#imma just keep telling myself 'mine is better'

[thefloorisbalaclava]

Hmm...

#nope nope nope #not gonna give into the negativity #although i'm frustrated af #fuckin pissed #but whatever #imma just keep telling myself 'mine is better' #'i did it first'

[randomblack-girl]

I knew this guy with Uranus conjunct Mars in the 8th house and "it" was huge 😟

Siren in the 6th house have nice bodies

I feel like Jupiter in the first house wanna be thick so badly or they are but they usually have nice bodies

I might have already said this but chiron in the 6th house might have body insecurities or health issues the type to grow up fat then start eating healthy as they grow up or maybe they had bad skin and got into skincare

I hate to say it but it's true pisces placements do be lying especially ones related to the 3rd house/Mercury a friend of mine with Neptune in her first house admitted to lying for fun and an old friend of mine with Neptune in the 3rd house said she'd lie so people wouldn't know stuff about her (Scorpio rising) but I hate saying this because I have pisces/Neptune influence over my chart and I'm not a liar, but it is some of them.

There's definitely a connection between pisces/Neptune people and fishes, mermaids, etc my friend who has Neptune in the first house said she wants a little mermaid birthday party. They do look really good in a mermaid aesthetic, it's giving:

As a Scorpio rising I keep attracting Scorpio moons!!! And I love Gemini risings as a gemini moon and idk bout y'all but I get along better with people with similar placements to mine bc yk people be saying opposites attract...

What's y'all experience with Saturn in the 8th house men? Like what's going on down there? I'm curious 😭😭 I keep meeting guys with that placement I also don't know how to read this placement really, a lot of them seem kinda traumatized and closed off

People with Venus badly aspecting their asc usually think they're unattractive, it's sad

Ok so I have pisces Venus conjunct Uranus in a composite chart with this guy and we like each other but we live in different countries but he literally set the standard for my future bf 😭

On the list of hot voices is mars in the 2nd house. This guy ik has Capricorn mars in the second house and he sounds so smart and like a gentleman but hot at the same time. I also noticed he talks really slowly? Idk but I like it 😋. Sirene, Saturn, and Neptune also aspect his Mercury and neptune is in his 3rd house he has a pisces mercury too. I think pisces/neptune might make your voice nice, I have Neptune aspecting my Mercury and I've been told my voice is soothing. Ok I think Pluto makes a voice hot too because I'm noticing it's Venus, mars, and Neptune that keeps showing up in people's charts who have nice/attractive voices. Saturn can make them sound more mature and Jupiter can make them sound funny/be funny. Jupiter voices also sound deep and pisces/Neptune influence makes someone good with their words/poetic.

Idk if I'd say Scorpios look sexy/mysterious but I do try 😭😭 it's so hard though bc that's not who I am naturally I'm trying to just be myself though, I do notice I am just more reserved/quiet but that's when I'm not around friends or people I actually wanna talk to (Virgo 11th house) bc I don't really become friends with just anybody

I've noticed the connections I've had where the composite chart rising was Scorpio be deep/seem deep I love these relationships as a Scorpio/Pluto dom!!! I feel like we click and can talk about deep things like trauma easily

Idk the thing about tauruses and food is kinda right bc one thing about me...imma eat 😭 and I have a friend who's a Taurus moon who loves food

Let me tell you, having my Aphrodite and Lilith in Virgo and a pisces Venus the one thing I'm gonna do...is wear green, crystals, seashells, blue, etc ITS GONNA EAT EVERYTIME idc same with black but in terms of color? It's gonna be green, blue, and sometimes white (I'm still scared to wear white) but I love white too and omg don't get me started on grey and brown!!!! Or MATCHING SETS!? bye I want some juicy couture so bad!!! I love neutrals as much as I hate so say it bc it seems so basic but they're so easy to pair up and they look good together. But I'm trying to get into color and my favorites so far are green, orange, pink?, And blue also neutrals are easy because most likely it's gonna look good. Color can be complicated it's the same with patterns which is why I have a lot of basic tops now 😭.

Another thing I'm gonna do is wear tight clothes or crop tops 😋 and I honestly find it hard to not wear that or shirts that show cleavage now that I got a sewing machine I make everything a lil bit lower 💅🏾 and I love waist beads!! Emphasis on the stomach

And one time someone said "don't you think Tionna (me) looks good in comfy clothes" which is very interesting because taurus placements do look good in comfy clothes

Btw that picture came from Pinterest!

#astrology #astro observations #neptune #appearance #capricorn mars #mars #pisces venus #fashion #aphrodite #virgo lilith

[thatztyv]

Pretty Girl

Description:

- I don’t know🤷🏾‍♀️.. Urban hopped on Ki’Asia’s IG Live

Word Count:

- 877

Ki'Asia Moore

(kie- a-she-uh  more)

kiasia

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kiasia friend? bitch I said you bad

View all 750 comments

sarah56 Druski said it best

simp4brent be my girlfriend😩

urbanwyatt 😍😍 ♡

bankroll3k so pretty🥹

kelseiqueen 😩😍 ♡

.☆.

"Wassup y'all", I said as I set my phone up on my vanity.

tinytee hey Asia🙂

simp4brent Hey Asia boo

yolodolo yuurrr

"How was y'all day?", I asked as I combed through my hair.

freek3 Good

2litlaii Amazing, what about you?

kiyaforpres It was ok

greatdain Great

"Lai why was your day so amazing?", I chuckled as I stopped to read the comments.

"Kiya, I hope you have a better day tomorrow. Keep your head up boo, I love you", I said before combing my hair again.

2litlaii Cause I got to see my man 🤭

kiyaforpres thank you 😊

youngin23 you're so sweet 🥹

"Girl you and this man of yours", I said playfully rolling my eyes. "I'm a lover girl with no lover.. I hope y'all happy though."

delulu4you Girl same

seedy.me Man what

danitrips Everyday all you hear from me is "lord...it's me again"

"Dani that be me twenty four seven", I chuckled. "Anyways y'all like my hair. I did it myself."

bigbossvette It's cute😍

wantedho Come do mine 🧍🏾‍♀️

hypemantee4 Ok volume come through

herbsnish You would look so good in a blonde wig

"I'm scared to try blonde cause what if I look crazy", I said as I looked in the mirror and started to put my hair in two braids.

bigbossvette If you try blonde I'll do it with you

yougin23 We need a wig install tutorial cause it's giving scalp 😛

urbanwyatt your voice is perfect ⭐️

"Bet cousin I'll order em tomorrow... that's actually my next video, then imma stop posting for another six months", I chuckled as I started on the last braid.

I scanned over the comments before smiling.

urbanwyatt can I take you on a date?

"Depends on where you taking me sir", I said as I tied a scarf on my head.

simp4you I knew I wasn't tripping what Urban doing over here

danitrips Not Urban asking somebody on a date

sammydee URBAN ?!?

"On a side note, what y'all had or having for dinner? ", I said as I put my bonnet on.

danitrips Tea cause what you and Urban got going that you ain't telling us bout ☕️🫖

sammydee Tacos

wally.t Shrimp scampi 🍤

urbanwyatt is requesting to join live.

Accept or Decline

"Dani we ain't got nothing going", I said as I pressed accept to Urban's request.

"Hey pretty girl", Urban said once it connected. "Wassup live."

"Hi Urban", I said and smiled a little.

kentuckyboys URBAN JOINED THE LIVE, two of my worlds are colliding 😱

youngin23 Yuurrrr

2litlaii I know this finna be good.. just might chromecast my phone to the tv

bigbossvette 👀

"I'm nosey, where you at?", I asked as I arched a brow at him.

"On the tour bus", he said as he propped his phone up.

"Mm", I hummed as I leaned closer to my phone. "What town you in?"

"Frankfort."

"Oh you in my city. I would've had you pull up if I would have known earlier."

"I still can, it's never too late", he said before rubbing his beard.

"I'm ready for bed now. It's definitely too late boo."

simp4you 👀

kelseiqueen I'm just enjoying the show rn 🍿

"You know you got some sexy lips."

He smirked before licking his lips.

kentuckyboys Don't steal my man 😖

harlowslut Urban where is Jackman

2sexy.dee them lips real sexy 😩

"You know I could- nevermind", he started but cut himself off.

"No say what you were about to say", I said with a slight smile.

"It's too many people watching. I can't say all that", he chuckled.

"I understand."

simp4brent Fuck all that, say it Urban 😖

sarah56 nooo we wanna know

lostinthewind Don't leave us hanging like that

We got quiet, just looking at each other.

2litlaii Not y'all eye fucking in front of us

bigbossvette I feel like I'm interrupting 😭

kelseiqueen On this day, Ki'Asia and Urban fell in love 😩

"Anyways where you taking me to eat at?"

"McDonalds", he said nonchalantly.

"Blocked", I said reaching for my phone.

"I'm playing, I'm playing", he said laughing as he grabbed his phone.

bigbossvette 🤣🤣

simp4you McDonald's is OUTRAGEOUS 😭

freek3 ngl I would've kicked him off and blocked him so fast 😭😭😭

2litlaii Screaming 🤣

"Urban, you gone fool around and get blocked", I said as I picked my phone up.

"Ki'Asia you would never block me."

"Yes I would. You wanna see?"

"Don't block me", he chuckled. "I'll take you anywhere you wanna go."

wantedho ooh- girl I'd be cutting up, you heard how he just said your name effortlessly 😩

herbsnish don't play with her Urban

lanixworld Y'all!! What if they been going together this whole time and we just clueless 😱

"Nah Lani this is me and Urban first ever interaction outside of liking each others post", I chuckled. "No secret relationship."

"It could be though."

"Mmm."

freek3 So back to what I saying...This could be us but you playing !😩

kelseiqueen 👀

"Y'all I'm finna end this. I want to have a private conversation with Mr Urban", I said with a slight smirk.

"Private conversation? Mmm this might be interesting", he hummed.

herbsnish Urban don't fumble the bag bro 😐

jackharlow 👀

bigbossvette You better text me Asia I wanna know what y'all talk about

kelseiqueen You better update us bookie

kentuckyboys where tf Jack come from

"Bye y'all", I said before ending the live.

#Spotify #wattpad #jack harlow #jackman thomas harlow #jack harlow x black reader #urban wyatt #urban henry wyatt #urban wyatt x black reader #urban wyatt x reader #urban wyatt smut

[theworldtome]

how much a dollar really cost?

the question is detrimental, paralyzin my thoughts

parasites in my stomach keep me with a gut feeling, y'all

gotta see how i’m chillin once i park this luxury car

hopping out feeling big as Mutombo

twenty on pump six, dirty Marcellus called me Dumbo

twenty years ago, can't forget

now i can lend him a ear or two, how to stack these residuals

tenfold, the liberal concept of what men'll do

twenty on six, he didn't hear me

indigenous African only spoke Zulu

my American tongue was leery

walked out the gas station

a homeless man with a semi-tan complexion

asked me for ten rand

stressin about dry land

deep water, powder blue skies that crack open

a piece of crack that he wanted, i knew he was smokin

he begged and pleaded

asked me to feed him twice, i didn't believe it, told him, “beat it”

contributin money just for his pipe, i couldn't see it

he said, “my son, temptation is one thing that i’ve defeated,

“listen to me, i want a single bill from you,

“nothin less, nothin more”

i told him i ain't have it and closed my door

tell me how much a dollar cost

he’s starin' at me in disbelief

my temper is buildin, he's starin at me, i grab my key

he’s starin at me, i started the car then i tried to leave

and somethin told me to keep it in park until i could see

a reason why he was mad at a stranger like i was supposed to save him

like i’m the reason he's homeless and askin me for a favor

he’s starin at me, his eyes followed me with no laser

he’s starin at me, i notice that his stare is contagious

cause now i’m starin back at him, feelin some type of disrespect

if i could throw a bat at him, it'd be aimin at his neck

i never understood someone beggin for goods

askin for handouts, takin it if they could

and this particular person just had it down pat

starin at me for the longest until he finally asked,

“have you ever opened up Exodus 14?

“a humble man is all that we ever need”

tell me how much a dollar cost

guilt trippin and feelin resentment

i never met a transient that demanded attention

they got me frustrated, indecisive and power trippin

sour emotions got me lookin at the universe different

i should distance myself, i should keep it relentless

my selfishness is what got me here, who the fuck i’m kiddin?

so imma tell you like i told the last bum, crumbs and pennies

i need all of mines, and i recognize this type of panhandlin all the time

i got better judgement, i know when n****s hustlin

keep in mind, when i was strugglin, i did compromise

now i comprehend, i smell grandpa's old medicine

reekin from your skin, moonshine and gin

n***a your babblin, your words ain't flatterin, i’m imaginin

Denzel but lookin' at O'Neal, Kazaam is sad

thrills, your gimmick is mediocre, the jig is up

i seen you from a mile away losin focus

and i’m insensitive, and i lack empathy

he looked at me and said, "your potential is bittersweet"

i looked at him and said, "every nickel is mines to keep"

he looked at me and said, "know the truth, it'll set you free,

“you’re lookin at the Messiah, the son of Jehova, the higher power,

“the choir that spoke the word, the Holy Spirit, the nerve,

“of Nazareth, and i’ll tell you just how much a dollar cost,

“the price of having a spot in heaven, embrace your loss, i am God”

i washed my hands, i said my grace, what more do you want from me?

tears of a clown, guess i’m not all what is meant to be

shades of grey will never change if i condone

turn this page, help me change, to right my wrongs

#how much a dollar cost #to pimp a butterfly #tpab #kendrick lamar #k dot #music #lyrics #posts

[manifestingwithnina]

hey nina here! im going to be getting into the void and i'll tell you how it goes! kudos to @sugarcoatedcherry

backstory; ive been into the LOA ( specifically subliminals ) since 2020 and i learned about the void in early 2022. Been trying ever since and i've bettered my concept drastically. just now looking for a day to get in yk? i don't find myself mad when i don't enter because whatevs 🤷‍♀️ ya know? but ive scripted everything i wanted and i love @lotusmi ! idk why but i just feel attracted to their subs! ( sorry if your not a girl or boy i just dont wanna be offensive lol if you have a problem im willing to change it ) ever since you discovered on tumblr by somebodies success i just always liked them, therefore im going to try to stay consistent!

day 1: im using this subliminal and falling asleep with it

day 2: I didn't get in the night before but i realized i like sleep paralysis and i think im going to try it tonight ( i did try @gorgeouslypink challenge but i wasn't persistent, therefore thats the reason of this challenge lol to hold me to stick to one thing ) but to say, i liked the guided shifting thingy i got really close to getting into the void and ended up not getting in but the feeling of not being in your body is peaceful... later on blogging , i feel very confident in that tonight is the night.

Day 3: i fell asleep the night before lol

using this subliminal tonight !

Day 4: that subliminal worked the night before i woke up around 5/6 ish am and had experienced sleep paralysis and i did affirm ' void ' but sadly didn't get into the void . but i did have very strong lucid dreams which were fun. But totally using the same subliminal tonight lol.

Day 5: fell asleep the night before and not using subliminals anymore just affirmations. so tonight imma visualize like i do when i used to meditate and then im going to enter the void with affirmations... simple very simple and very motivated because it's very easy to enter the void.

HAYYY YAAWW. i haven't entered yet and that is on me because i keep stopping to tell yall juicy stuff but lol, im entering and i feel my whole body lifting. this is ultimately how you do it yall! read my last post. i used to only feel my legs float back them but now i feel my whole body. do me and yourself a favor read the posts. and put yourself at peace darling 🫶🏽. go get your ideal life and i will live mines too i'll be rooting for you my star 💫!!!

day 5 & 6; i didn't get in. i went with feelings and idk why i didn't. trying to figure out why my mind isn't listening... hmm reprogramming my mind atm...

#void #void state #void success #loa #manifesting

[idkfnok]

11:11: A Night In New Orleans (p1)

Main characters: Jehraye "Jay: Guidry; Alani "Lan" Sanders

This is definitely a slow-burn.

PT2

 “Excuse me.”

Yeah?

“I don’t mean to be a bother but, what cologne do you have on?”

Why, you tryna buy it for your man?

“Ha, no. but I do have brothers.”

Gotcha, It’s Sauvage.

“Thank you.”

You’re welcome. 

Did you ask him?

Yea, It was Sauvage.

I told you.

I guess it does smell different on everyone.

She was pretty as hell.

“Who”

The girl that asked what you had on.

I wasn’t paying any attention.

I can tell. Cause if you were, you wouldn’t have let her walk away.

Where she at?

Over there in the corner by the bar. 

Oh! She is pretty.

From that moment, I made it my mission to get her number. I wasn’t leaving that club without it. So I walked my happy ass right over to where she and her friends were sitting. A drink I thought she may like, in hand.  I introduce myself to them and offer her the drink.

No, Thank you. I don’t know you. You could’ve done something to that drink

“Understandable. Would you like to come to the bar with me?  You can get whatever you want.” she looks at her friends, and the one with the long ginger hair and a leather dress that laces up the sides says

“Girl, go ahead. We can see and I ain’t come by myself. If you get what I'm saying.”

Bet.

We get to the bar and she orders Sprite, Grenadine and a lemon. Then asks for a double shot of  D’usse. The Bartender looks at me and I order the same. 

I’m Jay, By the way.

“Nice to meet you, I’m Alani.”

You , Alani. Are gorgeous.

“Thank you”

Imma keep it short, I clearly think you're gorgeous and would like to have your number. I told myself that I wasn’t leaving here without it.

“What if my answer is “no” “?

I’d take “no” for an answer. I wouldn’t want to though.

Well, you come across as a decent person and you’re quite handsome yourself.  (   ) -___-____.

Thank you.

I ask if she and her friends would like to do a little bar hopping with me and mine. She walks away, comes back and we all agree to meet up at The Saint bar and Lounge. We walk in, sit down and order more drinks and food. She and I talk all night. I’m sitting so close to her, I’m sure that folks think we’re in a relationship. I don’t mind though, that  could very well be my end goal.

  Time must have been flying because I look up and it’s 3 a.m. in the fucking morning and I got a little bit of a hangover to sleep off.  So, I lean over, tell her i’m about to leave. I stand up and she does the same before I ask her to put my number in her phone. She does so and I go home.

I wake up to a message that says “Good morning beautiful, if you’re feeling up to it, meet me at Nana’s  Chicken N  Waffles by 10.” I look at the clock and it’s 9 :16. I look up the location for the restaurant and see that it is a five minute walk from my hotel. So, why not?. I get up, Get dressed, tell Mari and Nya that i'm going out for breakfast with Jay.   she gives me the groggiest “ I got glory wit me.”  I used wonder why she named her gun that. She told me, “Cause that’s wey imma send em if dey make the wrong move.” Every time I think about it, I laugh because,  girl what? 

I leave the hotel room and go down to the lobby. I swear if I wasn’t on my way to get breakfast, I would’ve been right there with the rest of the folks eating because, damn, did that food smell good. Against my own judgment, I decide to walk out of the lobby and make my way to the restaurant.   I walk into Nana’s and the hostess asks if I need to be seated. I told her I was here meeting someone; just then Jay gets up and comes up to the station and lets her know, i’m with him. As we’re walking to the table  Jay tells me I smell good. “What kinda perfume do you have on?” he asks. “Brazilian Crush Cheirosa 40” I say.  “What is that, like a Chanel no.5?” Hell no. this smells way better.” He looks at me with this innocent yet sly look on his face and a smirk on his lips and says “Especially on you.”  We get to the table and sit down. We scan the QR Code for the menu.  All of it sounds so good. 

I order the Banana Foster Chicken -N- Waffles. Jay orders the Salmon Patties and A creole Seafood omelet. Before the waitress walks off he orders a “Nana’s Half and Half” for us and tells her to bring me a seafood omelet as well.  In about 15 minutes, our food is brought to us. We sit and talk, laugh and flirt a little. I learn that his name is Jehraye“Jay” Guidry, He’s 28 from New Orleans, he’s 6’4, no kids, and doesn’t like when his hair tickles his collar bone and that's why he always has it braided back or in a high ponytail of some sort. Then I, being the person I am, start to calculate the bill.

“That’s a lot of money. Especially on top of what you spent last night.”

What did I spend last night?

“The double shots were $13 a piece, Sprites were $3, the next place we went to, you couldn’t have spent less than $85. In the last spot, it was about another $60. That is already way over $100.”

Okay.

 “And now you’re about to spend no less than $85?”

And again I say “okay?”

“That’s A Lot of money for a stranger. You don’t know me, I could be tryna trick roll you or kill ya”.

Sweetie, That money aint even putting a dent in my pockets. As far as you trying to kill or trick-roll me; I can protect you, ya friends and mine with no issue.

“Okay, Benny Big Baller.”

Naw, I aint rich but-

“I’ll spend a lil bit. So who you wit--”

She points to me , I know what she wants so I give it to her and finish her sentence with “Let’s do this shit.” and we both jump in on the following vocalization.

“I couldn’t resist. What were you saying?”

I’m not rich but I am very comfortable. ------You like the food?

“ I'm not real big on breakfast food. These waffles though; delicious

Ain't they? My waffles taste better though.

She goes “Is that so?” “Yep. spend the night at my house, I’ll cook you breakfast and you can judge that for yaself.” I say. “ohhh , so you want to sleep with me?” “I do, and i’d appreciate it if you would allow me to show you what a night full of back-breaking, toe curling, mind-blowing sex with Jehraye Guidry is like……at some point in the near future.” “And If I say no, I have to pay for my food and the drinks you bought me and my friends last night huh? I’m glad I brought my wallet because I knew this was gonna happen.”

Wait, wait a minute love. Even if your answer is “no”. You aint gotta pay for any of this. I invited you out because I wanted to spend some more time with ya. I wanna fuck your brains out, respectfully; i aint gon lie but, if you don’t wanna, that’s fine AND I’m still gon pay for ALL of this.

“Well, that’s different. I’m not used to that.”

Yeah, you’re probably used to niggas who trying to spend more money than they have, trying to get something they can’t and turn into lil whiny ass babies when you don’t wanna fuck, huh?

“That’s about right.”

That aint me. If I couldn’t afford to take you here, I wouldn’t have offered.

“And what about this mind-blowing sex you speak of ?”

I wouldn’t have promised if I couldn’t deliver.

“You quite confident in your sex game huh, Jehraye?”

I am. I’m also confident in the fact that my waffles are better.  She laughs a little then says;

“Now, I truly believe you just be saying shit.”

What you mean?

“You don’t remember what you said last night?”

No. Oh God, what the fuck did I say?

“Ohhhh Jay, you were bad, just saying anything.”

Stop playing, What did I say 

“Can I grab your stomach, you look so soft.”

WHAT

That ain’t it. Then you said “Yo toes so pretty ,Can I suck on em?” mind you, It’s low-light and you can’t even see my toes”

It don’t get no worse do it?

“It does. When we was-”

Stop, I don’t need to know anymore of that Embarrassing shit.

“😆 you said it”

This why I don’t drink. I get around people I find attractive and all my kinks/ fetishes  and shit start coming out.

“Oh? Fetishes, you say?”

Yeah. But let's keep it PG. I ain’t cool truly taking this conversation where it could go and you haven’t decided on whether or not you would even let me kiss you.”

“See I probably would have if…you ain’t just eat that Seafood omelet.”

Jay proceeds to look at the omelet with a little stank face and says “Damn, bruh. You ruining my chances.”

Not you talking to the food

“Man, you gotta talk to it 🙂 that’s how you know what it wants. Ya understand? You gotta know if  it wanna be flipped, smacked, drilled, massaged…”

I thought we were keeping it PG?

“Ohh damn. I did say that .”

Just then my phone started vibrating.

Yes, you di- Hold on, my friend is calling me.

“Its cool.”

 Lan where the hell you at? I told you I was getting breakfast with Jay. Girl, it aint breakfast no damn more. It’s twelve damn thirty! Oh shit. Aight, I’m about to leave.

“Everything good?”

Yeah, but I gotta go cause me and my friends have plans and our flight leaves in 7 hours.

“Damn, and I was gonna ask you to dinner.”

I’m sorry. I would like to, but I can’t.

“How about thursday after next?”

Oh no, I’m not from here.

“I can tell. But you have my number. We can Facetime, cook and enjoy a meal together. “

 I’m down for that.

“Cool. Let me pay and I'll walk you out. -----Thank you Love, Here’s ya tip.”

OH! Thank you. The waitress walks away but not before saying, “Don’t forget to come pick up your child Friday ."

“Maaaaan, all I know is you better have him ready when I come.”

Yeah yeah

I look at Alani  and she’s looking at me funny.

She then says “I thought you didn’t have any kids.”

 I Don’t. I promise you it ain’t what you think.

“If you say so.” she replies

For real, that’s my Godson’s mama.

“Okay.”

We get up from the table and walk toward the double doors at the front of the restaurant. He opens and holds the door as I walk out. We reach the outside where the sun is beaming down on us and he still hasn’t let go of my hand when he turns to me and says “the crawfish and shrimp killed the kiss; but can I have a hug?” I give him a hug and this muthafucka lifts me off of my feet looks me dead in my eyes and says “Understand, not only am I willing and capable of figurativey sweeping you off your feet. I can do it literally too.” He puts me down and I stand there for a second waiting for him to unwrap his arms from around me. He says “See ya later Gorgeous. As i’m walking away my phone starts vibrating and I think it’s Mari or Nya but It was Jay. I pick it up and turn around, now walking backwards, smiling and looking at him.

Hello?

“Turn back around”

For what? Aint nothing back there for you to see. 

“Maybe you had a stain in the back of your skirt and I’m tryna see.”

Ain’t no stain on my skirt Jay.

“How you know? You can't see back there.”

I know ain’t nothing back there because my period ain’t on, it’s clean and I didn’t sit on anything.”

“If you say so.”

I do. Do I have to keep walking like this or you gonna let me walk in peace.

“You turned around, i ain’t ask you to.”

Whatever.

Yeah, exactly 😂. Call me before you get on the plane.

I will.

“Aight, talk to you later.”

Later.

I hang up the phone and go back to the  hotel, get to the room where Nya and Mari are getting dressed so we can leave. I’m still wearing the same green cargo style maxi skirt, tan cropped  graphic tee, orange platform sandals and Crochet bucket hat I had on this morning. Cute but comfortable was definitely the move for today's outfit. Mari though, naw. Despite carrying a gun at all times, Mari  wore very form fitting clothes and today was no different. She wore a long Jade Green crocheted halter top dress, A nameplate Necklace  and these really pretty “Fairy '' heels she bought from somewhere. She had put her signature Ginger  hair in a messy bun. How she finesses  these wigs so well, I’ll never know. Nya, Had decided she was gonna step into her Stud  bag today. She wore these light blue skinny jeans with cutouts at the knees, slightly Oversized “Cult Movie Club'' Steven Rhodes tee and some black Jordans.She threw that silk press behind her ears, put on that bucket hat and that watch her daddy gave her three years ago and we were out. 

We had two things to do before we left. Visit Nya’s Grandma and go to New Orleans Drink lab. We went to the drink lab first.  We had registered for the two hour class where we would be making cocktails like the Sazerac and the Hurricane. I learned how to properly muddle because apparently you can overdo it. We made and sipped a few drinks. They were damn good and I definitely took down some of the recipes in my notes so that I can go home and make myself about two of those hurricanes. I really enjoyed that. After we left the Drinking Lab we were on our way to Nya’s Grandma’s house. 

She lives in one of those  shotgun houses in the Treme Neighborhood. We pull up to the house and from the outside you can tell it’s an old house. It needs to be pressure washed but, She’s in her Seventies and her children either live out of state or fairly far away. So, it ain’t getting done right now. We get out of the uber suitcases in tow,  and walk up to the house and I immediately recognize the Black storm screen  covering the Orange four paneled crescent windowed door . Nya knocks on the door, her grandmother asks “who at my damn do’?” “It’s A’nya Granny.” She says and we listen as she fumbles with the locks, opens the door, Then the Storm door. No sooner than we walk in, the scent of cinnamon and oranges playfully dance about my nose. 

Mrs. B,  who we called Mama B, mama or granny; who doesn’t allow random people to call her by her full last name because “Without her husband, it’s only half a name.”   keeps a cinnamon broom in every room in this  house. Walking into this house feels like home. From the wood floors, fading and chipped red paneling on the walls,  the shelf in the corner that houses all the knick-knacks and treasures she has collected over the years; that aged brown couch with the small coffee table directly in front it. The pictures of herself and the ones she loves on the walls, the decorative rug halfway under the table. Right down to the gas stove, small “ice box” that is situated  next to the back door, A china cabinet on the wall opposite the stove and the beautiful knife block tucked into the corner where the end piece of the cabinet contours to the wall. It all felt like home.

 Her house stayed warm because she always had the curtains open  during the daytime. We walked to the table and sat down as Nya’s grandma asked if we wanted something to drink. No one declined the glass of Ice tea that was maybe a little too sweet from time to time. Then Mama B sat at the head of the table and started asking us about our time here in New orleans.

I see you still with that pretty wife of yours Nya

“Grandma, yes. I told you this was a forever thing”  Nya said as she looked at Mari like she did 2 years ago on the night they got married.

If you aint got nothing else from your paw, you damn sure know how to pick em pretty.

“Thank you, Mama,” Mari says. 

We talked about the drink lab, our stay at the hotel and the bar hopping we did last night. Nya brings up a story about how this guy tried to talk to her despite telling him she was married and her wife was sitting right next to her. The guy being dumb drunk says “I like girls who like girls.”

 “Well what you say to him Ny-Ny, cause you a lil  smart-ass like your daddie.” 

 He your son.

“Yeah, that’s why I know where you get it from.”

“She said; “Well I like boys who like boys. You okay with that?” Mari answered.

Got dammit girl. Yeah you definitely mine.

We all laugh at what Mama B says to Nya because it’s so true.  Not only does she act like her, she looks like her grandmother. The same bright yellow complexion, round face, big ears and heart shaped mouth. She had her mama’s eyes though. After few more minutes of talking, i’m now the topic of conversation and am being asked if I met someone. Mari, jumps in and says “Yep. and he was cute too. He even took her out for breakfast this morning.”

 “Oh?! Well what he look like?” asks Mama B

Cute. He was tall, brownskin, tattoos, a head full of hair. He had on a nice bracelet, a light brown cuban shirt, Tan pants . I couldn’t see his shoes though. And he had a pretty gold ring on his middle finger. Oh! A set a grillz that covered six of his bottom teeth. 

“What’s his name baby?”

Jay Guidry.

“Oh, I don’t know anybody by that name.------Well did you enjoy his company?”

“Shoot we all did. He paid for ALL of  her drinks and about 2-3 rounds of ours.” Nya says

“That’s good.” Granny says.

Our conversation continues for about another fifteen minutes before we tell Nya’s grandma that we have to leave. She hugs us all and kisses Nya on the cheek before we exit the house, get in the uber and make our way to the airport. On the ride back all I can think about now is, Jehraye. How handsome this dude really was. His facial features were so balanced to me. He had chubby cheeks but high cheekbones. A flat bridge but the tip of his nose was kinda round. His face was round but his jawline was sharp. He has small eyes and naturally arched eyebrows  with eyelashes longer than Mari’s nails. He is exactly what you think of when you imagine someone who is pretty and handsome.

Before I know it, we were at the airport getting our bags from the trunk of the uber and walking into the airport. We went to the gate closest to our terminal and sat down. We had another hour and some change before the flight left so I decided to call Jay while Mari went and got Overpriced food from the subway. 

Hello?

“How ya doing?”

Better now.

“Were you busy?”

Naw, I just got off the phone with my homeboy.

“The one that was with you last night?

Yeh, That fool ass bwoy.

“Why you say that?”

 Man, this dude want me to ride two whole hours with him 

“To where?”

Nowhere he just be going on random ass roadtrips

“That ain’t a bad thing.”

No, it’s not but once you done been stuck in a city, where you don’t know nobody, ya best friend getting pussy and you in a hotel room  cause you ain’t got your car cause your so-called friend said ya’ll were only there to try food….too many damn times, road trips ain’t all that fun no more hea.

“Oh shit, he be leaving you stranded like that? 😂”

That’s exactly why I tell his ass “no”. 

“I don’t blame you there.”

Nuff’ about him though. How you like my city?

“It’s beautiful, always is.”

You’ve come down here before?

“Yeah, this is like my third time.”

Did you enjoy it?

I did. I met this fine ass guy named Ja-Jerahn, Jared, Jervaughn, Something with a “J” Guidry.”

Uh huh

“Tall, smelled good, Head full of hair, That I lowkey wanted to play in.”

Is that so?

“Yeah don’t tell him that though.”

Yeah okay 😂

“Oh! And he had the most kissable lips

I suck my teeth before saying “Well, why you aint kiss me. You knew I wanted you to?!”

“I can’t act on all my impulses.”

The ones you have with me, yes the hell you can.

“You wild 🤣 I keep telling you that we don’t know each other.”

True but I wanna get to know you.

“We're  in the middle of that now.”

True and I do have one question for you right now.

“Okay.”

How tall are you cause-

“Shut up Jay!”

I’m just saying, I saw clean over your head the whole night.

“I’m tall e-damn-nough.”

Soft spot I see.

“Not really but men always point out my height.”

That’s cause you short mama.

“To y'all, nobody told ya’ll to bring asses over here.”

True. Ion know about them but, I saw a pretty face. Initially, that’s all that matters.

“I believe ya.”

You should, why would I lie about that?

“People have lied for and about less.”

I aint them. My name is Jehraye “Jay” Guidry. But you can call me “Big Daddy”.

“You nasty 😂.”

You have no Idea. I’ll make you nut in my mouth and kiss you.

I almost burst out laughing. Her silence was loud ass hell. It’s like you could hear her jaw drop over the phone.

Alani….

“Yo, you can’t be saying that in the airport!”

YOU in the airport. I’m home. 

“ what are you doing anyway?”

I’m about to cook some spaghetti. I was gonna make a tripe soup but I didn’t feel like it once I got in the store.

“I bet you eat chitlins’”

And pigs feet too. She let out a little giggle and our conversation continued. I now know that she likes earth-toned colors, and black has a special place in her heart; she’s not a fan of potato salad or celery,  she’s been natural for over ten years, and that she is from Columbia,SC. We continue talking about random shit until she tells me that she’s about to board the plane and has to hang up. We say our goodbyes and I get back to cooking. Spaghetti and garlic bread, onion and all.

PT 2

#black love #black women #black man #black fiction #slow burn #love #romance #fluff #smut #black men #black woman #black tumblr #black beauty #black writers #black girl tumblr #x chubby reader #chubby reader #plus size reader

[metalheadsforblacklivesmatter]

We've had 400 new followers in the past month and I read a thing saying if you had a spike in followers recently they're probably from Twitter?

But my posts are too long for you to have seen screenshots of me on Twitter. How many of yall followed this blog because you've heard of us on Twitter?

Anyways, house keeping.

If I give you a list of blogs to follow. It's because I'm white and I want you to follow the BIPOC I'm getting my information from. I notice if you don't follow them and I do judge you.

Transphobia is inherently racist. Full stop.

Don't put your Harry Potter house in your bio. We don't support JK Rowling around these parts.

We're leftists around these parts. Not liberals. Liberals are inherently conservative leaning centrists.

We support BLM, Land Back, MMIW2S, and the women of Iran.

Don't use AAVE if you're white. AAVE is not GenZ slang. It's fucking weird for white people to use it.

We are pro-choice.

We are anti-fascist.

Housing, food, warm clothes, and medicine is a right.

Unionize your workplace.

Abolish the police and the Industrial Prison Complex

While I do appreciate the messages telling me that I've got something good going here. There's nothing I'm saying that people of color haven't said first. Especially women of color. Especially queer and disabled women of color.

Fae (the creator of the blog) identifies as queer. If you're going to call it "q-slur" I'm going to assume you're aphobic and panphobic and block you.

I try to keep women of color voices on this blog. Which is why I tag my content. Because I don't to take credit for their content which is like a shitton better than mine.

I have auditory processing disorder and migraines. So I'll always reblog anyone that writes captions of the tiktok videos I post because doing it myself is very difficult.

Don't use fatphobia, abelism, or classism when trying to insult a conservative. You call them morally reprehensible, wilfully ignorant, and bigoted.

I queue shit like 30 days out at least (I think my queue is at 45 days now?) In case I have mental or physical health issues. So like... yeah. I went through a mental health episode a few months ago due to having to block a toxic friend, and my queue was running DRY. So, like. It did its job during my time of need.

(By "we" I mean our followers as well as myself. If you don't align with my values, imma just assume you're wilfully ignorant and lacking if basic human empathy.)

-fae

[nemo-of-house-hamartia]

[it's nearly the end of the year. here is a fanmail for you!]

dear nemo. i've only discovered your blog in the past 1-2 years, but i've always had this awe in me, that you post out your oc/canons! i've always been nervous about mine bcs the fandom in general are unaccepting of ocs, haha. but you make me want to feel brave about the stories i keep in myself for so long.

so here's to you 🍻🥂 i hope in the next year we can make more oc/canon. take care and be well! ✩

Hi there Nonnie :)

Welcome welcome here, and thank you for passing by and leave such sweet message in my inbox! <3

Allow me to thank you for having been with me in the past couple of years and that I am immensely happy to know that I somewhat inspired positive sentiments when it comes to posting about OC/Canon and stories connected to them! 😭💓

I know how hard it is to share Original characters out in the open, dear Gods if I don't know. Allow me to share this small thought with you, if it might be of help somewhat: sometimes, when I create characters for newer fandoms, I still get that pesky feeling of fear that I always had when I was younger (what if people are going to tear my character apart? what if I could have worked more on that and done better? what if what if what if?), because I know that the fandom can be a very *VERY* tricky place to navigate around, especially in regards of shipping and even more so when that shipping is done with an Original Character, because people can be rather disagreeable whenever something that doesn't cater to their taste happen to cross their dash. But at the end of the day, I learned just to remind myself the most important thing: that my Ocs and my stories are here for me and my enjoyement first and foremost, because I created them in order to write the story that I wanted to write, and THAT is what gives me the whole "IDGAF imma just jump right in into this big pond and figure it out as I go" attitude that, I am sure, you have seen around my blog.

And that's what I want to tell you as well <3 Do not be nervous about your stories, about your Ocs, because they are an extention of yourself and your creativity, and the people that resonate with you the most will find you and appreciate your work <3 it's a leap of faith, and it's scary, but remember that no one -no critique, no troll, no mean word- can ever take away the joy that's intrinsec in creating those brainchilden and weave their stories with their canon beloveds!

with that being said, cheers to you as well ☕☕☕☕(sorry, my cheer will be with coffee, since that's the creative juice lol) AND TO A NEW YEAR OF MORE SHENANINGAS, MORE OCS, MORE STORIES AND MORE CREATION. (and please, if you feel like talking about your oc in a safe place, feel free to do so here <3)

THIS WORLD NEEDS IT.

#Nonnie #ask #replies

[henrike-does-writing-sometimes]

1-8 for Ruben & Anruh + 17-24 for André and Tammie 🥺

Ruben and Tammie and the bad bitches they pulled by being autistic <3

Ruben and Anruh

1. What are things they both find funny ?

Bad puns and cringy jokes. They both find them charming and it’s kind of a competition of who can come up with the worst one for any given situation <3

2. If they could each describe each other in one sentence, what would it be ?

“If spring was a person, it’d be Ruben.”

“The most breathtaking being in the whole universe.”

3. If they complimented each other, what would they say ?

ohohohoho, they compliment each other all the time, but never realize they’re doing it, nor that they have been complimented. It’s a very casual thing they’ve been doing for the majority of their relationship, even before it became romantic, and they never really intend for it, it just happens lol. I like to think the main compliments are on the size of the other, because they come the most naturally. 

So Ruben will drop a comment on how Anruh could wrap her hands around his waist and her fingers would touch, and Anruh is like yeah, I could probably do that. Flash forward a couple hours and they’re both like, was that flirting ???

4. What would be their ship name ?

I call them Ruruh <3

I’d also like to give them a ship name Danny Phantom style, but imma need some extra time to figure that one out

5. What activities do they enjoy together ?

Gardening, hiking, foraging, reading, cooking. Generally pretty mundane things and outdoor activities, doesn’t really matter what it is since they enjoy simply being in each other's company.

6. What is/are their love language(s) ?

Quality time is for both of them, do not separate them, but Ruben is very keen on gift-giving. Which is mainly little things he finds while out in the woods, he gives Anruh rocks and she keeps every single one. For Anruh it’s physical touch, especially after she gets more confident that she’s not going to hurt anyone. At that point she practically can’t keep her hands away from Ruben, and he doesn’t mind because it’s Anruh. Nape kisses are their favorite <3

7. Write a ~300 word love scene for them. 

“Anruh!”

The urroa looked up, finding Ruben running towards her. She stood up from where she’d been kneeling by the river bend.

“Did you find something?” she asked as Ruben stopped before her. He held out his hand to reveal a small stone. It was glossy and white, with small specks of something metallic. Anruh would’ve guessed it was another case of glimmerite, had it not been for the way Ruben was bouncing on his feet, smiling widely. And that she knew what glimmerite looked like by now. 

“It’s pyrite!” Ruben answered her response question. His voice was filled with excitement. “I’ve never found it myself. It must’ve been carried by the river from a mine somewhere.”

“How can you tell it’s pyrite?” Anruh asked and leaned down to get a better look as Ruben began to explain. “As you can see it has a metallic luster to it, but that’s obviously not exclusive to pyrite. But the color is. As you know, glimmerite is black, but pyrite is brass-yellow like this. We can also try a streak test when we get back home!” and on he continued. Going in depth about the formation and structure and chemical composition of the mineral. About every little detail that set it apart from similar minerals. 

Anruh listened carefully, nodding along to his words. Geology wasn’t her strong suit, and she wasn’t always fully certain if she understood what Ruben was talking about. But she always listened, did her best to remember everything he told her. 

Which wasn’t always easy, with the way would shine in those moments. A fire burning bright and beautiful. Warm and welcoming. It didn’t take long before Ruben’s words bled into one another and became illegible to the urroa. She regarded him with fondness. Hypnotized by the amount joy a single being could have for their mundane world.

Without really thinking, Anruh leaned forward and pressed her lips to Ruben’s temple. Which unfortunately cut him off. Ruben blinked, face turning pink. He then turned to Anruh with an awkward chuckle, “I was rambling, wasn’t I?”

“Not at all,” Anruh said, “I just lost focus for a bit. Do you mind taking it again, lilla väsen?”

8. What were their first impressions of each other ?

For Ruben it was this strange juxtaposition of brutality and gentleness. How she spared his life despite having just killed an animal, that even though she tackled and pinned him to the ground, she never hurt him. 

For Anruh it was how curiosity had overtaken fear. How he not only ventured into a place known to be dangerous for humans, but that he then returned despite her telling him not to. 

André and Tammie

17. What senses (sights, smells, feelings, etc). remind them of each other ?

Pink is André’s signature color so you know Tammie calls everything pink ‘André colored’ lmao. But there’s also the warmth of fire and lightning strikes, the smell after summer rain, and every single hacker character in the movies he watches.

For André it's hand written hangul and the strumming of a guitar, the feeling of chapped lips and the taste of energy drinks. And at times even bite marks on a pencil are enough. 

18. What would be their love motto ?

“You being you is enough for me to love you.”

These two were down bad, oblivious, and so convinced that the other had no interest in them that when they finally confessed there was this mess of “What did I do for my favorite person to like me back ???” And the answer is very simple, “you were you.”

19. If they could each write a single line in their marriage vows, what would they be ?

“I promise never to leave you behind, this map is made for both you and I.”

“Until my heart stops beating, and a little longer still, I’ll be yours and you’ll be mine.”

They’d definitely drop some video game references in their vows lmao <3

20. What is a promise they have made to each other ?

That when the whole Madereine situation is done and over, they’ll go home and play video games. It’s very simple, but it means a lot; they’re both going to survive and there’ll be a home to return to. Playing video games is also comforting and a way of winding down for them, meaning they can forget about whatever happens and just be. Exist like nothing had ever threatened their peace and quiet. 

21. How have they changed each other for the better/for the worse ?

This is a hard one ngl. I feel like a lot of the changes they’ve gone through are results of their friendgroups as a whole, but there are parts of them that are results of their feelings for each other. Tammie’s interest in poetry and songwriting came about because he realized he had feelings and needed a way to sort them out, which turned into a song that only he knows is about André. Also the thing that made him realize he had indeed fallen in love. Similarly, André got into coding because Tammie mentioned a feature he wished could be added to a game they both liked. Which resulted in the very chaotic first mod André ever made. 

22. If their lives were what was originally intended at birth, would they have still fallen in love ?

I desperately wish I could say yes, but the problem is that if André’s life was what was intended he wouldn’t have been raised on Earth. He wouldn’t even step foot on the planet until the annihilation, and he’d be way different than the André we all know and love. Him and Tammie falling in love was something that took time. It started as a little crush when they were really young, that then grew more and more over the years as they got to know each other better. That sadly wouldn’t have happened had Madereine’s plan been successful from the start.

So everybody say ‘thank you’ to Catalina <3

23. Write a ~300 scene between them with no dialogue, only body language.

They’d since long lost track of time. Too occupied riding around the skatepark, talking and laughing. It was only when the moon was high in the night sky, and the air had started to become a little colder, that they realized it was time to go home.

On the journey home through limbo, it became hard to speak, as the familiarity of the skatepark was left behind them. André wouldn’t say it was weird or uncomfortable, but it was awkward. In the way that he didn’t know what to do. Should he even do anything at all? Was it enough to simply walk in silence? The questions made him feel stiff, because he wanted to do something. But what? Casting a quick look down, André caught Tammie’s hand as it swayed between them. Maybe it would be cool if he…?

He didn’t dare to look as he reached for Tammie’s hand, and he felt how his face became hotter the moment their fingers brushed against each other. The pink light became brighter as Tammie followed his movements. Clumsy and uncoordinated at first, but soon they walked hand in hand. Fingers entwined, hugging away the anxious tremble. 

André let out a shuddered sigh, one he knew could be heard loud and clear over the silence. He was surprised to find it didn’t bother him as much as it used to. Still, he glanced over at the other. Tammie’s bottom lip had been captured by his teeth, and the corners of his mouth had curled into a wide grin. Eyes glimmering in that mesmerizing way only that only Tammie Hyon could, with scarlet dusting his cheeks. 

André turned his gaze back ahead, and smiled widely. It’d all be okay in the end, after all.

24. What is something they have each had to forgive the other for ?

That they’ll both throw themselves in danger if it means keeping the other safe, no matter what. Tammie has taken bullets for André, and André has willingly engaged with Madereine to keep her away from Tammie. And every single time the other brings out the “Idiot, you could have died.” and the response is always, “But I didn’t, and neither did you.”

It’s that flavor of protectiveness that the well-being of the other is far more important than their own. So they’ve come to learn that not only do they have to dial it down a bit for the sake of each other, but also accept that they’ll do anything for each other, even if it means death.

#ask game #wip #wip : The Neon Trilogy #wip : Gammellunden

[wafaelsx]

the reality of long-term solitude (III)

i’m not so great at structuring these things. imma just write as i go but basically something a friend told me a couple of years ago is starting to click. i find that oftentimes i accept what people tell me as true in the moment while i still have my doubts, because i don’t particularly enjoy discourse unless it’s just so pertinent to moving the conversation forward. i believe we were talking about what we’re looking for in a partner, and i said i want someone who completely understands me. i had the presumption that if i met someone that i was already very compatible with, that in due time she’d come to, solve me perhaps. it’s funny because that’s the last thing i want from anyone else, even friends of mine. i believed that whoever i end up with for a long term romantic relationship would domesticate me in a way. i had a mental image in my head of myself as a pet, and my partner as my owner, but not even in a ddlg kind of way as it probably sounds. i don’t particularly like being dominated or what have you, i’m pretty ‘vanilla’ on those fucking bsdm tests. part of me, i suppose, was and still am tired of living, in the traditional sense. i think if i found someone that i was extraordinarily compatible with personality wise, and was also moderately attractive, i’d be willing to marry this person. i keep going back and forth between referring to my potential partner as a woman and them, but i’m heterosexual.. believe it or not. hopefully i can find a fucking woman before they’re not even called that anymore. but in any case, the vision in my head is something like i’m left to my own devices for about 65% of the time, and the other 35% of the time would be spent with them. this time i would also surrender to doing actual activities, going out, whatever the fuck. i kind of see myself as a bit of a science experiment in a way in that regard. i envision myself being like shown off in a way, like ‘look at this guy, he sure is something! i also fuck him, for reasons that may not be apparent!’ because i do believe on the surface level, there isn’t much to desire in me as a person. i’m probably a lot funnier than most people, because i have an easier time finding humor in situations, or making connections others wouldnt, based on my knowledge of, i mean everything. i’m probably also a bit smarter than the average person. those two attributes alone make me unique in a sense, other than that i don’t know what you’d see in me as a person, both personality and physical attraction wise.

anyway, my friend’s response to my desire for my partner to understand me in an all encompassing way was quickly shot down, basically. he told me that no one will ever truly understand me, because humans aren’t capable of doing that, not even for themselves to an extent. this probably should’ve been obvious to me, i know. i’m not naive in many ways, but as it pertains to romantic relationships i certainly don’t have it all figured out. my attempts at such have all fallen pretty much flat, and i can’t say i’ve found that those experiences made it easier for me to find someone new, as many might allude to. they were swings and misses, wholly, and i get frustrated with myself thinking about my missteps in that regard. a lot of things u just have to experience to get it, and i will say this is probably one of them. advice about ‘‘women’‘ or ‘‘how to get pussy’‘ or whatever never sounds very good coming from anyone, especially cause whatever advice they give you probably won’t work because they aren’t you, and don’t understand you. the nuance involved in courting a partner is quite complicated in my own estimation. there isn’t really a guaranteed way to convince someone that you’re worth fucking, and to be honest, you’re probably better off misleading them in a way if thats your goal. lying isn’t necessarily what im getting at, but it seems in my experience that what women found attractive in me wasn’t actually who i was, so when we make it out the ‘‘talking phase’‘ and they see me a bit more transparently, many of them were quick to throw in the towel. i’m a bit of an obsessive person, so it’s been hard for me to let go of people from my past. all in all, i chalk it up as a learning experience and i’m pretty unfazed by my past dealings with women. it doesn’t keep me up at night, but i do sometimes wonder what, or if i had actually done wrong, or if it just wasn’t meant to be. i will also grant that sometimes u meet people at the wrong part of ur life and the maturity difference/difference in actual place in life proves too great to overcome. logic tells me pretty much every relationship ive seriously been involved with couldve been salvaged, or maybe a better way of saying it was i doubt that we were different enough to not eventually work it out, if we both tried. most ppl arent patient tho with relationships, and i get it. people often bring up just the staggering amount of humans on earth as an antidote to your dismay about unrequited love, or what have you. i think that’s a pretty stupid thing to tell people when theyre going thru it, partly because i dont think the logic actually holds any water. i think most people could be in a committed monogamous relationship if they were both mature enough, i think thats the biggest determining factor above everything else i’m still very young, so most women i encounter are not really enticed by the idea of lifelong commitment. i believe if we have enough in common and we like fucking each other more than average, what else is out there really? i think those two things together are probably extremely difficult to find in one person, especially for me.

i probably have more to say, but i can’t think of how i want to format it, even in an approximate sense. so i’ll try to sum it up with these closing thoughts. i guess i’m just saying i realized that i have to learn to live with myself. oftentimes i express my thoughts or beliefs, and i can see in real time how my words are just failing to land on people, even my own fucking parents. maybe this all just sounds like an emo wall of text, idk. people are more unique than i suppose i had considered, so to ask of someone to solve any other person would be quite the undertaking. i also realize that before i can be successful at anything, i’m going to have to change in a very profound, fundamental way. the answer isn’t clear to me, i’m unsure what lies ahead.

[paisholotus]

𝓒𝓱. 5

Nae's pov

I worriedly paced around my room, unable to find anything to wear. I Hadn't gone on a date since High-school, so I was a little nervous. What if I do something to embarrass myself, or if I reveal too much about myself.

Has he ever been with a black woman? Is this just a test that he can tell his friends about, that he went out with a black girl? Was he actually interested in me? I took a deep breath and looked in the mirror. "Calm down, this second guessing isn't even you. You're a bad bitch."

I smiled and looked at the time it was 7:45

My smiled faded, and I panicked once more. Jacob is coming to pick me up at 8, and I still haven't found anything to wear. I ran into the bathroom to do my hair and light makeup, almost done with my hair, I heard a knocked on my door.

Peaking around the corner, seeing Lea smiling at me. I went back to doing my hair fluffing the back a little. "Hey, you not dressed yet? Ain't he coming at 8?" She asked. She looked at me concerned as I rushed around my room, like a Crack head. "I can't find anything to wear." I said, defeated.

She chuckled and entered my closet, rummaging through my drawers. And in less than two minutes, she walks out with two items plus shoes.

She shoved them into my arms and patted my back "Go ahead and put it on. And hurry up because you don't wanna keep him waiting." I rolled my eyes and muttered an "thank you." I dashed into the bathroom and changed into the clothes, which were a long black crop top and jeans, and my shoes were black platform wedges.

I looked myself in the mirror thinking I looked pretty damn good. After applying lip gloss and going to put on jewelry, I heard the door bell and Lea opening the the door to greet Jacob.

I quickly sprayed myself with perfume and gave myself a pep talk, grabbing my bag and heading downstairs. I walked into the living room seeing Jacob talking to my brother.

Them not noticing me I cleared my throat, and they turned to look at me. And Jacob immediately stood up holding flowers, I shyly walked over to him and he blushed smiling at me. "Hey." I said, quietly. He said hey back, and awkwardly stuck out his hand and quickly cussed retracting his hand embarrassed, and hugged me.

He handed me the flowers and I smelled them, "thank you, you look handsome." I said, smiling up at him. His cheeks got more florid and muttered a thank you. "You look beautiful." He said, slowly.

Lea and Aaron looked between us with smirks on their faces, but I ignored it couldn't help but to stare at Jacob. I swear this man fine asf. "OK, I'll just take these. Hope y'all have fun." Lea said, grabbing the flowers from me.

I gave her a tight smile at her teasing and felt Jacob grab my hand, causing butterflies in my stomach. I gave him another shy smile and we walked towards the door. He began walking me to his car, not before I could get in I heard Aaron yell, "You better have her home before the street lights come on, don't make me come find you!!" He said, earning a "Yeah!" From Lea standing behind him. I gave them both harsh glares.

Swear imma beat they ass when I get back. I heard Jacob laughing beside me and I turned to look at him, "Oh, that's funny?" I said, playfully glaring at him. He leaned closer to me his face inches from mine, "maybe." He said, causing me to close my legs a little bit.

What tf happened to the shy Jacob? I gave him a smirk and rolled my eyes crossing my arms, "how about you drive." I said, smartly. He chuckled and started the car, and began driving.

#black reader #black writers #black representation #poc reader #poc writer #twilight wolf pack #twilight #twilight wolf pack x black reader #jacob black #embry call #seth clearwater #eternal love

[katethewriter]

KATIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEhappy new year!!!!!!! Hope your ‘23 is better than mine!

I’ve stopped myself from reading Last Wish cause I saw the warnings and I was like ‘do I want Katie to hurt me? Cause it very well could.’ The name, the warnings AND the summary have scared me. Oh and also the authors note. I’m like very afraid of that fic. It’s giving very muchly krakine vibes for like a 6 year old- the kid doesn’t know it’s fake and will most likely shit their pants when they finish it. Anyway, idk why I wrote a paragraph to you about it, but yeah. It’s Saturday, imma live my life the way I want. oh on the topic of saddening stuff, I have a very saddening story for you. I was at a very fancy restaurant the other day (like those ones with those tiny plates that cost a bajillion dollars.), and I got a lil fuzzy drink. And then someone made me laugh- while I was drinking- and it went out of my nose. Then I tried to clean it up, AND I GRABBED THE TABLECLOTH INSTEAD OF MY NAPKIN. So I kinda split everything and I was very embarrassed.

Anyway, I think there was a point to this ask…. Ah yes! Your sugar cookie house looked magnificent! You are a quite talented person. Oh and I had a question, out of every plant, what would you say your favourite is?

-🩴 anon (if you couldn’t already tell by the chaos that follows me like a lil storm cloud.)

wow that story sounds terrible! 😢 BUT it does sound like a great story to laugh about in a year or two (maybe not now, too soon)

I'm not gonna lie. Last Wish is a pretty hard read. 🫣 I made myself cry writing it, but I must say it's one of the fics I'm most proud of. It took A WHILE to get the plot devices just right. But yeah, I totally understand the hesitancy. ☺️

Thank you! The sugar cookie house took us a whole week to build. 😳 My sister and I have battle wounds from using melted sugar to put the walls together, but I really like the way it turned out🤗

🎇🎆Happy (belated) New Year! 🎆🎇It’s only the second week, so you have plenty of time for it to get better! Just gotta keep your chin up ❤️ I hope your 2023 is as magnificent as you!

#askkate #🩴 anon #welcome to 2023 ☺️

[1111jenx]

Hello 💕 I hope you don't mind this but what are your red flags and green flags in a potential romantic interest astrology speaking? Feel free not to answer because I know you're really busy, thank you if you ever do Jenx 🥺

Good morning bby🤎

No worries at all haha, I'm trying to start going through my asks again because I feel like I wasn't able to answer as much as I could back in the days:( I'll be more than happy to answer yaaaa. I love your question too it's so fun to think abt haha

However, please do keep in mind that this is 100% subjective and is coming from my pov, please don't give any hate towards any of these placements🥲If theres anything y'all know abt me is how I value inclusiveness<3 Also I'm attracted to men so I'm referring to them as he/him sometimes and they/them here!! Let's begin shall we😋

Hmmm this is harder than it seems haha. But my personal red flag in relationships include:

Too much Water — I have a Water Sun, Moon and Mars with Fire Rising/Venus and I'm the craziest person I've ever met. So I think I need someone with either more Earth or Air to balance me out haha, if not it will just be us two hippies oversharing 24/7 and not being able to acc do anything

Cancer Moon — I ADORE Cancer Moon women. Don't get me wrong. I absolutely adore them. My bestest friend is a Libra Sun Cancer Moon so how can I not fw y'all but it's the straight cis men that I keep attracting for me💀 But only if its Cancer Moon pairing with Leo placements:D Because that Cancer/Leo energy is literally me I don't wanna date someone so similar to me (again) jkkk

Leo Moon — same reason as above. Its like looking into a mirror y'all idk how we gonna work

Scorpio Rising — again. I love the women with this placement and they make me feel so understood and seen. But like. The other 50% of makes that I'm romantically attracted to is scary bro. They do b psycho and my detached ass gets scared so fast

Venus square Mars — 😀😀😀😀 Do I need to explain this one?

Lilith in the 1st/7th house — Been there done that twice. I am good.😀 I have Lilith 7th house myself so meeting another one just brings out the worst in us. Its rly sad lol because we both wanted it to work so bad

Aquarius + Scorpio placements in the same chart — AGAIN THIS APPLIES TO MEN ONLY DEADASS ANOTHER CLOSE FRIEND OF MINE IS A DOUBLE CAP WITH AQUA STELLIUM STRICTLY STRAIGHT MEN OK. they traumatize me lmfao I love their intensity so so bad but I hate that they never fully let me love them. It's so sad bc they acc think no one can actually love them for who they are. Its better for us to stay friends because it can get too draining:D

Venus in Sagittarius — I love them as friends a lot on god. And I admit there's always going to be an invisible link between me and the percentage of people I attract with this placement. But we're not gonna work out. They need someone to ground them. I need someone that grounds me. We just do the craziest shit tgt and no one can stop us hehe but in relationships I'm rly stable and we both value freedom a bit much🥲 I'll change my mind if theres Capricorn placements tho skwowiensn I love them so much

Venus in Libra — all of my guy bestfriends have this and lemme tell you. it aint gonna work baby💀 We're too similar? We compliment one another very well but they're too sweet for me to ever date them. I don't want to lose them as friends and I've seen how they move HAHAHA, my Leo Venus says no thank you, lets do shots together tho!

Now onto the green flags, these are what can make me change my mind haha:

Leo Venus — #selflove baybeeee💕 I never met a guy with this that I didn't click hehe. We're fun and flirty tgt yes but we can talk business real fast.

Capricorn Venus/Moon/anything — my unhealthy addiction. I literally submit to them lmfao like only them and Aqua placements can actually change my mind once its made up.

Aquarius Moon/Venus/Rising/anything — same reason as Cap placements😭 I love y'all so much it hurts but Imma still going to simp

9th, 10th house stellium/placements — this is just a personal favourite don't mind me😋😋

ANY VENUSIAN PLACEMENT EXCEPT FOR LIBRA VENUS — I did yall wrong I'm sorry. But the rest can get my hands in marriage. Make me feel appreciated every step of the way.

Mars in first, Aries placements — the love of my life. Period.

Cancer Rising — the Moon to my Sun. makes me feel @ home and all they wanna do is hold my hands tbh.

Mars conjunct Jupiter — I- I'm not gonna take questions for this one don't ask plz 😀😀

So here are some notes I can think of as of right now!! Please keep in mind this is just my type based off experience and everyones preferences are different 🥳 Also there's a lot more to the person than just their chart loves, lets not missed out on building connections based off someones astrological profile:) If I want something and I deem it right, I'll go for it no matter what🤎

love,

saint jenx🪐

#astrojenx #astrology #astro notes #astrology observations #astrology notes #astrotips #leo venus #libra rising #moon in scorpio #libra sun #cancer moon #cancer rising #leo moon #scorpio moon #mars conjunct jupiter

[trainwreckzadr]

Four Years Later

So, I was deep-cleaning my room the other day for the first time in like two years (god, the dust was disgusting), and I found an old sketchbook of mine. Like, OLD old. The earliest drawing was labeled March 23, 2009--I was 11. 

Most of what was in there was TERRIBLE anime art; you know the stuff. Scoopy noses, eyes that float around on the face, characters conveniently holding their arms behind their backs so you don’t have to draw their hands. Edgy character deaths and thinly-veiled self-inserts comin’ atcha full force. But I’m flipping through this thing, and I’m finding that for the first time in forever, I... don’t hate myself for it? I’m actually finding it cute! Like, “Aww, she’s learning.” Mind-boggling feeling.

So I figured, for old times’ sake, what the heck, let’s go reread Trainwreck too. So I googled the name of the blog (because I’m the kind of person who googles URLs instead of just typing them into the damn URL bar), and I happened across THIS comic dub, by Nessa G.:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=55skXrjaY-Y&ab_channel=NessaG.

I fucking died.

Seriously, I hope it’s not narcissistic, but I forgot most of the jokes, and everything I drew here was so 100% my own sense of humor that I CRACKED. THE FUCK. UP. (”Fan... squirrels?”) God, I haven’t laughed that hard (or that sincerely) in a long time. And hearing the words I wrote read out loud by another human being was so weird! In a good way, obviously. Thank you for the dub, Nessa. It brought me so much joy. And it’s that video that’s inspiring me to come back to this blog and at least explain what’s going on.

So... Imma be straight with you. (Prepare to be hurled headfirst into a steaming hot pile of TMI.)

When I said I was “busy”, I was flat-out lying. 

I was in a bad place, I had been for a while, and I just... couldn’t draw anymore. Like... at all. God, it was terrifying, it just snuck up on me out of nowhere. I think I worked on maybe three or four projects between 2018-2019, all to help out a family member, and then I just... stopped. Drawing became terrifying, talking to people became terrifying(er)... I basically gave up on art altogether, ghosted everyone I knew, and spent the last four years cooped up studying alone, barely eating or sleeping, scared of anything with a shadow... ACK, it was bad. I looked like a fucking skeleton by the end of it.

Now, I’m not telling you this because I want comfort or sympathy. I’ve actually been doing a lot better over the last six months. If I weren’t, I’d never post something like this--I don’t tell ANYONE my genuine feelings unless I’m already over it. Which is... ~Probably Not Healthy!~ hAhaHAhA *finger guns*

But seriously though. I’ve been reconnecting with the people I love, I’ve been eating more and putting on some weight, I got a long-term freelance position with a translation agency, and I had a breakthrough recently that took away a ton of fear... things are going okay. Importantly, I’m also starting to be more mindful of my own behavioral patterns. I’ve been trying to figure out which habits keep getting me into trouble, and work towards changing them.

One of those bad habits is MAKING PROMISES. 

I have this tendency to promise the moon to people because I’m scared of disappointing or angering them (and because I constantly underestimate how long things will take me). Then I wind up skipping meals and sleep so I can get everything done, getting further and further past my deadlines, stressing and stressing until, before I know it--SKRRCH!--my entire brain comes to a screeching halt, and I shut down.

Obviously, this is bad for me, because I’m putting a ridiculous amount of strain on my own body and mind. Obviously, it’s also bad for other people, because I’m promising them all this stuff and then ditching them out of nowhere. This is just all-around bad, and it’s gotta stop. Sure, there’s this whole sad backstory as to why I do this, but that doesn’t make it okay to continue the behavior.

SO! What I’m getting at here is! When it comes to picking Trainwreck ZADR back up:

I make zero promises.

Drawing a fan comic--ANY comic--is a lot of work. Towards the end, it was taking me like 6-8 hours for just one page. I think I have finally gotten to a place where I want to start drawing again, but... I’m broke as all flying hell. I don’t have an ATA certification or any experience in translation, so I’m working... the kind of job you can get with no credentials or experience. (Bruh, this shit makes less than minimum wage.)

So, jaded though it sounds, if I’m going to be investing that much time and effort into anything other than my translation career, it HAS to be something I’m being paid for, because anxiety or no anxiety if I am not out of my parents’ house by the age of 25 I am going to jump off a fucking bridge. Into a lifeboat. Which I will then sail to the Arctic tundra to live out the rest of my days in obscurity, sucking frozen algae out of a straw for sustenance.

BUT, on the other hand... god, there were so many jokes and gags in Trainwreck that I never got to see to fruition. Watching Nessa’s video made me remember that.

Zim was going to kidnap a goat while wearing a very silly hat. Zita was going to be possessed by a demon, and then “zITARATH” was just gonna BE THERE for the rest of the comic, in the background, nobody addressing it. “Nice dress, Zita!” “tHANK YoU. IT WaS SEWN from tHE SKIN OF MY ENeMiES.” “*gasp* It’s homemade??”

Oh my god, and there was a second song!! I wrote a whole song to the tune of Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious where the Tallest find out about The Zadr(TM) and use it as an excuse to fire Zim! I don’t remember most of the lyrics, they were on my old laptop, but I know it started with “You’re~ in~ an~ interspecies, highly inappropriate relationship!♫♪♪ “

God, that would be fun to draw.

So... possible compromise. No clue how many people are still hanging around, but just a shot in the dark: Would anyone be willing to commission me to finish this comic? I have no clue what my rates would be, cuz I, uh... *ahem* I really haven’t thought that far ahead. I’d have to google copyright laws too, but I... think it’s allowed...??

Alternatively, I could set up a Patreon, and post X number of pages X often depending on how much the monthly income is.

Last option, if there are only like three people still here and you’re all just as broke as I am, I could at least rummage through my old sketchbooks, post whatever snippets I can find, and just tell you where the plot was gonna go. It’s the least I can do after ditching you guys for so long.

So... yup.

Please let me know what your thoughts are about where this comic should go. I’m gonna go finish an assignment, eat something, and possibly fall asleep. I’ll check back with this later to see if there’s any response.

By the way... I’m genuinely sorry for ditching you guys without saying anything. Seriously.

[aphrodite-would-be-proud]

Hi! How are you doing? ^^ ☆

Just wanted to know if you could make a headcanon about how would it be like after an argument with Armin? Please

Tysm for reading me, I love your work ♡♡♡

You're so sweet and nice ♡ of course I'd love to do one and tbh we must be on the same wavelength because i was just thinking about that yesterday!!!

I really liked your idea so imma do both a scenario and a headcanon! Hope you don't mind?

After an argument with Armin

{ Armin x reader | tw: hurt/comfort, self-image issues | angst with happy ending | modern }

{ "Moonlit View" byOscar Kleineh 1846 - 1919 }

Being with Armin had its many, many perks, one being that he's really empathetic and understanding, he doesn't assume things without evidence and knows misunderstandings happen.

When facing problems or disagreements, he thinks of a solution, not argue. He rather you work together against the problem than against each other.

Whenever you were in a bad mood he'd assume the best and think of what might have caused it instead of taking it personally, he knows you still love him, he knows you're just stressed. Maybe comfort could help? Maybe a lovely cuddly evening? Or maybe you need some space?

He's just really good at reading people's emotions and handling these situations, thanks to his efforts you both successfully managed to avoid any kind of arguments or fights most couples go through.

Which is why it was a shocking surprise to everyone when Eren got a call from Armin late at night, asking if he can stay over because you two just had, what he described as, the biggest fight.

Eren almost didn't believe him at first, he thought Armin was playing a prank on him. But then he heard the quivering in his voice and the hiccup that followed. Armin was crying, things were serious.

The last thing he said to you while putting his coat on was "I'm sorry, I'm weak, you and I know that."

Him saying that, in that tone, with those tearful eyes, made you want to get up and yell at him that no he isn't. He shouldn't just say that about himself like it's a fact and not just the results of years of self-doubt.

You wanted to hug him, to pull him closer till all those awful thoughts leave his head, till he sees at himself like how you see him, incredibly brave and determined.

But you didn't, you stayed there on the couch as he put his shoes on. His eyes pleading for you to say something, anything. To tell him to stay, to come sit near you. He even looked at you one last time before opening the door.

As you stared at him in silence, the realisation that you don't even remember what you were fighting about hit you, you can't, how could you? The minute the door closed behind him is when you realised how real the situation is.

How quiet the house is.

Has it always been this cold?

And just how much worried you are about him.

It hasn't been a full minute and you're missing him already.

—

It's 4am

It's hours since he left, how much exactly? You can't even remember.

Still haven't moved from the couch, you're not sure what you're feeling, you've been going through different emotions each hour.

Guilt, sadness, regret, anger, denial, pessimism, you name it.

It doesn't matter, none of that really matters to you right now. It's Armin who you've been worried about for a while that matter.

You know for a fact Eren and Mikasa aren't the most emotionally open people, you know Armin is already struggling with letting out his emotions without feeling needless guilt or shame.

You know he needs someone right now, he needs a shoulder to cry on and a reassuring voice. You've been both these things for him since even before you got together.

Just like he has been these things for you too. You need that someone just as much now. You didn't even know it's possible to feel this lonely.

Is he also thinking about you? Is he sleeping soundly on Eren’s couch? Or is that one stain from last week's party bothering him?

...is he just as miserable as you are right now? Probably not, you think. He's far stronger than he gives himself credit for, you know that better than everyone else.

Your thought process gets interrupted by a buzz from your phone, a text. Your eyes light up, you pull the blanket you dragged from the bed tighter around you, it's Armin.

[ hey ] it said, [is it okay if i call you?]

You reply back, he starts typing again, you stare at those three dots like your life depends on them.

[Okay, give me a minute please ]

You pull the phone closer to you, it's brightness contratsing against the dark living room. Some minutes pass...nothing, you feel your heartbeat rising. Phone still clutched in your hands.

It rings, it doesn't get past the second ring before you've pressed the accept button. You can hear the wind on the other side, alongside the distant sound of passing cars. Your heart only slows down after hearing the fimilar and oh so lovely sound of soft breathing

Suddenly the world doesnt seem so dim anymore.

"Sorry, it took more time than i thought, Eren keeps his keys in really weird places...I hope i didn't make you worry"

Oh If only he knew..

Dozens of possible replies run through your mind.

I missed you, did you miss me too?

Please come back, I hate feeling this lonely.

How does it feel to take my heart and run away?

Was your voice always this captivating or am i just high on sleep-deprevation?

I miss your kisses, i wish i could feel your lips against mine. Could you kiss me through the phone?

...in the end, you settle for "It's okay" you say, "It's alright."

"That's good...hey listen." You listen, "I'm not going to skirt around the subject, i called because" he takes a deep breath, "i want to apologise for how i acted, for what i said, both to you and myself."

Hearing him admit to his faults and own up to his mistakes, fills you with courage to do the same. You apologise, you mention how you've been thinking about him, you leave out the embarrassing parts.

You tell him you love him, and miss him.

You're met with silence. So you call out his name.

"Wait..you're not mad at me?" He says.

What? Mad? You?

"No." You say. "Why would you think that?"

You hear a chuckle that evolves into a laugh, it's contagious.

"Fuck...oh god I'm...im so stupid, i left because I thought you were mad and didn't bother you more by making you look at me." Even he seems to realise just how ridiculous that concept is.

It's 5am now, you're both laughing over the phone. The world is good again.

You ask if he's mad at you.

He instantly replies with a no.

"I could never be mad at you..." he says, "I love you so much it hurts. I love you like I've never loved anyone else before that it terrfies me, I'm scared one day I'll wake up and you won't be beside me anymore, you've made me love myself in ways i never though i would, you made me believe in myself because you believed in me."

{ Headcanons }

After an argument, Armin tries giving both of you space to calm down.

It doesn't last long because he will approach you after and talk about his emotions and explains why he did the things he did. He will also apologise for the things he did wrong like yelling or saying something hurtful.

If you give him the okay, he will instantly hug you. Physical touch is a great comfort for him so don't expect him letting you go anytime soon.

He will hold your face gently, tell you how much he missed you despite it being only hours.

Doesn't even care about the argument anymore or attempt to bring it up, he just wants to make up asap.

You're both gonna have a heartfelt conversation and actually process your emotions together. As a result you two come out stronger and closer after each argument.

He doesn't hold grudges, so he won't ever act passive aggressive after an argument. if he's got a problem he will tell you.

Just 100% honestly and transparency with this golden boy.

Will want to spend more time together post argument, he will really love it if you watch something together or you let him read you something.

Give him love and affaction, he loves you deeply it's actually rare these days.

When you go to sleep on those nights, he will hold you tighter and stroke your back.

He doesn't hold grudges yet he still remembers each fight you had and instead of it being a sour memory, he thinks of it as a learning block. Just a step towards understanding each other more.

Pamper him more after an argument and he will feel so loved, hearts in his eyes as you brush his morning hair.

#okay tell me why the fuck did I actually cry while writing this? #fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck #i feel so bad :"( i feel so sad #armin baby #im sorry #so so sorry #this took a lot of hours ngl #im proud of it #halfway through tumblr crashed and my progress was lost #armin arlet x reader #armin x reader #armin x y/n #armin headcanons #armin arlert #armin reader #armin scenario #Armin🕯 #angst with happy ending #angst with comfort #emotional tbh #snk #aot #aot x y/n

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IDOL BEOMGYU X STYLIST READER ( NO RULES Era: comeback show freeze outfits ) PART 2!

Pairing: Beomgyu x Fem Reader

Genre: smut, fluff at the end.

Warning: 18+, swear words.

1st part ⬇️

"lets start this fucking game already...." He groaned as he turns you around and kissed you passionately.

Beomgyu held your face with both hands as you try to reach for his soft long brown locks to pull on them. How much you wanted to pull his hair for the second time. Now you wish he could never cut it. The way Beomgyu kisses you with so much need, with so much hunger, makes you feel butterflies in your stomach again. It makes you feel as if you are very important to him, makes you feel that you two are not just two friends with benefits.

He bit down on your bottom lip making a small moan come out from you. You made eye contact with him and his eyes stare at yours with lust and..... something else but you can't tell what it is, however his gaze turn you on even more so you start to ran your hands around to his clothed body to feel him.

Beomgyu still looking at you, he caressed you as well, his hand on your right cheek going down to your right breast caressing it and squeezing it.

That squeeze made you moan his name and send a pleasurable feeling down to your core. Immediately Beomgyu took off the coat and your white shirt of you leaving you on your Victoria secret bra.

" why do you buy bras from that brand? Their too sexy I can't control myself seeing it on you" He whispered close to you admiring your chest with a sweet smirk. His eyes then looks at you. You chuckled and kiss him passionately as you decided to grab him down there. You palm him through his black pants feeling how hard he was for you. He groaned sexily between the kisses. You smirked and knee down to pull down his pants. Beomgyu look up at the ceiling with a mischievous smile, he knows what you're going to do, something his been dreaming about so many times.

" what a naughty girl you are Y/n~" he cooed softly as hands reach down softly to ran them through your hair. You felt relax when he did so, however you gotta focus on your mission to make him cum real good. You're not that type to stop someone from cumming, because you know how frustrating that is and you wouldn't personally want to go through it either. You're all about making the other person feel happy and specially good, meanwhile.....Beomgyu......his a little devil and loves teasing you soo.....

You put his thick length on your mouth savoring it completely, still rubbing your hands around the part it didn't fit in your pretty mouth. Beomgyu throw his head back and hissed while closing his beautiful big eyes. He was feeling too good.

" ahh~ Y/n~..... you're d-doing...ahh~ so w-well~" He breath out as his breaths started to get heavy and fast. He clutched his fingers on to your hair slightly because of how good he was feeling. You bobbed your head faster and sucked harder almost gagging, but it didn't matter because you want him to feel good.

" oh I'm about to-Ahhj~~" He moan out loud shooting everything down your throat.

" mmm~ baby you taste delicious" you chuckled. You pull up his boxer and pants up. You gave butterfly kisses all over his face down to his neck, helping him catch up his breath.

Beomgyu laughed as he held your face to kiss you passionately and slowly. " Now it's my turn......laid on the table" He order with a quiet serious voice and gaze. He pointed at the empty table that is leaning against the wall.

You got excited and obey. You sat on the table, your legs spread apart from each other still wearing your blue tight jeans and the black bra on. Your hair was down spread all over your shoulders. You gave him a seductive look and bit your bottom lip.

Beomgyu chuckled feeling fluster as he looked away while biting inside his lip. ' She's driving me crazy..' he thought then look back at you, as his black eyes scan your whole body sexily. ' god.... why is she so fucking beautiful....' He slowly walk towards you and stop between your legs. His hands snake around your torso to reach to unclip your bra from the back, leaving soft warm tiny kisses on your neck and shoulder. His fingers tickled behind your back and you held in your moans since your neck, shoulders and back are one of your most sensitive spots of your body.

He slowly takes your bra off and kisses you one more time. He reaches to massage and pinch your breast and nipples. " Ahhh~ oh MY-.... Gyu~ your hands are the best" you complimented between the kiss as he kissed you even harder and reach down to but a breast on his mouth. He sucked on your nipple while still looking at your dirty expressions. He sucked harder.

After he kissed down from your chest down to your stomach, he reach to pull down your pants and underwear. After the whole make out session and touches from his already had you extremely wet. " My baby girl is so eager to have my mouth fucking her....." He said as he puts his mouth and tongue on you. " Mmm~ Gyu, that feels good, go faster please.." You breath out as you held onto his hair already messing it up. Gyu added a finger, then another one, making you feel like your about to explode of pleasure.

" ahh~ yes!! Beomgyu! Yeah~! Ahhh yes- right there!" You screamed reaching your high. " No one does it better than you~!" Once again you complimented him boosting his confidence even more.

" I know..." He chuckled teasing you as he pulled away. You pull him up to you and kiss him passionately, wrapping your arms around his neck and your hands playing with his pretty hair. Gyu chuckled in your kisses and wrapped his arms around your waist. " How can you look soo tiny and innocent yet look so good.... and your good at sex..." You tease studying his handsome face still playing with his hair. " Beomgyu, I love you..." Without thinking you realize what you said and widen your eyes. Beomgyu looked at you with big eyes and a surprised look.

"neukkyeojyeo, nae meorin Daze Daze Daze

jungdoge ppajyeo Replay Play Play"

Suddenly his phone started ringing. You chuckled at the new ring tone he put on his phone. " Sorry babe that song has been stuck in head eb5er since it was released............hello Soobin-"

" WHERE THE FUCKITY ARE YOU! YEONJUN IS LITERALLY CRYING FOR YOU, TAE AND HUENINGKAI ARE PLANNING A HORRIBLE PRANK ON YOU, WHERE ARE YOU LITTLE PIECE OF SH-"

" Chill out giraffe boy, I'm with my girlfriend...." He smirked as he looked at you. You covered your mouth in shock.

" I'm with her releasing- I MEan reducing our problems! I'll be back in five minutes I promise!"

" YOU HAVE A WHA-" Beomgyu ended the call.

He swept away his imaginary sweat from his forehead and looked at you. " Y/n, I love you too, do you want to be mine?..... I've been crushing on you since the first time i saw you and after all the things you and I went through, I really catch feelings for you....." He said as he caressed your cheeks lovingly.

" Yes, i want to be yours, Beomgyu.... Finally get to have you all to myself my handsome teddy bear!" You hugged him and reach down to smack his butt earning laughs from him. " What are you saying! " He smack your naked butt as well. " Oooh! The felt good!" You tease and laughed.

" hurry up and change baby girl.....Imma go after you're done changing......also....." He said as help you change. " Let's keep this relationship a secret....at least for now......you understand right?...I really don't want my precious moas to know about us and you know what will happen if they do...." He said looking at you seriously and sad.

You smiled at him. " I understand..... we'll keep it a secret until you no longer want it to be ..." You kiss him one more time before letting him go.

He walked away but stop beside the door and look at you. " I know this is too fast but .....I love you..." He waved goodbye and ran away not letting you to tell him you love him back too.

@beomgyutxtmoa here it is!! 💕🔥✨

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