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rainbownixie · 2 years

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i normally ask u abt stranger things but i'm gonna switch things up today. u should talk to me about stenbrough + aro bill maybe

also i hope u feel better soon <333

the way i've been thinking about stenbrough today- you literally read my mind!!! and bill is so aro (demiromantic actually) lol it's canon stephen king told me himself actually!!!! (gonna focus more on the 2017 adaptation because i can and because the 90s film and the book give me more hanbrough energy)

bill has never really liked anyone romantically. never understood all the romance in general. he understands why people like it so much (specially after having to hear eddie talking about richie all the damn time), but he's somehow unable to portray it in his stories because he doesn't know how it truly feels like! so he feels the need to fall in love and look for the thing he lacks before it's too late! he's an impatient boy, after all

he feels deeply attached to stan. he cares a lot for him and often finds himself drawing the boy because he just looks so... beautiful that he can't help it. bill just loves spending time with him. it's relaxing and calm and somehow a bit exciting (his heartbeat goes faster whenever stan smiles or laughs) but he guesses it's because he's different from the other two idiots he calls his best friends. stan is different from everyone else, really.

and then bevs appears! and she's obviously pretty and awesome and the coolest girl he's ever met. he definitely feels something for her, but he can't exactly explain what. attraction for sure, but thanks to that bill assumes he likes her. romantically. it's actually just a silly crush because, in all honesty, who wouldn't have a crush on bevs? (probably reddie only tbh)

oh, and stan hates it. he doesn't have beverly, of course, he would never. in fact he likes her a lot! she's pretty much the only one smart and cool enough to handle all of those idiots with him. they get along. it's just that... bill looks at her the way stan wants him to look at him. and it's frustrating, because he used to think there was something between them. perhaps he was just wrong.

and bill keeps thinking he's somehow in love with bevs, so he tries to write something romantic once again. but he can't. he just can't. he can draw beverly and describe her beauty but he can't, for some reason, write down what he feels for her. maybe he's just broken, or that's what he thinks. because for eddie is so easy to be in love with richie (even if he constantly denies it) and bill just wants to feel that way.

even when beverly flirts back, he just can't get himself to feel the way he wants to feel around her. the way he feels around stan. but he still thinks it's because stan is just different. even different enough to compare him to bevs.

stanley talks to richie about bill A LOT. and it's funny because he always tries to complain and blame bevs, but he just can't. and richie makes fun of him and makes jokes to comfort him, but he genuinely doesn't know what to do because he's also in love with his best friend and he's a coward just like stan. at least they're both losers together, and that sort of comforts them both.

eddie knows bill is in love with stan. it's painfully obvious and it's killing eddie with frustration because he knows that if he tells bill then he will probably deny it and say it's impossible. because stan is special and different but not in that way. and eddie is so so tired of hearing bill talk about how pretty bevs is, but how he still doesn't know how love feels like and doubts that he will ever love somebody. (little does he know that it's because he's demiromantic)

ben builds their little underground hideout!! and god bill thinks it's the perfect place to stare at stan without him noticing. he can seat on a corner while he talks with another loser and draw him. he's just pretty okay? what's bill gonna do? not draw him??? his whole sketchbook is full of drawings of stan and sketches of all the birds he likes.

they often go bird watching together. because bill loves drawing the birds (and stan) and stan likes to talk about them for hours. bill really likes his voice.

every time bill feels lonely he calls stan and viceversa. they often even meet late at night in secret just to spend time together and watch the stars. they almost kiss once, but bill for scared before it could happen.

stan loves reading bill's stories. he often gives him ideas and analogies and metaphors to use!! he's his fan n1 and his beta reader. although they don't realize he's his beta reader, bill just likes to show him his stories first because it feels right.

stan always lets bill finish his sentences and helps him with his reading because he knows how annoying it is for him when people interrupt him

remember that period of summer where they aren't together? yeah, well. richie has to deal with stan complaining about how careless and how much of an idiot bill was. that he's an asshole and a jerk and selfish for making them all go through that. and richie sort of agrees, to be honest. because he misses being able to be with eddie and the others and the whole thing almost gets them killed. but he knows it's even harder for stan, because it isn't just a silly crush on bill. he's in love with bill. and only richie knows how that feels.

stan knows that bill and bevs see each other from time to time that summer. it really bothers him but it's not like he's going to apologize to bill. he really feels like shit because he thought bill would care enough to go after him and apologize, but apparently stan isn't special enough.

bill calls eddie once to apologize and they talk a lot (when his mom isn't home ofc) and he mentions he misses stan. because he does! he's gotta be honest and he misses stan the most! he even has his silly little shower hat against spiders with him only because he refuses to let go of it. oh, and he starts writing something. it's pretty angsty, but it's better than nothing. and he knows it's about stan but doesn't really want to accept that the 'love' part is about him too.

the whole clown thing happens, and bill almost loses stan. and he doesn't want to lose someone else again. he realizes, then, that he's of course scared when bevs is all possessed by the deadlights. he loves her. but he doesn't love her the same way he loves stan. it's scary too, but it's not the same type of scary.

then ben kisses beverly, and bill thinks he's supposed to be jealous. he should be, if he really liked bevs. but he isn't. he doesn't care. he's just worried and wants that damn kiss to work. and it works! but maybe he should've been jealous, or so he thinks.

yay! scary clown is dead! all the losers cheered! and bill finds himself not leaving stan's side when they get out of there. not because ben, bevs and mike are together and richie and eddie are walking on their own. but because he wants him close. and he doesn't exactly know what's the feeling inside of him, but he wants to hold stan's hand. he doesn't, of course, but he wants to. and he suddenly feels the need to write.

he gets to hold stan's hand and kind of wished it was on another circumstances, but that have to make that umm pact with blood? (i'm with eddie here that's so damn unhygienic) and he gets to look into his eyes directly. he looks down, and bill feels the urge to kiss stan. because he knows he's still scared af and is only doing the whole pact thing for them. and he wants to calm him down. eddie told him one day that kissing reduces anxiety, but he knows he doesn't want to kiss stan because of that.

stan only makes that promise for bill (and maybe for richie too) because he just doesn't want to picture a future in which he has to fight and not be on his side. he also doesn't want to look like a coward. damn, even ben and eddie are doing it! and bill is so damn close he wants to cry.

bill kisses bevs, only to know if he actually feels something for her. but he doesn't feel anything, and wishes he could've kissed stan right then and there when he had the chance. bevs only smiles when he sees his shocked expression, because he just realized that he's in love with stan. and she's too smart to not notice.

time goes by and bill gets married to audra! but it's weird because he still feels empty, somehow. he loves her a lot and he knows her by heart but they haven't really created that bond he needs to write romance. well, he doesn't remember his youth so he just assumes he isn't good at writing romance and that's all. but then he finds himself, after mike's call, being able to think about thousands of romantic ideas for his books. and it's weird because he's fucking frightened to go to derry again, but he doesn't feel empty anymore.

(stan isn't dead bc i said so) stan shows up! awesome! and he's married to patty but his heart literally drops the moment he sees bill. he's just so... so different but yet the same bill he knew.

bill wants to draw stan the moment he walks through that door and if he weren't so damn scared he probably would've asked him to go bird watching right at that moment.

they find out they're both married! and it's... uncomfortable. bevs sees that. she knows. richie knows. MIKE DEFINITELY KNOWS. and it's so damn obvious.

they get a moment together alone in that motel and bill wants to show him something he's been working on and confesses he's only been in love once and doubts it could happen again. he doesn't get to say with who or show him his story, because then bevs says something about seeing all of them literally dying and everything gets a bit tense.

yadda yadda yadda pretty much normal plot

they obviously find stan's object first, but he can't be with anyone because they're supposed to find those things alone. so he comes back to the motel. and guess what he finds???? exactly he finds the pages bill wanted to show him before! and they're all about how lonely someone can feel when they can't fall in love, but how complete the protagonist felt around his curly haired best friend. one that loves birds and is a boy scout. and stan feels guilty and as a really shitty husband because he loves patty, but it's bill telling him somehow that he loves him back and he just can't help but smile.

stan is so freaking scared because he doesn't want to die but doesn't want to leave them all alone either. they need him for it to work. bill tells him that he needs him there with them. and they're so close and bill didn't stutter once so he accepts. richie raises his eyebrows at him and he hates it.

yadda yadda yadda plot of the movie. scary clown happens. stan actually saves eddie! no one dies! this is amazing! god i love to fix stephen's bury your gays trope!

he tells bill at the quarry that he read what he wrote, and bill stutters and gets all nervous but stan is just so damn done with their back and forth that he just kisses him! the losers are all so damn happy and reddie is canon too bc i said so

anyway they end up on a polyam relationship with patty and audra because i love those girls with my whole heart and bill ends up loving stan and his wife the same! demiromantic stuff he just needed to bond more with her and have stan close.

this was so damn long i am sorry i just love them- i loved this ask btw people never ask me about IT so it's awesome to talk about it here <3 (i'm too tired to read all of this again if there's any typo i am sorry) and this really helped me so!!! thank you so so much 💛💛🌻🌻

#these two are my beloved #whenever someone asks me stuff like this i always end up writing long ass fics here #i am sorry about that i kin bill i'm a writer it is what it is #i somehow always end up making everything polyam??? great tbh those girls deserve to be happy #stenbrough #bill denbrough #stanley uris #it 2017

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united-under-skyfall · 11 months

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leverage is so fucking funny. man manages to find the most mentally ill and neurodivergent group of thieves on the market + an even more mentally ill guy whose literal job description was trying to chase all of them, and forces them into a found family speed-run by trying to blow them all up. they lowkey stage a full fucking country wide coup and are like eh 🤷 just another wednesday. this might be a fun place to vacation tho i guess. sophie shows up to her own funeral twice. they're so good at convincing people of their shit that they make a guy's body start reacting to an illness he doesn't have because it isn't real. go completely out on a limb and basically hand this one guy a new password for his computer so they can get into it and he goes with it. parker and hardison have straight up just "fake it 'till you make it"d into the fbi without even attempting to cover their tracks beyond just These Two Guys. half their clients never asked to be their clients and don't know they're their clients, and the other half are random people who find them who fuckin knows how, meanwhile no government agency can track them down without selling their soul to sterling. they make a point to have a dramatic scene w a Big Bad Shadowy Government Guy who doesn't actually get caught or brought to justice or anything telling them he's going to hunt them all down, and in any other show this would probably earn at least a minor arc later on but he literally never shows up again. an entire season finale hinged on a cake and a bunch of clams. they accidentally made eliot a celebrity not once, not twice, but three times. parker blew up her foster parents' house when she was like. nine. and it's hardly a footnote. hardison is just casually an artistic prodigy but it's only ever brought up for the most background of background gags. eliot's biggest beef with parker and hardison for like two and a half seasons is that they won't stop making weird food with lasers and refuse to realize they can't make a decent beer to save their lives. sophie's immediate response to being shot is to call her shooter a wanker. there's a character who has literally killed a man with a mop and they had the audacity to only put her in one episode.

#leverage my beloved <3 #ramble #leverage #i also feel the need to point out that. while yes sophie did show up to her own funeral twice. she also technically was the driver to bring #her own ''corpse'' to wherever interpol was sending it lmfao #re: eliot being made a celeb 3 times bc some people are confused—country singer; baseball player; hockey player #didnt count the knockout job bc i think that was p local focused? could be wrong #re: character who killed a man w a mop = mikel dayan (hitter from the two live crew job)#this post is getting people interested in leverage lets goooooooo #this post has also officially surpassed the number of people i expected to ever know or care about leverage by several thousands #bc even though logically i know it aired as an actual tv show over several years and a lot of people probably saw it #that does not compute in my head #leverage spoilers

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