#I wish I never existed

[endlessmidnights]

Is there a way to make it so I never existed?

#tw depressing thoughts #anxitey #mentally drained #sorry for being depressing #mental health #i hate me so much #depressing shit #tw depressing stuff #tw sui ideation #mental problems #let me go #i want to disappear #i don’t want to exist anymore #I wish I never existed #tw sucidal ideation #tw self destruction #tw selfhate #you’re on your own kid #why do i exist #let me disappear #you’re losing me #i wish i could disappear #can I not be here #i wanna die #i want to kms #i wish i was never born #can i die yet? #please end my suffering #mentally exhausted #very unstable

[theraven1648]

I wish I never existed. It'd be so much easier, so much better if I didn't ever exist. Nobody would have ever had to know me, be hurt by me, annoyed by me, bothered by me, burdened by me. I wouldn't want to die anymore because I would have never lived. It could be over. If my parents had just not had me as their daughter, if they had another daughter, a real daughter, a better daughter. I wouldn't feel the pain anymore, I would feel anything. That's what I want, I don't want to be aware or feeling. I want to be genuinely and literally nothing.

#awful truth #im alone #im not okay #when will the pain end #pain #im done #i want to die #im useless #im tired #im not fine #depression #anxiety #im an error #i want to disappear #i cant do this #i wish it could be over #i wish i never existed #just kill me #im sorry

[im-fuck3d-90]

I'm back to being sober!

On that note of being back in this horrible reality; it's really fucking sad that a grown ass disabled manperson feels the need to get drunk, alone, in their own fucking room just to get away from all the negativity that's coming from his allistic mother in the other room! And all of this started because I didn't want to start a fight even though I got triggered!

#tw alcohol mention #tw parent mention #actually autistic #I was good! #I didn't yell at her when she triggered me by not telling me what the next step was and- #destroying my progress on what I understood to be the goal! #And the second time she did that (which was about an hour later) I didn't have enough spoons for a fight and- #she had to do most of the work to finish the chore! #And she has the audacity to blame me for not knowing how to do it when I've asked her SEVERAL times to show me! #And she says “I told you to do it before!” #And I'm like “And I said Show me and then you didn't!” #You just fucked off to read and never gave me any sort of instruction! #I'm not a fucking mind reader! #vent in tags #I swear she's emotionally abusive and is purposely not teaching me life skills so- #that I have to be under her control the rest of my life #I bet she regrets me not being a miscarriage now! #Maybe she'll grow some goddamn compassion and be pro-choice now! #I wish I never existed

[stqrvingmery]

i wish i could just disappear

#i want to disappear #cottagecore #butterfly #i wish i never existed #mental health #mentally tired

[heavenssexiestangel]

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#i honestly don't understand why i'm even here tbh #and i don't want to be #i wish i never existed #what i want and what i need are the same exact thing and I'm not getting it #and no one understands it #and they octusely believe they're right and force their views on me #except i can't say what i really think because i'd automatically be the bad guy

[tummysmoocher]

Having this kink is so funny because You will have a crush on someone and think they are soooooo fucking hot and they will stand there and tell you that they are insecure about their body and you will have to do the equivalent of locking your brain in a straitjacket to formulate a response that sounds supportive and socially acceptable when the reality is that you would commit atrocities just to kiss their stomach ONCE. That, if given the opportunity, you would worship them like they were royalty. And you would do this in both a non-kinky way because you love them and think they are beautiful and wish that they could see themself the way you see them but also in the kinky way where it feels like there’s a feral dog inside of you that wants to sink it’s teeth into the softness of them and never let go. You have to stand there and think to yourself “you have no idea the things I would do to you. You have no idea just how desirable you are.” And it’s honestly unbearable !!!!!

#‘I need to lose weight :(‘ NO!!! YOU NEED TO LET ME MAKE SWEET SWEET LOVE TO YOU!!!! #babygirl I will Pavlov self love into you in ways you’ve never imagined #wg text #soft feedism #idk does this make sense. the overwhelming urge to grab someone and shake them and be like #‘the fact that you have no idea what you do to me just by existing is so upsetting. I wish you could see you from my eyes.’

[cozylittleartblog]

worst way to start my new year, thanks. i have a lot of things to say about these companies but i'm tired and just keeping it focused to the pin side of things for this one. do not ever buy pins from these companies, literally ALL of them are stolen from small artists like me. if you want to buy enamel pins, check out etsy, and artist's personal websites and shops! (though even Etsy has some bootleg pins that ship straight from china, so tread carefully…)

Every pin I've designed is, thus far, EXCLUSIVE to my etsy. if you find it anywhere else, it's been ripped off! and once these stupid bootlegs pop up, it's basically a never ending game of whack-a-mole trying to get them all taken down...

#psa #art theft #pin theft #aliexpress #shein #wish #temu #deltarune #the bootleg pin is just over an inch tall. do you know how BAD this design looks at that size?? i'd know. i tested it. #they didn't even use the black nickel of the pin for the black parts of the design. and the listing says copper for some reason. what. #some people never even get their designs taken down. its really sad #so i might just have to deal with bootleg queens out there forever :( i hope nobody confuses the ripoffs for the real thing.... #my pin is so much nicer! its almost two inches big and it has two posts on the back so it doesn't spin #because spinning pins are the bane of my existence #im out here working my ass off out of my bedroom in my parents place trying to make a living and here come these pricks #i watermarked all my listing photos exactly so they Couldn't steal my fucking pictures so at least there's that #my new years is just full of bad luck so far i hope this isn't a bad omen #if my registration isn't accepted by the aliexpress copyright department I'm SOL and this will just. stay up i guess #i'm sad #bootleggers kys

[imhereboo]

I am feeling too much

the emotions are vibrating inside me

I can’t breathe I think

The tears stream down my face

everything is too much

And then I start to laugh

I laugh and laugh

life is cruel I think

life is cruel

He tries to calm me

he sees me

tries to stop me

I can’t

I laugh and laugh

But she still screams on

And on and on

She hears me laughing

She mocks me and mocks me

I can’t breathe again

Life is vibrating in front of me

I’ve felt this before it’s as if life slows down

the movement of everything slows down

I am defeated

Life is cruel I think

why is life so cruel I think

#memory #i wish i never existed

[dykecherry]

(do not) love how femme has become aestheticized to the point where low-income folks that can’t support themselves financially develop imposter syndrome bc they’re unable to relate to everybody else posting about their expensive self care products/jewelry/clothing and how it’s intrinsically linked to their identity

#mine #remember that non feminine femmes exist #whether it be a result of personal choice or circumstances beyond their control #and before somebody gets on my case and says something like ‘people can have nice things’ i never implied the opposite #i simply wish that people would stop acting like the amount of bright shiny frilly pink things you own quantifies how femme you are #this is about lesbians btw

[theraven1648]

I have never found something that describes how I feel everyday as accurately as this

#im not okay #im alone #anxious #i need to get out #im done #im tired #i want to disappear #i want to dissolve #i cant do this #i wish i never existed #i wish it could be over #when will it stop #when will the pain end #i need help #regret #pain #misery #i am miserable #just kill me

[reallyhugeloser]

Oh my fucking GOD

I can't even comprehend how much I fucking HATE myself. Words fail me Jesus Christ.

It's not even that I want to die as much as it's that I wish I never even existed in the first fucking place.

#I hate myself so much #I wish I never existed

[pearlsdiamondsandvodka]

the sandra lynn / fig conversation is driving me Insane. fig saying that sometimes she doesn’t wanna exist as herself at all…not wanting to ask her friends how they see her (because she’s afraid to hear their response) saying that to someone she is a monster and she Cannot stop thinking about it. sandra lynn starting the conversation saying she needs to step up but is also simultaneously taken aback about what fig expresses and doesn’t know how to responds to it and suggests getting ice cream. sandra lynn saying “convincing people they deserve good things is really tough” talking about herself but how it also reflects fig. insane!!

#if that conversation had kept going I would have started bawling!! #fully believe brennan was like ‘well oh shit this is getting dark and heavy quick let’s uh get some snow cones’ #I will say I think Emily does a beautiful job here of showing teenage life #not a universal experience perhaps but definitely a common one #feeling so lost and insecure in who you are and under so much pressure to be a certain way #and her saying she doesn’t wanna exist #vs me resonating with ‘I don’t wanna die sometimes I wish I’d never been born at all’ lyrics #it was hard to watch ngl but it’s also bc Emily does Such a good job w emotional scenes!! #that woman is so emotionally invested you get emotional invested as well #if Emily axford cries I cry with her #and loved to see more of Sandra Lynn again <3 #damn good scene #dimension 20 #fantasy high #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high junior year #fig faeth #sandra lynn faeth #emily axford #brennan lee mulligan

[thekidsarentalright]

so fobcore to be up for two awards they deserve to win, lose both of them, not even show up to the awards show But dress up in silly outfits for their prerecorded performance. would expect nothing less from the band of all time tbh

#can i go on a more serious ramble in the tags #lets go for a more serious ramble in the tags #fob exist in such a weird space in the scene and pop culture like they are literally one of the most popular bands on earth #yet are constantly snubbed and not considered and not included and are always the underdogs in everything #they have influenced pop culture so much and yet are never recognized for it #and i think it’s a space theyre very comfortable being in like. they are loved and recognized by people who truly get them and mostly #ignored by those who dont and those who dont are. the majority of the music scene #but idk it’s just so interesting to me how they can be so popular and beloved and influential yet such underdogs all at once #and that is who they always have been and who they always will be but idk. sometimes i wish they got recognized a lot more #bc they deserve it. they might be happy occupying the space they do but. give them some fucking awards please JFKDNF #txt #p: 100

[writer-room]

Isn't it fun how everyone saw what terrified them most, but Nya's was so "unbelievable" that she broke out instantly? She was shown the one thing that was supposed to terrify her, make her spiral. But of course it wasn't real. It's Jay. If there's one thing she never once doubted, its that Jay is absolutely smitten, so of course he'd never forget her. What a silly thing to think, to be afraid of. She went through so damn much for this boy, and him for her, and we know how she is. Wouldn't it be petrifying if all that work, all that emotional turmoil, that clawing for love, could be forgotten just like that? Its quite a feat, really, that she can finally be confident in knowing such a fear is irrational.

It was easy to break free from such a place. It was only ever meant to scare her, and she has nothing to be afraid of. Right?

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #dragons rising #lego ninjago #lego ninjago dragons rising #nya #ninjago nya #jay walker #ninjago jay #text post #dragons rising s2 #oh its going to be horrific when they find jay i want it SO BAD #nya is going to spiral. she is going to hit a new mental health low #HERES THE BEST PART #isnt it horrifying. when the only other person who remembers a time that never existed #a time when wishes should never have come true #forgets all of it? there were only two of you in the entire world who remembered that timeline #you could say nothing ot anyone else. but you could speak to them. could share it all #when the nightmares came and shaking from memories. there was someone to know and comfort #and now its all gone. its all forgotten. theres nothing. its only you. just you. #no one will ever know what happened to you #wouldnt that fck you up every which way to sunday. when the nightmares exist only to you #if theres only you to ever whisper about pirates. did it even happen? can you prove it? #nya is going to crumple into DUST. no happiness for any of them

[meimoons-arts]

Fanart of Asha (Wish) and Star (human form)

"At All Costs"

#asha x star #yes i know starboy is a concept that never came into the movie #but LISTEN i WANTED him so badly #my own headcanon where Asha and Starboy are singing to “At All Costs” to each other #i mourn that this doesn't exists in the real movie #disney wish #wish 2023 #oh god i spent so long on this painting #i had to get this out of my mind tho #please ignore the hands i couldn't draw them right after so many times and gave up but you get the idea #they’re dancing in midair #wish asha #starboy

[ok-pop-1]

a landscape study feat. link and wolfie

#legend of zelda #loz #breath of the wild #tears of the kingdom #i never want to draw a bush again #drawing this kept me sane while visiting family #this doesnt exist in game #but i sure wish it did