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lotus-pear · 9 months

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regret

#literally excuse the shitty anatomy and cell shading i was thinking abt chuuyas reaction to what he'd done and i decided to make it skk #bc skk copium :')#the way i've hated dazai so fucking much but i still cried like a bitch when he died #he's not dead the bsd fandom has this phase like the elevator chapter where we're like ''dazai's not gonna make it he's done for!!''#and then he comes back next chapter like surprise bitches yall thought i was dead lmao #this chapter fucking HURT for skk shippers tho like we rly lost this time around huh #deluding myself into thinking that chuuya used gravity manipulation to slow the bullet #bc we didn't see a bullet hole behind dazais head like when chuuya shot his shoulder even though the bullet to his skull was fired at close #the reason theres a wound is bc the compressed air that was still fired was enough to wound him #and the shock wave that followed caused him to pass out bc of the sudden tension to his head intermingled with the blood loss and poison #we also know dazai can control his heart rate at will so maybe he can drop his pulse to zero for like thirty secs #enough to make fyodor believe he's dead #in the event that all of this is untrue and dazai rly does die the way my entire being will go numb and cold and dead #knowing that fyodor will most likely use dazai's death as a weapon against chuuya effectively chaining him to his side #like bffr chuuya may dislike dazai but that's his partner his reflection the boy that makes him desperately want to be human #dazai is the embodiment of chuuyas humanity and once chuuya loses that tether to his human side he will snap and the facade will shatter #and we will truly see chuuya unhinged with nothing more keeping him bound to his mortal shell #this wasn't the skk reunion we wanted asigiri what the fuck :(#bungou stray dogs #bungo stray dogs #bsd #nakahara chuuya #chuuya nakahara #osamu dazai #dazai osamu #skk #soukoku #lotus draws

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fumifooms · 13 days

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Canines

The hand that feeds

Mickbell Tomas & Kuro Dungeon Meshi

^ 1: Ink-the-artist, I will remove my teeth / 2: Margaret Atwood / 3: C.S. Lewis, The Horse and His Boy / 4: Mitski, I’m your man / 5: Ojibwa, I love you like a rotten dog / 6: KotOR II / 7: Stardrop, Everything that’s ever been mine is covered in teeth marks / 8: Sodikken, People Eater / 9: Mitski, I’m your man / 10: maxime., The life and death of a dog / 11: Mitski, I bet on losing dogs / 12: maxime., The life and death of a dog / 13: hun, I did not bite with Malice / 14: C. Michael Davis, Don't Pet the Dragon / 15: Mitski, I’m your man

v 1: Early versions of the myth as in aeschylus orestes / 2: Ink-the-artist, I will not remove my teeth

#Yeahh i’m workng on a mickbell & kabru party analysis oops #I’d bleed for anything if it held me the right way. Even teeth #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #Mickbell tomas #kuro #mickuro #mickrin #It’s on topic in my heart #The red means I love you…#The duality between the care & devotion and the hurt & isolation is really what gets to me #Traumabonded kittens highkey #Tw #cw #cw abuse #tw abuse #Web weaving #web weave #webweaving #I hit 30 pics :( would have added more if i could #Idk even anymore… Pls tell me you see the vision #Mick obvi loves Kuro a lot but this was meant to focus on the unhealthy side if that wasn’t obvious. Abuse tactic of isolation etc etc #People always leave. doesn’t matter how or why but his parents his sister everyone he’s never enough to stay #and that’s why he thinks he has to trick Kuro into thinking Mickbell’s the whole world or he’ll discover that there’s more out there.#Stuff that’s worth leaving him for. He has to make the world scary and unknown and not pay him and not let him have connections #That’s why he doesn’t want people to have a choice!! Either Mickbell doesn’t care about you or he’ll make sure you can never be without him #and there being a third option/outcome in this freaks him out!!!#Some of these should be called ‘No Title’ instead but I have bad academic crediting etiquette this looks cooler sorry #He’s scared of course he bites. There’s only throwing bones when feeding a stray. So bare your teeth and chew me up

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embarasseddragon234 · 9 months

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My ideal Tripitaka Wukong dynamic(Aka headcanons galore)

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shima-draws · 7 months

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NOT THE KIERAN VILLAIN ARC I’M SO UPSETTI SPAGHETTI

#Wait. This feels. Familiar…#Teenage boy who’s always been an outcast…just wanting to prove himself..#Just wanting to be acknowledged…and yet when he finally feels like he’s made a friend…#They unintentionally betray him…and that sets him off…and he can’t see past his own hurt and anger…#And then he betrays his friends BACK. And it’s a MESS. And he keeps SPIRALING #Yeah that’s REEAAALLL familiar #Sideeyes Varian #Anyway I just KNOW Kieran’s gonna get worse and it’s going to break my fucking heart. God DAMMIT #Might have to write a fix-it fic for this. Lmao #Shima speaks #Pokemon #Pokemon SV #Pokemon SV DLC #The Teal Mask #The Teal Mask spoilers #Pokemon spoilers #Kieran #Pokemon Kieran

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justaz · 2 months

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listen. my guilty pleasure is those merthur fics where merlin is handed over to foreign lords and they get violent and then arthur finds out and goes apeshit. love it. so fun. but what i think is so funny is that like,,, merlin would punch back. maybe not realistically, maybe he’d restrain himself, but spiritually merlin is throwing hands. i just think its funny bc in like all the fics ive read merlin is the personification of 🥺 over it

#in my heart #merlin takes the punch like a champ before turning around and swinging on the bitch #the lord threatens to report him to the king and (depending on who is leading camelot) merlin has two reactions #uthers reign!merlin: yeah go tell everybody that you got ur shit rocked by a serving boy. go cry like a little bitch to mommy.#im sure theyll love that. youll make a lot of friends like that. no one will think ur weak in the slightest #and then #arthur’s reign!merlin: trust me when i say this - ur getting off easy. if u tell arthur what u did he’ll kill u himself.#take the punch and go. we’re even #TEEHEE 🤭🤭#GET HIS ASS MERLIN #but im also a fan of protective arthur and hurt merlin so no complaints from me #just a silly thought #just bc merlin is CONSTANTLY taking care of arthur. and yeah arthur takes care of merlin (usually in more subtle ways)#but its still fun to see him absolutely lose his shit and protect whats his #bbc merlin #merlin emrys #arthur pendragon #merthur

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bumblingbabooshka · 1 month

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My baby's just fine. She knows all of her rhymes. [Patreon | Ko-fi]

#bea art tag #comix #Tuvok #Asil #st voy #star trek voyager #star trek voy #st voyager #Asil not wanting to speak to her dad...too many emotions...what's the point? Why should I?#This is from the timeline in my head where she becomes a priest and undergoes the kolinahr because her anguish over losing her father #is too much #I typically have all his children being adults by the time Voyager returns with the youngest having been a teenager when he left #But AAA.....oh it DOES hurt the heart good to imagine that his youngest was only a child...comes back to nearly an adult. AGH.#And it'd probably hurt a lot...Tuvok obviously values teaching as a means to bond with children (see: Innocence)#<- And his relationship to Kes in some respects though she is NOT a child. I just know that teaching mental discipline would be high on a #Vulcan parent's priorities #The thought of Tuvok missing all that childhood development...he knows it'll go fine without him. He trusts his wife and his community but #it still must hurt...to see your child grow so much without you. Even more so because as a Vulcan their childhood is such a vanishingly #small part of their lifespan. They're a child for like 18 years out of their potential 200.#happy tuvok tuesday!!!

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willel · 7 months

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"I'm too busy to discuss this with you right now and I'm totally not repressing my feelings."

#stranger things #willel #will byers #el hopper #lucas sinclair #mike wheeler #my content #I was going to add text but El and Mike's conversation didn't flow quite the same #basically I just now noticed that both Will and El blow of Lucas and Mike when they were trying to apologize or explain themselves #I feel like Lucas's apology came across a little more genuine #his face at the end breaks my heart #Will is SO obviously trying to play it off but #I think Lucas can see that he's hurting so he's like #'Damn... we really hurt him.'#'What should I do?'#I LOVE LUCAS SO MUCH #OENELNWETW #Seriously he is one of the best friends a kid could ask for #He makes mistakes but you can rest assured he'll do anything to make things right #I don't think Will is really upset at Lucas which is the root of why he didn't want/accept Lucas's apology #but still it's clear Lucas wanted to fix whatever was going on and he got walled out #i need lucas and Will scenes next season pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee #anyway #back to the willel parallels #I just find it interesting that when offered apologies #they blew them off #Will did it easily because Lucas could read the room and didn't want to push Will on the subject #El tried to blow Mike off multiple times because she didn't want to talk about it but he wouldn't let her leave #so she kinda unloaded on him a bit #though I'm sure if given the opportunity

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found--family · 1 month

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am i the only one who sensed some jilted lover vibes from jensen?

#burcon #cockles #thoughts #at the start of the panel and through a few particular interactions he seemed very standoffish #he was giving a little bitter and hurt and perhaps even resentful - maybe he only learned of misha's gf #at this con too! maybe it was news to him. on top of not seeing misha for months i can understand #if he was feeling a bit neglected and out of the loop. there's also the matter of misha's gf not being #in a poly thing with jensen and dee like vicki was ie. what she has with misha is seperate so i'm sure #that's another difficult thing to deal with knowing their time together is strictly separate #i've no doubt he wants misha to have a partner and be happy but there's an adjustment period #letting new people into your life and whoever misha's partner is now or in the future is going to #affect jensen on a personal level and moreover his relationship with misha. it's all very intriguing #and while i like what little i've seen and heard about this woman for misha i just think no matter who #she is it's going to take a toll on jensen's relationship w misha. i thought it was plain to see on jensen's face #during their panel: numerous moments where he was giving a poker face that wasn't covering a laugh #but instead like he was trying to smooth out his bitterness. or so my eyes and brain and heart tell me.#just various moments where things looked uncomfortable and jensen making off-colour jokes that didn't land #and which furthermore were barbed and snarky - not in their usual banter way but like he was lashing out #and using the excuse of chaotic panel convo to explain away his comedic pitfalls. but again maybe i'm #looking to much into it? idk. there are some lovely moments! fun and caring moments - but they #mainly came from misha's direction ngl. it seemed like misha was trying hard to keep the peace #while jensen was just running his mouth on comments and jokes that kept not landing - for me #everyone on my dash is loving their dynamic this panel - and i want to feel that love! it is possible that #learning misha has a gf has skewed my perception a little like i'm putting context onto moments #i otherwise wouldn't. but i also think i would've laughed and generally felt better watching their panel #if that was the case. idk. whatever the reason i do think something was OFF between them on stage #and it was coming from jensen from the start. misha picked up on it partway though but things felt #a little strained throughout. like jensen wasn't looking at misha as much as usual or reaching out for him #misha tried to salvage and not react to things. but both their answers to the last Q were passive aggressive af #and when they left the stage together they weren't close or touching or chatting like they usually are...

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civilization-illstayrighthere · 9 months

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Johnny: wow kerry thought he was living in my shadow? shit. I had no idea. wow. this is news to me.

Also Johnny:

#johnny silverhand #kerry eurodyne #cp 2077 #EDIT: if you’re seeing this from the tags pls check the reblogs for some good meta courtesy merge-conflict #youre a mean girl johnny silverhand #he talks soooooo much shit and has all this nasty masculine bravado #SECOND FIDDLE!#like but why does he have to mention that. btw V I’ve never been jealous of him IN MY LIFE OK #damn johnny. did we ask? you coming in hot #the lady doth protest too much i think. i truly think he realized long ago #that kerry had the potential for musical greatness/ superstardom #and his reaction to protect his own ego is to shit on that #not maybe fully realizing that kerry was taking all that to heart and internalizing it #because he DOES sound hurt on dark matter’s roof when kerry forlornly talks about being in johnnys shadow #but its like. damn dude. too little too late.

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whipbogard · 6 months

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Read A Serious House on Serious Earth. Was not prepared for a lot of things but god I’m so, SO glad I didn’t chicken out and finished it.

Harvey not listening to the coin will always be the death of me 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

#this comic is not for the faint hearted be warned #my heart was in sO MUCH PAIN WHEN HARVEY FIRST APPEARED #😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#every time I see him receiving really questionable treatments IM JUST #AAAAAAA STOP HURTING HIM #😭😭😭😭😭😭#AND THEN THAT BIT WHEN HE WAS LOOKING AT THE MOON #HIS FACE WAS SO FOND COZ IT REMINDED HIM OF THE COIN #PLEASE IM LITERALLY THAT HIGH PITCHED SCREAMING CAT #BUT THIS ENDING #SO SO SATISFYING…?!#harvey dent #bruharvey #JUST BECAUSE I CAN AND WILL TAG AS SUCH

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just-slightly-chayotic · 1 year

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Thinking about Kim meeting Chay. Kim, who hasn't known affection, who hasn't been touched (aside from stylists and hairdressers and makeup artists) without violence or ulterior motives since the day his mother died, meeting a boy who touches him without any other reason than the fact that he wants to.

#crying in the club (my bed. into my pillow. it's 4am and i should be sleeping)#god kim makes me emotional #he's just. my heart physically hurts when i think about him #i just want to see kimchay actually make up and start dating again and i want to see them being domestic #and i want to see kim be happy #i want him to unlearn that touch = violence #god that boy (because he IS a boy. he's so damn young even if he doesn't act like it) must be so touch starved #sobbing about this right now #anyways goodnight i'm too emotional for this #kimchay #kim theerapanyakul #kimhan theerapanyakul #kimhan theerapanyakul my beloved #kinnporsche #tea's ramblings #this is what i get for watching kimchay edits before bed #most of them are so fucking sad i can't do this

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beeholyshit · 2 months

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I'm so emotional rn

#(🍰) *⁠.⁠✧ — Maroon #(☆) ｡⁠.ﾟ— Red #pokespe parents #time for me to ramble in tags #I can't believe what they did to Bill. I was so worried when I SAW HIM ON THE FLOOR ALL COVERED IN BLOOD #THAT'S RED'S BIG BROTHER NO ONE CAN TOUCH HIM PLEASE PLEASE #this is my way of copinwiuughhgouh #Bill's also my son I never mention it but I keep him in my heart #pats his head #the same reason why Maroon visits him on the hospital to take care of him #also because I believe that when the kids turned into stone Bill was there for her all the time and was also the one who told her-#-what happened and all the things Red kept as a secret (because he cares about both of them)#checking on her while she was DEPRESSED #I know I never talked properly about that but it hurted me so much I WILL ONE DAY BUT OUGHHG #anyways #going back to Red #you have no idea how much I missed my sweet baby. I saw him and started crying #he is my biggest comfort you have no idea how much I suffer when I see him sufder ougjhg #I'M GONNA START CRYING AGAIN #I just needed to make 10000 doodles of smoo tiny bebe #iwiwiw #🖍️ —⁠ Silly doodles #pokespe #pokemon special

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p4nishers · 1 year

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i still can't believe buck actually said the words "better than me" when eddie asked him how chris was doing after he was shot. like. that's insane. that's genuinely, completely insane. and the way he just goes out and says it with a nervous little chuckle then barrels on before eddie can say anything, APOLOGIZING for breaking down infront of christopher, ONCE AGAIN admitting to being a fucking mess after eddie was hurt. like my guy was trying real hard to form a coherent love confession after the love of his life almost died and while said loml was on too many sedatives at the moment to catch on. the shooting was a real slap in the face for buck in regards of his feelings for eddie bc while yes i do believe he known about them before, only after the shooting did he really feel the need to do something about it, bc again, he almost lost THE LOVE OF HIS LIFE and he'd never got to tell him if he did. but then of course he's slapped in the face again by eddie revealing the will and meaning it as a love confession while buck takes it as eddie drawing a line in the sand in their relationship, as him being downgraded to second choice. his whole demeanor changes towards eddie after, and i think it's most noticable with ana. bc before he was being AT LEAST half-heartedly supporting, trying to make an effort for his best friend but after shooting he's just. not. he straight up tells eddie to dump her, rather forcefully pushes at eddie to realize his relationship is failing, looks SOO happy, for completely unrelated reasons, im sure, after eddie basically tells him he's breaking up with ana. which is just so. ugh. yeah also him bringing up the shooting with eddie multiple times, "i mean you did also just get shot". him comparing his relationship with abby to eddie and ana's, while sounding like he's talking about a completely different thing (his own feelings for eddie.) i mean come on: "eddie, i've been ana, i know what's like to be in love with someone who's not all the way in, deep down you know it and it hurts" u trying to tell me that's about abby?? REALLY?? when he was intimidated by the responsibility of a serious relationship and of potentially taking care of her mom but with eddie he genuinely never, ever had that. he was all the way in the moment he drove eddie to chris' school and never once shown intimidation or annoyance at having to deal with chris. sounds like to me he was only all the way in for one relationship and that was not with abby. "that's not how you talk about someone you're in love with" and how would YOU know mr buckley, since u basically refused to talk about abby while and after u were in a relationship with her. and god his face when eddie says "if i'm being honest with myself it was ana". the naked surprise but also relief he shows seeing the first cracks in their relationship. he doesn't even try to seem supportive. "so what are you going to do" the fucking. transparent interest in how will eddie choose. he was so obvious, man. i've said this before and i'll say it again: s4-5 was buck's pinning era and it all started with the shooting.

#i blacked out while in the middle of writing this so if only one part makes sense im very sorry #its just. like the shooting is so unreal to me bc so many things happened buddie vise that i dont even believe are canon and buck #acting the way he did fascinates me SO MUCH bc he's so loud about his feelings he's always been the bleeding heart and seeing him just fall #apart in a way he hadn't ever before over eddie getting hurt is genuinely so important to me #buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 fox #buddie 911 #buck x eddie #911 show #ana flores #abby clark #the way i didn't even extended on the 'better than me' when its what this whole post is supposed to be about im sorry my mind is stuck on #sami's jealous eddie/possessive buck post and i cant stop obsessing over it

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sysig · 1 month

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Getting up to trouble is his speciality (Patreon)

#Doodles #SCII #Helix #ZEX #The Captain #Mixed set! :D Lots of singular doodles - one-offs or ones that apply to a few different scenes #The kiss is random tho <3 I still haven't gotten to ZEX showing off his uniform to Zelnick! I want them to!!#Him seeing his Captain in his uniform was so lovely tho <3 I love Big Love and that was so <3 Hehe #Smooch ♥#ZEX does not eat enough ;; He eats like a bird and it's highly distressing #I actually wrote in my notes that I was surprised he wasn't hurting In The Same entry as when he was experiencing hunger pangs haha #It doesn't help that he tends to talk through meals rather than eat - he's so much more interested in making connections with humans!#As far as metaphors go - killing himself for the sake of trying to bridge that gap - I mean it's apt but ZEX please #I think it was while he was talking to Wally at one point that he framed the War in a very flippant light-hearted way which was funny to me #I don't think that's the descriptor most people would use haha #Swearing <3 <3 VUX terminology <3 <3 #I want a VUX glossary of terms so badly hehe I've been slowly compiling a few here and there :3 Direct translation! The dream ♫#Him getting stressed enough to swear is very endearing haha ♪ What do you mean I'm endeared by everything he does don't be silly #The next one of me deeply enjoying when he's creepy is not proof of anything! Just because I Happen to also like that!!#I do really love when he's creepy tho agh <3 <3 The mental image of him as The Hunter - casually cornering and capturing his prey <3 #In that instance he was interrupted pretty quickly but the setup was there!! And it was extremely good!!!#I love how huffy he gets as well haha ''All these humans interrupting my seduction attempts >O( ...Wait O|'' lol #And finally an exchange on the board between him and Scarecrow haha so many fun faces around!!#I love him being completely baffled by a non-mechanical construct it just short-circuits his brain haha ♥#He's so intelligent but there exists things unknowable!#The image of him tapping his pen is so Incredibly cute ah <3 Where did he learn such a thing! Does it translate from his VUX form to this ♪#Anything everything ♥ Learned or known! It's wonderful

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mishapen-dear · 10 months

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no but im thinking about how 4halo could be together while keeping their dynamic intact. forever asks bad on a date and bad is like yeah :D friendship date. several dates later bad's the one to propose and he says "will you merry me" as in like. be merry with me. feel joy forever for we're together and we have 11 children aka all of the eggs we have forcefully adopted from the other parents and i dont know what life would be like without you. you changed my life for the better. besties 4evar, forever

#and then richarlyson falls into pieces #and dapper gets to be smug #i don't super enjoy the ship when theyre lovey-lovey but oh my god its so fucking funny to be in a relationship and just Deny it #to each other to everyone else to themselves #is that a wedding ring no its a donut #made of metal #a decoration i wear that's inscribed with my bestie's name because i just like him so much :3 #do you see the vision the vibe is queerbait themselves to Hell while being Actively Queer #more thoughtful examination of bad's character is that i think a relationship that actively rejects sincerity is what he'd be most #comfortable in #he's Full of compliments for the other players and eggs but he will Never say that to their faces. he uses sillytime and insincerity as a #shield. if he ever trusts someone to be like. close to them. to consider them a teammate like he considers dapper a teammate #then it doesn't matter what label it gets -qpp or genuine besties or romantic or another option i cant think of- i think that not #acknowledging that sincerity is the only way he could bear letting them into his heart #i don't know forever as well to give a thoughtful analysis but i think that giving him something low pressure that isn't a Romance might be #good for him too if only for the fact that his Romances have all failed p badly. better to just be silly about it yknow just joke around a #lil if it doesn't mean anything then it wont hurt #<- basic angst trope im not sure fits him but be rest assured i am Looking at him. studying that beast.#qsmp #4halo #qsmp shipping

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gyroshrike · 1 year

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Miraculous holiday gift exchange for @supergirl9130 ! Heard you wanted some Marichat >:3c Hope you don’t mind a little bit of hurt and a little bit of comfort.

Marinette doesn’t know much about Chat’s home life—she doesn’t let him tell her details—but she does know his relationship with his dad is... difficult. When he shows up one night, reaching out to her when he needs it most, on the edge of breaking, all she wants to do is hold him.

@mlsecretsanta

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