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sister-lucifer · 2 years

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“Can I ride you until I feel better?”

Demon brothers x Reader (Separately)

You’ve had an awful day, and you ask him if you can ride him until you feel better. How does he react?

Reader is gender neutral

Content/Warnings: Riding, mentions of cockwarming, pre established relationships

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Lucifer

When you first sulked into the room, clearly unhappy, he admittedly was a bit annoyed

But instead of whining to him like his brothers would, you walked over to his desk and crouched beside him, resting your chin on his knee

“Yes, darling?”

“Lucifer, I had a bad day…”

“I could pick up on that.”

“Can I ride you until I feel better?”

He froze immediately

At first he thought it was some weird joke, but when you didn’t laugh he realized you were very serious.

He could feel his face go hot, but he tried to keep himself calm and collected

He thought for a moment, then sighed, scooting back from his desk just enough to make room for you and patted his lap

“Alright, my love. But I hope you know I’m not going to be taking a break from my work, which means you’ll have to do the heavy lifting.”

And if you’re okay with that, feel free to ride him for as long as you’d like

And when you’re done, stay on his lap for a bit longer and keep his cock warm for him

If you do, he might just reward you when he’s done working

Mammon

“Maaaammoooon!”

“What d’ya want, human?!”

He was certainly not in the mood to be barged in on. He was trying to look through a catalogue, this was very important!

But when you flopped down onto the bed with a whine, he could tell you felt bad

“Hey, what’s the matter, doll face? Ya look down.”

“Bad day…”

“Ah, I see. So you want The Great Mammon’s help, huh?”

He wrapped an arm around you and pulled you in close, allowing you to whisper in his ear

“I wanna ride you ‘til I feel better…”

His eyes went wide, and his brain might’ve shut down for a second

“Oh…”

Soon, his flabbergasted expression is replaced with a sly smirk as he pulls you into his lap.

“Of course you can, babes! The Great Mammon is always here to help.”

Leviathan

He was playing a video game in his room when you knocked on his door. He was at first annoyed at the disturbance, but when he realized it was you he was ecstatic

“Hello my player two! I’ve been waiting for you, I…hey, what’s wrong?”

“Had a bad day…”

“Oh no! C’mere, sit with me! I’ll make you feel better.”

He pat the bed next to him before returning his attention to his game, rambling about the current storyline or side quest he was one

But he was promptly cut short when you put a hand on his chest

“Levi, can I ride you until I feel better?”

Levi.EXE has stopped working

Red in the face, sweating buckets, heartbeat in his ears

“Uh…Haha! That’s a funny joke, player two! Haha..hah…wait, are you serious?!”

“If you don’t want to, Levi—“

“NO! I-I mean—no, I want to!”

He’ll try to focus on his game at first, but he gives in so easily

By the end of it his controller will be discarded on the floor while he whines into the crook of your neck

Satan

He was reading a book in his room when you came in

He immediately sensed something was off, even before you flopped face first down onto his bed with a groan

”What’s the matter, dear?”

”Today was awful…”

“Aw, I’m sorry, love. Can I help?”

You didn’t reply at first as you snuggled up next to him, making him chuckle under his breath.

“Mm…can I ride you until I feel better?”

He’s taken aback by the request at first, wondering for a moment if you really said that, but once he processes the words he merely gives you a smile

“Is that what you need, dear?” He coos as he pulls you in close.

“Alright then, come on, I’m all yours.”

Asmodeus

He was doing his makeup when you entered his room, and he saw you behind him in the mirror

“Oh hello, sweetheart! Finally back, I see. Hey, what’s with the face? Frowning will give you wrinkles!”

He got up to wrap you in a hug, stroking your hair and inquiring about your problem

“I had a bad day…”

“Aww, baby, c’mere.”

He leads you to the bed and is already sitting you on his lap

Just when you go to ask him, he beats you to the punch

Thats the best thing about dating Asmo; he always knows exactly what you need

“Wanna ride me? It’ll make you feel better.”

Your answer is a resounding yes

And Asmodeus isn’t stopping until you’ve forgotten all your worries

Beelzebub

He was munching on whatever he dug out of the fridge when you came into he and Belphie’s shared room

Luckily Belphie was out at the time—probably napping in the living room or the attic—which meant you could be alone with your boyfriend

“Today was terrible, Beel…”

“Oh, I’m sorry. Wanna bite?”

It was a poor attempt at comfort, but the fact that he was trying made you smile

“No thank you, Beel. I want something else…”

He had just shoved the rest of his snack into his mouth when you climbed on top of him

“Can I ride you until I feel better?”

He almost choked

But when he realized you were serious, he couldn’t refuse

“If that’s what you want, but…why not let me do the work? It’ll help you relax more, I think.”

Belphegor

He was roused from his nap when he heard you coming up the attic stairs

Normally he would sleep through the noise, but for some reason you always managed to wake him

“Belphie, are you asleep?” You whispered as you creaked the door open

He was, in fact, not asleep

“What’s up?”

“I…had a bad day today…”

That was all the explanation he needed before he was making room for you to lay beside him

You snuggled in close, letting him wrap his arms around you before you whispered your request in his ear

“Belphie, can I ride you until I feel better?”

Belphegor loves when you ride him; he doesn’t have to do any work! He’s totally on board

He’s not doing anything more than he already is besides turning over onto his back though

Don’t worry, he’ll still get the job done

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dark-frosted-heart · 4 months

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The Beast's User Manual - Clavis (His POV)

CLAVIS YOU ABSOLUTE CUTIE

As usual, can’t guarantee 100% accuracy on this

In front of my fiancee, I’ve always considered myself to be an elegant, magnificent, joyful, and loving gentleman.

If Emma feels even an ounce of unhappiness, it’s the loving gentleman’s disgrace—

I plan to keep working hard at it every day.

(It’s that time already…)

I’ve been holed up in my room dealing with documents for several hours already—

After the usual breakfast with Emma, briefing with servants, waking Chevalier up, time slipped away as I got to work.

As I moved to relax my body, which had become stiff after sitting in a chair for so long, a wave of sleepiness hit me.

(Perhaps I’ve been pushing myself to hard lately)

(It’s been a fruitful time, but I still haven’t gotten enough sleep)

(I have a meeting later…I can afford a short break)

I stumbled over to the sofa and sat down, sensing that I’m at my limit with the yawn I let out.

I removed my ascot tie, loosened my collar, and lied down.

(Still, the situation’s calmed down considerably…)

~~ Flashback ~~

Clavis: Several jewelry dealers are scheduled to have dinner with us today. We’re having a small party, but what do you think will happen when we show off our love?

Emma: I think you can get the message across without having to show off.

Clavis: Yes, they’ll definitely pay us tribute. At any rate, the purpose of the company’s for me to arrange export destinations. I wonder how much jewelry will be collected to gain my favor. I’ll arrange a deal with the one whose jewelry best suits your taste as an honor to the winner.

~~ Flashback End ~~

Originally, the party with the jewelers was a strategy for Emma to gain footing.

(Jewelers' customers are mainly nobles…)

(The information they see and hear spreads among other nobles)

(The more favor shown, the better the nobles’ attitudes toward Emma will be)

(Nothing wrong with taking measures)

(I also wanted to use that as an excuse to show off my cute fiancee)

~~ Flashback ~~

Merchant: I’ve heard rumors, but it looks like the real deal, Your Highness.

Clavis: Yes. Go home with that image of our wonderful bond seared into your memory.

Merchant: As you say. However, Your Highness must have a lot on your mind…

Clavis: Oh, what sharp ears you have?

Merchant: In our line of work, you’ll need to be well-informed or you’ll miss out on huge profits. His highness comes from a prestigious line that has served the Michel family for generations… I’ve heard that the head of the family is making some kind of move.

Clavis: What, it’s just some stubborn old man trying to play games with me. However, it’s not my intention for my fiancee to hear about this.

Merchant: Of course I’m aware of that. There’s already been rumors going around about Your Highness and the head of the family… People always want fresh rumors. I’ll do my small part to help. This is not just a quarrel between Your Highness and the head of the family… The huge profits coming from paying tribute to Lady Emma are what we merchants are after.

Clavis: Haha, you’re very competent. I also like to choose my business partners carefully, but I think I can work well with you. Can I expect great things…?

~~ End flashback ~~

(That party went well. Doesn’t look like Emma noticed anything was amiss)

(After all, there’s always troubling rumors when it comes to women related to royalty…)

(I can’t forgive such rumors that would wipe Emma’s smile away)

~~ Flashback ~~

Emma: Mhmm…All these sweets are just to my taste!

Emma: Their signature “Rabbit and Leopard love explosion cake” in particular is the tastiest…

Clavis: I see, I see. It was worth asking the owner for some privileges as an investor.

Emma: Ah, so it was Clavis’ idea after all.

Clavis: Haha. I didn’t think you’d notice. Your power of love never ceases to amaze me.

Emma: You’re just easy to understand. Hehe…I’m really fortunate.

Clavis: Hm?

Emma: With you, there’s always something going on every day, but I’ve never felt unhappy. Thank you always, Clavis.

~~ Flashback end ~~

(It’s my duty to protect that smile…)

(Both as a gentleman and as her fiance. I don’t want to be a useless man that causes her trouble)

Suddenly, my eyes landed on a rabbit plushie I had left on the table.

With this I could use as a substitute for Emma for when she’s not by my side.

I reached out for the rabbit and hugged it close as I fell asleep.

I’d be dead if anyone were to see me like this, but this room’s a safe space protected by a lock and key.

(Emma…)

(I wonder if you still feel fortunate at this moment…)

(...)

(...Mn…)

???: -vis…

(Wha…I think I hear…something)

(No…I’m still half asleep)

(Is it time…for the meeting already?)

(But…the bell hasn’t rung yet…)

Clavis: Nn…It’s not…time yet…

(I’ve been pulling a lot of all-nighters…lately…)

(Outside the rumors and the investments…there’s still more to do…)

(And…huh…)

(...)

Clavis: *yawn* I’m…sleepy…I’ve had enough, good night…

(I don’t want to…wake up…)

(...)

(...Mn…)

(That…scent…)

(Smells like Emma…)

(If…)

(If anyone could enter this room…it’d be Emma…)

(...)

(?!)

It took only a moment for me to wake up from my nap.

When I opened my eyes, I saw Emma right there, smiling at me.

Clavis: …

Emma: G-good morning…

Clavis: …

Emma: Are you still half asleep?

The moment I realized what was going on, I got to my feet.

I hurriedly grabbed my ascot tie hanging on the back of the couch and composed myself as I tied it.

(Damn it, I’m such an idiot…)

(I gave Emma the key to my room)

(If Cyril came calling for me and I didn’t respond, then he would’ve asked Emma for help…)

I casually stuff the rabbit into a corner of the sofa.

Clavis: Emma…

Emma: Yes?

Clavis: What did you see?

Emma: Your sleeping face.

Clavis: Did I say anything strange?

Emma: You said something cute.

Clavis: …I see …

I couldn’t put on my usual smile and hid my face with a hand.

(I talked in my sleep, and she probably saw the rabbit too…)

(...I feel like dying)

Somehow, my face felt hot enough to boil water.

Emma: Are you, by any chance, embarrassed?

Clavis: Haha, there’s no way. It’s just that, you know… Yes, I thought it strange for you to sneak into my room without permission.

Emma: Hehe…You prank me often.

I thought I’d return the favor.

Clavis: I see…you got me

(I never thought someone would try to get revenge at this point…)

(My cool front’s now ruined, isn’t it?)

(Does she think I’m cute or something…? It’s okay, really)

When the heat somewhat subsided, I removed my hand from my face.

Emma’s eyes weren’t filled with disappointmentーThey were sparkling.

Emma: And it’s my dream to become a Clavis master.

Clavis: Hm? What’s with that amusing title?

Emma: It’s a title reserved for those that you know ins and outs, and can hold the reins.

It was a great learning experience today to see Clavis after you woke up from your nap.

Clavis: …

(If you say so, then you’ve already become a master)

(Because you’re the only one that has me completely wrapped around your finger)

Emma: By the way, Clavis. Here.

Emma pointed at a spot above my ear and I quickly smoothed that spot down.

I felt the bounciness of my bedhead and wanted to jump into a hole.

Emma’s shoulders shake and she looks down as if she couldn’t hold back anymore.

(Well if Emma’s enjoying herself then it’s not so badー)

(ーNOT. I need to fix this as soon as possible)

Clavis: That’s a good attitude, my dear fiancee. I like your courage to prank me as part of your journey to becoming a master.

However…

I grabbed her hand and sat her on the sofa before pinning her down.

In the same way, I’ve mastered Emma.

I think about her all hours of the day.

In this case…I could think of one or two tricks.

Clavis: You should be more careful.

It’s too naive to be satisfied with a prank. You have to expect payback.

I kissed Emma’s forehead before sliding my lips down to her cheek and then jaw, turning her face a bright red.

(Good…)

Continuing my attack, I placed a hand on her smooth leg and let it crawl upward.

I fiddled with her skirt, which had hiked up from me pushing her down.

Emma: C-Clavis…It’s almost time for the meeting!

Clavis: I know.

Emma: But your hands are still wandering…!

Clavis: Thanks to you, I woke up ahead of schedule. I have plenty of time to tease you.

(If I want to call myself an elegant, magnificent, joyful, and loving gentleman, I’ll need to forget what just happened)

Any protest is silenced by a kiss.

This usually sweeps Emma awayーor so it would seem.

However, just as our lips parted, my cheeks were caught between her hands and pulled back in.

(Wha…)

Emma took the lead and kissed me. It wasn’t a sweet peck, but an adult kind with a lot of tongue.

I was taken aback, not expecting this kind of retaliation.

Emma: Don’t underestimate me.

I’ve been poisoned by you to the point that Cyril side-eyes me.

(...)

(Ah…Forget it)

(In front of such a lovely thing, my mistakes are not important)

Clavis: When did you get so good at handling me?

Emma: Hehe, does that mean you approve?

Clavis: Yes, I’ve lost.

(Emma is so much better than me)

Emma: You can leave yourself to me.

With Emma, my fatigue’s washed away by happiness.

(At the end of the day…I’m working for myself, not my lovely fiancee.

(To make this happiness eternal…)

(Let’s go the extra mile)

#ikemen prince #ikepri #ikepri jp #ikepri translation #ikepris summary #clavis lelouch #ikepri clavis

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alexiethymia · 6 months

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Hi, love your blog ❤️ especially your analysis on Jinshi and MaoMao. I have read LN till around volume 9 plus manga and I don't have any problem with spoilers.

Can you list all Jinshi X MaoMao moments? Like from volume 10 to whichever volumes you have finished...?

You see, as much as I love other characters, I'm mainly reading it to see my favourite ship sail, i.e. JinshiXMaoMao ✨ so if there are any great shipping moments in future chapters please list them, I'll give it a go. Thank you so much, really loved your char analysis ✨. This gem of a story is not discussed enough!

I can’t recall everything entirely, and the web novel I’m sure will differ from the light novel. But here are a few.

Some of the moments which I loved where when Jinshi asked to hold Maomao’s hands interlacing like in a lover’s hold. From what I read, he sort of marked her middle finger. Maomao later gets embarrassed after the fact. I’m not sure if it’s because she thinks everyone else saw them or because of the mark.

The moment I mentioned in my post was I think the end of LN 12? And also the end of WN 10 if I’m not mistaken. Maomao goes to Jinshi on her own. They end up hugging on the floor and she ends up falling asleep on him. He brings her to his bed (like the time she saved him during the ritual), and kisses her forehead for replenishment.

The recent WN arcs are quite interesting since Maomao has accepted his feelings and in her words, they’re now in a relationship (though of course as characteristic of Maomao she’s still cool towards him). There’s one interesting chapter about a night visit (haha) though nothing happens. In other words Jinshi is restraining himself. But surprisingly! It’s Maomao who’s being a bit forward now. At the end of the recent chapter in the recent arc, Jinshi is stopping himself from touching Maomao because he’ll want to hug her tight (and bite and lick her too, gosh does this man not get embarrassed at all??) and Maomao ends up tracing her finger down the back of his wrist up until his middle finger (maybe as payback to what he did in the Western Capital?) and I don’t know about you but it reads to me as her teasing him, though I might warn her from provoking him too much haha. (But then again maybe Maomao does want something to happen).

It’s also sweet to hear her inner thoughts after the night visit that she was both relieved and disappointed nothing happened and that she wants to both see him and not see him. It’s interesting to see her maybe unsure, and perhaps also a bit restless when Jinshi doesn’t call on her. Because this time she’s the one who asks Chue to call Jinshi to contact her. And finally the piece de resistance, when she wants help with something involving her Joka nee-chan, she thinks about someone she can trust, and the only face that comes to her mind is Jinshi. Arghh my heart. For this wary cat to realize how much she really trusts Jinshi. And perhaps her taking this step in accepting his feelings is her way of showing belief in his words that he will make it so she doesn’t regret them being together.

And oh! I loved the mother and daughter-in-law talk. For Aduo to finally reveal the truth to Maomao since she sees how serious the both of them are getting, for Aduo to compare herself to Maomao, for Aduo to offer her a chance to escape even if it would make her son unhappy (Chue actually interjects here! Because Aduo ordered her to make his son happy and Chue can’t accomplish that mission with Maomao gone, gah my heart. Chue the captain of the Jinshi x Maomao ship), and despite that chance and learning the truth, for Maomao to gain the resolve to stay (with Jinshi) anyway. They really have come so far.

#kusuriya no hitorigoto #knh #the apothecary diaries #knh spoilers #jinmao #maomao x jinshi #asks

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hyenahunt · 2 months

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Obbligato: The Devotion to Tatsumi Kazehaya - 13

Writer: Akira

Season: Spring, three years ago

Characters: Kaname, Tatsumi, Jun

Proofreading: Remi + 310mc (JP) & honeyspades (ENG)

Translation: Peace & hyenahunt

Tatsumi: The root of all misfortune lies in inequality and injustice. They are the root of all unhappiness. That is why they must be corrected.

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Kaname: ... I feel the same as Sazanami. If the fame and shine doesn't belong to my own name, then there's no point to it.

But... Still, it seems as if "Tatsumi Kazehaya" is doing well for itself.

Maybe I should learn from it. Throw away this pride of mine and ensure success through that.

All so I can become the sparkling idol I've always dreamed of being.

Tatsumi: Haha. If you so wish, then we are able to help you in a number of ways. We offer idol practices, studies, and can even help you find work — all free of charge.

In fact, I pay everyone who comes to one of my gatherings an equal part of my own wages.

Kaname: What do you mean...?

Tatsumi: You see, I have no interest in money. All of the money that "Tatsumi Kazehaya" accumulates is thus given out in equal shares to those gathered here.

No matter how much you've done, or what you've helped with, you're given the same amount of pay as the person next to you.

Hence, I've asked them to help me with the work I've received as much as possible.

Kaname: Are you for real? You're the one paying them?

It isn't the other way around? They're only managing to catch rays of the limelight because of you, aren't they? And yet... you're paying them?

Tatsumi: That's right. I likened it to a company, didn't I? Anyone who becomes a part of "Tatsumi Kazehaya" is offered the same regular pay as everyone else within it.

It's only natural to reward those who work a reasonable sum, isn't it? I would never ask someone to do my work for free.

Such a thing would be against our doctrine— nay, against human decency itself.

Jun: Ohhh, I get it now... I see just why these guys don't care for working on their own and are perfectly content just being "Tatsumi Kazehaya's assistants.”

They can just kick back and let their earnings pour in that way. Why wouldn't they? The cash they earn through this kinda fixed income is definitely gonna be way more than whatever an idol with no accomplishments could get through independent work.

And on top of that, Kazehaya-senpai's so brilliant at what he does that his work's a huge success every single time. Thanks to that, these guys get the chance to shine while avoiding any risk of failure or injury, or of being thought of as useless.

Sure is a dream job — one fit for morons.

Kaname: And on top of that, if I'm understanding correctly, you pay those a fair wage even if they haven't worked at all?

Tatsumi: I do. We don't discriminate here, you see. All are equal.

Jun: Mmm, well, I’m not that educated so I might be wrong, but this whole arrangement'spretty much that thing, isn't it? Starts with a c and ends with ism....

Our country's a capitalist nation, so y'know, the opposite of that —

Tatsumi: There's truly no need to go that far. I only wish to treat everyone as equally and fairly as possible.

Such a world would be ideal, wouldn't you agree? I want to make it a reality.

Tatsumi: Everyone is treated equally, given the same opportunities, and is paid fairly for their work. That way, everyone is able to live a happy, fulfilling life.

The root of all misfortune lies in inequality and injustice. They are the root of all unhappiness.

That is why they must be corrected.

There is a distinct disparity between the Special and Non-Special Students here at Reimei Academy. I'm doing what I can to close it.

It doesn't matter who you are, what you are, or even where you came from: you will be treated equally. Everyone will carry the same weight, walk the same amount of steps, and reach the same destination.

Everyone finishes at the same time. Everyone will be granted the same first place result, fairly and ideally.

And that is how we'll stop needless fighting over who's won and lost, we'll cease begrudging others for what they have, and we'll share the same happiness with one another.

That is the ideal world I dream of.

To bring it even slightly closer to reality, I'm doing what I can— though at the moment, this small sphere is all I'm able to influence in such a way.

Tatsumi: One day, I will take all those who inhabit Reimei Academy, the teachers and Special Students alike, as well as those in the idol industry, in this country, in this world...

And change their ways so we may live in such an Eden.

No, it's more than that. That is my mission in life as the Voice of God, as someone born within a family who teaches His words.

I truly believe that, and so I will live by that faith.

Tatsumi: May all of God's creations be blessed. Amen.

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bengiyo · 10 months

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Be My Favorite: Now They are Equal

I genuinely liked Episode 11 of this show, and I think we have the potential for an incredibly strong finish from this show. @lurkingshan has asked me to document my thoughts and theory before we get to next week. Before we get into it, let me go ahead and set my clown checkpoint:

I am excited for the final section of this show putting Kawi and Pisaeng before each other as two time travelers who are trying to fix their pasts, where one is used to only thinking about the future pessimistically and the other knowing that they can and will be happy if they choose each other.

Now, let’s get back into some details of this show as to why I believe they’ll face each other as time travelers:

This show constantly erases plotlines, and this is not the first time we spent an entire episode in the future just to erase it.

Kawi retains memories he acquired in potential futures.

Magic Man reminded us that Kawi can only control his own actions and has no power over the world or destiny itself.

We did not resolve Kawi’s core angst about intimacy as established in the amusement park and the Max conversation.

I am not particularly bothered about the plotline with the Gay Love Montage being erased in this show because this show erases futures constantly. We had an entire episode and a half devoted to Kawi going to a future where he’s a successful singer but everyone is unhappy already get erased. His original timeline was erased. The one where Pisaeng kisses him on his wedding day was erased. It is completely within the existing rules of this show to give us time with one future before taking it away.

Next, we’ve seen that Kawi maintains knowledge he gained by jumping backwards and forward. We also know that the Magic Man seems to retain knowledge of what Kawi has changed about the timeline. I think that even with Kawi returning to the night Kawi was awkward in bed, Kawi will have retained all of the knowledge he had from his previous jumps since he only ends up in bed with Pisaeng because of the choices he made from his prior time travel choices.

The Magic Man reminded us that we can’t change other people or the world itself. We can only change ourselves. This is also in line with Pear’s dad’s ideas that we can only choose how to feel about the things that have happened to us, and that we have to come to terms with them to focus on the future. A big part of this episode was Pear moving forward with her mom, whether she has to forgive her or not.

Finally, Kawi and Pisaeng moved forward without dealing with Kawi’s uncertainty. We all noted that they did not talk about what came up at the amusement park before they proceeded to the bed scene, and @shortpplfedup pointed out in our chat that Kawi still felt uncertain about why Pisaeng even liked him as they were moving together. Still, Kawi has made the choice to be “present” (haha, cwutididthar) and move forward with Pisaeng even ask Pisaeng didn’t necessarily answer his uncertainties. I don’t mind them going back to the amusement park angst to resolve that matter because it sets up my favorite thing:

Kawi and Pisaeng are now equals: They are both time travelers trying to fix their mistakes in the past out of concern for their loved ones.

Part of what bothered me for a while is that Kawi has made so many of these choices with knowledge of the future that he hasn’t disclosed to Pisaeng. Sure, he mentioned it while he was drunk and unconscious, but this never felt fully earned with Kawi holding back that information. I am excited that the final arc for them.

I’m so stoked to see them face each other and the reality that even if they choose each other that Kawi will still face a terrifying health moment in the future that Pisaeng has no power over. I like that the optimistic Pisaeng has to ask himself if love is still worth it even if he knows he will lose Kawi much sooner than either of them expected. This hearkens back to some of the ideas in Our Dining Table and choosing love even though you know it will hurt.

So, I think the episode is fine, because now that they’re facing each other properly, Pisaeng also gets a chance at a do-over.

#Ben writes #be my favorite #be my favorite meta #thai bl #bl series #clown checkpoint

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thepaintedsable · 3 days

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Sketchbook page, but this time I think I've found a thing I like. That's Not My Neighbor OC and a few extra worldbuilding concepts for them + a little sketchbook Journaling to commemorate the northern lights being pushed down across the entire US!

Talking headcannons/fun concept stuff and closeups under the cut:

Have I played TNMN? No. Do I think I'd even like playing TNMN? Probably not for more than a few minutes or when I need a repetitive task to procrastinate or something. Not a fault of the game, just not my style haha. Does the concept of postwar/Cold War era monster horror intrigue me to no end? Hell yeah.

I'm not too into history, really, but I don't think people are digging into that fact enough. It is Febuary of 1955. Nineteen. Fifty-five. The Second World War was only a decade ago, the second red scare and McCarthyism is still on fire in the states, the US-soviet arms race is in full force, the Cold War is still weighing heavy on citizens minds, and a lot more stuff I’m not educated enough to remember!!! But what's this? There's non-human creatures of unknown origins preying upon citizens, often attempting to take the form of a human being but failing and producing horrible, mangled excuses for the human form as a result? To the point where we have a whole new protective service to deal with their capture and new jobs formed to watch communal living facilities?

Are apparement complexes more or less popular, considering the risks of living without a doorman and those of living in a highly populated area? Is the arms race contributing to more weapons being created for the common citizen, for the DDD? How does this change the political situation, the rumors, the drama? Gosh, the world must be on fire in that regard!

Why, the draft is in very recent memory. Why wouldn't they employ it to instate their doormen? I mean, not many would want to be face to face with a traumatizing, intelligent monster, even behind glass.

Meet Doorman #365, an unfortunate fellow drafted to be locked in the building, forced to wear a gas mask used in the last great war, and entrusted with a dozen human lives!!! Yay! He's been nicknamed "Leroy" by his residents, to give him a more... human touch. Really, they find the masks and military nature of this new batch of doormen to be highly unsettling, but it must be for their own good, right? I mean, just look what happend to the old doormen who didnt have these safety measures, the old tenants...

Drafted and unhappy about it, he is basically on house arrest within the building, and what used to be just an office space and surprisingly large janitors closet is now officially his apartment. Whenever out of the enclosed parts of his room, he is expected to be in full uniform, mask included. He is currently one of two Doormen stationed at his building, the senior of the pair. Neither knows what the other actually looks like. Doormen are escorted by DDD to new complexes and should not be allowed to enter otherwise.

The masks were found to confuse some of the less intelligent doppelgangers, producing much more obvious yet twisted forms as they attempted to replicate what they believed to be extra or less eyes (glass visors), intestines (breathing tubes), etc. at the residences that employed them. It swiftly became policy. With some tweaks, the old gas masks of the war could also mask voices as well. To avoid further issues of doormen being copied, doormen were bid to stay indoors and stay covered at all times. Being extremely unpopular job, a draft was set.

Doormen must appear friendly, though! So styling and care of uniform also became extremely important. This is mostly up to the doorman (to increase morale, of course!) so each uniform, and therefore each building, will have its own personality :) DDD graciously supplies all uniform pieces, room decorations, and weekly rations for their Doormen, selected from the catalog! Residents are encouraged to increase connection to their doormen, though, so home-cooked meals and outside trinkets are not uncommon.

Leroy is not... enthused about this job. Hes not even allowed to use his actual name outside of his coworker, and he thinks he might be going a little stir crazy at this point. He certainly wouldn't have chosen this position for himself, but his birthday was picked, so what can he do? Desert? And be hunted down like a doppelganger? Hell no. At least he gets to sit behind some hopefully bulletproof glass and surely reinforced walls all day. His residents aren't too bad (he thinks some try too hard at not seeming suspicious, though), his coworker is... undecided, and even though the doppelgangers are, well, scary they haven't been too clever at his location. He often gets handed newspaper clippings or used wrappers instead of the entry forms and IDs. They're getting smarter, just very slowly. He hopes he isn't around when they wise up.

I really enjoy thinking about all this lol.

#sketchbook 29 #sketchbook page #unfinished spread #Sketchbook #traditional art #oc #alcohol markers #watercolor #art #mixed media #that’s not my neighbor #tnmn #tnmn fanart #tnmn oc #That’s not my neighbor oc #sketches #Tw monster #tw holes #tw trypophobia

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Every time I look on your blog you do an amazing job at whatever hobby/craft you’re doing, and this time ITS DOLL CUSTOMIZING I’m genuinely so happy also EXTREMELY IMPRESSED!! They look so good I need to read your story and lore

THANK YOU ;-; it means a lot!! i really enjoy working on all kinds of things and getting fresh crafts on my table as often as possible haha.

alsoooo if you are interested in the story and lore of Alliacea, i do have a write up explaining the setting that I can go ahead and share below! its unfinished and a little messy but it explains the core ideas and plot.

main characters Bohai, Lamerei, Begonia, Mrysin, Pacific, and Mansoa.

Alliacea is about a magic island in an oceanic pocket realm inhabited by islanders that embody characteristic parts of the environment like the tides, the forest canopy, flowers, birds, etc. The main character, Mansoa, ends up on the island as an early teen after being physically lost at sea and emotionally unsure of her sense of self simultaneously while confronting the idea of an early death. This led to her being ""lost in more ways than one"", which is the critical requirement to arrive at Alliacea. Now in her 20’s, she remains a regular human, unclaimed by any part of the island.

This provides a clash since if you end up on Alliacea and you cant fit in, the island finds a place for you by converting you into a part of it, such as morphing you slowly into a rock, fruit tree, flock of birds, etc, forcing you to find balance and peace. Most inhabitants are able to reach acceptance before this process is completed. However, Mansoa found a way to stay on the island by making her own role as the outsider. Her custom ecological niche as an odd man out worked for years, but over time it caused progressive problems. Namely as Mansoa shifts out of adolescence and into her full adulthood, she has to confront the long term sustainability of her sense of self being defined solely as “different”.

The conflict between Alliacea wanting to make everyone a part of it, and Mansoa's place being distinctly not a part of it, causes the island to begin eroding. Rifts form in the main island, plants struggle to grow, the tide swells and becomes violent as the island slowly begins to sink until the paradox can be resolved.

Mansoa must understand why Alliacea is beginning to come undone, and subsequently how to solve it as the other avatar islanders work to quell their respective elements. This poses a uniquely difficult challenge for the co-lead, Pacific as his element is the tide, the primary threat to the island. Pacific had a similar role to Mansoa, as he struggled to fit in with the community and often preferred isolation. However this was less of a behavior he adapted because he didn't belong and more his method of managing his intense fear of other people, which he understood well and accepted long ago. Pacific had previously kept to himself in the tides, coming out occasionally to socialize with his few trusted close friends (namely Mansoa, Begonia, and Bohai.) However his overwhelming fear of people is part of why the ocean becomes so turbulent, and in order to thwart the primary threat to the island, he has to overcome that fear.

Whereas Pacific’s challenge is to solve a problem he knows/is related to his fear of people, Mansoa has a much harder task of first understanding the root cause. The island begins to fall apart after a community dinner, where as the other islanders celebrate and socialize, a deep pit begins to form within Mansoa where she realizes her approach of “I’m not like the others” is making her progressively more and more unable to connect to people and unhappy.

After the first devastating event on the island, a gate opens near the shore and an emissary of the island named Mrysin arrives. With their arrival, they provide the insight that the problems on the island must be solved by the representatives of that particular element, but the island will only get worse and worse until the main problem is solved.

The story progresses as each of the main characters, Bohai, Lamerei, Begonia, Pacific, and Manosa have to apply their unique perspectives on self acceptance to stabilize their respective elements. Bohai is the open sea, which was causing turbulent storms (manifesting his manic, bombastic, and energetic personality), Lamerei being the forest floor becoming too dense and uninhabitable (a sometimes smothering big brother nature), Begonia managing fruit and flower blooms (committing yourself towards helping others but not so much that you struggle as well).

Pacific, Mansoa, and Mrysin explore issues that are less about self acceptance, and more about changing parts of your approach to the world and your idea of self.

Pacific has to learn that his coping mechanism of avoidance and isolation is inherently unhealthy, but it doesn't mean that the alternative of forced socialization and extrovertedness is any better. He has to tackle an imposing and frightening challenge of calming the tides alone (my analogy for formidable parts of life that can only be done by you, such as living with chronic illness, work stress/responsibilities, processing past trauma, etc). However he does have to utilize his connections with others to motivate the fight, as he’s tried and failed in the past when his world was small and only included his own perspectives. He has to challenge his previously accepted way of life and adjust to a new strategy of not completely removing others from his life, but understanding how to balance letting others in without overexerting himself and accepting that bad things will happen/people will hurt you, but its still better than the alternative.

Mansoa provides the main friction as she has to understand the big picture in an art gallery she told herself never to look at. At first she believes there's a problem with the island community itself. As she tries to investigate further, she realizes more and more how isolated she let herself become from others, which is what makes her see that it was her decisive othering that is causing the clash. After realizing the problem, she attempts to integrate more with the community around her, but struggles to make sense of who she is outside of her previous way of life. She tries repeatedly to find a way to bring forward the only idea of self she’s ever known into a more social lifestyle. She fails many times and becomes frustrated and hopeless. (ie You cant make friends if your whole identity is “i dont have friends”....never minding the fact that she's had friends this whole time lol). After wondering if her failure to connect is a sign that she was never meant to be there/have friends at all, the island begins to fall into complete chaos, and is only resolved by Mansoa and Pacific fighting to keep the island’s gate whole. Eventually she realizes that the only way to move forward is to truly abandon her previous, self-centered idea of the world and herself, and adapt and accept a more humble, flexible, “being like other people isnt a bad thing” vision.

#alliacea

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Hi, I just want to say that your work is stunning and we're very thankful for it! I also hope that nobody is causing you problems about liking that other route...It's ludicrous that people still act like children when it comes to what others enjoy, not to mention that if you show them two pictures of Astarion they won't even be able to tell which one is the 'bad' route and which one is the 'good' one.

Other than that, I wish you a very nice day!

Thank you so much! 🥹🥹 I’m so so happy you enjoy my content.

Thankfully no one has caused me any issues with Ascended Astarion stuff haha. I guess because I do acknowledge he is 100% evil if he ascends, but SOMETIMES I LIKE ME AN EVIL MAN!! I enjoy both routes and think they are both super fun to play.

I love Spawn Astarion for him being able to overcome his fears, open up, heal and become “better” (but still pretty cheeky and wanting to create as much chaos as possible) and end the cycle of abuse, which is very personal to me as well in my own trauma. I love that he is able to overcome what I would consider an unhealthy coping mechanism to his fear; he is scared, so his reaction is to obtain as much power over everyone else so no one can ever hurt him again, but then he would lose himself in the process… and his SO if you decide not to become his spawn. I mean, he pretty much becomes his BIGGEST fear, his own source of 200 years of trauma and abuse (“the new cazador”—just like Cazador did since he was also a spawn and killed his own master for power out of fear—if I’m remembering correctly).

BUT I also like the Ascended Astarion route for how tragic it is. How you can really see right through him and how he ISN’T satisfied. He gets so angry with you if you even point it out a little bit, that sacrificing all of those souls, including his own in a way, didn’t fix anything. He’s still so insecure. He is still afraid (he’s just much more aggressive and defensive about it). He is still unhappy and he will never actually be free. I mean, it’s a deal with MEPHISTOPHELES. He might have been freed from one master, but now he owes his power to another, much more dangerous and powerful being. Not only that, but he will never be free from himself. If you listen to Cazador’s inner thoughts, you can hear how much he WANTS to die, how much he HATES being a soulless and vile vampire with only a lust for blood. No capability to love, to care, to be any part of who he might’ve been before.

The song “hurt” by NIN makes me think of Ascended Astarion. He says “we can have it all, we can take the world”. But what is “having it all?”. “Having it all” to me would be the Spawn ending. Being free of his abuser, being free of owing his power to someone else, being able to be HIMSELF and surrounded by people who care about him because of who he is, not because of his power.

Anyways I’m not that great at writing my thoughts coherently so I’ll stop there lol, but I also like his voice lines cause they can be kind of hot because also kind of goofy 😭 😭 and it’s fiction!! I read the wildest fanfic out there but if an actual man spoke to me that way, I would be OUT OF THERE SOOOO FAST lol

I don’t like to call them the “bad” or “good” ending, because it’s different for everyone. I mean, it’s a ROLEPLAYING GAME. Yeah, if your Tav/Durge is good alignment, then the spawn ending may seem to be the “good” one, but if your Tav/Durge is evil then wouldn’t the vampire ascendent ending technically be “good” for them? Anyways, I just think people struggle to separate reality from fiction when they get too deep into it. I love soft-ish and cheeky vampire and also evil and hot vampire like WE CAN ENJOY BOTH!!!

Anyways, thank you so much again and I hope you also have a wonderful day!! ❤️

#my asks #ALSO LISTEN TO THAT SONG #IT IS SUCH A GOOD SONG #AND THE LYRICS WHEN I THINK OF AA MAKES ME 😔#also I didn’t look over this before posting it so it might make 0 sense and there may be a bunch of typos lol

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would-this-pokemon-be-a-friend · 8 months

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Trying to think of all of my favorite Pokémon; and a lot of them I don’t think would be very good pets haha (Gliscor, Larvesta, etc)

But one Pokémon I really love is Whimsicott! I’m curious to see how living with one would fare, especially with their mischievous nature!

(Btw I love this blog, I love the way you apply the Pokédex entries to real life and in comparisons with real life pets! It’s super fascinating and cool!)

(Thank you so much, I'm glad you enjoy my blog!)

This one really caught me off (cotton)guard, but once I got into the analysis I ended up being surprised that whimsicotts' score didn't end up lower. Unfortunately, a whimsicott would not make a good house pet.

They're small, lightweight, and cute, of course! And as far as the danger of their move pool goes, its pretty standard grass-type faire, with rare but possible poison risks and nutrient absorption. While we always stress that these risks should be heavily considered when thinking about taking in a pokémon as a pet, these point detriments weren't really what dragged down whimsicotts' score!

Let's consider wild whimsicotts' observed behavior, to get a better feel for why the species wouldn't be a good fit for a home. Whimsicotts float about freely on the wind, passing from place to place as they see fit. They are known to infiltrate people homes to cause mischief, their favorite pranks including rearranging furniture (X), hiding important objects (Ultra Sun), and making a mess by leaving bits of their cotton scattered all over the place (Black 2/White 2). This behavior, while annoying or humorous depending on your mood, isn't even the issue. It is said that whimsicotts can, "like the wind, slip through any gap, no matter how small" (Black). This means that it is nearly impossible to keep a wild wandering whimsicott out of your home. It also means, critically, that keeping a pet whimsicott inside your home would be similarly impossible. Whimsicotts are nomadic by their nature. After wrecking their mayhem, they never stay in one place (Ultra Moon). This means that even if you were somehow able to seal up your home so much that your whimsicott couldn't wander outside alone, they would likely be unhappy when prevented from running off and may lash out.

One time, in the real world, I asked someone who worked at an American zoo why they didn't care for any beavers. They told me, quite simply, beavers can not, and will not, be contained. It seems that whimsicotts may very well be the same way. By all means, treat the wild nomadic whimsicotts that float on by kindly, but they would likely not thrive as a house pet.

#pokémon #pokemon #whimsicott #pkmn irl #PR-D

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acorrespondence · 7 months

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Twenty Questions for Fic Writers

Thanks @skelingtonsderek for tagging me! ♥️ And thanks to @love-leah and @willowmckinley for bringing this into the justified fandom circles!

How many works do you have on ao3?

2! Both in the Justified fandom.

What's your total ao3 word count?

89,708. About 90% of that comes from i put this heavy heart in you, which is shaping up to be a behemoth. My Old Guard fusion fic is just over 10k at the moment, though the final chapter might end up doubling that.

What fandoms do you write for?

Justified is the only fandom I’ve published for. I also have unfinished WIPs in the succession fandom and a league of their own, as well as one really old one in the MCU, a canon I’ve since parted ways with, but I do still hold fondness for those characters as they were at the time I wrote it. The succession fic is the only one that may still end up happening. It’s kenstewy because I’m nothing if not deeply predictable and fraught childhood best friends to assholes in love is my jam.

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Oh well this is easy, haha.

i put this heavy heart in you (justified) - the clear winner at 185

catching bullets in our teeth (justified) - following at a respectable nearly-half-that at 90

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try to respond to every comment point-by-point. To me, the whole point of posting a fic publicly is to interact with others. I write for myself, but I post for my friends and other fans. I would love to get into more back-and-forth comment discussions like I have in the past with @toli-a and @willowmckinley, because that kind of engagement and connection is the white whale I’m chasing every time I put something I wrote out into the world.

What is a fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Definitely my as-yet-unpublished succession fic, haha. Currently the one that’s left off angstiest is catching bullets, because Raylan and Boyd are still separated at the end of the last posted chapter. However, I like to think the ending of every chapter of heavy heart has a healthy balance between happiness and unhappiness, with a slight skew toward angst because these guys are still a long way off from any kind of resolution on the myriad problems they’ve had thrown at them. I dislike both fluff and darkfic, so I like to live in the shades of grey and hope that comes through in my work. Bittersweet and/or ambiguous endings are my jam, while I find qualified happy or qualified unhappy endings also satisfying.

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I suppose going by the above process of elimination it would have to be heavy heart.

Do you get hate on fics?

I never have, thankfully. Everyone’s been nothing short of lovely; I think this fandom understands that if you don’t have anything nice to say it’s best to say nothing at all. The closest I’ve gotten is people saying “I didn’t think I’d be into this because it’s kid fic, but boy was I wrong!” which is incredibly gratifying to hear.

Do you write smut?

Nope! I do write sex scenes, but I don’t think they’re necessarily the same thing; smut is to sex scenes as squares are to rectangles. To me, inserting a smut scene would be like having a mechanic character suddenly go into a long internal monologue about every little thing they’re doing in the engine of a car—their work as a mechanic might be integral to the plot, but that level of detail is just excessive and boring.

The very first sex scene in heavy heart is the closest I’ve ever come, I think, because I took a very close lens to the entire day that makes up that first chapter, and even that ended up pretty vague. If I ever got more detailed than that, I’d ruthlessly eviscerate it back down into something at a similar level. I can’t stand when my writing feels uneven, so suddenly inserting a scene with way more minute detail than anything else in the chapter feels incredibly jarring to me. I do think other people’s writing styles can support it better, and I can get through a car engine anatomy lesson if there’s enough about/within the rest of the story that I like, haha. This is why I categorically avoid pwps; I’m not a mechanic and have no interest in cars beyond their ability to get me from one place to the next, if you catch my drift.

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

No, and I generally avoid reading them, with a few very notable exceptions. There are, very occasionally, canons that enhance each other rather than clashing. For example, I’ve read a justified/walking dead crossover that I absolutely adored and would recommend to anyone with knowledge of and interest in both canons (or even just one).

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No, I’m not nearly popular enough for that, haha.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope! I imagine this tends to happen after fics are finished, which… well.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I haven’t. I’ve co-written one thing, ever, in my life, and it was a story my dad and I switched back and forth chapters on when I was maybe nine or ten. Even then it was difficult for me; I was the kind of kid who told everyone else what to say in our make-believe games, haha.

What's your all-time favorite ship?

I don’t pick favorites of anything as a general rule. Not food, not music, not ships. I despise ranking things; it’s very difficult and not at all rewarding. It requires a level of oversimplification that my brain is naturally resistant to.

What's a wip you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

I know I’ll never finish the a league of their own fic (it’s an ocean’s eleven fusion and it would have been a lot of fun, but the canon turned out to be more of a hyperfixation than a special interest, so the enthusiasm has since left me). Meanwhile, I still have some hope that I’ll finish the succession fic, and I’d very much like to post it someday. As for my two posted fics, once I’ve posted them I’m committed to finishing them, no matter how long it takes. I suppose there’s the chance I’ll die before that happens, but one would hope not.

What are your writing strengths?

I think I have a pretty good ear, not only for dialogue but for the flow of narration. I just won’t post anything until it sounds right. Other people have called my writing lyrical, which I think is them picking up on this. Also, while I don’t think I’m the most metaphorically inclined, I have a strong sense of analogy. I make the distinction because I think my comparisons tend to be more practical than whimsical. I make a lot of connections in my head, and this in addition to the way I go about writing allows me to make callbacks and set up recurring themes/motifs throughout my stories, which I’m also quite proud of.

What are your writing weaknesses?

I struggle a lot to synthesize dialogue and narration. Most of my editing time is eaten up by trying to graft these together in a way that sounds right. I’m sure it would be less noticeable to others than it is to me, but I do think anyone who compared the drafts to the final products would understand what I mean. I also am pathologically incapable of brevity. I always end up adding way more than I’m taking away when I edit. However, I enjoy longer stories anyway, both to read and to write, so I’m not especially bothered by this. I tend to avoid writing things like drabbles because I’d rather add 100 words to a current wip than use an equivalent amount of time to write a snippet of something else. Most of my favorite things about writing don’t even apply to a work that short.

This sounds like me turning all my weaknesses into strengths, but everything else I struggle with is hard for me to really articulate. I guess my biggest weakness is how slow I am; oftentimes I’ll outgrow a hyperfixation before I can finish the story I’m writing about it, and it just gets abandoned. That’s why I only post in fandoms that I know have become enduring special interests. I’m confident that I’ll finish my justified fics eventually, so I posted both without having written clear endings. I wouldn’t do that with most fics (see: the succession fic I keep referencing) because I don’t trust myself to stick with it to the end. I also tend toward stories that are motivated more by character development/dynamics than traditional plot, so I’d probably struggle with a really plot-heavy story.

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I’ve been speaking Spanglish since birth and am conversational in LatAm Spanish, if not what I’d personally consider fluent, so that’s the only language I’d be confident enough to write in besides English. I’d be comfortable throwing a few words of another language in if I could be certain I was using them correctly. Most likely, if the pov character understands the language, I’d just write “[Dialogue],” he said in Mandarin, and if they don’t, I’d just explain in narration that they said something in x language that the pov character didn’t catch. I suppose I might be moved to make exceptions for the sake of dramatic irony.

First fandom you wrote for?

I wrote an OC into the world of Dragons of Deltora in a spiral bound notebook when I was eight.

Favorite fic you've written?

Once again, I don’t pick favorites! I love all my fics for different reasons; it’s why I wrote them.

People I haven’t seen tagged, sorry if you’re a repeat, and if I missed you imagine your url in the following list: @raylangivins @eff41 @oh2e @freekicks @esteefee @norgbelulah @catchclaw @bringmefoxgloves @boydcrowdr @praycambrian @deputy-buck

#tag game #justified #my fic #long post #justie2justie communication #writing

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mephinomaly · 6 months

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[TL] PYSCHOBREAK/Chapter 14

[ This post uses Ois~su ♪ ]

Time: Present day. UNDEAD’s newest project HELLSING has been active for 2 weeks

Location: In one of HELLSING’s venues as part of their national tour in the Tohoku region

Koga: ♪~♪~♪

(Fuck! Shit! Why is this happenin’?!)

(Why am I so pissed off!?)

(This should be my wish come true!)

Rei 2 + Kaoru 2: ♪♪♪♪♪

Koga: (Ahh, that heavy bass that makes your body feel like it’s gonna fall apart! Rock ‘n roll that shakes you to your core!)

(The audience is goin’ crazy, ‘n stompin’ their feet with excitement! This is a party from Hell!)

(I’ll shake this world with the best, the strongest rock! UNDEAD will do the same!)

(This is what I’ve always wanted! It’s pissed me off for ages that my senpais are obsessed with trivial shit and don’t see eye-to-eye with me!)

(I got impatient, unhappy, and angry!)

(And yet! Even though they’re fakes, they’re with me, movin’ how I wished they would!)

(I’m makin’ the best music I’ve always wanted since the very beginning’!)

(Who do you think you are, Oogami Koga…! Are you a dog that’s been abandoned outside in the rain!?)

(Why do I feel like I’m standin’ on this stage alone—)

Adonis: Oogami.

Koga: …Tch. My bad, Adonis, I know. I’ll focus up.

Adonis: Whilst it’s true that you appear less lively today than you usually do, that's not what I want to point out. I am also not feeling my best.

They say that one man's fault is another's lesson. I must reflect on my own behaviour before I criticise someone else's. I remind myself of that.

Koga: You’re the same as always. Gives me peace of mind.

Adonis: I like to think I’ve grown somewhat.

Koga: But that’s what I mean. I’m jealous, Adonis.

I’m no good. I don’t understand myself.

We’re on our biggest national tour as UNDEAD. This is a dream come true and yet, I feel weirdly flippant.

I feel like I’ve reverted back to bein’ a beginner, like I’m standin’ on the stage for the first time with you all.

How did I get through that all? Is it ‘cos Sakuma-senpai came runnin’ just when I needed him the most? Like he always does?

Adonis: My recollection is different. During our debut live, Sakuma-senpai did not come on stage until the end.

Nevertheless, it wasn’t a problem. The delinquents that had been tormenting the town ran away, ridiculed us, and ignored the whole thing— we won by default.

However, we didn’t know anything about the future—me, you, and Hakaze-senpai did our best with what we had.

We didn’t run away, we fought.

That’s why we won. Despite being a battle where no blood was spilt, a win is still a win.

That day is still my pride and joy, where I began.

Just like I was back then, I’m working as hard as I can.

Koga: Haha, you’ve always had that attitude.

Like at last year’s RepayFes. Earlier than that, when we were fine’s foil.

No matter how badly we were beaten, you didn’t give up and stayed by my side until the end.

Thanks, Adonis.

I feel better now. If you’re with me, I’ll be okay.

Along as you’re by my side, I have absolutely nothin’ to worry about!

♪~♪~♪

Adonis: …I feel the same. Thank you, Oogami. Your words make me truly happy.

I feel as if I have been acquitted. But, that is not what I wanted to talk to you about.

Koga: Huh?

Adonis: Our senpais are acting weird.

Koga: …!?

Rei 2: ♪~...

Kaoru 2: … …

Koga: Huh!? W-w-what are you doin’, fake senpais!

They’ve gone all stiff and jerky— h-has somethin’ broke!?

Adonis: They are incredible machines… Since I have trained a lot, I am still fit for this but I don’t think the machines are built for the strain of going on tour.

Koga: Shit, pull yourselves together, bots! We’re still on tour! You can’t break down here!?

Adonis: Don’t make it obvious, Oogami. We’ll attract attention. Let’s distract the audience before they notice anything weird, and before our senpais completely malfunction.

We need to start the next song. If we turn on the fog machine, no-one will be able to see them from the audience—

Hm? The stage is filling with smoke without us needing to ask…?

Koga: D-did an attentive member of staff notice and turn it on for us!?

No, it can’t be. We’re the only ones who know those aren’t our real senpais?

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#ensemble stars #enstars #translation #undead climax #koga oogami #adonis otogari #rei sakuma #kaoru hakaze

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earlgreytea68 · 11 months

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I’m missing fob too!! And reading your posts about them is always a pleasure, so please, don’t hesitate, post away!!

Recently listened to the smfsd for the x time, and it got me thinking about this ultimate trust thing between p&p, that you talked about several times. Do you remember that line from Heaven Iowa “I closed my eyes inside of your darkness/ and found your glow”? It’s seems so very clear, that nothing could scare them off from each other, one of them is willing to close his eyes in the ‘darkness’ of him, and the other is willing to let him ‘in there’ in the first place. It’s just beautiful, and also kinda reads like a dialogue, you know? Like do you have a feeling, that sometimes one song can have within itself several perspectives? Like different chapters in a fanfic from different pov? Anyway, this album keeps on giving! And I’m super excited about what’s to come, with touring and all of that )

YES. Because Patrick pulls lyrics from all over, I often think that maybe POV is shifting through songs, especially depending on how much Patrick adds to stitch things together. And I also think that sometimes Pete writes from the POV of others, that he takes the words he hears people say to him and he kind of feeds them back out of him as a way of processing. And I think "Heaven, Iowa" is a song where Pete and Patrick totally bleed together into one. That "Me, I'm still a sunbeam" lyric is just iconic to me, because Patrick has for so long been the sunshine in the lyrics, the sunlight Pete is always reaching and grasping for and can't achieve, and then suddenly it does finally bleed into him: My chemistry is a mess but I'm still a sunbeam. That could be Pete, that could be Patrick, and it's so lovely that they're so blurred together that who even knows anymore. Who knows where one of them ends and the other begins?

It's like how Patrick says Pete can never tell what Patrick's added to his lyrics (although he can tell when he's unhappy with what he's added but doesn't know it didn't come from Pete originally) and that Patrick's gotten better at knowing how Pete would write something, what words he would use. Eventually, you just blend together into one perfect whole.

And that line, about finding the glow within the darkness, is so unbelievable: Be as dark as you want to be. I will always find your glow. It makes me think lol of that conversation they have in my so much stardust Schrodingerverse fic, where Pete's kind of like, "My head is full of darkness," and Patrick's just like, "But that just means you can see the stardust more clearly," or however it goes haha I don't entirely remember, but that lyric makes me think of that idea: You can have all the darkness you want, but that's why you can find the glow, it's there.

Honestly, "Heaven, Iowa" is the most devastatingly romantic song and I was reading the Genius lyrics analysis of it and I'm just like, ...does nobody understand that Pete Wentz is not always writing about the darkest, most depressing thing you can imagine???? Or, at least, not as unrelentingly dark and depressing as people always seem to want to think about him for some reason. All these people do seem to miss the glow in the darkness, but Patrick never, ever does.

#peterick #fall out boy #fob #bandom

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lilting-aurora · 7 months

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20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @fulcrumstardust !! thank u💞

1. How many works do you have on ao3?

2 on my main account browneyed_jedi , 1 I regret orphaning, and 1 on another account

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

6,321! baby steps :D

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Star Wars on the whole :)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

1. it’s the only one on my alt account….it’s hilarious how much better this smut fic did then anything else i’ve ever done

2. he was breathing, at least (1,052 words) - my whumptober prompt! it was quite hard for me to write so i’m glad people seem to like it :)

3. untitled high school AU (2,058 words) - this WILL be finished one day i promise!!

4. an unhappy medium (3,211 words) - this is the work i orphaned, it’s the half blood prince retold from draco’s perspective!

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

ALWAYS. comments are so precious to me ❤️

6. What’s the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

gotta be my whumptober prompt “he was breathing, at least”. i’m really proud of the ending in particular

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

“untitled high school AU” for sure. it’s nowhere near finished yet, but they sure made up quickly lol

8. Do you get hate on fics?

i’m not quite big enough for that. a bit scared for when that day comes haha

9. Do you write smut. If so, what kind?

I’ve written a LOT of smut, but never posted any on my main. i want to one day, though. seeing how well the other one performed is convincing me lmao

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

idk what counts as a crossover but i’m currently writing a rebelcaptain The Creator AU and i’m having so much fun with it. gonna try write a bit more before i post it

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Probably not

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever cowritten a fic before?

no but i would absolutely LOVE to!! if anyone wants to join me please dm me whenever

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

it’s rebelcaptain why are you even asking

but recently i’ve gotten into gwen/miles from the spider-verse movies! they’re just so cute 😭ñ

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

i’m gonna make it happen no matter what - but it’s the untitled high school AU. life has just been getting busier and busier and will only get worse over the next year, but this thing WILL be finished one day

16. What are your writing strengths?

i’d like to say description? like visual descriptions of things. i really enjoy it. also dialogue is really fun and easy to write

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

disciplining myself to actually write lmao. i also tend to write slowly cos im a perfectionist

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i like it but i prefer having at least a basic grip of the language

19. First Fandom you wrote for?

harry potter!

20. Favorite fic you’ve ever written?

it’s the Creator AU i haven’t posted yet - i’m just so proud of the imagery :) from what ive posted it would be “he was breathing, at least.”

tagging: @quarantineddreamer @luciechat @imsfire2 @mosylufanfic

#rebelcaptain #star wars writers #ao3 writer #writeblr #star wars #rogue one

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goldenchocobo · 1 year

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I’ve Been having a lot of Vanitas thoughts lately, so I thought I’d share here, since I can’t really anywhere else, and they’ve just been bopping around the inside of my head like the DVD logo. Its going to be a mind-vomit ramble because I cannot be concise.

First things first; we know Vanitas is Darkness. Not like ‘he’s the manifestation of Ventus’ darkness’. He’s Old-timey Darkness that the Union Leaders fought in UX. This was confirmed in Re:Mind, and double-confirmed in UX:DR. He IS also Ventus’ darkness, but we’ll get back to that.

From what we’ve seen of Vanitas’ past... even for Darkness, he was a weird one. He didn’t stick with the other Darknesses that we saw, and sought out someone weak, not someone who was already kind of edging the darkness like the Foretellers. From what we know of Ventus, he was an ordinary kid who had a hard time making friends and just wanted to be popular. (Vanitas/Darkness said that Ventus wanted power, but didn’t say that he had a lot of darkness is what I’m getting at). And from what he said in DR; he may have wanted to be his own being, instead of a hive-mind like the other Darknesses were/are.

Then he gets stuck inside Ventus’ heart, where I presume that he merged with Ventus’ Darkness, making himself ‘him’. But here’s where I think it gets interesting. Vanitas- when Xehanort rips him away from Ventus- is now something no one’s ever seen before. He’s Darkness with a heart. How do we know he has a heart? 1. Because Xehanort said he took a part of Ventus’ with him, and we can visibly see that in Ventus’ heart station and, 2. He can wield a Keyblade- which a Heart is needed to use in the first place. He can also FEEL. Sure, he can only feel dark/unhappy emotions, but he can feel them. Darkness in its pure form can’t (from my understanding).

Anyway... this puts him at an interesting position. He’s not affiliated with the light, but wants to be his own person- not with the darkness. So where would he go? He still wants to be by/with Ventus- as he said in Re:Mind, and Ventus was open to the idea. This leaves a lot open to his character and his development. Without Xehanort threatening to destroy him if he doesn’t do as he’s told, and with Ventus wanting friendship, what would he do? Would being with Ventus and his friends help him feel whole? does he still want that?

Personally I would love to see his character and motivations explored more. I don’t want him to be buddy-buddy with everyone. I still want him to be a trouble-maker and a thorn in people’s side, but not because “haha I’m darkness I must destroy the light!”, but because he’s trying to figure out who he is, where he fits in, and what to do now. But in the end, I can see him team up with everyone else. Not for them, of course- but for his own reasons.

One last thing I’d like to ramble on about is; since he’s OG Darkness, and MoM’s plan is to destroy him and the 7 other Darknesses that are still around, would Sora and Co defend him? Sora wanted Vanitas to join him, but if he learns of Vanitas’ true origin, would that change? (My guess is no, because that’s a Sora thing to do, he’d want to help Vanitas). Also, Vanitas has run away from MoM and his plans before, would he do it again? That’s one part of his personality I do find interesting. He’s not edgelord Mcgee- ok, design wise, he is 100% no doubt. But personality wise, I think he’s very self preserving. He’ll back down/out when he’s defeated or outnumbered- or doesn’t think he can win. He faced off against all 5 of the Union Leaders with ease, but always ran away when he was defeated by Aqua, and then he ran when he had to face Aqua, Sora and Ventus. With that said, if he was put in a dire position, would he fight alongside ‘friends’ he’s made, or run?

OK- true last thing. I SWEAR! It has been re-iterated time and time again, that within every darkness there is light, even just a small fraction; its still there. Hearts are made up of Light and Darkness, and what you do with them both is up to you; only exception are the PoH, Ventus and Vanitas. But is Vanitas really an exception if what we’ve been told in the past is true? does Vanitas have a light buried deep? I want to know and I hope KH explores it more!!

#Kingdom Hearts #KH #Vanitas #Long post #Ignore me I'm just rambling about a character I find really interesting and a character I really like #I didn't touch upon how I think Vanitas can be an allegory for depression #but that's another can of worms I don't want to touch because I don't know how to put my thoughts and feelings into words #but in short the whole 'I feel empty inside' he spouts and 'Unversed are emotions tied to darkness taken form'

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