#and hey. maybe my opinion will change after a rewatch who knows

[zukosdualdao]

6, 7, 8, and 16 for the fandom asks!

6. My favorite character:

*nearly buzzing* hey have you guys heard of my good buddy zuko?

okay this is gonna be long and then i'll try to be normal shshhsghjh it's funny because the answer definitely used to be katara (and don't get me wrong, i still adore her and she is absolutely is a close second, she deserves everything tbh), but something about zuko on my last rewatch (before my current rewatch) (i am ridiculous) just... really stuck with me. i hadn't seen the show in years at that point, and while i'd always liked his story, this time around, i couldn't help but appreciate the nuance in it, as someone who is both a victim of abuse and a villain in the narrative, and how the show goes out of its way to show you why he's acting the way he is and doing the things he's doing in a way that allows you to sympathize with him (and that helps to sew the seeds of his redemption because his abuse cannot be disentangled from the fact that he was once a kid who valued kindness and things like not unnecessarily sacrificing new recruits on the front lines, and that he is now performing his father's ideals of cruelty to try to both conform and cope.)

but i also feel the show does a good job at showing this without ever falling into the trap of justifying what he's doing. and his story is really cathartic, as it's one of not just redemption but healing, and the idea that those two things go hand in hand? that the narrative didn't demand zuko hate himself to be redeemed (and, in fact, discouraged it, "pride is not the opposite of shame, but its source", after all) but instead, the actions he took toward changing his life and helping people made him a healthier, happier person??? it's just. it's so good. i could talk about zuko for hours, and i won't do that but. yeah i love this character a normal amount.

7. My least favorite character: (*i decided to interpret this as characters i don't like as people rather than characters i don't like the arcs of. that's a different, more complicated answer i don't feel like delving into at the moment.)

ozai is the boring answer, but i mean. c'mon. (he's not a BAD character, he's just the literal worst.) i don't feel like this one requires that much explanation.

also, though, i don't hear enough hate for my guy zhao. (again, good character! he does what he's supposed to in the narrative, which is overshadow zuko as a threat/villain and showcase viewing oneself as inherently superior as something that will ultimately lead to downfall, which foreshadows the defeat of both ozai and azula.) like.... i don't totally know why, but zhao actually really gets under my skin as a villain lmao. maybe it's because he's more tangible than ozai? like, ozai spends so long as this shadowy, untouchable figure, and so much about him is implied, but zhao is just right there throughout book one, being the worst. and i don't know how to explain it, because there are honestly a lot of similarities between them, but i feel like not everyone has met someone like ozai, but most people know someone like zhao. he has less power than ozai (not none, but less) but just as much ego and will rub whatever power he does have in your face and i just. yeah i hate him.

8. Is there anything I wish people would write more about in fics? (A dynamic, an exploration of an arc, just a character that doesn’t get much screentime, etc): honestly more of toph's dynamics with like, everyone in the gaang, because at a certain point, i do feel like toph gets shoved to the side a bit. (you're telling me TOPH BEIFONG of all people wouldn't have an opinion in the southern raiders?) the friendship moments we do get in the show are cute!!! she's never had friends before and now she does, let her have friends, let it be cute!

i do think some corners of the fandom try to remedy this but i just. i'm having a moment about toph pour one out for my my girl <33

16. Favorite inside joke the fandom has:

zuko, a man who cannot be killed!

#asks #chowmain-samosa #abuse // #atla #fandom ask games #zuko #toph beifong #ozai #zhao #me: i will try to be normal about this #me: failed step one #jsshsh thanks for the ask ! <3

[hanako-san]

Hello Are you okay? I've been following you for a while, and I really like your opinions and theories about Hanako-kun. I wanted to share some thoughts I have about the series.

These last few days I've been rereading and rewatching the anime, I was trying to understand Tsukasa's logic after his kiss with Nene (although my first impression was that he did it to trap Hanako) Aidairo has never been so predictable, but neither I believe he will prefer to indulge in the love triangle cliché.

Anyway, I'm not here to talk specifically about the Tsunene kiss, but one of the things that caught my attention when I rewatched the anime and the manga was that when Nene summons Hanako, he says that her desires have a price, ok, we know that, however, he tells her that he got 2 wishes. One of these wishes had the payment for Nene to become Hanako's assistant, but what about the payment for the first wish?

She longed for someone to love, specifically Teru, but when she couldn't, he offered her the "bond" along with the mermaid's curse. The curse happens to everyone who eats her scales, so I don't consider this to have been payment for Hanako, so much so that he doesn't allow the mermaid to come and get her. So I was wondering, what was the payment for Nene's first wish? I imagine Hanako caught her "love." That's because he says that this bond would be the same thing she wanted, someone's love. Maybe I'm wrong, but I thought it was interesting that no one talked about this. Hanako seems to have decided that Yashiro would be his the moment they met, so much so that Hakoujoudai purposely gave her the mermaid's scales. What do you think about this?

I'm sorry if the question was a little long, I still have something to share besides that.

I saw in some places people saying that they are curious about what Hanako's boundary would be like, but she has already appeared in the manga and anime, see, when Nene is sucked into the mirror she ends up in a bathroom too, with water on the floor and many shadows of "hands" on the walls, like those that frequently appear near Tsukasa in the playroom. The air also feels thick and gloomy. When Mitsuba takes Yashiro out, we see the number 7 above the door, indicating that that was Hanako's boundary. I'm surprised that Hanako didn't think about the possibility of Nene being in her own boundary, perhaps because he didn't know exactly the objective of number 3, or that in fact it wasn't number 3's boundary that gave access to Hanako's, but rather Mistuba who had this ability to travel across boundaries.

What do you think?

Hey, I'm fine. Thanks for asking, and you? so I did an analysis about it once if you want to read it here If you want me to add something to this topic, let me know ^^ I'm really glad to hear that, you like my opinions and analyzes 😊

Honestly, I think that initially he wanted to use her power for a different purpose, but he fell in love and changed it. I say this because earlier he said that he was looking for the assistant, knowing that she would die, so he must have had a different purpose, but everything changed when he fell in love.

I don't understand why you say that Hanako would have decided at that moment that yashiro would be his when she forced items on him to get what she wants, which is the bond with teru. Hanako took out everything he had and threw it away, not caring what he threw away, and wanted to give Yashiro the Kokeshi doll. yashiro threw it out the window. Nene picked it

She swallowed the mermaid scale herself and it didn't matter that Haku pointed it out. She did it consciously and Hanako wanted to stop her, but she is so obsessed that she doesn't listen and considers herself wronged because Hanako lied to her, who had to take a price for love and wanted to avoid using more power because the greater the wish and power, the greater the price.

he didn't want to give her back she summoned him and he didn't fulfill her wish, as he told the mermaid to wait but she didn't want to, so he used force. Yashiro also didn't want to go with the mermaid, so he protected her too. This is his duty. Yashiro was his 'client' and the person he was supposed to take care of when she was threatened by the supernatural because yashiro is studnet as well. and he is supposed to protect the students. yashiro was now in danger because of her own stupidity. He only saved her.

Why should this prove his decision, because he was ready to leave her twice so that she could live. If he had such a goal of from the beginning, he would let her die. He is fighting for her to live, which would mean their separation, and for him the most important thing is her life and that she lives, if he wanted it otherwise, he would do everything to make her die without caring about her life. He decided to leave her in a false world, he went against his own rules so that she could live. It was wrong what he did, I admit, I don't support it, with Aoi as well but he was willing to do it FOR HER, knowing what he wanted to do and knowing that she would forget about him but it shows that he is ready to do anything to save her life.

But let's say it's like you said. Of course, if he wanted to frame Yashiro because he needed her, he really didn't have to do anything. Yashiro is so stupid that she did it despite his warnings. Either way, she decided her own fate, it was she who connected herself with the supernatural world in order to have bond with teru that was equal to love for her.

Can you really look at it the other way too? Not everything Hanako does is his responsibility for her actions. yashiro also takes responsibility for her own actions that she has to face. Either way, he did it intentionally or not. He warned her and ran towards her to take her scale, but she just held it in her mouth and after his warning, she swallowed it. She would do anything to have a boyfriend, she might even be cursed. If he had any plans honestly, why would he play cat and mouse? He could have given the shell right away and she would have been cursed, but he wanted to avoid this, knowing that she would have to pay a higher price for his services, so he chose the safer option. She makes her own decisions and pays for her own mistakes, just like each of us. She is no exception.

And it may turn out that he did it on purpose. I don't care and I will blame her because he didn't force her to do anything, he wanted to stop her. She was the one who decided to do it. No one else but her. Despite his warnings. Sometimes you pay heavily for your stupidity and your own decisions, and that's what happened to her. It was his duty to protect her, he protected her where she didn't want to go.

Truly despite my feelings. I know when it's her fault and when it's not, so I'm not prejudiced by my feelings for her. I really don't have a problem with it.

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Border. You could see it reflected in the mirrors and I don't think it's surprising, because the border no. 3 is located in toilet no. 7. The mirrors are territory no.3 so the borders are connected to each other.

You can reach border no. 3 through yako and it is also in the shape of a mirror, and they got there by using the mirrors. Mirrors are a passage, so it is not surprising that the border no.7 was visible in hell's mirrors, because it was the inversion of his border, but still, the entire border wasn't shown.

What I mean is that mirrors won't show the whole thing, we don't know what the border might look like only from the outside or the end/middle, it depends on its location. The mirror will only reflect the part in which it is placed, not the whole thing. This part could even be a transition to its deeper border on the side of the mirrors. I guess. School boundaries have passages through which you can reach other boundaries. But they may also have other connections, such as Yako and the Minamoto temple. I think that border no.7 works the same way as Yako and is related not only to the border of mirrors, but also maybe to the red house?

Maybe a bit off topic, but I believe that everything we've seen so far is related. Like when yashiro disappeared and was kidnapped by this strange thing, and under the red house there were ghosts of girls, so the house must have stood on the place where the minamoto family sacrificed girls and were also a gateway to the world of the supernatural

this is an interesting topic.

Tsukasa kiss is not romantic. know about it. He needs her to destroy the yorishiros, knowing that she wouldn't want it, so he made a deal with her that he knew that she would lose. He kissed her because he wanted to use her skills. I am aware of that, but I always leave myself two or more options so as not to be surprised, and with AidaIro I can expect anything

Thanks for the asking.

#toilet bound hanako kun #jibaku shounen hanako kun #hanako kun #yugi amane #amane yugi #yashiro nene #afadalunar #my answers

[shylittlefrogg]

What is your opinion on the ML season 5 finale? What would you have done different?

Sorry I left this in my box for a while. too many things that I was concentrating on and put aside for later. I also procrastinated a bit eh.

I had to think about this for a bit and rewatch some episodes and think

Honestly though, I think it was a good season, slightly down but hey, good enough to keep me going to see what happens next.

"Staying to see the fire in the garbage dump and how the new firefighters try to put it out" basically

Felix's background story, consolidating the sentimonsters a little more, revolting the love square, giving the Miraculous to other people. I think those were pretty good things.

I personally wish they would have left Scarabella and Kitty Noir for more chapters, like maybe three and expanded things more with them while Adrien and Marinette did their thing and I don't know, maybe see that things were starting to get difficult for the new heroes and decide to help them??

It would have been nice and cute, something more natural to get the Miraculous back

thinking thinking about maybe Adrien getting Zoe in a group that knows her identity, both of them helping each other a little maybe

"Cat Friends"

Yeah, give Zoe more things instead of just using her conveniently and keeping the status of equal identities with someone who knows on each side

And honestly it gives me headaches that Adrien and Marinette were the only people without Alliance in their school group, more ADRIEN of all people, I feel like they don't make that much sense. (Also, Marinette broke her spine in that scene where Hawkmoth pushed her, no, I don't make the rules, it's basic physics)

Definitely trying more of the Sentimonsters thing from past seasons and not just something that came out of nowhere.

large parts of my complaints go to the end.

First with Chloe, she's honestly not my favorite character but I'm emotional with characters with family trauma, Chloe, Felix and Adrien being the main ones in canon, and emotionally with Kagami and Sabrina.

Chloe doesn't deserve to end up with her mother who can't even remember her name, disowned by her father according to the scripts, and without any friends or anyone else to cope. Alone with her abuser as her only support, that's... just tragic.

Felix's part in the play leaves me emotional, painful, I have already communicated what goes to my mind when a broken stuffed animal appears and I am happy that now he is better with his mother who seems to love him very much (although where was he while his father mistreated him??? I would like that to be resolved).

Finally Adrien.. He doesn't deserve to be lied to, not after all, not now that his father died and he's being praised as a hero, as a good father, when he wasn't, when he literally spent an entire chapter as Chat Noir talking about how his father sucks and ending that episode by locking himself up in fear of hurting others because of something his father caused him.

I feel bad for them and I personally would have changed that.

with Chloe being taken by some relocation program because her parents are definitely not doing good if she's in her care all that happened.

give her a good rehab family

and Adrien learning the truth, either as Adrien or as Chat Noir, because Ladybug had to have said something to her partner after so many trust issues they had before, right ??

Right?!!

I feel like the biggest problem with this season is that they didn't seem to follow a cohesive character evolution.

#The rest I quite like. I also really like the scene with the gods Plagg and Tikki. really cool #miraculous ladybug #ask #There are many #how are they called? Reboots?recoons? at all this season that doesn't make sense in the big picture. it's strange

[hoghtastic]

Hey there! I remember that some had been discussing why most of the younger cast of vikings didn't really progress with their careers. I have just recently rewatched the whole show, and now with some time passed and not as much of a hype I personally felt like often the acting of them was honestly hideous. I noticed that especially with Marco, Ida, Georgia and yes also with Alex. Some of them clearly had some very good and memorable scenes but compared to what Travis did with his character I now understand that a lot of people abandoned or didn't like the show after Ragnars death. Yes, Ivar carried the show like a lot after that but I personally thing that the fact that Ivar just looked hot had a lot of saying with that. Because when I rewatched the show, I thought that with season 5 the story was more often written poorly then not! I know that they were young and didnt have that much experience, but honestly if that is their biggest advertisement for themselves I kinda understand it's hard for them to get new big jobs.

Just my 2 cents, sorry if most disagree, hope no one feels offended. Just thought to myself its almost a bit surprising how my own view changed with a bit of distance form the fandom and hypetrain.

Thank you so much for sharing your opinion, anon! 😊 It's a really interesting perspective, and it's totally understandable that with some time and distance our views on things will change.

If I may also add my two cents, from my experience talking to friends and acquaintances who also used to watch Vikings, people abandoning the show after Ragnar's death had nothing to do with the new actors' skills. They were just really attached to Ragnar as a character and felt really disappointed that they decided to kill the main character, so much that they didn't see a point in continuing to follow the story, as the sons' story wouldn't be the same without Ragnar. So some people gave up right away, not even giving the show and the new cast a chance. It also didn't help that, at the time, only seasons 1 to 5 were available on Netflix, and most people didn't feel like subscribing to another platform (Amazon Prime, if I'm not mistaken) to see the 6th and final season. And while I agree that sometimes the writing wasn't the best, we can't really blame the actors' skills for that either, as they try to do their best with what they're given, I believe. 😅

I also absolutely agree when you said that "they were young and didn't have that much experience", but being on Vikings was already a huge achievement and they could have worked on improving their skills after that. I can only comment about Alex, whose career I've been following the closest in comparison to the others you mentioned, but I'd say that the problem wasn't his performance in Vikings. He showed a huge potential and commitment to the character, even if he wasn't perfect. The problem was what he did after. It seemed to me (based on past interviews) that he got a little picky with which roles he'd accept, considering some smaller ones as some kind of "downgrade" after Vikings. He also didn't seem to have resumed his formal studies or any other kind of education that would help him improve as an actor. And in such a competitive field of work, where good big roles are somewhat scarce, I don't think those were very clever choices. But this is just my personal opinion, of course, and maybe he preferred to prioritize his mental health back then and is happy doing some lighter work nowadays. 😊

#anon asks

[cosettepontmercys]

Hey! I love that pink heart you chose! Unfortunately I didn't end up seeing the movie last night but maybe I will go sometime next week. I haven't really gotten any spoilers but probably wouldn't care anyway. My favorite movies are mostly musicals..like I will watch any musical. That and teen movies are what I would rewatch the most. I watched Schmigadoon/Schmicago recently and I just finished Ted Lasso. Central Park is another musical show that's animated I'm watching. The Summer I Turned Pretty is definitely on my list and also the new season of the Bear. His other show called Shameless used to be one of my favorite shows. I never finished the last season but would still recommend. I will also watch any teen drama..like Gilmore Girls The OC Gossip Girl..I am in the middle of these but it's been years lol. I am not really a horror fan unless it's Stephen King I guess. That's probably my least favorite.

Any surprise song I will be fine with basically. But since you asked me what I would or wouldn't prefer..that would be my answer lol. I know some people like Closure too. I would probably prefer Me and I know some people hate it lol. I guess it's true what people say.. about every song being someone's favorite song and that's what makes it fun..and she still has a lot of songs left too. I know she probably won't play Mary's Song or Renegade but I'm still hoping. It's not something I'm worried about though. I'm sorry you didn't get Foolish One at your show. I'm just so excited for everything..including seeing the costumes and sets. Haha I stopped watching livestreams after the first show but me and my sister still try to guess the surprise songs every night and now this next show we will be there. One time I guessed You all over me cuz of the June lyric and she guessed I Wish You Would and got it right..and the next night she played You All Over Me..and that was the closest we ever got. I think I got I Think He Knows right too. We will probably try not to make any guesses for our show though and I hope I didn't jinx anything lol..unless it's one I really want lol.

yay!! i'm so glad you liked the pink heart i picked! i hope you get to go to barbie soon!! i haven't seen schmicagoon yet but i really want to!! i've heard good things, and it just look so fun! plus i have a soft spot for a lot of the cast. i've never heard of central park, but i just looked it up and it looks super fun. what are some of your favorite musicals? i know you like les mis <3 (i actually had a dream last night about getting a les mis tattoo, which ... may be a sign) i've been meaning to watch the bear for molly gordon, but i've heard everyone hates her character :( i really love molly though, and the plot of the bear sounds really interesting to me, so i think i'll watch it when i'm back from chicago! i never really got fully into gilmore, and never watched the OC but i have fond memories of watching gossip girl with my friends from high school back in the day! i still have very strong gossip girl opinions to this day, for someone who hasn't actually done a proper rewatch since the finale aired. okay but me! would be SO fun acoustic. i've been begging her for that! i just think everyone's opinions on it would change after hearing it on guitar or on a piano. i was telling my friends we need a like "sad girl autumn version" of it. i normally only hop on for surprise song o'clock — i missed a few when i was in europe in may, but aside from that i've managed to hop on for most of them. it helps a lot that i'm over on the west coast, i think! i watched almost the entirety of the first livestream ( i missed parts of lover ), and then for the most part haven't watched livestreams before surprise songs (aside from when we were waiting to see if she'd do anything different for speak now (tv)). and it's okay that i didn't get foolish one; i still had a blast and i can't wait to hear it on a livestream somewhere! i am so bad at guessing things; my friends and i did swiftball at our preparty on saturday and i lost sooooo badly. but a lot of my guesses came true the next day, so i guess i was just early in my predictions haha. you're going to have the BEST time i'm really really excited for you!!! happy thursday! 🤍

#post: answered #🩷 anon

[bingus-bing-bong]

Doctor who update:

Well we've reached series 9. Literally just watched episode 1 today and oh boy.

Series 8 was when i only really watched when it aired because i thought it would get better with time and i just disliked the change in actors.

Series 9 i realised i just didnt like this current phase and only really watched because it was a family activity. And Missy was fun as The Master always has a hold on me theyre a fun character

I know personally that for the rest of 12 i only remember vague parts of the major plot points (honestly i remember Missys plot, that clara finally is going and, episode 6 ish and thats it for series 9). So this bit of the rewatch is as much for me as it is for my partner.

Onto my partners thoughts. They have still not been enjoying 12. Hopefully series 9 is tolerable enough that the upcoming chaos with Bill will help them like him but by now I think that their going to just dislike 12's run fully sadly.

They finally get why i don't like Clara. Not entierly sure why but s9e1 did it for them. I've had to reassure them that this is the last of her and, yeah, in my opinion its just going to get worse.

But hey we're almost at 13! Unsure if theyll like her at all.... so far their favourite is 9 but they did enjoy 10 and 11 less so. It seems that doctors wise doctor who goes downhill each regeneration for them.

But the plus side! We'll make it through Doctor who in time for 60th i reckon and when we're done its time for Sarah Jane (we left off at series 2 as were originally doing in chronological timeline wise) and Class. Maybe ill convince them to rewatch Torchwood again after but we watched it back at the beginning

#doctor who #honey mel

[saipng]

Oh the riddler didn't figure out Batman's identity in the movie. Sure it looked like that at first, but once he starts going "but we didn't get Bruce Wayne :/" it becomes clear to Batman that not only does Riddler think they're a team, he also thinks they together failed at getting Bruce, meaning he doesn't know Batman and Bruce are the same person. He also didn't outsmart Batman - sure he thinks he did (because. He's the riddler ofc he'd think he's smarter than everyone else) but he didn't. The reason why Bruce missed the last clue wasn't because he isn't smarter than Edward ( he very much is, especially when it comes to emotional intelligence which Edward is lacking entirely) but it's because he was too emotional/too scared of being unveiled as Bruce and too scared of "facing his dark mirror" that he didn't stop to think things through, and also because he had gaps in knowledge due to his privilege (not knowing what a carpeting tool is). Once this Bruce gets a better grip on his emotions he won't make mistakes like that again. Also this riddler is very much selfish, imo it's very clear that his whole "justice" thing is what he convinced himself is the reason for his actions when it's actually petty revenge for his trauma as well as wanting to be seen/getting attention - I mean why else live-stream what he does if it's not for attention's sake. (they also released the pages of his journal, and imo that one makes quite clear he's doing it for personal reasons, mostly for getting back at the system for what it did to him (and the other orphans) and for feeling invisible, and not for true justice, as well as because of his compulsions) .. anyways lmao sorry for the long ask just wanted to share how I interpreted what they did with the character but your points are totally valid as well ofc!!

hello and first of THANK YOU for a huge ask i am literally always down to discuss batman and im obsessed with your take because it’s so different from mine.

the only thing i can answer definitively to this is that i will need to rewatch the movie again to see if i can see where you’re coming from - especially the secret identity part since riddler literally sat there going ‘i know who you are. bruce wayne. bruceee wayneee. bruuuce waaaayne. brrrrruceee wayyyyyyne.’

so if i misinterpreted that part, i definitely need to see it another time

the part about riddler outsmarting him though - i don’t know, it sounds a bit like justification to me. not saying it’s not valid, your take has really good points and i’d agree entirely IF, like i said before, we were talking about batman vigilante career month 3. then i’d understand this carelessness, this underdeveloped instinct when he doesn’t think twice why someone as smart as riddler would give himself up so easily, the overlooking evidence specifically placed to get his attention. but this is batman year 2 and two years is a goddamn long time to be going out every night into the streets of gotham.

i SUPPOSE i’m being somewhat unfair though, considering riddler is basically the first major supervillain in gotham (the mobsters don’t really count). bruce never had to deal with anything like that before, so he doesn’t know what to expect - but that just makes me think that he should be even more careful than usual and think twice before every action taken. argh, this is frustrating, i’m spinning myself in circles here. will need to think more

and the thing with the livestream makes sense (no matter how much i passionately hate that twitch is becoming a new staple of society in movies), he craves attention and recognition, sure, and he wants vengeance on the ones who wronged him - but the thing that bothers me is that in almost every other media, riddler always wants to prove himself the smartest, not the most just. his intellect always comes first, and anything else is secondary. it would make sense if he like. made all his victims solve puzzles before murdering them (like he did with the DA, giving them a chance to prove they’re just as smart (which he is sure they won’t cuz he’s the smartest most specialist boy in the world)). that would give him a chance to prove himself better than them, to have that sense of superiority and power.

and now i’m imagining a riddler that kidnaps his victims using elaborate traps, placing them in devices a la saw, doing the whole riddle me this shebang, asking them questions about corruption and dirty laundry, all while streaming all of this tortureporn to thousands of people online. and when the victims would finally not be able to answer the final question, the contraption goes off and the person is dead. the whole ‘leaving the clues for batman’ thing would come after, when he sets up the crime scene and leaves it for the police to discover. imo, THAT would coincide with riddler’s MO much better - him exposing the sins of the city’s elite while simultaneously proving himself smarter over and over again.

i just want my classy suited up eddy with his stupid question mark cane doing a little dance when he performs, so confident in himself and his genius, only to be crushed by batman’s galaxy brain and sent to arkham shaking and mewling like a newborn kitten

and not like. a dude who lives in his mom’s basement streaming on twitch to his 500 subs in his silly little ski mask that he wears his glasses over

#long post #the batman #the batman 2022 #thank you anon this really made me thunk my thuts #i think i just. really miss the performance yknow? #to be fair this movie does a whole lot better to shave away with the gritty realism that other iterations were hellbent on #it’s still pretty gritty but in an entertaining way and you can tell that it doesn’t take itself too seriously #but i do feel that they went a little too far with the riddler reinterpretation #i will be nice and give them the benefit of doubt cuz of the scene with the joker #i can imagine a reality where thanks to joker’s influence eddy does turn into a suited up mofo with a silly cane #that becomes obsessed with defeating batman and turns up the theatrics to an 11 #we’ll just have to see i guess #and hey. maybe my opinion will change after a rewatch who knows #anyway #thanks! this was fun #anonymous #answered

[writing-in-april]

Cinematic Coincidences

Spencer Reid x Gender Neutral Reader

(Spencer’s POV)- listen I just love his POV lol

Summary: Spencer can’t bring himself to go on another date that’s been set up for him- so he stands his date up. Spence seemingly can’t catch a break and runs into the date he stood up.

A/N: Hey heyyy- here’s my seventh fic for my 30 fics in 30 days for April!! This one was requested by @andiebeaword (I added a reference for your love of hallmark movies in this hehe)- this is the original request- I tweaked the characters involved just a small bit lol I accidentally end up defaulting to using the people on the dream team lol- im going to start working in later characters in the show into some stuff in upcoming works (I’m also rewatching the later seasons so that’ll help get me inspired) Im always looking for feedback on my fics or really to talk about anything with my followers so feel free to drop into my inbox- here!! Thanks for reading- y’all have been so sweet 🥰 and hope y’all enjoy!!

Warnings: Insecure Spencer, Getting stood up for on a date, Morgan and Garcia (just the team in general) not really understanding Spencer fully, one tiny sexual innuendo- I think that’s it nothing too bad this time around

Main Masterlist Word Count: 2.4K

This was not what I wanted to be doing today. Garcia had once again inquired about my love life- along with Morgan of course, wanting to find out about all the juicy details. I didn’t know why they continued to ask when it was obvious that my love life was about as exciting as watching paint dry.

I gave my normal response to these types of inquiries, brushing them off without sounding too hurtful. Unfortunately Garcia would not be satiated by my response, apparently she was now fed up with my dull love life and felt like she needed to be personally involved. Garcia was very near and dear to me, just like Morgan, but I couldn’t deny that this grated my nerves.

“We’ll make you a dating profile too! Maybe you’ll find someone cute to date- or maybe get some?!” Garcia was chipper as usual, with her eyebrows wiggling at her suggestion that I should have a one night stand. All that I felt from her words was dread.

The dangers of online dating swirled in my mind and I tried to protest, it came out more like a stammer though. Morgan then patted me on the back and piped up, giving his own opinion, “Yeah- I think it’ll be good for you, pretty boy.”

Again I wanted to protest, beginning to stammer out another reason why I didn’t think it was a good idea. I sighed heavily when I was cut off again, by Morgan and Garcia already planning on what pictures they were going to upload of me. At least I knew that they had my best interests at heart, they wanted me to be happy with someone- or get some like Garcia had mentioned earlier. Still, it didn’t change the fact that there was no way I’d ever want to go willingly on a date with someone I had met on the internet.

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My thoughts had not changed since Morgan and Garcia had set up the dating profile for me. There hadn’t been any person I had been on a date with that had successfully been able to keep me interested beyond a few conversations.

“No luck with the online dating?” Morgan had teased when I had walked in with my head held low. This endeavor was just making me realize how picky and undesirable I was. Why couldn’t I just find someone pretty and be happy with it?

Morgan’s face twisted from a smile into a frown when I didn’t answer him, making my way silently to my desk.

For the rest of the day the team tiptoed around me, sensing my sadness. There was part of me that was angry at them for thinking that I couldn’t handle a few bad dates. But, they were right. I couldn’t handle the sting of rejection or the disappointment of a date that didn’t live up to my expectations.

Emily always seemed to know how to cheer me up, so I did attempt some small conversation in the break room while we were both getting our coffee. She never gave me any pity like the others who just flashed me sad looks, unwilling to make any effort to help- or like Garcia and Morgan, they helped in the wrong way even if their intentions were pure.

Her solution to my problem did make my ears perk up a bit, “Hey- I saw that you’ve been down and that it’s been about the online dating Morgan and Garcia made you get into.” I nodded my head in confirmation then gesturing for her to continue while I poured copious amounts of sugar into my drink. Emily opted for mostly cream instead of sugar, stirring her coffee a little, then continuing her thought,”I wondered how you would feel about being set up on a blind date. It’s someone I know so maybe that would make you feel better about going on it? Instead of having to deal with technology that I know you despise.”

Emily had a way of seeing exactly how I was feeling and not just spitting out facts without solutions like the others. Her solution made me nervous of course, there would probably never be a date that I wouldn’t be nervous for. However, this option made me feel a little bit more hopeful about my prospects in the dating pool. It was someone that she knew and trusted enough to suggest them as a potential match for a coworker. Emily didn’t trust easy, I could trust her judgment on this despite my nerves.

I gulped down a large sip of my overly sweetened coffee, collecting my thoughts before then answering, “Alright- I’ll go.”

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The date that I was supposed to go on was at a quaint cafe near work. Emily had even made the effort to make sure that I had been there before so I might be more comfortable.

At first I had been extremely excited for the date, even going so far as to pick out my outfit. I would have worn my purple button up, that was the one I got the most compliments in. Emily had told me some stuff that my date was interested in so I made sure to brush up on my knowledge by reading about the topics. I had even called back to the restaurant menu in my mind, preparing myself by picking out what I wanted beforehand. On one of my dates set up through the dating app I had stumbled on my choice for food, making the person unnecessarily snappy. I had to cover all my bases to minimize potential awkwardness on my part.

Self doubt began to creep in after I had gotten fully dressed. I had gotten ready way too early in anticipation for the date, now sitting on my couch tapping my foot impatiently. I looked at my watch that sat over my long sleeves watching the clock tick closer and closed to when I was supposed to leave.

Biting my lip in worry, my mind couldn’t help but wander over into my self doubts. I couldn’t help but ask myself why anyone would want to date someone as tall and lanky as me- or why would someone want to go on a date with someone that couldn’t keep their mouth shut about random topics that no one cared about.

My self doubt swallowed any confidence that I had begun to build up in preparation for the date. I knew Emily would be furious with me tomorrow when I went into work, I didn’t want her to find out through her friend though. Deciding to get it over with I pulled out the phone I never used and texted her, telling her that I wasn’t coming. I told her to give my regrets to my date, who at this point was probably waiting patiently for me at the cafe. Sighing in defeat I then retreated into my bedroom again, crawling under my covers.

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Emily hadn’t been furious with me- well that was a lie, at first she had stomped up to me the next morning to chew me out. She became more disappointed than anything when she found out my reasonings. She hadn’t mentioned anything about how the person I was supposed to be going on the blind date with felt. Not that I really wanted to hear about it, it would only make me feel worse. All I got from her was a small remark mumbled under her breath, “Idiots- the both of you…”

For the next few weeks I tried in vain to push thoughts of my failed blind date out of my head. I had avoided going in the general direction of the cafe. Luckily I took the metro everyday to work otherwise I’d have to drive by it every day, and I already hated driving.

I was at the bookstore for used booksjust around the corner from the cafe that was supposed to hold my date a few weeks ago. This was the closest I dared to go near it in a while. Since then I hadn’t been able to go there anymore, even though I loved the coffee there. Immense guilt had wormed its way into my brain when I had tried to order something there a week ago. All I had done was stammer at the cashier before bolting out of there, just another addition on the list of embarrassing things that I’ve done in my life.

I was flipping through an old edition of pride and prejudice out of boredom, there hadn’t been anything interesting stocked on the shelves since I had last been here. Then a voice piped up through the air that had a bit of dust flying through it,

“Excuse me, sir- if you’re still looking at that book would you mind if I looked at the ones on the shelf behind you?”

It took me a second before I realized the person was talking to me. I then removed my eyes from the book to blink up at them a few times, then registering what they had said to me and moved out of the way.

Their eyes were still glued to mine, the bookshelf behind me that they had wanted to look at forgotten. An awkward chuckle was all we both could seem to manage as we looked each other up and down. Emily had shown me a picture on her phone of my date so I would have been able to spot them at the restaurant. My cheeks flushed hard once I realized who was standing before me. There was no doubt who this was, the date I had stood up the night before.

Silence then fell between us and not the pleasant kind, it was most definitely awkward. I couldn’t imagine how they must have been feeling after I hadn’t shown up last night. They probably had sat

“Um- hi…” They spoke hesitantly, wringing their fingers in trepidation. My jaw opened and closed a few times, trying to come up with anything to say.

“Hi!” Was all I could manage to squeak out, plus a small wave in their direction.

They wrung their fingers a few more times, seemingly trying to come up with a response. I was surprised they hadn’t hit me with one of the books near them out of anger. It would be a normal response to being stood up for a date, the trepidation and silence just served to unnerve me further. Eventually they spoke again, saving me from anymore awkward silence which in my opinion was worse than awkward conversation, “Um- sorry for um, standing you up uh- a few weeks ago.”

That made my eyes bug out of my head- they had done the exact same thing as I had? Insecurity soon swept in, trying to tell me exactly why they had not shown up without hearing their side of the story. I looked down at the book I was holding, reading a few words for a moment of reprieve. Taking a deep breath I asked quietly, not admitting to my own faults yet, “W-why did you um- not go? If you don’t mind me asking…”

A deep sigh was what I got at first, one that obviously had a lot of stress in it. They then did provide me with an explanation, despite their obvious embarrassment, Well- It had nothing to do with you- a simple explanation would be saying it was my insecurity’s fault.”

Not that I would ever want anyone to feel insecure, but I would admit that them saying that did make my own stress melt away. They had not gone for almost the exact same reasons that me. I decided to be upfront, giving them my own reasoning- though I wasn’t even sure they realized that I hadn’t gone as well. “I don’t know if Emily told you, but I um- stood you up as well. It wasn’t because of anything bad! It was really for the same reason as you.”

They then broke out into giggles after they had processed my words for a second, which were much more relaxed than the awkward ones from before. I didn’t blame them, it was a pretty funny coincidence that we’d both stand each other up only to run into each other not knowing what we had done.

“I feel like we’re in one of those cheesy Hallmark movies right now…” Their comparison only confused me, I had no clue what they were talking about.

“What’s a Hallmark movie?” More giggles came from them at my questioning, though for once I didn’t feel like I was being laughed at. I felt like they were laughing at the whole situation, not at me specifically like so many people had often done. Also, I couldn’t help but admit to myself that their giggle was very cute.

Once their giggles had subsided a little they asked me something that almost no one would ask the person that had stood them up, “Maybe I could tell you over a coffee? If you want to of course- Emily told me about how much sugar you like in it.”

My interest was peaked, making me further regret having stood them up in the first place. Though I tried to push that thought out of the way considering we had both done the same thing. It was time to let that go so I could go on a date with them finally. Seeing them in person and being able to glimpse part of their personality made me want to know more.

“Alright- sure.” I set down the book I had been passively reading, now completely disinterested in it. There was something far more interesting in front of me now compared to a classic book I had read over ten times.

We both walked around the corner, to the cafe that we had originally had our date scheduled at. Conversation flowed easily between us, showing me that Emily had been totally right to set us up initially. Her words now made sense to me, we were both a couple of idiots.

We then got our coffee, which had been much smoother of a transaction compared to the last time I had been here. I took note of how much sugar and cream they liked, just in case we were going to do this again. Sitting down at the closest booth I then asked, “So tell me about Hallmark movies?”

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Serotonin Booster :D 🐉

How to train your dragon edition

(Basically a friendly reminder series but it's now called Serotonin Booster bc I like it that way hehe)

Anywayssss here are some things I had forgotten or little details I just noticed on my rewatch, maybe even Unpopular Opinions 🤭👀

✨Riders of Berk✨

ok im starting this from ep6 bc I wasn't sure if I wanted to do this but yk what why not

JUST REALIZED that whenever Astrid says to Hiccup "what took you so long" when she was stranded at sea in RTTE she was referring back to this one scene in ROB on ep6 when she saved hiccup from Alvin's arrows [Hiccup said the same thing] 😳😳

By the way, it's not really "dragon conqueror". It's "dragon trainer" 🤩

STOICK RIDING TOOTHLESS JAHDHAHSHA

ALSO loved the way they named the typhoomerang🥺

DUDE JAHDHSJAJ stoick is such a kid lmao he really punched the thunderdrum like it was nothing lmaoo

Thunderdrum: *tries to bite Stoick's hand because he doesn't trust him yet*

Stoick: *punches the thunderdrum*

Hiccup: Hey,hey! Whoa, what happened to trust

Stoick: Talk to him! He's the one who tried to take off my hand!

OK BUT AWWW- the thunderdrum just saved stoick because stoick stood up for him and the purple one and then they did the hand thing 🥺🥺🥺

Stoick showing that he did listen to Hiccup and then Hiccup smiling🥴🥺

Hiccup looked so sad whenever he saw his portrait and realized that he was painted differently and the fact that stoick was like "it's you but bigger and stronger" and the other guy was like "that's the son of a chief" definitely did not make him feel better. The fact that sometimes he probably thinks that's he's not good enough and he has to live up to that kid in the portrait-

That's him after... Tell me this isn't the saddest thing-💔

I completely forgot that "it's Viking tradition to call the runt of the litter a Hiccup"

Fireworms! 😁

Fun fact: Gronckle farts are strong enough to make people pass out

Stoick's thunderdrum's name is thornado🥴

Scauldrons eat blue Oleanders, these flowers are poisonous to other dragons tho

Snotlout was the one that found Heather's wrecked boat

I love how Astrid's so intuitive, she knew right away that Heather was kinda sus. It really shows the difference between her and Hiccup who always tries to look for the best in people. Both are good qualities to a certain point if you think about it...

Chicken! :D

"Why would you do that?!" JHDHSHA I LOVE HIM

"Ow! Why is it always violence with you?" "It's not violence. It's communication." Astrid after hitting Fishlegs

That one scene where Astrid is going to Outcast island as Heather on her own and Hiccup is all overprotective i-😩🥺

I really wish they had named and kept that monstrous nightmare that saved Astrid

Thawfest: festival to test strength, endurance, and courage

- The fact that Astrid could've won the log roll and axe throwing events if it hadn't been for fishlegs 🤦🏻‍♀️

- I love how Astrid always knows better

- OMG KISSY KISSY KISS KISS 😚🥴🥰😍😘

Why do I feel like tuff and ruff would definitely be children of Ares

Mildew annoys me sm

I love Mulch and Bucket and also how Stoick was willing to go against his people to protect Toothless. I think it shows the great qualities of a leader who doesn't let everyone do whatever they want.

HICCUP HAS BEEN HIT WITH LIGHTNING!!

- *wakes up from being hit with a lightning bolt to check on his leg* "At least I didn't lose another one."

Whispering death - boulder class, razor sharp teeth, incredibly strong and hunts from underground

The way Snotlout makes fun of the fact that Toothless can't fly bc of Hiccup pisses me tf off

Little moments between Hiccup and Astrid are the ones that get me 🥺🥰 like him getting on Stormfly before Astrid and then helping her up or him touching her shoulder and leaving his hand on there for just a sec to indicate the way 🥺🥺🥺

No because the way they're all running away from the Whispering Death in ep14 and Toothless finally appears and Astrid is like "TOOTHLESS!" like I always asked myself why they didnt show Hiccup's immediate reaction to Toothless coming back and defending them. I just love that they showed how Toothless is also important to Astrid.

Toothless looks cute/funny holding a boulder

Barf and Belch go through the worst lmao

OK I COULD NEVER REMEMBER WHICH ONE WAS WHICH BUT NOW IK CAUSE I ACTUALLY PAYED ATTENTION THAT

Barf is Ruff's

Belch is Tuff's

Also why did I forget that Zippleback gas is kinda druggy

Dagur gives me Vector from Despicable me vibes

I really liked how Stoick was willing to go to war to save Barf And Belch in the Twinsanity ep, it really showed that he wouldn't only do it for Toothless (to protect Hiccup) but he'd do it for any dragon bc he's actually changed

Hiccup's acting was on point ✋🏼👏🏼🤩

Love how Hookfang won't take shii from Snotlout

LITERALLY JAHDHSHZHS Hiccup being hella done w Snotlout in ep16 is my new favorite thing.

THE HAND THING WILL ALWAYS BE ICONIC AND NO ONE WILL TELL ME OTHERWISE

Wow Toothless and Snotlout working together, never thought I'd see this duo

Breakneck Bog = Bermuda Triangle = The Sea of Monsters

Astrid hitting Tuff for pranking them is hilarious and Then RUFF ALSO HITTING TUFF TOO WHEN SHE WAS ALSO PART OF THE PRANK LMAO

Smothering Smoke Breaths - hide themselves in a veil of smoke, very territorial and they build their nests out of metallic objects to defend against attacks by bigger dragons

Changewings - able to change color of its skin to blend in with its surroundings.

I love how Astrid is just so direct lmao

THE TWINS I- JAJDHDHDJAN I LOVE THESE 2 DUMBASSES

The way the chabgewing just ruffled up tuffnut NAHSHDHHSHS

Baby Gustav 🥺🥺🥺🥺

WAIT BUT BUCKET'S SPITTING FACTS

"It's always the quiet ones that snap the loudest"

Granite is Meatlug's favorite 🥴

The way Astrid is so excited to show Hiccup her new achievement and the way she always knows when something is wrong... If this isn't true love i-🥺🥺🥺🥺

Hiccup was entrusted with Bork life's work

The Isle of night - an entire island filled with Night Furies!

Fishlegs lil giggle after he did the thunderdrum call😅🥴

Remember how I said that I thought Stoick would be the only person to get into a fist fight with a dragon? Well I was wrong... Snotlout just punched a Changewing and ig that's abt right

Hiccup just wanted Toothless to not be alone 🥺🥺🥺

ALVIN! UGH THIS DUDE-

The way we had to wait for 2 more shows and 2 movies to finally see another night fury

FINISHED IT OMG NOW ONTO DOB

#httyd #how to train your dragon #defenders of berk #astrid hofferson #astrid #hiccup #hiccup haddock #hiccup x astrid #hiccstrid #snotlout #fishlegs #ruff and tuff #ruffnut #tuffnut #stoick #gobber #toothless #dragons! #riders of berk

[keingleichgewicht]

hey so... I was rewatching pafl videos and I realized Something... about the one "glitch" or whatever it is. Well I'm sure it's not a glitch but idk how to call it... the one in occam's razor. Where the lyrics for like half a second change to "I NEED YOU" I'm sure you know what I mean ahfdsbafjsdafds

WELL. What do you think about it??? I always thought it was related to Sanya, she was the "you" in this song, right? But Yura doesn't actually say it, it's more like... what's on his mind, at least in my opinion. So maybe it's not about Sanya at all. I thought about it and what if it's towards KT? I don't have any evidence for it besides the one relationship chart ferry posted way back when where Yura's relationship towards Katya is "I think I needed you", so it's just the same words that made me think about this. But also --- we know Yura is laserfocused on getting her back, right? And he can't let Sanya in. He wants to, but he can't. Or he doesn't think he can. So would he really think he needs her in that moment? Or is he desperately hoping that getting KT back will solve everything, everything will be right again, atleast for him. The world will still suck and he won't be happy, but he'll have Katya again. He needs her. She's all that matters right now.

idk just something I thought about and wanted to tell you since your pafl posts are always really cool and you probably think about it a lot afsdhbfaskdjnfasbafs

oh hell yes i know about i need you. AND THANK YOU for liking my pafl posts i like writing them >:)

and yes that chart is sure something...

there are several individual components of this i could get real emotional about (top scores go to 'mentor' and 'we can be friends') but 'i think i needed you' kind of tops them all, not least for its uncharacteristic sincerity, like, this is not a thing yura would in a million years ever be able to express to anyone else, no matter how true it is. he has had this problem since way before the story even starts: cynicism and apathy and irony and grief have closed him off from the world, and he can't actually open up to anyone, not even the people he already loves...

... except kt, who is the only person in this whole tale for whom yura can stop smiling, where his facade breaks down and he doesn't have to live this lie that's eating him from the outside in. in front of kt he can even cry! which never happens again, either! throughout all the progressively nastier and nastier things that happen after that point he never breaks down like that again, he just keeps bottling that shit up. sometimes we get that thousand-yard-stare from the end of pafl-the-song, or that immensely bleak expression he's got in occam's razor, but the rest of the time he just keeps smiling:

and it's VERY BAD to look at. CHRIST. the disease of irony. the terrible terrible cynical comedy of having brought it on yourself and knowing it. the fatal affliction that is being able to see the blunt stupidity of your own demise. and then also the facade, the carelessness, which goes hand in hand with recklessness, the way he can't do anything but destroy, because trying to save something instead would be admitting that he cared, would be setting himself up for a failure he cannot take

but something about kt... because she's so alien, because she's so far out of context, because she's seen straight through him already anyway.... something about katya means he can crack open and weep, which is a considerable achievement. he can finally achieve some kind of honesty about how miserable he really is, how little hope he feels, how much he does care and how much it does hurt.... and honesty doesn't fix everything but like they say, the first step is admitting you have a problem. and maybe this could have saved him! he wasn't doomed by nearly so wide a margin then as he is now; maybe she could have made the difference, like he and sanya were trying to make the difference for her

that's the other thing that's so fucking sad about 'i think i needed you," is the phrasing -- firstly that it's "i think," which is so tentative, so uncertain, the way it sounds like something about himself he's just beginning to figure out, which he is only just daring to say for the first time. and then also that it is in past tense. i needed you... but now you're here. now maybe things will be okay. maybe you got here in time. maybe we are going somewhere after all.

but..... you know!

and then after this whole miserable arc we come to occam's razor, the lowest point, and then the upswing, and I NEED YOU, which on some level sure I have usually figured is proooobably primarily about sasha. she is indeed the 'you' in this song, and she's the other thing occam's razor is about: how yura loves her in ways he can't show or admit, how he wants very badly to let her in or let her know but at this point he can't - and even if he could, he has started to believe it his responsibility not to, because letting her get close to him is only going to get her hurt. after all.... that's what happened to katya!

"it's a dead-end endeavour, it's time you understood... "

... the same way sergei understood, because sergei did, at the end of strike 3. he looked yura in the eye and said: get away from me and get away from the people i love. i cared about you once, i hoped i could help you, i see now there's nothing i can do. you are a dead end story and we will not be going down with you. you just keep crashing down! and at this point yura thinks he's fuckin' right! cutting him off is the smart move, it's the right thing to do, and he is tormented by the fact that sanya won't do it, and he can't bear to do it to her, the way he should, really, if he really cared for her, he would,

and after all sergei was his mentor, his friend, who taught him so much, and it's not exactly hard to tell that sergei lives his entire life for sanya, and yura is walking on the edge of destroying that. he is a time-bomb and he knows it but he can't bear to push her out of the blast range. hell of a way to thank someone, huh? hell of a way to show his gratitude for everything sergei did to him. this whole situation won't bring you any good... it's a wicked endeavour, i've always understood....

hmmm aughhhh occam's razor breaks my heart. like. he knows he's going down the wrong path! he knows it is cruel, he knows it is wrong, he knows that he is doing things he has no right to do, devil's work, idle hands, a dead end endeavour. he knows it won't end well for him, or indeed for anyone, but the thing is that he's never had any hope for the future, and he isn't about to start now. it isn't about the future, it's about now. "i need, therefore i am" is a present tense statement. he isn't trying for a future anymore; he's trying for anything that he can define himself against, any meaning he can cling to, any star to look towards, and he's so desperate for it that he'll throw everything else aside. i need, therefore i am. i need, you.

i think you're absolutely right that it's representing something he can't actually say, and that's why it flickers out like it does, because as soon as it crosses his mind he overwrites it, but it's still there, it is a truth he cannot actually escape. i also think you're absolutely right that it works for katya too! which is.... deeply fucking unsettling

the idea that, on some level, he's not even doing this out of guilt, or hate, or self-destruction, but out of raw and legitimate want: because right before he told kt he knew she was a mutant was the last time he's been able to drop this goddamn smile, and he's decided that he will give anything to have her back, so at least he can die with his face free of it. that implies a sort of.... hyperfocus that's terrifyingly believable for yura, really. it doesn't matter what anyone else wants, or who will be hurt - in fact it doesn't even matter what kt wants - but losing her hurt too much; he couldn't take it, he couldn't stand it, he needs to have her back. he has to make that hurt go away. and like a wolf with its foot in the trap he is perfectly willing to chew himself into pieces if that's what it takes to get out of there....

but also i think my ultimate conclusion about "i need you" is that it's not really about who he's talking to specifically. it could be sanya, it could be katya, it could be both, heck he could be talking to any number of people. (after all he also needs dima, in the same very uncomfortable sense that he also needed, say, the gun!)

the point really is just that he says it at all; or rather doesn't say it but it slips out, which is if anything more telling in the end. he backtracks, and he amends, and he seals his heart tighter - therefore I am, he says, turning it back to the first person, making it all about him, cutting everyone else out of the equation...

but ultimately he can't! as none of us can! man is not an island! we went over all this with sergei: none of us can do anything alone, it's just not how it fuckin' works, we don't actually get a choice about it. it's olya who's right: we all need someone By Our Side. (even dmitry did; for a minute there he was completely alone, it's true, but don't let's pretend it wouldn't have killed him if he hadn't found anya.) we all need somebody we can hold on to; no one is actually capable of standing alone

yura's so determined to be heartless - to be unwavering - occam's razor is all about him throwing himself off that edge, throwing away his broken heart rather than having to feel it bleeding, remaking himself as somebody willing to stop seeing other people as people (and, as terry pratchett says, evil begins when you start treating people like things.) he is determined to defined by nothing except what he needs, to exist only the first person, to chop everyone else out of the equation. and in a way he's succeeding, and i am terrified of what he is going to do because of it.... but it's also never going to fuckin' succeed! he can't actually cut sanya off or cut her free! he can't pretend to be heartless when he is doing this all ultimately for love of kt, and grief for the loss of her!

this cold-eyed creature here, this horrid shadow-edged thing he thinks he can become, it's just not him; it's not going to work out for him; it's a dead-end endeavour in itself. "i need therefore i am" is all first persons, but what it is eliding, what it is trying not to say, and what comes out anyway, is that what he needs is - like olya - still someone else

the mistake yura is making - okay, one of several mistakes - is thinking that he can escape hurting if he doesn't have a soul left to be hurt. that if he loves nothing and feels nothing and is unflinchingly ready to destroy or kill to get what he wants he can be free of pain: that it will be as simple as getting what he wants, or dying in the attempt (preferably very much not with a whimper, but with a blast.)

and the scariest thing is that in a very practical sense he is right, as in, it will make him capable of doing terrible things, it will quite possibly set him free, and it will probably kill him; but he is also deeply and miserably wrong, because you can't actually stop caring that easily. you can't stop feeling. and if he keeps chasing it like he is he's going to get the worst of both worlds, and he will have destroyed or pushed away everything he loved and everything that loved him, and he will still absolutely feel it

#pafl #parties are for losers #metatext #it speaks #for the record 'i will simply cut myself off and then i don't have to be afraid of losing you anymore' #is also very much The Mistake message lost is about regretting #which gives me Thoughts. yura and nikita certainly have parallels #and not to put too fine a point on it #nikita figured it out too late #also i was like gosh i really should finally reply to this ask it's a good one. like at least a SHORT thing i mean i DO have thoughts #just a SHORT LITTLE REPLY #JUST A LIL ONE THIS TIME #RIGHT GUYS????? #hmm. egeo ergo sum.... #anonymous #ask

[mazojo]

Winter 2021 Anime Opinions

As always its that time of the year I pretend to be an anime connoisseur and leave my review on this seasons anime so take it with a grain of salt asdfgh from the one I enjoyed the least to the most.

Wave!!: Surfing Yappe!! (TV)

You are seeing currently the only probably best thing about Wave asdfghj Tanaka bby I am SO sorry you got stuck here,,,,, Its bad because I had so many expectations for Wave but it just...... isn’t very good? The characters feel 2 dimensional, animation is veeeery average and the plot is all over the place? Dont even get me started on the Shou situation plot device that they just brushed over and went on with and,,,,,big sigh

Urasekai Picnic

To be honest is not very fair to compare this one to the rest as ive only watched the first 2 eps but ill catch up eventually asdfghj its not bad just that the plot didnt capture me as much as I hoped but the two main characters cutiess the plot just confuses me asdfgh but I don't have much to say about it

Yakusoku no Neverland 2nd Season

So uh anyways Chile I don't wanna talk about it the only reason this is not dead last is because RayEmma cute moments but yeah don't watch this clown show go read the manga for self care ✨

Jaku-Chara Tomozaki-kun

The only reason this is here is because she. The main girl I cant remember the name of sucks and main dude is very normal asdfgh the plot is basically “Want people to like you? change everything about yourself and become a normie robot!!!” ASDFGHJ Like its so over the top and cringe at times it becomes very confusing but hey I am not caught up either so I may change opinions (x doubt tho)

2.43: Seiin Koukou Danshi Volley-bu

From this point onwards I basically like everything. 2.43 Started suuuuper strong for me, definitely thought it would be one of my favs this season but as the eps went by I just.... kinda lost interest asdfgh? Like its not bad, but its a sort of mix between Stars Align and Haikyuu where I would have loved a more character based story with dark subplots like Stars Align but got the parts I always criticize about Haikyuu were there was a point I didn't really knew any of the characters? ASDFGH like the enemy team is super cool and Love their designs but if you ask me to tell you anything about them I already forgot rip. Its still cute and the animation is cool but yeah it kind of disappointed me in the end a bit ;w;

Shingeki no Kyojin: The Final Season

AOT Is so sexci because it keeps on hurting me and I come back every-time for it ASDFGHJ Not much to say that hasn't been said, characters are super interesting, plot is a bit confusing at times for me to follow but amazing and I just :))) could go on about certain characters :))))) but I wont :))))

Wonder Egg Priority

Wonder egg priority is very talked about right now so I wont get too much into it other than definitely give it a watch if you like the more philosophical and “makes you reflect on your life choices” sort of anime ASDFGHJ the visuals are stunning and the characters very well build, although I am very confused at times I am still enjoying it tons ^^ Trigger warning however for some heavy topics I recommend checking the warnings before watching it <3

Kemono Jihen

I LOVE THEM OKaY? asdfghjk Kemono Jihen gives me the found family topes and I eat them all right up, I love the characters , their designs, the plot, everything. To be fair tho, I did enjoy the manga more than the anime but maybe its a pacing thing? idk but I definitely recommend 100% taking on the manga and maybe after watch the anime but I am enjoying it tons!!

Kai Byoui Ramune

This one may come as a surprise lol?? Like I haven't seen a single soul talk about Ramune but like??? I am actually enjoying it a lot?? and look forward every week for the ep? asdfghj Like yes I will be the first to admit the animation isn't really the beeeeest out there but the plot is funny while also being serious, the characters are quirky and interesting to keep the flow going and I am liking the undertone heavy messages? the soundtrack also slaps imo and yeah I would definitely say to watch the first ep and if you like that sort of dynamic take it up on the rest!

I★Chu: Halfway Through the Idol

Okay I will be the first one to admit this is just me being trash for the idol shows but like?? its my list so I get to decide which found family I am screaming about next ASDFGHJ. As an avid A3 stan this gave me serious vibes of my boys (plus they were made form the same company so like not very surprised there loll) and like I think the characters are cute with adorable relationships and cute songs and its just a lighthearted show I sit down every Wednesday and smile through the 25 minutes so yes I Chu deserves a high spot and yes I recommend it even if it has like a 6.3 on myanimelist sksksks

Dr. Stone: Stone Wars

Look at Gen!!!! enough reasons to watch dr stone!!!! ASDFGH but in all seriousness I....... love them okAy? The plot is amazing and the characters are super entertaining (hiiii Ukyo Gen Senku and Chrome muak) and although it may seem a bit slower paced than first season the arc is gonna get better and better and the finale is gonna be great if they stick to the manga. Only sad that I dont get to see my pirate fuckboy but we better be getting a third season

Bungou Stray Dogs Wan!

when I say this is the happiness of all my Tuesdays I ain’t even exaggerating ASDFGHJ Does this have an important plot? no. Is it transcending to animation? not really. Is it BSD content I've been starving for? absolutely!!! Tbh I see my favorite anime characters in chibi version and I go feral, go watch BSD pogg!!

Horimiya

Me?? searching for that one gif of the side ship scene am obsessed over?? more likely than you think ASDFGH Horimiya holds a special place in my heart because it was the first manga I ever read and the nostalgia is stroNG,,,,,, The plot isn't anything really transcending but the way the characters are captured the feelings just,,,,,, stan!! Also Yuki x Tooru supremacy !

Skate-Leading☆Stars

Okaaaaay this is also me being a bitch for sports anime but like, again, are we surprised?? ASDFGHJ It may be my love for Hayato speaking but ive absolutely loves Skate Leading Stars, I love the group, the main characters, the ships, the routines and its so pretty and they are in love and like the competition and asdfgh its gOoD OKaY??? Watch it if anything for Hayato 👉🏻 👈🏻 My bastard bitch I love the gremlin.

Beastars 2nd Season

I think we are all sleeping on Beastars brushing it off as a furry show. I don’t speak enough about it and I am not one to go about poetic cinemaness on main but beastars is a very poetic cinema show and yall sleeping on it. Coming from someone who was uncomfortable at first with the whole animal relationships part at first, just know beastars is so much more than that, it has a complicated plot with critics about the society within the show with amazing characters, great soundtrack and animation plus banger plot. Pina, Jack, Juno and Legoshi best characters and every week I look forward for the next eps so I hope yall go give it some love.

SK8 The Infinity

If it wasnt clear from my spam every Saturday that I am absolutely in love with this show I dont know what to tell you ASDFGHJ. Sk8 has an amazing range of characters I find fascinating, specially Reki, very much so everything Reki asdfgh but yeah!! Its super entertaining with an interesting plot and its definetely becoming one of my favorite animes because the amount of times ive rewatched the episodes to cope is kind of embarrassing lmaooo, definetely give it a try although I understand its not for everyone but like,,,,, do it for Reki? 🤧👉🏻👈🏻

#wow I..... need to get new hobbies apart from being a weeb ASDFGHJ #I enjoy doing this asdfghj goodnight spoilers #long post #spoilers #i am not tagging all of it only the top ones because I dont wanna get shitted on for the lower ones ASDFGHJ #sk8 the infinity #beastars #skate leading stars #i chu halfway through the idol #horimiya #bungo stray dogs wan #Kai Byoui Ramune #dr stone

[tundrainafrica]

Hi Sav,

I want to ask your opinion about aot in general. We know that Aot is a good show and has great stories.

But, do you have any critiques on aot? I'd love to know...

Thank you in advance 😄

Thank you for the ask! I actually am a serial complainer so I LOVE LOVE LOVE answering things like this because I have complaints about a lot of things lmao.

At the same time though, I’m answering this as a Levihan fan.

Occasionally, I would see AOT material and feel this strange disconnect because I think I’ve read and written too much fanfiction that when I actually see AOT material, I’m like ‘wait oh right, Levi and Hange came from there....”

To answer your question though, here are my general complaints about ATOT as a whole.

The general reason why I kinda feel strongly about the story telling being REALLY weak towards the end is because AOT started strong. Like, I’m sure most people can agree that in the anime at least, or maybe in most parts of the manga as well. every panel, every scene HAD purpose, which adds to the overall quality of the writing and the pacing.

The plot twist and the change in genre was also built really well. Yams left enough to speculate and he also created this story where every scene had a purpose in building the overall plot, the plot twists were done incredibly well. He cleverly planted all the hints, most readers wouldn’t have been able to pick up which was created some really great rewatch value for the previous seasons.

Character death wise, he was also incredibly trigger happy but all of the deaths seemed to have had a purpose anyway so I wasn’t too salty about all the characters dying. And most important characters who died anyway, died for one reason, to introduce a villain or to signal an end of an age, or there was a huge build up/foreshadowing leading towards the death which made it stomachable.

Towards the end though, Yams wasn’t writing to actually build some plot twist anymore. He actually had to pull at the threads of every single plot point he planted and write some semblance ending.

No ending can satisfy everyone but for me, a quality ending is supposed to tie all the loose ends in some tight logic manner which Yams low key KINDA failed to do. This explains why when the purpose of writing ‘changed’ from setting up AOT for a major plot twist and a genre shift to actually tying all the loose ends, the quality of writing kinda diminished.

With the amount of questions left unanswered, I can’t help but think Yams was in a hurry to just end the damn thing. (But really, I’m not too blah about it, because the story telling and world building was great overall, it’s just the ending which left a lot to be desired. At least, it’s not ‘Game of Thrones’ BAD lmao)

Tight Story Telling

Story telling is supposed to have a purpose. Every scene, every death, every scene leading to the finale is supposed to have a damn purpsoe and literally, it’s been months and I still think about Hange’s death as one of the most pointless plot developments in AOT.

HANGE DIDN’T. THEY LITERALLY JUST DIED. And every day, I literally try to fathom why the hell, Yams had to kill her, and I have speculations about it. The strongest one being the fact that Yams didn’t know what to do with Hange towards the end of the show and he needed to kill someone to prove the gravity of the situation I guess. And I guess Hange was the best option since she was old or something or she was just so difficult to write that Yams decided to kill them?

And I dunno it just seems like an asspull.

And Hange’s death wasn’t built up at all. Like there were no signs, there was nothing, no character arc which could have made it stomachable so Hange’s death just seems like lazy writing to me tbh and I kinda take it slightly personally because most casual readers I know tend to gloss over Hange’s death?? Which kinda diminished Hange’s character as a whole

And I thought about who could have died other than Hange and I realized, no one was built up to die in that scene? Or there wouldn’t have been anyone in that scene who I would have been okay with dying? Which kinda points to the fact that maybe Yams just didn't prepare properly for that death scene?

Which brings me to my next point.

Consistency of Characters

If a character is prepared for greatness, it doesn’t make any damn sense to put them through shit and kill them in some anti climactic way (Like Circe in GOT style)

And at the same time, most people might not agree with me here but I guess it kinda doesn’t make sense for me to see Eren redeemed at the end for the sake of love? Or him having to do everything for the sake of JUST the love with Mikasa?

It makes sense, I have to admit, there were plot points which hinted to the really strong bond between Mikasa and Eren but destroying the whole world FOR Mikasa? All I’m getting from this is Eren is just some crazy psycho who is overly obsessed with a girl that he tries to destroy the world and his sacrifice was in vain anyway because the world was kinda messed up too.

I personally think it would have been way more stomachable if Yams just highlighted everyone as a whole instead? Like it seems much more believable for me to think that Eren reached points of irredeemable or maybe if Yams just highlighted the fact that Eren did it for EVERYONE, not just for Mikasa. Because I think with the way that Yams wrote it (putting emphasis on Eren’s relationship with Mikasa), most casual readers would gloss over the fact that Eren had no choice. If he didn’t do the rumbling, Paradis would have been overrun.

Mikasa being there and her relationship with Eren WAS built up from the start so it has some place in the ending. But to put it at the centerpiece instead of Eren’s relationship with the whole Paradis which would have kinda made Eren’s decision to just ‘genocide’ everyone make more sense.

Some parts of the ending kinda remind me of weathering with you and I have a lot of beef with that movie.

Which brings me to my next point:

Values Dissonance (????)

Whenever I read or finish something, the final question I ask myself is ‘so what? what is this piece of media trying to tell me?”

For AOT, I think the most glaring message is ‘the cycle of hatred always continues,’ but I don't think that the message was properly built up? Yams went through the love, the relationships and he highlighted them too brightly for me to even properly stomach the 'cycle of hatred' message as the main one.

It seemed like, towards the end he was jumping from one message to the other in a low key sloppy way and there was no consistent message in all of them.

What was Eren’s purpose? What was the purpose of his sacrifice? What was the purpose of the sacrifice everyone was making?

If Isayama’s whole intention was to tell us that the sacrifice was meaningless and the cycle of hatred continues, I feel like there were better ways to build this up than to dangle ‘love’ in front of us and as the centerpiece of the genocide and the finale before the extra pages in some way where it wasn’t even properly built up in the first place.

That 180 from 'okay Eren did all these stuff out of love’ which is kinda overly mushy and kinda crazy already mushy way and suddenly create this message like the ‘world is doomed, seems like a sloppily placed 'plot twist' to me. Like the type of plot twists authors just put to surprise the reader but it doens't seem well thought out in the first place.

Why highlight something as hopeful as love and make Eren start the war over it when you’re just going to create some major dissonance with a plot twist. Like with the values Yams was highllighting towards the end, I feel like it was a roller coaster with a lot of abrupt twists and turns and there was no time to really reflect on the overall message because he was highlighting too many opposing points at once with no clear thread connecting all of them

I don’t know if I make any sense here haha but yeah, those are my general complaints with AOT as a whole. Don’t get me wrong, I love AOT as a whole but I guess like all shows it has its flaws especially towards the ending.

And hey Yams, still made Levi and Hange and I think anyone who built a world complex enough to inspire others to write fanfiction and draw fanart is a good author either way.

Disclaimer: These are just my thoughts on what I remember from reading but I have been trying to forget a lot of the plot points so I can enjoy it again when the anime comes out. My thoughts might change depending on what I think after rewatching.

#attack on titan #hange zoe #hanji zoe #shingeki no kyojin

[moonykat]

lmao i used to have (1) fear that we'd never get peace over steve and bucky's abrupt separation. now i have (1) fear that they'll bring back steve only to make a point that he and bucky can no longer be friends bc they're too different and drifted apart. dlafha;lfdhd;afjda;sf mcu will never let us have peace over steve and bucky anymore. their hate is real. or they'll be ~friends but just like coworker acquaintances aljf;aldhfa;hf;adklfs. pls mcu just let us lick our wounds and peace out 😬

Dear god nony, why did you choose violence today 😭

But to be honest, I agree. Ignoring Endgame's version of Steve's ending was kind of easy because pretty much everyone agrees it was out of character and overall dumb af. I was fine, reading fics, rewatching the films, being aware that the Steve we all knew from the trilogy +IW would never do that, he would never leave his family behind, Wanda, Sam, Bucky. He wouldn't run away and hide in the past.

However, it has become a bit more difficult now with the release of the show. Because there we have Sam and Bucky not only acknowledging that Steve's not longer in the picture, but actually moving on (funny how we are supposed to believe Bucky would let Steve go just 6 months after losing him, but Steve couldn't get over Peggy after more than a decade) which, as I mentioned in a meta I wrote a while ago, is understandable. We (sadly) can't just ignore Steve's out of character decision, now Sam and Bucky have to deal with that. For Bucky though, I think the show didn't give his story with Steve a proper conclusion (what a surprise) if that's what they were going for in episodes 5 and 6. Are you telling me for real that after Steve being the most important person in his life and his anchor he would just move on after a conversation where he'stold he has to move on? Like, let's take his notebook as an example, the one thing he's got left besides the shield (which is now Sam's) and after completing his list of amends he just gives it to his therapist, and lol Steve's I threathen to kill a person if they dare touch it notebook who. I know it was meant to show he moved on, but that's exactly what I mean when I say that it was too easy, it wasn't properly explored in my opinion.

I don't think Steve will come back, and to be honest I really don't know how to feel about the possibility of his return. Part of me whishes both Steve's and Bucky's stories had been left untouched after EG, but hey Marvel's got to milk the cow. What's sad is, even in the comics Bucky and Steve haven't been separated permantly, like, ever. Bucky and Steve are still working together because it's almost imposible to have one without the other. And in the MCU it was kind of the same, there was no Steve without Bucky, no Captain America without The Winter Soldier. Except now there has to be a Bucky without Steve, and that's unknow territory because, like I mentioned before, even in the comics they haven't been separated permanently (fuck you Marvel). I am scared of them just fucking it up even more. I fear Marvel trying to erase Bucky's relationship with Steve completely, to play it off as if it was never as strong as we know it was. "He's just moving on" some people may say, but no. In real life, when you lose a person that important "moving on" doesn't mean simply forgetting about their existence and not mentioning them ever again, and knowing Marvel I'd bet my left arm that's what they are going to do in future Bucky projects. Again, fuck you Marvel.

My one and only comfort is that no one, not a single person, not even Marvel and their future decisions. Not even producers or writers choosing to take Bucky in a completetly different direction, not even if they somehow bring Steve back and mess everything up even more. No one will ever change the deep, strong, fierce love and devotion both Steve and Bucky felt for each other in the original trilogy. No one can take that away from us.

Their love was real, it was there, everyone saw it. Maybe some time in the future, when queer representation is something we no longer have to beg for, maybe they will get the happy ending they deserved.

#this got so long nony I am sorry but I have thoughts and you just opened Pandora's box #steve rogers #bucky barnes #stucky #anti endgame #catfa #catws #cacw #anon #bucky barnes meta #captain america meta #now I'll go cry

[my-personal-multiverse]

I saw your anti-Bangel I Will Remember You post, and if I remember correctly, didn’t Angel ask the powers to swallow the day because the Powers That Be told his Buffy was going to die? And him turning back time would either allow him to help her in the battle to come, or prevent her death entirely? Everyone is entitled to their opinion, but isn’t it about Angel being selfless and giving up the one thing he’s always wanted to keep Buffy safe and alive? Love you blog btw

I think that before that point he's already fucked up by even going to them to talk about all this without having talked to her first. That's the whole problem, he thinks it's up to him to protect her like a little child as though she doesn't deserve a say in the matter. All this concerns her. Even if they hadn't swallowed the day and just turned him back he still should have talked to her. Because he's making decisions that will severely impact their relationship and as such her life because he thinks he needs to protect her (which she has said he doesn't) without consulting her. Or even telling her. Like "hey Buffy I'm going to ask them to turn me back" "but angel then we can't be together why???" *insert bangel drama*. End in the end Buffy would have ended up agreeing with him if he had been like "I need to do this to protect the people" because she understands that. ( on top of all this there's the fact that angel simultaneously is like "can't be with Buffy as a human because I need to be a strong vampire to protect her and would only get in the way" and also "can't be with Buffy as a vampire because she needs a normal human guy and life" like should Buffy just stay single forever.) 

I think one of the reasons I am so incredibly mad at angel in this episode and this episode as a whole is that it starts with this conversation:

(I took the dialog from the transcripts wiki because I didn't want to have to rewatch the entire thing myself.) 

Angel: "Well, umm, it's good to.. Can I get you anything?" 

Buffy: "How about - an explanation? - Who do you think you are coming to my town and following me around behind my back?" 

Angel: "I'm sorry." 

Buffy: "What is this? (...)" 

... 

"(...) What are we playing here?" 

Angel: "We're not. I'm not playing anything. I wrestled with this decision.." 

Buffy: "Which you made without me." 

(this line is so important to me. They start the episode with this and then instead of really exploring this and maybe dealing with the persistent problem in Buffy and angels relationship where he doesn't allow her to make these choices or communicate with her they just ignore this and let him continue to do the same bullshit she calls him out for and then try to make it romantic. Wtf) 

Angel: "I tried to do what I thought was right. It's complicated how this all happened, Buffy, you know? (...)" 

... 

Buffy: "You didn't feel that I was important enough to even tell me that you were there." 

Angel looks at her: "I'm trying to explain. It's because I felt that you're important that I didn't tell you."  (what are you on about angel?? "I don't tell you things because I care. I go behind your back because I care." what kinda Kindergarten "he's mean because he likes you" bullshit is this) 

Buffy: "I'm a big girl now, Angel. I'm not in High School anymore. A lot has happened in my life since you left." 

Angel: "I know. I respect that." ( maybe show that by not doing the same thing again angel) 

Buffy: "And I don't need you skulking around, trying to protect me. (...)" 

I really don't know how much clearer she could be. Don't make choices behind my back trying to protect me. She literally traveled to LA to tell him this. That's how much it bothered her. 

Also the fact that he leaves while she's sleeping without telling her. Like yes he is human now and the curse isn't in effect but that doesn't change the fact that she has trauma about sleeping with guys and them not being there in the morning. He might not know about Parker but he knows what happened the last time they slept together and he can't be that oblivious to how that affected her and how him just leaving in the night without waking her or even leaving a fucking note is just fucked. It's fucked. And if he really doesn't understand this he doesn't understand her and lacks basic fucking empathy.

Buffy: "Where is Angel?" 

(some back and forth) 

Cordy with a sigh: "He told me not to tell you." 

What the fuck angel?? Not just not telling her but explicitly telling others to not give her information and keep her out of the loop.???. That isn't some oversight oops I forgot that is an active choice to keep her in the dark about things and not allow her any agency to make choices. 

(side note: I generally love cordy but "(...) And anyway, it's your fault that he went to fight that thing by himself without..". Yeah no. Don't go blaming Buffy for angels choices. She's not responsible for any of this. She didn't make this choice. Angel made sure of that.) 

And about the oracles 

Angel: "The Mohra demon said the end of days had begun. That others were coming, soldiers of darkness. I need to know if he was telling the truth."

Man: "As far as such things can be told." 

(super vague and literally my point. "as far as such things can be told" nothing is written in stone. Prophecy gets misinterpreted. It is not fact.) 

Angel: "What happens to the Slayer when these soldiers come?"

Woman: "What happens to all mortal beings. Albeit sooner in her case."

Angel: "She'll die? - Then I'm here to beg for her life." 

(she was prophecied to die and survived it before. Like you can't take any of this at face value. And she gets brought back the next time too and him being or not being a vampire has nothing to do with it) 

The Oracles turn and walk away: "It is not our place to grant life or death."

Angel: "And I ask you to take mine back. (The oracles stop walking and turn back to him) Look I can't protect her or anyone this way, not as a man."

Woman: "You're asking to be what you were, a demon with a soul, because of the Slayer?"

(they don't say shit about him needing to be a vampire to save her life or him being able to better protect her or him being able to avoid her death if he isn't human. He makes that assumption. And they are just mildly intrigued by the whole situation but they are not saying he's right) 

Man turns to leave again: "Oh, this is a matter of love. It does not concern us."

Angel: "Yes, it does. The Mohra demon came to take a warrior from your cause - and it succeeded. I'm no good to you like this. I know you have it in your power to make this right. Please." 

(they consider doing it after he let's them know that he will also be no good to the powers that way. But this is unrelated to Buffy and this is the thing that then makes them think of a way to do it. Because they realize him being a vampire is good for them. Not Buffy. Yes Buffy is his motivation but they just vaguely talk around it and never confirm to him that as a vampire he can save her life. He just wants to believe that because it fits into his martyr complex. And again. He can't actually save her as a vampire. ) 

So basically I hate angel in this episode and I hate that the episode frames all of his bullshit as romantic. 

But thank you for the question anon. Ranting about angel is very cathartic for me. 

#buffy #btvs #buffy the vampire slayer #buffy summers #angel the series #i will remember you #anti bangel

[pynkhues]

Hey! Someone made a post just before rewatch today, and while they’ve deleted it now (although I was sent a screenshot of it, so I suspect others might have been too), I know most people who do rewatch have probably seen it and I would like to talk about the context of it.

Feel free to ignore this post, because it’s definitely personal fandom drama, and something I wish could’ve stayed private, but it’s also something that’s weighed heavily on me the last six months and I feel the need to talk about it now because quite frankly I’m being lied about. Those lies are something that has substantially contributed to me pulling away from the fandom over the last six months, posting less fics and answering less asks. Hell, it’s even made me contemplate deleting my blog and fic and leaving the fandom a few times now, and I just really need to get it off my chest so that I can hopefully put it behind me.

There’s a person in this fandom who’s been more or less relentlessly lying about me for the last six months. It’s somebody who has subtagged, gaslit, boycotted, and spread lies in DMs, public posts and tags, and while I won’t name them, I don’t think it’ll be particularly difficult for anyone to work out who this is.

She’s accused me often and tirelessly of calling her a bitch, which never happened and I have the screenshots of our chats to prove it, calling me (as a person) and my opinions shit publicly on her blog (again, I have screenshots of this), accused me of harassing her (after our friendship deteriorated, we had two dm conversations before I blocked her because of her aforementioned lying), telling everyone she blocked me when it’s the other way around (and I’m shocked she doesn’t remember relentlessly tagging about that after it happened too), and accusing me of policing fandom opinion. Her friends have called me in private DMs a ‘master manipulator’ and ‘disturbing’ and ‘exclusionary’ and accused me of playing the victim when all I’ve done is tried to keep my mouth shut or reach out to smooth things over (although again, I’ll admit when all this started back in August, I struggled with the former, but I haven’t subtagged in months, a courtesy that has not been extended back to me).

I originally fell out with this person because I told her I was struggling in the midst of Melbourne’s 111 day lockdown – one of the harshest in the world – and needed a break from the negative tone of her posts and tags (something I told her after she slid into my DMs to ask why I unfollowed her, not a conversation I ‘harassed’ her with, again, I have screenshots, so I’m not sure why she’s lying about this). I told her this wasn’t necessarily an unfollow forever, just for right now, and she told me she still considered us friends. Within hours, I was rewarded with my effort to protect my increasingly-fragile mental state with a relentless effort on her part to vilify me and victimize herself which after a few weeks led to me blocking her.

Every olive branch I’ve extended by including her in fic recs and even today’s thank you for the rewatch banner has been snarled at and twisted (the irony too of knowing that if I left her off that banner, it would be seen as an erasure and an attack). She’s painted me as a performative, two-faced bitch while having the audacity of accusing me of calling her the same, which I have never done. The most I have ever accused her of is behaving badly, which quite frankly, I stand by.

I am exhausted.

And for the record, I don’t know this because I stalk her blog. I see her posts still in reblogs (blocking only removes from your feed - if you check people’s blogs, you can see the reblogs of people you blocked), and numerous people send me screenshots of the things that she says that are clearly about me.

I’m not talking about this now for any sort of witch hunt or pity, I just want her to stop, for all of our sakes. It might be beating a deadhorse at this point for me to repeat this, but it has been six months now, and the thing that was supposed to preserve my mental health has instead set off this chain of nightmare events. All I wanted was space and for her to have an ounce of accountability for her negativity, and what I’ve gotten is relentless lies spread about me and harassment (which is fucking ironic given she’s just accused me of the same when literally the only way I’ve even acknowledged her in the last few months was in a fic rec and today’s banner).

I just needed to get this off my chest, because existing in this fandom and trying to hold my tongue while she’s made post after post and sent message after message in an effort to shape a narrative around me simply because I unfollowed her and then blocked her, has been really fucking hard for me. I’ve tried to keep this private, because I didn’t – and still don’t – believe it should concern anyone else in this fandom, but again, this is not a courtesy that’s been extended back to me, and the thought that she will just keep doing this (which she has proven - again - six months, and that’s not including the times I tried to talk to her about it before I unfollowed her) is just really, really exhausting. 

I guess the point of saying all of this is that I’m tired of letting her spread lies about me in thinly veiled posts, I’m tired of her saying that nobody includes her and then posting nasty shit about me when I try to simply acknowledge her as a contributor to this fandom, I’m tired of her twisting things that are supposed to be fun and good into another way that I’m a performative, two-faced bitch, and she’s trying to like - - escape my clutches? I don’t know. The mythology of her lies has evolved a lot over time. 

Mostly though I’m tired of letting her have power over me, because I’ve let her spread lies and ignored it in the hopes of making the space better for everyone else, but honestly? It’s making it worse for me.

So there, I’ve said my piece. I know she’s already been successful in changing some people’s opinions of me, and who knows, maybe they’ll see this and question some of what she’s told them, maybe they’ll just see this as me playing the victim again, I don’t know, the latter is certainly not my intent. 

I just wanted to defend myself, because I think I deserve that. 

Here’s the screenshot of her post today if you want it: 

And oh, here’s just one of the posts she made after I blocked her in August. There were and are a lot more, but I don’t feel any desire to share those. I’m just using this of evidence of just one of her lies and some of the shit she’s said about me.

I’m over it.

#honestly i hate that i had to make this post #and i hate that i kept these screenshots when people sent them to me #but when it became apparent that she was lying and changing the truth to suit her narrative as frequently as she was #my risk management brain kicked in #that's what i get for working in whs policy so much haha #anyway #this is a shit post #and i took 0 pleasure in writing it #but she ruined the last rewatch for me #with that post #and i'm tired of letting her have power over me #people might think i'm being oversensitive #but please remember this has been six months #it's like that torture technique of dripping water #and yeah okay #it's her own blog and she can write what she wants~ #but this is my blog #and i can write what i want too #and today i want to write this #today i choose to stand up for myself

[titan-fanatic]

If you had the power to create a proper Season 6 and even greater access to DCU lore at your behest, what would you have done? Also (Gives you a virtual hug in light of recent events to hopefully comfort you), I'm for you buddy if you need anything

Hey! Thank you for sending me this! I've been thinking a lot about this ask and here's what I have to say.

I love the Teen Titans cartoon with all my heart, everyone who follows me knows this. It's still my favorite show of all time and Starfire is my favorite character in all media. However, every time I rewatch the show I can't help but notice that Starfire is a very static character. Yes, she does go through some changes, but for the most part she stays the same. This doesn't affect her likability at all; she's still a very adorable, beautifully well-written character with a lot of depth in my opinion, but overall she has the least amount of growth out of all Titans, and this is 100% because she wasn't given her own season.

So, if I had the power to create a season six I would absolutely dedicate it to her. I would give Starfire an arc that explored not just who she is as we see her in the show, but why and how. I think it's easy to look at Starfire and think "oh, she's a very simple character," but I honestly don't think that's true, even without her arc. She's someone who can see the good in everyone; someone who refuses to give up on people nor let them bring down her morality. It doesn't matter if you're a racist jackass who deserves to be left behind in a minefield to be blown to shreds, she will not leave you behind. That's a very powerful quality and it takes a lot of strength. (And I'm not talking about the physical kind, which we all know she has.)

I'm not really into comic books so I'm not too familiar with how things are in the original comics, but I know she goes through a lot of really messed up shit and I wish we would've had more of her backstory incorporated into the show besides just the episode 'Go!'. If I could, I'd go a little more into detail about the things she went through before she became a Titan.

Obviously Blackfire would be the main antagonist because, like Starfire, she has A LOT of potential and I don't think she was explored nearly enough. I'm not too sure of the details so I don't know how exactly it would play out, but Blackfire would probably want to take revenge on Starfire for overthrowing her reign as empress and banishing her from Tamaran, so maybe she'd team up with the gordanians and they'd plan an attack on Earth. The Titans would discover this and, just as they did in Season 5, they'd rally all the honorary Titans together again to prepare for the upcoming battle. As the season progressed we'd learn more about Starfire and her relationship with Blackfire as both sides prepared for war, and it would all lead to one big, final showdown at the end of the season with Starfire landing the winning blow.

Of course I'd have this season take place right after Trouble in Tokyo, so Robin and Starfire would already be an established couple. But I really want this season to focus on Starfire's character, not her relationship with Robin, so their relationship would just be a minor part of the plot rather than the whole point of the story.

So basically, if I could make a season 6 I would give Starfire the arc she rightfully deserved but was robbed of. I honestly believe she would be a much more popular character if the writers would have given her a story arc in the OG series and I'll never get over how unfairly she was treated.

And thank you for the virtual hug 💞💞💞 I appreciate it!!

#teen titans #starfire #robin #save season 6 #this was a long response im so sorry lol