#trust me i've been burned before but IT'S A TV SHOW

[sarah-cam]

some of y'all are truly wild... this level of drama is so unnecessary. calling for the show to be canceled, somehow blaming the ACTORS, calling them "liars" and saying eric deserves to lose his job??

please get a FUCKING grip.

#chenford #the rookie #anti fandom #text #some of y'all need to go outside i am BEGGING #be sad be upset that's perfectly fine whatever but this is ridiculous #i'm so sick of this bullshit in fandoms #that's why i don't even get involved anymore because sooner or later they all turn into crazy weirdos #trust me i've been burned before but IT'S A TV SHOW #IT IS QUITE LITERALLY NOT REAL

[givesupp]

The Ones Who Live (episode 4 spoilers)

My head feels like it's going to implode in on me and I just need to vomit my thoughts somewhere before it does. I remember hearing about the The Walking Dead (literally everyone and their mother was talking about it). I remember never wanting to watch it because it was SO popular and I've never been a huge fan of watching anything while it was still going live and everyone was into it. I'm weird IDK.

I had just finished up another TV series and was feeling empty, as one usually does and just wanted to dive into a new series. I chose The Walking Dead, finally deciding to give it a chance. I binged the first 4 seasons on Netflix and as I was doing this, it was literally becoming life saving. Only a few short years prior to starting the series I had just started dealing with severe depression. It was crippling. IYKYK. And to make a long story short, falling in love with this show, falling in love with Rick Grimes gave me something to hold on to.

'It's just a show' - this has been said to me many times. But it's not just a show to me. It's a lifeline. Its taking an inspiring moment and grabbing it with the only strength you have left and burning it into your head because if they can do it you can do it. You'll think about it the next time you feel like you can't get out of bed because there just isn't a point. It's taking a character and watching him fight for his sons life while everyone around belittles his character as a father and leader and using that the next time you feel like your chest is about to cave in from the sheer force of anxiety that just hit you like a mack truck. And you think about this character persevering while you sit in the corner of your bathroom floor with a cold rag on your face just simply trying to breathe.

So many examples, so many moments TWD has breathed life back into me when nothing else could.

And then Richonne.

RICHONNE.

Oh my god, what a fucking absolute treasure to emerge from this series. The slowburn of it, the showcasing of patience and friendship, love and trust and overcoming loss and hardships - together.

Finding your person. Camaraderie. True, real love. A soulmate. This? Despite loss, death at the hands of others, death at the hands of your own, tragedy, hopelessness, mental illness, losing your child? I can't even find words to express what Rick and Michonne mean to me separately, but as a couple? I am unable to express in words because it just would not do justice to what they actually represent to me in my own personal life.

Nearly a month ago we were given The Ones Who Live episode 1. And I remember watching that and having to physically remove myself from my home, go outside, sit down on the ground and reflect while sun soaking near a river. That's how blown away I was over the writing, the story, the emotions centered around this character that I have watched and grown to love over years.

Episode 4? EPISODE 4 is a fucking WELLSPRING of emotions, struggle with mental wellness, disagreement, unconditional love, immense hurt, understanding and patience. A relationship struggling to be what it was, if not anything at all. A broken man and a broken woman. A son, who has DIED years ago still finding a way to be the one who brings his parents back together. Who brings strength to his dad even after all this time...

Carl placed in the palm of his fathers hand as a sketch on a broken phone breathing life back into him. This, from his wife. Finding a way to save him. Giving him a sense of purpose, meaning back to him after he declared his own death not that long ago because he could not and does not ever want to live without her.

You cannot tell me that this show isn't important.

That it isn't life saving.

That it isn't at the very least forcing us to reflect and discuss and acknowledge our own lives, our own relationships, our own mental health, our own circumstances, our -

No.

This isn't just a show to me.

Thanks for reading my vomit novel.

#richonne #rick grimes #michonne grimes #towl #twd towl #the ones who live

[fallenlightsif]

do the speak now (tv) album ask for this blog too 👀 i have to know what songs my blorbos relate to

Ofc anon 🙏

Mine: MC/Marcella

"Do you remember, we were sittin' there by the water? You put your arm around me for the first time; you made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter; you are the best thing, that's ever been mine"

Sparks Fly: MC/Florian

"I'm captivated by you, baby, like a fireworks show; drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain; kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain; cause I see sparks fly whenever you smile"

Back to December: MC/E

"I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't; so if the chain is on your door, I understand"

Speak Now: Kira

"So don't say yes, run away now; I'll meet you when you're out of the church at the back door"

Dear John: Rowan

"But I took your matches before fire could catch me so don't look now; I'm shining like fireworks over your sad empty town"

Mean: MC @ their mom

"You, with your words like knives and swords and weapons that you use against me; you have knocked me off my feet again, got me feeling like I'm nothing"

The Story of Us: MC/E

"Oh, I'm scared to see the ending, why are we pretending this is nothing? I'd tell you I miss you but I don't know how, I've never heard silence quite this loud"

Never Grow Up: Ezrah & MC

"To you, everything's funny, you got nothing to regret; I'd give all I have, honey, if you could stay like that"

Enchanted: MC/Florian

"There I was again tonight, forcing laughter, faking smiles, same old tired, lonely place; walls of insincerity, shifting eyes, and vacancy vanished when I saw your face"

Better Than Revenge: Ilaria

"Sophistication isn't what you wear, or who you know, or pushing people down to get you where you wanna go; they didn't teach you that in prep school, so it's up to me"

Innocent: Orion

"Did some things you can't speak of, but at night you live it all again; you wouldn't be shattered on the floor now if only you had seen what you know now then"

Haunted: Rowan

"It's getting dark and it's all too quiet and I can't trust anything now and it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake"

Last Kiss: MC/E

"I hope the sun shines, and it's a beautiful day, and something reminds you, you wish you had stayed; you can plan for a change in the weather and time but I never planned on you changing your mind"

Long Live: The Childhood Friends (Florian, MC, Marcella, and E)

"Hold on to spinning around, confetti falls to the ground, may these memories break our fall"

Ours: Orion/MC

"They'll judge it like they know about me and you; and the verdict comes from those with nothing else to do; the jury's out, but my choice is you"

Superman: MC/Cier

"He's not all bad like his reputation and I can't hear one single word they said; you leave, got places to be, and I'll be okay"

Electric Touch: MC/Julian

"I've got my money on things goin' badly, got a history of stories ending sadly; still hoping that the fire won't burn me just one time"

When Emma Falls in Love: Ari

"She won't walk away unless she knows she absolutely has to leave; and she's the kind of book that you can't put down, like if Cleopatra grew up in a small town"

I Can See You: MC/Cier

"I can see you waitin' down the hall from me, and I could see you up against the wall with me; and what would you do, baby, if you only knew?"

Castles Crumbling: Ilaria

"Ones I loved tried to help, so I ran them off; and here I sit alone behind walls of regret, falling down like promises that I never kept"

Foolish One: Dimitri

"And the voices say, “you are not the exception, you will never learn your lesson”; foolish one, stop checkin' your mailbox for confessions of love that ain't never gonna come"

Timeless: Orion/MC

"That's when I came upon a book covered in cobwebs, story of a romance torn apart by fate; hundreds of years ago, they fell in love, like we did, and I'd die for you in the same way"

#answered asks #florian vasil #marcella dumont #e renaud #julian fortier #dimitri volkov #ari novik #orion morosov #rowan lozano #kira argyris #cier katsaros #ilaria thayer #ezrah rhys

[ryin-silverfish]

Chapter 27-28: Spooky Scary Skellington

(Finally getting back to the book club after a few busy months...)

Chapter 27:

-The White Bone Spirit is one of the most iconic demoness of JTTW, and, as JTTW Research's post on her origin suggests, is likely inspired by the White Tiger Spirit + the giant skeleton nearby in 大唐三藏取经诗话.

-However, when Tripitaka asked about the origin of said giant skeleton at the bottom of a fiery pit, the Monkey Pilgrim gave the strange answer that "This is the place where the Heir Apparent, Ming Huang, changed his bones."(此是明皇太子换骨之处)

-What does that even mean?

-Well, at first, I thought it was just referring to "Corpse Release"(尸解), where Daoists attain immortality by leaving behind a fake corpse——usually a transformed object such as cane, clothes or shoes——to literally trick death.

-Then I finally got to read "Birth of JTTW"(西游记的诞生) by Cai Tieying, in which he traces the "changing of bones" to a legend in the Song dynasty record, 默记.

-Summary: an assassin was sent to kill Tang Minghuang (after he basically abdicated due to the An Shi Rebellion), hit him with a hammer in his sleep, and the hammer just bounced off his head with a clang.

-Minghuang woke up and was like "Yep, I've been expecting this"; ever since he had consumed jade and a golden elixir of immortality under the advice of the famous Daoist Ye Fashan, his bones were transformed into literal jade.

-So if the assassin wanted to kill him for good, he gotta split open Minghuang's skull and take out the elixir——an advice the assassin promptly followed.

-That peculiar little trivia aside, there is a theory about SWK's ability to see through demonic disguises in the Chinese JTTW booksphere, which might explain why Tripitaka never seems to trust him on that regard.

-Unlike in TV adaptations, the "Fiery Eyes and Golden Vision" doesn't work like an X-Ray; rather, it's more like an infrared thermal camera.

-This means SWK can't literally see through a demon or immortal's disguise and perceive their true form, just the general "aura" around them in the form of demonic or auspicious Qi.

-Thus, when this aura is hidden by ambience Qi, altered to fit one's general appearance or less on-the-nose(as later chapters would show), SWK's magical vision also takes a dive in accuracy.

-Furthermore, prior to WBS, none of the demons they encountered had used a human disguise in order to capture Tripitaka.

-So even if SWK said "Hey master, I can totally see through demonic disguises" after he killed the demoness(which he didn't), without precedents, it's gonna sound like he pulled the ability right out of his ass, as a shoddy excuse to justify murdering humans——something Tripitaka did witness before.

Chapter 28:

-Fun fact: during the Qing dynasty, there's a big-budget opera adaptation of JTTW called 升平宝筏, exclusively performed in the royal palace. In this version, the White Bone Spirit and Yellow-robed Demon are actually sworn siblings!

-After Yellow-robed Demon kidnapped the princess, she was the one who helped talk her into accepting the marriage. So when she was killed by SWK, Yellow-robed Demon was furious, and, as revenge, kidnapped Tripitaka + turned him into a tiger later.

-Combining different arcs, much like adding unnecessary romantic subplots, is actually quite common in Qing opera adaptations of JTTW. This change, however, makes more sense than the others.

-First, it explains the "family" that WBS offhandedly mentioned, secondly, the two arcs are already sequential, so making the two demons related doesn't seem like that far of a stretch.

-The burning of FFM is heartwenchingly described, and arguably where most villainous characterizations of Erlang come from. However, hear me out——I don't think he actually did it.

-At the end of Chapter 6, after Erlang caught SWK, his brothers was like "Enough talk, let's take him to the celestial realm." To which Erlang replied that sorry, they were not recognized as part of the celestial bureaucracy and literally not allowed to meet the Jade Emperor.

"But don't worry, I'll go report to the Jade Emperor together with the devarajas, you six stay behind on FFM to do a thorough search of the mountain(搜山). Once you are done, return to Guankou, and right after I get the rewards, I'm heading straight back to share it with y'all."

-Indeed, in the next chapter, after the Jade Emperor gave him a lot of gifts, he said his thanks and returned to Guanjiangkou, where his temple was at.

-My theory is, Erlang did not lead the burning personally, or give a direct order to——he was still in the Celestial Realm, making reports while FFM burned.

-And his six sworn brothers, being hunters and martial men, interpreted "search the mountain" rather liberally in his absence and left out the details once he returned with their reward.

-Just as usual, another job well done, let's get the victory party started.

-Of course, whether Erlang was personally there, leading the burning, makes little difference to the monkeys of FFM; it wasn't him, but he sure as hell wasn't NOT involved either.

@journeythroughjourneytothewest

#xiyouji #journey to the west #jttw book club #jttw reading group #lady bone demon #sun wukong #erlang shen

[onedismay]

Get to Know Me tag

Thanks for tagging me @korblez! :D

Rules: Tag 10 or more people you want to get to know better

Fave ships: -side-eyes blog- I MIGHT be so into the Shadow Broker/Tazzik that I don't even remember what else I might have once shipped in Mass Effect...... Oh, my favorite Shepard ship is mShep/Kaidan! (it's the slow burn ;_;) In the Dark Crystal fandom I'm open to a billion pairings but skekShod/skekZok is the one that stole my brain for like six months. In Star Wars I mainly ship Khem Val/my sith inquisitor... (or any inq really) Then there's my little sunshine Sims 2 alien and the grouchy twi'lek dude she married...... Noo, I have to ignore OCs, we'll be here forever D:

Favorite color: Black and purple

Song stuck in my head: head empty

Favorite food: Pasta..... Any kind of pasta. Also broccoli! And cheesecake. Lately I've been putting grape slices in my sandwiches and now I don't want to make them any other way.

Last song listened to: Thanks for reminding me I never remembered to put my playlist on today lmaoooo. No wonder I've been a bit meh. Apparently the song last played was Taiyo ni Korosareta by Buck-Tick!

Last tv show/movie: I don't watch tv very much, but I did watch the most recent pro sumo tournament and maaan it was a rollercoaster. Some of my favorite wrestlers got injured and I'm a little bit devastated. D: If sports don't count then the latest thing I watched was the Boulet Brothers' Dragula season 5 which was super good!! Love watching talented artists and the monsters they create.

Spicy/sweet/savory?: savory > sweet > spicy. Spicy things are fun in small doses but they make my nose run :< (and also i am baby)

Currently reading: I'm slooowly reading the Dark Crystal novelization! I'm very familiar with the movie of course but never read the book version before. It's very calming and immersive, so it's my bedtime anti-anxiety book at the moment.

Last thing I googled: "savory meaning" LEAVE ME ALONE the word was in my vocabulary but sometimes i don't trust myself... i had to make sure........

Tagging: @dandenbo @messydiabolical @noirchotic @reikiajakoiranruohoja @skeknya Only if you feel like it, of course!

[inuiiwonderland]

Twisted wonderland 1st year boys with a mc who is a gang member/toman gang member in their world

Twst x Tokyo revengers crossover

Gn reader

A bit ooc so sorry😓

When you first arrived in twisted wonderland you were absolutely confused on why the hell you were in a coffin, even more confused and spooke out when a talking CAT was in front of your face. After slowly adjusting to this new world, you still haven't told anyone about your life in your old world.

It Was a Friday night. You and the first years decided to throw a sleepover at ramshackles dorm for the night. Bored games and snacks were scattered around on the table while a movie played on the TV. Everything was going good until ace thought of something that was always on his mind ever since you got here.

"Say y/n, I always wonder what that weird uniform you were wearing was when you first got here" He says while grabbing another handful of chips from the bowl.

"Oh that? Um well it's nothing really.."

"Is it some kind of school uniform from back in your world? I never really seen any like that here" Says ace.

"It looked cool though! It kinda reminded me of something out of a action movie" Says Deuce while taking a sip of his soda.

You didn't know how to tell them about it. You never really thought it was important to tell them what you use to do back in your world. But you could see the others get curious when ace asks you what you did back in your world or what you would do for fun since there isn't any magic back home.

"Well...I'm actually a gang captain back in my world." You say as you eat the candy that you bought while watching the movie that played.

"HUH?!" You didn't seem bothered by their loud voices as you continue to eat like nothing is wrong.

"Yep"

"Wait your a gang captain??!"

"Your in a gang?!"

"You associate yourself in those activities?!?"

You took a sip of your drink and answered their questions.

"Yes, yes, and yes. I been captain since the gang was created since I'm a founding member" You say casually while the others jaws were on the floor.

"Founding member? What that?" Grim asks as he tilts his head to the side curiously. You smiled and took another sip of your drink.

"A founding member is someone who created or was there when the gang first got formed. Me and my friends were the ones who created it so that makes us founding members."

"Ohh"

"Wait you and your friends are in the same gang??"

"Mhm"

"Our captain or boss as we like to call him when we tease him is my best friend, mikey" You continue to go on and tell them all about the things you and your friends did back home as the 1st years all quietly listened to the stories.

"And that was when baji decided to run off and burns some cars since we didn't hurry up with the food"

"So he likes to burn cars when he hungry?" Epel says while imagining your friend going around destroying people's cars.

"Yeah, he does get in trouble a lot by doing so!"

"Oh! And mikey gets a little pouty when draken insults his height when they get into small petty arguments"

"Sounds like riddle" ace murmured which made both grim and deuce snort.

"So that why you do well during vargases class"

"I was impressed by how fast you run during laps" Jack says.

"Trust me, by the amount of trouble I get into with the cops back home, running is nothing"

"I don't really approve with the things you do back home but I'll say some of them are quite funny" sebek says loudly which made you chuckle.

"I did far worst than what I've told you" this gained you a glare from him which you only laugh and say that you were kidding...kind of.

"Funny thing is, I was heading to a meeting before I got transferred here. I wonder what their up to now.." they see your smile drop at the thought of your friends back home which made them a little sad. But they quickly found a way to distract you from getting all gloomy.

"Hey how about you show us more about that kick your friend knows how to do!"

"Oh yeah I wanna learn!" Epel eagerly says as he gets up from the ground.

"I would like to see some of your moves to!" Sebek shouts as you smiled up at him.

"Alright then...I'll show you how it's done!"

Eh I didn't really like how it turned out but I hope you guys still enjoy. Sorry that it's short:/

I really love crossovers soo I'll probably do more of these! Especially twisted wonderland and Tokyo revengers!

Also ooc sebek? I'm not really good at writing him but I'll try my best next time!

#tokyo revengers #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland x reader #twisted wonderland x tokyo revengers #gn reader #tokyo revengers x reader #twisted wonderland imagines #disney twst #twst wonderland #ace trappola #deuce spade #jack howl #epel felmier #sebek zigvolt #grim

[emeryleewho]

Do you mind if I ask your top 10 favorite characters (can be male or female) from all of the media that you loved (can be anime/manga, books, movies or tv series)? And why do you love them? Sorry if you've answered this question before.....Thanks...

Hello!

So I know you sent this awhile ago and I took ages to get to it, but I just really wanted to do this justice because this is such a big ask and I take my responsibilities as a fan very seriously. I'm also going to have to caveat the fact that "all of the media that I have loved" is too many media to be able to truly answer this question with 100% accuracy, so instead, I opted for

My Top 10 Favorite Characters (In Recent Memory) That I Feel Best Portray What I Love In Characters (But I'm Very Sorry To Anyone Who Should've Been On This List But I Just Kind of Forgot) in no particular order:

Gojo (Jujutsu Kaisen)

I am sorry to be a basic bitch, but Gojo may be my favorite character in anything ever. I hate that I am so predictable, but the white haired anime character trope absolutely kills me. Also, I am obsessed with a character who is like... too op to function, but also still very flawed. Also characters who are Sunshine Silly Goofs on the surface but so haunted and devastating under the surface. I admire the way he's The Great Protector of everyone but also makes sometimes callous choices, and I am obsessed with the fact that he is essentially the god of their world, but is still just... so very fragile and human. Also, like, he's so hot. Just so hot. That's also important.

2. Daddy Nanami (Jujutsu Kaisen)

I literally cannot stand watching this show. Like I want to throw up watching it because I love these bitches so much. Anyway, I tried REALLY hard not to like Nanami. Like I fought it so hard because he was obviously a doomed character from his intro, but I could not stop myself because I love the Sulky Blonde anime character trope for some reason, but also like... he's so hot. I want to watch him do my taxes. Also like... he's so relatable. Doesn't want to work overtime. Doesn't want to keep playing this shitty game where everyone dies young and bathes in the blood of teenagers, but also like, what? You expect him to work in corporate hell? Just let people die? He's not gonna fucking do that. He's that voice of reason every anime group probably needs, but he's also so hot, and like so grumpy but so kind, and so Responsible and Mature, but also so soft, and I love the way he takes care of those damn kids, okay? I just... *runs away sobbing*

3. Kurapika (HunterxHunter)

My favorite trope when I was younger was the "looks like they could kill you but is actually a sweetie" thing, but as I've gotten older, I've really come to appreciate what it is to be fully capable of being an all-powerful, cold-blooded killer and just... choose not to do that. Kurapika is the epitome of "character I just want to hug and protect forever" because he's been through so much and it's only made him stronger, but also like he shouldn't have to go through all that? And I adore that he's so mature and so strong and so capable and he protects everyone and puts villains in their place and all that jazz but he's also just a sweet kid who loves his friends and I love him so much oh my god.

4. Gao Yizhi (Iron Widow)

(See above regarding Kurapika) I have talked about Iron Widow as one of my favorite books of all time, but while Li Shimin is just a fabulous fucking character who once upon a time definitely would've been my favorite, Gao Yizhi stole my heart by just... being pretty... like soft pretty boy but also don't look at him too long because the devil burns behind his eyes and he will kill you. That is the finest of aesthetics, but also like... this man is so concerning. I would not trust him for a moment. And yet, he is just whipped for Wu Zetian, and that is literally what everyone should look for in a boyfriend.

5. Dazai (Bungou Stray Dogs)

Speaking of concerning, I first fell in love with Dazai because I loved how much he wants to die (don't call the cops, this was like a decade ago, and I am better now), but tbh I love how cute and silly and flirty he is on the surface to cover up the fact that he is just a downright nightmare of a human being. This man is a menace. He could kill literally anyone. And in another life, he probably would have, but now he's just chilling, taking care of his kids and fucking with his ex, and I love that for him. He is literally the perfect villain, and yet... he's not really doing anything that bad anymore. Go figure.

(Also, sidenote, I recently read No Longer Human, and not only did it give me a profound appreciation for Osamu Dazai as a person, but it really put his character into context that makes me adore this show even more, so yeah.)

6. Shinobu (Demon Slayer)

She is so mad. She is so angry. Yet she is a cutesy little girl in butterfly garb floating around saving people, I--yeah, it's very clear from this list that I have a type, but whatever. I love Shinobu because she's small and tiny and sweet, but she's also a major badass who can and will kill you. She's the only hashira who's physically too weak to decapitate demons so she kills them with poison, like??? This girl said "the gods didn't make me powerful, so I made me powerful", and that is the most beautiful thing I've ever heard. She's surviving on spite alone, and she's whooping everyone's asses that way. An icon. A true hero. I adore her.

7. Vanitas (The Case Study of Vanitas)

This one's back to my roots, but I love a tragic character like Vanitas. I just... I love a man so broken you have to wonder if he's even a person anymore. I love how wretched and painful and horrific his past is and how divorced he feels from humanity, and also like those little claws get me every time. Idk. I know, I'm weird. Whatever. The flippant, antagonistic, flamboyance on the surface to cover an empty, wretched, devastated soul underneath just struggling to survive? *chef's kiss*

8. Scorpion King (Word of Honor)

Scorpion King is basically the opposite of all my above examples, but I love him for the same reasons. This is a man who is heartless, ruthless, an absolute murderer. He kills for fun. He has no regard for human life... EXCEPT HIS FUCKING GODFATHER. Like this is a villain who could easily have burned the entire world with his cunning and power and literally all he wanted was for his dad to fucking love him??? He would have broken himself down day in and day out just for that affection, and that's the sort of sick, twisted, vile love I want to see in a villain. Just the sort of absolutely poisoned, twisted, abusive affection that makes me absolutely feral. He could have been the ULTIMATE villain, and he was absolutely DESTROYED because he just wanted to be LOVED. Delicious.

9. Muichiro (Demon Slayer)

This is a BABY. Just... A BABY!!! Literally a tragic character, but what I love about him is just how casually perfect he is. He's supposed to be weak, pathetic, useless. He is NOT. He comes off kind of airheaded at the beginning, but he is truly just... the most impressive. I want to protect him always, but also, everyone should be scared of him. (Except me, I am good to him so he will be kind to me in turn :))

10. Crowley (Good Omens)

Once again, an exceptional villain. Or, you know, could be, except he fell in love with an annoying fucking angel so now he's barely a menace, mostly just kind of a fool who wastes his time around a bookshop all day (both relatable and kinda aspirational, ngl). I love Crowley both because he is so not evil that it's actually kinda funny despite having all the evil energy and aesthetic, but the thing I love MOST about him is the way he just absolutely spits in the face of gender. Gender who? He wouldn't know. He is all gender. He is no gender. He is the divine lord of gender, and I worship at his feet in the hopes that he'll give me a little gender as a treat. Just truly a trans icon AND a menace at the same time, and I can think of nothing better. (Also, I have a thing for David Tennant. Always have. His accent does things for me so this doesn't help. Whoops.)

Anyway, yes, this concludes my Top 10 Characters [blah, blah...] List. If you are not familiar with any of the above media, I highly recommend them, but also like... these are not Wholesome(tm) and simple media. I like weird shit. If that was not obvious from my talking about these freaks, now you know. Be warned.

Also thank you for the ask!!!

#this was the hardest post I've ever made ngl #I appreciate the challenge but also my brain is tired lmfaoooo #asks #fandom #anime #c dramas #books #fiction #characters #blorbos

[iam-57311]

Perspective Flip

So, I've honestly been wondering about Splinter's perspective in "Trust the Process"

What spurred him forward to finally do this? How did it all feel for him?

I'm honestly just a sucker for that fic and would kill for Splints POV

I am SO late with this but I was inspired so here is a snippet 👀

Fic | Prompt Asks

Warnings for making out, implied sexual content, and vague mentions of depressive tendencies

"Is everything alright, Rat?"

Splinter hardly registered the presence of his co-parent until the yokai spoke. "Hm?" His ears flicked at the sound, keeping his eyes on the TV. "Oh, yes, yes, everything's good. Just winding down a bit before bed, y'know?"

By now, Draxum knew his habits well. Knew he needed the time to distract his mind before sleep overtook him. Never mind the fact that he felt a little mischievous that night, showing so in the relaxed state of his clothes. Half-naked, if he were to say it bluntly.

"I can see that." And Splinter could hear his amusement. Something he grew to enjoy hearing out the yokai; catching any rare, non-grumpy moments out if him.

What he would enjoy less is Draxum sitting in front of the TV.

"What are you–"

"Rat."

Asshole. The rat had to budge to try seeing the screen again without moving from his spot much. Almost giving up when he found little success. "What, Goat Man?"

"Your whole day has consisted of winding down, as you so elegantly put it."

That... was true. Hell if he needed something to distract his head from the multitude of thoughts running through it at all times.

It would not be until Splinter sat down and rested once more that the goat would continue, though. "I can assume you are having a sick day?"

...Almost.

Another key, another aspect Draxum could read off him from a mile away.

Yet he could only wave him off. "It's nothing, it's nothing..."

He was given a look. "It's something."

"Got me there."

A dry chuckle escaped him. Someway, somehow, Draxum always figured him out.

...Maybe it would not be the worst to trust him now. To admit to a mood he's been in.

Something he has tried before in many forms. Much more bold, in the yokai's eyes. Much less intimate than what he wished for now.

"Been a bit lonely here," Splinter admitted, smoothing out the fabric of his robe. "You know, as an overgrown sewer rat."

A test. Not yet would he outright admit to what he wanted, testing if the other man would catch on.

Ensuring the blow would be delivered softly should he have no reason to want him.

Patiently would he wait, watching Draxum debate his words. Open his mouth to speak before shutting it once more. He must have known. Still, Splinter would stay. Hold onto the shred of hope.

Perking up as he saw the yokai reach an arm out. "Rat."

At the invitation, Splinter snuck closer – closing the gap between them. A soft kiss; tender, at first. So often had the two found themselves in a similar embrace, only meant to relieve momentary tension.

Within the rat laid a stronger sense of tension. One that would make him sneak his tongue into the kiss. An advance hardly ever turned away.

Part of why he would trust this man enough to ask now.

"Barry." A mumble, keeping at the kiss. Daring to sneak a hand past the yokai's robe, onto his collarbone.

Met with a moan. "Splinter–"

"I need you."

The truth. He could go without – hell, he has for years... but a burning desire within craved nothing more than laying beneath this man, making the most of the bed they've always shared.

So his hand would continue exploring, continue fantasizing.

All until Draxum held his wrist. Kept him there. "Are you sure?"

There was nothing he was more sure of, having the thought cross his mind far too often by now. Somehow even more aroused by the hesitance. "Uh, yeah." Splinter tilted his head, reading as if he was none the wiser. "Is this too much, or...?"

"No, it's alright." A sigh escaped the rat now, tail swaying. Knowing Draxum would have his conditions. "I just need to know this is what you truly want. From me."

The rat gave a huff. Spirits, this man – always so careful with him. "Well I need someone, and we don't exactly get out often enough to meet anyone else. Your goat ass is the only one around."

A tease. If only hoping it would work.

"But I get it," Splinter said with the softest sigh, sitting up straighter. "I get it if this," he gestured to himself, "puts you off. I'm not exactly in my prime anymore."

He would understand, truly. Quite long ago had he figured out Draxum's attraction to him – both when he was human and as he mutated throughout the years.

Entertaining a thought that it was not malicious. For sex it'd hardly matter regardless.

And, honestly, Draxum was not half bad himself.

Which is why he could never mind it as said yokai leaned in, kissing any negative thoughts away, assuming his form on top.

Which is why Splinter would pull him closer in that moment, never wanting anything less.

#ask game #iam's asks #baronjitsu #reluctant co parents au #iam

[mommymothma]

The Roulette wheel has been spun and It landed on a Mon x Hera pairing which kind of pops off especially for the Ahsoka TV setting. Our girlies had a lot of time in the Rebellion yk?

Went to AO3 for some inspiration and landed on Priorities by my mutual @soloorganaas which definitely inspired this piece so go show some love to it on AO3

Her General

“I don't understand what your problem is,” Hera accused, and Mon recoiled at the sound of the door slam.

“You tell me you believe me, yet every time I try to get things done, you stand in my way.”

“Hera, please-”

“No, I know what you're going to say ‘it's not up to me’”, Hera mocked. “But it never is, is it? Tell me why we have a Chancellor, if she is so powerless?”

“I have the power, Hera. Using it is the problem. The republic I have instituted has powerful sanctions in place to keep me from doing things of my own volition. This is what we have fought for, democracy. I can't have my best General following the voices in someones head.”

“It's not voices, you know that. And they could know that too if you cared to explain it to them.”

“What the Jedi do is not my problem, Hera. Believe me, I have tried to make peace with them. I have tried to integrate them into the system. The only one that wants anything to do with me is Leia.”

“Ahsoka has worked with the rebellion for years, Mon. That's not fair. You trusted her once. She was Fulcrum. She was there for me. For the Ghost. She and Ezra and Kanan… they are a part of something bigger than us, Mon, bigger than the republic. If we don't listen to them I'm scared that we will lose them. We've lived in a galaxy without Jedi, Mon. And it took us twenty years to recover from it.”

Mon was trapped between her conviction, her status, politics, and her emotions. The whirlwind never stopped.

Mon. Hera was the only one that still called her that. She'd dropped ‘Senator’ a long time ago. She used ‘Chancellor' maybe twice. She was ‘Mon’ to her.

“You never cared before when I went rogue,” Hera reminded her, “I've always had an unorthodox approach to things, but I get it done, Mon. I got it done. Better than anyone else.”

“That was different,” Mon told her.

“Why? We may operate under the title of a Republic, but we are no different than we were when it was called a rebellion. Same people, the same soldiers. The same ships, missions, planets, galaxy. You're still at the top, and I'm still a General. Nothing has tangibly changed, Mon. So tell me again, why?”

Hera stood nose to nose with Mon now.

Mon couldn't meet her eyes. She didn't want to lie but the truth was worse. It was so much worse.

But it was the only thing she still had.

“Because back then you were doing it for me!” She yelled, refusing to meet Hera's eyes.

She sat on her desk, covering her face with her hands.

Hera just stood there, her eyes burning a hole into Mon's skin. Two death stars, setting the planet of her ablaze.

“Is that what this is about? You're jealous of Ahsoka?”

“No- I mean I don't know. I… I can't protect you anymore, Hera. Not like I used to. Ahsoka is a risk, Hera. She's unpredictable.”

“You've said that about me, too.”

“Exactly.” She whispered. She could feel the anger and frustration emanating off the Twi'lek. “I've seen the way you are together,” Mon explained, “I know how this ends.”

“I dont know why I'm surprised. You tell me to remove my feelings from the situation, yet here you are. Your jealousy is shrouding your decisions Mon. Let me remind you: You told me to go.” Hera shouted “You kicked me out. You told me that we were too complicated. You don't get to change your mind now that it's convenient.”

“I have regretted it every day since.”

“Would you change your decision, if you could?”

Mon closed her eyes, and shook her head.

Hera scoffed, leaning in to look Mon in the eye. Her hand gripped Mon’s jaw, forcing their eye contact.

“I am not your general, Mon. I am a Republic General. You don't get to save me for when it's convenient. You don't get to stop me from saving the Galaxy because you don’t want to lose me.”

“Your all I have left.” Mon whispered, and Hera’s grip relaxed.

“So that's it? If you can't have me, no one can? You'd rather Thrawn blow us all up?”

“Hera, of course not. I just…”

“I've heard enough. I'm going. I'll do the hearing and you can strip me of my honor. At least then I'll be a free woman, right? No more imperial colors. From the ashes of the old empire…” Hera stated, staring her down.

Mon met her eyes for a moment, but it was a losing battle. She waved her white flag by looking to the floor.

“I'll see you on the other side, Mon. At least now you can say there's no one holding you back.”

Hera left the door closing with a quieter noise, but a louder impact.

Mon was once again left alone. Abandoned by someone she loved. Maybe if she was better with words.

Or expressions.

Or being a Chancellor, Hera would've stayed.

Maybe if she wasn't so distracted by the imminent threat of defeat, and how she was secretly drawn to it.

Because deep down she wanted a way out.

She wanted the rebellion back.

Because Hera was wrong. Things had changed. They had changed. Things were easy. It was kill or be killed then. She could work with that. She was a survivor against a predator.

Now, she wasn't sure who the bad guy was.

And it was so much worse.

Sharing with the Republic had grown tiring. At least with the rebellion she could have things.

Things like love.

She just wanted her General back.

Instead she had cost the Republic a damn good one.

From the ashes of the old empire…

Hera hadn't spoken the rest. She didn't need to. Mon was all too familiar with the imperial sympathizer slogan.

We will build a new one.

Perhaps she already had.

#star wars #clone wars #andor #ahsoka #mon mothma #ahsoka tv show #Hera syndulla #Hera x Ahsoka #Hera x Mon Mothma #star wars sapphics

[wings-dings-and-iggyfings]

About your Wingfeather kittens, did you notice that their coats match their characters' hair colors? Also if you've seen it, how do you feel about the Wingfeather saga tv series?

May God bless you and keep you!

Ah, haha, you're right they do! I hadn't really noticed that except with Kalmar, when I named them it was because their purrsonalities matched the characters. (well, except for Leeli being shy, but she was unexpectedly fiesty considering how innocent looking she is, and that is very Leeli)

I love the tv show! Well, most of it. I have a beef with the last few minutes of episode 6 specifically for leaving out a bunch of extremely important information from the book and also Janner and Peet's hug, but besides that I love it! I think that the changes they've made when translating it from a book make sense and I love all the actors and actresses they've recruited for it (which isn't exclusive to the big name ones, the kids are *flips table* SO CUTE and I think they're doing a PERFECT job with their characters).

*spoilers follow*

Also I say I have issues with episode 6, but it really is just those last few minutes I SCREAMED when Peet and Nugget showed up and were fighting the Fangs. Also when Peet's talons got revealed, I was really just screaming a lot the last two episodes. xD

Okay and now that I'm thinking about it again I do not understand why most of episode 5 was Like That. The first half felt largely unnecessary when the kids could literally just have been captured with Nia and Podo like in the book (and yes they wanted to have the kids see earlier that Zouzab was a traitor to really drive that home to them, but there were easier ways to have done that) and they could have used the extra time for episode 6 and explaining the whole flight from Anniera/why Podo hates Peet/letting Peet have the panic attack he did in the book why would you not have him react to Esben's name I'm-

*cough* Anyway, I don't know if they're on this blog or my main blog but somewhere I have a bunch of posts about how I LOVE what they're doing visually to really SHOW the story and that they're building parallels for things later. Like, for example, making the Sea Dragons able to loom RIGHT over the cliff the kids are on instead of being far below when they react to Leeli's song and how that visually is going to parallel the scene in book 2 where Leeli calms Yurgen down with his song and then touches him. Like I deeply hope there are Wingfeather people capable of making gifs because when that scene from book 2 drops I'm gonna lose my mind.

I love Peet in the show. ;-; He's my favorite character and they are doing him SO fantastically well and also affirming a bunch of my headcanons so that's exciting. :D "Escape to Peet's Castle" is just *chef's kiss* perfection. I have every scene of the kids and Peet screenshotted and saved on my computer almost second by second.

And on that note I am SO excited to finally have all these characters visualized and to be able to take screenshots of them and this show is just so PRETTY my gosh. I love the character designs and the places and the lovely backgrounds.

All this being said I am waiting in fear and trepidation for season 2. Them leaving out some very important things at the end of season 1 has made me very anxious to see if they'll be able to keep doing this well. I'm worried that they're trying to go too fast and that some of the quality is gonna get sacrificed. But a lot of that is because I've been burned before by tv shows that started out AMAZING and rapidly deteriorated. But I pray for everyone involved with the show every night to have wisdom/guidance so I'm trying to trust God with it.

So, overall, I really love the show and I hope they can keep doing it well, I just have a few concerns. I'll stop now because this got long and kind of rambly. Thanks for asking!

#the wingfeather saga #the wingfeather saga tv show #thanks for the ask! #the wingfeather kittens

[wafflesetc]

*Long negative rant ahead - sorry if you decide to read this, let alone post it*

There's just way more questions than answers now. Let's hypothetically say they decide to write the divorce route (cries). Jay's in a different country. There's no possible way he doesn't have a say in that, yet we'd only ever see/hear it from Hailey's side. The Jay that we know would never agree to that without a fight. Then there's all his stuff and their apartment. Would they just haul it all into storage until he comes home? - but then if he came home, why couldn't they work on things together - Hailey would have to find yet another place to live, and season 11 would (I fear) become Upstead divorce era and Hailey trying to find herself again without him just to give her a significant storyline to fill a season. And for what, yet more trauma. More abandonment for her. More storylines that are just hit after hit, just for the hell of it, all because if lazy writing. They could've done this all SO differently and very easily, they could've done SO much more with what they had/have, and it certainly wouldn't have pissed off the fandom like it has.

Unless they can magically turn this around in the final episode and Jesse's 'trust the process' did actually mean something, I can't see how they can make this work without digging themselves into a deeper, more ridiculous and a more discouraging hole - for us and for them.

I really do feel for Tracy and Jesse. Watching these writers and showrunners burn this ship to the ground for no justified reason must be gutting! All these years of hard work, one of the best slow burn relationships I think I've ever seen on TV.... to just do this.

Sorry for (negatively) venting in your ask box! 😬 - And on the off chance you do read though this scroll, thank you in advance for taking the time 💙

This is a few days late in being answered because I have been traveling for work an insane amount. Please don't apologize about the length, I don't mind the longly worded asks. They are fun to read and engage with people, regardless of opinions and thoughts!

Also, your thoughts and feeling surrounding all of this are completely valid. I also agree with you, almost on every level of this.

I was talking to a friend and it feels like every time they add another layer to this whole plot line, it only leads to more questions and not answers. I don't know if that is intentional or if they are just sort of half-assing things and hoping they make sense to the fans.

Eventually, even if things are "over" for now, it's going to lead to more painful things for Hailey rather than any kind of "closure." With the trend PD has been going, it also wouldn't shock me if they do all of that within the whitespace of season 10 and season 11 and the next time we see her next year, she's in a new place and it's just Hailey.

As for rectifying it - it's TV so literally anything is possible. With the route they have chosen, I have a small inclination Tracy might be staying at least one more year. If that's the case and season 11 is her last one, (or whenever she decides to leave), I could very much see them bringing Jay back for a couple episodes and fixing them and having them off screen together. It's possible and been done on other shows before. It's not a secret that Hailey (since she's the one on screen) has been the writer's priority - not Jay/Upstead.

If we are hurting, my assumption is that Tracy and Jesse are also hurting, probably in more ways than even we realize and can understand. I truly think that Tracy meant it when she said #UpsteadForever and maybe I am delusional, but I'll hold on to that until I see Hailey Upton's final scene, whenever that might be.

#ask waffs

[woodchoc-magnum]

Tagged by @tripleaxeldiaz to post five favourite fics of mine, so here we go:

light me and i'll burn for you

He was fine. Sure, the new guy and Buck seemed to like each other a lot, and when they got back to the station, they sat down on the couches together and talked – he guessed they were catching up, but he wasn't really sure. And then as they were leaving for the night, he heard Buck call to AJ that he'd meet him at the bar, so… he guessed that was a thing that was happening.

And he tried to ignore the gnawing feeling of jealousy in his stomach as he watched Buck climb into his jeep wearing a crisp white shirt and black jacket, looking as gorgeous as always.

Everything was fine.

Eddie POV + pining + jealousy + firefam hijinks - it's still my favourite fic that I've ever written?

I like writing truly heinous OC's, lol

the smoke in your eyes

They were too late.

They arrived as back-up just as the two hotshots from the 118 broke out through an attic window with two kids, and descended the ladder to safety.

That should've been him. The media was there, filming and taking pictures – those two assholes would be on television. Why couldn't that ever happen for him? The heroic firefighters from the 118, descending a ladder with children in their arms, and he was five goddamn minutes too late!

He would just have to try again.

His time for glory was coming.

Buck in danger + arson + a Jonah-style villain + suspense - it took me ages to write, and I'm still very proud of it

alone again tonight with you

He learned from Eddie what it meant to be a good father. He learned from Eddie what real, long-lasting friendship meant – he'd never had a best friend before, a person he could rely on through thick and thin. He trusted him, depended on him – but now it seemed as though Eddie was moving on without him. He'd reconnected with Ana, right when Buck was finally starting to feel like his life was on track. He was making progress, moving forward, and feeling happy, and suddenly the main constant in his life had a new girlfriend. He was floundering.

And jealous that someone was diverting the attention he usually received from Eddie away from him.

And angry at himself for feeling jealous.

Buck pining + oblivious Eddie + feelings realisation - this series kicked my ass but it was worth it in the end!

boys of summer

Eddie climbed out, watching with amusement as their friends crowded inside. Buck grabbed his arm and tugged him to the back of the van, and said, "I need to show you the best part."

Eddie followed him, watching as Buck opened the back doors and pulled them open. He unclipped a hook and the doors opened all the way, allowing a full, uninterrupted view out of the back of the van.

"I was thinking – if we're parked somewhere nice, we can open the doors in the morning and watch the sun come up," Buck said to him – his voice was low, so the others wouldn't hear. "Lie in bed. You know?"

Eddie's mouth went dry at the realisation that they'd be sharing a bed for the next two weeks.

Fluff + smut + van life + getting together - just a whole fic of Buck and Eddie making the most out of a converted van while they road trip around California

it always leads to you

Eddie's eyes flicked to him before he started reading - and to Buck's absolute surprise and amazement, Eddie almost completely transformed into a different person. He had a narrator voice and different voices for the characters, and he was animated and totally committed to the part. He had Christopher absolutely howling with laughter, rolling around on the bed in fits of giggles, and Buck couldn't help but laugh with them.

It was funny - his heart was simultaneously full and also hurting… his father had never read to him when he was a kid. Neither of his parents had. He'd always thought that was something that was just in movies or on TV; it wasn't something people did in real life.

But Eddie read to Christopher, and when the story was finished they talked quietly for a few minutes, Eddie brushing Christopher's hair off his forehead before kissing him on the cheek and whispering, "Good night, mijo."

And Buck thought, Wow.

Missing scenes + getting together - I started writing this fic the week after my mother died to try to regain some normalcy (and to take my mind off things), so it's special to me.

Tagging: @cinematicnomad @tawaifeddiediaz @buttercupbuck @sevensoulmates @eddiediass and I am having a mental blank - I've seen a ton of these today so I'm not sure who's done one!

#my fics #tagged in

[willowser]

what do you think would make bakugou's feelings change from a stranger to a lover, if their interactions were small and few in between? what do you think would make bakugou sad?

oh, wow — what questions !! thank you for asking, and buckle up LOL

i want to, of course, preface this all by saying these are my own interpretations and opinions based on how i choose to view bakugou's character:

personally, i have a really difficult time writing strangers to lovers for bkg (personally; i've read certain fics before and had no issues accepting the course of the relationship !) bc i think — and i'm assuming we're talking about adult man bkg, considering this is a romantic situation — at some point in time, he is going to completely understand how others see him, why they see him the way they do. a very large portion of his personality stems from how he was raised, the way he was treated as a child, and even if he eventually knows he's a little obtuse, i think that by then that's just bakugou. it's not going anywhere. it might soften and grow, but he'll never have a different baseline.

and so i view katsuki, in that regard, to be very careful about who he reveals himself to. he knows how he is, how people see him, and he's been met with either hesitation or fear or fury from, like, everyone, and so i find it difficult to imagine him going from strangers to lovers with someone in that regard, because i think he would need trust more than anything in order to feel comfortable exploring any romantic aspect of himself. i view bakugou as someone very nervous and unsure about affection, and so in order to allow himself to show that and receive that from someone, it would take time with him. i think bakugou is a quiet, slooooow burn kind of guy, who would move on from friends to lovers ultimately.

!! BUT !!

i also think it can heavily depend on where bakugou is at in his life at the time this meeting and such interactions take place. again, bc i think bakugou would have to feel comfortable enough to try to engage in a more-than-friendly relationship, it would have to be entirely something he is choosing willingly. he would have to go in eyes wide open and say, this is something that i want to pursue, this is something i am choosing to trust and let myself fall into, and i think it's entirely possible that he could have that desire as an adult.

i actually have a little drabble thing stored away in my drafts that's like, bakugou as someone that actively tries to date and find a partner, and it's the funniest thing to me LOL bc the first image that comes to mind is him in a tie at some speed dating thing and he's just — so uncomfortable lmao and i do not think he would ever do something like that, it's just funny to picture. but — on that note — i don't think it's out of the realm of possibility that one day katsuki decides that he wants to find someone, and so i think if he walked into it willingly, and found someone that seemed trustworthy and understanding, he could definitely tell himself, i don't care, i'm not afraid to do this shit, even if he very much is so.

of course, i also think that certain circumstances can always bring strangers together and i think there's something beautiful in even like the little things; the person who always sits across from you on the bus or is always walking their dog on sunday mornings or who lives in your apartment complex and always comments about the weather whenever you meet in the mail room. i could just be clingy LOL but i like the familiarity of a consistent stranger, if that makes sense, and moving out of that bubble to expand that relationship is like a choice you can't take back. and you have your life or death situations, as well. again, maybe i'm clingy, but — assuming we're talking about pro-hero bakugou here — i would never be able to look at the man that saved my life the same again. i would see him on tv and just associate safety with him, or something. section him off into a different category of stranger that i would trust with my life, bc he's saved it already.

anyway. back to bakugou LOL all this to say: i think it depends on what bakugou wants and what he'll allow in a short amount of time, first and foremost, and i think it depends on the weight given to those small interactions. say, katsuki is checked over by the same paramedic after every fight, and he finds comfort in the fact that this person cares about his well-being, or he runs into the same person at the meat market when he's preparing to cook a large meal, and they can always discuss different marinades or choice cuts. i think he would have to see something in them that would make him want to trust that person, in those far and few interactions, before offering himself up for the taking.

and — whew boy, sad bakugou ? i'll admit, it's a little hard for me to imagine things that might make him sad and sad alone bc, obviously, i imagine bakugou runs everything through an angry blender before he can swallow it down to process any other way.

i think there are very simple things that make him sad, like his heroes aging and getting old — all might, aizawa, his dad, jeanist — losing his friends or the few people he's ever felt close to. people in his life as a pro-hero that he couldn't save. i think he'll always hold guilt about what happened at kamino with all might, how he treated people when he was younger, how he treated izuku; i think reflecting on all these things would make him sad because they are almost all things out of his control. he can't go back and be a nicer kid, he can't go back and not get dynamight-napped by the league, he can't make his heroes any younger, and someone like katsuki is always making the things he wants a reality, that's just what he does, and this isn't something he can attain. so i think that would upset him. consistently. every time he thinks about it, even.

idk if you were going this route at all, but from a romantic perspective — oh, lord, i will sit on this hill until i die: not having a partner would slowly break his heart. every night he'll come home to his nice house and his material things and maybe even his number one ranking and the lights will be off and it will be empty, and as someone that strives to be the best in everything, he would see his lack of a love life as a giant failure. he's not good enough, not patient enough, not kind enough. i have a lot of opinions about katsuki being insecure in this particular regard; not about — again — things he can physically attain or work towards or hold in his hands, no, he's sure of himself there, completely confident, but these softer things. he can't make someone love him, no matter how strong or fast or good he is, that's something they have to choose to do (which reroutes back to my earlier point, about him needing to have that trust that they will choose him again and again), and i think the longer he goes without someone or the more he tries and it doesn't work out, it would really weigh on him as a person.

this is another twisted kind of road, but i think he would obviously have a lot of trauma about all that he's had to go through in his life. let's just — ignore the manga right now LOL bc that's a whole different can of worms — but i think, you know, again, kamino, getting kidnapped, even the sludge villain in the beginning, and just everything else that he has to endure as a child fucking soldier. it's more fear than just explicit sadness, but obviously these things can lead towards depression and the like, so i include those things as well.

gosh, i said so much and feel like i said nothing at all LOL i hope this was somewhat coherent bc i am so tired and it's 1 am anfbska and i hope this was helpful or insightful or whatever you were looking for !! thank you so much for asking, i enjoyed blabbing my mouth like usual 🤗💕🌿 would love to hear your thoughts as well, friend !!

#i hope any of this makes sense #i cannot words #🙃 #i really thought i would come back and come back and come back to this in my drafts for days #thinking on it #but i just sat here and couldnt shut up so #have whatever mush this is from inside my brain #edit to say: i have no idea if this is relevant to the question or not but — i love brainstorming and thinking of fun ideas ! #so if anyone ever wants to do that i am more than happy to offer outside perspective ! #✿ ask willow

[katyobsesses]

C, F, and H!

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C: What character do you identify with most?

I identify with 3 main characters in Glee for different reasons. Kurt is the biggest one, i think. I've related to him since i first watched the show in Feb 2011, practically since i first saw him on TV, singing I wanna hold your hand and just continued to even more as we got to know him better. it was the bullying and how he felt like an outcast, how he dreamed to leave McKinley and start afresh. It was how even after he found a group of friends he was still the one on the outside, still not quite fitting into the group cohesively. I don't think i have all of his courage, but i like to think i have some of it, and as a teen I wished for my own Blaine to help me find that courage (one reason why i was such a klainer in my youth tbh) Then there's Sam, who is a neurodivergent himbo nerd. The only thing i'm kinda not, in that equation, is a himbo. I relate to his nerdiness and his lack of social skill, to his kindness and want to have everyone and everything be fair and equal. Also his craftiness/love of art/ability to play guitar. I'm an introverted, unathletic Sam... with anxiety. And finally there's Marley. Who just smiles through her pain, doesn't want to bother anyone with her own problems but helps others with theirs even if they don't always deserve it. I was a lot like that, I'm still like that, but I no longer trust like Marley does, I've been burned to often by Kitty's of my own for that. I see my teen self in Marley, and I wish I had her song writing abilities, or her drive. I'd say I'm a mix of these three characters most of all, which is definitely why they're my favorites in the show, and why I love writing Sam and Kurt so much!!

H: How would you describe your style?

Dude I have no idea 😂. I like writing in third person limited, switching up the way description is written based on the character POV I'm writing from. I enjoy getting into the head of characters, trying to find their voice (my fave POV to write from, so far, is actually Karofsky's! he's fun to figure out) It seems to depend on the mood i am when i start a fic if it's dialogue heavy or description heavy, but dialogue is usually easiest to me but also description is really fun sometimes... i guess it depends on the fic!

F: Share a snippet from one of your favourite dialogue scenes you've written and explain why you're proud of it.

hmm, this one'll be a bit long so i'll shove it under a readmore I think.

this was the first thing that came to mind when I read this question and is from the Prom Queen chapter (Chapter 39) of One More New Direction (my OC centric fic (which has been updated up to Chp31 so far on AO3))

“It was meant to have stopped.” He whispered, sounding shocked, “The teasing stopped, the slushies stopped. I thought… I thought with Dave on our side…” He shook his head, his voice going bitter with a scoff, “I thought because no-one was beating me up, no one was throwing me in dumpsters or shouting slurs, that we had made progress at this school. I guess I was wrong.” “No.” Sam said, “You’re not wrong, Kurt. You’ve made so much progress at this school, I mean, I don’t know exactly what’s going on with Dave, but he was the biggest culprit of all of that, right? He and the Jocks, and even Puck and Finn before last year? But look at him, and Puck and Finn, now. You’ve made so much progress at this school, Kurt, so much.” “Obviously not enough.” Kurt scoffed, “Because all of them, in there, they wrote my name on those ballots. It’s still the same, it’s just moved behind my back instead of to my face. All that hate, that prejudice, they were just too scared to say it out loud.” Kurt let out a sob, hand going to his mouth. “I’m just a joke to them.” “You’re not a joke, Kurt.” Erin told him, “You’re not. You’re my best friend-” “Our best friend.” Sam interjected, and Erin lifted her eyes from Kurt to him. He was worrying his lips, and she could feel the nerves radiating off of him. It looked like he was trying to psych himself up to do something. Something big. “-and we love you, okay?” She continued, looking away from Sam. “You’re amazing and worth a thousand times more than anyone in that room. You’re talented, and kind, and smart, and funny. And you are so strong.”

“I’m tired of being strong.” Kurt sighed, “I’m tired of acting like it isn’t lonely being the only out person at this school, like it isn’t draining to be the only representation some of those people have.” “You shouldn’t have to be.” Sam said softly. “You shouldn’t have to be the only representation people have.” “Yeah, well,” Kurt scoffed out a humorless laugh, “I’m not sure Santana’s all that eager to come out.” “I wasn’t talking about Santana.” Sam breathed, and Erin looked up at him to see determination on every inch of his face. She smiled at him, and he smiled back with a nod. “Brittany coming out wouldn’t really shock anyone.” Kurt shook his head, and Sam huffed out a laugh, shaking his head. “Dude, I’m talking about me.” He said, as if he wasn’t saying something big, as if the confession wasn’t huge. “And you really shouldn’t assume things about Santana and Brittany unless they actually tell you.”

I'm not entirely sure why this came to me first, but I feel like i really got Sam and Kurt in this scene, like it feels like them to me and I'm proud of that, i guess. I like how it flows too. I guess that's all i want in dialogue, and I think I'm good at that a majority of the time. I always want to make it sound like the characters, make it flow like a real conversation. there are some characters I just can't seem to get right and that is why i avoid them (Santana is definitely one, Tina was but I think i'm getting her a bit more? Quinn too) But I feel confident writing Sam and Kurt (and my oc Erin too, obviously), because, as previously stated, I relate to them, I can get into their heads, I can imagine being in their position. I really enjoy writing dialogue, and I really enjoyed writing this - in fact i always enjoy re-writing the Prom Queen scene idk why exactly.

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[moririki]

⤷ AN EIGHT-LEGGED PROBLEM

OIKAWA TOORU & SAKUSA KIYOOMI & HAIBA LEV & MIYA ATSUMU X READER -> 1.8K
you save your boyfriend from a massive problem which is currently in the corner of your bathroom )

REQUEST -> n/a
CONTAINS -> spiders, bugs, you picking up said creepy crawlies, hq boys being no! help! at! all! (but that's ok bc we love them for it), fanon-ish sakusa cos i haven't read the manga and he had like 5 seconds of screen time so i'm just going off of what i've read + seen, clear favouritism despite the fact that i know basically nothing about sakusa, manga timeskip spoilers in sakusa's
MORI'S THOUGHTS -> haven't seen one where the reader is the one in the relationship who takes care of bugs so since i'm a #girlboss who throws spiders out of my room whenever i see them without breaking a sweat i'm writing that into a fun lil thing with the haikyuu boys that i strongly believe are scared of bugs. also besides the point but look at the pretty colour palette that their banners make fjfjfjdj will go back to writing the requests after this! inspiration just struck

❍ OIKAWA TOORU

-> omg this fucking guy

-> don't let his pride fool you this man HATES bugs with a burning passion

-> he'll never admit it though

-> between you and the aoba johsai team he would never hear the end of how the great king oikawa would cower at the sight of a moth doing laps around a lightbulb

-> so when you pretended not to hear the shriek that left your boyfriend when he saw something flying around the bathroom light and he declined your offer to get rid of the moth for him, this left oikawa in a pretty difficult situation

-> it was just him alone in the bathroom, trying to brush his teeth while eyeing the bug warily

-> you came in a few minutes later, getting ready to go to bed as well

-> "you know, babe, that moth's been there for quite a while," you teased him

-> oikawa hummed in response, his eyes never leaving it as it continued its circumnavigation of the light fixture

-> "oh, you know. who am i to kick someone out of their home? i'm no monster"

-> you almost snorted at how poor of an excuse that was, but ruffled your boyfriend's hair anyway

-> "i'll take care of it, ru, you just finish getting ready"

-> "but y/n-chan, that moth has feelings! don't be mean to it!"

-> you gave tooru a very blank stare at that

-> "so do you want me to leave you alone with your new friend?"

-> "......no"

-> "that's what i thought"

-> you went up to the moth, managing to trap it in your hands before releasing it from a window

-> oikawa shuddered as you came back to the sink, giving your hands a quick rinse before resuming with brushing your teeth like nothing had happened

-> "you're so brave, my love"

-> "anything for you, babe"

❍ SAKUSA KIYOOMI

-> bless this poor boy

-> so it's no secret that sakusa isn't the fondest of germs

-> and that extends to bugs and spiders too

-> besides a normal amount of disgust that he held for them, the thought of where the insects had been or placed one of their many feet on never failed to make his skin crawl

-> that's where you, his wonderful significant other, comes in

-> as much as he loves you, he just can't understand how you always stared at bugs with wonder in your eyes

-> you'd even pick them up, cooing at the way they crawled up your arm while sakusa just stared at you in disbelief with a can of bug spray in hand

-> tonight was one of those swelteringly hot summer nights

-> you know, the ones where the air seems to be still no matter how many windows you open and every insect in a mile radius is actively trying to enter your home

-> you were spending the night at your boyfriend's apartment, ready to have a relaxing night in with him since your schedules had finally synced up and allowed you both to enjoy a day off at the same time

-> it took months of trust before sakusa finally admitted to you how much he enjoyed doing skincare

-> so whenever you two spent the night together, you decided to start the evening with some face masks and idle binging of a tv show

-> against his half-hearted protests, you had insisted that sakusa wore a headband while this happened (one that had a very cute duck face printed on it)

-> just to keep the curls out of his face, of course

-> whenever he caught you sneaking a candid of him with facemask and duck headband on, he just shot you a halfhearted glare and threatened you to never send that to atsumu or the rest of the msby team

-> (you set it as your home screen instead)

-> anyways, i digress

-> so tonight you decided to cool down from the heat with a few facemasks and cuddling in your boyfriend's heavily air conditioned living room

-> but he kept all his skincare stuff in the bathroom, so you went to go get them as he set up a show to watch along with some snacks

-> you flicked on the light, going to his cabinet when something in the corner of the room caught your eye

-> there was a fairly large spider, desperately trying to crawl up the smooth tile wall

-> you decided to take pity on it and release it

-> but when you had it cupped safely in your hands, you decided to terrorise your poor boyfriend just a little

-> "hey, omi, look what i found!"

-> your boyfriend perked up at your signature nickname for him, though his eyes narrowed as he saw your clasped hands held in front of you

-> "no"

-> "but baby, you haven't even seen-"

-> "no"

-> you giggled at how defensive he had become

-> "come on, don't you want to name it? it's very cute"

-> "i want you to throw it out, y/n"

-> "alright, alright"

-> you took the spider to a window, releasing it back outside before heading back to the bathroom and grabbing a few masks for real this time

-> sakusa gave you the cold shoulder as you sat down next to him, humming as you gave him a face mask and putting it on without a word

-> "aww, baby, i'm sorry"

-> "..."

-> "i'll give you a head massage if you stop ignoring me?"

-> sakusa turned to you, his eyes narrowed in thought as he stared you down

-> the act soon broke, though, and he smiled against the sheet mask that was on his face

-> "it better be a good one," he huffed as he tugged the duck headband off, already sighing at the sensation of your fingers against his scalp

-> "omi, come on, what do you take me for?"

❍ HAIBA LEV

-> ngl lev gives off equal amounts of being terrified of like the tiniest spider or just finding bugs insanely cool vibes

-> it's funnier to imagine this 6-foot-something guy scramble away from a fucking crane fly in terror though so this is how it's going to play out

-> when you invited your giant of a boyfriend to your flat, you didn't anticipate just how small he made everything appear

-> he even towered in your doorway, having to stoop to step through into your hall

-> "woahh, i love your place!"

-> it was his first time staying over for the night, and lev was making sure to drink in every aspect of your interior design

-> you found it sweet of him, and watched as he stared in wide-eyed wonder at the little trinkets you had collected over the years to make your small apartment seem more like a home

-> you didn't expect him to scream at the top of his lungs and practically run back to you, though

-> you jumped at the sound, watching as he scrambled away from your lamp and pointed back at it with a shaking finger

-> you squinted at it, making out the very menacing form of a crane fly as it bumped into the lampshade and continued on its path

-> "lev, you big baby," you giggled, heading to the kitchen to grab a glass and trap it

-> "y/n, don't leave me alone with it!" he yelped, and you rolled your eyes at his antics

-> you came back, smoothly capturing the insect and throwing it out of a nearby window

-> lev was sat on your couch the whole time, hands covering his eyes as he curled in a ball

-> "is it gone?" he asked, and you you giggled at how childlike he was acting at the moment

-> "it's all good, baby" you smoothed his hair and lev gratefully leaned into your touch, a sigh of relief leaving him

-> "thank you, y/n"

-> "i'll get rid of all the bugs in the world for you, lev"

❍ MIYA ATSUMU

-> gives off the vibes that he used to eat bugs as a child i'm sorry but

-> have mercy on his soul lmao

-> so twins are supposed to be identical right?

-> anyone who spends more than a few minutes around the miya twins know that that's a complete fucking lie

-> and you've had the misfortune of being friends with them for a very long time

-> like your mums were friends and you were all born around the same time

-> you've been pulled into their shit before you could walk or talk

-> so you're well aware of just how different these mfs are

-> even though they were both absolute bastards, osamu always had a slightly more mellowed out approach which would always end up with atsumu getting the blame for what they got up to

-> especially as a child, osamu loved to terrorise his twin with the unwilling help of you

-> one of the ways was through osamu exploiting one of his twins' fears

-> that being bugs and spiders

-> he always cackled at the sight of atsumu screaming and trying to run away from him due to the spider he was holding

-> as they both grew up, this became less of a frequent thing for osamu to do

-> you also somehow started dating atsumu, but nobody could exactly pinpoint a moment that signified a beginning to your relationship

-> but since you're dating the world's biggest manchild in disguise, and osamu gets annoyed with atsumu quite easily, you would have to swoop in to rescue him from time to time

-> recently the twins had been getting a little snappy with each other, and it had yet to sort itself out

-> from what you had heard your boyfriend was in the wrong this time, but you still listened to him whine and rant about it

-> you were going to the inarizaki school gym to say hi to your boyfriend and best friend before practice started, only to see absolute chaos unfolding

-> with kita yet to arrive, the twins were effectively unleashed and that much was clear with the way atsumu was practically screaming his head off as he ran around the gym

-> your eyes took in the rest of the players- aran had his head in his hands, suna was snickering with his phone out to record the newest miya twin fight, and osamu's deranged laugh could be heard above everything else as he chased his brother, hand held out in front of him

-> only one thing was capable of making atsumu scream like that, so you already knew what was happening

-> atsumu quickly spotted you hovering in the doorway, and made a beeline to where you were

-> his eyes were panicked, and you were quick to wrap him in a hug as you shot osamu a nasty glare over his shoulder

-> literally this lmfao

-> "that's enough, 'samu"

-> your best friend paused, before a smile spread across his face as he dangled the centipede in front of him

-> "you know it was rubber, right?"

-> you felt your boyfriend tense in your arms and you bit your lip to stifle a small giggle

-> but at least they would be back to normal by the end of today

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[extasiswings]

hi ok listen i am not proud of myself but im having a high anxiety day? month? year? and weewoo got me through the last month but for *reasons* aka *my mental health sucks* i am fucking terrified that i will watch faithfully unto the end and then buddie won't happen and I will not be able to handle that. do you have any wise words

also pls enjoy this gif which is me being fragile about tv characters being allowed to discover their queer selves after the age of 21

Well, first of all, I'm sorry you're having a difficult time. I definitely know how that feels.

As to everything else...the thing is, we can't know a timeframe. We don't have a blueprint for this. I can say that I'm fairly confident that by the end of this season we'll have some form of confirmed queer Eddie with feelings for Buck because this whole season (and stretching back to Suspicion and "make sure you're following your heart") has been dealing with the theme of hearts + Eddie and what he really wants for his life, but if we didn't get that I would still be confident in Buddie happening eventually. The writers have crafted this story so beautifully, so thoughtfully up to this point. It's not an accident. They are very good at their jobs and they love these characters at least as much if not more than we do.

The other thing is, we also don't know how long the show will last or how much else needs to happen before they can get together. Right now, I don't think Buck is ready. And I don't think he's going to be ready until he has some time after breaking up with Taylor to sit with his ideas of what love and relationships are supposed to look like after all, he misunderstood the assignment, and realize that what he's been trying to find, he's actually been building with Eddie the whole time. This season was Eddie's journey. If I had to guess, I would say next season is more of Buck's. And it would be amazing if they were fully together by the end of S6, but we genuinely cannot know. All we can do is be patient, trust the process, and enjoy the epic love story playing out on our screens.

As far as advice goes, I think the best thing I can say (and not just to you, but to anyone with this concern) is this: a comfort show is a comfort show, it can be a wonderful thing to have. But I think you have to ask yourself whether the anxiety you feel about the potential of not getting your preferred outcome (which could be years away by the time it happens) outweighs the other benefits to your mental health. Because if the stress of worrying about whether a fictional ship will go canon is really detrimental to you, and especially if that anxiety is interfering with your enjoyment of the story or life in general, it may be that the best thing is to take a step back and find a comfort show that isn't going to cause that level of stress. And there's no shame in doing that -- I have absolutely taken a break from shows I enjoyed for any number of reasons, including the fact that I was frustrated with the pace of a will-they-won't-they slow burn ship. There's no law that says you can't come back and bingewatch to your heart's content when the arc you most want to see finally happens.

For myself, all I have to say is that I have hope, I have faith, I have trust. I get frustrated sometimes. I get impatient. I whine and complain. But I have faith. And sure, there's a chance that the show will end in however many years and I will be proven wrong and all the people who insisted I and others were stupid for having that faith will be vindicated. And if that happened, I would likely be sad, I would be disappointed, I might be angry, but it's still...fiction. I've made my peace with the possibility of that happening. But if I may be a little arrogant for a moment, I am also...a very smart woman and a good writer in my own right and I'm not wrong very often. So...there's that.

Ultimately, the most important thing you can do is take care of yourself. Whatever that looks like is up to you.

#chapel talks #ask #daisyyydaisyyydaisyyy