the thing is kin people arent actually as crazy as people act like they are. even the weirder ones. like i said before everybody always minded their own business and kept it within the community. kin drama never happened as much as people say it does and when it did most of the assholes were kind of shunned by everyone else.
also tbh i never really got why komaeda is like the epitome of kin considering dr2 came out in 2012 and danganronpa was never even on the list of like top 10 most popular canons
i wanna say the rise of undertale had something to do with it but hell i have an undertale kin (its none of the main characters so dont ask me) and was even in an undertalekin skype group until it got raided by people from 4chan and none of them were especially wacko either they were all nice too
i dunno. idk why im even going on about this this is just something that has genuinely bothered me for the last year or two and im kinda really really over kin jokes and who casual everyone is about the topic.
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I get that but also??? I have video games i want to play with you in one 8 hour sitting and also more realistic sittings. long live the queen, Stardew valley, Starbound, sims, night in the woods. Maybe wait until we've gotten to play some of them? I mean its your life friend but you know. video games. we should play them together. and eat pizza.
yeah we should probably do that first. idk im just lonely and my parents are too much for me to handle, so i look to death for help. its not a good thing, but well, old habits die hard. and i mean i really want to die, but i also really want to play video games with you so lets do that first. im on spring break for another week rn so like whenever is good
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vanillabat99 · 5 years
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Hi I just saw ur post abt ur ex n I just wanna offer my hot take. It’s absolutely valid to ask him to take things down but he may not listen. It’s ok to block him again. It’s ok to cut off communications. You seem to have made urself clear abt what u want. And I have every right to be comfy and safe. Exes can be tricky. I’ve never had luck with mine. It sounds like ur ex needs time to grow as a person and u r done being w them. That’s ok!! I’m 20 so I didn’t wanna dm u in case that would b weird
Hello!!
Yeah, I blocked him and let him know (via Skype message) that I don't want to talk to him at all. We didn't really talk much anyways so it's not going to be much different, but I thought it'd be nice to let him know things have changed. I'm still iffy on asking him to take down posts and stuff since there's a lot and it seems a little weird to ask? Mostly I just don't want to send him into a downward spiral, so I'm trying to be careful with what I say to him.
Honestly I just really don't want to see his face again. Idk, I feel like this seems drastic but now that I've had time to think about the relationship and I'm no longer in it, it really wasn't so great and I'm glad it ended. I'm sure he's still a lovely person and stuff but he just.. wasn't ideal? Like, he was so possessive. And kinda hypocritical, I guess? I also turned into his therapist pretty early on and trying to make sure I didn't say the wrong thing was stressful. I sorta became like his only support in life and I feel like he kinda thought too highly of me? Idk.. it just wasn't really a good relationship.
When we broke up and stuff, I told him I think we both really need to work on our health (mental and/or physical) before even considering getting back together. I was tired of being his therapist and hearing him tell me that "therapy doesn't work" for him, even though I was literally using methods and strategies from my own therapy sessions to help him out. Like, there was a lot of personal work and growth that needed to happen (in both of us tbh) before I'd consider another relationship with him. And that's okay. People sometimes just aren't quite steady enough.
I'm in a weird spot right now I guess. I'm over him and I want to just not see him ever again, and I'd like to find someone local next time I go into a relationship, but I'm still so upset over how things ended and how I was treated in that relationship? Like, I'm moving on and meeting new people and stuff but I'm still caught up in how he made me feel? If that makes sense?? He isn't a bad person, but like, I don't feel like I was quite treated the way I should've been?
I feel like he got upset over something so harmless.. I mean, there was a major miscommunication I think, which is what set the whole thing off? But it was still something that literally every single person I have ever spoken to does?? Everyone who experiences romantic attraction gets crushes, and like even if you're in a relationship you're still gonna find people cute??? People don't just become unattractive the moment you fall in love??? And I literally fall for loads of people every day and he knew that??
I guess in the end I felt like I was doing worse than when things started. I'm kind of upset that he still knows so much about me. Like, I can't take all that back. It's really hard to not feel like I'd fucked up Big Time and the whole breakup was my fault. I told him I'm worried about maybe having a psychotic disorder, then I got my phone taken away for three days, then when I came back he said he didn't know if he could keep up the relationship because of the distance and he was having a hard time. He assured me that it wasn't because of the psychotic disorder that he was breaking up with me, but I'm weird and I think that it might've just been added to the pile of reasons to breakup. It really didn't help though that immediately after telling him that, we broke up over something like me having crushes while in a relationship. Like, it felt like there were other reasons he didn't want to be with me anymore but he didn't say them.
Sorry for kinda ranting, I haven't really talked about this like, ever, and it's nice to have it out there. Thank you for the support and kind words, it means a lot to me. As long as you're a kind person, feel free to message me! The only time I'd be persnickety about age and stuff is regarding romantic relationships, but with friendships and stuff I don't really feel the need to put an age limit on that. Wishing you the best, anon! 💕💕💕
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