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In Justice We Trust (126233 words) by thesavagesabretooth

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With Simon Blackquill and Athena Cykes assigned as their psychologists, the Phantom and Fulbright must grapple with their identity, their deeds, their future, and their love for the twisted samurai whom they betrayed.

All the while, Edgeworth and Wright find their relationship tested as they walk the narrow path between pursuing real justice, and the dark age of the law.

December 25, 12:55 pm

It was Apollo Justice.

He was wearing a long red coat that she vaguely remembered shoving in his suitcase, and a black shirt and vest. He absolutely radiated anger– but the quiet kind– like the low warmth of the dying embers of a once roaring fire.

Athena sunk into her chair with the intention to vanish into a ball before he could see her, the simmering anger flickering through her own emotions and leaving her feeling coiled and nervy as Edgeworth.

"Well, you've found me," Edgeworth nodded. He sighed deeply. "I was hoping to speak with you today. Frankly– I was hoping to speak with you yesterday. But things happened the way they happened. I won't make excuses. Would you like me to dismiss Ms. Cykes?"

"Huh?" Apollo's attention abruptly snapped to her– he hadn't noticed her before. "Oh. Hey. Athena."

She stifled the keening sound she wanted to make, before putting on her mask’s best smile “Hey Apollo! You look..”

She looked him over, again. “Love the new look! Haha..” she was still half scrunched in the chair.

"Thanks for packing for me," he said dully. He took off the coat and threw it over as he sat down at the table. "She can stay– assuming you want to talk, Athena."

Athena’s smile took on a nervous grimace, her fingers digging into the cloth of her pants…pants still smudged with ashes from the scene of the crime.

“You’re welcome, hah…su-sure. I’ll stay. I’m great at talking, you know that!”

"One of the best." Apollo smiled tightly. His emotions were an intense tangle behind the coals of his anger. He took a breath. "Alright, so. Anything you want to say, Mr. Edgeworth? Cause I've got a hell of a lot I'd like to say."

Edgeworth took his glasses off and set them on the table. Sadness and anxiety were written in his tone. "Absolutely yes, Mr. Justice. The first thing I'd like to say is I'm sorry. Deeply sorry. My failure to keeping you in the loop of information was inexcusable."

Athena took a deep breath as she shifted back up in her seat and folded her hands on her lap. At the very least…maybe she could direct the emotions of the room towards a better end than if she was gone.

"Yeah," Apollo huffed. He took another steadying breath, as Athena felt the tumult in his heart roil again. "I'll say it was pretty damned inexcusable. –thank you for apologizing at least, I guess."

"I owe you a great deal more than an apology," Edgeworth murmured. "But it's all that I can offer right now– aside from answering your questions and bringing you into the loop now."

"Good because there's a lot of points I'm real unclear on."

There was something odd about Apollo's tone. Maybe it was just how angry he was– how angry he'd been– all the grief and anguish that still flashed back and forth within him, but it wasn't sitting right with Athena.

Athena frowned…and quietly turned Widget’s display onto the mood matrix. For the moment, she didn’t interrupt, only listening…at least until she knew how to start.

"I imagine so," Edgeworth nodded. "I'm told you had an altercation in the dining hall this morning– I assume because you discovered that the espionage agent formerly known as Bobby Fulbright was there."

"Yeah. I sure did." He took another breath. "I got… pretty upset about it. I'm sorry to say."

The mood matrix was registering– a lot, really. Practically every emotion except happiness. But they kept juttering up and down.

Athena’s brow knit, but she kept her emotions steady as she looked up at Apollo again.

She’d known Apollo for a little while by that point, and his emotions had never been like this. Grief was one thing…but this was something else entirely.

Something she only saw in the strongest discord…or in the erratic not-so-final confrontation only a few days ago.

"I can understand you getting upset. It's upsetting. I had wanted to tell you in private, but things got away from me. That's my fault, and I harmed you by it," Edgeworth acknowledged. He was quite the diplomat– it was clear why he'd been made chief prosecutor.

"Thanks, Mr. Edgeworth, for acknowledging that." There was a flicker of a positive emotion on the mood matrix chart– relief, satisfaction?-- but it was immediately swallowed up by another one of anger. It was like his emotions were pingponging back and forth.

"It must have been a shock. Since the Phantom was reported dead. Unfortunately– that was part of our own espionage operation of a sort. With the intent to chase down the man's former organization."

"I get that but–" he started plaintively, but abruptly his tone, and the whole direction of his sentence changed. "So because you need him, you just let him have his job back? A murderer? The guy who killed–" He stopped, biting back the rest of whatever he was going to say.

Athena was getting a sinking feeling in the pit of her stomach. This abrupt, violent shaking back and forth of emotions….the sudden shifts in tone and direction…the way he seemed almost at war with his own emotions, stopping his own sentences and veering off elsewhere…

It was familiar.

She’d seen it recently in a different form.

“Apollo…”

He didn't respond quite immediately– as if it took him a moment to remember to.

He turned toward her. "Yeah, Athena?"

She took a deep breath.

“I know you’re upset…but would you mind if I suggested a little therapy?”

Apollo looked uncomfortable, and she could see his emotions warring back and forth with themselves on the screen.

Finally he shrugged. "If I say no, then you're going to think I really need therapy, aren't you?" He sighed. "You're right– I am upset. I feel like I have a right to be."

“Of course you do. He took something from you that you can never get back…” She tapped the screen to focus in on him.

“And here he is, back in his old job. It’s got to be difficult..right?” Even if she didn’t feel the same way– even if she couldn’t be angry at him– even if she found herself understanding and understood by the self-described ‘abyss’ who was anything but…

She knew the usual instinct of the human psyche was anger and hurt in the face of grief and death.

“But the problem is you’re…” she took a deep breath. “you’re of two minds about it, Apollo. Or rather…you have multiple distinct emotional threads running concurrently and butting up against one another…the evidence is there, how you keep interrupting yourself…and how you keep rapidly changing tracks of conversation. You did the same thing when I had to physically get in your way to stop you from hitting the detective.”

Edgeworth was letting the two of them talk. The chief prosecutor sat back, watching and listening, reminding Athena a little of the judge in court.

"I'm of two minds about it," Apollo repeated. She watched his emotions flicker and flash again. "Yeah, okay. I'm not going to deny that. Feelings are complicated."

“Very complicated, Apollo,” Athena said carefully. “but the mood matrix is registering a lot of erratic discord. So…how about you tell me what’s on your mind? How do you feel about Halblicht’s presence here? The guy who killed….” she gestured. “Lay it all out.”

"I don't…" he shifted uncomfortably. "I don't really want to talk about it. I'm.. upset. I'm hurt. I'm– I'm really fucking pissed about it, okay?"

Athena’s eyes stayed on the mood matrix “You’re my friend, Apollo.” she said quietly “I won’t pry if you really, really don’t want me to. You just seem like you’re struggling.”

‘Struggling alone’ was in debate at the moment.

"Yeah," he admitted, hanging his head. "I don't know what to do, Athena. I don't– I feel like my whole life's been thrown into chaos, Athena. Like I don't even know up from down any more. One minute I'm angry, the next I'm crying. And the next I'm just…. fine. Like usual. I'm just– I'm falling apart. I'm sorry, Mr. Edgeworth, I know you wanted to count on me but I feel like I'm clinging onto a cliff by my fingernails, trying not to get sucked into hell."

Miles held up his hands. "Please, Apollo, don't apologize to me. I'm the one who should apologize to you– and even more profusely than before."

The mood matrix reflected Apollo's words. He was truthful about his feelings.But they were all over the place. And underlying them was a strong current of anxiety that he had yet to acknowledge at all.

“It’s been a destabilizing few days, Apollo…I know that, I’m dealing with all the memories of the night my mother died…” She smiled at him despite the air of turmoil. “It’s natural to feel confused, lost and adrift in your own emotions. But you’ve got people who’ll keep you from falling into hell. Promise…”

She took a deep breath “on that note, there’s something else… a strong note of anxiety that pervades everything you’re saying…”

The anxiety flicked higher– his eyes widened and he looked for a brief moment like a cornered animal before he composed himself.

He looked over at Edgeworth. "Sir, I– I have more I want to talk to you about. More questions– but could you give me a moment alone with Athena?"

The prosecutor nodded gravely, and gathered up his papers, shutting them in his briefcase. "Of course, Apollo. Again, I'm so sorry to have asked so much of you, and to have wronged you the way I did. Please come see me in my room and I'll explain all the details, and answer any questions you have."

Apollo managed a shaky smile, but there was no joy in it. "Sure, see you in a few."

He nodded, and headed toward the exit. "Ms. Cykes– there's nothing more I needed to say that's so urgent it can't wait til tomorrow, but my door is open to you, too, if you need anything."

Athena gave Miles a timid smile, nodding her head. “Of course…we’ll finish catching up soon , sir. Thanks for the talk.”

With that, she typed a few commands into the mood matrix and prepared herself.

Edgeworth quietly saw himself out of the room and closed the door behind him. Apollo's hands were shaking on the tabletop, and he took deep, slow breaths that didn't seem to calm him down any. His leg was restlessly bouncing up and down under the table– a nervous tic she'd never seen him do before, until a few days prior.

It was another piece of data she added to the mood matrix, the sinking pit in her stomach opening all the wider.

“Apollo…?”

He snapped his gaze back up to her, and took one more breath. "Yeah. So… you asked about that anxiety…"

“Yeah, I did…it’s been pretty constant since I started analyzing your emotions.”

He swallowed, laying his shaking hands flat on the table.

"Athena– I'm worried I'm going crazy. Like– like really actually crazy. I keep– I keep hearing his voice. And sometimes it feels like he's the one doing things and I'm just watching. And he's so angry…"

Athena listened carefully, glancing down at the mood matrix, before looking up at Apollo again.

“You hear his voice? And sometimes it’s like he’s in control, and you’re the passenger?”

Apollo looked away. "Sorry. I shouldn't say things like that. I mean, not literally. It's just the grief talking."

The mood matrix was suddenly blasted with distortion.

“Ahh!” Athena quickly tapped at it. “Apollo…”

She took a deep breath before she leaned forward. “I believe you. And I don’t think you’re crazy…I think it might be more than just grief. I’ve seen this recently, something very similar at least.”

He looked back toward her cautiously. His eyes were dark, and stormy. "What do you mean?"

“This sort of emotional response. This sort of division…and ah, this sort of ‘hearing a dead man’s voice in your head’.” she brushed her fingers over the mood matrix. “Whatever the source of it, it’s no less real as far as your experiences, and the data does line up…look at the way your mood matrix splits…”

He scooted his chair over, and looked at the data. "It's weird looking at my own mood matrix like that– makes me feel like I'm a suspect or something."

His emotions shifted and shuttered on the screen even as he spoke and watched.

Athena chuckled softly. “No, she’s in custody right now. you missed the show.” She bumped his shoulder against his with a gentle smile “but look at it…see what I mean? It’s not the same as when we see discord in the courtroom.”

He rubbed the back of his neck. "Sorry about that, missing it. I– I went to talk to Klavier. I wish I could say it helped. But– yeah. I see what you mean."

“Oh yeah…he’s here for a commercial.” She rubbed her neck in an unconscious mirror of his own movements. “Anyway, it’s alright. I’ll fill you in later, it’s…a lot. It actually has some to do with some of the stuff I’ve been meaning to tell you about …about Halblicht.”

She shook her head. “but a-anyway! I’ve seen this sort of division before…and it turned out in that case to really be the presence of two distinct personas in one mind.”

He jerked backwards. "Athena, I know I said I felt like I was going crazy but I was really hoping you wouldn't confirm it!"

“It could be a ghost?” Athena offered with a lopsided smile. “...but in all seriousness, even if it was something cognitive it doesn’t make you ‘crazy’. It’s just a thing that is. The real issue is his anger…it’s driving you to violence and erratic decisions, so we’d have to find a way to soothe it and bring some harmony to your mental state. Ease the discord.”

"A ghost– hah– you're the second person who said that to me," he said, looking at the table. "Trucy said Pearl thought I was possessed…."

“It is a legal precedent, admittedly. We’ve both like, met the girl who’s trial it was in. Personally.”

"That's… true," he said slowly. "But– not to be mean but– they're kind of religious fanatics, you know? I won't speak to the legal precedent but, it's a lot to swallow. Even if I want to believe it."

“I think Miss Iris is lapsed…” she paused for a moment to rub her chin “lapsed…can you lapse at being a spirit medium? Either way I wouldn’t call her a fanatic…and they got footage of it in the archives!”

She shook her head. “But all of that’s not the point…maybe it is real…maybe it’s not. You can talk to Pearl about it I’m sure. But either way there’s clearly something happening , Apollo. If you’re hearing Clay…I believe you. But you need to address this, or his anger’s going to tear you apart. Okay?”

He nodded, and his hair fell over his eyes. "I know. It's hard because he wants to be angry. He feels justified in being angry, and I.. I feel angry on his behalf too. But it's so much. I don't want to lash out and hurt people….. he's quiet now. I think talking about it scares him."

“I promise I’m not trying to banish him or anything like that.” Athena promised “...I just want to help. He’s justified in being angry, I believe he’s angry…It’s…just complicated.”

"If I'm honest, he was kind of pissed you defended the Phantom this morning. I'm just… confused, Athena. I'm really confused. And I think that's why it's easy to let him make decisions. Because I don't feel like I know what the hell is going on."

Athena ran her hand through her hair with a subtle frown. “

...he can be pissed at me if he wants, but I wouldn’t change my decision..” she shook her head. “...you feel lost, and he’s got his anger, so it’s easier to let him make decisions. It makes sense..” She bit her lip ‘would it help if I explained some of what’s been happening with me? For context on what happened this morning.”

"Maybe? I mean, I want to know. It just seems so insane to me. He– he killed your mom, Athena. I know it was a long time ago, but, if somebody did something like that to me, I don't think I could ever forgive them."

Athena twisted her ponytail around her hand.

“It’s not like I’m not upset…or that the grief is any further away. I didn’t remember any of it until a few days ago, and I can see it clear as day when I close my eyes.”

She watched Apollo’s mood matrix instead of his face. “I just can’t find it in my heart to be angry at Robert for it. It doesn’t register…especially now that I understand..” she paused, omitting her admission that she understood the phantom and replacing it– “where he came from.”

"Where did he come from?" Apollo asked earnestly. She could see the anger burbling up in his mood matrix, despite it being hidden in his voice. "What could possibly be enough to override all that– everything he did, Athena?"

Athena noted the shift in tone and word choice with a tap on the Mood Matrix.

She took a deep breath. If Apollo was going to be her co-counsel, he had to know. “The organization that the phantom and our new custody..our client, Number 24…the girl who’d killed and replaced Agent Kelso, are from, didn’t hire them. It made them.”

She brushed her fingers together in a nervous gesture, frowning as she did. Widget flashed a deep blue upon her chest before she spoke again. “The Phantom was a child in a training facility that did all it could to beat the personality and emotion out of their assets, and turn them into the sorts of people who could wear any face, anywhere, for their purposes. They weren’t allowed to have names, or preferences, or opinions. They turned humans into tools, Apollo. Expendable.

The Phantom didn’t have any malice when he killed my mother, or Clay…he didn’t want to, but he never had a choice in anything his whole life until now.”

"That's…" Apollo stammered. "You're kidding– right? That's just a lie? That can't be true."

On the mood matrix his emotions were going haywire again.

Athena watched the emotions carefully.

“It’s true, Apollo. I’ve had extensive interviews with him and I’m comfortable saying it’s the truth. Not only that…but ‘Number 24’, our client, mirrors him in a lot of ways. I’m certain we’ll get a similar story out of her.”

She placed her hand on his shoulder in an attempt to calm him “that’s the sort of organization we’re hunting.”

"But that's… no. He's– he's evil James Bond," Apollo faltered and Athena watched his emotions war with one another, sadness and anxiety spiking, then anger, then back again. "It's spy business isn't it? Not spy slavery! Who would come up with something like that? That can't be–"

“Apollo…Clay?” Athena bit her lip. “You saw his emotional matrix at the trial, didn’t you? It wasn’t as if he had no emotions. It wasn’t a natural state. They were there, but beaten down into something the organization could use. Everything in my therapy sessions has been consistent with this, and I believe him when he tells me about his past.”

She took a deep breath. “But evidence is everything, right? If our client can be convinced to talk, would you accept her testimony? You have no personal stake with her, no grudge because of an unfair death, and she has no reason to lie.”

Apollo– or probably Clay– shuddered bodily, like an involuntary spasm and gripped the table. He took a heaving breath. "Alright– alright. Yeah. Evidence. If the… client… confirms it the I– I'm not going to forgive him, but I won't. –I don't think I can be angry about it if it was something like that."

“Good…” Athena smiled gently. “I’ll see if we can arrange a talk with her…she’s under supervision right now by Interpol b-because she attempted to execute herself the moment she was caught.”

She felt the prickle of anxiety and horror up her back as she remembered the spiking emotions and the gun once more.

“But I think we’ll be allowed…and if it helps your anger, good. You don’t need to forgive him, neither of you. You just–I just want everyone to understand what we’re dealing with here.”

He leaned backward, and crossed his arms– more like he was putting them around himself again like she'd seen before. "She tried to kill herself? That's… some dedication…"

Hugging himself, or…something similar. It made sense if what she had gleaned from his emotional state was right.

“Immediately. When they tried to tell her to stand down, she told us that Halblicht knew it wasn’t an option…she felt something for the first time I’d known her, intense fear and despair, and then she put the gun to her head.”

She bit her lip. “Detective Halblicht…’the Phantom’ saved her life by jumping in the way and knocking the gun away. She was the one who shot him, Justice. Back at the courtroom, and he still saved her life. She was trying to do the same thing to herself, just as her handlers probably demanded.”

"She was the one who shot him. And he tried to save her life," he repeated. He took a deep, shuddering breath. "You've given me a lot to think about, Athena. As usual."

Athena put her hand on his shoulder again and gave it a firm squeeze.

“I know…I’m sorry it took me so long to tell you, Apollo. It’s been…it’s been a heck of a few days.” She gave him a smile. “Think it through, okay? And when you’re ready, let me know. But you know I’m always there for you, right? If you need me, just ask.”

He leaned into her hand and nodded. "Thanks, Athena. Thanks a lot."

December 25, 1:25 pm

Miles had his paperwork spread out over the desk in his hotel room, and rocked the chair gently back and forth on its hinge as he looked his papers over. Gumshoe was out– working with Badd, he was pretty certain– and he was alone with himself and his thoughts.

He was doing his best not to dwell on his mistakes. To move forward and make certain he didn't make any more. But it was hard– and that was why the words on the page were glazing over when he managed to look at them, probably.

At least he'd gotten some sleep last night. Thank lady justice.

There was a sharp knock at the door, and he immediately answered "Come in."

To his surprise, not who he'd been expecting.

It was Phoenix. He didn't look entirely pleased.

"Phoenix," Miles greeted, taking off his largely pointless now reading glasses. "I was expecting Apollo Justice."

"Really? Good to know, because I came to talk about Apollo Justice."

Miles grimaced. He'd been afraid of that

"Yes, that's not surprising. Come on, sit down, Wright– go ahead and lay into me about it."

With his hands on his knees, he waited for Phoenix to start in on him.

There was a long, silent moment where the two men stared at each other. Phoenix was still standing by the door.

Finally he spoke.

"Well, Edgeworth, it sounds like you already know you fucked up."

Miles took a deep breath, his hands tightening on his knees. "Obviously. It's one of my worse blunders. It's… thrown my judgment into question in my mind."

"Then I'm not going to repeat what you already know, Miles. I'm not going to make you explain yourself to me, or justify your behavior, or beg my forgiveness. Though I hope that you will or have done so with Apollo at least."

Phoenix's tone was rough. It was hard to listen to. Miles wished that he had maliciously withheld the information from Apollo instead of simply forgetting to tell him.

A sin was forgivable. A mistake, never.

He reminded himself that Phoenix Wright was not Manfred Von Karma.

"Mr. Justice and I just spoke on it," Miles explained. "I intend to explain myself further, but he's currently having a session with Ms. Cykes, which is probably for the best."

Phoenix finally came and sat down on the bed. "Athena's talking to him? Good. She's holding up to this thing you've put on them a damned lot better than Apollo is."

"I know." Edgeworth sagged. "I spoke to her, too. Part of the problem is that unshakable front that Justice puts up. I suppose I let myself buy into the idea that he would be fine."

"And he's not fine."

"He is so not fine, Wright. He reminds me of myself after I lost my father. He's older, but–"

"Yeah," Phoenix sighed. "I wasn't there, but I think I can understand what you mean.:"

Miles leaned forward toward him in the chair, his shoulders slumped. "Obviously I don't know him as well as you do, but he seems… lost, Phoenix. I feel responsible."

"For not telling him? We all make mistakes, Miles. This was a pretty bad one, but–"

"For that," Miles cut him off, "but for… more than that, too."

Phoenix's expression shifted from tense irritation– to concern. He cocked his head at Miles and reached out to him. "Hey, come here. Sit with me."

Stiffly, Miles lurched up and came and sat on the bed, slumping halfway across Phoenix's body.

"What's up, Miles?" he asked, brushing his hand across his cheek.

Miles leaned into him, drawing some comfort from the touch, despite his worry in bringing up the topic. "I– Phoenix– I worry that it's my fault that Apollo's friend died in the first place. That his death is on my hands."

"What?"

Miles felt Phoenix stiffen, and the reaction made him wince. He closed his eyes.

"You know my office had been trying to flush out the Phantom this whole last year. That's why I had Blackquill start prosecuting cases again. And all this time he was right under our noses but– but that's not the point."

"What is the point, Miles?" Phoenix asked slowly. His touch softened again, and he gave him a look of probing concern.

"The point is that I knew that the Phantom might show up. I knew there was a solid chance that he would," Miles' voice croaked out of his throat. "I could have done anything, absolutely anything to make the HAT-2 mission safer for the participants. I could have told them to beef of security. I could have told them to scrub the launch. I could have fucking warned Starbuck and Terran about the possibility. But I didn't do that, Phoenix. I didn't do any of that. I was so focused on catching the Phantom, that I gambled with their lives– I traded Clay Terran's life as the price for catching the Phantom."

Miles fell against Phoenix's chest as a sudden rush of emotion heaved out of him, and he felt tears on his cheeks. Slowly, Phoenix put his arms around him, and squeezed him.

"I… never thought about that, Miles."

"Well I have!" he choked. "It isn't the Phantom that Apollo should be furious with, Phoenix. He's more tool than he is man. It's me that deserves his ire, if anyone. And I don't– I don't know what to do about that, Phoenix. I think I've been making terrible mistakes ever since I started as Chief Prosector. I don't think I deserve to be here."

Phoenix's grip on him became tighter. "Well you'd better damned well not go anywhere without taking me," he hissed. "Have you got that, Edegworth? No rash decisions. No 'Miles Edgeworth chooses death'. Do you understand that?"

Miles shuddered against Wright's chest. He knew he still hadn't been forgiven for that. He didn't expect to be. He had hurt Phoenix deeply– hurt everyone close to him deeply, when he'd done that.

"I understand." He nodded against his chest.

"Good." Phoenix ran his fingers through Miles' hair. "I'm glad we've got that cleared up. The rest, we can figure out together, okay."

"I don't know how," Miles murmured. "Politics, law enforcement– at the level that I'm at it all feels like playing with people's lives like they were pawns on a chess board, Phoenix. I don't want that– it's not who I want to be– but it's so easy to fall into that kind of thinking. Until you hurt someone."

"You're worried you might become another Damon Gant?" Phoenix said softly.

"Or worse," Miles said. He stared blankly at the fibers of Phoenix's jacket.

"Well you won't," he promised firmly. "One way or another you won't. Because if I start to see it happening, I'll pull you out of there."

"I think I'd resign today if there was anyone I trusted to do the job, Phoenix," Miles said. "That's the worst thing, is that even when I'm worried about failing utterly, I worry that anyone else would be worse. That it's a sin I have to bear until it corrupts me."

Phoenix squeezed him tight. "Lady justice, you are melodramatic as hell right now, Miles."

He looked up at him. "Phoenix, I'm serious!"

Wright touched his face again, and sighed. "I know. But you're still melodramatic. Look. You fucked up, yes. Were there things that you could have done better? Also yes. But you can't let your mistakes destroy you. You have to pick yourself up and do better. Be better. For the sake of the people that you've hurt, if nobody else."

Miles bit his lip, listening as Phoenix spoke.

"You're right, MIles, right now, this position that you're in has a lot of power. And people say that power can corrupt. But I trust you, Miles. I believe in you. If you've made mistakes it's not because there's some kind of evil growing at your heart, it's because everybody makes mistakes. And you have the responsibility, as long as you're in this position, to learn from those mistakes and use them to do better. For everybody else, but especially for yourself."

Miles wiped his face, looking up at Phoenix in half disbelief. "Since when did you get so wise, Wright?"

He smirked. "It was probably the whole raising a daughter thing. Oh and all those Spider-Man comics I read while I was disbarred."

Edgeworth laughed a sharp, pained laugh, and buried his head against Phoenix's shoulder. "Comic book wisdom. I should have known."

"Hey, as if you get to talk," Phoenix grinned. "Come on, what would the Steel Samurai do in your position?"

"Probably… try to exile himself for his sins, and then come back stronger after a pep talk from his spiritual mentor, actually," Miles mused.

"Well, for the purposes of this, you can consider me that spiritual mentor, Miles. Get back up and come back stronger."

Miles looked up at him. "Spiritual mentors are supposed to be old and wise, not handsome and smart mouthed."

"I can stop shaving again, if that will help."

Miles grabbed his jaw and pulled him into a kiss. "Don't."

Maybe Phoenix was right. Maybe mistakes couldn't be forgiven, but he had a responsibility to learn from them, instead of let them break him.

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Overall another great episode I’d say! ✌️

My initial Spoiler Thoughts for 7x2 in no particular order.

Hen has some clear biases to assess and work on. She was, well, dismissive and judgemental of the drunk (and drugged?) guy. She’s gotta stay neutral no matter the person, especially while on scene. Oh ohhhh I wonder if this will be an arc that Hen goes on this season? Just overall her becoming a better firefighter/captain?

Poor Norman. His wife cheated on him? That’s rough my guy. And… I’m not sure he’s gonna make it. =/

That's the cruise doctor? Uhhh I think they need someone with more expertise and frankly more of a spine. Bruh.

That hostage situation was surprisingly short. Hm…. I’m kinda wondering if this season had, say, 18 episodes if they would have spread out this whole cruise ship story to 4 episodes instead of 3. Idk, I’ll have to wait to see how episode 3 goes, but *shrugs* I don’t think I’d be mad if it all had been stretched out a bit for extra drama.

The snake white guy said “I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I’m not a bad person.” I need more time to think and articulate this but… Actions speak louder than words. Dude was selfish, dabbling in something that brought great harm to others while, sure, not meaning for the harm to happen. He’d been ready to dip. He only gets points for saving our 911 parents. 😩

Please. That’s so cute that Maddie and Chimney share everything and gossip together. Sure they’ll keep your secret! …..but that secret is also safe with their partner. <3

Frank, you did okay this time. But be prepared for an influx once Athena and Bobby are back, and not just from them. Are you listening, Buck? He needs to go back to therapy anyway. But like, Bobby is in danger and that’s going to effect Buck. Please please let the show circle back around to the fact that Buck greatly fears losing Bobby, his dad.

Buck and Eddie sharing one brain cell when trying to explain themselves. <3

Maddie has clearly been with Chimney for a long time with her joke of “did you lose a boat?” 😆

Idk when Bobby is in captain mode he's so??????? Yeah.

Ahhhh! The camera shot of Bobbys’ hand covering Athena’s to help her save everyone. 😩 These two are so ride or die oh my godddddd.

Shit, yeah Peter and Angela got my crying a bit with their “love confession” talk.

I spotted some bloopers. In 1-2 moments Peter’s hair was almost dry, then it wasn’t. They had to film that scene in the bulge (whatever that room was called) for a while or something.

Maddie knows Spanish?? I mean, I guess she probably learned it in high school, and maybe was able to keep it up being a nurse and then a 911 dispatcher. Good on her because I took 2 years of Spanish in high school, didn’t keep it up, and remember maybe 1% of what I learned.

HOLY SHIT THAT CLIFFHANGER!!!!!!! Literally Athena’s worst fears come to life. 🙃🙃🙃

OKAY. BUT. If the fuck-massive cruise ship was fully turned over, HOW does anyone in the life boats survive? Did they somehow make it far enough away to not get tossed like a freaking toy???? Suspension of disbelief I guess!! 🤙

#911 spoilers #9-1-1 #my thoughts

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"it should hopefully buy us a bit more time." 👀? this is not the first time (ha!) that the idea of 'buying time' has come up this season. just food for thought.

may bringing her boyfriend darius by as a surprise, her parents not knowing who to expect, thinking she was bringing a friend or a roommate but instead she brought her partner.

"no, this is all wrong. you've got Schipp International sitting next to ZenithPro. / the donors are seated exactly as you asked, sir. i wrote down all your instructions verbatim. / welp, you must have heard wrong. we all make mistakes, just put RevitaThon next to Post-Everest and we should be fine." schipp/ship, right by zenith? the seating charts being wrong and needing tweaking. revitathon- like, revived, revitalized, rescued, brought back, made new again next to POST-EVEREST. as in, just beyond the mountain peak. or, in storytelling terms, the climax. the ship (buddie) can't be at its zenith (peak, glory days, its brightest) just yet. just move the buddie comeback/revival to right after the big plot climax and we should be fine. Y'ALL. THIS IS IT. especially after that very loaded dialogue from karen in tomorrow, about the programmers "finding the exact right series of maneuvers to make the robots do exactly what we want them to do" and "we need to make sure every single piece of this mission is in perfect shape to give it the best chance of success."

"what are you waiting for? just fix it." us, lol!

"i fantasied about it so many times, you have no idea. but this time i think my subconscious actually made it happen." manifestingggggg

"i'm just saying, i thought we were past the whole keeping secrets phase."

"sometimes talking about your dreams makes it seem all too real. sometimes the fantasy is better than the reality." this paired with earlier lines from animal instincts, "probably knew it'd make for a good cover. smart kid" and "sometimes half the thrill is thinking you're getting away with it." y'all.

"no idea. he's not spilling, i don't feel like pushing."

"i can't believe we're doing this. i know. we're finally about to live our fantasy. this is gonna be so much better than a plane. everybody does a plane. this is legend." you Cannot tell me these lines aren't the writers getting hyped about being able to say they made buddie happen, how groundbreaking it would be. this happening, overhead but hidden and out of sight, while the firefam talks about first kisses? and secret crushes? and said first kisses making you realize you've been looking for love in all the wrong places, and ignoring the perfectly good option that was right under your nose, because you'd just never considered it before? yeah, no, this was loud. especially combined with a line from earlier this season that was something like "we've been working on this mission for five years now. if we don't do something big, we'll get left behind."

"that sounds traumatizing. / illuminating, actually. i realized i was kissing the wrong suarez. his sister martina was more my speed." just like how eddie was originally written for the girl buckley sibling, but the writers + jen realized her brother buck was more his speed?

"i don't know why i tell you guys anything."

"keep young people too distracted to see what's really there." i'm incredibly iffy/hesitant on including this one, considering who said it 😬😬😬😬😬 i highly doubt it's foreshadowing, and that scene/plot was about may & darius & athena, and important social commentary on incels, above all else. i only mention this line bc when i was going through the script it reminded me that there's been a general theme so far this season in terms of weird one-off dialogue lines referring to buying time, element of surprise, paying attention, distractions, secrets, etc. i don't think it's all a coincidence, not with this show. not when the season pilot was literally titled "let the games begin." nope.

"listen, may, fantasy or not, there's no room for error in these situations."

"great. so we lost the element of surprise, too." you guys i cannot begin to explain how much this made me go 👀🚨🛑🧨⁉️ ESPECIALLY after an earlier dialogue line this season where maddie said "you just learned how the element of surprise can shift a listeners focus and make them pay attention"

"he knows that his options are running out real soon."

"-roll cold. no lights, no sirens." secrecy, and element of surprise, AGAIN

"i understand. not everyone's built for my pace." not everyone's willing to stay tuned for this slow of a burn, and i think they get that, but they're not willing to compromise on their storytelling and rush things just to satisfy the audience. this is a good thing!

"so how long are we gonna be able to convince ourselves that this is a sustainable way to live? / as long as we need to. when the right dream house presents itself, we'll know. but in the meantime, this is a pretty great fantasy, too." LMFAO this one is pretty self explanatory. when the time comes, we'll know, but in the meantime this is still a good story. this is especially juicy paired with all the back and forth re: buck, and happiness, and when you're "truly at ease," you'll know.

"so how long do you plan on standing guard out here? just until they get inside."

"all those milestones start to seem like a stupid fantasy. / looks like that fantasy's turning into a reality. how's that feel? / pretty damn good." you guys. it's happening.

"bobby: with everything may and darius have been through, i don't mind waiting for dinner, but how much longer? (does this not sound like us, talking about buddie and the shooting and the will?) athena: i think they're almost done." (‼️‼️‼️)

"there is nothing quite like being young and in love. or just in love." we ended the episode on "in-love". and not young love, either- stable, mature, deep, true, adult love. hm.

all this, in one episode. y'all this ep was fucking loud.

#it's coming and it's going to be soon and it's going to be when we least expect it #911 #911 meta #911 spec #911 speculation #buddie

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what-do-1000-swords-look-like · 2 years

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9-1-1: 6x02 thoughts

This was another great episode!

My heart is hurting for Athena and what she's about to go through; saying that, I don't think it's her dad at all, I think the killer might be the retired handyman (there's a reason they showed us the flirty energy between Athena and the current handyman as well as the discussion of what was to be done in the garage as well as the intro - props to the writers for following up on this important story line for this amazing character

I am beyond proud of Bobby; he stood up for Athena when she needed him to the most; I'm glad things worked out with Beatrice though

Poor Hen! God bless her for trying to juggle all of that! I'm sad that she failed but I'm glad that it's coming down to a choice she needs to make, I was terrified for her when she fell asleep at the wheel (I may or may have not been yelling at the screen 'Hen, open that window right now! Turn the radio on! Chew some gum! Pull over! NOT LIKE THAT!)

Love my girl Karen, she really is Hen's perfect partner - I CANNOT WAIT for Henren Begins

Denny is so cute btw - can't believe how much time has passed though and all of these kids are growing up

Loved the call center stuff with Maddie and Noah, it's nice to see her back in the swing of things and helping to train the newcomers

Chim! He knew before anyone (except maybe Karen) that Hen was taking on too much - I love these besties so much - I only wish she had listened to him

Buck with the convention emergency - can I just say that Oliver plays that role brilliantly? So much heart and incredible energy, I don't know how to explain it but no one could play Buck the way Oliver does, no one. My heart broke for Buck though as well as that guy. Makes me think back to Mitchell and Red: two emergencies and older men that Buck needed to learn from. "You don't find it, you make it" & learning not to let the job monopolize his life. Now he's trying to learn the secret to happiness, to "be at ease"

And sure enough, we have the locker room scene which I swear is like a play on the 4x06 breakfast scene and even more so for the 3x16 scene where Buck wants to go out to celebrate, but instead this time Eddie is asking straight out (with Chim) and Buck refuses as does Hen, I seriously love this writing team sometimes and what they do

And because I'm me, the scene with the popcorn (notice how it's Eddie, Chim, and Buck only having popcorn then dousing Hen with it, and also notice how Chim's color bowl is different to Eddie's and Buck's whose happens to be the same color together - this show makes choices)

Good stuff, all good stuff - can't wait to see the next episode

#911 fox #911 6x02 #911posts #911 thoughts #buddie mention #henren mention #bathena mention #thoughts

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Worst Day Ever (1x04)

oh Buck you really can’t ignore a challenge can you

oh shit Bobby

Buck do not read the book. Nosey little idiot.

oh my gosh a plane rescue damn this is intense and the way they had to keep moving past the other dead they couldn’t help

oh Athena you’re stalking a child pls stop you’re going Mama Bear and i love it but honey no

Athena honey this is not the way to handle things

I think this show does a great job of putting you in the situation with the characters

Buck almost got his ass wrecked holy shit but also kinda genius of him. he’s great at thinking on his feet

“If you go down, I’m going go down.” 😭😭 Bobby ilysm this scene is making me so emotional he’s a hero he’s a hero

“I know I know I’m a terrible listener.” BUCK DIDNT LEAVE HIM OH MY GOSH THATS FAMILY RIGHT THERE

OH NOOOOOO OH NO NO NO NO

the music!?!?!!!!! I’m gonna cry 😭

the absolute terror in everyone’s voices like damnnnnnnn the acting is so good

oh oh Bobby 😭

HELL YEAH ATHENA YOU TELL HIM

Abby literally heard this man’s last words god the impact of that I’m sobbing

“I don’t think I have enough tears for all of them.” -Bobby AND IF I SCREAM AND CRY AND THROW UP THEN WHAT

wait wait wait is he alone!?!?! oh shit oh my god he’s alone

oh no not the Annie hearing her lover's last words THIS SHOW IS KILLING ME

Oh damn Hen and Buck having to come to Bobby’s place

Hen and Bobby have spare keys 🥺 why is that the saddest and most trusting thing

oh Bobby

“Who were you cooking dinner for?” FUCK FUCK FUCK IM SO UNWELL THIS MAN HES HURTING SO MUCH

Bobby trying to make it a joke and then breaking down my man my man oh my gosh and then Hen and Buck comforting him that’s found family that’s found family

OH NO ABBYS MOM GIRL NO NO NO

this show needs to chill there’s too much heartbreak and I’m losing it

there's something so insane about this found family because they literally love and care about each other so much and that is a thing i love to see and it's making me insane and very emotional.

#911 #kywatches911 #911 1x04 #i love this show sm already #bobby better be getting all the hugs in the future or i'm knocking down doors #also literally this is such a great show from like all aspects

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Do you have a favourite case from the series in terms of best music?

Thank you for posting all the dgs soundtracks, I'm enjoying listening to them for the first time in a while :)

Hello! 🎸

Been thinking this one over ever since I got the ask. That's a tough question!!

I've really been divided between TGAA2-5 or oddly enough AA5-5? (TGAA SPOILERS) TGAA's wins overall because of the remixes they have done to previously existing songs (thinking more specifically the lobby/courtroom ones funnily enough). I love when games do the whole "It's for all the marbles, now". It has enough changes to the core music that doesn't over power it or change it into an entirely different track, but it still gives the songs an "oomph" factor they absolutely needed.

Yujin's reminiscence song was gorgeous (those violins paired with the xylophone are BEAUTIFUL, was always happy whenever they used that track for background reminiscing, glad they brought it back for the last case) + Words of Parting and Our Separate Paths making me feel like I'm in a Ghibli movie, The Game is Afoot is a great theme, perhaps one of the best songs of the whole TGAA (And I mean, come on, who can beat tap dancing) + Drums. Drums. Graah. Don't even remember if this one plays during case 5 or not. Just drums. Great Objection, great Prosecutor theme, Van Zieks involved in the case which means bangers, just a really, REALLY solid line up of songs in one package.

As for my runner up pick... The Dual Destinies mention is weird, I know. Putting what I feel about the story itself aside, since that's not what the question is about, I think that its OST has some of the weakest and strongest tracks of the whole main AA line. The highs are very high, but boy are the lows very low. However! I feel like we get to hear a lot of heavy hitters in their final case, or at least their positioning in the case is good, it elevates the scene that they're playing on.

All of the songs that I really really like end up being the ones that build up their final 30 seconds in a grandiose manner- Within the time frame where The Dark Age of Law is played, it's great at setting the mood, where in, example, case 3, it ends up feeling short sighted, overblown. PHANTOM is GREAT for what it's setting up to do, genuinely such a good example of telling a character's story through a track (I so wish they kept that electric guitar going for longer, it was so nice to hear a rare instrument in between the ost). It's not even that incredible of a song by itself, I would NOT listen to it on it's own for fun often- It's just that it does what it's there to do VERY well.

Case also has an Amazing pursuit variation, a treat to hear all of the objection themes of the characters (Genuinely think Athena has one of the best themes in the entire series, pronto) I think the mood matrix is awesome, and shout out Core 2013 even though you aren't part of 5-5. I'm a fan.

Shout out to 4-3, 5-2, AAI2-4 as well

#Anonymous #Asks #Band Notes:#People would NOT like my hypothetical Objection tierlist >m<#Dual Destinies probably has other cases that feature better songs however #This one does have the 3 whole objection themes and I think I would be doing a cardinal sin not to mention it #Thank you for the ask!#I love the dgs tracks they are a joy to hear

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Athena Grant Week 2020

Day 1: Favourite scene

The day that every woman in the world realizes how strong she really is the day that will bring peace of Earth.

#athenagrantweek2020 #athena grant #maddie buckley #mathena #Sergeant buckette #making this gifset green was harder than I thought #I love this scene because athena is a great listener #she met maddie buckley 3 minutes ago but she's already here for her and listen to her #and then she has that epic quote that is one of my favorite #and it make maddie so proud #I'm gonna need more maddie and athena scenes in season 4 #and now that maddie will work with athena I want more buckley-grant moments please #911edit #EmiliesWeeks #my stuff

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TV Fanatic: 9-1-1 Season 5 Episode 7 Review: Ghost Stories

"[...] No matter how hard we may want to, those ghosts can stay with us long after we've presumed them to be long gone and buried. And that's what the crux of 9-1-1 Season 5 Episode 7 is all about, though it's an odd hour that decides to put secondary characters at the forefront, which doesn't work out the way it should have. Listen, I have nothing against secondary characters. They are essential pieces to every show, and they help keep things fresh and move storylines forward. But there's an issue when they take the focus away from the main stars of the show. And that's what happened here, with the main plot going to Ransone and Taylor, which is weird to write out and even weirder to watch. Ransone is a great recurring character. He and Athena work well together, and there's no issue with him getting screen time. He and Athena do their detective thing and investigate the case because they're, you know, actual cops doing their jobs. But Taylor comes out of nowhere, suddenly wanting to be like a private investigator, turning Buck's dining room into a mock precinct, and nothing about it works. For starters, since when is this what Taylor does? All we know about Taylor, for the most part, is that she's after a story. Being a reporter and all, that makes sense. But now she wants to get to the bottom of this mystery, for what? It's bizarre. And the longer the episode goes on, it just gets stranger. And the fact that she somehow was at the location of an active crime scene before Ransone was so dangerous, and again, didn't make a ton of sense. Taylor is an okay character for what she is, but the show's insistence on making her a more significant part of an already bloated show doesn't sit right with me. We've got plenty of characters, literally, just begging for the kind of spotlight Taylor was afforded throughout this installment. She somehow played a more substantial role than Buck and Bobby combined. Where is this kind of spotlight for David? Or Karen? Taylor has always been more than just a love interest, but in an episode that was already missing Maddie and Eddie, it felt weird to be getting this Taylor Kelly showcase. But this has been such a disappointing season thus far that it shouldn't have been all that surprising. The big case she and Ransone were trying to solve started promisingly, but then it just got campy and confusing. And campy is fine, but it was hard to keep up with the back and forth montage of Ransone and Taylor trying to present the facts. And from there, it just got worse and worse, culminating in this nonsensical reasoning for a man to get buried alive, which is a shame because the premise was great, and the lead-up to finding Edgar was brilliant. The first few minutes were classic 9-1-1, with the first responders deploying all their resources to rescue someone in tandem with the call center. And tense seconds of Buck listening for a man's scream from underneath the dirt was harrowing and everything you like about the show. But that was the highlight, as far as the rescues go. Elsewhere, we got some more Karen finally, but I'm sorry, how many times are we going to go down this Eva road? Who even remembers Eva's exists until she's back and making things uncomfortable for Hen and Karen. At least, the couple seemed to be on the same page by the end, and this isn't something that will linger because it's a story that 9-1-1 should have put to bed a long time ago, especially since Hen never wavers on her decision to be with Karen and her family at this stage. So, Eva coming back now didn't carry much emotional weight because it's a moot point now. Odds and Ends: * I've said this before, but sometimes they treat Eddie like background noise. And even having said that, it was highly noticeable he was MIA. * Are they allergic to giving Bobby a storyline outside of being Athena's sounding board? * All of these people are traumatized, but they seem to pick and choose who gets the space to deal with that trauma, and it's very baffling. "Ghost Stories" was just not a great episode. There's no getting

around it.

#Not a good look Timmy !#911 spoilers #tv: 911 #911: 05 x 07 #press #jack.txt #EDITED with the correct link!

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I just. I just thought about Eddie holding baby Jee-Yun? And singing to her while she clutches at his finger with her tiny meaty baby hand??

Maybe Buck freaked out a little because she was being fussy and wouldn't settle, and its probably nothing but hey, who better to call than Eddie, who conveniently has the day off and cuts off Buck's panicked rambling with a soothing;

"Its okay, Buck. Give me ten minutes, okay? You're doing great. She's probably just restless."

Eddie gets there and sends Buck off to cook dinner or shower or take a nap, scooping Jee-Yun out of her travel crib and making sure she's changed, warm, fed and content. And its been so long since Christopher was this tiny, but holding Jee-Yun makes him think back to that tiny, wriggly little bundle in his arms for the first time, back before it all went to shit.

Eddie pacing slowly around the lower loft, singing quietly, tickling her little chin, grinning when she giggles and gurgles at him. And he can see so much of Maddie and Chimney in her already. She's got Maddie's eyes and Chimney's lopsided grin.

(And for a little crack, maybe Buck catches this scene and is so overwhelmed he just blurts out; "put a baby in me!" And Eddie is like; "... What?" 👁👄👁 Which cues a hilariously awkward but heartfelt confession of feelings on both sides.)

Hey hey! So I like I told you I started this a while ago and then got SEVERE AND DEBILITATING writers block, and it sat waiting for new life. And then 5x03 happened, so Hello, new life! I hope you love it!

With You, My Life, I Will Get Married

Warning: mild spoilers for 9-1-1 season 5 episode 3.

Chimney was out searching for Maddie.

After shifts, on weekends, whenever he had a second, he was either spending time with Jee or out searching for her mom.

In times when he was on the search everyone at the 118 was making time to watch Jee Yun. Mrs. Lee was doing what she could, but couldn't always be available, and when that happened, Jee would spend some time at Bobby and Athena's or by Hen and Karen. And when they had too much going on, or when either of the uncles felt like they weren't getting enough time with their beautiful niece, she would spend time at her Uncle Buck's or Uncle Albert's.

Uncle Buck got lucky this time.

Eight hours in and everything had gone wrong. Buck shoulders were damp with spit-up, baby drool, and snot and all Jee seemed capable of doing was crying, crying, crying.

"I'm so sorry! I don't know what I did wrong, and, and now--just, Jee, please, it's okay, I'm here--!"

She continued to yell and Buck got more and more panicked. "Your Uncle Albert's gonna be here in like 5 minutes, Jee, okay? And then, maybe, maybe he's better with you? And will make you happy, and then--Oh God, what have I done wrong--"

A knocking at the door sent him back on his feet, swaying toward the loft entrance. It opened before he could get there, however, and he stopped where he was, a furious Jee Yun screaming in his ears as Eddie Diaz, not Albert Han, walked in.

"You look like you're having fun." Eddie's eyebrow was raised and his mouth quirked in a teasing smile.

"Eddie...?" Buck's momentary shock was interrupted as Jee let out another wail. "Um, sorry, this isn't the best time at the moment, but Albert--"

"--has a date tonight and sent me as his relief." Eddie reached out and plucked Jee Yun from Buck's arms. "And you have a date with your shower and a few hours' sleep."

"I--no, it's okay, I know you just got off shift--"

"Buck." Eddie shifted Jee to one arm, and the other rested on Buck's chest, over his pattering heartbeat. He met Buck's eyes, his own calm despite the bundle of adorable chaos still screaming bloody murder into his shoulder. "Go shower."

"...Yeah, okay."

***

She truly was one of the cutest babies, even when she was liable to wake up the neighborhood with her noise, Eddie thought with a smile as he re-seated her over one shoulder and began to firmly but gently tap her back.

"Your Tio Eddie is going to assume this is a gas issue, okay, chiquita? Christopher used to have this all the time, and he would scream and cry." Eddie huffed ruefully. "I was useless at it then, but Shannon showed me what to do." He kept tapping at her back. "Good set of lungs means a healthy baby, good job, Jee. Now, let's see if we can't get this gas out of you so you can calm down and you and your Tio Buck can get some sleep, okay?"

Eddie started circling the room, the sun beginning to set as he heard he shower turn on.

"There you go, see? Your Buck is going to get all showered since you drooled all over him, and then you both can get some sleep, how's that sound?"

He was answered with a burp far louder than Jee's small body should be capable of making. Then a sweet gurgling sound as she nestled her chin into his shoulder.

"There, feel better, mi princesa?" Eddie whispered against her soft, downy hair. "When I was small and got upset, and my parents got annoyed with my sulking, they'd send me to Abuela. And she would sit me down on her lap, just like this," he sat down on Buck's couch, and settled Jee Yun against his broad chest, rubbing her small back with a large warm hand. "And she would hug me until I forgot what I was so upset about. All I could think about was the smell of her perfume and how much I wanted to be like her one day.

"Then Pepa would come out and yell at both of us that it's about damn time we came into the house, dinner doesn't make itself." Eddie laughed at the memory. Jee made a small discontented noise and Eddie stood up again, walking toward the kitchen, where he saw the half-formed works of bottle making on the counter. "Shhh, princesa, Tio Eddie's gonna make you a bottle." With Jee over his shoulder, sounding more and more on the edge of hunger-panic, Eddie quickly assembled a bottle then leaned back against the kitchen island and cradled Jee Yun in his arms, pressing the nipple to her mouth, which she accepted gratefully.

"Better, yeah? Where was I...? Oh." Eddie smiled. "Once we were inside, Pepa, Abuela and I would make arroz con leche. Abuella would wash the rice, Pepa would be tutting the whole time about too much sugar, but she would always wink at me and add just a bit more before the cinnamon." Eddie couldn't help the smile that stole over his face as he remembered Abuela's warm kitchen in her El Paso ranch house before she and Pepa relocated to LA. In winter, the windows would fog over from the heat of whatever was on the stove. When she left, a lot of Eddie's heart left with her.

"They used to sing me the song too, you know?" Jee gurgled around her dinner and Eddie smiled again. "Well, I wasn't planning to sing it, but you drive a hard bargain." Eddie's poked Jee's soft cheek with a finger and began to sing.

Arroz con leche se quiere casar con una viudita de la capital, que sepa tejer, que sepa bordar, que ponga la aguja en su campanal.

(English translation: Rice with milk (rice pudding) Wishes to get married With a little widow from the capital. Who knows how to weave (or knit), Who knows how to embroider, Who puts the church steeple in the bell tower.)

***

Eddie was no American Idol contestant, but his voice was soothing and good. Strong. Listening to him sing from his seat on the stairs, Buck almost felt like he was where Jee currently snuggled, right against Eddie's chest, as his bass voice sung the gentle Spanish lyrics, harmonized by the occasional happy noise from Jee Yun.

Yo soy la viudita la hija del rey. Me quiero casar y no sé con quien. Contigo sí, contigo no, Contigo mi vida me casaré yo.

(English translation: I am the widow The daughter of the king, I want to get married and I don’t know with whom. With you, yes. With you, no. With you, my life, I will get married.)

Buck's head knocked lightly against the banister, body relaxing. He wasn't wearing a shirt, just the softest sweatpants he owned with a towel draped over his shoulders to catch water from the mess of wet curls on his head.

Eddie's so hard on himself all the time. I don't get it. He's such a good dad.

Dazedly, Buck's eyes fixed on Eddie's mouth as he repeated the verses again. Then Eddie sighed.

"Afterward Pepa would ask me who I want to marry and Abuela would laugh at me, and I'd always complain--" Jee gurgled again. "Like that, yes. But honestly, it was nice... Even though between you and me, Pepa can't sing very well at all." Eddie's lips quirked again in a smile. "Kind of like your Uncle Buck."

Buck startled at his name and looked up at Eddie's eyes. They twinkled back at him in the dying last light of the day, Eddie's golden skin lit by the last rays of the sun. Buck felt his face heat with a blush, knew there was nothing to do about it.

"Sorry, I should've--"

"Feel better after your shower?"

Buck sighed and smiled. "Yeah. World's better." He stood, stretching out his long legs as he descended the stairs. It was full dark now, but Buck didn't feel like turning on a light. "I can take her now."

"Nope." Eddie met him midway, hand on Buck's shoulder turning him around. "You're both getting some sleep now." One hand on Buck's shoulder, the other holding a drowsy Jee Yun, Eddie guided him back up the stairs, and pressed Buck down until he was sitting on his bed.

"Eddie, are you sure--"

"Shhh." Eddie deposited Jee into Buck's arms, then sat down behind him. "You can hold her for now." Eddie's hands skimmed up Buck's warm back then pulled the towel off Buck's shoulders, laying it on top of Buck's head, where a corner flopped over his eyes.

"Eddie?"

"Hold still, Buck."

Eddie's strong hands curled into the towel and Buck's hair, rubbing vigorously to get it dry. "Seriously, anyone who has ever seen your hair at work would marvel at how different it looks before you comb and gel all the life out of it." He rubbed vigorously, and Buck felt himself relaxing back against Eddie's chest. Tomorrow, he might look back at this and feel embarrassed. He might have to apologize. Tomorrow, he would go back to hiding how much he felt for the man who was drying his hair, still absent-mindedly humming the Arroz con leche tune under his breath. But for now, Eddie was too near and too warm and too... Eddie. And Buck found that he couldn't deny himself Eddie right now.

Buck cleared his throat and made himself focus on their conversation. "I used to wear my hair naturally, but people said it looked floppy. Made me look like a puppy."

"People are stupid sometimes, Buck. You know this." Eddie's thumb traced the shell of Buck's ear. "And if you think slicking back your hair makes you look less like a puppy, you really shouldn't be bothering." He snickered as Buck tried to shoulder his chest and Jee made a noise of complaint.

"So I just look like a puppy all the time, huh?"

The towel dropped. Eddie's arms came around, holding onto Buck and Jee Yun both. "I think you're a beautiful man, Buck."

The air in Buck's chest hiccupped out of his mouth. His heart picked up speed as the places where Eddie's hands rested on his stomach seemed to heat from within. "Y... Eddie?"

"Shhh. Sleep now. Jee's asleep, but who knows for how long." Eddie's voice was gruff, embarrassed. "I'll just--"

"Stay?" It came out too high, too soft. Buck cleared his throat and tried again. "I mean, if it isn't any trouble, and--"

"I can stay." Eddie's arms tightened around Buck again and he pulled him backwards until Buck could lay out flat on his back, before pressing Buck's head down on his pillow. Then Eddie pulled Jee from Buck's arms and sat back against the headrest, legs folded together, Buck's niece cuddled again against his chest. "Sleep now."

"Okay." There was so much Buck wanted to know. To say. It all got stopped in his throat as fear tamped it all down to squirm in his chest.

"Eddie?" The word found its way out.

"Hm?"

"...Nothing."

A sigh. Then, "Come here."

Buck didn't hesitate, moving his head off the pillow and onto Eddie's lap. Eddie's spare hand found its way back into his curls and tugged lightly before stroking through them, gently, so gently.

"Sleep now."

"Okay. But," Buck's jaw cracked around a large yawn. "Before... you have to know..."

"Hm?"

"You are... so beautiful... Eddie Diaz."

Buck felt Eddie's hand tighten in his hair again, before releasing, fingers wandering down to trace his eyebrows, his nose, his lips.

"Sleep, querido."

As Buck's eyes slipped closed, and awareness almost dropped away, he swore he could feel lips press lightly right above his eye, on his birth mark.

"Contigo mi vida me casaré yo."

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stefanmikaleson1864 · 3 years

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Black and White

A/N: I listened to the actual song writing this and it really set the mood and the scene of the story. I also wanna say for copyright stuff I don’t own the lyrics I used in story.

“So what do you wanna do” Eddie asked as he laid down on the bed. He rolled over leaning on his elbows and looked at you.

“I don’t know honestly it’s like I wanna keep this thing small and family based but it’s like if we wanna invite this person the other one has to come and it turns into this big production we didn’t want.” you said leaning back on the headboard and rubbing your belly.

Planning a wedding while pregnant was super hard. A Lot of the money you were gonna spend on the wedding you thought could go towards the baby

. Also Eddie was already married once and you never wanted a huge big thing anyways.

This whole thing was so stressful you thought about doing what Bobby and

Athena did and just elope but the two of you knew that both sets of parents would probably never forgive you.

“How about a backyard wedding we could keep the guest list small and keep it more casual and it would save money.” Eddie said breaking you out of your thoughts.

Taking a moment to think about what he said you agreed. It sounded really nice and maybe more intimate and special that way.

“Yeah I love it maybe we could get bobby to even carter for us.” you said to him

“I’m sure he would love to and wouldn’t mind.” He said.

It felt like a pressure to to finally have that settled. Finally your able to at least start planning this thing really and that made you excited.

The two of you talked even more about it finally getting the ball rolling. To excited to go sleep thank goddess that you guys didn’t have shift tomorrow.

It was decided that you were going to keep the guest list short not caring if anyone’s feelings got hurt.

It was going to be to the 118 (OBVS) Athena, Michael May and Harry with Maddie and just immediate family on both sides.

For you which meant your siblings and mom and dad and him his parents and his Tia and Abuela. You didn’t even have to mention of course Chris.

4 Months Later

Bobby had agreed and was super happy to cook for you guys.

Athena and Hen and Buck helped you pick out the most amazing dress. It was beautiful without being to much for just the backyard.

Everyone helped pitched in to help decorate.

Flowers decorated the yard and string lights hanging from the ceiling. The smell of BBQ and food filled the house. Everyone was laughing and having a great time.

The whole day you had butterflies and you weren’t even nervous you were just super excited and even the baby was too because she was kicking nonstop all day.

Slipping on the dress after your May did your makeup and hair for you. You felt like a goddess and a princess. You were putting the final touches on your look you heard the door knock and it was Chris bringing you flowers your fave of course.

He looked so handsome with his bowtie and new outfit on Eddie brought for him. He walked over and had a huge smile giving them to you with a note from Eddie saying he couldn’t wait to see you.

Leaning down to give Chris a big hug and thanking him telling him they were beautiful and grabbed his hand and opened up the door asking if he would do the honor of walking you down the Aisle.

You walked down the stairs with Chris in hand everyone looking up at you in awe. Eddie was at the bottom of the stairs looking up at you with tears in his eyes.

Once you reached the bottom he took your hand and you linked arms with Chris and the three of you walked outside ready to start your new life together.

The music stared playing as you walked down not sure who started it but it fit the evening perfectly. Niall Horan’s black and white.

“I See Us in Black and White Crystal clear on a starlight night

In all your gorgeous colors

I Promise that I’ll love you for the rest of my life

See you standing in your dress

Swear in front of all our friends

There never be another

I Promise that I’ll love you for the rest of my life.”

You three reached the end of the aisle standing in front of Hen who was officiating it finally felt good to say

“I DO”.

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shelby-love · 3 years

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BOBBY NASH

Life as Cap's Daughter

Requested: yes

Author's note: I got a little carried away, but I wanted to DELIVER FROM POINT A (LOWEST) TO POINT B (BEST) PART OF HIS LIFE. Kept it realistic as possible plus it’s very long SO BEWARE

P.S. you can kind of see how my love for the man just SPILLED ... aka I kind of lost it and just hammered the numbers. It shows how unexperienced I am at these <3

Requests for 9-1-1 are OPEN

Headcanon

Bobby had you before Marcy and Athena were a part of his life

You were his little everything

The food he fed you growing up…

You would tell people that your dad's a chef, and not a firefighter

You thought a chef was a better job! You were four…

With your mom out of the picture it was just you and your dad for a big part of your childhood

He baby proofed the entire house

Balled his eyes out when he walked you to school for the very first time

When he met Marcy you were roughly around 8, but the two of you got along very well right off the bat

Even though he's a quiet, withdrawn man that likes to keep to himself, you were the one who brought out his witty side

He was very proud when you showed an interest in ice skating, it quickly became 'your thing' and Bobby loved that you inherited that from him

He's at all of your performances!

He catches you every time no matter the situation

You loved Robert Jr. and Brook very much too, considering them your siblings without a doubt

You helped change their diapers, practically raised them with Marcy and your dad

Family dinners with Bobby's marvelous cooking – a must!

Bobby was very overprotective when you entered your teen years so thank god for Marcy (she was a saint)

He'd invite your date over and drill him while eating the nicest foods he prepared with extra caution

"Dad, that was a bit too much…"

"You think? I didn't even get to scratch the surface."

"Okay, honey, let her go have fun."

Marcy and the kids were there for you when your dad started to go south because of his injury

"Dad where are you going?"

"I'll be back soon. Don't worry about me."

For a moment you considered if life with him was even worth it

Wanting to finish high school as soon as possible just so you could get away from his lies was your darkest thought

But he is your father, and no one could change that

The fire though... It was the most heartbreaking moment of your life

You were out, so you weren't on the scene

But you wished you were at some point

You couldn't look at him after that

Went through the roughest time of your life

It felt like you jumped through time because you two were alone again

But that made you treasure each other more than anything

You watched him at his lowest and supported him when he started to get better

"Dad, please don't give up."

I don't think Bobby would be able to get through the trauma if it weren't for you

Not even his notebook was enough to keep him together – you were the glue

That's why making a fresh start in L.A. felt great

You two settled quickly; you giving in more effort than he did at first

Because you're smart like your father you got into a very very very good college in L.A.

"At least something's working out for once."

"Hey don't say that."

"But dad... It's true!"

When he told you, he was in station 118 you stalked researched them

Found out the address, looked at the place from outside using Google Street View

That kinda thing

"But dad. I'm just looking out for you!"

"I know. Thank you for that."

There's a lot of buts

But dad this but daaaad that

You're very annoying when you want to be

The two of you lived together, since you didn't trust him enough to move out and live on campus

He didn't bring you to the firehouse until he was 100% sure

No scratch that: until he was 100000% sure, you weren't stepping foot on the grounds of that station

When you did meet them, you loved Hen instantly

You wanted to come back just for her

Chimney was a bit awkward

He didn't know how to act around you

You were 18 but since you were Cap's daughter he didn't know if he had to treat you like you were 8 or not

Hen didn't have that problem obviously

She was so easy going you loved her instantly

Bobby has eyes everywhere when you're at the station

MEETING BUCK WAS HORRIBLE

Your dad was breathing down on your neck when you came to the firehouse one day and Buck 1.0 was working there (just started)

HE HIT ON YOU IT WAS HORRIBLE YOU DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

Neither did he once he found out

That was the day Bobby fired him bc he did the nasty with that lady in the firetruck

You came by like, "Hi, I'm Y/N nice to meet you Evan."

And then suddenly you had to go like, "Bye Ev- Buck… It was nice knowing you."

Buck went home that day – pride demolished

"Did you really have to do that dad?"

"I said three strikes, and he's out. He didn't listen."

Why didn't you come earlier? Surely you could have given Buck some great tips

"Oh, well."

Buck came back!

You became friends after that. Had a teasing relationship, never looked at each other the other way after that day

Y/N + Buck = BFF

You'd joke about your first tragic meeting and you’d go out with him when he was going through a dark time because of Abby

You didn’t drink, he did

Everyone loves you OBVIOUSLY

You're Cap's daughter I MEAN WHAT IS THERE TO SAY?

Eddie came too! Eventually.

You fell in love with him instantly

But you love his son even more than him

You'd take care of him whenever you had time and Eddie was busy working

You learned more facts about the world from little Christopher than from your own father

You often came by to eat lunch at the station because that's where your dad ‘the cook’ was

Maddie and you hit it off very well and became close friends

NOW MEETING ATHENA FOR THE FIRST TIME…

Your mouth was on the floor

She was so goddess like you were smitten by her

So, your dad and her announcing their relationship to you wasn't a surprise

You and Hen won the bet

Became close with May and Harry too although it was hard not to picture them as Brook and Robert at first

After your dad and Athena got married you finally felt as if you could breathe

Knowing that your dad was safe and sound, you moved over to campus but still had your own room at Athena's place

You go there every weekend

You're essential to the party planning

Even though you're a perfect little young adult you're ready to pull out the "My step-mom's a sergeant" card

A huge party was thrown for your 21st birthday

I'm talking BIG BIG BIG

Buck and you got drunk

Your dad got drunk too

Life turned around for the better although some pieces of past tragedies still lingered

You've let go of people but you and your dad also grew and healed enough to let new people into your lives

No one knows what life has in store for you two, but you both know it will be good

As long as you have each other

He's your pillar, and you are his in return, that's how it's always been

"I love you dad."

"I love you too kiddo."

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littlespoonevan · 2 years

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okay listen it's a Fine episode. it's not crazy good, but it's not totally awful--it's a filler without the fun halloween nonsense we were hoping for, but it's not a total bust! the hen/karen stuff is really good and resolves things from a while ago, harry finally gets some closure (and his actor KILLED it, i'm so proud of him). may is SO good and has some great lines, we get some real insight into the b/t relationship and how it's. not going well. PLUS we get some surprise guests! it does have some weird vibes bc it seems like the editing is a little off, but it's got some good moments despite the lack of any eddie and a lot of the 118 in general. is it my favourite ep? no. is it the hellish garbage fire that people are making it out to be? also no!

you know what, anon? i agree lol. i don't know if it's because everyone made my expectations plummet but it was Fine in general. seeing chimney again made my heart sing and i adored his little reunion with eli :') karen was radiant and as much as i dislike eva, i loved the insight we got into the beginning of hen and karen's relationship (plus their makeup was wonderful) <33 also yes, as much as i have no interest in revisiting that storyline harry's scenes were great!

i think, in general, the issue with this ep was that the 118 were like side characters on their own show???? bobby was barely in it, buck was barely in it, eddie wasn't in it at all, chimney really only had 3 scenes and even hen and karen's storyline which was more detailed still took a backseat to the whole taylor vs ransone thing which was just......dead space?????

because the 118 weren't connected to it at all. even athena wasn't really involved in it. so it was just these two side characters....leading the A storyline......for some reason.......that has nothing to do with the 118........

and well. no one is going to want to see that???????????????

if i'm being honest, i think nothing was gained from flipping brawl in cell block 911 and ghost stories. in fact, ghost stories follows on from 5x05 a million times better than 5x06 did????? this continued harry's storyline and the buck-chimney-maddie storyline, both of which were at the forefront of 5x05. whereas 5x06 was very much a standalone story. so i think having that sandwiched between the two eps really only served to make this one feel even more disjointed

also. while it's entirely likely ryan couldn't film for some reason during 5x07, i cannot fathom not including one of the mains when we're already missing two. like, if chimney hadn't shown up for this ep the whole thing would've been completely off.

overall, i didn't hate it. but yeah it mostly just made me feel like ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

#in general i think 5a is suffering from the decision to remove chimney AND maddie #obviously JLH had to take time off and that's completely deserved #and while i don't hate the direction they took the storyline #i do feel they would've benefitted from taking a simpler approach #and straight up just having her check into an in-patient facility in 5x03/5x04 so chimney could've remained for the past few eps #(even though 5x04 was phenomenal)#idk removing two mains like that is always going to throw off the dynamic #anon #asks #911 spoilers #5x07

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woodchoc-magnum · 3 years

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911 5x01 thoughts and incoherent screaming

I had to wait ALL DAY to watch this FUCKING SHOW

And I've finally watched it!

And I HAVE THOUGHTS

I want to talk about Eddie the MOST so I'm going to quickly get a few things out of the way first:

That fucking rapist is a piece of shit and I hope he dies horribly and in a lot of pain - also need to rewatch to see if I can pinpoint how and when he escapes

the fucking GROUPIES? FREAKED ME OUT???

and i was totally spoiled on the twist but still on the edge of my seat because FUCCCCKKKKK

The whole scene with Athena chasing him out of the courthouse and things exploding and her running and then the car and other things exploding and crashing - IT WAS SO GOOD, fuck I love this show SO MUCH

MADDDDDIIIIEEEE jesus fucking christ you guys she needs help fuck

Okay - Taylor Kelly - like, fuck me guys - if I had EVAN BUCKLEY IN MY BED LOOKING LIKE THAT, WANTING TO GET IT ON WITH ME - THE LAST THING I WOULD BE THINKING ABOUT IS MY FUCKING PHONE

I mean I get that she's career driven and what not but like... this doesn't bode well, because he's doing that thing again where he's not getting attention so he's filling the void with sex and it's like, history repeating itself Evan Buckley mmmhmmm

And Eddie. Oh god, Eddie.

All right - I hate Ana. That's just a fact. I've written several fics about my hatred for Ana Flores, but... god damn if I don't feel a little sorry for her.

Is there no one in that poor woman's life who's like, "Hey, girl, listen - it's been nearly a year, he doesn't really introduce you to people, he doesn't really like to touch you, you have to constantly force it, every interaction is awkward, like you're both playing parts... girl. Girl. Dump him."

No??

You cannot TELL ME that she's having a fun, great time in this relationship. Like, I get that he's hot as fuck - I mean, I get it, like I understand - but that's just not enough? There's no fire, there's no spark, there's no passion?? They just... bleh together? And obviously they've had sex but like, was it good sex? I'm guessing not.

Their whole interaction in the suit shopping scene was awkward and not how couples are with each other - couples who are comfortable and committed just don't act like that! There were attempts at playfulness but like, she's forced them to be there, she's the one pushing them to go this christening, she's forcing Eddie into a suit and picking out a tie for him and like, something something he doesn't fit with her! She's forcing a square peg into a round hole and he's FINALLY FUCKING WAKING UP

By having a panic attack but still

It's like, BOOM. "His mother" and him looking at Ana and Christopher and then he's just down for the count.

Hey Eddie, I think the universe is done screaming at you and has now resorted to BEATING YOU OVER THE HEAD WITH IT

And then to contrast Ana with Buck? He's looking at Ana during that whole sequence with the doctor and she's just fucking blank-facing him (because she can't act, but that's a different thing).

Buck instantly picks up on it. He's concerned, he's asking questions - because he's not afraid of Eddie's reaction, he's not afraid that Eddie will push him away. They've come through so much together, and if Eddie is having a health crisis, Buck probably needs to know about it!

Ana doesn't even feel comfortable talking to the doctor on Eddie's behalf - it's Christopher who points out that he was shot!

Fuck I can't wait to see them talk about it, omg, I am going to rewatch these first three episodes just for the enjoyment of it.

Eddie and Ana are so doomed - I really want him to be the one to end it? But honestly, if it was Ana, I wouldn't be surprised and I don't think Eddie would either.

Fuck this was SUCH A GOOD EPISODE YOU GUYS. I had to wait ALL DAY TO WATCH IT BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!

#911 season 5-ep1-recap #i'm FINE #i'm OKAY #everything is FINE #eddie diaz love of my life I'M FINE #911 season 5 #911 spoilers

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bandsanitizer · 3 years

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Okay but that scene in the hospital as letting Buck know what he means to Eddie and Christopher, not just as Eddie’s coworker or firefighting partner. Not just as someone who cares about Christopher. Not just another person there to help make being a single parent easier for Eddie. No, that scene was Eddie informing Buck that he is family—for real. That he’s Eddie’s best friend and the person he trusts the most. That he’s both a good friend to Christopher, but a remarkable guardian in his life, too. And this is so important in timing. (Explained after the “Keep Reading” because it’s a long post.)

Disclaimer: I recognize that everyone has different experiences, views, and definitions, regarding family, parenting, and the interpretation of canon. This is mine and yours are yours. This isn’t heavily romantic-Buddie inclined, nor is it intended to be, but it can be read as such. Also, spoilers for up to the s4 finale.

At the beginning of season 3, we learn what Christopher means to Buck. In his fight to save and find Christopher—risking his life—Buck showcases that he loves Christopher, that Christopher is important to him, and, in how he doesn’t have the “Oh, shit! How do I tell Eddie?” moment until he sees Eddie, it solidifies that Buck’s care for Christopher is not lenient on Christopher being Eddie’s son.

Later in s3, in the market, we see how Eddie views Buck regarding Christopher. By bringing up Christopher in the argument (“Christopher misses you.”), Eddie acknowledges a level of responsibility Buck has regarding Christopher. Granted, Buck loves kids and he’s a softie so that comment would hurt either way, BUT Eddie is not the kind of person to just use Christopher for the sake of a guilt trip. Eddie knows Buck cares about Christopher, Eddie knows Buck probably didn’t think things through, and Eddie wishes that Buck did. As much as that stands, however, it’s made clear that Eddie expected Buck to consider how it might affect them and Christopher. A big responsibility to place on a typical friend.

Yet, since this is coming right off the tsunami incident, Eddie’s expectations aren’t unexpected, but an extension. He said that there was “nobody else in the world,” that he would trust with Christopher more than Buck. And then for Buck to cut everyone off? Like it wouldn’t even matter? That doesn’t fit the way Eddie views how Buck cares—particularly, how he cares about Christopher.

Then jump to Eddie Begins. This is where we clearly see how Buck views Eddie and further confirmation that Christopher is in fact Eddie’s everything.

Buck’s reaction to the well collapsing on Eddie is very similar to his reaction to losing Christopher in the s3 tsunami arc. Distinctly different levels of reaction than he had towards Bobby being in danger and Maddie being held hostage with the rest of the dispatchers. Something Buck mentions to Sue about the latter, is that Maddie has Chimney. Bobby also has Athena. Hen has Karen. Eddie has... Well, Eddie has Buck and Buck has Eddie. The show has been pairing off characters and naturally, Buck and Eddie are one.

So his reaction to losing Eddie being similar to his reaction to losing Christopher, is a way of non-verbally conveying that Buck cares about Eddie a lot. To the same degree or within the same intensity as he cares for and loves Christopher. That it’s not just what they mean to other people in Buck’s life, but what they mean to Buck, himself. And with the contrast for worrying about Maddie or Bobby, it’s a recognition by Buck that in the same way Eddie and Christopher have a place in his life very different from the rest of the firefam, so does Buck in their lives. That he knew Maddie needed Chimney in that moment, and in losing Christopher and Eddie that he was that person in their lives. The one that’s supposed to fight with everything they got to make sure they’re okay.

We already knew how much Eddie loves his son prior to Eddie Begins, but we see his love and care for Shannon, as well. Plus, we get some sort of recognition that Eddie has much regrets over not being there for Christopher when he was younger. This is significant, particularly if you ship Buddie, but even without a romantic lense, it emphasizes the relationship between Buck and Eddie & Christopher.

The show pushes the idea that Shannon fell short at being a good mother to Christopher. Granted her running away wasn’t great parenting, but so did Eddie, and it’s not like Shannon didn’t try later. (Also that’s a completely different post.) What matters here is that Eddie trusts Shannon with Christopher. While it isn’t easy and he certainly has hesitations about Shannon leaving again and how that instability affects Christopher, it’s not that Eddie doesn’t trust Shannon with caring for Christopher. Eddie expects her to also be his wife and to have his back, and it’s in the emphasis on their marriage and getting a divorce, that focuses in on how much Eddie&Shannon weren’t working, not how much EddieShannon&Christopher were not. They both ran, under different circumstances, and they both stepped up to the plate when it came to caring for Christopher. (Again, it’s a different post for me to go into my thoughts on how them running wasn’t ever out of a lack of love or care for Christopher, and how much it was likely their marriage not working and worries about how that would affect Christopher.)

So, anyways, the point is that Shannon was there to care and love Christopher when Eddie was not. Eddie was there to care and love Christopher when Shannon was/is not. And in the s4 finale, Eddie points out the fact that Buck was there for Christopher when he was not. This, also tied to the having each other’s backs being used with Eddie and Buck in the beginning of s2 and later with Eddie and Shannon, points out that Buck role in Christopher’s life is heavily parental.

In the living room scene about Hildy and video games, the tactic of Christopher switching from reasoning with Eddie to asking Buck is very much the “ask the other parent” strategy. The look Buck gives to Eddie then (similar to the one he gives in the playdate scene in the s3 Christmas episode) is very easily read as “Eddie is the parent,” but Eddie giving Buck a look back becomes permission for Buck to handle it and that’s not just Buck being Eddie’s best friend, but Buck as someone with a parental/guardian role to Christopher. (Also consider Buck’s dynamic with the other kids of the 118–he’s very much and very strictly young fun (uncle) Buck, no?)

And with Christopher running to Buck when he was upset with Eddie and didn’t know how to express everything he was feeling—a moment when Buck was there for Christopher when Eddie couldn’t be, as well as something along the lines of knowing parents talk but still going to the other parent for something you don’t know how to talk to the other about.

The brief phone call was very parental—there’s no discussion regarding why Christopher would go to Buck or if Buck was okay with it or Eddie apologizing for it or any realm of discussion outside of Christopher is okay and Eddie is on his way. Granted, as a parent, priority just being Christopher being okay since he was missing makes a lot of sense. But there’s this underlying sense of “Of course he’s at Buck’s” as well as the innate trust Eddie is displaying with Buck.

This trust in Buck is also seen with Christopher as Christopher opens up to Buck. And the tone Buck takes & the conversation they have, is also fairly parental. Buck’s empathetic to Christopher and he listens and he gets it—he knows how scary it is to feel like you’re losing people—but he’s also pretty clear that Christopher running off wasn’t okay and that he needs to talk to somebody. And then, Buck says Christopher has him and promises that Christopher isn’t going to lose him.

This is an promise of permanence. Buck can’t technically promise he’ll always be there for Christopher—that’s something that cannot be truly certain. And interestingly, Shannon and Eddie have also promised something vaguely forever towards Christopher as well. Notably, in Shannon’s letter about loving Christopher “even if it’s from a distance” and like everything that went on in the flashbacks of Eddie Begins. So, the scene becomes Christopher and Buck recognizing the importance they have to each other.

Which means: Buck knows he cares for Christopher and Eddie. Eddie knows he cares for Christopher. Eddie and Buck knows Christopher cares for both of them. Buck and Christopher are aware of each other caring for each other. Buck’s always been aware how much Christopher means to Eddie. So what’s left?

Eddie recognizing he cares for Buck and the two of them being aware that they both care for each other. The first of which the s4 finale tackles and the second that becomes alluded to by the end of the hospital scene.

There’s a lot of reasons for why that over the year Eddie never told Buck about changing his will. It’s scary, it’s a lot of responsibility, etc. It means that while Eddie is aware of how much Buck loves and cares about Christopher, the responsibility of being a parent is a whole other thing. And yet, Eddie doesn’t really have many doubts about it. Yes, there’s the small thought that just maybe, just maybe, it’s asking Buck for too much—but as it’s said in the finale, Eddie knew Buck wouldn’t refuse.

So why not tell Buck and why tell Buck then? Because Buck needs to know that Eddie cares about him. That in telling Buck earlier or even going to Buck earlier, could come across to Buck as Eddie measuring something—whether that be how much he cares about Christopher or how much he can trust Buck or something else—it leans heavily on Buck means something to Eddie because he cares about Christopher. And while that’s true, that’s not it.

Eddie says he’s telling Buck now because Buck said he thought it would’ve been better if he was the one that got shot. Because Eddie is well aware of Evan risk-taker, doesn’t think before he does, “it would’ve been better if I was shot” Buckley does majority of what he does and thinks majority of what he thinks because he believes he’s expendable—but he’s wrong. And Eddie is trying to show Buck he’s wrong.

That Buck matters to Eddie. That Eddie trusts no one with Christopher the way he trusts Buck. That if he can’t be there, then there’s no one Eddie wants more than Buck to be there for Christopher. It’s a huge responsibility to say, “If I die, you’ll have to take care of my son,” but it’s also privlege. It’s a trust. It’s saying that I’d trust you with my world if I wasn’t around to care for it. If Buck didn’t matter to Eddie, Eddie couldn’t have possibly changed his will like that. If Buck didn’t matter to Eddie, then Eddie wouldn’t have set forth the very possible risks of upsetting the family he has—that Christopher has. That while it comes from caring about his son and wanting the best for him, considering not just what is best for Christopher but what Eddie believes is best for Christopher is very fueled towards caring for Buck.

Because, note that logically there’s a lot of ways that Eddie and Christopher moving back to Texas would’ve been better for Christopher. There’s a lot of ways that Christopher being taken care of by Eddie’s parents that would’ve been better for Christopher. Because it would mean being surrounded by family. It would mean foregoing many of the real financial struggle single-parenting can have. It would mean 100% security that Christopher would have people to care for him—given Eddie’s risky career. And yet, that’s not what Eddie believed was best for Christopher—or at least it wasn’t what he wanted for Christopher. That Eddie would fight tooth and nail to secure a stable and fulfilling life for Christopher on his own, if it may be, if it meant Christopher being with his father. Because Eddie wasn’t there for a few years, and he regretted that, and wanted to be a father for Christopher now that he had a chance to.

So, where logically, leaving Buck to have custody of Christopher if Eddie dies doesn’t make the most sense because Christopher has extended family in both Texas and LA, it was what Eddie thought was best. It was what Eddie thought was right. Almost like how it’s pretty clear Eddie’s parents didn’t like Shannon, and yes their relationship was rocky, but Eddie stands by the similarities in their running from the family and Eddie doesn’t put up with insults on Shannon’s parenting. That while between the two of them, yeah there were issues and they both can agree they weren’t great parents to Christopher in the times they weren’t there, Eddie also doesn’t let it only fall on Shannon, doesn’t stand for implications that Shannon did anything less than love her son and do better when she came back. Like literally the worst part of both of their parenting comes down to the one instance they left. Yes, not great, but, especially as a tv drama, it’s never to say that they don’t know how to be good parents. Outside of leaving, they’re capable of caring for Christopher and loving him fully. (Again that’s a whole other post)

But the point! Is that Buck loves Christopher. Christopher loves Buck. Buck loves Eddie. Eddie loves Buck. And there is no one in the world Eddie trusts more than Buck to be there for Christopher when he can’t be and to fight for Christopher. Both are also notably traits that both Shannon and Eddie display to each other (taking over parenting when the other isn’t present & overall fighting to be part of their son’s life).

All in all, this is to say that the finale points out how much Buck means to Eddie—something that hasn’t be made completely clear before. And by Buck’s face after Eddie says Buck isnt expendable, it’s a bit of a new thing for Buck to realize, too. That while they’re both well aware how much they care for the each other and how much they care for Christopher—there’s been a lack of realizing how reciprocal that care is between the two of them. (Which like romantic shipper goggles on, that’s part of where Shannon&Eddie fell apart. That while they both saw they loved Christopher and loved each other for that, sometimes there was a lack of loving each other outside of that.)

This coming within the same time of them individually starting (sort of for Eddie) romantic relationships, emphasizes a permanence in each other’s lives (that is explained nicely by @/mistmarauder (link will be in reblog/notes).) It considers the many ways that them being best friends and family is a for-life sort of thing, that isn’t bound or restricted by romance or blood or anything of the sort. They chose each other. They choose each other. And whether or not Buddie becomes canon, Buck-Eddie-Christopher are 100% an established family unit within the 118/firefam and the s4 finale was meant to establish that clearly. That where Buck & Eddie naturally pair off as the 118 does, Buck-Eddie-Christopher form one of the smaller family units that are focused on within the 118/firefam.

And if, you want to take it more romantically, Buck and Eddie realizing how much they mean to each other as something reciprocal (so far on Buck’s end, we still need a clearer moment where Eddie goes “oh! Buck cares” but the “are you hurt?” moment came close) is a great continuation for growing feelings and extended slowburn, friends to lovers Buddie-endgame. Like they’ve established Christopher loves Buck, Eddie loves Buck, Buck loves them, and Buck fulfills the sort of parental role well. Not much more checkboxes to fulfill for canon Buddie excepting navigating feelings, epiphanies, and the romance of it all. It’s not set up to only allow for Buddie, so there’s, as usual and expressed, room for other paths of canon, but it’s good set up should they choose that to be the direction they decide they want to go in.

#buddie #evan buckley #eddie diaz #diaz family #christopher diaz #shannon diaz #911 fox #911 spoilers #talk about an essay #alison speaks?#okay so anon is off bc i don’t trust posting my opinions on things here and idk i don’t think there’s anything bad but yeah #hskajdjskdjdksjdjsj I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS ABOUT THAT ONE SCENE

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would you say the music choices are important to a characters arc or the overall story??

Hey Nonnie

I love this ask so much and I had a whole answer mid flow and then tumblr decided to crash on me and delete everything I'd written 😭hopefully I can remember most of what I'd written!🤞🏻

my answer to you is both!!

It also depends on if you are referring to the song choices or the incidental music because that also has an impact. putting this post below a cut because its super long!

The incidental music composer will definitely be using leitmotifs and themes for characters and or pairings - I haven’t had the time (nor do I have the skills) to really go through and listen to the incidental music used to see if I can hear the themes and motifs used for each character, but they will more than likely be there. It could be something a s simple as a specific instrument playing a motif within a piece of incidental music to represent a character. (If you don’t know how this works, then i recommend peter and the wolf by Sergei prokofiev which is a piece written to teach children about storytelling in classical music and is a great beginners guide!) These little motifs etc can then be combined for interactions between characters and if there is a specific paring they may create an additional motif or layer - which might combine the characters individual motifs or create a new one - for example it would be worth seeing what motifs they use for Bobby, Athena, Michael, May and Harry then seeing if they’re combined in various ways and if a new theme/motif was created when Bobby and Athena became romantically involved (does any of this make sense? Think i’m not explaining it very well!)

Incidental music is super important and it mostly goes under the radar - in that you notice if its not there, but don’t always pick up on it while watching - someone isolated out the incidental music from the shooting scene (if it was you please direct me to it and I’ll add the link in) and it changes the scene a fair amount - you can really see how the incidental music builds onto the drama!

incidental music composers often borrow or are inspired by other film scores and classical music - did you know, for example, that much of the music in star wars has been ‘borrowed’ heavily from classical music - John Williams took a large number of themes and motifs from Holsts Planets Suite, and the iconic star wars theme is almost a direct copy of the opening score by Erich Wolfgang Korngold for a film called the the kings men if you want to hear for yourself then this video explains it all - some of it can be hard to pick up if you don’t have a classically trained ear! John Williams is a bit notorious for borrowing from other composers - he’s borrowed from Stravinsky and Dvorak among others - but I’ve never had a problem with it, film scores are a gateway to classical music for many and its almost impossible to not be influenced by others that have come before and its always interesting to hear how a composer builds and combines their own compositions around those parts they’ve used from other places!

One of the clearest examples I have of 911’s incidental composer doing this is in 5x11 - the incidental music we hear during the ‘speed rescue’ is definitely influenced by the lightbike scene incidental composition from Tron Legacy by Daft Punk - its not the same but it has very similar elements especially in the use of the electronic keyboard motif - have a watch of the the scene again and then listen to the lightbike scene and see if you can hear what i’m saying!

then we have the songs they use - all of which are very definitely important and chosen with care to ensure whatever message the writers are trying to get across is picked up by the audience - whether that’s in relation to a specific character or story arc very much depends and sometimes its both! a few examples for you - the use of Billy Joel Pressure in the opening scenes of season 2 - is very much about the expectations for the arcs of the season - various characters being put under pressure in various ways - it all ties in perfectly with those opening scenes as well, but because its the first song we hear as we come back into season 2 the song itself is hinting at what is to come for our mains throughout the season. the same can be said for season 5 - Welcome to the Jungle by Guns and Roses - yes it was the perfect song for the animals being lose on hollywood boulevard, but the lyrics also speak about what’s been happening over the course of the season with lyrics like ‘watch it bring you to your knees’ and ‘if you want it you’re going to bleed’ or ‘welcome to the jungle it gets worse here everyday’ ‘and when you’re high you never want to come down’ - all hints at what’s been going on all season - we’re watching life bringing various members of the firefam to their knees, metaphorically bleeding and lots of stuff at height seems to be coming in the second half of the season - with the various jumpers and fallers etc we’ve had hints for.

if we also look at 3x03 the searchers and Bucks End monologue and Ed Sheehan Photograph- all of that will have bee built around the choice of song - which will have been chose to highlight important moments so lets break it down, I’ve put the full lyrics used below.

Loving can hurt, loving can hurt sometimes But it's the only thing that I know When it gets hard, you know it can get hard sometimes It is the only thing makes us feel alive

We keep this love in a photograph We made these memories for ourselves Where our eyes are never closing Hearts are never broken And time's forever frozen, still

So you can keep me Inside the pocket of your ripped jeans Holding me closer 'til our eyes meet You won't ever be alone, wait for me to come home

Loving can heal, loving can mend your soul And it's the only thing that I know, know I swear it will get easier Remember that with every piece of ya Hmm, and it's the only thing we take with us when we die

When I'm away, I will remember how you kissed me Under the lamppost back on Sixth street Hearing you whisper through the phone "Wait for me to come home"

and Bucks voice over;

There are a lot of ways to be lost at sea.

Its not the same as being abandoned, or stranded. Those things happen beyond our control

Sometimes we just take a wrong turn to close to the tide.

The waters rise and sweep us away

we fight the currents for a way back to dry land and solid ground

to each other, to normal

and when we catch our breaths we search the shore for all that we lost and everything we loved

for our families

for our dreams and our futures

our friends and loved ones

and for those who couldn’t swim

sometimes being lost, is not knowing how to get from where we are to where we wanna be

where we need to be.

We see the camera panning over Santa Monica beaches and the devastation left behind by the Tsunami - the camera is moving in time with the opening refrain of the song and the opening lyrics and on the beat of the first hurt it is edited to hit the wall of missing loved ones - this two key moments edited to hit the beats of the music and tie the lyrics to the visual - the idea of love hurting - through losing people in a moment.

then we have the pick up of sometimes

🎶you know it can get hard sometimes’🎶

‘sometimes we just take a wrong turn’

then we get another tie in moment - a triple one this time - May - isolating her self in the aftermath - hiting with the lyric 🎶'Hearts are never broken’🎶 but being pulled back in by her family as Buck says ‘to normal’

then we see the boat couple getting married in hospital and their eyes meet as the line 🎶'till our eyes meet’🎶 is sung and they kiss as Ed sings 🎶‘you won’t ever be alone’ 🎶and Buck says ‘for our dreams and our futures

we move to Coop’s hospital room as we hit the first 🎶‘home’🎶 - and Buck says our friends and our loved ones’ - highlighting the idea of the firefam not being exclusive to the 118 but something repeated across all the firehouses in LA and them being ‘homes’ for those firefighters.

Then we have buck saying ‘for those who couldn’t swim’ the important line of the song here is ‘I swear it will get easier’ - its the only one we hear clearly during Maddie conversation about being a big sister before the camera sweeps away as the musical refrain starts t build and soar - which is when they edit the music to the last verse of the song - bringing it back down to more sombre refrains buck says the final lines of the monologue and the song speaks of remembering and coming home

🎶I will remember how you kissed me🎶

sometimes being lost,

🎶Under the lamppost back on Sixth street🎶

is not knowing how to get from where we are to where we wanna be

🎶Hearing you whisper through the phone🎶

where we need to be.

🎶"Wait for me to come home"🎶

…And Eddie knocks on the door. I’m not sure if it translates well into text but if you watch with the closed caption subtitles on it helps show where the beats are and where the crossover between the song and the monologue are. the thing to remember is that they will have chosen the lyrics they want the audience to hear - the ones that are the most important to the story - both for the character and the arcs - this one is about Buck and his search for home - that is the big arc Buck is going through as a character, but it is also the overarching arc that 911 is about. the idea that they’ve essentially set up that Buck has found his home but hasn’t realised and therefore hasn’t yet stopped searching for it is a major part of his story throughout s3 and beyond (he’s still looking).

these are just couple of examples of how the music alongside the incidental music plays an important role in the narrative - both types of music are narrative devices and when you combine them all sucessfully link 911 does - magic happens. the thing with 911 is that we’ve also seen them ‘get it wrong’ - the use of ‘what man’ over Eddies introduction - made sense in the moment and we know that Tim et al didn’t fully think through the implications of using that song at that moment wit hBuck watching on - it set a whole ship afloat that may not have happened if a different musical choice had been made!

Sorry this got epically long, but you asked me about music in film and tv and well that was like the starters gun for me!! Hopefully its interesting and makes some sense!! please come back to me if you have more questions😎

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