#i care too much

[wherethesunsetsblog]

I don’t care.

#2014 tumblr #bring back 2014 #2014 revival #2014 grunge #2014 aesthetic #2014 vibes #i miss 2014 #2014 nostalgia #2014core #2014 girl #tumblr girls #i want to cry #i care too much

[verba-amoris]

#my heart is too soft #i care too much #i worry too much #my thoughts

[typelikeagirl]

#quotes #quote of the day #i care too much #love quotes #sad love quotes #august 12

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

It’s the same shit on a deeper level on a different day.

#dear diary #does it ever stop #chronic migraines #sick of being sick #same shit different day #deeper than meets the eye #i'm trying my best #not enough #not good enough #depression #struggling #sad #anxiety #overwhelmed #empty #i care too much #isolation #i'm exhausted #i'm not okay #what else is wrong with me #i can't think straight #one step forward ten steps back #friends break hearts too #tell me how i'm supposed to be #weight of the world #why is everything so heavy #it hurts

[floof-writes]

I just figured out why the "Don't hate on Kristen, she's just a traumatized 17 year old girl she wasn't prepared to create and care for a deity and it's not fair to expect her to" argument bugs me so much!

First and foremost, Kristen Applebees owns my entire heart and soul. She saved my fucking life. She and I went through a scarily similar religious crisis at fifteen and she and Ally helped me process it. By extension, I respect Ally immensely. They are integral in what D20 is today, and I can't thank them enough for that, Chaotic Dumb shit included. Whatever choices they make to A) have fun at the table and B) play Kristen to her truest potential, I support them.

Right now, Kristen is certainly acting in character, I'm not denying that, but her character still hasn't learned the lesson she needed to. The argument above boils down to the claim that teenagers shouldn't be held responsible for their actions, and as someone who was 17 fairly recently, YES THEY FUCKING SHOULD. Teenagers are capable of doing amazing things. They are more than capable of making moral and practical judgements, and they should be allowed to. They are intelligent and thoughtful and complex. Kristen proves that every second she's on screen. Denying her the consequences of her actions, both good and bad, is just disrespectful to her accomplishments.

Teenagers should receive unconditional love and support from the adults in their lives, but they do not get consequence immunity that expires at 18. Kristen, more than any other bad kid, lacks parental support. Her connection to stable adults is largely through her girlfriend, and that's not ideal. But Kristen has proven she understands what it means to be the cleric of a new god, that in the same way her devotion raised her from the grave, her apathy could bury her once more. It's happened to [redacted] before. Apparently she hasn't even attempted to spread that responsibility out by sharing the gospel. She hasn't asked for help, which is a teenager's most fundamental right. It makes sense that she hasn't, someone else pointed out that Kristen is still searching for the absolute security in knowing a god is all powerful that she had while believing in Helio and has yet to unlearn that, which is why she struggles with her deities. She very obviously relies on religion to fill a hole in her worldview. But if Kristen kills Cassandra, she kills Cassandra. That's her fault, even if it's a mistake that will one day become a dumb teenage decision in her past, rightfully paid for and rightfully regretted. And the adults in her life, whether that be Aguefort or Jawbone or someone else, have a responsibility to tell her she's out of line, because she is.

Junior year is about realizing that real life is a speeding train and you're tied to the tracks with just the pieces of a knife. Ally themself said this season is about Kristen suffering consequences for her chaotic decisions. Making a bad decision and being held responsible for it is okay. This is a theme that appears with Pete as well. Expecting them to learn from their experiences and behave better gets conflated with hating them and is met with excuses about their circumstances and lack of support, even though both demonstrate an extreme desire to learn and grow.

(Finally, the last piece of this argument that bugs me, is the claim that people criticizing Kristen must not have experienced a faith crisis. Bitch, with Kristen's help I banged that thing out in a year and half. By 16 I was an atheist out to my parents. Unlike Kristen, they didn't kick me out, and unlike Kristen, the existence of god/s isn't an objective reality in my world, so I get that I had it easier. But your experiences with faith aren't universal.)

#fantasy high #fhjy spoilers #kristen applebees #character analysis #might delete later #I fucking hate discourse but I love existing in a live fandom #I care too much

[beautifulpersonpeach]

Knees, BPP. Knees. I'm go insane over freaking knees. Yoongi bitches are something else. We go feral over knees.

***

You understand me.

I'm convinced Yoongi has the craziest bitches in the fandom and I know because I'm one of them. A throng of harlots barely holding onto their dignity at the sight of his knees, toes, hands, and brows.

But does that mf give a fuck?

No.

It kills me because it's just so obvious that he knows.

*

It's the audacity, flashing those babies out in public like he hasn't got a bitch at home.

Anyway,

Whatevs.

I don't care.

#actually I do #I care too much #he's a colossal hazard-grade problem for me #min yoongi #yoongi #yoongi bias

[yasyassie]

do i care a lot? i do

do i care too much? yes

But i'm not gonna apologize for it and i'm not gonna be ashamed of it because caring makes me the person I am. I have the human power and empathy to care and I'm proud of it because it's people who don't who ruin this world

Everything you do has an impact, every decision you choose has consequences. Take the time to research and think about it

#capitalist hell #so sick of this #stand with palestine #palestine #i care a lot #i care too much #but it's worth it #current events #empathy #please be kind #be kinder to the world

[mariekavanagh]

Do you ever get the urge to write a story for a fandom in a historical setting but then fall flat when you realise that it's going to involve a decent amount of historical research to be able to write accurately? Or is that just me being picky with myself?

#writing #historical fanfiction #I used to avidly read stories in historical fandoms but would quit as soon as I read a period inaccuracy #I care too much #awkward

[eatingdiceforfunandprofit]

will byers saying “i’m not gonna fall in love” is the most heartbreaking thing abt him being queer bc he was so young but he had already figured out he was queer and he knew it was “bad” and had resigned himself to be alone bc he believes he’s a mistake and won’t/can’t find someone who loves him

i want to scream

#stranger things #be gay make byler canon #byler #i care a lot #i care too much #they’re just kids #crow writes

[fretbored34]

I'm creepy because I care

#dank memes #fresh memes #funny memes #memes #lol #funny but true #me irl lol #i'm a good person #i'm a good guy #friends #that's what friends are for #creepy but cute #creepy #i care deeply #i care. i care so much #i care too much

[cissy-side-thoughts]

State of Being Caring

I am a Caring person.

I Care so deeply for people. Especially the ones I love, trust, and know well. But for all humanity really.

If I can see the humanity in a person, then I will care about you.

I will always check up on you. I’ll reach out when I think of you or whenevers a good time. If you’re sick, I’ll be by your side. I’ll take care of whatever you might need.

I listen to your problems, venting, etc. I want to hear how you are. I want to be a safe space for you. I want you to feel cared about. Feel seen. Feel heard.

I Care about others, I’ve just always been this way… I have a strong pull to care for people. To help. But I also put in the extra investment and time because I know what it’s like to not have someone who’s caring. I know what it’s like to lack care. And I would never want others to experience that pain.

I am a Caring person.

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Discussing Strengths Challenge

#cissy side thoughts works #cissy side thoughts writes #caring #i care a lot #I Care #i care too much #i care about you #I am caring #I am a caring person #my writing #writing #my rants #rants #ranting #my ranting #I’m valid #I have positive qualities #I’m worth it #I’m enough #cissy side thoughts talks

[amoiur111]

#old hollywood #coquette #coquette dollete #lizzy grant #lana del rey #girlblogging #girlblog #tumblr girls #gloomy coquette #angelic #whisper girl #i love lana del rey #lana is god #lana del rey unreleased #lana del rey aka lizzy grant #lana del ray aka lizzy grant #lana del slay #lana unreleased #i care too much #nina sayers #black swan #the virgin suicides #girlblog ♡ #girl blogging #alana champion #lily rose depp #sapphic #ellie williams #girl blogger #lana stan

[screaming--agony]

Dear Diary,

I’ve reached my limit. I never thought I would get to this point. I’m done caring.

#dear diary #i care too much #i don't care #i'm done #it's not worth it #struggling #anxiety #overwhelmed #numb #i deserve better #jokes on me #tick tock #fed up #never thought i would get to this point #you do you #choice is made #no going back

[beevean]

Honestly, the Hector fic I'm working on made me even more bitter against N!Hector, because, on paper? His concept is sound. Not only in S2 he had the potential to be a very creepy anti-villain, with his complete lack of feelings towards humanity (not disgust like N!Isaac, nothing at all, he just thought of them as another species of animals)... but his superficial traits would have been nearly perfect for another version of a pre-betrayal Hector.

Lacking of empathy towards humans but not to the point of wishing them to suffer? Sure. Hector in the MF manga mostly talks about his refusal to be used as a tool, and a neutral stance on genocide, as horrible as it sounds, means that Hector could both go through with it and then reason himself out of it, at first for pragmatic reasons. I also appreciate that N!Hector deliberately killed his own parents as a child, showing that he always had the capacity for murder, and I wish that was canon.

"Unlike humans, vampires see value in Hector's knowledge and forgemastery. The vampires are his natural social group." From the wiki, and this can apply to Dracula in particular. Of course Hector would at first gladly serve Dracula, when he's the only one who "gave him a place where he was allowed to exist". I don't think this would extend to every vampire, though.

Animal lover? It's canon that Hector has an affinity for animals, in both prequels.

Not too hard to make the jump that Hector prefers animals to humans. It's not even hard to make the jump to "Hector loves animals so much that he compares other creatures to them as a compliment".

Sheltered? Nowhere near to the point of trusting an obviously evil vampire lady, but if Hector lived in Castlevania ever since he was a child/teen, he can't have developed great social skills. I imagine Hector has trouble with talking and also with understanding others' body language, taking things too literally.

Cute, gentle demeanor? Nnnnnno... but also yes-ish. Kinda. The thing is that Hector can be legit cute when he wants to: he can go from this

to this

and there is no contradiction. he's a babyfaced gigachad :P

What N!Hector lacks is the first part. The rare times he fights back, it's only to emphasize how weak he is. Had the writing combined his soft attitude with more showings of his power and ruthlessness, it would have worked perfectly, and it would have justified why Carmilla wanted him so badly for herself. But oh well :^)

Love-starved to the point of overriding his logical part? Oh yes. Hector is very much love-starved and he becomes completely devoted to Rosaly simply because she's nice to him. She lets him stay with her, and he's all "I’ll do anything for you, I’ll give you my arms and my eyes, I’ll give you my life without forgiveness or atonement". She says "thank you for being born" and that is enough for this battle-hardened ex-general to burst into tears. When Hector falls in love, he falls hard. The idea of someone pretending to love him only to betray his trust, hitting in his weak spot, would be soul crushing if done well :(

It's just. I vehemently reject the notion that Hector could ever be a manchild: it would have been perfect if this was teen Hector, and then he grew up into the coldy proudful Hector we see in the MF manga, to then become the sensitive empathetic Hector of the PtR manga once he's with Rosaly, to then finally transition into his cursed and belligerent CoD self. You know. A character arc, which N!Hector lacks until S4 suddenly turns him into a sassy bitch?

But of course, it's not just that: it's the fact that N!Hector was purposefully stripped of his agency; his growing moment of realizing that no, he doesn't have to kill innocents, he can affirm himself, he can leave, being turned into "sexy vampire lady sweet talks him until she beats the shit out of him"; and also, well, Season 3 was too busy jerking off and coming all over N!Hector being tortured and raped by deception to give him a personality; and as the cherry on top of the shitcake, N!Hector is theoretically turned into a badass in S4, but 1) he still doesn't do much compared to Creator's Pet N!Isaac, and 2) nothing he went through matters because they had a Lenector agenda to push.

What a waste of a very intriguing character. Insulting writing for many more reasons than "but hector is supposed to be a chad".

#castlevania #hector castlevania #anti netflixvania #i'm actually being rather charitable #but it's mostly for the end #i care too much

[goodslvtsblog]

He's such a great friend, I appreciate him so much,he is amazing and cares I love it, I love him so much in the most platonic way,he's everything to me,I'm here for him no matter what. <3

#friends #hes so pretty #hes amazing #hes awesome #hes an angel #he can do no wrong #he can’t be real #platonic #platonic friendships #i care so much #i care a lot #i care about you #i care too much #he cares so much

[bpdohwhatajoy]

My heart is too big for this world:(

#ryan.txt #bpd #borderline personality disorder #I care too much #I get hurt by too much #I’m too much