#theres a difference i think

[maschotch]

I've gone a little deeper about Emily's past in my fic 'Unrequited' and 'As It Was'. I'm just obsessed with her character and the backstory both she and Hotch have. And I just finish reading the little backstory you did about Emily and I loved it!!

i’m really not much of a jemily fan (partly because i think fanon characterizations of jj are completely delusional, partly because i think fanon characterizations of emily are beyond insulting, and mostly because i cannot fucking fathom what anyone could possibly like about jj), but i went ahead and read those two pieces because i figured you came into my inbox already knowing that. it’s just… not how i see either of those characters. not even necessarily the shipping aspect, even ignoring my reservations about jj, but because of the way i think emily approaches relationships

this sounds hypocritical after writing about emily + family, but i feel like emily doesn’t really care about her biological family anymore. at least i’d like to. i’d like to think she’s accepted that she’ll never be what her mother wants and that she’ll never get what she wants from her mother. she’s 36 when she joins the bau—surely that’s enough time to realize she can’t hold onto those childish fantasies anymore. not that i disagree with what i wrote, i just think it's given her a complex ab family rather than it actually being something she truly craves. it was a setup for her life: she wasn't meant to be with others, which is something she eventually tries to change about herself

i’m a big fan of low-empathy emily, so i feel like she has to put active effort into caring about relationships. as a child raised by an extremely distant parent, she probably chalked it up to never having connections growing up, so she never learned how to make connections in the future. it’s easier to assume she’s broken, and it’s easier to blame her mom for it

but really, i don’t think there’s anything wrong with her, she’s just different. at some point i think she had to wrestle with that: it’s hard to think she fell into the job best suited for her personality just by coincidence. being a spy requires that cold, calculating observation and analysis of relationship dynamics. she can view things objectively because she isn’t naturally inclined to get emotionally attached. she can witness unfathomable horrors without a flinch—things that would rock jj to her core, things that would perturb the unflappable hotch. she knows she’s better equipped to handle those types of experiences because having empathy was never really a priority. (it's part of why i think she was the only one who could've walked through hotch's apartment that day: she wouldn't get distracted)  

that being said, i don’t think connections are impossible for her. the bau proves that, declan proves that. but i think that was a conscious choice on her part: she had seen enough—caused enough—pain and grief to realize that she should feel guilty for it. so i think she wakes up every day and decides to care. she decides to be a good person. eventually she confronts that she's tired of living a life she doesn't feel like she could be proud of

she’s not heartless, by any means. she just doesn’t become emotionally involved until she comes to the logical conclusion to do so. she has a soft spot for kids because they haven’t had a chance to truly know themselves and the world they live in. she loves the team because of how deeply connected they are to each other. so, when push comes to shove, she’s always willing to leave if it means keeping them together. it’s easy to make that choice because she loves them: in season 3 when the choice is between her and hotch and she knows hotch’s loss will devastate them; in season 6 when she’s making them potential targets for doyle’s vendetta; in season 7 when she feels the tension that never quite settled upon her return. i don’t know if any of the others would’ve made those decisions as easily, even if it was the best choice for them as a whole. not even hotch, who is terrified that his proximity is enough to hurt people he cares about. she’s detached in a way that can separate her from others, but she’s able to turn that into her strength: whether that means manipulating her way into terrorist organizations or walking away from the only chance at a family she's ever had just to keep them safe

i have my bits and pieces of evidence for it that i can scrounge into a semi-believable character analysis, but ultimately i think it’s so i can enjoy more of her character without getting irked by aspects of the archetypes she could fit that would typically annoy me. i’d like to think she’s above some of that: she’s too cool to have mommy issues, too badass to spend years pining over relationships, too self assured to be insecure about her decisions, too smart to let anyone see through her. 

i say all this as a hotch fan, who has traits very similar to these. but it suits him. it makes him more interesting, to know that there’s a vulnerability behind his stoic appearance. but with emily i think it’s far more admirable for her to choose to suffer because she wants to care. minimal loss is the perfect example of that: she makes the logical choice to put herself at risk because she wants to protect reid. she’s not running away from who she is anymore, and she’s not really fighting it either. she chooses to be a good person, not out of guilt or even love, but because it’s something she values. 

for me, emily is the cool brooding hero who could be a villain so easily. maybe, in an earlier time in her life, she was. but she’s done being selfish. she’s willing to make sacrifices for others because she decided that living by a code is better than living for nothing at all, even if it causes her pain. guilt and love—two burning sensations that were so opposite yet so intrinsically linked—were burdens she chose to bear so she wouldn’t feel so hollow anymore. and it does cause her pain. so, so much pain. to me, it makes her endlessly more fascinating. i’d rather her be a knife that dulls its edges than something soft chiseled to a jagged point. 

#aljkhsfgjk was halfway through breakfast when i saw this in my notifs then got so worked up reading the fics that i just HAD to say smth #now--thirty minutes later--my toast is cold and forgotten #and im trying to decide if i feel mean enough to actually post this #asks #emily prentiss #i really just. don't like emily in most ships #i think ppl who ship her w tsia or derek are slightly more forgivable--they retain her fun energy #but with jj and hotch? #they just.. its just... its not her #she doesnt pine like that #even if i actaully liked jj i just dont think emily would waste her time with someone who's too scared to accept herself #idk im just so TIRED of queer ships where the main source of angst is rejecting their own sexuality #especially with the bau... htey know themselves better than that #not all of them! i think jj and spencer struggle to come to terms with it (jj moreso) #but derek? hotch? emily? penelope? they have deeper darker secrets that far outweigh whatever shame they may feel from being gay #if anything i think their homosexuality (bisexuality imo) is a relief for them... a breath of fresh air.. smth they can love ab themselves #an outlet... physically and emotionally... suckin n fuckin to forget how much they hate themselves #bc they DO hate themselves #but they're not plagued by the.. by the SHAME jj and reid have #theres a difference i think #and people can project if they want--thats totally fine #i just dont think it suits their characters

[catmask]

sometimes while i think about that while a lot of adults did not treat me very well as a kid i also get a lot of 'in hindsight this person was so good to me and i didnt even realize it until now' as an adult. today i was thinking about how the first anime convention i ever went to was when i was 10 and i asked the man working the manga cafe what manga was/what a good place to start was (because the con was very overstimulating for me and i had gotten lost) and he asked how old i was before recommending yotsuba and asking if i wanted any water or something to eat. its really simple but theres a lot of bad things that couldve happened or he could've been careless in his recommendation, but instead yotsuba has remained one of my favorite manga for years, and probably a large portion of why i continue to read manga as an adult... i think adults who try to involve kids in the world safely/kindly even in little ways make so much more of a difference than they ever really know.

#and i know that sounds silly like YES. it was just a bookr ecommendation #but i feel like a lot of people either dont really care about whats a good starting point for younger kids in their shared fan spaces #or dont really take the care to recognize different peoples ages would effect what they would both enjoy or #be capable of engaging with #not to mention theres a lot of manga that would NOT have been appropriate for a 10 year old to read #so the fact that he askedd and even asked what sort of thing i liked at the time #was very sweet. i think about him a lot and i hope hes doing well #txt #scratchpost

[anthonygaycrowley]

did y'all know that donna's husband in forest of the dead was meant to be a trans man, and they just couldn't find a way to make it explicit in-text

donna noble manages to get herself a trans family in every version of reality huh

#and also it makes me rly happy to think of one of my favourite characters falling in love w a trans man :) #like i adore her and rose's accepting parent/child relationship ofc #but theres also a different kinda validation in seeing 'this trans character is loved romantically' #doctor who #dr who #donna noble #tenth doctor #rtd #moffat #mine

[siren-of-agony]

Answers to "it hurts"

I know (apologetically)

I know (condescendingly)

It's supposed to

Good

I'm sorry

It'll be over soon

Stop whining

And it'll get worse if you don't *insert threat*

Well it wouldn't have to if you didn't *insert mistake*

You're supposed to say 'thank you'

I love hearing you say that

This is nothing, I'll show you actual pain

Get used to it

You'll get used to it

Stop lying

At least you still feel it

Shut up

Why don't you beg me to stop, then?

Can't be that bad if you're still talking

I don't care

Did I ask?

It's the only way you'll learn

You can take it

Answers to "please stop"

#whump #whump dialogue prompt #whump dialogue #whump prompt #whumblr #I've had this in my drafts half done for 3 weeks but after finishing 3 prompts for whumpmas and not getting the instant gratification of #posting #i needed to throw something out there today so i would maybe get a bit of serotonin from posting #additions always welcome #also yes theres a dif between get used to it and you'll get used to it #and yes im defening me in front of myself cause every time i read it i think i accidentally have the same thing twice #but like #it's different #right?

[nailsinmywall]

3 generations of curufinwës (fëanor, curufin, celebrimbor)

#heeeeyyyyy lol #silmarillion #silmart #feanor #curufin #celebrimbor #tolkien #i started this drawing like 2+ years ago i think #god it feels so good to have finally finished it #THE CURUFINWES! #bloody shiny sexy red #this was a pain in the ass #omg theres like 10 different rendering styles in this

[cynicallyneutral]

Go accla!!!!

#narusasu #sasunaru #naruto #sasuke #uzumaki naruto #uchiha sasuke #idk if theres any difference tagging their full name #and i hear tumblr only takes the first four #but shooting ny shot #my art #round fox baby #naruto’s boyfriend #U CANNOT BELIEVE THIS TOOK ME 10-12 HOURS #TO FUCKIG DRAW #FUCK U SASUKE #well i think it was around 9-10 #bc i had to walk dem doggos and then #eat breakfast yanno ahahahahdjdjddkjff #but yeah fuck u sasuke why r u so hard to draw??? #u defy my art style too much

[caramelldansenu]

#art #fanart #drawing #sketch #cult of the lamb #cotl #cotl narinder #cotl shamura #cotl heket #my hand is starting to die out #anyway i totally think shamura is its favorite sibling and it would constantly give them longing looks behind their back #i hc that theres only a 1-3 year difference between heket and narinder so there's constant fighting when they're around each other #i didnt want to add a thousand dots so just imagine she's signing #i actually dont have shamura yet im a bit sad about that #very shoddy sketch i couldnt go over it again cause my hand started killing me midway through #a crown for shamura too because both the death cat and war spider have lost their minds in some form of way 😁👍

[lunar-lattice]

dunmeshi and fma were already kinda taking up similar niches in my brain bc 'really good story told by a female author' but the more i think abt it, the more im CONVINCED fma influenced dunmeshi

a sibling relationship is a big focus (bonus gold hair and eyes)

dark but relatively simple premise that gets increasingly more complex until you hit cosmic proportions

similar tonal shifts (like how you can get comedy then super emotional beats in the same sequence)

similar art in terms of how it can go from the most beautiful art youve ever seen to low-effort for comedy

well thought-out worldbuilding and politics within said world

a more calm section after the intense climax that largely deals with solving our original issue

#now there is obv a LOT of differences between the two #both between the plots and just how they are plotted #but i think im cooking #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #fma #fullmetal alchemist #theres probs a lot of other similarities but i tried to keep with ones that deal with like #how the story was built and told #just wildcat things

[elftwink]

to preface this post i am anti-advertising i think we should explode the entire industry but it's sooo funny when you people make posts like "and they don't even work!!" like. sorry to be the bearer of bad news but yes they do. that's why we have to put up with so many despite everyone hating them and thinking its annoying. because they actually work really well and make a shit load of money

#it actually would be way better if they didnt work and made no money bc businesses would abandon them #this isnt like stocks where everythings abstract and is essentially gambling (i dont understand stocks) #like ppl in the ad industry create things. that make a tangible and quantifiable impact on the business #which is then used in further ad planning. it is NOT all smoke and mirrors #like its fake in that the industry is not providing a necessary service the way like. grocery stores are #but its not the level of fake where everything is abstract like theres deliverables #moreover there is an extensive body of academic work specifically on how to make ads more effective #ALSO i think some of u views ads like. as if they have a win condition. which is you buy product #but in current advertising this is pretty rare and comparatively ineffective #which is why you see MANY ads which dont seem to be selling anything in particular. or which have nothing all to do with the product #the 'win' condition for THAT kind of ad is something more like 'viewers remember our name' #like. ex i would say ads for temu have not been effective on me bc i havent bought anything from them #but temu probably thinks they were SUPER effective on me because i talked abt them like 5 different times at work #and i do in fact know exactly what the company does and what they sell #and they were able to capitalize on the reputations of existing companies (wish shein etc) to build their own brand #good idea generator

[sonknuxadow]

collection

#sorry i saw someone say sonic and tails dont see eachother as family at all again and it annoyed me #this isnt even all of the times theyve said it this is just a bunch of stuff i remembered off the top of my head #and also sonic has called tails little bro SO many times across different media that it would be impossible to track them all down #but i tried to include stuff from different media to show that this isnt a thing thats exclusive to one continuity or one period of time #because those are arguments i see people use to prove theyre not brothers #but even if it WAS something that is mentioned a lot in earlier sonic media and not so much in recent stuff. #not mentioning something as often anymore doesnt automatically make it non canon?? especially if theres no new info contradicting it #sonic frontiers spoilers #the sage picture probably looks irrelevant to people who havent played frontiers #but she was talking about sonic and tails there which is why i included it #also i put that aosth clip instead of screenshots from it because i didnt think a couple screenshots would do it justice #you really have to see the whole thing

[apileofmoss]

INTRODUCING..! THE R800!!!!!!! @ranboolivesaysstuff other versions under cut :3

main art taglist: @snaxle @neonkoii @areus-in-a-little-cave @aiilov-c @cupsmp @cnnamonrolls @yourfriendphoenix @wiiwarechronicles @tee-gee-em @tweewig @omegamoo @t3rm1n0s @atthebell @avid-dust-collector @marszstar @frauggietheperson @trannycrisis @exerjack @possuminnit @dyketango @coffeeflavored-tears @aliveburs2 @meeowerzz @routeriver @qjaiden @faglovesongs @jewdykecrowley @j0nxer @jeanbean16 (ask to be added/removed)

#ranboo #ranboo fanart #ranboo rebrand #ranbrand #r800 #r800 fanart #I HAD NO CLUE WHAT TO DO FOR THE BACKGRROUUNNDD #theres like 6 different versions #also im thinking about putting this up on my inprnt but for that i'd need to figure out a good background... .. #mossisgay

[bigshotautos]

THOUGHT GAINED: REGICIDE

#spamvil #deltarune #jevil #spamton g spamton #spamton #my art #i went a little insane with this one. this concept's been living in my head for literal months and finally just got about finishing it #spamton visits card kingdom! he finds that he doesn't like it that much. no one knows who he is and there's already four kings. #in my head this is once they start getting along as friends #with jevil showing him around and playfully ribbing on him but the animosity is gone #he's mostly joking but every /j has a little /srs. he would be spamtons clown but he knows spamton would think its solely teasing #jevil can get away with being completely genuine sometimes because the way he talks is so obtuse or ominous #btw the throne room has all the treasure in it and theres four thrones lined up theyre just not in the shot #it looked different before spade king rolled in is what im thinking #anyway this is a visualization of my brainrot WELCOME TO THE SHITSHOW #extra tag for ghost tagging.

[rouge-the-bat]

"playlists are meant to be like this, not that!" actually playlists are for ME and my personal tastes and yall are blessed to be able to witness my divine choices

#i haaate people complaining about playlists #ppl are organizing that shit and sharing it for free :/ #ppl have their own tastes and will make and enjoy things in different ways #theres not a right way to do it #i WILL have a mix of songs picked based on lyrics matching characters and/or if its something i think theyd listen to! #i WILL make it as long or short as i want! #bc its my personal playlists to enjoy first and foremost

[peaceandlove26]

silly… silly little dog

#anthro #fursona #SILKIE STILL EXISTS SHE DIDNT DIIIIE this is just me when im real #^ ootd from yesterday btw #i wore shoes though. promise #this skirt is one of my favorites because i think its just some random handmade thing #all the buttons (which i didnt draw sadly) are different shapes and all sparkly #and theres no tags #it’s fun!!!

[autisticaradiamegido]

day 267

the arajade emo band is back with a few new members

to the anon who suggested the band name and concept?? you're still so right. i have been thinking about it since the last drawing. so fuckin true dude.

#day 267 #year 4 #aradia megido #jade harley #feferi peixes #damara megido #homestuck #i love a band au #i may be biased bc i had a lot of fun boppin around different bands in high school but theres just smth about like #considering what a character is like and how that would translate to their Stage Presence #like do they create a particular persona when theyre onstage? does anything give them stage fright? how do they play off mistakes? etc etc #its just a fun aspect of a character to consider! #not to mention the group dynamics like theres just a lot to work with and i think its so fun

[calsvoid]

yes i support jason being taller than bruce for angst purposes and yes i also support jason being shorter than bruce for fluff purposes it’s called bisexuality

#dc #dc comics #batfamily #batfam #batdad #batman #red hood #jason todd #bruce wayne #i just love adding to bruce’s grief #have an extra reminder that everything is different and theres no getting those years back and it’s one more thing you lost #but i also love love and think it’s nice that despite everything jason could still fit into bruce’s arms and feel like a son again