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justlightthefirstspark · 4 years

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As promised, my analysis/opinion/thought piece on today’s MUWFC game vs Spurs. Everything is chronological which I feel like should go without saying but in the interest of clarity 🤷🏽‍♀️ but not everything is tagged to the minute cause I am an idiot that didn’t realise that that would be helpful til like the 2nd half. Also, if I missed anything, or got players mixed up or anything pls lemme know and I’ll edit accordingly! I’ve never really done any from of sports based writing before (I don’t think tweets count lol) so pls be nice, merci 😘

Line up as follows, I guess this is pretty common knowledge but you know, coherency and such.

Tbh it was kinda hard to see *a lot* of this game, especially on the far side of the pitch and by both goals because of the weather, felt like I was watching Silent Hill for a little while there, but I did my best. My wifi is also horrendous atm, and we all know that the FA Player can be problematic so there’s a very good chance I might have missed something due to a lag or buffering btw. Just drop me an ask if you notice anything that mightn’t be quite right, and I’ll fix it asap! Some ~analysis~ (if you could call it that lol) is more detailed than other bits cause there was a lot happening and today I learned that it’s kinda hard to write one thing and watch another at the same time lol

First half:

Quick, fast and almost successful start. A much-needed improvement on the stagnancy vs Bristol a few weeks ago, and obviously we couldn’t see the midweek game vs Brighton so I can’t compare them.

I have to say I’m not a massive fan of all the back passes, all the time. I think a more attacking FB might be needed in the summer, or maybe Ökvist should be given some time to acclimatise to the WSL soon? I was never the biggest fan of Harris last season, I personally don’t think she’s fast enough – she gets outpaced down the flank by attackers 90% of the time, which isn’t good. I think A. Turner is the strongest FB option currently, at least defensively, and she’s shown she has a decent attacking ability, and has a wicked long ball, as well as crossing. My only issue is sometimes those tackles of hers can be a liability, giving away unnecessary fouls. It’s almost like she doesn’t think before she flies in sometimes, which is a shame, cause I love them. A lot.

There were a couple of really good chances in the first half, including a great ball in and run up from Galton, which should have resulted in probably the opening goal but whether it was as a result of the weather or just misjudged timing and placement from both Ross and Sigsworth, the chance went to waste. Groenen had an excellent chance to net her first for United but unfortunately sent it just wide. Another glorious link up between A. Turner and Galton led to another decent chance, a gorgeous cross in from the right to the opposite side of the box, and the perfect header which unfortunately was aimed straight at the keeper. Very unlucky to head in at the break with nothing.

There was an incredible double save from Earps around halfway through the first half. I have to say, I have some anxieties with her sometimes. She is quite good, but has a tendency to make some silly mistakes, and doesn’t always make the right call for a save. But my god she was on her game today, even if a potential error might have led to the first save. Didn’t disappoint me anytime she was called on this afternoon.

A few frustrations started to show around the 30 min mark, a few sloppy passes and challenges making the rounds. It was also around this time that I realized I’d picked a pretty poor game to start this thing on because I could barely see anything.

Zelem seems to be back in form, which can only be a good thing. But I would very much like it if somehow she could drag some of the other girls back up with her.

There were a fair few soft calls going Spurs way, which I wasn’t entirely convinced by. But then again I’m probably just naturally biased towards my girls.

Another great ball in to Sigsworth from A. Turner which was just *chefs kiss* but unfortunately came to nothing. There was also a spin move either to commit or avoid a challenge, I couldn’t really tell tbh, which was very impressive, as was her chase down on Mitchell at around 43 mins. (Amy’s my favourite player, can you tell?)

Booking for Kirsty Smith just before half time, but I gotta be honest I couldn’t see it due to the fog, so I have no idea what happened. Couldn’t find anything about it in the United post-match report either so apparently we’re just deleting that from the history of the earth which is completely fine by me to be honest.

Second half:

My main takeaway from this game is that both Sigsworth and Ross always seem to be looking for the same ball in the penalty area, and there very rarely seems to be anybody else around looking for a potential rebound. I think that James (who missed today’s game due to suspension) seems to be our main (only?) front line creator and finisher; Sigsworth is fine, that girl works like a dog and always gets the job done, I think she may have just needed another goal to boost her confidence, but I have no real concerns with her. Ross, however, I’m not entirely convinced by, I think a lot of her finishes have been a bit lucky and flukey so far. I’d start Toone over her for the rest of the season to be honest, Ross hasn’t done anything that tells me she deserves the starting place. Feel free to disagree with this of course, this is just my own personal opinion.

56 mins – confusion has entered the chat. McManus ends up pretty much through on goal, and then the ref whistles for what I assumed to be an offside. So naturally I nearly kicked my laptop out the window. The ref then awards a United penalty, and I’m even more confused now than I was in the beginning. I genuinely didn’t see anything but did hear a few shouts from what I’m assuming was the United bench for handball, so I have no idea what happened here.

‘58 – GOAL. Who else? God bless Katie Zelem is all I’m saying.

‘61 – Hanson 🔁 Ross. I think this was a good swap. I don’t think Ross was particularly good today, and Hanson immediately sparked that RW. I would have subbed Ross off sooner but that’s my only issue.

’64 – GOAL – Sigsworth with a pretty perfect if slightly scruffy strike from a corner.

A much better corner than previous attempts, and Spurs hadn’t defended any of them particularly well. I think that we have a major issue with set pieces, I dunno what exactly the problem is, whether they need to allocate a new taker or whatever but before today had we scored from a corner all season? Lemme knowwww.

’65 – A few decent chances for Spurs around this time. One pretty clear run in from the right, and one or two shots bounced right of the crossbar and the post. Basically my heart stopped for about 8 mins.

’66 – I DO NOT WANT TO SEE BACK PASSES IN THE BOX AS OPPOSITION PLAYERS SWARM IN. CLEAR IT. I DON’T CARE WHERE IT GOES JUST GET IT OUT. (sorry for the caps but my anxiety was out in force this afternoon)

United started playing much better after both goals, think they just needed a kick up the arse. *Ahem* A confidence boost. 👀 Much better intensity for the final 30 mins than the previous 60 imo.

’68 – Another decent chance for Spurs, with Earps coming way too far off her line than sat right with me. Very lucky nothing came of that.

’69-72 – Around this time I started to get *very* confused between Amy and Abbie cause they both had yellow boots on and literally the only thing I could see on the far side of the pitch was feet. That was fun.

’73 – The wasteful corners made a return. Slightly less panicked about that one considering we were already 2-0 up but still, I would like to see the glaring set piece issue sorted asap thanks girls x

’75ish – Toone 🔁 Groenen. Man I love Jackie Groenen. She really has been immense for us so far, and there’s a definite difference in how we play without her.

’78 – Harris 🔁 M. Turner. I’ve said my piece about Harris above but man, can we take a second to appreciate Millie Turner. She never, ever stops. Literally the heart of our defence.

’86 – GOAL – Oh captain, my captain. Beautiful strike from a free kick just outside the box, with the perfect bend around the wall and subsequently the keeper to make it 3-0.

United were very obviously stronger in the second half, almost looked like a completely different team at times. Whether they just got the hairdryer treatment at the half (I would imagine Casey is terrifying when she’s mad.) or the goals gave them that spark they desperately needed to kick on, they definitely made up for all the missed chances in the first half.

’90 – 4 additional minutes.

’92 – Another United free kick. McManus found herself almost clear in (again!), but due to an unlucky fumble with the ball at her feet unfortunately nothing came from this one. Surely a 4th goal otherwise.

’93 – FIIIIIIIIGHT. Kinda. You love to see it. Spend a little while conducting some, scientific research 🌚 and have concluded that Toone was tackled from behind just as the ball left her feet, which led to the ~scuffle~. Have to say that Amy walking away with Ella was extremely 🥰🥰🥰 (This is my research - https://twitter.com/48hours8/status/1218896406020349953?s=21)

’94 – Red card for Tooney. I would assume for her reaction more than anything but the camera didn’t catch it so I guess we’ll never know. I would have thought a yellow would suffice, considering that’s all the Spurs player in question received, but apparently not. 🤔 I’m still kinda confused tbh.

’95 – Full time.

Thus concludes what was certainly an interesting match. Please enjoy this comparison of United vs Spurs chaotic energy from @danieljamesmufc

Also thanks for reading if you got this far, it’s a bit stop-starty and clunky cause I just wrote down thoughts and whatever as they came into my head and then pieced it all together later on. I also just wanna say that I was massively impressed with Smith today. She hasn’t had many chances to prove herself this season, but that combo of herself and Galton down the left was lethal today imo. 🔥

Some extra thoughts:

I’m not a huge fan (like, at all) of fans singing men’s orientated chants. Let the women’s rivalries develop on their own, in their own way, and don’t drag the vulgarities across! That said, I do think that particular group of United fans has the potential to be a very, very good thing.

Also, just wanna say that these are my girls, and I would die for every single one of them. None of my criticism is meant to be intentionally negative, I just tried to be as objective and realistic as possible, without being a fangirl lol. Even my faves aren’t immune to criticism unfortunately.

And this picture is now my favourite thing ever to exist

#that was actually pretty fun to write #living for katie and jess scoring in the same game #this took longer than i care to admit #pls be nice i’m fragile lol #muwfc #manchester united women #my writing

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dawbi · 3 years

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bnha boys accidentally confessing to you (gif reaction)

warnings - none !!

characters - midoriya, bakugou, todoroki, shinsou, dabi, & hawks

midoriya

doesn’t even notice until you point it out. midoriya is the type of person that even if you liked someone else, he’s still there for you. his heart might ache but he wants to the best for you always because he thinks you deserve the world. lemme just 😭 with midoriya i would professionally say it’s a bit harder for him to not just blurt it out. especially if you ever talk badly about yourself. you two would probably be walking home together and you open up to him about someone that rejected you. midoriya is listening but, there’s a hint of sadness on his face as he’s listening to his crush talk about confessing to someone else yikes poor bb. “i must not be attractive enough. or maybe they think i’m weird.” you start listing the negatives of why you probably got rejected. oh midoriya has so much he wants to counter with. “why would someone even like me?” that’s the last word you get in before this boy is “actually i think you’re beautiful, amazing, and a fun person to be around. they’re weird for rejecting someone like you.” and he just keeps going lol. “who wouldn’t wanna date you? i’ve thought about it so many times. like you’re always on my mind, maybe it’s cuz i like you. but i’m not being biased by saying this i—” you literally have to stop midoriya from his speech. “wait, you like me?” reality hits him and he’s red and feeling dizzy. “uhhh ha haa ha ...” you’re gonna have to take control of the situation cuz he’s gonna be like that for a min 😢

bakugou

completely slipped out. bakugou is usually not the best with words. he’s mega into you even if at times it seems like the opposite. bakugou just struggles with accepting it lol. so, let’s do the math and what does that equal ?? bakugou coming off like an enemy one day and kinda sort of but not really a friend the next. that’s what he says because he’s too proud to say he’s comfortable with you and he’s not tryna get friend zoned 😬. he doesn’t want to confess until you do first, he’s stubborn like that. but the way he accidentally confesses would be after a fight with a villain. listen i know you’d be a great hero, but this time around you got hurt sorry y/n 😢 and the first person you’d hear yelling at you afterwards is no one other than can you guess who ?? 💥💥💥 “i told you not to go after them alone !! couldn’t you listen to me for fucks sake ?!” bakugou’s face shows an angry expression with his brows furrowed but, if only you could see the worry he’s hiding beneath the facade. “bakugou, calm down. i’m fine and it’s all over.” “don’t tell me to calm down !! you’re hurt. i saw everything, i’m not fucking stupid.” you’re not that hurt but he leaves you confused. “and? why do you care huh?” that pisses this boy off. “because i care, but you piss me off because i wanna kiss your stupid face !!” bakugou stops and his eyes almost pop out in shock. silence... “shit.” hmmm what will you do y/n ?? 🤔

todoroki

cue the lights and dramatic music. it just would be something out of a movie lol. todoroki would be planning on confessing to you but kept backing out at the last second. he would make sure there were no outside influences and to keep things just between you two, just in case you reject him 🥺. todoroki has a fragile heart so, being rejected in front of a crowd would not be ideal. poor boy has been practicing what he wants to say in order for him not to freeze up and forget everything. i am sad pls don’t break his heart. now todoroki has finally chosen a day to confess to you. he was about to approach you but got nervous and rushed outside. you notice this and follow him outside. it’s nice, it’s quiet, there’s no one. todoroki is pacing back and forth until he stops with his back towards you. he has no idea you’re right there oof. “shouto, you can do this. stop freaking out.” you literally standing there like🧍‍♂️tf is going on ?? but before you make any more noise and ruin this moment, sorry y/n i gotta stop you there chief. you hear, “y/n i have these feelings for you that i’ve never felt before.” todoroki pauses and takes a breath. “everything about you makes my heart race and i want you to see me as more than a friend.” he then basks in the silence, but before he continues, “is that what you really feel, todoroki?” oop he immediately lifts his head and turns towards you. “y-yes.” if you leave or confess back, i’ll leave up to you ☹️

shinsou

i’m not even a shinsou simp but i can tell this one gets confessed to. i trust kaminari's valid assumption of him. now shinsou is more of a chill, laid back kinda guy. he can be blunt sometimes tho. but, something tells me he's the type to always think before he speaks. which means no accidental confession, here is your L 😔 it would have to be to clear something up because this boy keeps things real. "i've liked you for a while now, shinsou." you'd see someone confessing to shinsou and are about to make your exit before they see you. then you hear, "sorry. i actually already have someone like that." shinsou feels a bit awkward but he tells it like it is. those words play in your head as you're walking away from that area. later that day, you sit with him on the park bench. usually shinsou would reject any company, but he always enjoys yours and loves to hear you talk. "hey, i heard you rejected someone today." "damn, news travels fast." your curiousity gets the better of you. "that special someone must be real special." shinsou smiles slightly. "they are. everything about them is beautiful and i love being around them." "can i know who it is?" now, he doesn't want to give you the wrong idea and ruin his chance and as he’s thinking about this, one word just kinda slips. "you." shinsou didn't expect his confession to happen already but, he feels relieved. he’s almost holding in his breath while waiting for your response 😣

dabi

it was a set up. twice would be the goat 🐐 for this. now let me explain why lol. dabi would never accidentally tell you something. he has been able to keep extremely deep secrets for years, if you know you know. that’s where twice steps in because he’s like 🤨 bro you’re a simp, i need to expose your ass. so what he comes up with is to pull dabi aside and talk to him alone. but he tells you to meet him at the same time. “twice. the fuck is it now? better be worth waking me up for." you’d be walking towards the area he told you to meet him at. “do you like y/n?” by this point you’re already hiding behind the bush to get the gossip same. dabi with the most expressionless face, “i don’t hate y/n. if that’s what you’re asking.” “ok well...i was planning on asking y/n out later today. i was wondering if you could help me out ?” oh dabi is not here for this. “y/n is not interested.” “and why is that?” “because i said so.” “but why tho ?” dabi sighs, “because it would piss me off to see y/n with you.” twice is literally hype because he’s so close to getting the confession. “ah, maybe you might like y/n more than you think.” “i’m not having this conversation.” dabi walks away and as soon as he’s out of sight, twice finds you and explains what he was trying to do. “if you feel anything for dabi, go after him and tell him. he’s just afraid of his own feelings.” that’s really the last push twice can give. if you go after him or not, is completely in your hands 💞

hawks

kinda forced. the commission was tryna boost keigo’s popularity by setting him up with another hero for some power couple shit. ratings ya know ?? it’s how the industry works baby 😎 and this man has the fattest crush on you so, how is that gonna work out ? “hawks. this will get you on the road to become the number one hero. you understand right?” he’s just yawning and wanting to get tf outta there asap 🏃 then he’s standing in front of the press with his fake s/o about to announce the relationship. you’d be sitting on the couch watching this unravel on live tv. “tell us you two!! everyone has been talking. what is the nature of your relationship?” keigo calmly picks up the mic, was not ready to confess to you yet, but he has no other choice. “we just work together. the one i have fallen for is named y/n. we like to keep things private so, no further questions.” you’re frozen in shock while interviewers, cameras, and the commission’s faces are going crazy lol. keigo is out the door with the fake s/o running after him. “you just ruined my chance at being in the top rankings. this y/n or whoever the hell they are, better be worth your career and mine.” oh he’s pissed. “sheesh fake dating would’ve been 🤢. y/n is worth more than some cheap ass ratings that i don’t even need. good luck, hero.” mans just waves them off, heading towards the city. expect a visit from him soon to confess to you properly 💕

a/n - sorry this got kinda longer than usual 🥴 also, i’m almost at 150 followers ?? ahhhh ty ty !! 😭💞💞

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weirdsht · 2 years

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Peer into the past

a/n: how do you details in long fics without getting overwhelmed 🧍 2,824 words and 8 pages may not be much for other writers but this is the longest thing i've written in my entire life, also this is like 75% GoD slander 25% actual fic lol

Warnings: ooc? i'm not sure but just making sure, depressing themes, angst?, albecale focused, their relationship isn't rlly said so feel free to think of it as you like, not really very detailed, so it kinda looks like all over the place, it's eh

English isn’t my first language so there will be grammatical errors

Pls don't repost my work anywhere without my permission

If there's something missing in the warnings let me know so I can add it

Any form of interaction toward the post is appreciated <333

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‘Bothering and messing humans must be the gods’ favorite pastime’

Alberu Crossman could only deadpan at the voice speaking to him in his dream. The crown prince is thinking that this is how his dongsaeng must’ve felt with all these gods bothering him. God of Death hasn’t shown himself unlike his conversation with Cale. Instead, Alberu is just looking at an empty void not knowing where the god could possibly be.

“Like dongsaeng, like hyung. Fine I'll keep it short, since you did us gods a favor by helping with the White Star and Sealed God fiasco.”

Cale’s experience told him better than to actually trust the god speaking. At the same time he heard from the overworked slacker that this stupid god actually gave him something good the last time they spoke. Hence why the prince is actually listening instead of turning the offer down immediately.

“Why did you stop speaking? Go on I’m listening”

“No it’s just that even your vicious gaze is the same haizz”

“Continuing what I was saying. Taerang is in your possession right? I can show you a lot of useful weapons from earth that you can use. I’ll show you how they work, how they’re made, and when you should use them. Doing this will be more efficient than learning it yourself since you’ll be able to retain everything once you wake up”

It’s a good offer, but the Roan royalty is still skeptical.

“What’s the catch? Based on what I heard from my dongsaeng, you're a swindler.”

“...”

“Let’s just say it comes with a bit of a burden. That and if you agree you need to help Cale Henituse with the hunters issue”

“I knew it”

Though Alberu was wiping his face with both of his hands. He still knows that it’s a good offer. Sure he’ll be forced to help with another big issue, but he was sure Cale will somehow manage to drag him into it anyways.

Plus even if Cale tries to not get him involved he’ll still help. This is someone he considers greater than family afterall. What kind of hyung he’ll be if he doesn’t assist his fragile dongsaeng?

“Fine. How long will I be asleep then? Surely you know I have responsibilities waiting for me.”

[I gave the crown prince Alberu a little something and he has to be asleep for 2 to 3 days for it. I assume you know what I’m entailing here.]

“Earlier warnings would be nice”

Cale calmly spoke but the force he exerted when throwing the book says everything.

Still he called Ron and Tasha so they can plan on what to do so the kingdom won’t feel the prince’s absence as much as possible.

‘This young master puppy of mine should be resting right now. Must this god really do this immediately?’

Ron’s gaze betrayed his thoughts but Cale misunderstood it as the butler being tired since he's been working nonstop. Tasha, who can tell what Ron was thinking could only sympathize with him. She too knows the burden of taking care of an overworked individual who refuses to rest.

It’s not like they can do anything now since it’s already confirmed Alberu will be unavailable already. The two parental figures can only sigh inwardly as they continue preparing the necessary things for the crown prince’s absence.

Meanwhile the man in question is currently low-key regretting his decision.

“That mothe- haaaa. I should’ve known better”

‘I really don’t think I should be seeing this’

The scenario in front of him right now seems too private for him to be casually seeing it like this.

What Alberu is seeing right now is a young Cale- no Kim Rok Soo. It looks like the child is currently watching a documentary about war. The volume is a bit unhearable but there were subtitles to make up for it.

Although Rok Soo was looking at the screen Alberu could tell that he wasn’t really watching the program explaining what weapons were used during world war II. In fact he seems so out of it. The child was just huddling in a blanket with a distant look in his eyes.

Then Alberu saw it.

There were bruises in every bit of the skin that was peeking out the blanket. Aside from that he could also see bits of dried blood seeping on the blanket.

Just like that Alberu continued seeing his dongsaeng’s past life like it’s a film. How he grew up being abused. How he had to go to orphanages. How he had no friends but was instead buried in books all the time. How he almost gave up on life several times.

‘This is what he means when he says a bit of burden?’

Sure he has accumulated a lot of useful information that he and Taerang can try out later, but seeing all this was too much. The worst part is that he could only watch. There was nothing he could do as he was only a watcher, and this was something that has already happened.

He wants to look away. He wants to call that useless god and tell him that he doesn’t care if his weapon choices are limited. He wants to stop this.

But he can’t

Not only because the deal was already done, but because he simply can’t take his eyes away. As he sees the things Rok Soo has been through, Alberu connects the pieces of a puzzle called Kim Rok Soo. He slowly understands why the red head acts the way he does and how his principles work.

“I should’ve asked for a pen and paper”

Alberu mumbled to himself as he watched Lee Soo Hyuk’s team fight another monster. Many things have happened already and Alberu bears witness to everything. He saw how earth was destroyed and the original outcome of the Sealed God’s test. He saw how new weapons were made and how the old ones were fortified.

His taking in a lot of information but surprisingly he wasn’t having a hard time absorbing all of it. In fact, he feels as if he borrowed Cale’s record ability.

‘Must the God of Death’s blessing’

“That stupid God of Death’s so-called blessing”

Taylor Stan merely smiled at Cale while Cage complained.

“I’ll make sure to curse him extra tonight just for you young master”

The excommunicated priestess was now pouring wine for the three of them. The young master only gave her a nod of acknowledgment as he continued taking care of paperwork.

“I didn’t knew I would see the day where I can personally watch young master Cale take care of paperworks”

“The crown prince isn’t here so I have to clean up my own mess this time”

Grumbling, he went to get another cookie. Tasha gave him the cookies Alberu usually has with him as a small thank you. The three of them continued chatting as Cale’s hand didn't stop from taking care of paperwork.

‘His highness Alberu really treasures the young master. What a good hyung.’

Taylor couldn’t help but smile as he saw the paperwork Alberu usually does for Cale. There are two large stacks of paperwork on the redhead’s table right now and that’s only a fraction of what the prince usually takes care of.

“Yes I’ll make sure to do just that as soon as I get back. I’m sure that will help the Roan Kingdom stabilize more and put the citizen’s minds at ease.”

With that their business concluded and the two guests prepared to leave. Taylor and Cage would really like to stay longer and catch up but there were still a lot of things to do.

“Young master, are you planning on co-ruling the kingdom with his highness?”

“Don’t say such scary absurd things, just go if you have no more business”

Cale’s face scrunched as if Ron just fed him a freshly sliced lemon after hearing Cage’s words. Meanwhile the lady only laughed as she bid him goodbye once more. The former commander sighed as he was left alone in the room.

‘This kind of feels like when I was team leader’

He fondly remembers his life as Kim Rok Soo. Most of his old life was full of hardship and struggle and so he learned how to appreciate tranquil moments like this. Just boring moments where he can turn his brain off for a while and just let his guard down.

Dead

Death

Deaths

Rok Soo’s life was full of deaths. Alberu isn’t quite sure whether he wants to puke or cry, possibly both.

For a small amount of time, the life he was watching looked like it was getting better. The man he was watching found a bit of peace in the midst of the ruined world. After years, no decades Rok Soo finally found people that cherish him.

And then they were taken away. Cruelly ripped off from his embrace.

He knew it was coming.

He knows

But it didn’t make it hurt less

He can’t handle seeing his dongsaeng go through all of this anymore and not be able to do anything.

All of this was just too much for one person.

But at the same time it explains a lot of things. Why the redhead seems to have little to no preservation. How he thinks it's fine as long as his breathing. Just all the self deprecation thoughts that’s probably swarming in his head making him the way he is.

…A headache for his hyung

Alberu Crossman wants to smack Cale Henituse when he gets back. He wants to drill into his head that the things he's been through weren't normal. That all of this was very much valid.

That he is valid.

But he knows that would possibly do nothing.

Based on what he sees and just personally knowing the overworked slacker, it would go in one ear and out the other. The punk experienced warmth too late in his life. Negative things were already engraved in his entire being by the time he got to experience it. Plus that bit of warmth was savagely ripped out of him.

Still, this hyung wants to try and do something.

He wants to see his dongsaeng just take his time to get to know what he has now

He wants to see him know his worth

He would actually pay a golden plaque or five to not see that genuinely confused expression on Cale’s face when someone worries about him.

But he can’t do that right now. His job right now is to take in what he is seeing and take the things he can utilize later on.

In the meantime, the redhead on his thoughts is inside his room. Waiting for him to wake up as the noble and the dragon casually munch on the snacks he has stashed.

‘He should be waking up right about now’

As if on cue crystal blue eyes fluttered open. The man who just woke up seemed to be deep in thought so Cale let him be. Instead he asked a servant to prepare a meal for his hyung as he was sure that the man would be famished. He knows from experience after all.

Observing the quarter dark elf a bit more Cale notices his eyes. There weren’t tears in it nor did it look like he cried. But it’s kind of red and maybe even a bit swollen. It reminded him of Choi Han when he failed to kill Redika after the plaza incident.

‘Just what did that punk of a god show him? For him to look like’

“You, you stupid brat. Do you know how to do anything else other than cause me headaches?”

Alberu cuts off Cale's thoughts as he slowly sits up on the bed. The crown prince sounds exasperated making Cale a bit anxious on just what could possibly do the God of Death do.

“Prince cookie what happened? Will something happen to human? Do we need to smack another god?”

THUD

Alberu didn’t say anything. He merely stood up and threw the god’s holy book as hard as he could.

If Cale and Raon weren’t flabbergasted by that they were surely astonished after seeing the god simply accept the abuse.

“I now know what an rpg is, and no I won’t turn Taerang into one of those. I’m sure you’ll only cause me headaches if I do”

The redhead remembered that one time he asked the prince to do that so they could destroy buildings faster.

“I also know what happened back on earth. No, my knowledge isn’t on Choi Han’s level. In fact I know so much more than Choi Han.

…I saw your entire childhood and kept watching until you fell asleep reading Birth of a Hero”

Cold, the room was cold. Everything was cold. Alberu’s gaze, the chill Cale felt on his back, even the tea the human and dragon pair were drinking earlier.

Never once in his life has Cale Henituse felt this vulnerable. Sure his hyung and Choi Han knows who he is, where he came from and stuff like that. But no one has ever known this much about it.

And it makes him anxious

Just what could Aberu be thinking? Is he disappointed? Would things between them be okay?

Everyone in the room could visibly see the redhead silently breaking down. He may seem fine but the two know him too well to not see his eyes that betrays his composed stature.

The atmosphere was tense and no one was speaking. All of them were just standing up looking at one another. None of them know how to further progress the conversation.

But that could wait later. Right now they need to ground the duke’s son. Alberu slowly walked towards his dongsaeng and guided him to the bed with the help of the black dragon. As soon as the three of them settled down a knock resounded in the entire room.

Thus they ate in silence. Utensils were the only sound dominating the room. The redhead was eating but the two can see him still on autopilot.

“Don’t overthink so much, you might fry your brain. The Roan kingdom still needs its shining national treasure.”

“...Your tongue seems to be as oily as ever your highness.”

Alberu observed for a bit before speaking once again.

“I’m serious, don't think about it much. Nothing changes okay? I don’t think of you any differently, you’re still just my dongsaeng who only brings my headaches and constantly asks for golden plaques like I’m some egg-laying geese.”

“That’s true human. I don’t know what the prince saw back there but if it’s related to you not being in this world then didn’t we already accept that? I’m sure the kind crown prince isn’t someone who’s easily swayed!”

“Hmm though we need to work on those self-sacrificial tendencies you have. We can’t have you worrying everyone all the time.”

Plop

Their nonchalant facades broke down when they saw the tears continuously dropping down on the pillow on Cale’s lap. The redhead tried to wipe all of it away, but to no avail everytime he wipes a tear ten more follows it.

“Don’t look at me like that. I’m not crying because I’m sad. I’m perfectly fine”

“Why are you crying then?”

“I don’t know, okay. Tears just kept on flowing. I can't stop it. Stop looking at me I have it under control”

A dongsaeng who doesn’t even know his own emotions. Sometimes Alberu really wonders why he was the hyung of such a person.

“You’re crying because you’re hurt and maybe relieved in some way. You don’t need to suppress it. Just let it flow. For once in your life bask in your feelings and listen to it, understand it.”

More and more tears flowed out of his poor dongsaeng’s face. Cale still doesn’t know why he is crying nor what he feels, but his body seems to know what to do. All the crying he is doing is actually making him feel lighter. The weight on his shoulders seems just a little lighter.

Soon enough the redhead is tucked in Alberu’s bed with the black dragon curling up against him. Both of them were asleep, with only Alberu being the only one awake inside the room.

This gave the light-colored hair man some time to think. Think about everything he saw, and how he should act next.

In the dark room with only the moonlight as his source of light, Alberu firmed up his resolve.

No one is requiring him to do whatever he thinks he's doing. In fact it won’t affect the throne and the kingdom at all. But Cale Henituse is someone Alberu cherishes. Cale is his one and only dongsaeng

And as a hyung isn’t it his job to make sure his dongsaeng can live his life to the fullest?

#trash of the count's family #lout of the count’s family #tcf #cale henituse #lcf #alberu crossman #tcf fic #totcf #lotcf

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saintobio · 2 years

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i mean no rudeness when i ask this but do you know any other fic written similarly to the duke rintarou fic? ever since i ingested the fic, i’ve been craving for more fics of similar breed? — it’s so nice, and pretty and makes me feel like a baroness in a french cafe

hello, thank you so much !! and do you mean written in a script format? i don’t think anyone else has written a fanfic in that format so far (i haven’t seen anyone else do it, at least here on tumblr). i was going to write it like a normal fic but it was my old play from college and i got too lazy to change the format so i just posted it as is :’)

if you’re referring to the genre itself tho, @/sukirichi is writing a royal angst series for suna that you might also enjoy (:

Anonymous said

We know now that rin definitely cares for mc but I just wanna know... what are his feelings towards her in general? Like, is it a love stemming from the fact that he's genuinely in love with her as a person or? I just wanna know the moment he started caring deeply for her👁👁

cliché but it’s love at first sight !! the fl is very pretty and charming, that’s why the noble ladies are jealous of her + hera and ci’an are so threatened lol. but aside from her beauty, rin’s also amazed by how resilient and emotionally strong she is. he feels the need to protect her bc she’s so fragile and it’s the first time he felt that way with anyone :’)

Anonymous said

AAHHHHHHHH “Of lovers and Liars” IS SO GOOD IMMA CRY ONG ,8,!2!9/8.&-@@19.&/838 DO YOU HAVE A SET DATE ON WHEN YOU’LL LOST THE NEXT/LAST PART ??!?!

thank uuuuuu <33 yay glad you liked it. give me probably 5-7 days til the next part. sorry for the delay, i just have to work on other wips 😫

Anonymous said

I just read part two of lover and liars and I'm already hooked-

I'm a sucker for historical based manhwa's so this story is definitely my cup of tea hehe. You write so well pls I would love to see more of the play like written story's.

Btw Samu is giving me the typical second ml vibes🧐

i’m a slut for historical/isekai manhwas too :’) and thank u, i’m happy you enjoyed the script format. also yea samu does give that vibe hahah <33

#🖤: letters to saint #play: of lovers and liars

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me, nodding of to sleep: IM HERE IM HERE

did my head just loll to the side? you will never know. first of all this chapter was the most beautiful thing i have ever read. Mavid have my HEART. It's also 4 16 am so im sorry if the reactions are a little bland but this was PERFECT.

me, throughout the whole thing: mavid mavid mavid

They had kissed for the first time almost a week ago. And they had kissed again. A couple of times.

Okay fine, they had kissed a lot since then.

Not a lot a lot. But a lot.

Wait a minute. How much kissing was a lot of kissing?

this is adorable

“I heard he cried when he found out Lexi and Liv were dating,” David chuckled.

yup that's jace

“We have to pay to talk on the phone?” Max asked incredulously. “I thought it was free.”

“Of course it isn’t free, Max!” David chuckled. “We have to pay for WiFi too.”

“This is ridiculous!” Max said. “Next you will say we have to pay for electricity.”

“Um, we do have to pay for electricity,” David chuckled again.

we pay for water too

but max you didnt know-

“Don’t let them guilt trip you!” Max had chastised. “They like doing chores. Let them do it. They fight demons all day and then come home and do chores. I feel like it’s their form of therapy. They need this.”

cant relate nope

“I don’t know,” Max groaned. “My family is so dramatic.”

the lightwood-banes in one sentence

THERE ARE SO MANY FEELS MY HEART CANNOT CONTAIN

“Well, too late!” Max announced. “This date is going to be the best first date in the history of first of dates.”

In retrospect, he really shouldn’t have said that.

nah its gonna be great

“Perhaps you should just take him to the New York Library. They have, uh, books.”

yes that is what they keep in libraries

OH MY GOD THE FRIEND IS ELYASS

HERE'S MY FAVORITE DEMON Y'ALL

His parents would not be pleased if they knew Max was summoning demons for relationship advice.

But they had also encouraged Max to make friends with everyone regardless of their identity. So, technically this was their fault. They gave him very mixed messages.

well-

you know i really shouldnt have laughed at the demon attack news but for some reason i did

i blame my sleep deprivation

shit i feel sick

you know maybe i shouldve just waited till the morning...

ok but the demon attack is NOT coincidental

there is something going on

“I thought dragon demons were extinct!” Max yelled over the commotion.

well-

ANJALI

“Man, fuck the orders!” Max said in frustration.

if you get hurt ill kill you

oh it's not her

well fuck

“That was an Armani, you piece of shit!” Rafael yelled at the demon. Max almost laughed.

THE AUDACITY

It really did. Dragon demons smelled like they lived inside a boys locker room.

well that's nice to know

FUCK THEY ARE TALKING NOW???

ok what is going on

“Say the thing!!!”

“I’m not saying the damn thing, you maniac!”

“Say the thing!”

Rafael groaned and raised his hands, the alliance rune lighting up.

“I’m not just a shadowhunter,” Rafael said through gritted teeth. “I’m Magnus Bane’s son.”

LMAO THEM

“Well, demons are stupid,” Max pointed out.

“Yeah, that makes sense,” Rafael said with a mouthful of food. “You are half demon after all.”

Im so sleepy i cant even react to this

but THEM I CANT-

WHERE.IS.ALEC

Max wanted to laugh. Only David would worry about another person while being injured in the infirmary.

MUST BE PROTECTED

Max nodded; his throat still dry. He couldn’t stop staring at David. At the wound. At the blood.

Also, maybe the naked chest.

AHEM

OH MY GOD JAIME IS ALIVE

we're getting lightwood-bane fluff LET ME CRY

alec...

on one hand alec smoking is fucking hot BUT WITH THE MUNDANE DISEASES OH HELL NAH

“But it tastes so good when it’s from your plate!” Max said with a mouth full of food.

“Oh, you want my food? Here!” Rafael grinned and threw a piece of chicken at his face.

Max caught it with his mouth cause wasting food was a crime. “Thanks, bro!”

“You little s-”

HE CAUGHT IT IN HIS MOUTH

“And no fighting over chicken!” Bapak pointed out. “We can always summon some more.”

“Order,” dad corrected. “We don’t summon. We order. And then we pay.”

“How do we destroy capitalism if we have to pay for everything?” Max asked.

Max has a point y'know

“That’s rich coming from someone who is wearing an Armani jacket,” Max stuck out his tongue.

“It was a gift!” Rafael said, furiously chewing on his chicken.

“Does that mean Bapak is a capitalist?” Max asked.

LMAO

Max: What even-

Max: Can shadowhunters get high on iratzes lol

CAN THEY???

David: Mr Herondale yelled “Yes! Two out of three!”

MOOD

PLEASE RAFAEL AND MAGNUS ARE LIKE "About time"

SAME THOUGH

“David is what you get if Dad and Uncle Jace and Uncle Jem had a baby.”

STOP NO

“Oh,” Max said. “Uh, David and I…We are dating.”

Dad choked on his coffee. “Excuse me?”

Bapak chuckled next to him. “Of course you didn’t know.”

“You two are dating?” dad demanded. “Since when? Who else knows about this? Why didn’t you tell us before? Were you dating when you were in London? Magnus, did you know about this?”

“There you go!” Max yelled triumphantly. “That’s the dramatic reaction I was looking for. Thanks, dad!”

There's alec. Yup

OH MY GOD NOT THE SEX TALK

good thing i had wattpad I MEAN-

“Kissing?” dad gaped. “On the mouth???”

“Um, where else would we kiss?” Max asked incredulously.

“Well, actually,” Bapa cleared his throat. “There are many ways you can enjoy-”

IM CACKLING

And that’s how the next hour turned out to be the most painful and most embarrassing hour of his life.

Max decided he would rather get attacked by a hoard of dragon demons than sit through it any longer

“You guys know we have something called the internet, right?” Max demanded.

“Well, the internet can have mixed messages,” Bapak sniffed. “We on the other hand have real life experien-”

“Magnus!” dad looked red in the face.

“Fine,” Bapak sighed. “Now moving on to the importance of lubrication and-”

“I’m begging you to stop,” Max groaned.

THE NOISES WHICH LEFT MY MOUTH ARE NOT OK TO BE MAKING AT 3 30 AM

“I’ll have you know this conversation utterly traumatized me. I demand financial compensation.”

HE'S SO DRAMATIC

“Well,” dad said carefully. “David is…”

“French?” Max asked.

i blame my sleep deprived ass for laughing at this

next thing i know someone's being tortured and im laughing because i dont have sleep in my system

Max honey...

listen to him

i for one, dont want a repeat of pg 511 cols

oh he's finding out about the incident

that's what i call it

Max thought of all the stories he had heard then. The one of the warlock who killed people who he could bring back his dead girlfriend. The one about a nephilim mother who paired up with prince of hell to bring back her dead son.

oh yeah...

shudder

They called it The Jem effect.

AYYYYY

It was true. In fact, he used to have a crush on both Tessa and Jem. It’s how he had found he was bisexual.

very very valid. have a good day sir

AWW MAX DIDNT KNOW HE COULD BLUSH

you know it's a sign ive been watching b99 too much that i was imagining mina talking like gina...

pls send help

ALSO MINA BESTEST SDCHJDFVYDYUGFYUGFVDYVFD

“Can we not talk about my boyfriend’s sperm, please?”

im surprised my parents havent woken up by the sound i let out

BUT HEY THE DOOR'S CLOSED SO

SUGGENS MINA

“I’m hearing an inflated sense of self-importance,” he heard Ragnor call from the bathroom. “Is Magnus here?”

“Just the spawn,” Max called back.

THE SPAWN BYE-

“He is married to the Consul!” Tessa chuckled. “And one of his sons is a shadowhunter.”

“It’s still very bad for our reputation,” Ragnor grumbled. “He is too close with shadowhunters.”

“You are the headmaster of Scholomance!” Catarina said incredulously. “You teach nephilim! Even though you don’t need a job!”

“I was coerced!” Ragnor huffed. “Manipulated by the children of the angel.”

really ragnor?

The grin disappeared and Ragnor buried his face on Catarina’s shoulder. “I can’t go through this again, Cat! Not again!”

“So much for not taking up after his father, huh?” Catarina chuckled and looked at him. “That’s nice, Max. We are happy for you.”

“We are not!” Ragnor said in a muffled voice.

RAGNOR DJHDCUHUKIHDVVFDDB

OOOO MAX DIDNT KNOW ABOUT CAMILLE

a kind of endless love...

dont make me cry

“I know you are worried, love,” Tessa’s voice was a whisper. “You are worried about surviving after David. You are worried about your own heart. But you should never let that fear stop you from finding love. Because love is what sustains us immortals. It keeps us alive. When you love a mortal, you love them forever. You might not remember all the memories. The colour of their eyes or the sound of their voice. But you will remember the love. You will carry that love inside you forever. It does not make you weak or fragile. It makes you stronger. And you will forever be grateful for it.”

my eyeballs are too tired to cry

stop it

THEY SAID I LOVE YOU

I FEEL LIKE A PROUD MOM

bitch you hate children wtf-

Max laughed. “I’m going to kill dad for making us do this. God, this is so weird!”

better get it done now

HE'S DAVID'S FOREVER

dont do this to me at 4 am

“You should two should some spend time together. Get to know each other and all of that,” Max suggested with a smile. “Maybe you can bond over archery or something.”

“I’m pretty sure he would use me for target practice,” David mumbled.

“Don’t be ridiculous, David!” Max said incredulously. “My father doesn’t need target practice!”

At this point, a David and alec scene isn't a want its a NEED

“I got it all planned,” Max said – for someone who had no idea what he was going to do.

me throughout life

max Rafael isn't the one smoking-

OH MY GOD MY DAD JUST CAME TO CHECK ON ME THE WAY I SLAMMED MY LAPTOP

“Also tell him to stop smoking!” Max pointed out seriously. “It’s not good for his health! Especially with all the mundane illnesses going on.”

“I know, Max,” dad sighed heavily and blinked. “I mean, I’ll talk to him. For sure.”

Alec if anything happens to you...just know ill raise hell

“I don’t want easy,” David smiled. “I want you.”

IT'S 4 AM DUDE

AYYY THE SHANGHAI SHADOW MARKET

CELESTIAL PALACE

“Dad? The Consul? That dad?” David looked surprised and relieved all at once. “Oh my god, he doesn’t hate me!”

“Of course he doesn’t hate you!” Max chuckled. “But he did say he will put your nerd ass in the silent city if you don’t bring me home by 11.”

of course, he did

oh my god SLEEP. there is so much to do tomorrow dying...my grammar was really bad and I don't have what it takes to use Grammarly's corrections except for the ones it's already doing as type.

this chapter had my heart BURSTING!! AHHHHHHH

the talk was so important I'm so glad they took care of that. ok imma head to bed now BYEE

Eeeeeee this was a lot sfkjdfkd I hope you are okay. Get some sleep next time or I will call the police.

Thank you as always for reading, reacting and supporting 💚

#lbaf

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vaguely-concerned · 3 years

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The Mandalorian Chapter 15 reactions; *nobby nobbs voice* ‘s all gone a bit percychological, sir

- so from both chapter 6 and now this: rick famuyiwa is incredible at portraying prolonged discomfort and tension (and also at getting din’s endless love for that baby across through the stress of being separated from him. this is the very first episode with no baby in it at all, isn’t it? wow that’s a heartbreaking milestone to reach im crying)

I liked this episode SO MUCH but I had to pause it pretty often and take a breather because it all made me so viscerally uncomfortable on din’s behalf -- not just the armour and having to take the helmet off and be seen for the (almost, ilu IG-11) first time in decades, people keep touching him in this episode when he clearly doesn’t want them to but can’t stop it and it makes me want to claw my own skin off in sympathy, it’s so awful. that’s really neat film making to manage to keep that tension steady almost all the way through!!!

honestly this episode felt a little bit like psychological horror, with the cheering storm troopers and din in the wrong armour and clearly not digging it and there’s the palpable absence of baby and that ever present dread of being Perceived when you’re not ready for it; everything’s turned upside down from how it should be. and it’s playing with that discomfort both in the main character and in us, the audience, in having the familiar be made unfamiliar and also introducing these questions that shake up everything (that feeling you get of ‘but... if it’s not the helmet, and not the armour, but there’s his face, but we’ve only seen that face once before so it’s still basically new to us, is this... is this still him. is this still Dad’ (oooh I wonder if we’re... sort of getting some of the ??? the baby would be feeling about it too?) we’ve all imprinted on that t-shaped visor like little baby birds, and this was a very clever episode to break us out of that and start to really get used to the thought of him having several faces that are real simultaneously, in a way, and not just a voice. it’s all very smart and interesting and I’m sure I’ll have a lot of incoherent thoughts about this in the weeks to come lol)

- the actual reason din can’t take off the helmet is that if people were able to see his wide confused puppy eyes they would no longer find it in themselves to send him on long arduous side missions and would help him immediately just so he’d feel better, and that would rob us of like 80% of the content for this show

mayfeld in this episode: clearly a casualty of this. he literally sees one glimpse of the vulnerability there and then within five seconds goes on to materialize a few redeeming character traits after being a complete jackass for an episode and a half. (I mean. he was 100% still an imperial so I’m a bit ‘hm.’ about how easily especially cara let him off the hook, but with the way it was set up I guess it would have been quite shitty of them to just throw him back in prison so I mean I GUESS. I would be endlessly grateful someone got my awkward bff out of there alive and well too I suppose)

- I actually think din’s sense/integrity of self has gotten so much stronger and more resilient (though probably still quite fragile pls handle with care precious cargo within); if this had happened in the first season I think it might honestly just have killed him (and if it weren’t for IG-11 it probably would have lol)

- can you beLIEVE din is so bad at lying that they literally should plan for contingencies over it fjkasdlhfskajdhfsdj

- very grateful for the scene with the spear throw that’s basically there to reassure us ‘uh-huh, he absolutely knows how to use it, don’t worry about that part at least’

I want to make a whole post about that fight scene, though, it’s just so GOOD! there’s so much storytelling and characterization in it! even out of the armour din has some real hand to hand MOVES!! he clearly came out of that aching all over, he can barely get back in his seat!!!

- so what I’m mainly taking away from this is that din absolutely cuts his own hair and you know what? he does a good job considering the conditions he has to work under, I love him

I still find it so goddamn darling that he meticulously maintains that little mustache/stubble combo under there even when there’s every reason to believe no one will ever see it

I suppose we can also gather that he did not ask cobb about whatever insane feat of magic he’s come up with to avoid helmet hair, but I don’t care looking a bit frazzled and tousled is exactly right for him (he’s so put together when he’s in the armour and a MESS when he’s out of it and I l o v e it)

- boba fett is honestly so fucking hot in this I don’t know what to do with myself haha. he’s so CALM and CALCULATED and COLLECTED in his newly painted armour and he’s GOT THIS and he made that ‘I’ve got one of those faces. one of jango’s many, many, many faces’ joke and he’s so thicc now, he looks like he could easily lift me over his head with one hand and he’s just quietly steady and undramatically supportive and sdalfhsdjhfsa

- ...din does know who the clone troopers were, right. I mean of course he does. he has to. but does he though. I’m sure he does and just wasn’t thinking.

- no matter how stressful it was I’m still really grateful that in the end taking the helmet off was something din got to do himself -- it’s under some duress, but it’s still his choice and for the sake of the baby, and almost in two more manageable steps between putting on the storm trooper gear for a different helmet before taking it off altogether. it’s not something done to him by gideon, for example, that would be. so much yuckier and worse. he still has that control and agency intact, even if it’s been tested really hard, and now gideon doing that doesn’t hold the exact same nightmarish power anymore because there’s already a little space opened in din’s mind for different things it can mean, if you see what I mean. I’m not sure I see what I mean actually I just have a lot of feelings haha. so I guess thank you mayfeld for being decent about it and helping him towards that realization that he can still be himself outside these really really inflexible structures he’s set up around himself for like. stability and keeping himself upright for a really long time, and that even someone halfway decent won’t disrespect the boundaries he still has about it at any given moment. man there’s a lot in this episode isn’t there

- the sigh din gave when he saw even more pirates coming and knew he had to get back up... never has a single moment in cinema better captured how I feel about being alive. most relatable man in the world din djarin

- it was really cruel of them to make me listen to din’s dead bleak voice say ‘the child is gone’ again, it wrecks my heart every goddamn time

- again... I wish carano wasn’t Like That in real life because the cara & fennec scenes should have been everything I could ever dream. ah well fennec was still wonderful and if I just allow myself to think in-universe for a few seconds it was really touching that din would entrust cara with his entire armour, that’s some prime BrOTP energy right there

I love that we got two female characters who were just allies and working together, no competition or nothin’. listen the bar is low but it’s nice to see something actually leap gracefully over it as well lol

- this was one of those with some pretty big open plot holes (why, exactly, would a scan of a completely unknown face be helpful to get into this classified system lol), but a) I don’t care, the emotional storyline was so sound it doesn’t really matter and b) eh handwave handwave let’s say mayfeld programmed that little stick with the good shit and overrode the code saying there needed to be an identity match within the system, it’s all fine

- I know I joke a lot about this but din really is one of the most relatable characters I’ve ever had. just watching him struggle with eye contact and going pretty much nonverbal under enough stress is like. wow a bit close to home there could we, perhaps, nOT?? (honestly though these are trauma/anxiety things I really don’t see portrayed a lot, especially in protagonists, it’s so odd but healing to see it in a character I love and who’s EXTREMELY competent in many other settings)

- din repeating gideon’s speech back to him word for word (except for the crucial detail that he calls grogu ‘him’ instead of ‘it’ 😭😭😭) and saying nothing else is truly Everything. I’ve said some stuff about din’s deliberate and thoughtful relationship to language in the past and this is such an amazing example of it; he’s remembered that pitch perfect all this time, he’s kept it around in his head and mulled it over and then redeployed it to change the meaning of it completely from dehumanization to love. can you. can you even imagine. and it’s yet another example of his hilarious wonderful petty streak and I can never get enough of it fasjhdfkjalhs

- din always noticing the children first and foremost Y_______Y (the kids running by is the only thing you see him sort of acknowledge when he’s walking into the covert in season 1 too)

- please... please I just need him to be able to hold that baby against his chest all safe and sound and okay again I can’t it’s........ hh

NO SEASON END CLIFF HANGER ON THIS I AM B E G G I N G YOU

- I would be having some thoughts about how much space there actually is on slave 1 and what that might mean (do not kill boba again please don’t kill him again), but honestly there’s only ‘GET BABY’ hours in here now, I can’t speculate about anything

#star wars #the mandalorian #the mandalorian spoilers #the mandalorian meta #this is an episode in the 'wow that was awesome but I need to go lie down in a quiet room for a while afterwards' tradition lol

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A Tale of a Thousand Stars ep 5 thoughts/reaction

so tian killed torfun, but does tian know this yet? bc that would make more sense for why his parents didn’t want him to know about the donor

tian, pls stop comparing yourself to torfun, you don’t like phupha bc of her heart and he doesn’t like you bc of her heart

also, yesterday i listened to the full ost yesterday for the first time with the lyrics and it’s so beautiful and meaningful

tian had better be on his on the get his medication refilled

i love tul’s pretty casual reaction after being able to contact your friend for the first time in two months after they vanished with only a vague note

awww, tian looking up stuff to do with the children

poor yod, just wants to eat

can’t believe phupha is still trying to deny his feelings to his friends

lol p’aof

but what’s he gonna do with the second scent pouch?

dr nam, at it again

tian trying to trash talk phupha but with a smile the whole time

dr nam knows exactly what he’s doing

tian, pls stop lying to the doctor, the one that’s going to have to take care of you if something happens, like i get that you don’t want people to know, but dr nam is literally the person who needs to know

“like those who reforest but decorate their house with ivories” tian throwing shade at his father

prediction: tian’s father will get involved with the situation at some point and will somehow be involved in resolving the situation with the mob boss (bc he’s the minister or former minster of environmental smth)

tian really is a trouble magnet tho

it’s great to see tian interact with an old friend, mix and white really have good chemistry of friends who’ve known each other forever

i can’t stop laughing at the product placement being used as an excuse for tian to be horny

*pictures shirtless buff phupha* “yeah it is good for your health” XD, i cant

tian, i know why you don’t want your mom to know where you are, but pls at least give her a call

tian complaining but seeming super happy about the bad parts of the village is so pure, my boy is so happy

not phupha going through the 5 stages of grief while tian is gone

he’s such a tsundere

I’m all for phupha being one of the main reasons tian stays at the village but at the same time there’s no need for them to downplay the importance of the rest of the characters to tian’s happiness, like the village and the children are allowed to be just as important as romantic attachments

phupha’s like a dog with separation anxiety

i loved tul and tian’s whole conversation about tian being gay, i was so relieved that’s how it went

can’t believe gmmtv actually avoided making an entire plotline out of a character being gay but thank god

also the implication that tian knew he liked guys even before he started liking phupha, pls give us more content like this gmmtv

also i love the editing that switches between tian’s and phupha’s conversations

also i just love nam/yod/rang/phupha friendship

thank you tul for immediately telling tian that torfun’s heart has literally nothing to do with tian’s feelings

“ i never said i had feelings for him” lol, sure tian

phupha lowkey sulking while his friends make fun of him

tian literally can’t trash talk phupha without smiling, huh?

pls stop hurting my precious baby, he’s very fragile right now

“i have someone there protecting me already” oh if only phupha could hear that

i’m just very glad that there’s not a whole plotline around tian and phupha realizing and admitting their feelings to themselves, like they both have reservations about telling other people, but they both are clearly aware of their own feelings and seem pretty comfortable with them

i can’t wait for tul to meet phupha and spill all the of tian’s dirt

gives the middle finger (affectionate)

tian seeing that phupha is sulking and immediately assuming it’s bc he didn’t tell phupha his plans (and he’s right lol)

tian being super confused by nice phupha

phupha trying really hard to follow dr nam’s advice is so cute

tian, he’s literally smiled for so many times

“what do you want me to be?” my boyfriend

tian immediately feeling embarrased after calling him p’phu

tian brings up phupha’s relationship status for someone who “doesn’t have feelings”

god, phupha smiling a the secret picture he took of tian is just so pure

the phutian content throughout the whole episode is honestly god tier

you know it’s a good scene when you sit there mentally shouting at the characters to just kiss already

(and you know they want to kiss each other so bad)

i really appreciate them giving phupha valid reasons for being insecure like he’s much older and he’s tied to the village, starting a relationship with him would mean staying in the village rather than going back to the city, and him thinking that tian (a young 20 year old rich boy who’s still in the middle of a college degree to be an engineer) wouldn’t want that isn’t unrealistic, like i just appreciate that his reasons for hesitating aren’t stupid

shit, there’s so much fondness~~~~

how many sexual innuendos did phupha make this ep lol

i love how natural their relationship feels too, like it’s just genuinely two people falling in love with each other

everytime phupha fondly watches tian interacting with the children, i gain a year of life

okay but i love all the forest rangers encouraging phupha to ask tian to stay longer

they’re literally so in love it hurts

tian using phupha’s full title when he’s embarrassed

they’re so happy flying the kites together

the very last scene is heartbreaking but also very satisfying to watch

the fear in phupha’s eyes

also i imagine it must be pretty terrifying bc tian’s not just passed out, it’s not like he just fainted, he’s still conscious but can’t move or speak and seems to be in a lot of pain and to have to watch that and not knowing what’s happening to him or what to do

but that’s literally why you need to tell people, tian, so they can help you in emergencies like this

dr nam, hate to break it to you but phupha definitely knows how to flirt

“im also strong” i cant with this man

yes, dr nam, tell my son to quit being such a dumbass and take care of himself

tian and phupha better kiss next week, they deserve it

shit, this was such a good episode, all the quality phutian moments, finally the heart transplant will be revealed, the tul and tian content was great and I hope we see tul again

MVP of the episode: Tul

#atots #1000 stars #a tale of a thousand stars #atots spoilers #1000 stars spoilers #atots ep 5 #1000 stars ep5 #konaizumi

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potterology · 4 years

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fave dylb scenes bc I can't get over and I’m already rewatching and noticing little things heheee

- first meeting outside the restaurant. ohh how I love how awkward yet endearing they both were when they finally introduced themselves to one another. rewatching it made me realize that JY was already smitten by SA since the start. (like literally since the start y'all!!! he didn't even know her yet and wanted to stop the car to get SA an umbrella and this was in the first ep!!)

- when JY switched coffee cups with SA bc she spilt her cup and he started drinking it so she can’t refuse even though he doesn’t like coffee. Like he just did it bc he was compelled to do so?? like dude what if she already drank from it??? This scene was so funny to me and I love it cuz I dont think SA is used to being the one taken care of like that so it was just v cute

- when the noona was trying to get them to talk banmal but SA was like oh noooo he’s a superstar. This was cute bc you can actually see that JY was disappointed. Also they keep sneaking peeks at each other lol cute fools

- waiting for taxi scene- this was so freaking adorable. shows how considerate they both are for each other and it’s so freaking awkward when they both realized they were standing there waiting for each other to get a taxi- but like in the cutest way

- when they were both outside that restaurant and SA asked if JY enjoyed his performance at granny’s house and I think this was the first time someone asked our boy if he likes what he does for a living and you can just tell his heart went soft for her(same dude same)

- spontaneous non-date date. ohh I love the first time they ate together at that beer place. they really started to get to know each other there. the mood and how that scene was filmed was just chef’s kiss~~

- rehearsal room we should be friends scene. when homeboy transitioned from moonlight sonata to happy birthday, y'all knew it was over for SA- god damn I would have swoon over too

- by the river “I wanted to see you” scene- high key JY sucks at communicating but I love how he is just so taken by SA that he just flat out says he misses her and as soon as he says it he was almost shocked himself. so pure

- the midnight call. I MEAN. guys. guys. he wanted to just talk to her and ask her out but tried to be nonchalant about it. ahhh they literally portrayed the first stages of dating so well I'm goo for it !!!!!!

- first walk together in the walkway. this was just so adorable. the almost hand holding. the chemistry!! the shy smiles :’’’)

- SA’s birthday when she thanked JY for just being there for her. I love how she quietly acknowledges him and it was such an intimate interaction between them. I replay that scene a lot in my head

- when he ran to SA to give her his signed CD. He was so worried about her he forgot about JK lmaooo. Also the fact the he validated her as a violinist when SA was at a very low point... I mean... boyfriend material ugh

- the scene when SA told JY every little thing he does concerns her and that she didn’t want to feel that way about him anymore. As soon as SA said that homeboy PANICKED!!! I don’t even think he knew how much he liked SA until she said that :’)

- the lunchroom scenes 1) when they were teasing each other and 2) when JY announced that they were dating lolol I love how stoic he normally is but for SA he becomes a softie hehe

-ice cream day date; lol when SA won’t let JY tie her shoelaces bc she didn’t want to fall for him lol ok girl

-night ice cream/ stairs date. y'all know already. shit was just adorable. SA going for the kiss. I melted with the ice cream

- when JY asked SA for her handkerchief!!! it’s such a small gesture but they both knew it had a special meaning and I love how it put SA over the moon. (Also let’s include all the other times we see JY actually use that handkerchief- especially after they broke up. like homeboy was holding on to it for his dear life bc it was the only thing he had of SA~~ my fragile heart!!) ps did we ever see SA get a handkerchief from him???? No??? Sbs give me that pls

- when MS was telling JY in the car that SA has only openly confessed liking two things in her life and one them was JY. He was so flustered and couldn’t hide his smile and dimples... bruhhhhh he was full on swoon. Also when JY heard SA say that she really likes JY like he was so proud of himself lmao he’s like “yeah my gf LIKES ME” lolol

- when the lovebirds fought who was gonna clean up the broken glass at JY apartment. I love loveee this one bc SA has been beaten down so much by everyone calling her talentless that she didn’t even consider how important her hands is to her as a musician. And JY being like honey ur a violist and a musician too- UR HANDS ARE PRECIOUS. This was just v touching. Again showing how JY has always considered SA as an equal despite all the shit people say about his gf. luv him :’)

-all the moments JY just stood by SA’s side and held her hand when she needed comfort. I love how he’s just there for her. His silent support was just enough. (One thing that would have been nice is if we saw SA do the same thing, I felt like the writers were almost there but just didn't go all the way which is a shame tbh)

- Their lil day trip to JY’s hometown. I like how JY was so open to SA here. When he proclaimed that he never felt “this way before” I screamed!! It was at that moment you clearly knew as a viewer that JY never really loved JK. He might have he loved the idea of her, yes. But he never truly loved her the way he loves SA. And his realization of this in that particular episode just made me so so so happy

- Handholding in the bus scene. That shit was so freaking tender bc you can tell how content JY was. He was beyond smitten- homeboy was IN LOVE AT THIS POINT

- when JY dropped SA home. I mean everything about this scene really makes ur heart soft right?? How both of them were beaming? How SA feet probably hurt bc homegirl was wearing heels the whole day and walked another 30 min just so she can spend more time with JY? How she literally ran back to him and JY just had this impression watching her like “my gf is cute af”?? How SA said something along the lines of JY having somewhere to belong to now and you can tell this had a double meaning for him bc at this point he prob considered SA as his home..I was literally mush oh my god.

-break up scene. I know, v painful- but this was a rare one in kdramaland where I actually thought it was necessary for them to split (still wish it was done earlier but alas I'll take it) It was a graceful and needed breakup. Also when JY pulled out that umbrella for her.... bish it was over for me

- SA’s recital. I MEAN HOW IN SYNC COULD THEY BE. I normally skip the musical performances whenever I watch dramas that are music related- but this show makes it so magical I simply could not. PEAAAKKK ROMANCE

- JY’s recital- when he played that last song I was a big mess cuz we all knew it was dedicated for SA :’’) (I listen to this piece all the time now and im so emo when I hear it bc like god WHEN)

- First I love you scene. JY just going for it and chasing his happiness without caring if SA might reject him. We love to see it

-Second I love you scene. YALL. YALLLLL the way JY just releases his breathe when SA said she can't be friends bc she loves him more than a friend will forever slay me. Kim min jae’s acting here was real good. I love how JY said I love you four times and just went for it. top kissing scene in a krdrama for me hehee

- dubokki date. lmao at JY with the spicy level. just plain cute

-the quick side by side peek to JY new album in the last episode. the way it showed how their relationship evolved. how he signed it as “for my love song ah” BISH I WANNA DATE A MUSICIAN TOO NOW

- that lil scene where JY wrote SA’s name as the planner bc he knows she works just as hard as the musicians and deserves the recognition. get u a boy who will vandalize a program notice for u :)

- basically all the scenes at the end of ep 16. I wish all of them were longer. I wanted to see more of them dating and happy!!! But I just love how they are both so INTO each other and you can see how happy JY is bc he finally has that person back that understood him since the beginning and it makes you feel so warm knowing they’re each other’s support system ahhhh I love their love !!

- also just all the scenes that JY looks at SA lovingly ~~ which literally happened since ep 1 I mean they are literally heart eyes emoji for each other every time :’))

- oh oh OH special shout out to ep 11 when JY just can’t stop holding SA’s hands !! the way he does it is so freaking INTIMATE like if I can only describe how I feel whenever I see compilation gifs of that episode where JY just reaches out and holds SA’s hands so steadily and tightly...it’s literally the most heartwarming thing.. idek how to explain what I’m trying to convey but I just vibe with it so much?? it’s so intimate and romantic.. Kim min jae I will die 4 u my love

#do you like Brahms?#do you like brahms #there are more scenes and I will prob go back and add them #I'll shut up soon but I need to talk about it as a form of release lmao #anyways if y'all got dylb thoughts feel free to talk to meeeeee hehehe #also making this list made me realize that Kim min Jae really lives in my head rent free #HIS ABSOLUTE POWER OVER ME #and of course eun bin was just oh so good #I added more #sorry if u reblogged already but I keep remembering more scenes that I love #Audrey

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agoracactus · 4 years

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Pt.1 - “Don’t get in the way of my sword.”

just wanna write something to have some distraction. probably gonna be a series, probably never gonna finish it (like all my other stories i have on my laptop lmao).

ive played the the Wticher 3 game, read the first book and is half way through the second one, also watched the netflix show. but i want this to be more book/game Geralt (hope i can achieve that lol)

im bad at titles so ill leave it blank for now, maybe if ive ever come up with a name or decided to continue this series ill come back and fix it lol.

also, english is not my first language, im definitely gonna word things weirdly and it will be confusing....pls be nice im very fragile lol.

ok im babbling sorry ill get started. hope whoever is reading this is having a nice day!

Pairing: Geralt of Rivia x reader

Word Count: 3352

Warnings: lack of proofread, language, death, mention of blood

Summary: You somehow got teleported to the Witcher universe, found the best friend of your life then lost him to monsters. The witcher, Geralt of Rivia showed up at one of the most desperate moments in your life, and the journey begins.

“y/n! Come on! We are all waiting for you!”

You groaned at the loud banging on your door, dragged your feet towards it.

The man outside almost landed another ‘bang’ on your face, “There you are! I’m started to worry that you took off without us!” Radomil greeted you with a warm smile. “I thought I made it clear enough that I’m not participating in this stupid ‘treasure hunt’.” you tried to withhold a yawn but failed. “It’s not a treasure hunt, it’s a trail!” one of the little boys behind Radomil said. “If you want to join us, you will have to go through The Trail of Warriors.” the other boy with dirty blond hair crossed his arms. “And y/n really wants to join us, isn’t that right?” Radomil nudged you with his elbow. “...Sure.” you sighed, closed the door behind you and followed the group of children.

A few months ago, you were in a beautiful mountain, enjoying nature with your friends. Camping and hiking weren’t really your thing, you prefer staying home, where it’s nice and cozy. But how could you say no to your best friend’s birthday wish? And to your surprise, with a bonfire and a guitar and some nice spooky stories...you actually enjoyed it!

You’re not sure when things started to go downhill.

Maybe it’s when your friends got too drunk and decided to go on a midnight adventure, dragging you along with them. Or when that storm came out of nowhere forcing all of you to run and look for shelter. Probably it’s when you somehow got separated from your friends and had to spend a night in a hunters’ shed by yourself...

When you woke up to the weird noises outside of the shed and saw some greenish-blue, alien-like ‘things’ wandering around, realized that the shed is now sitting in the middle of a swamp that wasn’t there yesterday, you thought it was just a very realistic dream.

Then those creatures saw you in the shed, trying to break in with those pointy sharp nails- to your horror they were actually breaking down the wooden door- and you shot them dead with the shotgun you found. It didn’t take you long to realize that these creatures look like the monsters from the game you played, ‘The Witcher’. You actually loved the story, the lore, the universe, everything.

You don’t like it so much now that you’re actually in this world.

After a huge mental breakdown and few thoughts about the possible option of getting out of this situation (by sticking the gun barrel in your mouth and pulling the trigger) you decided that you are not brave enough to blow your own brain out. You gather everything that might be useful, mostly- well, actually totally just guns and bullets, and left.

You ran into Radomil in the woods, just when you were about to have another breakdown. Being lost and hungry and scared in ANOTHER universe was definitely not good to your mental state.

He was an absolute angel. Brought you back to his village, gave you food, and when he found out that you got nowhere to go, he let you stay in the house his grandmother used to live. He even brought you to hunt with him, taught you how to use a bow and arrow. Turned out you’re actually a genius in archery, can hit a bull’s eye 8 out of 10 times, probably the result of being a years-long gamer.

He was that kind of friend who you immediately connect with like you two were twins got separated after birth. In fact, you like him so much you feel bad about not being able to tell him the truth when he asked about where you’re from. Not like you know how to explain it.

A few months later, you’re all settled in. Life is simpler here, and this country-life is growing on you. You still miss your family and friends every day, and you miss modern lifestyle, especially the internet and public transportation, but the thought of ‘stuck here forever’ is started to feel a little bit more acceptable now.

“Why are you so grumpy?” Radomil whispered. Following 5 excited kids, you gave him a glare, “You dragged me to some stupid ‘trail’ that I said no to, and you expect me to be all happy and excited?” “It’ll be fun! You’ll finally be one of us!” “Do I look like I want to join a kids’ group? Plus, why do we have to do this so early? It’s like 6 in the morning!” “It’s not early, you sleep too much. You should probably go see Saibh see if she got anything to treat that.” you rolled your eyes. The kids were having a swords fight with some branches. “By the way, what 6?” “What?” you started to do some stretches to stay awake. “You said 6 in the morning.” “..Ugh, stupid world not using normal time system...” you grunted, ignoring Radomil’s question.

The group stopped in front of a cave.

“Here?” you raised your brows. “Yes, we go through this cave, come out the other side, and the trail is completed!” the youngest of the boys exclaimed, took the lead and stepped into the cave. “Wait wait, we?” “Yes.” Radomil answered. “I thought this is my trial?” your plan of taking a nap when they couldn’t see you just got ruined. “HEY SLOW DOWN!” he yelled at the boys, and shrugged at you, “It’s a group trial.” while lighting up some torches, handing one to one of the older boys. “Does that mean whenever we are having a new member I’ll have to go through this again?” Radomil nodded. “...You’re the adult of the group why didn’t you change this stupid rule?” “Glad you’re already seeing yourself as one of us!” Radomil gave you a mischievous smirk, handed you a torch. You groaned, “Goddammit...I hate caves...”, snatched the torch out of Radomil’s hand and stomped into the cave.

You hate caves.

You bet you can list at least 50 reasons why anyone shouldn’t like caves. They are dark, dangerous, damp, crawling with creatures you’d rather see on TV... yeah you’d rather stay home. You miss home.

You couldn’t stop complaining about this whole ‘trial’ thing the moment you stepped into this cave, mostly just judging Radomil about how he, as a grown man, can allow this risky activity happening. Several times, actually.

Shortly after you entered the cave, you heard something. A weird noise that no one else heard. You told yourself that you’re just being paranoid and pushed the bad feeling to the back of your mind. As you went further into the cave, the boys started to get more and more excited and decided that it will be more fun to do a ‘team competition’, two teams would have to go on separate ways and see which team can reach the end of the cave first. You and Radomil being the only two adults had to split up to look after the kids, which you feel like it’s exactly what would happen in a horror film before anything goes wrong. And things did turn into a horror film.

It all happened very quickly. One moment you were trying to make the two boys on your team slow down, worrying that they might slip and broke their thin-ass necks. Next thing you know something jumped out of nowhere and attacked one of them.

Everything was kind of a blur in your memory.

Once you collected yourself, you were sitting on the ground, holding the youngest boy who was screaming and crying for his mum close to you. The other boy was lying at the furthest end of the wall, clothes torn and soaked in a dark liquid, not moving. You were pretty sure he’s dead. Your ears were ringing from the shots, one arm was burning from the claw mark, but you didn’t loosen the grip on the pistol you’re holding. One of the creatures that attacked you was shot dead a few feet away from you.

A man was dealing with two other creatures. He made an elegant turn, swung his sword, and cut them down easily.

“You should get him out of here now, nekkers usually hunt in a larger pack, there can be more.” the man checked the dead boy’s body. Something hanging from his neck gave out a shine under the flickering light of the torch you threw down a minute ago.

A medallion. And you don’t even need to check twice to know exactly what it was, you just knew.

“He’s dead. The exit is that way, you should be fine on the way out.” He pointed at a direction.

“You’re the witcher...” you finally found your voice. The boy in your arms was slowly getting quiet, but still sobbing. The man turned his face away, hide his expression in the shadow, putting his sword back to the sheath on his back. “You’re Geralt of Rivia.” His eyes snapped to you, “You heard of me?” You stared at him. He surely didn’t look like the character in the game nor in the TV show, but somehow you’re sure about who he was.

You didn’t expect to meet him at all.

Sure, this is ‘the world of the Witcher’, that can’t be mistaken, but this is also a huge world. What are the odds?

Some noises came from somewhere far away, Geralt and you immediately turned towards the same direction. “That must be Radomil.” you got back on your feet, uncocked the hammer and put the pistol to the back of your pants, “We need to go save them.” “I’ll go, take the boy and get out.” “Hey!” you stopped him, “He’s my friend, I’m coming with you.” “You’re only going to slow me down.” “I can help, I just killed one. Plus, it’s not like it’s safe in the woods.” you took the boy’s hand in yours. “...Fine, just don’t get in the way of my sword.” “Whatever.” you rolled your eyes, quickly rushed to where the noises were coming from.

You bumped into the boy with dirty blond hair who was on Radomil’s team. He was pale as the sheet, having blood and dirt stain everywhere, and didn’t respond to any of your questions. You made sure the youngest boy held on to his hand, then follow Geralt into an opening of the cave.

Some light streaks came from the top, allowing you to see things slightly clearer.

Your heart sank, seeing some dark figures laying on the ground, and some vague shadows crawling around. You heard something, which you can’t help but think that’s what meat being torn out of a body and bones being munched on would sound like. You kept your back to the stone wall, slowly drew the gun, and let out a shaky breath to steady your hand and ease your heavy heartbeat.

You were a great help. At least in your opinion you were. You gave two headshots to two of those fuckers, and shot one in the leg when it tried to jump on Geralt’s back. It was over quite quickly. You put the gun away after Geralt putting away his sword, then slowly approaching the bodies. You couldn’t ignore the smell of blood mixed with the stench that’s surly from the nekkers. Held back the urge of throwing up, and covered your nose, you started looking around for Radomil.

You found him leaning against the stalagmites, tightly gripping a broken torch. He has multiple claw marks on his arms and faces, seemed like he fought till the very last moment trying to protect the boys. His insides were torn out, splattered on the ground. You threw up everything you had after you recognized him, coughing, tears ran down your cheeks. “We need to go.” you heard Geralt's voice, but it sounds so far away from you, “The blood would attract more of them, even something worse.” You were panting, vision blurred, felt like the whole world was spinning.

Then you passed out.

Walking on the side of the road, a thin layer of morning mist hanging low above the ground, somewhere in the woods you could hear the cracks of twigs and fallen leaves.

It’s been a few hours since you left the village, the sun just came up, the chillness of the night still lingers in the air.

You left before anyone was up, didn’t want to attract any attention. After you passed out in the cave, Geralt brought you and the two boys back to the village. Surprisingly, this time the witcher wasn’t the one getting the blame. People in the village blamed you for what happened.

It’s understandable, you were an outsider after all. People who lost their children cursed you, and those who felt sorry for the well-loved hunter talked behind you. So you decided to leave, with dignity, before any of them decided to gather a crowd and cast you out.

Geralt caught up behind you in the middle of the day. He was on Roach’s back, slowly walking up. He didn’t acknowledge you when he’s passing by, and eventually, the view of his back was beyond your sight.

You thought about asking for his help, but you didn’t know what exactly he can help with. Looking for a way to send you back to your own world? Escorting you somewhere that’s safe and welcoming? And how could you pay him when all you got is a backpack full of bullets and some bread and rabbit jerky? Maybe he would want Radomil’s bow, the only thing you took (well, stole) that reminds you of him. It’s a good bow, maybe it would bring you some luck, or money, if anyone wants to trade when you’re desperate.

You didn’t expect to see the witcher again. When the sun was hanging low, painted everything in gold, you saw Geralt up ahead. He was at the side of the road, starting a fire for the night. As you were approaching his little camp, you were debating whether you should keep going and see if a village would magically show up after a few more miles of walking. Or just ask him if you can stay with him for the night. You didn’t have the courage to ask him such a thing, nor do you want to keep going with your numb feet and aching back.

You stopped not too far away from his camp, sat down against a tree, pulled out some dried meat, and stretched your legs. You were nowhere close to him, he can’t ask you to go somewhere else, and if there're monsters or beasts going to attack, you’re 100 percent sure that man won’t just sit around and watch you get eaten.

The next morning, you woke up before Geralt. You couldn't really sleep anyway, every time you closed your eyes you saw Radomil’s pale face. You forced down some bread, weren’t really hungry with those horrible dreams still stuck in your head. Geralt was up when you decided to keep going on your little journey, you put on your backpack, walked right past him.

Shortly after, he caught up again. You couldn’t help but glared at his back when he rode past you, envying about him having a horse and didn’t have to walk his feet off. Taking back your gaze, you stared at your feet so you didn’t have to think about how it seemed like a never-ending road.

It must’ve taken you hours before you realized that Geralt has been in front of you this whole time, he didn’t ride off. Instead, he slowly rode in front of you, even stopped to have a rest when you were way too far behind, keeping a decent distance between you two- not too close that people would assume you were traveling together, but not too far that if you were attacked by anything he can’t come to rescue.

You weren’t exactly sure if he’s doing it on purpose, looking after you. Maybe you’re thinking too much, he’s always someone trying to keep his distance from others. Perhaps this is just a coincidence, he just wanna save some energy.

Right, he probably just wanted to treat Roach nicer.

First week after you started this aimless journey, the night started to get cold. On a night with cool breeze and no moon, Geralt gestured you to come closer to the fire. You, shivering in the wind, quickly picked up your stuff and sat right next to the warm flame, didn’t hesitate to say yes when he offered you a cooked rabbit leg. What you brought with weren’t enough to sustain you, you’ve been feeling dizzy and about to faint due to the starvation for the past two days.

And that's how it began, this weird travel situation. With you walking behind him and Roach in the day, set up your fireless camp somewhere in his sight at night, and woke up to the sound of him packing in the morning then began another day’s journey.

At first, you worried that he might stop at any moment asking you to stop following him. Then you almost sprained your ankle from all the walking. After that Geralt started walking on foot as well.

It’s the first night you slept through soundly without waking up to nightmares or the cold. The next morning you woke up late, later than when you usually set off for the road.

But Geralt was there, brushing Roach, checking his bags, acting like he’s been busy taking care of other things and totally wasn’t waiting for you.

That was the day you became travel companions.

#the witcher #geralt of rivia #geralt x y/n #geralt x you #geralt x reader

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the-second-tonks · 3 years

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Hai! I've seen your Marvel game and I wanna participate in your Narnia one. I'm a 5'0,Bi demiromantic,Aquarius sun, Taurus rising, Virgo Moon, INTP, Hufflepuff with black hair, glasses and brown eyes. I've been told that I look intimidating and unapproachable by my friends especially since I don't smile much because I think I look awkward.

They also say I'm very reliable and supportive. I'm very introverted and shy but I always try to be nice . Once I get close to someone I show my more chaotic and mischievous but loyal side. I constantly seek out my friends company when bored unless I know they are busy. I usually don't talk much unless needed despite being considered academically smart. I'm bilingual. I consider myself open and fair minded. I'm an insomniac. I'm mostly not a violent person but when I am I like to plan it out carefully. I'm very emotionally reserved and oblivious. I'm still trying to figure out what I want for my future that still has my friends in it. I sometimes unintentionally lose myself thinking about my goals and friends.

My favorite color is blue. My hobbies normally change but its currently reading, writing and art. My interests are history, movies, true crime and supernatural. I constantly daydream and have a vivid imagination. My sense of humor is pretty cursed and dark at times. I don't really consider people my enemies but when I do I try to be mature about it. My style is definitely comfort but stylish. I tend to wear darker colors. My aesthetic is light academia. I have a habit of playing and watching horror games/film for the thrill of it.

I like the rain and find comfort in it. I perfer to be left alone most of the time especially after socializing. I love making/getting things for people I'm close to for important events and put a lot of thought and effort into it. I feel a very nice feeling of achievement when people recognize and praise me for something I did.People who are protective and have a soft spot for me make my heart go <3. I dislike people who are egotistical and refuse to listen to others. I'm not really fond of going outside on a very sunny day since I perfer indoors and cloudy days.

Thank you in advance :D

P.S: Can it pls be s/o instead of husband/wife? If I sent my request twice pls ignore this one, my tumblr has been acting up

Hii ! No worries it was just once in my inbox :) . I'm really sorry , it's just husband and wife , I- okay I'll ship you with your soulmate :)

How you enter the magical world of Narnia

You were enjoying yourself in rain when you literally saw a bright light coming from a bunch of trees, a small but was there . One of your family members who was with you really got scared as to that was the only place you could stay at and started worrying since you both were alone but you reassured them and walked towards the light , as it slowly blinded you . You kept walking until you felt sharp stingy things right on your face . Pushing the door open , whoosh , you felt the cold , very cold air . You were already wet and the cold wasn't helping , but you couldn't care more as you saw not an old fashioned house , but a big area , snow covered to be precise , Narnia - to be exact .

What weapon you yielded

Bows and arrows , no doubt . Just like you , they're quiet and silent while they attack , but won't hesitate in killing you if you're the one who's to be attacked . You'll definitely be trained under two of the best archers in Narnia - Edmund and Susan . And surely, you'll make them proud by mastering the weapon soon .

The Era / Movie you enter Narnia

The Chronicles Of Narnia: The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe .

Your s/o would be

Susan Pevensie

She's so similar to you and you both have so many things to learn from each other . Definitely soulmates .

What the Narnians think about you

They think of you as the supportive and reliable one . The one who's smartly observing everyone from the corner of the room while everyone's busy in their own little world . They might also feel a sense to protect you and respect you , as if you're a fragile diamond to them . They'll adore you . They'll also love how open minded you are and would definitely consider it as a talent to be bilingual .

What the Pevensie siblings think about you

Peter Pevensie : Him and you have a strained relationship (mostly in the Prince Caspian movie) because you hate arrogant people and that's how he behaves sometimes . Overall , he really respects you a lot .

Susan Pevensie : Oh . My . God . She liked you from the first day you met . You both were similar in so many ways (almost all) . You both also had a lot of things to teach each other. Basically , you were the only one(stranger) to whom she opened up . She won't let you loose yourself while you think about your goals and stuff . She's definitely protective of you and has a soft corner for you . Even she might feel a bit intimated , but her smile will force you to smile back (you'll feel how cold you not smile at such a welcoming and warm smile). You'd smile at her despite the awkward thingy

Edmund Pevensie : Okay , this guy really loves you (as a brother) . He and you are again, a lot similar . He and you would often spend wonderful time together and you'd be his favourite person to spend time with . He'll always trust you with be it his life . He trusts you a lot and respects you too . He'll also be protective of you , but like a brother would be .

Lucy Pevensie : She adores your and Susan's relationship . Just like you , she loves comfortable and soft clothes . She would always come to you and talk because you both are very open-minded people. She'd never be busy so you can always seek for her company .

What does Caspian think about you

Simple . He adores you . He really had a minor crush on you but nothing much . He respects you and you're one of his favourite people to spend time with . He often opens up in front of you because you're so reliable . But he also loved your logical and planning side . He'll often be supportive of you and your hobbies , goals and stuff

What does Aslan think about you

Okay , I can't read that clever lion's mind , but I'm sure he's really proud of you . He really loves you and just wants you to remember that you're amazing ! You'll always have his blessings with you and he'll always be by your side, even when there's no one .

A short blurb on your life in Narnia

You'd reach Narnia before the Pevensie siblings and luckily , Aslan will find you before the witch . It was close , the witch had almost got you , you had almost seen her . You trained yourself and spent time with Centaurs learning to discipline yourself like them . Finally , you met the Pevensie siblings and Susan to be precise . You helped them with the war and the prophecy was , Aslan's daughter , who helps the kings and queens . Yep , you were Aslan's daughter . From fighting in the battle of beruna to engaging with Susan , you life was happy until suddenly , you lost them while hunting for the white stag . But you didn't give up , you were Aslan's daughter after all . You ruled the Narnia (you had stopped aging) but you could see it falling apart . You battled the telmarines , wishing for your father to help you , but no . You had left a letter in the chests of the kings and queens , who lost your faith too . Your never thought they'd return , spending endless nights crying, fiddling with the engagement ring . Narnia was over , the telmarines took control and you had to hide yourself with the Narnians in the dark forest. Again, finding Prince Caspian with Susan's horn to reuniting with them and from fighting in another battle to saving susan when she and lucy went for searching your father , you were now standing beside your father , crying as Susan left. But Aslan's words bought a faint smile on your face 'Go..' he said . He explained you that you'd return to Narnia always , but the others who weren't from Narnia couldn't (you were born in Narnia , sent outside of it for your safety and the prophecy to be true .) Now , I'll leave it to you if you wanna go or not , but in the end , you and Susan did live happily ever after ..

Your post

The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe - Queen Y/N , the reliable/faithful , Aslan's daughter

Prince Caspian - The Queen of the old , Queen Y/N , Aslan's daughter

Dawn treader - The reliable/faithful Queen , the loved queen , the daughter of Aslan.

Your race would be

Centaur for sure. The ones who appear to be serious and kinda scary lol , but are actually nice , reliable and introverted , open up only in front of their fellow friends.

I hope you liked it !

Thank you for participating !

#tani's game #game for you all

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linosies · 4 years

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[8:23am]

in which you wake up early and cook breakfast for yourself and your male bias.

wc: 393

genre: fluff

pairing: reader x male bias

warnings: mentions of food

The faint melody playing from your phone can only just be heard over the sound of the pan sizzling in front of you. You start humming along as the first verse begins, lost in the moment. Despite the grey sky threatening dull and rainy weather, you feel at peace. The smell of freshly brewed coffee mixed with the cool morning air that drifts through the window has you feeling rejuvenated.

As the song’s chorus began, your humming becomes louder, now spotted with your favourite lyrics. When you reach for the bread to make toast, a familiar, no, beloved, voice joins in. You can’t help but smile as he fills in the lyrics you’re missing and hums the parts you sing.

“G’morning, love,” he gently wraps his arms around your waist. His voice is thick with sleep, but it makes your heart flutter nonetheless. A soft kiss is placed on your cheek before he nuzzles his head into your neck.

You set the bread to toast before placing your hands on top of his. “Good morning, how did you sleep?”

“Fine,” he groans. “Great, actually, until I woke up because someone got up early and I got cold.”

“Boo,” you chuckle. “Is breakfast enough to make it up to you?”

He hums, pretending to think for a moment. “I guess it’ll have to do, but only on one condition.”

“I’m listening.” Finally, you turn to look at him. Stifling a laugh, you take him in: eyelids still heavy and hair looking like a bird’s nest. In your eyes, he was always especially adorable in the mornings.

“We have to eat it in bed.”

You chuckled, reaching up to fix his hair despite his mumbled protests and hands lightly swatting yours away. You couldn’t feel bad though; he was looking away but you could see his smile and the light blush painting his cheeks. “I guess I can do that just for you.”

He smiles at the victory, pulling you in closer for a proper hug. As he kissed the crown of your head, you couldn’t help but feel as though you were the luckiest person in the world. And as far as you were concerned, this morning you really were. It wasn’t often you were able to share moments like this, but when they came to pass you and your boyfriend always treasured them.

Just something quick to help shake off some dust! Had someone in mind but wanted to leave it open to your own imaginations! Feedback is always welcome and encouraged ❤️ pls be nice about it though lol I’m fragile

#kpop imagines #stray kids imagines #ateez imagines #got7 imagines #seventeen imagines #bts imagines #nct imagines #a.c.e imagines #victon imagines #txt imagines #kpop fluff #optional bias #my writing

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astarlightmonbebe · 4 years

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compilation of thoughts and theories on chain of gold

for reference here is my theories before reading

pls do not expect coherency i have never been coherent about books in my life

also spoilers! and it’s really long! you have been warned

- okay to start we are going to be talking about my MAN matthew fairchild because he’s making me hurt too much. you guys know how much i love him, but especially after reading chog i mostly feel super sad? because it’s so obvious that at this point he is so far gone, like he’s been walking the path of self destructiveness for so long and in the fact of his own internalized self hatred and guilt he ends up hurting other people along with himself--or he will, for all the much he loves his friends. i really feel that he needs to get a handle on himself, but he’s so afraid that if anyone ever knew his secrets that everyone would turn him away, but in the fact that he’s keeping them--he’s digging his own grave and i’m sobbing. someone needs to help him; while i feel it is important that matthew saves himself, i don’t think it’s something he can or should necessarily do alone.

- this is kind of about the grace situation? like wow i hate that girl. i swear she tears apart a flower every morning to decide how hot or cold she’s gonna be for the day. i felt like the slightest inkling of pity for her like maybe once in the book but in the end she’s sooo two faced and i can’t bring myself to like her knowing she’s the reason they are all going to practically fall apart (especially james/matthew/cordelia).

- i told you guys she was involved with some witchery huhhh...as expected, the bracelet is found guilty...i guess because of james’ demon blood, her regular magic doesn’t work, which makes me wonder if it is connected to demon blood (maybe warlocks??). anyways i hate her and making boys do things without consent. i do find it a little fishy that matthew hasn’t caught on, especially after the kiss? like despite all the secrets he keeps, i highly doubt he would do anything that would hurt james (with active realization; we’re not talking about mental states right now). and the fact that james knows something is bothering matthew and how matthew feels james’ pain so acutely? you can’t tell me their bond is breaking or fragile, because to me it seems strong even if the two of them are liable to break and take it with them as they do.

- can i just say. i was so disappointed. to find out. that CASSIE IS DOING ANOTHER love triangle like pls kill me now. i’m actually devastated and super unhappy about it because we a) already did this last series and b) just??? i don’t want another reason for those three’s relationship to become more strained? tbh, i kind of like cordelia/matthew if it wasn’t for the fact that matthew has his own issues, cordelia is hopelessly head over heels for james, and james has feelings for cordelia if you take the bracelet and grace a w a y. i do love how cordelia seems to see matthew in a way that nobody else does and she’s willing to confront him in a way that no one else does (looking at you, lucie). i mean, props to matthew for not going to intervene during their arrangement, but like...that’s another secret, too. anyways. i’m big sad over this.

- cordelia!! i have to admit, i have fallen for her more than i expected to. her pov was wonderful and i loveeee her character. she takes everything in stride and is really mature and in control of herself, which i like. plus there are a lot of sides to her, and i enjoyed getting introduced to them all. we really saw character growth throughout the book with her too--she definitely matured in her feelings, despite all the heartbreak she’s been put through, and i love how she changed her mindset when finding out the truth about her family instead of being, say, stubborn that her father was innocent.

- on the other hand...i like lucie and james but i also...don’t??? idk, i genuinely did enjoy reading their perspectives but i don’t feel that in love or connected to the two of them as i thought i would be. especially lucie. don’t get me wrong---i absolutely adore lucie and her writer self, but i definitely went into chog thinking i was going to be a lot more invested in her. i think cc did a good job with her character, despite some of lucie’s actions and views not really aligning with me. i don’t know, to me she just seems a little too naive. maybe it’s because cordelia is such a contrast to her. and shoutout to james, who is having a horrible time. i feel bad for him, but his character is alright. i just want him and cordelia to be happy honestly.

- lucie and jesse was nice, honestly. i really went into chog thinking that jesse disappeared and tatiana just said he died, but i guess actually dying is cool, too. i have to say, i was partially right about lucie’s power (even if it wasn’t the cool out there one i wanted it to be). jesse’s humor is actually right up my lane. i thought he was going to be dry, but i enjoyed his character a lot, honestly. i don’t see them as romantic though? to me he’s like another endearing older brother figure to her at this point.

- jesse so willingly giving up his last breath like !!! you can tell how painful it is to be trapped here, like that must suck.

- grace and lucie about to team up next book i see?? kind of looking forward to it, ngl. they have a common interest (jesse) who they would do anything for. i’m intruiged.

- also called it, villain was a prince of hell! wasn’t belial in a gotsm story? or am i tripping out because i think i’m tripping.

- when i said it was likely for barbara or oliver to die I DID NOT MEAN BOTH OF THEM!!! i was actually getting attached to barbara and her good eyesight. i want to know the tea with eugenia too.

- anna lightwood is forever an icon in my eyes. she’s a power unto herself and i can’t wait to see her in the next couple of books. i had a feeling ariadne was going to chase her...not that psyched about it but curious all the same. i love how anna’s first reaction was ‘oh so you heard that charles dumped you from me not him’

- anna and cordelia are awesome. i love how anna takes one look at cordelia and immediately decides she needs new clothes (thankfully, i swear, pastel is never a good choice for someone with cordelia’s complexion, like?? shouldn’t her mom know that.)

- charles. no words. why is he that kid in school, the one that has every answer and an obsession with wwii or whatever like TT. just run for president. (oh my gosh that’s it he reminds me of a politician in modern times)

- which moves me onto alastair. who honestly i love so much, 10/10. i honestly can’t remember why i liked him so much going into this book? but that’s not important because if i had any doubt in my heart, it is now gone and crushed. like the reason i like alastair and not grace is because alastair is such a prime example of character growth. not that his intrinsic personality has changed, but he’s realized he’s done bad things that he can’t exactly make up and that are not excusable, whereas grace keeps doing bad things continuously (and let’s be honest i think what she’s doing is worse. at least alastair is honest lol (jkjk)). plus he dyed his hair and that’s suddenly all i needed in my life.

- i love the carstairs siblings so much!!! they are my fave duo and i love how realistic their interactions are. idk how to explain it, but they really warm my heart. especially how alastair has been protecting cordelia all her life and she really had no idea. his speech when he told her about their father’s drinking habits made me want to cry. i love how he’s so endearing towards her too; he’ll be all annoyed and then one second later is panicking over the fact that he can’t find her and that she could be in danger. plus cordelia cares for him a lot, like how she wanted to leave during his and charles’ breakup, but stayed because she could feel he needed her, even when he let her go. i can’t wait for their relationship to continue to grow, especially with their secrets out in the air. sibling solidarity.

- and that brings me to *dundundun* thomas! i found myself really interested in him and liking his character a lot, not just because he’s a giant, either. (i will never stop laughing over the fact that thomas is a literal tree). i find him such a strong character, despite all the grief he must have been close to drowning in. he stayed away from his family all that time, too, but also he was with people who were basically his family and i stan that.

- a break to talk about christopher. i never thought he would get hurt, but thank goodness he had a cure all worked out. i love how he’s actually so coherent at times, despite being stuck in his own head. i kind of forgot he wasn’t spacey 24/7, so this was a nice reminder. he’s going to go places, mark it.

- on that note, i called the thomastair spain moment, though it was not in the way i expected it to be. i love how thomas so obviously caught feelings for alastair but like. had no idea what to do with them. he was just over there shivering and showing alastair his tattoo like boyyy. that kind of makes the engagement all that much sadder, because for one, i was glad that it finally got out (though tbh i kind of forgot alastair said all that other stuff and i was like ‘son, never say that again’) but it was so...heartbreaking??!

- like you can see that thomas was so stunned and hurt by the realization that alastair said that about his family behind his back at the academy, all while being somewhat nice to him in the face of it, especially considering that thomas was the one who always stood up for alastair in their friend group. and alastair--the fact that he was there to finally try to put it all behind them, to finally try to start something, only for it all to come crashing down. the fact that he was so resigned, knowing that thomas deserved the truth even if it meant he could lose everything.

- i just have so many feels about that particular scene. matthew’s bitter voice as he recounts everything alastair ever said. how thomas turned so hard and cold and was like ‘you’re not the person i thought you were’ and told alastair to never show up in front of him again. how alastair was so sad and he couldn’t even hide it, he didn’t even have words. how he cried when alastair is like, the person the you least expect to cry in a room.

- magnus though. he took one look at matthew and was like ‘oh gosh there’s another one of them self destructive men who drink themselves into oblivion’. like yes!!! pls save my son magnus!! he needs help.

- chog was filled with lapidary phrases though. there were a ton of good quotes.

- i said theories but i forgot them all, honestly. this is just a rant on characterization. *cries*

- if james is dishonest to cordelia in the next book he’s gonna have to catch these hands. he won’t even see me coming. i’m watching you, james herondale.

- also, great. tatiana and belial. great. (read: sarcasm)

thanks for reading !

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antiadvil · 4 years

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i AIM 2 b w/ u

summary: Dan’s life is a little bit of a mess. He met his only friend through a chat website, and Dan doesn’t even know what he looks like. The only person he’s ever come out to is said friend. He’s wasting his gap year away.

But hey, at least there’s that cute boy he met at London Pride.

rating: PG13

wc: 4k

notes: for the @phandomreversebang! lovely art created by @anironsidh and betaing provided by @quackitity (also stay tuned for @judearaya‘s version which i betaed and is very good)

read on ao3 or under the cut

Dan glanced at the time. He had a few minutes to kill before he had to catch his train to London Pride, he decided, so he logged into his laptop and opened AIM.

His heart skipped a beat. His best (and only, if he was being honest) friend was online. He sent him a message.

danisnotonfire: hey

amazingphil: hi!!!

He and Amazingphil had met in a chat room about five months ago. They bonded a bit over their sexualities, and then Dan sent him a PM about Muse, and then here they were, still messaging almost every day since.

amazingphil: what r u doing?

danisnotonfire: im never doing anything

amazingphil: lol

amazingphil: yes u r >.<

amazingphil: guess what im doing

danisnotonfire: what

amazingphil: guess >:(

danisnotonfire: no >:)

amazingphil: pls

danisnotonfire: hmm

danisnotonfire: maybe

amazingphil: hurry up

danisnotonfire: wait im thinking of a good one

danisnotonfire: ok

danisnotonfire: ur running away from the police bc u stole the crown jewels

amazingphil: no u spork

amazingphil: im picking out an outfit

danisnotonfire: an outfit? :0

danisnotonfire: u wear clothes?

amazingphil: i hate u

amazingphil: i have Plans today

Dan glanced at the clock. He had to leave soon for his own plans, but he still felt a tiny bit jealous.

danisnotonfire: you have Plans?

amazingphil: yes

amazingphil: what r u doing?

Dan checked the time again. He frowned. He had to leave now if he wanted to make his train.

danisnotonfire: getting ready to take a train

danisnotonfire: g2g actually sry

danisnotonfire: c u?

He didn’t wait to see amazingphil’s response before he closed his laptop and bolted for the door.

The train ride to London was nerve wracking but uneventful. Dan had never travelled so far on his own before, and his mother’s warnings rang in his head. As tempted as he was to pull out his phone and pretend to be busy, he kept himself alert, his phone safely stowed in his pocket and his backpack clutched in his lap.

His mother didn’t know where he was going. No one knew where he was going. It was a little bit scary, but also exhilarating. He could do anything; he could be anyone, as long as he was on the 8pm train home.

When his train pulled into the station, it was easy to follow the crowd of people in rainbow apparel to the parade site. Dan’s train had arrived a tiny bit late, and it looked like the parade had already started.

The street was crowded, but Dan wriggled and elbowed his way to the front of the crowd, where he had a decent view of his first ever Pride parade. He found himself sandwiched between two girls holding hands and a dark haired boy who looked about Dan’s age.

“Hey,” Dan found himself shouting to the boy next to him.

The boy glanced over, flicking dark hair out of his eyes. “Hey,” he shouted back. “What brings you here?”

“I’m gay,” Dan shouted. He laughed. It was so exhilarating to say out loud that he said it again. “I’m gay!”

The boy laughed. “Me too,” he said. “What a coincidence.”

“What’s your name?” Dan asked.

“Phil,” the boy replied. “You?”

“Dan,” he said back.

“Well, Dan, is this your first pride?”

Dan nodded. “What about you?”

Phil shook his head. “This is my third.”

“Wow,” Dan said.

Phil laughed. “It’s not that many. I’m sure there are some people here who have been to every single one.” He nodded toward a group of older men riding on a passing float.

Dan tried to wrap his mind around the fact that there had been fewer than forty London Prides. That everything around him was new and fragile and still in its infancy. “That’s crazy,” he said. “That that’s even possible, I mean.”

Phil nodded emphatically. “I know, right? If I had been born just fifty years earlier…” He shuddered.

“It’s not like it’s that great to be gay right now either,” Dan admitted.

“No,” Phil admitted. He looked down.

They were silent for a few moments.

“Sorry,” Dan said, clearing his throat. “I kinda killed the mood there, didn’t I?”

“Don’t worry about it,” Phil said. He shifted uncomfortably, fiddling with the plastic rainbow flag in his hands. “Does your family know you’re here?” he added softly.

Dan shook his head, eyes welling with tears.

“I’m so sorry,” Phil said in a rush, “That was such a personal question, I don’t know why I-”

“It’s okay,” Dan said softly.

Phil hovered awkwardly just at the edge of Dan’s personal space. “Um, do you want a hug or-”

“Yes,” Dan said, immediately crushing himself into Phil’s arms and squeezing his eyes shut.

He resolutely ignored the tears leaking from the corners of his eyes.

“Shh,” Phil said, holding him tighter. “It’s going to be okay.”

Dan didn’t know why he believed everything this beautiful stranger said, but he did.

It was going to be okay. Dan let that message sink into his body, settle in his stomach, until his limbs felt less shaky and his footing more solid. He pulled away from Phil, wiping his eyes.

“Sorry,” he muttered. “I don’t know what that was.”

“It’s okay,” Phil said. “It’s your first Pride; it’s overwhelming. Are you from nearby?”

“I’m from near Reading,” Dan said.

Phil whistled. “That’s pretty far.”

Dan shrugged. “No one will recognize me here.”

Phil nodded. “I’m sorry.”

Dan shrugged again. “It’s okay.”

“Well, I hope you have a good time. It’s a lot of fun.”

Dan looked around at everyone wearing various different pride flags, all of the floats covered in rainbow. “I think I will.”

Dan and Phil stayed together for the rest of the parade, bumping shoulders and pointing out people with particularly funny signs. When the last float passed, though, Dan realized he didn’t want to break apart.

He turned to Phil to say so, but before he could open his mouth, Phil interrupted him, looking nervous. “Actually, um, if you don’t have anywhere to be yet, I thought we could hang out for a bit? Get coffee or something?”

Dan had left a few hours after Pride for exploring London, maybe even looking at some colleges so what he told his mum wasn’t a complete lie, but he’d rather spend them with Phil. “I’d love coffee,” he said.

Phil brightened. “There’s a Starbucks really close by. If you like Starbucks?”

“I love Starbucks,” Dan said. He loved anywhere Phil wanted to drink coffee together.

“Perfect,” Phil said, already walking, presumably towards the Starbucks. “My treat.”

“Oh, you don’t have to-” Dan scrambled to keep up.

“Please,” Phil said, smiling. “It’s the least I can do.”

Dan rolled his eyes. “In exchange for what?”

“You travelled all the way to London to see me,” Phil smiled.

Dan rolled his eyes even harder. “It wasn’t to see you, dummy-”

Phil gasped in mock betrayal. “It wasn’t?”

“No,” Dan said, “It was to learn and grow as a person, to find myself, to-”

“Shut up,” Phil said, giggling. “Just let me buy you coffee.”

“Fine,” Dan said, pouting.

“Perfect,” Phil said, leading Dan into a Starbucks, “Now come on.”

Dan’s coffee was delicious, but he let it cool in his hands as their conversation went on. He and Phil had a lot in common, and their conversation flowed easily. They both followed a lot of the same online creators, they had similar taste in music, and they had similar senses of humor. They even had nearly matching hairstyles, Phil pointed out with a laugh.

“It’s a cool hairstyle,” Dan said defensively. Phil didn’t need to know that the only way Dan could make it look even slightly good was by straightening it every morning.

“Of course it is,” Phil said. “It’s mine.”

Dan rolled his eyes and lightly shoved Phil.

When Dan finally finished his coffee, he looked at it regretfully. “I guess I should get going.”

Phil hesitated. “I don’t know if you want to go back to my apartment or anything?”

Dan nodded, then looked at his watch. It was getting dark out. “Fuck. I can’t. My train.”

Phil’s shoulders slumped slightly. “Oh. Well, can I walk you to your train at least?”

Dan smiled. “Yeah. That’d be nice.”

It was lucky that Phil had offered to walk him, honestly, because Dan was completely turned around. London was one of the most confusing cities he’d ever been in, but Phil seemed to know his way around it like the back of his hand.

“Here you go,” he said, pointing out the train station Dan had arrived at earlier in the day. He shoved his hands in his pockets, staring at Dan with an intensity that made him blush. “I don’t want to go,” he admitted.

Phil drew closer, and Dan glanced around nervously. There were a few people around. No one seemed to be paying much attention, but that could change.

Fuck it, Dan decided. It was Pride. If there was ever a day for kissing cute boys in public, it was today. As Phil leaned in closer, Dan closed the gap and pressed their lips together.

It was sweet, shorter than Dan would have liked, but as Phil pulled away Dan noticed a man standing at the other end of the street, glaring. Dan could see Phil looking too.

“How about I just stick with you until your train comes?” Phil said lightly, but Dan could see his eyes still on the man on the other end of the street, who made eye contact for another second before finally turning away.

Dan felt the tension in his shoulders unwind just the slightest bit. “That’d be great,” he said.

Phil hovered protectively by Dan’s side for the next few minutes until his train came. Dan wouldn’t be much good in a fight, and he didn’t get the sense that Phil would be either, but his presence was reassuring. When it was time to say goodbye, Phil opted for a hug.

Dan sank into his arms gratefully. “Thank you,” he whispered.

“Of course,” Phil whispered back.

“Stay safe,” Dan whispered.

“I will,” Phil promised, pulling back. “See you?”

“Yeah,” Dan said. “I hope so.”

Barely a minute after Dan boarded his train, his phone buzzed.

phil: did u make it?

Dan smiled.

dan: yes

dan: ty 4 coffee btw, it was good

phil: :)

phil: b safe

dan: u 2

He waited a bit with his phone out, wondering if Phil would say anything more, but he didn’t, so Dan closed his phone and put it away. He let his head fall back against his seat and turned to look out the window, watching London pass by until it was left firmly behind him.

***

The first thing Dan did when he got back home was check AIM. Almost as soon as he logged in, he got a message.

amazingphil: ur back!

amazingphil: where were u :0

Dan hesitated. He didn’t know why he felt like lying.

danisnotonfire: i have a life that isnt online u kno

amazingphil: D:

amazingphil: betrayal

Dan didn’t talk much about his offline life with Amazingphil. He knew the basics: Dan was gay, no one knew, everyone still managed to give him shit for it somehow. But he didn’t know where Dan lived, his little brother’s name, or that he had traveled to London today for Pride.

And if he said something about Pride, then he’d be asked how it went. And then he’d have to talk about Phil. And he didn’t want to talk about Phil for some reason.

danisnotonfire: u have a life offline too

danisnotonfire: remember u said u had plans 2day?

amazingphil: :0

amazingphil: i guess i did

danisnotonfire: howd they go?

amazingphil: good :3

danisnotonfire: is that all ur gonna say

amazingphil: yes :P

amazingphil: i need 2 have mystery or ull lose interest

danisnotonfire: :0

danisnotonfire: i would never

amazingphil: good

danisnotonfire: now tell me

amazingphil: no

danisnotonfire: ಠ_ಠ

amazingphil: :D

amazingphil: it wasnt really interesting anyway lolol

amazingphil: i dont wanna bore u

danisnotonfire: impossible

danisnotonfire: u could never bore me D:

amazingphil: i could

amazingphil: law

amazingphil: textbooks

amazingphil: school

amazingphil: math

amazingphil: r u asleep yet

danisnotonfire: (-_-)zzz

amazingphil: c? told u

danisnotonfire: ok ok

danisnotonfire: u win

Dan still wanted to know what Amazingphil had been up to, but Amazingphil didn’t seem like he wanted to tell, so Dan decided to let it drop. He started to type up a question about whether or not Amazingphil had seen a video uploaded by a YouTuber they both followed, but he was interrupted.

amazingphil: im kinda tired actually

amazingphil: i think im going to bed

Dan’s smile dropped. He had been looking forward to talking to Amazingphil.

danisnotonfire: :(

danisnotonfire: good night!

amazingphil: good night!

He went offline. Dan stayed online for a bit longer, but no one else was really there, and none of the chat rooms he normally joined were interesting that night. Eventually, he gave up. He went to bed early too.

***

He woke up the next morning to a string of texts from Phil. He smiled, grabbing his phone and rolling over to read through them.

phil: hey i have some free time this wknd

phil: i could visit maybe?

phil: if ur free 2

Dan smiled harder.

dan: im free :]

dan: idk why u want 2 visit tho theres nothing here

phil: theres u

Dan had to put his phone down for a second to make sure his face did not actually combust from how hot it was getting.

dan: thatd be nice :3 i miss u

phil: lol, we saw each other yesterday

phil: (i miss u 2 :3)

dan: call me? :3

Dan’s phone started ringing immediately. He picked up. “Why would you want to visit Wokingham?” he asked. “London is way cooler.”

“But you’re not in London,” Phil said.

“I can be,” Dan said, his mind already racing to find excuses for visiting again so soon. “I could say-”

“Dan,” Phil cut him off with a laugh. “I want to visit you. Calm down.”

Dan hesitated. “Are you sure?”

“Yes, Dan,” Phil said. “Why? Are you?”

Dan hesitated. “It’s not that I don’t want to see you again; I really do. But I mean, there are so many people here who know me and I’m not really out. To anyone. Except you.” And someone online, he added silently in his head.

“That’s okay,” Phil said. “We don’t have to- do anything gay if you don’t want to.” He paused. “At least not in public,” he added hopefully.

Dan chewed on his lip. “Even if my parents were out of the house, my little brother is really nosy. Sorry, I don’t think we’d be able to go there.”

“That’s okay,” Phil said, even though Dan thought he still sounded a little bit disappointed. “I’d still like to visit you. I don’t want to make you come to London every time we want to see each other.”

Butterflies erupted in Dan’s stomach. Every time? This wasn’t a one off thing?

“That’s sweet,” he said. “But really, London seems better in pretty much-”

“Awesome,” Phil said. “What time can you pick me up from the train station this Saturday?”

***

Dan opened AIM again, halfheartedly hoping that Amazingphil had come online in the five minutes he’d had AIM closed. He hadn’t, so Dan sighed, closing it again. He checked his twitter for another five minutes, then opened AIM again.

Amazingphil’s away message wasn’t even descriptive: “How much pain has cracked your soul? How much love would make you whole?” Just a Muse lyric. If it meant something, Dan wasn’t going to bother trying to decipher it.

Dan closed AIM again. He opened twitter. He closed twitter, and opened AIM. He repeated the cycle until it was time to pick Phil up at the train station.

Luckily, his mum didn’t ask why he needed the car, just absentmindedly handed him the keys and told him to drive safely. He parked near the train station, hoping he wouldn’t forget where he left the car.

“So this is Wokingham!” Phil said when he got off his train.

Dan nodded. “This is Wokingham.” Phil was disturbingly excited to be in Dan’s town. Dan wasn’t sure why, it was nothing compared to London.

Phil jumped up and down, smiling. Dan couldn’t help but smile back.

“So,” Phil said. “Show me the sights! Hear me the sounds! What is there to do around here?”

Dan shrugged. “Uh, I don’t really go out a lot. But there’s this coffee place I go to a lot if you don’t mind more coffee?”

Phil narrowed his eyes. “Is it Starbucks?”

Dan laughed. “Starbucks? You wish. Phil, I am going to take you to the indiest, least mainstream coffeeshop you have ever been to.”

Phil blinked. “Low bar, if I’m being honest.”

“After this, you’ll never be able to go to a Starbucks again without being disappointed.”

Phil raised an eyebrow. “Tall order.” He giggled. “Get it? Tall order? Because Starbucks drinks are-”

Dan rolled his eyes, but he couldn’t help giggling either. “Shut up.”

Phil’s tongue poked out when he laughed, Dan noticed. “Never. I will not be silenced.”

Dan shook his head. “Disappointing.”

Phil pouted.

Dan relented. “It was a little bit funny.”

Phil immediately perked up. “You think I’m funny?”

Dan rolled his eyes so hard they hurt.

Phil giggled.

“Shut up,” Dan said. “Let’s go.”

When they got to the coffee shop, Phil spent an obnoxious amount of time reading the menu.

“It’s just coffee,” Dan said. “It’s not that complicated.”

“It is absolutely that complicated,” Phil insisted. He ended up taking about ten minutes to decide what to order, and when he did it was the same caramel macchiato he had ordered at the Starbucks they went to in London.

Dan reached past Phil to put a wad of pound notes on the counter. “My treat,” he said. “Since you got the train tickets and all.”

Phil glared at Dan and stuffed a wad of pound notes in the tip jar.

Oh well. At least Dan could say he tried. And the barista, who was honestly a little bit cute, seemed very happy about it, so Dan was going to call this a win.

Their coffee was ready in just a few minutes, and Dan watched Phil’s face carefully as he took his first sip of his caramel macchiato. “How is it?” he asked.

Phil closed his eyes. “It’s amazing.”

“Better than Starbucks?”

Phil’s eyes flew open. “Now, now. I didn’t say that,” he said.

Dan snorted at the look of near-panic on Phil’s face. “Don’t worry, Phil. I won’t tell Starbucks you’ve been cheating on her.”

Phil rolled his eyes. “Thanks, Dan. You’re such a good friend.”

Dan looked down. Friend. He didn’t want to act ungrateful, but he had been hoping that Phil didn’t want to only be his friend.

Phil groaned. “I didn’t mean it like that.”

Dan looked up, confused.

“Sorry,” Phil said. “I kind of just got out of a relationship, and I know we live in different cities, so I don’t know if it’s honestly the best idea, but I really like you. And I want to make it work. If you do too.”

Dan smiled. “I think I’d like that.”

Their coffee date- date? Was this a date? It really seemed like a date- well, whatever it was, it went well. Phil admitted that this coffee was, in fact, superior to Starbucks. He told Dan a bit about his job- he worked as a video editor- and asked Dan about his. Dan was a little embarrassed to admit he worked at Asda, but Phil didn’t seem fazed. Before long, Dan was telling stories about all the outraged customers he’d dealt with, and Phil was laughing along.

Dan let himself relax a little bit. It didn’t seem like Phil was going to judge him.

They spent the rest of the day wandering around Wokingham. There really wasn’t much to see, but Dan pointed out all of the places he and his friends used to spend time, before, well, they stopped being Dan’s friends, and all of the little coffee shops and secondhand clothing stores he still went to.

When Phil got on his train home, he didn’t kiss him. Dan knew too many people in Wokingham for that. But Phil did hug him, tightly, and Dan whispered a promise to visit soon in his ear.

***

When Dan got back to his room, the first thing he did was check AIM.

Amazingphil still had the same away message as that morning. Dan sighed. Why was he so hard to reach today?

Oh well. There were other things to do on the internet anyway. Twitter was boring today, but there was always YouTube, and random AIM chatrooms where he didn’t know anyone. Dan lost track of time, chatting with someone he was pretty convinced was a fifty year old man pretending to be a teenager, until he got a notification that Amazingphil was online.

He immediately closed his other chat window; the fifty year old man would have to wait.

danisnotonfire: ur back!!! :D

amazingphil: lol

amazingphil: im back :D

danisnotonfire: was ur relaxing day unplugged relaxing

amazingphil: lol

amazingphil: yes

amazingphil: i had a good day :)

danisnotonfire: that’s good

amazingphil: i was thinking though

amazingphil: u know what’s weird

amazingphil: i don’t know what u look like >.<

amazingphil: we should skype or something

danisnotonfire: we should

danisnotonfire: when?

danisnotonfire: like rn?

amazingphil: sure

amazingphil: if u want

amazingphil: im not doing anything

Dan glanced around. He should clean his room.

danisnotonfire: give me 5

He glanced around again. There was no way his entire room was getting cleaned in five minutes.

Oh well. He had committed. He slammed his laptop shut and surveyed the room, trying to figure out what he could clean in five minutes. Or, well, what he could shove under his bed or in his closet in the next five minutes.

He managed to hide all his dirty laundry, then kicked a bunch of the clutter in his room to one side and pointed his laptop camera firmly away from it.

He opened AIM again, composing a message.

danisnotonfire: ok im ready

danisnotonfire: my skype is danisnotonfire too

He barely had time to open skype before he got an incoming call from Amazingphil. He picked up, then gaped at the screen in shock.

“Wait,” he said. “Phil?”

Phil blinked. “Dan?”

“What are you doing here?” Dan asked stupidly.

“Skyping you,” Phil said, just as stupidly.

“You’re- you’re Amazingphil?”

“Yeah.”

“And also Phil.”

“I think?” Phil extended his arms, staring at them, as if to check that they were real.

Dan groaned, putting his head in his hands. “How did we not figure this out?”

“To be completely honest,” Phil admitted, “I couldn’t really figure out what your screenname was supposed to say. I didn’t really know your name was Dan.”

Dan laughed. “What did you think it said?”

Phil blushed. “I don’t know!”

“No, really,” Dan said, an embarrassing amount of affection leaking into his voice. “What did you think it said?”

“Like, Dani snot on fire or something,” Phil said. “Look, it’s hard to read, it’s all lowercase-”

Dan groaned. “You thought my name was Dani and my username was about my snot being on fire?”

“Look,” Phil said, still blushing, “I don’t know. What’s your excuse for not knowing who I was?”

Dan felt his face heat up. He shrugged. “Phil is a common name?”

Phil laughed. “Not that common. Dan, you spork-”

“Shut up!” Dan said. “I’m not the one who doesn’t know how to read-”

“Maybe if your username wasn’t so hard to read-”

“Oh, blame it on me-”

“Look, I’m just saying-”

Dan scoffed. “You’re just saying.”

“I am,” Phil insisted. “Look, we both made bad decisions-”

“Bad decisions?” Dan said. “You think us meeting was a-”

“Okay, okay. Stupid decisions,” Phil corrected himself. “My point is, we’re here now. Isn’t that what matters?”

Dan had to agree that it was.

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