#manic escapism

[cupidle]

zazie

#trigun #zazie #zazie the beast #taps mic anyone here cares abt zazie. is it crickets. #i’ve been sooo interested in zazie and their lore/significance to the story since reading trimax #i feel like adding another variable to the conflict would have been rly interesting and that variable being the native species #on no mans land would have added more nuance to the story #and there was an attempt to discuss that but nothing rly came of it #cause of THE MENACE OF SOCIETY escaping his damn ward cell #i want more worm involvement #in a story so heavily focused on the survivability of one’s species and abuse of power i just think. looking more in depth at the hosts #of the planet would have been cool. #guy in chair rocking back and forth manically #and i love bugs also #cupidle

[teddyedwards]

Here's my resignation, I'll serve it in drag! / All rock and roll is homosexual

Manic Street Preachers and My Chemical Romance on defying gender and sexuality norms

nicky wire photographed by mick hudson / gerard way at Riotfest / mama by mcr / born a girl by msp / richey edwards / gerard way by kenneth capello / frank iero / james dean bradfield / a version of reason by rob jovanovic / interview with gerard way / frank iero's pansy guitar / richey edwards fairy t-shirt

#shh i know they are very different bands but they four guys from working class towns who used books and movies and creativity to escape #who were downright bored with the lack of glamour on the scene and explored gender and sexuality #who had an insane belief in their art and never shunned the idea of being a huge band #i had sooo many parallels i want to make a part two lmao #also tried to include as many sources as possible but its hard with older stuff and this has a target audience of like .. one person #mcr #my chemical romance #manic street preachers #msp #f slur #ps if anyone has any tips on how people actually find photographer credits hmu like my google skills are not what i thought

[h3rania]

My digital footprint is concerning what's worse is that I attached it to my face

#girlblogging #girlblog #manic pixie dream girl #girlblogger #femcel #girl interrupted #how can i escape it

[grim-has-issues]

jess prodman was such a cunty old man

#i dont why im saying this #bc i dont actually think this #at least not that much #i think its just because escaped voiced him #and hes my real life adaptation of the manic pixie dream #asmr roleplay #audio rp #goodboyaudios #gba bvz #bvz #bastards vs zombies #and i mean cunty in the drag queen way #the gay way #the not britosh way

[kralmajales]

TMI time I just got back from an impulsive date with a rando from the subway and I managed to not sleep with them. Everyone cheer !!!!!!

#this is actually a major win in my books I usually sleep with people and then major regret it. #I may have manic pixie dream girl’d a little too hard with my rejections and made him fall in love with me more . #but oh well I managed to escape and set boundaries !! yay!!!!! #also sidenote when will I ever go on a side quest date with a rando woman I’m sick of these men I genuinely am NOT attracted to them. #I love free drinks though so . I keep putting out . #NOT THIS TIME THOUGH . ONLY A LITTLE . EVERYONE CLAP!!!!! #only second base whatever BE PROUD OF ME. #I’m so sorry can you tell I’m inebriated . which only makes this victory sweeter . #also I handled my liquor way better than him which is always a point of pride. #anyway all this sounds silly but it’s genuinely a victory for me in boundary setting and I’m genuinely proud of myself!! #fuck off feliks

[taralen]

(*σᴗσ)

The next "Ask" response might take a day or two because I want it to be as *ahem* honestly drawn as possible. What does that mean? Oh.

You'll see.

Some people might think I'm being "crazy" as an "act" or putting on a "character."

Lmfao

W̶̢̪̏͋ͯ́͠h̷̬ͤ̿͢͜͝y̢̛̛̘͑̉ͬ́̕ ͧ͏̛̝͘͠t̴̵̺ͨ̊̑͜͡hͨͭͣ̈҉̵̷̝͟e̡̛̯̿́͟ ͯ͞҉̵̻͞f̵̴̢̥̌͐̆̑͟u͉ͩ͗ͤ̀͜͢͞c̈́̉ͥ̓͏͏̛҉͉k̲͋̇ͤͩ́͟͟͞ ̸̷̵̢̦͆̏w̢̢̤͒͑̾̀͝ơ̢̧̟͋͜ü̸̷̲͘͠l̵̤͗͌́͘̕d̢̨̹͂͘͢ ̴̛͍̒͌͡͡Ḭ̸̢̿͝͠ ͧͧͧ҉̴͙͘͜e̛͚͊́̆́̕͠v̨̡̛̙ͤ͆̊ͯ͞e̵̴̫ͭ͌́͘r̶ͥ͗͋̃͢͢͏̻ ̷̧̘ͨ̍́͘p͂͐̽͏̴̢̛͉ŕ̴̢͕ͥ̀͘͟e͔͑̈̓̀̕̕͠t̷͂͆͆ͪ͢͏̶̰e̸̡̼̒ͭ̌̕͞n̷̡͚͆͂̿͘͜d̴̵̓ͩ́̄͞҉̰ ̐̓͗͏̧͉͟͡t̵̷̸̢͎̾̊̾o̸̡̯ͪ̋̈̏͢͟ ̧͉̆̀͟͞b̡̢̲ͧ͘͜e̛͂͊͜͡҉̩ ̿ͨ͗҉҉̛̮͡t̵ͭ͗҉̨̧̙h͖͊͘͜͡͡i̵̧̻͋͟͞ś̀͞͏̶̘͡ ̸̴̢̄҉̺ẃ͗͏̷͚̀͟a͌ͪ̆̀̚͘͏̬͞y̸̢͚̾̈́͜͞?̢̯̋ͥ̔̀͟͝

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Please.

I ain't a kid (sponge). I have memories from the 90s.

Anyway why am I typing this? Oh right

because I ran out of my meds and I haven't taken it in over 24 hours and my hands keep shaking and I'm DEFINITELY OKAY THOUGH i am definitely ok

You know how I know I am definitely 100% ok? Because I was drawing despite shaking and I ¦¦¦▓▓▒▒▒░░

[[ĪF ᗰY S❤ƱĿ ѠᗩS ᗩ Ƈ❤Ŀ❤Ŕ ĪƬ Ѡ❤ƱĿD ßƐ ṖĪᑎҠ]]

I was tripping [[balls]] in my crib while in this same damn room. Those diamond patterns really @$%^ing pissed me off!

]]I may end up somewhere far away, and at first, I was happy, but now... I'm wondering if it's worth it. I hate the community here. The place I loved no longer exists. Everything changes too fast for me... I never got to appreciate the city to its full extent because I am not wealthy, but even then... Why would I stay living in a city? Why would I do this? Why am I second-guessing myself? I don't want to stay here for the reasons I should. I just want to bring the kitty from outside with me. Is that possible? Can I bring him with me? I love him so much, and the thought of someone hurting him when I'm no longer here makes me sick to my stomach. But he is a "feral" cat to anyone but me. Yet, I can't take him inside. What am I going to do? He is the one thing I don't want to leave behind...[[

[[Pink: The color of Compassion, Romance, and Nurture.]]

[[Does that color even represent me?]]

#musings #manic thoughts #manic vent #anxiety #I have a cat cage but I don't know if he will go in it... He did before but then he escaped #How will I catch him? I can't leave him. I can't...

[czarette]

The fog comes

on little cat feet.

It sits looking

over harbor and city

on silent haunches

and then moves on.

Carl Sandburg

#absurdism #bookblr #romanticism #esoteric #albert camus #existentialism #escapism #poetry #nihilism #philosophy #girlblogging #manic pixie dream girl #femcel #female hysteria #female manipulator

[child-of-thew0rld]

i’m broken but maybe you like to play with broken toys

#tumblrgirl #black swan #sad aesthetic #tumblr #art girl #escapism #dancer girl #ballerina #girl blogger #girlblogging #this is what makes us girls #diet mountain dew #im not sorry #dont call me #manic pixie dream girl #she is art #femme fatale

[merbityblerbity]

I’ve watched one episode of peaky blinders and it feels like a 14 year old wattpad girlie was in charge of the love interest’s plot

#peaky blinders #netflix #like seriously tho she is like a manic pixie but like from the pretending the female gaze is not also the male gaze way #she literally sings a song to escape harassment #i know music is powerful but it’s not pepper spray #television #crime drama #historical characters #gilded age #victorian

[mintacle]

#jason todd #batman #bruce wayne #red hood #dc #dc comics #dc fanart #I know we like their meeting nowadays but it always strikes me as something that must have been terrifying #tchekov's gun wasn't at the scene. But they must have heard its safety click off in the distance #Because the first scene was not nice at all. Jason's pain was always there maybe in the background and subtext. but undeniably there. #and he could not escape it. It caught up and beat him and murdered him #I'm sorry guys. I have never been sane about Jason. But let me tell you. my grip on my sanity is slipping #Manically obsessed with him and the horror of his story #nature creates

[mausuwinasa]

What is it with me and hyperfixating on ships with a blue and yellow color pallet. If I had a nickel for every time I did this I’d have two nickels, which isn’t a lot but it’s weird that it happened twice.

#molly’s manic meows #first it was ukuwrap now it’s qwinter… #i cannot escape them #ppt2 #wof #wings of fire

[asyipyip]

girl its so embarrassing but i love jonmartin so fucking much i havent cared this much about a ship since like. high school

#NOTHING COMPETES #guys its really bad that i got a new hyperfixation while in a bit of a rough period mental health wise #because MAMA MIA!!! THATS A GOOD ESCAPISM!! #i think i might. i think i might still be manic? its a little hard to tell. it can sometimes last more than just a day for me #sorry im bipolar posting abit #sometimes ur just having a fucking moment #its weird right because like. knowing im manic doesnt stop the manic. like i didnt know but now i do but i cant stop it! i would like to ! #but at least i have my escapism lmao #kara stop blogging #ANYWAYS back to jonmartin #yeah theyre literally so romance. for the past several years i havent really been reading romance fics/interacting with any ship fanworks #like art or whatever #not intensely anyway #not out of a dislike? just a general disinterest. not sure why! just havent been in the mood? i guess? #but holyyyyyyyyyy fuck jonmartin is like. you are a 13 year old girl who just discovered shipping on tumblr for the first time again #I KNOW ITS A HORROR PODCAST BUT #LIKE COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN #the characters are just so! FUCKING! GOOD #i also ADORED daisy and basira's dynamic #wough. okay ill shut up now #tma #also these fucking tags are like legit proof that the tags on my personal posts are just full on incomprehensible diary at this point. bye

[futureless]

i’m so mentally fucked up, i can’t even be left alone for long periods of time, i’m scared of myself & i am truly a danger to myself..

don’t even get me started on sobriety. i wouldn’t be here if it wasn’t for the drugs. my sober brain is constantly racing, with at least 14 tabs open, voices having conversations amongst themselves, & the titanic theme song playing in the background, i can’t turn it off. i get high & go to that place.. that calm place. no pain, no tears, just me.. floating, happy, calm.. finally safe. for once in my life i am safe. & i never want it to end.

but the thing is about this place i am in that sounds so dark & disconnected from reality, i like it there. i’m safe there. i can escape there- if i could stay in that place forever, i would.

but i always wake up.

#cptsd problems #ptsd #severetrauma #bipolar disorder #bpd #borderline personality disorder #escape #mentally tired #mental instability #mental health #complex ptsd #i feel numb #i want to die #why do i exist #panic disorder #manic depressive #panic attack #obsessive compulsive disorder #adhd

[teacupsandcyanide]

do you think when Tina and Todd were in the barn talking about how Dirk’s methods worked and Tina was like “haha ew what you blew up your life for that?”

that Dirk, who was also in the barn, heard Tina say that but did not see Todd’s wordless look of only slightly self-conscious defensive annoyance, just a long silence in which Todd did not disagree with Tina

:)

#dghda #hmp42 #my headcanons for why Dirk goes from manically happy that day to miserable and neurotic the next day #1) he heard that and it only sunk in later #2) really a lot of stuff only sunk in later after the high of escaping had waned #3) Todd had a pararibulitus attack in the middle of the night #and Dirk saw it firsthand for the first time

[notrealmylove]

my creativity is vanishing and i can no longer escape my own mind like i used to . I am trapped in my own dull existence and my fantasy is no longer my safe space to go to

I am loosing myself

#manic pixie dream girl #misty day #violet harmon #american horror story #mitski #writing #quotes #escapism #fantasy #help

[lavendersims115]

Iris: I just... don't think I can live with the kind of pressure that you and your family live with. You're in a legacy household. But I don't want to bring you down. You have a big and bright future ahead of you.

Jack: What do you mean? You don't have to leave just because we have different futures! We can stay together, at least for a little bit!

Iris: I'm sorry Jack.

#and the manic pixie dream girl storyline comes to a close #bye bye #gen6lily #sims 4 simblr #sims 4 gameplay #sims 4 legacy #sims 4 legacy challenge #sims 4 maxis match #sims 4 screenshots #sims 4 challenge #sims 4 #sims 4 snowy escape #lily anguiano