#alcoholic parent

[belong2human-kind]

I hate alcohol. I hate so so much. It has destroyed my whole life. It takes everything I love away from me. I'd rather die than to watch happening again, but I can't run: this drug is everywhere. I can't handle losing another one to this

#vent post #tw: alcohol #tw: alcholism #this shit destroyed my family #and now my friendships #and my relationship #I wish i could burn every single glass bottle and cans of this. #I can never make people stay when they have already chosen alcohol #alcoholism #child of an alcoholic parent #alcoholic parent #tw: drug addiction #dysfunctional parents

[aljdkskjx]

having an alcoholic parent is like having a fucking toddler but the toddler is 55 years old calling you a cunt and telling you to kill yourself <3

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #alcoholism

[outstanding-quotes]

Janet Geringer Woititz, Adult Children of Alcoholics

#Janet geringer woititz #adult children of alcoholics #psychology #childhood trauma #alcoholic parent #inner child

[greyaugustuspoetry]

dad is possessed

i think my house is haunted 

daddy’s always angry 

i cry a lot, 

because im so scared

of what the ghosts 

make daddy do

i hide under my bed 

to run away from the possessed 

if I can’t be found 

then daddy won’t come 

and hurt me again 

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[writingwithtrauma]

it was easier when i didn’t know

when he was just being confused

or forgetful and we laughed about it

or silly because he was my funny dad

not because he was drunk

when it was just a green can with something stinky inside

it was so much easier to be around him

- the cluelessness of unspoken alcoholism

#sad poems #parents #alcoholic parent #alcoholic dad #growing up #poems #poetry

[shybasementkid]

guess who just got a phone call from their dad telling them that their mom are drunk again(they do not notice it all the time)and their gonna get picked up in an hour!!!!!!! thatz right!!!!! its me!!!!!

#redson... save me... redson.... save me!!!! #alcoholic parent #alcholic parent core

[soanywayimscreaming]

Me: *talking abt how traumatizing it was to live with my alcoholic mother*

The person I’m taking too: Your mother was rlly strong to get help good for her—

Me: SHUT THE FUCK UO THIS SISNT ABT HER

#alcoholic parent #this is why I stopped talking abt it bc all ppl wanna do it talk abt how strong my mom is like no she’s not #also why can’t my trauma be acknowledged for once tf?

[girlsdinner]

I can’t control her addiction, just like I can’t control her sobriety.

#alcoholic parent #alanon #dear diary

[supraventriculart]

Don't y'all fuckin love it when you stumble into a subreddit about the exact kind of trauma or specific problem you face?

Tag yours

#r/emotinalneglect #emotional neglect #r/adultchildren #alcoholic parent #r/homeschoolrecovery #homeschool

[kitttykgs]

now i have to suffer for the next 2 weeks while my mother goes on an anger filled binge drinking psychotic rager 🥰 christmas will be hell like always 🥰 tears and blood will be shed 🥰🥰🥰🥰

#killme #alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent

[aljdkskjx]

every single fucking birthday, celebration, christmas, easter, new year. she gets so drunk that nothing about her is recognisable. she looks different. she sounds different. her words are slurred and vitriol. birthday cakes get destroyed. christmas trees are torn apart. baubles smashed. dishes smashed into shards on the ground. doors slammed. shouting. screaming. sorry for being born mother. i didn’t mean to.

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #abusive mother #emotional abuse #is it even abuse? #am i just pathetic

[outstanding-quotes]

The spontaneous child that got squashed so many years ago struggles to be released. The pressure to be adult helps to keep the child repressed. You are at war with yourself. But fear of the unknown wins out. After all, what would happen if that child gained freedom. What would it mean. So you rationalize.

Having fun, being silly, being childlike, is being foolish. It is no wonder that adult children of alcoholics have difficulty having fun. Life is too serious.

Janet Geringer Woititz, Adult Children of Alcoholics

#Janet geringer Woititz #adult children of alcoholics #psychology #quote #inner child #responsibility #seriousness #childhood #childhood trauma #alcoholic parent #fun #spontaneous

[baneme]

I always feel like people who say  "but she's your mother..." have to experience a lifetime of abuse (from an alcoholic parent) to understand how it's like. Because she never acted like a mother, she never was one.

Today, I had the worst day since forever because of her. The police was involved and some stranger who called the police. And a small group of people that gathered to watch everything (I actually was surprised when a police officer told my mother to watch her mouth when she started calling me stuff).

And after I went back home, after the police took her, I told some people that it was the last straw and I’m cutting her out of my life completely because I just can’t do this anymore, I really can’t. But of course there was that one person who said “but she’s your mother”.

My mother? All she did was abuse me verbally and physically for 30 years of my life. All she gave me is depression, anxiety, a suicide attempt when I was a teenager and a debt. All she ever cares about is alcohol and her own well being. Nothing ever changed. It got only worse. So yeah, this person can choke on “but she’s your mother”.

sorry I had to say it somewhere because I felt like I was going crazy and I know not many people follow me here. I just had to let it out.

#alcoholic mother #alcoholic parent #alcoholism

[eyesofhellabore]

Lucky little favorite 

(tw: verbal abuse mentioned)

Daddy held the key to me

The one that let me speak

The key that could let me shout

And free me from the deep

But that key is shrouded in the alcohol

He nails me to the edge 

And makes me feel so small

Daddy said that I was lucky

Mama didn’t like hitting

Used your mouth like kerosene

And then the words would do the spittin’

Light me up

Hit me up

Light me up again

Didn’t need to lay a hand

His words could thunder in

Like a hand pulling insides out

Altering your lungs

Rewiring your brain

So you can’t fathom love

Daddy taught me when you’re cryin’

You better shut up

Told me that winning’s more important

Than happiness and love

Bought me things

To make me  quiet

Treat me like a dog

And call me like one too

My name was bitch and cunt

When he’s drunk

I’m his all-time fav

When he wants to bash my soul

And nail me to the grave

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[mychildhoodtraumablog]

My body and soul were so tired of hating my parents. The unending song of outrage, disappointment, disgust, and self hatred grew to be too loud. And I was so afraid that letting go of my hate would make me weak. Would I become an easier target? Did I give them a free pass?

No, I chose forgiveness for me. I did it for me.

It is not in my nature to carry hatred with me. I am not that person anymore because I choose to be better. I choose to be free of that burden. I am a victim of childhood abuse, both physical and psychological. The triangulation to isolate sisters and gaslighting to the point of complete loss of self will not work anymore.

I say no and draw a line in the sand. No more.

The people who were supposed to love and protect me were my abusers. They don’t even fully understand what they did or why it was wrong. The semantics don't matter.

I am here. I am safe. I choose to heal.

#triangulation #childhood ptsd #dysfunctionality #parental abuse #ptsd #alcoholic parent #mental illness #trauma #childhood trauma #therapy #emotional abuse #catholic trauma #forgiveness #healing #complex ptsd #cptsd recovery

[thehauntedp0et]

And so it happens again

My father wonders why I have this grudge against him

Why I can’t stand to be in a room with him for more then 5 minutes without freaking out

As he snaps at me for something so trivial

Why I always end up in the bathroom crying

Coming back my mother asking me why my eyes look so red and raw

What he doesn’t understand is that the anger

Is what makes all the difference.

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