#someone please help me lol

[ray-of-color]

When I tell you that I would literally die for them I mean it whole-heartedly

#the owl house #toh hunter #toh willow #toh spoilers #toh clouds on the horizon #huntlow #winter #hunter x willow #I feel like the color for Willow's skin + outfit is not it #Gotta troubleshoot getting those right on paper #But for now this is what I have #I was trying not to make her as pale as Hunter but now I'm just worried I ended up making it a whole other different kind of incorrect #someone please help me lol

[your-ghoul-pal]

I need to be stopped (or not)

(most ideas came from twt)

#the band ghost #ghost band #ghost the band #ghost #shitghosting #copia #cardinal copia #papa iv #papa secondo #papa terzo #papa emeritus iii #papa emeritus lll #papa emeritus secondo #papa emeritus ii #papa emeritus iv #ghost fanart #artist on tumblr #fanart #fan art #someone please help me lol

[pissfizz]

Ok I guess I’m shaking now

#i lost my self control and I did something bad #and now I’m shaking and upset and angry #someone please help me lol #vent

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.

[void-rose247]

Ah I can’t stop drawing the skrunkly bois 😖😖 I love them too much lol

#sun and moon #someone please help me lol

[pyralart]

All thanks to them...

Just an idea of what Belos could be doing next episode- you might also spot some suspicious drawings hidden in there- if not... it's your loss

ID in ALT and under read more:

[ID: Comic with the character Belos from the cartoon show The Owl House, in his monster form. It takes place after the episode "Thanks to Them". Belos is back to the demon realm in his monster form. He is seen going in his cave, overhead some tubes are full of a green glowing magical liquid. He says with a distorted voice: "I will finish this"

 

Belos is kneeling on the ground, looking down at it. A green tube is planted in the ground. Belos continues: "I just need..."

 

Belos is slowly melting into the ground in a horrific manner. In the background a goopy hand is reaching down as it shows all the goop disappearing in the ground as a green glow emanates from the earth.

 

A last drop of goop is seen on the ground before disappearing completely.

 

Next panel, a hand emerges straight from the ground.

 

A grimwalker, almost Hunter lookalike, is halfway out of the ground, looking at his hand. He show signs of possession by Belos, his eyes are icy blue and some green and brown patches appeared already. He finishes: "... A proper body to work with"

 

The background turned to black. On it is written: "Right, Caleb?".

 

The next panel shows the grimwalker, currently Belos, with horns sprouting from his head. He is taking up his (Caleb's) coat from a chair, continuing: "Thanks to them, we can finally-"

 

"Do this together" He ends in the next panel, tugging on his coat and smirking menacingly as his horns fully grew out of his head.]

#Pyralart #the owl house #the owl house fanart #the owl house s3 #the owl house spoilers #the owl house belos #toh belos #philip wittebane #emperor belos #ft caleb wittebane #I guess lol #toh #fanart #toh fanart #thanks to them #A grim return #idk I might tag it that way it's a fun pun #woooo worked so hard on this please enjoy #I put the description both in ALT and read more as someone told me it's better so I hope it helps! #I'm not the best at good descriptions but I try! if anyone wants to write a better one you can try I'm all for it #Comic #Fancomic #Toh comic

[fox-on-the-moon]

just a little tip for fellow autistics: if a doctor asks “can you do x?” what they really mean is “can you do x without pain?”

Generally, if you just say “yes i can do that” they will assume you can do that thing painlessly and without issue at all times. you need to clarify “i can but it hurts a lot” or “i can only do this sometimes when x and y” etc.

They will also generally assume you won’t do things if they hurt too much, but a lot of us deal with pain very differently than an allistic person might. Even if some pain doesn’t stop you from doing something, you should still tell them you have it, it still “counts.” If you are not visibly (to them) showing signs of pain, they will almost always assume you don’t have any and you need to tell them otherwise.

#actuallyautistic #i keep forgetting this myself so maybe its helpful #for someone #bc like if only id known this at 16 lol #reminder that allistics are very very bad at reading cues that are different from their own #also #please look at the 1-10 scare with explanation for every number if youre like me you might have a wrong idea of what each means #'i can feel the pain constantly but still do almost everything' is already a 4

[emo-nova]

Okay, au where Shen Yuan is the older than Shen Jiu and Yue Qing. And this boy just goes "I'm a single mother of two" mode, he is responsible but is on the fringes of unhealthily independent as to make sure both of these kids get food and water and have a somewhat decent childhood.

Shen Jiu most likely sees Shen Yuan as a reliable adult but with a bad penchant of focusing too much on Shen Jiu and Yue Qi for resources. Yue Qi sees the same but wants to help Shen Yuan in getting more food and water.

Of course when the Qiu House comes knocking, Shen Yuan puts himself in the stead of Shen Jiu and ensures both of them leave. While Shen Yuan tries to both get a better standing in the house and looking to leave over the course of the years, he doesn't hold out much hope for Shen Jiu and Yue Qi to come back.

Last SY saw of them, they were kids, thin and tiny and barely fast enough to outrun adults. But when almost a decade comes, both of them rock up.

SJ is pissed, but looks composed, but still ready to burn the place down. YQ is livid, looking calm as anything, but is talking very nicely with the Young Master of the house in getting one of their slaves.

SY is brought out. He looks slightly healthier, not much, but he has some weight to him, and he is clothed better than rags. He looks presentable. He looks over to the two and has a mini heart attack.

Dawning realisation that "oh fuck, I was raising the scum villain and the head of Cang Qiong Peak" add a light anxiety attack in his head as he just watches everything happen.

They leave, SY in slight shock as he is now free, to Cang Qiong. Now this can go anywhere.

I personally want SY to not be a cultivator but a librarian to the libraries of SJ's peak to help Binghe get the correct manuel but also guide him a teacher-adjacent way to him and others.

Sure, SY would have a shorter life compared to others, but I think with him trying to become a cultivator when he is an adult already would be more difficult and just not worth it.

But anyone can pick this up to something else, possible with a hibernating system until Binghe comes around? Who knows? But enjoy this random, in the moment au :D

#svsss #svsss shen yuan #shen jiu #shen qingqiu #shen yuan #shen twins #not really?? #shen brothers #thats more of the tone #yue qingyuan #svsss au #svsss ideas #help the chokehold of older shen yuan is killimg me #please someone steal this from me before i write it >:( #but also Yue Qi deserves an older brother figure who gives him as many gray hairs as his younger one >:) #poor boy will be stressed by the mere image of these two being on the same peak #lol imagine Cumplane becoming friends and everyone going like “the librarian and the stats lord??? the fuck??” #that'll be funny #svsss shen jiu #luo binghe is going to be so confused by the two Shens #imagine you have kinda mean(less truamatised) Shen Jiu being harsh and strict #and flighty and ready to just jump away from loud noises Shen Yuan librarian who just wants to give snacks and help at any given moment #and being told they are brothers

[nottheweirdest]

I'm supposed to be writing, but instead I'm thinking about how this is the perfect Valentine's Day image 🤣

#please excuse my nonexistent photo editing skills #I'm an elder millennial idk what the hell I'm doing #thought it was funny tho lol #I think they're cute #someone help me I got the Hazbin hyperfixation #Hazbin Hotel #angel dust #huskerdust #husker

[hindahoney]

For all my Jewish followers, I have a pressing question.

Do you identify your race as Jewish?

I ask this because this is a comment that has come up over time in the communities I've been in, where people say they identify as Jewish above everything else, and do not identify with goys of their same race. I work at a university as a researcher of antisemitism, and this conversation has been coming up in academia as well.

We all know that race is a social construct, and various groups have had the perception of their racial status change over time (Ex. Irish people not being considered white, and more recently Hispanics/Latinos being considered white). It wouldn't be a new concept for the Jewish identity to be racialized, as we were classified as "yellow Eur-Asians" during the Jim Crow era, and non-Aryan during the Shoah (though there were thousands of years leading up to this of us not being considered whatever the dominant racial group was). Many groups still don't consider Ashkenazi Jews white (though these are most often far-right neo-Nazis that barely consider us humans).

North American Ashkenazi Jews who don't identify as white have said their reasoning is that the cultural and ethnic differences of Jews lead to a great divide between white-passing Jews and goys, and the inter-generational trauma of thousands of years of brutal oppression and slavery is something that white goys don't experience. They say that Jews originate from the middle east, so they can't be white even if their skin was paled during exile. They argue that as long as many people don't consider them white, they don't even really have a choice of what they identify as.

To Ashkenazi Jews who do identify as white, they've argued that by racializing your Jewish identity you're, in a way, giving in to what the oppressors want and accepting that you're different.

I just want to know what you think either way.

#this is a very complicated topic and I could talk about it for hours #no i dont have a stance i just want to hear what people have to say #maybe itll help me form my opinion #jews #jewish #jumblr #frumblr #jewblr #antisemitism #shoah #jewish stuff #jewish history #this is a touchy subject so before you attack in the comments please just believe when I say I have good intentions lol #i can never predict what someone will get mad at

[reallilystuff]

happy birthday !

#ok anyways time to tag this to hell and back #pomni #tadc pomni #pomni tadc #god help me. please. how do i tag stuff. #the amazing digital circus #the amazing digital circus fanart #pomni fanart #tadc fanart #tadc #ms paint #i think thats. like it probably. #idk what prompted this besides my own birthing day today but like. yeaug. someone help me this shits making me feel weird #do u think they celebrate birthdays in tadc....probably not LOL #twenty minutes till its like not the birth day #just u wait till i get that ms paint drawing i have of pomni chomping on a burger off my laptop #its over when i figure out how to get that drawing on my pc #i gotta draw zooble next i swear #reallilystuffart

[satellites-halo]

Hey guys

If you're a white person in a minority and claim a bunch of words people use normally are slurs, please please please think critically about /why/ you think these words are slurs.

Are they just offensive or are they used to oppress and demonize certain groups of people? Do they just make you feel bad, or do they have a history of being used against minorities? Do you just want to feel better than other people, or are these words actually harmful?

#madpunk #neuropunk #lgbtq+ #lgbt #mogai #liom #please dont water down 'slur' to 'word that makes me feel bad' #you are not helping by saying things like #'freak' 'weird' and 'bitch' #are slurs #you are being annoying at least and actively harmful at worst #this post is about someone saying #'freak' is an intersexist slur #it isnt. #its mean and vaguely has negative roots #but not every mean word #is a fucking slur #lgbtqia #obviously some common words CAN be slurs lol #but most of the time they arent

[ghoulgeists]

*waves wand* BAM im putting him in more funny little outfits

#remember when i used to draw other things. like women. lol senior discount qualification #tiefling #dnd #dnd oc #lingerie #dungeons and dragons #devil #demon #destreza #POSTING THIS AT 2:30 AM LETS GO!! #i was recently re-enlightened to the existence of lovechild boudoir and man #i have never wanted to frivolously spend money on things i would never in a million years wear more #their lingerie is SO pretty its SO detailed its SO out of my budget #someone who is good at economics please help me #anyway that was inspo #kinda #i mostly just went wild #anyway uhhh one day i will draw consistently again.... sorry #once i start my job i might disappear off the face of the earth (swallowed by hole) #my art #ghouldraws

[gifti3]

What if Asmo got gum stuck in his hair, like really in there and somewhere he cant see easily

But MC helps him get it out and they manage to without damaging or cutting his hair

#Not to be thirsty early in the morning but i think thst would really get him going #but seriously i was imagining this scenario in bed this morning #like making him sit in a chair (or on a pillow on the ground next to his bed) #whatever works for you #using hair clips to pin the nonstuck hair out of the way #theres like several different ways that can help remove gum--including peanut butter #Anyways mc is just searching up what to do and is like “okay...” #“we got this 👍” #and theyre so gentle when handling his hair cause they know how much he cares about it #obey me asmodeus x mc #obey me asmodeus #asmodeus x reader #My question tho is how gum got stuck in his hair like that lol #He let his guard down for 3 seconds and laid his head against a wall outside or something without thinking maybe #Or some silly cartoon shenanigans #Where someone is just blowing and big gum bubble and it pops and gets everywhere lmaoo #I like the cartoon one #Cause its silly #i pray for whoever did that tho cause ik he was mad mad #but seriously hes so thankful and pleased #like staring at you with sparkly anime eyes type shit #(//☯^☯//) #maybe something like this lol #and probably kisses and hugs too #....i think asmo would use emoticons actually #hes an XD user so i dont think its far fetched #let him send emoticons in the chat it would be funny and the brothers would probably want him to stop #except levi actually #levi joins in #ahhh my brain is so cute this morning WOW

[closedrop]

I’d like to thank YouTube auto translate for the amazing screenshots I got while watching the Puyo Puyo stageplay

They were playing house. Satan got stuck being the dog/cat and nobody wanted to be a grandma

Here’s an honorable mention from the website for the stageplay

#personally I think it’s funny to imagine the Puyo cast dropping everything they’ve been doing to just #come together to play house on Thursdays #and the fact that Schezo is the mom makes me happier #can someone who’s a better artist than me draw this please lol #Puyo plays house #help #Ari thinks he’s so funny #Puyo Puyo #Puyo #Puyo on stage #Puyo the stage #Schezo Wegey #the dark prince #ringo ando #Arle and Carbuncle #I’m gonna try and do something with this now hello

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping