#if any wlw or anyone who likes girls reads this please help

[wujufim]

rules - read before requesting

hi all; i’m back on my bullshit (writing in the kpop sphere); i’ve been in fandom spaces for most of my life but wlw kpop writing truly used to feel like home. i really hope you all enjoy what i post!

my askbox is currently open for requests for drabbles, headcanons, most-to-leasts, scenarios, reactions and general kpop girlgroup chitchat. i write both sfw and nsfw content, and i ask that minors do not interact with anything i post.

navigation around my blog should be fairly simple as all posts are tagged by ‘groupname post’ and 'memberstagename post’, but if you need help finding anything in particular just reach out.

the groups i write for are;

aespa billlie dreamcatcher everglow fromis_9 gfriend (g)-idle ive itzy iu kep1er le sserafim lightsum loona/artms mamamoo nmixx purplekiss red velvet snsd stayc taeyeon triples twice weeekly weki meki wjsn .. and more. if there's any group you'd like me to write for, just reach out and let me know. i've been a kpop enjoyer for years now, and i listen to girl groups almost exclusively. gugudan, berrygood and laboum are some of my all time ults (unfortunately).

i only write for members born in 2003 or earlier. if you’re unsure of an idols age, please check before requesting. no exceptions; anyone requesting pieces for idols born pre-03 will be blocked immediately.

i write member/member and reader/member.

this is a kink/fetish friendly space. i will write most things as long as they’re not explicitly on my 'NOPE’ list below. some of the things people ask about often that i am comfortable writing are;

armpit fetish blood play body worship electrostim fisting foot and armpit fetish general BDSM themes such as impact play, degradation, and D/s dynamics hybrids knife play omegaverse omorashi pet play polyamory/consensual nonmonogamy public sex sounding watersports

i will NOT write;

consensual non consent or rape scenes gun play incest (including fantasy incest + step-cest) high school aus yandere aus anything that's literally illegal - i should hope this goes without saying.

i prefer that cishet men avoid this blog as i’m queer as fuck. i will be writing predominantly wlw pieces, but i’m more than comfortable writing for people who use he/him pronouns or folks who have penises.

please don’t send the same prompt multiple times - it’s likely in my asbox waiting for me to get to it, so try to be patient. if you’re genuinely concerned that tumblr has swallowed your request alive please reach out to me off-anon so that i can confirm whether i’ve received your message or not. i won’t judge anyone for their prompts, i promise.

#kpop smut #gg smut #girl group smut #loona smut #mamamoo smut #dreamcatcher smut #itzy smut #aespa smut #rules

[greywrren]

god I would love to have someone to talk to so I don’t feel so alone and confused all the time

#genuinely questioning my sexualoty #but all my friends are straight + majority are religious so I’m scared #honestly having a lil breakdown #like I genuinely just saw a tik tok that was like how did my 17 year old self say all women are attractive but you can rarely find an - #attractive man without realising I was gay #BRO I SAY THAT #I’m sorry but I can literally count on one hand the amount of guys I’ve ever thought were cute #and then I literally immediately remembered when I was driving with my friends and they were like girl which men DO you even find attractiv #and I was like uhhhh #RYAN ROSS #but I loved him bevause he experimented with boundaries including (in my opinion) gender #so uh #if any wlw or anyone who likes girls reads this please help #or don’t because I’m afraid to face a possible truth #anyways gotta love me having a breakdown in the tags because no one will ever see it from real life so I’m safe here

[eskumii]

I don't know if you're fine with wlw content but if you're not then you can make the reader neutral gender of course. Can I request a Koyuki x reader where the both of them are cuddling with each other trying to get warmth due to how cold it is for them? Headcanon please?

soft yandere!koyuki (kny) hcs + how she reacts to cuddling for warmth

TITLE: " YEARNING HEART " — navi.

A/N: this contains huge manga spoilers, specifically in regards to akaza's backstory! #justice4koyuki :") tysm for the req, flower!! 🌸 these got kind of angsty (??) i went and reread akaza's backstory so i could characterize koyuki properly and woo that pain cut deep again LOL. she's like barely yandere in this but i tried, she's just too sweet. not proofread.

PAIRING: soft yandere!koyuki x caretaker!reader

CHARACTERS: koyuki (16), reader (17)

☆ three months ago, koyuki's father, keizo, saved you from your almost inevitable fate of getting beaten to death in a back alley after you had ran away from an arranged marriage. though you had nothing to offer him in return for his heroism, you still had your skills as a practiced housewife that you knew would be highly desirable to anyone. and after finding out about his sick daughter, you pleaded with him to let you be of service to her.

☆ keizo was eager to accept your help. you found out he was the master of a dojo with no students of his own, which forced him to look for work during the day in order to provide for both koyuki and himself. but just like that, you took a load off his shoulders by dedicating everything you had to caring for his daughter. he might've been more grateful to you than you were to him, if that were possible.

☆ to be honest, the first few weeks of caring for koyuki were kind of awkward. not that it really surprised you—you were a stranger who suddenly forced your way into her life with the intention of being her caretaker. it's quite an intimate position, so you were respectful of her space until she got a bit more comfortable with you, which didn't take long at all, really.

☆ although koyuki was a little shy at first, she warmed up to you very quickly. maybe it's because of the fact that you're also a girl, or maybe you're just someone who's naturally easy to get along with. either way, koyuki often finds herself confiding in you with everything. she might even say that she was developing a crush on you; you're such a pretty young lady and she's surprised that you aren't married yet or at least looking for a suitor. from what she's noticed, you're not interested in any of that in the slightest. somehow that makes her happy, as bad as it sounds.

☆ a few of your duties consist of helping her bathe, comb and style her hair appropriately, dress her, and obviously make sure she's fed and takes her medicine (which she hates the taste of). although koyuki insists that she can be independent in all of these things, she doesn't protest when you help her out anyway. sitting inside all day can be boring, so most of the time you'll try to entertain her by reading her books or old scrolls and teaching her how to make origami, if she feels well enough to (even if she doesn't, she tries to push through it because she likes spending time with you).

☆ you often make her little origami hearts and slip them onto her meal trays; ironically, things like that make her heart flutter. she doesn't know why, but your nurturing nature makes her wonder what it'd be like if you were her actual wife, making her food and giving her little origami hearts in a different context. she gets embarrassed when you catch her daydreaming, even though you would never guess that they're about you. she despises her sickness more than anything and often wonders what it would be like if she had met you in another life. the world is cruel, isn't it?

☆ the day you open up about your past to koyuki is also the day she single-handedly falls in love with you. you're strong. you're not afraid to stand up for what you believe in, even if it means losing your family and a chance to be wealthy through an arranged marriage. she admires you from the bottom of her heart and that feeling only grows stronger and stronger with each passing day she dwells in your presence. she looks up to you—more than a friend and more than her caretaker.

☆ sometimes koyuki will start crying, seemingly at random. she apologizes constantly about things that don't bother you at all ("i'm sorry you have to keep changing my clothes during the night. :( you must be tired." "i'm sorry you had to clean up the tea i spilled." "i'm sorry you aren't able to go to school/make friends because of me.") she worries so much about how you're feeling that she doesn't take her own condition into account. you'll hold her in your arms and let her hair loose so you can run your fingers through while she sniffles.

☆ you'll attempt to console her by saying that none of that matters to you and it's your job to do things like that for her anyway. that you want to do this for her. eventually she stops crying but she somehow always looks unsatisfied by your responses. were you only doing it for her because of her father? even though koyuki does apologize with sincerity, she loves the fact that you fret over her and that she's who your attention is on all the time. she knows it's selfish but so is her sickness; no one knows when it will overcome her, so she doesn't really have time to waste with being selfless with her feelings.

☆ with keizo working for most of the day, you and koyuki are often left alone but you're familiar enough with your surroundings to cope. one day, however, keizo doesn't come back when he usually does. winter season is quickly approaching and temperatures are beginning to drop as the sun goes down with them. usually keizo took care of chopping the wood for a fire but since he's not around, there's nothing for you to burn. koyuki can't handle extreme weather very well, so you have to think of something quickly.

☆ conflicted, you debate on whether or not you should try chopping some firewood yourself. you've never picked up an axe in your life so, naturally, you wouldn't know how to wield it properly, either. plus, you shouldn't leave koyuki by herself; you would be devastated if something ever happened to her while she was in your care. she's become someone important to you just within the few short months of knowing her.

☆ you navigate to koyuki's bedroom where extra blankets are neatly folded in her closet. you take them to where she lies on her futon in the foyer, a warm, wet towel on her forehead. you take it off and place it into the bowl of water by her head before piling the blankets on top of her. it seems that the weight woke her up, as she's now staring at you with those half-lidded, pink eyes of hers. you always thought they were really pretty.

☆ "[y/n]-san?" koyuki mumbles. "it's cold..." she nestles deeper into the blankets but even with the extras, it must not be enough. you frown and ponder on what to do, but koyuki beats you to it. "do you think you could m-maybe... lay with me? i'm sure it would be warmer if we stay close together."

☆ it's not a bad idea. you carefully lift the blankets up and slide underneath, laying so close that both your arms are touching. neither you or koyuki say anything for a long while—the light from the sun fades almost completely in the time that you spend underneath the blankets with her. a chill settles on the wooden floors of the dojo and just as you're about to fall asleep, a trembling voice awakes you. koyuki's been working up the courage to say something, anything to break the silence.

☆ "[y/n]-san, i like-" koyuki blurts. "i..." her voice seems to falter and you look at her in confusion, silently urging her to continue. koyuki's conscious halts her confession dead in its tracks. was this the right thing for her to do? what if you didn't feel the same way? what if she gets in the way of you finding a real spouse? her fears are rational but her feelings towards you aren't less than.

☆ "hm? what's wrong, koyuki-chan? are you still cold?" you pull the blanket tighter around the both of you and snake an arm around her shoulders. she stiffens like a two-by-four wood plank under the close proximity, and you get the impression that she's uncomfortable. still, you have to be close in order to transfer your body heat, so you press closer until you're both flush against each other, faces just inches away.

☆ a shoji panel at the front of the dojo suddenly slides open, startling both you and koyuki. you try to move away in order to not project the image that you're doing something inappropriate, but a warm hand wraps around your wrist to stop you. you look back at koyuki in shock, but the panic that's blazing in your chest is quickly expelled by the gentle gleam in her eyes.

☆ "please stay, [y/n]-san," she whispers, face flushed red as she fiddles with a strand of her hair. "i like... being this close to you." surely you can't reject her now.

☆ now it's your turn to blush. you hesitantly lay down again and scoot closer to her, wrapping the blanket back around the two of you. it's warm, hot even, and koyuki takes the initiative by wrapping her arms around your waist and snuggling close. she's smiling bashfully but she really looks like she's enjoying herself; more than when you read to her or taught her origami. slowly, you rest your head on top of hers and smile, too.

☆ "ah, there you two are. sorry for getting back so late, i'll go-" keizo pauses as he catches sight of both you and koyuki bundled up in a blanket with her face buried into your neck. his eyes soften and he smiles knowingly at you, who's trying to hide under the blanket, before quietly exiting to chop some wood for a fire.

☆ but, honestly, with the way your arms are tightly embracing her, koyuki doesn't seem to need it.

#yandere demon slayer #koyuki x reader #demon slayer x reader #yandere demon slayer x reader #yandere koyuki x reader #yandere koyuki #yandere demon slayer headcanons #demon slayer headcanons #kimetsu no yaiba #kimetsu no yaiba x reader #yandere #yandere x reader

[poisonousquinzel]

https://lady-ha-ha.tumblr.com/post/160715688748/is-that-comic-before-the-reboot-and-which-one-is

(I have not read this comic) Is this true? (if so, ivy deserves someone better).

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Kay, first off both of those people are Jarley shippers so take everything they say with a grain of salt and then some, cause no. that part isn't about how much Harley loves Joker and will always choose him over Ivy. Literally you can tell ops don't know what they're talking about cause her whole thing in those issues is going to kill him for years of graphic abuse but ultimately falls back with him once she’s face to face with him.

Like wow, congrats on missing the fucking point again but not surprised from people who ship her with The Fucking Joker.

also, ffs, can anyone please have basic comprehension skills and realize that Harley and Ivy are both fucked up sometimes because they’ve got issues and that’s not comparable to Joker’s long ass history of graphic and disgusting abuse.

Harley and Ivy are villains, they're not a wholesome cookie cutter, White Picket Fence, super vanilla ship with no bad moments. They're both bad guys with a fuck ton of trauma that they both have to work through, and have done so at this point. 

Gotham City Sirens was published between 2009 - 2011, Harley and Ivy weren't blatantly romantic at this point nor had they had anywhere near the development that they’ve had at this point.

Like don’t go into Harlivy content expecting them to be the perfect wlw rep with no flaws during their arcs from BTAS to current time cause that’s just not realistic. They’re both deeply flawed people who’ve got a fuck ton of trauma that they need to (and have) worked through. 

I have talked about the BTAS issues here and this post is good at explaining them too. 

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Harlivy is not and has never been a purely wholesome, goody-goody ship. They’re messy, they have issues, and they have bad moments sometimes, but they both worked through their seperate trauma and came out stronger and better because at the end of the day, they care about each other. 

Harlivy has messy, toxic moments sometimes, but they’re not, and have never been, abusive. There’s a difference between unhealthy moments and a ship being abusive. 

That’s completely different to how Joker acts Constantly, because he does not care that his actions towards Harley are abusive, because he doesn’t give a shit about her. 

He enjoys hurting her. He enjoys ruining her. 

Jarley has always been intended to be written and shown as a domestically abusive relationship.

This is also the first instance where it's directly referenced that there's something more than platonic between her and Ivy, other than the reference in Batgirl Adventures. 

Gotham City Sirens is also not connected to any verses.

This didn’t happen in the timeline we’re in rn with Harley Quinn (2014)/(2016)/(2021).

Comic timelines and shit are stupid and make everything more confusing and awful and I hate it sdfjdksksdkjsd

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this is gonna be a long post since ops wanna just cut and paste random bits of the issues like jarley stans always do (cause jarley never has good moments that aren’t entirely surrounded by him abusing her) I’m going to show them in full context. *added a keep reading cause it is a lot

(All panels shown are from #15, #18, #19, #20, #21, #23, #24, #25)

So, Harley's entire thing at this point in the GCS comic in that she's been triggered by flashbacks of Joker's abuse and she breaks into Arkham with the intent to kill him.

The entire thing in these issues is showing her smarts and how she knows people's trump cards to get under their skin so she can break into Arkham. 

She’s trained to identify these things in people and she's fucking good at pushing people's buttons. 

this is also just one of my fav Harley covers so I wanted to show it jsdjksdks

“Trump cards. Everyone has one. Places where the armor we build around ourselves is weakest.” 

She’s right. And it’s now shown that Harley’s willing to use those below the belt trump cards if she has to.  

And frankly, I’d say this is worse than what she says to Ivy. And I’m not surprised she did it. She didn’t want to, she tried to get him to just open the door - 

“Don’t make me do this, Aaron. There are some secrets that should stay hidden. Things you should never learn about your own life.” 

but she’s also entirely fueled by rage and the desire to kill Joker. She came here for a reason and she’s not leaving until she’s done it.

“I’m going to kill you. For everything you’ve done to me. All the times you’ve made me feel useless and small. For all the times I will never forget. For all the things I can never forgive. All the memories -”

“Hello, Harley. I’ve missed you.” 

“Memories. That’s all I have left. The past is gone and all I have is... memories. 

Memories.

Memory. 

Gone.

I guess I too have a trump card.”

“Oh, Ivy. You know exactly what my answer is going to be. But you’re hoping you’re wrong, aren’t you?”

She’s also right about this, they already mentioned this in #18.

“How did I become the bad guy?”

“You’re the one choosing a man over her girls.”

“Are you kidding me? You would never say that to Harley, and we both know she’d dumb us in a flat second if Joker called her.”

“Hey! That’s not fair-- Actually, that’s probably true.”

“The difference is, she can’t help it. You can. And she’s working on it. You’re not working on it.” 

“Too easy, Ivy. Too easy. I know your weak spots. Now I just need to push.”

This is exactly what she’s been doing since the starting point of this post. She’s still in that mindset and she knows she can’t beat her on a regular battle field. Neither of them can. 

“Like I said-- You beat me in any level playing field. But I don’t fight on those fields.” 

Harley’s biggest strength as a villain is her ability to completely mentally stall her opponents and learn their weak spots. She wouldn’t win against the majority of the Big Bads if she didn’t fight on a different field than they are. 

so, like yeah, out of context what she says to Ivy seems awful and completely screwed up, and it is, but it’s also built up really well and it’s completely in character for her at this point in her fall during these issues. 

Is what she did fucked? absolutely. It’s not painted that it’s not. 

Ivy Literally Goes To Kill Her For It.

In the end of this all three of them are recaptured by Catwoman and Batman and that’s where we’re starting off at again. 

“Oh, Harley.

The only human I’ve ever called a friend.

To what lengths will I go? Where are my own limits? She is the Strangler fig. And I am the tree, choking underneath. 

Without me, she could never grow. 

But without her, I would fall if I grew too tall.” 

“Will she ever stand by herself? 

Will she ever be ready? 

She is in throes of madness. She sees him, her brain flooding with adrenaline, it makes her excited, nervous, then the feelings start to fade, and she needs more. And more. 

She sees it as passion. She sees it as love. 

But it’s not. It’s addiction. And she’s relapsing.” 

Ivy is well aware of the nature of their relationship. She’s not stupid and she’s been shown already to know that it’s something that takes time. It’s not a one off break up and it’s over. That’s not how abusve relationships work. 

What do I do?

I could use my pheromones to alter her brain chemistry.

I could leave her behind abandoning her to the wilds of her own mind.

I could kill her right now.

Show her how red Nature can be.

There's one other option.

It would require patience.

Even love.

Maybe I'm more human than I want to admit.

"You have one chance to answer this."

I know, if she agrees, she'll be doing it for revenge. For him.

"She put us behind bars."

But maybe if I get away from this place, if I give her something else to think about. Maybe she can break the cycle. But it has to be her choice.

"I'm going to kill her. Come with me."

So yeah, it’s definitely not a just “Harley hurts her and runs off with Joker and it’s just a plain ol’ her choosing him over everyone and that’s that.” 

Jarley shippers love to just reduce all her scenes and arcs down to their “epic love” and shit, but that’s taking away literally everything about her and reducing it down to the 3 panels that they’re “cute” in. Her arc in this part is fucking heartbreaking to read.

And Ivy damn well knows what’s going on with her. She’s smart and she’s the one that’s been there throughout all of this. She found her in the park after he shot her out of a rocket. 

And she knows it’ll take time for Harley to get over and through his manipulation, that’s just how it works with abusive relationships. 

But she’s also not forgiving at first, she’s mad and rightfully so, until she sees the sate of Harley’s cell and realizes how bad her addiction is at that time.

A lot of the unhealthy moments on Harley’s side when it comes to them are directly caused from the effects of being in an abusive relationship with Joker. Because she’s always in this area of her journey in those moments. She’s never fully over him or emancipated. 

And that’s realistic. It’s hard sometimes to be friends with someone who’s in abusive relationships like theirs, having to watch them return to that person time and time again and it’s frustrating after a while. 

I know from personal experience, it’s really hard to watch someone you care about go back or forgive someone that continues to hurt them. 

But abuse victims desperately need a support system outside of their abuser. It’s a crucial part of being able to escape, because when they do try to get out they need someone there or they’ll literally have no where to go but back into their abuser’s arms.

It’s heartbreaking and it’s really rough for everyone effected, but that’s just how it is most of the time. Especially in their case, as they’re not just regular folk dealing with this. 

If she doesn’t have Ivy, Harley has no one else to go to but Joker, on more than just an emotional level. 

She’s lost her job. Her income. Her home. Her livelihood. Her everything.

Most of the time she has no other choice but to return to a life of crime after she’s released from Arkham because she can’t get a job, she’s a notorious criminal and she’s got a lot of issues that don’t just disappear with a bit of therapy. 

She has no other choice but to return to Joker because the other alternative is the streets. At least she knows what to expect with him. 

And that’s not even getting into the manipulation, gaslighting and degrading abuse that he drills into her constantly. 

He’s made her believe she’s not anything without him. That she’s not smart or useful or anything. 

And that’s why it’s so damn important for her to have a support system and why he’s so damn against Ivy. 

Because Ivy is the good voice on her shoulder telling her he’s wrong and that she doesn’t deserve that. 

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And on Ivy’s side, she’s aware she gets very near cutting off all parts of her humanity. 

She’s a plant goddess, she’s insanely powerful and she feels everything through the green. Frankly, she’s not even on the same playing field as these villains. She’s significanty more powerful than Harley and Joker. 

Her connection to Harley is what keeps her humanity in tack, because despite everything, she does care about her. She was the first person she let in, the first person Ivy called a friend. 

The person that was able to get through to her in #14/#15 when she was losing herself. The one that was able to get through to her that the dude was manipulating her. 

“Ivy, I know you think you love this guy... but you’re just gonna end up strapped to his rocket!”

She had to knock her out for the dude to trust her / not attack them anymore. But Harley got through to her by mentioning how they first met in the park when she saved her after Joker shot her off in a rocket.

And Ivy is understandable turned off towards humans considering her origin and trauma around that. 

She’s got a lot of trust issues.

But both of them work through their seperate traumas over the years because their affection for each other is stronger than the issues their trauma has given them.

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and also, sometimes, they just have shit writers. that’s an issue overall in comic fandoms. Some writers just fucking suck at getting any of the characters right, let alone LGBT characters, who’re notoriously treated like garbage by DC. 

#sorry if it came off a bit aggressive anon i don't mind ya asking <3 #ops just annoy me SDJSKSK #tw abuse #tw clown boy #long post #♦️ asks ♦️ #harley quinn #harleen quinzel #poison ivy #pamela isley #harlivy #gotham city sirens #me? rambling in detail about Harley? yup yup

[bloodstainsontengensfloor]

Tsumiki and Megumi childhood HeadCanons!

*some slight spoilers on what happened to Megumi’s dad

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BEFORE the abandonment: 

-Megumi didn’t like Tsumiki when they first met. She was so happy... why? Like him, she only had one parent and didn’t have the nicest things. She smiled despite not having the nicest clothes, not having the nicest toys, and with not having a dad.

-They walked to school together and Tsumiki would just talk his ear off

-Megumi didn’t really warm up to her until he tripped and scraped his knee and Tsumiki’s entire cheerful demeanor changed and she went to fretting over him

-It annoyed him but at the same time... made him feel happy

-He warmed up to her gradually after that. She always checked in how he was doing as his dad started to check in less and less

-Megumi was aware that his dad didn’t care for Tsumiki’s mom as much as someone you married should, and was surprised when he found out that Tsumiki shared the same sentiments 

-Tsumiki and Megumi’s dad... she was a ray of sunshine to him of course and he... had literally no clue how to deal with it. He also didn’t like how a second grader was a better parent than him, but in the end... he knew Megumi would be in good hands 

-(If he stayed around, Tsumiki and Toji would have a relationship like Hori and her dad for Horimiya I take no arguments) 

AFTER the abandonment: 

-Megumi’s dad left first. he didn’t really understand what was happening or why his dad stopped coming to say goodnight and then stopped coming home at all

-Tsumiki was emotional over it for the sake of Megumi and her mom, and started to do little things like get Megumi small gifts when they would walk from school- little stuffed animals (the first one was a dog ofc), chocolates, candies, etc. 

-When Tsumiki’s mom left, leaving only a little money behind, Megumi expected Tsumiki to cry or shut herself in, but she didn’t. She took on the role of taking care of him and barley took care of herself. 

-He didn’t know why his non emotionally constipated sister wasn’t crying and was smiling. Why was she not showing her hurt? Her dad left her and her mom, and now her mom left her too. 

-”Don’t worry about it! She’ll be back soon!” Tsumiki had said when making breakfast for them. 

-Oh, Megumi thought, she was in denial. 

-When the denial ended, Tsumiki didn’t show any evidence of going through the other stages of grief. When he asked her about it one day, Tsumiki sighed, and looked really tired. “I saw it coming. I don’t remember my dad much, but I remember how he was in the days leading up to when he left.’ 

-”Stupid Sister,” Megumi said as Tsumiki tried to do the dishes. “Go to sleep. You suck at cleaning anyway.” 

-A year of them living alone was fine. Neither of them asked for anything too much and Tsumiki tried to hide the fact that the money was running low as a year was about to pass

-Megumi was having trouble sleeping one night and he and Tsumiki were playing hand shadows. and then. DOGS. Tsumiki screamed but then started coddling them whereas Megumi was just like shocked. 

-Megumi was confused at Tsumiki’s naivety but eventually the dogs melted into the shadows again  

-Enter creepy dude with white hair. 

-Tsumiki saw him talking to Megumi, got a broom, and attempted to whack this giraffe on the head 

-But infinity kicked in, and Gojo was invited inside to explain everything. 

-Literally everything. Tsumiki asked a lot of questions and was taking notes. If this was something Megumi would be involved in, she had to know as much as she could. They would have been more skeptical had Megumi not discovered   his technique. 

-Gojo stayed the night by accident, and woke up to Megumi and Tsumiki using the stove, cooking food etc and he wasn’t surprised that they could do this, but rather annoyed that a second grader and first grader could do this and he couldn’t. 

-When Gojo ‘officially’ became their guardian, he teleported into the house with party poppers and the certificate yelling “IM YOUR GUARDIAN!” 

-Tsumiki just was in shock for a moment before politely smiling. She was more of an adult than this teenager at this point. 

-Megumi just deadpanned and went “Why”. 

-They had a nice little dinner after that, and because Gojo would always spoil them, they both got luxuries they never had before. 

-They got like phones and ipads or ipods or whatever was the most popular product at the time. Tsumiki was so grateful and embarrassed whereas Megumi was annoyed but accepting. 

-Tsumiki and Megumi would eat dinner together, and with Gojo whenever he came 

-Tsumiki kept on trying to get Megumi to open up a lot more, and he always gets annoyed over it and will rarely ever talk about how he’s feeling

-Except that one night when Megumi had a nightmare that he was alone. Alone in the shadows, unable to summon anything to help him or comfort him, and just wandering down a dark, dark road. At one point, he entered a hall of mirrors, and he saw Tsumiki in one. He was so scared at that point that he kept on trying to get to her but she changed mirrors every time. Megumi shattered every mirror with his fists, cutting them open. In the end, all that was left was a lily flower. 

-Megumi, aged 10, woke up crying silent tears and ran into Tsumiki’s room. Tsumiki woke up, concerned but aware that her prying would get her nowhere. She sat up and Megumi hugged her so tight. He ended up sleeping in her room for the next week after that. 

-”Megumi..’ 

-” I’m gonna protect you-” 

-”i.... okay.’ 

-Tsumiki never curses... unless talking about her father, her mother, and Megumi’s dad 

-They are both aware Gojo killed him, he almost let it slip when first meeting Megumi and he relayed the info to Tsumiki. 

-One time, Gojo asked about Tsumiki’s parents. Megumi was asleep at that point and Gojo was terrified. 

-seeing the nice, angel, sunshine 12 year old he knew for years curse worse than Utahime whenever Gojo was remotely near her?? 

-Please, Tsumiki’s abandonment issues are off the chart. That’s why sometimes she gets too involved in Megumi’s life because she cannot lose him. No matter what. He’s her little brother who’ll scold her if she works too much or tries to take care of too many people. 

-Now... for some reason, I Headcanon Tsumiki has lesbian, or having at least some kind of wlw vibes. Idk why... 

-Tsumiki told Megumi first ofc, and he didn’t understand why it was a big deal. 

-”Ok and?” 

-”y-you don’t think it’s weird?” 

-”You can like who you like, it isn’t hurting anyone. If you wanna date a girl, date a girl.” 

-Tsumiki was grateful to have a brother like Megumi 

-Now as for Megumi’s possible coming out for whatever his sexuality (personally i headcanon him as pan, but this will be opened ended for whatever you headcanon) 

-Tsumiki just got so happy for him. Began researching everything about it. 

-”AWWW MEGS!!” 

-hugs. lots of hugs. Always. 

-As they got older, they started to but heads more. but despite whatever petty arguments or fights they had, at the end of the day, they loved each other and would do anything for each other. 

-and sadly... I gotta add some part of 

AFTER THE CURSE: 

-Megumi came in yelling and screaming. The denial?? He was convinced this was some prank to get him to stop fighting kids. 

-It broke Gojo’s heart. It was the most emotion he ever saw from Megumi and that kind of hysterical accusation of it being a prank soon dissolved into full on sobbing. Gojo hugged the boy as tight as Tsumiki would 

-”Never again... I’m... I’m going to get stronger. Then no curse will hurt her again... that’ll work right?” 

-Gojo patted the boy head. “Yea... it will. But it won’t be easy.” 

-Megumi’s emotions settled and he quickly wiped his tears away. His emotionless expression returned but it was different... There was more fire, more resolve, as he said “i know.” 

-Every Friday he visits Tsumiki. He tells her everything that happened in the week.

-”And then he ate it. Tsumiki he may be more naive then you. He ate the finger.” 

-When talking to Tsumiki, he reveals his ability to tell stories. Like it’s amazing. He can distinctively set up a scene  and gets a little more emotion  in his voice. 

-God Forbid if Kugisaki or Itadori ever saw him when he told Tsumiki stories

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WOO! This has been in my drafts for a while, so here! I hope you enjoyed!

Thanks for reading!

#jujutsu kaisen #jjk #fushiguro megumi #fushiguro tsumiki #megumi headcanons #satoru gojo #gojo satoru #jjk headcanons #jjk anime #anime #siblings #toji fushiguro

[therealtsk]

tsk i’m DYING to hear your play-by-play on which worm characters have dumb fanon interpretations

UH OH YOU JUST OPENED THE FLOODGATES so the short answer is pretty much every major character but I am a high-effort bitch so let's do this: Taylor Hebert: jfc, I could probably hit a word count limit talking about Taylor alone. First you have the dumb as shit TINO (Taylor In Name Only) phenomenon where people just straight up SI as Taylor but pretend it's her and she's basically a different person wearing Taylor's skin like an ill-fitting suit. Then there's the Memetic Escalator Taylor interpretation where Taylor's Warlord era characterization is flanderized so hard that she turns into her world's version of Doomguy where her response to literally everything is ultra violence, mutilation and torture and she can totally beat up anyone you guys hahah coin sock goes brrrrr you go brutalize those totally deserving victims queen. And then there's shy, stuttering, soft spoken "useless lesbian" Taylor which is not as common but still, fuckin straight men and the way they infantize gay women. Taylor is perhaps the most consistently inconsistent characterization I've seen in fandom, it's fucking wild Lisa Wilbourn: Has two fanon settings. Taylor's best friend who exists solely to give exposition and get the "Stop Coil" subplot rolling (occasional gay subtext will be added in a way that feels fetishy) Or, the evil bitchy blonde who is first target of the SI. I constantly wonder if the people who write the frankly masturbatory SI's are aware that we can tell they're still bitter about girls not dating them in highschool. Brian: basically does not exist in fic aside from the occasional joke cause racism and also because of how popular wlw ships are in Worm fandom. you deserve better dude Alec: has a few token appearances in wormfic fandom that usually have him as the comic relief alongside Aisha, which might actually be for the best considering he's a rapist and the Worm fandom's uhhhh tendencies. Moving on- Aisha: prankster girl that alt!Taylor will adopt as a younger sibling. hopefully is not part of the totally-not-a-harem considering she's even younger then the rest of these teens Bitch: Another girl to fall into alt!Taylor's definitely-not-a-harem, but with more butch tendencies. Basically has no personality in fanon outside of her dogs Parian: SHE DOESN'T HAVE A SHOP FFS also another member of Taylor's totally-not-a-harem Flechette: yeah it's a harem Sophia: holy shit you think Brian's bad? The racism in pretty much every fanon depiction of Sophia is off the charts. Hyper-violent, super edgy, "predator/prey" speech inbound, will get humilated/killed in some new, supposedly satisfying but actually just deeply uncomfortable way, probably throw in some E88 shit too just because Emma: again, do the writers know we can tell they're still malding over the fact that the pretty girls in highschool didn't date them? fanon emma is pretty much a cardboard cut out of whoever was mean to the author. something something bitches three Madison: in fanon has a C53 fetish, occasionally is also Browbeat. don't ask why Victoria: gets hit with the blonde stereotypes even harder then Lisa, "Collateral Damage Barbie" is one of the phrases that activates my flight or fight responses. she basically is an entirely different character in fanon. bubbly dumb blonde girl with a massive temper and well other sexist bullshiit Amy: I hate even touching this character with a ten foot pole but basically is hit with the "soft useless lesbian" trope hard enough to make her into a completely separate person from her canon self. whether or not this is a good thing is still up for debate Carol: in fanon, an evil bitch who exists solely to bully Amy Mark: who? The rest of New Wave: cannon fodder for Leviathan Danny Hebert: literally stale milk instead of a personality, will probably die before the fic is over but we won't care because the author did not care either Armsmaster: hahaha robotman go brrrr or is an arrogant self-aggrandizing shit, can't interact with people without Dragon helping him 24/7 Miss Militia: fanon bat'd into team mom,

idk where this came from considering her first instinct upon seeing children is to pull out a gun holy shit wait is she actually Taylor's true mom- Velocity: canon fodder for levi Battery & Assault: sitcom wife, sitcom husband! please ignore how fucked up this relationship is if you look at it for more than two seconds Dauntless: haha armsy is JEALOUS also cannon fodder for levi Triumph: who? The BB wards in general tend to be incredibly bland, the only ones who have fanon personalities of note are Clockblocker and Vista. The former being such a huge prankster that every other line is a joke- or him complaining about how BULLSHIT Alt!Taylor's powers are. Vista is an angry kiddo who says that Shadow Stalker doesn't count as being a girl on the team The E88: no personality for any of them except that Kaiser is noble and really isn't that bad and also Purity did nothing wrong totally she's just a hot mom trying to do her best, please ignore how she exclusively targets characters of color and literally calls white criminals more civilized than miniorities- the worm fandom has something of a nazi problem i hate it here The ABB: racism and honorable samurai lung even though that has no canon basis so again, racist stereotypes The Slaughterhouse 9: This one makes me just as sad as the Lisa shit because dear god this is such a good cast of villains that fanon completely flattens to bowling pins for the Alt!Taylor of the week to mow down, why does this fandom suck so much. Anyway Jack is just the Joker, Crawler is masochistic, etc i'm moving on now The PRT/Protectorate as a whole: They are an evil paramilitary organization that pressgangs kids into signing up to become child soldiers, and somehow at the same time, they are a bunch of idiots who listen to the PR department and have stupid things like RULES that prevent capes from COMMITTING VIOLENCE. Being called "the biggest gang of all" is common and some shit like "at least the criminals are honest" is a likely statement. Cauldron: whoo boy this one really boils my blood but fanon Cauldron are just a bunch of evil idiots who can't even tie their shoelaces. basically a bunch of dudebros are upset that women run the world and that two of them essentially have "I win" powers so they have to make them lose to their SI- er, Taylor in fics so they can assuage their masculinity, which totally isn't pathetic Scion: Is at once the end all be all of worm you can't write a wormfic without scion or else it's TOTALLY MEANINGLESS because what is the point of a story if all the characters are going to DIE in a few years anyway, and at the same time is incredibly easy to defeat- this ties into how Cauldron is stupid. Scion Truthers pls shut up and go read something else okay I think that's everyone I would apologize but the only thing I'm sorry for is how messy this is

#Worm #Parahumans #Worm Fanfic #Worm Fanon #if you can't tell #I'm a little annoyed with the worm fanfic fandom #dear SI writers stop being such creeps #and nazis pls fucking leave we don't want you here go away

[jazajas]

okay so i finished love, victor a while ago and i saw some other reviews and thoughts about it here so now i've got a pretty good list on my thoughts and feelings.

tl;dr: it has some issues, yes, but im gonna hold out and hope it gets better later on because the same thing happened with the first few eps, i wasn't that into it but then it got good, and nothing is ever great with the first season, because at that point we're getting used to those characters.

⚠️caution: spoilers ahead (im on mobile, i cant get an under-the-cut)⚠️

1. while a leah on the offbeat movie would have been amazing movie sequel (even tho i havent read the book yet, im just here for the wlw content) i am kind of glad we got this instead. mostly because I've seen book series where one movie was good, so they decide to do the rest, turn out bad (hunger games? divergent? percy jackson? the hobbit?) because so much was cut from the book-to-first movie writing, that other scenes wouldn't make sense to future movies if they had those in while cutting others. however, i am sad that i didn't get to make the choice of deciding whether what was cut was wrong etc. about future movies, but i'll take what i can get.

2. LGBTQ+ POC as a lead! that's amazing! as a ace/bi lantina that's close to home (it also is great that victor's from texas and so is ya gorl) and even then it's a mixed latinx family! i think pilar mentioned that at least the grandmother left Colombia and i saw the Puerto Rican flag in victor's room. also the salazar's are definitely from small town texas, even without knowing the name. (church barbeques, the use of the words "such a diverse city" in regards to atlanta)

3. a lack of actual lgbtq+ main storylines (so far) is kind of sad for a show like this. i was getting serious bi/pan vibes (as a lot of other people) from victor from the beginning, and when it was implied that victor was actually gay (while great, not shaming) as it has been brought to my attention, there was a lot of looking at a lot of straight relationship problems (please let us know more about benji)- edit 6/18: upon further consideration, it very much is a show about questioning your sexuality, I'm speaking about the other straight relationship issues, not mia and Victor's, its just the first season.

4. let us talk about cheating for a sec. never okay, in any circumstance. i feel sorry for mia that she saw victor making out with benji and the fact that he was doing any of that in the first place. victor made a choice to lie about the espresso machine and then kissed benji at the hotel and then when benji was fighting with derek, basically confessed his love and mistakes, then proceeded to makeout with benji after he broke up with derek, he built that grave and now he must lie in it. i get having feelings for a guy when you are in a relationship with a girl, and not accepting yourself enough to end that relationship but you really want it to work so you can be "normal". really, he should have told mia after he got back from the trip tho. i get being in highschool and doing stupid stuff and making dumb decisions, but for a show aimed at teens i think we should also remind said teens to make good choices even if we have to lose some realism within the character choices.

4. pilar and her decisions based off her brother pissed me off. because i honestly think that if she'd kept her mouth shut about what she knew or confronted victor about it in the first place we could have avoided a LOT of mess. did she not learn from snooping around her mother's business about her relationships that going behind a person's back doesnt end well? i did, however, like the pilar/felix friendship and was really kind of hoping that they'd get together during their coffee hangout (although now im glad that didn't happen) because they had a deeper understanding of each other. same with wendy/felix, although they do seem to much alike to work out in the long run but i still feel bad for wendy.

5. i don't know how i feel about lake and andrew, as people separate from each other. both seem to be the way they are from their upbringing (not confirmed why andrew is such an ass, but if his comment about his dad is anything to go by i bet it's got something to do with attention) but andrew seems to be less, idk, superficial? like he turned down mia because he didn't want to be a rebound, he didn't out victor, he actually stood up to early teasing the other dudes in the lockerroom were doing at victor (with teasing of his own obviously but that interaction had him on my nice list until much later). lake? lake. i honestly don't have an opinion of her? not really. i mean after hanging out with pilar i was hoping felix wouldn't go back to lake. is her name laken? i feel like her full name is laken. but they also played the "im only like this because my mom is really superficial about stuff and i do like the geeky nice guy but appearances" to "actually screw the norms im gonna makeout with him infront of the whole student body". i honestly thought she was gonna be bi because she kept hitting on mia when she was helping set up for her "date" and "big night" and there was one point where i saw her face fall at something mia said in relation to her and idk i was hoping she'd be bi (i figured early on that victor/mia wasnt gonna work and was like "oh mia/lake would be cute" but now idk.

6. okay on to the "big night", i have one word. NO. i didn't like the peer pressure into having sex. i agreed with felix when he said "your body your choice" but im also disappointed that victor made out with mia and when lake was talking to felix after victor left he didn't try to stand up for victor.

7. on to age gaps because i hadn't really thought of this at first. we'll start with benji/derek: WHAT GRADE IS BENJI?! because that determines my thoughts. if he's a sophomore that meant that he and Derek started dating benji's freshman year and thats eugh, don't do that, don't care if its a gay couple that shouldn't be happening because the maturity of the two characters is DRASTICALLY different (this is also a reason i am not a fan of cmbyn) but that would explain why they were so rocky. hoping the event at the gay bar was open to anyone not just for drinking, but not liking that fact that not one of the adults with victor were like: hey, this is a 16 year old, that's kind of wack when that dude was hitting on victor. that made me question some stuff. although i figure it might be making up for the lack of a gay bar scene in love, simon. but even then, in svthsa it's a restaurant with a bar that some people go to just to drink at, it wasn't just a bar, simon could be there but should NOT have accepted drinks from college kids, not matter how attractive.

8. i loved how bram and simon and their friends helped victor out though. i like how bram was like: hey i know my friends are a lot so here's a gay basketball league becaue there's no one way to be gay. i like how Simon talked about needing help himself just to help victor and how he said his friends were cool with it because it's a community. i like of justin(?) mentioned how being what his parents wanted was putting on a mask and pretending, not him doing drag. my favorite lines from that ep are: "and before you ask my pronouns are they/them/theirs" "'they're all gay? even that guy? he's like [insert really tall number]' 'yeah. you should see him in heels'" "or in simon's case: really unathletic" "and also because bram said that if i wore [the jean jacket] one more time he'd burn it". also katya was there. and the group hug too!

9. the back hand homophobia in relation to family is sad, but realistic and i sincerely hope his parents are kind enough not to be too harsh on victor because of it. anything they say that isn't positive or supportive of victor is bad but i hope they realize that there is more to him than that and that they can come to terms with it because it's not always that hard to be a part of that community and super religious. i am biromantic and catholic. and while there are some things i wont agree on my mom with, i know that it's more of a strike against God for kicking out gay kids from families than it is to be gay, because those parents were given trust by GOD to love those kids no matter what, and be good parents. so in the end, the parents are wrong and harmful and in the case of christians against jesus's teachings to love everyone.

10. this is fan speculation but dont think simon/bram are going through a rough patch? i honestly think it'd be a little cruel to the characters to have on of their actors be producing but then not have that relationship stay. and while it's not set in stone and obviously things happen in the real world, we have no proof script wise about there being a rift. all we have are bad photoshopped ig photos and scenes where two characters are never standing next to each other probably beccaue schedules never link up correctly for minor characters. who knows, maybe nick robinson was filming for a movie where is does have an even more major role than victor's gay guru in a series about victor so his filming time was around that. im gonna keep hope that things are okay.

11. that being said: we need more mainstream wlw content, because someone said it earlier and it really does seem to be catering to straight girls. i'll admit i did freak out when benji played call me maybe which is something i associated with him and victor but then kissed a guy because who wouldn't? we get that serenade and sweetness and then it'a ripped from us. but i did mellow out. if i flipped later it was because victor was making dumb decisions and i had to give myself a moment of compsure before i continued.

in the end, i'd say that there is a lot of growth this series needs to go through, but i also know that some people just aren't going to like it and i get that. but i also know that sometimes the best of stories have rocky starts, nothing is ever perfect from the beginning. and besides, further seasons are on hold until we figure out this covid thing, which means that you bet they're gonna be looking at our feedback. they saw what we thought before, they can do it again

i really did like it but we need more ACTUAL lgbtq+ relationship stuff from this series and better decisions on what we are teaching the younger generations, as well as what we want to focus on and realism within characters. i'm giving it an 8/10, because there is always room for growth and i really hope we get better things out of this than what we have been given in season 2.

edit: someone mentioned it really seeming like it was meant for Disney+ and i felt that. also to anyone who reaches the tags agter reading ALL OF THIS: i am sorry

#love victor spoilers #love victor #love simon #simon vs the homosapiens agenda #leah on the offbeat #simon spier #bram greenfeld #victor salazar #felix weston #jas rambles #i have opinions #and i am very tired #just like in general #like my current state of being #although i am tired of straight being constantly shoved down the thoughts of lgbtq+ people #and like the state of the world because people are bigoted a-holes #but like #it's nice that they upped the airing because they didn't want to conlfict with juneteenth #although now im questioning motives on why #was is out of support? or the want if making money #who knows #i sure dont #i hoped there aren't too many grammatical errors

[yurtletheturtlehenderson]

Yurtle's 2021 Writing Projects

COSMIC: Will Byers x Reader - MALE READER + NON BINARY READER VERSIONS -> plot, dialogue, and love interest will remain the same, but I will finally be fulfilling a promise I made after far too long of making two more copies of this series that will allow readers of he/him pronouns to hopefully feel more represented, as well as readers who prefer they/them pronouns. You deserve an escape just as much as anyone else and im truly sorry its taken me this long. These versions are already in development as I type this out. This will include all seasons, and is something I am working out for Scars That Heal, and all my other stories as well.

AN UNFORTUNATE REWRITE: ASOUE x Reader - Love Interest Change -> Previously Klaus Baudelaire x Reader will now be a Violet Baudelaire x Reader. I asked you guys about this a while ago and I was met with a lot of enthusiasm. And honestly I'm getting worried about my lack of enthusiasm for this series and I don't want to give up on it, not when I've barely given the series a try. And truthfully, exploring Violet as an LI intrigues me more than Klaus. And the deciding factor in all this was Klaus Baudelaire has a small handful of x readers available whereas Violet doesn't have any. Not that I've found. I'm very sorry if this upsets you, but this is a decision I've thought a lot about for months actually and I think it will help get me through to the next season which is where Reader's backstory really starts to kick in. Thank you guys for understanding and I'd be more than happy to talk about it with you guys more if you'd like 💞

I AM NOT IN LOVE WITH HER: IANOWT x Reader -> okay. So this one has really been eating at me all year. I wanna write this one SO BAD. but I just... don't have any ideas. So, if you don't mind, I'd love to brainstorm with you guys if any of you have time. I really really want to make it a Syd x Reader or a Dina x Reader. I love both with all my heart. Don't get me wrong, I love Stanley Barber with all I am, but I just. I can't do a rewrite with him. I'm sorry. All I've got so far for ideas is Syd being in love with Dina as it is in the show and Reader being in love with Syd. I'm thinking Reader has a little brother or sister that is Goob's age that is best friends with Goob, and that this is how Syd and Reader know one another but everything I try to go over the plot in my head I can't find a way to bring them together? I really thought I'd get more ideas with even a hint of what they had planned for season 2 but 😤😡 yeah. Now I have to smush it all together and wrap it up in a bow, or at least I feel pressured to. Anyways, what I'm trying to say is, those are my only solid ideas, and I am ALWAYS open to literally whatever ideas you have and more than happy to hear them, whether they're half baked ideas that came to you from some random shit post or some fully fleshed out power point presentation 😂 all my ideas are one or the other anyway, no in between lol. Point is, help is always appreciated as I do NOT want to give up on this beautiful, well crafted story and its wonderful characters 🥰💞

THE STOLEN UMBRELLA: Diego Hargreeves x Reader -> As I've mentioned before, season one has left the planning stage and is now currently ready to be written. All I need to do is finish planning season 2. Currently, I am on episode 3, The Swedish Job. There's not much I can tell you about this series that I haven't already shared but I can say what makes this rewrite an AU [if it wasn't already clear]; Vanya Hargreeves was never lied to and grew up as the seventh Umbrella Academy member. And yet, her siblings have still shut her out leaving them all with the same dynamic from the show... This book will feature my very first OC! I will explain more later, but the "faceclaim" is none other than the talented Ewan McGregor. I am very much excited for you guys to meet G.R.E.G.O.R.Y. 😇

And finally...

[working title] Not What You Expected: Hermione Granger x Fem!Reader -> This was the big one. For me at least. Doing a Harry Potter rewrite is a big commitment but I honestly just snapped when I didn't see any Hermione x Readers. My goal, the whole vibe im gonna shoot for is wholesome 90s wlw [witches loving witches lol I'm sorry I couldn't resist]. Reader would be adopted by Hagrid as an infant and will have been raised on the grounds by Hagrid cause I'm sorry but he's just SUCH A mum DAD. Another little twist? Veela are supposed to be strictly blonde with "moon bright skin" well since id be the author id say FUCK THAT and bend canon and say anyone of any ethnicity can be Veela, cause yall are beautiful in all shapes, sizes and colors 😍 so basically Reader will be half Veela and just casually charm the pants off of everybody with her veela magic ESPECIALLY Hermione 😉😊. Like im sorry can you just imagine Reader all covered in dirt from helping her dad on the grounds and seeing Hermione and Hermione just 😳 *gay gulp* and then reader opening her mouth an then greeting her with the heavy west country accent and oh no Hermione didn't realize how pretty girls were and for heavens sake, surely this girl knew she had a bowtruckle on her shoulder clinging to her ear and wait. She's ALSO memorized all of Hogwarts a History and- oh no... Like, im sorry but I have NO self control and I just have to write this. Bonus, Harry Potter may or may not but definitely will be Reader's Designated Himbo Friend™ and yes this is what I was asking you guys on your input for earlier. I totally understand and respect putting reader in Gryffindor and Slytherin, both are wonderful choices for story paths for reader. But im gonna do my best to bring as much representation to the table as I can and use the most underrepresented house cause everyone deserves to feel represented as much as they possibly can ☺ i sincerely hope you guys are as excited for this as I am, please let me know what you think about this one as I was pretty nervous to share this idea with you guys. [EDIT: I have a title!! MUDBLOODS & HALF-BREEDS !!]

Thank you guys so much for reading, I know I word vomit a lot 😄 I do promise you my current WIPs have not been neglected and I actually have been working on them a fairly equal amount. Scars That Heal has actually been written for a while but needs to be tied up and I need to find a satisfying way to wrap up the chapter. But anyways, I hope you guys are as excited about these announcements as I am and I can't wait to share them with you! Love you all! 🥰

💕💕💕 - Yurtle

#announcement #cosmic #cosmic 1 #cosmic 2 #cosmic 3 #cosmic 2.0 #an unfortunate rewrite #tsu ☂️ #ianilwh #hermione x fem!reader #hp reader insert #hp rewrite #nwye #sth🎈 #yurtle 2021

[williamaltman]

Luke/Alex Rant

Negativity Alert.

So, ugh, the whole Luke/Alex being exes thing actually brings me so much pain, and it’s like no one understands me :(

I’m actually gonna start with the part that’s gonna make people hate me, which is probably not the best idea when looking for sympathy/empathy/understanding, but oh well, it just makes the most sense to me to write it like that... Thanks for those who bear with me.

First of all... It’s not really canon. I mean, maybe it could be. Maybe they could make it in s2. But I’m tired of people saying it’s straight up confirmed, putting it on wikis and everything. Owen and Charlie were just chatting, joking around and having fun with the fans on live, they weren’t being completely serious.

They clearly like to support fan theories, headcanons, ships. Yet on actual serious interviews they have never mentioned that. They have even talked about how Flynn/Reggie was supposed to be a thing, but not that. Not once did it come up when talking about LGBT representation on the show either(why would they not say Luke isn’t straight?).

I understand having a headcanon and feeling validated when the actors support it but it seems like most people legit can’t tell the difference between that and actual officially canon things? It seems like people either think this is actually written in the show(which we don’t have any evidence of) or that the actors have the authority to decide what’s canon just like the writers/showrunners/directors, which... It’s just not true?

Now, why it actually upsets me.

Well, just for starters... IT’S SO SAD??? I really don’t get what joy people get into characters being broken up??? And I mean, the fact that they stayed friends and are still fine with each other is nice I guess, and I see why that could be appreciated... But at the same time the one thing that made people get this idea was when they held hands in episode 2 when they got scared... With the idea being that Luke instinctively went to Alex to cope, and then Alex said “Let’s not” as in “Let’s not make it weird, we’re not together anymore”.

Which is so freaking sad??? The idea that they used to be each other’s emotional support and now even though they’re friends they can never really be that close anymore? Which, means that things are NOT just completely fine like ~UwU happy exes~??? Same for the also popular "evidence" that Luke supposedly looked sad when he realized Alex liked Willie.

And so, we go to the fact that... They’re clearly not happening “again". Willex and Juke/Palina are the ships. I see most people who are into this saying they’re into the current ships anyway and want for them to thrive and for Luke/Alex to stay only in the past. Which, I mean... I KINDA get, liking ships in the past but wanting them to move on. But that makes more sense to me when it’s something that it’s actually in the thing, not something that’s not shown and you’re pushing to happen only to add heartbreak that didn’t need to be there.

EVEN THEN, pushing that aside and understanding liking this idea of them in the past... Why need for that to be canon then??? If it’s all about the fanfics and fanarts and aesthetics and somewhat suggestive moments to relate to that but nothing actually substantial on the show... Then why push for more than that and open the door for people to get invested and want for them to get back together, when for you nothing’s gonna change either way? It’s so counter-productive.

And if you actually want for them to get back together... Well the idea that the creators of a show targeted at teenage girls would take away the main het ship for a gay one even though there’s already a canon gay ship that doesn’t interfere with anything is ridiculous. So again, keeping it as a headcanon and maybe reading fics where they get a happy ending instead of pushing it as canon it’s the best idea possible too.

Ok, I didn’t mean for this post to be so argumentative and combatitive. I meant for it to be more about my feelings really. But now that I feel like I’ve actually brought good arguments to my stance, there’s that feeling that actually exposing my real emotional reason to think like that is gonna “ruin it” and just invalidate everything... But well, I guess that’s too bad, and if anyone’s taking this seriously at all, which most likely isn’t the case, I again ask you to cut me some slack and not just think everything I said is dumb as hell because of what comes later? Like let’s be real here, we’re all coming from some kind of emotional place here, right? Even getting so attached to fictional characters at all.

So, the thing is, I WOULD LOVE LUKEALEX SO MUCH. The possible dynamic and/or tropes/archetypes that they could have would be literally my weakness. It’s already my weakness. In fact what I might consider my very first serious ship already has it. And god, did I suffer for that, and in the end I don’t even know if the results were worthy and if I’m even sure of what they were. 

And that ship was actually a wlw one. A mlm one(I’m a gay guy) makes it 10x worse(the fact that Luke is like totally the kind of character I’m attracted to and Charlie is also like, perfect, doesn’t help either). It would make me invested in a way that would probably already be too much if they were together, but them being exes just absoutely DESTROYS ME. Like on a visceral level.

And the fact that the idea is most of the time that Luke was the one who was there for Alex when he came out. And that maybe Luke was his first love. And now that's gone. It absolutely kills me. It’s so so so tragic.

Like, I actually read a fic like this. Before this whole thing became so popular and Owen/Charlie said anything about it. And it destroyed me. I bawled my eyes out for like an hour. As well-written and touching as it was, it wasn’t worthy, it was definetely not worth suffering so much like a month after reading it.

So it’s just so painful that for most people this is just a cute little thing that doesn’t affect them at all while it truly hurts me so much :/

So yeah, this is my rant. It should probably have been two separate posts, one talking about how I don’t think it’s really canon and one why i don’t want to... Cause as I said, I feel like no one is gonna take me seriously while if I ended it on the arguing part it would lend more credence to it. And I do think people desparately need to take a step back in regards to how they’re considering this 100% confirmed canon(or even anything besides a little teasing).

But I had to vent I guess. Please be kind enough not to come here fight me. Edit: I didn’t mention this at first cause it’s kind of not the main reason and not relevant to LukeAlex specifically, but: I value canon MLM ships A LOT, and watching the show I loved Willex so much and saw nothing between Luke and Alex, so I do 100% want to focus on the canon ship instead of going down this route of hyping up a crackship(that wouldn’t be a crackship if the exes thing was made canon, and might not even classify a crackship even now, but still). I’m not trying to make a point about how people who ship LukeAlex are evil (because, in a way, I do too!), and I definetly don’t want to throw the racism card, but yeah. Just a little extra point to make.

#Anti LaLex #Anti Luke x Alex #Anti LukeAlex #Anti Lulex #LukeAlex #Luke x Alex #Alex x Luke #Anti Alex x Luke #I mean not really #but I guess I have to tag it like that #Luke Patterson #Alex #Julie and the Phantoms #JATP #Rant #Vent #Long Post

[queerchoicesblog]

The Understudy

Hiya, folks! So, as previously announced, the wlw writing project continues after a break with a miniseries set back in Vienna, one of the iconic capitals of opera at the time of Mozart. An emerging singer gets the chance to be an understudy in the latest Mozart’s discussed opera Le Nozze di Figaro (The Marriage of Figaro), that  premiered at the Burgtheater in Vienna on 1 May 1786, w and play the pants role of the page Cherubino. Preparing for the role doesn’t quite go as planned… .

I took the liberty to add a few Italian words every now and there so here are all the useful translations that might come in handy as you read: cara (dear, female adjective), una meraviglia (a true wonder).

Tagging: @scottishqueer​

Previous wlw miniseries: Ancient Greece, Italian Renaissence, Belle Epoque Paris, Sixties.

Hope you enjoy it: if you do, please consider spreading the word!

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"So...will you do it?" The voice is calm just like the honeyed smile on her lips, but the look in the primadonna's eyes is unmistakable: the great Adriana Ferrarese can't wait to see me out of the door. She's a seasoned professional, she knows how to conceal her displease but I'm not dumb: a jewelled hand rested over Da Ponte's tight and eyes following every single move I make, every single breath I take, she's clearly conveying that my presence is no longer welcome here. It never was, I think: it surely wasn't her idea to invite me here today! Has she tried to dissuade the Maestro from summoning me, I wonder? I'm surprised she failed: you know what they say, feminine wiles can work miracles on men, make them change their minds like a vain girl changes clothes yet...here I am. And she's fuming underneath her well practiced poise. Poor Ferrarese, my blonde curls, my youth must be a threat to her especially in front of him. Ah, I knew that the rumours were true: she's the Italian operatic librettist's mistress! Cunning little devil...of course she gets all the best roles now. Before everyone else.

I join her game and pretend not to notice the subliminal messages she keeps throwing me. I fan myself nonchalantly, pondering the offer I've just received. I am a bit confused: I really don't know what to think of it or how to take it. "Let me get this straight, Maestro" I say, ignoring her and addressing Da Ponte. "You beg me to come here with great haste and ask me to be a last minute understudy for a...page role?" I may not be as famous as his mistress but it's an insult! True, my career hasn't reached its peak yet but I'm not the new girl desperate to get a role: I have adoring admirers throwing flowers and screaming my name whenever I walk into the stage after the grand finale. Who does he think he's talking to? He must understand my disappointment because he's quick to reassure me. "Miss Constanze, Cherubino is not a simple page" he smiles apologetically. "The whole opera revolves around the world of counts and servants, you know Herr Mozart is an innovator, an unconventional spirit...if I remember correctly, you have already worked with him" "Correct" I concede. I'm curious to see where this is going, how he will convince me to accept this. "Well, this new opera has already been a success and trust me: the people of Vienna won't tire of it anytime soon! And the role we kindly asked you to be an understudy for is the most loved by our audience, I assure you. Ask around if you don't believe me: those who attended the opera are head over heels for the Count's page, they recall his scenes, sing his arias underneath their breath...the audience is crazy for him! That's why we couldn't ask just anyone to replace the original singer, but only a refined, talented woman like you, Miss Konstanze" There's a note of pride in his voice. I must give him, it's not surprising that there servant or unconventional roles in Mozart's operas - in The Abduction from the Seraglio I played one of the harem girls - but by the brief description he gave me of the plot I cannot bring myself to understand how the audience can fall in love with a page who doesn't even have an aria for the whole third act and is constantly sidelined. It doesn't make sense: it's a recipe for oblivion to my ears. But he's right: the Wedding is the talk of the town so I should probably say yes anyway, even if no, I don't enjoy the idea of being sidelined. I mean, we all want to glow on stage and bask in the light and audience's adoration. We want their applauses meant for us alone, ringing in our ears when the curtains raise for one last blessed time, we want flowers thrown at us, we want glory. And I am not sure this Cherubino will be my ally on that front if there are two major romances in the main plot already. And even if the audience showed a liking for the page, well I must remember I am not the first singer so my performance will not avoid comparisons. The Maestro speaks again, derailing my line of thoughts. "You see, dear Miss Constanze, Cherubino is not a main character yet he is essential to the plot: without him the whole story wouldn't make sense! One could say that he bears the comedic side of the opera over his young shoulders and even if he doesn't get as many arias as other characters, oh, his are as sweet as cherries, una meraviglia! No wonder the audience loves him...and the restricted number of arias to study might help you prepare properly within such a short notice if you kindly offer your help-" "I would have prepared properly even if I had the double amount of arias within such a short notice, caro Maestro" I interrupt him, just in case he forgot who he is talking to, again. He bows his head, dramatically placing a hand on his heart in display of apology. "But of course, your outstanding professionalism is not questioned here, Miss. To prove it, let me tell you that Herr Mozart was particularly happy when I suggested your name for poor Dorotea's understudy". His mistress' smile is now so tight I have to summon every ounce of professionalism to refrain myself from bursting into a loud insolent laughter. "That's incredibly kind of you, Maestro: I really don't know how to thank you" I purr instead, unable to resist: how could I miss a chance to tease - and piss off! - the primadonna? La Ferrarese throws me a side look I will never forget: I wonder if she has a dagger hidden underneath her skirt and will chase me in the streets in the heat of jealousy when I turn my back at her. Sounds like a scene out of one of those Italian operas, I consider, amused. Do Italians do that offstage too? She only has to dare though: I am younger than her and I have claws too. "Say yes then, Miss" he proposes, radiant. "If you ask me, Herr Mozart thinks you are the best choice and the perfect Cherubino. Say yes, cara Constanze". His face is an expectant plea and I have a feeling that if his mistress wasn't here, he would be begging me on his knees to accept this role. Honestly, I don't know what to make of Herr Mozart's comment about me being just "perfect" to pass for a boy...am I not feminine enough for him in my skirts, tight corset and jewellery a wealthy admirer keeps giving? Whatever. That man is a genius maybe but he's certainly a weirdo. But I think I should accept: it's not the most flattering offer but no one reached the top without taking an understudy role at least once. And so here I am, a week later, in the room of one of Da Ponte's personal friends and composer to help me prepare for the new performance. I don't have much time, not even a month, but his flattery won me. I can do this. I must admit that I'm secretly happy to know that Herr Mozart won't direct the new revivals: he's a brilliant composer and musician but I still remember his wandering hands. I don't think any woman who worked with him - or simply has been around him for more than a bunch of minutes, I wager - got away without a pinch or a breast squeeze. I fail to understand why so many girls fall madly in love with him or at least confess they can't resist his charm. Even his wife still giggle like a child and melt in front of his "Wolfie", despite his endless and well known - and rather squalid, if you ask me - affairs! I mean, not that this Melchiorri is any different: by the so very discreet looks he keeps throwing at my décolleté or by the way his hands linger a bit too much on my hips when he insists to fix my posture, I bet he wouldn't mind me as his mistress. Another lecherous wop, excellent. I've been around so many by now that I know them by heart: honeyed words, usually blabs a lot in a dreamy voice of how they miss Venice or whatever dear hometown they come from and how much you remind them of this or that flower or woman of their childhood. Too many compliments, strong accent hoping you would fall for their exoticism, fine clothing. Just like Mr. Melchiorri. He's from Milan and is a close friend of Salieri. Sometimes I cannot help but wonder if we let too many Italians here in Vienna: sadly, so far they rule the world of the opera and our Emperor is head over heels for them. Ah, better not tell the Empress> she might throw ond hell of a jealousy tantrum! Melchiorri is very gallant, almost regal even if he loses his composure when he speaks of music. He often asks to excuse his passionate temperament with an apologetic smile but I can't shake my mind that this is just a subtle hint to another passionate temperament he would die to show me if the lingering stares he gives me, mesmerised, as I bite the Italian delights he has ready for me - "delivered directly for you, mia cara, from Italy" - every time I visit him for our private sessions are any indication. They're chestnut chocolate truffles with a pinch of brandy, I wager, covered in withe chocolate with a ruby cherry on top. They're called "capezzoli di Venere", that is nipples of Venus, he revealed one day, a mischievous smile on his face: he was probably hoping to shock me or see me blush profusely. Instead, I barked out a laughter and took a generous bite. I regretted it when he bit his lip clearly refraining himself for making another move. But at least he's a good teacher, I make progresses fast. I've been around too many Melchiorris and Herr Mozarts to be bothered. I mean, obviously I'm bothered that most men thinks we opera singers are just harlots in fancier dresses when we broke our backs studying languages, music and singing hard since a very early age. We didn't sacrifice the best years of our lives only to be mistaken for mannequins with a melodious voice when we sing the arias they wrote. But that's what it is and I must focus now. And it's so difficult at times with men like these. Just like when one day the door of his studio slams open out of the blue while I'm rehearsing an aria and a little boy of three, four years maybe runs inside laughing. He's visibly proud of evading whoever was asked to look after him. True to his "passionate temperament", Melchiorri is suddenly furious. He barely looks at the child and shouts out the name of the unfortunate servant before profusely apologise to me. A terrified young maid comes running and soon chaos takes hold of the room: Melchiorri alternates between tight apologetic smiles in my direction and not so gallant curses he thinks I do not understand to the the poor maid who chases the cheeky little boy with great effort but little success. I must admit it's rather amusing even if I'm wasting my time. Suddenly I have an idea. When finally the maestro shuts up to catch breath, I sing an impromptu elaborate thrill at full voice. The little boy freezes and turns towards in awe while the maid wraps her arms around him: caught! Melchiorri needs a moment to process what happened while the girl flashes me a quick, grateful smile. "There, emergency solved" I announce, beaming. "Can we proceed now, Maestro?"

#wlw writing project #wlw writing #wlw miniseries #original work #lgbtqa+ #vienna #opera

[soda-wax]

CW: internalized homophobia, religious trauma

So I have a question. It's a pretty vulnerable question so this is probably not the best space but I don't know a better space and I'm hoping it will be ok.

So I'm going to ask the question first so you don't have to read through the whole thing. But then explain myself better.

As a women I feel predatory and toxic whenever I express attraction or flirt with another women, specifically in real life. So my question...

What is up with that? Like is this a known phenomenon for wlw people?

Ok now more info:

I am a cis bi women and in a monogamous relationship with a guy who is amazing. Loves and supports me and is an ally. I only came out 2 years ago to everyone. My friends are like a usual amount of flirty with each other. Also girls just do things like play with hair ect anyway. But now I'm out I feel crap about it all. I don't mean flirting with any intention of anything. I literally just mean I feel wrong and bad now in any physically close situation.

All of them are understanding and accepting and affirming. It's all me. As a teen the only girl I got close to was perused by heaps of guys so I never ever wanted to demand stuff from her. I saw them see that she was vulnerable and use her and I actively wanted to just be her best friend and not ask anything more of her. I wanted her to see that she was worth more then what they wanted from her.

Anyway then I became a born again Christian and actively was 'helped' to get rid of any attraction I had to women.

Years latter I am now out and it's honestly the best feeling to not hide it BUT I still feel the same way about every women in my life.

It's so hard to articulate I don't mean that I want to persue anything with anyone.I just mean telling them they look good, makeing gay jokes, hugs everything feels bad! I feel like I am taking advantage. And because as women we talk about very hard stuff I am often in situations with my friends being very very vulnerable. So I'm constantly telling myself to not do anything that could be misconstrued or hurt them. Does this make sense?

Another element of this is now I play DND as a DM and have players that flirt in character who the PC or player is a women and I feel the same way about that too. With all safety tools in place and everyone is enjoying themselves and having fun I still feel like I am taking advantage of the person and being predatory.

So yeah

You are not my therapist

And

This is not your job

But

Have any insights?

Like I'm not even trying to date or sleep with anyone. I just feel crap that the affirmation and happiness I get from attention from my female friends is not what their intention is so I run from it. I don't want to use anyone ever.

Please help......

#deconstructing #bisexaul #queer culture #help #ex christian

[pianoandcookiedoughlover]

my own skam remake??

hey everyone, it’s your girl here, who still doesn’t know what she’s doing.

um

so

i may have messed around and ended up writing a season for my own skam remake?

now for some explanation:

basically, in the months of april/may (i literally cannot remember exactly when) i was like, “hey, i kind of want to write my own skam, taking elements i loved from the og and remakes and still doing my own kind of story."

so that’s what i ended up doing. i started with season 3 because that’s the storyline i connected to the most, just wanting to put my own spin on a story i hold really dearly to my heart. i finished my first draft of it in late june/july and i shared it with a friend of mine - who’s writing i absolutely adore - and she had overall really positive thoughts on it. something that really struck me was that she thought that “people should watch this over 13 reasons why.” now, i’m not here to talk about the often questionable-at-best portrayals of certain things in that show. but it made me think, “i have somewhat of a platform with tumblr, maybe this could help some people, or at the very least be some more content for them while they wait for whatever remake or show they want to see. why not post it?”

and now here we are. posting it. 

soon.

the first clip of season 3 is set on october 17th of this year. what i’m planning to do is schedule all my posts to be released at the time the clips are set, that way it’s almost like the og show just . . . not a tv show.

i’ll also be posting this on ao3, and i’ll drop all the clips of an episode there when the last clip of the episode is released here. i know that the og skam used to have regular weekly episodes but mine are completely chaotic (what a surprise), so while a lot of them end on fridays or saturdays, there are a few that end midweek, so it’s kind of a mixed bag.

it is written in a script style format (a lot of fun to explore since i had never done it before) but as a disclaimer, i am nowhere near being a professional writer and i’ve just been doing this as a fun project. if you have some tips or advice on how to improve, i’d love to hear it, but i just want to make sure that it’s out there that this could probably be done 10x better by someone with script writing experience.

i have been writing my season 1 and 2, and i know generally what plot they’re going to follow, so the stuff mentioned in this season should carry over well. those are set in the fall of 2019 and the spring of 2020 respectively, which obviously have passed, but if this is remotely interesting and you all want to see more, i can absolutely post those when i’m done, they just won’t be exactly matching the days they’re happening. i also want to write a season 4 and 5 at least, and maybe more if they come to mind, but i don’t want to get too in over my head,

so, i guess i should give a little bit of explanation of what it’s about. 

this season focuses on ila (yes wlw representation, we love to see it). this isn’t a carbon copy of the og version (this has 11 episodes, for starters) but i really wanted to keep a lot of things because i have such a big place in my heart for the og season 3. i think i’m going to keep it as vague as that, just because there is something to be said for how fun it is to go into something a little bit blindfolded and be surprised as you go.

i did a lot of research for this entire project, but i haven’t been through everything all of these characters have personally myself. if anyone reading notices anything that is inaccurate or a poor portrayal of a certain group/topic, please please let me know. i want to make this as authentic as i can and i’d much rather redo things that aren’t good representation than leave them be just for the sake of it.

i’ve scheduled another post for a week before the first clip that gives a rundown of all the characters and both their physical characteristics (what i imagine in my head) and their personalities, so hopefully that should give you all that are reading this and planning to read the show an idea.

if you made it through this, thank you so much for reading! i am tagging all of the skam remakes because i feel like this could appeal to anyone who watches any of the remakes. 

so, yeah. that’s what i’ve been up to. let me know if you have any questions or thoughts or if you think this is overall an awful idea and i should burn this entire thing (why don’t i get more self-confidence)

#skam #skam remake #skam france #skam druck #skam italia #skam nl #wtfock #skam españa

[sapphos-darlings]

i really wanted ur opinion on the confusion i’m going through right now. i’m a girl in my early 20’s and i’m confused whether i’m bi or lesbian. as kid i used to have small crushes on men but as i grew up i started “admiring” women more. when i heard boys had crush on me i used to get disgusted by it i still don’t know if it was just the self hate(?) right now there is not going romantically and i’ve never been on relationship bcoz i too busy focusing on other things. i just recently acknowledged that i liked girls both romantic and sexually but i think i still need to improve my thinking about wlws loves and sex aspects. currently i’m having problem if i really like men at all i’m terrified of them and usually think they’re trash but bcoz we’re taught to be in a relationship with them i’ve still have hard time being in relationship with a women and liking fictional men isn’t it so yeah i don’t know if i’m bi leaning towards men or just lesbian in shadows. i’m planning to watch and read more about wlw to improve my thinking. any help would be great thank u ☺️

Hello, Anon!

My opinion on this is that you’re going through something very ordinary for all woman-loving women. Making these distinctions in our orientation and sorting out our feelings is difficult, and some people never find all the answers.

The question of “is this authentically me or is this social pressure or internalized sexism/homophobia” is especially difficult. On one hand, of course we are shaped by our environment and culture, there are profound parts of yourself that wouldn’t be like that if you haven’t been raised in your culture and current society, and that doesn’t make them any less you.

But on the other hand, there are also profound parts of you that the culture wants to frame a certain way or would prefer to erase all together. I think especially us women have a staggering amount of expectations and limits alike piled on us, and really inspecting yourself about why and what you actually value, enjoy and choose and what you’re only performing for approval or acceptance can feel like pulling your entire self apart.

For this, I absolutely recommend the company of other women, reading about other women and searching out all kinds of writings by other women. Try female critiques of just about anything, try feminism from all times and all over the world, try female teachers, politicians, academics, artists, talk to your mother and aunts and grandmother and actually listen. Other women have asked these questions and put words to many things you wouldn’t even think of.

But then again, don’t let anyone dictate a new world view or ideology for you just because you’re desperate for answers.

Also remember that you can’t study yourself an identity or an orientation. You are who you are, and in its core that is incredibly simple: You either are a homosexual, or you’re not. You already know you’re not straight, so hey, you’re already here and one of us, and to some people that’s enough.

Also please know that regardless of if you are lesbian or bi you don’t ever have to include or consider men. You might not be sure what your specific orientation is, but if you are scared of men then feel free to just dump them from your dating pool. No woman owes anything to men.

Good luck on our journey! Things will clear up in time.

- Lavender

#replies #c: Lavender

[deadlymodern]

hello! I've recently read your story and it's so good! but I have a question for you lol which you don't have to answer this at all! up to you :) so recently I've been questioning my sexuality and I was just wondering like how does one know if they're bi or not?? like I've been wondering and wondering and idk how to like actually find out if im bi or not without being with a woman or something?? idk im not good at saying how im feeling but thank you, have a good day!

long reply ahead, I'm sorry ifogjdfiojgod

Hey there! Thank you for the sweet comment and I hope you're having a great day! 🥰

I'm so very flattered that you felt comfortable enough to come to me with this question. And I'd like to say, first and foremost, that you are a very brave person just for acknowledging that you might not be straight. Takes bravery to look at our sexuality and question it! Society tries to push heterosexuality onto people so hard that it can be absolutely terrifying to even imagine not being what they tell us to be.

I will tell you two things I wish people had told me back when I was lying in fetal position inside of the closet: 1) You do NOT have to label yourself right now (or ever, really) and 2) You do NOT have to have experiences to identify as anything.

You are questioning yourself. Wonderful! That's the first step to figuring yourself out! Now, don't go chasing a definite answer right away. It comes naturally to some people, but not to others. The biggest advice I'll tell you is to let yourself be free to experience whatever sensations you may feel. Explore them and explore yourself!

Since you mentioned women... Allow yourself to explore your feelings towards them. Watch WLW shows and films, see how you feel about that. Pay attention to your body language, your thoughts in general. Do you imagine yourself being in a serious relationship with a woman? If you are sexually active or intend to be in the future, can you imagine yourself having sexual relations with women? You don't have to have all the answers to these, but allow yourself to ask them. Just be open!

Something that really was helpful to me when I was coming out: watch some LGBT+ youtubers, see what they have to say! You think you might be bi? Watch some bisexual youtubers' coming out stories! Watch all coming out stories! Bi and lesbian women actually have a lot in common, but it just might be a bit harder to understand oneself as a bisexual because, if you feel just as much or even more attraction to the opposite gender, you might believe you are straight your whole life! See how you feel about their stories. Do you relate to them? Do you share certain insecurities with them?

Also: HAVE. LGBT+. FRIENDS. If you have IRL LGBT+ people in your life, confide in them. Maybe comment that you might be wondering about yourself and have a conversation about their own trajectory. They don't even have to be your friend! Maybe if your school has an LGBT+ activism club or if you know someone who isn't straight and seems friendly, try approaching them! If not, you can talk to online friends too! And, maybe if you know someone who truly is an ally and would not judge you, talk to them about it. TALK ABOUT IT and try to have a support system, people you can rely on. This is so important.

I will tell you a little secret: you don't have to have any romantic experience with the same gender to identify as bi/pan. You don't! It is not mandatory. Just as a person can identify as gay without ever having kissed someone of the same gender. So do not put that pressure on yourself. Please, don't feel like you have to kiss a girl to KNOW or to be valid. YOU DON'T. If you have the opportunity to experience it in a safe environment, then by all means, allow yourself to do so and see how you feel. But that's not what will "qualify" you as bi. It'll be just an experience that will be added to your self discovery. Labels are important and can be very very empowering. But you are still valid if you don't have one yet!

Now... I know a woman who was in a 10 years long serious relationship with a man and, by year 8, she realized she was bi. I know a woman who came out as a lesbian at age 30 when she had spent her whole entire life saying she was straight. I know people who are in very serious and wonderful relationships with people of the same gender but don't label themselves because, at the end of the day, the love they feel for that person is what matters. And even I... I have been getting involved with girls since I was 12 and I could only actually come to terms with my sexuality at age 19. "It's just for fun" and "I'm only practicing" were my mottos lmao. So there are no rules. Do you. It's hard, it can be confusing and scary. But you'll find an answer eventually, I promise.

Until then, please be free. Do whatever you feel like doing. Surround yourself with people that will put you up and be supportive. If you are able to, go to therapy. It's such a wonderful way to learn about yourself and your own struggles. Love yourself as much as you can, however you can, and never let anyone put you down ever. Especially not when you're questioning. If someone comes with a "it's just a phase" bs send them to me and I'll smack them real good.

I am so so so sorry for the long reply, but this subject is very dear to me and I just wanted you to feel comforted. Please, know that what you are going through is very normal and you are perfect the way you are.

I wish you all the good luck and positivity in the whole world! ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜

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[marvels-writings]

Escape (3)

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Maria Hill Masterlist

Request: Hi! I always love your writing. Everything is closed in New Zealand for at least another 3 weeks so your writing helps keeps me sane. Could you please do a Maria Hill x reader. Maybe the reader is an assassin that Maria has been trying to bring in for months but reader always manages to escape. The reader catches feelings for Maria during their many encounters and one day helps her save one of the avengers. Maria asks reader “if i asked you to stay, would you?”. Angst but Happy ending please ☺

A/N: I need to plan out series better instead of making it up as I go, and the collage isn’t mine

This was never the life you’d wanted, you never wanted to run from hideout to hideout and find new ones. You knew you would need to find a new hideout in New York, somehow all the trouble in the world ended up here. The footsteps pounded up the stairs and reached the door, you smirked and left a note in front of the vase, gathering your bag and crouching on the windowsill and looking down at the street when Maria kicked open the door, pistol pointed inside.

She walked forwards and read the note, it said ‘I told you I’d put them in water ;)’. Maria couldn’t help the smile which crept up her face, she turned around to see you sitting on the windowsill, the bag held on your left side, your right side dangling out of the window.

“If it means anything to you, I did have a great night.” You winked at Maria and jumped, using the bag to slow you down and rolling when you hit the floor. Smirking up at Maria who looked down at you through the window before you sprinted off towards the SHIELD cars to get your other bag back.

Maria called in backup, she didn’t know you needed her to call backup to get your bag back. You snuck around the front, wearing a mask to look like an ordinary citizen with a bag, only your hair was the same. You’d used a change of clothes, now you wore a simple fav/color t-shirt,

“Miss, have you seen this woman?” One of the agents asked you, showing you two pictures, one of you without makeup, one of you impersonating the agent.

You suppressed a smirk and nodded your head ‘no’ before continuing towards the car. All the agents headed away from the cars, scouring the crowd for you. One agent was guarding the car with your bag, you approached them carefully, pretending to ask for help, you reached into your pocket to pull out a map but you pulled out your taser, quickly knocking them unconscious and putting the agent in the car.

You threw your bag into the car, taking the bag that had been there, putting dirty clothes and things you didn’t need in the bag in the car and taking extra weapons, masks, another suit, a change of clothes, fake ids and an extra credit card in your bag, leaving the unconscious agent in the back with an apology note and made your way away from the scene, looking over your shoulder in case anyone noticed you. 

Somehow, none of the agents noticed you leaving with a different backpack, or even noticing the switch. You heard them shouting and reading your apology note out loud and you subtly sped up, lip twitching up in a smirk as you walked away from the scene and towards another hideout. 

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This hideout was better located, it was away from the city and security cameras. It was a cabin near New York City, the previous owner had died, you’d bought it from his son, who had wanted nothing to do with the cabin. Using the extra money you had, you had renovated the cabin and gotten new furnishings. This was the hideout you came to when you needed to relax, it was completely off the grid, you could almost call it a home.

You threw your bag on the couch and lay down next to it, pulling out your phone and lifting it to eye level to see a notification from Maria. You smirked tiredly and clicked on it after securing your phone so she couldn’t track you.

‘Why?’ was the only text from her, you sighed and sat up.

‘That’s the only question you have?’ You texted back, switching your phone off immediately after, you got up and went to the refrigerator, there was nothing inside except for a few frozen food items which were probably going to expire soon.

You sighed and closed the door, getting some water from the sink and making your way to the bedroom to get some deserved rest. The cabin was one of your favorite investments, all of the walls were covered in bulletproof glass, it allowed you to get a full view of the forest around you, but you felt safe knowing that nothing less than a missile could break through the glass.

You changed into an old camp sweatshirt and sweatpants you’d left in the closet and flopped down on the comfy bed. You fell asleep quickly, watching birds outside and listening to them sing to each other, feeling more peaceful than you have in months. 

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Waking up in a familiar place was the best feeling, you knew exactly where you were and how you got here. You smiled to yourself and got off your bed, yawning and scratching your hair as you looked around. Maria stood at the foot of your bed, in a navy, body-con dress with her eyebrow raised and her hands on her hips. Her hair was in a tight bun, one or two strands to frame her face. 

Your hand instantly went under the pillow to where you’d left a gun only to find that it wasn’t there anymore. Maria waved the gun in front of her, you looked outside the window, there wasn’t any backup, it was just her. 

“Just you?” You asked, your voice still raspy from sleep as you slid off your bed, smoothly retrieving a knife from the side of your mattress and tucking it in the pocket of your sweatpants.

“Just me, you weren’t replying to my texts,” Maria stated, you shrugged and put on some slippers, walking towards Maria who stepped aside and let you go through the door as you put your hair in a messy bun.

“So you decided to pop in?” You joked, then furrowed your brows and turned to face her. 

“How the hell did you even find me?” You asked, Maria, smirked and leaned an elbow against the dark granite counter as you walked towards the fridge.

“I put a tracker in the bag you’d left behind,” Maria answered, you looked outside the window from the kitchen, there were no other cars.

“How did you know I’d come for the bag?” You questioned, making a mental note to change the bag and clean all the weapons for trackers.

“Call it a gut feeling, and there isn’t anyone else,” Maria said, you flinched when she noticed, you took out frozen waffles from the fridge and a container of Kirkland maple syrup.

“Waffles?” You offered, Maria raised an eyebrow, you shrugged and put them back in the fridge, making sure the gun in the fridge had the safety off.

“Why are you here?” You demanded after putting the waffles in the microwave and turning to face her. 

You put your hands on the counter and leaned closer to her face, looking for any sort of reaction, trying to prevent staring at her blue eyes. You smirked when you saw her glance towards your lips and inhale sharply, leaning away from you before answering.

“To talk,” Maria answered, sitting on one of the barstools across the counter, you tilted your head to the side.

The microwave drew your attention away from her, you took the waffles out of the microwave and poured maple syrup, scouring the fridge for whipped cream then adding that and switching on the coffee pot. You took some silverware from one of the drawers and started eating as Maria stared at how casual you were.

“Talk.” You said, gesturing to her with your knife, the brunette took a deep breath, this was going to be more complicated than she thought, mainly because of you.

“Weapons?” She asked, you looked at her, not amused, she sighed, she knew you weren’t going to discard the knife in your pocket.

“Talk,” You said again, Maria sighed and rested her elbows on the counter, watching you eat breakfast.

“You’re supposed to be the frightened one spilling all your secrets,” Maria muttered, you chuckled while eating, scooping a bit of whipped cream on the fork and shrugging.

“I never really do what I’m ‘supposed to’, now tell me why you’re here and why I should care.” You stated Maria’s eyes widened at how direct you were.

“You said you didn’t want this life, I can get you out of it.” Maria offered, you groaned and put the last bite of waffles in your mouth, eating the last bit of whipped cream and putting your plate and silverware in the dishwasher.

“I doubt that, but tell me how anyway.” You said, you smirked and walked to sit next to Maria on one of the barstools, your knee brushing hers lightly as you turned to face her. Maria subtly clenched her jaw, causing your smirk to grow, this was going to be better than you thought.

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[binbrookfairqueen]

The Homoerotic Subtext In Victorious: Jade and Tori

I’ve done a lot of nothing during quarantine. The same old same old, wake up at noon, eat something, find the homoerotic subtext in every straight film/show/video game I come across. Isn’t that how we all spend our afternoons? 

It started with Taylor Swift, and the wlw undertones in all of her newest songs. Despite being in a long term relationship with a man, she penned lyrics like “those days turned into nights, slept next to her, but I dreamt of you all summer long” and “what would he do if he found us out? he’s gonna burn this house to the ground,” So of course I went from hating on all of this straight media, to searching for queer scraps in the background of these art pieces. From the new summer Disney flick, Luca, to the characters in my newest copy of Red Dead Redemption 2 on Xbox One. 

I always loved Victorious, it’s been one of my favorite shows since I was a child. The strange humor, the funny remarks. Always wondering why I liked the sassy, demanding Jade instead of the swoon-worthy womanizer Beck.

So, in quarantine, when I heard that Victorious was coming to Netflix, I re watched the entire show and couldn’t help but notice all of the queer innuendos, and rather flirty scenes between female actors. Of course- I’m not the first person to ever notice this. The homoerotic implied relationship between Tori Vega and Jade West had been shipped plenty of times and edited to oblivion by young, gay teens.

Since this is all news to me, I thought I’d go through every episode of Victorious and tell you what is gay about it, from a lesbian’s point of view. 

Pilot

I never noticed how queer coded Victorious is, especially this very first episode. The sexual tension between the girls is almost too much, I have to drink some water every few minutes.

It’s clear to me that Jade is taking advantage of new girl Tori, and trying to establish her superiority because of her own fears and insecurities.

[Tori bumps into Beck, spilling coffee all over him] Tori: Oh my gosh! Beck: Ah, it’s cool Tori: No, here- I think it’s coming out. [Tori attempts to rub the coffee stain out of Beck’s shirt] Beck: You might be making it worse, actually. [Jade enters] Jade: Dude, why are you rubbing my boyfriend? Tori: I-I just spilled coffee on- Jade: Get away from him. Beck: Relax. [Beck kisses a reluctant Jade on the cheek]

Our very first introduction to Jade West is her making sure everybody knows Beck is her boyfriend. Multiple times throughout the episode, she cuddles up to him, picks him as her partner, and kisses him in front of the whole class. There’s a straight explanation to this, but there’s also a queer one. Jade is insecure in her attraction to girls and feels as though she needs to prove herself and everyone else that she does, in fact, like men.

Sikowitz: Jade, you will captain the first group of the day. Choose your actors. Jade: Cat, Eli, Beck, and Tori. Tori, why don’t you go wait in the hall? Tori: Uh, okay. Jade: I have great news that’ll cheer up this whole family. I went to the animal shelter and got us a dog. [Pulls Tori into the classroom by the arm] Tori: Uh, yep! I’m the new family dog. Woof. Jade: Uh oh, looks like this dog has bugs in her fur. [Jade strokes Tori’s hair] Tori: Uh, woof? Jade: Oh, it’s okay! I read on the internet that coffee works great for getting rid of fur bugs. Beck: Maybe you shouldn’t- Andre: Jade- [Jade dramatically pours the coffee on Tori’s head] Jade: What’s the prob, dog? [Tori runs out of the room, contemplating quitting Hollywood Arts]

Jade not only wants everyone to know that she’s straight, but she also wants everyone to know that she possesses a dominant personality, and isn’t afraid to get dirty. In this case, she does all that she can to make Tori’s day a living hell, all because she touched her boyfriend.

I don’t recall this as normal straight girlfriend behavior, there’s gotta be a fear of being outed rooted down deep in Jade’s bones- right?

The episode leads to a scene whereas the two girls are arguing, and there are only a few notable lines:

Jade: Just where did you come from? Tori: Kangaroos. Jade: Lousy animals, Kangaroos, they're awkward and dirty. Tori: Maybe they learned from you. [The classroom tenses, the girls getting more and more angry] Jade: No one talks to me like that. Tori: Obviously someone should. Jade: Please run in front of a bus! Tori: Quite obnoxious of you to say.

Jade: Really? Tori: Sure was.

Jade: Thanks. [Sarcastically]

Scenes get tense as the girls grow closer to each other, getting more and more upset.

But it’s also a lot like playing cat and mouse.

Day 1, Jade picks Tori for her team, day 2, Tori picks Jade for her team just to spite her. The submissive trying to declare dominance, whilst the real dom notices the attention seeking. When Jade says that no one speaks to her like that, and Tori proceeds to comment that someone should, a sexual tension is cast into the air. It’s obvious to any viewer. 

The condescending flirtatious “Really?” Followed up by the bold “Sure was.” Is very queer coded. No one talks like that to someone they don’t find attractive. C’mon.

Author’s Conclusion: Jade feels the need to be angry and rude to anyone who threatens her heterosexuality. She possesses a fear of being outed, and does whatever she can to maintain a normal relationship with a man. But even her attraction to girls and her dominant personality can’t hide, as her actions reveal the closet to be made of glass.

Tori Goes Platinum

Tori: “Everyone else was coming to cheer you on, so... Figured I would, too. And you look way better in that than I would have.”

Jade: “This isn’t right. This was supposed to be your night. I can’t do that to a friend.”

- Jade is the most concerned person in the room when Tori begins acting differently after landing a gig at the Platinum Music Awards. Leading a class wide discussion, Jade discusses Tori’s change in behavior and provides her own evidence and proof to back up her statements. When Tori enters the classroom, Jade confronts her without hesitation, and seems to be the only person who cares enough about the pop stars well being. (Authors note: Only someone who truly cared about another would notice when they’re acting different and confront them to try and fix the problem...)

- When Tori refuses to wear the ridiculous outfits the record label provides, her opportunity to perform at the Platinum Music Awards is stripped away. Jade is asked to fill her place, and despite saying yes, she hesitates for a moment. These matter of seconds prove Jade has some kind of moral in her mind telling her that doing this would hurt Tori, and hurt their relationship.

- Beck and Tori don’t realize that they are still on video call with Jade, and the two almost kiss. Tori backs away, the following conversation takes place.

Beck: “Then why can’t we kiss?”

Tori: “Kissing your friends ex boyfriend...”

Beck: “Since when are you and Jade friends?”

Tori: “We’re kind of friends, I think. And kissing her ex boyfriend... I can’t do that to a friend.”

Despite the overuse of the word friend, this is still a sweet moment, and when Jade overhears this exchange, she realizes taking this opportunity away from Tori isn’t the right thing to do.

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