#I want a bug...yellow or pink definitely

[delusionalwriter02]

hellooo can i request headcanon on chuuya, dazai, ranpo, atsushi and kunikida about if theyll let f reader paint their nails ??

Nail art session

Chuuya, Dazai, Ranpo, Atsushi, Kunikida x F!Reader / Fluff / Headcanons

a/n : Thank you so much for your request ! I'll have so much fun writing this so I hope you like it ! <3

Chuuya :

-"My love ?" You say, slowly approaching your husband. You finally have a day off and you were planning to take advantage of it. -"Yes ?" Chuuya said, lying quietly in your bed, a book in hand. -"Can I take care of your nails?" And Chuuya bugged.

I honestly think he'll only let you do this if you make them dark red or black, without too much extravagance. Even if he wears gloves, he may have to take them off in public and doesn't want to be embarrassed by candy pink nail art, for example.

But if you really insist on making little patterns for him, he will give in and let you do it. Expect to receive little comments like “Are you finished?” or even “Don’t get on the cuticles”. That he knows this word surprises you and when you ask him WHERE he learned this word, he simply answers that he likes to look at you when you take care of your nails and actually listens when you talk about it.

What a cutie.

Dazai :

This man would say yes to anything you could ask him. “You want to take care of my nails?” He said looking at his hands. "Yes why not !"

You can DO EVERYTHING, from yellow to black to azure blue, he'll definitely like it. So HAVE A FUN. The only thing that will be difficult to deal with is Dazai himself. He will remove his hands from yours regularly to observe your work. Even if you've only just done a nail, he wants to look.

You're going to take breaks every 30 seconds because he doesn't know how to sit still for more than 5 minutes when he's with you. Yes, it will take hours to finally finish your work but it will be perfect.

-"Honey, it's so beautiful! You're so talented!" He will show his nails to the whole agency, specifying each time that it was you who did them so well.

Ranpo :

-"Absolutely not !" Ranpo shouted, as you practically begged him to let you do his nails. -"But why? -It smells bad. "You're a child, darling." You said, sitting down next to him.

Yes, it will be hard to convince him but through persuasion, he agrees to let you do it but he will only keep your art for a day, to please you.

It goes without saying that you jump at the chance, you give him some sweets to keep him going. When you finish the first hand, he complains that he can't touch anything, he complains that it's taking too long, that it smells bad, that his arm is cramping. It's a one-hour fight but you can be proud of yourself, your work is magnificent.

-"FINALLY I'M FREE!" Ranpo shouted, jumping off the couch, you laughed at his childishness.

Atsushi :

He would be delighted if you wanted to take care of him, even if it's "just" nails. The poor guy has never taken the time to take care of his manicure and he doesn't know much about it so he'll let you do it, the only thing he doesn't want is too flashy colors.

While you have his right hand in yours, he will ask you how you learned to do nails, he will even be impressed by your dexterity.

-"You are beautiful when you concentrate." Said Atsushi. You laugh slightly, softened. -"Thank you angel, I want it to be perfect." After a good hour more, you are finally satisfied with your work.

Atsushi looks at his fingers in admiration. Not once did he complain about how long it lasted. He's just happy to have shared this moment with you.

Kunikida :

He will be VERY reluctant at first. It's not that he doesn't trust you with your talent but he doesn't want to have something too complicated, he will only end up accepting if you do a simple sober color.

He has a schedule calibrated to perfection so he will dedicate 2 hours to you so that you can take care of him. Surprisingly, he will ask a lot of questions about what you are currently doing, what tool is used for what, he is curious about this universe that he knows little about.

-"This is to remove cuticles that are too long." You say, pointing at the object. -"You'll do my nails more often, that's interesting." He said while adjusting his glasses.

Yes, you just converted him to the world of nail art and with any luck, you can one day give him hot pink nails.

If you're lucky.

Hey I hope you liked it? I had a lot of fun writing these headcanons so thank you very much for your request!

See you <3

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[silvyslayer42]

saiki k headcannons (very very long post)

-kurumi + kuusuke have weird unnaturally sharp teeth that are lowkey scary if you look at them for too long. kusuo also has it but he hides it.

-if you think at kusuo, he can hear you no matter where you are. the psychickers (+ his family) know this and use it against him.

-kusuo is an unwilling empathy crier. if someone starts crying near him, he will at least start to tear up. he finds it an extreme inconvenience and does everything he can to hide it. this only really happens with people in his direct vicinity though, so no movie characters or random people in his telepathy radius.

-too many characters have similarly colored eyes, so here’s a lightning round with some eye color changes

akechi: periwinkle. it just makes sense to me ok?? a silly color for a silly goober. it grows on me more the more i think about it.

aren: dark magenta with a hint of red. i think it represents his personality better

toritsuka: dark grey. i like it and have no explanation for it. honorable mention goes to pink because it makes him match with saiki

also aiura has neon yellow eyes not green they are not green her eyes are not gre

-kusuo gets a pretty normal amount of sleep all things considered, in fact he probably gets maybe an hour or so more than average most nights because he just loves sleeping so much. kuusuke does not even go out of his way to get a bed for himself because the only sleep he gets is when he forgets to take his bi-hourly injection of whatever he’s using in place of caffeine and passes out on top of whatever he’s working on for ≈3 minutes before jolting himself awake and going back to work. if he really has to nap for whatever reason he claims the floor is plenty comfortable.

-kusuo has sedatephobia (fear of silence). while the peaceful tranquility of putting people’s thoughts on mute with the ring is nice, if he were to somehow be put into a situation with no noise at all or even just very little noise I think he’d be pretty freaked. he’s never had a truly quiet moment before, so it’s only a natural reaction to be uncomfortable with it. he would avidly deny it if asked though, even if he gets visibly anxious from it.

-kuusuke has never used bugs against kusuo directly because he thinks phobias are a cheap and uncreative tactic. the birthday card thing doesn’t count because that was only psychometry images.

-it’s not really a psychic power but all of the pk psychics have extremely strong intuitions. like they just Know things sometimes. this is basically canon for at least kusuo but that besides the point. the jury is still out on whether akechi also has the psixth sense or if he’s just weird but he is definitely on the same page as everyone else most of the time because of his near psychic analysis of his situation and surroundings

-kusuo can use transform on other people but it never comes up bc why would he do that when hypnosis is so much easier? something something genderbend episode

-kusuo had a very bad no good week like right before he got his limiters where his hair became uncuttable and he was forced to have a mullet until it culminated in kusuo willing himself into developing heat vision and cutting his hair with it to mixed results.

-each of the saiki’s think they’re the more normal one balancing out the rest of the family’s weirdness but no. all of you are weird there is no balance

-more of an opinion than a headcanon, but being average/“normal” was never really what saiki wanted. what he’s actually after is peace, and he just happens to associate those things with it. that’s why he changed the world to perceive his unusual attributes as normal when he was younger instead of changing himself to appear normal, what he truly wants is a world that he can be himself in and be at peace at the same time. the reason he refuses to admit this, even to himself, is because of his own lack of self-acceptance. you guys don’t understand he’s such an angsty and tragic character actually ! a poor little meow meow even ! listen to me !!

-kusuo and kuusuke NEED to have a “let’s take ibuprofen together” moment i will not be explaining further

-kuusuke works above board a lot, but he is definitely doing some “under the table” stuff when it comes to selling the shit he makes because he just does not care and wants money to fund his games. he is confident he will never get caught and even if he’s wrong kusuo is reversing that shit to avoid the trouble it would cause him.

-kuusuke does love robotics (specifically with making weapons but he does indulge in the gadget or two), and that is definitely his favorite to do stuff with and the thing he is most passionate about, but don’t be fooled, he does everything. any science under the sun and he is probably an expert on it. special mentions of things he knows a lot a lot about go to neuroscience, physics, biology, first aid/general medicine, pharmacology (technically canon because of that muscle relaxent from the cattank arc) and anything that you could realistically make a psi pun with.

-sometimes kuusuke randomly decides that a random ass guy is the person of the week he wants to piss off (to him it’s like being annoying to an animal, very amusing ^^). positive things about this: it’s normal a really bad person he decides to be a menace to like a rich guy or a corrupt politician. bad things about this: he has had to deal with hired hits on him before

-aiura can get a very accurate read on someone’s personality near instantly and has an encyclopedic knowledge on everyone. she knows your birthday and she knows what you want. teruhashi too but not because she’s psychic she’s just also weird.

-aiura has a very bad sleep schedule because she gets woken up in the middle of the night by visions of disaster. this is NOT THE SAME as kusuo’s visions !! kusuo is tormented in his sleep, she is kept awake. aiura also sometimes has visions of shit right before it happens and if it’s a bad thing she has to think quick on her feet to stop it.

-aiura does not stop helping people she just gets a little bit better at being discreet. eventually she goes freelance and owns her own shop for occult stuff good for her

ok that’s all i got for now. tune in whenever i decide to do this again for more bangers

#this is almost organized #not really #please ask about any of these if you are interested i can talk for soo long bbg you have no idea #saiki k #uhh #im not tagging everyone i mentioned #saiki kusuo #saiki kuusuke #saiki kusuke #the rest of the saikis #aiura mikoto #character headcanons #headcannons #how the fuck do you spell that word #both ways of spelling it do not look right

[i-like-anything-water]

Step by step guide to redeeming your girlfriends

Plot, basically: Canon! Chloenette meets Reverse! Chloenette. Dedicated to @generalluxun ! Thank you for the motivation, I will now make them go through Scooby Doo levels of chasing and mystery solving (coughs identity reveal coughs)

Chapter One: Is it kidnapping if I thought we were dating?

The sky has visibly darkened during lunchtime. It wasn't the normal rainy sky though. People were scrambling to get inside or find cover as it was most likely an akuma attack. It was strange, however, that the signal never went off nor were there any explosions nearby. There wasn't even a ridiculously dressed villain with their monologue about getting revenge and obtaining the miraculous.

It was quiet. Suspiciously too quiet.

A bolt of lightning flashed on the darkened sky, the dark purple color leaving a web like structure in its path. Okay, that definitely was not normal.

Chloe was sure it was another Akuma and judging from the last one Ladybug and Chat Noir had to face, they were getting ridiculously more strong as time passes. Which doesn't worry her. After all, Ladybug never trusted her completely to wield another miraculous again so why give a damn about her anymore.

The world shook and she unconsciously switched on her TV to the news.

Nadja was reporting on the strange phenomenon currently happening while the purple lightning continued to flash and leave even more intricate patterns.

Chloe pursed her lips in thought. Ladybug had already enlisted a lot of new (temporary) heros since they faced off against Shadow Moth. She won't be outnumbered or lacking in minions if ever.

She sighed, frustration starting to bubble inside her, "Everything would be easier if she would just let me be Queen Bee!"

"You've got a point," a voice said from behind, "but Queen Bee is rather distracting during battles, 'no?"

Before she could scream at the sudden intrusion of a very familiar looking person, she was swept off her bed and was falling down from her balcony, a set of familiar and ridiculously strong arms wrapped around her securely.

Shit.

She was tapping her foot impatiently, the sound echoing against the room they were in. Claw was leaning by the wall, his knowing glance darting from her to the other occupant of the room who was very much unconscious.

"You scared the shit out of her. You have such a lame type in women," he casually tilted his head, narrowly avoiding a metal ball to his face. Rolling his eyes, he stretched out his muscles earning a disgusted sound from his partner and a laugh from him.

"Careful, your softness for her is showing," she scoffed, her arms crossed as she looked at the blonde. "I am not soft, you fucking piece of vomit."

"I told you, my hair is not that damn vomiting emoji! The shade is different!"

"Whatever," she walked to the unconscious blonde and with a soft tug, managed to lift her head up to a more comfortable position. She looked peaceful, her mouth slightly parted as she let out soft snores.

Even in a different universe, the sight of her still made her go speechless.

Which got her confused. This universe's Chloé looks very similar to her Chloé, just with more yellow than soft pink and white, so why,

"Why is she taking so damn long?" She hissed as Claw shrugged, who was looking down at his manicure and let out a 'tsk'. He needed to get an appointment, soon.

"Maybe because you're not together in this universe," he supplied after a moment, "maybe you're in love with me instead."

"That's one of the worst things you've ever said to me and I want to strangle you right now."

Claw shivered, "Agreed. Agree to never speak about that again."

A figure sighed as she shut her bug phone. Gazing at a familiar tower, she idly wonders if she should wait for them to arrive or continue searching for the person she needs. Deciding to do the latter, she jumps off the roof into the night sky.

Ladybug almost crashed into the hotel room, Chat Noir not far behind. After getting a call from a very distraught mayor and with the sky turning an unusual purple, she had a sinking feeling it was another powered up Akuma. This Akuma hasn't showed their face yet, but Chloé's disappearance was alarming.

"She's not here," she whispered after quickly darting inside the suite. Chat Noir voiced his affirmative and gave her a worried look, "The Akuma must have already taken her but..." Chat frowned, "Unless it had a personal vendetta against Chloé, it's unusual of them to stay hidden."

Ladybug sighed. This was going to be a long day.

Notes: It's divided because the author hasn't decided if this should be a short, fluffy funny fic or dive into possible 'getting therapy from yourself of a different multiverse because it's like talking to one of the voices in your head'. Enjoy!

#chloe bourgeois #marinette dupain cheng #chloenette #chloenette fic #it gets funny before it gets sad #i promise this has a plot #on a different note go check out generalluxun's fics! #they're amazing #additional tags: #reverse! chloenette #emonette #reverse!chloe bourgeois #chat noir #claw noir #fic

[offlineblues]

GET TO KNOW THE BLOGGER ASK GAME

tagged by @pocketsonny ♡ thank you!

i ramble on too much, so i'll make it a read more! here goes~

TAGGING in advance (if you want)

@armos @fleury @saltiestcoconut @gntk

Last Song

i've been listening to MMBN's OST for around 2 weeks straight. i would really like to play this game soon, since i bought the collection on sale for 50% off~ (looks at @pocketsonny who keeps nudging me to play as well by talking excitedly about it)

Net Battle and Fire Field are so good...

Favorite Color

i really like gray the most, i think. i really like rose pink, lavender and lilac purple, flowery yellow, and soft blue and mild green a lot as well! something like this?

i also love the colors of the sunrise, the sunset, and the galaxy

Last Movie / Show

the last movie i saw became my favorite movie! i watched it with @xx-moonluster-xx and @duelofai !

i had a lot of fun. Nausicaä's messages of decay and rebirth were so wonderful. also i love the gentle giant bugs and the extraordinary fantasy world they created (it was so beautiful and the OST is so good too)

otherwise, i've been rewatching FMAB in a group with 3 people after 12 years. it used to be my favorite series a long long time ago, so i'm really happy to watch it now that i'm older and understand the world from another perspective (and thus, understand and resonate with the grim reality this series often times presents)

Sweet / Spicy / Savory

Relationship Status

spicy, definitely! savory is always good! i'm not the biggest fan of sweet!

@armos and i celebrated our 10 years dating anniversary in January!!

Last Search

Current Obsession

definitely not the movie and show official art above—

this will be random, but, lots of people on twt have been posing and dressing up the new plush Yusaku, so i've been itching to see them in new and fun ways. isn't he adorable? i just want to squeeze him (shows you mine i bought for my partner)

additionally, i've been playing a lot of Blue Rescue Team again lately (i have almost 500 hours on record) because i'm trying to recruit them all! it's a bit of a task, though. there's tons of 1% encounters and they can take a long time to get lucky and join you. (pictured: me recruiting all 1% encounters at once in Howling Forest somehow)

#i wrote this all out and then the app crashed and i lost all my progress so here i am typing it again #caroblogging

[rainbowfic]

You can:

use either or both prompts as given

use either or both lists for prompts

use the name of either or both lists as a prompts

complete as many or few days as you want

write, draw, craft, or anything else!

There's no deadline and this is just for fun. I'll reblog this with links to the lists if you want to explore.

What's RainbowFic? We're a community of original fic writers on Dreamwidth using prompt lists named after colors (for a very VERY loose definition of color). Our lists range include song lyrics, quotes from books and tv, themed words, contrasts, and a whole lot more (we have over 400!)

Text version of the list under a readmore

Text version:

Day 1: Royal Purple #11 Further beyond / Iceberg #12 Snowman

Day 2: Lilac #25 Freesia / Opera Mauve #20 Curtain call

Day 3: Lavender's Blue #2 Mermaid / Periwinkle #14 Enamel heart pendant from a garage sale

Day 4: Caramel #8 Gummies / Vert #16 As the lord/lady asks

Day 5: Midnight #6 Furtive / Psychedelic Purple #15 I know I'll never be the same

Day 6: Lotus #19 Truthfulness / Ignition Yellow #10 There are some nights I wait for someone to save us

Day 7: Green Go #21 Rideshare / Gold #12 The only way not to think about money is to have a great deal of it

Day 8: City Street #4 Highway / Greenstick Fracture #9 I got the velocity and now all I need is the mass

Day 9: Paprika #8 We've got something kinda funny going on / Harvard Crimson #14 Library

Day 10: Danish Red #2 The Snow Queen / Amaranth #5 Stars

Day 11: Pull Me Over Red #1 Parking ticket / Daffodil #5 Flowers

Day 12: Fluorescent Pink #19 It doesn't matter who they are, I won't forgive anyone who tries to stand out more than me / Parrot Green #13 Call

Day 13: Crane White #18 Tell your daughters do not walk the streets alone tonight / Spirits of Saturn #15 Overgrowth

Day 14: Cherry #12 Grapes / Skylight #4 Smoking on the fire escape

Day 15: Calcite #4 Soft/Hard / Burgundy #2 Varietal

Day 16: Yellow Submarine #17 The long and winding road that leads to your door will never disappear / White Opal #2 Dream

Day 17: Tigers Eye #8 Eerie empty spaces / Moonlight #1 Liminal

Day 18: Baby Blue #4 Sling / Red Dress #5 You need to find a new solution, adaptation or retribution

Day 19: Gunmetal #14 Crossbow / English Violet #3 Since I cannot prove a lover, to entertain these fair well-spoken days, I am determined to prove a villain

Day 20: Heirloom Silver #2 Heirloom / Brown #5 Brown bagging

Day 21: Coomassie Blue #1 Repressor / Folly #14 Relax, I saw it on TV

Day 22: Fuzzy Wuzzy #3 Hugs /Alien Green #6 This is where you pucker up and kiss my ass

Day 23: Fawn #4 Cat / Grand Ink #20 With a mug of hot tea and some Vicodin in my bloodstream, I look up from my book to watch the bugs outside the windows

Day 24: Royal Blue #2 Queen / Spirit Purple #19 Screw the binary gender system

#advent calendar #rainbowfic original #prompts #pastels prompts #modeling clay prompt #oil prompts

[oceanwithouthermoon]

i know i JUST did this with the pony au but.. been thimking of.. saiki k spidersonas.. head in hands..

let me give u my ideas😋

this is just a brainstorm dont judge if its cringe

chiyo- love bite

pink+orange suit

HEAVY on the mask eyeliner

suit has a cute lil skirt, both cuz its just cute and fun and cuz she was insecure about the way the skintight suit looked

"i stained my mask with lipstick.. why did i do that..." (continues doing it)

eventually she just makes a mask that doesnt cover her mouth and realizes she shouldve just done that in the first place cuz one of her powers is her sharp ass venomous teeth😭(venom only deadly if she bites for a REALLY long time)

also for some reason i think one of her powers would be like an ABSOLUTELY EAR SPLITTING SHRIEK.. not bad enough to make people go deaf, but it seriously disorientates them and makes their ears ring

shun- jet black widow

blue+black (+red accents? maybe yellow to go with his whole thunder thing)

bat wings on his suit.. can he fly?? prob not.. sure can glide though!!

aren- the demon killer ??? (just his gang alias, idk what else to name him)

purple+black (+red accents?) ((matching with shun?🤔)

i feel like his only power would be super strength (but like.. SUPER super strength.. bros crazy strong already so...) and he would have to manually create a suit that gives him more spider-like capabilities.. why did he need to become a spider-person instead of just being a regular superhero?? um cuz its cool and his friends were doing it obviously..

kokomi- heart slinger

blue+white

her suit also has a cute lil skirt, mostly cuz she didnt want annoying guys to be weird about the skintight suit

y'all know miss heed from villainous??? she prob has powers like that but yk.. less evil

i also imagine one of her powers being that shes somewhat indestructible.. like thats exaggerative ofc but it probably takes a LOT for her to bruise or bleed and she can take a lot of pain.. it just feels right to me, fitting for her perfect girl thing..

mikoto- tiger spider

BRIGHT pink+animal print

COVERED in what looks like stickers but is actually just cute little images embroidered on the suit

can obv still see the future like in canon.. cant decide if she has other powers naturally too

i kind of imagine her just updating kusuo on the sidelines or something but that might make her seem like too much of a sidekick and i dont like that so maybe she stays with him and does her predictions right there

maybe shes like aren and just has the one power but has special suit technology.. kusuo prob helps her, which i'll talk about in a second

ALTERNATIVELY she could be like peni parker and have a robo suit (covered in stickers and very decorated..) where she can safely do her predictions while controlling the suit.. she could use both interchangeably or either one idk

BIG social media following.. posts EVERYTHING.. pisses kusuo tf off

kusuo- cyborg spider man / psi bug

the media calls him the first name because its a running bit and hes PISSED about it

was thinking he'd just be plain spiderman but there has to be at least some sort of theme to go with his limiters sticking tf out the mask

despite already being the most powerful, his suit is the most technologically advanced.. hes just seriously really extra, bro prob made big spider legs sticking out the suit even though he can fly and defy gravity already.. he doesnt need them.. but it sure does look cool..

helps the others make advancements in their suits too

he'd prob have different limiters in this au too, like ones that limit in different amounts so he can fight efficiently

fyi he did NOT want to be a spider person cuz ew spiders but after a power reveal to his friends and them all having some weird accident or something and getting these superpowers snd THIS was the gimmick they went with.. he didnt have much of a choice

anywayyyyyyy most of them prob have secret identities and dont wanna be public (for various reasons) but miko would definitely just tell everyone who she is.. kusuo would constantly be having to protect her from stalkers and the like when shes just trying to live her life

kokomi prob tried to be secret at first just to prevent having MORE stalkers and general crazy people surrounding her every day life, but she would def be the first person to be exposed by the public because.. well, the media would be OBSESSED with her but also, shes just really obvious and doesnt realize shes not being subtle at all.. prob has all her long blue hair out of her suit and everything.. eventually she prob decided against having a mask at all (or just having one around her eyes) cuz being pretty and perfect adds to her whole thing

kusuo is pissed at both of them cuz he seriously cant handle hanging out with them in public now.. like if it was bad before, its terrible now

alsooo i was thinking about whether or not all his friends knew each others secret identities from the start or not and i started considering like if they didnt at first, yumehara would have a crush on kaido or the jet black widow and i was thinking theyd team up or something and she'd be like ugh i cant crush on this guy, i have kaido !!! and then i realized, this is just miraculous, i was making yumekai miraculous 😭😭

is kusuke a supervillain? ehhhh, probably nottt, he'd prob be similar to how he is in canon.. jealous and obsessive over his brother but doesnt really care about anything or anyone else enough to really be evil, he prob creates crazy supervillain esque tech that could rival the heroes easily but only uses it in private against kusuo cuz he wants to prove he can beat him.. kusuo comes back from his brothers place absolutely BATTERED and bloody and the others are like "?!?!? did u battle someone and not tell us???" and hes like nah i was just hanging out with my brother

just a thought!! i didnt do everyone but with some of the others, i wasnt sure whether i would want them to be spider people in this au or not, like maybe theyd have some other role ?? would not be opposed to it though if anyone else has ideas for it or if i think of something..

#please someone give more thought to this like their backstories and stuff my brain is too full of cheese #or other characters #i really wanna focus on yumehara here cuz she was the reason i started thinking about this but ik most people will care less about hers #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k. #kusuo saiki #saiki kusuo #chiyo yumehara #kokomi teruhashi #aren kuboyasu #shun kaido #mikoto aiura #yumekai #potentially #saiki k spiderman au #meows post

[jaxteller87]

love bug

Jax’s POV

The roar of motorcycles echoed off all the houses in the neighborhood as I pulled into the driveway. The rest of the gang continued, heading to the clubhouse with the gritty scent of motor oil lingering in the air. Generally, I would have joined them for a little mischief and a bit of whiskey, but I had other things on my mind, more important things. Tossing my cut onto the kitchen table, I noticed a playpen out of the corner of my eye. As I got closer to it, I saw a delicate pink bow and a note written on some pale yellow parchment paper. A while back, Opie and I had stumbled upon this old thing while cleaning out the shed, a definite relic from the past but with a new purpose, seeing as how we needed to make room for the newest addition to the Teller family.

“Cleaned this up and thought the Teller family could use it. Lots of love, Donna and Opie,” the note read.

I had to admit, it looked almost brand new. In fact, if I hadn’t seen it covered in dirt and cobwebs a few weeks ago, I’d probably think it was. I wasn’t sure whether or not Amber had seen it yet, but I felt the urge to find some cute little stuffed animals to throw in there anywhere. On the off chance she didn’t already catch a glimpse of the surprise, I could surely sweeten the deal and send her over the moon in a good way.

Amber’s POV

I ran my fingers over my stomach, acknowledging the thoughtful gesture from our best friends.

“This was so sweet of your aunt and uncle, Love Bug,” I said, rubbing my belly. The cute little cat and dog stuffies that Jax added looked just like two of our current fur babies, which really made my heart melt even more. The next day, before my shift, I wanted to swing over to Opie’s and visit Donna to express our thanks. I knew they would never take any money from us, so Jax had told me to slip it into their mailbox with a note from Clay stating it was a little extra for a run they had pulled a few weeks ago.

After a sluggish day at work, I set a course for home. With exhaustion dragging behind me, I barely made it to the couch before I felt my eyelids getting heavy. Even though it was a tough day, if I’d take a nap now, I’d just be up all night, likely getting into stuff and keeping Jax awake. So, instead of catching some shuteye on the sofa, I made it my point to complete a few chores around the house. Just as I started to fold laundry on the bed, I heard a car pull into the driveway. It was Donna, most likely stopping by to see how I was getting on with Jax running some late-night errands for the club.

“Hey, girl,” I greeted her, wearing a tired smile.

​“Hey!” She reared back for a moment, “Sweetie, don’t take this wrong way, but you look like shit.”

​“Well, nice to see you too,” I joked, welcoming her in.

​“Ah, you know I didn’t mean anything by it, but you really can’t keep pulling all these long shifts in your condition. You’re going to wear yourself too thin.”

​“I know; I don’t want Jax making all the money. I want to contribute financially too, plus I like to stay busy.” I wheeled myself toward the kitchen, “Especially when Jax is out doing club stuff.”

“I get that, it’s just—”

“Seriously, Don, I’m fine,” I opened the fridge and grabbed some juice. “Would you like something to drink?”

“No, that’s okay. I just came by to check on you and Baby Teller,” she replied, settling at the table. “Did Jax say anything to you about Clay forgetting to pay the boys for the last run?”

​I knew she was hinting about the money in the mailbox, and I hoped I wasn’t too tired that I couldn’t keep up the act of playing dumb. “I think he mentioned it. I guess Bobby messed up the split, and they were just seeing it right.”

“Oh. Never knew Bobby to mess up when it came to money,” the look on her face wasn’t entirely clear whether or not she bought it or not, so I quickly kept the conversation moving.

“As for me, everything has been,” I found myself pausing, and I wasn’t sure why exactly, “good, actually.”

​She nodded, but I could feel her eyes on me as if they were pleading with me to dive a little deeper into my thoughts. “Alright,” she said in a long, condescending sort of way. “Can I take a look at the nursery so far?”

​“Of course!” I exclaimed, leading her back the hall.

As we walked into the freshly painted room, she had a surprised look, “Wow, Amber! This is beautiful!”

“Yeah, it’s coming along,” then the hormones hit me like a truck, and I burst into tears. “What if Jax doesn’t want this baby, and he leaves me?” I confessed, blurting it out and letting my vulnerability break through the fragile armor I tried to keep.

​“That’s the pregnancy talking if I ever heard it,” she put her arm around me and rubbed my shoulder.

“But, we conceived the baby, little Love Bug, while he was locked up, in front of two guards even, do you know how embarrassing—”

“Hey, stop that stuff right now. You know the SOA life is anything but glamorous. Just be glad that you and I lucked out and were able to tame our bad boys.” Donna, one of the few privy to the actual circumstances of my pregnancy, reassured me. “It could be worse…”

“Oh yeah? How?” I asked, wiping my nose across my sleeve.

“I don’t know. Like Tig could have been the father or something,” she playfully gagged.

“Yikes,” I thought about it for a minute and realized she was right, and I was most likely overreacting.

“Besides, after Love Bug is born, I’m certain Jax is going to shower you both with so much love that you’ll be the envy of every single mom in Charming.”

“You hear that, little girl? Aunt Donna knows your daddy is going to love you,” I whispered, my hand tenderly caressing the life inside me.

“Woah, hold up, you’re going to have a girl!?” Donna shrieked.

“Yup, found out yesterday. Gemma went with me,” I smiled through the tears that seemed to be a constant companion. Then, the emotions overwhelmed me once again, and I found myself with the waterworks pouring down my rosy cheeks. “Goodness, these damn hormones. I wish they would stop making me cry at the dumbest things. The other day, I cried because I forgot cereal at the store,” I confessed, trying to laugh through it all.

“Yeah, that’s the part of being pregnant I don’t miss,” Donna chuckled, “That and not being able to paint my toenails.”

“Fair point,” I chirped. It wasn’t even that funny, although very accurate, but her remark caused me to laugh like I just heard the funniest joke on the planet.

“But really, Amber, you don’t have anything to worry about. Jax is gonna love her and spoil her; love you and spoil you. I can see it now; she’s gonna have her daddy wrapped around her little finger,” Donna winked and wiggled her pinky in front of my face.

“Thank you for this,” I laughed, feeling the warmth of family support.

“Hey, anytime. That’s what family’s for,” Donna smiled.

A few months later, the hospital room filled with anticipation. I lay there, gazing at a family of orange butterflies outside the window—reminding me of the surreal and symbolic dance of life amid the chaos of childbirth.

“They haven’t left, have they?” Jax asked as he held our newborn daughter, Mary Lynn, in his arms.

“No, they haven’t,” I sighed softly, exhausted, watching the persistent fluttering.

“You want her back, Mom?” he said, flashing his pearly whites at me.

“Of course,” I smiled at him through my tired eyes and reached out for our little Love Bug. Jax carefully stood up from the seat and ever so slowly transferred our sleeping baby girl into my arms.

“Welcome to the family, Mary Lynn Teller,” I smiled, pressing a tender kiss to the top of our daughter’s head. At that moment, surrounded by the gritty echoes of the outlaw world we live in and the delicate dance of butterflies, the Teller family welcomed its newest member.

#jax teller fanfiction #jax teller fluff #jax x oc #jax teller x disabled reader #jax teller imagine #jax teller

[andthetapeworms]

Lately I have been hyperfixating on Steven universe again and the pokemon nerd will always be rooted deep inside me so I'm going to assign all the Steven universe characters pokemon types (i hope no one did this yet)

First one up is Steven, I'll say normal and fairy. Fairy on behalf of Rose/Pink, and normal since he's half human

Next up is Pearl, she's a fairy and fighting type. I think all pearls would be the same type as their diamonds, so pearl is also a fairy type, but also a fighting type. I don't think she came with that type, I'd like to think she somehow gained it some time during the rebellion

Amethyst would be a rock and fighting type, i think that all quartzes would be a ground type instead of a rock type, but since she's off color, she gets the rock typing.

Garnet is a rock and fairy type. I wanted to do rock and fighting, but I needed to put a fairy in there somewhere for Ruby and Sapphires love obviously! (The former "cotton candy" Garnet design just screams fairy.) I think she's good without the fighting type though, because if you've played any Pokemon game, you'd know that fairy types are RIDICULOUSLY powerful..

Ruby is definitely fire and fighting. What else would she be?

Sapphire would be an ice and psychic. I'm saying psychic, because of her ability to see into the future

Bismuth, I feel, would be a rock and steel type. It just makes a whole lot of sense. Almost every rock and steel type Pokemon that we currently have is insanely physically powerful

Lapis is a water and flying type! for some reason I can't shake the feeling off that the flying type doesn't fit her, but she has wings, she can fly, as can every other lapis, she's a flying type

Peridot is a ground and steel type, I was wondering if psychic would fit more but I don't think her metal powers could really be considered psychic, so steel it is!

Jasper is a ground and fighting, it just fits. She RADIATES Garchomp vibes.

Malachite would definitely be a water and dark type.

Aquamarine is a bug type since she is an insect. I accept no criticism for this (haha jk, she's water and dark)

Nephrite is a rock and bug type! I think she was a pure rock type before her corruption, and being centipeetle gave her the bug type, and even after she was uncorrupted, she kept that type, kind of like how the quartzes keep their horns.

The rutile twins will be a pure rock type. I can't see them having any other type. Maybe a rock and ground but idk!

Fluorite is a fairy type, i really can't see her having any other type than that! It fits her perfectly :)

Padparadscha is another one I'm kinda conflicted about, I know she'll definitely have the normal type, but idk if she'd also have the psychic type. I mean, she definitely has some sort of power, it just doesn't work the way it should. So I'll say normal and psychic.

Rhodonite is another fairy, i don't know if she'd have a second typing, if she did it'd be rock for sure

Blue zircon and yellow zircon would both be pure rock, i really don't see them having a secondary typing.

Doc and army would both be fire and fighting type! It fits them both

Navy would be a fairy type, i can't see her being anything like a fighting type. She might also be a dark type but whether or not it was inherently malicious of her to do what she did in room for Ruby is up for debate (but i like to think she's a sociopath with no morals)

Leggy, i think, might be a normal and rock type .. ? Idk she doesn't seem like she'd have any other type, she's just too confused, she just kinda.. exists

Eyeball would for sure be a dark and fighting type, can't see ANYTHING else fitting that girl

The heaven beetle and earth beetle would both be bug and rock! Very little.

Spinel is a fairy and dark. Like Pearl, she originally was a pure fairy type but gained the dark type. I could kinda see her losing her fairy type after gaining her dark type all together, but she was still silly and cute! She was just too hurt. Even after reaching a much better place mentally, she wouldn't lose the dark type

Yellow diamond would be an electric type, which is cliche, but don't forget she literally has electricity powers!!!

Blue diamond would be water, which is, again, cliche, but water really is her whole thing! She makes people cry, and those happy pill clouds she's rocking in future are, assumably, made out of water like normal clouds are!

White diamond is a psychic and dark type. SHE SCREAMS PSYCHIC AND DARK! it fits her so well! Whenever she's using the new power she has in future that lets people connect with her, she would gain their typing temporarily!

I think yellow and blue pearl would both be the same types as their diamonds! Electric and water respectively!

Volleyball (or pink pearl, or white pearl, wow she has a lot of names) is a pure fairy type. I think while she was under white diamonds control, she was also psychic and dark.

(If there is any one I didn't do that you would want me to, mention them in the replies or notes and I'll edit this and add them :])

#steven universe #steven quartz universe #pokemon #pokemon types #pearl #garnet #amethyst #peridot #lapis #bismuth #spinel

[crawlspacefics]

Hey,

I don't know if you know a lot about cars or not but I've compiled a list of cars of what the senshi would drive and you can tell me what you think.

(If you can look it up if you want)

(This is also going to be a long one lol)

Usagi- Newer Volkswagen Beetle because she thinks it's cute

Ami- Toyota Corolla or Honda Civic. She prefers something reliable and economical.

Makoto- Toyota FJ Cruiser or New Ford Bronco because I see her as an off road driver who enjoys exploring.

Rei- Probably something that runs and drives but I would lean her towards something that is cheap and practical while still enjoying it. Probably a Mitsubishi Lancer Evo or a Subaru Impreza WRX Hatchback.

Minako- Something cool like a BMW M5 F10 (Rip water pump lol) or 2012 Mercedes SL-Class (Rip engine due to trashing the shit out of that car lol)

Michiru- Something fancy yet practical such as a Mercedes E-Class Wagon Diesel or Volkswagen Passat 4Motion.

Haruka- Sport cars obviously lol. I would think a BMW M3 E46 Convertable for daily driver and Volkswagen Golf R to take Hotaru to school while still looking cool lol

Hotaru- Haruka's Golf but Michiru would get her a Toyota Yaris to start but if she doesn't want it, then she's going to get her own car lol.

Setsuna- Anything that runs and drives lol

I love this question! 🌞🚙 (Though I warn I'm not a knowledgeable car person and most of this is based on aesthetics. Also, I'm adding to, not disagreeing with your choices. I like the Yaris!)

Usagi - I agree on the newer Beetle Bug. She needs an automatic, it would be pale yellow with cute glitter decals on the windows and a pink license plate frame. I'd even say she has a pink fuzzy steering wheel cover and some kind of cute pink seat covers. There would be a little crystal hanging from the rearview mirror.

Rei - I feel like I'm being mean to her, but Rei has a faded 1977 Red Gremlin hatchback with the white stripes. It runs (and not much else). And she can shove a dozen people into the hatchback if she really tries. She's no frills with this and also refusing to take anything from her father even though he could have/maybe offered her a nicer vehicle.

Ami - this one was harder. I actually see her on a scooter with a cute little basket on the front. Pale blue with white details and a matching helmet. But, if she were to get a car, it would be a Smart Car. Same pale blue with white details and a little black cat decal on the back window. She's getting her transportation to take her from point A to point B without really thinking of passengers. If it's more than just her going anywhere, the other person is driving. Or alternately, a dark blue Prius.

Makoto - my girl has a small, budget-friendly pick-up truck. Specifically, a Chevy LUV (manufactured by Isuzu). Fading baby blue with a rust spot on the hood and a pink plastic flower hanging from the rearview mirror. She keeps an old wooden crate in the bed to throw stuff in and has a flowered license plate frame. Alternately, she gets a classic Bronco. There's still a wooden crate in the back.

Minako - my party girl gets a party vehicle. A bright sunny yellow VW Bus with polished chrome. It's a bitch to park in Tokyo but she loves it. It has a hippie stoner look but only because Minako loves the aesthetic of all the rainbows and colors and peace sign stickers. There's a blue bird figure glued to the dashboard and she pats its head every time she gets in. Fuzzy dice! Artemis has his very own customized cat seat slung over the front bench (it can be relocated if he wants to get in the back to get away from the commotion of the entire crew on a road trip). She has a custom license plate - SAYLAV

Haruka - like you said, definitely sport cars. And more than one because she married really well. 😁 I definitely see her going with mostly modern cars, like day one off the assembly line. There's a Porsche involved. But there has to be a classic 1965 Shelby Mustang in there somewhere. White with a dark blue racing stripe. She would not besmirch her car with decals. LOL

Michiru - she's going for classy and high end. I had to look some of these up because I'm not familiar with high end 😅, but I could see her in something like a Lexus LFA as her everyday driver. But I'm also giving her a high end modern Jeep for fun, like when they go on trips to the mountains. It is teal. Because she is girly.

Setsuna - she's going for basic use and reliability. Cadillac XTS in dark burgundy.

Hotaru - she'll inherit Michiru's Jeep and have it repainted purple. 😎

#sailor moon #the girls and their rides #sailor mars #sailor mercury #sailor jupiter #sailor venus #sailor uranus #sailor neptune #sailor pluto #sailor saturn

[melodythebunny]

New neighbors Au - Wordgirl x Welcome home chapter 1

"Today was pretty okay."

"Speak for yourself, art class was a pain! Everyone else was making wonderful art pieces, meanwhile I couldn't even draw lines or scribble."

Becky and Chase were walking home from school with bob. Becky was a bit miffed about an upcoming art project. Chase and Bob looked at her with sympathy. Art had always been one of her weak spots.

"I don't know what I should do for the next art project. That's going to be 30 percent of my grade for that class." She continued, frowning. She usually asked her friend Violet for help since she was the best at it. But Violet had been out sick this week. She didn't want to bug her friend while she was feeling unwell.

"If it was an essay I'm sure you would have no problem writing it." Chase said. Bob chirped in agreement. The lexiconian sighed. Words were the easiest thing for her. It didn't matter the language, she could easily say the words definition and origins. She was also a very punctual writer. "Yeah. But I'm also a bit glad I have three weeks before it's due." She had asked the teacher for extra time to work on the project. The teacher knowing how she struggled in the class gave her the extension.

As they continued walking something caught Chase's eye. He paused. "Hey. Look." He gestured towards a rather old looking building. The sign upfront said 'antiques and more!' "we could probably look in here for some inspiration" he suggested. Becky and Bob stopped walking to see what he was talking about. It was across the street.

"Yeah we could try that." Becky said with a nod. They waited until the road was clear before crossing. Opening the door to the shop, they heard a small 'ding!' as they entered.

"Whoa…"

Inside was Impossibly small, with a cramped aisle with the shelves packed high with random trinkets, books and the like. The air smelled faintly like mint. The dim lighting from the dust covered windows added to the cluttered feel.. But despite that, it felt also cozy…nostalgic even.

Something caught the siblings' attention. They moved closer to see it.

It was a four story dollhouse. The outside walls were pastel pink, resting on a green fuzzy mat. A miniature blue and red car parked outside of it. Inside the house was a kitchen, living room, bath room, a bedroom with three beds and a hallway that led upstairs. The upstairs was a big black room, the story above that one seemed to be a white room. Then an attic where a lone piano sat. There were three figurines that sat in the kitchen. A yellow looking one, a red yarn looking one and a green duck.

"DON'T TOUCH THAT!"

Suddenly a hand came to close the dollhouse. Becky, Bob and Chase looked up in surprise. A middle aged woman looked at them sternly. Noticing them jump, her face softened.

"My apologies for frightening you three." the lady said. "But that house isn't for sale. It's rather precious to me."

Chase was the first one to recover. "It's okay, miss. We were just looking around."

She nodded. "Ah, I see then. Let me know if you guys find anything that catches your attention." Becky gave one last glance at the dollhouse before turning her attention to the nearby shelves. She found many old books. Blowing the dust off of them to get a better view of them. Bob and Chase also took to looking at the items on the shelves.

Looking through a box, Chase found an old VHS tape. The labeling was a bit worn but he could make out most of the texts and pictures. The tape was titled Welcome Home with a friendly yellow, blue haired puppet smiling warmly. He seemed to be in the middle of painting. Overall it seems to be some sort of old children's show.

'That's adorable,' Chase thought. 'Blu would like this.' he then saw a rather new looking teddy bear. He knew she wanted another one since her last one got shredded by squeaky. Checking the prices he realizes he only had enough for one thing. He reached for the teddy bear.

A few moments later, the three walked out with some books and the VHS tape.

@blueweirdness @dualnaturedscientist @liloskull343 @lartmacabre @ninjastormhawkkat

#my fanfic #my writing #wordgirl au #next gen au #wordgirl next gen #Crossover #bob/captain huggy face #becky boxleitner au #Chase #Blu #Squeaky #violet heaslip #welcome home #welcome home wally darling #Tagging bc they're mentioned or referenced #Speaking of refs #I hid one #New neighbors au #wordgirl #wordgirl oc

[tlblitzle]

So I ultimately decided Tix was right that I was charging ahead too fast (we had a nice chat about it and a bunch of other stuff last night when I stopped by at @koffing-time, and I have a much greater respect for Striaton Gym now. Sorry, Olivia!), so today was a break day! I decided I’d try and end the day back home in Nimbasa if I could, but the when and how weren’t so important. And seeing as yesterday’s break was mostly for me (sleeping in, Nacrene Museum, and having some excellent cafe treats), today was for the team! And HOO BOY do I have pics and video to share. First up, Ozone had so much fun running the Skyarrow yesterday that I just HAD to give him another go at it and run him through some drills

[A video taken on Skyarrow Bridge. Ozone is in a ready stance off in the distance, the camera trained on him. Storm, off-camera, waits for a beat before whistling and calling out for him. The Zebstrika is off in an instant, barreling down the bridge towards the trainer. Within moments, he’s flying past the camera, hooffalls slowing as Storm brings it around to catch Ozone turning around and plodding back to receive a couple poffins pulled from a baggie. After a few pats on the face and a “good boy~” the video ends]

We also did some more riding practice on the way back to Castelia, where Lux got to play at the docks again. Didn’t film that seeing as I just got footage of him at the docks a couple days ago, but that did let me play some games with him! It’s much more enriching and safe if I’ve got an activity planned to hold his focus, after all. I did, however, take the time to meet up with a few of Burgh’s gym trainers. Bugs aren’t my forte and I wanted some advice, so we talked about that over lunch and Beanie got to play with some Pokémon more her size

[A pair of pictures, both in Castelia. The first is a selfie with Storm and a few other people, all still done up as clowns, in an outdoor eating area. Presumably this is the gym trainers’ lunch break, based on the position of the sun. Storm, meanwhile, has dressed as not to be totally outdone. He’s done his makeup in bright colors today, with a pink/yellow/blue motif and nails to match. Her earring choice for the day is a pair of dangly lightning bolts, which stand out nicely against his dark hair. The last of the outfit in frame is a bright blue scarf around his neck and a similarly bright floral (matching the color scheme no less) under a black leather jacket. The second picture is an assortment of very small bug types gathered in a backroom of the Castelia Gym, in the midst of playing. Beanie’s playmates include a Cutiefly, another Joltik, a couple Burmy, and the largest among them, a Dwebble and a Durant]

After that, I secured myself as best I could and made the trek back through route 4. I considered a detour over to the resort, but decided it wasn’t worth the effort, because I still had to give Nimbus and Dymie their attention back in Nimbasa (though I let them lead my battles along the way). And check it out!

[A picture of Dymie! Nimbus is underneath the Magneton, nuzzling against it as its eyes remain fixed on the camera. It isn’t aiming its magnets at the device, though, and appears to be tolerating the situation well enough. Nimbus, for her part, doesn’t seem to care about the camera in the slightest, entirely fixated on her wary teammate. She seems a tad floofier than usual, perhaps from rubbing against her fellow electric type. The setting itself appears to be Storm’s home]

This isn’t perfect progress or anything, I still can’t take pictures of Dymie solo, but I remembered I have something of a silver bullet. Nimbus is pretty good with soothing my team, and after giving it a little time to adjust to my place, the low-stimulation environment seemed to have helped Dymie a lot! I dunno what it is about Nimbus that’s so calming, but definitely feel it too when we cuddle. Speaking of! I’m just spending the rest of the day at home with the team, because we’ve all had a busy past couple days. Clay’s gym can be a worry for future Storm

#also I’ve missed my bed #pkmn irl #late‐blooming blueberry arc

[maquekenzie]

DND Questionnaire

art by @kiikiibee

GENERAL

Name: Princess Loeva of the Vermillion Halidom

Alias(es): Baby Peony (by her mother), My Peacock Spider (by her boyfriend)

Gender: Female

Age: 15

Place of birth: Cinnabar in the Vermillion Halidom

Spoken languages: Yura, Prism, Savannah, Sol (Sorry Grandpa Phaedra wanted someone to learn Elder!!), Elder

Sexual orientation: Pansexual

Occupation: Princess, Cryptid Guardian, Ward

Class: Thaumaturge!

Ancestry: Savannah (Whisper) Elf

APPEARANCE

Eye color: Gold! She got her father's eyes, which indicate lineage from the royal family of Sol

Hair color: Pink, like her mom's!

Height: 5′8"

Scars: None!

Burns: None!

Overweight: Nope!

Underweight: Nope!

FAVOURITE

Color: Yellow and blue!

Hair color: No preference but she thinks rainbow hair would be neat!

Eye color: Seafoam green............

Music genre: ALL OF THEM

Entertainment: Looking for bugs, reading about scary monsters, playing her biha & lute, dancing

Pastime:  Playing her instruments at the temple, taking care of the horses in the Agria stables

Food: Strawberry cakes, ramen, unagi onigiri, fesenjen

Drink: Strawberry milk, mango juice

Books: Anything folklore/myth related

HAVE THEY

Passed university: She definitely would not have if it existed.

Had sex: Nope

Had sex in public: Double nope

Kissed a man: Yes!

Kissed a woman: Yes!

Gotten tattoos: Nope

Gotten piercings: Her ears are pierced in a few place!

Had a broken heart: Yes!

Been in love: Yes!

Stayed up for more than 24 hours: Probably once on accident much to her mother's dismay

ARE THEY

A cuddler: Absolutely

A kisser: ALSO Absolutely (the other day in character she said "SMOOCHES POWER ME!")

A smoker: Nope!

Scared easily: The opposite! She gets scared of things she shouldn't be scared of.

Jealous easily: Absolutely not.

Trustworthy: Yes, though you need to be very clear if something's a secret otherwise she's not apt to get it.

Dominant: She's very blissfully assertive and bossy, but also easy to dissuade.

Submissive: Nope.

Single: Nope! She's being courted by Lord Tarquin of the Topaz House.

RANDOM QUESTIONS

Have they harmed themselves: On accident a few times.

Wanted to kill someone: I wouldn't say explicitly? But it's Pathfinder/D&D so fights happen and she works to stay alive and keep her friends/loved ones alive.

Actually killed someone: Yeah, people trying to kill her.

Ridden a horse: REGULARLY, SHE OWNS ONE, his name is BINDLETWIX THE BOLD.

Have/had a job: Does doing activities in the township she's a ward in so she gets paid an allowance for enriching herself count???

Have any fears: 1) Grammaw being mad or disappointed at her. 2) Biting into something and finding out it's rotten. 3) Encountering the Council of Snails and having Darwin sadly inform her that they and the horses have all agreed they hate her forever.

FAMILY

Sibling(s): Princess Solenne the Summoner of Eidolon Luxia-Kan the Bright Fox and Prince Faras the Royal Ranger, both older

Parents: Princess Tifenn the Summoner of Eidolon Qi'ka The Rise of Spring, and Prince Karim of Sol Nephew of the Sun King

Children: None!

Grandparents: Lady Vermillion and reigning Monarch of the Vermillion Halidom Fiona (aka Grammaw, the scary one), Prince Set of Sol Brother of the Sun King (Grandpa, the fun one), Princess Zara of Sol (Grandma, the nice one)

Aunts/Uncles: Auntie Princess Maëlys Heir to the Vermillion Throne and her husband Uncle Cyril de Leon the Future Red Warden. Uncle Prince Masuud of Sol and his wife Aunt Phoebe de Corvo. Uncle Qadir of Sol.

Cousins: Prince Cayden of the Amber Phalanx, his wife Lady Laurentia of the Diamond House, Prince Darwin of the Royal Rangers, Princess Linnea Heir to the Vermillion Throne, and Princess Pheadra her fellow Ward and chosen one despite her desires!! Cousin Prince Bast of Sol.

Pets: Familiar, technically: Prince Darwin Brach'an Edemomious of House Watercress (Prince Darwin for Short Don't Mind That's her Cousin's Name TOo), a giant land snail. She also has a horse, as noted, named Bindletwix the Bold.

Tag someone:

@kiikiibee YOU KNOW I'M TAGGING YOU, C'MOOOON PHAEDRA

#pf2 #pathfinder #loeva #thaumaturge

[lazywriter-artist]

Guess what lovelies!? Jojo oc time!!

Meet jojo! (Jonas 'jewel wasp' Joyce!)

Is it pretentious of me to make a jojo? Maybe. But a friend suggested the name jonas and I fell in love with the idea lol

He has a bug motif :)

Jonas is a stand user with his stand [Body Snatchers]

Who doesn't quite realize what a Jostar is, is it some strange kind of candy??? Jonas is pretty oblivious to his Jostar blood, sadly outside forces aren't. He is rather confused when it comes to people's obsession with his birth mark and is very shocked to learn people share the mark!

When it comes to time period Jonas falls some time between part 4 and 5, he has gone to visit his uncle who lives in morioh town after all! His mom had sent him after learning that there were a lot of strange happenings going on and she wanted to make sure jonas' uncle wasn't hurt or hurting others, though since she was too sickly and needed to stay home to take care of things she sent jonas, who was happy to get out of the town!

Jonas comes from one of the numerous small communities of stand users that little his home lands, it's something common place in american stand culture. They come together to form sorts of little traveling groups of users, some luck out and have their own little towns/homesteads while some are more nomadic across the states. Jonas's 'family' was lucky to have a homestead. (These stand colonies/Families are quite the fascination for The Speedwagon foundation and are often found offering busts or general welfare checks on the groups)

While in Morioh, he stumbles across these fellows with strange hair and a silly talking toddler, only to find- gasp- they share birth marks!? From there josuke naturally does what any good uncle does and drags this stranger to his older nephew, Jotaro kujo, like a cat with a dead bird, thus shenanigans insue and Jonas probably accompanies Koichi to italy ect, ect.

But wait!? How is jonas a jostar? Guess you'll have to wait until next time(have another oc who's backstory directly answers this question-)B) but I will say this that it may or may not have to do with a very silly 22 yr old Joseph with his wandering eyes 👀

More art time >:D

Also fun fact, body snatchers help Jonas take control of another person's body as the subject body snatcher (Reddish pink) burrows or worms it's way onto the subjects body as the user's body snatcher (yellow green-) takes residence in Jonas (this is why he is blind in his left eye aka the tattooed eye as the eye is one of the harder places to remove the stand from. The stand will do it's best to find a preexisting entryway in the terms of an open wound or some sort of bodily opening to enter, but they sill not hesitate to worm their way in by force (hence subject's bodysnatcher having them bug c laws). Silly worms

Also yeah jonas likes bugs :). Think him and Toyohiro would be buddies and talk abt bugs tbh-

Silly bug guys- he is definitely friends with mikitaka, he loves the silly alien fella and asks a million questions always! He never met a really alien before! So many things to learn 👁👁.

#slight gore/body horror warning w/ bugs #jjba #jjba oc #jjba Jonas Joyce #teehee this was really self indulgent if u wouldn't tell- next post will be another jojo bc i have a problem-

[mingi-bubu]

We (Don’t) Waste Time

Happy Mingi Day!!!  I had to write something for my ult, something for him better than I had written before.  If you’re familiar with my other writings, you’re probably used to the mostly prose not so much dialogue style I use so often.  The title is from Cai Xukun’s 《It’s You》.  And if you follow me, you can probably spot the inside jokes I’ve put in just for this <3

friends-to-lovers, non-idol!au, mentions of Mark Lee and Kim Taehyung, author definitely wants to live in a city apartment with a balcony and It Shows, author also loves commas and long dependent clauses bc author is a history major

The sounds of the city float up from below, honking and wheels against the road and the occasional poor set of brakes bouncing off the surrounding buildings.  The blues, pinks, and reds of neon signs for restaurants and shops contrasting with the warm yellows of the streetlamps, the bright whites of the on-building billboards, and the buildings themselves casting odd shadows on each other.  The night sky was clear, but with all the light pollution nothing could be made out besides the occasional blinking lights from a plane.  The distance from the balcony to the road was close enough to make out the the writing on most restaurant signs and see the whites from the phones from the people below but far enough that you were just a silhouette to them from above. Despite the late hour, the city was awake and alive, vibrant in its colors and sounds.

The wind from being so high wound around you, bringing a shiver as it seeped through the fabric of your pajamas.  The rail of your balcony under your arms was cold as well, not quite ice-cold but the sharp bite that only metal can have; you couldn’t bring yourself to care.  From where you were leaning against it, you could see the whole of downtown.  You brushed away some hair that had blown into your eyes and let out a sigh.  You had been standing here for some time, lost in thought, in contemplation, while your best friend was inside making some late-night snacks for the two of you.

You startle at the sound of plates being set down on the small table that decorated the balcony.  You hadn’t bothered to close the sliding glass doors, too high up for bugs to care about and the glass panes that walled in the balcony didn’t have enough of a gap for your cat to somehow escape.  Though if she ever left her little dumpling shaped bed to come outside, you would be shocked.  Looking away from the nightlife, you see Mingi setting down several small bowls between the two small plates. Inside of the bowls were different fruits: halved strawberries, cubes of watermelon, grapes, and apple slices.  Left on the tray he was holding were two glasses of water, two empty teacups, and a small teapot.  You knew from experience that it held enough for two.  He turns briefly back to the glass doors, propping the tray against them for when it was time to bring the dishes back in later, and sits down.  You join him quickly.

“Thanks, Min,” you say quietly, giving him a grateful smile.  A few days now you’ve been out of sorts after you came to a realization and Mingi had finally corralled you into telling him what was wrong tonight.  You’d postponed it as much as possible, knowing your best friend would have some strong opinions once you revealed what you’ve realized.

You two sit in silence for a few more minutes.  He knows not to push you now that he’s gotten you to agree to tell him what’s been on your mind.  You put another grape in your mouth, enjoying the brief initial crunch of the fruit before it gave way to the sweetness of the juice.

Mingi has been in your life since your first day of high school, both of you sharing the same teacher who gave the classic ice breaker, “What’s your favorite animal?”  The two of you were not the only two in the class who said cats, but you were the only ones in the small group of six to really narrow it down to the fat cats, finding them very cute.  It turned out that you were in a few other classes, too, and shared the same lunch period, so it was only natural that you developed a friendship. Sure, the two of you had other friends throughout high school, but no one else really came as close to you as each other.

You two even ended up going to the same university, though to be fair, so did several of your friends as well.  And despite how busy uni was, and all the freedoms it afforded you, you and Mingi didn’t grow apart.  He was your constant, even when you had to split up due to your different majors.  It helped, again, that you had several friends in common and thus weekly gatherings happened at someone’s dorm and eventually someone’s apartment.  Over eight years and you’ve never doubted his loyalty towards you nor yours toward him.

He rested his hand over yours, gently taking your fingers away from your lips where you had been absentmindedly picking at your lips while lost in reminiscing.   Reflexively you lick your lips and sheepishly smile, barely missing how Mingi’s eyes flick down to your lips before looking back to your eyes.

“What did you want to tell me, YN?”  Mingi’s voice is gentle and you can feel the heat of his hand on yours.

“I,” you pause, your throat suddenly dry.  You take a sip of water and Mingi starts rubbing the back of your hand with his thumb, comforting you.  You take a deep breath and start again, telling him what’s been on your mind these past few days.

“I figured it out,” you say abruptly.  “I’m just not the kind of person that people fall in love with.” Your confession hangs in the air between you, but unexpectedly you don't feel the sense of relief that you had thought would accompany saying it outloud.  You look away from Mingi, readying yourself for the inevitable “You need to have more confidence in yourself” speech you’re sure he was gearing up for.

And it’s not as if you’re lacking in self-confidence, you think.  It’s just hard to believe that someone could find you romantically interesting when you’re just.  Cute.  Like a baby duckling or pastel phone cases.  Someone that people want to hang out with but not date.  And you’ve slowly come to terms with it.   Besides, it’s not as if you’ve ever really had any serious romantic thoughts about anyone but Song Mingi.  Ah, sure, you’ve had your crushes here and there, but nothing real. Nothing had... No one had ever measured up to him.

“Mark Lee.”  You look at Mingi, confusion painted over your face as surely as the strawberry juice was staining your fingertips pink.  His voice was low, quiet to match the atmosphere you’ve created.  “He liked you.  A lot.”

You smile in disbelief, scoffing slightly.  “Mark Lee?  The guy from high school trig who forgot the six most used formulas so often I had to write it on a note card for him Mark Lee?”  He was nice, you recall, and always eager to help. He reminded you of a puppy, big eyes and always cheerful.

“He asked you out.”  Mingi’s face was carefully neutral as he said this, his eyes darting around your face to gauge your reaction.

“What?  When?”  You’re sure you would’ve remembered someone asking you out. Especially seeing as he would’ve been the first to do so.

“He asked you to get ice cream with him remember?  And then you made it into a group thing.  Me, Wooyoung, and that upperclassman from drama club Seokmin.  Mark ended up bringing some of his friends, too, to even it out.”

“That was supposed to be a date?”  You ask, shocked.  “I didn’t know that!”

“Evidently,” Mingi says, a small smile playing at the corner of his lips.

You pout at Mingi’s light teasing.  “Well, he shouldn’t have asked me with you and Wooyoung near me.  He should’ve known that Wooyoung is always down for food and that I would invite you along with us.”  You roll your eyes.  You haven’t kept in close contact with the Canadian boy, but every so often one of you would check up on the other, a strictly platonic situation between the two of you.

Mingi’s eyes were bright with the laughter that he was suppressing.  “Ah, I guess that’s fair.”  He pauses for a moment, thinking, and then says, “Your philosophy of ethics T.A.”

“No.”  You say almost as soon as the words leave his mouth, not even willing to consider it.  “Not possible.  Tae did not like me like that.”

Mingi rolled his eyes and shoots back, “I’m pretty sure you had Kim “Call Me Tae” Taehyung questioning his ethics by the end of the semester.”

“He was a grad student then.  There’s no way he was interested in someone getting their bachelor’s.”  You, of course, also remember Taehyung.  He was friendly and polite and dressed very well.  He also knew how to explain teleological ethics to a group of undergrads who were very much interested in the hedonistic way of life rather than the epicureic.   And, sure, the two of you actually became friends... and had standing coffee shop discussions after class, but that didn’t mean that he-

“Seriously?” Mingi’s voice cuts through your train of thought and you realize that you had said all of that out loud.  “You’re so naïve sometimes; I can’t believe I love you so much when you do things like this.”  Mingi mumbles, exasperated with your lack of awareness, looking down at his jeans where he had been messing with a few loose threads from a rip.  He obviously didn’t think you would hear his confession but your gasp makes his head snap up, and suddenly he looks like a wild animal that’s been cornered with no way to escape.  His eyes dart around, looking for an exit. An exit which you were not prepared to give him.

Silence falls again between you, though much more tense than before; the ambient noises of cars honking and faint laughter and conversations rise up from below.  You watch him carefully and see his Adam’s apple bob up and down as he swallows nervously.

“What,” your voice cracks, barely getting through the whole word with your breath coming unevenly.  You could feel your heart racing, a staccato beat you wouldn’t be able to reproduce with your pen bouncing off of your notes tomorrow.

You hope you heard right

No, you know you did.

Over the years, you’ve gotten good at deciphering mumbly Mingi, as he was a frequent guest whenever you were studying for tests or researching for presentations.

With a start, you realize his hand is still over yours, the heat of his skin combating well against the cold night wind.  Your sudden jerk snaps him out of whatever fearful trance he was in and he starts to take his hand away from yours.  You weren’t having that.  You were not going to have the man you love literally at your fingertips and let him go.  You flip your hand over and grab onto his wrist before he can pull away completely.

With your fingers feeling like they’re burning from adrenaline, you tug on his arm, tilting your head until you meet his eyes.  The dark brown you normally find comfort in is filled with wariness.  You could feel his hand tremble slightly and the weight of the moment hits you with such a force you could almost feel dizzy.   Whatever you said or did next would make or break the nearly nine-and-a-half-year relationship you’ve had with him.

Licking your lips due to nerves, you pull his hand towards you slightly, just enough to cradle his in both of yours.  You look down at his hand where it’s cradled in yours for a moment, tracing the lines of his palm and the veins of his wrist with your eyes to remind yourself that you don’t need to be scared.  You already heard him confess. It’s your turn now.

It was a testament to how much Mingi trusted you that, despite his inner turmoil, he still sat next to you and let you touch him.  You cover his hand with both of yours and look up again.

“Is that why you remember them, Min? Because you were jealous?”  Inhale.  “Because you love me, too?”  Exhale, if shakily.

You can see the change in his eyes when what you say clicks.  “Too?”  He asks, voice as shaky as yours was.

“You’re so naïve sometimes; I can’t believe I love you so much when you do things like this,” you parrot back to him, a grin breaking out across your face and you, too helpless to stop it.  “Mingi, I’ve liked you pretty much the entire time I’ve known you.”

His eyes shine in the light around you and you’re sure your eyes are just the same as you both try to not cry from relief.  The heaviness, the burden that you had felt at the beginning of the night, had finally disappeared.  Both of you just stare at each other with dopey grins, truly letting it sink in that the person each other loved, the one they thought unattainable, loved them back.  Full of happiness, you bring Mingi’s hand to your lips, leaving a soft kiss on his knuckles like he was royalty.  And you decide, after he flushes a beautiful pink, you’re probably definitely going to do it again.

Mingi’s other hand comes up, pushing some fallen strands of hair from out of your face, before gently cupping your face, his warm hand feeling like a branding iron against the wind-bitten cold of your cheek.  The both of you lean forward, like raindrops combining on a window, and he traces his thumb along your bottom lip.

Can I kiss you, the unspoken question.

You nod ever so slightly and press your lips to his.

Yes.  Always.  Forever.  The unspoken reply.

#mingi scenarios #ateez scenarios #happy mingi day #hbd bb! #we (don't) waste time #jae.works

[auniverseforgotten]

13 16 21 for the pokemon ask game!

o boy here we go

13. favorite antagonist team

This one is hard because I enjoy a lot of them for different reasons. Like I love that Team Rocket is just straight up the mob, they are definitely a legitimate Threat, but then like I also love Team Skull because they are TEAM SKULL.

But for a favorite...well, Team Aqua and Team Magma are tied. I enjoy the fact that they are both just so dumb??? They want to improve the world for Pokemon but they somehow never took an earth science course (even though Maxie ABSOLUTELY has) and thus don't know that expanding the land or the ocean has Serious Consequences for everyone. Like I enjoy that the ideas/goal aren't fundamentally evil, but they are so misguided that they fall to doing evil things to accomplish their goals. And they are just...so, so stupid, I love them.

BUT to avoid a tie, I'll say my fave is Team Magma, solely because, going by the ORAS redesigns, I love that these idiots wear sweaters in a volcano.

16. least favorite shiny pokemon

Honestly I have SO MANY. I love a lot of shinies but just as many are...so bad. But the reason why this one is hard isn't because of like, degree of ugliness of colors as much as it is that my least favorite shinies are the most disappointing ones. With that in mind, my least favorite shiny is Leafeon, because we could have had AUTUMN COLORED LEAFEON and instead we got Slightly Darker Leafeon.

I am gonna give a couple runner-ups. Kecleon, because Pokemon Mystery Dungeon had the Kecleon Brothers and I think the shiny should have been purple and green like the brother instead of slightly different yellow markings and blue stripe instead of red.

And my other runner-up, Dragonite, and this one IS because I dislike the colors because we go from lovely pink and gold to very questionable purple and green. And purple and green is a color combo I do enjoy together, but...not these shades.

21. favorite legendary/mythical pokemon

I am bullied, BULLIED I SAY. Now I AM going to cheat and list a legendary and mythical Pokemon because they are two separate categories.

So, legendary. This one is very hard because I love two legendary Pokemon very much, but I am going to go with Suicune. Aside from a whole lotta love for the Johto games fueling this choice, I also adore Suicune's design? The color palette is one I enjoy, I like the ribbons and the mane, I am heavily biased towards water types, and as a kid I definitely wanted to ride on it like a horse. It also plays an important role in the fourth Pokemon movie, which is one I remember very fondly.

The runner-up here, if anyone cares to know, is Articuno, the OG Kanto version. Love me an ice birb and that TAIL.

And Mythical is even harder because I have many emotions about many of them and I love so many. Manaphy especially has a place in my heart because of how desperately I wanted one and how IMPOSSIBLE it was for me until they were rereleased, I even tried the Pokemon Ranger thing and it didn't work lol.

But one of my two fave mythic Pokemon is Jirachi. I cant really explain why; is it the zero thoughts looking face? The eye on the stomach, because I love me some eyes where they don't belong? Or is it the wish-granting mechanic? Who knows, certainly not me.

Also I am calling this one a TIE because I ADORE Celebi. Teeny bug with the power of time, what will it do. Yes I know Celebi is Psychic/Grass but it is bug in my heart. I love the design and the colors, grass Pokemon being another weakness, but once again I also have built emotions based on other Pokemon media. The fourth Pokemon movie is Celebi-centric and amazing, ESPECIALLY THE HEARTBREAK OF THAT SCENE, but in Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Explorers of Time, Darkness, and Sky, she was also a very important character.

Thanks so much for the ask, this was a ton of fun!! :D Feel free to send more in if you like!

The ask meme: Clicky

#pokemon #ask meme #sinisterlutist #THANKS CY

[realthoughtsreal]

Big realizations

Warning: some slightly maybe inapproprite language? Definitely some feels about gender

As I become more familiar with my asexuality, and the label that fits the most, I feel like I might be on the cusp of another huge realization.

Since I was young, I never fit exactly into anyone’s box of a what a girl was supposed to be; I played with cars and dolls, anything I could find, I hated dresses and the colors yellow and pink but wore them often because either they were the only options or I was forced to, I liked to get dirty and play rough, I wasn’t scared of most bugs like girls are usually expected to be, I was too “nerdy” to be perceived as a girl (bullshit in my opinion), I never fit in with the girl groups at school and got along with the boys better, I had more real male friends than female friends, I didn’t cry when I got hurt and instead laughed (partially because I really didn’t feel the pain, the other part of me didn’t cry even when I felt real pain because I didn’t want to be perceived as “weak” or in other words, “girly”), etcetera. I didn’t feel particularly bothered by being called a girl back then, before puberty; back then everyone looked the same, everyone was flat, and there were no outer characteristics that separated us. I think I didn’t really understand back then what it meant that I was classified as a girl. My boobs showed up earlier than everybody else’s, and I was immediately embarrassed. I didn’t like them. They were a nuisance, felt weird, and were a sudden weight on my back I never asked for. Since they appeared, I’ve dreamed of getting them off of me. Then my legs got hairy and I was immediately given a razor by my mom and was pressured into shaving, because otherwise I’d look like a boy. I wasn’t even 12. I liked my hairy legs and mom made me feel bad about it, like I was weird. I didn’t understand what was the problem.

When I was in high school the feeling of “wrong” just increased. There were off days when I didn’t mind looking so femenine, but other days I hated my woman looking body, and even wondered for a short while if I was trans or just wanted to look more like a boy; flat. I even asked my best friend at the time if she’d mind it if I wore boy clothes only.

The feeling of “wrong” of course was associated to me feeling like I looked fat compared to the other girls (I was not fat, the other girls were just too thin and stick like while my body is more the classic “latina” shape). Either way, I felt horrible about my body, I liked nothing about myself. I hated my big breasts which other girls were jealous of and my big hips. I hated looking at my reflection and taking photos. I hated wearing bras with all my heart and wore as many as 3 sport bras to try to control the assets. It was a very hard time for me.

Yet I distinctly remember never being bothered when I was called a “boy” or too “masculine” as an insult by others. In fact, a part of me felt proud of that and.. validated. Happy. Even though I was also aware that other girls would probably be offended by that, as it was meant to be an insult. On the other hand, sometimes I was deeply disturbed by being called a “girl” or “miss” or “young woman”, though it might have been because of the person who said it at the time. Body hair never bothered me, even though other girls pointed it out often and tried to make me feel bad about it, for being too hairy like a boy, I never understood what was the deal with them. I didn’t mind being hairy at all! It wasn’t like they were bald either, they just shaved! I didn’t understand what the problem was.

I spent 90% of high school feeling like this. For most of my senior year, I fell into a sort of middle point; sometimes I actually enjoyed wearing girly clothing and skorts and being perceived as more girl-like, other times I just wanted to be as flat as possible wear jeans and loose shirts and flaunt my broad shoulders.

I never thought much about it and I thought it was pretty normal for big boobs girls to feel like this (I was as clueless as I was with my asexuality, thinking I was the normal one). But recently I’ve started to think back on it and actively analyze my behavior everyday; I long to get a size reduction surgery, so that I can at least wear a binder and make it work efficiently, there are days when I actually feel okay with my chest and might even enjoy them and wear dresses and tight low cut shirts and wear pink makeup, most days I want to be perceived as androgynous and I long for people not to be able to tell immediately how I identify when they look at me, other days I’d do anything to swap my female body for a male one and wear loose dress shirts, pants and ties and get a mullet haircut.

When I attempted to date like an allocishet, I had a lot of issues not only with the physical aspect of it (as I’m asexual), but also I was bothered by being called his girlfriend. I thought at the time that it was because maybe I didn’t like him enough (which, fair enough, I didn’t, but still), but even now when I picture being someone’s special other, I don’t think of myself as their “girlfriend”. I think of myself as my potential partner’s well, partner, or lover. I don’t like being called girlfriend. Now that I’m trying to understand myself better, I think it’s more than just not liking someone enough. I don’t think I’m generally comfortable with feminine tags.

The particularly “feminine” days are very few and far between. Most of the time, I’m somewhere in between and just want to look as androgynous and flat as possible with my unfortunate size. Sometimes I wish for shorter hair, a cool mullet haircut but feel like I couldn’t pull it off because I look too feminine and my chest is too big and it’d just not work with my proportions.

I’ve always been more attracted to androgynous and nonbinary people and have always fantasized with sharing closets (it’s only now that I’m starting to realize that may not be as cishet way of thinking as I thought it was), particularly more feminine looking guys. My mother always teased me because I liked Ryan from High School Musical and not Troy, she said he was obviously gay, too feminine and well groomed. I was like??? The fuck you talking about?? And why is that a problem???? Looking back, it’s now obvious what my type has always been.

I started to think back again today because of some things that happened; I went to buy a hellfire shirt because I was gonna be dressing up as Eddie Munson for an event (haha yeah, not very cis of me either) and when one of the girls working there asked me whether I wanted the boy size or the girl size I immediately felt very happy that she asked and even happier when she had absolutely no reaction to me going for the boy one other than kindness and being helpful. But the good mood didn’t last long.

A random dude called me “queen” on the street. I was immediately disturbed and disappointed, disturbed by the rando and disappointed by the term, by the knowledge that even though I was dressed as Eddie (a dude) I was still perceived as a woman . Some hours later I went back with my aunt to the same shop where I got the hellfire shirt, because I thought I’d check out some of the other clothes because they had cool dresses (even though a part of me already left like I didn’t want to wear dresses today, though I knew I might at some point in the future). As soon as I put them on I felt horrible, too feminine, too busty looking, too big chested, too curvy, too “woman”. I walked out of the dressing room disgusted and no longer felt as confident in my Eddie outfit when reminded of my woman body. My aunt noticed I was disturbed and somehow the conversation shifted into my want for surgery, which I had already commented to her. She started to say that ‘oh no but you shouldn’t be so rash, and men like them anyway, and you should try other cuts and sizes of shirts, it’s all about the collar type, etc etc and you’re beautiul, you look okay’ she went on and on no matter how much I tried to get her to stop and understand that ‘NO. It’s not about the cut of the shirts! I just DON’T like them! I don’t feel comfortable with them!’ And she still went on about how ‘oh but so many girls would want your assets and hate being flat and you’re wasting yours’ and shit, I didn’t reply to that but I was pissed. I was like ‘so just because others want them I’m obligated to keep them?! Out of some completely misplaced sense of duty?! What the hell?!

I immediately became quiet and closed off and barely spoke for the rest of the trip home. At some point she must have noticed she stepped on a line, because she patted my knee and said ‘it’s your decision anyways. Come on, you can get ready asking a doctor at the blah blah office for an appointment so you can get the necessary info and stuff, and start saving up for it’. Still, by that point I was already so deep in my mind, just pretending to be sleepy because I was trying so hard to hold my tears in.

It’s the first time I’ve been so deeply bothered by female tags and the assets that it’s almost brought me to tears. I immediately started to wonder seriously if I’m genderfluid or nonbinary. I hadn’t realized just how much it bothered me to be referred to in such a way. Sometimes I just long desperately for a completely male body, others I wished I looked more androgynous or had been born hermaprodite. Very very few times I’m okay with my female body.

I’ve never told anyone any of this. I’ve always been perceived as the tomboy that doesn’t know how to dress like a woman. I thought that was it. It never occurred to think much of why or how it bothered me when people referred to me as a young woman, or girl, or miss, or why I was always disturbed when another aunt took me shopping and she immediately tried to get me more feminine looking clothes that she perceived as socially acceptable, tried to pressure me into trying and buying the more feminine clothes and always gifted me clothing.

I don’t think I’ll ever be able to come out fully to my family. Maybe a couple of my cousins are the only ones I’d ever tell; one who is a very witchy lgbt ally and the coolest person I know, the other a queer lesbian herself, and a gay funny dude.

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