#but was too anxious to post 🙈

[pizzaqueen]

More pre-slash fluff, this time with accidental cuddling / rated G probably / 530 words

Steve is in that strange place between sleep and awake, where the world doesn’t really exist. All he knows is comfortable and warm; he chases the warmth, rolling onto his side and slipping his arm around the source of it.

Moments later, a deep voice says, “Steve?” the solid warmth under Steve’s arm stirring.

The world comes back into existence, and Steve wakes to his face buried in long, soft, dark hair. It’s tickling his nose, and he’s pretty sure he has some in his mouth. “Pttht.” He pulls back and finally remembers where he is.

Eddie shifts and says, “Are you—”

“Shit, sorry, man.” Steve slips his arm from around Eddie’s waist. “Guess I thought you were someone else.” He starts to roll over, but Eddie turns to face him, stopping him halfway.

“It’s fine.” Eddie’s hand skates over Steve’s chest to rest on his shoulder, fingers curling into him. “I don’t mind.”

“Okay.”

Eddie doesn’t move, and Steve doesn’t either, still half asleep and not sure what’s going on, and then Eddie says, “So…”

“What?”

“You wanna…” In the dark, Steve can just make out Eddie raising his brows as he tugs on Steve’s shoulder. Like he’s trying to pull him back toward him.

Steve blinks. “Are you asking me to cuddle?”

“I guess I am.”

“Why?”

Eddie lifts one shoulder. “You obviously needed it.”

“I don’t know…” It’s tempting, but— “It’s kinda weird.”

“I’m good with weird.” Eddie’s hand slips from Steve’s shoulder, and he rolls over again. “But it’s up to you,” he adds on a jaw cracking yawn.

Steve stares at Eddie’s back for a moment, and then he slowly rolls over. He reaches out, stopping short of touching, and says, “You won’t tell anyone?”

Eddie looks back over his shoulder and simply says, “No.”

“Okay.” Steve presses his lips together ,and then he slips his arm around Eddie’s waist again. He’s not as close as he was before, when he was half asleep, but he can still feel the warmth of Eddie and Eddie’s hair tickling his face. And then Eddie shifts back, wiggling until he’s pressed against Steve from shoulder to hip, their legs tangled.

And Eddie was right: Steve did—does—need this. It’s comforting, makes him feel safe and grounded, the warmth and pressure against his chest, the gentle thrum of another’s heartbeat under his palm. It’s been so long since he’s had this, and he didn’t realize how much he’d missed it. That it’s Eddie definitely doesn’t hurt.

“That’s…” Steve swallows. “Uh, yeah.”

Eddie huffs. “Yeah.” He shifts his head, and his hair gets in Steve’s face again.

“Hey, can you…” Steve gathers Eddie’s hair, starts to push it out of the way.

“Sure.” Eddie lifts his head, sweeping his hair under his neck. “Better?”

“Yeah.” Steve sighs. “Well… Good night.”

Eddie hums, voice slurring when he says, “G’night,” breathing evening out, his heartbeat steady beneath Steve’s palm.

It’s not long before Steve slips back into the strange place between asleep and awake before slipping further into a deep, peaceful sleep. And he stays there, safe and warm, with Eddie safe and warm in his embrace, long into the morning.

#steddie #Steddie fic #Steve x eddie #Steddie fanfic #steve harrington #eddie munson #here’s one I prepared earlier! #but was too anxious to post 🙈 #but I’m trying to be brave again lol #pizzaqueenfic

[astroismypassion]

Any chance ucould do Eros in the signs and houses series pls???

Hi! I will try to answer in shortly, because there is not enough time for the whole post, but I’ll just go quickly through it, so that I give you an answer. 😊

Eros in signs

Aries Eros: Well, they just really like people that take charge, but they still end up controlling it? The Aries Eros native will still like to be in charge in some manner. Either by teasing you long enough, edging you or not allow you to touch them on certain body parts. They low key love delegating? 😂 Like “you do this here and I’ll do that there to you”? haha. They love “dividing” tasks in the bedroom. They might have this one unrealised dream of someone coming onto them passionately, kissing them and it turns out in a whole wild night that lets you wonder what the hell just happened last night. They have this one fantasy scenario of just being unhinged.

Taurus Eros: They are seduced by moans and someone talking, breathing onto their ears. Don’t underestimate the ears with this sign. You might not think that it’s Taurus, but it actually is. They love is someone nibbles, playfully licks their ear. I would say lots of kissing on the lips, but then again if it’s maybe aspected by Uranus, Saturn or at times even Neptune, they might not even be that keen. Not all Taurus placements love long, long make out sessions. Some don’t even like french kisses or kissing on the mouth that much. But they are often down for neck kissing. Even light biting or hickeys, but again it really depends on how cautious or reserved they feel.

Gemini Eros: They are seduced by people who keep them mentally stimulated or provide good ideas, but talk less then them. 😂 They often go for people who ask a lot of questions instead haha. They like to be the one providing answers and solutions to fixing partner’s inquiries and questions. But they are often aroused by the partner that occasionally talks back or behaves bratty.

Cancer Eros: Now this one is again, might be controversial. But they have this thing with left eye? They love if you plant a little baby kiss above or under or somewhere close to their eye. It’s like a protective gesture. They are usually heavy breathers when aroused. You might feel like their breathing becomes deeper, almost like they are in a deeper state of relaxation.

Leo Eros: These are overall very confident people. Not just in sex, but their general disposition, personality, how they carry themselves. Even if they have quiet confidence and not loud, they come across even more self assured than an Aries. They just know what they want, how and when. They have a sultry look to them that they don’t even have to try hard at flirting or seducing someone, because they already are so charming. These people actually compliment YOU a lot when they want to sleep with you and they do not need so many compliments for themselves actually.

Virgo Eros: They are just as complex as a Scorpio Eros. 🙈 These people might like everything, but nothing at the same time. They throw order out when having sex, they become chaotic. They are like “just throw it somewhere, we’ll clean afterwards”, they really don’t care when in the moment. Also, they get very easily overstimulated. They could be turned off by an unexpected or unpleasant smell. But having someone’s hands all over their body, touching them is actually the only time they do NOT feel anxious. These people are too often touch starved.

Libra Eros: Oh these people are just very proper and diplomatic, neutral, at times reserved and cautious. However, I noticed that they exhibit traits of the opposite sign, Aries, when in a partnership. So when in a romantic partnership, they become much more controlling in the bedroom. Wanting to really be pleased by the partner and vice versa, because what’s the point of being in a partnership then? They become very idealistic and demanding. They love if you try to seduce them and flirt with them, give them a lot of compliments. They need to feel desired in order to get aroused. They are also surprisingly cerebral, meaning they love smooth talkers, people who seduce them with words.

Scorpio Eros: You can imagine it’s no easy task to seduce them or arouse them. They are complex. They might have had some unpleasant experiences before which really affected them, so always proceed with care when dealing with them. They might have also stayed celibate, single for years. They are really self-sufficient, usually they know what they like, even when inexperienced. And that could secretly even prefer being pleasured by themselves rather than teaching and showing their partner what they like. Also, surprisingly, they like what it is tried and tested. They might not like too much variety and change, they could stick with that they like.

Sagittarius Eros: They love touching up on thighs, but is still a butt person. They get more aroused by people that are not around them daily and live at a distance. So they get weirdly flirty via messages. They might act more seductive online, via messages than when you are actually face to face with them.

Capricorn Eros: I would described these people as complex, yet simplistic. They might have a lower sexual stamina when younger. Then they might be more into monk mode😂 , not prioritising sex all that much, but more so they career, establishing themselves, building up finances and money. But after first Saturn Return, they usually become a beast. Like the type to love to have very consistent sex going on in the week. This is how you might expect Virgo to behave. Capricorn Eros enjoys daily sex or every 2-3 days if other duties and responsibilities prevent that. They become like bunnies in a partnership. Touching up on their partner often throughout the day. But generally, they are prone to more low sexual libido. Sometimes they really just prefer cuddling.

Aquarius Eros: They are either all in or all out. You can really know by how much they are into you by how much they are touching you. If they are detached when touching you and not looking you in the eyes or almost avoid your look a bit, they might not be into you that much, might only like you a little bit. But if they are not touching you in a “detached” manner they probably feel consumed by you. They actually give a lot of attention when fixated on someone. They also really like familiarity in sex, when seducing someone. It helps them feel relaxed and seduced if you share the same dreams, interests, hopes and ideals for the future or have the same level of education. They really would only sleep with an all “equal” partner to them.

Pisces Eros: They love to feel needed or be the protector, it makes them aroused. They love if they could help you. The type to want to hug you, kiss you and hold you, if you just cried. They like to be “in charge” of your pleasure or knowing they were the one who gave you pleasure or made you feel okay.

Eros in houses

1st house: They really like if their partner checks in with them. Like “is this comfortable enough for you, are you okay?”. Hates inconsiderate partners.

2nd house: They dislike actual massages, like if someone massages their shoulders or back. But they do like sexual massages🙈. Big on oral, but like reciprocated, they dislike selfish partners. They might consider leaving you if they deem you too selfish or not generous enough.

3rd house: Loves a sexy teacher scenario. They love people who are able to improve them, teach, guide them, that are more reserved, stern, but that are also hot as hell. It’s interesting, because these people really are not that clean themselves, but really demand a lot from their partner in terms of cleanliness.

4th house: They love doing it in their own home or own bedroom, bed. Because they often do not feel uncomfortable in another person’s bed. They get more relaxed in their own. Surprisingly, they get really turned off if their person has untidy bedroom or bed. They really like fresh sheets, clean bed, nightstand, otherwise they tend to not feel the vibe.

5th house: These people move too quickly, when try to seduce someone, flirt with them. They need to slow down with introducing intimacy too early on or without knowing the person that well. Their interest goes when the most attention is. If you give them a lot of attention, they will give it to you back enough as well. They are actually much more strict with reciprocal energy than Libra to be honest. If you are not doing enough for them, they are out.

6th house: Ahh, their day at work affects their sex life. If they are stressed, burned out, had a bad day at work, feel not good enough. They won’t like being even touched. They get really low sexual desire when from bad day at work.

7th house: If they are seducing you, they are likely thinking about partnering up with you. They don’t flirt outside of partnership. They like to give special attention only to their partner.

8th house: Has harder time with boundaries. They demand complete loyalty before interacting with you. They really go for enigmatic odd people, but fit people. They like partners who take care of themselves. If you have lousy self-care routine, better to stay away from them.

9th house: They will test you a lot with sliding in subtle jokes, so that they see how you’ll react if they are trying to seduce you, sleep with you. You will not know whether they are being serious or joking. But that’s the whole point! They are doing it only to gather your reaction, so that they know if they can proceed or not. This person will likely get with people out of their league or not want to get involved with someone all together, just because they are intimidated by them.

10th house: These people have high self-respect and they actually like more messy not so orderly people. They like even an occasional wild card. Someone who is unafraid to be themselves. They have high standards and often hang with friends and not get attached before they achieved and secured everything they wanted.

11th house: These people will always surprise with people they choose to seduce or get intimate with. Because the person they end up choosing is often the complete opposite of 11th house Eros native. If they are organised, the go for a chaotic partner that is more messy. But the thing with this placement is often yes, their partner is completely different then them, but shares the same dreams. Or the Eros in the 11th house sees their partner as someone who they try to become.

12th house: Loves getting on at night or late in the evening or right before bed or falling asleep. They get seduced by good night messages😂. They get more vulnerable at night. Also, maybe be more keen on idea of doing it if you watch a romantic movie or just watching something, relaxing and chilling. Also, they dislike if their partner falls asleep on them haha. “Oh you fell asleep, I thought we’re gonna have sexy time??”

#astrology #astroismypassion #astro notes #astroblr #astro community #astro note #natal chart #astro observations #chart reading #astrology blog

[justwritedreams]

Thinking of you | Junmyeon

Mafia!Junmyeon x Reader

Word count: 2826 Genre: fluff, angst. Author: maari  Warnings: Post-breakup, mention of alcohol Note:  I'm not used to writing with him, Sammy used to do that soooo my first story with Junmyeon that I post here 🙈 i got really carried away with this one Request:  you could do a oneshot of junmyeon, where he is the mafia boss and in a club he meets his ex girlfriend, who broke up with him because she found out what he works for. they are suffering apart and want to be together! angst and fluffy ⫷ Exo Masterlist

Y/N looked at the dark landscape outside the car completely thoughtful. It had been like this in the last few weeks, she had relived the scene of her breakup countless times and tears always accompanied her.

Was it torture? Possibly.

But it still hurt her so much to remember that she no longer had his arms wrapped around her waist, or the way he always buried his face in her neck to smell the sweet perfume he loved for her to wear.

She swallowed the urge to cry once again, she had chosen to break up because it was the best thing to do in the situation she had found herself in.

She loved him so much, she didn't even know how it was possible to love someone that much, but she couldn't be with him. As much as she wanted to.

That night in particular she had promised her best friend that she would do everything she could to have a little fun and forget about the crack that had lodged itself in her heart since then, well either it was that or her friend would have dragged her by force to “live a little ”, in her friend’s words she should stop being so miserable.

Of course, not even her friends or family knew why she broke up with him, or else things would get worse.

But going to the club reminded her of all the nights she went out with him, especially the night they met. So even though she was fighting not to think about him, the memories came.

She took a deep breath as she got out of her friend's car, smiling lightly at her to assure her she was okay, or at least pretend like she was.

As soon as she entered the club, she felt an icy wind and a chill down her spine, she hugged her body and swallowed hard as she tried to shake off the clouds of memories that invaded her head.

She had barely arrived and she already knew it was a bad idea to go there.

She and her friend went to a high table that was empty, they talked a little while observing the place, Y/N's anxious eyes looked for a single person and her reason said that it would be better if he wasn't there.

As time went on, the music got slightly louder and the place got a little more crowded.

“Tae!” Y/N's friend called a boy with her hand, as soon as he turned and found her, he smiled widely.

"What are you doing here?" He asked as he approached her to hug her, he was accompanied by another boy. “This is Jinyoung, my friend.” he introduced and the boy extended his hand to shake both of them.

“This is Y/N, my best friend.”

Y/N smiled at the two of them and when she shook Jinyoung's hand her eyes stopped at his neck.

“Are you a soldier?” She asked, curious.

She recognized the ID necklace anywhere.

“Yes, army lieutenant.” He smiled, proudly.

"Really? My brother is a sergeant, but in the navy.” she explained and he smiled slightly at the answer.

“Y/N comes from a long line of soldiers.” Her best friend commented, smiling when she finally saw her talking.

“And you’re a soldier too?” Jinyoung asked, interested.

She laughed, shaking her head.

“No, I’m the only one who has a boring job.” She joked and got a laugh from the soldier.

Y/N had a lively conversation with Jinyoung, her best friend and Tae left them alone with the excuse of going dancing.

Jinyoung was pleasant to talk to and had a captivating smile, he didn't take his eyes off her and even though she was shy, she wasn't uncomfortable. Although her initial plan hadn't taken into account going out with a guy that night, she wasn't depriving herself of wanting to get to know him better.

But she had one small problem. The ex that wouldn't leave her sober mind.

That's why she decided to do what anyone in her position would do, drink until the image of her ex's eyes evaporated from her mind along with all the walls she had built around herself since the breakup.

She excused herself from Jinyoung, telling him that she would go to the bar and come back soon, he quickly patted her arm.

When she arrived, she looked at the drinks. She wasn't that big a fan of alcohol but she knew that the only way to forget about him was to do it.

“Double whiskey, please.” she asked the bartender who nodded before leaving to get her drink.

“Whiskey?” Y/N felt every hair on her body stand up and her legs trembled. “I always thought you preferred wine.”

She swallowed hard and the bartender returned, holding out the glass which Y/N quickly took, feeling her hands go cold.

Without any courage, she turned around and saw him standing next to her. She had to lock her jaw so a sigh wouldn't escape her lips.

He was still intoxicating.

His slightly wavy dark hair didn't fall entirely into his eyes, his face was hard and serious with his eyes fixed on her, he was wearing a white silk blouse with the first few buttons open that left a part of his chest exposed so that the necklace he wore sparkled. The necklace she had given him.

He wore a black vest and she couldn't resist continuing to analyze, her eyes went down to the black pants he wore and the expensive shoes.

It wasn't possible for a man to be as beautiful as him, it must be a crime.

Although he knew very well about crimes…

When her eyes returned to his face, he saw the slight smile that threatened to break.

“Not everything is what it seems.” She spoke quietly, unable to control how weak her voice sounded. “You know this better than me, Suho.”

She wasn't used to calling him by that name, he would always be Junmyeon to her.

Her Junmyeon.

But Suho was his battle name and since she discovered that, she used the name a few times just to speak to all the hurt she felt for having been betrayed.

Feeling the world around her spin in a spiral, she left without waiting for his response and returned to the table feeling watched.

Jinyoung greeted her with a smile and she did the same before downing the glass, drinking the whiskey in one gulp, making the poor boy next to her get a little scared.

The liquid ran down Y/N's throat but nothing was as strong and intense as Junmyeon's eyes staring at her from the other side of the club.

She didn't want to be the worst person in the world but she couldn't follow what Jinyoung said, she also didn't want to return Junmyeon's gaze but it was an impossible task.

Mainly because he divided the attention of his eyes between her and Jinyoung, as if he was reading what was happening between them.

During their relationship, he was never jealous because Y/N always assured him that her eyes were always on him, that no other boy would take her focus away from him.

But now they were no longer together and there was a slightly strong soldier beside her.

Yes, he had identified that he was a soldier before even noticing the identification necklace he wore.

People like him had training to recognize soldiers and police from miles away.

And when Y/N didn't look back, she lost the chance to see the fear in his eyes.

Y/N has always been a very correct woman, she was taught to be like that by her family, war heroes who had respect and principle.

And Junmyeon was the opposite of all that. He wasn't honorable and definitely not a hero, he was nothing that she really deserved it.

It was clear that after she had broken up with him, when she discovered the illicit work he did, he was afraid of losing her for good.

Not because his enemies could go after her, firstly, he would never let that happen, secondly, he had some of his  men protecting her in secret to prevent that.

But because he knew she could find someone better than him easily, she just snapped her fingers and a line of men would form.

Because, after everything that had been said between them, he imagined that she would look for someone with the same principles as hers.

Someone very different from him.

And well, a soldier was exactly what he imagined she would find.

He just didn't think it would be so difficult to see her around a man other than him.

But Junmyeon didn't even know what was going on in her head, even though she was looking at Jinyoung attentively, she wasn't listening to a word he was saying.

What was happening inside her was a real battle.

She knew it was wrong and dangerous, but seeing him there only concluded what her heart already knew, she was still crazy about him.

Even if his work or business, she still didn't know how to say it, went against everything she believed in, it was impossible for her feelings not to speak louder.

Jinyoung was a correct and honest man, from what little they talked she concluded that, she only had one problem: he was not Junmyeon.

Even though he was just as handsome, knowing that her ex was there watching her nullified any less friendly thoughts she might have had with Jinyoung.

Y/N felt her head spinning, there were many reasons, and the alcohol she had spilled wasn’t the only one. In fact, she had only made her situation worse because she had been drinking to forget her ex-boyfriend and here she was, remembering him more vividly.

“Y/N is everything okay?” Jinyoung asked, worried, seeing her face suddenly turn white.

She took a deep breath, nodding.

“Yeah, I just…” she looked at the bar where he was, Junmyeon didn’t even blink when he looked at her. Even from afar she felt how intense his eyes still were. “I need some air.” she confirmed, looking away from Jinyoung.

“Do you need me to…” he let the sentence die in the air and she smiled slightly

She brought her hand to his arm and gently stroked it.

“It’s okay, I just need 5 minutes alone.”

He nodded, placing his hand over hers, understanding what she was saying.

Y/N left feeling the air running out of her lungs as if she had run a marathon and when she finally found the exit of the club, she closed her eyes feeling the first tear run down her face.

She had promised herself that she would try to be strong, she even tried to convince herself that she didn't feel what she felt for Junmyeon - a failed attempt to forget him - but she didn't count on finding him there.

In fact, she didn't even imagine one day meeting him again. After the harsh words she used, she thought he would never talk to her again.

Y/N looked for a corner to sit down, hugging her legs to cry in silence.

It hurt her to be away from him, more than she had imagined. But it hurt even more to be so close and at the same time so far away from him.

She was so wrapped up in her own pain that she didn't notice when he crouched down beside her.

"Don't cry, please." he pleaded and she sobbed. “You know I can’t stand it.”

Y/N lifted her head with her face soaked, looking to the side and seeing him grimacing in pain.

She kept her eyes fixed on him as Junmyeon raised his hand to dry her face with his fingertips, making Y/N close her eyes at the gentle touch.

She had missed that. Much more than she should have.

"I can't."

"What?" He caressed her face for a longer time, making her open her eyes.

“I can’t look at you and forget everything I know.” she admitted, hurt.

Junmyeon gave in, fingers retracting to cease the caress.

Y/N sighed and stood up, pushing him away completely. Ready to get out of there, she just didn't expect him to step in front of her, stopping her from going.

“I'm still the same.”

She laughed in disbelief and tried to pass, but he held her arm without hurting her and brought her closer so she could look into his eyes.

“I’m still who I’ve always been with you.”

Y/N felt her breathing became labored for two reasons, he was too close that she could feel his breath against her face, and because his eyes didn't lie.

And that disconcerted her, broke all the arguments she could have and that she had rehearsed in her head.

“You have a side that I never imagined and that I don’t agree with!” She tried to speak a little more firmly, her rational side was being drowned out by her heart at that moment.

She was finally where she wanted, in his arms.

“This is just business, Y/N.”

"Business?" she asked, frowning. “A mafia is not a business, Junmyeon, it is a sect. One from which you will never be free because you’re the boss.”

"You’re right!" he agreed, seriously. “But look into my eyes.”

She looked away, shaking her head. That was why one of his hands released her arm and went to her chin, making her look at him.

“Look into my eyes and say you don’t see how much I love you.” he begged and she was silent. “If you say that you don't see how much I need you then that's fine, I'll let you go into the arms of a guy who has the same principles, who is your hero.”

Y/N felt her eyes water.

He was her hero long before she found out where his money came from.

"I cant do it." She spoke quietly, shrugging her shoulders.

"And why not?"

“Because I would be denying the whole truth, including that my love for you also exists.”

The corners of his lips threatened to lift into a sad yet happy smile, all he needed to hear was how much she still loved him, the rest they could take care of later.

He could find a way out as long as he was with her.

Without having anything to say, Junmyeon put his hand on the back of her head, making her goosebumps rise from head to toe, she knew what was coming and didn't stop it.

He brought his face closer to her, without taking his eyes off her because he wanted to make sure she wanted it so much as him and when he didn't see any sign to the contrary, he sealed their lips.

Y/N sighed, resting her hands on his chest as she closed her eyes at the feeling of his warm lips once again against hers.

Junmyeon's hand went down her arms to her waist, hugging her with a certain desperation as he moved his lips slowly, as if he was discovering her again.

Junmyeon tilted his head to the side as he opened his mouth to deepen the kiss, all Y/N could do was grab the vest he was wearing tightly as their tongues met, eager for the sensual dance they were in accustomed.

Y/N's entire body seemed to light up, she felt so warm and so alive, it was as if she had awakened from a deep, cold sleep.

Their kiss became more desperate, causing him to press her against any surface he could find in the dark, which ended up being the club wall itself.

Completely panting, they separate, he even takes her lips in one last kiss before touching their foreheads.

“I've been thinking about you every second.” he spoke quietly and Y/N kept her eyes closed, her legs still wobbly. “I can’t live without you, Y/N.”

She smiled sideways, put her hands on his shoulders and then opened her eyes, looked at his red and swollen lips before moving up to his eyes, Junmyeon looked at her with a sparkle in his eyes.

“I could be making the biggest mistake of my life.” She sighed, reaching up to caress his face when she saw him frown. “But if I had to choose you a thousand times, I would.”

He smiled restrainedly.

“It was always you, Junmyeon. Always."

“You’re my eternal love,” he said firmly. “And you always will be.”

She smiled before pulling his face for another kiss that wouldn't be the last that night.

Was it wrong? Maybe, but everything she believed in didn't make any difference when she was with him or thinking about him.

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[soullikethesea]

I kind of lost words again. Not sure where it happened exactly, but I'm quite overwhelmed. Perhaps a bit too much socializing, too. (Most of this post is just rambling).

I did well at work. Connected with the new groups.

But my heart keeps racing and I'm quite anxious a lot of the time. -_- Not super fun. I also really don't want to work out, which is maybe just because I'm tired. I'm not going to push it.

I kind of wish I could just hide away and play a bit of Stardew Valley. Order food. Go to sleep early. I'm going to my sister's place instead to babysit. Will take some grading work with me.

I'm sure tomorrow there will be enough time to do the other stuff, Stardew Valley, etc. And on Sunday I can do more grading and prep work. Then Monday evening there's yoga to look forward to!

I just wish I'd feel more confident and less heavy. I keep thinking: "Ich kann nicht mehr" (like what you'd say when you're running and at some point you really can't anymore and you have to walk). I'm at that point for a bit. Taking deep breaths. Hoping it will all pass without me really listening to it. 🙈

[freesia-writes]

There has been a distinct theme on my dash today, and I wanted to make a separate post about it cause it applies to all fandoms and all writing in general.

PLEASE forgive anything that may come across insensitively; I’m using quote marks for words I don’t necessarily agree with but don’t know what else to use, and if my loving intent is blurred by any poor wording choices, feel free to call it out. 💕

Something amazing happens when a story is written through the eyes of a main character who experiences life through significantly different lenses than the prominently portrayed experience in media (white, cis, comfortable financially, hetero, neurotypical, etc etc), and I think it’s even more impactful when the story isn’t *about* the “differences”. A number of wonderful things occur here:

People who usually don’t feel represented or can’t relate to most media are given the chance to feel what “mainstream” viewers experience.

People who share traits with the main character don’t feel so alone.

People who don’t relate or share the experience can begin to understand it in a new way, more so than just “learning” about it.

I think it also can slip past the biases we all hold — my 67yo white dad isn’t going to read a book featuring a main character with anxiety and panic attacks if the book is something like “How to Have Empathy for Mental Struggles”, but when it’s this real, fleshed-out person and you’re hearing the experience through their eyes in the context of an awesome plot… It gets in there. ;)

It also provides such a rich opportunity to expand our understanding beyond our default egocentrism, in ways we might not seek out intentionally, and it can really open our eyes to social issues more than traditional activism, I think. Why?

Not everyone has felt the suffocating weight of depression, not as “just sadness” but as complete emptiness that makes you just want to sleep so life can pass by a little faster.

Not everyone experiences a racing mind, elevated nervous system, and feeling of being taken over by something other than “you” to the point where daily tasks are overwhelming.

Not everyone can relate to being unable to fall asleep because the waistband of your pants is too thick and is right across your hip bone and you sleep on your stomach and it drives you crazy if you can’t get it just right.

Not everyone can relate to feeling terrified to the core when your dad gets pulled over by the cops and you’re so worried that you want to vomit in the back seat.

Not everyone has lived with a disconcerting sense of not feeling at home in their own body, and are overloaded with all the voices screaming 8 million different things of what they “should” be or feel or do.

Not everyone has been accused of being lazy, inconsiderate, or undisciplined when they’re actually as well-meaning and loving as could be, but their brain works differently and sometimes time just gets away from them.

These are just a few examples, and maybe I’m way late to the game here and y’all are like… DUH. 😂🙈 But I was just so delighted with this new fic, where the reader is autistic, anxious, etc, that it sent me on a thought trail.

The main reason I wanted to lay it out is to encourage all you writers out there who LIVE these realities to bring them into your characters instead of trying to mainstream your stories so they’ll reach a wider audience or whatever your motive may be. We NEED to hear amazing fanfics and original works from experiences that are wildly different than our own. It will expand our understanding, increase our empathy, and hopefully bring more unity instead of all the arguing and clamoring to be heard.

But, as always, I’m just another idiot on the internet so take it with a grain of salt. 😉

xoxo

#ao3 writer #writer things #writerscorner #creative writing #writblr #writing requests #writeblr #writerscommunity #fanfiction writer #writers on tumblr #writing #fanfic author #author #fanfic authors #ao3 author #queer writers #writers and poets #female writers #fanfiction writers #women writers #writerslife #writer problems #fanfic writer #fanfic writers #fiction writers #trans writers #black writers #poc writer #neurodivergent writer #neurodivergencies

[illadvisedselfships]

I have a very general ask to rattle off before I leave the house!! I've been revolving the idea of sending this in my mind for a few days, but I think that last post you reblogged is a sign that I should just do it XD Because it kind of relates to my questions... sorry if it seems disjointed, I'm sort of rushing to get it out of my system ^^

When you imagine anything with your F/Os, is it you you that you're picturing? Or like. An idealized version of yourself? Is anything about her different or is she just straight up *you*? I've had this image in my head for so long of someone who thinks like me, but looks and acts quite different - almost like an OC. I think I'm getting a bit better about this though, I've been working on making my Sim self and it's helping 😅😅

From looking through this blog, it seems like you usually imagine your F/Os with you in the real world? Do you ever imagine yourself in their universe? For me I almost always imagine myself as a character in their universe!

I'm still warming up to the idea of F/Os... but for as a long as I can remember I've had daydream scenarios with soooo many different characters over the years. But I always just considered them maladaptive daydream scenarios 🙈🙈🙈 I LOVE the enthusiasm you have for your F/Os, though!! <3

Marinerainbow or anyone else is welcome to share their thoughts too, but there's no pressure to do so of course :D

💛💕💛💕💛💕 I love this ask, its so interesting! ^^

First of all- @marinerainbow , what are your thoughts here? ^^

As for me: First of all I think with F/O stuff you can - of course, - be whatever the hell you wanna be!! If thats an idealised or just, plain, fictional version of yourself- ball!! ^^ For me I generally just imagine myself. Though, admittedly, a slightly more confident, and open version of myself XD

As for the w o r l d, I usually imagine- it depends on the day XD Here are the various worlds I imagine myself in with them XD I put them under the cut cuz it partly answers the question and its also just me waffling about my various ongoing fantasies 😅

All of them: Some weird in-between world set in London with Cruella. Somehow the other 3 live there too now in this one 😅

All of them: Variant of same in-between world except I live in Maine with Jim because I l o v e the idea of living near a lake or in the bush/woods or something- I swear, if I could live out in the sticks I'd never be anxious ^^ Usually in this one, Otis lives in the basement XD

All of them: Different variant of same in-between world except I just live in Aus this time and am upholding 4 different long distance relationships 🤣 XD

Jim: The Lake Placid universe. Yes, I imagine myself in the universe! ^^ I'm not a character in the story, though, I generally imagine I'm cursed or the multiverse glitched or something and I ended up dropped in the last fictional universe I watched on TV XD So I'm just there, knowing e x a c t l y what happens and when in this story but keeping my mouth sealed s h u t about it (*cough* while shooting my shot with Jim) XD

Jim (Variant): At the moment I'm playing with a variant of this one where a version of me does already exist in the Lake Placid universe when I get there- and she's a... shall we say... adult movie star XD 🤣 Its fun!

Otis: The H1000C universe. Same as the Lake Placid one above. I end up in this universe at Spaulding's petrol station with a friend from the real world (Who either knows the story or doesn't- both can be equally fun cuz I'm either freaking out with them or freaking out for the both of us XD) and get wrapped up in the story with the main victims while trying to get the hell out before Otis sees me cuz n o I don't wanna get m u r d e r e d thank you very much-

Any of them: Switcheroo. They get dumped in t h i s (o u r) universe/timeline. And I have to keep them hidden so no one recognises them as their actor in public.

Any of them: Switcheroo Variant. We both end up in a separate universe and have to work together to get the hell out. Catch? This universe already has a version of them (A different character by the same actor. For example if the focus F/O is Jim it could be the ANOES universe. Or if the focus F/O is Otis, it could be Texas Chainsaw Massacre! XD) and possibly a different version of me as well and we have to avoid meeting/making eye contact with these other versions in order to avoid a fault in the space time continuum or whatever 😅 (And also avoid other problems that might come along with meeting characters like Freddy Krueger or Inkubus or Chop Top Sawyer🙃)

So yes... I do like to use the real me in my F/O fantasies (feels more personal for me ^^) but its not always the real world XD Its not always their fictional world. A lot of the time its just random 😅 Its completely up to you individually what you do with your daydreaming! ^^ It is s o so individual and self indulgent.

I hope this helps you? Or was interesting? 😅😂 I wish you so much luck in your future F/O-ing! XD Its all good fun and it can be comforting too ^^ And I wanna hear all about it if you ever wanna gush! Here are your free gush tickets 🎫🎟🎫🎟🎫🎟🎫🎟🎫🎟 They're infinite and theirs no expiry date! ^^

[artsylizzy82]

Genshin art dump 💖👯‍♂️

first off I just wanna say Happy New Year!! I only just joined last month but I am so overwhelmed and grateful for all the support I have received so far 🥲💞

I am so sorry that i keep dropping art and disappearing every other week this app does not work on my phone so I avoid it like the plague and also I get really anxious whenever I leave a post tgat I know a ton of random strangers r going to see I know it's not that big a deal and I do like sharing art but I also do not wish to be perceived 🙈💕

Genshin fans ignore me on every other social media I have so let's see what happens here I haven't played this game either I just think the characters r pretty and fun to draw sometimes I love seeing ppl come up with headcanons and interactions for them but unfortunately I am Not That Cool,,

I will never be a genshin fanartist account on Instagram with 125k followers but that's okay at least I can admire them from afar 💖 I will just be in the corner doing my own thing and if u wanna come over too that's awesome I love sharing my little bits of serotonin :))

Thanks for being here I hope to make lots more art to share with u guys in the next year 🫂💝 I didn't post anything for Christmas here but i hope u all had happy holidays no matter what u celebrate 💖 stay safe and happy and warm ily guys!!

#genshin impact #genshin fanart #venti fanart #venti genshin fanart #shikanoin heizou #itto fanart #arataki itto #gorou genshin impact #Help why are all the genshin tags smut 😟 #I am just a little guy #Can we please be normal about them #um #zhongli #xiao #ganyu #itto #gorou #kazuha #kaeya #paimon #Paimon and itto are siblings now bc I said so

[willowser]

hi, this is the NNN-anon again (the 2nd one? one out of many?) I posted my fic, but I'm feeling incredibly awkward about sharing it. it's not my first fic, but it's the first nsfw piece I've posted and I've been so incredibly anxious about it. I feel like it's terrible, and it's getting no traction in the few days it's been up so I feel like other people think it's terrible too. I don't even know why I'm telling you this, other than venting 🙈 I'm honestly thinking about taking it down

oh my friend 🥺 if you don't feel comfortable sharing it, that's okay !!! you definitely don't have to if you feel like that would only cause you more stress 🥺

i feel like this gets said all the time, but the most important person to please in your writing is you 🥺 and if you're not happy with it, then that's okay !! if you want to rework it until you're more comfortable with it, that's okay, too !! or if you'd like to take it down, that's your choice also 🥺

writing and sharing can be so scary !!! especially nsfw stuff !! i'm still very shy sharing it tbh !! don't feel anxious about it 🥺 writing is meant to be fun 🥺 and if it doesn't feel fun for you then you definitely don't have to share it 🥺 but i would love to read it, if you're up for it, and i'm sure other people would too 🥺 getting or not getting traction certainly does not mean it's not enjoyable ! this site can be funky sometimes about sharing things 🥺

whatever you choose to do with your writing, dear, i support you fully 🩷✨️

#i'm sorry it's making you anxious dear 🥺 #i know that feeling so well 🥺 #hugging you so tight !!! #✿ ask willow

[1mnobodywhoareyou]

I'm a bit late to the game but I read your tags so: consider this an opportunity to talk about one of the wips you're very very excited about! ❤️

Thank you!!!! No such thing as late over here :D

Well... Normally I would take every opportunity to talk about Bex but... I'll get to do that in a moment. GAH decision making is not my strong suit.

I think maybe kinder devil (previously titled Bad Bobby) because I need to get myself excited about it so I can get this next chapter done?

it stemmed out of my need to have a fic wherein Bobby was somehow connected to the boys' death in canon. It is well outside of my skillset which is why I'm struggling with it 🙈 (and the characters keep changing the rules on me) (AAAAAnd Caleb keeps trying to kiss Trevor which is... A. Problem.)

But. A take on post-canon.

Very rough text exchange snippet from the next chapter below the cut

CarrieThere’s something you should know Do you want me to tell you over text or when we’re at your place next? Dad can’t know I’m with you

Julie immediately taps the call button and it rings once before going to Carrie’s voicemail. She tries again with the same result. She’s about to try a third time when another text from Carrie comes through.

Carrie I can’t talk right now Dad can’t know

Julie Is it just me or is it for everyone?

Carrie Just you? I think. Maybe Flynn. 

Julie K

Julie knows that if she tries to wait until Carrie is back in the studio, she’ll be an anxious wreck so she quickly does what they should have done days ago.

Julie, Flynn, Carrie

JulieK just tell us now

Flynn Tell us what?

CarrieDad said something weird tonight at dinner. Well, he was a whole lotta weird but this was extra. He told me that I have to stay away from Julie for both our sakes.

He keeps going on about safety and how “it’s dangerous.”

FlynnWHAT?

Carrie Yeah. And he can’t tell me why. 

JulieDo you think it has to do with Caleb?

Carrie I really hope not. 

Flynn And he made it sound like Julie’s in danger too?

Carrie Yeah

Flynn Shit

Julie Well what do we do now?

Carrie wdym?

Julie Well if it’s not safe and he can’t know, what do we do?

Carrie Really?

Julie can hear the disdain in Carrie’s voice and rolls her eyes while she watches Carrie’s typing bubble pop in and out of the window.

#thank you! #answered ask #kinder devil #wip #ask game #nobody writes

[pizzaqueen]

Belated Buckingham fill for day one of @strangerthingsfemslashweek for the prompt “women’s wrongs” / just a little breaking and entering / pre-relationship

Warnings: A little angst, mentions of/references to abusive parents

Rated T / 904

“Are you sure about this?”

The cool beam of the flashlight dances over the backdoor, jiggling in Robin’s nervous hand.

“Yes.” Chrissy pauses. “I mean, I have a key, so it’s not like we’re breaking in.” The keys dangle from her finger, winking in the light, the roller-skate keychain gently spinning.

“That’s not what I meant,” Robin says, but, thankfully doesn’t say anything else.

Because Chrissy knows what she meant, and she doesn’t want to talk about it. “It’ll be fine.” I’ll be fine, I won’t break. Not that Robin treats her like she will. She likes that about her.

She sucks in a deep breath, the scent of her mom’s peonies filling her nose, and slots the key into the lock. It doesn’t turn. She jiggles it, tries again. Nothing.

“Maybe it’s the wrong key.” She doesn’t look at Robin. “It’s been a while.” It’s been a month. She tries the other key, feeling oddly numb when it doesn’t work. “She— She changed the lock.”

“Maybe it broke?”

“Yeah.” Chrissy swallows. “Yeah, of course.” She fists the keys, relishing the bite of metal against her palm, and strides off around the side of the house.

The flashlight shuts off, leaving only moonlight; Robin hisses her name, tripping footsteps following close behind.

The keys don’t work in the front door either.

“Chrissy…”

“She changed the locks.” Chrissy’s breath catches, her ears ring. “Why would she…” Her mom said that Chrissy better not come back if she walked out the door, but she didn’t think…

“Chrissy?”

The anger that’s been bubbling for years slowly swallows the despair, the hurt, solidifying into a new determination.

Robin glances down the dark street. “Maybe we should go.”

“No.” Chrissy meets Robin’s eyes. “I want what I came for.” The family’s away. This is her only chance.

“But we can’t get in.”

“Yes, we can.” Chrissy fists her hands and goes back around the house. She looks over the yard. There. The rock garden. She picks up a rock, testing its weight.

“Chrissy, what are you—”

Glass smashes. Glittering shards fall to the ground. Chrissy’s heart pounds hard.

For a moment, Robin looks horrified, but then laughter bubbles out of her, bright and sharp in the night; she covers her hand with her mouth. “I can’t believe you did that,” she whispers, sounding impressed.

Chrissy lifts her shoulders, bites her lip against a smile. She turns back to the door, pulse skipping. She’s not sure she’s ready to go inside, but… No choice now.

But before Chrissy can unlock the door, Robin grabs her arm. “No!”

“I already smashed the window…”

“You’ll hurt yourself.” Robin shrugs her jacket off, then slips off her sweatshirt. “Here”—she holds it out—“use this.”

Chrissy stares a moment, then she takes it. She wraps it around her arm with Robin’s help; her fingers gently skim Chrissy’s skin, sending shivers through her. She tucks a strand of hair behind her ear and eases her hand through the broken glass.

The lock clicks open. She hesitates, then steps inside. They sneak through the house, Chrissy leading the way, up the stairs and along the hall to her room. It’s exactly like it was when she left. Her chest aches, squeezing tight.

“I like your room,” Robin says from beside her. “I mean… Shit, sorry.”

“It’s okay. I liked it too.” Chrissy sighs, her hand brushing Robin’s, then she goes over to her dresser.

When she left, she was so scared she wouldn’t make it out, she packed without thinking: taking an old report card, but leaving her hairbrush. Most of what she left behind, she hasn’t missed. But this…

She takes the photo of her and her little brother from where it’s stuck to her mirror. She misses him. She wipes her eyes, and tucks the photo into her pocket, then grabs the only other thing she came for: a pink teddy bear that’s as old as she is. She still slept with it every night until she left home.

“Cute.” Robin nods at the bear with a small smile.

Chrissy hugs it to her chest and says, “I’m ready to go,” knowing she won’t be back again.

“Okay.”

They sneak back downstairs, flashlight guiding them through the dark, but when they get to the backdoor, there’s a voice outside.

“That sounds like our neighbor.” Chrissy grips Robin’s arm. “What if they call the police, or—”

“Is there another way out?”

The voice grows closer, louder. “Only the front door.” Chrissy looks at Robin; they nod and run through the house, pausing so Chrissy can open the front door, and then they burst onto the porch and run out into the street.

Chrissy has no idea if they’re being followed. She only knows that she has her teddy bear gripped in one hand and Robin’s hand is in her other and they run and run and Chrissy hasn’t felt this alive in forever.

“Thank you,” Chrissy says, breathless, lungs aching, when they stop, “for coming with me,” and she leans over and kisses the corner of Robin’s mouth.

Robin presses two fingers there, looking dazed. “That’s okay.” She blinks. “Always happy to assist with a felony. Well, probably a felony because I guess you technically burgled, but I’m not really sure and oh my god, shut up, Robin.”

“No,” Chrissy says on a laugh, “please don’t,” and grabs Robin’s hand again, holding on tight.

#Buckingham #Chrissy x robin #robin x Chrissy #Chrissy cunningham #stranger things femslash week #robin buckley #bandcheer #I’m too anxious to cross post to AO3 rn so I hope this is okay 😬🙈 #pizzaqueenfic #buckingham fic

[leibi97]

I am thinking about maybe posting my selfship doodles on my other acc again but I am always too anxious to do so... 🙈

At least I would have something to post again... 👀

[daisyvisions]

hello again 👋👋 i hope you're well 💕

truth be told, i write fanfics. not too much recently (i'm busy and creativity's in the shitter), but i've written my fair share over the years. and none of them are published anywhere because i'm too anxious about posting them 😀 so they're all hidden away in super secret documents (they're in grammarly)

anyways... that was a long introduction for this quick(ish) thought i have about Changmin (a thought i tried to write out a few months ago but failed. maybe i'll try again later tho idk 🤪)

motorcyclist Changmin. THINK ABOUT IT. it would be hot asf: him in a stereotypical leather jacket, his hair damp with sweat when he removes his helmet, him constantly working on upgrading/personalizing his bike in his garage, him speeding through town and weaving around cars because he doesn't give a singular fuck about the law

now that you have an image, let me specify some more: motorcyclist Changmin who's your EX. even better, right?? especially when you unwillingly call him for a favor a few months after your ✨️nasty✨️ break-up and he makes you pay him back. he forces invites you to come to one of his street races, and, after obviously winning, he takes you on a peaceful ride around town... which ends with him bringing you home and fucking you so deep into your mattress you remember how good you had it when you were together

idk idk just a thought like i said 🙈 Changmin's been on the mind recently (he's one of my biases afterall 🤷‍♀️)

much love to you 😘

- 🎃

OMG OMG OMG I HAD AN IDEA SIMILAR TO THIS!!! tho it was only that element of owing him something because he did a favor for you and then he uses that to fuck you 😏 but yo that motorcyclist ex! bit makes it a whole lot better 😮‍💨

like always say to anyone who's thinking about publishing their work, please tag me! I'd love to see your ideas come to life 💕

#Daisy’s 🎃💐

[storyofmychoices]

Here are some of my personal favorite fics that I've written organized alphabetically by pairing. [This does NOT include Thomas Hunt fics]

See a full list of my masterlist here.

💖 Bryce Lahela x Olivia Hadley (F!OC) [Open Heart]

Can I Have This Dance (OH1—forever) Some dances last a few minutes, others a lifetime, but every so often, there’s one that lasts forever. This kind of encapsulates their entire romance from intern year til the end. It’s fluffy and bittersweet and a little heartbreaking.

Dance with Me (OH1): Bryce and Olivia dance in the rain. 

Sea Lions, Tiger Sharks, and Penguins, oh, my! The gang takes a trip to the Boston Aquarium (and cause a bit of trouble).  

Stay (OH2, Ch5): Olivia helps Bryce make dinner for Keiki after her surprise arrival, but the surgical intern isn’t ready for Olivia to leave just yet. (the first Bryce fic I ever wrote)

Unicorn Wishes & Mermaid Kisses: Bryce, Olivia, and Keiki go for ice cream when an argument erupts between them.

Will You?: It might be his birthday, but there is only one gift Bryce really wants

No Patient Too Small: Olivia runs into an unusual patient request, but knows just the surgeon to help.

Hekili (thunder): Young Keiki is scared of thunder. Thankfully, big brother Bryce is there to help. (part of my Very Lahela Prequel series)

💜 Ethan Ramsey x Ellie Shepherd (F!MC) [Open Heart]

Full Coverage (OH2, Ch8): Ellie has a different idea when Ethan tells her to “get massaging” [the chicken].

Love & Scotch: a Hollywood U / Open Heart crossover series

Ellie's journey with the attack and her PTSD is my favorite Ethan/Ellie moments. The below fics all feature angst, PTSD, survivors guilt, and/or trauma.

Never Let Go (OH2, Ch11): When Ellie is in the hospital, dying from the bioattack, Ethan decides to spend the night by her side/

In Between (OH2, post Ch11+12) Ellie has recovered physically from the attempted assassination of the Senator, but mentally she is still struggling.

One Day at a Time (OH2, post Ch11+12): After learning about the depth to which Ellie is struggling with survivor’s guilt, Ethan tries to find small ways to help Ellie begin to readjust to life following her near death experience. 

Impromptu Vacation (OH2, post Ch11+12): Ellie and Ethan take a trip to a secluded beach as a way to help Ellie continue to process her emotions away from the triggers of Boston and the hospital. 

No Longer Adrift: Ellie and Ethan return to work after some time away.

💖  Levi Schuler x Laura Day [Mother of the Year]

Let it Be: Laura is anxious about losing Lily to guy. Levi comforts her with a song.

S’more Trouble: Lily and Luz get into a sticky situation at their soccer team’s campfire.

 Check Yes or No: Lily has a very important question to ask Levi.

... and all the Dom!Levi fics because... 🙈

💜 Mal Volari x Daenarya [Blades of Light & Shadow]

The entire orphanage series but most specifically The Start of Something New. Where Mal and Daenarya first open the orphanage and meet the their first two rescues who they eventually adopt.

Passing Shower: Sometimes when there’s an unexpected rain shower, you just have to let go and live in the moment.

A Kiss: Mal and Daenarya take a short trip to a secluded island and discuss Daenarya's kissing a mermaid. 

More than a Kit: Mal and Daenarya continue to discuss their developing relationship. Daenarya has a test for Mal to see how much he cares.

Double Date: Mal, Daenarya, Tyril, and Maiele enjoy a night at the tavern. (written as a gift to the lovely @lilyoffandoms)

 In the Market : Daenarya leaves Mal with Tyril while she and Maiele go shopping. This is part of my “a Hand to Hold” series.

One More : Mal loves telling stories of their adventures, and the kids love listening to them. Will he tell them one more? What story will he tell? (the first Orphanage story I wrote—a glimpse into the future)

💖 Troy Hassan x Astraea Callen [Wake the Dead]

The Path Forward: Troy wants to help Astraea deal with Brynn’s death.

 Carry Me?: Troy and Astraea head back to the colony after exploring a nearby lake.

💜 Trystan Thorne x Lilah Rose [Crimes of Passion]

Close Talking: Lilah is at the office, typing up her report on the Iverson Ball, when Trystan stops by to check on her.

Dealing with a Narcissist: Lilah is attempting to read a new case file but Trystan is being distracting.

💖 Shadows and Deceptions: A Royal Murder Mystery (Mini Series) [TRR, COP, BOLAS, & D&D]

In the heart of Cordonia’s grand ballroom, an eclectic cast of characters gathers, their lives interwoven as a result of a shocking turn of events. Trystan Thorne, the exiled prince with a taste for mystery, Olivia Nevrakis, the snarky Duchess skilled with daggers, Tyril Starfury, the noble elf Lord a defender of the realm, Amalas, the enigmatic spy queen, and Prince Hamid, the charming and formal imperial prince. Amidst the grand party of the birth of King Liam’s third heir, Princess Ariana, the joyous celebration is broken by a piercing scream, a dead body, and a room full of royal suspects.

#lovealexhunt #Bryce Lahela #Ethan Ramsey #Mal Volari #Levi Schuler #Trystan Thorne #Troy Hassan #Tyril Starfury #open heart #crimes of passion #blades of light and shadow #dani's fave #dani's top 3 #plus a bunch more

[sketch-guardian]

Awkward noodle friend!

First of all I'd also like to publicly announce that your OCs are so cool and I'm loving all the little puzzle pieces of information we're currently getting on your blog 👌✨

And then I'd also have a question about them! How are their relationships with the cannon obey me characters? Are some of them good friends, or absolute rivals, maybe?

Oh, and also with Camy, of course! I wouldn't ever forget my precious shy bean, don't you worry 💕

(I really really hope this hasn't been asked before, if so I'd love to see the post about it ☺️)

Impacciata amica spaghetto!

I'm so sorry about seeing your ask just now,I apologize😥I hope I haven't kept you waiting for too long🙈also thank you for the compliments on my OCs😳you're too kind☺💜

Regarding your question,I think I've already been asked a similar question in an old post of mine🤔it should be this one if you're interested:

still,I don't mind specifying some more information about their relationships with the canon characters✨even with Camy this time, since I've never written anything about that (you're so sweet Koni😭💖thank you for thinking about my MC too🙈💜I wasn't expecting that-)

This will be long,so in this post I will write for the Seven Brothers and MC only,I hope that's okay😥if you want to know RAD classmates relationships with the Now Dateables and the New Characters too,you can sent another ask if you're interested🙈now let's get started!

HOW ARE RAD CLASSMATES'S RELATIONSHIPS WITH THE CANON OBEY ME CAST?

HOUSE OF LAMENTATION

-Lucifer

Demya honestly doesn't like Lucifer very much and even if she tries to hide it behind a cheeky behavior,his presence makes her a little anxious. The punishments Lucifer's quite famous for bring back bad memories of her childhood spent in a freak show in the human world,so when she gets in trouble,she tends to avoid him as best as she can. He's too strict for Demya's tastes and she almost feels sorry for his brothers and for MC

Domnra seems pretty indifferent towards Lucifer,but he's actually slightly jealous of the authority he manages to impose without effort and the fact that he seems to be perfect at everything,which Domnra never was,not even when he was still an angel. Mobim on the other hand is intimidated by Lucifer,even if it doesn't often have a reason to be,since it is a kind and quiet creature. Mobim usually hides behind Domnra when Lucifer approaches,especially if he seems angry

Azul doesn't mind teasing Lucifer and it honestly makes everyone think he has a death wish,but the thing is that Azul doesn't care about the consequences. He knows that as long as he doesn't do anything extreme, the most he can get is a warning and still, he knows he's more than capable of escaping if that was the case. He also has no problem admitting that Lucifer is attractive,Azul just has no shame

Zuri respects Lucifer and his position,she considers him a decent leader and appreciates independent people like herself. In fact among the RAD classmates,excluding Azul who occasionally disturbs the demon,Zuri's probably the closest to Lucifer,the only one who can be considered "friend" of the eldest brother. Their conversations consist mostly of small talk about work or complaining about being often surrounded by idiots,all the while sharing a bottle of Demonus or a cup of tea,like two stressed parents

Odon likes Lucifer,even if according to them,he should try to smile a little more. They're sure that like all demons,angels and humans,he too would have a nice smile,everyone is special in their own way and he shouldn't fear to show himself more for what he is and not for the role he has to play. Odon would like to make friends with everyone,however they sensed that Lucifer doesn't trust an ancient and mysterious demon like themselves,so as much as it hurts them,they try to keep their distance. If Lucifer ever changed his mind,Odon wouldn't mind sharing a cup of tea with him

-Mammon

Demya thinks Mammon is cool and several times they found themselves scamming people together to get what they wanted, in fact they gave each other a hand occasionally. For example, if Demya attracted rich people with her beauty, making them shell out a lot of money and then leave them empty-handed, Mammon made sure to get as many meat dishes as possible for her. After all, Demya doesn't really care about money, it's just an added bonus, so she doesn't mind making this kind of trade. Also it isn't uncommon to see her teasing Mammon about his crush on MC, as she has noticed that the demon becomes much more shy and awkward in their presence, she thinks that's funny

Domnra isn't very close to Mammon,the most he has done with the demon is a few chats during gym class at RAD. However Domnra doesn't seem hostile towards him,despite how shoert-tempered he is,and for a good reason. Once Mobim had wandered off in search for flowers and Domnra went looking for it,it wouldn't have taken long with their bond after all,but what surprised him was seeing Mammon comforting a sad Mobim in a voice one would use with a kitten. Once in the open,both demons were embarrassed and promised never to talk about the accident again,but considering that other demons would have hurt Mobim instead without thinking twice,Domnra can't help feeling a touch of respect towards Mammon

Azul is a little bastard and loves to scare Mammon by randomly appearing through walls or mirrors,because he's the demon who give Azul the most fun with his reactions. However Azul isn't completely heartless and sometimes he makes it up to Mammon by offering help with stealing stuff or with homework involving curses and hexes. Once he even offered Mammon flirting lessons,to use with MC if he wanted,but the demon of greed didn't take it very well

Zuri meets Mammon occasionally when she receives proposals to be a stylist or a model with important brands and while at work he seems professional,Zuri doesn't appreciate how loud Mammon can be outside of it,she finds such behavior annoying. She thinks he's wasting his potential,because she's seen what he's capable of if he really puts in the effort. Zuri doesn't trust him very much though,because she knows he would have no problem stealing from her,but she has to admit that since Mammon rarely transforms,he was a good choice as MC's guardian

Odon finds Mammon funny and full of life and would very much like to become his friend,because they can feel that he too has good in him,unlike other demons they've encountered in their long life. Odon isn't stupid and they know that Mammon is terrified by their size and figure,so they try to appear as friendly and harmless as possible,to make him feel at ease. Once they even managed to play cards with Mammon,who lost every single time (due to the eye-like creatures spying on his cards). Luckily Odon was kind enough not to bet anything

-Leviathan

Demya struggles to remember Levi,because she barely sees him in class,let alone outside,so she doesn't have a clear opinion about him. Demya knows she can easily convince him to do stuff for her by being nice and cute like an anime girl and she figures they might share the trait of being jealous demons,but otherwise they don't have much in common. One thing is for sure though:she thinks Lotan is cool as hell and one day she would like to ride them

Domnra deems Levi weak in terms of physical strength as he barely trains while Domnra is seen as a normie tsundere delinquent in Levi's eyes,so it's no surprise that the two of them have hardly ever spoken. However Domnra noticed that Levi occasionally look at Mobim as if it was some cute anime mascot,all the while muttering "kawaii" or other anime references unfamiliar to him. He finds such behavior quite weird

Azul is an online friend of Levi and they occasionally meet to draw together, simp about their favourite characters or show off their cosplays. It seems shocking considering how different the two demons are,but they share some hobbies and kind of complement each other,for example:Azul doesn't mind asking for autographs or whatever when Levi is too shy to,while Levi keeps Azul calm with his long and enthusiastic speeches about his favourite topics,those keep Azul too occupied to suddenly change mood

Zuri admires Levi's passion for his hobbies and the way he manages to convey it to others,she believes that the effort he puts into cosplay is remarkable,because in a certain sense it's still style,however Zuri doesn't often assist to his fanatic speeches,as Levi seems quite intimidated or in awe in her presence. She isn't sure which of the two options is the correct one

Odon knows Levi thanks to what their eye-like creatures have told them,but they have met him in person just few times and the few times it happened,cell phones and computers were involved. Odon,being very old,isn't a great expert in modern technology,so as an excuse,they sometimes ask Levi for help. Moreover, Levi often compare them to some anime characters and even if Odon doesn't know what he's talking about,they appreciate that Levi isn't afraid to express his opinion

-Satan

Demya thinks Satan's a bit of a nerd and she doesn't like that talking to him makes her feel dumber that usual,but despite everything she still finds him kinda cute,especially when he's in feral mode,because Demya has somewhat strange tastes. She also finds amusing that their tails are similar and even if it doesn't matter much,she appreciates that he isn't a fan of Lucifer

Domnra and Satan both have anger issues,so they understand what if feels like and sometimes they go out together to either vent or blow off steam. It's strange seeing one of the smartest students of RAD and one of the delinquents in class together,but their "problem" has brought them closer and made them friends. Domnra focuses more on the physic while Satan on the mind,but one thing they've in common is the love for cute things. Once Satan put a kitty costume on Mobim,in spite of Domnra

Azul is friends with Domnra, so it's no wonder he has tried to be friends with Satan as well, he finds his reactions very funny, especially when he's angry. Other than that, Azul would probably be an interesting subject for Satan to study, especially because he has never seen demons with Azul's characteristic ability, i.e. changing color depending on feelings, but he probably wouldn't give Satan any explanation about it,just to tease him a bit

Zuri knows about Satan's story and is aware that mentioning the eldest brother's name gets him upset, so to avoid any headaches from his screams, she tends to avoid mentioning that name in his presence. Leaving aside this detail, she believes that Satan's very intelligent, but that at the same time he's also too insecure of his identity and that he should begin to understand that his brother is not a threat as he seems. The only criticism she can make against Satan is his way of dressing

Odon knows a great deal about Devildom, having been born before the seven brothers and having spent their long life there. They have witnessed events written in history books, both in Devildom and in the human world, so they're very well educated from that point of view. The relationship with Satan seems to be that of a student and a tutor, he can ask Odon anything historical and they would probably be able to provide Satan with an answer, having experienced it firsthand. He also seems interested in the eye-like creatures that they have and since Lucifer doesn't like Odon very much, it's another reason for Satan to talk to them

-Asmodeus

Demya likes to go shopping with Asmo and likes to gossip about other lesser demons with him, she thinks he's fun, so they're friends, but casual ones. They often meet at parties or on the streets of Devildom and while Asmo may appreciate Demya's sense of style, he wouldn't appreciate her rough and feral ways, such as gobbling up on food or having no problem getting her hands dirty. For example, Demya, unlike Asmo, doesn't mind messing up her hair or getting scars on her skin

Domnra only knows Asmo by fame, since the demon of lust has a lot of followers among demons and witches on Devilgram, but otherwise he has never really spoken to him,Domnra finds him "too much" for his tastes and being used to being surrounded by other party animals, he doesn't need another reason to have a headache. Mobim isn't sure what to feel towards Asmo, he seems to Mobim a very extravagant demon, but being a very empathetic creature, it perceives that Asmo hides some insecurities, so it doesn't know if how he shows himself in public is an act or less and if so,Mobim doesn't think it would be able to reassure him

Azul usually meets Asmo during the parties held in The Fall and occasionally finds him at Madame Scream's, when he's there to buy sweets. Being both quite popular, they know each other and are also quite friends, even if there's a casual flirting every now and then, but just for fun. Sometimes they make duets and other times they help each other with makeup, but Azul often doesn't miss the opportunity to scare Asmo and make him ruin everything

Zuri knows Asmo because of her connection to the fashion world, so from that point of view, they interact every now and then. She acknowledges that stylistically, Asmo is a professional, but otherwise she finds him quite childish and capricious when he doesn't get what he wants. She's worked hard to get to where she's now and would like Asmo to understand that beauty it's not enough and that everything shouldn't be granted to him just for his looks, but that his commitment should be the most important thing

Odon usually wanders around isolated places so as not to frighten other lesser demons, so it's very unlikely to see Asmo for them,but the few times Odon has shown up in more crowded places,they were able to talk to him. Odon thinks that Asmo has no idea exactly who they are,because on their first encounter he tried to flirt with them. The results weren't what Asmo hoped for, since Odon didn't understand his intentions, but they appreciated the casual chat in any case. The two demons know each other only by sight though, since they frequent different places

-Beelzebub

Demya and Beel are the duo that all Devildom's restaurants fear, considering the amount of food they swallow every day, so seeing them together in a restaurant is equivalent to the eventual failure of the latter. They're good friends and Demya appreciates that Beel doesn't judge her appetite,she knows what it's like to try to fill a void with food. Furthermore,the two occasionally train together, even if they do different exercises: Beel with weights and Demya with flexibility. Also Demya tries to protect Beel from people who try to take advantage of his kindness

Domnra is in some sports clubs with Beel and it happens a few times that the two demons chat. In his presence Domnra has no reason to be angry, he respects Beel's tranquility and strength, he's a very strong demon in Domnra's opinion,however his appetite reminds him too much of Demya,who he dislikes. Not gonna lie, but Domnra once feared Beel might eat Mobim and he's never been more terrified in his life

Azul hardly ever spoke to Beel, although he occasionally saw him eating in sweets shops, thus depriving Azul of the chance of buying something for himself. Maybe the reason they don't interact much is because Azul finds him quite boring, being apathetic most of the time, so it's hard to get interesting emotional reactions from Beel. Sometimes Azul can try to prank him by creating food illusions, but Beel doesn't seem to fall for it too often

Zuri knows about Beel based on what Lucifer told her about him, so she knows that the sixth brother is quite gluttonous, but also kind-hearted and devoted to his family, qualities Zuri appreciates, but that at the same time they remind her a bit of her angel days, which she would rather not think about. Zuri and Beel have talked to each other a few times, but not having much in common, their conversations go no further

Odon shares a bond with their eye-like creatures similar to the one Beel shares with Belphegor, so they feel a little closer to him in this aspect, however Beel asked Odon how they knew this information, but Odon just smiled and explained that it was a mere guess. Both demons are quite tall, so they appreciate not having to bend down to talk face-to-face. Also Odon has noticed that Beel doesn't seem to fear them, which relieves them. Odon likes it when Beel tells them about his family, because Odon has never had one and doesn't know what it feels like to have one

-Belphegor

Demya knows Belphie through Beel and is in fact quite friends with him. To Belphie Demya is somewhat similar to Beel and those few times when Demya's tired,they take naps together. The two have also silently made an agreement, namely to protect Beel from demons or witches with bad intentions

Domnra met Belphie probably through Satan, during a meeting of the Anti-Lucifer League. The two demons get along quite well and Domnra likes Belphie's sarcasm and style, but maybe he's a little jealous of the fact that he always gets good grades despite almost always sleeping in class. Mobim doesn't mind being a pillow for Belphie, as long as the demon doesn't choke it in his sleep

Azul, again, has never interacted much with Belphie. He considers him boring, since interacting with him is practically impossible, with rhe demon being always asleep. The only thing that Azul noticed that he has in common with Belphie is the love for the stars and perhaps it could be a good conversation starter for the two of them

Zuri likes hardworking, resourceful people who show at least a modicum of passion in what they do and unfortunately Belphie does not fall into this category. She knows he's the demon of sloth and she doesn't blame him for this of course, but Zuri considers Belphie too lazy and doesn't think it's appropriate to walk around as if he were always wearing pajamas

Odon is the only one among the RAD classmates who knows about the little "accident" between Belphie and MC, although it's unknown exactly how the eye-like creatures learned about it. The two demons hardly interact, but occasionally Odon sees Belphie sleeping near the Devildom woods when they walk alone. If Belphie so wanted, Odon would be more than happy to explain what they know about constellations and dreams

-Camy (my MC)

Demya doesn't know exactly what to think of Camy,being a very different person from her: introvert, shy and who prefers not to leave the House of Lamentation. She considers her a reliable and patient human considering that she has to deal with seven demons everyday and every now and then she happens to meet Camy hanging out with Mammon. In those moments Demya likes to embarrass them both with their obvious feelings towards each other. She finds them a cute couple

Domnra was quite unaware of Camy's existence at first, as her presence was hardly noticeable in class, but he started paying more attention to her when she started learning magic from a certain sorcerer. He's surprised that a human from so low has landed in the position Camy is currently in,but he has to admit that he's found a newfound respect for her, even for the pacts she's managed to make. The only times they interact is when Mobim happily greets Camy, not considering the human a dangerous person

Azul would like to make friends with Camy,since she's Levi's best friend and since they have some hobbies in common,but the human seems to avoid him and Azul thinks it's due to his unstable nature. For this reason, to make her feel more at ease,Azul tries to interact with Camy only online and only when Levi's also present, so it should be easier to chat. Azul thinks she's charming in her own weird way and he would like to play tricks on her,but he doesn't want seven demons after him so he avoids acting like an idiot for once

Zuri admires Camy's commitment to her duties at RAD, and the fact that she's a human exchange student makes her efforts all the more worthy of credit. Zuri doesn't dare imagine what it's like to live with the seven deadly sins, so she has a hunch as to why the human has such pronounced eyebags. Zuri tried talking to her with Lucifer present, but the human seemed quiet and uncomfortable,perhaps because she wasn't used to the presence of other demons. The only criticism that Zuri feels like making is the way in which the human looks scruffy,Camy doesn't seem to care about her appearance

Odon considers Camy a curious human being,strong from a mental point of view and with a great willpower. In her place, several humans would have already gone crazy with what she had to go through, with what she experienced there in Devildom, so they don't understand how she can be so insecure of herself. Camy was uncomfortable when they met for the first time, but she wasn't scared and Odon isn't surprised,considering that the human risked death several times. If Camy's alone on the streets of Devildom,Odon offers to escort her. They'are close acquaintances and that's enough for Odon

#obey me #obey me rad classmates #obey me headcanons #obey me lucifer #obey me mammon #obey me leviathan #obey me satan #obey me asmodeus #obey me beelzebub #obey me belphegor #obey me mc #obey me camy #demon ocs #obey me demya #obey me domnra #obey me mobim #obey me azul #obey me zuri #obey me odon #camy replies #omg I wrote a lot-

[pop-punklouis]

Hi! Just wanted to tell you that I'm sooo excited for you and your meeting with Louis tomorrow 🥺🥺 will you post a biiiiig post about how was that insane & amazing day? *_* I know we never interacted bc i'm shy & intimidated 🙈 but i'm sure lot of people love you A LOT like me in their little corner. You're one of my fav veterans 👑 here, you deserve to meet him so much & i'm so honored to still have you with us 🥺 CAN'T WAIT FOR TOMORROW 💃💃💃

🥺🥺🥺 yes i’ll make a post about it all when i get home tomorrow!! i’m starting to get anxious again lol so my brain has been mush since this afternoon but i love u and everyone who has sent me a message i’m hugging you all tightly. you’re all too kind ❤️‍🩹 i’m trying to relax so i’m seeing a movie before i pick my friend up from the airport but yeah thank you i still can’t believe it’s happening 👐🏼😔

[sinking-into-mist]

Hello friend, from the very start you had my heart 🖤❤️. Thank you for joining the Dark Side and being a part of the BC Wolfpackfamily 🐺 here on Tumblr. Please remember that even the darkest days will end and Another Sun ☀️ will rise. Together we are never a Bad Idea but strong like Giants ✊️. #10yearsofblindchannel & many more to come!

Omg that's so sweet! 😭 Thank YOU for being a part of the fandom! ❤️🥰

I remember scrolling through the BC tag in summer 2021, wanting to join because everyone seemed so nice and fun. But it took months until I finally gathered the courage to make an account and start reblogging stuff. 🙈 At the time I was really lonely, and had pretty much accepted that that's just how my life would be. But seeing BC's friendships and watching the fandom from the sidelines made me wish I had friends too, and eventually I decided to take a chance. I wasn't really expecting to make actual friends, but hoping to occasionally message with people and maybe feel a bit less lonely.

That was almost 2 years ago now, and seriously the BCtumblr has made my life so much better, more than I could have ever dared to dream of! 🥺 I've actually found friends, some that I message with quite regularly and others with more occasionally. Even met some of them irl, and everyone's been lovely! 🥰 There's one person especially who has become very very important and we chat daily, not naming names here but you know who you are dear and I'm so lucky to know you 💕

I'm aware that there's drama also in this fandom, but I can honestly say that everyone I've personally chatted with has been really kind and wonderful. ❤️ And all the mutuals that I haven't talked with (yet) seem great too, and I love seeing you on my dash and notifications! 💖

All in all I feel like BCtumblr is pretty chill and nice and understanding! Maybe somewhat awkward and anxious, but generally friendly 😄 So on the off chance that someone who's been nervous about joining the fandom has read this whole post, I want to say: do it. Make an account and reblog posts and see where it goes. Maybe send a nice ask or DM or comment if you feel like it. I'm pretty sure most of us like getting messages, as long as they're not hate mail. 😅 And sometimes one simple message is the start of a great friendship! 😊

This post got a lot longer than I intended to, oops! 😅 But I'm just so grateful for this community, and felt like this was a good time to say it. Thank you everyone ❤️❤️

#thank you for the lovely message! ❤️ #and thank you to all you sweet people i love you ❤️