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Hiccups (Part 1 of 2)

Marinette has incurable hiccups. Her classmates try every home remedy they can think of but nothing works. Felix thinks of one last thing she could try.

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Marinette started the morning like any other: late. Slamming her hand down on the alarm clock to shut off the blaring sounds it was making, she fell out of bed with a dull thump followed by a soft groan. As she stared through the angles of her twisted limbs caught in her blanket, Marinette acknowledged she was far more tired this morning than usual because of the one thing that she could not miracle away as Ladybug and had never found a solution for. The plague upon her life that she suffered from for years. The menace known as…

“HIC! Ugh, why did I have to have – HIC! – hiccups?” Marinette groaned as she sat up and untangled herself from the uncomfortable position she had fallen into.

Tikki flew over the teen piled on the floor and chimed, “Marinette, you’re going to be late!”

“I know, Tikki, but – HIC! HIC! – you know I’ve been up all night dealing with these hiccups. I’m so – HIC! – tired. Argh!” She threw her hands up in surrender and stumbled toward the bathroom to get ready.

The little red kwami, having experienced Marinette’s hiccup fits before, giggled a bit at her chosen’s morning antics. However, with a near tumble down the stairs and quick pitstop in the bakery below to grab cookies for Tikki, they were on their way in fifteen minutes. If she rushed, they would make it before the bell! Marinette sprinted to school, hiccupping through huffed breathing as she managed to slide into her seat just as the bell rang. Luckily for her, Madam Bustier was out sick that day and the substitute was still searching through their paperwork to find the attendance sheet.

“Girl, don’t tell me you have the hiccups?” Alya asked in a whisper.

“Hey – HIC! – Alya. Yeah, I didn’t sleep at all because I – HIC! – kept waking up all night,” whispered back the exhausted teen.

“Did you try drinking a glass of water? That always settles my hiccups,” replied Alya.

Marinette opened her mouth to reply when she was interrupted by yet another set of hiccups. Nino decided to intervene on his childhood friend’s behalf. “Mari’s hiccups are legendary, babe! Nothing cures them! One time in fifth grade her hiccups lasted a whole week before they went away.”

It was then that the substitute hushed the class and started roll call. Marinette tried to call ‘present’ when her name was announced but was only able to raise her hand as yet another loud hiccup escaped her mouth and echoed around the classroom. As the class began to giggle, she felt mortified and resigned herself to the embarrassment that would be her life today. Adrien spared her a pitying glance and small smile over his shoulder, Marinette melted a bit as she shyly waved in acknowledgement. ‘He’s so sweet, too bad his smile doesn’t cure my hiccups. At least he’s not laughing at me. Maybe today won’t be so bad?’ Marinette thought hopefully.

The class was quickly shushed, handed a History worksheet that they could work on in pairs, and told they could socialize quietly if they finished their work early that period. Marinette turned to Alya and got to work. Marinette wasn’t looking forward to attempting to talk through her hiccups, but she wouldn’t mind trying to catch a short nap during their downtime. Unfortunately for her, their classmates were never going to allow the poor girl to rest when they had a cure to find! Thus, during the last 30 minutes in the period, Marinette found her desk surrounded by her friends inquiring about her hiccups and tossing remedy ideas around.

“Mari, have you tried holding your breath?” Kim asked. “Always works for me!”

“Bet my cure for hiccups will work and yours won’t,” challenged Alix.

“Guys, maybe – HIC! – don’t bet on – HIC!” started Marinette.

“You’re ON!” readily agreed the jock as if Marinette had not just spoken.

‘This is going to be a long day…,’ thought Marinette tiredly.

The day passed slowly, punctuated by random jump scares at lunch and unending suggestions from every classmate for solutions to her plight. Each suggestion was followed by Max calling out the probability of success as calculated by Markov. Well, almost every classmate was invested... Felix, as usual, was attempting to enjoy his book and ignore the hubbub around him. Marinette had caught a glimpse of him scowling at her for a fit of hiccups that interrupted the quiet reading time during Literature class. However, as soon as the look was given and before she could attempt to whisper an apology, Felix’s face returned to the indifferent mask he always wore and buried his nose back into his book. The girl huffed softly and went back to drowsily staring at the page of increasingly jumbled words.

Much to her disappointment, her classmates’ never-ending exuberance to help with her hiccups left Marinette without a single moment to rest and, as each hour dragged on, the little energy she had waned even further. All she wanted to do was lay her head down for a few minutes! However, during their free period, her classmates kept piling on the suggestions until she finally sleepily acquiesced to attempting these supposed “cures.” Alya kept a list of their tests and the results:

Jump scare(s), failure.

Breathe into a paper bag, failure.

Running a marathon. (“Really, Kim?”)

Slowly drink a full glass of water, failure.

Pull knees to chest and lean forward, failure.

Swallow granulated sugar, failure.

Bite into a lemon, failure.

Hold your breath (until she nearly fainted), failure.

Practiced measured breathing, failure.

Squeezing your nose while swallowing water, failure.

Stretching her solar plexus, failure.

Standing on your head and drinking water upside-down, failure.

Holding your breath and swallowing three times, failure.

Gargling cold water, failure.

After the last failed attempt ended with water spilling on her shirt from a wayward hiccup mid-gargle, Marinette held up her hands in defeat and stopped. The bell had rung and there was a brief break that she wanted to go retrieve a spare shirt from her locker. ‘Just a couple more periods until school is over,’ she thought as she dragged herself downstairs to her locker. ‘Hopefully there won’t be an akuma attack before these go away! How embarrassing would it be to have hiccups as Ladybug? Chat would never let me live it down!’

Marinette felt Tikki’s little reassuring pats through her purse as yet another strong hiccup popped up mid-yawn. She whined softly at not even being able to yawn without hiccupping. She pulled out the white athletic shirt and quickly exchanged the two with a sigh, making sure to refresh her lip gloss and straighten her pigtails before heading back to class. ‘At least P.E. isn’t until tomorrow,’ she thought, ‘maybe my luck is turning around and these hiccups will stop soon!’

~~ Fast forward to the end of school ~~

The final bell rang, chattering students poured from the classroom and out into the open air. Marinette was so exhausted that she moved in a sleepy trance, dragging her feet and swaying like a ship in a storm. ‘I’ll probably sleep right through my hiccups and an akuma alert at this point,’ she giggled deliriously at her thoughts. Luckily Alya just gave her an amused look while she grabbed Marinette’s elbow to keep the tired girl from falling on her face and guide her through the bustling halls. Once in the locker room, Alya gave her friend a gentle push down the correct aisle before meeting up with Nino and Adrien near the doorway.

Marinette opened her locker to exchange books for the homework due tomorrow. ‘Physics and French Literature? Shoot, did I need anything else?’ Her brow wrinkled with the concerted effort to recall the homework through the sleepy haze of her mind. She pulled a textbook from the shelf, only to have another tumble down when a powerful hiccup jostled her entire body. She cursed under her breath and quickly bent to pick it up, tossing it back into the locker while clutching the needed textbook to her chest so she wouldn’t drop it as well. Just as she turned away to recheck the books in her backpack, a shadow was cast over her feet. Marinette didn’t think much of it until her locker door was slammed shut, causing her to jump back against the next locker with a startled hiccup. She glanced up to find Felix leaned over her.

“Your hiccups have been interrupting my peace of mind all day, Miss Dupain-Cheng,” his voice sounding strangely sultry in the low but dismissive tone he was using. Felix’s right hand was firmly planted against the shut locker door, he had angled his body to face her square on and leaned slightly forward until their faces were close together. So close that she could see little flecks of gold in his green eyes and was momentarily stunned speechless by the intensity of his gaze. He gently lifted her chin with his left hand and his voice dropped down to a teasing murmur, “perhaps there might be one solution you have not yet tried.”

Everything seemed to slow and quiet around them in this moment. She could smell his cologne, the starch from his clothes, and the minty scent of his breath. Felix’s gaze flickered from her eyes to her lips as if asking for permission. If she had not been staring into his eyes, she might have missed the movement entirely. Marinette’s breath hitched with a small, almost imperceptible hiccup as her eyes started to close on instinct to his closeness. ‘Is this really happening?’ She thought. ‘No, the real Felix wouldn’t kiss me. This must be a delusion brought on by an akuma or lack of sleep. Wouldn’t hurt to be curious if this is just a dream though…’ She missed the tiny, conspiratorial smile that graced his lips before he leaned forward, closing the distance between them.

The world seemed to fall completely away as their lips met in a chaste kiss, sending an electric tingle down her spine. A rush of warmth blossomed in her chest. ‘What is this feeling? His lips are so soft,’ Marinette thought. Felix pushed forward slightly and deepened the kiss with a breathy moan. His lips teased hers until he gently bit her bottom lip, causing her to softly gasp into his mouth. Her fingers tightened their hold on her textbook in response, gripping it closer to anchor herself to the ground while her heart tried to flutter from her chest. The kiss was unexpectedly tender yet hungry, as if finding water after a long walk through the desert; firm yet gentle, like the softest satin fabric she had ever touched. The grip on her textbook began to falter as Felix’s hand started to slide down her jaw to cup her cheek. Her fingers itched to touch him. Before she could let go of the book to cave to the need to pull him in closer, a scandalized cry from their periphery broke through the quiet that had engulfed them.

The boy tugged on her lip lightly as he pulled back and she shivered as his warm hand left her skin. Marinette opened her eyes slowly as if breaking a spell. Looking up at the boy with wide eyes and her mouth still hanging slightly open, her bottom lip swollen from his gentle ministrations. His eyes were soft and he sported a surprised expression. His tongue darted out to lick at her transferred lip gloss now adorning his own. “You taste like strawberries…,” he murmured absentmindedly, just loud enough for her to hear.

With that statement, sound and time seemed to return to normal in an instant. From the corner of her eye, she could see a shocked Nino holding back an angry looking Alya ready to go on the warpath. Next to them, Adrien seemed to be confused and distraught over what he had just witnessed happen to his ‘very dear friend.’ Marinette’s face and neck grew hot as reality came crashing back but she couldn’t find any words to speak, let alone think, as if Felix had stolen that ability from her with his kiss. All she could do was stare at the boy in front of her while students hollered and whooped around them. Marinette.exe has stopped working.

However, one sound in particular was completely silent…

A smug and aloof look returned to Felix’s face as he pushed off from the locker where his hand had been and stood straight. “Seems your hiccups are gone, mademoiselle. I would appreciate if you would refrain from causing such a disturbance with your hiccups in the future.” The statement was delivered in his usual haughty, mocking tone. With that he gripped his bag strap, slightly nodded his head towards her, and walked away looking completely unfazed by what had just occurred. In his wake he left a flustered and speechless girl leaning against the lockers for support, staring off into the space he had just inhabited. Her knees shook before she slid down to the floor, her textbook sliding from her numb fingers. She was immediately swarmed by friends barraging her with questions she was unable to answer. She just needed a minute. Or twenty.

No one noticed nor paid attention to the smug looking Felix as he retreated from the building and got into his family limo. Once in the quiet protection of the tinted car, his hand touched his lips with trembling fingers and his breathing became slightly uneven. His ears turned pink as he recalled every second of the kiss in agonizing detail. A kiss that, while originally meant to be in jest, had affected him more than he would ever admit. ‘Marinette…,’ his mind whispered longingly to him. Felix’s left hand tightened its grip on his bag. He involuntarily gazed back towards the front of the school to catch a glimpse of her stumbling out in a daze as his car pulled away.

~~ BONUS SCENE ~~

The akuma should have been expected after what happened at the end of school. Lila became enraged about the kiss and having to watch their classmates positively fawn over Marinette. There was no way for the liar to twist this into making her look good nor gain sympathetic attention. It was completely predictable really. What was NOT predictable was that, when Lila, now called The Embarrassator, switched targets when she could not find Marinette.

‘Great! The first time I’ve been the target of an akuma while NOT impersonating my cousin!’ Felix thought. He hoped Ladybug didn’t still hold a grudge for that attempted kiss months ago. It’s not like he had the ability to apologize to the bug-themed heroine but he regretted it now. If she decided to spite him, he was probably going to suffer until that annoying cat boy destroyed the akumatized object. ‘I just wanted a quiet evening trip to the library to get a new book! Is that so much to ask?’

Felix saw an opening and bolted from his hiding place to try to get around the corner without being noticed by The Embarrassator. Unfortunately, luck was not on his side. He heard the akuma’s cackle before her ray hit him in the back. Immediately he was wracked with hiccups, coughing between fits in an attempt to bring air to his seizing lungs. He barely noticed his clothes had transformed into an atrocious orange and hot pink jumpsuit with oversized shoes before he was running again, the akuma hot on his heels. He managed to make it about two blocks when his shoe caught on a crack in the pavement and he fell.

Within seconds, and before he could hit the ground, he was airborne. Wrapped in a slender red polka-dotted arm that held him over a petite shoulder like a mere sack of potatoes. The wind whipped at his hair and face, leaving him a disheveled mess. ‘Just great,’ he thought, ‘this can’t get any more embarrassing.’ They landed on a rooftop many blocks away from the akuma and he was set onto his feet. He stumbled back against a nearby chimney to regain his bearings from the sudden flight by magical yo-yo and hiccupped through a clipped but grateful response for being rescued.

Ladybug took in his appearance and a smirk grew across her face. “Did the akuma do this to you?” She asked, gesturing to his outfit.

“Yes, and the – HIC! – these dreaded – HIC! HIC! – hiccups!” Felix replied with exasperation. He saw Chat Noir land near the edge of the rooftop a few meters behind Ladybug as if waiting for her cue. The cat took one look at Felix and began uproariously laughing. “You try – HIC! – getting hit – HIC! – by that damned – HIC! HIC! – akuma!” Chat laughed even harder, tears beginning to form at the corners of his mask.

Ladybug was smug but quiet, her eyes seemed calculating yet sparkled with humor. Before he could even hiccup out a scathing remark or head toward the fire escape with his tattered dignity, a bright red glove landed with a loud thud against the chimney next to his head. His eyes widened with surprise as the lithe Ladybug executed a perfect kabedon maneuver. He pressed his back and the palms of his hands into the plaster of the wall behind him. He glanced up to her hand and was gobsmacked as he noted small cracks had formed at the point of impact. ‘Blimey! Just how strong is she? Did she pull her punch before?’ Felix wondered, suddenly feeling the phantom sensation of the punch from their prior interaction. She still had her yo-yo in her free hand and used the edge to tip his face to look at her. Once he met her commanding blue eyes, he was powerless to look away. ‘Her eyes…they remind me of…’

With that last fractured thought and no warning, her lips met his in a heated kiss. From the edges of his mind he heard Chat Noir’s shocked exclamation of “My Lady!” But Felix? He was lost to the sensation of Ladybug’s lips on his own, drowning in the torrent of confusing emotions that bubbled up in his chest. Her lips moved possessively and all he could do was hold on to the chimney as she claimed his. However the kiss ended as suddenly as it started, leaving Felix with a dazed, half-lidded look as he leaned forward slightly to instinctively chase her departing lips.

“Just returning the favor, monsieur,” she murmured playfully as she straightened with a smirk.

“I…what…,” began Felix, his brain still a jumble.

He watched numbly as she sashayed over to a shocked Chat Noir, whose jaw hung wide open. Bumping him with her shoulder, she motioned with a nod of her head towards an explosion and screams in the distance. She gave a two-finger salute and a wink over her shoulder to Felix before launching herself off the roof. With a confident call of “bug out!” she swung out of sight. He witnessed Chat look dumbly off towards the retreating figure of his Lady before glancing confusedly back at Felix. He swore he heard Chat mutter something about kisses and bluenette ladies in his life. Chat physically shook himself and abruptly jumped off the side of the roof without a second glance at the flabbergasted Felix.

It wasn’t until he was climbing down the fire escape to the echoes of the distant ongoing akuma battle before he realized his blasted hiccups were gone.

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tinkerbelle05 · 1 year

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I See You

Characters: Ao’nung x GN!Metakaynia!reader, Lo’ak x GN!Metakaynia!reader (one-sided on Lo’ak’s part)

Warnings: angst, denial of feelings, jealousy, fluff at the ending

Summary: After seeing you had become close to Lo’ak, Ao’nung started to feel jealous. But he wasn’t jealous because he liked you, he was simply looking out for you. Then, he noticed that Lo’ak was getting closer to you and then you saved him from drowning. Ao’nung realizes his feelings and takes some inspiration to snatch your attention away from the forest boy.

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Ao’nung has known (Y/N) for as long as he knew life. He couldn’t think of a time when you weren’t attached to his sister’s hips. And in a way it made sense, your parents were good friends with his parents. So for most of his life, you were just another annoying sister and someone he generally ignored unless he wanted to prank you with his friends.

But then at some point, he saw you in a different light. The way you smiled at him, all toothy and sweet. The way the sun would shine on your blue eyes, how your skin was the same teal color as the ocean, and the marking on your skin looked like the waves. How he would love to trace them with his fingers.

In every sense of the word, you were undoubtedly stunning. You gave him butterflies, and Ao’nung didn't get butterflies. Sure, he gave other people those feelings because look at him. But it was never the other way around.

Instead, it was. And there was proof of those feelings whenever your hand brushed against his or how your laugh made him smile. Hell, even you looking in his general direction did something to him.

“Oh Eywa, dude this is getting depressing now,” Rotxo grumbled in irritation. “This is the 3rd time this week I caught you staring at them, looking like a lost baby ilu.”

Ao’nung and Rotxo were sitting by the shore, watching you play with your ilu. You were just laughing and splashing in the water with him, no care for anything but the two of you.

He groaned at his friend but before he could say anything Rotxo stopped him. “No, no, I am being serious right now. You like them, so why not just grow a pair and tell them how you feel? Your whole personality is being confident so I don’t get it.”

Ao’nung looked at him and saw the sincerity in his eyes. While he and Rotxo were close, they weren’t the type to pour out their feelings to each other. It’s just not the type of person that he was. It wasn't an easy thing for Ao’nung to do. To expose the deepest part of himself to others.

His pride is something he greatly valued but it’s so fragile, like glass, that he will do anything to protect it. Which is why he couldn’t tell you how he felt. Ao’nung and you were at a place where you could consider yourself comfortable in the presence of the other and, telling you might end up ruining the comfort you felt around him.

“Because it’s not that serious, man.” He quietly chuckled at his friend like this was a joke. One big joke. “It’s just a little crush. Trust me it won’t get any deeper than that.” Rotxo didn’t look the least bit convinced with his answer by the way his eyes flicked up and down, judging me like I was a fool. And hey, maybe he was the fool for making things harder than they needed to be. But this is his plan so he’s sticking to it. “Hey, wanna go on an ilu race? Or is all this sentimental talk to stop me from absolutely destroying you?”

Rotxo has many great, and equally horrible, qualities. One of them was extremely 50/50, his competitiveness. Sometimes he’d get way too into it, and if that’s coming from Ao’nung, then you know it’s bad. Sometimes, not as much. However, it also means if you pushed the right buttons, he’d lose track of whatever he was originally thinking.

He glared at Ao’nung, offended that he’d even imagined the idea of beating him, much less speaking it into existence. “So, that’s how it’s gonna be?” He got up and started to call to his ilu and Ao’nung readily followed suit. It was supposed to be a ruse to get Rotxo to drop the topic, yet he’d only just scratched the surface.

“Yo, (Y/N) come and be the ref for our race!” Rotxo called out to you and gave his friend a knowing look. That conniving little shit, always having something up his eywa-damned sleeve.

But before he could give Rotxo hell for it, they appeared. The forest people, riding on their..ikans? He thinks they're called. Ao’nung wonders what they were here for. Forest people belong in the forest, not the reefs.

“Guys, father is calling a clan meeting,” Tsireya called out to us. She looked confused, and slightly anxious, mainly confused. Her lips were pursed together and her eyes were darting around. Ao’nung knew why, the last time a group of Na’vi, he assume from the forest, traveled out this far it had not been good news.

It happened 15 years ago, a year just after hr was born. The war, as the people called it. The Toruk Makto, a former Dreamwalker, rallied up the many clans who lived in the forest, along the reefs, and on the plains to fight against the other Dreamwalkers. The war was devastating even though we won. Homes were destroyed and families have ripped apart.

They all walked along the path to the clan meeting grounds. The usual chit-chattering was replaced by dead silence as each Metkayina racked their brains for why this was happening, and what it could mean for their clan.

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Ao’nung was fucking seething, frothing at the mouth even. He was so irritated, it wasn't fair at all. It wasn’t, it just wasn’t fair. For some reason, his father had asked, no, he had demanded that Ao’nung and his sister help the Omatiakan teens settle into their new home.

It turns out that the oh-great Toruk Makto and his family are being hunted, so instead of fighting like an actual Na’vi would have, he ran away like those Dreamwalkers do. Ao’nung guessed under the blue skin and towering height, he still was nothing more than a Dreamwalker, a demon.

He didn’t come asking for help to battle, but to hide and cower like a coward with his family. And on top of that, some of them had 5 fingers. And they were forest people. Their indigo skin would stand out starkly against the vast and rich cerulean sea and make it harder to hide from predators that they couldn’t outswim or fight. Speaking about outswimming, their skinny tails and arms would make it hard for them to swim against the harsh currents. They would never survive in the reefs. And if Ao’nung had thought of all this, for certain, his Father did as well.

“Okay,” Tsireya says, clapping her hands together. “First order of business is introducing each other.” She smiled warmly at the forest people, that’s his sister for you. Always kind and welcoming, even to outsiders. He definitely hoped that you would have a better head on your shoulders.

Right now everyone is sitting in a circle near the ocean. The actual first order of business was to teach the forest people how to breathe underwater. So pretty much teaching the basics that even kids as young as three could do in their sleep.

Ao’nung still couldn’t understand why his father would volunteer him to waste his precious free time teaching these forest people. His sister seemed more than happy to teach them by herself so why’d he have to tag along? His only saving grace was that you were also in attendance, Rotxo having tagged along too. Not that he’s happy because he likes you or anything. Just that having his both friends here makes it more bearable.

“Well, I’ll go first,” You started with a warm grin on your face. So you didn’t have a good head on your shoulder. He didn’t know why he expected better, you were always one to lend a helping hand.

You looked breath-taking today, your hair hanging loose and a set of matching bracelets adorned your wrist. They’d look really pretty with a necklace to finish off the look. “Hello, my name is (Y/N). It’s really nice to meet you guys, even if it’s under these circumstances.”

“Oh, that’s a pretty name,” one of the forest people said. “My name is Lo’ak.” he gave you a ‘charming’ smile that had Ao’nung pouting like a little baby.

Out of the corner of his eye, Ao’nung saw his sister smile slightly and murmur something under her breath. Now, he wasn’t the best mouth reader but he was pretty sure that she said that boy’s name. Does she like him? Already? It’s only been a few minutes, damn. Oh, Eywa help him.

The rest of the forest freaks and Rotxo introduced themselves but he couldn’t be bothered to listen to any of them. He saw the lingering glances that Lo’ak kept giving you and how you’d laugh at all of his stupid and frankly cringe-worthy jokes. But he doesn’t care, well he does care but not that much though. But not because he likes you or anything, just looking out for you like a friend should. Yeah, just looking out for you because you deserve a good person and this Lo’ak dude is below average.

Though, Ao’nung understood exactly why Lo’ak fell for you. While teaching them how to breathe, you were always patient and calm with everyone. Especially with Lo’ak who just so happens to always need extra help. And will always need it from you. To Ao’nung’s dismay, Lo’ak’s constant longing stares, bright smile directed towards you, maybe a touch that lasted too long all continued well into the months that the Sullys had stayed here.

And then, it happened. It was during their training sessions when Lo’ak went under and hadn’t come out. Tsireya was the first to notice his absence, shouting at the others for help. Ao’nung brushed it off as him just wanting attention from you yet again. He’d been pretending that he can’t ride the ilu so he’ll need help or something along those lines if that didn't work.

However, you had dived right into the water in search of him, while his sister and Rotxo called to their ilus.

“Neteyam, you guys stay here in case he washes up along the shore!” Tsireya called out before riding out into the blue waves on her ilu in search of the ‘missing’ teen.

“Shouldn’t we call the adults?” Kiri, the freakiest of them all, asked her brother. Neteyam was by far the only tolerable one. Then she looked at me, “Aren’t you gonna do something, fish lips?” She sneered the question out.

Ao’nung only rolls his eyes at her naivety. She had grown up with the idiot and still didn’t know his tactics. “Oh give me a break. You guys have been here for weeks now, the only reason that idiot is ‘drowning’ is because he wants attention!” He snapped back at her.

Whatever the freak said next fell on deaf ears as he watched you pull the idiot out of the water. You were mesmerizing, the ocean blended in with your skin, making you seem a part of it. You looked powerful and fearless, carrying the boy on your back effortlessly. Once you got to the shore, the others quickly surrounded you guys. Ao’nung watched as you laid Lo’ak on his back, checking him over. Giving him your undivided attention. You started chest compressions on him and in a few minutes, he was coughing up water.

But let this be known, Ao’nung is not jealous because he doesn’t like you like that. He just doesn’t want you with someone who would pay a cheap trick like that on you.

Laying his head in your lap and looking down at him you spoke gently. “Are you okay, Lo’ak? Can you breathe?” You looked up, face wrecked with worry and terror as you turned to Tsireya. “Reya, please go get your mother.”

“No,” Lo’ak protested weakly. He sits up but his hand is still holding on to yours. “I’m fine. Thanks for saving me.” He’s all smiles and heart eyes. Gross.

After the situation died down he went to his family’s shared Mauri, laying on his back and staring at the huts roof. That’s when he realized it. Thinking about the feelings he had regarding you and Lo’ak. He always knew, deep down, that he liked you. More than a friend.

“I like them.” He says to himself, softly. Testing out the sentence on the tips of his lips. “I like them.” He said again, with more confidence this time. He likes the way saying it makes him feel. The beating of his heart and the heat from his cheeks. This feeling was familiar but foreign in the same way. Either way, he loved this feeling. He loved you.

The pain in his chest returned once he realized he was more than likely too late. He knew what that forest freak was going to do after this. It was clear as day, anyone could see it. And he doesn’t know who he hates more. Lo’ak or himself.

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Ao’nung had an idea. It was a stupid and hypocritical given his thoughts on what Lo’ak had done, but it was an idea nonetheless. He wanted to tell you about his feelings. He wanted to say them so much that it hurt and his throat closed up from how dry his screams of confession would become. He didn’t know if you would accept his feelings but the least he wanted to say was the he tried.

Ao’nung and you were alone for the day, with the forest freaks off exploring and only Eywa knows where his sister had run off to. He didn’t know what was up with her these days but she’d been moody and snappy.

The sun was high in the cloudless sky and the waves were calm. Usually, this scenery would soothe Ao’nung but nothing could with the pounding of his heart.

“So, wanna go for a swim today?” He asked you, he had assumed newly courted pairs would be together unless you had rejected Lo’ak or the fingered demon hadn’t said anything yet. No matter the reason, this was his chance.

“Yes, that would be great, Ao’nung.” You gave him a smile before a devilish smirk slipped onto your face. “The last one there is a rotten ilu egg!” Was the only warning he had gotten before you took off into the ocean.

Ao’nung let out a bright laugh and ran to join you in the ocean, determined to not lose. He dove into the water, the coolness of it was a relief from the scorching sun that was burning him a few minutes ago. One of the best things about living among the reefs was how calm the water was. The oceanic life around him was just beautiful, he saw it every day yet it always managed to take his breath away. The plants were colorful and the animals swam around you both, not paying attention to either of you as both you and Ao’nung admired them.

The swim was one of the best he had in a while, and it was most definitely not because you were there. Okay, maybe it was because you were here.

He wanted to do it, to have your attention. No more forest boy trying to steal you away. And that's when he realized how. He'd go under, you'd save him, and then he’ll confess his feelings. It would be perfect.

So with a deep breath and his mind set on putting his plan into motion, he let go of his breath and let the water push their way into his lungs. The waters presence in his lungs was immediate and uncomfortable. Oh, Eywa, it was terrifying. His instincts were telling him to swim up or breathe correctly or do something. Ao’nung would like to say that he refused because he wanted the plan to work. But truthfully it was because he was in shock and he begged you'd notice.

And when you did, the panic in your eyes crushed him. Regret filled him immediately. You swarmed quickly towards him and, once securing your hold on him, swam upwards. You struggled slightly with the weight of you both dragging you down, not to mention how scared you were. Your tears mixed with the seas, a sight that broke him even more.

Death by drowning did not happen frequently because of how strict the Metkayina were with learning to hold your breath. But when it did, it was a tragedy, mostly because the victims did it on purpose. Ao’nung watched you as you dragged his body to the golden sandy shores and quickly began chest compressions on him. He watched as you pressed into his chest, counting to yourself. He was starting to hear a ringing noise and his vision started to blacken. The last thing he saw, the last thing he remembered was how wide your eyes were. How the eyes he had grown to love so much had tears pouring out of them as you screamed, but Ao’nung didn’t hear it.

When he had finally woken up in his family’s Marui, Ao’nung slowly blinked and tried to remember how he had gotten there.

Oh.

Oh no.

He had to find you! He had to explain, he had to apologize. Shame and panic filled him and his heart grew heavy as he remembered the fear in your eyes and the tears that were already spilling. He had just wanted your attention, and was too much of a coward to be upfront with it.

“You need to rest, my son,” his mother’s voice spoke to him as she entered the Marui. It was soothing and almost lured him back. Almost. He got up and tried to push past his mother, but she stopped him in his tracks.

“No. Mom, I have to..” He struggled against her and attempted to break free of her hold. But she was stronger than him and managed to get him back into his cot. “What you have to do is get better,” she corrected me with a hard look. But her eyes softened, “You have a visitor though.”

She gave Ao’nung a smile, before walking back out again to grab his visitor. Not even a minute later you come rushing in. Tears still stained your cheeks and your eyes were still red from how much had been crying. “Oh, Great Mother! Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.” You repeated like a mantra and hugged him. The hug was fierce but not too strong. Even when you are hurting, you still are considerate.

“I’ll give you two a minute,” His mother said, standing by the entrance. Nothing gave away her true feelings but, with a knowing look directed to Ao’nung, she left the Mauri.

Once you’d calmed down, you smiled sheepishly at Ao’nung and cleared your throat, “Um, sorry for how I acted earlier. It…it was just so scary seeing you passed out like that. You looked so terrified and then you were out for days. But anyways, how are you feeling?”

Guilty, like an idiot, like…like how I described the Toruk Mako at the beginning. A coward. “I- I am fine.” He finally smiled back at you. He had to tell you. No no, he should tell you. He had no right to your attention. Not after what he had put you through. “Listen, I have to tell you something.”

“Wait! Wait, before that,” You smiled at him. The same bright smile that he loved to see so much. “I have something for you.” You pulled out a bracelet, it looked similar to the ones you always wore. Hell, you are even wearing them right now. You slipped it on his wrist and it was gorgeous. Made from different types of seashells that could be found littered around the shores.

“It’s an apology bracelet, and a little something more.” You said, not looking at him and with a small blush creeping its way onto your face. “Ao’nung, I am so so sorry. I wasn’t strong enough and I should’ve called for help but I didn’t. If I did, then maybe you would have woken up sooner.”

“Hey, hey. None of that.” He corrected you. “What happened to ‘it is your fault and your fault alone Ao’nung!’? Okay, do not blame yourself.” Guilty was absolutely wrecking him, how long had you been thinking this? He should tell you. Tell you now. But... ”Something more?” He questioned you. Yes, he was being racked with guilt and this ‘apology bracelet’ did nothing to help the feeling. But Ao’nung couldn't just ignore the ‘something more’. He couldn't ignore the beating of his heart. He had ignored his feelings enough.

You took a deep breath before confessing. You tell Ao’nung these feelings were always there and that you were worried that you’d always be the ‘childhood friend’. But having him almost die right in front of you, watching his eyes close with the possibility of them never opening again stirred you into action.

Ao’nung was delighted to hear this from you. He’d never allow himself the dream that you’d actually reciprocate the feelings he kept hidden. It would hurt too much if he got his hopes up for nothing. But, like all good things, he knew this moment would not last. So he savored it, the emotions he felt, the way you looked at him, committing everything to memory.

Then he confessed.

For the kind and gentle soul you were, seeing you angry was like seeing a completely different person. Rage consumed you, and you lashed out at everyone. One of the elders described it as being stuck in the storm’s path with no clear way out. Another said it’s because you don’t get angry often so it just builds and then erupts like a fiery volcano. Doing more harm to yourself over anyone else.

You pulled your hands out of his quickly as if they were a piece of fresh coal, burning away at your skin. The look you gave made his body ache with sorrow, nothing but anger and disappointment could be seen in your eyes.

“So, let me get this right, you were jealous of my ‘closeness’ with Lo’ak, and gave me a heart attack…gave everyone a heart attack-!” You shout at him in rage. And then proceed to throw up more screams of bitterness and anger. Not just at him, but everything. Ao’nung clutched the bracelet you had given him, to hold on to a sweet memory. It was no use trying to talk to you. Too blinded by your emotions to listen. No less believe the boy.

“I…I can’t believe you’d do something so reckless, so selfish, so stupid! Everyone was worried for you. You could’ve died, Ao’nung!” You roared with your fists clenched at your sides. That’s when Ao’nung saw the tears that were rolling down your face. Not bothering to brush them away.

That was when Tsireya came running in, probably hearing your shouts and sobs. She looks between you two in puzzlement before looking at him in vexation. “What’s going on here?” She demanded of Ao’nung with a facial expression that looked eerily similar to their Mothers.

She turns to look at you but you simply shake your head at her with a weary smile before leaving. She turns to look at her brother with her signature ‘you are fucked’ stare. “What did you do?” She demanded again but spoke a lot more harshly.

Ao’nung could only sigh and tell her the whole story. She gave him a disappointed look, her eyes blown wide and mouth agape. Normally he’d give her shit for looking at him like that, but he deserved every last bit of disappointment that was about to be thrown his way. And, every bit of the verbal lashing his mother will soon give him when word gets out.

After a moment of silence, she talks. “You need to apologize to Ao’nung. I know that is a given but seriously. They were a mess and inconsolable for days after you passed out, and would hardly leave your side.” She looks away from him for a minute but then talks. “Lo’ak, did like them and the stunts he played were for their attention, but they always liked you.” With that, she leaves him to think about the revelation. He couldn’t mistake the voice crack she had halfway through though.

For days, Ao’nung sat there, thinking of what he should say and how he should say it. He’d twist the shells on the bracelet you gave him before everything went to shit.

“What troubles you, my son?” His father asked him one day while Ao’nung lay in his bed, his depressive state yet to pass. He just wanted to curl up and hide away, even if he did have a game plan to apologize, he couldn’t either way. “Well.” Tonowarai walks over to his cot and sits on the edge, a patient smile on his face.

Ao’nung let out a low exhale and proceeded to tell him everything that happened. He was honestly surprised that Tsireya hadn’t ratted him out yet but she hadn't been there for a few days.

His father narrowed his eyes at him. “So you endangered yourself…because you were jealous?” He asked the question slowly and stared at him puzzled. “First, you are definitely grounded for that stupid stunt because I and your mother did not raise a skxawng. That behavior is not of someone who will one day lead the clan.” But his father’s eyes grew softer as did his tone. “Secondly, be honest with them. It’s been a few days so maybe they might’ve calmed down but know this. They are not obligated to accept your apology or to be as close as you once were.”

Every time Ao’nung would come to you, he was ignored. He would try to say hello just for you to mumble an excuse and scurry away or if it even looked like he’s walking in your general direction you would take off. He doesn’t take this to heart, remembering his father’s wise words. It was rather annoying but he knew he deserved it. For the next three days Ao’nung has been collecting seashells from the sand and asked Rotxo to collect shells from the ocean. Not that Ao’nung was scared or anything because that would be embarrassing. It’s just…easier to have Rotxo do it while Tsireya teaches him how to weave a necklace for you, that he was planning to be similar to the matching bracelets you had.

So, maybe he was a bit scared of the water, liking going too deep with no one around. But, slowly, with the help of his mother, he was getting more comfortable.

Today was the day. It was nearing eclipse when Ao’nung found you with his gift in hand and he slowly approached you. He didn’t get that close when you held a hand up, stopping him. In a monotone and cold voice, you spat at him “What?”

“I am so sorry-” He started to say.

“No!” You butt in. “I do not want to hear this from you, I can’t hear this from you Ao’nung. I can’t.” Despite your attempts at keeping your voice leveled, it still broke. To hear this emotion in their voice just shattered his heart. To think that your hurt was because of him.

Ao’nung held on to your shoulders as you tried their best to get out of his grip and just away from him in general. He forced your eyes to meet, and for the first time in weeks, he saw those gentle blue hues he missed so much. Saw the bright white freckles dotting your teal skin, and saw the wave-like marks on your body. He saw the anger and pain he had caused you, the tears that never ended, the glare you sent at him. He saw them all.

He caressed your face like it was the most precious pearl in the ocean and spoke, “I am truly sorry for the pain and despair I caused you. The reasoning will not make it any better but please let me explain. You can go our entire lives hating and wanting nothing to do with me, but please let me explain.”

You slowly nod your head and put some distance between the two, now his grip had loosened. “Go on Ao’nung.”

Ao’nung began, “I’ve always…liked you, but I thought that you would never like me the same and so as to not ruin our friendship I said nothing and pretended that I didn’t like you. But then those fore-.” He paused, “The Omatiycans came. Lo’ak came, and he got too comfortable with you. It made me jealous to see the closeness and the attention you gave him. So instead of being honest with you, I decided to pretend to drown. But I did not do this as a sick joke, I did it because I care for you a lot and I just didn’t know how to say it.”

Ao’nung sucked in a breath, before he whispered to you, “ I…I did it because I see you.”

Silence engulfed you two as Pandora became alive in the night. The bright plants bloomed around the two of you, definitely setting a more romantic vibe. Ao’nung watched as you took a deep breath and considered some things. He did not know what was going on in your head but he surely hoped that you took his words into consideration before taking action. He even pleaded with Eywa.

“You said that you..see me?” You question him, your eyes widen as his words finally click.

He blinked, nervously looking to the side as his teal skin showed some resemblance of a blush. “Yes..I meant every word that I said. What I did was childish, and for that I am sorry.”

“It’s okay, Ao’nung I forgive you. But you will be making it up to me.” You said with a serious tone.

Ao’nung lets out a small chuckle, just happy that he was forgiven. He leaned in, his breath fanning your cheek, before giving it an almost experimental kiss. “Well,” He brings out the matching necklace he spent days crafting, a cheeky grin growing on his face as he pulled back. “This is for you.”

You gasp at the sight of it and take it gingerly into your hands. Your eyes wide with and your hold gentle, almost as if it could break at any given moment.. Ao’nung watches as you inspect the necklace, your love for crafting making this stare a lot more nerve wracking for him. Truth be told, he was nervous as hell, but if it wasn’t up to your standards then he’d remake it until you're satisfied.

“Wait, Ao’nung..this matches the bracelets I made.” You marveled at him with shining eyes and a bright smile on your face. It was just nice to see you smile at him like you used to.

“Yes, which means that we have a matching set.” He shows his wrist, shaking it and looking at the bracelet you had made him.

You wrap your arms around his neck and hug him, staying still and relishing the moment as he wraps his arms around your waist. After a few seconds of silence you whisper into his ear,

“I see you too Ao’nung.”

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Tag list & Dedication

I would love to give a special thanks and dedication to @enslique for being my lovely editor and making the fic 10x better, and to @crabcollectorskykid for allowing me to use their idea from a shitpost they made.

#avatar: the way of water #avatar (2022)#ao'nung x reader #lo'ak x reader #fanfic #y/n #gender neutral reader #x reader #angst #fluff #love confessions #denial of feelings #jealousy #aonung fluff #atwow fanfiction #aonung avatar #aonung angst

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"Unravel."

Summary: Mike takes the first step in confessing his feelings. It goes as well as you'd expected. (ft. Abby being adorable, baking cookies, and drawing pictures).

Thank you, guys, for all the support these one shots have been getting. I appreciate all of it <3 You guys are the best!

There are few things Mike loves more than spending quality time with his little sister. It’s harder now that mom’s gone. Money’s tight, and he knows that he isn’t as present as he used to be. A lot of the things they used to do together cost money.

Thankfully, their favorite activity, doodling random pictures while seated next to each other, is free (free, because Abby guilted Aunt Jane into buying her an art set for Christmas).

“Keith pulled my hair today,” his sister says, shading in the sun she’s drawn.

“Did you kick him in the-”

Abby cuts him off. “No. Rachel saw him do it and told the teacher.”

Mike hums. “So, he got in trouble?”

“Ms. Arbor said that he did it, because he likes me.”

“That’s a lie,” Mike says without skipping a beat. “Kyle’s a fu- freaking… uh…not a nice person.”

His sister gives a long-suffering sigh. “His name is Keith.”

Teasing his sister is Mike’s other favorite pastime. “That’s what I said,” he says in an exasperated voice. “ Kyler.”

Abby giggles, shaking her head. “No, Keith.”

“Kevin?” He raises an eyebrow.

“Keith.”

“Kayden?”

“Keith.”

“Abracadabra?”

His sister laughs, wiping at the tears in her eyes. “You’re being silly, Mike. That’s not even a name.”

There are few sounds more precious to Mike than his sister’s laughter. It’s a rare sound nowadays.

He pretends to pout, crossing his arms. “It could be.”

“Nuh, uh,” she says.

“Yeah, huh,” Mike shoots back.

Suddenly, their doorbell rings.

“Who is it?” Abby asks

“I don’t know.”

The person rings the doorbell again.

Mike pats his sister’s head. “Stay here, I’ll be right back.”

Creeping to the door, he goes through every single person that could possibly be bothering them. Uncle Hank and Maxine have been missing for a couple weeks now. Aunt Jane usually calls before she comes over (usually). Social services maybe?

It wouldn’t surprise him, but Mike would rather not deal with them today. They always upset Abby with their questions, and she’s in a really good mood today.

He peeks out the window, trying his best to be discreet.

Vanessa makes eye contact with him. She waves at him, smiling sunnily.

He opens the front door. “Hey.”

“Hi.”

“What are you doing here?” Mike asks, genuinely curious.

“Well….I had the day off, and I was in the neighborhood…” she trails off,

Wait. Does she want to spend time with him (and Abby)? That can’t be the case, right? Right? Mike tries not to get his hopes up.

“Oh,” he says, blinking, “come inside. Abby and I are coloring right now.” He steps aside, letting her come in.

Abby runs over to Vanessa, a piece of paper in her hands. She bounces up and down. “I drew this for you.”

Mike takes Vanessa’s jacket, watching as she engages Abby in excited conversation. Her face lights up when she looks at the paper.

“For me?” She asks.

“Yeah,” Abby says, timidly.

The paper has three figures. One with short dark hair, a slightly shorter one with shoulder length dark hair, and one that’s taller than both of them with a yellow ponytail. All three of them wear matching smiles. A sun sits in the corner of the paper and other, more animalistic figures stand behind the three figures.

“Is that…”

“Foxy, Bonnie, Freddy, Chica, and Fredbear.”

“Fredbear…?” She quirks a brow.

Mike’s heart seizes in his chest. The name feels hauntingly familiar. Vanessa looks at him, and he somehow manages to keep a neutral face. He shrugs.

“Yeah, he’s my friend.” Abby places the paper off to the side. She takes Vanessa by the hand. “Do you want to make cookies?”

“Abby,” Mike starts, not wanting to his sister to scare off Vanessa, “she-”

“I would love to.”

Abby squeals, pulling her to the kitchen. Vanessa looks back at him, winking.

It takes Mike’s brain a solid minute to process what just happened. “Did she just….”

He chases after them.

-x-x-x-

“It says we need to pour ¾ cup of water into the bowl,” Abby reads from the book. Flour sticks to her face, hair, and hands.

Vanessa nods, filling up the measuring cup with water. She hands it to Abby who dumps it into the bowl.

“Cool, now we need three eggs.”

Mike carefully cracks the eggs, making sure none of the shells fall into the batter. As much as he trusts his sister, he’s also sure none of them want eggshell-flavored cookies. He passes the bowl back to her, and goes to the sink to wash his hands off.

Vanessa takes his place, making sure Abby reads the recipe correctly (and also making sure she doesn’t fall off the chair.) A grin breaks across his face, watching the exchange. A sudden thought pops into his head.

“I have to grab something, stay here,” Mike says.

“Was planning on it,” Abby sasses. Vanessa hides her laughter behind her hand.

“Yeah, yeah.”

He returns five minutes later, camera in hand. His mom used to take pictures of everything. They have entire boxes full of Garrett, his, and Abby’s baby pictures. Mike never saw the appeal of taking photos, it annoyed him to no end having to stand still. But now that’s she gone….

Mike lifts the camera. “Smile,” he says.

Vanessa and Abby turn to look at him, smiling for the camera. He snaps a quick picture.

“Your turn,” Vanessa tells him, reaching out for the camera.

“My turn?’

Abby nods. “You need to be in the picture too. It’s not the same without you.”

“Okay, okay.” He laughs, situating himself between his two favorite people Vanessa and Abby.

Vanessa snaps a photo of all three of them crammed together. Messy with flour and batter staining their hair, faces, and clothes. Abby has an arm slung over both of their shoulders, and a wide grin across her face, and Mike and Vanessa both look like they’re trying not to laugh.

Mike already knows he’s going to frame it.

-x-x-x-

Later after they’re done with baking, and Abby’s been sent off to bed, Vanessa starts wiping down the counters.

“That was fun,” she says.

“Mhm,” Mike agrees, scrubbing a pan. “Though, I could do without the cleanup part.”

Vanessa snickers. “And miss all the fun?”

“Yeah, so much fun.”

They fall into a comfortable silence, cleaning the kitchen.

“Thank you,” Mike says, breaking the quiet.

“For?” Vanessa throws the dirty rag she’d been using in a corner.

“For….I dunno.” Mike shrugs. His eyes remain fixated on the sink in front of him.

“You….don’t know…?”

“I mean…I like having you around. You’re nice.”

“I’m nice?”

“Yes.” He shakes his head. “No. I mean, yes. God why is this so difficult?”

A hand rests on his shoulder. Warm and comforting. “Mike….? Is everything okay?”

Mike turns to face her, wiping the soapy water clinging to his hands on his pants. “I wanted to say, thank you for hanging out with Abby and me. It’s been a long time since anyone’s gone out of their way to do that. And you keep doing it. The tea party last week, the diner you took us to the week before that. It….means a lot to us. To me.”

Vanessa shifts in her spot, arms crossed. An unreadable expression crosses her face, but her eyes look like they’re misting up. “Uh…I like hanging out with you guys too.” Her voice sounds strained, like she’s struggling not to cry.

Mike’s eyes widened. “Oh, shit! I didn’t mean to make you cry. Are you okay? I can-”

“No, you’re okay. I just…need to go home.” She starts for the door. “I’ll see you tomorrow night at Freddy’s. Thanks for the cookies, and tell Abby that I said, ‘bye.’”

“Are you sure you’re okay? I didn’t mean to upset you.”

“Yeah…I’m okay. Just a little tired. See you later, Mike.”

Before he can get another word in, she’s gone.

Resting his head in his hands, Mike groans. “Stupid, stupid, stupid,” he mutters under his breath.

-x-x-x-

“I want out,” Vanessa hisses into the phone.

“How come?”

“My priorities have changed.”

“Meaning?”

She grips the phone tighter, imagining it’s her boss’ neck instead. “ Meaning, that I don’t want to work for you anymore.”

“You like him.”

She scoffs. “No, I just-”

“You know what you’re giving up if you go against me, don’t you?”

“I’m not going against you. I haven’t told him anything. I just can’t go against him either. I’m….” Vanessa trails off, trying to choose her words carefully. “ Fond of him. Besides, he’s kind of cute.”

“Cute, eh?” Her boss says, annoyance clear in his tone. “Cute enough to abandon your brother?”

She deflates a little. “I’m…I’m not-”

“Are you fond of him enough to leave your brother all alone?”

“Stop it,” Vanessa grits out, tightening her grip. “He has nothing to do with that.”

“Well, if you’re ready to give that all up….then, I’m sure Cassidy would understand.”

Tears slide down her face. Her breath comes out shuddery, as she fights the urge to cry. “Stop. I- I don’t want to leave my brother. Don’t make me give that up.”

“Oh, my dear, I’m not making you do anything. You’re doing it all by yourself.”

“I’m sorry. I change my mind.”

“Good,” her boss says, pleased. “Then, I expect you’ll have no problems this upcoming week.”

“Of course not.”

The phone line goes dead. Her grip on the phone is slack, and it falls from her hand. Sobs wrack her body, as Vanessa curls up on her couch.

She never wanted this.

#cross posted on ao3 #Vanessa x Mike #schmelly #mild angst #fluff #denial of feelings #dorks in love #abby schmidt

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Character A: I’m not in love with you, ok? And what’s more, I never will be. There’s nothing here between us. You need to stop waiting for something that will never happen, and just move on.

Character B: …

Character A: well, say something.

Character B: That’s was a nice speech. Very well said. Tell me, when you were planning it out… did you actually convince yourself that it was true?

#random snippet #snippet sunday #ww83 writes #not ship specific #but you best believe I could make it fit with both my otps #imagine your otp #mutual pining #denial of feelings #angsty

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Drown With the Sun (II/II)

Il Dottore's segment took care of her pain in his absence, as was his duty; Karina, as his second-in-command, returned the gesture when the segments were gone. Part 2 of The Heretic and the Forsaken series. Il Dottore/Female Original Character. On AO3 here.

Years passed in the blink of an eye, as they often did for the man of four-plus-centuries. A sense of time was not required for one such as himself, especially not in relevance to others. The phenomena made itself known in every other facet outside of himself anyway.

Karina surpassed every challenge thrown at her, and if she didn’t, she worked day and night until she did. She earned her title, her place, and the right to make snide remarks in private. Time carved itself across her flesh in the form of lean muscle and faint scars.

Every time she arrived back from patrols near the Rift, she seemed to bear a new one, and Dottore suppressed the urge to kiss it.

Volkov tended to her wounds, the Harbinger well knew. The two of them were stationed together, bonded by their rank and mutual survival. The idea of another seeing her bare back, her toned arms, or any other parts of her only ever stirred a disgusting sense of jealousy that wove its way into his Segment network for days.

She was his subordinate, Dottore rationalized. Nothing more.

Besides, the conversations with her regarding Celestia’s hypocrisy and the cruelty of the Archons were ideas echoed by Pantalone and others. He was not starved for companionship, for conversation. There were plenty among the Fatuus with which he could voice his heresy and ideas.

She was simply the optimal choice.

When she was gone, the Creature toddled into his workshop or his office, blanket in claw, downtrodden and lost. He had a sense of object permanence (Dottore had long since tested that), so the only conclusion the scientist could make was one involving a sense of loss and an understanding of absence.

The thing was the rawest emotional form he had left, packed away by accident and left outside of the network to prevent further infighting. The last of his innocence was nothing more than a bundle of fur and teeth and sharp claws. It clung to one of the only other people who suffered a fate as cruel as his. Ironic, that the creature lacking higher cognition was the one so obvious in its affection and care. Even more so that its creator would never give in to the base needs of emotional attachment and physicality, of intimacy.

He did not need it, not with his Segments around; no one else knew his needs and his mind better.

His Warden (for as much as he despised her presence, Karina would always be his Fontainian bargaining chip, his chevalière) was once again away and the little monster made its nest beneath Dottore’s chair. It scrambled up and settled into his lap hours ago, content to listen to its older self explain the formula he was working on. Even if the creature couldn’t respond except for screeches and squeaks, the action helped loosen ideas and see where potential problems laid.

Dottore would not, could not , admit he preferred Karina for such a task. Her eyebrows knitted, lips tugged into a slight pout as she thought things through, eyes as fresh as the Avidiya Forest after rainfall when she posed a counter argument or idea. She was strategic enough to be handy on the front lines in Natlan if Capitano had use of her eventually.

That would seal her fate; few came back from Natlan in one piece.

And he couldn’t account for plans that did not include her. Perhaps once. But not anymore. At least not until he knew what led to her Vision behaving as it did.

Or so he told himself every time the thought of her laugh snagged on his almost non-existent heart.

Dottore sat back in his chair, lifting the little creature with ease and rearranging it so he could shift his weight comfortably. The formula was long forgotten now and if he tried to force it, he would only end up more irritated than he already was by the distraction of absence.

Omega was in Sumeru now, ideally finishing the nonsense with the Akademiya. The final Segment insisted that the chevalière did not need to stay behind but Dottore wondered if, perhaps, such an arrangement would have been better.

If only to see what she made of the lush lands of the forests and the wasteland of the desert and her opinion on the divide between Sumeru’s people. For an Electro user, she had a strong sense of justice and for the short time they were back in his homeland, Dottore wondered if she would side with the institution or the people gate-kept from it. After all, exposing her to the Shouki No Kami, to Scaramouche’s grand designs and the Electro Gnosis itself, played with the threads of her perspective and showed her the gods were neither remarkable nor permanent. They could be created out of anything, as long as the faith of the majority was high enough.

She had been remarkably quiet on the return to Snezhnaya and he saw little of her since. Instead of accompanying Omega, she was once again pushing back creatures from the Abyss and beyond. Hardly stimulating work.

The matter of her Vision, on the other hand… that was far more intriguing. Not even being near the Gnosis did anything. In fact, Karina specifically seemed to avoid that section of the laboratory entirely during her stay once the demonstration was finished.

She never explicitly told him why . He had not thought it odd, not then, but he had been too focused on perfecting negotiations. And soon it would be too late to recreate the situation, for Omega was due to retrieve both Gnoses…

Speaking of…

The connection between himself and all of his Segments was, more often than not, mere white noise. Some days, the Segments were louder; during others, especially when it came to the pesky chevalière , silence reigned (but never for long). The average experience was, however, like trying to find a station on a Fontainian radio and he had to truly think of the Segment to make the proper connection.

He could take over any Segment’s body at any time but it limited himself to that particular perspective. Helpful when he needed to truly explore an idea through another lens. But more useful when it came to observation, in which he could simply monitor without anyone else the wiser.

What a tiny Archon. Even awake, she was nothing more than a bean sprout and she hardly had the power befitting her station.

Omega’s voice rattled through Dottore’s mind. “I see. If you think all those versions of me are worth a Gnosis...then, we have a deal, Lesser Lord Kusanali.”

Deal? What sort of arrangement had the Segment just made?

The rest happened quicker than he expected and the connection exploded into a cacophony of noise and voices and panic. Each of his Segments, scattered across all of Teyvat, were struck with the startling realization at once, and not even their Prime origin point was spared.

“Sheer foolishness,” Dottore thought, targeting every word at Omega, at that blasted Archon. “How could I have been so shortsighted back then?”

Lesser Lord Kusanali disappeared from his vision with a few blinks, his office coming in and out of focus. Eyelids heavy, the last sound he recalled was not, in fact, his youngest self, hot-headed and arrogant, swearing vengeance on Omega. Paws pressed against his chest and the world around him faded away in a haze of screeches, whines, and watery singular eye.

Karina wove her way through the lower corridors until she came to the familiar workshop, divided into its different sections and projects. Without parts of the Shouki No Kami lingering now, the space felt empty, devoid of life. No doubt the floor would soon be home to numerous mechanical marvels and parts, as was the norm, but the prototypes were certainly remarkable.

She had yet to even see the usual Segment in the laboratory; usually he was around when she returned, staring at Volkov over an assistant’s shoulder. It never bothered her colleague, or so he claimed, but she was never certain whether Dottore was sizing him up for battle or for dinner. But he was nowhere to be found thus far.

Her footsteps echoed, unaccompanied by the usual sounds of activity down here. Was he going to ambush her, remind her to keep on her toes?

He never did that on days she returned from the northern parts. Karina dared not consider it a kindness but there was little else to describe it. Perhaps he might call it inefficient.

“Lord Harbinger?” she called from the top of the staircase. “Lord Dottore?”

She heard the familiar clung of metal on metal and her heart dropped into her stomach when she caught sight of a crop of teal hair. He was working on something, as usual, some rectangular device she couldn’t make out from this angle.

Funny how comforting she found his presence, even in the form of a Segment.

“The rise time is too long…” she caught him muttering. “If it can’t work quickly enough, it won’t reach bandwidth capacities…”

The Segment looked up from his notes when she came closer. Any one of them never looked tired, despite the organic components used to make them.

“You were gone longer than usual,” he quipped, returning his gaze to the papers in front of him. “Anything of note?”

“Not particularly,” Karina replied. “We managed to capture a live Fenrir with specific mutations and corruption this time. It should be making its way down within a few hours.”

“I see. Prime doesn’t want to be disturbed so tend to the delivery and then see yourself out.”

He waved a hand at her, shooing her like a dog. The Segment was acting strange, tapping a finger against the surface of the table as he stared at the notes; his eyes moved as though he was reading but he never once moved to act upon what he was reading. Usually his focus was unparalleled, regardless of who was around.

“Get on it with, Omega, some of us have work to do,” he mumbled.

Oh, of course. Omega was still in Sumeru. The last she ever saw of him was an empty face plate, head tilted with a sharp-toothed grin as he said her services as a Warden were no longer required.

Out of all of the Segments, he was the most unsettling, in her opinion. Too confident, too arrogant, five steps ahead of everyone while knowing exactly how to get what he wanted. Her training kept her away from Omega to begin with and she did everything she could to avoid the last Segment while serving Dottore proper in Sumeru. Something in the way he posed his questions, the way his gaze lingered on her, made Karina feel more like an object than a person, a rabbit in the jaws of a hungry wolf. As if he did not want her so much as he wanted to root around inside her until he was bored.

There was an edge to Omega, one she balanced on before; one she was determined to never walk on again.

He must have been negotiating for the Gnoses, then. Right on schedule.

The Segment before her gave up on the notes and began to meander around the table and sectioned-off workspace. A gloved hand reached out and grasped her jaw, pulling Karina out of her thoughts and forcing her to look into eyes as deep as a blood moon. His hand was cold compared to Dottore’s, lacking a proper circulatory system in the human sense, thumb brushing the corner of her bottom lip.

“If you insist on standing there, then, Alexandre, be useful and replace the pot of coffee from this morning.”

Karina watched as something foreign crossed the Segment’s features, his mouth parted and pupils narrowed, eyes blown wide. He looked less shocked and more as if he had been blasted in the gut with a Fontainian blunderbuss at close range, completely paralyzed. The fingers on her jaw flexed and gripped harder, pulling her down as the Segment’s joints gave out.

She tried to grab onto him as he fell, muscles straining as she eased the limp mechanical body to the floor. Was he short-circuiting? She’d seen each Segment undergo maintenance more than once, fully aware they required upkeep, but they’d never simply collapsed…

Fear snaked its way through her muscles, freezing her in place as the Segment gave a half-hearted laugh.

“So it’s like this, huh? You would betray even yourself. Good riddance!”

Crimson eyes glowed brighter for a moment, a final flare of life, before their color dimmed. Ashes of a fire stamped out.

Karina’s head shot up, eyes scanning every visible area for movement. No one ever made it down this far, save the now-dormant Segment, herself, and the true Dottore. If the Segment was gone, her next concern was securing the area and finding the Harbinger himself.

She swallowed hard as she reached out a gauntleted hand and tried to close the Segment’s eyes. His components complied much easier than a humans and if she didn’t know any better and ignored the lack of breathing (none of them needed air, after all), he simply looked like he was sleeping. The stillness in the Segment’s limbs, the way its limp form responded to gravity and movement so easily, scratched at Karina’s memories; no resistance from muscles, no flexing or response to stimuli, just like the bodies of her comrades…like Rhiannon’s…

With a shaky breath, Karina shoved the Segment off of her and clamored to her feet. This was different. He was nothing more than an object, a thing , he felt no pain and suffered nothing in the end…

The layout of the workshop was rather straightforward despite its winding corridors. One way in and one way out. Karina made her way back to the elevator entrance and pulled the grate in front of the large doors and locked it in place; only someone with the proper clearance had a second key for the mechanism. An easy security policy. At least Dottore kept things simple in that regard.

Now for the man himself.

She tried to keep her eyes from lingering on the Segment as she drew her knife from her shoulder holster and held it close, stalking through the space. From the furthest corner, she heard the clattering of a tray and its instruments, the sound echoing as loud as a gunshot. Careful not to let her footfalls betray her, Karina arrived at the scene to find nothing but a metal instrument tray and various tools scattered on the floor, along with a bedsheet dangling off the vivisection table, stark white without a trace of blood.

An errant snapping of a jaw made Karina carefully duck to check under the table; tucked into the space between the table and a nearby cabinet, she could make out a single eye and a fluffy tail.

Before she could open her mouth, the blur of fur and teeth chattered and gave a high-pitched cry, diving for Karina. She grunted at the impact, the creature nuzzling into her uniform, ears pulled down as it gave a series of smaller cries and whines. Absently, she stroked the creature’s head, never quite lowering her knife.

What was the little creature doing down here? More importantly, what was it doing down here unsupervised?

Usually it kept to Dottore’s office. Or, if not there, it was always in the care of another or Dottore himself. Like a child, this being was not to be trusted on its own in the laboratories (a lecture she received no less than three times when it was discovered the little thing clung to her so long ago). If it was here , then…

“Where is the Doctor?” Karina asked when the little thing grew quiet. “What happened?”

Her gaze met a singular eye, wide and wet and scared as the creature processed her words. Its beak opened and then closed without a sound before it jumped from her lap and took her arm in its tiny claws. It pulled with a surprising amount of force, chirping urgently when Karina didn’t move fast enough. As soon as she rose to her feet, the creature dashed off on all fours and its fluffy tail disappeared around a corner.

There was only room in that direction to check.

And surely he wouldn’t have been stupid enough to be killed remotely.

He wasn’t, of course, Karina mused as she pulled off her gloves and pressed a bare finger to Dottore’s pulsepoint. Solid and steady.

Alive. That might not mean much if he were comatose, admittedly, but he was breathing, at least.

The Harbinger didn’t so much as flinch or moan when the creature nudged his leg or climbed and slapped its paw against his cheek. Dottore was face-down on the desk, his mask discarded, looking as though he’d done nothing more than fall asleep while working.

First things first, he needed to be moved. She couldn’t access his desk and see what needed to be prioritized (if even possible) if he was slumped over all of the paperwork. Who knew, maybe moving him would wake him up from the stupor and all would be solved.

Life was rarely, if ever, so easy.

Karina’s eyes roamed the office and settled on the piece of furniture nearest the desk. A different sofa than the one she laid on (which had mysteriously been replaced several years prior), tufted leather with arms as tall as the back. It would do.

She reached and tucked one arm beneath Dottore’s and pulled him up and then away from the desk, his boots dragging on the floor. His head lolled from one side to another as she slowly carried him across the room, his earring occasionally swaying to tap at her temple. This close, she could make out the lingering scent of aftershave, a crisp mint that gave way to warm musk and sandalwood, reminiscent of the hotel in Sumeru. Nothing like the Segments, who often smelled of disinfectant and the persistent iron tang of blood.

Karina arranged him on the couch as best she could; unlike the last couch, it was long enough to consider his full height. With help from the creature, she made quick work of his boots and placed them aside.

Her eyes fell on his face, entirely unveiled now. His jaw was just like Omega’s but his mask had hidden an aquiline nose, dark circles under his eyes, and a brow forever pinched in thought. She could imagine how, if he were awake, his nostrils might flare and his eyes would narrow in indignation. The Segments were, of course, still him and some manners never changed. If he smiled more, Karina considered he might even be handsome in the right light.

She scoffed, gut immediately churning with guilt at seeing him like this. A Harbinger’s visage, especially that of the top three, was their own private knowledge. They were no longer the people they saw in the mirror but someone else, some thing else, entirely.

And even she, with all of her work and her rank, was not worthy of that visual knowledge.

Karina tore her gaze from the Harbinger and retrieved his mask, clipping it into place over his eyes and forehead with ease. There. Perfect.

The creature tucked its creator in, little paws pressing a newly found blanket between the man’s biceps and the couch. The chevalière watched as it paused and sat near Dottore’s feet, eye fixed on the sleeping Harbinger as it kicked its hind legs back and forth. She didn’t count the minutes but when it finally hopped down, it immediately patted her boot and raised its arms, a silent plea to be carried.

Karina picked up the fluffy companion and sifted through Dottore’s desk with a single hand. She left the office with her arms full of fur and papers, uncertain of all but the sleepless night ahead.

Her first note out of the laboratory had been not to the Jester but the Regrator, specifically through Volkov. No one would question the correspondence chain and Volkov was being considered by Lord Pantalone as a potential Warden candidate. Discretion was guaranteed.

She would deal with the Jester (and the Tsaritsa) at a later date.

The Fenris was handed off to the upper levels, contained and sedated. Nothing the staff up there couldn’t handle.

Pantalone controlled the funding and if he wasn’t going to get results, he needed to be aware of the change in schedules. Plus, he was familiar with Dottore’s handwriting; Karina could only look at the chicken scratch for so long before her eyes stung.

Omega was in possession of two Gnoses, according to recent reports; Pantalone only mentioned that the Segment exchanged something of substantial value for both of them.

“One of them said something about a betrayal,” Karina said as she massaged water and broth down Dottore’s throat. “Perhaps Omega offered up the Segments as collateral. It would cripple the opposition and buy time without a true loss of life. Archons never want to be responsible for the death of a human, no matter their moral standing.”

With a smirk as she cradled Dottore’s head just right, the Regrator agreed; after all, doing so would keep Lesser Lord Kusanali’s hands clean, too.

When she wasn’t taking care of the Harbinger directly, she was making decisions about things she knew nothing about. The written goals and hypotheses were not as clear as they initially seemed and it grew more difficult to ascertain priorities. Not to mention the growing pile of Segments, the youngest of which was where the creature was now resting.

Her heart ached, reminded of when Rhiannon crawled into bed with her when she couldn’t sleep. If she looked too closely, Karina felt sticky blood on her fingers and strong hands around her arms, prying her away from her sister’s lifeless body.

Did the little thing feel the agony of loneliness clawing from the inside out? The fear, the fury?

When she admitted to Pantalone that it was almost impossible to keep the various projects Dottore gave his Segments straight, let alone what to do with the bodies, the banker gave a barking laugh of amusement.

“I know what I might do,” Pantalone drawled, golden eyes boring into her, “but this is your job. No one else is as close to a Harbinger as their Warden. It is your duty to consider what must be done and why. After all, you’re meant to be an asset , Alexandre.”

Spoken as if she were nothing more than a number on a spreadsheet.

“Contrary to how he presents it, you would have been reassigned if he did not trust you,” the Ninth said. “He never had a Warden previously. Your presence will no doubt lend itself to a new perspective for him.”

He parted not long after for another meeting, a sickeningly kind smile on his lips. Happy, no doubt, that he did not have to deal with Dottore’s condition and merely the fallout left behind.

Bastard.

Both of them, bastards.

Without them, she wouldn’t even be alive now to be in this position. Would it be better to be chained to a bed in Fontaine? To have been killed with the rest of her family?

Dottore would laugh at her if he knew the thoughts running through her head.

Hadn’t training taught her anything? Did her second chance mean nothing to her? She accomplished enough to be promising by Fatui standards and yet she would squander it by wishing she were dead?

Wasteful, he would call her. It was better to be alive, to know that the past didn’t matter, that it was only the here and now and the floor beneath one’s feet.

He was surprisingly grounded for a man who split himself into several branches. Even if he was absolutely determined to find out the root cause of her Vision’s lack of power, even if he saw her as nothing more than a puzzle to solve.

At least he saw her and all she encompassed.

To the point that he neutralized the primordial water in her blood and turned her human. How had no one in Fontaine realized that before? Water as blood had been a metaphor but to think it held some truth…

Those files she read would no doubt be burned when he woke.

She scoffed as she settled back into her makeshift workstation and ran through what she knew. The creature immediately returned to her lap, nestled close as it gave a sound close to a pur.

Dottore would want to part out the Segments. They were expensive and difficult to make, full of dream solvent and something called primordial water, along with branches of Irminsul. All of those could be repurposed in one way or another and Dottore hated nothing more than having to scout for or purchase parts.

They were inorganic, which meant no concern for decomposition. She could set up an area in the back and organize the branches; at least they’ll be out of the way and away from prying eyes.

Most of them completed their major testing with a few exceptions for weaponry…next patrol left later this week under her charge…

She and Volkov could do the weapons testing. The north would prove a good baseline and he at least understood instructions both verbal and written; whatever she couldn’t make sense of, he could.

Perfect. The Segments could be rearranged in the morning and that gave her time to obtain the weapons and the rest of the details from other staff members. She scribbled down the plans, complete with checklists and individuals involved, finally satisfied the issues were no longer intangible sensations in her brain.

Karina looked down at the creature, now curled up and fast asleep. How easily he drifted off. An enviable position from where she was sitting (and she was, now, stuck sitting; he slept too lightly for her to move him).

She shifted down in the seat slightly and leaned back to put her feet on the desk, curling up a little in the seat. Karina wrapped her arms around her new companion and held it close, her eyes and mind finally giving into the exhaustion of the last few days. A little rest would not go amiss.

Dottore jolted awake, a strange weight on his neck and chest as his head throbbed. His mouth tasted disgusting and felt like someone shoved a wade of cotton into his mouth to chew. No, worse still, as if he was being asked to swallow a hairball.

Hazily, he reached up and found a bulking mass on his face. What the hell was this?

The Harbinger grabbed it and pulled it away from his face, instantly relieved as he spit out stray hairs and fibers. The thing he held gave a series of sleepy protesting squeaks and when his vision settled again, Dottore came mask-to-eye with the single creature still alive after Omega’s destruction.

The fox-raven hybrid held out its tiny arms in victory, tail wagging at the realization its creator was awake.

Awake…that meant he’d been sleeping…no, that wasn’t quite sleep, was it? It was too dark, too empty, too silent. He might have brushed fingers with death once again in his extended lifetime. It came close several times as a child, first with stones and then with swords and torches; by the time the desert itself tried to kill him, he was far too spiteful to die.

How long had he been…

Dottore released the creature’s scruff and it plopped back down into his lap. The excitement died away, replaced with a need to make certain all was as it should be. As the monster tapped its paws across his torso and arms, the Harbinger looked around and took stock of his surroundings.

His office. Someone moved him from the chair and onto the couch, even went so far as to remove his shoes. His mask felt slightly out of place and absently, he reached up and clicked it home, the screen beneath it flickering to life and displaying what he already knew. All Segment vitals were zero’d out, signals dead, and the Segments themselves were unreachable. He’d taken this off when he was last awake, he was certain.

It looked cleaner but maybe that was simply the dim light playing tricks on him. The desk was void of papers and the table beside the couch had a pile of bowls and a cluster of glasses. Neat and tidy but the remnants of one’s actions left behind? By mere accident or did they want him to know they’d cared for him.

Cared for him.

Who the hell would care for a wretch like him?

It wasn’t as if the world did.

A paw tapped his cheek, sharp claws scratching his skin. The Doctor looked down and found the creature looking at him, or trying to, eye narrowed.

“I’m fine,” Dottore said, voice hoarse. “Nothing that can’t be rebuilt. Omega is inherently selfish; you’re stuck with me from now on.”

A squeak that sounded like a human’s “nuh-uh” was the only reply he received before the fluffy tormentor climbed down and slowly made its way towards the door, left ajar. When the Harbinger didn’t follow, it rolled its eye and waved its arms, beckoning him on.

“Alright, alright, fine. Go on ahead.”

With his Segments gone, everything was bound to be close to shambles. Even if Omega was successful, cutting off all of the Segments and silencing them was akin to cutting out his own eyes and chopping off an arm for good measure. They weren’t just perspectives to use to examine problems; they were individuals, all of whom were good at what they did and furthered his work a hundred fold every year. Culling them was tantamount to treason, depending on the Tsaritsa’s mood.

Even two Gnoses wouldn’t make up for the backlog of work and delays he would be facing.

Dottore grimaced as his head pounded again. He didn’t need this, any of this, and Omega had to go and throw everything back at him, naturally. Anger initially flared deep in his stomach but it gave way to tasteless irony. He’d been selfish at that age and perspective, focused only on what would bring him the most progress or further his understanding of the world.

The Archon’s plan would not have worked if any other Segment had been sent, the clever sprout.

Without them, he had a mountain of work ahead of him.

On the other hand, however, he’d gained an abundance of knowledge from all of their experiences. His head swam with memories that were his but not, words and theories and concepts all at the ready, even if he never managed to be the one to gather them.

Amid all of them, a single memory of startled green eyes, a pang of fear.

Surely he had not been so fortuitous?

The Second shoved his feet into his boots, pondering the expression as he buckled the fastenings. Fear and uncertainty were friends to no one except those that knew how to use them but they were ugly on her; he lacked any other descriptors for it. He usually relished in one’s terror, their instincts kicking in to debase oneself to their purest human form. Yet now, that churn of fury returned, aimed at Omega not for his usurpation but the blast radius of it.

Why?

What did the chevalière even matter?

She was nothing but another face, doomed to expire before he would. His Warden would die on the battlefield, or in servitude, probably in the next decade if she were lucky.

The Doctor stood, stretching only enough to rid his limbs of the lingering stiffness, and made his way out towards the workshop proper.

One day, the walls around him would not volley her laughs and quips around as they did today. Dottore’s gaze settled on the chevalière , weary but no less dedicated, and his mouth went dry as he took in her visage. The Creature was poised over her shoulders, more cat than anything; it appeared to nod before its attention shattered and it nuzzled closer to her.

Two cups on the table, steaming. Already prepared, as always.

Without the Segments, it would be quieter in Haeresys, and her presence was…not unwelcome.

He was no stranger to loss but the idea of being alone …

No. Not before he had his answers and before he could give them to her. She deserved that much.

She spared no details as she explained her plans, the breakdown of what he’d missed, where everything was organized. Thorough, succinct, fairly logical; he knew her thought patterns well enough to work around her structure, if need be.

“Twelve Segments were brought back but I’m not certain that’s all of them. Excluding Omega, naturally. He should arrive tomorrow, based on the last raven received.”

Omega, Omega, Omega…whatever to do with him now that he outlived his usefulness?

Weapon testing would be finalized this week out in the wasteland of the north, specifically by both Wardens. Not the ideal environment, especially given he would likely not be there to observe. He would prefer to, of course, but…

She was only staying until he woke up, precisely with the intent to finish testing and provide details as soon as possible.

“Unless your orders are different, Lord Harbinger?”

How he longed to hear her call him something else. Anything else. How would those two syllables of his, known only to himself and Omega, roll off her tongue? Would she say it with disdain, perhaps, for all he did to her? Or was that too much effort, too much to give him?

“No. Your plan is sound, chevalière .”

Karina straightened and scooped the creature off of her shoulders. Her lips quirked into a small comforting smile when the tell-tale cry of disappointment reached her, and she gave a habitual rub to its head. Dottore’s heart seemed to misinterpret that he was not, in fact, dying, for it skipped a beat and then tried to make up for it, beating twice.

“Back before you know it, mon petit. Don’t be so glum.”

The creature only seemed to sink into its disappointment further. It used its one eye to boldly plead for her to stay, shameless in what it wanted.

Shameless or simply direct? Dottore couldn’t tell. It knew nothing of the former and even less about being obtuse.

If he had blinked, he would have missed how she bent down and pecked the top of the creature’s head. That cheered it up considerably and when she locked eyes with him again, Karina bowed.

“If there’s nothing else, I’ll be going, sir. The sleds leave at daybreak and I need to pack.”

Dottore nodded, turning his head away to assess the change in the workspace. His ears felt hot now, too. Seeing her be kind to the creature, to him , dredged up a tangled assortment of ideas, several of which involved genetics as his curious thoughts strayed if his red eyes were a dominant or recessive gene.

He had plenty of work ahead of him in just scraping the Segments, let alone being debriefed by others and examining the large corrupted wolf waiting for him upstairs.

Karina turned and began to make her way out of the workshop when Dottore found his mouth opening of its own accord.

“Warden?”

He swore his ears burned hotter still just looking at her. Ridiculous. He might have helped her find her place here, potentially, and be the reason she was even still alive to begin with, but that didn’t mean she had to repay him. No one held debts over him in that fashion. Pantalone was an exception, of course, but Dottore wasn’t in the habit of equivalent exchange.

He didn’t understand this, the draw to her, the way he ached at the prospect of her being gone. Even temporarily.

Dottore smiled, wide and sharp and playful.

“Come back in one piece, won’t you?”

She smirked, and he could only assume by the shake of her head that she scoffed. Karina broke her gaze away first, her eyes settling on a pile of parts before she looked at him again dead-on.

“As if I’d do anything else, Lord Harbinger.”

This time, he let her go, exhaling only when he heard the elevator grind shut and begin its ascent. Dottore reached up and unclipped his mask, tossing it onto the table and leaning onto his palms.

He looked up when he noticed movement; the creature stood proudly on its hind legs, eye narrowed in pride as it wagged its tail. It gave a little chirp, reminiscent of a teasing whistle.

Dottore glared. “Oh, shut it, won’t you?”

She would be the death of him, that much was certain. If Omega couldn’t kill him, Karina might.

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sadistic-softie · 3 months

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James Wilson...

He makes my heart feel warm and fuzzy. He makes me wanna cry. He makes me wanna curl up into a ball.

Uh...in a purely sexual way...not romantic at all. There's no way I'd develop weird pseudoromantic feelings for a fictional character like that. Especially not a dead one. That's just stupid and childish...

*intense sweating*

Time to cry myself to sleep...

#house md #house md spoilers #spoilers #james wilson #feelings #denial of feelings #romantic #fictional crushes

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#toxic family system #trauma #abusive family #isolation #feelings #denial of feelings #abuse #dissociated feelings #lack of support

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karihighman · 2 years

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angela: do you have feelings for lucy?

tim: no!

also tim:

new version of the rookie promo features that angela line btw - linked here!

#the rookie #chenford #lucy chen #tim bradford #liar liar #a lying liar who lies #tim loves lucy #heart eyes #he said 🥰#denial of feelings #timothy wake tf up dude #you like her it’s okayyyyy #also angela lopez knows what’s up #angela lopez #calling him out #gotta love it #detective skills #they’re not subtle #idiots in love

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Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: 9-1-1 (TV) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley/Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV) Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Christopher Diaz (9-1-1 TV), Bobby Nash Additional Tags: id say 5+1 fic but its more like a (1+5+1)x2 fic, Angst with a Happy Ending, Mutual Pining, but they don't know it yet, Pining, Denial of Feelings, oh Eddie/OMC briefly!! but well actually not, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Homosexuality, such a funny tag. like yeah fork in kitchen i sure hope it does etc Summary:

“You’re in love with me?” Buck asks, like a laggy computer system that just finished booting up. “Er. Yes?” Eddie says. “I thought we established that.” Buck nods, once, glacially slow, and Eddie sees when the synapses of his brain snap into place. “... But I’m straight?”

the one where it takes eddie a while to get over buck, and it takes buck even longer to figure out he doesn't want him to

Notes: This is so good. I’ve read it twice now, and both times it made my heart physically ache and made me cry. Pining Eddie always hits so hard. So does Buck being self deprecating and oblivious. Anyway, this is really great. I think it’s very in character, and the dynamic between Buck and Eddie is really well written, and so is their respective relationships with other members of their found family.

#buddie #911 #911 on abc #buddie fic rec #evan buckley #eddie diaz #buddie fanfic recommendation #angst with a happy ending #pining #mutual pining #denial of feelings #not actually unrequited love #35k #general audiences

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saralayne · 9 months

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What I Needed (It Will Always Be You) 🩵💜

Chapter 1: Best Friend Magic

After Vegas, Ashley gives Tim a ultimatum. Angela steps up to the plate and gives Tim the tough love he needs to come to a long awaited realization.

“I don’t want you seeing her anymore” screamed Ashley. Ashley Mcgrady, a tall, thin blonde that had been Tim’s girlfriend for a while now . “WHAT!?! - Ashley what the hell are you talking about?” answering Tim. Tim had never been so confused in this very moment. They had a nice dinner. Having their first date night since he returned from the UC op in Vegas. Sure, he had gotten an innocent text from Lucy. She was just replying to him after he had checked in with Lucy. Tim knew all too well what the aftermath of an op can entail. It hadn’t been a long, deep undercover mission. It had been a lot of planning, portraying their doppelgängers Dim and Juicy. He knew Lucy was probably fine. But he had gone through this many times with his ex wife Isabel. Tim knew Lucy was not Isabel. He still felt he needed to check in with her just to make sure she was ok. Lucy had broken up with Chris before they left for Vegas. She hadn’t seen a future after she returned from UC school and they were in a standstill after Rosalyn had Chris attacked. They couldn’t bounce back from what happened. Lucy, if she was being truthful didn’t want to. Chris wasn’t the man she wanted. Lucy had Tamara. Her roommate was extremely busy with school and working and was rarely home. So, Tim just wanted to check in with his aide. His friend. His former boot. Lucy had replied she was good and she would see him at work. Very innocent. Ashley’s reaction to her text, shook Tim. “No matter what we are doing. Lucy texts and you drop everything to answer her” muttered Ashley. “Ash, you are being ridiculous. Lucy is my aide and my friend. We went through an intense op. I’m just making sure she’s good” exclaimed Tim. “That’s crap Tim and you know it. I see the way you look at her when you think no one is looking. I see the way you literally drop everything if she texts or calls. I can only imagine what happened in Vegas. I realize you had to pretend being a couple. I’m sure you loved every minute of it” shouting the blonde lifeguard. “Yes, that is true. We had to be a couple in a very dangerous situation and bring down some very bad men. It meant nothing. It’s over now. I’m here with you now. So just drop it” answering Tim and his girlfriends possessive remarks. “No, Tim that’s not good enough. I want to be with you and only you. As long as Lucy’s in your life. She is going to be this wall in between us. If you care about us, you will not continue a personal relationship with her. I understand you have to have a professional relationship but when your off the clock, there is no need to speak with her. She has many people she can go to. It doesn’t need to be you” as Ashley gasped, not prepared for what came next.

“Ashley, WE ARE DONE”

“WHAT?!”

“You heard me. I said we are done. I will not be given an ultimatum. EVER. Lucy is not just my aide, my former rookie. She is one of my best friends. She has been through hell in past few years. I will not walk away from her. I will never choose between her and anyone”

“That’s what I thought. It’ always been Lucy hasn’t it?”

“I’m leaving, Ash. I’m not continuing with this. It’s become crystal clear to me that we aren’t right for each other. Goodbye”

Tim angrily stomping out the door. Jumping into the driver side of his truck. He knew he had completely deflected that last question from his now ex girlfriend. ‘It’s always been Lucy hasn’t it?’ Truth is she wasn’t wrong. He knew deep down he was in love with Lucy. No one would ever give him an ultimatum, especially cutting the most important person out of his life. Even if she was only his friend for the rest of his life, Lucy Chen would always be a part of his life, one of the biggest part. As he drove home, he didn’t know what to do. Hopefully a good night sleep would give him some clarity.

Tim had tossed and turned all night. He needed some advice from his other best friend. Bringing out his text thread to Angela Lopez. He could always count on Angela to give it to him straight.

From: Bradford

To: Ang

“I need to talk to you”

From: Ang

To: Bradford

“Uh oh. Where’s the body? Let’s get our stories straight”

From: Bradford

To: Ang

“Very funny. I’m serious. I really need some tough love from my best friend”

From: Ang

To: Bradford

“OK. Meet you at the station?”

From: Bradford

To: Ang

“No. Not at the station. Food truck?”

From: Ang

To: Bradford

“See you in 20”

Angela walked up to her anxious best friend. “Alright Bradford. What did you do? Just talk to Lucy and work it out” sputtered the detective. “WHAT!?? How do you even know this is about Lucy? stuttering Tim. “Oh please, Tim. It’s always about Lucy. She’s the only one that gets you this nervous. I am a detective. This isn’t rocket science” smugly answering his best friend.

“I broke up with Ashley”

“Thank god for that” snipping Angela

“Seriously. Lopez. Your not helping”

“Oh I think I am definitely helping. How long did you really think you could go on dating her? I won’t go into the long list of reasons but how about I mention the reason that matters”

“And what’s that, Ang?”

“Your such an idiot Bradford!”

“So touching of you, Lopez”

“TIM. For the love of god. Ok, I’m gonna spell it out for you. YOUR IN LOVE WITH LUCY. You have been for years”

“I-IM NOT. I can’t be”

“Keep telling yourself that. Who are you trying to convince. You seem to be the only one to believe that. Well maybe Lucy too. Because she is in as much denial as you. But the rest of us see right through this charade. However, I will play. Why did you break up with Malibu Barbie?”

“Ang. Stop. Sh-She gave me an ultimatum. She demanded I not have a personal relationship with Chen anymore. Apparently everything revolves around Lucy. All I did was look at a text. She was just replying back after I checked in to make sure she was ok after we got back from Vegas.

“Uh huh”

“Ang. Come on”

“Ok. Ok. So how did it end? I’m sure you told her there was no way you would cut Lucy out of your life”

“As I was leaving she said and I quote ‘It’s always been Lucy, hasn’t it?’

“Wow. For the first time. She is onto something”

“Really Ang?”

“Yes really. Come on Tim. Be brutally honest with yourself. Can you please just dig deep and confront your feelings. When you see yourself in a year, five years, ten years. What do you see? Or better yet who do you see?”

“LUCY”

“By George I think he’s got it”

“What the fuck do I do now?

“Oh my gosh. I swear Jack could figure this out. Go and talk to her? Why do you think Lucy abruptly ended things with Chris? You honestly think it has nothing to do with you? Because IT DOES”

Tim drove to Wilshire. Knowing he needed to talk to Lucy. He could no longer avoid what was right in front of him. It was a risk. So many complications but he wanted a chance to have a life with Lucy Chen. He was in love with her. There was no doubt about it. Could he finally have his happy ending?

Up next: Tim talks to Lucy

#fanfic #chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #ashley mcgrady #angela lopez #break up #ultimatums #bye ashley #lucy will always be his number one #best friend angela to the rescue #clueless tim #feelings realization #tough love #idiots in love #denial of feelings

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bluezeldana · 2 months

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“I’ll tell you what we can do, Granger.” Malfoy tilted his head, licking his lips as he watched her. “Let’s spend a night together. We both want to, and I think it’s a really good idea.”

The first 13 chapters of Mixed Scents, a rewriting of my first dramione fic, are up on Ao3.

#dramione #draco #hermione #ao3 #draco malfoy #hermione granger #8th year #possessive Draco #obsession #denial of feelings

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knifedancer · 6 months

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Hiccups (Part 2 of 2)

Tale of 'Hiccups' from Felix's POV.

Previous AO3 Link

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Felix Graham de Vanily’s alarm went off at exactly 6:00am and he rose to greet the day with a stretch. He did his morning ablutions before heading to his closet to select his attire – his typical grey vest, dark dress slacks, and white long-sleeved shirt. He preferred a more monochrome palette as it gave him an air of authority and maturity. It helped that it also differentiated himself from his near identical cousin. Felix, the heir to the great Graham Films studio, had dealt with his fair share of grifters and manipulators even without – what did they call themselves again? Ah, yes…Adri-stans. He repressed a shudder as he tugged on a shirt cuff to straighten the sleeve.

He calmly went to the kitchen and retrieved his thermos of mint tea for the day. He basked in the quiet morning, the sound of a ticking grandfather clock’s metronome echoing against the mahogany walls was his only company. Felix preferred the quiet; enjoyed these little moments even if Paris was not where he would consider home. He missed the dreary atmosphere of London, which was perfect for curling up in a blanket in his reading nook to enjoy classic literature. Paris was far too warm, even with the autumn chill in the air. Nothing could compare to the warmth of his reading nook back home.

Once the driver had pulled around, Felix left the quiet house and slid into the backseat with a soft hum. He mentally prepared himself for another day at Francois Dupont. A school full of dullards, mountebanks, and potential exploiters. Not that he gave them any headway in discovering a weakness to take advantage of. He was a Graham de Vanily, they did not cave to pressure or manipulation. They were known for their self-discipline, self-restraint, and ruthlessness to those that tried to attack.

Years of would-be thimbleriggers disguising themselves as friends had resulted in impenetrable psychological walls of steel. While others thought he was condescending or disdainful, Felix viewed himself as the epitome of cool composure. His indifferent and haughty demeanor earned him the nickname of Ice King among those that considered themselves his peers. He was happily homeschooled until their move to Paris. Once settled, his mother had insisted that he should have the same public schooling experience as his cousin and, if possible, repair the rift between them. They were family after all.

The car arrived at the collège and he alighted with a swift nod in thanks to the driver. Heading into the still quiet school, Felix sighed inaudibly as he thought of the unfortunate event that occurred only a few months prior. His callous attitude only became worse when his father died of cancer. He had expected Adrien, a scion of the Graham de Vanily tree, to be supportive but was met with silence. He knew now that it was Gabriel’s fault, but Felix had felt abandoned in his time of need. A weakness like that would not be tolerated. He admitted now that his stunt had been cruel but only apologized to his cousin for acting out. Adrien’s supposed friends that were akumatized did not deserve an apology. They could not even tell their friend from a stranger! Little did he know that he would be stuck with them for however long his mother decided to entertain this schooling idea…

The only other person Felix would deign to apologize was Ladybug for his atrocious behavior towards her. From what he had seen online, she received enough unwanted advances from her own cat partner and did not need his ridiculous actions heaped onto that. Not that Felix had the chance to do so. It’s not as if the heroine of Paris had published her contact information! ‘Unlike Batman, she is not summoned by a spotlight with a bug on it,’ he thought with a chuckle. Plus she was professional and no nonsense during the akuma battles, which Felix respected. He could count the number of people he truly respected on one hand…in fact one of them, begrudgingly and unexpectedly, was in this very school.

He had entered Bustier’s classroom and sat at his desk, pulling out a book to look as if he were reading while other students filtered in slowly. He let his mind wander to the only other person at this school he could respect, not that Felix would admit it to anyone but himself. Who could this person be? Marinette Dupain-Cheng. Sure, he had seen that ridiculous confession video and mocked her, chalking her up to simply be yet another Adri-stan. He had scoffed at the thought that this wisp of a girl was class representative and presumed French schools had lower qualifications. From Adrien’s descriptions of her, she was clumsy, weak, and lacked confidence. Felix would crush her like a bug under his shoe if she tried to wheedle herself into his good graces.

However, Dupain-Cheng proved to be more than he expected…

~~Flashback~~

Madam Bustier beckoned him into the classroom, motioning for him to speak to the class. “My name is Felix Graham de Vanily, cousin to Adrien Agreste, and I’m not your friend. Do not flatter yourselves into thinking I will stoop to your level,” he introduced. He could see his cousin wince at his words and recognized a couple students that had been part of the incident as they began to protest his inclusion. The rest were making faces with varying degrees of anger or shock, except for two students. One was a sausage haired girl in the back that looked entirely too pleased and the other was a familiar dark-haired girl in the second row who seemed to be trying to plaster a polite smile on to her face.

Their teacher’s smile became tight and forced, “Marinette, would you please make sure that Felix is caught up on the notes and give him a tour of the school?” The dark haired, pigtailed girl stammered a bit but was cut off by the teacher before she could form a response, “Great! Felix, Marinette is our class rep and will make sure to take good care of you! Please take the empty seat behind her. Now class, if you will take out the reading…” Felix took his seat and settled in with a small, resigned sigh.

At first break, the bluenette girl met him at the door with an unreadable expression. “Welcome to Francois Dupont, Felix. I’m Marinette Dupain-Cheng, but please call me Marinette. If you will follow me this wa—”

“You look familiar. Where have I seen you before?” Felix interrupted.

The girl smiled to hide a grimace, “I’m sorry, we have not met before. Now, if you would proceed this way, I would be happy to show—"

“Ah, I remember now! You’re the ‘I love you’ girl from the video,” he scoffed rudely. “Pathetic.”

Dupain-Cheng’s shoulders caved forward a bit, as if she were sinking in on herself. “You…you saw that?”

“Pfft, of course. I deleted it off my naïve cousin’s phone. He doesn’t need some gold-digging charlatan or super fan pretending to be in love with him.” Felix replied as he nonchalantly looked around, not noticing as the girl straightened and whirled around to face him until a finger was rudely jabbed into his chest. He followed the pale limb up until he met the eyes of the furious Franco-Chinese girl at the other end.

“Excuse me? I am not a gold digger, a charlatan, nor one of his crazed fans!” The offending appendage prodded his sternum to accentuate every word. The last had been strong enough to force him to take a single step back. Interesting.

“Really? I highly doubt that. Girls like you are just after fame and fortune. I’ve seen it a million times!” Felix rolled his eyes. “Don’t even bother to try to be nice to me in an effort to get to him or to be noticed by Gabriel.”

“For your information,” Dupain-Cheng stated blandly, crossing her arms and stuck a hip out in a defiant stance, “I don’t need your help. My parents are the best bakers in all of Paris, they do business with plenty of powerful people. And, before you even accuse me of using my parents for clout, I’d like to happily point out that I don’t need them to gain notoriety. I’ve won contests and praise from Gabriel Agreste and Audrey Bourgeois for my own designs. I get commissioned by celebrities for my skills on a regular basis. I don’t need to be nice to you to gain anything. I’m trying to be civil because I want to be, even if you don’t deserve it for what you pulled with Adrien’s friends. Not everyone is out to get something from you, Felix.” She took a deep breath and shook her head, her shoulders relaxed, and her voice returned to a pleasant tone but her eyes commanded his compliance. “We only have a few minutes left, let’s do this tour and then we can pretend this never happened.”

Felix watched as she spun on her heel and started the tour in earnest, gesturing towards various features of the school while giving a concise run down of services provided. He blinked a few times and followed. ‘Seems there’s some temerity hidden beneath the cloying exterior,’ a small smirk appeared on his face at the thought. ‘Perhaps school will be less banal than I anticipated.’

~~ End Flashback ~~

They had had several intellectual skirmishes since that first encounter and each time he would provoke her until she volleyed impertinent repartee back at him. She was not intimidated by him or his family name and it left him feeling a little thrill as she always seemed to have a biting retort at the ready. Not only had Dupain-Cheng proven to have stronger character than he expected but she was a competent leader and retained one of the highest GPAs in their grade level. From the few stolen glances at her designs, she was talented as well. The only things he could still criticize was her tardiness, clumsy nature, and lingering crush on his cousin that made her a stuttering mess with only a glance.

Felix pretended to turn the page while he glanced toward Dupain-Cheng’s empty seat. It seemed the tardiness was not going to be resolved today… Just then, the exhausted looking girl in question ran into the room and took her seat as the bell rang. As the substitute teacher started calling attendance, Dupain-Cheng made a loud hiccup that echoed through the room. Felix frowned while he watched her slump into her seat. The rest of the class simply laughed at her antics. He rolled his eyes, ‘at least it’s just hiccups. They should go away soon enough.’

Except the hiccups did not seem to be the common kind normal people had. They seemed to be incessant and frequent. Of course Dupain-Cheng would have the most annoying, over-the-top peculiarity! Each hiccup felt like someone was grating on his nerves; the sound becoming the equivalent of nails on a chalkboard in his mind. As the day progressed, Felix witnessed their classmates betting on and implementing multiple attempts to scare the girl’s hiccups away. At first he found the whole affair hilarious as he expected the class representative to wear down until she would snap and reveal some of that impertinent wit she kept well hidden. Much to his consternation, Dupain-Cheng seemed to take it in stride with a polite smile and dogged yet affectionate look at their attempts. For Felix, however, the commotion their classmates created had the opposite effect: it only increased his ire. Not wanting to attract an akuma, he retreated into the quiet library at lunch to calm his temper. ‘Just a few more class periods,’ he thought wearily, ‘I can persevere through the end of the day.’

Unfortunately for Felix, the hiccups from Dupain-Cheng only continued after lunch and quickly wore down his waning patience. He was ready to snap at her during Literature when her hiccups repeatedly distracted him from his book, he barely managed to smooth out the angry scowl he directed her way before he said something too harsh. He just had to remind himself that these hiccups were ultimately not her fault. She was not doing it with the express purpose of driving him mad. Felix focused on the words of Jane Austen’s Pride & Prejudice, once again set himself to the task of ignoring the girl while she huffed in her seat.

At least he tried to do so until free period, when every other student in the class seemed to crowd around and make even more noise than before. Felix nearly ripped the book in half in frustration. They were making Dupain-Cheng do the most ridiculous exercises and tasks in an effort to find a cure for what was ailing her. Was she really standing on her head and drinking water? Lê Chiến even tried to suggest running a marathon! Even Felix was slightly concerned when she tried to hold her breath and nearly fainted, catching herself on the edge of the desk before she could split her head open. Seemed these “cures” were hindering more than helping. It wasn’t until she spilled water on her shirt that she was able to get them to stop. She left during the afternoon break and he basked in the hiccup-less classroom for a moment, for once not minding the usual background chatter of Rossi and Bourgeois. Dupain-Cheng returned right before the bell rang and Felix gripped his pen with each hiccup, his eyebrow visibly ticking with irritation.

~~ Fast forward to the end of school ~~

The final bell rang, Felix delayed his departure in hopes that Dupain-Cheng would leave the school grounds before he needed to meet his driver out front. He held on to his patience and composure by a mere thread. It would not reflect well on his family if he were to overreact or attack the girl in front of the rest of the school for nothing more than a simple annoyance. It was just not done; he was a Graham de Vanily. He finished off the last of his mint tea before replacing the empty thermos in his bag. Taking a deep breath, he exited the classroom and was relieved to not see a pair of dark pigtails anywhere in sight.

Felix walked past Césaire, Lahiffe, and his cousin as they chatted about the Ladyblog. Truly, he could not fathom why his cousin wanted to be friends with these simpletons. As he had already completed his homework at lunch, he did not need to exchange books but he did want to place his borrowed novel into his locker so he could return it in the morning when the library reopened. As he was about to head out, he was disturbed once again by a hiccup and then a soft curse. Felix came around the corner to witness the bane of his existence stuffing a book back into her locker while still hiccupping.

Felix slid closer to Dupain-Cheng as she sleepily shuffled books in her bag and crinkled her brow. He decided to mess with her a little as she had unwittingly vexed him all day. His heart rate sped up; perhaps he could exasperate the girl enough to verbally spar! He slowly stalked towards his prey, keeping his footfalls as silent as possible. ‘What had Adrien called that move from the anime he forced me to watch? Ah, yes, the kabedon maneuver. Let’s see if this will rattle those hiccups out of her.’ He slammed her locker shut with his right hand and watched as she jumped back with no further reaction than a hiccup. He smoothly boxed her in with his body and leaned into her personal space. Surrounding noises seemed to drop down to a dull buzz from their close proximity, like distant cicada songs in summer.

“Your hiccups have been interrupting my peace of mind all day, Miss Dupain-Cheng,” he dropped his voice down low enough so that others would not overhear. With his right hand still firmly planted against the lockers, he lifted her chin with the tips of the fingers from his left. He was close enough to see the tiny smattering of freckles that graced the bridge of her nose and seemed to dance charmingly across her cheekbones. Felix stared into her bluebell eyes, noting for the first time that she had a slightly darker limbal ring around the iris and little flecks that sparkled like silver in the afternoon light. He would bet they would twinkle like stars when she laughed. Her long, curved eyelashes were as dark as her hair and her bone structure was delicate. Dupain-Cheng may not be a refined beauty like his mother, but he would concede that she was beautiful enough to tempt a lesser man. He murmured teasingly, “perhaps there might be one solution you have not yet tried.”

Felix’s gaze flickered to her lips to hint at his meaning, looking deeply into her eyes with the expectation that she would scoff and shove him away at any second. Dupain-Cheng’s breathing seemed to hitch with the smallest, cutest hiccup she had made all day. He watched as unreadable thoughts seemed to flicker through her eyes before she truly did something unexpected: her eyes closed in assent. ‘Is she… Is she calling my bluff?’ Felix wondered with mild dismay. ‘Or perhaps she wishes to make my dear cousin jealous of a little kiss?’ His lips stretched into a small, conspiratorial smile at the thought. ‘Either way, I’m not one to back down from a challenge!’

He leaned in and, for a fleeting second, her warm breath brushed against his face and wrist. With it came the scent of something irresistibly sweet. He felt the tingling sensation of gooseflesh running down his clothed forearm as the very air around them seemed to still with anticipation. With one last push he closed the gap between their lips and Felix felt a jolt of electricity through his whole body. Reality fell away and all that remained was the two of them in this moment. Felix’s whole world seemed to narrow to the girl in front of him, as if he were a compass centering on true north. Dupain-Cheng’s lips were softer than rose petals and the sweet scent seemed to overflow all his senses. It spurred a warmth that seemed to grow within his chest until it enveloped his entire being. It was as if his whole body was wrapped in a cozy blanket. He felt the overwhelming need to bury himself in this feeling!

Felix gave up all pretext of composure and pushed forward with a whisper of a moan, unable to resist seeking out that inexplicable feeling. His lips teased hers as if nibbling on a treat until his teeth raked across her bottom lip. She gasped into his mouth and he swallowed it eagerly, tasting something that was so indisputably her along with the sweet, beguiling scent that was driving him crazy. Felix supped on her lips like a starving man; savoring her like an exotic tea made of the most fragrant flowers. His hand slipped down her jaw to cup her cheek while his arms begged to pull her against him, to give in to this magnetism he felt deep in his bones that pulled him towards Dupain-Cheng. He would wager his entire family fortune that her slender figure would conform to his own, like two neighboring puzzle pieces. He wanted more…

Just as he was about to seek out the tantalizing taste of her mouth, a scandalized noise from the periphery startled him into releasing her. Felix watched as she slowly opened her eyes, noted that they had darkened into the color of the stormy sea and the silver specks flashed like lightning. Oh, how he wanted to drown in their depths! His lips and skin tingled from where he had touched her, as if lingering electricity was arcing between them. His tongue darted out to lick his bottom lip, tasting the residual sweetness captured there. “You taste like strawberries…,” he murmured absentmindedly, not realizing he had said it out loud.

Suddenly the bubble around them burst and he was thrust back into the present. A present where Felix was kissing Dupain-Cheng against the lockers of their school, surrounded by classmates witnessing his complete loss of composure. He quickly slammed down the walls around his heart that had crumbled like sandcastles at high tide. He wrapped himself back up in the supercilious armor that he donned each day to protect against those that sought out any weakness to exploit. He would be damned if any member of the cacophony around them would use the girl as a tool against him.

However, through the whooping and catcalls of the crowd around them, he realized one sound was silent…

Felix pushed away from the locker with great reluctance and stood straight. He addressed the stunned Dupain-Cheng with a satisfied yet mocking smirk. He forced his voice back into his usual haughty tone, tamping down on the trembling of his insides. “Seems your hiccups are gone, mademoiselle. I would appreciate if you would refrain from causing such a disturbance with your hiccups in the future.” He gripped his bag strap with the still tingling fingers, hoping that his classmates would not notice the way his knuckles turned white with the strength of his grasp. Felix then nodded his head towards her and walked away, forcing himself not to look back. He adopted his usual unaffected air, though everything inside him seemed to protest against the expanding distance between them. He just had to hold it together until he could get to the car.

He watched as Césaire glared at him and roughly bumped into his shoulder before running toward Dupain-Cheng, followed by a concerned looking Lahiffe. He broached the doorway to find Adrien in a bewildered state, a mixture of emotions flittering through his eyes. ‘Seems my dear cousin may be conflicted about his dear friend,’ he scoffed under his breath at the thought. ‘I wonder if his girlfriend, Tsurugi, has anything to worry about now.’ Felix hurried down the front steps and into the safety of his family’s awaiting car.

Back in the locker room, a dazed but now fully awakened Marinette rose from the floor with help from her friends. She murmured her thanks distractedly. Ignoring the excited questions and concerned looks of her peers, she evaluated Felix’s reaction to their kiss and wondered if he had felt even a fraction of what she had. Instinctually she followed the pull that led her out to the front of the school just in time to see Felix’s car depart. Only the small bug kwami saw the mischievous light and the steely resolve in her chosen’s eyes as she watched the car leave her line of sight. However, in the recesses of Adrien’s bag, Plagg sensed chaotic energy and shivered with anticipation…

~~ BONUS SCENE ~~

Having to fight an akuma after the incident at school was predictable, so predictable that Marinette transformed in an alleyway nearby before going home. Lila had stomped off with a screech and false tears, muttering something about Hawkmoth. ‘I swear Lie-la is working with Hawkmoth, I just don’t have the evidence to prove it!’ Ladybug thought as she swung along the rooftops in a faux patrol. There was a loud bang and a familiar screech that announced the appearance of Lila’s newest akumatization mere moments before the akuma alert notification popped up on her yo-yo.

Within a few minutes, a distracted Chat Noir had arrived and they were scoping out the area to make a plan. The Embarrassator was an odd opponent. Her outfit seemed to be luchador-esque but she had gained nothing of semblance to a wrestler’s physique. She was seeking out people on the streets, whom she would hit with a ray from a ring on her finger and bring to life their most embarrassing fears. Some felt especially targeted. Ladybug watched as Alya was hit with a ray, transforming her into a fumbling mess that increasingly tripped over her words as she tried to gain information about the akuma. This was obviously linked to Alya’s desire to be a great reporter but what was up with that outfit? Gone were her typical flannel and pants, replaced by a neon green and lavender tux with tails. She looked like a knock-off Riddler from discount comic books!

“Where is Marinette?!” The Embarrassator demanded. “I want to make her suffer!” Chat seemed to stiffen at the akuma’s words, a fiercely protective look in his eyes. She could swear she heard a faint growl come from his throat but was too far from him to be sure.

Ladybug and Chat were heading to their planned positions when a flash of familiar blond hair caught her eye. There was Felix running from the akuma! Her heart rate sped up as she watched him lose ground, mere centimeters from The Embarrassator’s clutches. She changed trajectory and swung down to intercept him, grabbing him just before he hit the ground mid-fall and launching them back into the air until they were a safe distance away. It was not until she set him on his feet that she took in his appearance while he muttered his thanks. Felix’s hair and face were windblown, giving him a tousled bedhead look, but his normal attire was transformed into an orange and hot pink jumpsuit. And…were those clown shoes?

“Did the akuma do this to you?” she asked with a smirk, barely restraining laughter while gesturing to his whole person.

“Yes, and the – HIC! – these dreaded – HIC! HIC! – hiccups!” Felix managed to get out.

‘It seems my hiccups were inadvertently contagious…,’ the heroine mockingly thought to herself. She heard Chat land softly a few meters behind her, likely due to her sudden departure from the plan. He must have finally seen Felix’s appearance because she could hear Chat snicker.

“You try – HIC! – getting hit – HIC! – by that damned – HIC! HIC! – akuma!” Felix yelled angrily, causing Chat to break out into loud guffaws that brought him to tears. Ladybug could see a shift in Felix’s eyes from embarrassed to displeased. She knew now would be the perfect time to get him back for earlier. Before he could bolt, she slammed her hand down onto the plaster of the chimney he was leaned against and boxed him in with her body. He seemed to jump in shock at her sudden actions.

He pressed himself back as he glanced towards her planted hand with a hard swallow, she used her yo-yo to tilt his face back towards her and meet her eyes. Ladybug leaned in and captured his lips in a heated kiss, pouring into it every emotion and sensation she had felt at the end of school. She vaguely heard Chat’s shocked “My Lady!” but she pressed on, devouring his lips with the same ardor that he had shown her in the locker room. Before the prickly boy could respond in kind, she broke away and watched as Felix dazedly chased after her lips. The rooftop was so silent, you could probably hear a pin drop.

“Just returning the favor, monsieur,” she murmured playfully with a confident smirk.

“I… what…” Felix seemed to stumble over his thoughts. She turned and sashayed over to the stunned Chat, bumping his shoulder to help him recalibrate his thoughts. It was time to get back to business. She nodded her head towards an explosion and screams in the distance. Ladybug glanced over her shoulder with a sultry smile and gave a two-fingered salute before launching herself away, leaving behind two confused teenage boys listening to her cry of “bug out!”

A few rooftops away stood a lone figure in blue and white, sipping her to-go cup of cappuccino. She stuck to the shadows to remain unseen by mini-bug and baby-cat; the less they knew about her mission, the better. Her long ears twitched as she watched Felix Graham de Vanily stumble a bit on the fire escape and mutter to himself as he walked away with a red face. The future hero glanced down at her pocket watch with a wicked grin. “Looks like this timeline is on the correct path again. The probability of Risk has been neutralized.” She called for her burrow and disappeared through the time portal. Bunnyx knew from personal experience that it would not be until much later that evening, after the akuma had been purified, that Tikki would remind her chosen that she was not Marinette when she kissed Felix on that rooftop.

The subsequent freak out could be heard for a two kilometer radius…

~Author's Notes: In the bonus, Risk is in reference to the akuma in the episode 'Risk', where Felix steals/trades the Miraculous to Hawkmoth.

I blame Pamela Aiden's Fitzwilliam Darcy, Gentleman trilogy for inspiring me to write a different POV for this. I wanted to play around with some cannon divergence and give insight into the mind of our favorite grumpy blond boy. Really tried to channel his attitude and superiority to change the tone of the writing. I also wanted to show just how much kissing Marinette wrecked him. I hope you enjoyed it.

PS: This was actually my first ever attempt at fanfiction writing. It caused me to write all the others I've since posted here.

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Burning

Days pass with Heizou in a light trance when outside of his work. To prevent wandering thoughts, he picked up multiple extra cases. Some are mere child’s play, but it was work that needed to be done anyway. His fellow Doushin appeared to be worried for him. They tried to speak with him and figure out what caused the sudden shift in his ethics, but he slipped away without a trace. He doesn’t need external affairs meddling with his intuition and decisiveness.

He hadn’t spoken to anyone about his… encounter with Kaedehara Kazuha.

That essence of his was everywhere he turned.

Oh, did you hear about the man who deflected the Musou no Hitotachi? What a brave soul.

What a quiet and sincere boy, we need more folks like him.

I always see a calm and peaceful young man dressed in red sitting somewhere high. I swear he even sleeps in trees.

It didn’t take a detective like Heizou to figure it’s Kazuha.

For once, Heizou decided to stop by the Police Station. He avoided it like the plague due to the stuffy atmosphere, but it was inevitable from time to time. From a mix of bad food, the drone of boring cases, and Sango occasionally challenging his detective work with a strongly worded letter; he found comfort in other places more frequently. Yet, upon arrival, he saw a familiar head of green hair.

“I sincerely apologize, officer! Arataki Itto did not mean any harm with the Onikabuto battle. The children were quite excited to play with him.” Shinobu earnestly said. Heizou sighed, knowing that damn Oni got himself into a pickle again. He was a walking disaster with a good heart, but Heizou can’t always help bail him out. “There was a losing streak among the children and he did get quite rambunctious due to his strangely good luck.”

“I perhaps irritated Itto when I won a match against him,” A new voice adds. Heizou stopped dead in his tracks. “The children voted me in to play to see if they could win their snacks back since I happened to be nearby.”

Only Kazuha’s voice flowed with the wind so beautifully.

“I’m sure Detective Shikanoin could attest to Itto’s kind-heartedness,” The samurai walked around the corner, revealing himself to Heizou. “It seems he just arrived.”

Heizou swallowed thickly. He wasn’t interested in facing Kazuha yet. The undeniable attraction he felt towards him confused Heizou, he didn’t want to think of it. It was best to keep his mind clear when facing new cases.

Ignoring the drumbeat of his heart, he approached the Doushin.

“I agree with these two. Itto may be stubborn, but he doesn’t have a bad bone in his body. What is he even here for?” Heizou asked.

“He ruined the display for Tsukumomono Groceries, sir. He offered to help clean and repair, but he was arrested before then.”

“I say we let the man act on his word. If he cleans and helps repair the display, I don’t see it as a crime. He didn’t act with ill intent, and saw his actions as wrong afterward. He is an Oni and highly emotional because of it. If you leave him here much longer he may start wailing about how he is the worst Crimson Oni alive.” Heizou droned on. Kuki and Kazuha nodded with his words occasionally. The two knew he was spouting nonsense just to appease the Doushin. However, it worked in their favor.

“I see, sir. I will fetch him right away.” The Doushin spun on his heel to make his way towards the holding cell.

“Itto…” Kuki growled. “Gonna have to teach that Oni a lesson.”

The air around Kuki crackled with Electro energy and her eyes burned violet. Even Kazuha backed away from the sudden surge of energy. Her thinly veiled rage could boil over at any moment.

“It seems this has been handled, I will be-”

“No you will not,” Kazuha’s bandaged fingers grabbed onto Heizou’s wrist. “I have a strange occurrence I’d like you to look into.”

Heizou’s biggest weakness was an unsolved case, and Kazuha wouldn’t lie for the hell of it.

“Alright,” Heizou sighed. “Shall we discuss the details over lunch?”

“Asking me on a date, Detective?” Kazuha smirked, raising an eyebrow towards the quickly reddening man across from him.

“While you two eye fuck each other, I’ve got an Oni to deal with,” Kuki said, approaching Itto who was brought out from around the corner. Heizou watched as a slew of slaps from Kuki left Itto cowering and apologizing to her, promising he will help Aoi immediately. While her Electro energy calmed down significantly at his words, she was still undeniably angry at having to break him out for such a petty reason.

“Come along, Kazuha, we don’t have all day,” Heizou brushed off his comment from earlier, not willing to let himself dwell on it.

“Avoiding my question?” Kazuha burst into a jog to catch back up with Heizou who had already started to walk off.

“I see no need to entertain such a question,” Heizou cleared his throat awkwardly. Kazuha wouldn’t let Heizou have a moment to collect himself.

“Hm, alright. Let’s head inside then,” Kazuha gestured to the restaurant they had quickly approached.

– – –

“Odd,” Heizou muttered around a bite of fried tofu. “The insurgence of Kairagi deviance is strange. Nothing has occurred that could set them off, to my knowledge.”

“I mentioned during our last meeting that I was accused of stealing something.” Kazuha pointed out, waving around a slice of Tonkatsu. “Whatever they are looking to recover is either incriminating or extremely valuable. It’s the second instance since my own attack. It won’t take long for someone to be killed.”

“Your attention to detail is unmatched, Kazuha,” Heizou found himself saying before he could stop himself.

“Praise from you is high praise, indeed.”

“Ugh, can you get injured again and forget how to use your words like that for a while,” Heizou knew his cheeks were dusted a dark pink. He’s not used to being on the receiving end of such attention. Sure, he knows he’s charming and attractive. Such things can be helpful when trying to gain information from a source. He knew how to make the ladies swoon and the men fall at his feet.

But when met with the same treatment, Heizou froze. It’s like he was a hormonal teenager once more.

“It seems you quite like the attention. If your heartbeat and flushed skin is anything to go by, I mean.” Kazuha placed his chopsticks down on the table before brushing Heizou’s hair from his face. “Quite frankly, I’ve never seen you blush so much before.”

“You-” Heizou abruptly puts his face in his hands, taking a few deep breaths before letting them fall to his side again. “Let’s pay for our meal and start heading towards Byakko Plain. I’m sure some clues are there somewhere.”

Heizou stood up quickly, jostling the table slightly before he took off towards the owner. He blissfully ignored the sound of Kazuha’s breathy laughter fading the farther he walked away.

Kazuha kept his mouth shut as they left the restaurant but a knowing smile never left his lips. Upon getting out of Hanamizaka, Heizou had had enough. With swiftness, Heizou tugged Kazuha behind a tree. He pinned the samurai between himself and the sturdy tree behind him. A beautiful sakura tree, the petals drifted down elegantly and left behind a sweet scent.

Kazuha’s body was warm against his. Their chests were pressed together from Heizou’s movements. Kazuha’s eyes were blown open. The sudden action from Heizou took him by surprise. The detective could feel Kazuha’s heart hammering against his chest, along with his own to match.

“You’ve been pushing my limits, Kazuha.”

“Whatever do you mean?” Kazuha purred. It didn’t take long for the samurai to calm his heart. The ability to ground oneself so quickly was not Heizou’s strong suit.

“The constant comments and touches today, and the sorry excuse of a kiss from when I tended to your wounds.” Heizou said. “You’re bold, but hesitating. Why?”

Kazuha hummed, bringing one of his hands to trace lightly across Heizou’s sides. The detective’s breath caught in his throat. The bandages on Kazuha’s hands offered a rough sensation against his ribs, eliciting a jolt from him.

“You could say I’m teasing you because I want your attention.” Kazuha said. His tone and gaze were earnest.

“You’ve had my attention. You at least owe me a proper kiss at this point.” Heizou blurted. Not exactly his intention but he said it anyway. He knew of his feelings for Kazuha, but simply wanted to ignore them.

“Is that so? Well, why don’t you show me how it’s done, Detective?” Kazuha’s hands settled more firmly on Heizou’s hips.

Heizou slipped his hand into Kazuha’s hair. It was soft and thick between Heizou’s fingers. He leaned in closely to Kazuha, their breath mingling. From this distance, Heizou could pick up the smell of maple leaves on Kazuha. A warm and earthy tone matched the level-headed samurai well.

Kazuha’s eyes slipped shut, leaning in to meet Heizou halfway.

That was, until Heizou decided to angle his head at the last minute, setting a kiss upon Kazuha’s cheek.

“Seems we’re even now, Kaedehara.”

“Wow,” Kazuha scoffed at the chosen course of action. “You are quite petty.”

Heizou peeled his body away from Kazuha’s, the sudden chill of the late afternoon wind creeping down his spine. It was much more comfortable keeping his chest pressed to Kazuha’s. The man was warmer than he realized.

“It felt necessary, Kazuha,” Heizou muttered. It pleased him to know the samurai was displeased at the redirection. Being able to catch him off guard was difficult. “Perhaps you won’t treat this too lightly anymore knowing I’ll dish it right back to you.”

“I see. That was quite exhilarating, was it not?” Kazuha strolled by Heizou, continuing on in the direction of the last assault case. “What would the people think of their prized detective if caught in a situation like that with an ex-fugitive?”

“You have a much better reputation than you realize,” Heizou echoed back. He kept his distance from Kazuha, enjoying the open space around him to stretch his arms.“The citizens find you a worthy person to adore. Deflecting the Almighty Shogun’s blade is nothing to shake a stick at.”

Heizou could see Kazuha’s shoulder shake in laughter before he could hear it.

“I guess. I don’t enjoy the spotlight, though. It makes strolling about a little more difficult than desired.”

“Alright, alright. Let’s go over the details again, Zuzu.”

Kazuha stopped in his tracks. Heizou cringed inwardly, realizing he let a fond sounding nickname fall from his lips.

“Interesting nickname, Detective.” Kazuha turned to face him once more. “I do not mind it. No need to overanalyze my reaction, I’ve simply never been called that before.”

Kazuha turned back around before Heizou could respond.

“Kairagi and a handful of Nobushi have assaulted three people in three different instances.” Kazuha began. “A cowardly ambush was done during the victim’s sleep each time. All three victims have recounted being accused of stealing something that they had.”

“The attacks all took place at different times of day?” Heizou asked.

“No. Mid to late afternoon for each attack.”

“They’re not acting under the cover of the night? Strange,” Heizou trailed off. “Being near a village is odd too. The vagrants must be deperate.”

“These assailants… They looked strange. The description makes them seem more like Fatui Skirmishers.” Kazuha sighed, dragging his hands along his face as he stopped. “I can’t remember it well. It happened so quickly that a majority of details slipped through the cracks. I’m afraid I won’t be very helpful in this investigation beyond what I’ve told you.”

Heizou nudged Kazuha’s shoulder with his own.

“You are a victim here. You shouldn’t feel bad about your recollection of the event. You were asleep . There was nothing you could have done.” Heizou murmured. Victims often have a strong sense of guilt after an event. They wonder if it was something they did that caused the crime, if they overlooked a detail, or if their witness recount was trustworthy. Heizou saw it more often than not when interviewing victims.

It never made it easier to see.

Heizou deeply cared for those around him. His sympathetic nature and desire to help lead him to being a detective. Stopping people from committing crimes was the best way to save the people he cared for most. He shook off memories of his childhood before they could finish resurfacing.

“I guess you have a point,” Kazuha took a deep breath, letting his shoulders relax. “We are near the scene of the crime.”

– – –

“Did you get any info?” Heizou asked Kazuha.

Upon arriving at the village where the assault took place, the two split to ask the villagers some questions. Heizou knew Kazuha could determine the truth from a lie, and get the answers he needed; there was no reason to doubt him.

“Not many useful details were revealed, except one.” Kazuha pulled an item from his pocket. “A lovely granny handed me this and said she found it in her garden the morning after the assault happened.”

In Kazuha’s palm laid a rusted Fatui Insignia. Heizou picked up the emblem, carefully inspecting it.

“It’s been scratched nearly beyond recognition. I didn’t know insignias could rust?”

“That’s the thing, they can’t . Fatui Insignias are platinum or silver.” Kazuha interrupted his chain of thought. “This is a copper emblem of some kind. Someone went through the trouble of having a pure copper fragment be crafted into this Fatui Insignia lookalike.”

Heizou inspected the emblem much closer. Most craftsmen and blacksmiths often have a ‘signature’ that they leave on a creation. However, copper is a notoriously difficult metal to work with. Only the most skilled of smiths could work with such a material.

“Let’s head back to Amenoma Smithy and see if they have any insight,” Heizou tossed an arm around Kazuha’s shoulders. “I didn’t find anything noteworthy during my investigation. This seems to be our only lead.”

“Well, let’s hope it's a promising lead,” Kazuha said. “Afterall, there’s no case Detective Heizou can’t solve.”

Heizou’s hand that was resting on Kazuha's shoulder slipped upwards to ruffle the samurai’s hair. Breathy laughter surrounded them as the antics grew more frenzied. A playful scuffle between the men resulted in Heizou falling to the ground, dragging Kazuha with him.

With swiftness only gifted by an Anemo vision, Kazuha was able to break his fall before collapsing entirely on Heizou. The sun was setting behind him, and Heizou was awestruck.

The sorbet sky softened Kazuha’s features, and gave his hair a pinkish hue. Heizou reached towards his face, gently gliding his fingers across Kazuha’s cheek. Those fingers kept trailing hesitantly until they reached the tie that held Kazuha’s hair away from his face.

“May I?” Heizou breathed out slowly.

“I just assumed you would do so without asking,” Kazuha chuckled. “Be my guest.”

Heizou immediately released Kazuha’s hair from the tie, watching as it fell around his face in gentle waves. Heizou’s fingers carded through Kazuha’s hair freely, and the samurai’s eyes shut as he leaned into the touch. Heizou mindlessly dragged his hands down Kazuha’s back. Without warning, Heizou gripped his waist tightly and flipped their positions.

With Kazuha’s hair splayed out across the grass, the dainty colors of the sky kissing his skin, and the utterly content look on the samurai’s face weakened Heizou’s heart. He was straddling Kazuha’s thighs, knees on either side of his hips. Heizou leaned back. He needed space to breathe. Yet, Kazuha didn’t take kindly to the new distance between them. Kazuha pushed himself upward to prop on his elbows, and reached to undo Heizou’s hair tie as well.

“It’s only fair I get to see you like this too,” He said.

“You- You’re such a flirt, this feels backwards,” Heizou grumbled as he let Kazuha comb through his hair.

“You’re quite the charmer based on what I’ve heard from Lumine,” Kazuha said. “Something about calling the Traveler dreamy ?”

Heizou groaned and dipped his head to rest on Kazuha’s shoulder.

“She’s pretty and I have a weak heart, happy?” Kazuha’s laughter was once again soft, nothing sarcastic in his tone at all.

“The traveler is ethereal, I must agree. However, she’s not my preference.” Kazuha gently tugged on the hair at the nape of Heizou’s neck. He leaned in close to the detective’s ear, lips grazing the shell softly. “You’re much more my type.”

A violent shiver shook Heizou to his core. Something about the way Kazuha said it was enough to tie his stomach into knots.

“That being said, it’s getting late. We should make our way to Amenoma Smithy before the workers head home for the day,” Kazuha said, smiling sweetly as if he hadn’t just set Heizou’s heart ablaze.

“Y-yeah, you’re right.” Heizou scrambled to get up, extending his hand to help Kazuha stand as well. “Let’s head back.”

#heikazu #kazuhei #shikanoin heizou #kaedehara kazuha #genshin impact #getting itto out of jail #unresolved tension #denial of feelings #heizou is whipped

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