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mental-skillness · 19 days

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"This is gonna be my last pack for sure. I'm gonna taper myself off," i say, three days before i get someone to buy me a second pack

#i worked a graveyard shift and on the way home i drove around for 2 hours #and at a gas station i saw a homeless guy ive talked to a few times and paid him to get me a pack #idk i feel bad about it #like he agreed and he got something out of it too but it feels like a shitty thing to have done #like i feel manipulative for it #and on top of that there's the guilt for getting a second pack at all #bc how am i ever gonna quit if i keep doing that?#like i only have a year to stop #because once i turn 21 and have easy access it's gonna be a thousand times harder #and the issue is that i don't WANT to stop #i just don't want to die at 60 from a heart attack #and that's what's gonna happen if i never quit #like heart attacks are one of the most common smoking fatalities #and heart issues already run in my family #and i already take adderall (adhd not recreational) which probably puts strain on my heart even without smoking #but i really really like being able to smoke #i like having something i can fall back on #and it's so easy to imagine a life where i never make myself give that up #and there's also the added benefit that it feels.... validating? in a way?#like it feels like proof that i struggle with shit #bc healthy people aren't addicted to cigarettes #and that almost feels manipulative too #bc i already HAVE proof that i struggle with shit #i take SNRIs every day and have a history of suicidal ideation/behavior going back as far as i can remember #which means this isn't about validation #it's about wanting other people to see that I'm struggling and assume things are worse than they are #and tbh maybe it's about wishing things WERE worse than they are #like if my mental health is bad enough for me to be a smoker then maybe it's bad enough for me to act the way i do #but deep down i know that's not really true #i chose to start smoking and i had to go out of my way to do it

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inkiedraws · 2 months

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"LOL this flip-flop wearing loser thinks he's gonna kick my ass and destroy my whole kingdom in the span of an afternoon. What an idiot"

I didn't intend for this to be a full comic, which is why it just kinda ends. Sowwy

#one piece #monkey d luffy #donquixote doflamingo #trafalgar law #i've been too nice to dofy so im gonna draw him suffering #dofy feels insulted and takes out his annoyance on the ptsd victim #also really loving trebol being the manipulator and then being like “hey this kid is alright!” then becoming the manipulated himself #him turning into a weird enabling father figure without ever intending to is great #but oda intentionally made him so gross an unappealing bc HE KNOWS he can get away with it bc the story is so good #and i hate him for it #anyway dressrosa's a good arc

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cvndlemoon · 14 days

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⋆ ˚｡ ⋆ "put me in a movie" ౨ৎ ⋆｡˚

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alouvrr · 11 days

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eye of the vulture king

#ahhhh I feel like I drew buddy too innocent here. wish I could give more indicators that he is being manipulated #but all the stuff I drew felt too cheesy!#my art #buddy dawn #kristen applebees #fantasy high #fhjy #d20 #unironically that one minute segment changed my feelings about buddy so bad. evangelicals who die without questioning their faith #make me feel so tragic #trauma bonding w these two would be fun but also consider: he meets helio in the afterlife and see what a wreck his religion is and #wants to help helio out lmao #would be fun

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shivunin · 10 months

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Because I have just seen this specific thing for the second time, I would like to say:

If I reblog your art, I do not expect you to reblog (or share!) my fic in return

If I comment on your fic, I do not expect you to comment on (or read!) mine in return

My enjoyment of anyone's work does not come with strings or expectations

My friendship is not a bill that you will have to pay later

That's it!

#the fucking obsession with fandom becoming ~content creation~ has got to stop. this is not a business.#i don't like it when someone acts like i owe them because they complimented my work #and i will never do that to someone else #kindness has to be freely given or it isn't kindness; it's manipulation #this just. makes me feel super gross and it upsets me that it's happened twice #and that both people explicitly stated in their profiles that this is an expectation they have of fandom #you can't form a community by force. that's not how it works.#anyways. rant over. i just want it to be known that i'm not expecting anything from anyone lol #if i talk to you or hang out it's because i want to. i don't want anything from you except you know #kindness and companionship or w/e #bleargh. gonna go play a game or something.#dixeram

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vaguely-concerned · 3 months

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sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go

#the locked tomb #harrowhark nonagesimus #john gaius #harrow the ninth #this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL #this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships #(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think #the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real #but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed)#there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone?#yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't)#the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god #when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care #(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution)#and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on #it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there #while john is -- well he sure is being john huh #this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end #(with john slam dunked right into hell that is)#it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up #john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 5 months

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Let the revenge games begin.

[First] Prev <–-> Next

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #jin guangyao #nie huaisang #He's gonna call his 5 horse friends up. They have to go on a 14 year long journey to finish the job but by god they will do it.#The sheer chaos in the Audio Drama is really fantastic. Reminds me of those traincar murder mysteries.#The lights go off and there's a scream and then BOOM dead body. Who did that!!!#Okay it was qi deviation and he did it to stop himself from killing his brother. He did it to himself.#JGY sadly has the worst alibi ever though. Both the strongest motivation and also uhhh presence at the scene.#Not to nitpick but as someone who loves murder mysteries - I do feel like even *one* other suspect would have made it stronger.#I get that he tried to make it look like an inevitable Qi Deviation and that it *is* something within the family legacy.#And a big part of NHS figuring it all out comes down to his own perceptiveness and intelligence.#If you weren't close enough to JGY and NMJ of course it looks like an accident.#Sadly 'guy who plays the 'poor little meow meow card'' is also weak to 'guy who plays the 'poor little meow meow card''.#NHS was the better subtle manipulator at the end. That's probably the strongest mystery part of MDZS. And why he's in my top 5.#My man pulled the 'kill him just as he falls from the top of his game and loses everything' gambit and I love him for it.

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gothiethefairy · 3 months

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thinking about how different the story would've been if laios and falin's roles were reversed.

if laios was the one who got eaten by the red dragon and falin is the one going back into the dungeon to find him.

the party would be a little different too (shuro would've stayed if it was falin as the leader)

they still eat monsters tho, but maybe not throw a big fit about it bc "well, if falin says it's okay..."

i feel like it would've put marcille's and falin's friendship to the test too. (i have thoughts and opinions about how marcille treats falin)

and how heartbroken falin would get when she slowly realizes no one really likes her brother.

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #delicious dungeon #gothie's opinions #i feel like falin would change as a person too. she gets more confidence. and maybe be allowed to be angry at times?#idk how the winged lion would be able to manipulate falin too. like what does falin truly desire?

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dogrocks · 7 months

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an au where dovewing trains in the dark forest instead of ivypool....

#draws #warrior cats #dovewing #ivypool #dovewing still has her powers and all that but the df decides to manipulate her instead. seeing how she could be a lot of use to them #she knows what she's doing by siding with them because she resents being part of a prophecy against her will #along with other things like lion and jay looking down at her. feeling replaced by hollyleaf etc #and is like well at least i'm liked for who i am here. and by the time she realises they're using her as well she's kinda in too deep #turned one of the prophecy cats against them. she gets redeemed in the end though because i heart her #idk what role ivypool would play in this au maybe she still spies by sneaking into the df since dovewing probably wouldn’t do it

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maalidoesart · 3 months

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me and the devil

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wired-heartbeats · 3 months

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For the record I think Vox is being effected and possibly swayed by Val’s poison just like Angel is, the pink signifying it on Angel shows up on Voxs screen during and after interacting and being influenced by Val directly, when Vox is operating independently it isn’t an actual normal feature of his

This paired with an earlier moment from episode 2 when Val first mentioned something had happened with Angel Dust, Vox seemed happy about the idea of Angel quitting

“He quit? :D”

It’s interesting for sure, makes me wonder what Vox actually thinks about Angel, and more importantly, actually thinks about Valentino. He’s a business man, and clearly the Vees all teamed up (at least initially) because it helps elevate their status and power spread, they may be friendly with each other but we as an audience don’t actually know if there’s more to it as of now. But still, interesting

#personally I think Vox is afraid #He clearly has some defensive traits about his status and feels the need to prove a point no one even questioned yet #I wonder if he knows on some level. that if he were to falter he could very well end up in a situation like Angels #I think once we see more of how Velvette’s actual relationship with Val is we’ll have a better picture of what’s going with them #but one thing is for sure. Val is *manipulative*. and he’ll take what he wants no matter the consequences. Vox is able to calm Val down but #that could be having a rebound effect on Vox in the long run. keeping him in check. I doubt Val would stick up for either of them anyways #not unless it directly benefited him #I hope it gets touched on in some way bc I love the other two Vs characters and want to see Val squashed like the grimy insect he is but #ya know #in an in character making sense sorta way #cats chatterbox #hazbin hotel #hazbin hotel Vox

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linktoo · 14 hours

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i still dont know why kabru has a winged lion on his desk like. what does it signify. he becomes laios' most trusted advisor.

#labru #laios touden #laius thorden #kabru #dungeon meshi spoilers #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #Linktoo rambles #I think about this so much like.... in the most positive spin on this makes me think kabru becomes the actual advisor laios can rely on #but this makes me feel uneasy like. kabru's position of power in relation to laios will lead to something bad in the future #kabru my political male manipulator #in the end he really won

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allistars-light · 13 days

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Y/n: I don't need to go to bed. I'm not tired, I'll be fine.

Arlecchino : But, darling, I'll be so lonely without you. Come curl up in my arms so I can feel whole again.

Y/n: O-oh. Well. Are you trying to seduce me into healthy sleeping patterns??

Arlecchino : Is it working?

#Arlecchino #Arlecchino x reader #use of y/n #incorrect quotes #I feel like arle is the type to gaslight or manipulate us into sleeping better #also feels like she's the type to lecture us for not getting enough sleep 🥺#I love her so much fr fr

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stewykablooey · 4 months

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i hate this fucking show why does it looks like he’s being yelled at. he looks like he’s being yelled at when actually his best friend is begging him to talk to him. mr kendall roy. its both the shame of the grip logan has on him right now the shame of the humiliation logan is putting him through right now and also the. its the love. the love is violence. mr kendall roy thinks the love is violence!!

#kendall just wept into his father’s welcoming shielding embrace for the first time in either who knows how long or ever #and it was only after he’d just killed a kid #and now his best friend is putting thirty years of love and trust on the table and he thinks this love is violent toooooo #and no no i need you to understand its not that he’s afraid of stewy or thinks stewy is being manipulative #its like. the love is there because he did something wrong. you’re showing me love because i did something awful.#you putting love on the table feels like a punishment like discipline #am i making sense!!!!#kendall roy #kenstewy #m

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suchawrathfullamb · 3 months

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I love how the show actually takes the audience through their love story. In season one we all hate Hannibal, in season 2b we're getting weirdly seduced by their dynamic, by Mizumono we've become Hannibal: we feel heartbroken by the betrayal, in season 3 we're the child of divorce and by wrath we're just right there on that cliff with them.

#i love when media is able to take us INTO the characters feelings #like how midsommar manipulates the audience to think the end is good and justifiable lol I LOVE IT #nbc hannibal #hannigram #hannibal #will graham #murder husbands #hannibal lecter #hugh dancy #mads mikkelsen

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arthursfuckinghat · 1 month

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"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."

"It ain't that complicated!"

How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.

#he makes me feel so emo #this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced #the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me #like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago #not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it #the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts #it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval #hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly #arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart #the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it #his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind #and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived #and hosea notices he knows this #but they still jab at arthur #oh it hurts #is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse?#playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more #rdr2 #red dead redemption 2 #mick squeaks #mick rants #mick gifs #arthur morgan #dutch van der linde #liveblogging #you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty #and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort #he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole #he doesn't want that touch he craves #it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us

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