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#i think it can happen a lot earlier or later depending on the person but yeah
kil9 · 6 months
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this has been said 100x but whoa now i believe it first hand, it truly does get better as you get older. yeah bad shit still happens but being able to control your own thoughts like a person with a fully developed brain is awesome. even if it only works some of the time.
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mouschiwrites · 5 months
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South Park - Main Four (+ Butters) Confessing To You
Stan
I think that if he liked someone, he’d want to confess pretty early on
But it’d take him a long time to actually work up the courage
His friends constantly encourage him to go for it, and he really does want to, but that anxious nausea in his stomach makes him blurt excuses instead
But eventually he decides that he can’t hold it in any longer
He’d want to do it in person so badly
He bought chocolates and everything
He invited you to meet him at the pond after school
You waved when you spotted him, and jogged over with a smile on your face
You thought you saw him smile back, but as you got closer it didn’t look quite right
You ask if everything’s okay
He opens his mouth to speak, but suddenly claps his hand over it and runs away
The chocolates he was hiding behind his back drop to the snow
Confused, you pick up the box and watch him disappear down the path
He texts you later:
Hey. Sorry I ran away like that. Super lame, I know. I was trying to tell you how much I like you but I got sick so I ran. But I really do like you, Y/n
Kenny
I don’t think he’d feel the need to tell his crush how he feels explicitly
Instead he’d be satisfied flirting with you
Your reactions are all he needs (for a while)
But eventually he wants more
That’s when he decides to confess
He figures it’d be pretty obvious by then, so he doesn’t plan anything too special
But he does need to make sure you know he’s serious
Plus he knows you deserve something nice and romantic :)
So he buys you something; it takes him a long time to save up, but he finally manages to buy a little bracelet
Nothing expensive, but it’s still cute
He would have known you for a while by then, so of course it has your favorite colors
He puts it in a nice box and drops it on your desk one day
He gives his usual childish grin, but you can see something genuine in his eyes this time
“Hello beautiful. I know I flirt with you all the time and it’s funny or whatever, but I actually do like you. A lot.”
Kyle
He might confess early on, he might take a while
I think it depends on your personality
If you show any interest in him, he’ll be more inclined to tell you how he feels earlier
But if you’re closed off and cold, it’d take longer
He just wants to make sure he won’t make a fool of himself
He’d have to spend a lot of time with you, enough time that you’ve warmed up to each other at least a little
Once he’s decided that it’s worth a shot, he’ll go for it
He tries to think of something romantic
Unfortunately he doesn’t have too great of a sense of what’s romantic
He ends up inviting you to the museum
It would’ve been nicer if he wasn’t completely silent the whole time
By the time it’s over you’re more than ready to go home, but Kyle stops you right as you’re walking away
“Y/n! Wait. Please. I’m sorry… this, uh, it was more romantic in my head. I did this because I wanted to tell you that I like you. Like, romantically.”
Cartman
He had no intention of confessing to you
He’s a pretty prideful guy; no way he’s admitting feeling something mushy like love
Eventually he might’ve formulated an excuse to reveal his feelings that didn’t make him seem vulnerable, but his actual “confession” ended up being accidental
Before class started one day, he was debating with some other kids over who the hottest person in school was
He was valiantly defending your place as the second hottest (behind himself, of course)
He ended up going a bit overboard, spilling all his feelings about you
Gushing about your looks, your personality, the way you walked… he was weirdly thorough
And guess who happened to walk in just as he began this little rant?
You stood behind him, dumbstruck
His opponents in the debate smirked when they saw you
Cartman eventually snapped out of his thoughts and noticed their faces
At first he was confused
“What’s with you guys? …they’re right behind me, aren’t they.”
He just slumped over defeatedly
Butters
He’s very upfront about his feelings
If he liked you, he’d tell you as soon as he realized it himself
He doesn’t see the point in waiting
He found himself staring at you across the classroom one day
He realized this wasn’t the first time he caught himself doing this, so he asked himself why
He decided that it was because you were attractive
His heart fluttered as he made the connection; he had a crush on you!
He was practically vibrating in his seat for the remainder of the class
He was way too excited at this realization, and he figured you would be too!
Right after class, he bounced out of his seat and ran over to you
He grabbed your hand eagerly, absolutely beaming while he exclaimed:
“Y/n!! I think you’re really pretty and awesome! I have a crush on you!”
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Thank you so much for reading! I hope you enjoyed :) take care duckies <33
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Tips on Pacing
We, as creators, seek that hook that gets the readers invested and keeps them that way. Nothing does that better than tension. There are all kinds, but it often occurs between characters. The "do they like me" of romance, the interruptions of erotica, the intense adversary from an unknown opponent, or the whodunits of mystery; Tension comes in all shapes and sizes, but it boils down to one thing, leaving the readers holding their breath in anticipation of the next page.
A large part of the creative process is figuring out how to create that tension without leaving the readers wanting to quit out of frustration or confusion. I would like to say there is a correct way to pace things, but it depends entirely on the story and situation.
Action scenes, for example, move very quickly, whereas a scene with a lot of dialogue will move at a snail’s pace. A spicy scene will emulate real life, moving slowly at first and increase its pace. A dramatic scene can be either fast or slow, depending on what it contains.
There are the peaceful scenes that do not move the same as any other kind of scene, showing the contentment of characters, the sun setting, or moving from one place to another. In writing or showing these scenes in a comic, it will go very quickly but the reader will perceive them as slow.
Showing a car ride, or a cooking scene allows characters to reflect on what has been happening and offers character development, but it does not have that tension at all. Still, adding those scenes is like adding bread to your butter. Now, everyone has their own tastes, but I would find it very odd to find someone who would consume just butter, especially if it was unsalted. Adding those peaceful scenes makes the ones that aren’t, all the more impactful, to both your readers and your characters.
The calm before the storm does wonders in storytelling, but the one thing you want to avoid is spending too much time in that calm. An example of this would be The Hobbit. Now, I love The Hobbit. It’s a classic hero’s journey, with a deep world build and rich characters, but parts of it are unnecessarily wordy. There is a page that describes the moss on the trees in such detail that you can taste it, which shows Tolkien’s skills as a wordsmith, but it was ultimately padding.
waits for the rage. Padding; words that don’t move your plot forward and only add to your word/panel count. Padding or filler should not be confused with peaceful scenes. Peaceful scenes will add to your story, padding will not. The literary world has changed a lot since Tolkien wrote The Hobbit, and we can see that evident in modern literature by the fact that there would hardly be a mention of trees at all, let alone the moss that grows upon them.
The next subject of pacing is sentence variation and flow. Now, flow is a tricky subject, and is not often resolved during the initial draft. When I am editing, things will sometimes be in the wrong order and disrupt flow. When flow is off, tension wanes, and when tension wanes, readers will lose interest. There may be entire scenes that I think don’t work where they are, but rather than delete those scenes, I find a place where they fit better. Perhaps that place is earlier, perhaps it is later. If you thought that scene was necessary when you wrote it, perhaps there is a proper place for it.
In A Galactic Star, a part of the chapter titled Repercussions, was supposed to happen right before the climax. I moved it up to allow the reader to understand Chrome’s hesitations between him and Neon.
Even in comics, you aren’t going to necessarily catch things after you just completed them. Many indie creators will recommend a space between writing the initial draft and editing it. The amount of time varies per person, but it is suggested to at least give it a day. The reason is because of the completion high; You just created this thing and in your mind it is amazing and awesome, not seeing the mistakes that are there. I feel as though editing is like polishing a stone; Every stone, no matter how grey or plain in appearance, can be polished into a stunning masterpiece if given enough time.
The editing process has multiple phases, the first is checking for spelling and grammar mistakes, and the second is checking the sentence structure for flow and repeating these steps as necessary. Example: The loud dog barked. Vs. The dog barked loudly. The first is grammatically correct but makes you pause to process, whereas the second will allow you to move on to the next sentence without that stop.
Flow is a key component in pacing, which is a key component in tension, which keeps your readers engaged. As a potential reader of your story, I hope this will help you to bring it to life.
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i-heart-hxh · 3 months
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hi! so ive been so confused/unsure abt why killua's reaction to palm saying "you are the one gon needs most" looked like he was devastated. ive thought of different reasons on why he had that reaction:
1) he got scared/devastated/stressed at the fact that he was the only one who could really help gon at that moment, but he was so sure he was useless cuz he couldn't even snap gon back to his own senses. so its like "if i—the closest help there is to gon—can't help him, then who/what else can?" and so the overwhelming thoughts of gon possibly dying haunts him.
2) he couldn't believe that he's the one gon really needs the most after assuming that palm probably placed higher than him already, and was fully convinced gon cares more about palm more than him. but then palm says she cant even compare to killua, which gave him that reaction .... i guess its like relief but portrayed in a painful way cuz of his self worth issues.
3) he got pressured by the thought of being the one gon will always rely on the most. anything bad that happens to gon will always depend on what killua would do abt it. and killua always worries and sacrifices too much when it comes to gon, so pressure just added up.
aaaand this is making my brain all scrambled (TT) i wanted to ask if u have a clearer answer for this..? i trust ur judgement a lot (。-人-。)
Hello! Aw, I appreciate that you trust my judgment, that's sweet of you to say. ❤️ I'll do my best to explain my take on Killua's expression in this scene!
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So, I think his reaction of shock and looking devastated is primarily from the first set of reasons you brought up. He already tried to step in and stop Gon and got pushed away and told that the situation with Kite is none of his business essentially. Being rejected like that and being unable to change Gon's course of action (even though that's the role Gon entrusted him with) broke his heart, and made him feel like he can't change Gon's impending tragic outcome.
Bisky also told him this earlier in the arc:
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While we know his tendency to flee against a strong enemy is caused (at least in a large part) by the needle, which he's already removed at this point in the series, Bisky's words to him and the gravity of the current situation still weigh heavily on him. In this scene, he's realizing that Gon's fate rests on him--and he doesn't know what to do to save Gon at this point. There's no one else he can ask or rely on any more to save Gon, it all hinges on him. What a heavy burden that is to be entrusted with, especially with how deeply he loves Gon--to a degree where he has actively decided and even stated out loud that he'll die with him if it comes down to that.
That's why he's not happy or relieved (at least not visibly) to hear this, as much as being Gon's most important person is what he wants--to hear this at this point is a tremendously scary thing. He just broke down sobbing on the ground because he feels so helpless to do anything for Gon. This is what he needed to hear, and it's true as well, but it puts him a position of great responsibility towards someone he loves more than anything. He was previously directly told by someone he respects that he'll eventually leave Gon to die, which just adds extra fuel to the situation.
I do think both of your other ideas are things that contribute to Killua's state to a degree, but they're not the primary driving force of his reaction in this scene specifically. The situation with Palm and Gon did certainly destabilize his sense of his role in Gon's life (because he desperately wants to be Gon's most important person and, it's heavily hinted, his romantic partner) and that's why he's so fixated on whether Gon wants him at his side as his friend or his teammate. Hearing this from Palm is deeply meaningful for Killua--he even thanks her for it later (he doesn't specify what it's for, but it's obvious)--but again the timing is what makes it difficult for Killua to hear.
On your third point, I do think Killua also realizes as a result of what happens in Chimera Ant Arc that the dynamic between him and Gon can't continue as it has, hence the separation, but in this scene the situation is too urgent for him to be thinking deeply about future situations beyond the life-or-death one he and Gon are currently in. The pressure on him is absolutely a factor, though.
I hope that helps clarify this important scene for you!
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I found your blog recently and I can't stop reading it! it's amazing really :) also sorry if i have any mistake, english is not my first language.
I wanted to ask something: Were Alexander's generals jealous of Hephaestion because of his relationship with Alexander? I imagine that in some way they did feel something like that, but is there any conclusive evidence that says how they feel about it?
Macedonian officers were a bunch of sharks, with Alexander as the Great White
My header is the tl;dr version.
We know at least Krateros was jealous of Hephaistion; the sources tell us as much. Alexander even invented a cute little way of dealing with it, calling Hephaistion Philalexandros (Alexander loving or friend-of-Alexander) while Krateros was Philobasileus (king loving or friend-of-the-king). Hephaistion also appears to have tangled with Eumenes, although Eumenes tangled with a lot of people, from what I can tell. And, at least earlier in the campaign, Hephaistion and Krateros might have been, if not friends, at least friendly. But once Hephaistion rose in importance, he was in Krateros’s way.
Basically, all the fellows in Alexander’s orbit were in competition for Alexander’s affection, just as they’d later be in competition for Alexander’s empire after he died (the Era of the Successors or Diadochi).
Remember, in the ancient (pre-Christian) world, humility was not a virtue, and a GOOD person helped his friends and hurt his enemies. None of this “turn the other cheek” business, or “When they go low, we go high.” When they went low, you were expected to cut their throat as they bent.
That said, Curtius (Rufus) at least paints a picture of Hephaistion as someone careful in how he exercised his influence. In Curtius’s introduction of him in his history, he says Hephaistion had more freedom to upbraid the king than anybody else, but exercised it as if given by Alexander, not taken by himself. Elsewhere, Curtius calls him charming. In contrast, Plutarch (or at least Plutarch’s sources) paint a less flattering picture. I think which view modern historians accept depends on which primary source we trust more (or read first). 😉
Only in Plutarch do we find the episode of him pulling swords with Krateros. Curtius doesn’t mention it, nor does Diodoros or Arrian (Justin is too brief). But Diodoros does give the Philalexandros/Philobasileus line (when he recounts H.’s death). Diodoros also records a probably spurious letter Hephaistion supposedly wrote to Olympias, telling her to stop quarreling with him in her correspondence with Alexander. This is not a real letter and may owe to another incident where Alexander was reading a letter from her while sitting next to Hephaistion—who apparently leaned in to read with him. Alexander didn’t stop him but put his seal ring on his lips. I suspect Hephaistion regularly read his mail, but this time people happened to be watching.
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Most of the quarrels related about Hephaistion appear to occur later—once his importance at the court had risen. And whatever you read in other historians (Green, Heckel, Anson, Cartledge, Worthington), he doesn’t appear to have been any more quarrelsome than anybody else—and maybe less, if Curtius can be trusted.
But basically, yes, sure, the person loved best by Alexander would be the natural target of others’ envy.
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aimoplaysbg3 · 9 months
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Took a break from Irona, and continued Dagmar’s playthrough which uhhhh lasted approximately 17 hours so far?
Was typing this earlier while I was out, so this entry will be a little scattered, but MAN you know a game has its hooks on you when I ended up playing my girl for hours on end just to see what happens next; I’ve already seen so many new scenes that give existing sequences in EA a lot more flavour. Take Wyll’s entrance during the Emerald Grove gate battle:
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The fight actually pauses midway and cuts into this swashbuckling mf making his grand entrance oozing so much charm not unlike The Princess Bride’s Cary Elwes XD
Speaking of Wyll, he changed voice actors between EA and the current release version. Personally it didn’t take long at all for me to get used to Theo Solomon…he fits in very well in the role, so the transition didn’t feel jarring to me.
Also, I really like subclassing Wyll into Pact of the Blade, it makes him really versatile to switch between Melee (Hello, proficiency in rare enchanted Giant Axe!) and Ranged (EEEEEELDRITCH BLAST, PEW PEW) depending on my needs on the battlefield.
Back to my homegirl; I am enjoying how Light Armor are designed. Dagmar started with basic Ranger leather armor:
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Then I upgraded her drip to Padded Armor +1. Wasn't too keen on the default turquoise, so one Muddy Red dye later it looks more slick and regal imo:
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(I love that there's a Goblin Slayer-esque option while trying to cheer up the Tiefling kids at the grove.)
But I ended up fitting her into The Oak Father's Embrace (Dwarves have medium armor proficiency, woo! And also dyed in which shade I can't remember) so she can get that Radiant damage bonus against undead and beasts:
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(She just had Astarion poison the drink at the Goblin Camp, hence her self-satisfied smirk here.)
I'm thinking that if I want to update this journal regularly, I will do so as non-linear as possible because on certain days I'd like to write about whatever impressions strike my fancy as I play. So just a head's up that entries will be in non-chronological order; I will tag them according to Acts instead, which you can access from the sidebar. I hope this works for you as the reader!
Now I'm off to continue this playthrough :D
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the weird creel timelines- an initial post (if you’re wondering what all the timeline talk is about lately, read this)
Alright, so, I started this post a few weeks ago but didn’t finish it until now, and it was originally a reblog on this post from @bylerschmyler​ and basically this is where all the timeline stuff with the Creels that I’ve been talking about lately originated from (and what @henrysglock​ and I have been ranting about.)
This is not the full Creel timeline analysis, just the initial post, and because it’s fairly old at this point, there’s more I’ve come up with that adds to it. I’m currently working on putting together the full timeline analysis. But, for now, let’s get into that intial post: 
So, part of this depends on whether or not you believe in the 8flix scripts (personally I think they’re completely real and that there’s firm evidence to back this up), but I still have the scripts in my email, so I went and took a look at the “Dear Billy,” script. And I found some weird things. And then I went and looked at the newspaper articles again- and I found even more weird things.
First of all, it’s weird that the Creels are said to be moving into the house in March of 1959- the exact same year and month that the Creel murders are said to have occurred in the show/in the newspaper, which makes it seem like they only lived there for a month. 
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Second of all, in the script, Alice and Virginia are briefly swapped. We'll come back to this later. Victor puts his arm around “Alice,” rather than Virginia. 
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As well, as mentioned earlier, the murders are listed as occurring on March 25th 1959, but as I mentioned in this post, that’s extremely different than what the Indianapolis Gazette says. 
March 25th 1959 was a Wednesday. Meanwhile, in the Indianapolis Gazette, the Creel murders are said to have happened on Saturday, March 21st and the bodies were discovered on Sunday, March 22nd when Victor was found wandering along the side of the road and escorted back home by Hawkins Police officers.
So, the dates listed here are directly contradictory to some of the newspaper articles in the show, something I'm going to really dive into here in a bit.
I talked in another post about the fact that it’s extremely likely that the lab altered Victor’s memories- and now Victor’s “one month of peace,” comment is looking even more suspicious because according to the script, the Creels moved into the house in March of 1959, but then the murders, according to the script, occurred on March 25th 1959, and Victor was in prison in early April of 1959.
I think that Victor, as of 1986, might legitimately believe that they only lived there for a month. This would track with the lab having messed with his memories, and it would explain why SO many details that are in the newspapers (such as Victor calling an exorcist) are absent from his retelling. However, like I’m going to dig into, I also think that there’s timeline weirdness at play here, and I think that “timeline weirdness” and “Victor’s memories have been messed with can coexist, especially since (and this is going to make no sense rn but will later in this analysis), it Might imply that the “Dear Billy” script timeline and the Weekly Watcher timeline are the same timeline, but the Dear Billy timeline is warped by Victor’s messy memories. However, this is something I’m still not certain of, so take it with a grain of salt. 
And regarding the newspapers vs the scripts, I know there’s been lots of talk of Henry’s age and Alice’s age, but what about Victor’s age?
The “Dear Billy,” script puts his age being 40 in 1959 and 67 in 1986. 
Now, look at this newspaper clipping from the Indianapolis Gazette:
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Victor is listed as being 35 years old as of 1959.
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“The bodies of 3 persons have been found inside the home of a 35-year-old Town of Hawkins Roane County family man.”
This same paper also talks about Victor serving two tours in WW2.
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“A veteran from the second world war, Victor Creel served two tours of duty in Europe and returned home a hero.”
It’s also the same paper that talks about the Creels living in Hawkins for two years.
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"Here is the house in which the Creels lived for the last two years where-"
It’s ALSO  the SAME paper that mentions “Edward Creel,” and names Alice as Victor’s wife and Virginia as his daughter.
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“-authorities found the remains of Alice, Edward, and Virginia Creel- Victor Creel’s wife, son, and daughter.”
Virginia is also listed as one of the children earlier in the article, and there’s no Henry in this article, only Edward.
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"The mangled and eyeless bodies of the two young children- Virginia and Edward- laid deflated and bent on the floor of the foyer."
And this is ALSO the same paper that claims that Alice, Henry (named as Edward in this article, the name ‘Henry,’ does not appear in this article at ALL), AND Virginia were all found dead in the foyer- Virginia wasn’t at the table, according to this article.
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"Law enforcement officers searching Sunday Morning for signs of foul play found the bodies of Virginia Creel, Edward Creel, and Alice Creel strewn about the foyers of the house, six miles from downtown Hawkins."
However,  possibly contrary to the above, the same article lists only Henry/Edward and Virginia (who is listed as Victor's daughter) as being in the foyer, and makes no mention of where "Mrs Creel's" body was found, and instead, just talks about her body being butchered like a deer.
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“The eyeless, mutilated dead body of Ms Creel “butchered like you would clean a deer,” (???) to one law enforcement (???)”
So, let’s regroup- how many possible timelines do we have based on the show, the scripts, and the newspapers?  First, let's look at some key information/our sources.
Looking At Individual Sources
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The Indianapolis Gazette
According to the Indiapolis Gazette:
Victor was 35 in 1959. This would make him born in 1921.
The murders occured Saturday night on March 21st 1959
The Creels lived in Hawkins for two years/moved to Hawkins two years prior to 1959, putting their move-in date as 1957.
There is nobody named "Henry Creel" in this article. Only "Edward Creel."
No ages are listed for Alice, Henry/Edward, or Virginia.
Alice is listed as Victor's wife repeatedly, and Virginia is listed as his daughter repeatedly. Edward is listed as Victor's son. Henry does not exist.
Victor did two tours in Europe during the war and was a war hero. I'm not 100% sure how long a tour is, but doing a quick bit of research, a tour in WW2 seems to have been 365 days/a year, meaning that Victor was at war for 2 years. There is no return from war date listed for Victor, nor is it listed when he was at war, simply that he was at war for two years.
This newspaper is listed as being published on Thursday, March 26th, 1959.
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The Weekly Watcher
According to the Weekly Watcher:
Victor is listed as being 40 in 1959. This would make him born in 1919.
The Weekly Watcher makes no clear note of what date the murders happened on.
The Weekly Watcher makes no clear note of how long the Creels lived in Hawkins, and also does not make any clear note of when they moved to Hawkins. However, there's details such as the groundsperson and the gardener working at the Creel house that seem to indicate that they lived there for a fair while.
Henry is present in this article. There is no "Edward Creel" in this article.
Alice is listed as being 15 in 1959, Henry is listed as being 12 in 1959, and Virginia is listed as being 36 in 1959.
Virginia is listed as Victor's wife, and Henry and Alice are listed as Victor's two children.
There is no mention of how long Victor was in the war, nor is it mentioned when he was in the war nor is a return from war date mentioned for Victor.
This newspaper is listed as being published on March 26th, 1959.
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8flix Dear Billy Script
According to the Dear Billy script:
Victor is listed as being 40 in 1959 and 67 in 1986. This would make him born in 1919.
The murders occured on March 25th, 1959.
The Creels lived in Hawkins for under a month and moved into the house in March of 1959. Although there's an exact day for the murders, the exact day for the move-in is suspiciously absent.
Henry is present in the script. There is no "Edward Creel," in this script.
Alice is listed as being 15 in 1959, Henry is listed as being 12 in 1959, and Virginia is listed as being 36 in 1959.
Virginia is listed as Victor's wife and Henry and Alice are listed as Victor's two children. However, this is later contradicted when Alice is swapped for Virginia during scenes/lines during the moving in segment, but they are not swapped for the entire script.
Victor was in France in 1944 but had also been back from the war for 14 years as of 1959. This would put him as returning from the war in 1945. However, it does not mention how long Victor was at war.
This is a script and doesn't have a publication date like the newspapers do.
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Comparing Sources 
So, what information can we pull from all this? Let's compare all of our sources and see 
 A.) what information do they have in common?
B.) what information is different?
C.) what information is missing entirely?
Let's start with A.)
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A.) What Do All of These Sources Have in Common?
Weekly Watcher and Indianapolis Gazette Similarities
 The Weekly Watcher does not mention a return from war date for Victor. The Indianapolis Gazette also does not mention a return from war date for Victor.
Weekly Watcher and Dear Billy Script Similarities
The Weekly Watcher lists Victor as 40 years old in 1959. The Dear Billy script lists Victor as 40 years old in 1959. Both of these would make Victor born in 1919.
The Weekly Watcher does not mention Edward Creel and does mention Henry Creel. The Dear Billy script does not mention Edward Creel and does mention Henry Creel.
The Weekly Watcher lists Alice is as being 15 in 1959, Henry is listed as being 12 in 1959, and Virginia is listed as being 36 in 1959. The Dear Billy script lists Alice as being 15 in 1959, Henry is listed as being 12 in 1959, and Virginia is listed as being 36 in 1959.
The Weekly Watcher lists Virginia as Victor's wife, and Henry and Alice are listed as Victor's two children. The Dear Billy script lists Virginia as Victor's wife and Henry and Alice are listed as Victor's two children. HOWEVER, this is ALSO a difference because the Dear Billy script ALSO briefly swaps Alice and Virginia. 
The Weekly Watcher does not list how long Victor was at war for. The Dear Billy script also does not list how long Victor was at war for.
Indianapolis Gazette and Dear Billy Script Similarities
 The Indianapolis Gazette lists Alice as Victor's wife and Virginia as Victor's daughter, swapping them. The Dear Billy script also briefly swaps them, although it ALSO lists them properly/Alice as the daughter and Virginia as the wife.
Similarities Between All Three Sources
Based on the list of criteria I've been using throughout, there are no similarities that are the same between all three sources except for the murders happening in 1959, which is a given and isn't part of the criteria.
B.) What Is Different Between All These Sources? 
Weekly Watcher and Indianapolis Gazette Differences 
The Weekly Watcher lists Victor as 40 years old in 1959, whereas the Indianapolis Gazette lists Victor as 35 years old in 1959. 
The Weekly Watcher mentions Henry Creel, whereas the Indianapolis Gazette mentions Edward Creel 
The Weekly Watcher lists Henry as 12 in 1959, Alice’s age as 15 in 1959. and Virginia’s age as 36 in 1959. The Indianapolis Gazette does not list the ages of Edward, Alice or Virginia. 
In the Weekly Watcher, the date of the Creel murders is not listed, at least not from what’s visible in this article. In the Indianapolis Gazette,  the date of the Creel murders is Saturday, March 21st, 1959.
 In the Weekly Watcher, the length of time that the Creels lived in Hawkins is not listed from what we can see in this article, however, information regarding the exorcism and the groundskeeper and gardener seems to imply that the Creels lived in Hawkins for at least some sizeable length of time. In the Indianapolis Gazette, the Creels lived in Hawkins for two years prior to 1959.
In the Weekly Watcher, the Creels’ move-in date is not listed, at least not from what’s visible in this article.  IIn the Indianapolis Gazette, no move-in month or day is listed, but they moved to Hawkins in 1957. 
In the Weekly Watcher, Alice is Victor’s daughter and Virginia is Victor’s wife. In the Indianapolis Gazette, Alice is Victor’s wife, and Virginia is Victor’s daughter. 
In the Weekly Watcher, the length of time that Victor was at war is not mentioned. In the Indianapolis Gzette, Victor was at war for two tours, seemingly two years.
Weekly Watcher and Dear Billy Script Differences 
The Weekly Watcher does not list the date of the Creel murders, whereas the Dear Billy script lists their date as March 25th, 1959. 
The Weekly Watcher does not list the Creel’s move-in date, at least not from what’s visible in this article. In the Dear Billy script, the Creels moved to Hawkins in March of 1959. The exact day is not listed. 
In the Weekly Watcher, the length of time that the Creels lived in Hawkins is not listed from what we can see in this article, however, information regarding the exorcism and the groundskeeper and gardener seems to imply that the Creels lived in Hawkins for at least some sizeable length of time. In the Dear Billy script, the Creels lived in Hawkins for under a month, moving to Hawkins in March of 1959 and the murders also occurring in March of 1959. 
In the Weekly Watcher, it is unknown when Victor went to war. In the Dear Billy script,  Victor was at war during 1944.
In the Weekly Watcher, it is unknown when Victor returned from war. In the Dear Billy script,  Victor seems to have returned from war in 1945, as in the script in 1959, he mentions being home from the war for 14 years.
Indianapolis Gazette and Dear Billy Script Differences 
The Indianapolis Gazette lists Victor as 35 years old in 1959, wheraas the Dear Billy script has him as 40 years old in 1959. 
The Indianapolis Gazette mentions Edward Creel, whereas the Dear Billy script mentions Henry Creel. 
The Indianapolis Gazette does not list the ages of Edward, Alice or Virginia. The Dear Billy script presents that Henry is 12 as of 1959, Alice is 15 as of 1959, and Virginia is 36 as of 1959.
The Indianapolis Gazette says that the Creels moved to Hawkins in 1957, whereas the Dear Billy script has them moving to Hawkins in March of 1959.
The Indianapolis Gazette says that the Creels lived in Hawkins for two years. The Dear Billy script says that the Creels lived in Hawkins for under a month, moving to Hawkins in March of 1959 and the murders also occurring in March of 1959.    
In the Indianapolis Gazette, Alice is Victor’s wife, and Virginia is his daughter. In the Dear Billy script, Alice is Victor’s daughter, and Virginia is his wife, HOWEVER, they DO swap places briefly in the Dear Billy script. 
In the Indianapolis Gazette, Victor was at war for two turns. The Dear Billy script does not list how long Victor was at war for. 
The Indianapolis Gazette does not say when Victor was at war. The Dear Billy script says that he was at Normandy in 1944 
The Indianapolis Gazette does not say when Victor returned home from war. The Dear Billy script says that Victor seems to have returned from war in 1945, as in the script in 1959, he mentions being home from the war for 14 years.
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C.) What Information is Missing?
What's Missing from the Weekly Watcher?
The date of the murders
The date that the Creels moved to Hawkins and exactly how long they liived in Hawkins. 
How long Victor was in the war
When Victor was in the war 
When Victor returned from war
 What's Missing from the Indianapolis Gazette? 
Alice’s age, Virginia’s age, and Henry/Edward’s age 
When Victor was in the war.
When Victor returned from war. 
 What's Missing from the Dear Billy Script?
The exact day that the Creel family moved to Hawkins.
How long Victor was at war.
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Summarizing The Similarities and Differences And Doing A Category-By-Category Comparison 
To summarize the similarties and differences between the sources and the missing info, let’s go category-by-category rather than source-by-source to make it clearer: 
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Category 1: Victor’s Age and Birth Year
Indianapolis Gazette: As of 1959, Victor’s age is 35, making his birth year 1924.
Weekly Watcher: As of 1959, Victor’s Age is 40,  making his birth year 1919.
Dear Billy Script: As of 1959, Victor’s age is 40, making his birth year 1919. 
TLDR: Victor’s age is the same between the Weekly Watcher and Dear Billy but confirmed to be different in the Gazette. 
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Category 2: Date of the Creel Murders
Indianapolis Gazette: The date of the Creel murders is Saturday, March 21st, 1959. 
Weekly Watcher: The date of the Creel murders is not listed, at least not from what’s visible in this article. 
Dear Billy Script: The date of the Creel Murders is Wednesday, March 25th, 1959. 
This isn’t technically the same between all of them, but it’s also not different between all of them because the Weekly Watcher is simply unknown, not confirmed as a separate third date. 
TLDR: The date of the Creel Murders is different between the Indianapolis Gazette and Dear Billy script, and unconfirmed in the Weekly Watcher. 
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Category 3: Creel Move-In Date
Indianapolis Gazette: The Creels moved to Hawkins in 1957, day and month unknown. 
Weekly Watcher: The Creels’ move-in date is not listed, at least not from what’s visible in this article. 
Dear Billy Script: The Creels moved to Hawkins in March of 1959. The exact day is not listed. 
Just like the murder date, this isn’t the same between all of them, but it’s also not technically completely different between all of them because the Weekly Watcher’s date is simply unknown, not confirmed as a separate third date.  None of the sources give an exact move-in day, and only Dear Billy gives a move-in month. 
TLDR: The Creels’ move-in date is different between the Indianapolis Gazette and the Dear Billy script, and unconfirmed in the Weekly Watcher.
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Category 4: How Long the Creels Lived in Hawkins
Indianapolis Gazette: The Creels lived in Hawkins for two years prior to 1959. 
Weekly Watcher: The length of time that the Creels lived in Hawkins is not listed from what we can see in this article, however, information regarding the exorcism and the groundskeeper and gardener seems to imply that the Creels lived in Hawkins for at least some sizeable length of time. 
Dear Billy Script: The Creels lived in Hawkins for under a month, moving to Hawkins in March of 1959 and the murders also occurring in March of 1959. 
Just like the murder date and move-in date, this isn’t the same between all of them, but it’s also not technically completely different between all of them because the Weekly Watcher’s length of time is simply unknown, not confirmed as a separate third option.
 TLDR: The length of time that the Creels lived in Hawkins is different between the Indianapolis Gazette and Dear Billy script, but unconfirmed in the Weekly Watcher.
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Category 5: Is Henry or Edward present
Indianapolis Gazette: Edward is mentioned. Henry is not mentioned. 
Weekly Watcher: Henry is mentioned. Edward is not mentioned. 
 Dear Billy Script: Henry is mentioned. Edward is not mentioned. 
TLDR: The presence of Henry is the same between the Weekly Watcher and the Dear Billy script. but confirmed to be different in the Indianapolis Gazette 
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Category 6: Edward/Henry’s age and Virginia and Alice’s ages
Indianapolis Gazette: Henry’s age is not listed. Virginia’s age is not listed. Alice’s age is not listed. 
Weekly Watcher: Henry is 12 as of 1959. Alice is 15 as of 1959. Virginia is 36 as of 1959. 
Dear Billy Script: Henry is 12 as of 1959. Alice is 15 as of 1959. Virginia is 36 as of 1959. 
  This is the same between the Weekly Watcher and Dear Billy. However, because we don’t know the Weekly Watcher version of the Creels’ move-in date, specifically because we don’t know the year, we don’t know if the move-in date ages are different in the Weekly Watcher vs the Dear Billy script, as the Dear Billy script has Henry moving to Hawkins in 1959 and being 12 at the time, whereas the Indianapolis Gazette has the Creels and Edward moving to Hawkins in 1957 but lists no ages.  So, the ages as of 1959 are the same in the Weekly Watcher and Dear Billy, but the ages may not be the same for the move-in date. 
TLDR: The ages of Henry, Virginia, and Alice are the same between the Weekly Watcher and Dear BIlly but unconfirmed in the Indianapolis Gazette. Edward’s age is never mentioned. Mom-Alice’s age is never mentioned. Sister-Virginia’s age is never mentioned. 
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Category 7:  Who is Listed as Victor’s Wife vs Victor’s Daughter
Indianapolis Gazette: Alice is Victor’s wife and Virginia is Victor’s daughter.  
Weekly Watcher: Alice is Victor’s daughter and Virginia is Victor’s wife. 
Dear Billy Script: Alice is Victor’s daughter and Virginia is Victor’s wife. 
TLDR: Victor’s wife and daughter are same between the Weekly Watcher and the Dear Billy script and confirmed to be different in the Indianapolis Gazette. HOWEVER, as mentioned earlier, the Dear Billy script also briefly swaps Virginia and Alice. 
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Category 8: How Long Was Victor At War?
Indianapolis Gazette: Victor was at war for two tours, seemingly two years.
 Weekly Watcher: The length of time that Victor was at war is not mentioned
Dear Billy Script: The length of time that Victor was at war is not mentioned.
TLDR: This is unconfirmed in the Weekly Watcher and the Dear Billy script.
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Category 9: When Was Victor At War? 
Indianapolis Gazette: A date for Victor being at war is not outright confirmed AND Victor’s “I had been back from the war for 14 years” line is not present here (because it’s a newspaper), so, IF we apply that line here, he would’ve been at war in 1943 because in the Gazette timeline, the Creels moved to Hawkins in 1957, and 14 years prior to that would be 1943. However, because that line is not present in this source, we don’t know for sure if Victor had been home from the war for 14 years when moving to Hawkins in this timeline. 
Weekly Watcher: There is no listed date for when Victor was at war. 
Dear Billy Script: Victor was at war during 1944. 
This is the same between the Indianapolis Gazette and the Weekly Watcher in the sense that neither has a confirmed date for when Victor was in the war, but the Gazette offers more insight than the Watcher does IF we apply info from other sources (Victor’s “14 years” line), because the Gazette gives us a move-in date whereas the Weekly Watcher does not. 
However, both the Gazette and the Watcher technically don’t have confirmed dates for when Victor was in the war. 
TLDR: When Victor was at war is unconfirmed in the Indianapolis Gazette and the Weekly Watcher and is confirmed in the Dear Billy script. 
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Category 10: When Did Victor Return From War? 
Indianapolis Gazette: When Victor returned from the war is much like “when was Victor at war” when it comes to this source, because  a date for Victor returning from war is not outright confirmed in the Gazette AND Victor’s “I had been back from the war for 14 years” line is not present here (because it’s a newspaper), so, IF we apply that line here, he would’ve returned from war in 1943 because in the Gazette timeline, the Creels moved to Hawkins in 1957, and 14 years prior to that would be 1943. However, because that line is not present in this source, we don’t know for sure if Victor had been home from the war for 14 years when moving to Hawkins in this timeline.
Weekly Watcher: There is no date for when Victor returned from the war. 
Dear Billy Script: Victor seems to have returned from war in 1945, as in the script in 1959, he mentions being home from the war for 14 years. 
This is the same between the Indianapolis Gazette and the Weekly Watcher in the sense that neither has a confirmed date for when Victor returned from the war war, but the Gazette offers more insight than the Watcher does IF we apply info from other sources (Victor’s “14 years” line), because the Gazette gives us a move-in date whereas the Weekly Watcher does not.
However, both the Gazette and the Watcher technically don’t have confirmed dates for when Victor returned from the war.
TLDR: When Victor returned from the war is unconfirmed in the Indianapolis Gazette and the Weekly Watcher but is confirmed in the Dear Billy script. 
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List of Current Possible Timelines
So, finally, here's a list of the initial possible timelines, based on what we know for certain from each source (again this is going to change and expand when I finish the main timeline analysis):
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1.) The Dear Billy Script Timeline
Victor was 40 in 1959 and 40 when they moved to Hawkins. 
The Creels lived in Hawkins for a month and moved there in March of 1959.
The murders occurred on Wednesday March 25th, 1959.
Alice was 15 in 1959 and 15 when they moved to Hawkins.
Henry was 12 in 1959 and 12 when they moved to Hawkins.
Virginia was 36 in 1959 and 36 when they moved to Hawkins. 
There is no mention of Edward.
Victor got home from the war in 1945.
Victor was in Normandy/at war in 1944. 
We don’t know how long Victor was at war/how long he served. 
Victor messed up in France/Normandy and made the mistake of bombing civillians. 
Virginia is Victor’s wife and Alice is Victor’s daughter, although this briefly swaps for one scene in the script.
Alice, being 15 in 1959,  was born in 1944, a year before Victor even got home from the war. However, if Victor went to war in 1943, then Alice could’ve been conceived before he left, depending on when Victor went to war and what exact day Alice’s birthday was. However, in this source, we don’t know when Victor went to war. 
Henry, being 12 in 1959, was born in 1947, two years after Victor got home from the war. 
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2.) The Indianapolis Gazette Timeline
Victor was 35 in 1959
The Creels lived in Hawkins for two years and moved there in 1957.
The murders occurred on on Saturday, March 21st 1959.
We don’t know how old Alice was in 1959, nor how old she was when they moved to Hawkins because even though we know when they moved to Hawkins, we don’t know how old Alice was in 1959 in this source. 
We don’t know how old Virginia was in 1959, nor how old she was when they moved to Hawkins because even though we know when they moved to Hawkins, we don’t know how old Virginia was in 1959 in this source.
We don’t know how old Henry/Edward was in 1959, nor how old he was when they moved to Hawkins because even though we know when they moved to Hawkins, we don’t know how old Henry/Edward was in 1959 in this source.
Henry is not mentioned at ALL in this source.
We don’t know when Victor got home from the war. 
We don’t know when Victor was at war/if he was in Normandy. 
Victor was at war for “two tours”/served two tours. 
Victor, interestingly enough, is listed as returning home as a war hero in the Gazette, which almost seems like it may contradict his massive blunder (the farmhouse and burning baby) that’s in the Dear Billy script. 
Virginia is Victor’s daughter and Alice is Victor’s wife
Because we don’t know when Edward and Daughter-Virginia/”Alice” were born, AND because we don’t know when Victor was at war or when he returned home, we can’t compare their birth years to when Victor was at war. 
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3.) Weekly Watcher Timeline 
Victor was 40 in 1959. We don’t know how old he was when they moved to Hawkins because we don’t know when they moved to Hawkins/how long they lived there. 
We don’t know how long the Creels lived in Hawkins, nor do we know when they moved to Hawkins. 
Alice was 15 in 1959, but we don’t know how old she was when they moved to Hawkins because we don’t know when they moved to Hawkins/how long they lived there. 
Henry was 12 in 1959,  but we don’t know how old he was when they moved to Hawkins because we don’t know when they moved to Hawkins/how long they lived there.
Virginia was 36 in 1959, but we don’t know how old she was when they moved to Hawkins because we don’t know when they moved to Hawkins/how long they lived there.
Edward is not mentioned at all. 
We don’t know when Victor got home from the war. 
We don’t know when Victor was at war/if he was in Normandy.
We don’t know when Victor returned from war. 
Victor is not listed as a war hero, but his blunder in Normandy with the farmhouse/burning baby is also not mentioned. In fact, from what we can see of this article, Victor’s time in the war is simply not mentioned at all (granted there are two intro paragraphs that are too blurry to read).
Virginia is Victor’s wife and Alice is Victor’s daughter. 
We know that Alice would’ve been born in 1944 in this timeline (as she was 15 in 1959) and that Henry would’ve been born in 1947 (as he was 12 in 1959), but we can’t compare that to when Victor was at war because we don’t know when Victor was at war, how long he was at war, OR when he returned home. 
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Normandy
This is where it ties into what bylerschmyler said in the post I linked in the very beginning, because if Victor came home from the war in 1943, how the hell was he in Normandy? 
Like, Victor returning from the war in 1943 is reasonable enough on its own, as WW2 started in 1939, and so even when considering that Victor served “two tours,”/possibly two years in the war in the Indianapolis Gazette timeline, he could easily have returned home in 1943 if he went off to war in 1941.  But that doesn’t solve the Normandy problem, because a.) in the Dear Billy script, Victor’s time in Normandy is listed as 1944 and b.) that sort of conflict, as far as I can tell, wasn’t happening in Normandy with the USA in 1943.  But what if we take the idea of “Victor being at war in 1943,” and combine that with the fact that the Weekly Watcher makes no mention of Victor as a war hero, but also doesn’t mention his mistake in Normandy?  Almost like Victor wasn’t in Normandy at all, which solves the problem of Normandy and 1943.  However, it’s also worth keeping in mind that Victor’s time in the war, as far as I can tell, doesn’t seem to be mentioned in the Weekly Watcher at ALL.  So, what if there’s one timeline where Victor returned home disgraced (Dear Billy script), one where he was a war hero (Indianapolis Gazette), and one where he was never at war (Weekly Watcher)?  This would also track with the fact that the Indianapolis Gazette timeline doesn’t tell us when Victor was at war (just that he served two tours at some point)- meaning that he may not have been in Normandy in 1944, at all, meaning that his mistake with the farmhouse may not have happened, allowing him to return home a hero.  Which, that’s interesting to me, because Victor’s war trauma/mistake is implied to be something that Henry seemed rather upset about (assuming that Henry was even the one showing Victor the vision during the cradle scene, and assuming that the thing that made Victor Not a “good, normal person,” was his war mistake), so I wonder if it’s the sort of thing he’d try to erase by turning back time? By either making his father a hero or not making him go to war at all? 
The Massacre at Hawkins Lab Script
Also, all of this gets even WEIRDER when we look at the “Massacre at Hawkins Lab,” script, which is NOT from 8flix and was released by ST production. It gets even weirder because there’s not a single date to be found when it comes to the Creel murders. At all. None.
There’s no move-in date.
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There’s no date for the murders.
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Nothing.
What the hell is going on here? IMO, this has Hawkins Lab and memory fuckery written all over it AND timeline fuckery most of all, especially since we still don’t know what Young Henry was doing with that clock. 
And speaking of that clock scene- remember how I mentioned earlier that Alice and Virginia got swapped during part of the move-in scene in the Dear Billy script (and are also swapped in the Indianapolis Gazette article)? Well, they're not the only ones who got swapped in the script:
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"Young Victor" walks over to the grandfather clock in the script, despite the fact that we see Young Henry walk over to it in the show. If it was just this error,  I would dismiss it as an unintentional typo, but considering how Alice and Virginia swap places not only in the script, but also in the Indianapolis Gazette article, and how Henry isn't even present in that article, I'm not so sure about dismissing it as a simple error anymore.
 Especially considering the theme of swapping places in ST with "Running Up That Hill," and also the fact that the scene of Henry staring at the clock has a really interesting shot setup. It's interesting because we never see through Nancy's eyes in this scene. They've put Nancy into this scene to give us an extra POV, and yet, we don't see through her eyes at all in this part. Was she even seeing Henry? Or was she seeing somebody else? Victor, perhaps?
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I don’t think it was particularly likely that she was actually seeing Victor, but it’s definitely suspicious to me that they’ve kept Nancy’s POV from us during the same scene where, in the script, Victor and Henry are swapped. We see Nancy herself in this scene, but we don’t see through her eyes. We do see through Young Henry’s eyes in this scene, but interestingly enough, we don’t see Nancy at all when we see through Young Henry’s eyes (which would make sense because she’s a ghost in these flashbacks, but also presents the idea of whether or not we’re seeing a different scene entirely when we look through Young Henry’s eyes.)  Like, look at the shot where the clock starts spinning- that’s technically not through Nancy’s eyes. That’s through Henry’s eyes. We don’t ever see the clock spinning in the same shot as Nancy. 
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We don’t know if Nancy saw the clock spinning- so I’m not saying that Victor has powers and was spinning the clock, I’m saying that I wonder if the audience got to see the scene of Henry spinning the clock backwards, whereas Nancy was seeing something totally different (perhaps, Victor, wondering why the hell is his clock’s been turned backwards). Victor, who may have been angered that the “demon,” in his house was continuing to mess with his family by messing with the clock.
Admittedly, this last bit is more speculation than anything, but at the very least, the “Henry and Victor swapping places in the Massacre at Hawkins Lab script,” part of it is interesting considering that Alice and Virginia swapped places in the Dear Billy script, AND that Alice and Virginia swapped roles/places in the Indianapolis Gazette article.  And even though we have that Henry 1979 voiceover, it’s worth keeping in mind that the voiceover actually reinforces the idea that Nancy may be seeing something different- because the voiceover is happening in 1979 and Nancy isn’t hearing it, only the audience is, so it’s being used to manipulate the audience (likely manipulate them into believing that Nancy’s seeing what we’re seeing, despite the fact that the use of Nancy POV shots vs Nancy face shots contradicts that idea, like I talked about in this post and this post).  And there’s also the fact that there’s certain scenes and flashbacks that play during the Massacre at Hawkins Lab sequence that aren’t seeing by Nancy.  Scenes like this one (No Nancy visible And doesn’t seem to be through her eyes, And she was supposedly downstairs seeing Henry at the dinner table when this scene played):
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And scenes like this one, that are possibly flashbacks from Henry’s own mind/what would’ve been flashing through his mind in 1979 (this scene just shows up on screen when 1979 lab Henry is ranting about “they presented themselves as good, normal, people”:
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So, I wonder if some of the clock shots are the same, especially ones that are through Henry’s eyes- shots that Nancy didn’t see because they’re only being shown to the audience/possibly as part of Henry 1979 actual flashbacks that he would’ve been having in 1979 while monologuing.  And the Victor-Henry swap in the Massacre at Hawkins Lab script just generally haunts me because we also have a Alice-Virginia swap in the Indianapolis Gazette *and* in the Dear Billy script, and I’m wondering if Victor swapped with Henry, or if he swapped with Edward, and the script swap is a nod to Victor and Edward swapping places in their family dynamic like Alice and Virginia did in the Edward timeline. 
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how-very-salty · 3 months
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How do I make my characters have more depth or like a spark yk? How do I make them feel alive and like actual people. (Also I need general tips on writing please)
Hi…I'll try to give some advice, although I don't think I'm that skilled at it :3
Always read your writing out loud, especially dialog. With intonation, as if you were an actor.This will help you see the mistakes and correct them.
Characters shouldn't have only black and white sides. People are usually gray and often very contradictory. For example, the way I write Ronnie in one of the fics. Outer layer: On the outside, she seems very confident. Flirts a lot, knows how to keep a face. Inner layer: She is vulnerable and dependent on other people's opinions. She needs approval. Digging deeper: Veronica believes that she's actually a good person and that she's just underestimated. So she tries to live up to her self-image, but… And a little deeper: …but she fails, and this striving drains her. Her parents loved her, but expressed love only as a reward. She never received unconditional love, it always seemed to her that she had to work hard to get it. And this is where you get motivation that you can use later. Of course, you don't have to say it directly, but leave clues: the resentment of being underestimated, the feeling of butterflies in her stomach when JD taked her side without question or reproach. Motivation is important. It may not be shown, it may not be mentioned, but the most important thing is to know it when you write. That way, the character's actions will be smooth and believable.
Accidents happen, impulsive decisions are made. If you want a character to suddenly decide to do something out of character, why not? Just lead up to it. Add fatigue from routine, thoughts of "I'm tired of thinking things through," and so on. And then the reader will believe that this is not a god from the machine, and that the character has just gone over the edge.
You have to play "yes, but" with the characters. For example, there is Martha. Martha is kind and naive. She's naive. Yes, but naivety is a childish trait. With naivety often comes selfishness, not from evil, but from a black-and-white view of the world. Even if you look at the canon, Martha didn't really think about Veronica's feelings when she suggested going into her boyfriend's locker, or when she assumed he was a murderer. It didn't occur to her that if Veronica hadn't known it was really him, she would have been hurt by the situation. That she would have had to choose between an old friend and love. Or no longer about canon, but about fanon. Martha is kind - what dark side could there be? Simple, she is good, but her goodness can be suffocating. Veronica is sarcastic by nature, she has an innate adaptability, black humor and gray morals. And she can feel bad around Martha, not just because she compares herself to her, but because Martha, for all her goodness, may not accept all of Veronica's darker sides. And Veronica will have to work harder to hide her bad sides and earn Martha's friendship. Which brings us back to Veronica's inner conflict.
Well, probably the last thing on my mind is rereading and correcting it until it comes together in the right way. Sometimes you've already written a chapter, and you reread earlier chapters and see that there was a situation that could be the reason for the characters' actions now. Because you have the motivation in your head, all the events follow each other, even if you didn't think them through. They just fit into that character's vision. And rereading helps to connect and flesh that out, to make the story even more coherent.
I hope I've been helpful. Have a good day!
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readinginithilien · 7 months
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Of the history of Galadriel and her relationship with Celeborn
I love Galadriel and Celeborn and their relationship, and especially what little can be gleaned from Galadriels history. I recently read that Tolkien later in his life wanted to change Galadriels past and intended to have her sail to Middle-earth independently from the hosts of the Noldor. I don't like that at all. It deprives her of the wonderful character arc we get glimpses at in the Silmarillion and the Lord of the Rings.
In the age of the trees, Galadriel was proud and head-strong, independent, in manners like a man, intelligent, far-sighted and ambitious. After Alqualondë she is driven by her desire for revenge and to rule.
Then she enters Doriath. And instead of taking the chance to rule somewhere like all her cousins, she stays there quite a while. When she emerges again in the second age (allthough she left earlier, only that's when we learn from her next), she is changed. She is still proud, intelligent, far-sighted and head-strong (look at her behaviour in LotR), independent (she spent quite some time separated from her husband in the second age) and ambitious. However, she is not driven by a desire for revenge (don't talk to me about that series) or to rule anymore. She doesn't take any of the chances to rule in the chaotic beginnings of the second age, and when she becomes the Lady of Lothlorien, she doesn't rule, just lead. She doesn't take the title of a queen. In fact she tells us that the ring tempted her, that it would have made her a queen - but she resisted. She has overcome that desire. Similarly there is no sign of her still looking for revenge, just to defend her people and free middle-earth. She has become wiser, more powerful, and she has overcome the negative motivations while still maintaining the important traits of her personality. She has gone through quite the character development.
And all this has happened in Doriath, coinciding with her meeting Celeborn. That could be coincidental, but I like to believe that he helped quite a lot. He helped her realise that she didn't need to rule, that she could lead and help without that power, and that thirst for revenge was unhealthy. But he also supported her wisdom, search for power and independence (there is no sign their relationship suffered under the long spells of separation in the second age).
She found a husband who helped her do some character development, but who still supported her dreams, personality and strength. She found a husband and did not become a meek little housewife. She did not become co-dependent, or submissive, or even saw the need to stay with him all the time. He supported her and helped her get over the negative traits while getting stronger. And I think that is beautiful.
As an aside, this gives me a lot of hope for Tolkiens idea of what became of Eowyn after she marries Faramir.
As a second aside, we don't know what Celeborn was like before he met her, but LotR gave me the feeling that he could definitely still do some character development. Galadriel has to tell him to cool down with regards to dwarves when thousands of years have passed since they did his people (not unprovoked) wrong, and he probably ate dwarves in his past,the hypocrite. It makes me wonder what would have happened to him if he'd had a little more time with Galadriel and Gimli and maybe some more dwarves in the fourth age. Maybe he would have had some character development, too. Maybe it would have even been enough to close the chapter of middle earth and sail. Maybe that will still happen. Who knows
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Hey! I meant to send you an ask for the ask meme way earlier but the trailer dropped and i got completely derailed..
But here it is!
What is your favourite book genre and is there anything you would recommend? What is your favourite movie from your childhood? Do you have any unpopular IWTV opinions? Do you have any Season 2 theories you haven't seen anyone talk about? Do you have any Claudia headcanons specific to Paris? Do you think Claudia might be haunting Dubai? Are there any songs you think are very Claudia coded?
Here I am answering this ask 4-5 days later!
-What is your favourite book genre and is there anything you would recommend?
I tend to gravitate towards gothic horror and absurdist comedy (the two can often intertwine) For what I would recommend, it would depend on the person! Like, do you like something that involves romance? History? Leans more into the comedy aspect? Leans more into the horror aspect?
-What is your favourite movie from your childhood?
At 11 I got addicted to Titanic and became a huge Titanic nerd lol. It's funny because I actually thought it was a horror movie initially because I watched the second half first with a friend who just wanted to skip to the boat sinking (I had never watched a horror movie prior to this so watching the claustrophobic sinking room scenes and the multiple people dying in front of me traumatized me okay!!). I guess I'll go with Titanic since that's the one movie I still love today I'm not ashamed to admit :)
-Do you have any unpopular IWTV opinions?
Oh plenty. I've spoken about a lot of them but I guess I'll mention that the writers including what happened to Claudia in Episode 5 was not bad writing, but more just poorly set-up imo. I know a lot of people hated it when the episode came out, and threw accusations of exploitation and the writers adding it just for shock value, but I politely disagree with those takes even if I get where they're coming from.
(trigger warning for mentions of SA below)
Claudia in both the books and the show constantly suffers from a lack of autonomy. It is a huge aspect of her character. She is constantly touched and handled too freely, as if she were still a child, without her consent. Louis and Claudia's relationship gets very unhealthy as well, as a result of her creators designing an environment where she literally has no one else. Now that they have aged her up, this aspect is still present, but now the threats are different. Claudia in Season 1 is driven by freedom and romantic love, but has now reached a stage where any human she gets into a romantic relationship would either be a creepy relationship with teenage boys, or a creepy relationship with a pervert. So she then looks to finding love with other vampires. Then she finds out, like in the books, other vampires won't necessarily understand or respect her either. It's a depressing realization that makes her character even more tragic. I know people would have preferred her seeing her struggle on her own to the point of being driven home rather than having the assault take place, but because of Claudia's character development this season, and because the season was so tightly condensed, the plot they went with actually makes sense :( And in fact, Claudia was actually never driven home because of the assault. She was driven home when she realized what her purpose finally was, as she was feeling lost and like she didn't belong anywhere as a black teenage vampire for years ("I realized why they made me- to be Louis's sister). If she couldn't survive on her own, albeit with more struggles than other vampires would, she wouldn't have tried to leave in Episode 6 by herself with Louis's assurance she could get by alright.
The thing that also makes this non-exploitative and randomly placed to me is that they never show it, and explicitly emphasize that they will not be showing or revealing the details despite Daniel's pressing.
The thing I didn't like was how it was set up. Bruce, like Claudia, wants to find other vampires and form a gang, but when he has found Claudia, after a minute, without any warning, just instantly throws an etiquette book at her (?), gets angry, assaults her, then leaves? So was that just his goal his entire time? I get why people think it's a badly written plotline. It would have made much more sense if Bruce had been a creepy "Stanley from Silent Hill 3" type, who through stalking her across universities, leaves letters and weird gifts for her or something. Claudia would be initially intrigued, because, hello, other vampires exist after all! but soon becomes wigged out and starts ignoring his letters/mind messages to her. She would end up escaping him (or killing him), because he wouldn't leave her alone, and that experience might add to her desire to leave the country and face Lestat.
Do you have any Season 2 theories you haven't seen anyone talk about?
I actually don't see many people talking about Madeleine. I do have a theory that Madeleine parallels Claudia's human mother in a couple of ways. I have this headcanon that Claudia had a black father and a white mother (just going off on the fact that Bailey Bass is biracial, but you don't have to agree), and they were teenagers when they had her, so that's why her dad gave her to his family to take care of (I'm assuming Claudia's mother might have been disowned or ran off, or her family refused to raise her themselves). So Madeleine represents to Claudia her mother if she had lived, just like Madeleine sees Claudia as a daughter if she had lived. And because this is supposed to be a complicated relationship, as Claudia is the actual older one, probably still longing for romantic connection, and doesn't want to get stuck in another daughter role, the show might venture further than mother/daughter/friendship territory, because this is the AR universe so things will naturally get complicated. I totally get if others don't want them to go into that area though.
Do you have any Claudia headcanons specific to Paris?
I do feel like Paris is where Claudia has her own awakening, same as Louis. It's where she realizes she likes girls, as we see her in a vampire orgy scene with another woman. I also think Claudia is a bit of a stalker. She likes trailing Madeleine or other women, seeing the life she could have had if she had stayed human. She actually ironically shares that in common with Armand. I feel like Armand and Claudia will actually like each other at first, and see a lot of themselves in each other. But because Claudia can see trouble coming a million miles away, his act doesn't fool her for long like it does with Louis, so gradually tension starts to build. I feel like Armand in the show, unlike in the book, actually harbors some regret when it comes to killing Claudia.
Also Claudia sketching Madeleine when?
Another headcanon I have is that Claudia has to fight for scenes where she plays someone who isn't a child/doll (hence the red dress in that promotional poster/painting). She also wants to get involved in some of the playwrighting, which she does with Armand. She does this until she starts getting suspicious about him, and after she quits writing, she not coincidentally at all starts getting cast in babydoll roles again. Armand sucks!
Do you think Claudia might be haunting Dubai?
God I hope so I want her to be haunting Louis but especially Armand's ass. The reason Armand supposedly can be awake at any time is because he just can't sleep, what with Claudia constantly taunting and tormenting him!
Are there any songs you think are very Claudia coded?
-"Can't Catch Me Now" by Olivia Rodrigo- perfect for Claudia haunting Louis and Armand!
-"Daughter" by Beyonce
-"Brutal" by Olivia Rodrigo
-"Girls Just Want To Have Fun" by Cyndi Lauper
-"I've Got To Be Me" by Sammy Davis Jr.
-"Teen Idle" by Marina
-"Antagonist" by Nova Twins
-"Beating Like A Hammer" by Metric
-"Mama, I'm A Big Girl Now" (Hairspray)
-"Eat Your Young" by Hozier- I hesitate to add this one because the song is supposedly based around the Irish "A Modest Proposal", now a similar concept taking place in modern times, but the music video just strikes me as very Claudia coded. In it, the child in the nuclear family is created to fulfill the parent's needs, and is subsequently put into a box and told to be a certain way. The parents are hungry in a demanding society that metaphorically starves them to the point that they'll take drastic measures to fulfill that hunger, even if it means exploiting and metaphorically consuming their own children. And who is that if not Claudia with regards to Louis and Lestat?
Thanks for the ask friend! And sorry it took so long to answer <3
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Tanimura & Mine dating hc (sfw + notsfw) please?!
ANYTHING for my boys. Also, peeps who sent in Y6 asks, I SEE EM just ain't getting to em yet as I have yet to start Y6. Tomorrow is masterlist finalization day so that's been occupying my time but to my lovelies in my inbox, I see you and love you. Headcanons below the cut mine beloved, happy friday night!
Tanimura Masayoshi
Bouncing and smiling babey boy. Always happy to see you, even when he's dead tired. During earlier dates, he greets you by smiling and waving but later one he'll greet you with a hug or kiss on the cheek.
Loves hand holding the most. Values that more than kissing or even sex honestly. It's very cozy and intimate to him. Totally the type of guy to measure his hand size against your as an excuse for physical contact.
Since work keeps him so busy, in person dates aren't the most regular but you will hear from him every day by text or call. Will video call you on his busiest nights.
Expresses love with food, either by taking you out to food or just buying you snacks. Tanimura is a snack muncher himself so he keeps good notes on what you both like so when he buys something for himself, he grabs something for you too.
His go-to date is getting boba together and maybe hitting up an arcade. Honestly, he's open to anything though. The most chill of the boys when it comes to dates, he's down to just sit and talk anywhere as long as he's with you.
He's a little embarassed about it but in bed he does like to tie you up. He won't use his work handcuffs on you because of how painful they can be, unless you ask for it. It's kind of cute how much he blushes at the fact that all of his kinks totally align with his job.
Completely and totally a verse. He can top with the best of them or be the babiest bottom, it just depends on his mood and your preferences. Relatively down to explore new things in the bedroom.
Mine Yoshitaka
Strong and silent, which makes him hard to read at first. That's kind of on purpose, Mine honestly has trust issues and is too self sufficient for his own good. He tends to keep to himself so if he goes out of his way to ask you, he REALLY likes you.
If you ask HIM out, chances are Mine will say yes unless he absolutely thinks you aren't his type. Pretty down to date casually but when he catches feelings, he's down bad.
Leans to the more traditional side. Will ask you on dates most of the time, will pick you up, probably brings flowers on the fancier dates. However, don't mistake that for him being old fashioned. In fact, it kind of turns him on if you switch up the roles on him and ask him out or pick him up.
Likes a partner who is pretty self sufficient as he may not always have the time to dedicate to someone who is more clingy and would feel kind of bad for not being able to be there as much as a clingier partner would need. Kind of ironic given that deep down Mine himself can be kind of attached.
With Mine, it's the little gestures that matter. Things like holding the door open or bringing an umbrella to your place of work on days where it's downpouring because he knows you forgot yours at home. Very much a man to show rather than tell.
Super dry texter so try not to be upset if he doesn't sound enthusiastic in texts. Decent at holding conversation in person though and only gets better the longer he dates you. The amount he texts is normal though, he won't leave you with a one word response if he can help it. It takes time for him to get back to you sometimes though if he's rather busy.
After about a 6 month dating period, the facade drops almost scarily quickly and he gets a lot cozier and cuddlier. He starts realizing that this is actually happening and you're not just someone interested in him for his looks or money. It'll take a bit longer for him to open up about his personal past but he will become noticably more comfortable around you in ways he isn't with everyone else.
Freak in the sheets. Total top and total dom. King of using his voice. What he lacks in dating experience, he makes up for in bedroom experience. Has perhaps some of the most experience of all of the boys. Also a quick learner.
Absolutely loves to put his hand under your chin and tilt your face up to look at him. Sly as hell. Actually quiet in the bedroom though, never really makes a lot of noise. Whispers a lot too. Great at getting you turned on in public with just his voice. Particularly good with his hands. Will tie your hands up with his tie if you ask him but he won't default to that.
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Summary: Hailey and Jay are working things out with Voight in the midst of all the chaos after Anna's death and Voight getting shot.
What was it that attracted people to Hank Voight? More importantly what attracted Hailey Upton and Jay Halstead to their Sergeant. Was it his disregard for doing things the formal way? Was it how much of a badass he could be, and make it look cool? Was it the way that he got away with highly illegal shit and acted like nothing happened? Or was it his ability to turn certain emotions off and on in order to manipulate situations? Could it be the daddy issues that both of them had? Who knows.
Hailey and Jay found themselves in the break room, holding their coffees and quietly discussing what they were going to do with Voight. Ever since Hailey shot Anna, Hank hasn't really looked at her or spoken to her much. And when she died, Hank lost it. Started a one man patrol of her neighborhood to make sure to get rid of Los Temenos for good. Trying to make Anna's death mean something.
In the process, Hank was losing sight of the important things. He was taking unnecessary risks for the team and completely disregarding his own safety. Voight wasn't okay. Far from it.. but he was still in denial. And right now Jay was the only person getting through to him. He was filling that void in Hank's life where Alvin had been. Where Antonio had been. Even Lindsay. Those were the only three people that could truly reel Hank back in.
"Hank, you can't keep doing this. You're gona get yourself killed. I'm not gonna stand by and let that happen. I'm here because you need someone to reel you back in. I get it. It sucks that Anna died and you're blaming yourself. But you've got other people in this team depending on you to keep it together. Not just Hailey and I. So I'm asking you, man to man, what do you need me to do to help you?"
"Have a seat Jay. Have a drink with me." Hank says pulling two glasses from his desk and a bottle of scotch.
"Whatever you need man, I'm here for you." Jay says. "And in case you didn't realize it yet. Hailey thinks you hate her because she had to shoot Anna."
"I don't hate her." Hank says quietly from behind his glass. "I hate myself for putting Anna in that position. She felt trapped and she fell off the wagon. She was clearly on drugs that day when she started running. If anything Hailey saved my life that day. I don't hate her."
"She needs to hear that from you. She's been beating herself up for shooting Anna." Jay says taking a sip of his drink. "I kinda feel like I'm losing both of you right now."
"You haven't lost me. I'm just terrible at grieving when I lose people. Anna's death was definitely my fault. And I feel worse because her son has nobody now. I took away something he can never get back. I know what that is like. That's what Justin went through when he lost his mother. And things went downhill for Justin from there. I don't want that for Rafa."
"I think Rafa will be okay with his relatives." Jay says. "I think you should focus on healing up so you can get back to work. So you can focus more on work."
Hank nods. "I'll be fine Jay. I'm always fine even if I don't look fine. Tell Hailey I'll talk to her later after shift."
Later had come a lot sooner than any of them expected. Hank was downstairs in the basement with Hailey and Jay. "Look I talked to Jay earlier. I do not hate you Hailey. I hate myself for putting Ana into that corner. That was my fault. You saved my life out there. This one hit harder than any other no doubt and I'm not okay. But I will be eventually. I'm gonna focus on healing this shoulder and getting refocused on work. We can't let our personal shit effect work. That was the rule." Hank says.
"That wasn't the only issue here. Jay spends way more time catering to you and I'm the one married to him."
Hank chuckles. "Jay is just being a friend. You two have each other. I have no one Hailey. My son is gone. My grandson is gone. My wife is gone. Alvin is gone. Lindsay is gone too. I have no one I trust anymore. Jay I trust. I'm sorry."
"Hank I, " Hailey started to speak.
"I'm sorry for keeping your husband away from you. It's just that he's my only true friend right now." Hank says.
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HI, so, I really wanted to learn more about the au you're writing, but one thing that have been keeping on my mind was: what do you think that'll happen in long term? in the sense of the second rebellion and the 74th games and stuff, do you think it'll still happen?
I wanted to answer this question today and it's at night, so there might be a bit of rambling in my answer but let's get started!
First thanks for the question!!! Also I've decided to call this Au: Suffocation Au so I can distinguish it from my other wips even if I don't talk about many of them, haha.
I have to admit that I don't have such long term plans, I usually enjoy open endings and not getting so involved with the events in THG but I do have some ideas of the future after the events that take place in Suffocation (one shot) and I will leave my hypothesis concerning the second rebellion and the 74th games at the end!
The Cardew family enters into crisis. On the one hand, they have no other biological heir, so they will have to give one day the power of the bank to another family, which will cause a lot of tension between the elite families and well, vultures.
The Cardew also demand a meticulous investigation, Livia's mother suspects at one point Coriolanus and there is a potential scandal when that happens Casca (who did not die because in this Au, Coriolanus returns to the capitol in another way) tries to support this hypothesis publicly, this rumor is silenced by the fortune of the Plinth (Sejanus specifically does and this is what makes Coriolanus finally murder Highbottom).
The wedding gift that Coriolanus gives to Sejanus is to murder Dr. Gaul, because in this au specifically Sejanus and Dr. Gaul have a history together of failed apprentice and teacher and a lot of shit happens between them, and Sejanus was very serious when he says that Gaul was in charge of ruining his life (house arrest and he was practicing gamemaker in what Coryo returned and other things).
Some former mentors are more vocal in their opinions against the games (Lysistrata Vickers in specific), and it takes longer for the inhabitants to adopt it as a show, instead of solely a punishment of war because Coryo doesn't immediately return to the capitol when he is sent to D12 and Gaul and Sejanus are not interested in making nice shows, but in fighting 24/7.
Snow not only kills political rivals to be president, he will also kill more people he thinks hurt Sejanus because since he didn't make a big deal about Dr. Gaul he thinks Sejanus approve it somehow, and there are some abandonment issues that Lucy Gray reinforced and he's really as dependent on Sejanus as Sejanus is on him.
The public opinion of the Snow-Plinth wedding is that it was out of pity for Sejanus, who by that point has a reputation for being mentally ill / unstable, this will interfere later with the possibility of an heir (lab baby).
Io Jasper is the head of Gaul's lab when she dies and I believe she could had many arguments with Snow.
About 2nd rebellion: I think the rebellion could have happened earlier, there are details make me believe that it is possible the Capitol is not a united front, able to offer the same comforts and unity among its inhabitants, and Katniss mentions how many people in the capitol from her perspective were there for personal vendettas and we know that if people lose their comfort, they are more willing to want things to change.
What I fear is that an earlier 2nd rebellion (maybe Haymitch games?), could be more problematic in many ways, and end in a very long war (lets remember the dont had the neccesary resources was a big thing in revolution dont be allowed to happen), the D13 would do its thing and I suppose that would affect in many ways. Your question definitely made me began to think about what it would be like!
I promise that if I structure this in a better text later I will share it, I hope I have still answered some questions you had? Thank you again for being interested in my au, I'm open to more questions if anybody want!
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rainy-astrology · 2 years
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ATEEZ Wooyoung Birth Chart analysis
Based on my opinion and observations. Not a professional astrologer. May change later.
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November 26th, 1999
Ilsan, SK
3:20 AM
☀️♐️, 🌙♋️, ⬆️♎️
Sun in 2nd house indicates materialism and possessiveness, both object and people wise. Financial security is important to him
Sun, Mercury, Pluto, and Chiron in 2nd...
Mercury Scorpio is very observant and investigative. Wooyoung can be a little argumentative at times and straightforward with his words. He's also quite fierce when it comes to figuring out the truth (the murder ep of ATEEZ's office series Salary Lupin). In 2nd house, he knows how to handle money well and knows how to work for it
Pluto in 2nd makes him work very hard for money. Being financially stable seems like his top priority. A bit materialistic. He likes to assert control over his life, he does not want any restrictions.
Chiron in 2nd struggles with security and self worth...Financial insecurity, maybe feeling like his self worth comes from what he owns, how much money he has
Venus in 1st house explains a lot; very charming and friendly, we all know how outgoing Woo is. He can easily befriend anyone and loves talking about his new buddies. He is also quite gorgeous, very nice and angular features. This placement enhances his Libra placements more (rising and venus), so he's definitely got a smooth way with people. Very loving and affectionate as most Libra venus ppl are
Jupiter in 7th lets him have an easy time creating bonds with others. Venus, Rising, and Jupiter placements make him so social (esp with Venus opp Jupiter and Venus conjunct Rising)
Mars Capricorn in 4th is a hardworking and protective placement. Mars Capricorn is exalted, so Woo definitely takes his work and responsibilities seriously. He may have felt responsible for his family at a young age (as most Capricorn in 4th house ppl do...) and matured earlier than most people. Mars in 4th makes him very protective of those he considers family (if i recall correctly, he said he would bite whoever upset Seonghwa lol. And honestly I can see it happening. He is not hesitant to call out whoever hurts ATEEZ). Do not mess with his loved ones
However, Mars in 4th could also mean fighting with family/close ones a lot. He has high standards and demands that may annoy them even though he thinks he is being helpful...the addition of Uranus and Neptune in 4th does not help either
Uranus and Neptune Aquarius in 4th can indicate a weird family or possible family issues. He may not notice it though (can be idealized or avoided due to Neptune) or does and tries to control the environment. Personal life and home may feel chaotic; craves stability and comfort in home
Moon Cancer in 9th wants to travel and explore; wants new experiences and learn new things. Has a lot of energy, definitely can not stay still
Saturn in 8th could mean a fear of changes...irrational fears. Has or is learning how to efficiently deal with finances and materials.
North node Leo in 10th theme is to explore and express himself authentically, be creative and fun, show who he is. In 10th, he should learn to focus on himself. From what I see from his chart, he seems to do a lot for his family - which is great, but he should also think about himself too. He is hard working and responsible and likely feels he needs to be that way for his family, but he should know it's ok to just do things for himself. He can be dependent on others and may be a bit insecure, so he should learn to be more confident in himself and do what he want without worrying too much abt what others want/think
Seems like there's a lot of lessons about finances and possessions, family, and self worth...
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theclowntapes · 4 months
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intro/ entry one
i want to open by saying 2023 absolutely sucked. i think, for everyone, it was a terrible year. but one good thing did happen to me. i'm here actually, for that reason. i'm living, and i'm writing this right now- because of it. because of him. i first started talking to him in august, the month before my birthday. we met online, and i curse the miles currently between us- but he is the best thing that has and will ever happen to me. he made probably the worst year of my life worth living. so many terrible things happened last year, that i will remember and that will shape me into the person i'll be. but the love of my life- my everything, will continue to shape me and to make me a better person. he has given me the wisdom and the words, the energy even, to be happy. but thats why i'm here. i have a lot to work through, and a lot to figure out. i can't feel one hundred percent okay until i get myself together, and figure out who i am when i'm happy, and who i want to be.
this year, i'm going to work on myself. i need routine and i need self love. i'm not a consistent person and i never finish things for myself, but i'm always more motivated to do things if i feel that other people could benefit from them. i've made a promise to myself that i'm going to get better, and i'm going to keep this blog as a journal, an anonymous diary if you will. maybe one day, someone will benefit from it. maybe not. and thats okay, it will be okay. i do hope that someone might be inspired, or perhaps encouraged to commit to the journey of finding themself. i'm going to try to post an entry every single day. i don't have a very busy life right now, so it only depends on my own motivation. i hope that soon, the only reason for missing a day would be because i am very busy taking care of myself. i'm going to give advice, and share things that have worked for me. i hope that this can be a positive thing and never a vent blog. i have made an agreement with myself to try to only write positively, to find ways to make things better through action and writing.
i have written down new year resolutions, and i hope that by the end of 2024 i can proudly cross them all off. i'm not in a good place right now, but i believe things are about to get better. i will not be sharing this blog with anyone unless i feel that they can benefit from it. so if you've found me on your own, i hope i can be of use to you. i don't expect to gain a following, and that does not bother me because maybe this will help me more than anyone out there. on january first of 2025 i want to look back and smile at all the progress i've made. i want to make that progress now, over the course of this year.
this entry was meant to be posted earlier, but it has taken me a while to find the words tonight. i will be posting a second entry later today, hopefully by the evening.
xo sparky ⋆
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I'm planning to make a comic in the isekai genre just purely out of hatred with how boring and dogshit a majority of stuff is there in that genre.
I want to make it mostly comedy. Yes, mostly. I want some serious stuff in here too so that it's thrilling.
Here's my ocs, the main four:
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Hino Toshiro, the protagonist we follow, the one that gets isekai'd. Oh right, he gets isekai'd into his own video game. He was originally an indie game developer (I just wanted to follow the classic tropes you see in a lot of isekais and be stupid about them).
I wanted him to look a bit more unique when compared to other isekai protagonists, so I didn't go with the basic hairstyle almost every male protagonist has (can these guys be creative for once).
He has a bite mark because the protagonist of the game got bit and died from it, so Toshiro becomes him, essentially 'respawning' but he kept the bite mark. In order for Hino to not get shot at first sight, he looks around for a dead body and uses the lab coat from it in order to cover it. The bite mark has turned into a scar and all that blood has dried up (it looks fresh in the concept art but this was something I thought of later after I drew him). He can't get infected but he knows that the bite mark stayed because that was a feature in his own game. The feature being that whenever you die, the wound from your previous body stays, so you have to find new ways to make sure you aren't getting killed by the people who are supposed to help you.
And because he's the developer and one of the writers (his friend group consists of people that also want to make a game with him, so that's his development team), he was able to research a lot of stuff about biology and microbiology. He isn't as experienced as a person with an actual degree obviously, so he isn't a know-it-all type guy.
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Kinoshita Hitomi, one of the characters from the fictional biotech company, (I haven't thought of a name yet). She worked as a clinical technician before the apocalypse from the game happened.
She used to play baseball when she was a teen but abandoned it because of her parents wanting her to specialize in some sort of medical related career. Now it's useful here because she can kill zombies with only one or two or three swings (it depends on where she hits them, but usually two).
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Maria Cumberman, you can tell she's not japanese by her name, she's from Canada and came here to get employed in the company. She's very young for being a microbiologist and one of the researchers for finding a cure for rabies but considered a savant so she got her degree earlier than most.
Let me add on a bit more: The research for finding a cure for rabies backfired, causing the apocalypse in the game, the virus took over 2 months to completely mess up everything in the building. This rabies variant takes over a lot faster than the regular version. It still takes some time to act, but not as slow as rabies [can be], it's acting time is predictable however, so that helps.
Because she was one of the researchers, she blames herself and feels extremely guilty about it. She and the others are trying to find the cure themselves, but Maria is the only one actually experienced in this type of thing, so they need her alive.
I haven't thought too much about the plot yet (I wanted to design my characters first), so I need to think of why the virus spread that quickly.
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Tanaka Futoshi, worked as a business development manager.
He has a ring which was from a previous marriage. He divorced his now ex-wife of 6 years (she was a piece of shit), but he didn't want to get rid of the ring because 1. it was expensive and 2. it looked neat (it doesn't look that cool here but I'll add more stuff when I get to making more detailed reference sheet), so he moved the ring from his ring finger to his middle finger to silently say 'fuck you' to his ex. It doesn't really affect him in the current time because he moved on but it's a funny backstory for his ring.
Height chart.
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Tanaka looks a little off but I don't really care to redraw him.
That's all. Here's some more concept sketches.
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Other stuff about the world, not necessarily only about the characters:
The lab coat;
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Company logo;
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And ID card tier codes (tier I, II, III, and IV). This appears on the bottom of someone's ID and depending on what tier of access they've been given, they can gain access to various rooms and equipment. The ID scanners also check the fingerprints that exist on a special holographic sticker to ensure that the person who's in possession of the ID is the actual owner. I can't put the concept image of that here because image limit.
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That's it, hopefully I get to make an actual decent comic instead of it being boring and dogshit like the isekais I'm making fun of (if it becomes something like that, feel free to shoot me).
My plan is to make it black and white like mangas usually are, but it has some colour... well, the only thing that's going to have colour is blood. But I think it will make it a bit more interesting to look at because I personally love looking at artworks that do that type of thing.
I've drawn comics before but they're always short and they're not even my own characters, so this is gonna be my way of practicing. Hope you had fun reading. If you'd like some more stuff about it don't be afraid to ask (if you even want to).
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