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#then he gives me a fake flower because idk how to take care of real ones + some jewelry šŸ˜
haruchuiyo Ā· 5 months
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ok since itā€™s my bday imma list down stuff my blorbos would gift me šŸ˜¼
#ok so nanami gets me books!#either from my tbr#or books Iā€™ve randomly mentioned to him or he gets me books he thinks Iā€™d enjoy reading heā€™s so perfect#then he makes me my fav dinner#he made it with only a apron on btw šŸ˜ jokes heā€™d never but if I asked politelyā€¦then maybe šŸ«£#satoru gives me loads of sweet cakes#+ he gets to eat them as well so ww for both of us#he gets me ice cream filled mochiā€™s specifically oreo flavors#then cheesecakes because theyā€™re just so delicious#I havĆ© Ć  feeling heā€™d try to make something himself but probably fails#so he hides it in the fridge (I end up seeing it and he pouts and feels embarrassed by such a ugly cake but itā€™s delicious!!!)#ran would definitely take me to some extremely fancy expensive restaurant because we donā€™t go out to such restaurants all the time#then he gives me a fake flower because idk how to take care of real ones + some jewelry šŸ˜#denji would craft me something + heā€™d give me loads of hugs and pecks and say ā€˜thatā€™s your gift from meā€™ like ok Dennis whatever you say#(I loved it actually)#then we have my mr british simon ghost riley#me and him at home alone having fun šŸ˜#the fun being playing board games because we two donā€™t celebrate milestones so huge just intimate šŸ©·#itā€™s the same with jingyuan except he gives me credits for some reason#+ he tries to take a day off from work to spend time with me :( isnā€™t he so perfect ugh he sends me bouquets of REAL flowers with a card#attached to it telling me happy bday then some instructions on how to take care of it (it is much needed)#and blade gives me his time as a gift so we do fun stuff at xianxhou as disrcreetly as possible because heā€™s a wanted man ofc or idk#then we have yuuta he takes me to a empty classroom and we make out and thatā€™s my gift#thĆ© gift being seeing his cheeks flushed#hair messy and breathless šŸ©·#ok Iā€™m done talking šŸ˜ happy bday to me šŸ©·#kei talking!
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drottni Ā· 11 months
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LBFAD Rewatch Part 10
1. When your cheap ass friend starts becoming generous and your immediate thought is "is she broken? Is she possessed ?"
2. Okay can we just talk about the creativity of the "shes deeply in love with me and thats why the Bone Orchid is killing her" arch. Like the way they stitched that in there so we could have the whole "I have to get her to hate me " angst. *chef kisses*
3. Xunfeng: Wait so the Moon Queen is not going to live long?
DFQC: Over my dead body >:(
Xunfeng: Or....hear me out. Over HER dead body! Eh? Eh!
DFQC: *jail for Xunfeng*
4. Xunfeng: I cannot give you the sword. You will destroy it. You are the last hope for the Moon tribe
DFQC: *angry exasperated face* If one more person says that to me---
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5. Xunfeng kicking DFQC while he is down:
Me: You little menace.
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6. Idk how many times I will gush over his acting, but ya'll. Wang Hedi looked soooo genuinely torn. Like his facial muscles rippling with checked anger. His tight grip loosening as Xunfeng's words start to hit home. The rippling anguish in his eyes as he realizes just what he is doing and how much of a risk he is taking. God.
7. Omg the absolute hell ish pressure cooker my poor baby DFQC is in. Like ya'll imagine everyone relying on you and just trusting in you to handle the enemy cuz you got mad crazy powers and you have to sit there and not have a panic attack because you no longer have the mad crazy powers and you will most likely lose either your people or the person you love. OOOH GOD. Get him out of there! I got second hand panic attacks watching this
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8. XLH: Im gonna make the Phoenix Crown out of the flowers Big Blockhead planted for me when I came to Cangyan sea.
Jieli: You're such a romantic you dweeb. Loser -_- (I love you, you beautiful innocent soul)
9. XLH: I dont care who I was. All that matters now is I will be his wife *blush*
Me:
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10. DFQC giving her an out. Telling her she still has time to save herself before the war. Hoping that she does leave but also that she doesn't. Her barely holding back tears as she continues to discuss the wedding. Both of them losing their shit as the reality sets in. AAAHHHHHH šŸ˜­šŸ˜­ Reminding each other of their promise. "Whatever happens, we face it together". (him also realizing at this point the absolute betrayal hes going to have to put her through) omg.
11. If your demon hubby doesn't sit by your bedside while you sleep despite having 1001 and other things to look after, namely a whole ass war...drop him. DFQC supremacy.
12. "In this world what is real and what is fake? I only know that I love DFQC, that is real. It is more than enough" >>>>>>>>> any other love confession
13. DFQC: Because I know them well. One was my bestfriend. The other was the woman I wanted to marry.
Me on my first watch: was? WAS?? WAASSS?!? WHAT DO YOU MEAN?
14. THE THUNDEROUS SKY AS HE DOES THE TERRIBLE ACT OF BETRAYAL.
15. XLH: this food is the one I hate. THIS RIGHT HERE is going too far.
she's just like me fr. dont mess with food.
16. DFQC about to sacrifice his body, soul and spirit to save his people.
XLH: *in danger*
DFQC: Sacrifice is canceled. We are saving the love my of life. Again.
17. I dont even have words for that scene. Never getting over that. (actually i have words and they are too many.)
18. I just wanna say that in my first watch, I did not process that she actually died for the longest time. Despite the whole setup and slow mo. I just kept thinking nahhh DFQC going to think of something and save her. Aint no way he letting her die.
With this thought in my mind, I just imagine how it must have felt for him. How absolutely helpless and devastated. šŸ˜­
19. My mans out here straight up suicidal and burning his primordial spirit faster and faster, getting irritated with all his bros for trying to give him their primordial spirit šŸ„²šŸ„²
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tequilaysangre Ā· 1 year
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DUEƑOS DEL PARAƍSO liveblogging - ep. 01 "Ignacio viola a Anastasia" - pt.1
With a title like that, i wonder where we're going /s
*DISCLAIMER* spoilers obviously (not that I think anyone actually cares, but anyway). TW for general violence, mature content etc etc IT'S A TELENOVELA ABOUT NARCOS, ofc it's not PG rated.
First thing first, the opening scene sets the tone: the lead (Anastasia) is underwater... freeing herself from ties...
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and yes, there's a monologue:
"This is the world where I had to be born. I'm forced to survive where there's neither good nor bad, neither heroes nor villains. Here, whoever falters, loses. And I... I'm going to win."
BOOM! Bien dicho, Anastasia. The fake plants look fake though.
Cut to: a chopper. I repeat, a CHOPPER.
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Unbelievable: they had the production money for a chopper but they couldn't get real-looking plants. (oh yeah, did I tell you it's set in the 1970's? An additional level of awesome, if you ask me).
Anyway. Enter the Bad Guys:
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Are they the Federales, or what? IDK, but they've got big guns, and they're after Nataniel Cardona.
Meanwhile, Nataniel Cardona is throwing a big birthday party for his wife Anastasia.
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There are flower arrangements! There's champagne! There's a mariachi band! A dude in all-black (Renato) is directing the security! Nataniel Cardona is obviously a drug lord.
I'm not saying it because he's loaded, or 'cause he's married to a much younger woman; I'm saying it 'cause he looks like this:
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the three-piece white suit is quite dapper, let's give him that.
Anastasia is in white too. She's beautiful and beaming and everyone is having a good time. UNTIL. A mysterious woman appears:
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Cue: ominous sound effect!! Murderous intent sparks from Anastasia's eyes!! She loses her shit, yells "I DON'T KNOW THIS WOMAN!!" and storms off. Who might she be?!
Ah yes, of course: she's her mother.
But Nataniel convinces Anastasia to at least talk to her estranged mom, Irene, because he's a good husband (drug lord thing aside).
Anastasia is taking NO SHIT though. How dare Irene show up after 20 years? Isn't she ashamed that she used to prostitute herself when Anastasia was a child? That she brought strangers into their home?
Something terrible happened then. I'm not gonna spell it out, but use your imagination. And she's, understandably, PISSED OFF.
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if she was a snake she'd be spitting venom.
But joy is restored when Nataniel gifts her Cupo de Nieve: a fucking WHITE HORSE. What a rollercoaster!
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It's short lived though: the Bad Guys are HERE!
(Nataniel calls frantically for Renato. Where the fuck are you, Renato? How did you miss the chopper, Renato? You kinda suck at your job, Renato.)
ALL HELL BREAKS LOOSE. The Bad Guys are shooting EVERYONE indiscriminately, men women and children (mmh I don't think they're the Federales). The mariachi band scatters. A guest falls dead into the garden's pond. A waiter gets yeeted onto the birthday cake. IT'S ABSOLUTE MADNESS.
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a blur of falling corpses and exploding cake.
Nataniel's henchmen manage to take him out of there, while Renato protects Anastasia. Renato, we know where your priorities lie.
Also, he makes eye contact with the Main Bad Guy.
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now kiss
Calling it now, they're gonna meet again.
Renato and Anastasia get to the pier (who doesn't have a pier?) where Nataniel is hopping onboard of his motorboat (who doesn't have a motorboat?)
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...and I shit you not, he leaves WITHOUT HER.
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"SeƱora, I'm not going to let anything happen to you". Nataniel, dude. You might as well have put her into his bed.
End of part 1 because, guys, this was only TWELVE MINUTES of it. The episode is 42 min long.
(one question remains still unaswered: what's been of Cupo de Nieve??)
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electricbluebutterflies Ā· 10 months
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Jess/Leto + ā€œDo whatever you want with me.ā€
Another take on first-encounter because I remain convinced that NEITHER of these babes actually wanted any of this to happen and... they're cute anyways, idk how. PG13-ish (veeeeery vague smut) and also on ao3.
Before there is anything else, there is fear.
Jessica knows better than to let herself feel any negative emotion ā€“ or anything at all, she thinks, her first flicker of rebellion the curiosity of whether she may have such range ā€“ but there is at least the possibility of it, the rational part of her perfectly programmed mind assessing her current situation and deciding, given the evidence, that everyone involved in its structure either wrongly estimated her or hates her. Or both. Probably both.
To be fair, she suspects sheā€™d have this thought process regardless of placement, butā€¦ on some level sheā€™d always hoped for better, hoped to be removed from the breeding track for some reason or another, and on some level sheā€™s always known she wouldnā€™t be that lucky. So now sheā€™s stuck here, with no outside support and only the vaguest outline of a way forward, andā€¦
Fear, yes, but anger even more so. Damning rebellion asserting itself at the worst possible time. She should be perfect, and she realizes as soon as the door closes that she is no such thing.
She can fake it, she decides, until she is alone. Until this is over. Untilā€¦ she doesnā€™t know exactly how the consummation part is supposed to go, less ritualistic than the rest of her day has been, just her alone with a man she does not know and-
ā€œSo most of the rumors are true,ā€ he says, more accepting than judgmental but still one of the worst possible statements under the circumstances and oh she wants to hate him and-
ā€œDo tell which,ā€ she replies. Let her be cold, she begs whatever may be listening, let her be perfectly emotionless to a point where her counterpart will leave her alone for a year after this, let her be-
ā€œYoung and beautiful and terrifying. And averse to eye contact.ā€
Jessica is apparently in no mood to do anything that might make the next few moments of her life any easier, and she turns her head and gives the sharpest glare she can manage, making her displeasure as obvious as she can, hurt her and burn, underestimate her and be lucky to regret it, treat her like a delicate flower and-
She doesnā€™t know what response she expects from the man, but the amused look on his face isnā€™t even close.
ā€œItā€™s alright,ā€ he says, changing tactics, too obvious that he doesnā€™t actually have a plan and sheā€™s thrown him off. ā€œI donā€™t want to hurt you. Can you try to accept that?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t needā€¦ do whatever you want with me. Just get it over with.ā€
Slight horror now, and a confusion she suspects may become his default when they are alone ā€“ already she looks for baselines, already she chooses which to cultivate, already-
ā€œWhat do you assume about thisā€¦ encounter?ā€ he says, more hesitant than the words would require.
ā€œYouā€™re supposed to lie with me,ā€ she replies, not cold enough, too much energy going towards keeping her body still. ā€œThatā€™s the only thing I was told. Other than thatā€¦ā€
ā€œAnd some cruelty is expected,ā€ he murmurs, not a question but a what-did-I-get-into and oh she suspects she frightens him more than heā€™s even consciously realized. ā€œThatā€™s notā€¦ that is not who I would like to think I am.ā€
ā€œI could take it.ā€
ā€œYou shouldnā€™t have to.ā€
It occurs to her, in the fragile safe precious part of her mind, that she canā€™t recall anyone ever worrying about her in any way that felt this real. This is not the reaction sheā€™s supposed to be getting out of her assigned mate, sheā€™s pretty sure, but-
Jessica bites her lip and steadies herself as she can, trying to find some way to salvage the moment, unsure what direction to take. ā€œYou donā€™tā€¦ā€
ā€œI donā€™t want to hurt you,ā€ he repeats, and she is more willing to believe it now. ā€œI donā€™t care how many times I have to say that until you listen.ā€
ā€œI expected worse,ā€ she replies, honesty in exchange for honesty. ā€œI expectedā€¦ less restraint.ā€
ā€œAnd risk the wrath of your order in exchange for violating one of their precious flowers? What kind of suicidal-ā€œ
ā€œNot a violation if I didnā€™t stop it from happening.ā€
ā€œYou realize that makes the idea worse, right?ā€
The concern is admirable, and she will cultivate it, butā€¦ she needs to get this over with. Get him all over her, in whatever questionable state that happens, and then get him out of what are now her spaces as quickly as possible. Do not, whatever she does, let this become more than it has to be. Do not-
Conversation seems like a terrible idea. Kisses are less so. Jessica has never done that before either, but itā€™s easy enough to clear the distance and lean up just the tiniest bit ā€“ they are physically suited to each other, she learns in this movement, her body will never hurt from desire ā€“ and put her mouth on his, feel the moment of shock turning into something more like-
ā€œDo what you want,ā€ she breathes, discovering that it is easier to steady herself against another human body. ā€œJust do something.ā€
He takes a slightly deeper kiss, and there is something cautious in this man, something that does not quite line up with the way he presented himself during the binding earlier and-
Heā€™s scared too, and equally compromised by it. She can feel the tension in how he touches her, the fear of doing wrong by her, of not knowing how deep the consequences could be for the tiniest misstep, of having been thrust into a world beyond his comprehension and-
Already, she thinks, already they are one and the same.
She allows herself this hesitant trust, allows herself to fade and let her partner do what he will with her body. Every movement respectful and the majority uncertain ā€“ he has had lovers before, she assumes, but she is still different and thereā€™s a reverence to it and-
If this is what this era of her life looks like, she thinks as she focuses herself to be easier to lay down and cover and finds that her instincts have already done most of the work, she will be alright.
It is imperfect, as such things usually are, but with innocent intent. She is legitimately desired, she sees it in his eyes and feels it in the movements of hands and hips and-
She expects to be left alone after. Instead-
ā€œMay I stay?ā€
On some level, she knows she ought to say no, ought to make boundaries very clear, but something desperate in her doesnā€™t want to be alone right now and-
ā€œPlease.ā€
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natty-anne Ā· 2 years
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It's Been A Good Minute Hasn't It...
I'd try to apologize for my MIA but at the same time what I've been going through, dealing with and experiencing isn't deemed necessary of an apology. How do I even give yall a recap?? šŸ¤”šŸ¤”šŸ¤”
Hmmmm.
Celebrated my daughter's 7th birthday. She makes me feel older but proud at the same time every day with how much she is developing.
Celebrated my 32nd birthday...did I mention feeling older? Haha. Cleansed my body and soul in the ocean waves and thanked the universe for another year of existence and many more.
My 90 year old grandma falling and breaking her hip. Than being a boss lady and recovering from it. Moved back into her living facility and having the time of her life. Strong independent female in her own apartment, she good! Haha.
Another year of celebration for my dad being cancer free. Although the rest of his health and his mood these days is still an up and down rollercoaster. And believe it or not despite his obesity and diabetes he's as healthy as a horse, it's a universal blessing.
Been diving more into landscaping of my backyard. Just recently put down fake grass under my lounging swing, super happy about that. Now don't have to worry about dirt and ants on my barefeet. Currently keeping an eye out at work for whenever the really good gondolas/gazebos go on sale. Gonna put shelter over that shit and it's really gonna fancy up the place alot, I'm super excited.
Speaking of landscaping my dad finally caved in and let me really help him with the lawn work. Got to use the weed wacker. Haha. To be honest and I don't care if it sounds weird but I had a lot of fun using it and working with it.
And speaking of working, between my time at work I've been working out again. It helps that my personal trainer actually knows a thing or two and I'm comfortable enough around them, don't feel pressured...plus it's free haha.
Zoey been really intense with the lizard catching lately to the point that I invested in a 12Ɨ12Ɨ12 terrarium. But my specialty has been geckos. As of right now I've caught about 5 in total. The first one was the kitchen one that got away later and became the bathroom one, lol Than there was Dottie...I was a little upset about her getting away in my room. Than came Flash....he was pretty fast. Zoey ended up taking his tail off....than he got away when I was feeding him, lol. Now I'm sitting on a really sweet and docile, slightly slow pregnant female that I've named Lil' Mama. She has taken up residence in this log cave I have and I'm excited for her and hope the two eggs she's carrying work out. It be nice to release them into the wild to help the population. And lastly there's the one I caught for Zoey because she was jealous of my gecko and wanted one. She named it Moon Flower, haha what a name. She confessed to me that it got loose when she tried to feed it last night. And I think it encountered my cat Dovy a couple hours ago because she was attacking something and I took it away from her before she ate it...turns out it was a gecko's tail and looked just like Moon Flower's so idk, three cheers for another house lizard haha!
I just realized that was a really long, detailed update but I mean alot happened involving that subject matter haha. Speaking of which my meds are working out really well for me. I'm happier these days and more active and involved and I've started talking to people again. It's been nice catching up with old friends that not only have I not seen in a long time but I've literally ghosted everyone with my anti social, communication issues. It feels real good to finally feel like a person that is actually me....took me 20+ years but I think I'm finally doing something right.
Speaking of doing something right, it's been a crazy year and two months but I am so thankful, appreciative and blessed with my support system and my village and I can't imagine my life being any different or without them. I'm super excited for the future these days, especially since my credit is becoming amazing and the image of a tiny home out in the middle of now where is becoming more clearer and possible for me. (:
Zoey started in person public school!!! Not only that but shes in the second grade!!! And so far she's loving it all and making so many new friends and already has a bestie!! I'm so happy and excited for her!! It's so crazy. Going from a home schooled distance learning reclused atmosphere to out into the world and being around other kids and really learning a thing or two. She's transitioning very well so far. She's so smart and she's getting so big!!! I cry at least once a day now at how grown she's gotten. I miss my little coffee bean baby so much!
Speaking of babies. No I'm not pregnant, haha. I actually just switched out my IUD for a new one because I had hit my 5 year mark. IT FEELS AMAZING. For the past year my body was starting to slip back into the female tendencies with the periods and the hormones and the crazy and I fucking hated it. I'm slowly starting to transition back into the wonderful emotionless robot that I've embraced and loved the last 5 years lol. Seriously recommend it to any female not wanting to have kids. Just imagine a world with no periods...it's beautiful ladies and I'm super happy. Seriously thought I was gonna dive into the having a big family, but for the past couple years now and dealing with Zoey....I'm happy only having one kid. She's alot of work and she's sometimes like two kids in one. She's enough for me. And the fact that I'm not pressured into having any more, from anyone at this point in my life is wonderful. I can't wait for Zoey to be older and more independent so I can travel and have more me time lol.
Speaking of ME...my Instagram was hacked Wednesday morning. And it was such an anxiety race to get it back. I got it back thank the heavens. But to yall reading this if you have these two friends of mine on your account or get requests from them, DONT ACCEPT THEM! Aria Miraj and Jamie Arevalo (I attached links to their Instagrams to their names for further referencing) FUCK YOU STUPID HACKERS GET A LIFE...YOUR OWN LIFE NOT SOMEONE ELSES!!! Seriously if you ever deal with them, just report them for me. Kay thanks!
And I think that's it for my crash course update to y'all. I think we're all up to speed on my life or at least the bits I've decided to share with you. There's more going on but I'm not feeling like disclosing any of it at this time...or at all, lol
Oh oh! I came across my favorite jacket yesterday btw when I was clearing more of my old bedroom out and I was so thrilled. I thought I had lost it or gotten rid of it a long time ago. Nope turns out I iust tossed it up onto my loft bed with a ton of other stuff and forgot about it haha. Think I'm gonna start wearing it again. It's from Forever 21 and it has "I'm Not Sorry" plastered on the back of it. It's a good moto for me these days because I'm tired of apologizing for myself at this point. I think I've done enough. Now imma do me and if you don't like it well...sorry not sorry.
Alright on that note it's now 1:44 in the morning. I've gotta get up early to pack my kid's lunchbox and get ready for work. It feels nice having this morning mom routine going on now. With my coffee cup in one hand, I get shit done!!!
Alright Tumblr, as always, I adore you, I appreciate you, and stay safe!!! Good night, good morning, good afternoon and good evening. šŸ’®šŸ’›
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hwavsg4ch4n Ā· 2 years
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Joker!minho X innocent!reader?
OUUUU I LIKE THIS!!! Thank you so much for the request!!
All I Have|| L.M
Warnings/tags: fem!reader, innocent!reader, soft joker!minho, caregiver!minho, boyfriend!minho, gore, implied murder, abuse, toxic relationship, flashbacks, suggestive, mentioning of another member (Chan), mentions of drugs, substance abuse, petnames.
Due to tumblr being mean to me, some parts are heavily re-written. This is bc some parts got deleted for some reason. Lol.
I really hope you like it! I havenā€™t written anything like this for a long time so I feel kinda rusty lol! Again, thank you so much for your request! Also, this is more a "softer" joker (???) idk.
This is pure fictionā€¦ not real, yeah.
masterlist
He looks so good in that gifā€¦ LAWD-
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Drabble/imagine thingy starts under the cut :)
ā€œOh mommy~!ā€ His mother rolled her eyes as her son strutted down the stairs. ā€œPlay with me.ā€ Regardless of the shots, the blood curdling screams and the blood splashing on the windows, the neighbors didnā€™t dare call the cops; because who cares about some junky and her son? The cops pitied the boy, how could a murderer kill everyone he had, leaving a defenseless 10 year old upstairs with headphones. The cops that didnā€™t take pity all died the same premature death, poisoning. His mother deserved it, so did the men that helped burn him with cigarette buds. He was tired, tired of the drinking, the biohazard sum needles that he found under his pillow. But strangely that wasn't the worst part, he despised the mess, the dust, the mold growing on the walls. Legend said Minho screamed "You filthy filthy woman!" while taking his mothers life, he hated the mess.
You shivered at the recall of the story, the story Minho didnā€™t even tell you, the story you had to hear from one of his henchmen; said henchman died once Minho knew he told you. But you were told he quit, you still believed he quit. Plus it was all just a scary bedtime story, thatā€™s what your boyfriend said. You loved Minho, yes his logic sometimes confused you but he was harmless. Everyone deserved love, and you were more than happy to give it to him. Despite his illegal activities, you stuck beside him. For it was only a large drug ring, only dealing with shipments and money, right?
ā€œWhere the hell is my flower?!ā€ You flinched, as did everyone else in the lecture hall. Your man had a thing for making a grand entrance, you eventually got used to it. ā€œM-Minho, s-sir.ā€ Your professor trembled as your boyfriend strutted in with a sleek suit, his men waltzing it behind him with a mixture of pink AK-47ā€™s and yellow UZIā€™s, their faces adorned with different animals masks.
You often asked Minho why they carried those guns around, to which he told you that they were fake, only to be used to scare off the enemy, you believed him. ā€œWell they should be in pretty colors, so they wonā€™t seem so scary.ā€ You pouted playfully, a wide smile spread on his face; he let you pick the colors. ā€œAlso, the body guards should have cute animal masks. Donā€™t you think?ā€ Minho nodded, trying to stop his eye from twitching as one of his men groaned in protest. Minho told you he quit too, a lot of men quit that month. Not to worry, theyā€™d always be replaced.
ā€œM-Miss y/n? Are you h-here tod-day?ā€ You frowned as your professor trembled, confused as to why he was so scared, your boyfriend was harmless. ā€œYes Iā€™m here!ā€ You stood up and raised your hand. You smiled as Minho grinned, ā€œCome on flower, Iā€™m taking you out to lunch.ā€
You were grateful for Minho, he took you in under his wing. Gave you a roof over your head, gave you food from luxury chefs, provided you with clothes no regular college student could afford. He called you beautiful, told you he was proud of you, he made you feel whole, told you he'd do anything to see you smile. You had to connivance him it was a good idea to enroll for classes, he hated it. "All the things you want I can give darling, let me take care of you, hm?" But you shook your head with a smile. "This is what I want."
Minho was your life, every since you two met in the orphanage you were inseparable, claiming you as his and no one dared to separate you two. You got looked up to him, waking up when he did, eating when he ate, only listening to him and he loved it, what he said was right.ļæ¼ You cried, threw a tantrum when you got a adopted. You sobbed for hours while 17 year old Minho threatened the ones who took you, but they just laughed, spewing out their own threats. ā€œMinnie!!!!ā€ You screamed and kicked as your new family pulled you away. ā€œIā€™ll get you back, flower.ā€
Of course he didā€¦ years later; after your parents died in a car crash, something about a malfunction, you didnā€™t understand. You were devastated, you parents sheltered you. No phones were allowed, no calls to be made, you had no curfew because you were never let out, you couldn't even wipe your own ass; who was going to take care of you now? These thoughts accumulated. That's until he showed up to your graduation, you were alone, back in an orphanage, but there he was. In his clean black suit, standing there with open arms in the vibrant green grass. ā€œWe meet again flower.ā€ You didnā€™t comprehend the screams of terror around you as his men flooded the venue, you were too pre occupied running off the stage and hugging the only person you have left, nothing else mattered, you were finally safe.
5 years later and here you were, sipping on coffee and talking to Minho about your day. He listened attentively, to every word you said. ā€œThat sounds wonderful darling.ā€ You giggled and his cold heart fluttered as you smiled at him. ā€œSir.ā€ You waved in greeting to the only guard without a mask as he walked up to your table, he bowed before speaking. ā€œWhat do you need Chan? Iā€™m busy?ā€ Minho sighed at his right hand man. ā€œThe rogues, they ki-ā€ Chan looked down at you hesitantly before continuing, ā€œThey hid all of Rowanā€™s drugs. Theyā€™re coming to Gotham next, sir.ā€ You frowned in worry as your boyfriend screamed in annoyance, causing all the tense customers in the establishment to scurry. You rolled your eyes at their actions, it was only drugs.
ā€œWell y/n, I have to go.ā€ Minho gave you a tight lipped smile. ā€œWhere are you going?ā€ You followed behind him as he stood up, grabbing his hand and halting his movements. Minho turned around, placing a sweet kiss to your forehead. ā€œDonā€™t worry, Iā€™ll be back tonight. Chan take her home.ā€ You pouted but didnā€™t protest. Minho smiled, you were so obedient.
You waited for hours, doing homework, as well as work that wasnā€™t even assigned yet. Baking and cooking, refusing the maidā€™s help every time they butt in, but you were terribly bored. It was 2am and your boyfriend still wasnā€™t home, but then it reached 2:30am. You hopped off of the couch as you heard the door open, you rushed to the entry but you smile soon dropped. ā€œMinho!ā€ You screamed, rushing to his side as he chuckled. ā€œThe shit I do for you flower.ā€ He whispers, not catching your ear as you were to focused dragging him upstairs. The big gash in his head didnā€™t stop bleeding, you looked over him, almost tearing while seeing his white shirt covered in crimson.
ā€œNow now, no crying darling. This isnā€™t my blood.ā€ You looked into his eyes as he laughed at your concern. You sat him down and took out the first aid kit; tending to the deep cut on his forehead. Minho didnā€™t flinch as you cleaned it, only starring up into your worried eyes as he grinned. ā€œIā€™m done lying to you y/n,ā€ he started, you listened, refusing to interrupt and distract yourself from helping him, partially scared of his confession. ā€œI donā€™t only work with money and drugs darling. I kill people, and I like it.ā€ He deadpans, you freeze. ā€œWhat is so bad about that? They deserve it! Donā€™t they flower?! It brings me peace knowing that the worthless can stop being so damn annoying.ā€ You starred into his cold eyes as he spoke nonchalantly, deep down you knew the truth, of course you knew, but it was better to deny it. Even the public would scramble as he walked by, when you ended up being alone for projects because you were his girl, the grizzly stories you were told by the people who dared to speak to you, only for those people to be filed as missing.
Nonetheless, you couldnā€™t find yourself to care, maybe you were just as crazy as he was. You placed yourself on his lap after his bandage was secure. ā€œWhy did you lie to me?ā€ You ask softy, playing with his brown strands. ā€œBecause youā€™re my precious little flower. I would hate to make you wilt, all because of me.ā€ You blushed, he cared about you like no one else would; you wanted to show him you cared too, he deserved it for giving you everything.
ā€œY/n, what are you doing?ā€ He mumbled, confused as to why you pivoted on his lap, starting to kiss at his neck. You look back up at him embarrassed, ā€œI-I just wanted to show you that I love you.ā€ His heart melted at your words, a deep feeling heā€™s never felt once before overcame his form; it almost made him shed a tear.ļæ¼ ā€œSince when weā€™re you so good with words pretty girl?ā€ You smiled sheepishly, ducking your head back into his neck.
Minho would let you do whatever you wanted to him, heā€™d hand you a gun and let you use him as target practice if thatā€™s what you wanted. He'd let you torture him, get out all the trauma you held. But youā€™d never do such a thing, heā€™s all you have.
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lovinkiri Ā· 3 years
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Hello! How have you been? So Iā€™ve had this idea in my head for a while. How do you think Midoriya, Bakugo, Todoroki, and Kirishima (separately) would react to seeing their s/oā€™s special effects makeup for the first time? Like they walk into their dorm and see a ton of bruises and some massive cuts (all fake of course but it looks super real) on all of their s/oā€™s exposed skin and all their s/o says is ā€œdoes it look bad?ā€ Idk I just think it would be super funny when they freak out and their s/o is just like itā€™s fake
Babe, Its Fake
Warning: Cursing, blood mention, mutilation mention.
Izuku Midoriya
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You preferred for Izuku not to see you in make up, as you knew you were pretty talented.
And with that being said, everything looked a bit too real.
But he'd had the idea to come surprise you.
It was a good idea with good intentions.
Just wrong timing.
As soon as he saw you, he nearly passed out.
All the blood, the cuts, the flesh hanging off your face..
You weren't expecting him but while he was here..
"Does it look bad, Zuku?"
"OH MY GOD Y/N"
He'd run over and shakily grab your face.
It'd take a minute to calm him down enough for him to fully understand you when you're saying "it's just make up"
And once he is as calm as he can be, he'd sigh.
"Wow, baby.. Good.. Job..?"
He eventually gets used to it but he prefers not to see anything to gruesome on it.
Katsuki Bakugou
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He knew you did special effects make up, but he left you alone to it when you did.
Not because he didn't care, he just didn't want to risk being asked to be your subject.
But you'd forgotten something at his house the day before and he had a busy schedule, so he wanted to drop it off as soon as possible.
And when you turned to drip with blood dripping down your neck and a gash in your cheek, he froze.
And his vision was slowly going red.
"Katsu, does it look bad-"
e quickly approached you, grabbing by your shoulders gently, like you were glass.
"Who did this? Who the fuck did this?"
Unlike Izuku, Katsuki doesn't listen to words.
So you grab his jaw and show him the make up equipment.
He gets embarrassed and pecks your lips before leaving.
Give him a couple hours after that guys lmao
Fully gets used it it eventually though and even takes a small interest in it
He just likes to watch, confused as to how someone can look fine one moment and so injured the next.
Shoto Todoroki
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Shoto was.. Shocked.
Then guilty.
You called him over to share your hobby with him and you thought it'd be fun to show him your work first hand.
You'd been experimenting with bruising.
And when you peck Shoto's lips with bruising all down the side of your face and all over your neck and arms..
He's paralyzed before taking your head in his hands.
".. Is it bad?"
"I'm.. Sorry. What happened? Are you okay?"
You quickly nod and explain that its make up.
It takes a minute to register then he sighs.
"Please warn me ahead of time. You're very talented though."
And if you ask why he apologized..
"Because I want nothing more to protect you, my love. And if something like this really happened.. I wouldn't be able to forgive myself for not being there for you."
Gets used to it and wants to lean how to do it it.
Buys all your materials and everything.
Eijirou Kirishima
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Ohhhhh boy.
Now you've done it.
Well he did it.
He came to surprise you with flowers, your favorite kind.
And then you held your hand out, he saw what looked to be a long deep cut on your palm.
You see him look at your work and you smile.
"Does it look ba-"
"Holy- Y/n, what happened? Are you okay? C'mon we need to take care of this! Just breathe everything will be fine, see, breathe with me-"
You have to cut him off to calm him down because he's pulling you to the sink to clean it.
And he's immediately relieved.
"Geez babe.. You're talented. Hell, talented enough to give me a heart attack."
He'd scratch the back of his head in embarrassment.
To help him calm down, let him help take it off.
Though he fully supports you, he's not the biggest fan of seeing it on you.
And gore is definitely not his thing, whether it be on you or in a horror movie.
If you need feedback on how you did, he'll give it but he won't look for too long.
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mythiccheroacademia Ā· 4 years
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Hey!! Could we please get more sugar daddy fics with a black reader ofc šŸ˜‹ idk if you've done shoto already but that'd be nice or hawks and dekušŸ’•
A/N: ā€œwrist on glitter, waist on thinner, imma show you how to bag a eight-figure niggaā€Ā šŸ‘…šŸ’‹ I enjoyed this way too much
All characters are 18+
Warnings: it got a lil spicy so imma put the lineĀ 
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Todoroki Shouto:
this mf has money to burnĀ 
we all know todoroki came out the womb w cash from his hair to his assĀ 
heā€™s on someĀ ā€œyes, jeff bezos knows meā€ type shit so if youā€™re tryna end up with someone thatā€™s gonna possibly buy you a house, heā€™s your guyĀ 
he slid into your dms after you posted a pic with your skin moisturized and glistening under golden hour and your body had him wanting to run lapsĀ 
he had been plottin on you for a min but never got the motivation to do something about it until then
heā€™s a no strings attached type of sugar daddy
todoroki is a big name even outside of hero work and heā€™s well aware of all the people that have tried to use him. so instead of letting that happen, heā€™s decided to do things on his own termsĀ 
when yall first started talking, he questioned you like this was managerial position at apple šŸ’€Ā 
best believe he ran an in-depth background check and made you sign an NDA šŸ’€šŸ’€šŸ’€
he was a tough one
but you passed w flying colors and yā€™all settled on an arrangement
you have a weekly allowance that hits your bank account every saturday with some bonuses that heā€™ll give you depending on how the week goes
todoroki isnt needy nor is he one to be all up in your businessĀ 
itā€™s actually weird in an endearing kind of way?Ā 
he only wants to have conversations with youĀ 
i mean, dont get me wrong, heā€™s up for anything you are
todoroki would be a liar if he said he never ended some nights with a picture of you and a hand down his pantsĀ 
but thatā€™s not what heā€™s mainly looking forĀ 
you figure out very quickly that shouto just wants someone to talk toĀ 
heā€™ll randomly hit up your phone and have a 30 min convo about something like the weather or hero politics, and then heā€™ll dip
next thing you know, you got $1000 in your cashapp
you kind of panicked bc like...wtf?Ā 
your dumb ass messaged him:Ā ā€œdid you mean to send $1000?ā€
sis, dont put a question mark where God put a period
him:Ā ā€œYes.ā€
and that was the end of that
you dont question anymore
heā€™s not doting in any kind of way, and sometimes you lowkey think he forgets about you, but you still get your allowanceĀ 
doesnā€™t send a lot of gifts unless you explicitly state you want something
he doesnt text back a lot, but he tried to respond when he can
but i do see him liking it when you send him mundane things you do throughout your day, like pics of cookies you baked, or a cool plant you saw at home depot
and he enjoys the times you and him end up just trashing his father for nearly an hour. expect to find flowers, with some expensive ass coats or something at your door the next morningĀ 
he really fucks w your laid back vibeĀ 
sometimes he forgets you guys arent really supposed to be friendsĀ 
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Takami Kiego (Hawks):
this is not hawksā€™ first time being a sugar daddy
heā€™s hot, rich, and one of the most eligible bachelorā€™s in japan with a life that prevents him from having anything too serious
so, long story short, heā€™s a veteran at thisĀ 
he used to be the type to reach out to instagram baddies but he had a couple bad run-ins and decided to stick with the official sites because it was a lot more secure on both endsĀ 
the funny thing was, you set up your account a long time ago as a joke. though at one point, you did take it seriously, but you came in contact with a lot of super creepy men that sexualized you for your skin and ethnicity.Ā 
you were tired of theĀ ā€œchocolate king/queenā€ andĀ ā€œamazonian god/dessā€ comments,so you took a break. you didnt have much activity since
so imagine youre surprise when the #2 hero hit your line talking about someĀ 
ā€œHey~ Iā€™ll get straight to the point. I think youā€™re beautiful and Iā€™d like to talk with you about an arrangementā€Ā 
you thought this was a fake account, but after he chatting for a little and sending some pictures, you knew he was the real dealĀ 
hawks is your standard tit-for-tat transaction sugar daddy
heā€™s the type to hit you up at night with aĀ ā€œhow ya doing, dove? got any pics for me?ā€
heā€™s good about his respect ad wonā€™t do anything out of line
itā€™s the bare minimum, be he doesnt fetishize you so thatā€™s always niceĀ 
however, he does make you call him daddy, sir, etc. whether itā€™s through text, call, or when yā€™all get together for...reasons
ngl his dicc game is fire
he might ghost you for a week or so but heā€™ll always come back with a nice check to make up for itĀ 
just be careful about catching feelings bc heā€™s so fucking smooth. he makes you feel like youā€™ve got his heart, but dont fall for that shit
if you think you canĀ ā€œchange himā€ or fuflfil whatever wattpad romance fantasy lives in your head, he is not your guy. you better get on w your life before you get your heart broken
heā€™s here to suck, fuck, send pics, do a little phone call here n there, send some money, and goĀ 
if youā€™re not with all that, you might as well dipĀ 
but if youā€™re cool with that, rest assured, youā€™re gonna be living your best mf life with this man in your walletĀ 
and good news, you might not be his only, but you are his favorite
thereā€™s just something about you thatā€™s got him giving you a few extra thousand than he normally doesĀ 
he doesnt take his sugar babies on proper dates bc heā€™s gotta stay away from media outlets, but he will invite you to his office for aĀ ā€œlunch breakā€
if you ever surprise him with a cute but sexy hawks cosplay, you wonā€™t have to work for two whole weeks bc you cant walkĀ Ā 
overall, heā€™s a good sugar daddy. defintely good for your pockets and any other non-romantic desires you want fulfilled
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Mirodirya Izuku:Ā Ā 
the way you two met and came to this arrangement was more or less an accident
the life of the number one pro-hero was lonely and stressfulĀ 
heā€™s tried to dip his toes in the water here and there, but it never worked out because not many people could deal with the fact that heā€™d always put hero work first
he was teetering on the edge of signing up for one of those sugar daddy/baby websites until he met you at some cafe he passed byĀ 
itā€™s cliche really. you were his server and, honestly? he was hooked on day oneĀ 
he watched you intently as you pranced around in your cute uniform. he couldnt stop admiring your brown skin and eyes and how cute your hair was. you spoke with such enthusiasm and cheerfulness that he couldnt help but swoon. and it didnā€™t hurt that you were very easy on the eyes
he listened to you as you went on a spiel about how college was a fortune and how you stayed up last night for a project bc you had to pick up extra shifts
thatā€™s when he made his decision
by the time the hero is out of the door, you collected the reciept and almost fainted when you realized he left you a $500 tip and his personal numberĀ 
ā€œi enjoyed talking to you today and i hope we can continue that...hereā€™s something small to help with your bills. and i hope this isnt too forward but youā€™re very beautiful. stay safe. deku.ā€
and what did you do that night?
you called his ass right back
you were nervous as hell bc you still couldnt believe this was real, but after talking on the phone with him for two hours, an arrangement was set
midoriya is the most gentlemen like sugar daddy out thereĀ 
you wake up to good morning texts and a few hundred in your bank account almost every two daysĀ 
he goes crazy over your insta posts. and if you wear something green? expect a bonus
takes you out shopping unprovokedĀ 
izuku:Ā ā€œare you busy? i saw you were having a rough week and was wondering if you wanted to go to that new outlet mall downtownā€
you: šŸƒšŸ¾ā€ā™€ļøšŸ’Ø Ā 
you most certainly had homework due that night but what tf you look like missing out on that offer?Ā 
itā€™s after so manyĀ ā€œdatesā€ that deku realizes that he prefers hanging around you more than he should but he doesnt wanna ruin anything so he keeps that underwrapsĀ 
heā€™s the idiot that goes into this thinking he wonā€™t fall in love
deku defintely has some dirty thoughts about you but he doesnt try to bring it up unless you do first
if youā€™re comfortable with anything nsfw, you gone see a whole different side to izuku
heā€™s a giver, giver, giver, but when he recieves, he just about loses it
send himĀ ā€œinnocentā€ pics of yourself matched with a string of filthy texts and heā€™ll combustĀ 
when you send him pics of yourself in deku-themed lingre, he deadass sends you a whole black card with your name on it as a thank you
you guys get very comfortable with each other very quickly
soon enough, DAā€™s start turning into y/n stayng over for a weekĀ 
you both realize this relatiosnhip runs a lot deeper than an arrangement when he accidentally let it slip that he told his mom about youĀ 
heā€™s profusely apologizing but you shut him up with a kiss and tell him that youā€™ve kinda caught feelings yourselfĀ 
your next conversation works out well for the both of youĀ 
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ddaenghoney Ā· 3 years
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Series: Flora
Finale
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After spending more than a decade establishing a career as an acclaimed actress, you decide to go on a sudden hiatus while also discreetly moving to a new townhome, renting out the second room to your old friend from high school: Kim Taehyung
Pairing(s):
Kim Taehyung x Y/N
ft. Lim Jaebeom x Y/N
disclaimer: any character depicted do not represent the actual personality of the respective idol in real life.
Series warning(s)/genre(s): Social media/Fake Text AU, Roommates au, somewhat Slow Burn relationship (or is it more oblivious to lovers ?), Actress!Y/N, Flower shop owner and model!Taehyung, fluff, drama(bc itā€™s me), romance, angst (updated as needed)
If you enjoyed, PLEASE let me know!! Thank you so much for reading the entirety of this story! I really enjoyed making it! Iā€™ll see you in the next story!Ā 
Tag(s): @atulipandarosee @jaiennĀ @lemonteacystĀ @swanboysugaĀ @kennedaddy00Ā @cribabieeeĀ @betysotelo18Ā @sherizaraiyahĀ 
Below the cut are some fun facts about the story!
Do people read these haha idk but anyways here we gooo
The nameĀ ā€œFloraā€ is a noun that refers to all of the plant life of a particular place. I used the name because, like plants (in particular, flowers) face various adversity to bloom, so do the characters of this story! It also adds an element of care, because certainly flowers can bloom on their own, but they can also reach new, greater heights when given assistance along the way. And lastly,Ā ā€œfloraā€ refers to many different plants rather than just one, and Y/N begins the story on her own, but learns to learn others in as she takes control of her life!
Originally, Taehyung wasnā€™t going to be a florist; he was going to be a member of BTS and would have met Y/N when he co-starred in a movie with her!
I donā€™t personally think Rose is much of an antagonist, so much as a misguided friend. She really did think what she was doing was for Y/Nā€™s own good, but of course learned that to not be the case.
If you had to ask me, I think Y/N caught feelings before Taehyung did, but did a lot more to push them away and ignore them. I would say around the time she went out with Rose and Jueun was when sheā€™d already started crushing on him.
Taehyung, Jeongguk, Jimin, and Y/N had all attended the same performing arts high school. Jimin and Yoongi met when they were in the same company, Namjoon knew Taehyung from when he was still trying to be an actor, Jeongguk met Seokjin in college, and Hoseok and Seokjin went to high school together. And thatā€™s sort of how they all knew each other somehow LOL.
Y/N had a crush on Taehyung in high school! I hinted at that, but never got too deep into it haha, maybe Iā€™ll write a blurb featuring the concept in the future.
Instead of Y/Nā€™s CEO being such a negative character, I also contemplated having her parents be antagonistic. I mean, she did work in the acting industry since she was around 12 so it would make sense they had something to do with the plot, but I decided against it because it wouldā€™ve further complicated the plot to bring in a familial dynamic issue as well.Ā 
I thought about making Jueun much more manipulative, like succeeding in befriending Y/N, driving her to kick Taehyung out, making her and Taehyung date for a bit, but I just,,,,, it made it too much lol. Like, she had her ulterior motive against Y/N, but all of the extra stuff just made her too malicious for what I wanted the story to be, and I think how it is now is more realistic anyways.Ā 
Speaking of Jueun, her manager sucks doesnā€™t he lol. I made him like that because I didnā€™t even her situation to be free of the struggles that Y/N has to go through. In a lot of ways many of the celebrities (Y/N, Jueun, Rose, and Namjoon) all showed a lot of different ways that theyā€™re inhibited from acting as they like, because to some extent theyā€™re all just cogs in a machine. Sort of dreary isnā€™t it LOL
I imagine that Y/N returns to acting years later, maybe about four.
By that time, I figure she and Taehyung would be married haha
Taehyung didnā€™t do much on social media compared to past guys from my other stories; itā€™s because using it, especially after all hell broke loose, really made him nervous. This auā€™s Taehyung isnā€™t fond of fame to any degree.
Originally, I was going to use Jinyoung as the secondary male lead, but I switched it to Jaebeom because I wanted to drive one of my friends crazy lolĀ 
In her break from celebrity life, Y/N works at the flower shop with Taehyung, but also eventually gets into helping direct/produce productions for kids/teens at a local community theater; I intend to write a piece about that eventually!
I also have this xxx thing that Iā€™d like to write at the flower shop but LOL ANYWAYS
Thank you so much for reading! I greatly appreciate feedback and comments if you enjoyed, because it really gives me a lot of inspiration and motivation to continue writing. Even small comments, anonymous comments, any comments at all mean SO much. Thank you again! See you soon!
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Since APPARENTLY I did the designs all wrong (I wonā€™t lie - doingĀ  my own design of Evangelia was sort of a thinly veiled attempted to get @callistochan87 to redesign her herself.Ā  >.>), I figured Iā€™d make it my life mission this week to go through and, like, fix them.Ā  Partially because in my fuming about finding out that two of the people were talking about this behind my back, I kept giving myself ideas.Ā  >.<
I am pleasantly pleased with the design that @callistochan87 did for Evania/Evangelia, although Iā€™m worried how much is actually influenced by my design and how much she actually decided to do on her own.Ā  *shrug*Ā  I just like the simplicity of it and how it does make her look like a goddess.Ā  I kept forgetting to add in the pieces in front of her ears, lol.
Antigonus I did fiddle with a little bit.Ā  Mostly, @callistochan87 mentioned that she thought it was funny having this super old guy traveling with a bunch of teenagers, and she wondered why I didnā€™t just...make someone new.Ā  Well, mostly because I didnā€™t want to, and mostly because when she did create someone new when I decided the Guides were supposed to be younger, it felt...wrong.Ā 
SO, I decided to age him down a little.Ā  Which I suppose sort of defeats the purpose of @callistochan87 creating another character when I wanted to do the same, but ignore that.Ā  He basically has the same backstory - he was the youngest Guide of the previous generation.Ā  Heā€™s the heir of the empire, being the Emperorā€™s nephew, and now that his Guide duties are over, heā€™s preparing to take over the Empire.Ā  EXCEPT, the idiot new Guide managed to get himself killed, so Antigonus is temporarily taking over the duties as they try to find someone else to take over.Ā  BUT THEN GUESS WHAT?Ā  Heā€™s about 35, so while heā€™s old, heā€™s not stupidly older than than, and is sort of more of a chaperone than anything else.
His outfit come from an old one @callistochan87 designed, and I figure itā€™s just, like, a traveling outfit?Ā  idk
Freyja...omg, Freyja.Ā  She caused most of my strife.Ā  Like, I honestly didnā€™t change THAT MUCH of her design, just sort of little piddly stuff to make it look more visually appealing, but APPARENTLY, that was still bad.Ā  I stewed and hemmed and hawed on this for quite a while, annoyed before it hit me - this is a a redesign.Ā  Shizuka sort of went back to her roots.Ā  Why couldnā€™t Freyja as well?
(And yes, I realize I was in the wrong, but like I said, I hadnā€™t changed her that much from her last design, and, well, these were done years ago so I sort of...forgot that she didnā€™t originally look like that.Ā  >.<)
And I figured, ya know, since I had minorly changed Freyja and she didnā€™t like that, I had better change Desiree, too, because I drastically changed her.Ā  I donā€™t care what @swankifiedcos says about this one, I am IN LOVE with her outfit.Ā  <3Ā  Her hair, though, was inspired by a recent picture of @swankifiedcos of her hair between dye jobs where it was pink at the tips and she looked SO PRETTY.Ā  Sure, Desiree is brunette, not blond, but I like that look on her so much I wanted to recreate it somewhat, and she looks so nice!Ā 
Frejya, well, I did sort of tweek her design slightly to what @callistochan87 did, mostly giving her cold shoulder sleeves as a sort of call back to her old sleeves.Ā  I wonā€™t lie - I did attempt to do them again and failed spectacularly.Ā  Sorry.Ā  But apparently she approves of this sleeve, so thatā€™s...one less problem for me to deal with.Ā  XD Ā  Just so you know, I gave her hearts rather than flowers merely because I canā€™t draw flowers.Ā  Consider it a style thing.Ā  Like, in reality, she has flowers, but i just draw them as hearts.Ā  I am SHOCKED that I was able to make the feathers as nice as I did, though!Ā  This look makes SO MUCH more sense than the way we used to draw it.Ā  Me likely.Ā 
(Also, you might be thinking that sheā€™s still wearing the pants.Ā  I originally indended that, with the thought that she comes from a cold kindgom, but then decided theyā€™re actually shorts that she ended up added to her outfit for modesty sake, much like Sethos did with his shirt.Ā  :P)
I really wanted to redo Nanninā€™s outfit as well, but Iā€™m sorry - Iā€™m lazy, and her original outfit is both too detailed and too simple.Ā  So I just made her top layer a darker pink, and I like it better.Ā  Also made her a blond again with the idea that the people of Melohdia like like normal ass humans, and the Chosen have colored hair, and the Guides have unnatural colored eyes, which is how people can tell theyā€™re Guides.
Geoffrey (Iā€™m thinking of renaming him Geauffery, because thatā€™s how I prenounce it in my head) over there gets a new design as well because I didnā€™t care for his other one.Ā  >.<Ā  Also, decided, as much as I like the name Dimitri Kaminiski, I;m going to go ahead and make him Owen again.Ā  Mostly because heā€™s sort of shifted more into being Owen.Ā  I was sort of going with this old look while making it look a little more medieval, and I like it.Ā  I also decided heā€™s not a soothsayer, but rather a magician.mage.
Which is sort of similar to Evangeliaā€™s power, but not quite.Ā  She uses the power of miracles, whereas he uses actual magic.Ā  Its sort of like how Shizuka and Freyjaā€™s power is similar, but Frejyaā€™s is a little weaker.Ā  (Shizuka has mastery over all weapons, whereas Freyja just has mastery over bludgeoning people with a huge ass axe.Ā  But she has the benefit of also havingĀ  magic, whereas Shizuka can just use some fire magic.)
The next design is where it get all long and involved.Ā  Basically as I was stewing about having my feelings hurt and how I was going to hide everything in my annoyance, I THINK I was briefly reminded of the last time I screwed up and within that instance a brilliant idea came to me, mostly because I needed more villains. Ā 
I remember I really like Astridā€™s design, but looking back, Iā€™m sort of confused as to why?Ā  It doesnā€™t look at all better than Freyjaā€™s.Ā  >.<Ā  Anyway, the thought is simple - when the Chosen are originally yanked into Melohdia, Nuncio replaces one of them with one of his own that would be easily manipulated.Ā  Why Freyja, you ask?Ā  Plot reasons, since it does help explain the whole Nannin thing a lot better.Ā  The thing is, though, that Ariadne and Atalo sort of find out and drag Freyja in as well, except she ends up in Baldernan rather than Azibo with the rest of the Chosen.
So the Chosen are in Azibo thinking Astrid is one of them, except they donā€™t really vibe with her that well.Ā  They just figure itā€™s because they canā€™t like everyone, and ignore it.Ā  Astrid herself doesnā€™t really suspect anything.Ā  But then they travel to Baldurnan and find Freyja there, who they do vibe with very well, and they find out that Astrid is a fake.Ā 
Which would be all fine and well.Ā  Even Freyjaā€™s willing to give the girl a chance because, hey, itā€™s not her fault she was falsely brought into this world with no purpose.Ā  Except Astrid is a spoiled bitch and takes it as an affront that they would even want to include Freyja at all.Ā  So she just sort of runs off and Nuncio catches up to her, and convinces her that sheā€™s the real one, and and she goes around antagonizing the group from time to time.Ā  They think sheā€™s in league with Atalo at first until they find out of the truth.
NEW IDEA.Ā  I actually had this very vague idea while musing around, but @callistochan87 had another idea that was similar enough that I can change things to make it work WAY better.Ā  So, the new idea is mostly that Nuncio pulls Astrid into Melohdia way before the others. Ā The people are rather confused, certainly, but itā€™s not 100% unheard of one Chosen being brought over. Ā So sheā€™s treated like something of a god and spoiled further, and Nuncio pretty much convinces her that sheā€™s the soul savior of Melohdia. He assigns Thor to be her Guide, although heā€™s just some Random Dude (because I decided that matching genders to the Chosen is sort of weird, so Nannin is a full Guide now).
BUT Ariadne and Atalo end up pulling the REAL Chosen a month or so later, which REALLY pull the people for a loop, and they realize that Astrid is a fake once they realize that Thor isnā€™t a real Guide and that Nannin claims Freyja. Ā The group attempts to assimilate Astrid in with them, because they realize itā€™s not HER fault all this happened, but since sheā€™s a fake Chosen AND a narcissistic bitch, they end up not viving all that well, and she ends up running away in anger and embarrassment.
Nuncio sort of blames the whole thing on Atalo somehow, since the people forgot that Ariadne is the only one who can pull true Chosen into the world, mostly to save face.
Astrid and Thor do end up joining with Atalo for a little bit, because heā€™s trying to be sympathetic to her as well, but their goals arenā€™t really the same. Ā She does prove to be a major threat to the group because she DOES have the power of a Chosen, although theyā€™re sort of weak. Ā 
Her real name is Katelyn Davis, and sheā€™s pretty much the opposite of the other Chosen.Ā  Sheā€™s a complete social butterfly, the sort to think the world revolves around her.Ā  Sheā€™s not happy unless sheā€™s around people, whereas the other Chosen are pretty much introverted and would prefer to keep to themselves.Ā 
Her Guideā€™s name is Thor (I keep calling him that in my head, I think because of Frejya being named after a god), and he is, in fact, a true Guide.Ā  Itā€™s just that heā€™s not a very good one, nor is he a good person.Ā  Heā€™s a bandit and delights in the misfortunes of others.Ā  The other Guides avoided him at all costs, and wasnā€™t sure why he was chosen to be a Guide.Ā  He goes off with Astrid after they kick him out of the group when Freyja chooses Nannin over him.Ā  (The two of them became close in the month Frejya was stuck there on her own, so of course sheā€™d want to have her stay with her.)
The last picture was just me giving them their original hair colors just for the hell of it, and now Iā€™m torn.Ā  >.<Ā  Because I like these as well.Ā  I mean, I like the idea of the colored hair being how you can tell theyā€™re the Chosen, BUT I also, you know, like the original colors BECAUSE they are the original colors.Ā  >.<
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clearlyshyobservation Ā· 4 years
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Kokichi is dying (V3 chatfic, no particular ship)
TW: Infers abuse, talks about ableism, neglect, panic attack pretty much, depression, self loathing. never being good enough
i am so sorry but vr au's need to be sad, love yall :)
(Background info: This is set in a vr au, they are not with their fake memory parents (Ie; kaito's kind grandparents) but rather why they really have)
(Also i have no fucking clue what ship i was going for???? pretty sure they are all on the table, and kokichi talks like an idiot in this and i love it. Gonta's writing is based off of his Japanese talking style, so no more caveman talking).
USERNAMES:
(Space monkey: Kaito, Detective pikachu: shuichi, Elton john: kaede, Antman: gonta, Mr. Gonstealyoman: korekiyo, Atua's bitch: angie, emoboi: ryoma, be-boop: kiibo, bread roll: Maki, cum dumpster: miu, mommy: kirumi, Gremlin: Kokichi)
TLDR: Chaos ensues, slight angst
Gremlin:Ā omfg im fucking sicK im gonna fucking die i bet this was kaitos bitch ass fault for coughing on me with his tuberculosis headass gROSSSSS I HATE EVERYTHINGGG
Space Monkey:Ā i-
Space monkey:Ā I didn't get you sick dumbass,,,, my tb is fugckin cured bi-
Bread roll:Ā he's dramatic and gross dont believe him
Gremlin:Ā yall mean for what?
Gremlin:Ā i have a life taking disease and yall laughing i-Ā 
Gremlin:Ā see you at my funeral bitch
Detective pikachu:Ā What are you sick with then
Gremlin:Ā anythong bitch, im the universe
Antman:Ā He sounds delusional, thats not good
Detective pikachu:Ā He's always delusional, he's Kokichi
Mr. gonstealyoman:Ā I guess this name is better than my old one
Mr. gonstealyoman:Ā thank you kokichi :) I am glad we have come to an understanding
Gremlin: kay sexy
Gremlin:Ā IGNRE WHAT I JUST SENT
Gremlin:Ā IGNORE IT IGNORE IT IGNORE ITTTTT
Antman:Ā who was that for???
Gremlin:Ā NO ONE,,,Ā 
Gremlin:Ā Okay,,, maybe sexy tall men in general lowkey
Gremlin:Ā okay,,,, maybe anyone over 6 feetĀ 
Detective pikachu:Ā i feel excluded
Detective pikachu:Ā good, i don't like you kokichi, your an ass
Gremlin:Ā u sound jelly shumaiiiiii
be-boop:Ā perhaps he is telling the truth, you know,
be-boop:Ā according to my data, in chapter four Shuichi stated that you will never have friends, and no one will ever like you
Gremlin:Ā SHUT THE FUCK UP STOP MAKING ME FEEL BADBSKVKHDVKDSKJV
Antman:Ā do you need me to come over? I can make you tea?
mommy:Ā Do you know how to do that, Gonta? I can teach you?
Antman:Ā Gonta does know, thank you very much.Ā 
Antman:Ā Gonta is not a child, Tojo-chan, please don't regard me as one
Antman:Ā Gonta can cook, can clean, can be gentle, and has his own mind
Space monkey:Ā but we're just making sure man, cuz, you know,,,, chapter 4
Antman:Ā I am capable of things just like you!!!!!
Antman:Ā Gonta doesn't know why you guys treat me like a child :(
Gremlin:Ā yeah, hot stuff over there is basically a prodigy homies
Antman:Ā Gonta is dumb though, don't say that.
Antman:Ā Gonta is no prodigy, in fact, he is below average in everything
Gremlin:Ā Whats ur test scores bitch
Antman:Ā Gonta got a 98 on my english test,, but i wanted a 100, which would make Gonta actually smart :(Ā 
Antman:Ā Gonta is not good enough to be friends with you all
Antman:Ā I can do basic stuff like tojo said...
Antman:Ā maybe i do need help?
Antman:Ā im not sure anymore:((((
Gremlin:Ā THEY ARE ABLEIST GONTA,,, THEY FEEL SUPERIOR FOR TREATING UUUUU LIKE A CHILD
Detective pikachu:Ā You sound really delusional Kokichi, maybe you should get sleep
Gremlin:Ā S T F U, IM SPITTING ST8 FACTS BITCH
Detective pikachu:Ā Sure you are. Now get some rest.Ā 
Gremlin:Ā GRRRR WHY WONT YOU LISTEN TO ME YOU IDIOTS??
Bread roll:Ā Cause your stupid and aggressive
Gremlin:Ā your personality, basically?
Bread roll:Ā shut up at least i have a boyfriend
Gremlin:Ā Technically, you just stole my frienemyĀ 
Gremlin:Ā Yall do be avoiding each other doe
Space Monkey:Ā WE ARE NOT
Gremlin:Ā Yeah yeah
Gremlin:Ā yesterday i saw you to enter the same cafe by accident, duck your heads, then sit across the cafe from each other, allĀ whileĀ Ā avoiding eye contact
Gremlin:Ā Soooo,,, things not going well in paradise?
Detective pikachu:Ā you're nosy
Gremlin:Ā says the literal detectiveĀ 
Space monkey:Ā everythings fine your just a dickkkk
Gremlin:Ā "oooo! Im momo-chan, i say bad word and go brrrrr"
Space monkey:Ā im going to fucking stab himĀ 
Gremlin:Ā You cant, ive already enslaved you with my chaotic, yet cute hijinks, havent i~
Space monkey:Ā STOP STOP NO NOT THE SQUIGLY
Gremlin:Ā is it the sex? WHY DONT YOU MAKE EYE CNOTACT WITH UR LADY NO MOREĀ 
Space monkey:Ā ITS NOT THE SEX I HATE YOU
Gremlin:Ā im free by the way at 8 ;)
Bread roll:Ā STOP trying to steal my boyfriend kokichi, ive told you this before
Bread roll:Ā NO
Bread roll:Ā BODY
Antman:Ā Gonta interrupts to say, Gonta loves you kokichi, and we should get flowers together, than maybe we can prank some people :DĀ 
Bread roll:Ā Ive never wanted to stab you more, gonta
Gremlin:Ā I'd enjoy that very much, fine fellow ;)
Gremlin:Ā but idk,,,, can you like take care of me first, cuz IM SICK BECAUSE OF KAITO TUBERCULOSIS ASS
Space monkey:Ā I DONT HAVE TB ANYMORE
Gremlin:Ā SURE YOU DONTĀ 
Space monkey:Ā I DONT
Gremlin:Ā Ā BUT GUESS WHAT
Gremlin:Ā YOU STILL SMOKE DUMBASS AND THATS NOT GOOD FOR U OR YOUR TUBERCULOSIS
Detective pikachu:Ā He smokes?
Atua's bitch:Ā he does, i walked in on him in the bathroom lmao
Atua's bitch:Ā he was scared shitless and threw it out the window, needless to say atua does nt approve
Gremlin:Ā DO YOU EVEN HAVE THE VACCINE????
Space monkey:Ā Uh,,, i was taught vaccines were bad, so no i don't have the vaccine
Gremlin:Ā I HATE OLD PEOPLE
Gremlin:Ā ABOLISH OLD PEOPLEEEE
Gremlin:Ā THEY SPREAD MISINFORMATION AND IT PHISCALLY HURTS ME TO SEEEEEE
Space monkey:Ā your dramatic, it cant be that bad
Gremlin:Ā say that when you catch it again
Gremlin:Ā i swear you coughed on me like,,,, 5 weeks ago tho
Antman:Ā OOOO! Fun fact: Tuberculosis can lay dormant from 3 months to a few years!Ā 
Space monkey:Ā u guys are just trying to scare me
Bread roll:Ā Just checked the chat after using the br and,,m YOUDONT HAVE YOU VACCINES???
Detective pikachu:Ā Im sorry, but kaito, please,,,,, for the love of god get vaccines
Space monkey:Ā alright alright, ill do it cuz you guys are all on my case and i don't like being the villain :(
Gremlin:Ā Im so happy i have gonta with me rn, he is making me tea while yall rot in your distant ass relationship (THIS IS FOR YOU KAITO)
Space monkey: Im going to destroy your bloodline in about three seconds if you dont stfu right fucking now
Gremlin:Ā Hhehe i have an inaprwopwiate joke uwu
emoboi:Ā STOP PLEASE DEAR GOD
cum dumpster:Ā wHAt Is iT YOU WHORE
Gremlin:Ā i was gonna say wouldn't he need to like,,,, have sex with my family to weed out my bloodline or something??
cum dumpster:Ā i-
cum dumpster:Ā Why am i acting surprised, ive watched porn with more extravagant plots than this
cum dumpster:Ā ie; are you guys FUCKING? RIGHT INFRONT OF MY SALAD??? is one i will cherish with my soul
emoboi:Ā hehe why did she point out the salad
Space monkey:Ā I hate u kokichi, i truly do
Gremlin:Ā I bet if you got the chance u would kiss me space boy :P
Bread roll has left the chat
Space monkey:Ā o god is she ddoing one of those bf loyalty tests or smthing???
Space monkey:Ā now im nervous lmao
Gremlin:Ā why you so nervous stupid~~~~
Gremlin: It not like ur cheating on her homie
Space monkey:Ā It's just a placebo effect
Gremlin:Ā My brain feels fried Momo-chan,, i don't understand big boy words right now
Space monkey:Ā Basically, if you take a pill that doesn't do anything but you don't know that and believe it does, you will scientifically start to feel better
Gremlin:Ā first and only time saying this, but thank youĀ 
Space monkey:Ā HEHEHEB YOU SAID THANK YOUĀ YOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOUYOU SAID THANK YOU
Gremlin:Ā Kaito,,, imma need you to do me a favor and look up on your ceiling
Space monkey:Ā i hate you, idk what it is, but i hte you
Gremlin:Ā good <3
Space monkey:Ā HE REPLACED ALL MY THE STARS ON MY CELING WITH FUCKIBG DICKSSS
Space monkey:Ā THIS IS THE LST FUCKING STRAW IM GONNA LOSE IT
Space monkey:Ā IF MY GRANDPARENTS SEE THIS BULLSHIT THEY ARE GOING TO KILL ME, SLAP ME, MAYBE BREAK MY NECK AND DESTROY MEE
Space monkey:Ā Im GENUINLEY panicing HOW TF am i gona get this off my wal???? They are going to bbat me senselpess help me shUichi
Detective pikachu: o god, i can sense the sheer pain and scaredness inĀ  that tet,Ā 
Detective pikachu:Ā are you for real gong to get hurt or are you pulling a kokichi?
Space monkey:Ā FUCKING HELP ME IM NOT FUCKING JOKINGKABKCB HELP THEY ARE NOT HOME RN THEY ARE LIKEE,,,, 40 MINUTES AWAY PLEASEEĀ 
Gremlin:Ā okay,,, maybe this wasn't the best prank.,,, i guess i'll help clean up cuz im not that much of a sociopath
Gremlin:Ā tbh my parents can go shove it too lowkey terrible 0/10Ā 
Space monkey:Ā AHHHH IM SO SCARED PLS PSL GET HERE FAST
be-boop:Ā Of course, i will come, i will survey the outside of the house
Antman:Ā Gonta is coming too! We will get this done inĀ underĀ 40 minutes!
Space monkey:Ā OKAY
Gremlin:Ā Lowkey, if i cough on you ignore it bitch your the one who made me like this
Space monkey:Ā W HA TDONT COUGH ON ME IM NOT SICK ANYMORE
Gremlin:Ā I will give you TB again just cuz your making me suffer
Space monkey:Ā Suffer what??? putting dicks on my FUCKING WALL???
Gremlin:Ā Guilt, idiot, im feeling guilty.Ā 
cum dumpster:Ā oof thats new
emoboi:Ā yeah i wasn't expecting it
Mr.gonstealyoman:Ā Me neither. It is rather peculiar seeing it being texted by him because he is always feels not guilty of his bad actions.
be-boop:Ā I do believe he means it, though...
emoboi:Ā impossible.
cum dumpster:Ā i agree, literally impossible.
Gremlin:Ā I HAVE A FUCKIBG SOUL YOU CRazY CONSPIRACISTS
Antman:Ā Quick question, shuichi can i stay with you again? It'll be dark when i get home and gonta can't do that so,,, please help
Detective pikachu:Ā my parents are like blank slates, who eat slowly, watch tv slowly, and never look at me. Im sure they wouldn't mind :P
Antman:Ā ALRIGHT! :D LETS GET MISSION: MR. MOMOTA ROOM REPAIR DONE!
Gremlin:Ā ooo! I like the name! IM INNNN!Ā 
Detective pikachu:Ā On it!
be-boop:Ā Ready for look out!
Space monkey:Ā I love you guys :)
AN: Im lowkey sorry i ended this chaotic mess with angst,,,, but like fr i love it i love angst,, i hate reading it but love writing it
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acaciapines Ā· 3 years
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@mallowstep
woulda sent this as an ask but uh. moth ghost au wont leave my head and this got. long. hope ya dont mind i think about hawkfrost and mothwing A Lot.
under a cut bc. again. long.
bc see the thing is. if i were to do a moth ghost au. the kids are all young when she dies (at least, i think? idk their timeline, iā€™m assuming theyā€™re like, 3-4 months, so, youngish), so itā€™s like...ghost sister? ghost sister. sasha cant see her because itā€™s no fun if she can, so we get hawk and tadpole, both who feel like theyā€™ve killed their sister, both who are kids and cant deal with that grief. but like...moth is right there! sheā€™s right there! sheā€™s still their sister even if shes a ghost and as they get bigger and lose their kit-fluff she stays the same. sheā€™s their sister.
but sasha....sasha just lost one of her kittens, nearly lost the other two, and now the remaining ones are talking to moth as though sheā€™s still there? cats dont leave ghosts behind--cats arenā€™t trapped like that. humans are, sasha was a housecat and sheā€™s seen how humans pace around their houses, but cats are sneaky lil guys. cats arent trapped to the earth like people are. cats die and leap into the sky and become the world.
moth isnā€™t stuck, moth is the world. so sasha tells her sons that their sister isnā€™t a ghost with them, but sheā€™s the world around them--the prey and wind and sky.
hawk and tadpole look at each other, at their very-much-there ghost sister, and are like....yeah sure mom.
so we get a hawk and tadpole who refuse to let moth go. itā€™s hawk who clings to her the most, i think--he acts as though nothing happened, as though nobody drowned. tadpole is...starting to listen to their mom, a bit. he knows moth is there, but...should she be? nobody should be trapped like this. her spirit deserves to move on.
ā€œwe should help her,ā€ tadpole says.
ā€œsheā€™s fine,ā€ hawk says, ā€œsheā€™s right here, and sheā€™s fine, and iā€™m not going to let you kill her again just because you have something against ghosts.ā€
and tadpole doesnā€™t ask again. he was the first one out out that basement.
eventually the kits end up in riverclan, and tadpole doesnt really talk about moth to anybody. like, he still acknowledges her, but only when theyā€™re alone or itā€™s just hawk. hawk, on the other hand, doesnā€™t care! sure heā€™s like, 6 moons old, and moth is still stuck at 4, but! who! cares! and so while the clan teaches them their clan ways, teaches them about starclan, tadpole listens and heā€™s able to find some comfort in the idea. that theres a place his sister can go, can move on to. heā€™s always liked the stars. moth will, too.
but hawk...
well, the thing is, hawkā€™s not a clan cat. heā€™s got a clan name, now, heā€™s down a mother and heā€™s a very young kid staring up at these riverclan cats, but heā€™s nothing if not stubborn, and heā€™s clung to his sister thus far and heā€™s not about to give her up.
the clans dont think much of other religions. they tell hawk and tadpole that thereā€™s no such thing as ghosts. dead cats go to starclan, and only clan cats, at that--your sister isnā€™t there, why would she be? she died a loner. but dont worry, now youā€™re here, in the clans, and when you die, youā€™ll be together in starclan.
ā€œitā€™s stupid,ā€ hawk says, to moth, alone in their den, ā€œwho cares about starclan? thats not mine, and its not yours. if youā€™re going anywhere itā€™s the wind, not the stars.ā€
ā€œdid you see that one thunderclan med cat apprentice at the gathering?ā€ asks moth. ā€œi thought she was pretty.ā€
ā€œnever change,ā€ hawk says, fondly.
but he starts to think. as he starts to spend more and more time alone, with only moth for company. and moth is moth but she is...a ghost. sheā€™s trapped. she doesnā€™t grow and change like a living cat does--at this point she doesnt even know why sheā€™s still around. something about...drowning, maybe? it happened so long ago. sheā€™s just happy to have her brother with her.
tadpole worries. hawk pushes him away. tadpole tells him they have to let their sister go. that they have to move on--that he loves moth too, and he misses her every day, but theyā€™re clan cats, now. they have to be the best they can be, so nobody else is ever hurt again.
so i dont hurt anyone again, he doesnt say.
because tadpole doesnā€™t think mothā€™s ghost is around, either. heā€™s stopped seeing her. maybe he never did. maybe he was just a kid who lost his sister, who killed his sister, even if on accident. maybe he never was able to cope with that.
he wont see his sister in starclan. he probably wont see his mother, either. he doenst know what happens to loners. sasha told them, once. the wind and the sky and the leaves. becoming a part of the world, again. energy that can never truly die, just change shape.
but that was so long ago. heā€™s nearly a warrior, now. who remembers the stories they were told as kids?
anyways.
hawkpaw becomes the medicine cat.
heā€™s got two sets of beliefs rattling around in his head--starclan, everything the clans are telling him, and half-remembered stories from his mother, that moth remembers best of them all, forever trapped as a 4 moon old kit. and somewhere along the line these have been mashed together, into one big: starclan isnt letting moth in, because she died a loner. starclan wont ever let moth in but theyā€™re going to take me when i die and i wont let them. i wont let them tear us apart.
itā€™s not easy. riverclan says heā€™d need a sign to become a medicine cat, but since when have the dead done that? theyā€™re dead. moth is a ghost at his side, and she watches the flowers, and the bees, and remarks about thunderclan medicine cats that hawk canā€™t help but be begrudgingly fond of, if only for her.Ā 
but he can do this. he has to.
hawkpaw fakes a sign. hawkpaw becomes medicine cat.
hawkpaw goes to the moonpool, and the stars tell him the same thing the clans do: there is no place for your sister here. our heavens are for worthy clan cats only.
hawk is still the villain here, just...in a different way. if this were a warriors book heā€™d be a villain flat-out, a med cat turning his back on starclan, who lied and cheated his way into this role, who never cared about anybody but his dead sister. but this isnā€™t a warriors book.
tadpole is the hero. hawk looks at the stars and tells them to their faces if you wont let my sister in, then iā€™ll make you regret it. iā€™ll show everyone that youā€™re nothing. that they worship cats that arent even ghosts. cats that are trapped. maybe youre wrong. maybe moth isnt the one youre keeping out. maybe shes the free one.
hawk plays the long game, though. gets his full name. learns medicines, how to heal.
how to harm.
moth watches him from the shadows. tells him kit-stories about rebirth.
the clans dont believe in that. hawk doesnt know what he is. he doesnt either.
theyre all trapped. thats what he believes.
he sets a trap for mudfur. a fox-trap down by the lake. then he, hawkfrost, will be the only link riverclan has to the stars, and he wonā€™t listen to a word they say.
tadpole is the one to find out, to intervene before mudfur dies. to say hawk, you betrayed us all!
you betrayed me first, says hawk. me and moth both.
moth is dead! says tadpole. you canā€™t let her go!
you follow the words of the dead, says hawk in return, thats all the clans do. all mudfur did. he didnt want me to be his apprentice. he needed the dead to tell him what to do. what kind of life is that? and if you agree with what he did, how is it any different than me and moth? at least i know sheā€™s real. that sheā€™s our sister. the clans would let her die.
and so tadpole kills his brother with a stake through the heart.
he thinks he can see moth for a second. a flash against the blood.
hawk dies. he doesnt die a clan cat.
was it worth it? tadpole asks.
im going to be with moth, hawk says. youre going to go to starclan.
why dont you answer that question?
...
yeah thats my moth ghost au. is this anything? who knows! its certainly not in any way fleshed out, just the barest bones of an idea. i want leafpool to still get her ā€˜blood will spill bloodā€™ prophecy--maybe she and hawk become friends, somewhere in there. who knows.
ghost moth man. fun to think about.
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nuptia Ā· 3 years
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ANĀ  INCOMPLETEĀ  LISTĀ  OFĀ  THEMESĀ  ANDĀ  MOTIFSĀ  THATĀ  RELATEĀ  TOĀ  WRENā€™SĀ  NARRATIVE.
NOTE:Ā  theseĀ  themesĀ  relateĀ  toĀ  theĀ  firstĀ  arcĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  story,Ā  Ā whichĀ  isĀ  whereĀ  theĀ  majorityĀ  ofĀ  wrenā€™sĀ  threadsĀ  willĀ  beĀ  placedĀ  inĀ  orderĀ  toĀ  keepĀ  aĀ  forwardĀ  momentumĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  blogĀ  Ā (Ā  Ā andĀ  toĀ  makeĀ  herĀ  narrativeĀ  moreĀ  manageable Ā toĀ  meĀ  Ā ).Ā  Ā herĀ  themesĀ  areĀ  likelyĀ  toĀ  developĀ  asĀ  sheĀ  does,Ā  Ā butĀ  iĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  spendĀ  aĀ  littleĀ  timeĀ  talkingĀ  aboutĀ  certainĀ  thingsĀ  thatĀ  willĀ  reoccurĀ  onĀ  thisĀ  blog.
HUNGERĀ  /Ā  Ā GREEDĀ  Ā /Ā  Ā TOĀ  DEVOURĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  twĀ  forĀ  foodĀ  inĀ  thisĀ  specificĀ  section,Ā  Ā pleaseĀ  skipĀ  forwardĀ  ifĀ  theseĀ  topicsĀ  disturbĀ  youĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).
LYRICALĀ  THEMES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā atĀ  seventeenĀ  iĀ  startedĀ  toĀ  starveĀ  myselfĀ Ā  Ā  Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  thoughtĀ  thatĀ  loveĀ  wasĀ  aĀ  kindĀ  ofĀ  emptinessĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā andĀ  atĀ  leastĀ  thenĀ  iĀ  understoodĀ  theĀ  hungerĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  feltĀ  Ā  Ā Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  andĀ  iĀ  didnā€™tĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  callĀ  itĀ  loneliness.Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā [Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā hungerĀ  byĀ  florenceĀ  +Ā  theĀ  machineĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ].
GENSIS:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā elijahĀ  controlledĀ  everyĀ  aspectĀ  ofĀ  wrenā€™sĀ  lifeĀ  andĀ  thisĀ  specificĀ  aspectĀ  ofĀ  traumaĀ  manifestsĀ  inĀ  wrenā€™sĀ  relationshipĀ  withĀ  food.Ā  Ā he usedĀ  itĀ  asĀ  aĀ  punishment,Ā  Ā heĀ  usedĀ  itĀ  asĀ  aĀ  reward,Ā  Ā heĀ  usedĀ  itĀ  merelyĀ  toĀ  showĀ  heĀ  hadĀ  controlĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  wrenĀ  wouldĀ  defineĀ  herĀ  relationshipĀ  withĀ  himĀ  asĀ  oneĀ  ofĀ  constantĀ  hungerĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā bothĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  ownĀ  body,Ā  Ā  butĀ  theĀ  wayĀ  heĀ  devouredĀ  her,Ā  Ā  asĀ  wellĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā thatĀ  factĀ  sheĀ  wasĀ  literallyĀ  aĀ  voidĀ  aroundĀ  himĀ  waitingĀ  toĀ  beĀ  filledĀ  asĀ  heĀ  ateĀ  herĀ  wholeĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).
POST - ELIJAH:Ā  Ā  Ā sheĀ  gorgesĀ  herselfĀ  forĀ  weeksĀ  afterĀ  sheā€™sĀ  killedĀ  elijah,Ā  Ā eagerĀ  toĀ  takeĀ  backĀ  someĀ  semblanceĀ  ofĀ  control,Ā  Ā desperateĀ  toĀ  fillĀ  someĀ  sortĀ  ofĀ  emptyĀ  pitĀ  insideĀ  ofĀ  her.Ā  Ā sheĀ  feelsĀ  constantlyĀ  sickĀ  andĀ  heavyĀ  overĀ  it,Ā  Ā butĀ  lashesĀ  outĀ  whenĀ  mariaĀ  triesĀ  toĀ  getĀ  herĀ  toĀ  stop.Ā  Ā  EVENTUALLY,Ā  Ā SHEĀ  LEARNSĀ  THATĀ  CONTROLĀ  ISĀ  NOTĀ  ABOUTĀ  DEVOURINGĀ  EVERYTHINGĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  itā€™sĀ  aboutĀ  gettingĀ  theĀ  choiceĀ  ofĀ  whenĀ  youĀ  devourĀ  andĀ  howĀ  muchĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā butĀ  sheĀ  wonā€™tĀ  everĀ  loseĀ  thatĀ  greedyĀ  pitĀ  insideĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  thatĀ  demandsĀ  more,Ā  more,Ā  moreĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).
AĀ  SIDEĀ  -Ā  NOTE,Ā  Ā DEVOURINGĀ  GODHOOD:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā toĀ  wren,Ā  Ā elijahĀ  isĀ  andĀ  alwaysĀ  willĀ  beĀ  aĀ  god.Ā  Ā aĀ  vengefulĀ  one,Ā  Ā butĀ  sheĀ  canā€™tĀ  fathomĀ  aĀ  mortalĀ  holdingĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  powerĀ  withinĀ  them.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  achesĀ  toĀ  eatĀ  himĀ  wholeĀ  andĀ  takeĀ  whateverĀ  godhoodĀ  heĀ  has,Ā  Ā toĀ  becomeĀ  godlyĀ  herselfĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā thisĀ  isĀ  whatĀ  sheĀ  imaginesĀ  fullĀ  controlĀ  toĀ  feelĀ  like,Ā  Ā eatingĀ  godĀ  toĀ  becomeĀ  aĀ  god.
FUTUREĀ  MANIFESTATIONS:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  amĀ  hopingĀ  toĀ  laterĀ  exploreĀ  theĀ  conceptĀ  ofĀ  fullnessĀ  andĀ  theĀ  overflowingĀ  cup,Ā  Ā andĀ  howĀ  thisĀ  relatesĀ  bothĀ  toĀ  pregnancy,Ā  Ā motherhood,Ā  Ā andĀ  foundĀ  families.Ā 
PREYĀ  ANIMALSĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā featuringĀ  mostĀ  prominentlyĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā gazelles,Ā  Ā does,Ā  Ā andĀ  bunniesĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).
LITERARYĀ  THEMES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā allĀ  theĀ  worldĀ  willĀ  beĀ  yourĀ  enemy,Ā  Ā princeĀ  withĀ  aĀ  thousandĀ  enemes,Ā  Ā andĀ  wheneverĀ  theyĀ  catchĀ  you,Ā  Ā theyĀ  willĀ  killĀ  you.Ā  Ā butĀ  firstĀ  theyĀ  mustĀ  catchĀ  you,Ā  Ā digger,Ā  Ā listener,Ā  Ā runner,Ā  Ā princeĀ  withĀ  theĀ  swiftĀ  warning.Ā  Ā beĀ  cunningĀ  andĀ  fullĀ  ofĀ  tricksĀ  andĀ  yourĀ  peopleĀ  shallĀ  neverĀ  beĀ  destroyedĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā [Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā watershipĀ  downĀ  byĀ  richardĀ  adamsĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ].
GAZELLES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā agility,Ā  Ā alertness,Ā  Ā andĀ  grace.Ā  Ā aptĀ  metaphorsĀ  forĀ  wrenĀ  andĀ  herĀ  body.Ā  Ā  itĀ  shouldĀ  beĀ  notedĀ  thatĀ  wrenĀ  remainsĀ  theĀ  oppositeĀ  ofĀ  clumsinessĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ;Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā sheĀ  isĀ  consciouslyĀ  andĀ  constantlyĀ  awareĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  body.Ā  Ā everyĀ  inchĀ  ofĀ  itĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā sheĀ  canĀ  checkĀ  forĀ  woundsĀ  withĀ  removingĀ  clothes,Ā  Ā everyĀ  partĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  knownĀ  andĀ  feltĀ  toĀ  theĀ  deepestĀ  degree.Ā  Ā  ifĀ  sheĀ  fumbledĀ  orĀ  messedĀ  upĀ  aroundĀ  elijah,Ā  Ā sheĀ  wasĀ  punishedĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā sheĀ  protectsĀ  herselfĀ  againstĀ  thisĀ  byĀ  makingĀ  sureĀ  herĀ  bodyĀ  isĀ  underĀ  herĀ  controlĀ  constantly.
DOES:Ā Ā  Ā  Ā  natureĀ  thatĀ  cannotĀ  beĀ  subduedĀ  andĀ  adaptability.Ā  Ā  doesĀ  wereĀ  herĀ  motherā€™sĀ  favouriteĀ  animalĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  andĀ  asĀ  herĀ  motherĀ  hadĀ  powersĀ  relatingĀ  toĀ  nature,Ā  Ā  youĀ  canĀ  imagineĀ  whyĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā doesĀ  symbolise,Ā  Ā forĀ  her,Ā  Ā  Ā elijahā€™sĀ  inabilityĀ  toĀ  snuffĀ  herĀ  outĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā heĀ  forcedĀ  herĀ  intoĀ  aĀ  worldĀ  ofĀ  harshĀ  whiteĀ  lines,Ā  Ā apartmentĀ  complexes,Ā  Ā aĀ  cityĀ  thatĀ  bustles.Ā  Ā  Ā butĀ  sheĀ  remainedĀ  unsubdued,Ā  Ā  growingĀ  againstĀ  hisĀ  harshnessĀ  likeĀ  aĀ  tangledĀ  thorn.Ā 
BUNNIES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā fearĀ  andĀ  creativity.Ā  Ā wrenĀ  isĀ  aĀ  womanĀ  inĀ  theĀ  run.Ā  Ā itā€™sĀ  theĀ  mostĀ  integralĀ  partĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  storyĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  sheĀ  isĀ  escapingĀ  unjustĀ  punishmentĀ  andĀ  canĀ  onlyĀ  doĀ  soĀ  byĀ  theĀ  actĀ  ofĀ  fleeingĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  whichĀ  requiresĀ  greatĀ  creativityĀ  justĀ  toĀ  stayĀ  alive,Ā  Ā  Ā butĀ  alsoĀ  itĀ  meansĀ  sheĀ  isĀ  constantlyĀ  inĀ  aĀ  stateĀ  ofĀ  fearĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).Ā  Ā  Ā  sheĀ  hopsĀ  betweenĀ  wordsĀ  inĀ  aĀ  veryĀ  chaoticĀ  wayĀ  andĀ  sheā€™sĀ  rarelyĀ  static.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  existsĀ  inĀ  constantĀ  motion,Ā  Ā  justĀ  likeĀ  aĀ  bunny,Ā  Ā  filledĀ  withĀ  fearĀ  andĀ  creativeĀ  becauseĀ  ofĀ  it.
FUTUREĀ  MANIFESTATIONS:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  canā€™tĀ  imagineĀ  thatĀ  wrenĀ  wouldĀ  everĀ  becomeĀ  aĀ  predatoryĀ  animal,Ā  Ā  butĀ  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  ifĀ  sheĀ  becameĀ  associatedĀ  withĀ  birdĀ  imageryĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  itĀ  wouldĀ  beĀ  quiteĀ  befitting,Ā  Ā givenĀ  herĀ  name,Ā  Ā  andĀ  iĀ  thinkĀ  itĀ  wouldĀ  representĀ  theĀ  claimingĀ  ofĀ  freedomĀ  sheā€™sĀ  beenĀ  denied.
AĀ  TURNEDĀ  BACKĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā representingĀ  anĀ  inabilityĀ  toĀ  understandĀ  yourĀ  ownĀ  faceĀ  andĀ  unknowingĀ  yourselfĀ  soĀ  deeplyĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  beginĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  yourselfĀ  allĀ  overĀ  againĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).
LITERARYĀ  THEMES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā whenĀ  iĀ  imagineĀ  myselfĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  iĀ  amĀ  alwaysĀ  leavingĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  couldnā€™tĀ  drawnĀ  myĀ  ownĀ  faceĀ  ifĀ  godĀ  askedĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā [Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā theĀ  vaultĀ  byĀ  andresĀ  crepasĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ].
DISASSOCIATION:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā wrenĀ  hasĀ  noĀ  ideaĀ  whoĀ  sheĀ  isĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  sheĀ  hasĀ  beenĀ  nothingĀ  butĀ  aĀ  belongingĀ  forĀ  soĀ  longĀ  thatĀ  sheĀ  isnā€™tĀ  sureĀ  thereā€™sĀ  muchĀ  leftĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  toĀ  drawĀ  onĀ  earlierĀ  themes,Ā  Ā  sheĀ  mustĀ  devourĀ  toĀ  becomeĀ  somethingĀ  atĀ  all,Ā  Ā toĀ  fillĀ  herselfĀ  upĀ  insteadĀ  ofĀ  remainingĀ  emptyĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).Ā  Ā sheĀ  playsĀ  aĀ  littleĀ  gameĀ  withĀ  herselfĀ  inĀ  bathroomĀ  mirrorsĀ  whereĀ  sheĀ  holdsĀ  upĀ  herĀ  fingerĀ  andĀ  saysĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ā€˜thisĀ  isĀ  myĀ  fingerĀ  andĀ  itĀ  isĀ  prettyā€™Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā toĀ  tryĀ  toĀ  getĀ  aĀ  betterĀ  understandingĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  body.Ā  Ā everythingĀ  aboutĀ  thisĀ  isĀ  madeĀ  soĀ  muchĀ  worseĀ  byĀ  theĀ  factĀ  sheĀ  isĀ  unendinglyĀ  onĀ  theĀ  run.Ā  Ā sheĀ  isĀ  alwaysĀ  turned,Ā  Ā sheĀ  isĀ  alwaysĀ  running,Ā  Ā  soĀ  howĀ  couldĀ  sheĀ  possiblyĀ  stopĀ  toĀ  knowĀ  herĀ  ownĀ  face?
FUTUREĀ  MANIFESTATIONS:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  haveĀ  drawnĀ  myĀ  ownĀ  faceĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā godĀ  didnā€™tĀ  haveĀ  toĀ  askĀ  Ā  Ā  (Ā  Ā  Ā iĀ  didĀ  itĀ  allĀ  myselfĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).Ā  Ā iĀ  wantĀ  herĀ  toĀ  associateĀ Ā 
NATUREĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā whatĀ  isĀ  motherhood?Ā  Ā iĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  becomeĀ  aĀ  treeĀ  Ā  Ā  ).
LITERARYĀ  THEMES:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā notĀ  thatĀ  iĀ  wantĀ  toĀ  beĀ  aĀ  godĀ  orĀ  aĀ  heroĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā /Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā justĀ  toĀ  changeĀ  intoĀ  aĀ  tree,Ā  Ā growĀ  forĀ  ages,Ā  Ā notĀ  hurtĀ  anyoneĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā [Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā notesĀ  byĀ  czeslawĀ  milozĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ].
NATUREĀ  ASĀ  MOTHERHOOD:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā wrenā€™sĀ  earliestĀ  memoryĀ  isĀ  plantingĀ  tomatoĀ  seedsĀ  withĀ  herĀ  mother.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  remembersĀ  herĀ  motherā€™sĀ  dirtĀ  -Ā  touchedĀ  fingersĀ  overĀ  herĀ  own,Ā  Ā  Ā  herĀ  gentleĀ  voiceĀ  tellingĀ  herĀ  theĀ  rightĀ  wayĀ  toĀ  doĀ  it.Ā  Ā  instructionĀ  hadnā€™tĀ  feltĀ  likeĀ  punishmentĀ  thenĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā  itĀ  hadĀ  beenĀ  anĀ  actĀ  ofĀ  careĀ  toĀ  her.Ā  Ā  herĀ  childhoodĀ  homeĀ  hadĀ  beenĀ  filledĀ  withĀ  flowersĀ  andĀ  plants,Ā  Ā  herĀ  motherĀ  ensuringĀ  thatĀ  nothingĀ  everĀ  died.Ā  Ā  theĀ  houseĀ  wasĀ  everĀ  -Ā  alive,Ā  Ā  aĀ  paradiseĀ  ofĀ  flowers,Ā  Ā  homeĀ  toĀ  natureĀ  itselfĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā andĀ  herĀ  motherĀ  wasĀ  theĀ  eternalĀ  creatorĀ  ofĀ  itĀ  allĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ).Ā  Ā  Ā 
DISASSOCIATIONĀ  OFĀ  NATURE:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā inĀ  contrast,Ā  Ā  Ā elijahĀ  isĀ  allĀ  citiesĀ  -Ā  andĀ  -Ā  skylines.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  hasnā€™tĀ  touchedĀ  dirtĀ  inĀ  aĀ  longĀ  timeĀ  afterĀ  sheĀ  enteredĀ  herĀ  relationshipĀ  withĀ  him.Ā  Ā  heĀ  makesĀ  sureĀ  sheā€™sĀ  cleanĀ  andĀ  shiny,Ā  Ā  whichĀ  meansĀ  sheĀ  doesnā€™tĀ  getĀ  toĀ  beĀ  aroundĀ  natureĀ  anymore.Ā  Ā theĀ  plantsĀ  areĀ  fake.Ā  Ā  whileĀ  onĀ  theĀ  run,Ā  Ā wrenĀ  isĀ  surroundedĀ  byĀ  dustĀ  andĀ  grime,Ā  Ā  motelĀ  roomsĀ  withĀ  dyingĀ  plants,Ā  Ā  Ā carsĀ  fumingĀ  upĀ  theĀ  world,Ā  Ā  Ā theĀ  unnaturalĀ  tasteĀ  ofĀ  bullets.Ā  Ā  Ā sheĀ  thinksĀ  ofĀ  herselfĀ  inĀ  termsĀ  ofĀ  failedĀ  motherhoodĀ  becauseĀ  aĀ  motherĀ  toĀ  herĀ  hasĀ  alwaysĀ  beenĀ  bestĀ  representedĀ  byĀ  aĀ  tree.
TREEHOOD:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā god,Ā  Ā theĀ  treeĀ  isĀ  theĀ  wrenĀ  symbol.Ā  Ā sheĀ  wantsĀ  toĀ  digĀ  herĀ  rootsĀ  inĀ  deepĀ  andĀ  haveĀ  somethingĀ  closeĀ  toĀ  aĀ  home,Ā  Ā  somethingĀ  stableĀ  andĀ  real.Ā  Ā  Ā itĀ  isĀ  inĀ  directĀ  contrastĀ  toĀ  herĀ  constantlyĀ  onĀ  theĀ  run,Ā  Ā  aĀ  girlĀ  trappedĀ  inĀ  motion.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  wantsĀ  toĀ  beĀ  static.Ā  Ā  thereā€™sĀ  alsoĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  hereĀ  toĀ  doĀ  withĀ  transformingĀ  andĀ  gettingĀ  toĀ  beĀ  somethingĀ  elseĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  sheĀ  mightĀ  notĀ  knowĀ  whoĀ  sheĀ  is,Ā  Ā  butĀ  sheĀ  knowsĀ  whoĀ  treesĀ  are,Ā  Ā  andĀ  thatĀ  meansĀ  aĀ  lotĀ  toĀ  her.
FUTUREĀ  MANIFESTATIONS:Ā  Ā  Ā  idkĀ  iĀ  personallyĀ  thinkĀ  thatĀ  sheĀ  shouldĀ  getĀ  toĀ  beĀ  aĀ  treeĀ  ifĀ  iā€™mĀ  beingĀ  honestĀ  withĀ  you.Ā  Ā but,Ā  Ā also,Ā  Ā iĀ  wantĀ  herĀ  toĀ  relateĀ  moreĀ  toĀ  natureĀ  andĀ  forĀ  theĀ  majorityĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  motifsĀ  toĀ  beĀ  natureĀ  -Ā  themed.Ā  Ā iĀ  thinkĀ  herĀ  disassociationĀ  fromĀ  natureĀ  isĀ  perhapsĀ  theĀ  mostĀ  impactfulĀ  thingĀ  thatā€™sĀ  happenedĀ  toĀ  herĀ  becauseĀ  ofĀ  herĀ  itĀ  representsĀ  theĀ  failingĀ  relationshipĀ  betweenĀ  herĀ  andĀ  herĀ  mother.Ā  iĀ  wouldĀ  likeĀ  toĀ  replaceĀ  herĀ  treeĀ  motfitĀ  withĀ  aĀ  birdĀ  motif:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā desperationĀ  forĀ  stabilityĀ  vsĀ  utterĀ  freedom.
PERSEPHONEĀ  ANDĀ  DEMETERĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā (Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā theĀ  mythĀ  thatĀ  neverĀ  neededĀ  hadesĀ  Ā  Ā ).
THE MYTH:Ā  Ā  Ā  tumblrĀ  hasĀ  veryĀ  muchĀ  romanticizedĀ  persephone/hadesĀ  whichĀ  iĀ  donā€™tĀ  careĀ  aboutĀ  butĀ  iĀ  likeĀ  theĀ  storyĀ  moreĀ  whenĀ  itĀ  concernsĀ  theĀ  traumaĀ  ofĀ  aĀ  mother-daughterĀ  relationship.Ā  Ā  demeterĀ  hadĀ  herĀ  childĀ  rippedĀ  fromĀ  herĀ  andĀ  demandedĀ  thatĀ  theĀ  godsĀ  giveĀ  herĀ  backĀ  Ā  Ā  Ā ---Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā allĀ  theyĀ  couldĀ  getĀ  forĀ  herĀ  wereĀ  sixĀ  monthsĀ  withĀ  herĀ  child.Ā  Ā  letā€™sĀ  splitĀ  thisĀ  upĀ  betterĀ  intoĀ  wrenā€™sĀ  childhoodĀ  andĀ  adulthood.Ā  Ā  beforeĀ  elijah,Ā  Ā wrenĀ  wasĀ  utterlyĀ  herĀ  motherā€™s.Ā  Ā  Ā afterwards,Ā  Ā  sheĀ  wasĀ  utterlyĀ  elijahā€™s.Ā  Ā  thereĀ  wasĀ  neverĀ  anyĀ  roomĀ  forĀ  wrenĀ  toĀ  beĀ  herself.Ā  Ā sheĀ  missesĀ  herĀ  motherĀ  inĀ  thatĀ  tenderĀ  wayĀ  thatĀ  youĀ  loveĀ  theĀ  seasonsĀ  andĀ  aĀ  ripeĀ  harvestĀ  Ā :Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā theĀ  hopeĀ  ofĀ  returnĀ  seemsĀ  dullĀ  andĀ  farĀ  -Ā  away,Ā  Ā  butĀ  wrenĀ  stillĀ  longsĀ  forĀ  it.
FUTUREĀ  MANIFESTATIONS:Ā  Ā  Ā  Ā escapeĀ  hadesĀ  andĀ  returnĀ  toĀ  demeter.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  wantsĀ  toĀ  feelĀ  herĀ  motherā€™sĀ  armsĀ  aroundĀ  herĀ  again.Ā  Ā  sheĀ  wantsĀ  toĀ  becomeĀ  demeterĀ  andĀ  giveĀ  herĀ  childĀ  daisiesĀ  andĀ  laughterĀ  andĀ  aĀ  manĀ  whoĀ  isnā€™tĀ  hellĀ  itself.
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Survey #368
ā€œwhatever doesnā€™t kill you, is gonna leave a scarā€
Have you ever bought a YouTuberā€™s merch? My favorite shirt is the Day of the Dead design by Cloak, which is Markiplier's and jacksepticeye's clothing brand. Mom's friend/former co-worker also got me a Ninja Sex Party shirt because she knew I liked them. There are SO MANY YouTubers I wanna support by buying shirts. Do you think oatmeal tastes better when made with water or milk? Milk, 110%. Have you ever left a note in a library book? No. What time of day do you prefer to wash your hair? Morning. Has anyone ever spread lies about you? Yes. Have you ever taken a photograph with a celebrity? If so, did it turn out the way you wanted, or do you wish you could retake it? No. If you could move out of your home country permanently, would you? If so, where would you go? If it didn't mean being so very far from my family, I would love to move to Canada. Is there a celebrity that everyone else seems to love, but you find totally overrated? Why is it that you donā€™t like them? I legit don't know who's considered currently popular, and I especially don't know who they are as people. If you could volunteer for any charity, which one would you choose? Do you think itā€™s more important to help humans, or are animal and environmental charities equally important? Something relating to animals, and I think they're both equally important. Do you prefer holidays where you relax, or actually do things? I like a mix. Something chill, but you still do some stuff as a family. Do you think that after we die our spirit is still alive? Yes. Has anybody ever told you that you could be a model? Someone has mistaken me for a model in a picture I once took. It was one of the most flattering things I've ever heard, haha. Do you use different kinds of moisturizer for different body parts? ie. hand lotion for your hands, face cream for your face. Or do you just use one moisturizer for all body parts? Yes. Have you ever felt like you were someoneā€™s rebound? No. Has anybody ever broken up with you over something really pathetic? What was it? Have you ever been dumped in a disrespectful way? (eg. through text, through a friend..) I have 100% been dumped in a very cowardly and disrespectful way; after dating Jason for nearly four years and being very serious, he broke up with me very abruptly over Facebook Messenger. His reason was valid, but at the same time, he NEVER talked to me about it. Apparently my depression was dragging him down. If he'd fucking communicated it, I would have explored new treatment options so goddamn fast. But no, he decided to snap his fingers and disappear. That's exactly WHY it was so traumatic, I think: it was so unexpected and sudden. Did you have a lot of role models as a kid? Animal enthusiasts like Steve Irwin and Jeff Corwin for sure. Do you feel like anyone looks up to you? Why or why not? God no. I'm just... not someone to aspire to be like. What was the last thing you found offensive? I'm not sure. Who is the nicest person you know? My mom. Do you feel safe in your country? I feel safe in NC, rather. Like I don't expect an atom bomb or terrorist attack or something in this obscure area. In the U.S.A. itself, sometimes I do, sometimes I don't. America is definitely not loved by every other country. Do you feel safe where you live? Not in this city, no. Have you been falsely diagnosed with something by a bad doctor? Yup. Did y'all know I apparently have ADHD? I know, shocking. Have you ever had a doctor refuse to treat you? No. Name the strangest game youā€™ve ever played (video game or real game): The first Silent Hill, probably. It took a lot of reading to get it. Do you know anyone who has been struck by lightning before? No. Which cartoon character would you want to keep as a pet? Does Stitch count? Or a Pokemon. Do you like marshmallows? Yes. What is your favorite flavor of candy cane? I really like the Jolly Rancher candy canes, I think they are? Have you ever fostered an animal? No. Do you still take hot showers when itā€™s hot out? Not as hot, but not cold except on very extreme occasions. When writing $ sign, do you draw one line through the S or two? Two. What animal have you always wanted as a pet but couldnā€™t have? I'm thankful that my parents were pretty open-minded to what pets I really wanted, but one I was never allowed to have was a ferret because of how messy and smelly they are. List three people youā€™ve had crushes on: Jason, Sara, and Sebastian were probably my biggest crushes. Have you ever thrown up from cramps? No, but god have I felt close. List three people you had a hard time forgiving. Jason, Colleen, and my dad. Who is the most spiritual person you know? Probably my sister's mother-in-law. Would you ever start a vlog? God no, I'd bore people to tears. Are your dreams coming true yet? I mean, I guess in some ways with my mental health. In my deepest depression, what I have now was a dream, even though current me is very discontent with it. Most of my dreams, though? No. Do you struggle with depression? I've been diagnosed with severe depression since 7th grade. Are you haunted by your past? A few things won't leave me alone. What medical conditions do you have? Just a lot. There are even more that are up for debate. I've talked about my diagnosed conditions enough. Do you use a Magic Bullet? No. What does your apron look like? I donā€™t have one. What are your favorite spicy foods? Hot Cheetos, Takis, hot wings, jalapeno pizza... Man, I love spicy food. Which do you like better: being an adult or being a kid? Being a kid. Were you excited to be a teenager on your thirteenth birthday? I had very mixed feelings. Did you feel insecure in high school? Shit, I still do. Would you ever be friends with someone who was suicidal? What the FUCK is this question? No fucking shit I would be. Someone being suicidal in no way affects who they are as a person. Who was the biggest bully in high school? I don't think there really was one. What was your favorite class in high school? Art. Would you rather have a daughter or a son? If I wanted kids, a daughter. Have you ever written to an advice columnist? No. Have you ever had a doctor not believe what you told him? Maybe? I did however have an employee at the ER the first time I went try to pry out of me that my self-mutilation was for attention, and it wasn't until I insisted about a dozen times that it wasn't that he believed me. It's odd looking back that I got REALLY attached to him during that stay, knowing now that it was absolutely horrible and extremely unhelpful for him to do that. If youā€™re female, would you feel uncomfortable having a male gynecologist? I would absolutely refuse to have a male one. Do you like Lisa Frank? Yeah, like can you talk about aesthetic. What gives you nightmares? Boy, I wish I could tell you, given how much I have them. Were you ever hospitalized as a child? No. Did you get senior pictures taken? No. What color is your bicycle? I donā€™t have one. Did you ever have to take home a fake baby in health class? No, thank fuck. Would you rather wear ivory or white on your wedding day? What color will your bridesmaids wear? I'd rather wear black. I think red will be the bridesmaids' color. Would you rather have a swimming pool or trampoline? I want a swimming pool so damn badly so I could exercise my legs without worrying about sweating, and I can stop and rest whenever I want, unlike going walking or something. I don't think my knees could handle a trampoline. Do you think babies are cute? Some, sure. But a lot, not really. Do you dream about the future a lot? Yeah. Do you think about your past a lot? Way too frequently. How good are you at living in the moment? I'm trying to get better at it. Have you ever questioned Godā€™s existence? Yeah. Vanilla frosting or chocolate? Chocolate. Whatā€™s your favorite foreign cuisine? I've actually been exploring Italian pasta lately. I'm not a big fan of foreign food that I've tried, though. Have you ever moved to another state? No. Did you do anything productive today? No. .-. Can you say the alphabet backwards? No, actually. Do you like flowers? Of course; does anyone not? Have you ever thought you were gonna die? I didn't care if I did or didn't. What kind of mood are you in today? I was honestly really depressed through most of it. Just health stuff was really getting to me. I just woke up from what was honestly like a four-hour nap and I feel all right, I guess. What are you craving right now? I REALLY want Domino's jalapeno pizza. Is there anyone you would seriously punch right now if you had the chance? No. What is worse, physical or emotional pain? Definitely emotional. Have you ever walked in on somebody doing somethingā€¦ questionable? When Dad still lived with us, I think he might have been watching... you know... on TV when I came into my parents' room for something. Idk for sure though. I didn't ask, and I don't want to know. If you were to make videos on YouTube, what would they be of? Oh god, idk. I don't want to make any. What I'd have most fun with would be reptile education, but I 1.) have literally one snake, 2.) am not extremely educated on a good number of them and don't want to be misleading, and 3.) I would run outta content fast. So, leave it to Snake Discovery, haha. Posting pictures of yourself in a bathing suit on the internet - ok or not? Yes, it's okay????? If you're talking about me personally though, you won't see me dead in a bathing suit picture. Do you typically laugh when somebody falls down? No, I gasp and see if they're okay. What is the most disturbing movie youā€™ve ever watched? Paranormal Entity. The ending is... a lot. Your opinion of Katy Perry, please? I like a couple of her songs. If you could say anything to your Mom right nowā€¦ what would it be? "Thank you for absolutely everything."
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hi! this is chey, i was here close to opening with kim1 (kim joonwoo), but i got really busy with a new job and accidentally dipped. iā€™m so so sorry for that! anyway, hereā€™s taejoonā€™s unfinished info page & his pinterest board. this is rushed so itā€™s probably gonna be messy??? idk. weā€™re all in this together. hmu on discord if thatā€™s your thing --- pepper#4940
full name is kang taejoon, but he has no affiliation with the kang family. heā€™s actually filling the role of daebak8! i checked the last names to make sure he didnā€™t have the same one as one of the families but alas, my pea-brain still failed me.
on that note, heā€™s a tiktoker born in 2000. started on vine in 2012, but didnā€™t actually get serious about his online presence until 2014-ish and IMMEDIATELY started lying about his life because what else is a fourteen year old gonna do online?
lied about his age, his hobbies, his family, his experiences, etc. he just really, really wanted to seem interesting, and hey! it worked! he eventually fooled thousands of people into thinking heā€™s someone worth their time. chased trends like crazy, kept in close touch with hisĀ ā€œfanbaseā€, picked up sponsorships all while keeping his ACTUAL life completely secret basically. got very comfortable with lying.
he was always pretty obsessed with the attention because he lost his popularity when he stopped playing soccer (fā€™s in the chat for the former athlete side of him) & getting money from promoting brands was good, too, bc while his family isnā€™t necessarily lower class, they could still use some help. plus he needed cash to buy anime merch.
flash forward to 2020. he graduated high school in early 2019, still has no desire to go to college or get aĀ ā€œrealā€ job. he has it made rn living in the daebak house and creating online content still. living the life.
except not really because how fulfilling can it honestly be to watch thousands of people becoming fond of ur fake persona? he still lies a ton, has begun to feel like no one will ever like him for who he actually is bc itā€™s quite disappointing in comparison to the always ON persona he shows.Ā 
his tiktok user name isĀ ā€œbeetlejoonā€ which is a play on beetlejuice if you couldnā€™t tell dshbfvds.
he speaks english really well from a mix of classes when he was young, growing up online and trying to appeal to westerners, and watching a ton of western shows/films. he does kind of have an accent but for the most part.... a lot of ppl who only know him online assume he lives in america/is from america.
the rumor about him buying views/followers is definitely true. heā€™s not losing popularity or anything, he just wants to look even more relevant than he actually is.
cries himself to sleep like every night but youā€™d NEVER guess. heā€™s super funny when heā€™s around people, knows what people want and will do anything he can to blend in and make everyone like him. needs that validation so bad. life of the party.
flirts a lot for no other reason than he can and he likes the validation of people flirting back! but his love life is hectic and always disappointing. on one hand, he knows a ton of his followers are delusional w the idea that they can be with him and he doesnā€™tĀ wanna lose followers by being Unavailable. on the other hand, canā€™t risk being too close with anyone and them finding out nothing he says is true. heehee.
he follows whatever trends are in at the moment, so he owns a ton of dumb shit that will never be practical/clothes heā€™ll never wear in public/probably has dumb tattoos he got impulsively.
his trademark thing (that he stole Obviously) is a broken heart that he draws on his cheekbone Every Single Day. probably claims that itā€™s a tattoo just to fuck with his followers but thereā€™s those odd times when itā€™s not there and everyoneā€™s confused.
wears all black usually, lots of chains, leather, platform boots, dangly earrings, but heā€™s not the kind of guy your parents worn you about. he couldnā€™t be scary if he tried. heā€™s CLEARLY just a tiktok e-boy. heā€™s more like the lowlife your parents compare you to to make you feel better about how slow your life is moving.
while weā€™re talking about parents.... his gave up on him when he moved into the daebak house. he tries to give them money and support them but they wonā€™t have it. decline his calls. donā€™t write him back. they think heā€™s mad embarrassing which is... fair. his tiktok presence is definitely questionable
likes to be funny and make people laugh, but he actually cannot take anything seriously even if he tries. this definitely gets on peoplesā€™ nerves, has probably ended some good friendships/relationships/whatever else. sometimes he can lighten the mood if itā€™s dark but most of the time it just pisses people off bc it seems like he doesnā€™t care/doesnā€™t understand.
idk what else to say but if youā€™ve read this far and you like music, two songs that i heavily associate with taejoon are cotton candy by yungblud and lowkey as hell by waterparks. listen to them if you want... or donā€™t.
i donā€™t have a plots page put together yet, but here are some vague ideas i have:
(0/2) --- past tinder dates whom he lied to about his age and it came out somehow </3 maybe he tried to take them to a bar and he got caught with a fake id. maybe they went snooping and found out none of his info adds up. either way, the dates were short-lived and they probably clowned him pretty hard.
(0/?) --- fans of his tiktok page.
(0/?) --- alternatively, people who know of his tiktok page and think itā€™s dumb.
(0/1) --- another influencer who is jealous of his following, thinks he doesnā€™t deserve it.
(0/1) --- another influencer whoĀ ā€œbeefsā€ with him online so they both get more views.
(0/1) --- another influencer he collabs with a lot, even if their content is completely different. theyā€™re friends, so might as well piggyback of each otherā€™s popularity!
(0/1) --- close friend who makes frequent appearances on his tiktok, usually for relationship trends bc he doesnā€™t have an actual partner to film them with. usually acting like clowns, clearly faking but his fans still think it might be real.Ā 
(0/1) --- someone he hooked up with at one (or more) of the daebaek house parties and ghosted afterwards. completely acts like he doesnā€™t know them. oops.
(0/?) --- friends to do dumb shit with. heā€™s impulsive and just hates to be alone (especially when doing stuff that might get him in trouble) so you could say these are his accomplices. if he wants to do things heā€™ll regret, theyā€™re always in!
(0/?) --- some mellow friends who balance out his chaos.
(0/1) --- the one (1) friend he got matching tattoos with on impulse. probably something really stupid. the one thread that holds their friendship together when they fight.
(0/1) --- someone who holds themselves to really high standards, takes life seriously. thinks theyā€™re better than taejoon and doesnā€™t hesitate to show it.
(0/1) --- ex partner who broke up with taejoon because (1) he wouldnā€™t stop lying to them, (2) he still claimed to be single online and (3) he just cracked jokes when they tried to talk out their problems, wouldnā€™t really listen. probably hate him now but heā€™s really sorry. please accept these (cheap, probably wilting) apology flowers.
i want every plot. all of them. anything u can throw at me! but if i kept typing ideas out, iā€™d be at this forever and we really canā€™t have that. so just hit me up if any of these catch your attention or if youā€™ve got anything you think heā€™d fit!Ā 
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-> Summary: Hanako was a prince from a kingdom that was once ruled by a tyrant leader.
-> Pairing: Hanako x Nene
-> Taglist: @trish-chan @daikonsenpai @wisteliazen @imchiiii @dacr-owo @bakugotiddies @bloodredruby @certainyanderecatperson
-> A/N: Created this when Chap 64 was released so there may be some intense Aoi hate here (I dont hate her now; but Idk what went through me when I did this šŸ˜…)
~ ā™¤
A common girl, Nene Yashiro, is a maid for a tyrant princess named Aoi Akane {i placed you in your spot aoi-}.
Every night, Yashiro would wish for someone to come save her from her mistress, until he came...
No.7-Sama, they call him.
Was said to be a thief, who from stealing a cent or two, went to a whole kingdom, although from a tyrant leader.
He was having a visit to young Yashiro's village.
"The girl No.7-sama chooses will be taken away to his kingdom!", announced the twin and apprentice, Tsukasa and Kou.
Nene was excited, so she signed up for the choosing, even though she knew her mistress would be mad.
The dashing No.7 then chose a name days later...
"Nene Yashiro!," he himself announced.
Yashiro was so happy, she finally got her wish!
Although, this No.7 knew who she was...
At his kingdom, Nene was shocked by the beauty of it, how kind the residents were, and how approachable they were!
In No.7's castle, showed the portraits of the tyrant ruler that once lived here, who once made the residents suffer.
"No.7-Sama, forgive me if it's a rude question but why are the pictures of the tyrant leader still here?", Yashiro asked, curious.
"It's because it's only genuine enough to remind myself why the people of this kingdom need a change of ruler," Hanako replied.
An odd answer, Yashiro thought.
"Mitsuba will show you to your room," Hanako then added.
Mitsuba?, Yashiro thought once more.
Out of the corner, a pink haired boy appeared.
"This way m'lady," he said.
So that's Mitsuba, Yashiro thought again.
She saw her room, and it was huge.
The first thing Yashiro noticed though, is the balcony showing the gardening field.
Mitsuba then approached Hanako who was smiling at Yashiro's delight.
"Hanako-Kun, why did you choose her?", Mitsuba asked.
Hanako smiled wider and said, "A thief never tells his plans."
~ ā™¤
It was supper time, and the prince's apprentice, Kou, went to Yashiro's room.
"Yashiro-San, it's supper time!," he exclaims.
Yashiro quickly gets up and dresses and then follows Kou.
Kou then leads her to a spectacular dining area. At the dining area, you see their mentor, Tsuchigumori. You also see Shijima, who is an artist; Yako, a kitsune; and another apprentice, Akane Aoi, whose name scares Yashiro, since it's basically a turn around of her mistress's name.
"Ah, here she is," Hanako exclaimed.
Yashiro walked to her seat, and Hanako pulls her chair as she is sitting down.
A gentleman..., Yashiro thought.
Yashiro then calmly eats her food, until Yako blurts out, "Why is she here? She looks like a live daikon!"
"A-A talking kitsune!?", Yashiro said shocked.
Yako then looks at Yashiro, "Why are you here, Daikon?!"
Yashiro, who was obviously offended, stands and softly mumbles, "Sorry" and runs out of the dining area and into the garden; crying.
Tsuchigumori then punishes Yako and Hanako runs after Yashiro.
~ ā™”
"Y-Yashiro-San!" he exclaims, and sees Nene on a bench crying.
He approaches her hesitantly and says, "I'm sorry for what happened."
Nene then looked up from her crying. "What did I even do wrong?!", she said.
Hanako sat down next to her and said, "You did nothing wrong! It just takes them time to get used to a new person in the castle."
"Why did you choose me anyways?!", Yashiro then said.
Hanako then gently touched Nene's cheek and said, "I chose you for a very good reason. I can't tell that to you, because it's top secret, but I promise you, the reason is deep."
Yashiro couldn't help but smile.
Hanako, using his sleeves, wipes Yashiro's teary eyes. "Don't be sad Yashiro-San! I'm sure they'll get used to you soon!", he reassured Yashiro.
~ ā™” ~
The following days, Nene would mostly be seen in the garden either taking care of Yako, gardening, reading or taking a break while eating.
Tsukasa then noticed that most of Yashiro's time was in the garden, he decided to ask her why.
"It's enjoyable, and peaceful. I usually didn't get to do this stuff back with my old master," she explains.
"Could, you teach me how to garden?", Tsukasa asks. Of course Yashiro agrees.
It took her weeks of teaching before Tsukasa could plant on his own. By the time his plant sprouted, he showed it to his brother.
"Amane, Amane! I planted a tree!", Tsukasa exclaims.
Hanako would chuckle and start to tickle Tsukasa, "For the last time, call me Hanako."
Hanako?, Yashiro thought.
Yashiro then faked a cough, and the brothers looked at her.
"Kon'nichiwa Yashiro-San!" the two say in unison.
"Continue your bonding time, I'll take a break," Yashiro said walking away; giggling.
She was on her way to her room when she got lost.
At the end of the hallway she ended up on, was a door.
She knocked on the door to see a green haired girl and a red and black feathered crow.
"Hajimemashite, Yashiro-San. I'm Nanamine Sakura, the royal adviser to Hanako-Kun," she introduced herself. "This red and black feathered crow is named Natsuhiko," she added.
"Kon'nichiwa, Sakura! I just got lost on the way to my room," Nene explained.
"I can help you," Sakura said.
Sakura then lead Nene to her room safe and sound.
"Before I go, what do you think about Hanako-Kun?," Sakura asked.
Yashiro was shocked at the question. "He's approachable and kind I guess," she replied.
Sakura smiled and said, "I'll be going back now."
The slender green haired girl walked back to her quarters, while Yashiro plumped on her bed.
~ ā™” ~
Meanwhile, The Yugi brothers were still bonding.
"Tsukasa, could you possibly teach me to grow flowers?," Hanako requested.
Tsukasa's eyes shined and said, "Of course!"
In a few days' time, Hanako was able to plant a full bouquet of flowers.
"Amane, who are you going to give those flowers to? The girl?" Tsukasa asked.
Hanako, who was smiling, only nodded and headed his way to Yashiro's room.
~ ā™¤
In her room, Nene was reading a book fully focused on it, giving Hanako the full opportunity to place the flowers in a vase next to her.
When Hanako reached the vase, Nene looked at him and was shocked.
"N-No.7-", she started.
"Call me Hanako-Kun instead," Hanako said smiling.
Nene couldn't help but smile aswell.
"These are for you," Hanako said giving the flowers to her.
"Thank you, Hanako-Kun!" she said smiling.
~ ā™¤
Days later, it was announced another tyrant ruler will take Hanako's throne.
In preparation for fighting this tyrant ruler, Tsuchigumori trained Hanako, Akane, and Kou non stop for days.
The only breaks they had were sleeping and eating.
Although, Hanako was the strongest fighter, but was weak in training.
This lead Akane to tease him. "Did Yashiro-San make you weak and soft?" he teased.
Hanako chuckled and said, "I'm saving my energy for the real battle, Akane. Maybe you should do the same."
Kou laughed at Akane, since Kou was doing the same as Hanako.
Akane shrugged it off and continue to train.
Although, deep inside Hanako, he knew Akane was right. Hanako likes Yashiro, and to protect her is his only motive.
Nene however, didn't know about this, so it was Mitsuba and Tsukasa's job to divert her attention to other things.
It was then rumoured a girl would be kidnapped in order to lure Tsuchigumori's apprentices to the leader.
Nene heard about this, and was confused on why.
Mitsuba and Tsukasa told her to shrug it off, saying it was just a rumour and couldn't be true.
~ ā™¤
That night...
Tsukasa and Mitsuba were on guard of Yashiro when...
An indigo haired girl kidnapped her.
"DAIKON-SENPAI!"
"YASHIRO-SAN!"
The boys' cries were loud enough for the 3 apprentices to hear.
Hanako and Kou were the first people to get up, followed by Akane.
They chased the indigo haired girl carrying Yashiro all over the castle, until she got out of the castle and out of sight.
Hanako was furious.
Kou was worried.
Akane however, wasn't in the scene.
"Hanako-Kun, where's Akane?", Kou stated.
Hanako and Kou then looked everywhere for Akane until it lead them to 2 conclusions:
[ ] Akane was working with the girl who kidnapped Yashiro
[ ] He was still asleep
Although Kou then stated that he saw Akane wake up and run towards the opposite side.
So it only lead them to working with the indigo haired girl named Aoi Akane.
~ ā™¤
"LET ME GO!", Yashiro begged.
"I'll never let you go. You betrayed me. Your own mistress. For what? A good future of your own. Well guess what? You will never have a good future!", Aoi said furiously.
Meanwhile, Kou and Hanako were riding on a horse to Yashiro's old village.
"He's back!"
"What is he here for?"
"You didn't know?"
"What?"
"His fair daikon princess got kidnapped by Princess Aoi."
"It seems like everyone knows about Senpai [Yashiro] getting kidnapped," Kou said hesitantly.
Hanako then said, "I don't know if I'll be able to fight Aoi like I fought the other tyrant leader."
This shocked Kou, leading him to ask, "Why?"
"The last tyrant leader is not as tyrant as Aoi. And on top of that, she has Yashiro. I'll be either risking my life or Yashiro's," Hanako explained.
Kou then chuckled and said, "So you like Yashiro eh?"
Hanako would blush a bit and smile.
Kou then said encouragingly, "We'll be able to fight Akane and Aoi, as long as we work together."
Hanako smiled and nodded, and they headed their way to Aoi's castle.
~ ā˜† ~
The 2 Apprentices reached the castle and in front of the gate was Akane.
"Akane, we don't want to hurt you," stated Kou.
"I bet what Tsuchigumori-Sensei taught us would help me win this," Akane chuckled.
Hanako then snapped, "Enough of this Akane! Let us pass!"
Akane chuckled once more and said, "I don't think so"
"Hanako, go through the back entrance! I'll distract Akane!", Kou said.
Hanako nodded and he went to the back entrance while Kou fought Akane.
~ ā˜†
"Oh Nene-Chan... Naive, helpless, and stubborn. How pathetic," Aoi stated.
Yashiro then snapped and said, "What did I do to you?"
Aoi looked at Nene and said, "I was the one supposed to be with No.7!"
"No.7 has a name!", Yashiro said.
"You called?", said a boy with a seal on his cheek and floating Hako-Joudais.
~ ā˜† ~
Water was rapidly filling up Nene's cage.
"No.7-Sama, we meet once more," Aoi said.
"Let the princess go, Aoi," Hanako spat.
P-Princess!?, Yashiro thought.
"She's my servant!" Aoi retorted.
"And she's my Princess," Hanako spat again.
"HELP-" Yashiro started until the water drowned her.
[I didn't added her fish bond to Hanako cause, why not-]
Hanako then fought Aoi quickly and went to Yashiro's aid.
"Yashiro!", he said tapping the glass.
He found the lever for opening the cage and pulled it to open.
~ ā˜†
"You're worthless!", Akane shouted at Kou.
"A coward!"
"You'll never be as strong as me, Hanako, Tsuchigumori and your brother!"
Kou then snapped and fought Akane to the fullest until Akane fainted.
Kou ran inside the castle to see Yashiro in Hanako's arms.
"What happene-" Kou started but he then saw the water.
~ ā™” ~
"Yashiro.."
"Please wake up..."
Hanako begged for Yashiro to wake up, until a golden droplet came falling from the ceiling.
Yashiro woke up.
"Yashiro!" Hanako squealed happily and hugged Yashiro.
Kou was happy and went to hug them.
~ ā™§ ~
Aoi was captured and beheaded {ITS YOUR PLACE-} and Akane was nowhere to be found.
The 3 headed back to Hanako's Kingdom, where he calls Yashiro his Princess.
THE END
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