#like dont get me wrong he has a lot of audacity but he's still a kid with a lot of baggage
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tw // noncon. yes its rape dont ask me no stupid fucking questions
yesterday (over a month ago technically) i couldn’t stop thinking about apologetic rapist haechan like ugghhhhhhhhhh
walk with me. this is a man you trust to have in your home, spending time watching movies and playing video games together in between your stressful lives… you’ve confided in each other about all of your problems, big or small, and chat about everything under the sun. you give him advice that he doesn’t listen to, then has the audacity to complain afterwards. he’s got a spare key to your place and you’ve got one to his, and all your boyfriends over the years feel like they have to compete with him, but the thought is ridiculous to you. compete with haechan romantically? it’s laughable. sure the guy has seen you half naked, but it’s not like that, you’re comfortable, you’ve never seen him ogle you or heard him make some unsolicited comment about your body that even strangers have made… why would anyone have to compete with haechan? he’s your best friend, nothing more, nothing less.
you’re not sure how you could’ve been so wrong. the way you see it, the haechan you thought you knew wouldn’t take advantage of how comfortable you feel around him, the fact that you let him share a bed with you every now and then. it’s not necessarily strange for his hands to wander around you, he’s clingy and unconsciously does it in his sleep, but it is strange for them to be so firm at your hips, nails digging into your skin, sounds that aren’t soft snores falling from his whiny lips.
confusion dwindles. betrayal stings your eyes. haechan sees it, too. he lifts his head up, tosses the hair out his face, and meets your eyes. there’s no arrogant shimmer to his eyes or smug smile to his face; the opposite. there’s shame and guilt and sadness, you want to think, and he beats you to a word, uttering, “i’m sorry…”
but he’s not sorry enough to stop. not even when you struggle against him, trying to wrestle your way out of his arms. you and haechan would play fight all the time, but you never realized just how strong he really was until you try to wrestle out of his arms and he pins your arms in place, whispering, “please. i don’t want to hurt you.”
but he would if he felt he had to. you’re in disbelief, the ugliest feeling festering inside your chest as it tightens so hard you can hardly breathe. when you beg him to stop, he says, “i can’t.” because you feel so much better than he’s ever imagined, and he’s imagined it a lot, and he just “can’t resist” himself. his eyes are misty, out of pleasure or out of shame, but either way, he needs to do this. he has to.
he can’t look you in your eyes. he can’t look at your face at all, really. he knows what he’ll see, the tears pouring from your eyes that gleam with a fierce blend of betrayal and despair and ire and disbelief. haechan doesn’t want to see you that way. having to hear your sniffles, knowing it’s all his fault, is bad enough. but in spite of the pangs of guilt that really do tear at his chest, he’s still in the middle of you, holding you in place, using your body for his own relief. so he just keeps his clasp on your hips, squeezing his eyes closed, and mutters, “i’m sorry…,” over and over and over again, hoping it’s enough. hoping that you’ll bring yourself to forgive him.
it’s not like it’s long before it’s over. haechan’s not proud of it but you’re all he’s been able to think about and it’s not like he’s ever hit a pussy raw before, if ever. you feel so filthy when he pulls out of you - his cum gushing out of your hole - and so broken. haechan says he’ll help you clean, but you’re rushing over to the bathroom and locking yourself inside before he has a chance to do anything. he hurriedly pulls on his pants and spends a long ten minutes knocking on the door, trying to get you to open it even after you scream at him to leave you alone, but he can hear the shower running from the other side. and he decides to leave you alone for now.
haechan tries to make it up to you, he really does. he doesn’t want you to hate him. you have to understand. your body was calling to him, enticing him, and he tried so hard but he couldn’t control it anymore. he’s gone when you return from a really, really long shower that you took in hopes of feeling less dirty, but to no avail. every bit of relief you feel at his absence, which isn’t much considering that pieces of him linger everywhere - on your sheets and in your aching bones and everywhere in between - fades when you hear the front door click open and he returns with your favorite takeout in hand. it’s his way of showing you that he’s still your best friend, that he still knows and loves you, that he’s sorry.
you’re not hungry. you have no appetite after that. haechan tries to get you to eat, but the second he comes near you, you flinch away from him. you never thought the day would come, but you are scared of him. he’s not the haechan you thought he was, no matter how hard he tries to convince you that he still is. you beg him to go, to leave you alone, but he doesn’t listen. he never does.
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But Ninny, just imagine lock me up mc going into preheat and defective Yoongi gets all protective over her 🥺 anon was onto something with that heat ask honestly 😮💨 jk jk….unless 👀
You're antsy again, right when he'd thought he'd gotten you comfortable enough so you wouldn't try and escape anymore.
But your little outdoor adventures aren't of the usual kind either- you definitely stay in close proximity to his home, never even reach the streets, always rather roaming the rooftops, and he can see on his little GPS tracker on his laptop that you're somewhat pacing around.
Something's off, and he needs to know what.
When he reaches the rooftops, it's a little windy. Not too chilly, but a nice fresh wind blows, sun setting- and there you are, rolling on your back in the bright golden sun. "You're getting your clothes dirty." He comments, and your tail snaps up at his words, as you roll again to sit on your knees now, some dead leaves caught in your hair- but one flick of your ear and its gone with the wind, while you look at him like you're conflicted.
"I wanna sleep here tonight." You tell him, and his brows lower in confusion.
He's keeping his distance- both because he's not sure if you'll try and jump because down the line it wouldn't surprise him considering your rather... spontaneous nature, and also because your body language screams at him to stay away.
"Its gonna be cold." He tries to reason. "Why'd you wanna sleep outside?" He wants to know, and you become nervous at that, moving your legs around a little to adjust the position in which you're sitting-
And that's when the wind turns a but, making him catch your scent.
Oh.
"Yeah well- you know.." you stammer, nervous. "Even if- you know, you pick up stuff for me, it'll take almost an entire day to, you know, make me not stink anymore.." you mumble more or less, not looking at him.
"You don't stink, idiot." He clicks his tongue, before sighing. This isn't something he'd planned ahead for. "I can still go downtown and pick some shit up if you tell me what you typically take, and I promise my hands stay to myself at night." He tells you.
"Hm yeah cause it's easy for you.." You say almost disappointed.
"What do you mean?" He wants to know, and you turn around at that, your back facing him as you hug your legs.
"Nothin'." You huff stubbornly. "Go get me some Feline Help, or ChangeWay, I don't care which you choose." You mumble almost incoherently into your knees, drawing something in the dirt on the ground with a stick.
"Both of those are-" he argues instantly, well aware that both brands will leave you with heavy side effects, but now you snap your head around, hissing at him.
"Just go! Leave me!" You yell at him, and he forgives your behavior for once because it's not really in your control right now. Preheat can be extremely stressful to hybrids especially when you're used to being on medication for it usually.
Though he has a feeling there's got to be a reason you're especially on edge with him. You should be the exact opposite- so why do you seem to absolutely despise his presence right now?
"Can I leave you here without having to run after you to God knows where after I come back?" He asks, and you glare at him actually angry this time.
"I'm not stupid, Detective Min." You make sure to pronounce his job title and name especially as you talk. "I'm a walking bullseye target for anyone other than you." You huff, and he squints his eyes at that.
"I see." He suddenly says, relaxing. "I get it now."
"Oh my GOD just go and get my drugs, leave!" You yell now, throwing a small rock at him- though you only prove his point, because you clearly intentionally miss him by a lot, no intention to hurt him despite your bitter tone.
"Dont worry, I'll get them." He says, not walking closer, but taking off his jacket before he throws it at you. "But you're wrong, just so you know." He has the audacity to smirk, especially when you grow wide eyed and surprised, entire world view shifted as he gives you an answer to a question you didn't even ask, while he walks back down the metal stairs to his apartment, leaving you alone with your thoughts and his scent around you.
He's absolutely not interested in you-
Or so you thought, it seems.
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#bts imagine#bts fanfic#bts fic#min yoongi imagines#yoongi imagine#hybrid imagine#yoongi imagines#min yoongi x reader#min yoongi imagine
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Finished reading that s/o being stalked and I must admit it's a chef kiss. If you have free time can you do part 2 with Fyodor,Nikolai and sigma if you write for them? Or if you can't, can you do where the stalker still stalks the s/o ?
!Nikolai Gogol With An S/O Who Has A Stalker!
Scenario:Nikolai finds out you have a stalker!how will he deal with it??
Pairing: nikolai gogol x gn!reader
Genre: im rly not sure tbh...
Type: oneshot
A/N: Hi anon! Okay soo,here’s the deal,i dont rly write for any of them but i also dont think the stalker would ever come back...buttt i also dont wanna ignore your ask or just not give you anything sooo,imma do a nikolai piece!also disclaimer it might be ooc cos im not rly sure i hv his personality down right so apologies in advance :’) i hope you like it and feel free to lmk what you think if you want!
Nikolai gogol was an observant individual,and even though many people just took him to be an eccentric and impulsive clown(which he was) he did in fact have the ability to be calculated and observant,he just didnt wanna be~
So when he came home from a looongg assignment,he noticed how on-edge you seemed.how scared,uptight and jumpy you were.
He also knew you wouldnt tell him what it was for fear of either boring him or coming off as bitchy and childish.
So he dug;his curiosity was piqued and he was bored soooo he made it his mission to find out what was haunting you.
After not a lot of digging he found the root cause of your paranoia!
A stalker~
Honestly when he found out you had a stalker he was overjoyed!
Now he had a new plaything~
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The next day your stalker was preparing themselves to send you another 'love' letter.
But after they'd dropped it into the box to be collected and delivered the next day,they ran into a young man.
He looked to be in his early to mid 20s and he had dual coloured eyes and snow white hair.
Your stalker excused themselves and was about to be on their way when the young man grabbed their wrist and ,whispering in a happy tone, said, "do you like quizzes????? " before enveloping them in his coat.
Your stalker then found themselves in a dark room that smelled like dust.
They tried to get up,but were repeatedly knocked down by an invisible attacker,eventually they stopped trying and just crouched down.
“WHO ARE YOU!” Your stalker asked, “WHAT DO YOU WANT?!”
‘Ha!’ Nikolai thought to himself, ‘they look really upset,the audacity on this one is marvellous!’
But all he said was “Shhhhhhh, i’mmm the one asking the questions here~”
“And if you’re even hoping to escape,you’ll listen and answer them well”
He heard a gulp and a shakey breath being drawn,which caused him to smile from his hiding place.
“Now then, why dont we start with an easy one, what do you want with y/n l/n?”
“Who??i dont know what the hell youre talking about!!”
“AEKK! WRONG ANSWER!”
A golden vortex appeared and swallowed your stalker’s leg.
they were left one leg short.
After realising what had just happened, they screamed out!
“Hehehehee sorry,did i forget to tell you the rules????? Oh silly me!always forgetting important things! The rules are simple! Tell the truth,”
“Or lose a limb!”
He cackled maniacally and your stalker broke into a cold sweat.
They were in deep shit now...
“So~ go on, second chance! What.do.you.want.with.y/n l/n.”
Nikolai wasnt even asking anymore,he was demanding.
“I’M TELLNG YOU THE TRUTH I DONT KNOW WHAT YOUR TALKING ABOUT!”
“AEK!! WRONG AGAIN!Gosh i really thought you’d answer when you knew the stakes....But i guess your appendages must mean nothing to you~”
Your stalker’s other leg was swallowed up.
Another scream pierced the air.
Nikolai yawned.
“OKAY-OKAY FINE! I LIKE Y/N OKAY! I JUST HAVENT HAD THE COURAGE TO TELL THEM!”
“Ooohh suddenly compliant are we? Well then! Sad to say you’re answer wont save you~”
“Huh???”
“Oh yeah.i cant have you bothering my love now can i?? Sooo you’ll have to die!”
And with that another vortex appeared but this time a man pointing a gun stepped out.he pulled down the hammer down and cocked the gun before holding it right to your stalker’s head.
“NO! YOU CANT!! I PROMISE ILL STOP!!”
“Ehhh no~ id much rather kill you.eases my conscience~”
“BUT IT ISNT RIGHT! I HAVENT DONE ANYTHING WRONG!”
“Sure sure,threatening letters arent anything wrong but also,regardless of if you did that or not id still kill you.because i want to.its my will.and unlike you im not restricted by the bonds of morality.I CAN DO WHATEVER I WANT!”
“And right now,i want to shoot you”
“NO!PLEASE WAIT!”
“Toodles~”
BANG!
Nikolai gogol got home that day and saw you sat at the table doing some work.
He hugged you from behind and burried his head in the crook of your neck,his stray hairs tickling your ear.
“Hello y/n~” he said,peppering kisses all over your your cheek,neck and shoulder.
You raised your hadn to let it sit in his hair,ruffling the white floofles you loved so much.
“Hey kolya....how was your day?where were you?”
“Oh you know,taking care of some business.”
“Hmm” you sighed at his response.
“Oh and about that stalker of yours,”
You suddenly went stiff,you hand which had come down to lay over his arms which were wrapped around you,gripped them with sudden tension.
“Dont worry,i took care of it.gave them a stern talking to!they’ll never bother you again!” He said.
And you deflated at that,sudden tears of relief streaming down your face.
You got up and turned around in his arms to face him.the smile on your fave was as radiant as ever.
“Thank you,kolya” you said before pressing a chaste kiss to his lips.
You both smiled into the kiss.
“Anytime dove~”
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why do u think sasuke apologized to sakura at the end? it's not like she apologized to him after all that she's done... he shouldn't have
I couldn't agree more anon. He shouldn't have, Sakura didn't deserve an apology from him.
My sense is that he did it because of Naruto. Don't get me wrong. Naruto didn't force him to do it or anything. But after chapter 698, Sasuke came over to Naruto's side and committed to adapt to a new life where he pledged to assist Naruto to reach his objective of uniting the shinobi world, and he wouldn't make Naruto's life unnecessarily difficult.
It's not that black and white, it's a little more nuanced. Naruto always urged Sasuke to treat Sakura and Kakashi better, because Sasuke was so irreverent towards Kakashi and contemptuous towards Sakura.
After Sasuke learns about the truth of Uchiha massacre, he sees Kakashi's very evident hypocrisy and gives him a good dressing down in the kage arc. Which I really enjoyed btw. Sasuke just hits the pressure points, that's one of the things I like about him. He says very valid shit that others either dont see or are unwilling to see. Naruto is led by the light side, Sasuke is led by the dark side of their world, which is why they work well together, evidenced by their symbolism, the yin and yang, perfectly balanced and attuned to each other.
Anyway, Sasuke attempts to kill both Kakashi and Sakura in kage arc and it becomes very clear that he doesn't owe Kakashi or Sakura any consideration. Kakashi who conveniently uses Sasuke's clan's Sharingan to further his own interests or objectives and then has the audacity to lecture Sasuke about things, the enormity of which he doesn't even begin to comprehend and Sakura for the more obvious reasons, her egotism, narcissism and self absorption to the exclusion of everything else.
Sasuke doesn't give a fuck about team seven in Shippuden. But he tries to remain tactful as much as he can. In the war arc, where you see team seven gathered again, Kakashi tries to find about Sasuke's intentions and Sasuke meaningfully remains quiet. He doesn't want to be distracted from the battle, he who is so anal (no pun intended) about keeping an eye on the enemy, and he doesn't consider Kakashi or Sakura significant enough to satisfy their queries. And I like him a lot for that. :)
All he has to say about team seven's teamwork is a succinct and insouciant 'hmph'. Lol.
He really cannot give a fuck. And Naruto is trying to be the peacekeeper. So he chides Sasuke, like a mum, to behave. Lol. I find it cute.
Sasuke would grudgingly relent and answer Naruto but he still won't really address Kakashi or Sakura.
Naruto mum - Sasuke, did you say thank you to Obito and Sakura properly?
Sasuke - ......focus on the enemy Naruto (dobe!).
I mean c'mon, they are in the middle of a war and Naruto is trying to correct Sasuke's manners, lol. In a good humored way, of course, but it's very funny. Naruto was obviously very happy and relieved to see Sasuke was unharmed and brought back to the current dimension safely. Sasuke does tell Naruto point blank that for him, Naruto is the only priority because he has the seal and the rest of the players are pretty irrelevant. Naruto agrees but Naruto can't help his nature, ie, protecting people he cares for and urges Sasuke to understand since there was a time when Sasuke did the same for Naruto.
So at the end of vote 2, when Sasuke apologizes to Sakura, as compared to how other apologies went, like Obito to Naruto and Kakashi, or Itachi to Sasuke, or even Kushina to Naruto, so eloquent and emotional, Sasuke's apology is trademark tokenism, like seriously it has five words in total in it, lol. Sasuke's apology is not even specific, it's deliberately blithely vague, and immediately after his attention latches back onto Naruto.
And truth is, neither Sakura nor Kakashi were condemned in the narrative for their ways of thinking. Kakashi, with his well established faulty perception goes on to believe that everything has gone back to the way it was before, and Sakura, having not changed or learnt at all, acts like she deserved the apology so damn much, like it was due for so long and she is only getting it now. As if it really was Sasuke's fault and not hers. Lol. Some nerve.
But the point is, Kishi could not have made Sasuke ask for it, because harking back on it would have meant revisiting/rehashing the issue all over again, which would have given the impression that Sasuke wasn't over his bitterness and resentment, which would go against the climax where Sasuke just got his resolution. Ideally, this condemnation should have come from Naruto. Naruto should have held Sakura and Kakashi accountable for their third grade treatment of Sasuke. Which is one of the reasons why I hate the ending. Well, first of all, I don't think Sasuke should have been written to completely give over his ambition to adopt Naruto's but Kishi had to finally 'resolve' (I use the term with a pinch, nay, a fistful of salt) the problems of the current shinobi world, even if he had to do it forcefully while breaking storytelling rules, so as to move over to the upcoming plotline, Boruto ie, which had to do with aliens and shit as the shinobi world in it is sans shinobi problems, as Naruto has erased them. That and he couldn't have brought about any more discussions on issues that were related to democratic dissent or more nuanced ethical dwellings on the individual vs collective. It's not for SJ. Kishi did his best to imbue the narrative with it anyway, giving Sasuke the revolutionary, the role of anti hero, and painstakingly making his character narratively equal to Naruto's, under the aegis of SJ. But he could not have taken it any further. Sasuke's story itself was the allegory. But well, SJ celebrates Japanese sensibilities and so it would not have been possible. And Kishi had already fought quite a few battles for his manga. Revisiting certain things would have potentially opened a can of worms for him. Kishi got away with a lot to begin with. It was also important for Kishi to portray Sakura, as per her consistently written character as a self absorbed and self important wench who only cares about her own ego and needs and not Sasuke's, but wants Sasuke as her trophy anyway. It was necessary for them to be put together for the sake of Boruto (to sire Sarada), and with a person like Sakura, Sasuke could get away with not being emotionally attached at all, giving her meager and so obviously half hearted scraps and yet, she would rejoice in them. She is shallow like that. Heh. So this apology, and Sakura's reaction to it, is yet another indication that Sakura is so addicted to Sasuke that she would happily ignore and dismiss Sasuke's honest feelings for her as long as she finally gets to marry an unwilling and unloving Sasuke.
Anyway, apart from that, it obviously makes Naruto happy to see Sasuke adjusting to new circumstances and from how it looks, apologizing to Sakura doesn't make much of a difference to Sasuke because Naruto just confessed his love to him. Sasuke doesn't feel alone anymore, look how much lighter and relaxed he looks with Naruto, watching Naruto smiling and laughing, visibly relaxed. The rest of the people, including Sakura, don't matter half as much to him, which is proven by him flicking Sakura's forehead later, a certified Itachi move repurposed for her, signifying deliberate distancing and obfuscation/lies.
He also knows that Naruto tries to avoid conflict as much as he can and when he needs to confront, he tries to deal with things with as much empathy and genuine consideration he can garner. So Sasuke doesn't want to make it any more challenging for Naruto, who is leading the gargantuan task of bringing all the shinobi nations together. Sasuke's job is now to assist him in his objective and make it easier. Sasuke has already clearly been shown to hide information from Naruto so as not to cause him any worry, like he did when he made Sakura promise not to tell Naruto about the curse mark. Sasuke is wholeheartedly devoted to Naruto and he takes his position as Naruto's best friend, work partner, soulmate (implied), shadow hokage etc very seriously. So he would take on things himself and endure them, because he knows if Naruto knew, he will not sit quietly. He would go one step ahead and demand to share Sasuke's burden, he would not allow Sasuke to be alone or hurting, he would make it his life's mission to relieve Sasuke, just the way he did. That's just how they are.
Which is why the ending really hurts. Sigh.
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I know I like just said a few days ago I was going to step back from controversial posts for a bit but something has kind of came to my attention I'd like to address
I'm going to start of with the fact that this is not a hate post so don't get all pissed off at me for this. I'm fine with people expressing there opinions maturely but if you're just going to argue like a child I will delete the replies/reblogs and block you if needed, I don't want to deal with the drama and arguing.
Sometimes I really think people forget Barty Crouch Jr played a very big role in Goblet of Fire.
He locked a man in a trunk for weeks, turned a 14 year old into a ferret (yes he totally deserved it but the man still didn't deserve to get traumatized), is one of the main reasons Cedric died (he created the portkey-), he showed kids unforgivable curses which definitely was a bit traumatic for some of them (and seemed to trigger some ptsd for Neville), helped torture Alice and Frank Longbottom (two very wonderful people) to insanity and caused Neville so much pain by doing so.
Apparently people are defending him because his dad kind of sucked. I'd like to politely point out his mother loved him so much that she traded places with him so he could get out of Azkaban. And what does he do? Oh right, he goes right back to his old ways. I mean you'd figure most reasonable people would take that as a second chance and a reason to change, but nope not him.
... And yet people defend him and push aside the fact he's done some pretty bad things. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for redemption arcs and such, but what redeemable qualities has this man ever showed? and yes I get that he wasn't always a wizard nazi, but it's mentioned in the seventh books that a group of people who become such were doing really terrible things around Hogwarts, and one harmed Mary pretty badly. Just imagine what he did to people during his time at Hogwarts. People don't become evil over night. And unlike a lot of the des out there, he didn't have an entire family supporting Voldemorts actions that drove him to do it, he did it on his own accord.
now, before anyone goes "Oh that never happened!" or "He'd never do that!" he's some proof:
I'm not even going to bother finding the parts where he scars kids for life just because he can. I think this speaks for itself.
and someone pointed out that yes, his dad was a fucking bastard but most characterss had terrible families. I can name so many other characters that went through a lot and didn't do things like this over it. the man even had the audacity to lie about doing a lot of it. yes he was young then, but even years upon years later he made no effort to change for the better. I can almost guarantee that if he would've genuinely changed, Crouch sr would not have done half of this stuff. Like do you really think most parents would willingly do that to their children? he knew if he didn't then they'd both end up getting in trouble (not saying he should've done it, just that he didn't do it for nothing, his own reputation aside he was probably worried his son would end up hurting people again).
I really don't understand how people can defend and love this character...
but whatever. idc. i dont like him but if you do then it's whatever. I'm not going to be directly rude to you if I don't like the same characters or ships as you so don't go thinking this is me being rude to people who do like him, that's not the case. I'm just explaining my thoughts on the subject.
#barty crouch jr#barty crouch junior#harrypotter#harry potter#harry potter marauders#the marauders era
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since i have nothing else to post right now…
here’s the last of colby’s tweets from 2020.
i don’t have proof that these are his tweets, but believe me, they are his.
if it’s bold and italicized, it’s someone’s tweet to him.
if it’s in (), that’s just me commenting lol
added bonus: if they have a * next to them, that means it’s been deleted
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Oct. 1 - love doing things for myself
Oct. 4 - i’m in so much pain. sos
fan: u ok?
poison oak. everywhere …. everywhere.
Oct. 5 - i like the simple things
Oct. 7 - less is more
Oct. 10 - i wanna make you happy
how am i so busy during the day but still manage to find 2 hours to mindlessly scroll through tik tok? i can’t be the only one
Oct. 14 - i care too much
Oct. 15 - somehow it wasn’t enough
Oct. 18 - fan: I CANT BE THE ONLY ONE WHO ALWAYS WONDERED WHAT COLBY SMELLED LIKE..I WANA KNOW WHAT COLOGNE HE WEARS
mayonnaise
(i hate this man so much lmao)
Oct. 19 - Justin Bieber’s new song made me tear up, that dudes been through so much. no one could even imagine what that’s like.. achieving everything and being in the biggest spotlight at such a young age.
Oct. 20 - @/samgolbach: less than 6 months ago i broke my back. and i decided to take that as a challenge to get healthy again. and today i ran the fastest mile i’ve ever run. so yes, i might be an idiot but i’m a determined idiot 🤘🏼🏃🏼
🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼 that’s an insane accomplishment ! i remember when it was a struggle to stand up out of bed
new day, same cycle
Oct. 21 - my mom is texting me all the young pictures of me and it’s bringing me memories i didn’t know i had
Oct. 25 - panic attacks late at night are the worst
Nov. 1 - @/colbybrockscar: reminder that it’s no nut November!!! @/ColbyBrock doesn’t even have to try. He’s got this shit in the bag. It probs comes out like baby powder if he tries
did my car just roast me ?
Nov. 4 - this is scary
cuties! all 3 of you! (reply to fan in merch with friend and cat)
Nov. 6 - @/GracynCarr: I can’t believe the audacity of a high school tweet to pop up on my timeline lmao.. miss u tho @/ColbyBrock :)
hope you're well xx
Nov. 8 - so much talent thank youu love (reply to fan's art)
fan: Um. So I tweeted this to you before but alot has also changed since then sooo wanted to say thank you 🖤 🖤 @/ColbyBrock
proud of you, and good luck with your dreams darlin 🖤 you can accomplish anything with the right mindset and hard work. i believe in ya
time flies, and i’m so scared of losing my youth. it’s inevitable i know, but damn makes you wanna cherish every moment you got
Nov. 11 - i hate when nothing is wrong but nothing feels right
Nov. 12 - the person who makes you forget about the rest of the world
Nov. 13 - today marks 6 years since we posted our first YT video on the MAIN S&C account .. 🖤 what a wild ride
Nov. 14 - promise you i’m a good waste of time
Nov. 15 - @/katstuartmusic: “sunday is my funday” - colby brock 2020
🥂💁🏻♂️💁🏻♂️
fan: Colby u get drunk off of one white claw
fight me
other fan: my money is on mags
round house kicks to the face don’t feel too good
(is it bad that i like when colby gets weirdly violent with us sksksks)
Nov. 16 - the Why Dont We dudes are some of the nicest people in LA
*Nov. 17 - @/gabytriana: It’s out! Sam and Colby were so much fun to work with, and despite what Colby said, I did not hate him when we first met! 😆 Both he and Sam are super kind, smart, generous entertainers who know how to tell a good story! I love them both!! Happy Book Birthday, @/samandcolby
hahaha thank youu so much for all the hard work ! so excited it’s finally here
(interestingly enough, colby didn't delete his tweet… gaby did)
Nov. 19 - went to a Pyschic Reader tonight. my mind is blown. im not a skeptic anymore, video coming tomorrow
fan: Get ready for religious people to freak out
the psychic i talked to was religious, i’m not sure how but i think the two concepts can exist at the same time
Nov. 21 - hard to trust
fan: @/ColbyBrock hey, i love u lots
love you 🖤
Nov. 23 - fan: imagine if @/ColbyBrock responded to this
could you imagine
Nov. 24 - fan: lmao okay so my friend put this together when I FINALLY received Colby's reaper merch yesterday and I had to laugh, I am actually stupid. But I thought it was a lil funny so y'all can see it too then xx
hahahha love it. thank you. you’re not a sack of potatoes in my eyes
Nov. 27 - happy b day @/SamGolbach you know this and imma save the sappy shit for your big 25th bday but i wouldn’t be here without you. you’re the most intelligent, deep thinking dude i’ve ever met and i feel pretty damn lucky to be able to call you a business partner AND best friend
Nov. 28 - take it easy
Nov. 30 - should i hop back on tik tok?
Dec. 2 - @/aaron_doh: At least I got a photo shoot out of it 😄
whaaat. dude i wish you a speedy recovery
Dec. 3 - it’s hard to move on
Dec. 5 - a nice escape is all i need
welp. i guess i’m a lightweight
Dec. 9 - miss you
Dec. 14 - all the baggage that comes with me
Dec. 15 - been workin hard for you , announcement tomorrow
fan: omg are you pregaganant
how'd you know
@/samandcolby: announcement tomorrow… 2021 will be the best year of our lives (and probably most difficult)
fan: are we getting married?? is that why?
yes
i hate how having anxiety makes me nauseous. it’s the worst feeling
Dec. 16 - it’s all about living in the moment and making every. second. count.
fan: yeah @/ColbyBrock how much are you charging for tattoos…
free for you
Dec. 18 - big tool pic but i’ve been workin hard
@/mannymua733: we absolutely do not mind
hahahaha
(god damn… this pic is still so good lol)
also cold weather always makes me want a special someone to spend time with. cuddle buddy is neeeeeded
fan: okay but can we just take a second to appreciate how hard colby’s been working in the gym because dayum
thank you sweeeetheart
fan: HELP COLBY IS TRENDING
yoo i love you guys 🥺
Dec. 20 - got tatted last night and i barely remember
how i feel this morning (pic of him floating)
fan: you’ve seen elf on the shelf… but have you seen cole in a hole? (@/ColbyBrock)
i’m mad i laughed at this
Dec. 23 - why’d ya have to change on me
so bittersweet saying goodbye to my childhood home of 18 years… i’ll only be back to kansas to visit and sleep in hotels from now on. strange feeling, but so happy for my mom and dad for taking a chance and moving
it’s like i don’t have a real “home” anymore. since i move so much anyways it’s hard to find a spot to actually call home
fan: i just want to say that colby has helped me through so much this year. i had a tough year as many others did but you’ve seriously have helped me through so much. i love you so so much @/ColbyBrock
awh that’s why i make videos in the first place. for people like you
Dec. 24 - addicted to you
my mom and i are the weirdest duo on the planet when we’re together i swear
fan: Make a video with her for Christmas
my whole family despises being on camera 💔
Dec. 25 - fan: momma brock is the sweetest ever
she’s my favorite woman in the world
Merry Christmas friends ! 🖤
i wish i could have face tats for like one week but it doesn’t really work like that huh
Dec. 26 - everyone’s battling their own demons
Dec. 28 - fan: Colby drinking wine but he's such a lightweight that he's probably drunk, lmao @/ColbyBrock
🤫🤫🤫
fan: the vibes are fucking ethereal i’m guessing @/ColbyBrock
you got it
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ive seen someone else mention this and its just soooo dumb how like. john's whole thing is like "vengeance is bad!" as if his entire fucking thing isnt inspired by vengeance. one of the first ppl killed was cecil was is not? the one who basically killed his child? its just. and i KNOW thats probably done on purpose, but i dont doubt that there are some ppl out there who like ???? genuinely side w/ his thinking. the hypocrisy is os just... it makes me so upset LMAO once again, i know thats probably the POINT but GOSH it pisses me off how some ppl can still "like" him despite the clear hypocrisy in how he acts and thinks
i cant really tell how ppl ACTUALLY feel abt him, but i often see ppl sympathize w/ him bc hes a dying man andd like of COURSE its easy to do so, esp seeing his backstory and all, but he obviously sees himself as this GOD that can do no wrong. he "tries to give ppl second chances" by corrupting them and traumatizing them and turning them into a monster.. i KNOW hes the villain for a reason but i think some ppl miss the fucking point and its annoying
sorry inm just watching saw v rn andf im at hoffman's recruitment WHATEVER and its just. .... he goes on this spiel abt hoffman being bad bc he killed the perosn who killed his sister without "giving them a chance" and talks abt how "vengeance is bad!" and dont get me wrong i fucking hate hoffman but man LMAO HES SUCH A HYPOCRITE I DESPISE HIM. and then he has the audacity to infect these other ppl who are just living their lives trying to survive into something "worse" (aka something john would probabyl claim. e.g. the end of saw iii w/ amanda) ppl than him?????
theres nothign wrong w/ "sympathizing" w/ the bad guy / antagonist. esp in this case, where its very easy to do so, but the bad REALLY out weighs the good here. his methods and world view is masked by "killing is bad! i give them chances to live!" as if that chance doesn't immediately result in mind changing trauma or WORSE, being fucking recruited and traumatized + corrupted even further
like. im sick of the "peepaw" bulllshit 😭 STOP ENDEARING HIM!!!!! HE DOESNT FUCKING DESERVE THAT keep doing it w/ amanda though lmao thats fine but john is literally the root of all our problems
and its soooo sad in my case since amanda is just so intertwined w/ him (even HE says their fates are connected or fucking whatever) and UHGHHH.... LIKE. IT JUST PSISES ME OFF SO BAD 😭😭😭😭 i love amanda a lot but of COURSE she has to be wrapped around this loser's finger. so dumb
#saw#saw franchise#maybe this is all nonsense since im sure this isnt an unpopular take#but i just cant TELL w/ you people sometimes#mine#text#my thoughts#[emma mountebank voice] ok :) i’m done#anyway im gonna finish watching now <3
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Hiiiii how about obito and madara for the character ask game?? Hope you're doing well! -seoz
Aww thank you seoz!!! I am doing fine, I hope you are doing good too 💗💗💗
Obito
1. Favorite thing about them?
Everything? bxhabdhahsdhdh He's my absolute perfect baby warcriminal boy with no flaws he never did anything wrong ever in his life.. No but I think hes so great and his actions make a lot of sense and he's very relatable and tragic and I just want to hug him 😭
2. Least favorite thing about them?
That he had the audacity to die in the war and not survive and live a happy long life is ONE thing! Otherwise I hate him for being ridiculously sexy and also cute
3. Favorite line?
When he speaks 💗
4. brOTP
Obito and all the Akatsuki hehee, especially Kisame I think they are cool bros.
5. OTP
ObiYama of course ❤️ They both deserve the world and they could've both ended up in similar ways if their lives would've gone different I think.
6. nOTP
Noone I basically ship him with anyone he deserves to fuck and get fucked!
7. Random headcanon?
I think he cut his long hair again eventually because he didn't wanna look too much like Madara and still wanted to have SOME sense of self. And since hes letting them grow again later during the massacre he kinda stopped taking care of himself but eventually cut it again and it always went in kind of a circle like that because he has depression
8. Unpopular opinion?
Idk if it's unpopular but I think Obito did have some fondness for Madara somewhere deep down, in a very twisted and of course unhealthy way but I think if he WOULDNT have then he wouldn't have asked him things like "What am I to you?"
9. Song I associate them with?
I'm just gonna copy @wind-becomes-lightning here and say It's Alright by Mother Mother because its just SO PERFECT. Another song I always associate him with is Could've Been Me by The Struts!
10. Favorite picture of him?
His Juubito transformation like....
Perfect. SHOWSTOPPING SPECTACULAR yada yada
Madara
1. Favorite thing about them?
There's like two sides of him. One side is so fun and sassy in some way like he just roasts everyone left and right and complains about bad fashion and I stan that LMAO, but on the other side hes also a very sad character who went through a lot in his youth and I think at least SOME of his actions were also very understandable. ALSO I love him 💗
2. Least favorite thing about them?
Obviously the way he treats Obito, I like to just ignore that and give him a fun old grandpa personality.
3. Favorite line?
Everytime he swoons about Hashirama (sorry I am so blank when it comes to quotes lmao)
4. brOTP
Can I say Madara and Obito as a brOTP? I think they are very funny together. Otherwise I dont think he has any friends sorry king.
5. OTP
HashiMada all the way, they are my one and only my everything I've been obsessed with them since I am 16 or so and me and my best friend have a matching HashiMada tattoo I hope that explains it.
6. nOTP
MadaTobi. I don't hate on it or anything but they just don't vibe for me. Rather go and fuck his big brother, Madara.
7. Random headcanon
He has / or USED TO have a soft spot for children. He needs to protect.
8. Unpopular opinion
I refuse to go with the "Madara is very slim and pale" vibe some people having going on. He is BEEFY and TANNED!
9. Song I associate them with?
I have an entire playlist full with songs for him BUT my favorites are:
K/DA - Villain and Animals - Maroon 5
10. Favorite picture of them
I don't like this question lmao I dont wanna post any art here without permission aaah but I love pictures of Madara with cats :)
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Hello.
I have not posted or reblog or whatever these things are called nowadays. Anyways, I bet no one reads this cus i just wanna give a life update to myself lmao.
I stopped visiting tumblr probably more than 5 years ago?? So around 2018 probably. Oh wow. Okay imma make a timeline then.
2018: I was with my ex boyfriend. Lets just call him A. Things started great then went downhill and i ignored all the red flags yadda yadda yadda typical young girl thats so positive im gonna end up with this guy. Well no. If i could turn back time, i would slap myself in the face and tell her to run. I actually cant remember much back then as im trying to forget everything 2020 and below. But what i did remember is how manipulative he is and a liar. But, i was in "love". I started my diploma this year and graduated already in 2019. We'll get to that year in a second. Anyways, he practically talked me into being with him rather than this really great dude i was dating before him and mind you he had a gf. In my defense, i didnt know as i said earlier, hes manipulative and a liar. The dude before him is from singapore and i was young and thought LDR wont work on me(boy i was wrong.) I needed the physical attention cus well, i was young.. But im glad i did met him physically cus we planned to meet in Johor and it was sweet. okay that got sidetracked but 2018 is like the 2nd year i was with A. During this year, it really went downhill. I started to fall into deep depression and my mental health was bad bad. Thats when i felt i wanted to unalive myself and hurt myself. and i did. the latter i mean. anyways he started working somewhere and i actually was sus about this bitch working there as well. Lets call her S for slut.
2019: Fast forward to 2019. This is the year i got a cyst on my left ovary. Due to reasons i rather not say but i will answer if by any chance someone read this and are curious so go ahead inbox me i guess. But definitely A was contributing to it. Whether directly or indirectly. So yeah, during that time it was bad. I lost my left ovary and i only have 1 now. How i found out you ask? (no one asked but) I had really unbearable pain on my abdominal area. The uterus area like non stop. I thought its the period cramps but i wasnt on my period that time at all. I found out a bit late so the cyst grew until 12cm and i saw it after the removal. Its the size of a baby's head! im not even exaggerating. Its really big. Anyways after the surgery, my family has been there for me. They're really the main reason why im still alive and well mentally and physically. That was in July. and i cant remember anything before that. so lets move on. Towards the end of the year, i found out that A was cheating on me. Not 1, but with 2 different girls. 1 is S and 1 is F. These random ass letters will get me confused but nvm. F is the ex gf. and the funny thing is, F was friends, best friends with S. LMAO. When i found out, the first thing i did was exposing him on my instagram sksk. I cant do anything and im not gonna stay quiet about it. so i just did that. and a lot of people came forward exposing more about him and S. So hes really active with S. Hes been going out, fucking her and F behind my back. and they both dont know about each other's situation btw until F saw my insta story and contacted me to meet up. and we did and i told her everything. all this time A was badmouthing me to his side pieces saying how much of a psycho i am, how i always beg him to stay (fuck no ew i always ask for break ups but he always have a way for words and actions). Like i said, hes manipulative and a liar. the fact he had the audacity to ask me to not stay mad for long as if im still gonna be part of this shitty hole. fuck no. i did confront S at that time and bro i really felt like i wanted to slap her face and drag her across the road but hey hes not that fucking worth it for me to do that. I complete left the whole fiasco and stayed friends with F lmao. shes cool. but sometimes dumb bcs she still stayed with him after everything. although that time A already went public with S he can still manipulated F somehow. A ended up marrying S tho. and side note, i gave A a fossil watch and it was fucking expensive. and he told F he bought it himself lmao. fucker. oh and he often take advantage on me asking me to pay for shit. he did pay sometimes but restaurants that are expensive, i paid. he paid for mamak, hawker stalls and what not lmao. So that ended. And i ended up celebrating new years alone and i fucking glad i did.
2020 -2021 July: So uuh covid came. And i met this dude on May 2020. How? me and my discord friends that i met during covid were planning to meet up and hes one of them who tags along. He just broke up with his ex gf 2-3 days ago that time. How he approached me, he kissed me creepily and suddenly while me and him was alone in a house i rented before covid during my degree. Now that i think back, it was creepy. He said "what if i attacked you right now". LIKE WTF? WHO SAYS THAT. Then he suddenly kissed me. i did not know how to de-escalated the situation. so i just let it slide. we just met for 2 hours btw. and he keeps on asking for a kiss afterwards too. on the way back from the outing, i have to send him back and he did not have a license btw. All the way back, he keeps on asking wanting to kiss me again (of course i said no) and hold my hand (this one i was ok with it although i was so uncomfortable). It was so creepy dude. I dont know if those things counts as assault or not cus i kinda just went along with it but i was uncomfy. Anyways, hes unhygienic, kinda narcissistic also have anger issues. Everytime we played games together, i cant enjoy shit bcs he keeps on tilting and screaming at randoms. (sometimes he tilts on me) I also have to pick him up and send him back after all of our dates. it was a mess. I learned the hard way after agreeing to date him. but during my relationship with him, im the fucked up one. i owned up to my mistakes and im not gonna leave this part out from this timeline. i cheated on him with some random dude. and i wont justify my actions. cheating is still cheating. he did gave me a second chance and i swear to god i did try my best to be better. i don't blame him for acting more suspicious of me and blaming me for everything. but it gets worse and i got tired. i honestly thought i should've just left instead of asking for a second chance. i realized the reason why i asked for a second chance is just to make up for it. bcs i felt bad. and that's not something i should've done. i should've just left and let him healed. trust me that came up a lot of times but seems like he doesn't want us to end either. so the unhappy and most depressing phase of our relationship got dragged until august 2021.
2021 August: I finally had the courage to end things with him for good. Bcs we both tried to move on from the incident but hes not doing well on his end. He still accused me of things that i didn't do. Question everything i did and yes i got tired. again i don't blame him but Its getting unhealthy and toxic for both of us. He keeps on saying he trusts me and i have become better but still act like we're back to square one. I called quits and he doesn't want to in the beginning. But then i had to lie telling him i have another person in my life. and that was his last straw. He screamed and yelled at me and just ended there like that. I felt bad but i cant stay again bcs i felt bad. Its not right.
2021 September - Present: These timelines are getting me confused ngl cus i really cant remember the exact time. anyways before i broke up with my previous bf, i was in another different circle of friends. I spent most of my time there while trying to escape him. i thought maybe if i distant myself its a lot more easier for me to leave and him to forget me. but yea during that time we actually fought a lot bcs of that. so after the break up i spent all of my time there. and i met this random singaporean dude. we spent all night talking and exchanging songs that we like and watching sitcoms. i remember our first show was The Good Place. Our discord server name is The Good Place where we hang a lot. (ldr things) and yes he knows about my past from A to Z. Basically everything i have wrote so far. We played valorant a lot tgt. I know i know, very short amount of time meeting someone new. but bro he hits different. its definitely the rush, the chasing, the butterflies. i haven't felt like that for a while and well, its bcs of my own fault too. i admit everything happens so fast like very fast. so we start really getting to know each other after dating which is weird and can lead to an easy break up especially we're doing long distance. but im not losing this dude. so i said, fuck it. he did say that he scared long distance would be hard but hes willing to try. i did it before and i want to be better. especially for a guy like him. 2 years has passed and today, 13th April 2023, we're still together and getting engage hopefully end of this year. Life has been great since i met him. Everything is different. he accepts me for who i am, we finish each other's dark humors/jokes. We facetime everyday and never get tired of seeing each other. He met my family and i met his. Although we ldr, we make it work. There's ups and down of course and mostly bcs of me lmao cus i self sabotage a lot liddat. but im working on it. and also, i suck at communicating. mostly bcs i usually keep things to myself during my past relationships. but that's what im working on right now and i hope im doing well. besides that, i am finally content and happy. Not a day goes by i never thought of him. I truly love him and i cant wait for what the future holds for us.
Thanks for reading guys. (im probably talking alone rn)
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You know it just clicked to me... It was due to Cross that Allen got to have his basic needs met. A dry and warm shelter from the elements, a bed to sleep in, a sleeping partner in the form of Tim, as much food as he needed to feel sated, clothes that fit him. And I can see Allen at first be very reluctant because it's so much money and Cross has to do a lot of reassurance that it really is fine for him to have "all that" while feeling bad at how deep of a poverty he had to endure 🤧
Yeah...except anime/manga wise he's probably a bit snarky and is all
"Stop complaining brat and eat the damn food." "Why the fuck are ya making a big deal about this? You think we're sleeping the fucking streets? Fuck no! It'll ruin my clothes!" (Cross seems to either bury his feelings or show them through anger. So I agree he probably feels a lot of pity over how Allen lived previously and he'd want to desperately shut him up about it, hence anger. Or maybe anger at the ring leader, etc).
But I think after quite a bit of "complaints" Cross would probably knock it off and actually remind him that this is how people live.
And yet people have the audacity to act like Cross is a demon, holding Mana up to be a great dad. (Dont get me wrong I still like Mana and I know Cross wasn't the best guardian either. However Mana was sick and he wasn't the best guardian there was.)
I also just realized how sucky it could've been when Allen got his haircut (cuz he goes from longer haired red to short haired red). Can you imagine how matted it was? I doubt the circus ringleader gave much of a shit about his hair. Poor baby probably had to sit there for hours as someone tried to go through that mess.
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heartstopper: a rant
don’t get me wrong i f*cking love heartstopper but i found some things problematic, specifically in the show and i need an outlet so here we are (don’t come @ me or i’ll come @ you *respectfully*)
ok. so. i read the heartstopper books 1-4 in two days and binged the show the second day. therefore, i got a pretty direct comparison between the two and found that a lot of the things that were handled beautifully in the books weren’t done so well in the show.
keep in mind, ofc i wasn’t expecting the books and the show to be perfectly the same bc ik that’s simply not possible. no hate to anyone who loves the show, don’t get me wrong i did too!!! i just feel like it’s important to point these things out bc some of them are just not ok.
1. SHOW NICK VS BOOK NICK
I. LITERALLY. LOVE. NICK.
i relate so much to his character and he is such a sweetheart. but to me, show nick came no where near as good as book nick. let me explain.
let’s start with book nick. he was always so nice and respectful to everyone, and wasn’t afraid to stand up for what is right. we can see some of these same qualities in show nick, although book nick didn’t care as much abt being seen with charlie.
there’s this one scene that i always come back to when making a comparison between these two versions of him. remember the scene in volume 2 when they’re at a rugby practice and charlie gets passed the ball(?) and then tackled? some of the dialogue is “sorry, charlie” and “i forgot you were so light” as charlie is dazed on the ground. next thing you know, nick is shoving past everyone and yelling “CHARLIE!”, then proceeds to help charlie up and away like they’re the only two people there. he also stays and helps tend to his injury.
this all happens a little bit differently in the show. ep 4, rugby against the buff team which quickly turns into rugby against the buff team in the pouring rain. also in front of a bunch of kids from school, including charlie’s friends. at one point, the dude with the ball(?) is running for the end zone(?) (sports lingo amirite) and charlie’s there and ofc now’s the perfect time to decide to tackle him but instead charlie basically gets punched and falls down. everything just kinda like stops and nick is just standing there like ten feet away from charlie on the ground for a solid five minutes as everyone starts leaving and what does he do? absolutely nothing. nick just watches as ppl help charlie up and away and i think you see my point right?
then show nick has the audacity to say he’ll go out with a girl he doesn’t even like in front of a crowd of kids from school. like, no no no sir.
anyways. book nick >>>>>>>>>>>>>>> show nick
2. CHARLIE IS HISPANIC, RIGHT?
i guess not in the show bc he’s kinda super white. not that joe locke didn’t do a terrific job with the role, but just a missed mark by the casting since i feel like that’s an important part of the diversity and rep of the series.
3. TARA AND DARCY’S PLOTLINE
imo, a big part of nick’s character development is because of these ladies and their experience with coming out, which was lost in the show since they were also still figuring it out. it also felt kind of unnecessary to change it so much in the show, but oh well.
omg but the shot of them dancing at the party with the lights >>>>>
4. ELLE OUTING CHARLIE AND NICK
this is my biggest point and the one i found the MOST problematic in this whole thing.
when someone decides to trust you with their sexuality and / or the privacy of their relationship, one of the most important rules to follow is DONT TELL ANYONE. it’s not your responsibility to tell others. everyone’s journey is different and it’s up to them how and when they want to tell specific ppl, even if they’re also a part of your life. ITS NOT YOUR JOB. it’s a huge crossing of boundaries and grossly disrespectful.
this wasn’t an issue in the books, which makes me wonder why on earth they did what they did in the show.
i believe it’s in the third book that charlie decides to finally tell tao about his and nick’s relationship. though tao is the last one to know, it was still charlie who initiated the conversation bc he was finally ready to trust tao again.
in the show, nick and charlie tell elle when they’re out on a triple date with tara and darcy while tao is away from the table. so now tao is the only one who doesn’t know and when he shares his suspicions with elle about nick and charlie, SHE DOESNT DO ANYTHING. doesn’t deny anything, doesn’t even try to switch the subject. she doesn’t do anything to protect nick and charlie’s privacy and that’s what gets me so worked up.
again, don’t get me wrong—i loved the experience of reading and watching heartstopper. i just thought bringing the things i noticed to light was important bc some of the things represented in the show are just not okay. imo, the books are 110% better than the show and i highly recommend reading and also watching the show. it’s a great easy queer read with lots of amazing rep!!!
#heartstopper#netflix#just ranting#lgbtq#lgbt books#show vs book#readers on tumblr#writers on tumblr
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hi its me after days of election breakdown im back to give my 2cents about this whole clownery
I am telling you now that if you click that read more there's going to be a long rant ahead, but at the same time please do read and spread awareness, we badly need it
Philippine Election 2022 is a joke
In the first place Bongbong Marcos SHOULDN'T even be allowed to file COC for this election. You're telling me someone who has a lot of cases against him eligible to run for the highest position in our country? What a fucking joke.
but ofc because of their connections all of the appeal for his disqualification were trashed and he was allowed to run.
Despite all that you would think that Filipinos would be in their right mind and not vote someone who's a criminal and doesn't have a concrete platform nor credentials right?
lmao wrong
I don't blame them, this is the result of years of whitewashing and manipulation of information in our textbooks. People were made to believe that Martial Law was a golden era. If you want to know the truth, you have to dig deeper yourself.
Still, the youth is woke and wouldn't vote for him right?
That's right but democracy is a fucking joke here
People in comelec (commission on election), were appointed by our current president. Said president is the father of bbm's vice president, Sarah Duterte. Aside from this Imme marcos, bbm's sister, also hold a position there.
So you see how much of an advantage they have
Unfortunately it doesn't end there. Let me list some of the things that happened during the election
There were a lot of broken VCMs. People were made to make a decision to either wait or leave their balots to the people there
For those who waited for the SD cards they were waiting FOR HOURS, I even saw places who stayed for more than 24hrs just to exercise their right to vote.
People were killed and there were evidences and reports of vote buying
Despite having a very slow connection, the partial and unofficial count came so fast. And don't even get me started on the consisted 47% they have showed throughout the count (a straight linear graph? seriously?) and them saying that they see nothing wrong with it
and so many more
But still Comelec has the audacity to say that this election was peaceful? what a load of crap
You know what's more annoying about this whole thing? International articles
Why do they gotta emphasized the landslide? Why do they make it seem that all of us wanted this? I know we're clowns right now, we're the whole fucking circus yes. But this country didn't just stand down and took it.
As if there weren't protests about the whole thing
As if it really was clean democracy that made this whole thing happen
I would love to be proven wrong. I would like to swallow all my words during this election period and say to his supporters "you were right his a decent leader, maybe i judged him hastily" but if we were right and this country goes even more downhill, I am taking everyone of you accountable
That being said, I encourage everyone to please spread awareness. Many are already being red-tagged (red-tagging, for those who don't know, refers to the malicious blacklisting of individuals or organizations critical or not fully supportive of the actions of a sitting government administration in the country. This can lead to an individual being killed.) Our country is on the brink of being under martial law once again. Bbm hasn't even won yet but violence is already prevailing to the people trying to speak up.
and for my fellow Pinoys. Hanggat hindi pa tapos ang bilangan may pag-asa pa. Hanggat alam natin na hindi tama ang nangayayari tayo'y lalaban
Oo, kay hirap at sakit mahalin ng Pilipinas. Nakakasawa at nakakapagod ipagkaban kasi parang paulit-ulit nalang. Ngunit wag tayong titigil, ipagpalalaban pa din. Magpapahinga pero hindi susuko
never again
dont ever forget
#i cried midway writing this#sat here for like 1hr crying while writing this#90% crying 10% writing lmaooo#le rants#halalan 2022#elections 2022#ph elections 2022#martial law#laban leni#let leni lead#kulayrosasangbukas#spread awareness
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Tw: ranting about Mature topics like s3ggs, male female dynamics on interc0urse, relationships, dont read if ur uncomfy plssss
"Not only I do not want you pushing me away, I do not even know, which I honestly fear, if you still hate me or is pissed at me for consenting out of vulnerability. I just want you to know pushing me away in whatever means won't stop me from seeking you out (call me stubborn all you want because I am that even to my family) or with a better term, caring about you.. completely…. You’re wrong thinking me ignoring you from time to time is good sign, while I’ve really been busy in important matters for the past months in my out of school break. Do you really see me as a “monster”? I know when I skim then deleted your reply, I know in my mind you might not be telling the entire truth. You seem a coward judging by your words, they are not only self-serving, it distresses me when you say I cannot or shouldn't associate with you, while not taking responsibility for the gravity of your own actions after we met, and see how it has emotionally impacted me for days (not only talking about the “deed” but I guess, admittedly, meeting you may made me positively stronger and able to face and overcome my personal challenges or emotional struggles I don't tell people about alone). The fact that you wanna cut off just because we had a harmless mistake or…. If I am wrong, perhaps, you are probably protecting me from something bad happening which made me suspected based on your words, and then calling yourself a crap or mental doesn't suit you either, because to me, I believe you weren't mental and crap at all (as you thought you are) cause’ you must have got reasons I hope to understand, and also because we are only students and have a lot to figure out. Oh gods, I have to go back studying animation because I have been writing down for days anxiously knowing and not knowing what to say back. "
Thats the last message i give to him.
May I share, this is just a journal okie?
I never knew at 20 years old how intercourse can affect to a girl and to a man. women can fall in love through sex, while men can have no feelings attached while having sex.
I was taught that by a guidance counselor and later on clarified by a senior student telling me these things, who had been through mature things and relationships in her coming of age phase.
Honestly, I have a experience when I was vulnerable and then consented to get in bed with a former male friend who asked for it. Of course, in a way I still care and sort of like him romantically, but I will not ideally romantically develop feelings for somebody who is in my mind 24/7 because we haven't connected nor met in person since we used to be in different schools and live in different locations at the time.
Now this boy I am referring to will study in an arts school where I applied to. I OBVIOUSLY WANNA BEFRIEND HIM AND SEE HIM AND ALSO HUG HIM AND GIVE HIM PRESENTS HE DESERVES despite he acted and treated or tossed me aside like an object in the past. Quite a month it happened and then the audacity to block me after we did the seggs was quite a punch in the face, shocking and stunning me in a place and making me feel all emotional longing and trauma for being left by someone you care about hits in your system.
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nct: taeyong and haechan's silly ass "scandals" recently
tldr: a week or so ago taeyong posted a tiktok with chaewon's "dododok" mistake and got so much hate from knetz he deleted it + a few members were dancing during yuta's ment at nct nation and people were calling them disrespectful for that but only focused on haechan.
so im coming to tumblr to rant because twitter stans are getting on my fawking nerves and i know everything i say on that hellish app is pointless because dumb btches will always be dumb btches.
honestly being an nctzen on twitter has never been enjoyable for an extended period of time because this godforsaken fandom is literally a homeless shelter for so many deranged chronically online kpop heads to beg for their pennies of attention. if we're being fr a lot of it has to do with the fcked up management of the group itself.. sm entertainment when i catch you in the streets ..
but recently the way two members in particular have been treated.. i cant even blame the fckass company for this level of degeneracy. yall just bitter and have an average screentime of 10 hours because how can you get so bored of supporting your fav you just start hating on them??? for no reason at all???
a couple days ago ty posted a tiktok with a silly remix audio of chaewons "dododok" mistake she made at a le sserafim's show on tour. that mistake literally went viral and basically all of the kpop industry laughed and copied it and called it cute, because that's what it is, just a cute little mistake we can giggle at and move tf on. the audio ty used was funny and created a trend that is currently going viral in korea.
instead of laughing, calling it a cute interaction, and going about their lives, knetz decided to wake up and be horrible people. what else is new bruh. of course big bad ty had an evil plan to mock the poor defenseless kim chaewon for her terrible mistake that deeply affected her..
please i almost kilt myself when i saw he deleted the tiktok. this is how jesus fans felt when he died like ty is quite literally an angel, his eyes sparkle and he giggles instead of laughing, how can you take him in as a person and still decide to actually bully him for next to nothing. like.. maybe you need to die idk.
and what gets me is the way they were acting like she said her dad died and he used an audio of that. its not that fcking serious dawg. she laughed at the damn joke herself and if they dont stop and pray that he privated the vid instead of deleting i will actually place a generational curse upon the families of pannchoa girls who cant keep his name out their mouth and I STAND BY THAT
and my bias, my boyfriend actually, my snookie ookie pookie bear haechan, god give me strength before i type this bullsht : during the last nct nation concert yuta started giving his ment in japanese, and some members at the other end of the line began dancing and messing around. they immediately stopped when ty motions them to. again, it isnt that fcking serious, but jobless neo investigators created discourse out of it. they didn't interrupt yuta or cause a fuss, they were literally just fidgeting around to pass the time because 20 speeches is a whole lot to listen to in silence.
but of course, its way more serious for nctzens, and furthermore haechan is the main evil villain of princess yutas fairy story. literally half the line started doing the dance but the only tweets getting likes included haechan's name. what the fck is wrong w these hoes seriously when i saw those tweets i thought they punched yuta in the face or sum. when i watched it i had a damn jaw drop at the audacity of these folk. they just keep getting worse at masking the animosity they have for their own favs, haechan in particular. yall claim to be his fans but jump on a hate train that isn't even 2 seconds old like.. are you even trying to like him? the video clearly shows the other members moving too, but somehow their eyes can only see haechans pretty little face and they just cant stand seeing him babygirling the way he did on the 17th of september 2023. it was never that fcking serious bitch, keep your nasty sticky keyboard fingers away from husband 1 and wife 2, i actually cannot stand seeing yall harass them for the stupidest pettiest shit this far and this many hits into their career. you literally know none of them have any ill intent behind the actions they do publicly, unless they say or do something outright offensive or malicious. so until they tell chaewon she's a stuttering ass bitch or roundhouse kick yuta off the stage, shut it up and stop using them for hit tweets damn
all of this just ties back to the fact nctzens are constantly watching THEIR OWN FAVS waiting for them to slip up. knetz chose ty and intlzens chose haechan. yall need to choose yourselves and get the fcking help you need because its not normal to hate on people you have a fan account for. be careful who you call oomf cause these fawking hybrid bitches got split personality disorders, all it takes is alt account and a dream. this is what happens when you choose silly idol boys instead of therapy and i mean that in the most helpful way
going to sleep mad asf smh
-also i was looking for taehyuck pics to put as a header for this post and i realized there's literally almost none?? hello?? haechan taeyong do yall even know each other?? not even a photoshoot or anything just some 10p quality debut pictures like damn haeyong nation yall are dead as hell 😢
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its a journey, not a race. i have to feel this way to move on.
what do i want to gain from telling my sisters about this? or my mum? what could they tell me that would help?
all i truly want to hear is that i should listen to my heart and go back to him. that he really was one of a kind, and that i wont find another like him. but the reality is im still 22, and i havent even met anyone besides him, because i wont let go of him. i dont want to let go of him! i want him back. i want what we had back. i want to feel that kind of love and attraction for someone again. because so far, i havent found a single person who can aggravate and excite me all at once the way he did. that could make me genuinely LAUGH the way he did. that made me feel safe and cared for like he did. ugh. is it true that i felt this way? am i making it all up to feed into my delusions? its so tiring being this way. its like the only thing that would make it end is to simply do it. to actually unblock him, add him, send him a dm, and get to the bottom of it myself. to put my pride aside, and risk rejection, all to hear from him again. to relight that connection. to somehow get the answers that i seek. what answers? that he still wants me? but do i still want him? who even is he, now...? is that what it is? the lack of knowing? i want him to still belong to me, even when i dont want to be together. i have the audacity to think he owes that loyalty to me years after i left him.
i want to know if he still has any kind of feelings for me. do you still think about me as often as i do? does it make you sad? does it make you miss me? does it make you nostalgic, or do you want it back? do you wish things went differently...? do you wonder, maybe, things could be different now, if we tried again?
i wish we could get to know eachother all over again without it feeling wrong. i wish we could start again without feeling like its a mistake. i wish that i was right in thinking you were the one for me all along.
i used to think we'd be together forever. that we'd have kids together.
did you secretly expect us to break up too? or did you want us to be together forever? because somehow i wanted both at once.
well. anyway, the point of all this is this. i still cant get you off my mind. so, you did win. if there was anyone who won, it was always you. you got me, you got the experience of a girlfriend, you had the character development of dating a girl like me. we learnt from eachother but you get to take that knowledge and now find a new girl to charm and love better than you ever did for me. and after all my fighting and anger and resentment, now i cant go a day without remembering you and the amazing love we shared and the memories we have together. ugh. ew. im so sappy and pathetic.
i dont know if it would be satisfying or heartbreaking to know that you still think about me to, or miss me. it would be even more heartbreaking to know you didn't.
i know youre happy now and that makes me happy and proud of you. you honestly might be doing a lot better than me mentally now. thats so impressive. you have a good circle of friends, youre living your best life and having fun and you moved forward instead of backward. that change is so heartwarming for me.
it irritates me that youre a tradie now. did you do that on purpose, cause i find them so hot? do you know how bad that makes me crave you? my body hasnt forgotten the things you did to me... lol. thats fucked up and lowkey weird. we broke up a long time ago and we were still very young.
i wonder how much better youd be now. i wonder how many girls youve slept with now? i hope they were good. my body count went up but for no good reason. they were all terrible and never made me cum. what a waste of my body. another massive regret.
anyway. i wonder how you'd react if you actually knew i felt this way about you. if you read everything i just wrote... would you feel bad for me? or would it spark something in you, a memory, and hope, that maybe its worth trying again. or has too much time passed, and too much has happened between us, that it simply wouldnt make sense anymore?
ive tried and tried to reconnect with old friends from the past. even the ones who i left on good terms with, we just cant seem to click anymore. we changed and outgrew eachother. and they remind me too much of the past, and the pain of grieving that time and that old me is too much, and it makes it too hard to see her anymore.
maybe weve changed so much, and the trust has faded so far, that even if we were to reconnect, wed inevitably lose eachother again anyway. would that hurt more? perhaps its best to leave the memory untouched where it is, and not meddle with what we had, by replacing it with newly failed attempts of rekindling things.
ugh.
i always come back to the same conclusion. and thats good! its consistent, and its healthy, and its right, and it helps me to stay on gods path. but its so exhausting going round in this circle so much. when can i be given a break? when can this addiction end? who is holding onto who at this point? is it venus retrograde? this whole time ive been blaming my emotions on venus. but every now and then i wonder if its him manifesting himself into my mind by thinking about me to.
EXCUSE ME! IF YOU ARE HEARING ME RIGHT NOW, WOULD YOU PLEASE GIVE ME A BREAK? I DONT WANT TO IMAGINE YOU ALL HOT AND SWEATY IN YOUR WORK UNIFORM AFTER A DAYS WORK. I DONT LIKE IMAGINING YOU LAUGHING AND MESSING AROUND WITH YOUR FRIENDS. I DONT ENJOY MISSING A PERSON WHO DOESNT EXIST. SO PLEASE STOP THINKING ABOUT ME AND MANIFESTING IN MY MIND! ITS EXHAUSTING. I NEED A BREAK TO FIND SOMETHING REAL AND TANGIBLE, THANKS.
i am so fucking delusional and need professional help. thats all
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Book Review: Husband Material by Alexis Hall
Rating: ** 2/5
Pacing: medium
Genre: YA, LGBTQ, Romance
Ok so first I just want to say I didnt love Boyfriend material which is the first book in this series. I believe I rated it 2 stars… so looking back I have no idea why I purchased the next one. Regardless I did and now here we are. I think I dont really like Alexis Halls writing so keep that in mind. I dont mean to offend anyone I just dont think its for me.
I’m going to talk about what I liked because theres not much. I loved the early banter between Oliver and Luc. They are honesty pretty cute and the only reason I kept reading… and thats about it. Moving on.
Spoiler time (bullet point style)
All of the random things that were talked about for pages and pages and pages was just stupiid like I dont need to know about this stuffl. I did a lot of skimming just to get to the important stuff. Dont get me wrong I did really try to read through but I just couldn’t.
Luc has had no and I mean no personal growth between the ending of Boyfirend Material and the begining of Husband Material. I mean its a two year gap you would expect to be something any type of growth. But he still is super insecure about his relationship dispite the fact that it has been going great. He still acts like he is 12 in pretty much every conversation he has. I mean who makes the whole conversation about themselves when the other persons father just died. Seriously it made me angry.
Hoenslty luc as a whole just got on my nerves just everything that came out of his mouth.
That proposal SUCKED
Dont get me started on that ending I mean what… does anyone actually act like that anymore. Especially if you are in your 30s I feel like you would be open with your partner if you didnt want to get married. Idk maybe I live under a rock but… anyway it was so stupid that Luc had the audacity to think it was ok to go ahead with the wedding when he himself didnt want to, but when Oliver says he dosent want to get married Luc gets mad. What is that seriously what is that. I kept expecting him to be happy about and then he wasnt
Then they. Stayed. Together. They really shouldve just broken up it would have been easier on everyone.
Last thing: FATHER MATERIAL is coming next year. nooo i mean they already have commitment issues that poor kid. Please god dont do that to that poor kid.
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