#they can go both ways

[you-usuratonkachi]

forget about endgame couples for a moment and let's focus on what of all the Will storyline is actually plot relevant, because if there's one thing i'm pretty sure of, is that all the emotional pain he's been through this season will be addressed nextseason.

why do i think that?

it was stated before that we would find out why Will was the first one to be taken to the upside down and it occurred to me that out of all the pain he went through by hiding his feelings for Mike and supporting Mike’s relationship with El, the most fucked up thing he got in return was the person he loves saying that the day Mike started to live is the day Mike also found out that he was missing. And that didn't go unnocited by the characters. The camera focuses both on Will and Jonathan (though you could argue that it’s about the whole monologue, not just that part, but same difference). 

Now, if this was simply a statement to reinforce Mike's love for El... well, my guys, it would be the most horrible thing EVER. Of course it still is, but it makes me wonder, from a writing pov, WHY they chose to include that. 

We know that in the main plotline the upside down stopped "aging" when El opened the gate, which is "coincidentally"  the day Will went missing, consequently leading to El and Mike’s meeting. 

If the point of that confession was simply that, a confession, that sentence would have been TOTALLY unnecessary.There was no reason for Mike to say that. they could have given him different words to confess his love, there was no  need to hurt Will specifically in the process... unless it was building up to something else, unless it's drawing our attention to that day specifically and what led to it, unless there is meaning to Will missing and El coming into Mike's life on that day. 

It was still shitty of Mike of course,  but i can see how putting such a sentence right there brought attention to it, which is, i suppose, what the writers wanted to stand out (or am i giving them too much credit? I’m 50/50 on this, i can’t decide either lmao)

What made us mad the most this season is the way they had Will express his feelings as El, the way he said El commissioned the painting, the way Mike kinda repeated Will's words to El. Will was, in a way, "sacrificed", to give El more space. Which, if you think about it, is exactly what happened the day Will went missing. He went, she came. 

Remember also how people kept inferring that El and Will looked alike in S1? Maybe it's a small detail, but it's something that came up over and over in the story. 

The fact that Will basically confessed to Mike by masquerading it as El's feelings makes me feel even more strongly about this. It's like El and Will are somehow connected, like two sides of one coin. 

It's probably not the case, but I do wonder if Will was taken because he was mistaken for El that very first day... There's definitely something about the writing choices this season that makes El and Mike's relationship feel like it stands on  Will's ashes and the more I think about it, the more it feels intentional. 

Will confessing by using El's name MUST be addressed. His painting MUST be addressed again. Those lies cannot simply fall flat. There are too many parallels between El and Will (and both their relationships with Mike) at this point to ignore them. They have always been there but it feels like they were put at the forefront this season and that Will's feelings for Mike aren't simply the Duffer finally deciding to make Will's sexuality explicit, but to draw attention to the fact that he and El? feel the same way, they are so much alike, they have always been. 

That first day, after opening the gate, El went missing from the lab. Everyone was searching for her, One specifically would have searched for her the most because he wanted her to open more gates (and it was the first time he could reach into Hawkins to actively do that). Is it that far fetched that his underling, the demogorgon, got the wrong person?

I don’t know if i like this theory or not myself, but I think it’s perhaps worth thinking about. 

(assuming it was the demogorgon who took him and not One himself. someone pointed out that in that first ep, Will closes the door of his house and the door gets opened by telekinesis-kind of powers, which would definitely hint at One more than a demogorgon. this would definitely make my point moot lmao but still if it was One who targeted Will, WIll MUST have something that One wanted from him)

I don’t want to delude myself, but I think we have reason to believe that Will will be the center of next season like Max was this season. He’s inherently connected to the beginning of the upside down, it all started with him. To explain the upside down, they must address his dissapearance once again (One’s actor already said that Will was the center of it all and the Duffers said they would explain why he was taken) and contrary to how it felt like at first watch, I now realize that S4 was nothing more that the beginning of everyone’s character arc. 

None of the problems that came up in S4 have been resolved by the end. We felt like they would because it was split in two volumes, but Vol 2 left everything unresolved and if anything it created more confusion. 

Nancy and Jonathan’s problems? Unresolved. Steve’s feelings for Nancy? Unresolved. Robin’s storyline with Vikie? Unresolved. Vecna himself is unresolved. El’s independecy character arc is unresolved. Mike’s ooc behavior with WIll? Unresolved. His monolugue to El? Never addressed or acknowledged after the fact so also unresolved. 

I know at first it might feel like the monologue resolved the problems between Mike and El, but the truth is that every watcher KNOWS that it was brought upon by Will’s sacrifice. That makes it feel WRONG. It was the result of LIES. 

Lies are what are keeping the Jancy storyline open and I have reason to believe it’s the same for Mike and El. We haven’t seen the end of their characters’ arcs at all. It’s going to conclude in S5, this was just the beginning. 

#byler #do i know how they will actually conclude their character arcs #no #i'm still 50/50 about it #they can go both ways #but the thing is #it's the last season #there's nobody to answer to anymore after this #they can do whatever they want #and that's a scary thought #but maybe it's also good for us? #who knows #i think i will be able to tell based on how El reacts to Mike's monologue #and i think they didn't show that to us on purpose

[inkskinned]

the thing is there's like, a point of oversaturation for everything, and it's why so many things get dropped after a few minutes. and we act like millennials or gen z kids "have short attention spans" but... that's not quite it. it's more like - we did like it. you just ruined it.

capitalism sees product A having moderate success, and then everything has to come out with their "own version" of product A (which is often exactly the same). and they dump extreme amounts of money and environmental waste into each horrible simulacrum they trot out each season.

now it's not just tiktokkers making videos; it's that instagram and even fucking tumblr both think you want live feeds and video-first programming. and it helps them, because videos are easier to sneak native ads into. the books coming out all have to have 78 buzzwords in them for SEO, or otherwise they don't get published. they are making a live-action remake of moana. i haven't googled it, but there's probably another marvel or starwars something coming out, no matter when you're reading this post.

and we are like "hi, this clone of project A completely misses the point of the original. it is soulless and colorless and miserable." and the company nods and says "yes totally. here is a different clone, but special." and we look at clone 2 and we say "nope, this one is still flat and bad, y'all" and they're like "no, totally, we hear you," and then they make another clone but this time it's, like, a joyless prequel. and by the time they've successfully rolled out "clone 89", the market is incredibly oversaturated, and the consumer is blamed because the company isn't turning a profit.

and like - take even something digital like the tumblr "live streaming" function i just mentioned. that has to take up server space and some amount of carbon footprint; just so this brokenass blue hellsite can roll out a feature that literally none of its userbase actually wants. the thing that's the kicker here: even something that doesn't have a physical production plant still impacts the environment.

and it all just feels like it's rolling out of control because like, you watch companies pour hundreds of thousands of dollars into a remake of a remake of something nobody wants anymore and you're like, not able to afford eggs anymore. and you tell the company that really what you want is a good story about survival and they say "okay so you mean a YA white protagonist has some kind of 'spicy' love triangle" and you're like - hey man i think you're misunderstanding the point of storytelling but they've already printed 76 versions of "city of blood and magic" and "queen of diamond rule" and spent literally millions of dollars on the movie "Candy Crush Killer: Coming to Eat You".

it's like being stuck in a room with a clown that keeps telling the same joke over and over but it's worse every time. and that would be fine but he keeps fucking charging you 6.99. and you keep being like "no, i know it made me laugh the first time, but that's because it was different and new" and the clown is just aggressively sitting there saying "well! plenty of people like my jokes! the reason you're bored of this is because maybe there's something wrong with you!"

#this was much longer i had to cut it down for legibility #but i do want to say i am aware this post doesnt touch on human rights violations as a result of fast fashion #that is because it deserves its own post with a completely different tone #i am an environmental educator #so that's what i know the most about. it wouldn't be appropriate of me to mention off-hand the real and legitimate suffering #that people are going through #without doing my research and providing real ways to help #this is a vent post about a thing i'm watching happen; not a call to action. it would be INCREDIBLY demeaning #to all those affected by the fast fashion industry to pretend that a post like this could speak to their suffering #unfortunately one of the horrible things about latestage capitalism as an activist is that SO many things are linked to this #and i WANT to talk about all of them but it would be a book in its own right. in fact there ARE books about each level of this #and i encourage you to seek them out and read them!!! i am not an expert on that i am just a person on tumblr doing my favorite activity #(complaining) #and it's like - this is the individual versus the industry problem again right because im blaming myself #for being an expert on environmental disaster (which is fucking important) but not knowing EVERYTHING about fast fashion #i'm blaming myself for not covering the many layers of this incredibly complicated problem im pointing out #rather than being like. yeah so actually the fault here lies with the billion dollar industries actually. #my failure to be able to condense an incredibly immense problem that is BOOK-LENGTH into a single text post that i post for free #is not in ANY fucking way the same amount of harm as. you know. the ACTUAL COMPANIES doing this ACTUAL THING for ACTUAL MONEY. #anyway im gonna go donate money while i'm thinking about it. maybe you can too. we can both just agree - well i fuckin tried didn't i #which is more than their CEOs can say

[whalesfall]

btw. your search for the most morally upright and ethical piece of media that has the most correct “representation” will destroy your ability to find the most profound and beautiful and human of stories. and may even destroy the stories themselves before they are created. if you even care.

#the search for the Ideal Representation is both unattainable and soul-crushing. childrens cartoons moral codes are not #the best way to judge a piece of media #and the stories created by the very people in the communities that are most silenced are always the first ones to be #targeted for their Problematic Factors #as if any story can properly encapsulate the breadth of every complex human experience in one go #something isn't inherently deserving of being reduced to Irredeemable Media status just because you cannot personally relate to it #on the other hand approaching every single story as if its only value is its Shipping Status and how you can #incorporate it into your identity (and stake your Moral Uprightness based on how Ethically you consume said media) #is not necessarily any better. but different post is needed. #aughhhh bite bite chomp kill

[aunmenosheteroenespanol]

2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered

Tommy's family arc

#911 #911edit #911 abc #911 show #911 spoilers #911 season 7 #tommy kinard #evan buckley #evan 'buck' buckley #kinley #bucktommy #kinkley #tevan #pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name #anyway analysis time! #looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud #babygirl was back there getting into narnia #he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins #even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something #but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think #and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself #because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you #then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is #and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough #or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him #rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless #my edits

[noecoded]

heartbreaking:the worst people you know just started an emo band

#the worst TWO people you know.beel got dragged into tjis #their band iscalled fatal attraction.asmo came up w it #&they give beel lollipops on stage so he can use both his hands but stillhas something 2munch on...... #someone said asmo wld be problematic like 2000s jeffree star and i yhinkthey were on to somethinng #i think his interpersonal conduct with fans would be really distasteful in a way that bands cld only get away with during the 2000s #he wld be well liked. but he wouldhave an effect on them that permanently dmgs their taste in partner and psyche #like his ego wld be just kind of annoying until fans start getting his signature tattooed onthem and stuff and it would immediately go to #asmos head so badd to the point where being arnd him is like an impossible task unless ur the worldsbiggest pushover& soo patient #mine #obey me #asmo #beel #belphie

[buttercupbuck]

"you know, my therapist says everyone needs a safe space, a place where you can fully be yourself"

[image description: 2 large gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 6 episode 12. in the diaz home, eddie (out of frame) watches buck sleep on his couch, his arm draped across the sofa.

gif 2: from season 7 episode 5. at buck's apartment, the camera pans as eddie, holding his phone, turns to face buck as buck rounds the corner of his kitchen island.

/end ID]

#the way they both seek refuge in each other makes me so incredibly unwell actually #its just. its always been them #no matter the homes they've tried and failed to build with others it's always been the two of them #also don't even wanna go into the “a place where you can fully be yourself” / “you don't have to be anything for anyone” of it all #especially not in the context of both buck and eddie's storylines in 7.05 #maybe that'll be its own fun and separate set for when im less sleep deprived lol #eddie diaz #evan buckley #buddie #buck x eddie #911 on abc #911 abc #9-1-1 #alicia edits

[voiider]

I need codependent Danny/Jason as a little treat (for me) and I love the idea of them having some sort of instant connection the moment they meet (bc ghost stuff idk)

Danny who's been dropped in Gotham with no way home (alt universe??) and he's been here for 36 hours and having a Very bad time senses a liminal being and immediately latches onto them heedless of the fact that his new best friend is shooting at some seedy guys in an alley and goes off about how stressed he is and how he can't make it back to the ghost zone and what a bad day he's been having (and it's important to note Danny is a littol ghost boy literally hanging off of Jason's neck as he floats aimlessly) and Jason is like "who are you??" And Danny is like "oh sorry I'm Danny lol" and then just continues lamenting his woes

And honestly ? This might as well happen. Nothing about this Danny guy(is he human?) gives Jason a bad vibe and tbh he's never felt more calm and level headed before so he just keeps up his usual Red Hood patrol and doesn't even think about it when he heads back to a safehouse and feeds Danny dinner (breakfast) before crashing for half the day

The only thing I actually need is Jason meeting up with the bats for some sort of Intel meeting and they're like "uhhh who's that" and Jason is like "that's Danny." And does not elaborate (very ".... What do you have there?" "A smoothie" vibes)

And it takes them a while to realize that these two have known each other for less than 12 hours and are literally attached at the hip

#very remora fish with a shark #jason todd #danny fenton #danny phantom #dpxdc #dp x dc #this isnt super important but i imagine Danny's ghost form as young and unaged from his death so jason is used to this small whispy kid #who just hangs off him and talks literally all the time #so when something comes up and someone is like 'idk if we can bring danny looking like... that' (glowing and a literal ghost) #danny is like 'oh ok u need a human? ok :)' and transforms #its been WEEKS #jason didn't know he could do that #nobody did #and now theres this 20ish dude standing there #human form danny doesn't talk a lot (anxiety) ghost form danny can't stop talking (anxiety) #could be a ship fic and at this point jason goes from 'where is my little buddy :(' to 👀😳 #i imagine theres a sort of feedback loop with them both feeding off of each other's ecto energies and vibes idk #so when danny is human its not as strong #batman is convince this strange entity is like hypnoyizing his son and like hes not WRONG #but it goes both ways #idk #i just need more codependency fics :( #i should go on a bender #ignore my 500 open tabs and go to town

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Swapping tips on how to be a bestie in the bath.

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #dungeon meshi #marcille donato #It is going to take a long time for pd-mdzs to get to the bathtub scene. At least we can have another gay bathtub scene sooner. #I know everyone is hyping this up at the yuri episode but guys it does not even start nor stop at the bathtub scene. #Hey old danmeshi fans; you guys remember when the animated trailer came out in 2019 and we lost our minds? #Now we are on the cusp of getting a *second* animation of the farcille cuddle moment. It feels unreal. #I have missed drawing wwx so much by the way. This was so healing. #This week is for dungeon meshi and next week is for raffles. Wei Ying... I miss thee. #Marcille and wwx have more in common than just this but that's spoilers B*) #I'll be back Thursday with more Dungeon Meshi art. Wouldn't miss this one for the world. #DUNGEON MESHI SPOILERS: now that the anime has caught up to the scene…yeah this handshake was also about necromacy #and bringing back someone loved…wrong. It is also about being a prodigy who falls from grace #and they both opt to study something that is deemed ‘evil’ because society said it was. They believe their method can be used to help! #not to mention the toxic self-reliance qualities. And the dark outfit transformation moment. They should have brunch together.

[bytebun]

my piece for @thecodywanzine! thanks to the mods who let me go completely ham and cheese on this bad boy. this one's about living longer than you ever expected and not knowing what to do with it

#they're having a leftover sale with free shipping if you want a ridiculous amount of art and merch for an insanely low price #codywan #commander cody #obi-wan kenobi #star wars #comics #codywan zine #i went kinda nuts with the sun symbolism on this one. even i feel like its hamfisted but like listen am i not going to self-indulge #if not in a shipping zine piece then where #hope and love and the sun and etc can be an. omelette. spanish omelette specifically. that you share with your fambly #food cw #its also about looking at your best friend over a table and going. i lvoe you. i love you. i want to spend the rest of my life with you #i want to see the future with you. im so glad we're both alive even though i thought we'd both be dead by now #bytebun draws #lets not talk about the way there is zero consistency in my art style. <3

[gummi-ships]

#kingdom hearts dream drop distance #khddd #sora #riku #nightmare's end #mirage split #my gif #i was going to write up a whole thing in the tags about my thoughts on this keyblade #but i just know it'll be an incoherent essay because i can't properly articulate my thoughts #the x-blade must be forged through a clash of light and darkness #but i find it so highly significant that sora and riku can create their own keyblade which is so unheard of #this keyblade isn't created with a clash but rather through harmony and balance #not with conflict but with understanding and connection and love #and i always felt as though that's how the x-blade SHOULD be forged. that master xehanort went about it all wrong #because balance and connections are such important themes in these games #it has two handles and looks so regal when combined. all of the shapes feel reminiscent of the x-blade too #it shines so brilliantly with both sora and riku's symbols. the heart and crown which is the iconic logo for the entire series #also the way stained glass is always used to represent hearts. it's so significant! #and yeah the paupu fruit keychain is its own thing to unpack #okay so i ended up writing something anyway but there's still so much more #i just really hope we get to see more of this in future games because it would be shocking if it was nothing more than a cool combo attack

[lazycranberrydoodles]

i do not remember the plot of scum villain because i read it in 2020 and it feels like a fever dream now so my characterization is entirely based off of the fanon on my dash.

hualian are my favorite but i do feel that bingqiu deserve the win. tgcf is VERY yuri, but svsss has gender as a main theme and both characters keep getting compared to maidens. overall there are more explicit references to women regarding bingqiu.

#this is the first time ive ever scumposted yayyy #theyre also more toxic and weird and reserved about each other. in a good way. #to anybody else hualian is insane but compared to bingqiu its an honest and straightforward relationship #both have complex facades built off of society and trope expectations but hualian drop theirs immediately #and to this day sqq and lbh are still fighting tooth and nail #in my experience yuri can be. a horrible spiderweb of expectations and assumptions and not wanting to make assumptions #hualian have the plausible deniability right up until the end (their romance is literally SO lesbian coded) but . after like 15 minutes #they can tell when the other person is lying #and honesty is less yuri than whatever bingqiu is going through at all times #tgcf #svsss #my art #i guess lmao #art #hualian #bingqiu #guy yuri poll #mspaint #ms paint #cringetober 2023 #cringetober #lmao

[ruporas]

on the run!! (ID in alt)

#trigun #trigun maximum #vash the stampede #meryl stryfe #milly thompson #nicholas d wolfwood #love & peace crew my beloved. its been awhile since i last finished a piece for all 4 of them which is Blasphemy on my part #anyway i just wanted to make an action ish illustration for them ... but my end goal was to be able to piece them off in duos #i like seeing them next to each other in those ways!! though vash's expression is a bit funny bc he's always going to be like >:O #i hope something can be gleamed from the way theyre all positioned though. i mean some things are blatant like how milly is all :D #certainly in tune to the danger and not Oblivious but still headstrong and capable of pushing thru alongside her friends!! #and mermilly are both looking forward.. onward to the future.... vw are both looking back... ww's in the back and trying to deflect #bullets with his punisher #“paws is it really this serious” No... IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE but i like to think about it #ruporas art

[hel1anthus-annuus]

Love this bitch for having multiple gender filters on. He’s transmasc, he’s a woman who’s a man, she’s nothing at all

#i love the idea of writing mizu as effectively nonbinary because of the constant isolation and alienation she feels #identifying with womanhood in a sort of secondary manner— a samurai first and a woman second #explores womanhood through mizu lol #no matter what. shes trans in some way #though i hesitate applying that label #if only because i dont think mizu would identify as trans in any instance; i’m sure mizu thinks he just IS #stuck between womanhood (something she doesn’t really care about) and manhood (a mask for her to put on to fulfill his goals) #and yet transmasc interpretations of mizu UTTERLY FASCINATE ME #AUGH! woman who is a man (this is both a transmasc and nonbinary filter) #thinking back to mizu binding. i wonder how he felt #that scene can have so many gender filters #pain— applicable to both a woman binding to avoid misogyny and a trans man binding to avoid misogyny and dysphoria #i think no matter how you see mizu; he’s dysphoric in that scene #i could go on #blue eye samurai

[heymacy]

IAN GALLAGHER + his journey with bipolar disorder

╰┈➤ “At times, being bipolar can be an all-consuming challenge, requiring a lot of stamina and even more courage, so if you’re living with this illness and functioning at all, it’s something to be proud of, not ashamed of." - Carrie Fisher

#happy world bipolar day to all my bp babies #(more thoughts at the end of the tags) #shameless #shamelessnet #shamelessedit #ian gallagher #cameron monaghan #*macygifs #bipolar disorder #hello pals how are we doin #i made this gif set in july of 2023 and never posted it because 1) i was terrified to share it and potentially see Bad Takes in the tags #and 2) because my hyperfixation was waning. and while both of those things are still mostly true (the fixation comes and goes) #i feel like it's really important to share as ian's bipolar storyline was not only so vital to his character it was a bit of representation #that isn't often given to the disorder and those (like myself) who live with it every single day #world bipolar day is a day where we can both celebrate ourselves and our resilience and also raise awareness of the reality of the disorder #which is both terrifying and beautiful at its core. this disease is not a death sentence or a sentence to an unfulfilled and miserable life #while there are challenges galore when it comes to balancing life with this disorder it IS possible to live a full and productive life #and i think it's really important to have representation of that in media - and while shameless dropped the ball on a LOT of storylines #over the years THIS is the one they really fucking nailed and i am incredibly grateful #i first started watching shameless while in the midst of a major depressive episode and i was later (finally) diagnosed during an extended #hypo/manic episode - this show and ian's storyline got me through so much and made me feel so seen and validated in my struggles #world bipolar day is also vincent van gogh's birthday (happy birthday buddy) who was posthumously diagnosed with bipolar disorder #and who experienced both depressive and hypo/manic episodes during his lifetime (and was regularly institutionalized) #it takes a lot of help and support to keep us going. it takes the support of our family and friends and *most* of all #it takes patience and kindness and understanding - which is so so so easy to give if you are willing to love and listen #so please. be willing. listen to our stories. be patient with us. show us love without conditions. support us in any way you can. #we are worth it #i promise #anyway. that's really all i wanted to say. happy world bipolar day to those who celebrate (me) and may all of us living with this disorder #go on to live happy fulfilling beautiful magical lives

[idliketobeatree]

#exposing myself here #do i mean writing or reading? #both. #btw i am in no way discrediting actual therapy if you can afford it i am begging you to go #i'm currently waiting for the state-paid one and in the meantime we cope #also sorry for the shit quality i did this on my phone and didn't expect more than 10 notes tbh i should've known better #good omens #ineffable husbands #crowley #aziraphale #staged #david tennant #michael sheen #good omens fanfic #good omens fandom #good omens fanfiction #good omens memes #good omens shitpost #ineffable fandom

[topnotchquark]

Nico saying that Lewis gives his daughters boxes of presents every Christmas just got caught in my mind.

Imagine you were a mixed race boy born in Hertfordshire, different from everyone else around you. Bullied in school, being raised by your father to compete in a sport where money is very much of essence and you and your family do not have a lot of it. And then you meet this other boy who comes from the kind of life you dream to live one day. You're friends and fierce competitors. You find solace in each other. You visit Monaco for the first time with your friend, dreaming up the life you will have when you make it, when you beat out of the mould that the world thought it could capture you in.

And then you two grow through the ranks and you're at the pinnacle of your sport and you have what it takes to win and the world recognises that you can win. And you win. You win with your friend and fiercest competitor by your side fighting with you for those wins, and this fighting ruins something something that was valuable to both of you when you were still innocent and unsullied by life.

But despite everything that went into the doing and undoing of this relationship, you still realise that this person you once called a friend has a life and family beyond your bitter dynamic. He has children, and children need love and affection and good memories. And you're a better man now so you understand that. So you make sure the kids get gifts on Christmas. And you make sure of it every year. Afterall, if you met someone you loved deeply when you were both kids, wouldn't you feel a pang of nostalgia when they had kids. Wouldn't you try to extend the warmth that you couldn't find for your friend to his children. Afterall, whatever happens during childhood basically remains with you forever.

#and nico's perspective of the same is just #being bullied as a child and being profoundly lonely till you find this friend who is in many ways the yardstick for performance #and even when you go through all this rancidity and the love has almost evaporated down to bare bones politeness #you know there is something that remains deep down #and so he gets your kids Christmas gifts each year #both their childhoods were sites of pain and both of them found something with each other #and lewis honours that by being a positive presence in nico's childrens' lives #albeit from a distance #and of course we're no strangers to how much Nico loves his kids #you can bet if Lewis had kids Nico would do that same #sorry this caught in my heart a little #I knew he had been giving presents for a while and I always thought of that as very beautiful but seeing it on the tl made me remember #man #love haunts you in such peculiar ways forever #brocedes #lewis hamiton #nico rosberg #f1 #formula 1