It was too great a coincidence. Whether she was really an agent of the Thought Police, or simply an amateur spy actuated by officiousness, hardly mattered. It was enough that she was watching him. Probably she had seen him go into the pub as well.
It was an effort to walk. The lump of glass in his pocket banged against his thigh at each step, and he was half-minded to take it out and throw it away. The worst thing was the pain in his belly. For a couple of minutes, he had the feeling that he would die if he did not reach a lavatory soon. But there would be no public lavatories in a quarter like this. Then the spasm passed, leaving a dull ache behind.
The street was a blind alley. Winston halted, stood for several seconds wondering vaguely what to do, then turned round and began to retrace his steps.
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hi, so uhhh... i guess some introduction is in order :D please be patient, i'll try to keep it brief.
Alright. So, about half a year ago, I experienced skill regression after finding out I might be autistic (want to get diagnosed, it's in progress.) on top of the ADHD I already knew about. And since then, my world turned completely upside down.
Skill regression in neurodivergent people is basically losing the part of yourself that had been running on the need to appear neurotypical and once all the masking is dropped, you fall into identity crisis and temporarily lose certain skills (including social skills) and enjoyment of them, so you have to relearn all of that again.
After a kind of nervous breakdown in spring, I ended up on antidepressants because I lost the entirety of my personal philosophy and fell into months of nihilism, depression, self-pity and it just kept spiralling until some days my brain felt like it was in flames. A lot of that time has been a blur to me, my MBTI went from ENFJ to INTJ (yeah, I'm still trying to find out what the hell happened) and I barely got my grades up in the last minute at the end of the academic year.
But why am I telling you.
Today I started getting better again after a period when it got worse, and remembered that one of the things that might be seen as a special interest for me and genuinely makes me happy is the whole thing about self-improvement.
I've been cosuming content about it basically ever since the first lockdown, have found a lot of methods that work for me that I'd love to pass on, and take photos of my workplace anyway, so I told myself I needed some external push to keep my head above water by doing the same for other people. So I don't forget everything I learn again, and if I do, so I know where to find it again.
The url comes from Friedrich Nietzsche's quote:
"Whoever fights monsters should see to it that in the process he does not become a monster. And when you look long into an abyss, the abyss also looks into you."
The thought behind this blog is basically trying to stay good in the fight with the bad. (Nietzsche's philosophy is a lot and his prose delicious so I might drop something about it when I finally make time to read The Gay Science or his other publications.)
I don't know what exactly I'll be posting about, but there will definitely be a lot of photos, daily updates, various categories of life hacks, quotes I like and some mini-essays on various topics. Hope you'll enjoy :)
(not a native english speaker so please tell me in the comments when you find a mistake, I'd love to get better!)
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GIRLDAD MAX 𐙚 max verstappen
౨ৎ max verstappen x single mum!reader
the one where reader had been invited by red bull racing to the silverstone grand prix and max takes an interest towards her.
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yourinstagram julie said come over
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yourinstagram got himself a win and a girlfriend in spa
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maxverstappen1 the girlfriend part is more important
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