#on existing

[ellies-space]

my late twenties is perpetually oscillating between "I am so happy with and proud of the person I've become. I don't need the approval of others. I live in accordance with my values and I chase joy and I do my best, and that is enough"

and

"eVERYONE THINKS I'M ANNOYING oh god. maybe if I'm more fun and quirky people will like me more???? or maybe if I'm more chill??? why am I always too much or not enough. also maybe I should just go live on a rock in the sea"

#personal #on existing #this is such a weirdo time of life #my brain is stuck between two phases of life #but maybe one day it'll pick a side #late twenties #who'd have thought

[beemintty]

she was always wandering and looking for forgiveness for things that don't need to be forgiven; her existence.

#i wanted to explain myself but then i thought maybe ill let it just be interprreted how it'll be interpreted #what im trying to say tho is this: #live. #and dont apologise for it #just exist #thats ok #on existing #on life #on living #on forgiveness #on apologies #im sorry #just a random thought #thoughts #my thoughts #poetry #words #poem #short poem

[averwonders]

I guess I've found out why I love web-weavings and parallels so much. There's a sense joy and comfort in seeing how we all coming from different places, situations and time periods at the end of the day are not so different at all, we are just humans trying to give a meaning to this being. I love how an advice given by an old writer 30 years ago to a school kid reminds me of the words my uncle told me when I was 15, how the poems and books written 100s of years ago by people you've never met have been the closest thing that felt like home to you, how the rage and yearning bleeds from the words of one writer to the brush strokes of another artist and to the music of another, how someone right now must be musing about the same moon that a little child looked at awe 1000 years ago. It's beautiful how we're so different and yet so similar because someone somewhere at some point of time felt the same things as you and decided to let it out so that you'll remember you aren't alone.

#web weavings #parallels #poetry #quotes #literature #dark academia #words #mood #on being #writers #artists #poets #books #on belonging #on being human #feelings #i live so i love #on existing #existence #people #on people #beauty of the world #aver does shit post

[fr0gg13b413]

Baie | she/they | unlabled | 18

– currently listening to: 'david melrose theme' by hauschka, smokey eyes by lincoln, along with elias hix, hozier, noah kahan, gang of youths – currently reading: all the light we cannot see by anthony doerr and phosphorecence by julia baird

welcome

hello :> it's general chaos around here. possibly some web weaving of my own floating about. but there's not much else to it

about me: australian!! 2006. lover of love and life. infj 4w5. very in love ᰔᩚ chaotic good! rediscovering and building my faith :) lqbtqia+

academia: graduated '23!! starting my double degree in ‘24! slowly self-teaching japanese ᰔᩚ. chaotic academia by blood

the goal: bachelor criminology and criminal justice + psychological science (and maybe cybercrime in the future?)

master list

(links are broken atm, but the tags are correct)

#poems and quotes

#ineptias loqour (my posts)

#study log

#media

#artwork

#music

#musings (a fav of mine)

#meme

#not a meme but that same category of posts

#on christianity

#letters to myself

#that one type of green

#web weaving

#anderson don’t talk out loud. you lower the iqueue of the whole street. (queue tag)

added this section with the tags i use most often so i can find posts later, everything else is just #on *thing* and frankly i can't be bothered with that.

will possibly add links to fandoms and reads... not sure yet. it would be good to have an active list of all the books i read and enjoyed enough to keep a list of…. here’s a short list of fandomesque things tho: sherlock, rwby, bts/kpop, d20, sk8 the infinity, good omens, epic the musical, lore olympus webtoon, loki series, fnaf,

books would include: archives of despair by caleb finn, hamlet, good omens, throne of glass series, embassy row series, the song of achilles by madeline miller, they both die at the end duology, the inheritance games series, shadow and bone+six of crows, everything by alice oseman

music as well perhaps? hozier, bts, ericdoa, noah kahan, glaive, cage the elephant, lizzy mcalpine, cave town, mccafferty, chase atlantic, brakence, eden, the front bottoms, (it’s all over the place… just not much country music tbh)

here’s the old intro post, haven't decided what to do with it yet

⊹˚₊ ૮꒰•༝ •。꒱ა

ik this is a new account, but i’ve been here since july 2020 <3

for what i have done and failed to do i am sorry.

#intro post #my tags > #on purpose #on living #on beauty #on love #on art #on humanity #on permanence #on faith #on christianity #on life #on loneliness #on longing #on girlhood #on growing old #on growing up #on grief #on god #on roots #on religion #on divinity #on death #on solitude #on sacrifice #on shame #on blood #on being human #on being alive #on existing

[thesunisatangerine]

— Walt Whitman, "Song of Myself"

#walt whitman #song of myself #on existing #on life #poetry #poems #art

[mangoslixes]

- Ocean Vuong, Time Is A Mother

#poetry #poems #ocean vuong #time is a mother #quotes #words #literature #booklr #booklover #tragedy #on living #on existing #on being in love with both but destined for neither #personal

[sunbentshadows]

Hey all, you know how internet searches suck now? When the results are awful, full-of-AI, death-of-the-internet levels of bad?

Start appending date constraints to your searches - "before:2023".

My results have gone from 90% AI bullshit to ~60% usable - which frankly at this point is a huge improvement.

#information death of the internet etc #legit this has been SO SO helpful #shout out to mastodon infosec server for this one #before 2022 we did not really have the AI-content-farms because. the tech did not exist to the public. #and you can knock back the date if need be #obviously this does not FIX the problem but #me.txt

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[whats-this-mustelid]

I just think that 'animals are living intelligent creatures that have feelings and deserve to be respected' and 'when done properly farming is beneficial to both people and animals and there's nothing wrong with raising and killing animals for food, clothing, and other products' are concepts that very much can and should coexist

#i think a lot of people get too carried away in farming discourse to actually remember both of these things #some people are so aggressively anti-farming that they forget that meat and fur are necessary for some people #and that farming helps prevent overhunting of certain species #but some people are so aggressively pro-farming that they begin to think of animals as objects #that only exist to provide them with a product #animals deserve to be treated with respect and be given the best care possible while they're alive #but that doesn't mean that its a bad thing for them to die

[personaglitch]

"Self insert characters are cringe"

Bro I'm trying to survive capitalism with maladaptive daydreaming. Leave me alone.

#self insert #maladaptive daydreaming #no shame #cringe safe zone #im trying to exist in a hellscape okay #mom said its my turn to pick the coping mechanism

[coldgoldlazarus]

I want to see a work of fiction that reverses the "vampires are snobby upper class, werewolves are brutish lower class" stereotypes

#not a reblog #vampires #werewolves #if anything like this already exists please let me know

[phantomrose96]

You know, an interesting tumblr transformation that's happened gradually, and which I've seen no one talk about: ask-culture has essentially dropped off to nothing.

By which I mean, asks used to be WAY more of the tumblr economy. They used to be more common to send, and receive, and see. They were integral to the collaborative, forum-like behavior of old tumblr communities, not even to speak on the HUGE number of ask-blogs that used to exist to only be interacted with in ask-form.

I'm not saying this in a vying-for-attention way but instead in an observational way: I used to get way way more asks in like 2015, even with a fraction of my follower count. I wonder if it's due to the homogenization of social media sites? There's a lot more of this divide between "content creator" and "consumer" instead of just a bunch of peer blogs who would talk to each other. "Asks" aren't really a thing on twitter, are they? And as I understand it, the closest thing to an "ask" on instagram or tiktok would be a creator screenshotting some comment and responding to it in a new reel or video or whatever those content mediums are. Are asks just too tumblr-specific? Is that aspect of the site culture dying out as more and more people converge to using all their social media sites in the same way?

#of course asks still EXIST #theyre just so much more of an afterthought than they used to be #chrissy speaks

[podcastwizard]

because here's the thing here's the thing the question was not "would you be more surprised to run into a fairy or a walrus" the question was "would you be more surprised to find a fairy or a walrus AT YOUR DOOR" and while no, i do not believe in fairies and would be surprised to know they EXIST i would NOT be surprised to find one at my door. HOWEVER, if a WALRUS shows up at my door i have to contend with the fact that a walrus somehow made it to my apartment specifically and knocked on my door for god knows what reason. i would be more surprised to know that a fairy EXISTS, of course, but NOT that they're at my door, do you get me?

#am i reading too much into the question YES #but like someone else said there is narrative precedence for a fairy at your door #SHOULD a fairy exist #like if a fairy shows up at my door i've got bigger problems you know

[stuckinapril]

Incredibly alarming that talks of “peace” in Gaza seem to extend no further than a ceasefire. How do you think they’re gonna start off where they left off themselves? Their houses are destroyed, so many have lost mothers and fathers and brothers and children, they still have no clean water and no food. Any area Israel withdraws out of is an area it already knows has been rendered inhospitable. There was even a direct quote by some IOF soldier gleefully stating how he “wasn’t sure Palestinians could go back to their homes.” So what happens when the US “succeeds at negotiating a ceasefire”? Who will be responsible for helping the Palestinians rebuild all that they’ve lost?

#Just so incredibly heartbreaking #Watching the footage that has come out of Khan Younis is a different kind of pain #It’s a whole city razed to the ground and people are #Trying to salvage what they could but their homes don’t even exist anymore

[coffeeworldsasaki]

Over a 100???? It was just the guy in the photo a couple days ago djsjdjks

#transphobes constantly forgetting trans men exist at least will bring something fun now #a bunch of very masculine looking guys participating at this ridiculous thing

[littlemsterious]

i was thinking about that post comparing Jessica Rabbit as an asexual to Barbie and an asexual and then i thought of the Neil Gaiman post (was it a post?) about Crowley and Aziraphale being asexual sexless and then this happened.

anyways. thoughts?

sorry it took so long I meant to do this a week ago but my brain is full of rocks.

[Image ID a three sided venn diagram. the big circles show Margot Robbie's Barbie sitting in front of a mirror, Jessica and Roger Rabbit from the poster of Who Framed Roger Rabbit, and Aziraphale and Crowley from Good Omens standing back to back. Between Barbie and Jessica Rabbit it says "sexualised by society". Between Jessica Rabbit and Aziraphale and Crowley it says "Knows what sex is". Between Aziraphale and Crowley and Barbie it says "no reproductive system(?)". the center is the asexual flag. End ID]

Also i haven't seen the Barbie movie as of this edit so at least please tag your spoilers.

#please enjoy this i made it look so pretty #barbie #jessica rabbit #who framed roger rabbit #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #asexuel #i will do an image id later I’m sorry words dont exist right now #i’ve had a lot of the same questions i will respond eventually. maybe. we’ll see