#trying very hard to be normal about this

[vimse]

Happy Tech Tuesday!

#star wars #the bad batch #the bad batch tech #clone trooper tech #tbb tech #tech tbb #clone force 99 #bad batch tech #tech bad batch #star wars fanart #tech tuesday #vimse art #trying very hard to be normal about this

[flippedorbit]

btw i’m not answering the peanut butter anon ask for reasons i will not specify at this time

#Rasp Rambles #so uhh peanut butter anon. sorry if you wanted a proper response to That. #however if you wanna chat more on this my dms are open. at least i think they are? they might not be. imma look real quick. #they were open only for people i follow (because of the bot problem that continues to this day) but they’re open now :3c #trying very hard to be normal about this #everyone but peanut butter anon please turn a blind eye to me

[inkskinned]

he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.

except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?

at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.

except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.

about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.

he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.

#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag #writeblr #it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal #fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho) #healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy #im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage.... #1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind #and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes #2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception'' #3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.'' #idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh #im sure there are people who have this experience normally #but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists #when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band'' #edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful #once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large #but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry. #but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes #but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally. #i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes #people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism #but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet . #i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY #and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound. #but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in #i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too. #here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change #was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort) #choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL

[ruporas]

kiss (ID in alt text)

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun stampede #trigun maximum #this is also from a while ago... *kicks rocks* i keep on forgeting to upload stuff. also as u can see... my numerous kisses from before #but stampede vs maximum in my brain basically #ultimately they are both screwed in every versions but at different paces(?) #stampede im so screwed (trying to be normal) #maximum im so screwed (already resigned that they cant be normal about it) #doomed for tragedy but kiss kiss while they can #i very much enjoy drawing stampede vs max schtuff bc i have a hard time verbalizing What exactly their differences are #but i guess w stampede - to me - they feel more impulsive while simultaneously capable of being in deep denial #and with max its the opposite - hesitant and slow but the acceptance is already there........ my brain is mush so im not going to #elaborate more than that but i think this is also why i find stamp vw x max vw interactions fun to think about #ruporas art

[n0anix]

enjoyed this podcast very much (he is ignoring all the angst)

anyways, doodles

#dungeons and daddies #dndaddies #dndads #i enjoy link and taylor duo very much #taylor swift #lincoln wilson #scary marlowe #normal oak #hermie the unworthy #i am so normal about these characters #so normal i binged it all in a month and i cannot wait for the new episode #deciding on a hairstyle for normal was so hard #that's kinda the hairstyle i imagine young henry had so that's good enough #this whole podcast is such a wild ride #trying to convince my friends to listen to it so we can be insane together #doodles #dungeons and daddies fanart #my art

[heybiji]

he has a library card

#sketch #artists on tumblr #doodles #original character #ocs #antonio salvo #tony salvo #true strike #truestrike #masks: a new generation #masks: overlook #masks: overlook city #npc #ruth and tony #i'm normal about him #superheroes #books aren't fragile so he spent a lot of time around them growing up #though the plates the librarian gives him treats on are fragile and fling him into anxiety as he has to try very hard not to break them #long story short he has super strength he's not confident in controlling so he is afraid of breaking everything #trying to achieve that saltburn level of desire

[moodlesmain]

Hi. Look at this.

I just spent two days straight making a digital conspiracy board trying to piece together my favourite genre that isn't really a genre and more just a very particular niche which doesn't really have a name.

If you want to look I reccomend downloading and zooming in on the image to read everything LMAO, I want to try and convert it to a page on my neocities at some point so its easier to view but for now you guys just get a big ol' jpeg. You're welcome :)

#THIS IS ALL ABOUT ME TRYING TO LIKE BREAK DOWN A SUB-GENRE I'VE NOTICED like thats the main thing i'm trying to do here #its so broad but also so specific and trying to explain it is hard #so i made this #welcome to my twisted mind etc #just realised i forgot to include Long Exposure :( #i'm actually posting this a day later cause it was like 4am when i finished this #gravity falls #psychonauts #coraline #paranorman #sequel post to my one from a few days ago which got way more notes than i expected asedrjthgdrf??? #this is a wip also i still wanna edit things and add things later #need to improve my silly lil' sticker labelling system #mystery kids #should i tag a few more of the things i included? at least the bigger things???? uhh #i'll tag #scooby doo #at the very least since i dedicated a whole corner to them #fandom conspiracy board #is that a thing is this a thing people normally do #idk #it's satisfying though i like it #enrichment for me :)

[brother-emperors]

 Then, on his arrival in Constantinople, after much counsel with himself, considering that he was already unequal to the amount of pressing business and believing that there was no room for delay, on the twenty-eighth of March he brought the aforesaid Valens into one of the suburbs​ and with the consent of all (for no one ventured to oppose) proclaimed him Augustus. Then he adorned him with the imperial insignia and put a diadem on his head, and brought him back in his own carriage, thus having indeed a lawful partner in his power, but, as the further course of our narrative will show, one who was as compliant as a subordinate. No sooner were these arrangements perfected without disturbance than both emperors were seized with violent and lingering fevers--

AM 26.4.3-4

this was one of those illustrations that was originally supposed to be a 5 page comic until I realized I don't know anything about later roman empire architecture or visuals or art or anything, so we'll revisit that later. maybe

for right now though, these two are fascinating. we have two brothers acting as one body, even becoming ill in tandem with each other, it's giving This Throne Is Cursed. like, the last time I read about emperors coming down with life threatening illnesses, it was Caligula, and that moment in his biography marked a very specific tone shift. I spent the rest of the (first) time reading about Valens and Valentinian waiting for something comparable to Caligula's reign to happen lmao (Dio 59. 8. 1-2)

and since Caligula was already on the mind, I started thinking about Tiberius: I think he would've loved these two since he had a whole thing about twin-ification and brothers and etc etc etc. ofc, Rome is both a Mouth and a Tomb, so it's going to go badly for someone/everyone eventually, but honestly I think that Valentinian and Valens were the best we could've hoped for. like it could've been so much worse

Tiberius and the Heavenly Twins, Edward Champlin

Failure of Empire: Valens and the Roman State in the Fourth Century A.D, Noel Lenski

⭐ I have a tip jar (ko-fi)!

⭐ and other places I’m at! bsky / pixiv / pillowfort /cohost / cara.app

#(drawing hearts around valens) hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii #roman empire tag #drawing tag #every day i think about valentinian bringing his brother into this and wondering how valens felt about it #especially since the over all arc is that he's constantly just trying to tread water managing everything from six different fronts #did you ever want things to go back to how they were!!!! did you dream of simpler times!!!!!! when it was just hard work and dirt #under your nails instead of the horrible scale of empire choking you out to the very end!!!!!!!!! did you hate your brother for it #im normal about valens. btw. (<<<said by a guy who made valens his icon on his main art blog) #anyway. (claps hands together) im going to go and write about bonifacio and mabini and lucan and crassus and the pharsalia #and mabini's writings on a failed revolution and bonifacio haunting the collective memory #i gotta condense it down to a thousand words. ideally. we are rambling around at around 2k and its unwieldy #valens #valentinian I #later Roman Empire tag

[objectbiologist]

canon object classification!

#hfjone #hfjone charlotte #object biology #i am trying very hard to be normal about this development BUT IM ACTUALLY SO EXCITED OH GKD

[twobabkas]

the school of flipping Lip off (discreetly)

#shameless #shamelessedit #11x02 #11x10 #gallavich #gallavichedit #mickey milkovich #ian gallagher #my edits #i just realized mickey's wearing ian's shirt judging by the long ass sleeves and i'm trying very hard to be normal about it

[uncanny-tranny]

I know other adults like to joke about how much pain they're in, but genuinely, please try to get your pain checked out if you're an adult experiencing it, or at least adapt your life in whatever way lessens your pain.

Your pain deserves to be addressed. Please don't "let" it get worse because you've been told that to grow older is to suffer. No, you aren't being needy or selfish or annoying. Ultimately, you are the one who suffers the most from the state of your health, and it's entirely reasonable to want your health to be up to your standards.

#disability #chronic pain #it's actually not normal to feel scared to sneeze for fear of making your pain worse (calling myself out) #i dunno i guess maybe i'm just ~too young~ an adult but i'm already tired of the jokes about pain 😮‍💨 #i've been at this pain going on decades now so i guess that's what's gotten me kind of sensitive lol #like... it's just shitty to be told that 'its gonna get SO much worse so don't even TRY' as an adult with pain #basically when you're a kid you're too young but if you're an adult well... that's just what you get so suck it tf up #i'm going back to playing video games so that i may live in the comforting realm of fantasy (Much Less Pain Universe) #(trying to be grateful that my body is Very invested in telling me that it needs to be handled gently but it's hard) #talking so much about this just to continuously make sure that people don't do what i did in the past

[trickstersaint]

vacation bible school activity: where did you find god in your life today? // february 18 2024

#hi! i'm normal! #this is where that little passage from earlier is from btw. will reblog that post with just that passage again cause it drives me insane #anyway. i'm rlly glad that all the tumblr girlies are putting their concept of god into the beauty of the everyday. #makes me really fucking uncomfortable though 😭 #i am fr trying not to see that guy... would like to get away from him actually... trying very hard... #poems about religion #poems about god #poetry #poem #poems #poets on tumblr #poems and poetry #poetsandwriters #original poem #could never be a quaker that stuff scares the shit out of me

[notmoreflippingelves]

#elena of avalor #beauty and the beast #batbedit #disneyedit #eoa edit #belle x beast #estebalena #kinda but also not kinda #I think a lot about the fact that it's been confirmed that this is an intentional homage #like EoA series supervising director Elliot M. Bour was just like casually bringing BATB into things as an Easter egg #since it was his first job in animation #and like don't get me wrong; I LOVE that he did this. I just don't know how he expected anyone (i.e. me) to be normal about it afterwards #once you've introduced BATB; it ceases to be a fun and casual reference and just makes the literature major girlies go feral #i thought this was gonna be a quick and easy little project but it wasn't #the parallels are all there but they're in slightly different order in EoA than the original and the pacing for each reference is differen #so i had to determine which ones I needed to skip frames for and which ones to use all the frames #and then try to figure out the speed from there #the coronation day scenes were very hard to color because the grey skies and muted filter kind of whitewash the characters #like you don't even understand i added so MUCH vibrance and saturation to the 4th and 5th gifs but elena's skin still is just gray #and the coloring is still just a very very mixed bag #also i've realized that while I don't think it was an intentional reference in the same way BATB was #anna's sacrifice and resurrection from frozen is perhaps just as --if not more-- a clear parallel to the coronation day scene than BATB #so maybe I will do that one someday too? #once i psych myself up again to try coloring coronation day again #which i imagine will be awhile #these do not look like the same scene and pretty much the same scene at all even if i tried to use the same psd when i could #and edit them to make the coloring as close as i could

[tragedykery]

wrote the first two paragraphs of priory with tolkien’s elvish script. it’s not perfect but I’d like to think I’m improving!

[ID: the first two paragraphs of the priory of the orange tree written with the tengwar. it reads:

The stranger came out of the sea like a water ghost, barefoot and wearing the scars of his journey. He walked as if drunk through the haze of mist that clung like spidersilk to Seiiki.

The stories of old said water ghosts were doomed to live in silence. That their tongues had shrivelled, along with their skin, and that all that dressed their bones was seaweed. That they would lurk in the shallows, waiting to drag the unwary to the heart of the Abyss.

the ink is black, except for the last word (abyss), which is red. /end ID]

#this took. a while #the priory of the orange tree #tpotot #lotr #lotrposting #<- it counts #elli rambles #r #roc #roots of chaos #trying very hard not to think about possible priory/lotr crossovers bc I think if I do I will combust on the spot #normal about books I like. btw #tengwar #edit: noticed a pretty egregious mistake noooo 😭😭😭 #a #tolkien

[vigilskeep]

evil companions always saying insane things in combat before you’re supposed to know they’re evil companions. please i love you and i support you but you’ve gotta give me something to work with here. stop yelling about blood

#this posts brought to you by idle experiments with pathfinder wotr #camellia im trying really hard to believe you didnt kill that guy. camellia. #this will be very funny if shes actually normal but you know what. i am not worried about it. #harker goes crusading

[blueskittlesart]

my sister is playing ace attorney which is either going to be the best sibling bonding moment we have ever experienced or a canon event in which she learns to never bring up these games around me ever again

#trying sooooo so so so hard to be normal about it. did tell her phoenix eats glass in game 3 which she is excited about #she is very concerned about phoenix's education. shes convinced he could not have passed the bar (probably true) #personal